#exy confessions

[exyconfessions]

If Andrew Minyard has a million fans, then I am one of them. If Andrew Minyard has ten fans, then I am one of them. If Andrew Minyard has only one fan then that is Neil Josten.

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[sirius-duck17]

When I first read All For The Game, I thought Exy was played on ice for the first two and a half books. I don't know how I came to this conclusion.

(I also thought Baltimore was in Spain.)

Do you have any embarrassing confessions like this about AFTG? I won't judge you.

[kevinsdsy]

i LOVEEEE your socmed aus they keep me going i NEEDD to see jeremy beefing with shawn over jean and/or a confession (whether directly to jean or to cat/laila/whoever about his Jean Feelings)

i hear you loud and clear 🫡 honestly when i started doing these i just thought i’d do a few silly lil parts with some texts and tweets and that’s it.

not indulging too much in the characteristics of other teammates. no sudden established relationships (except for tony & nabil). no extra headcanons. no shawn anderson. no plot, basically. nothing that could truly be proven incorrect when tsc2 would come out.

but then i got carried away and we’re like 25 parts further down the line and suddenly we’re talking about doing a summer olympics era of the socmed au too LIKE ‼️

so the upcoming weeks i’m going to try and indulge in jerejean more :)) and then because summer olympics au is still set in france who knows what’ll happen then 👀

[codename-adler]

*ahem* kevaaron *ahem*

[foxgloveinspace]

FOX!! hi!!!! i’m really excited again!!

i got asked out on my first ever date today 🥰

it’s not fully planned yet, we still have to pick a day but omg! someone wants to go out with me?! i can’t believe it, and i’m very happy to finally be branching out a bit. i’ve been getting a bit lonely, watching some of my friends go on dates and have relationships

and i’m finally almost done school so i feel like i have the emotional availability to actually start seeing someone

it’s just exciting because this is a really big step and i feel like i’m finally growing up and looking at the future. and it might be nice to have a partner and be able to shut up all my family with their “we’ve lost hope for exie and their cousin finding husbands” shit lol. it’s honestly not that serious but it does bug me a bit. because it’s not like for a lack of trying or anything. and now maybe they’ll see that i’m not going to be a spinster lol

Yay! Thats really cool Exie, I'm super happy for you!

[dark-side-blog3]

What would your yanderes use to lure you into a trap?

Let's say your yanderes set up a cardboard box propped up by a stick, or maybe one of those fancy table ontop of a suspicious carpet that maaaaay or not be right over a pitfall trap.

I'll go first:

[perfectlyoongi]

SECOND-CHANCE!NAMJOON who asked the stars every night for them to guide you back to him.

SECOND-CHANCE!NAMJOON who was amazed to see you at his door on a saturday morning. you had rang the doorbell without any hope or desire — to tell the truth, you didn’t even know why you were there, why you rang the doorbell, why you waited for Namjoon. but when he opened the door, when you saw Namjoon for the first time after your breakup, you realized — your heart called out for Namjoon. but would that really be the reason? or would you have gone to his house to deliver the shirts you stole from him ages ago? would you have gone to Namjoon’s house just to say goodbye one more time? no, that didn’t make sense, it couldn’t be. Namjoon knew you, he knew you wouldn’t go that far for a second goodbye. so what were you doing there? wait… don’t you say th—

SECOND-CHANCE!NAMJOON who listened to you without uttering a single sound. your every word traveled to Namjoon’s heart, where they basked in a bed of eternal waiting. your every feeling was patiently listened to by Namjoon and weighed on a cosmic scale of opportunities. your every confession was met with pure hope and happiness, as if a new door had been opened for Namjoon’s love. you were in front of him, telling him how much you missed him and how much you needed him. you weren’t looking at Namjoon, but you were there, in front of him, saying how empty your life had become from the moment you separated. that saturday morning, you were there, in front of Namjoon, telling him how wrong it was that you ended your relationship — and Namjoon just listened to you.

SECOND-CHANCE!NAMJOON who waited for you to finish talking to kiss you. when you finished your rehearsed speech, there was a pause. for the first time since you arrived, you were looking at Namjoon waiting for an answer, a reaction, something that would tell you if it was a good idea for you to go see Namjoon. but Namjoon didn’t speak — Namjoon didn’t need to speak. as if begging for air, Namjoon kissed you for the first time in forever. as if searching for the reason for his existence, Namjoon kissed you once again as he had done so many times before. as if giving in to his fate, Namjoon kissed you. “i’ve waited forever for this moment. and i would wait however many eternities it would take to hold you in my arms again.”

SECOND-CHANCE!NAMJOON who asks you two, three times if you’re sure you want to start over. he wanted it, a lot, but Namjoon also wanted you to be happy — and if your happiness came at the cost of his, he wouldn’t mind offering you his happiness on a golden platter. so Namjoon wanted to be sure. would you be ready to start over? should you start over? with each question Namjoon asked, more certainties grew within you. yes, you never forgot Namjoon. yes, you always loved Namjoon. yes, you wanted to date Namjoon again. yes, it was Namjoon. it was always Namjoon like it was always you. and with your certainty and with all of Namjoon’s certainty, it happened. “knowing that your happiness still depends on me makes me feel so good. i know it’s selfish to feel this way, but i was so afraid that you would have found someone else who would make you happy.”

SECOND-CHANCE!NAMJOON who is finally happy. simply that. your return to Namjoon’s life brought pure happiness. that raw, heavy feeling that ran through your entire body and made you move and live; that pure and delicate feeling, which made you see the world in different colors; that feeling he had lost the day he lost you was back. just like you. how was it possible for Namjoon to not just be happy? “my god how i love you. how i missed you so much. how i love you. yes, again. because i always love you.”

SECOND-CHANCE!NAMJOON who promised to give you the entire universe as proof of his eternal love. like an exploding star and a nebula painting the vast nothingness of our universe, Namjoon wanted to shout to the whole world that you were back. Namjoon wanted to make sure your existence was marked in the universe. with your love, Namjoon would build constellations that would forever tell your story. with his love, Namjoon would build a world where the god was only you. pure veneration and devotion was what you deserved. and he insisted on giving you everything, the whole world, the whole universe — everything to make you happy. “and when the day comes when i have to leave, look for me in every creation in the universe, because i am there creating a new galaxy just for you.”

[parasocialqueen]

betsy dobson the woman that you are.

the way in tkm she says to Neil (after he barely comes back in one piece from spending xmas in the nest) “I confess I don’t understand much about sports,”

Vs in tsc when she’s saying something obviously incorrect about exy to get jean to talk (after he was on his deathbed)

Bee I love u bee

[fyodorsushankaaa]

starting a tag game that we confess the rarepair ships we secretly fw

im starting :3

yosazai, taniatsu, morirotsu, tachitani, kunisano, kuniran, akulucy

(may add more if i remember lol)

no pressure tags

@juusou @fyodorsfavoriteanimewifu @imnotpayingforyourtherapy @lilliablog @willofthewood @exy-mybeloved @kaiserkisser + anyone who wants!!

[ionlydrinkhotwater]

Imagine the streaming series true crime doc about the "Butcher of Baltimore". The Moriyamas are fine with it cause it mostly leaves them out of the story, the doc makes it sound like Nathan and his evil henchmen were independent criminals and not acting for the Moriyamas, and pins the majority of the crimes done by them on Nathan leaving out that he was often acting on their behalf. And paints the narrative they want. The only mention of the Moriyamas is that Tetsuji wanted Neil to join the Ravens when he was a kid because he saw potential in this talented child and if he had been able to he could have "protected this poor child from his monsterous father" (queue the Moriyamas positioning themselves as brave, kind and generous) but Neils mother ran off with him before the "kind and generous" offer could be finalized cause Neil and Mary had had enough of Nathans abuse (and not cause the Moriyamas were gonna buy Neil as property as well). The FBI are happy with the doc cause it's copaganda that makes them look great and competent, the good guys beating an uncomplicated villain (to be clear Nathan is an uncomplicated villain but the FBI are NOT the good guys), the Hardfords are totally absent from the series.

Neil Josten starts trending cause even non exy fans are FACINATED and the press is lapping it up.

It becomes one of the top streamed docs cause the details are so lurid and horrific and the fact that the son of the Butcher is on his way to being a sport celeb.

Neil was contacted by the true crimes doc but he refused to participate.

He hates the inaccurate way they portray his mom as someone who had no idea of the kind of monster she married until it was too late who was fleeing from her horrible husband who she had "loved" for her and her sons safety (ignoring that it was an arranged marriage between crime families and her hands are as bloody as any other gangster. It also ignores that she was abusive and imperfect too and makes her the perfect victim. The only accuracy was that she wanted Neil alive.

Coach Hernandez was contacted too but he refused to participate, though a bunch of other Millport teachers and former students/ teammates happily jump on board. Sadly some Palmetto staff and students do as well and other teams who've faced the Foxes do as well (not the Ravens [too risky] or the Trojans[to honorable])

The Foxes REFUSED to participate and they also REFUSED to watch this tripe and shut down anyone who tries to talk to them about it.

Also the only real accurate bit of the documentary is Neil's ordeal in Baltimore and its cause it's taken from his confession. Queue people gaping at Neil for the next few weeks knowing what the poor guy had to endure

[exyconfessions]

I’m kinda friends with some of the vixens and I heard them complain that neil josten is an asshole for rudely turning one of them down and this seems to be kind of a Thing? several people have mentioned to me that Neil will turn them down very rudely or will just leave without answering

honestly, respect, it’s kind of fucking hilarious. I actually saw it happen at the library cafe yesterday and the poor barista asked for his number and he said, “you don’t need my number for my coffee, I’ll be waiting here like everyone else” and dropped a $10 bill on the counter and left to wait for his drink without another word. poor girl was too stunned to say anything else

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[foxesscramble]

Advent Calendar: Day Eleven

Christmas Tree - Post Canon - Hackers AU || "You're blushing!"

Andrew x Neil

@allforthegamebingo

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A look into Andrew and Neil decorating Christmas Trees through the years…

Year One:

They fight a lot over whether they should have white, yellow, or colorful lights on the tree. Neil honestly kind of wants all of them (he’s never had a Christmas tree before) but Andrew is adamantly against any lights that aren’t the warm yellow ones (he has had a Christmas tree with every form of light you could think of through all of his years in the foster system). 

Finally, Andrew relents and lets Neil have colorful lights. (Neil hates them but pretends he loves them because he cannot admit defeat after Andrew spent so long telling him they were the worst ones.)

They rope the rest of the foxes into decorating the tree with them and it’s a little lopsided and definitely clustered with too many ornaments. The ornaments and colored lights clash terribly but it makes Neil almost giddily happy every time he sees it in their living room.

Year Two:

Neil decides to go with warm lights that year since he knows they’re Andrew’s favorite. The ornaments are mostly the same vibe, but there are a few that Nicky dug up that were from the twins' childhood. (Andrew thought that they were lost through the years, but apparently, they had been put in a box that Aaron’s mom had been given when she collected him.) 

Wymack buys them a whole bunch of gag ornaments but Neil takes more care of them than he would ever admit. Bee gets them ornaments as well but they’re gorgeous, glass ones with delicate designs. Andrew had a minor breakdown over them one night and confessed through tears that no one had ever cared enough about him to get him a gift that he really wanted. (He had told Bee in an appointment that he thought that the nicely painted glass ornaments were the best ones and she had hummed and moved on. He didn’t think she would remember. She had.)

Christmas was a weird and endlessly triggering time for them but through the years they tried their best to replace the memories with happy ones and they had plenty of family to help them along the way.

Year Five:

There were a lot of kids that year. Katelyn and Aaron had twins who had turned one the month prior. Dan and Matt had a three year old. Kevin had a four and a half year old. Nicky and Erik had adopted a six year old together. Renee had adopted a five month old and was currently rocking the single mom life. (Allison had moved in to help her and Neil may be oblivious to it but Andrew had told him something was going on there and Neil believed him wholeheartedly.) 

The fragile ornaments had to be moved up that year so that none of the kids could knock them off the tree. (Neil trusted his cats not to knock them off but he wouldn’t risk the kids breaking Bee’s ornaments.)

After the kids had hung up some of the stuffed and plastic ornaments, they baked cookies and let the kids decorate them with different colored frosting. Neil, Katelyn, Aaron, Dan, and Allison were on kid duty while Andrew, Renee, Matt, Nicky, and Kevin were on clean-up duty. They all settled in and let the kids pick what Christmas movie they would watch that night. (This became a tradition, the first movie they picked was the Polar Express then the next year it was Frosty and when the kids got a little older it turned into Elf and then the Grinch. The Nightmare Before Christmas seemed to terrify half of the kids so they put that one off until everyone was over the age of 11.)

Year Eight:

They’re almost not together that year to decorate because Neil’s exy games didn’t line up as well with Andrew’s that season. Andrew and Bee put the tree together that year (yes they bought a fake one, Neil’s allergic to true pine) and waited for Neil to get home before decorating together. Neil thanked them continuously for including him and apologized again and again for not being there. 

It was a nice and needed bonding moment for Andrew and Bee. Andrew still talked to her about issues he had every now and again but it was more motherly advice than therapist advice that he got nowadays.

Christmas was at Dan and Matt’s that year so they packed their stockings (Allison and Renee had gifted everyone with new ones that had their names embroidered on them one year as a present) and their cats and made their way to the Boyd’s. 

The children were beyond excited at their arrival. (All of the kids adored Uncle Andrew which was a shock to everyone but Neil and Aaron, both of whom have felt the need to have Andrew’s approval.)

The kids watched Barbie and A Christmas Carol that year which Dan and Allison thought was wonderfully reminiscent of their own favorite Christmas movie. (Kevin couldn’t help the fondness he felt when he watched the wondrous look in Amalia’s eyes as she watched the movie. They go home after Christmas and spend a week watching all of the classic Barbie movies. Amalia’s favorite is the Diamond Castle and Kevin’s is the Three Musketeers.)

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Christmas was a time that brought all of the foxes together. The kids got to see their cousins and aunts/uncles. They got to see their grandparents (Coach, Abby, and Bee). Christmas rotated houses every year and the kids got to pick a movie every year. (As the kids got older and unable to agree on a movie they would all put a movie into a hat and Andrew would pick a paper from the hat and that’s what they would watch.) Through the years, the traditions grew and morphed and they enjoyed the time they spent together. It was a time of happiness and gratitude for their (not so little anymore) family. The horrors of the past faded into scars and the content feeling in the present and hopefulness for the future settled into their souls warmly.

[onehundredfoxess]

12 / prison break / 312 words

@taylorswiftmicrofic

“We’re not staying in here,” Andrew said with a scowl, walking to the cell door and glancing down the hallway at the roaming police officers.

Neil choked back a laugh. “You’re not really planning to stage a prison break, are you? We’re only here for one night.”

Andrew rolled his eyes. “This is fucking county jail.”

“Fine, jail break. It’s still only one night.”

“I hate you.”

Neil hummed, forcing back one of those smiles that seemed to surface every time Andrew said those words — the words that Neil knew to be untrue, a cover for whatever feelings were really bubbling there under the surface.

If Andrew hated him, Neil was sure that he wouldn’t have started the bar fight that landed them both in that very cell.

“That guy wasn’t even hitting on me,” Neil argued again. “You didn’t have to punch him.”

“You’re obtuse,” Andrew said plainly. “You wouldn’t know flirting if it hit you in the face with an exy racquet.”

“You have hit me in the face with an exy racquet .”

“You were an idiot then too,” Andrew said, but the corner of his lip tipped up, like he was holding onto the memory of the disastrous practice, bringing it to the surface for Neil to remember too.

To remember the way Andrew took care of Neil after it had happened; Andrew changing the ice packs on his head and refreshing the bandages where the skin had broken.

“That was your way of flirting with me?” Neil asked, though hindsight had already told him the truth of that weeks ago. There was something established between them now, even without labels or vulnerable confessions.

Andrew scowled at Neil. “Shut up and help me find something to pick this lock with.”

Neil didn’t bother to hide his grin at Andrew’s deflection, before standing up and helping him to scour the jail cell for lock picks.

[deeppenguinstudent]

Kevjean wedding? Kevjean wedding!

They decide to have three VIP or so-called best men/best women, which are Andrew/Neil, Catalina, and Jeremy. They decide to give Jeremy his own category because initially, they fought over who gets to have him to be their best man.

Jean is a total groomzilla, whereas Kevin just kinda floats around and listens to what Jean tells him to do.

Kevin asked once whether they could have an exy themed wedding with an exy cake, and Jeremy had to catch Jean so he didn't faint onto the floor at Kevin's stupidity. Neil is fanning him to life.

When the speeches are being made, Jean turns his back and hides his face in Kevin's shoulders to tear up at everything that they say about them. He cries the hardest at Renee's speech, which causes her to come towards him and embrace him in a tight reassuring hug.

Catalina is dead set to fight anyone on site that tries to ruin the wedding or spread nasty rumours about the grooms and she makes an unexpected alliance with Neil Josten to make sure of her mission.

Neil somehow manages to get a ring bearer that's a literally bear dressed up as the beret bear given to Jean all those years back at the Nest by Kevin.

Kevin was the one who proposed and Jean knew it all along because he floundered everytime marriage was brought up as well as the future they have together. He knew Kevin was going to confess because he saw Kevin's clammy hands reach into his pocket every now and then to fiddle with something. Eventhough he knew, when he saw Kevin on one knee looking at the sunrise they had camped out the night prior with nothing around but nature he couldn't help but cry silently into his palm.

There were rapports of Jean using Kevin or the notion that Jean was forcing him into marriage on the pretext of some stupid baseless rumour started by an antsy Raven fan. The way that Kevin kissed Jean after the vows surely did shut those articles up.

Kevin and Jean leave two seats in front decorated with bows empty so that Kayleigh and Elodie would be able to attend the wedding.

Jean couldn't finish his vows because he broke down crying so he handed it to Andrew who relayed everything in it in a stoic manner that makes everyone crack up at the indifference.

[joanofexys]

gimme the Jude lore

okay okay Jude Reyes lore incoming

little breakdown first:

26 years old

he/him, pansexual, cis

played for the Trojans for 5 years

graduated with a degree in sports journalism

has adhd and depression (in the rambling bit tw right now for mentions of self harm and suicidal thoughts tying into this)

only child and still upset about it

does the most out of all my ocs to work with college players, spends a lot of his free time flying out to different colleges to work with coaches and teams cause he likes and he enjoys it (gets a lot of teasing about becoming a coach in the future)

knows english and spanish

and oh yeah he's a dealer who will play as an extra backliner if needed

blonde, 6'3, big brown eyes

got his ears pierced cause Mara said he'd chicken out

So yeah Jude graduated from USC at the age of 23 and he was recruited for olympic court when he was 25. He considers the Trojan's his family and still keeps in touch with all the upper classmen who he used to play with. He's very much taken the Trojan attitude into his professional career. He's known as a team player on the court and also a huge activist off the court. He's now involved in presenting the Day Spirit Award every year and he's incredibly proud to have been apart of the team consistently winning it. While Ilya falls into the Just Some Guy category, Jude really takes it up like 10 levels into Golden Child territory. He's the favored one for press duty and is most involved with his teams social media. He's usually the one to sit down for the little games or the ask me anything's or the interviews everyone else deems pointless.

tw for self harm and suicide mentions, you can skip to the next bolded line if you need to

Jude was diagnosed with depression when he was 19 after he came to Rhemann confessing that he had been self harming for a few months after the workload with his class got more difficult for him to manage and he started thinking about committing suicide. He was diagnosed with adhd a few years later when he was 22 and now he now manages both with a mixture of therapy and medication. He's not perfect and obviously that didn't get rid of his depression but he has always had a safe space to talk about it and to get the help he needs. He advocates a lot for mental health in general but especially where athletes where it tends to get ignored with all the pressure put on them and he brings that into all of his relationships with his teammates trying to create a safe space for them. He is a huge factor in actually getting Em, Mara, and Florian to see therapists and he's who Florian calls after his 5th attempt and takes him to the hospital.

okay heavy bit over

I need y'all to know that Jude popped into my head literally today. He was named like 3 hours ago. So this is all just kind of developing as I yap about him. He's big on team inclusion. Doesn't want anyone to feel left out. At first Ilya really butted heads with Mara and Florian cause they were Raven's and Jude was basically the one to get sick of that and tell them they needed to shut the fuck up and put on their get along t-shirt

He's generally pretty outgoing and he loves a good party. And by party he means hosting his team and having some food and drinks and visiting with every one. Though he does go a little crazy after a win and he will probably not get home till like 6 in the morning and then will sleep for a full 24 hours

He comes off as very loud and flirtatious to most people, most people will think he is flirting even when he isn't and he has accidentally agreed to multiple dates before realizing they were dates and having to awkwardly let people down. He doesn't really date much, not seriously, largely because of how involved he is with the media portion of his job. If he does end up dating (and I don't have anyone set up for him yet) it'd most likely be another exy player who is also super involved with the media and interacting with the press

and yeah that's a little bit about Jude

[chamyl]

What Aziraphale says / what Crowley hears

An analysis of that scene from Good Omens 2. Because the amount of times Aziraphale says one thing when he means another is astounding, as is how perfectly he and Crowley misunderstand each other.

Obviously, SPOILERS all over the place.

Let’s pick it up from the chat with the Metatron. He’s talking about his big projects, blah blah blah, and how he needs someone to run them and Aziraphale's the perfect angel for the job, and Aziraphale's first reply is:

 A: "I don't want to go back to Heaven. Where would I get my coffee?"

Meaning: I'm not ready to give up what I can have here on Earth, i.e. Crowley. Metatron, unlike Crowley, hears perfectly well what Aziraphale means, not what he says, because he replies offering him to bring Crowley along.

 Flashback ends, we switch back to the bookshop.

C: "He said what?"

Crowley is immediately offended at the mere suggestion. Heaven sucks and he's learned he's lesson, he's never going back.

Aziraphale doesn't notice the anger in his voice, too caught up in his dream of ruling Heaven with Crowley by his side and doing all the good he can for humanity. After having to sit by and watch awful things happen to good people for 6000 years, this is his Ultimate Dream™. He can change things AND he gets to keep Crowley.

(Of course we know Heaven's not going to give him so much freedom, but he wants this so much it makes him oblivious to the possibility he's being fooled.)

 A: "Everything like the old times! Only, even nicer."

Meaning: we can be safe, no Book of Life or other punishments hanging over our heads, and I can make Heaven, finally, what it was always supposed to be: a good place. A good place for you, Crowley, too.

 C: "Right. And you told him just where he could stick it, then?"

Crowley's too angry to tackle this gently. We watch Aziraphale's face fall.

 A: "Not at all."

 C: "Oh we're better than that, you're better than that, Angel!"

Meaning: how could you possibly believe this bullshit? After all that we've been through?

 C: "You don't need them. I certainly don't need them! Look, they asked me back to Hell I said I'm not gonna be joining their team. Neither should you."

For Crowley, Heaven and Hell are the same thing, just a different colour. He can't understand why Aziraphale wouldn't say no immediately.

 A: "But... well, obviously you said no to Hell, you're the bad guys."

Meaning: Hell was never supposed to be a good place. It was always supposed to be a group of demons making the humans' lives harder. How would you make the world better by working with hell? Of course you said no.

 A: "But Heaven... well it's the side of truth, of light, of good."

 C: "When Heaven ends life here on Earth, it'll be just as dead as if Hell ended it. Tell me you said no."

Here they move away from the actual problem, which is Aziraphale's delusional thoughts in regards to the potential for change in Heaven, to talk about the two of them instead.

He already knows Aziraphale didn't say no. He's asking him to change his mind and stay on Earth, which he will continue to do throughout the rest of this exchange.

 C: "Tell me you said no."

Again, tell me you'll change your mind. Tell me you'll stay here, with me.

 A: "If I'm in charge, I can make a difference."

 This is where it sinks in for Crowley that he's really about to lose Aziraphale. He panics and throws out his confession.

C: "Oh, God[1]. Right, okay. Right. I didn't get a chance to say what I was going to say I think I better say it now. Right, okay, yes, so... We've known each other a long time."

 Aziraphale is totally confused and has no idea where this conversation is going.

 C: "We've been on this planet for a long time. I mean, you and me. I could always rely on you. You could always rely on me. We're a team. A group. A group of the two of us."

 Now Aziraphale realises what's happening. At the worst possible time, Crowley is bringing up all the things they haven't talked about openly in 6000 years.

 C: "And we've spent our existence pretending that we aren't. I mean, the last few years, not really. And I would like to spend--"

[gif source]

Crowley swallows it back because he can't bring himself to say 'I would like to spend the rest of our existence together'. It's too much, it’s too big.

 C: "I mean, if Gabriel and Beelzebub can do it, go off together, then we can."

And there it is, clear as day, the confession. Gabriel and Beelzebub weren't friends, they very clearly had a romantic relationship, and Aziraphale looks absolutely SHOCKED by how explicit Crowley is being.

 C: "Just the two of us. We don't need Heaven, we don't need Hell. They're toxic."

Aziraphale shakes his head. He can't accept that Crowley would put Heaven and Hell on the same level.

 C: "We need to get away from them, just be an us. You and me, what do you say?"

Just like before Aziraphale wasn’t registering Crowley's anger, now Crowley doesn't pick up on Aziraphale's headshake, his shocked expression. He asks him what he thinks.

 A: "Come with me... to Heaven. I'll run it, you can be my second in command. We can make a difference."

This is so painful because they both want the same thing. To be together. But Aziraphale can't ignore the fact that he's just been given the chance to do so much good for everyone, and keeps pressing his point.

 C: "You can't leave this bookshop."

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Crowley's not talking about the bookshop. He's brought up leaving for Alpha Centaury just a little while ago, a dream he still clings to. What he means is, you can't leave a place where you're safe and independent.

This is not what Aziraphale hears. He thinks Crowley is talking, literally, about the bookshop. That's why he says...

  A: "Oh, Crowley. Nothing lasts forever."

[gif source]

Meaning: I'm willing to sacrifice the bookshop to work towards the Greater Good. Even though it pains me.

What Crowley hears: it’s our relationship that was never meant to last forever. All things end, we're breaking up. And in fact his reaction is to put his sunglasses back on, defences back up, and say:

 C: "No. I don't suppose it does."

 Aziraphale misses the walls coming back up and smiles for a split second, thinking Crowley is agreeing with him. So he's shocked when Crowley says...

 C: "Good luck."

And starts to leave.

 A: "Good luck?! Cro--Crowley! Crowley come back! To Heaven! Work with me! We can be together! Angels... doing good!"

Aziraphale breaks down completely now. His dream is crumbling, not only Crowley won't join him, but Crowley is abandoning him altogether.

 A: "I... I need you!"

He cries out, desperately. Then he gets angry.

 A: "I don't think you understand what I'm offering you."

Safety. A chance to be together, out in the open. A chance to do good, save the world from a second Apocalypse. Full status as angel restored. He can't understand why in the world Crowley wouldn't want these things? They can fix Heaven together!

 C: "I understand. I think I understand a whole lot better than you do."

Crowley knows Heaven is only going to exploit and manipulate Aziraphale. But he doesn't insist, it's not what he does. In all their fights, Crowley's always been the one to run away in the face of conflict, and he's by the door, ready to go.

 A: "Well... then there's nothing more to say."

Meaning: Are you really going to leave me?

 C: "Listen. Do you hear that?"

 A: "I don't hear anything."

 C: "That's the point. No nightingales."

Possibly because this is their own coded language, this is the one time what Crowley means and what Aziraphale hears line up. That the relationship between them is coming to an end. There are no nightingales like the ones in Berkeley square, singing for them after their post-Apocalypse date.

 But then it's Crowley's turn to break down. He wasn't fast enough running out of the bookshop, his emotions caught up with him. He’s thinking about that lunch at the Ritz and the nightingales. And after what Maggie and Nina told him, what he himself has learned about love, he makes a last desperate attempt at fixing things.

 C: "You idiot. We could have been... us."

He grabs Aziraphale, forcefully kissing him. Aziraphale is shocked, doesn't know what to do with his hands, first he flails then he puts a hand on Crowley's back, as if about to relax, but then starts flailing again as he remembers he can't do this: he has to go to Heaven. Work for the Greater Good. He can't return the kiss.

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He's basically sobbing when Crowley lets him go. Full-blown panic now, while Crowley watches him expectantly, hoping his last-resort strategy had some effect on his angel.

 But Aziraphale stutters and reaches for something to steady himself, some barrier to put up again between the two of them. Crowley is a demon, he's an angel. Crowley grabbed him and kissed him without asking first, Aziraphale is going to forgive him. There. Big red line between them.

 A: “I… I forgive you.”

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He seems to regret it the moment the words have left his mouth. But it's too late. Crowley knows that the kiss didn't work, that there's nothing left to do now.

 C: "Don't bother."

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And he leaves. Almost runs.

 Aziraphale is shaking all over. He presses his fingers to his mouth pretty hard, trying to replicate the feeling to process what just happened.

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The Metatron was of course right outside, looking in, probably saw the whole thing going down. He takes advantage of the moment where Aziraphale is at his most vulnerable to press him to go, downplays their fight ("Always wanted to go his own way") makes disparaging comments about Crowley ("Damn fool questions too"), knocks down Aziraphale's excuses by entrusting the bookshop to Muriel.

 Aziraphale is torn, but after all, what else can he do? In his mind, Crowley abandoned him when he'd finally found somewhere safe for them to be together. And Aziraphale spit out that horrible 'I forgive you'. Even if he stayed now, he'd be all alone. And in Heaven, he gets a chance to do Good with a capital G.

 The Metatron tells him about very important plans to 'wrap things up'. Aziraphale looks back at Crowley, who’s standing by the Bentley, watching him.

But the Second Coming bomb the Metatron just dropped solidifies Aziraphale’s choice. Now more than ever he has to go up and do all he can. He steps into the elevator.

Crowley, completely alone now, looks at Nina and Maggie, each in their own shop, not together.

 And then both Aziraphale and Crowley do what they always do to deal with difficulties: Crowley drives away, probably to nowhere, just letting the car go, and Aziraphale swallows everything down and tries to put back on his polite, calm, jovial mask. He'll be damned if he'll not try his hardest to be the perfect angel for this job. He’s sacrificed too much.

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[1] I don’t know that it’s a good idea to call on her right now, C.