#explaining this makes it seem like i enjoy cooking but i really dont! my partner has encouraged me to experiment with seasoning
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dekuofficial · 7 days ago
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just made the best egg drop soup of my life, i will never be able to replicate it ever again lol
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mochinomnoms · 10 months ago
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IM CRYING I GOT SICK SO I DONT FEEL WELL😭😭😭😭 Still I'll push through and get these Valentine's scenarios to you!!! You might get the other two a bit later tho so sorry!!!
Azul would definitely make sure to give you your gift first. He has done extensive research and came to Ramshackle with a bouquet of your favorite flowers! Though Valentines wasn't foreign to him, the way humans celebrated was a bit different! Then he'd take you to the town on the island, because somehow he got permission from Crowley!
It was with a bribe
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At least you think so? But you got to go and have a great time on the rest of the island so who cares? He took you to multiple shops and then to the beach after. When you got back to campus you both went to his dorm. And it confused him to no end when you told him to wait while you ran off towards the dorms kitchen. He waited like an hour until you came out. He was a little annoyed but he couldn't go into the kitchen since the twins were keeping guard of the door as he heard sizzling. Hands down you enter the room with a, "Missed me?"
He'd question why you took so long but little did he know you ALSO did your research! Leading him to his own VIP room you'd explain nothing to him and watch as he blushed and tried to get answers from you. I mean why go to such a private room on such an intimate day? He's embarrassed even more as some other dorm members walk past him, a blushing mess, being tugged into his private office.
Not to mention your teasing the entire way there with hand holding and little pecks! He wouldn't say it out loud (7 forbid the tweels hear him) but he loves your affection just as much as it embarrasses him! And sevens, does it embarrass him!
When you get to the room the foods already set up! Courtesy of the twins. He knows the food was made by you, why else would you be gone for an hour!? and is kinda nervous for two reasons.
He's not too sure you can cook
2. Gifting food (for octo-mers) is usually part of their courting process
And I mean, yeah sure he's already dating you and everything but it feels really intimate! And it gets even more so when you lift the fork and bring it to his lips. (sorry to the people who CAN cook) But it seems Azul was right about questioning your culinary abilities.... Its kind of charred around the edges too, not a lot but to someone who's skilled at cooking its hard to not notice.
"Its burnt!" Azul laughs light heartily even though he still takes a bite.
"Yeah well its made with love, not skill," you reply sarcastically. As he eats his fill he makes comments about how he wants to avoid getting chubby, which you quickly dismiss saying you'd love him however he looked. To be completely honest he practically melts into your side on the couch. Its cute how shy he gets with this, and he seems to be leaning in more to your touch more.
Idk how to end this so HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!! I hope you enjoyed and I'll finish the other ones soon!!
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Happy Valentine's Day (late, sorry baby I got busy yesterday until night time)
This is so cute! I love it! Food is def my love language, so I would love cooking a meal for Azul!! It's such an intimate thing to hand feed your partner...Azulito let me feed you 😭
Thank you for the gift my love! I appreciate it! Maybe in the future I can write a series on food as a love language with the twst cast!
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nevadawasnottaken · 4 years ago
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love languages
the love language of dream smp members :) (platonic for minors! romantic for others) im doing them all bc they all deserve recognition! :D keep in mind i dont know all of their personalities well! (hbomb, antfrost, ponk, lazarbeam, etc) these are all c!dsmp (in game) those marked with * are ones im uncertain about/unfamiliar with! -- dream: gift giving or acts of service with a twinge of physical touch. mans will get anything for you, no lie. you want it? hes got it. dream xd: acts of service or gift giving. possibly touch, but i dont see him being keen on it unless its in private. i see him as someone who tries to spoil his s/o a lot. if youre a worthy lover of a god, you should be treated like one. george: probably acts of service, quality time and touch. man would probably cuddle with you while watching some movie that neither of you pay attention to. sapnap: touch or words of affirmation. he does like giving gifts on occasion though! probably something thatll remind you of him. but overall, he prefers hand holding or something. he likes knowing youre there. callahan*: quality time. i imagine he likes going places all over the smp. it makes him happy to take you places that he finds beautiful. even better when you find them beautiful too! sam: acts of service for sure. he would make you tea (or your preferred drink) on a bad day and wrap you in blankets and cuddle as much as youd like. or, he would leave you alone if you need it. hes very caring, warden persona aside. sam nook: gift giving seems his thing! or acts of service! he seems as if he would get you things to cheer you up, or just simply do things like tuck you in. if you want, he gladly will let you pet his lil ears. (yes i hc that sam nook has lil ears :) ) alyssa*: even if we dont see her much, she strikes me as the type to enjoy physical touch. hand holding or something simple. she prefers to stay out of the thick of things and chill, thanks. ponk*: touch or words of affirmation i think are very fitting. he seems the type to always have an arm around you or holding your hand. he definitely would be good at comforting, i think. badboyhalo: i think we can all agree that hes a mix of everything. i think hes most oriented with words of affirmation and quality time. he likes spending time with you, just telling you all the things he loves about you. tommy: more than likely quality time. i dont see him as one to like holding hands (”me? hold hands? grOSS! step away and leave some space for the holy spirit!”) or anything. hes not good with words of affirmation (he needs them, really) and hes a bit awkward with things like hand holding. so spending time with him is his thing. listening to his discs and joking around with you and tubbo is what makes him happy. tubbo: gift giving, touch and quality time. he likes spending time with those he cares for, as well as giving them gifts. little trinkets, mostly. for example, he gave ghostbur a bracelet woven from friends wool, and hes given tommy a ruby! :) fundy: probably gifts. fox man will find you shiny things. emeralds, diamonds, gold, you name it. even if you dont need/want it, he gets you things. rings and necklaces and bracelets. it makes him happy to see you wear them. not all at once, of course, but wear them nonetheless. punz*: acts of service and touch. hes the type to arrange your things to suprise you or leave you flowers on a bad day. he also would probably cuddle and ramble about how perfect you are to him. purpled*: quality time. i think he would gladly spend time with you if you asked him to :) wilbur: a little bit of everything, i think. but one thing i think he would definitely do is write songs, so basically making playlists, but he sings for you instead! but for one of the main ones, i think he mostly is one for touch and affirmations. he likes being comforted/comforting you. ghostbur: gift giving or touch. quality time, too! i think he likes giving you things (like blue!) in general. he also seems very clingy (which is adorable <3 anyone who says its not can fight me rn) and would gladly hold your hand! he often will just take it anyways. :) (”i like holding your hand! your hands are nice to hold because theyre warm!”) schlatt: quality time. like tommy, i think he isnt one for touch. maybe he will give you gifts, but spending time with him is enough of a gift for him. skeppy*: gift giving. he would probably get you big gifts, like stuffed animals or something. or photos. seems like a skeppy type thing to me. :) eret: a little of everything, i think. but i see his thing being touch and quality time. i think they would very gladly cuddle if you asked them to! but shes big spoon, no doubt about it. only little spoon if you ask. jack manifold*: acts of service or touch. he would make you food if you wanted it, i think, or hold your hand. maybe not the best with comfort or cooking, but he tries. (”look i- i know the cookies arent good, but its the thought that counds, right?”) niki: words of affirmation, quality time and touch would all be nikis thing! :) she would spend time with you, probably cuddling and providing comfort if needed. she would remind you every day that youre loved and youre worth it. quackity: definitely touch and quality time. when hes not busy, he takes you places. often to watch the sunset. he also strikes me as one for pda! a bit shy at first, but relaxes into it. hes definitely one to say “gotta show off my partner! >:)” mexican dream*: words of affirmation but in spanish dont @ me karl: do we need to even question this? (spoiler alert: quality time and touch) hbomb*: strikes me as the type for quality time and some touch :) techno: probably acts of service, gift giving and quality time. he likes holidays like christmas and your birthday because he can give you things. he likes shiny things! and he likes you, so he gives them to you! antfrost*: quality time and touch seem fitting. just the peace of being together. philza: quality time and gift giving with a bit of touch. he likes when you touch his wings, running your fingertips over the smooth feathers, or fixing any ruffled spots. he also likes spending quiet time together. he can give words of affirmation and comfort if you need them. connor*: probably touch! i see him as the type to want to hold your hand a lot. so def one for pda :) puffy: probably quality time and words of affirmation. goat mom would def be able to encourage and comfort you. vikkstar*: i think touch is fitting :) pda really, and acts of service lazarbeam*: acts of service seem most fitting! he seems the type to do things for you, especially on bad days. ranboo: gift giving and quality time! he is definitely the type to get you little things! or grass blocks. he gets sad if you rid of a grass block, so you kinda have to store em. or kindly explain that you dont want dirt inside, so you can put the grass blocks outside. foolish: the type for acts of service, i think! and maybe some touch. i think he gladly will do things for you, no questions asked. (unless it seems harmful ofc!) hannah*: seems the type to like words of affirmation (giving and receiving!) especially on your/her bad days. slimecicle: gift giving. he probably picks you flowers and does nice things whilst being sarcastic. he will comfort you on bad days, though. -- as usual, lmk if i should change tags! requests are open! 
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cryptiles · 2 years ago
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Hello!! Can I request a matchup for Obey me?
Pronouns: she/her
Gender: Female!
You can call me Ai! I may seem really reserved at first but truth be told, I am goofy and a people's person. My Friends describe me as the 'mom' friend. I am also very lethargic and tend to  procrastinate. I am optimistic and I really like that about myself :D  I am a person of simple pleasure, so that makes me easy to please. Oh and I am a dog person!
I love spicy food and my day doesn't start without a cup of coffee. I like listening to music and do my work.
I don't like to hurry or any last-minute plans, I like to do things at my own pace. I am not very organized but I always plan beforehand. The one thing I dont want in a partner is short temper,
I am very emotional and it gets to me. My hobbies are Baking, Cooking, and singing. My favorite color is yellow!
Physical appearrance: skin tone is warm beige, i'm 5'5 with long black hair till my waist and chocolate brown eyes. I also wear glasses I lean towards chubby side!
What i look in a person: I talk a lot, and always get shut for doing so, someone who could hear me out would be great! Also i am a good listener, so its not just one way.
Ideal date : A classic cafè date, Amusement parks or just sitting at home I'm up for anything!
My MBTI is ESFJ, if that helps aswell!
Thank you! and hope you have an amazing day!
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MATCH-UP FOR AI
— details ; obey me x female! reader ; match-up based ; obey me m.list ; she/her
— requests are open as of 27/8 —> 13 match-ups left + 1 head-cannon
— a/n : you’re literally one part of me with that organisation thing and amusement parks i wanna go back to one so bad 😕 anywayss hope you enjoy 😼 sorry requests are slow as of late , i’m losing motivation.
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bibbidi-bobbidi-boo i match you with … diavolo !!
• this man needs constant watching over , he’s really just an overgrown man child.
• i feel like he has that natural aura that at first glance intimidates people because he’s the demon prince and all , but he’ll immediately switch up and into his nice outgoing personality.
• both of you will have conversations that last for hours and this man is loud asf too.
• if y’all are together to do work , he will stop everything and enjoy your company , both of you end up procrastinating and doing absolutely nothing resulting in barbatos and lucifer having to set a rule that only after you both finish your assignments then you both can meet up.
• he’s an animal person in general and i mean he’s the prince ! he’ll definitely get you a dog if you want one , all the dogs in fact.
• he’ll tend to all your needs no matter how big or small.
• i feel like he would go all out in the beginning but once you explain you’re someone who just enjoys simple things he’ll tone it down. [ unless you don’t mind the extravagant things he does ]
• due to him being the prince and all he can’t go out with you to have coffee dates without media attention , so instead he learns how to make your favourite coffee so you both can enjoy it in the comfort of the castle.
• this man has all the patience in the world.
• he’ll sit there and listen to all your ramblings and then pamper you afterwards.
• he’ll literally without any hesitation bow down for you.
• if you wear yellow clothing he’ll fit in some yellow to his usual red colour palette , and , he really likes matching stuff so expect matching clothing , accessories , keychains and more.
• his favourite activity with you is baking , although i don’t think he’s very good at it. [ this is why barbatos doesn’t allow him in the castle’s kitchen ]
• let’s say you guys went to the house of lamentation to bake.
• most of the time he’ll be staring at you and doing stupid stuff to distract you from the main task , sometimes even throwing some flour at you for fun. [ it results in a whole mess with flour and stuff everywhere , lucifer sighs and just asks you guys to please clean it up. ]
• both you and diavolo are every adventurous so really he’ll take you where ever you want to go.
• amusement parks would be so fun with him.
• he’s those cliché types that would spend money at a carnival game to win an overpriced teddy bear just to see you smile.
• when you both enter he’ll immediately hold your hand and keep a close eye on you he doesn’t want to lose you in the big crowd of demons.
• he’s definitely a thrill seeker kinda guy , so roller coasters baby.
• he’s the prince both of you get immediate front lines to every ride , it’s a breeze getting through the big park.
MINI SCENARIO !!
[ i don’t know anything about baking so this is probably inaccurate information lmaoo. ]
“ just stir the batter to a thick ish mixture. “
you instructed , holding your ddd with the demon equivalent to google , reading off the instructions on how to make a red velvet cake.
diavolo nodded.
you decided to leave him to do that while you worked on the icing. not without occasionally glancing over to see if he over mixed it or broke the spoon like last time.
both of you then started discussing about different things like “ how would our cafe look like if we opened one ? “ or “ favourite dog breed and why ? “ while some soft background music played through the vinyl.
“ is this alright ? “ he asked , tilting the bowl towards your direction.
you nodded , “ yeah looks good ! uhh you can place it in the cake pan and bake it at 325 degrees. i already pre-heated it. “
diavolo followed your instructions while humming to the lyrics of the song , it was his favourite.
a few minutes passed with diavolo just hugging you from behind as you tried to finish up the icing , both of you occasionally sharing shy giggles and soft kisses.
“ just to confirm you set the oven at 325 degrees right ? “
“ 325 .. ? i heard 825. “
“ … i beg your pardon ? “
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thelesbianlegacy-swtor · 4 years ago
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Galaxy Guide to Loving Girls! Pregancy Tips and info
Listen herwildWell helloo there to all my wonderful fangirls! Today we are going to talk aabout something so special and magic that it makes our bellies fill up with butterflies!
Pregancy! There are tons of different species of girls out there. SO every pregancy has some differences. But we have come here to bring you what we think, are the hottest tips depending on the specie of your girl!
If you are dating a Buff and battle hardened mandalorian, you might want ot invest on some chains. This girls are ferocious! Which mean that in the early days they might be running around in full ocmbat armor trying to take down armies of soldiers while having morning sickness! So you want to sith with them and explain that they have a little baby inside them, and they cant fight as before anymore. Take out all the weapons you are hidding and let your girl burn some of that war cravings around the house. Remember that your girl will het a bit more stubborn that usual. Have a lot of patience with them. 
Now for our girls with a loving and sexy Twileak or togruta girlfriend, you might want to learn a couple of massages routines. Lekkus become extra sensitive with pregnancy and so, they make headaches much more frequent. Take a look around the house and take away anything that makes anoying noises. Using creams on the lekkus will also help a lot. And just a FYI in case you dont know it. If the lekkus of a twileak become more sensitive, its in every sense of the way. So we careful when rubbing your girlfriend lekkus. It might get too sensitive for them! On the other side it might be just want you want to do when alone at night.
Their green skin is one of the prettiest of the galaxy and you know who am i talking about! Mirialans as well as humans have some usual pregnancy cravings and symptons. But theres something they get a bit more than others. Whateve you do. No matter what. You dont wnat to threaten a pregnant mirialan. They will jump at you with a knife and gut you like a Nerf. Mirialans hormones are all about the fight or fight insting! And thats no typo girls, This sexy gals will rip appart anyone who threaten their babies or partners.
If you have manage to land a chiss girlfriend, let me say something first. You are a leyend! Chiss girls are amongst the more shy and introverted girls around. The chiss society its a bit less chaotic that the rest of the galaxy. But that changes when they have a little baby in the way! Chiss girls might get a mood swing like no other! And this is no little one. They can go from a shy library girl that enjoys silence, to a cvrazy party girl that wants to jump and bounce around the place! Its amazing! Mostly this is a fun little change form ost but you still want to keep an eye on them. Some get too wild and might need some help to clam down. Their mood will go back to normal after giving birth
Listen here. Cravings are the worst part about a pregnancy for most. Its weird to want something that you cant find or even know what is. For those dating a sith girl, or pregnant by one, you might have a really bad time. That is if you dont read this magazine! Because we have ask around and we know what cravings sith girls and pregnant by sith girls will want. Read closely if you or your partner are force sensitive. So. Sith purebloods have a...weird type of craving when pregnant. It comes back to the original diet on their home world before going to space. They require a type of slurry made out of....blood. Now that might sound a bit off but let me assure you that no matter the specie is totally safe. You can even mix it up! Just be sure to get the right ingredients. And for those still asking .It is blood and some other things
We talked about how mandalorians have a hard time getting of the war mood when pregnant. How mirialans will go to war if you even dare threating their child But we come now to a type of girl that will have the opposite reaction. Nautolans get a bit shy when pregnant. Some even get paranoid. They will run away if they feel in danger or even if they get scared, Some get a bit emotional when under pressure and just cry a lot. More than usual if comparing with humanlike pregnancies. So you want to put a really brave face for your girl, always be around her and make sure there are no sudden noises and movements when she is around. 
Zabrak girls. Theres nothign wrong about their pregnancies. They seem to have one of the easiest ones around. They dont get to many cravings. Headaches actually go down as they get ready to have a crying baby. They dont get aggressive. So you might be asking. Whats the problem then? Well girls. It takes two to make a baby. And i said the zabraks have it easy. The hard part is for you! Zabrak get a interesting mood swing during pregnancy. They dont cry. They dont get angry. They get horny! And thats not a pun! Zabrak girls will not be able to keep their hands of you! And specially you. Your pregnant grilfriend might as well chain you to the bed because most of the time, that will be were she needs you. With the hyper libido increase, also comes a ton more of energy. So froget about cleaning or cooking. As long as you can stay awake withthem in bed your girl is going to be a one woman army! With the same sexual needs may i add
Last but not least important we have the best cuddlers in the galaxy. Cathar girls are adorable and no one will ever say otherwise. Pregnancy for them comes with the opposite fenomenon that zabrak. This girl will have such a boost in their cuteness, sexyness, or whatever made you liek them during pregnancy, that it will be YOU who literally wont be able to keep their hands of them! We have taken testimonies about girls feeling their cathar girls get either a sexier voice, a lust inducent smell, a fur so soft that it actually arouse you and even times when their eyes just make you want to undress! Its sounds crazy but trust me girls. Its 100% REAL. So if you are putting a bun in a cathar oven you might want to plan ahead
And with that comes the end of this new issue for the Galaxy Guide to loving girls about pregnancies! We hope you enjoy the issue today and we will be taking any request you have. Follow us for more fun tips about girls, stories, ideas and even fanfictions! If you have any type of idea or request, feel free to send it right away! 
A special thank you to @jedimasterbailey for her information about Mirialan girls
@swtor-legacy-sitcom for the Sith Blood Slurry Recipe.
@classie-cassy for the info on mandalorian girls
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saeyoungs-sunflower · 4 years ago
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Matchup for @nad-zeta! (Milestone Celebration)
Zeta, my sweet sweet Zeta, here’s your matchup! You have been such an angel, both in your patience and your general loveliness.💛 I’m sorry it took a little longer than expected, but I hope it was worth the wait! It’s pretty long (~3000 words lolllll) so it’s all under the cut. Sorry, I got carried away! :’) xx
So, without further ado, based on the information you gave me I matched you with...
Saeyoung!
take care of my bby pls
I feel like I need to say that I kept going back and forth between him and Zen. Zen was a VERY close second, so I kinda half match you up with him too. That being said, there were some things you mentioned that made me lean more towards Saeyoung, which will be explained below :))
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Reasoning & General Headcanons!
“🥰 i am a aries, infp, ravenclaw female 🦊”
An Aries you say...?
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Need I say more? Absolute chaotic duo. The energy is buzzing, and the people you hang out are always amused by your shenanigans.
As an INFP, you are caring, loyal, and sensitive, which are traits that I believe Saeyoung would benefit from in a partner. He also hides his true emotions well, so someone with your personality type would be able to pick up on the signs that he is feeling low, even if he tries to hide it. Your loyalty and devotion also helps him feel secure, which considering everything he’s been through, is something I feel he would struggle with, particularly in the early stages of a relationship.
On the flip side, Saeyoung is also incredibly loyal. And whilst he does joke around and tease, he knows how sensitive topics and comments can affect someone, so he is never careless, especially since (as an INFP) you often take things to heart. As a team, you work well together because you view the world slightly differently. You’re an idealist, whereas he’s a realist; you focus on the big picture, whereas he has an incredible attention to detail. This is really helpful in difficult conversations, big decisions, plans for the future etc, because whilst your opinions may differ, you offer the other a different side of the story. You get the best of both worlds!
I don’t know my Harry Potter houses very well, but from my memory and a quick Google search, Ravenclaws value knowledge and are wise, intelligent and witty. Sounds familiar? ;) i mean wise is debatable lol. Your conversations are sooo interesting and natural, because you’re both very intelligent in many ways.
“i am pretty shy and difficult to get to know (apparently it took me 2 months to start opening up to my friends, ooops), i tend to bottle up my emotions, my friends would likely describe me as incredibly stubborn, gentle, kind, over dramatic, goofy and fun loving. I am pretty aloof and blunt, like i will 9/10 times tell you to your face how if feel about you if you ask 🙈once u are part of my inner circle i am playful, teasing, i am an extremely sarcastic person that makes snarky remarks under my breath and my kind of humor is a bit of dark and self deprecating.”
Okay, this was one of the key things that made me match you with Saeyoung. A huge reason why I love Saeyoung so much is that there is a high level of comfort in a relationship with him. By that I mean that he is so open and fun that there is literally zero judgment. Judgment is such a foreign concept to him in this kind of situation. He makes you so comfortable that it’s so easy to be yourself around him, and it doesn’t take long for him to get to know you.
GIRL HE��S THE SAME. The king of bottling up his emotions. This means that y’all know when something is up, you can see the signs. You are understanding of each other, so discussions happen and actions are put into place before things become too much.
Saeyoung sometimes just needs to be told when he’s being a lil prick. You are kind and gentle when he needs it, but also can be blunt with him when it gets silly. I mean, if MC was like you towards the end of his route, we would have got through the whole “i’M tOo dAnGeRoUs gEt aWaY” thing SO much more quickly.
Once you’re comfy with him, you become an absolutely unstoppable force. When he teases you, you tease him back. When he’s being playful, you’re his partner in crime. Y’all are so goofy. Your life is full of laughs and joy with Saeyoung.
Sarcastic comments, dark humour and self-deprecating jokes? Yep that’s also very Saeyoung. Sometimes you two have to reel it in a bit when you’re hanging out with others because YOU’RE OUT OF CONTROL TOGETHER.
“I love my friends and family and will fight anyone who threatens them, although when it comes to me, you can do or say anything to me and i wont do anything (I honestly can't stand up for myself).”
IT’S LIKE HE’S LOOKING IN A MIRROR. Seriously though, he knows the importance of self worth because he knows, firsthand, the damage that can be done when you don’t value yourself and your wellbeing. He makes it his mission to help you see how worthy you are of respect and give you confidence to stand up for yourself. Even if you won’t do it for yourself, he’ll stand up for you. He cares too much about his loved ones to let them be treated wrongly.
He feels how much you love him and your other friends/family which makes him feel so secure, and he also has a phenomenal amount of love in his heart to give and he ain’t afraid to do so.
“I swear like a sailor although I am trying to get that under control, however the road rage is real.”
Finds your road rage and swearing SO amusing. Constantly teasing you about it and winding you up, but it’s all in good fun.
Absolutely has a swear jar for you. No doubt about it.
“You’ve corrupted my good, Catholic ears.” “Saeyoung shut the fuck up.”
“I love nature and animals (i love my lil bunnies and dogs), i love working out/going to the gym #gym is life”
I mean, we know he adores cats, and I imagine he loves other animals too.
I also imagine he loves camping, and I don’t even know why. He just gives me camping vibes. Weekends away spent in nature, sleeping in a tent and sitting round a fire in the evenings are pretty common for you.
I know this is ~controversial~ topic in the fandom, but I am of the opinion that Saeyoung also works out.
Do I think he’s completely ripped? No, probably not. But he’s strong, lean at the very least. Even Jaehee admits it! He makes working out so much fun and it’s always a bit of a laugh.
“i enjoy cooking (i am now officially a chef), wine tasting (fancy way of saying getting very tipsy of different wines most nights), spending time with friends (especially if there is tea to be spilt) although i do need lots of alone time to recharge my social battery”
The first time he tasted your food, he almost cried. Poor boi lived off eating crisps and soda for God knows how long.
“Wait, you’re not meant to constantly feel like you're gonna throw up? Food is meant to have...flavour???”
Help him
Saeyoung is pretty social, but also needs time to recharge like you, though he can go a bit longer than you and doesn’t easily get drained by social interactions. This may seem like a problem when you spend time with friends, but it’s actually such a blessing. If you’re feeling exhausted when socialising, he knows and will “take the wheel” if you will. There’s nothing worse than trying to keep a conversation going or seeming upbeat when you literally don’t have the energy, so Saeyoung is there to help you out. He’s also super good at politely and subtly taking you out of those situations if you are super drained and need to recharge.
He’s also such a gossip so if you got tea to spill he’s ready to hear it, and you know he ALWAYS has tea to spill. Sneaky man
“i like conspiracies, reading, writing (Fanfics and im busy with my Masters in nutrition >“<), rom coms, and  sleeping. As much as i love spending time outdoor i also enjoy lazing around the house being a lazy potato.”
Discussions about conspiracies over dinner lol. He is in possession of some...top secret information, so those conversations are very interesting and eye opening ;)
He LOVES to read your writing. It literally doesn’t matter what it’s about, he finds it truly fascinating. It’s a little glimpse into who you are, and it’s something you created!!! By yourself!!!! HE LOVES THAT. Always impressed with what you write, every time. He’s so proud.
ROM COMS WHILST CUDDLING ON THE COUCH
He’s a cryer, he loves rom coms.
He works super hard, so he’s always down to have a lazy day with you!!
“I definitely zone out and daydream all the freaken time and tend to blush easily which i hate 🙈 i definitely dont like crowds and loud sounds (ie you will never find me in a club). I am a picky eater despite my degree in cooking (i basically only eat candy, carbs and protein)”
He. loves. Making. You. blush. I’m sorry, but it’s one of his favourite things. He thinks it’s so adorable, so prepare for all the teasing, lewd jokes and general flirtiness that’ll get your cheeks burning ;)
He’s not keen on crowds either, so that’s not a problem!! I imagine he occasionally goes on night’s out with the bois (and by bois I mean usually just Zen and Yoosung LOL) but he’s not often out until super late, and he’s super respectful of you. Would never ask you to do something or go somewhere that makes you uncomfortable.
“i love cuddles although i look like someone that wouldn’t. Ive been told i come across as calm and confident, while in truth on the inside i am really scared and insecure.   I am incredibly awkward when it comes to boys and have been told my sarcastic comments are x100 when i talk to them (oops).”
CUDDLE MONSTER. I actually think he’s the biggest cuddler in the RFA. Controversial I know, but damn Saeyoung loves a cuddle. He’s a spontaneous cuddler. Like it doesn’t matter what the situation is, if you need a cuddle or he just fancies one, he’ll find a way.
He sees right through your calmness and confidence, because he’s exactly the same. This puts him in the perfect position to reassure you and lift you up. He’s a great hype man!
He finds your awkwardness adorable, and your sarcastic comments just make him love you even more! He has a good sense of humour and doesn’t take things too seriously if they don’t need to be, so he’s constantly laughing with you and easing your mind in the very early stages of your relationship.
“I am very go with the flow, and i never burn my bridges 🙈 i am very forgive and forget🦊, like no matter how badly you hurt me.”
Based on what happens on his route, it’s very handy that you are a forgiving person hahah
But again, if Saeyoung thinks you are being treated wrongly and being hurt, he will stand up for you.
His dedication to protecting the ones he loves is STRONG. I mean, look at his relationship with Saeran and the way he is constantly looking out for you in ALL routes.
Of course, he won’t say or do anything to that person if that makes you uncomfortable. Instead, he will constantly reassure you of your self-worth and remind you that you deserve better, but will also support the decisions you make.
If you want to forgive and forget, he will respect that, even if he thinks differently.
“What am i looking for in a potential partner?.... well i definitely think i need someone that could bring me out my shell initially, also someone who isn't too sensitive cause like i said i can be super sarcastic and my jokes kinda match that (like in my family we show out affection for each other via playful insults and savage comments)😂😂”
As I stated above, I think Saeyoung is the best person to help bring you out of your shell. There’s no judgment and no shame with this man.
I find that someone being unapologetically themself is SO contagious, and Saeyoung is exactly that - unapologetically himself.
We’ve all seen his humour, he doesn’t seem to be particularly sensitive either so you’re all good there hahaha. Obviously everyone does have their limits, so whilst their are topics/jokes that would probably make him uncomfortable (e.g. stuff relating to Saeran), overall, he’s chill and ALWAYS ready to joke around with you.
The roast battle is so real with you two LOL
“i kinda want someone stable, hard working, decisive, ambitious and who can push me out of my confort zone and vice versa.🦋”
He goofs around, but there’s no denying that this man works HARD.
Once he leaves the agency and starts his new life with you, I can imagine him being super ambitious and also aiming for stability.
His life before had been so restrictive yet so uncertain. He had to do what he was told, but never knew what was just around the corner.
This makes me think that he would crave the stability and certainty that he never had (a ‘normal’ life, if you will), but also he’d want to try so many things that he hadn’t before. He strikes me as a ‘go big or go home’ kinda guy, so I think it’s safe to say that he would be ambitious in many ways.
The only thing I don’t think he ticks the box on is decisiveness, at least not at the beginning. I think he usually knows what he wants, but rarely acts on that.
“It’s up to you”, “whatever you want” and “I don’t mind” are very common phrases for him lol. I think he would learn to be more decisive once he gets comfortable. I also think he has his moments of assertiveness though, when he’s in the right mood.
“Also someone who is family oriented and loving (someone that can cuddle me when im having a bad day)☺ and someone who can make me laugh, cause i love joking around so i kinda think i need someone who could match that🌻”
SAEYOUNG. IS. SUCH. A. FAMILY. MAN.
Again, look at what he’s done for Saeran and how deeply he cares for and loves him. A ‘normal’ family was something that was absent in his life, so when he has his own family (whether that be a found family or one he made) he would cherish that so strongly, maybe more than most.
SAEYOUNG. IS. A. CUDDLE. MONSTER.
He could be working at his desk and suddenly think “you know what? It’s snuggle time” and then he would search the house for you to give you The Snuggle™
Again, he’s also VERY observant and his attention to detail is impeccable, so he can instantly tell if you’re having a bad day and will act accordingly - aka SNUGGLE TIME
I mean, need I say more? If you want someone who makes you laugh, Saeyoung is the guy. There is never a dull day when he’s around, and the house is always filled with laughter!
So yeah....that’s my reasoning :’)) now onto your very own drabble!! This is all yours, so if there’s anything you’d like me to change or add, PLEASE let me know!! I’m more than happy to edit anything to make it more personalised for you, just shoot me a message and I’ll be on it, same goes for anything I’ve said above!!🥰
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Drabble!
“Saeyoung! Can you come here a second?”
You called out to him from the kitchen, stirring from a pot whilst its contents quietly bubbled away. You could hear the music blaring from his headphones all the way from the other room, with the occasional hum or drum on his desk. Evidently, he hadn’t heard you.
“SAEYOUNG CHOI GET YOUR FINE ASS IN HERE.”
The music ceased, followed by rapid pattering as he darted into the room, nearly skidding round the doorway. 
“I heard ‘fine ass’ and here I am,” he smirked, sauntering over to you and snaking his strong, secure arms around your middle. He swayed you from side to side, planting a wet kiss on your cheek, much to your dismay. Saeyoung merely chuckled, resting his chin on your shoulder, “What do you need, witch lady?”
“Why ‘witch lady’?”
“Well, whatever you’re cooking is giving me witchy vibes. It looks like a potion in a cauldron. Look at you with your double double toil and trouble-OW! Don’t pinch me!”
“Sorry, it’s a witch thing,” you winked, spinning around in his grip so you were face-to-face. “You sure you’re not the witch? You do have the nose for it.”
“I’ve also got the dress and hat in the attic, shall I go put it on?”
“Try this for me first.” You held the wooden spoon out to him as he took a sip, chuckling at the way his brows furrowed in thought.
He smacked his lips a few times, hummed then finally looked back to you, “It’s good.”
“That’s it? That’s all you got?”
“You do realise that my taste buds have essentially been burned off by chips and soda, right? I have no idea if something’s bad or not.”
“You’re right. I should call Jumin.”
“You can’t,” he informed, his smirk growing ever wider as he moved towards the snack cupboard, “Mr Han has a date tonight.”
The spoon clattered against the counter, your mouth agape, “You’re shitting me.”
“That’s another coin in the swear jar.” Saeyoung chucked a packet of candy in your direction, though it only hit you in the face before falling unceremoniously onto the kitchen floor, “I think we need to get your reflexes checked, babe.”
“Tell me everything.”
He took a seat on a breakfast stool and chortled as you leaned over the counter, eyes showing your eagerness to hear the gossip. And he was more than happy to provide, “He appears to be really into her. Like, really into her. She seems to just get him, you know? I could hear his smile down the phone when he told me about her earlier.”
“Earlier? Why are you only just telling me this now?!”
“Do you wanna hear the rest of it or not?”
Huffing, you perched on the seat next to him, stealing a piece of his candy despite his look of horror, “Okay, well where did he meet such a woman?”
“You’re never gonna believe it.”
“Try me.”
Saeyoung was enjoying himself far too much. He couldn’t wait another moment to witness your reaction, “She’s Zen’s co-star.”
“NO.”
“YES.”
The tea had been spilt, and things were about to get very interesting within the RFA.
Your eyes were glued to his as he continued to disclose the details. At some point you had wrapped your arm around his, his other hand encompassing yours. He abruptly stopped halfway through describing the first encounter, causing you to quirk an eyebrow impatiently, “What?”
“Do you smell burning?”
“...Fuck.”
“And another one for the swear jar.”
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@nad-zeta​ there we go my love, I hope you enjoyed your matchup!! I am so grateful for your support, it never fails to make me smile when I see you pop up in my notifs. You are beautiful, kind, bright person and you deserve the world. Thank you again for all you’ve done and all you do💛💛 Take care of yourself, my friend! xxx
(Note for other readers: I usually don’t do matchups, this was for a special occasion! I doubt I’ll open up requests for them later on, but never say never!)
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silverandarsenic-hcs · 5 years ago
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Ghost BC X Love Languages
another “kat has mental illness” post inspired by This post. But this one is much happier than my murder HCs. please enjoy. (again i didn’t do all of them because I Do What I Want) 
Papa II: He seems the most cold on the outside, compared to the others. In life, and in love. But if you really know him, that just isnt the case. Papa II loves just as fiercely and as passionately as both his brothers and the ghouls, he just shows it very differently. He won’t take you on extravagant getaways at your every whim, or pull romantic stunts in your name, or shout to the roof tops about how you’re the only one for him. But if you have a favorite flower, every night he’ll bring you home a few that he picked from the Church gardens on his lunch hour because he thought of you. He’s gentle with you - not strict, stern or callous like he is with others. He knows youre strong, but thinks the best way to nurture that is to show you small kindnesses. He won’t say I love you every three minutes like clockwork, and he will only call you by your first name unless you tell him you’d prefer something else. His love language is more focused on truly understanding his partner in every way one can imagine to understand another. 
Papa III: His love language gets misunderstood a lot. And a lot of HCs I’ve posted talk about how he loves, more so than any other of the group. We know the youngest Emeritus to be extravagant, in love and in life, to be passionate, to never hold back when it comes to self expression. And as true as those things are, when you know those things about a person, they might begin to come mundane. At first, the flowers he brings you will keep you smiling for weeks. And then it’s fancy dinners. Vacations. A sky writer to mark your name in the heavens. He tries to outdo himself with every new display of affection, but thats exactly why his perfect partner is someone who never becomes accustomed to the lavish. He doesn’t do all these things so you think better of him, or return any favors. All he wants is to keep the smile on your face. He’ll tell you he loves you when he thinks you need to hear it, and even when you don’t want to. He’ll take care of you when you’re sick, however serious, and at the end of every single day, no matter what you did, he’ll crawl into bed beside you and kiss your hair and tell you how amazing you are.
Cardinal Copia: It seems, one of the only things the cardinal can do with confidence, is love. He’s very good at it. His love language revolves around how his partner likes to be shown affection, and he’s adaptable for it. He listens to his partner extraordinarily well, and proves it to them in small gestures. Kind words, or love letters, or small thoughtful gifts. He’ll do what it takes to let his s/o know that he does hear their words, and does want to do everything in his power to make them happy, and does want this to last forever. He’s good at reading people. If you’re in a bad mood, he’ll listen to you. If you want comforting, he won’t leave until you smile, but if you want to be left alone, he’ll give you space. He’s good like that - never takes it to heart when his partner needs some alone time. After all, he only has a social capacity so high himself. 
Swiss: He’s the most casual about things. He’s honest to a fault with the people he cares about. He’ll call you babe/baby, and kiss you on the top of the head before he leaves for work every morning, and before he goes to the bathroom or the kitchen. After a long day while you two are watching TV he’ll rub you feet or your back or whatever hurts. He’ll buy you flowers, and chocolates, and on Valentine's day a beautiful necklace or bracelet you pointed out in the mall a while ago. He won’t do big things for you, because he just doesn’t know how to do them without coming off as disingenuine or cheesy, but he hopes its the little displays every day that make up for it. You’ll never have to doubt that Swiss loves you, together or apart. If he’s mad at you or doesn’t feel like you’re reciprocating his feelings, he’ll tell you instead of letting it bottle up. He won’t yell, or scream, and wants to talk about issues so you can move forward from them and understand how to treat each other better. He expects the same on your end, honesty and calm discussions. Swiss needs a partner who understands that he needs to feel just as loved and noticed as he makes you feel. 
Rain: (Okay after that thing Nyx wrote about Rain in lingerie i have a very specific idea of him in my head that i am finding it IMPOSSIBLE to convey. This is not it. I will find a way one day to explain to you how i see this good man but until then you’re getting Usual Rain.) His love language is soft. He’ll give endless words of affirmation and make sure every single second of every day that they understand how much he loves and cares for them. He’s the type to give small gifts all the time, of things that reminded him of them, but not without good cause and not too much. Once a week, maybe, and only if he thinks his s/o will really enjoy it and be flattered by it. He’s more likely to stay home more than his partner, so he’ll do things around the house to keep it nice and clean. Make the bed. Sweep. Take care of any pets that need attending too, and make sure they’re fed and exercised appropriately. He’ll cook dinner for his s/o, and hell make a new recipe once a week just for some flare and see if it gets added to the roster of Good Meals that his s/o is happy to have any time. House wife boy, I suppose. 
Mountain: He’s the most casual and quiet when it comes to love. He will do absolutely nothing and assume saying i love you once in a blue moon is more than acceptable - it’s not that he doesn't care or doesn’t think of you, he’s just a little clueless. You would have to properly sit him down and tell him “i like that you do this, but i would like a little bit more of this” for him to even realize that he isn’t making you feel how he wants to. And he would listen, he’s good for that. He won’t just do it because he was told to either - he takes it to heart that he isnt making you feel loved like you should be, and he genuinely wants to remedy that 
Aether: His love language is primarily quality time. Whether out on a walk, or on a date, or sitting on the couch silently and doing your own thing, Aether is happy to just be around his s/o. He loves being able to just spend time with them, no matter what they’re doing, and comfortable silence is important to him. It shows you’re comfortable around him, and don’t feel the need to impress or ask questions. When you speak he’ll put down his phone or whatever he’s doing, and give you his full undivided attention, and expects the same from you. He’ll treat you how he expects to be treated, but never in a way that seems like he’s expecting anything ridiculous from you. Nothing elates his heart more than hearing that his s/o is proud of him, and appreciates him and all he does. Of gifts, he’s most likely to be practical with it. If you needed something for work but didn’t have time to run to the store, or needed groceries, or needed something for the house he’ll get it for you. it’s rare that he’ll give you any gift that doesn’t serve a useful purpose except for a holiday or birthday present.  
Dew: Sometimes it can be hard to tell his romantic attraction from platonic attraction, and if you dont really read it just right, it can cause some problems for you. He’s not about any of that classic romantic shit aside from a decent cuddle at night. He tends to treat his s/o like a best friend, because that’s kind of who they are too him. They’re his first options for invites to whatever adventure he wants to go on, or when he wants to walk to the gas station across town at 4am for a slushie. He won’t be more gentle with you than he is with his friends, including a little rough housing, but he still makes sure you don’t get hurt. It can sometimes feel like you’re just one of the guys, the only difference being that you’re having sex, but you have to look closely. He makes the most effort to be around you. He’ll leave you little gifts around the house that don’t seem like gifts - half a chocolate bar, a stick he found on his walk home that he thought you might like. If you live together he’ll clean up after himself more than he would have. He won’t call you pet names unless you ask him too, but he’ll shorten your name to whatever he thinks your name should be. Change it all together if he thinks it doesn’t fit you. You just have to know Dew really well to be able to understand his love language, and for a lot, its something they never learn. (the chocolate part was inspired by another post that ive now lost so if you wrote it or have the link pls send and i will link it here! wasn’t my idea i just agree!!!) 
- Kat
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1-800-i-ship-it · 5 years ago
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what type of boyfriend do you think baam would be modern au
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Ok these r similar q’s so ima just answer them both in the same post (if you don't wanna read this much, stop at the keep reading line)
Ft. my perpetual run-on sentences (honestly to everybody who reads my posts–mad respect for you cause a) my punctuation/capitalization is terrible (grammarly goes all red-underline on me but i never fix it anyway) b) i go on tangents way too much c) i type long-ass repetitive paragraphs; tldr i appreciate yall)
I think bam would be one of those partners that’s just very clueless but also adorable at the same time, ya kno? Would do basically anything to protect his partner whom he loves very much, would probably accidentally get his partner jealous bc he’s too friendly to everyone, typical bam ahaha :D 
Hmm alright so modern bam...that one bf who’s like effortlessly hot and also adorable at the same time, very doting on his lover, slightly absent-minded, forgets his keys a lot but is super sweet and makes the ultimate puppy dog eyes so his partner can never stay mad at him 😂 is totally fine with public affection, probably oblivious to other people’s stares ahaha
Should i try a love language analysis again
Yea cause i have no life (disclaimer i am definitely not an expert on love language or character analysis, do forgive me if i am totally wrong)
Lets see...i think bam’s top (haha...pun kind of intended...nr dont kill me ok) one would be quality time, then words of affirmation and acts of service (i legit put the same thing for khun but just let me explain myself alright) 
Quality time because he really values the moments he spent with the friends he made in the tower and he appreciates each and every one of them (well, fuck rachel) but anyway, in my head bam just seems like the kind of person who would love quality time with the people he cares about <3 he’s said countless times how he would rather die than lose those that he cares about, and always rushes to protect everyone, so i think quality time would be his top one, and so as bam’s partner (ahem khun) just spending time with bam would make him happy :) and as for words of affirmation, idk i feel like bam would appreciate them a lot coming from those he loves (like khun!) if khun was like “i appreciate you” i bet bam would feel all warm and fuzzy inside and then say smth super cheesy back which would get khun to blush lmao; and finally acts of service cause bam kinda shows how he cares through saving everyone (like all the time) and yea i feel like he’d appreciate small things his partner does for him
Some quirks i think modern bf bam would have based on love languages (this totally didnt turn into headcanons...) he probably enjoys movie nights a lot cause he and his partner would just end up cuddling the entire time, esp disney movies, i bet he cries during emotionally moving movies haha :’), does the dishes/dries the dishes totally in sync with his partner, is somehow excellent at cooking and baking, makes the most op frosting that's basically as sweet as he is, but can never write down the exact amt “just a dash of sugar” “but how much sugar bam” “idk just taste it and adjust,” has an apron that says kiss the cook which his partner gladly does everyday, his partner buys his clothes cause he doesnt really have a sense of fashion (whatever fits u kno, cause he looks good in anything anyways), does his chores diligently but is quite forgetful when it comes to washing clothes, however is super thoughtful and remembers everything his partner likes/dislikes, often surprises partner with how quickly he finds out exactly how they like their drinks and food, somehow makes his partner fall over and over for him with those mesmerizing golden eyes   
Anons (is there a plural for anon??)  i hope that answered your qs 😅 if my answers are way too long do let me know :’)
...i really need to get my nonexistent sleep schedule back on track
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iamsonyeondone · 5 years ago
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red string of fate // lee taeyong
college and soulmate au! taeyong
there’s no angst in this just fluff ^^
everyone had their own red string of fate
one end tied to your pinky while the other end belonged to your soulmate
everything had been decided by that famous red string, each individual being presented with it when they reached of legal age
but no one knows where all this originated from or whoever made it up
all they knew was that the red string tied securely on their pinky will never untie, break or disappear 
unless either partners went through certain circumstances
of course everyone fawned over this magical occurrence, it being the first topic that any human would speak of
it was always ‘red string’ this or ‘fate’ that
and it made you grow tired of it by the time you graduated from high school
and that annoyance that lingered whenever someone would mention it slowly turned into anger, fueled by the incessant questions that flood your thoughts and ears every day
‘you havent had a red string yet?” or the ‘arent you scared of being alone?’
the first time you heard those questions made you fidget with worry in the beginning
and you subconsciously comforted yourself with the idea that your fate would come to you when the time was right
no one can rush something such as being destined-to-be-soulmates
but the questions doubled over and you learnt how to selectively mute their words
but that was all in the pass
the moment you saw the red string appear on your pinky you went speechless for the entire day
you had no idea how to feel or how to react because after all these years, the pesky red string finally appeared before your eyes
you even tried cutting it with a pair of kitchen scissors
let’s just say you almost lost your life from flying kitchen equipment and that the red string remained unscathed
Once you got over the phenomenon, you called up your best friend to break the news to
but you were only met with the sound of the familiar beeping
yep he hung up the moment you told him the news
because in the next five minutes, you find yuta and johnny huffing and puffing on your doormat, sweat trickling down their skin
“its,,,time,,t,to,,celebrate” yuta managed a little smile before crawling into your apartment, welcoming the cool air of the ac
for the next few hours, the three of you ramble on about the new found miracle while they explained their own experience when they found out about their own path to their destined lover
“i really thought you would end up as a cat or dog lady,” johnny said in between bites, all of you deciding to have a pizza party as a celebration
“hEY, being a crazy cat lady aint that bad,,,wait now that you said about being a dog lady,,,”
“istg y/n you take care of yourself first before actually getting one. i mean look at you, you’re still wearing the same outfit from yesterday”
“SHUT IT NAKAMOTO SAVE WATER SAVE THE EARTH”
the next few weeks, you struggle trying to focus in your lectures, your gaze always focusing the vibrant red on your smallest finger
and you cant help but try to see if you could find ‘the one’ by looking for the owner of the other end of the string
you were intensely watching the crowd from inside the campus’s cafe, sipping on your drink while you looked for someone
but it was funny; you had no idea how this person looked or how they acted but somehow your heart is pounding in your ears just by the thought
but you were brought back to the present by the waiter, he looked pretty familiar
was he in one of your lectures?
maybe you bumped into each other at a party
“you’re y/n right? that guy in the corner bought you a muffin,” he smiled sweetly
you glanced back up at his name tag. ‘kun’? oH you saw him at the bar performing magic tricks when his group of friends joined yours
“oh y-yeah,, thanks kun,” you reciprocated his smile before turning your attention back on the man in question
you’ve never seen him before but you were sure to steer clear from the guy
he had this smug smirk plastered on his face, shooting a wink your way as you awkwardly glanced away
even after an hour or so, you could feel his eyes staring right through your skull
that was until johnny slides down on the seat opposite yours, breaking his stares 
“that test nearly annihilated all my braincells,” he sighed and just as he was about to rant about the way the test was squeezing out all his brain juices, he takes a glimpse of you and his big brother ways rise up
“what’s up? something happened?” he asked in a reassuring but soft tone and the pressure on your shoulders lessen
“its nothing,,,” you trailed off, but his eyes nudged you to go on “there’s this sleazy creep trying to hit on me but you better not beat his ass. can we just,, can we just leave? i know a better spot anyway,” you mumbled everything in one breath
and johnny respected your decision albeit the strong urge to use his new found knowledge of muay thai on someone else
the both of you hurry out, johnny watching your back for you while the doorbell rang 
“damn i didnt know sleazy douchebags go to cafes too,” johnny joked to lighten the mood while the both of you walked through campus, students littering the school with tired and panicked expressions
somehow the heavy feeling in your chest seemed to find comfort in the bottom of your heart
and the thumping of your loud heart blocked out whatever johnny was talking about
maybe something about his muay thai class with haechan? he did mention how much he enjoyed it. or was it about his project for the photography club?
you were so stuck in your thoughts that johnny had already stopped in his tracks while you continued walking through the groups of students
and suddenly the loud beating of your heart escalated to your fidgety fingers and your almost sure your cheeks are softly stained red
that is until you bump your head onto something
or someone
and when you try to profusely apologize for being unaware of the person’s presence
your jaw drops at the sight of someone so beautiful you thought he was fiction
did you get a concussion and now you were hallucinating things???
noPE because the next thing that happens is the slight tugging sensation on your finger and you look down to it in confusion
you wonder when the string became so short or how it no longer dragged on concrete pavements,,
or how you could see someone else being connected on the other end
and you traced the other finger to see the gorgeous man right in front of you
you were definitely dreaming because is it even possible to be paired with someone who’s so out of your league?
apparently your soulmate agrees
because he’s flabbergasted himself, mouth gaping and struggling to come up with words to greet himself
because the both of you were too preoccupied with each other, johnny had to intercept
wingman johnathan to the rescue
“hey whats up taeyong? havent seen you around school lately,” he chuckled, breaking you out of your thoughts
“wait,,, you know him? u-h i mean-”
“yeah he came to the photography club from time to time to help ten annnnd speaking of ten, he called me like a minute ago asking for some help. maybe you can replace me for today’s study date, taeyong,”
you managed to get a glance of johnny’s sly smile before he jogged off to one of the school buildings
which was definitely not the direction of the photography club
but you were stopped from staring into his soul by the sound of taeyong clearing his throat
“you dont mind if i uhm tag along right?” and you swoon at the sound of his voice
somehow your blush had already reached the tips of your ears and you nervously nodded your head in reply
“theres this place where me and my friends go to to study and its not that far. you dont mind the outdoors right?” you mumbled the question
taeyong managed a small smile which elicits a smile from yourself as well
the next few hours of studying in the school’s garden goes by in a flash
the both of you get immersed in each other’s thoughts and opinions and even though your personalities and your likes or dislikes clash with each other
it just seemed so perfect
maybe this string of fate was making you wear a pair of rose-tinted glasses
because you barely know this guy 
and yet it felt like you’ve known him for years
days past and one study session turned into four and somehow your friend group extended as well
doyoung would drop by every once in a while and if it werent for taeyong’s presence, you would have definitely only see him as someone cold and overwhelming
or the fact that taeyong drops by the neighboring high school to see his ‘younger brothers’ because he had extra leftover from his cooking class 
cue heart pounding, happy crying, loud screaming moment because he’s so husband material
sometimes they like to tease him because what??? we have 2 parents now??
and you can see him get so flustered over the statement because getting married to you sounds like a dream
and when taeyong officially asks you out and you very calmly say yes, it becomes the most talked about relationship on campus
he had already been the top three talked about topic in school but when someone spots him with you, holding hands through the hallway, the news spread like wildfire
and for a whole week, you get bombarded with questions from random strangers about how its like to date taeyong
and you cant really give an answer because you start blushing furiously at the question and you start stammering 
and by the time you get a few words out, five minutes already passed the person who had asked you about it had already disappeared somewhere else
because what is it like to date lee taeyong?
aside from the fact that your boyfriend was sculpted carefully by the gods,,
he is one of the softest person you know
he feeds the cats and dogs on the street when you go out on dates because he has actual kibble for them in his bagpack because human food arent good for them he says
and the way he cuddles up to you when he sleeps over because the two of you cant seem to say farewell after a whole day out
taeyong is really sensitive to the cold so when autumn starts creeping up, he gets as close to you as possible which meant cuddling hours all day round
except in front of people because he’s too shy for pda
because one time he planted a soft kiss on your cheek at your apartment door and the old lady that lived a few doors down had seen the both of you and she talked about how she missed those days of being young in love
and he started malfunctioning because he became so embarrassed by it even though the old lady meant no harm at all
can we also talk about how much he spoils you? even the boys agree that he spoils you the most
chenle aka his biggest fan is jealous that you get to hear him hum you to sleep
“i know we adopted you as our parental figure but please stop stealing him from us, we’re starting to starve,” haechan complained 
“oh really?? what about,, this” and you present the lunchboxes you and taeyong made because you decided to join him 
like you’re really motivated to cook for him because he’s done so much for you??
now the boys just love you even more
because they know you’re not just after his looks especially since taeyong is really too kind for his own good
and what’s taeyong’s feelings for you?
he cant describe how much his feelings for you have escalated 
because one moment he feels so comfortable with you, sleeping with his head on your lap while you attempt to read through your notes
and another moment his heart is beating so fast from being so close to you because the lift is crowded with people and he tries to shield you away from the others
and most of the time when you’re in full focused mode, he chuckles and his heart feels like there’s flowers blooming in his chest from the way your antics naturally show up
or the way he tries to wake up a few minutes earlier so he can bask in the moment with you in his arms while he brushes the stray strands of hair on your face
and its just,,, the purest form of love
“you dont look so good, have you been overworking yourself again?” you huff worriedly, pressing the back of your hand gently on his face while yours was just inches away from his
and he takes a moment to stare back into your eyes, a small smile growing on his lips
“am i sick? maybe that’s because all i think about is you,”
a/n: oh what im updating??? okay im just gonna say this first that this will not be happening regularly due to my schedule and i only try to write when im really inspired and motivated which is like every 6 months im so sorry but i hope you guys like this one and i’ll try my best in the future ❤
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johnnys-so · 6 years ago
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johnny as a boyfriend, please? /sends finger hearts your way/ you'd make a girl happy
A/N: ListEN, i could never back away from a johnny as a boyfriend post. this is all think about so ofTEN, its like its burned into my brain so let’s have at it, shall we?
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Johnny is such an extra boy on a whole and i don’t think he’d be any differen when it comes to your first meeting. he’s this magical kind of person (read: extrovert) who finds it so very easy to aproach other people and break them out of their shell. It’s truly his best part.
and your first meeting would not be any different. Even if you are awkward as an introvert or you're simply not doing well in a new and unfamiliar situation, johnny would be the kind of person who'd reach out first and ask you if you needed help. (what you don't know and only find out later, is that there was a lot of nudging involved from Ten)
imagine johnny slowly nudging the corner of your sweatshirt because he can see you stressed and feeling unfamiliar at this random beach party you seem to have encountered, but also - he didn't want to come off as some creepy dude who's trying to hit on you
as you turn around, you see him smile bashfully. one of his slow cooking smiles that start from the edge of his lips and slowly push his cheekbones up until he has to ruffle his hair to have something to do with his hands.
he's the kind of person who'd ask you if you were okay, if you needed help. and he'd stress that he would leave you alone pRONTO if that's what you wanted. most likely to make a dumb joke about jEEZ LOUISE HOW MANY PEOPLE ARE ON THIS BEACH until ten coughs loudly into his hands COUGH-"sTOP"-COUGH
you'd smile at his approach. atleast, he was trying to make you feel better. an action you truly appreciated in that moment.
as a first time encounter - johnny would be very cheery and indulgent on the outside but observant by the end of the day. he's not a complete extrovert and you can really see how he has these bursts of energy but they die down soon enough and he'd be content to sit down on the beach on some far away corner (awAY from the party) and watch the fireworks with a stranger. he might be too tired to even suggest putting on some music. i think he'd love to switch off sometimes and not do crazy stuff - but like just exist in the silence you know?
i feel like out of everyone in NCT, Johnny and jungwoo would take the "this is something but we haven't named this relationship" stage very well. taeyong, jaehyun and mark would LOSE their shit and Yukhei and Ten would blow through this phase (and their partner). but johnny can deal with the uncertainity of it all. one, because he's way too busy to do anything else other than work work work. but also because, i think he's seen enough relationships and lost loves to understand that you can't force someone to stay with you. maybe he hasn't seen all that love at all, but more than patient, johnny seems accepting to me. accepting of the vague amount of little affection that someone can conjur up for him. you know what? he'll take whatever you give him.
obviously the best partner for him at this stage would be someone who's willing to walk it out with him. i think he'd be willing to cajole and comfort someone who's having a stressful time without naming the relationship (And the part about dating a celebrity and what happens when people find out). and while i have no doubt that he'd be a great "helpful and trustworthy oppa", i don't think he can handle that very long at this age. i think he'd do great with someone that, sure, stresses out (because it gives him an opportunity to take care of them and he does like being needed) but also gives him that positive reinforcement of - yes, i need AND want you, as a person and as a boyfriend.
As a full blown boyfriend - Johnny is just bloody oscillating between high key energetic and mad planner of dates AND lowkey lets just cuddle all day. he could work either scenarios.
would love to suggest weekend trips to japan/ remote corners of korea/ taiwan because that means he can get away from the cameras and he'd get to stay with you in a hotelroom and do unspeakable but fun things. johnny is so FUCKING touchy all the time but very PG15 about it until you get him to bed - this boy feels like he might be uncertain until you start things. but when you make it clear that you want him, there is no stopping him. he'd make sex all about you AND him. there is pleasure and excitement and exPLORATION buddies. enjoy this wild ride
would never suggest getting a pet because he'd feel too guilty about not taking care of them enough bUT would buy you incessant amount of plushies so "now you match with me! and you can imagine im this hunky teddy bear and cuddle me - no, the bear - to sleep"
the kind that wants to scream into his pillow or go run or work out when he misses you like mad when he's on tour or when you're busy with work and cant seem him.
he usually finds it so easy to say things to people but this idea of missing and pining away for a lover might be a new intense emotion for him and i dont think he'll deal well with that. god i would pay actual money to see the tense knot of his eyebrows when he's trying to explain just how much he loves you and how he's afraid one day you'll wake up and not want him anymore.
ah but my lovable boy, how could anyone not want you?
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wings-of-indigo · 5 years ago
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A Note on Relationships (that shouldn't be controversial but probably will be)
At work the other day, I got asked by one of my coworkers if I was single. On this particular occasion, that coworker was male. However, before everyone thinks this is another post about misogyny and the assumptions men make about women's availability in the workplace, let me note that I have been asked this question before by several female coworkers of various ages, but all near or over thirty.
And Everytime, when I reply that I am currently single and generally happy to be so(and go on to explain my reasons for this rare state of single happiness) I've gotten a combination of Looks.
There's the 'ooookaaaay' Look, the 'you're weird' Look, the 'You're wasting your youth' Look, and the 'You'll regret that later' Look. (Just to name a few). I've gotten used to it.
In the interests of full and unbragging disclosure, I know that I can be considered 'attractive' for a female (And wow that was hard to say outside my head. But the difficulties female assertiveness about appearance will be saved for another date). Dancing all the time keeps my relatively skinny by non dance world standards (I'm 5'3.5", usually within 5lbs of 130 lbs and I generally wear an upscale size 4), and while I'm definitely not the archetypal model thin ballerina, the fact that I fit a small size 4 (occasionally cursing and swearing) states my point quite neatly. I fit into conventional standards of female beauty.
Here's the thing though, about those Looks I mentioned earlier. I didn't date in high school, and I generally don't date now. Sure, if I get lonely or drunk enough I'll window shop OkCupid at one in the morning, but rarely do I have the inclination to follow through once recovered. And for a lot of people my age, that seems to be weird. In our society Single people arent supposed to be happy about it. Especially women.
And that's just stupid.
Most people agree that a single-by-choice man, even a confirmed I-dont-ever-want-romance man, batts no eyes in any context. A woman of the same, however, is immediately assumed to have something wrong with her. Either she is traumatized from some past experience, or she is simply defective and frigid. Even a woman who has previously proved her 'correctness' with marriage, even children, is not immune. If that woman does not want to enter another romantic relationship (and I'm including the full spectrum of queer identities as possible partners whenever I say marriage, partner, or romantic) after a time, then she is Wrong and Broken. Even if she has been abused by her partner and doesn't feel comfortable or capable of exposing herself like that again. Even if she has lost her long term 'soul mate' and does not want anything or anyone else after their loss. One of our media's favorite romantic tropes is The Woman who Learns to Overcome her Tragic Past and find Happiness in the (99% male) Protagonist's Romantic and Sexual Intrest. Little girls are brought up to dream and plan their future wedding from the time they know what a wedding IS (which, spoiler alert: is pretty damn young. I first remember playing 'wedding' when I was about five and got a box of dress up costumes for Christmas).
So, it makes sense that a woman or girl, especially young not engaging or desiring to engage in Romantic Ventures hits some socially ingrained trigger points. It's still stupid.
Here's some reasons why (for me, y'all night have your own valid reasons). While not at intensive like I am now, I am holding down a full time job while doing anywhere from 15-20 hours of dance classes in studio, not counting any supplemental physical training and gym time I put in outside of class, while finishing an unrelated Bachelors Degree online, trying to shop for and cook dance supporting meals on a strict budget, do laundry, get a healthy amount of sleep, go to acting and singing coaching, and find funding for an upcoming dance program should pass auditions. I really, really don't have the time or emotional availability for a relationship.
And that is key here. People seem to underestimate the importance of emotional labor on both sides in a healthy relationship- you can't just show up to date night or activities together and make small talk. There's a reason people talk about 'emotional avaliabilty', and in most traditional 1950s style relationships it's the woman's job to avaliable for whichever man she's involved with. Unfortunately, the vast majority of men still seem to carry an unconscious bias towards this kind of relationship.
And, I'm sorry (not), but Im really not interested in That. I'm reminded of a tumblr post about cat ladies, and why men seem to think that's an insult to woman rather than themselves- that they're so unappealing they can't get a man. Leaving aside the sexist assumption a womans ambition ahould be to 'get a man'- Dude, if I wanted a man, I could get one. Any girl off the street could get one easier than ordering takeout when she's too tired to cook.
The problem lies not in the getting, but with the shopping. While I identify as bisexual and happily enjoy fun times of the erotic bent, one of my personal quirks is that I Can't Do One Nights. This is not misplaced slut shaming- I am fully aware and bear no disapproval towards pursuing casual sexual attraction. Your body, your choice. I just know myself, and that any sexual interaction with a stranger would be exceedingly unpleasant for me in an emotional sense.
I tend to be extroverted, and I love people. But I also grew up in an alcoholic household with a very dysfunctional and fraught marriage. My mother never beat us, but she's still controlling and can still make me feel like shit, and my dad still tends to be an emotional leech with terrifyingly destructive rages. (Yes, those are mental health issues, and I still love them-distantly- but it's not my job as their child to fix them or get them help.)
As a result, It takes me a while to trust someone, especially emotionally. And, as a female, sex is a huge act of trust and emotional investment.
I would love to create the loving marriages and relationships I see my friends having. It's one of my future fantasies- creating a home with a life partner, sharing dinner and cuddles and movies and giving each other good sex.
But here's the thing. I can give myself satisfying sex. And I, quite frankly, have other dreams too, ones that are going to demand a superhuman level of work. Getting back to the 'shopping' anology- the sad fact is that it is going to be very difficult to find a man who doesn't expect his partner to place him and his dreams above her own, and just as difficult to train one out of that mindset. (And girlfriends for girls are about as common as rainbow unicorns).
Having grown up as I did, I might have ridiculously high standards for romance. But I made a vow to never be my parents, and frankly I see no point in taking time away from what I want more than anything in order to appease an archaic societal preference.
Love does not mean the surrendering of self, and I am not going to devote myself anything less than something extraordinary.
So that's why I'm single, and I'm fine with that. Suck it.
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lofitojii · 7 years ago
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Toxic [VI]
Summary: “We all know him to be a proud, unpleasant sort of man; but this would be nothing if you really liked him.” -Jane Austen, Pride and Prejudice. His dark demeanor is nothing more than a mystery to you. His dark past explains the reasoning of his desired passion to completely destroy every inch of your innocence.
Warning: Angst [M]
Word Count: 4k
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The way his lips felt against your skin, sweet and sensitive yet igniting the fire you had yet to grow familiar with. It was a welcoming feeling, having his presence near you, with you, touching you. The way his lips would graze across your collarbone, knowing it was a ticklish spot for you, or when his hands would grip your upper thigh, causing a small squeal to escape your lips every time. He did things that he knew he would get a reaction out of, not because he was trying to bother you, but because he loved the reactions he got from it.
Chanyeol had lived up to his word, saying he wouldn’t see anyone else if you had promised not to either. In all reality, it wasn’t hard for you. You knew you had fallen for Chanyeol so it was easy to focus on him but you could tell Chanyeol had an issue. He had told you over and over that he liked you more than he wanted to. He had grown frustrated, not knowing how to handle his emotions, which you anticipated when he confessed to you the night of his party. As you thought of it, Chanyeol and you had been seeing each other for little over a month, after his birthday coming and going, not really doing much since it was over the small break you had.
Finals were around the corner, you could feel the tension grow throughout campus as study rooms were booked, classes being held at weird hours to catch up on work you didn’t understand. You weren’t too worried about your finals, knowing that you really had worked hard to get where you were. You found yourself slipping in one of your classes, but if it wasn’t for Chanyeol pointing it out, you don’t think you would have been able to get back up to an A.
That’s the thing about Chanyeol, he’s quiet, reserved, standoffish. He doesn’t like to confront things that are difficult for him nor does he like talking about his feelings or aspirations, but he does care about his friends. He looks out for them, making sure they’re doing their best. You didn’t need to ask Chanyeol about that, it was just obvious in his actions. The way he dragged you to the library rather than you dragging him, or when he told Jongin he would tutor him in economics if he needed the help. It was all about the little things with Chanyeol.
He would do the smallest of things to show you he was trying. The way he would slip his hand into yours, letting you knew he was there. It took some time to get him to hold your hand in public but you never pushed him to do it. Eventually, you would just have to wait for him to make the move. This was his game you were playing, you had to play by his rules or not at all.
You let your hair fall over your paper as you studied the small section of notes you had written for your science exam that following day, trying your best to cram in a few extra hours of studying before you took your finals. Chanyeol sat across from you, tapping away at his calculator for his math final he had the same day as your science final. He had been a great study partner, motivating you more than you wished, but really helping you along the way.
You looked up, seeing Chanyeol’s reading glasses slowly slip from the bridge of his nose only to be pushed back as Chanyeol noticed them falling. He let out a small sniff, bringing his sweater to his nose to rub it clean from being uncomfortable. “Are you going to study or just stare at me all night?” He smirked, looking up from his paper, catching your eyes. You just laughed, taking off your own reading glasses, setting them down to the side of you.
“I just like how you look is all,” you shrugged, causing his smile to grow as he leaned back in his seat. He motioned you over towards him, signaling for you to get up out of your seat. You stood up, letting Chanyeol guide you so you were now sitting in his lap, his head buried into your shoulder as he placed small kisses along your shoulder blade. It was a small gesture, but it was a moment you wanted to hold on to. The way his hands lazily draped around your waist, his head hiding away into your body. You loved his touch, craved it even. Every time his touch left your skin, a feeling you needed more of, more of not only his touch, but him.
“What are we doing for dinner?” he asked, finally bringing his head up and looking up at you as you sat there on his lap, legs hanging through the armrest on either side of him.
“Well, Sehun texted earlier and said he cooked dinner if we wanted some.” You could feel Chanyeol tense under your touch, his jaw clenching as he looked away. “What?”
“Why are still talking to him?” You looked down at him, raising an eyebrow only to have a smirk play across your lips.
“Is someone jealous?” He shook his head, shaking as he let it hang low before looking back up at you.
“Oh honey no. I know you’re mine, I just want to keep it that way.” The way the words escaped his lips, dancing around in your head, replaying the way his raspy voice let it slip. You felt your insides shiver as you heard it over and over again, replaying like a broken record.
Chanyeol let out a sigh, sliding your body off his lap so he could stand up and stretch out. “If you want to, you can run off and hang with your little boyfriend Sehun.”
“Chanyeol,” you frowned, leaning against the table, crossing your arms over your chest. He chuckled, mimicking your actions as he towered over you.
“What? How would you feel if I went and hung out with a girl I made out with and knew they liked me? I’m just saying, you’d be just as uncomfortable.” He had a point, you knew you’d be upset if he did that, there was no doubt. After what went down that night, you knew you had hurt Sehun. The following morning, you had left Chanyeol to sleep since you knew he was going to be hungover no matter what you did, so you let him be. Sehun was already awake when you entered the kitchen, seeing him scrolling on his phone as he had a cup of coffee in front of him.
“Morning,” you awkwardly tucked your hair behind your ear, approaching Sehun who gave you a weak smile.
“Morning,” he replied, placing his phone down on the counter. You didn’t know where to start. You didn’t know whether you should start apologizing or just cut straight to the point at how you liked him, but not in that way. You enjoyed having Sehun as a friend and there was no doubt you felt bad that part of you had used him to make Chanyeol jealous. “Sehun, I-”
“Hey,” he stopped you. “Before you say anything, it’s okay. I know.” You didn’t know if it was relief or fear that had taken over your body as he cut you off. “I know how it is. But no hard feelings. You’re still one of my best friends.” You had been glad that Sehun didn’t take it as harshly as you were playing it out to be in your head. You did care for Sehun, more than most of your friends you have had in your life, but it was the fact you had used him.
You placed your hands on the counter, twiddling your thumbs, trying to form some sort of sentence. “I’m still sorry.” Sehun just smiled, getting up from his spot and coming over towards you. He pressed his lips to your forehead, reaching behind you and grabbing a cup from the cupboard from above you. He placed it in your hands and backed up.
“He’s going to need water. He gets sick the morning after he drinks a lot. Just a heads up.” And with that, he went about his day, and you went about yours. Regardless of his words of kindness and understanding, you still felt bad. You didn’t want to and no matter how many times he told you not to feel bad, you couldn’t help it.
Chanyeol sat back down, gathering his things into his backpack as you sat there, lost in thought. It wasn’t until he finally zipped his bag up, slinging it over his shoulder. “We’re not dating so I really can’t tell you what to do. Call me later though.”
“Where are you going?” You finally asked, a worried expression obviously plastered across your face. Chanyeol just laughed, coming over and placing a small kiss on your forehead before pulling you into a hug.
“I’m just going to go home, finish up a paper for my English class. Plus, I still have some unpacking to do. Come by later or something.” He pulled you closer to his face by lifting your chin, pressing his soft lips into yours. “That was basically me asking you to come over later.”
“I will,” you tried to smile as his hand squished your cheeks, making it hard for you to really talk. He just laughed, pushing your lips out further as he squished your cheeks closer together. He kissed you once more before taking off, leaving you alone in the small study room. You exhaled before finally regaining your train of thought, packing your things up so you could go meet your friends for dinner.
When you arrived at Sehun’s, it seemed empty. Everyone was moving out, moving into new places as they were about to enter their last year of college the following semester. Jongin greeted you with a hug, letting you walk in past all the boxes stacking in the living room. The kitchen still smelled of the food Sehun had said he made a little earlier, making your stomach make an inhuman noise. “Someone’s hungry.” Jongin joked, moving past you into the kitchen.
“Where’s Chanyeol?” Sehun asked as you approached him, dishing you up a plate of food. You exhaled, sitting down on a bar stool, running your hands through your already messy hair as you stressed over the simplest question.
“Home. He had some unpacking to do. Plus, that math exam tomorrow,” you replied, stress laced in your response. Sehun frowned, placing the plate of stir fry in front of you. He didn’t reply, instead dishing up a plate for Jongin instead who was overly excited about the food.
You didn’t really like how Chanyeol had been neglecting to see his friends since he moved out. You didn’t know if it was because you had gone on a date with Sehun or just because of his weird mood wings he tends to get. It was not only frustrating for you, but for his friends as well. Sehun had mentioned he hadn’t seen Chanyeol since he moved out when they got back from their small break, heartbreak prominent in his words. You wanted to step up and say something to Chanyeol but didn’t want to overstep any boundaries.
“How’s he doing?” Sehun collected you from your thoughts. “Chanyeol.”
“He’s good,” you shrugged, not really knowing how to answer that question. There wasn’t much you could say. Even now, Chanyeol was a bit secretive about his personal life. You had come to learn that you can’t just ask Chanyeol how he is, he has to come to you.
“He really does like you,” Sehun spoke, shoving food into his mouth as he nodded. You waited for him to let it pass, wanting him to continue with his statement. “I haven’t seen him like this in a while. Be careful though, he’s known to be a bit…”
“Rude? Asshole? Flakey?” Jongin joked, causing Sehun to glare in his direction. You couldn’t help but laugh at his small comment.
“He’s just not good at commitment. Be careful, okay?” Sehun was only looking out for you, you knew he had a good heart behind it. Despite the messy situation you had gotten yourself into, you were glad you could still have a friend like Sehun around. The only problem was that Chanyeol was overprotective, didn’t want you around him. You respected it, making sure you weren’t alone with Sehun, but in the end, it came down to trust. You wanted Chanyeol to trust you, not having a reason to say otherwise.
Did you trust Chanyeol?
It was a question that bounced around in your thoughts more often than usual. With the way Chanyeol liked to keep to himself, it was hard to say whether or not you could trust him. Every time you would sit down in a class next to a group of girls, you would hear things like how they hadn’t seen or heard from Chanyeol in over a month, the same time he had promised you. It was situations like that where you felt like you could trust him. Where you felt like he was serious about being someone you wanted to be with.
You said your goodbyes to Jongin and Sehun, leaving so you could go meet Chanyeol at his place. He had moved to the other side of town, closer to where he worked. It was a nice place, being a townhouse that was bigger than your average. You pulled into his driveway, right next to his car, like you had been doing for the past two weeks. You walked into the living room, placing your things down by the front door to see the place was rather empty. “Chanyeol?” You called out, hoping that he would pop out of the kitchen but there was no response. You walked up the steps, making your way down the rather long hallway, coming to his room. “Chanyeol?” You asked, tapping on the door. When you opened it, you saw Chanyeol sitting on the end of his bed, Lisa resting closer to the headboard. They both saw you come in, smiles wide as you entered. “Oh, I didn’t know you were here.”
“Was in the neighborhood, thought I’d stop by,” Lisa replied, lifting her body so she was looking at you. Seeing Lisa and Chanyeol together brought you back to the day Sehun had told you about their little fling they had back during their freshman year. Yes, Lisa was seeing Yuna and wasn’t exactly into boys anymore but it still made you feel sick. “I should get going though. Yuna should be here soon. It was good seeing you Yeol. And I’ll see you at home later, I hope?” She smiled, squeezing your arm before leaving the room.
“Surprise visit?” you asked as Chanyeol got up from his spot at the end of the bed and came over towards you. He pressed his lips to your forehead before moving past you, going out of his room and making his way towards the downstairs.
“Yeah,” he shrugged. “Wanted to come say hi. I wasn’t doing anything so we caught up.” You followed him downstairs, into the kitchen. You didn’t want to confront the situation but you were tired of this game of avoiding confrontation.
“Why didn’t you tell me about you and Lisa?” You blurted out, causing Chanyeol to raise an eyebrow.
“It was so long ago. It doesn’t matter.”
“It does matter,” you crossed your arms. “You dated. For a long time too.” You could tell Chanyeol was getting angry with you, but you didn’t care at this point. You hated that everything was on his terms, you had to defend yourself every once in a while.
“So I can’t hang out with one of my friends alone but you can go and hang out with someone I’ve told you I don’t like you hanging out with?” He crossed his arms over his chest, leaning against the counter as he waited for your response.
“It’s different. I didn’t date Sehun. I went on a date with him.” Chanyeol laughed, shaking his head as he pulled his bottom lip between his teeth.
“What? Do you not trust me or something?” Your silence was enough for him to know that you weren’t quite sure where you stood with him. You wanted to trust him, more than anything you wanted that, but it was hard. “You don’t trust me.”
“Chanyeol,” you started. He quickly stopped you, raising a hand.
“I don’t need to hear it. I know I’m not an expert on these kinds of things but I thought being in a relationship meant you trusted one another.” You were taken back by his comment, not really knowing how to react. You couldn’t help but feel the butterflies form in your stomach. “What?”
“You said relationship,” you pointed out, feeling the smile creep across your face. Chanyeol just looked at you, knowing exactly what he had said. He let out a sigh, finally walking over towards you, reaching out, pulling at your sweater. He rested his body against yours, letting his head fall to your shoulder.
“You know what I mean,” he finally spoke, his voice soft. You did understand what he was saying, knowing that he was being sincere with his words. You didn’t want to push him any more than you had but you also couldn’t keep pretending like everything was okay either. You lifted your hands, giving Chanyeol’s arms a small squeeze to reassure him that you had heard what he said. “I’m trying here.”
You were both pulled from the small moment you shared by your phone ringing. You let out a sigh, reaching into your back pocket and sliding to unlock the call. “Hello sweetie. How are you?” It was your mother calling to check up like she did every week. You pushed Chanyeol away from you, walking into the living room area and taking a seat on the couch.
“I’m good. How are you?” You asked, playing with the ring you had gotten from her not too long ago.
“Good. I’m calling about Christmas? You’re coming home right?” You could hear Chanyeol shuffle around in the back, trying his best not to listen in on your phone call but you knew he couldn’t help it.
“Umm yeah. I’ll be home.”
“Good. I miss you honey! Good luck on your final tomorrow! I’ll talk to you soon!” Your mother hung up, leaving a dead line to ring through your ear before you finally pulled your phone away. You sighed, resting your head against your hand as you propped your elbow up on the armrest.
“Who was that?” Chanyeol finally asked, coming over and sitting down next to you, beer in hand. He lifted it to his lips, wrapping an arm around you in the same swift movement.
“My mom asking about Christmas.” It wasn’t that far away. Maybe two weeks tops? It had come faster than you had thought it would. Chanyeol nodded, not giving you an answer. “What are you doing for Christmas?”
“Probably staying here.”
“You can’t do that. What about your family? They must miss you.” His face fell, enough for you to notice the mood change. “Yeol?”
“I just don’t want to go home.” The way his mood had changed from calm and collected to frustrated and upset really made you worry about what was going on in his mind. He got up from his spot, making his way back into the kitchen. You followed, trying to stop him from being so angry.
“Chanyeol please,” you finally stopped him. “What the hell is going on? Every time I mention your family, you freak out.” He didn’t reply. He wasn’t even looking at you. “You’re going to have to talk to me at some point. I’m not trying to be mean, I’m just-”
“I don’t have a family to go back to,” he finally spoke, his fist clenched as he stood there, almost lifeless if it wasn’t for his stiff jaw. You didn’t know what to say, once again speechless and taken back.
“What about when you leave town?”
“I go see my foster brother and his family,” he sighed, still not making eye contact. You felt your heart ache, not because of the news, but the way he sounded when he spoke. He was just as broken as his voice was. “I can’t keep showing up to his place like that though. He has his own family now.” He didn’t look at you, not once. Instead, you finally saw something you thought you would never see. Chanyeol broke down, leaning against the kitchen counter as he hid his face away into the palm of his hands.
Chanyeol wasn’t some kind of cold hearted man who didn’t care what people thought of him. He wasn’t the person he presumed to be. Instead, he was a man who was lost, scared, didn’t know where to turn when he needed help. He was someone who had been on his own for so long, not having anyone to look after him.
You walked over, gently placing your hand on his shoulder, giving it a small squeeze. He looked up at you from his hunched over position. His eyes were red, not like he’d been crying, more that he had been trying to hold it back. “You don’t have to talk about it if you don’t want to.” He got up, keeping his eye contact with you as he regained his tall position.
“I don’t like talking about it. It’s something I just found to be more personal, something I’d rather keep to myself. I’ve worked so hard to get here, getting into college, having a stable job, being able to buy my own place like this. It’s not that I don’t want someone else in my life, someone I can trust and come to when I need it, it’s just that I’m scared. I’m fucking terrified, Y/n. I don’t know how to function like a normal human. I’m so fucked up.” This time, Chanyeol let himself break, letting the salt water tears fall down his red cheeks. It was the first time Chanyeol seemed to show any sort of emotion rather than pissed off.
Things made sense, just about everything. His attitude, his constant secrets, his need for reassurance from you. He was scared, just like you, only for a different reason. He wasn’t scared that you were going to leave him for someone else, it was more a fear that you were going to leave him for someone or something better. His abandonment issues were present every time you would leave to go home or if you left upset with him. You didn’t notice until he finally came forward, explaining his fears.
You wrapped your arms around Chanyeol’s waist, letting him rest his body against yours. His grip was shakier, the way you could hear his sobs muffled into your shoulder. It broke your heart, every little broken sound that came from his lips. You wanted to just sit there, hold him until he was better, try to glue his broken pieces back together.
You lifted your body so you could look at him in the eyes as you spoke to him. “Why don’t you come home with me this Christmas?”
“Y/n I-”
“Not as my boyfriend. But as my guest. Just come and spend it with my family.” Chanyeol lifted his sleeve, wiping away his fallen tears. He smiled, looking down at his feet before finally pulling you into his chest.
“What if I did come as your boyfriend?”
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velvetcarat-blog · 7 years ago
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11 Questions Tag ~
Okay so it’s been ages since I was tagged by @ineedyixing, it took me so long to answer and think of questions myself jhdgdhj but HERE IT IS 
Also note:1)  I really enjoyed reading your answers!  2) I hope you won’t mind that I used my ult bias group Seventeen instead of EXO, because I don’t have a bias (yet) in EXO (it’s a work in progress okay dhaha) and I tried but I dont know them well enough yet to complete questions well haha ;3
So as you guys may know my very ultimate bias is Seventeen’s sunshine Seokmin so- here we go ;;
1.     If you could ask your bias for just one thing, what would you request?
Aaah okay starting off with a really hard question... If anything was possible, I would ask him to spend one day together, because I’d really like to get to know him and see what a day in his life looks like! Realistically I’ d just ask for a photo or maybemaybe for him to sing something ^.^
2.     It’s been a hard day for you. All you can think about is all the hardships you have going on. You’re going home in a rush, looking forward to chill for a while. There’s someone on the street hurrying somewhere, just like you are. Suddenly you bump your shoulder into a stranger. It turns out to be your bias. What will happen next? How do you react? Do you say something?
I’d honestly be so out of it I’d just stare wondering if that was really him who I just saw?? But he’s hurrying somewhere right so I wouldn’t have the guts to say anything jhfgfjh I know Im a passive rock
3.     Would you rather go to an EXO (in this case svt ;3) concert or spend 2 hours with your bias? Why?
I would rather spend two hours with my bias, see first question as well haha! I would really like to experience this sunshine in real life ok TT
4.     You have the opportunity to go to Seoul, SK. Would you try to fit in with the civilians or would you visit tourist attractions solely?
Ah this is interesting! Now I’ve thought about this and what I would do is try and find someone in the area who also speaks English and is willing to be my guide and show me around a bit! That way I can really see what life is like there for the civilians, but a visit to Seoul couldn’t be complete without also visiting some tourist attractions right :3 If I’d have to go alone I would probably end up mostly visiting tourist attractions because I’m really not one to explore on my own and go out of my comfort zone a lot.
5.     While you’re there, you’re on your way to a restaurant. You’re dressed all nice, ready to feel alive for the night. Your friends texted you the address but you get lost. You stop a random person on the street asking for directions, but it’s your bias! Do you stutter? Do you flirt? Do you ask for a selca? Do you invite him along, as he helps you nicely and seems like a genuinely nice person? Do you pretend, do all this without revealing that he’s your bias?
Aw man, getting lost like that is so me hahah ;; I would be so shocked lmao, I wouldn’t stutter but probably start rambling explaining why Im lost and all that oh boy. I would not flirt if I ever met him because I don’t want to make us both uncomfortable haha and also because wow nope my brain is still trying to process that he’s standing in front of me. As he helps me and is really nice, I’d probably calm down a bit and bring it up * awkwardly * like hey, ehm, aren’t you Seventeens Dokyeom? ;3 10/10 would ask if it’s okay to take a selca because cmon this is a one in a million chance and I think he wouldn’t mind~ Maybe, if I feel comfortable around him, I’ll confess that he’s my bias haha. To be honest I could see him asking himself who I like best in Seventeen dhahah
6.     You’re a journalist and your boss tells you that your next interview for the magazine is with EXO (Svt in my case :3). Do you still take the task even though you stan the group or do you pass it for someone else who wouldn’t get biased while asking some questions? What do you do? Are you professional or do you let the fangirl inside take over?
I would not be able to pass up that chance eventually, after thinking about it a lot. I think it wouldn’t necessarily hurt my professionality, especially since they act very polite and professional themselves, which helps. I’m big on professional attitude and I would really be ashamed towards both my boss and Seventeen if I let my fangirl side come out when interviewing. Afterwards I might tell them that I’m actually a big fan of their music though! :3
7.     You’re talking to a guy online for weeks. Eventually you meet up in a public space but you see that he is your bias! Are you upset he lied about who he was or do you get over it and enjoy the rest of the date?
Aish this is so hard to imagine since Ive never been in a situation like this. I think I would be really confused mainly. I’d probably be weirdly happy but also pretty mad but also I wouldn’t dare to just lash out at the guy who I always admired when he’s standing right in front of me. I’d probably just ask him why he felt it necessary to lie and why he didn’t at least tell me who he was before meeting up! I want to hear his side and have everything explained. If he genuinely apologizes and has a decent explanation for it I’ll try to get over it, but it probably would take some time for me to fully trust him again.
8.     What song do you associate with your bias? Why?
Aju Nice! Not only does his powerful voice suit the musical burst of the song incredibly well, the energy of the song also reflects his playful, but manly image. I don’t want to ignore his more sensitive side though, actually there should also be a ballad to describe him haha~
9.     If it were to choose between your bias and your bias wrecker for a relationship, who would you end up with? Or would you go for another member?
Seokmin or Minghao? Hmm this is hard. I don’t think Minghao would suit me personalitywise though (also BOI IF YOU DAB ONE MORE TIME ) so I’d choose Seokmin then. I’m not sure if we would get along well actually. I like him for his energy and bright personality, but that’s because I’m usually NOT like that. I think he would be better with someone who’s also very cheerful and energetic~ Out of Seventeen, I think I’d probably go for Hoshi. He still has that bright energy but as a leader I think he also has a more serious side and is good at taking responsibility, which is something I really need in a partner.
10.  If you could live with a member for a month while in Seoul, who would you chose? Like in a flat. You’d have to share a flat.
Honestly, probably Mingyu. I like things to be mostly clean and organized so ;3 Also I’m pretty bad at cooking so maaaaaybe we can eat together sometime and I can enjoy his cooking skills> hahaha.
11.  What makes your bias so special to you? How did he touch your heart and why did you choose him?
Honestly, I don’t remember how Seokmin became my bias. Was it the opening of Aju Nice? Was it him dancing with a frying pan on One Fine Day? I can’t recall what happened but over time he got my attention more and I just fell in love. He’s got everything honestly, from his looks to his dancing to his powerful and emotional singing to his gags and dorkiness. I get the feeling that he’s a sensitive guy too though, and I hope he doesn’t just put on a smile and hide it when he’s having a hard time. all I can say is WHATTA MAN
 Allright I did it!! Thanks again for tagging me :) I will tag @vitaminniedk,@jhopejumper, @mintdae and @kkimingyu to do my set of questions. I think some of you guys already did this challenge so don’t feel pressured :3 Skip it if you want to bc wow I know this takes quite some time!
1.      Describe yourself using things your bias has said.
2.      If you could go on a one week holiday with your bias, where would you go? What would you guys do?
3.      Who in your bias group has a similar personality to you?
4.      If you and your bias were a couple, what would most likely be something you fight about?
5.      Follow-up: imagine you guys are arguing over something and things actually get pretty heated, up to a point that he starts shouting at you, which he has never done before. How would you react?
6.      You’re visiting a theme park with your bias group and there’s a haunted house that has a reputation for being one of the scariest ones around! Only two people get to go in at a time. Who do you choose to go with?
7.      Which song from your bias group expresses best how you feel about them?
8.      Your favourite and least favourite song from your bias/bias group?
9.      Christmas is approaching! If you could celebrate this Christmas with your bias, how would you guys spend the holidays?
10.   Are you on Santa’s list of nice kids or naughty kids?
11.   All I want for Christmas is …. (complete the sentence with your ultimate wish :D)
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where else can you find native speaking friends besides games cause I don't really enjoy playing them and language exchange sites are full of strange guys and perverts
im not really sure because i never went out looking for it per say it just came naturally…
im a firm believer of fate and everything happening for a reason and so i think i was meant to find 윤규. what are the odds that he was on at the same time as me (14hr time diff and his work), was in the same game, on the same team, and that he would come up to me (out of the other 5 of us) and emote lol and i just found out he had recently switched over to america servers not long before we met so for me it’s kind of obvious that we were fated to meet. also after i added him as a friend i probably wouldn’t have talked much with him to be honest but he came while i was with my friends and spectated my game so i added him to our group and the rest was history. something made him come spectate it’s just….i truly believe we were meant to meet and that’s why things went the way it did.
so what does this have to do with your question? well i think one reason my friendship with him is so strong and profound is because we met as “normal” friends would. we didn’t go to each other to take a benefit away you know? we didn’t do it to gain a skill, it was just two people who wanted to be close friends. but i think this can also be achieved by meeting via language exchange though because it honestly depends on the person (so dont give up! nice, good friends arent easy to find even with people who speak your own language so even though you’ve run into many bad experiences with creeps and such keep trying! someone amazing will come around and you dont want to have already shut out that resource). i understand it’s hard to find native speakers in your location and since i truly recommend anyone to find native friends (because i improved so much with 윤규 in a much shorter time than i was before), i will try to rec some ideas:
first, i’d say try make a friend as you would naturally; by doing a hobby you both like or just circumstance. but if that’s out of the question, maybe try going to a korean restaurant nearby and try talking to people there (after you ask if they’re korean or not). like waiters, cooks, mayyyybeee customers? as long as it doesn’t come off as creepy. just tell them you’re learning korean and you were just wondering if you could talk to practice sometime.
for language exchange apps in particular, don’t just talk to your partner when you need help. talk to them about “normal” things like your interests, personality, stories about things that happened, etc. it helps build a friendship outside of language. obviously i ask 윤규 or 지윤 questions sometimes (or they correct me on something and explain) and they ask me questions sometimes but that isnt the foundation of our friendship. also im sure not everyone on language exchange apps are creepers; i mean you’re on there, right? im sure the right friend material kind of person will come by… if it gets too much, maybe filter to only girls, can you do that?
another thing is that i saw someone in our kakao chat recommend a language app called Lingbe and it seems pretty good!! maybe check that one out? it’s exchange via voice calls 15 minutes each. or if you have kakao maybe search open group chats people have already made with your common interests as the topic and begin talking with them. just make sure they’re not targeted at just koreans, or korean-only because i’ve heard some stories….be safe out there and be your true self and im sure you’ll make great friends~
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trendingnewsb · 7 years ago
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Anthony Bourdains #MeToo Advice for Alec Baldwin: Just Shut Up
Just shut up. Thats the advice chef-turned-TV host Anthony Bourdain would like to give to Alec Baldwin, who cant seem to stop weighing in on the #MeToo movement.
The first of Baldwins many boneheaded comments on the subject came during an interview late last year with PBS Newshour wherein the 30 Rock star criticized Rose McGowan for settling with her accused rapist, Harvey Weinstein. Asia Argento, an actress and filmmaker whos also bravely come forward to accuse the powerful movie mogul of sexual assault, took issue with Baldwins callous statement, calling him out on Twitter. The quick-tempered Baldwin responded by laying into an alleged rape victimIf you paint every man w the same brush, youre gonna run out of paint or men @AsiaArgentobefore blocking her.
So Bourdain, who is Argentos partner, fired back with an online jab of his own:
The 61-year-old Bourdain speaks tenderly about Argento, whom he met while filming his CNN show Parts Unknown, explaining how being around a woman of her considerable courage and conviction has caused the former bad-boy chef to reexamine his life. Hes since emerged as a shining example of male allyship.
When someone you care about and respect, you see them struggle to go on the recordthe incredible difficulty of going public about something, and the very real peril at the timeit changes you, Bourdain tells me. When Asia spoke to Ronan [Farrow], I think she might have been the first to go on record knowing with absolute certainty that she would most likely be sued, destroyed, crushed by this gigantic machine that had for decades been crushing far more powerful people than her who dared speak up. But she did it anyway. So to see that, and to see the blowback in Italy where shes received no support, has been eye-opening.
Argento recently addressed the outrageous backlash shes received in Italy since coming forward at the Women in the World Conference in New York. There are lots of predators, but the [victims] see me being called a whore, traitor or prostitute for speaking out so they keep quiet, she told moderator Ronan Farrow, who was recently awarded a Pulitzer for bringing Argentos and other womens allegations against Weinstein to light in The New Yorker.
As importantly, Bourdain continues, the other women that started talking to Asiasometimes in my presenceI started hearing a lot of things and seeing a lot of things that I had been blind to before, and had not heard before. I would love to tell you that I had all along been enlightened, but I was not. It was personal, it was emotional, and it was life-changing. I can only say that Im honored and grateful to learn and be inspired by these women.
In late November, shortly after the sexual-assault allegations against Weinstein came to light, Bourdain cooked a meal for three of Weinsteins accusersArgento, McGowan, and Annabella Sciorramemorializing the occasion on social media:
But Bourdain says hes been very reluctant to discuss the #MeToo movement because, unlike Baldwin, he does not wish to take attention away from the numerous women whove risked their careers in pursuit of justice.
Its something Im very aware of when I hear myself talking about itit makes me very uneasy, he says. These are not my stories, so I feel that every time Im talking about it Im taking up space that should be rightfully taken by a woman. Its a fine line for me. I dont particularly enjoy talking about it. But if you ask me, Ill tell ya.
In addition to Hollywood, the #MeToo movement has had a considerable impact on the male-dominated restaurant industry, where several chefs and restaurants have been embroiled in scandalnone more famous than chef/TV personality/restaurateur Mario Batali, whose apology for sexually-harassing women included a recipe for cinnamon rolls (really).
Ive been out of the industry for a really long time, says Bourdain, but Ill say this: it is not a bad thing that a lot of male chefs are frightened; that a lot of restaurant groups now have to, for reasons of self-interest, take a very hard look at how theyre doing business, how theyre reacting, and their ability to react to complaints of workplace harassment or worse.
I would hope that Mario [Batali] is a cautionary tale, he adds. To see an empire that big come crashing downa figure that respected and that accomplished, to have that status evaporate overnightI would hope that that sends a clear message that no matter who you are and how beloved you think you are, some shit just aint acceptable and youre not going to get away with it.
Bourdains Parts Unknown returns for its 11th season April 29 on CNN. Stay tuned for a longer feature on the showand its outstanding premiere episodeon Monday.
Read more: https://www.thedailybeast.com/anthony-bourdains-metoo-advice-for-alec-baldwin-just-shut-up
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