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rikiflowers · 7 months ago

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lost times

pride and prejudice go hand in hand when you're in love. Qifrey was full of it, but you love him nonetheless.

a Qifrey (Witch Hat Atelier) x you story, part 1, 3,393 words

warnings: smut in the next chapters

i hope you'll like it haha. My hyperfixation on Qifrey is very strong atm.

chapter 2, chapter 3

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News of Qifrey's stay at the Assembly is circulating, faster than intended. The "problem child" is back again, as they whispered to each other. Your heart was racing as you walk down the aisles. Let your father be damned for not telling you. Who knows how long he has been here. He is probably asleep in the doctor's area, as his injuries are more serious than expected. You literally run, ignoring the looks of others.

How long has it been since you last saw him? Too long.

You open the double doors to the medicine tower and immediately a nurse comes to meet you. With a look, you indicate to her to be quiet. She immediately recognized who you were and let you go. You have your goal clearly in mind. You want to make sure he's okay.

"Where can I find Qifrey?" you address the nurse you just sped past. "Down the corridor, at the very back right." You nod to her before continuing on your way. When you arrive in front of the room in question, doubts arise in you and you pause. Is it wrong to visit him? Did he even want to see you if he was awake? Questions are buzzing around in your head that you won't find answers to if you don't go into that room and experience it for yourself. Carefully you knock on the door and after a short wait, you step inside. A familiar face comes into your field of vision.

"Olu."

"I haven't seen you in a long time," he replies back. He sits on a chair by the window. His face looks tired and sunken. Clear concern is evident in his facial features. Immediately your gaze falls on the sleeping figure on the bed. His white hair covered almost his entire face and the many bandages envelop his body almost completely. "Who did that?" you breathe close to tears.

"Brimhats."

The name seems like a punch in the stomach. You feel like you've been thrown back several years. His urge for revenge was immeasurable at the time. "If it hadn't been for his student Coco... it would have been even worse for him."

Coco. He had students. That's what Beldaruit told you back then. It makes you happy that someone like him has found his purpose. He shares his warmth with the kids. "Then I guess I'll have to express my thanks to Coco personally."

Olruggio nodded with a smile. Together they look at the sleeping Qifrey. Back then, they had been a team. Always together. And now there is hardly anything left of it. You feel how it tingled inside you. You have the urge to touch him; To make sure that it is really him in front of you and not just an illusion. But you can only stand to the side and look down on him. With a heavy heart, you detach yourself from the sight of him. "Don't tell him that I was there," you say to the black-haired man with a heavy heart.

"Are you sure?"

You're sure. You just wanted to make sure that he was alive. Everything else is null and void. "You desperately need a little more sleep, Olu."

"I can say the same to you," he replies ironically. You just smile.

"Take care, Olruggio."

…

too many years ago

"So students. Today's exercises are intended to prepare you for different vegetations." You only listen to the professor with half an ear, because today the teaching situation is different than usual. The students of some of the professors in the Assembly will attend these lessons together. This includes Qifrey, who is usually always hidden at your father's side. You give the white-haired man furtive glances, hoping you're not too flashy (you're too flashy). Olruggio is standing next to Qifrey and he is looking over at you at that very moment. You quickly avert your gaze and feel the blush on your cheeks, which always does what it wants. Even in the most inopportune moments. They saw how you look at him. Embarrassing.

"Why are you so red?" jokes your friend next to you and nudges you even harder than intended, so that you lose your balance. Strong hands hold your shoulder and prevent you from falling backward.

Black long hair appears in your range. "Easthies... Thank you," you say absent-mindedly and straighten up. The closeness to him is a bit too much for you. He smiles slightly and nods at you.

"He likes you," she whispers in your ear and you dismiss this instantly. "He's just my protector.", you tell her with a grumble, because it’s not something you enjoy.

"If that's what you mean," she says more than ambiguously, which you ignore. "Let's focus on the task now," you hiss at her.

"Killjoy," you hear her grumble and you just grin crookedly.

"The task today will be a bit more difficult. You are in the territory of wild animals. You are the invaders and you have to know how to behave. Find the following herbs on your parchment, which you must find in this area. Gather in groups. Your bracelet shines in a certain color that brings you together."

Immediately, your gaze snaps to your friend's bracelet. Hers glow in radiant yellow, while yours glow purple. You are both sulking. "I'll see you later..." you tell her and squeeze her tightly. In the hustle and bustle, you have to look around.

Now all you have to do is look around to see who your partners are. Immediately you feel hot and cold at the same time. Qifreys and your gaze meet at the same time and then on the bright purple bracelets. What a twist of fate.

Easthies appears next to you. Of course, with the same colored bracelet. Two others appear next to you. You introduce yourself, not missing the reluctant glances of the other two in the direction of Qifrey. Easthies next to you also only mutters to the white-haired man, who does the same as the cool gesture.

That can only go wrong and you should be right.

"Stop treating us like inferior witches!"

The two group members, whose names you have long forgotten, are at their wit's end. While you try to find the special herbs together and not draw any animal's attention to you, the others throw everything overboard. "Guys... please be quiet," you try again, but you fall on deaf ears.

"Tell that to the conceited shit. It is only because he is Beldaruit's pupil that he has so many privileges."

"And what kind of privileges would those be? You're only here because you come from big witch families. You haven't done a bit, you snobs."

"Say that again and I swear to you-" The taller of the two suddenly grabs Qifrey and holds him by the collar in the air. "Stop it!", you try again. Easthies next to you stood unimpressed next to it and seems to find the whole thing very amusing. "Help him," you ask the black-haired man, but he just shrugs his shoulders. "It's quite pleasant to see him like this." Hearing that from his mouth makes you tremendously angry. You turn away from him and try to intervene. Too late.

Qifrey was thrown into the lake.

"What the hell?" you blurt out angrily and push your laughing colleagues aside. "It's just a little water."

"And why doesn't he come up again?" you ask with a pounding heart. You wait a few seconds and nothing happens. Couldn't the white-haired man swim? Your body is acting faster than your brain at this moment. You jump in, feel the icy cold of the water. Your eyes burn as you open them to look for him.

You can see white hair that is slowly sinking. With all your strength you swim to him and realize that he is unconscious. Just like that, you can grab his hand and pull him to you. You can't hold your breath for long. You quickly try to bring yourself to the surface of the water. If it weren't for the sudden burning pain that spread through your body and the sudden blood pouring out of your arm. A large water snake has snapped at you and is trying again. Adrenaline pumps through your body as you use all your strength to swim faster. You've made it right away. Your legs suddenly become numb. The poison of the snake.

You have to make it, but your body is now working against you, pulling you back into the abyss. Someone else pulls on you. It is Easthies who jumped into the lake. As your head emerges above the surface of the water, you take the deepest breath of your life before Easthies pulls you and Qifrey out of the water. You cough while you see the lifeless body of the white-haired man. "Are you crazy?" you hear Easthie's barking voice, but you don't care. "He needs first aid," you just say, before you heave yourself to him with the last of your strength. Your legs are not working right now.

"I called for reinforcements."

"Hell, He needs help!" you yell at your protector, who suddenly becomes quiet due to your outburst. You try to revive him. Right now, you don't seem to care at all that you press your lips on his to ventilate him. The adrenaline displaces every other thought, except to keep it alive. "Qifrey... please," you pray to the white-haired man. You haven't even told him what you feel yet. He must not die. He can’t die. "Wake up, you fucking idiot!" you shout again and again between attempts.

The witch seems to have heard you. After the nth attempt, he starts coughing and you hold his head to the side so that he can get rid of the water in his lungs. You cry with relief before you lose consciousness due to the poison in your body.

…

You wake up with the worst migraine you've had in a long time. Your eyes have to get used to the bright environment, but then you realize that you are in the hospital wing. "You're awake...", you hear a familiar voice. Easthies stands next to you and looks down at you with relief. The memories before you fainted come back to your mind. Easthies didn't want to help you help Qifrey. "Why are you here?" you ask coolly, feeling how dry your throat is. You are not the mistress of your body right now, because you want to grab your neck, but your hand only comes very slowly to the said place. Everything plays out as if in slow motion.

"I have the mission to protect you," he replies as a matter of course, which makes you snort. "You really did an excellent job," you reply sarcastically. If he had helped you right away, you probably wouldn't be in this situation and the black-haired man knew that. You can see it in his suffering look in his eyes.

"Is Qifrey okay?"

He just nods. That's enough for you. That was your goal, to save him. Your feelings for him have been confirmed. You are in love with the white-haired man. You never wanted to see it, but the moment he was close to death, you realized it.

"I'll have your father called. He was quite sick with worry."

Easthies walks out of the room, which is pleasant to you. You can't stand this guilty look that literally crushes you.

After a short time, your father floats into the hospital room. His face looks sunken and exhausted. He probably didn't sleep much. "my little daughter"

"Hello father... How long was I gone?"

"Three days. Three whole days in which I was sick with worry," he speaks theatrically and strokes your forehead lovingly. "Easthies told me what happened. That was very brave, but also stupid of you, my little one."

"Nobody wanted to help me. Should I let him die?"

"Of course not..." Beldaruit murmured. The two witches have been suspended for the time being. And you and Qifrey get to repeat the task again."

You nod.

"But only when you are completely healed again. The poison has spread almost all over your body. So you still have to stay in bed."

You just grumble. "Will I get at least a few books?"

"but of course" bright laughter can be heard. "I had some sent for right away."

"Thank you, father."

Beldaruit pulls out pastries from under his curtain. "Eat quickly before the nurses see it," he says imploringly and hands you the sweets. Your favorite variety. You accept it gratefully. For a moment, you forget the white-haired man and your confusing feelings.

Qifrey sits in his room at the same time, staring at the bare wall in front of him. He should visit you, but how can he do that when your guard dog sends him away and he doesn't know how to thank you properly. It's confusing for him. You are the daughter of his teacher, who has always been in the background. He shouldn't really be interested in you and yet he does. He always notices your gaze, which is often on him and the white-haired man always wonders why. Why should you look at him like that? It's hair-pulling that he wastes too much thought on you. You saved him and almost died in the process. His heart pulls slightly at this thought. He has to thank you. Qifrey just has to find the right time.

He didn't find the right time. Two months have passed. Now he is standing here to catch up on the task. With you. And you don't even look at him. Qifrey screwed up, he knows that. He doesn't like the way his heart beats unusually fast when he looks at your side profile.

"I think we should start here and then work our way from there-"

Qifrey doesn't listen to your explanation in a harsh tone. He is spellbound by your lips, which make these sounds. He has always thought you are beautiful, but now he realized how much.

"Did you even listen to me?" Your voice knocks him out of his thoughts. You look at him angrily and he notices how his ears glow. "Sorry"

You just roll your eyes. "Whatever," you reply and start all over again, skillfully ignoring the fact that he has been staring at you intensely until just now and that you ignore with all your might that your cheeks betray you.

You just want to get it over with and avoid the white-haired ones as much as possible (an impossible task).

You are too good. Far too quickly you both find one medicinal plant after the other and you even manage to talk to him at a minimum. Your vocabulary is limited to yes and no. He doesn't deserve more from you either.

Until you get to the place where Qifrey and you almost drowned. You feel your fast heartbeat and turn to him. He looks at the spot, his entire body seems to be stuck. "Hey...", you speak to him carefully, but he doesn't seem to hear you.

You take a step towards him. Still no movement in his body.

"Qifrey..."

Again, no answer. Suddenly the white-haired man starts to tremble. Your body acts too fast, because your hand rests on its shoulder. He flinches and looks at you with wide eyes. "Sorry, I didn't want to..." You take your hand away again.

"You almost died because of me."

You are frightened by his sudden words. "You almost died because of those assholes"

"You are Beldaruit's daughter..."

"Are you saying that just because I'm his daughter, my life is worth more than yours?" This is a rhetorical question to which there should be no answer because it is so absurd.

"Do you look down on me like that?" No answer. Silence is answer enough for you. "When we're done here, never look at me again." Full of pain, you literally spit it at him and turn away. You hold back the tears with all your might.

Qifrey grabs your wrist and pulls you back. "That will be impossible for me"

"And why?" The skin tingles where Qifrey's hand lies.

You don't get an answer. Instead, soft lips land on yours. Clumsily and much too quickly this kiss passes and with big eyes you look at the white-haired man, who seems very uncomfortable with the whole thing. With an exploding heart, you overcome the distance to him and pull the witch towards you. You are more demanding because for far too long you could only think about such a situation in your dreams. Qifrey's shock seems to be over as his hand rests gently on your cheek as your hands wander to the back of his neck. You have no idea what you're doing, but you hope it's good.

Your head is suddenly empty. Only his lips and the warmth occupy all your senses. You separate from each other far too quickly; Your breath mixes forehead to forehead. You just can't believe it. Qifrey kissed you first. Your dream has come true.

Shyly, you raise your eyes and realize that he has been looking at you for a long time. At the tender fifteen, Qifrey stole your first kiss.

You can see Qifrey's students scurrying around the hallways. A smile forms on the lips. Beldaruit told you about his plan and you could only shake your head about it. Your father is simply incorrigible. You're curious to see what ideas the girls come up with.

You are so lost in thought that you notice too late how someone runs into you. It's Coco. You can just grab it so that it doesn't fall down. "Oh, excuse me... I didn't look where I was going."

"Everything okay! I didn't really pay attention either..." You see the girl taking what looks like a piece of Danish pastries on the floor with pouting lips.

"Oh, I'm sorry..." you say. How about I give you a new piece of this, Coco?"

"Oh, you know my name?", the younger one asks carefully.

"I belong to the Assembly and I am an acquaintance of your professor. So, what do you say?" You want to have a little chat with his student, so you don't want to make the impression that you're a complete stranger. (Even if you are to an extent).

"Really, you would do that?"

"Of course, after all, I am also partly to blame for the fact that the good piece landed on the floor."

"If it doesn't make a fuss.", considers the young witch.

"It doesn’t," you assure the green-haired girl.

The two of you make your way to the kitchen to get hold of another piece of the pastry. You're in luck. You could give the last piece to the young witch.

"How long have you known Pofessor Qifrey?" she asks you with powdered sugar on her mouth. You sat down in the garden. You drink your favorite tea while the wind blows gently through your hair.

"A very long time. We studied together and I know a lot of embarrassing stories from your professor," you giggle as you think of the countless memories that wander through your head. "Can you tell me some?" Her eyes literally shine. It makes your heart beat faster. "I can tell you one, but don't tell your professor," you say conspiratorially. "I won't!"So while you tell Coco an anecdote from your childhood days, you feel how warm your heart was. "You're very brave, Coco."

The girl looks at you in amazement. "... that you fearlessly threw yourself in front of your professor... I admire your courage"

"Professor Qifrey scolded me a bit for that."

"Probably because he was worried about you... you're his pupil, after all."

Coco nods. "I hope he will be completely healthy again." Your heart contracts easily. "I hope so too..."

...

After your short meeting with Coco, you sit in your chamber in the evening and get ready for bed. You feel the exhaustion literally take over your body. Your thoughts circle around the white-haired man again and you feel like you've been transported back to your childhood. At that time, the peer was constantly in your head.

Nothing has changed...

#witch hat atelier #qifrey #qifrey witch hat atelier #tongari boushi no atelier #smut and fluff #smut and angst

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psi-hate · 10 months ago

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diana, this might sound like a weird question, but how do you draw boobs/gock/vaginas and anatomy in general? i wanna improve my art and you seem to have a lot of experience with it

-alice in anon because im embarrassed lol

hmm good question! im gonna be honest i don't really use references most the time, and i recommend you absolutely use references very often when drawing something you're not the most confident in.

for anatomy, it sorta comes down to me focusing on how other artists draw specific parts of anatomy and getting a good feel of how they generally look enough to know what looks wrong in my own attempt so i can continue adjusting it. it's a shitty bruteforce method but for me i sorta just osmosis it from exposure. in general i have a decently trained eye in 3d space on account of my 3D modeling experience, so coming up with shapes at particular angles is a little less of a headache i imagine some others would deal with at my skill level. i still struggle with posing which is something i really gotta practice more. i know it'd be faster if i used references for practice but my art process is a bit too casual out of stubborness... but i will do what i can to improve my workflow at some point!

regarding stuff like sexual anatomy or what have you, i actually pull up a few different artist's works, specifically those who draw shapes i find most appealing, and apply their concepts to my own attempt. it's sorta hit or miss atm, i'm still very new to drawing sexual anatomy. at the very least, i try and draw bodies as they are. what i mean is, a chubbier body is going to have more pockets of fat pulling some parts down, and comparing with my own body and those whom i've been with, i just try and capture the practical "flaws" and do my best not to polish them out of the equation. sunken eyes, messy hair, folds of skin, muscle definition, wrinkles, hair, etc it's all very pretty and more than anything i want to appreciate those bodies.

use references, look at your own body and try and plan out angles and poses before you get too deep into the drawing! my biggest flaw at the moment is lack of forethought going into a piece which can make a lot of my art much more stiff because an idea i wanted occurs halfway through the drawing and retroactively adjusting things is just not gonna work and it'll look stilted. come up with your idea and sketch a very simple example so you know what you're aiming for the entire time instead of me who habitually draws heads and facial features long before deciding how i want the rest of the body, usually locking me into the same perspective and angle as always lol. i have been fixing this most of the time now and i hope that is more apparent in some of my recent works.

sorta just rambling, but yeah! the most simple way for me to tl;dr this is that i recommend using irl examples for references for poses or how particular pieces of the body are structured in 3D space, and looking at other's art for ideas or inspiration, reverse engineer their process and practice it until you feel satisfied it makes sense in the context of your drawing. take special attention of smaller details of the body and don't be afraid of making something look "unappealing" if you want to portray a specific feature. you might not draw something the way that looks good to you, but the most important thing is learning what it is that does look good in your opinion, and reviewing what you could do to help draw more like that.

i'm really sorry if this is far too convoluted and not great advice, i'm the literal embodiment of "fake it till you make it" and any skill i've learned is simply because i am stubborn and bruteforcing it till i accomplished whatever it is that i wanted. for someone who is more interested in learning and improving the "right way", i tried to offer some more rational strategies to what i do in hopes that it makes sense in helping better lol. hope this helps!

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i-need-some-advice-on · 9 months ago

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I need some advice on if I should encourage my partner to transition.

Okay, so I'm in a longterm, committed relationship with my partner. My partner can be best described as a closeted trans woman, but they have essentially decided that its "too late" for them to transition, they can never pass as a woman, etc, so they might as well live as a man. (As a side note they are comfortable with they/them atm)

Reasons why I feel like "closeted trans woman" is the best label for them:

1. They bring up their disphoria frequently, usually they have at least one depressive episode per month lasting around a week. The episodes are focused around "I would be happier with myself as a woman".

2. All of their OCs are women, every time they have a chance to express themselves via a character, it's a woman, and it makes them really happy.

3. Doing some traditionally femme stuff makes them temporarily happy, but is usually soon dashed against the rocks of disappointment when they start feeling like they look too masculine while doing it. (E.g. wearing femme clothes)

When I discovered this facet of theirs, I was essentially immediately encouraging of experimenting with femininity and accepting of them. However, all experiments ended with Point #3 where they thought they looked too masculine by the end of the experiment and got really disappointed and hurt.

After years of these swings between trying to "perform" as a man and experimenting with femininity, they came to a conclusion they could never be a woman who passes, and they should stop trying. I unfortunately see where they're coming from - they're extremely tall, very strongly built, masculine facial structure, receding hairline, and a LOT of body hair. Just to be clear, I find my partner extremely attractive and would continue finding them attractive if they would start transitioning. However, it seems their ideal vision of self is relatively traditionally feminine, and I do see how it would be challenging for them to achieve it with what they have to work with.

I never voiced it out loud, and was always openly supportive of them transitioning, reassuring them I would be attracted to them if they don't pass/look androgynous/look any way whatsoever, and so on.

Rn they seem to have settled on performing as a guy. They seem to be fairly stable emotionally for the last year or so and found an outlet through RP with me and OC development.

Would it be wrong of me if I keep nudging them toward transition thoughts, trying feminine things that make them happy, and so on? Or would I just be reopening a wound?

They say they're okay with being a guy and just living out fantasies, but I don't entierly believe them. Most of our sex life is built on various femininity-adjacent kinks and our OC fiction we work on together revolves around their character who transitions and builds a happier life for herself.

Some additional context:

They were raised very religious and are still dealing with unresolved religious trauma regarding other aspects of themselves.

We are currently in a very queer friendly state.

It's very likely both of our families would cut support to both of us and go no-contact if they transition. However, we plan to become entierly self sufficient within a year, which is when I plan to start bringing up transitioning again IF the general consensus is that it's something I could do without being a massive dick.

Thank you for reading!

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brooklynislandgirl · 2 years ago

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69. What turns you off?

Generating Steam Heat || Accepting

The question isn't surprising, not with the way her fingers circle around his wrist and halting the slow climb of his fingers up the trellis of her thigh. Without his gloves there's a combination of textures at the border of her skirt hem. The words are breathed against the length her jaw. Tactile expression that she cannot misunderstand because there's a solidity to it and somehow it bypasses her ears and etches itself full in her brain. She groans almost soundlessly and the hand that had been recently lodged in his hair slides down across his cheek and drops to his shoulder. She pushes herself up and away from him, the sparks between them becoming banked. She's not angry, she's not even annoyed. She wouldn't call it hurt either. She isn't sure what the question makes her feel. "I..I don' really know," she says eventually. She twists her lips to one side, equally ambiguous as her answer as to whether it's a frown or merely a subconscious facial tick. "Mebbe mo' beddah question is wha' works for me. I…I like deep breath-stealin' kisses, gentle bites. I like da way ya hands feel on my skin." She glances up into his face, past his fine features and into those black and red eyes that intrigue her beyond words. "I t'ink dat mebbe I don' like so much how in movies an' in some stories when da man talk stink…ah… say mean stuff. More dan jus' vulgar, but I'm not real use t' talking like dat eiddah. But callin' ya woman a female of loose morals-- s word, uh dat oddah one��.means same kine ~implyin' bein' paid for sex~ is really gross." She knows that's muddled but she's not about to spell it out any further than she already has. "Degradation in general. When I work as a nurse I got enough urine an' defecation on me dan I care t' t'ink about an' I don' see it havin' a place when ya try f' make love wi' someone. Don' wan someone who only interested in me because of da family money an' prestige, t'inkin' dat dey can use me like a personal ATM. An…An I don' like roses." She scoots back on the sofa toward its arm, setting him free. "Wha' about you? I mean you have more experience, not da kine of man who get turn what wi' ya charm an' ya handsome good looks, so I feel like ya have way more experience. Are dere any t'ings you really like dat I should know about?"

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dreamyfreakout · 3 years ago

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i think theres definitely something to be said about autistic people and how we experience gender in such a cool and different way but i don't know how to express it so happy gender Jamie! what are you looking forward to next month?

Ahh yes... Thanks for understanding me!! I'm looking forward to working as a shift lead! Dating and meeting people... Exploring gender presentation stuff... Facial hair growth... I'm fairly optimistic and enjoying some good life atm. (note: not counting world crisis anxiety stuff)...

#so good #ask

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justafairytailofinnocence · 2 years ago

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Yoo! I saw some of your matchups and thought they were really cool! So I was wondering if I could get a Marvel, Peaky Blinder, and/or Hobbit/lotr matchup that would be great thanks!

Personality

Other’s views of me: Extroverted, Optimistic, Sarcastic, Hot-headed, Stubborn, Charismatic, Sensitive, Creative, Imaginative, Smart, Bold, Open-minded, Talkative, Annoying, Bubbly, Bossy, and Procrastinator, Arrogant, Selfish, Insensitive.

The way I view myself: I like to analyze things and people around me to get a better understanding of others and to see the bigger picture in an even bigger picture. I think, a lot. My mind is always active 25/8 and I get bored easily and annoyed. I don’t like routine or planning, unless if it’s for others then I’m more than willing to write up a ten-year detailed plan for them, but for me? I’ll plan ten years ahead with room for maximum opportunities. I can adapt to things easily as I don’t mind the thought of change. I value knowledge and the idea to learn more and causing me to become highly opinionated with certain controversial topics, though I may be hard-headed I don’t really have a set opinion as I like to argue both sides out. In literal terms, I don’t really argue that much, though that’s just me probably not knowing that. I just talk and people disagree and I talk again. I can be very argumentative when I talk or I can be wishy-washy and all philosophical. Again I don’t really stick to just an idea or opinion, I usually find myself nodding my head to both if not various sides. I can be self-absorbed and can definitely come off as a know-it-all. Though I promise you I actually don’t know anything. It’s all just basic bluff and questions. Also, I’m not a procrastinator I’m actually a multitasker who loses track of time focusing on one thing. I lose my time in researching or mentally experimenting with certain things I find fascinating usually at the moment though mind you, it can turn into an obsession and something that I’ve been at for many weeks, however, I easily end up getting bored so I never finish them. Why? Idk ask about the upcoming 3000 spurs of ideas that had appeared in my mind.

My Likes/Hobbies/Habbits: stimulating conversations, brainstorming, sharing my thoughts with others, mentally challenging myself, minimalism, maladaptive daydreaming, Eating, Sleeping, Talking, Dark humor, food, listening to any type of genre of music, researching/experimenting I find interesting atm, writing, journaling my thoughts, constant spur of ideas. My freedom of space. Geeky franchises are what I spend watching or researching in my free time. Talking about myself.

My Dislikes: You. Know. What. I don’t like many things but I don’t like people. Wow so edgy and quirky. No like as extroverted as I am, I simply end up losing interest in the conversation and I would like to be left alone with a group of people. I also hate ladybugs because they taste weird and centipedes provided no practical use to houses anyways. People who are ignorant and choose to be ignorant. Strict schedules are placed on me, when you know well as much as I do I value my freedom of space.

What I look for a partner: Personality wise, someone who can take time to understand me, who observes me not in a creepy way but just someone who’ll remember the small things about me. Someone who’s loyal and honest to a fault. They’re not afraid to speak and talk their mind and have theoretical or just deep conversations about anything so I guess when they’re just full of opinions, thoughts, and ideas. Appearance wise, I like men with long hair but it also really doesn’t matter, and I don’t mind a little stubble or some facial hair. Women? I just like women.

This was a lot and feel free to just tag me instead of posting this request 😭👍 thanks much

Hello dear 💖, thanks for your request.

For marvel I ship you with:

Bucky barnes 🦾

You were one of the scientists working at shield, partering with Bruce banner.

You were the type to know about the avengers, you were quite the fan.

You normally weren't one for parties.

You met bucky through the mission with Steve rogers.

You helped bucky regain his humanity.

Bucky slowly developed feelings for you.

He would be protective of you and quite quiet when it comes to other people.

He would love your sense of humour as long as it's not hydra.

Bucky would help you on your bad days and when he's having a episode.

Steve would be thankful you regained humanity again.

Bucky would totally have his first kiss with you in the hospital wing.

You would marry after infinity war and have a child who has your hair and eyes.

For peaky blinders I ship you with:

John shelby🚬

You met him through a party, you were a flapper.

You weren't like many other wemon, you didn't like going out to parties without your friends and you didn't like people.

You heard of the peaky blinders and one night you met him through a bar.

You were both slightly similar, he was attracted to your personality.

He would joke with you quite a lot and possibly Arthur would join in.

You would be kidnapped at times as the enemies expect Tommy.

You would be saved though.

Your first kiss was at a party after Tommy got married.

You married and lived in a country house, you had a child with your hair and his eyes.

For the hobbit/lotr I ship you with:

Legalos 🏹

He was an elf that was super sweet and kind.

You were a human he met when you were on the journey.

Legalos joined you but soon realised he developed feelings for you.

He would hide in the trees and take you to his castle.

He would walk through the forest with you and try to kiss you as well.

Legalos is protective of you.

Thranduil would think your a weird human.

He would question his son but accept you even if you weren't to his liking but he doesn't like most humans.

Legalos would stand up to his father and ask your hand in marriage.

You were the first human queen and he accepted, you had a wedding at his castle. Your child was half elf and half human with his hair and your eyes.

Anyways that's all I have for now:

Ta Ta ✨️

#marvel matchups #marvel matchups open #peaky blinders matchup #peaky blinders matchups open #lotr matchups #lotr matchups open #the hobbit matchup #the hobbit matchups open

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genderqueerpositivity · 4 years ago

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Is it possible to identify as a lesbian when you're faesari agender (not aligned with the binary) and are only attracted to women and non-binary people of all alignments but are on testosterone? I have been on t for years and also have had my top surgery. I also have a lot of body hair and a lot of beard growth which I can't really get rid of atm. I don't want to stop taking t because I love my body (expect for the body hair but I will probably go for laser hair removal at some point) but I feel like this prevents me from being allowed to id this way.

Short answer: Yes, I believe it's possible. Transitioning folks, transmasculine and transfeminine people, and people who have complex relationships to gender and the gender binary have historically always been a part of the lesbian community. I think being a transitioning faesari agender lesbian is totally okay and great, if that is how you feel most comfortable identifying.

Longer answer: You're asking me if I feel like it's possible to be agender, to transition, and to identify as a lesbian--ask yourself, what do you think?

How do you feel about identifying as a lesbian as an agender person and while transitioning? How do you feel about being a lesbian on T for the foreseeable future, a lesbian who has had top surgery, a lesbian with facial hair?

What is it about the lesbian label, lesbian culture and history, and lesbian community that you connect most with?

Why do you feel like medically transitioning prevents you from identifying as a lesbian? What kinds of experiences have you had as a transitioning person within/with the lesbian community and as a person exploring/questioning a possible lesbian identity? Or even prior to transitioning?

How do you feel about being possibly perceived as a lesbian by other lesbians? How do you feel about pronouns and gendered language? How do you feel about being a lesbian who is attracted to multiple genders?

Do you worry that you might have to compromise parts of your gender identity, your gender expression, your attractions, or your transition in order to be "allowed" to identify as a lesbian?

It's a lot to consider.

I can't tell you what the right thing to do is, and my opinion on the validity of nonbinary and/or transitioning lesbians....isn't worth much.

I'm no authority on lesbian identity; I don't identify as a lesbian anymore, and I'm not a part of the lesbian community anymore. Letting go of that identity freed me to pursue testosterone therapy without worry, and I'm happier now.

But whatever your answers to those questions end up being, I support you.

My advice: prioritize yourself and your authenticity, reach out to transitioning butches and transmasculine lesbians for community, and choose what makes you happy.

#ask box #replies

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fairymint-archive · 3 years ago

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🧡🍷❔ (felix & shulk)

🧡 Compare and Contrast with the gender or gender expression of another muse, whether a friend or another muse of yours.

Felix's presentation can vary a bit, but he's genetically a bit androgynous, it seems, and a bit pear shaped while still having decent body hair, facial hair seems to be growing in later IRL. To put it simply, there's trans guys who've been on T for maybe a third or just as long as I have, who look like lumberjacks, so some of his facial hair and shape may simply be racial in nature, what with the splash of brown and japanese in there. But, naturally as an animal crossing character and being homo, he will more comfortably wear femme-coded clothes such as dresses, frilly/lacy shirts, and doesn't mind maintaining the curl in his hair via a bit of length. His voice cracks a lot, this is puberty setting in, but it's not uncommon for gay guys to also crack out of their range if they're being particularly camp. Having a newer transition in general can make him seem young at times (though, he's also a little person, so height dysphoria gets thrown out the window, there.)

Shulk's muscle growth was likely quite the difference visually or otherwise, He seems to be completely comfortable going out and about in just a swimsuit and jungle wear. He doesn't seem to look after much else, simply wearing what's practical or comfortable. He may have more ease with his voice, as it's a little smooth and deep (esp in english), although perhaps that comes with more practice at a younger age, since he transitioned ASAP.

🍷 How open or out are they about their gender? topics regarding gender? Are they hiding anything in particular when it comes to strangers?

Felix muse is totally stealth, outside of sexual partners, best friends, and maybe, other trans people if he gets comfortable with them. It's always been a pretty private thing for him, which led to a late transition; Basically Master Hand found out and acted immediately to set up surgery and hormones, and would not tolerate his fighters binding or risking their health. In worst case scenarios, it's a full change of identity, he doesn't even reintroduce himself properly;;;;

Shulk is completely out, and full of pride; I doubt he's had heavy experience with transphobia, however, as his world's population was abysmally low and accepting.

❔ Anything your muse doesn’t know about gender? Undecided? Info you need to know before going forward?

Despite animal crossing's setting calling for it, I'm not fully comfortable with him or I being called they/them, I've got experience with it as a TERF dogwhistle, to degender as a 'compromise' to avoid gendering correctly. Don't do that. Definitely don't try to defang his gender by using they/them after finding out he hasn't had bottom surgery. I do try to be understanding towards strangers, but even well meaning cis people at my job are also guilty of using the They Of Fear, as I'm mixed-passing IRL atm, so experience transphobia from transfemme, transmasc, and nbphobic angles daily on my shifts. So I've got mixed feelings on they/them, especially depending on intention. Also, at some point I HC my villagers to gain the power to transition physically, via transformation...Felix is not there yet, he has at maximum another 20 years left in him to master the magic. But I'm not sure if anything beyond hormones will happen, bottom surgery wise, for a few reasons.

As for Shulk, his world is so Sci-Fi esc, that his transition has a lot of potential??? To start with, he makes a Wish with godlike power which would be enough to do the job all on its own, Meanwhile, postgame technology is written to be able to basically grow a character's whole body back, save for a head, so??? What's to say they don't have to tech to fuck with his goddamn DNA or organs??

Basically Shulk's reproductive future is up in the air, as I didn't originally HC him to be trans until a bit later. All I know is that he will not carry with child, as he's had bottom surgery prior to the game. He could be infertile and adopt, or he could have had his balls finished via Wish or Science, lmfao

#ask.#headcanon.#💙 Felix Pardus #🉑 Shulk #trans pregnancy tw #pregnancy tw #trans talk.#long post.#Xenoblade Spoilers #trans headcanon

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painintheasspyn · 4 years ago

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Women want me.. republicans fear me

Lately I’ve been contemplating whether or not the remainder of my feminine expression is simply a product of the patriarchy and the sexism in our media & society...

Okay we’ll- let me explain..

lately I’ve been questioning whether or not any and/or all of the substance of my feminine identity comes from wanting to attract male attention and feeling like fitting certain feminine beauty standards is the only way to do it because of the sexist way women are portrayed in the media. Like the only time anymore when I want to be seen as female is when I see an attractive male fictional character and then see his female counterpart and I’m like “wow I wish I was like her” and I just wanted to put that out there somewhere because I don’t know how to deconstruct this way of thinking when I’ve constantly had oversexualization of my female anatomy from a very young age- like a very very young age like my mom used to take me clubbing with her when I was under the age of 5 and so growing up I was taught to measure my worth in the attention that I got from m*n which led to an extreme desire to fit the feminine body standards that society places on women and sometimes I just question if that’s the only thing holding me back from embracing a complete masculine identity And then like- because of my experiences with being afab I feel a strong connection to female empowerment & the movements associated with it even though I personally resonate more with masculinity atm and and it can just feel really invalidating especially when I feel invalidated or that I’m just identifying as something other than female for attention when I embrace or don’t try to hide my female anatomy, even when I feel like a lot of the time I only like my female anatomy because it feels nice when guys are attracted to me because of it - idk it’s all complicated. Has anyone ever thought or experienced something similar?

I’m just really confused about my gender identity because I have a really complex relationship with my body, I’m indifferent to and occasionally fond of my chest (however I’m pretty flat naturally so it never really is that big of a problem), I like my curves some days, and im okay with my bottom plumbing in specific circumstances, although I’ve been wanting a packer from a very young age. I also like the idea of biologically having my own children one day. However, I really like the idea of having a strictly male identity on most days and the idea of having a deeper voice and more masculine racial features is really appealing to me. The idea of facial hair is iffy to me though, if not a turn-of or a no entirely. And in terms of external expression, although I’m most often more comfortable wearing masculine/neutral baggy clothes and outfits, clothes associated with being feminine - such as some dresses and skirts- are very nice and I enjoy wearing them. Some days I just wish I could’ve been born male and then I could present myself in the femboy-eboy kind of way thats far more accepted by society than whatever I am..

I currently identify as non-binary, but because of the “chameleon affect” thats associated with my mental health disorder- (see: https://www.google.com/amp/s/sarahmyles.net/2013/07/22/borderline-personality-disorder-and-the-chameleon-effect/amp/) I can never tell if my masculine or feminine attributes or expression is just me emulating that of celebrities or people around me that I admire/look up to or find attractive. So then what does this mean for me?

#aspynrants #gender identity #gender dysphoria #non-binary #demiboy #trans #genderqueer #bpd blog #first blog #gender confusion #sexism #patriarchy #inclusive feminism #educational blog #bi enby #ftm mlm #ftm #genderfluid #genderflux positivity

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smarti-at-smogwarts · 4 years ago

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Theo Abbott Profile

Identity

Name: Theodosia -Theo- Jane Abott

Gender: ....-throws peruvian powder bomb- gender neutral tho she doesn't have the label for it.

*She goes by she/her pronouns though

Age: varies depending on when I’m writing her.

Birth Date: January 11th XXXX

Species: Human

Blood Status: Half-Blood.

Sexuality: Queer af. Bisexual. Arospec.

Alignment: Chaotic Good.

Ethnicity: Mixed.

Nationality: English

Residence: Godrics Hollow. Abbott home.

Myer Briggs Personality Type: ENFP-T [ Turbulent Campaigner ]

The Mage

Wand: Ebony. Dragon heartstring. 13 inches. Quite Flexible.

This jet-black wand wood has an impressive appearance and reputation, being highly suited to all manner of combative magic, and to Transfiguration. Ebony is happiest in the hand of those with the courage to be themselves. Frequently non-conformist, highly individual or comfortable with the status of outsider, ebony wand owners have been found both among the ranks of the Order of the Phoenix and among the Death Eaters. In my experience the ebony wand’s perfect match is one who will hold fast to his or her beliefs, no matter what the external pressure, and will not be swayed lightly from their purpose.

As a rule, dragon heartstrings produce wands with the most power, and which are capable of the most flamboyant spells. Dragon wands tend to learn more quickly than other types. While they can change allegiance if won from their original master, they always bond strongly with the current owner.The dragon wand tends to be easiest to turn to the Dark Arts, though it will not incline that way of its own accord. It is also the most prone of the three cores to accidents, being somewhat temperamental.

Animagus: Pine Marten

Misc Magical Abilities: Unknown undecided magical ability. ( will be edited when I figure what i want her hphl ability to be) Animagus.

Boggart Form: Theo is terrified of being forced to be something she’s not or being trapped. This shows itself by a square room with no windows popping up in front of her. The walls the start closing in on her.

Riddikulus Form: The walls collapse like the sides of a carboard box.

Amortentia ( what she smells like) : Parchment and ink. Crisp night air. Cinnamon cloves Pine trees.

Amortentia ( what she smells) : Misc smells that represent different people from the Taghd Lynch Defense Squad/her closest friends. Firewood burning. Lemon cakes. Fresh cut grass ( from the quidtich pitch)

Patronus Memory: She’s at the Hogwarts common room goofing around with her housemates and friends. Basically her realizing she’s found a place to be herself and accepted as she is.

Mirror of Erised: Her happy and content and herself in her own home with her writing and her cat and her friends and the fuck away from Godric’s Hollow.

Specialized/Favourite Spells:

At Hogwarts_ Anything you can use on a prank. Some defensive spells as while Hogwarts was fairly accepting of her she did get a bit hassled ( there’s always that one occasional asshole) about both being a girl in the quidditch team and how she chooses to dress out of uniform. Some offensive spells from when she got into fights/duels in the halls along Taghd and Teddy. Her best spells are the ones used to sneak around her mother and grandmother.

Out Of Hogwarts_ While not a spell, apparition becomes her most used magical feat as she likes to visit her friends as they all settle into her adult lives. She also learns a bit of healing spells from either Adelia or Teddy ( and at both their insistence that if she’s going to be getting into trouble out there she should be able to patch herself up a bit. )

*In the Taghd Dies Verse where she becomes an auror she adds a lot of offensive spells to her arsenal “best defense is a good offense right?” Theo no.

Appearance

Faceclaim: Saoirce Ronan

Game Appearance: N/A

Height: 5′6′’ by year 7.

Weight: Average weight for her height.

Physique: On the thin side. Somewhere between rectangle and hourglass boy shape wise. Has muscle on her due to Quiditch. Strong facial features.

Eye Colour: Light blue

Hair Colour: Dirty Blonde as a child. Darkens with age. Often untidy from running or flying and held up/back.

Skin Tone: Fair

Body Modifications: None

Scarring: Has a set of diagonal scars on her leg from when she tried to play with a splintered bat during a quidditch match. A few random scars from scrapes from school that got a little too rough before being broken up.

Inventory: parchment. Quill. Ink. A Claddagh ring from Taghd. Random and assorted books. Notes from her friends. Her wand. Hair pins. ( she keep forgetting she has them there so she just stuffs more in her bag. No one knows how many she has in there by now, not even her)

Fashion: https://www.pinterest.com/xhowling/theo-jane-abbott/#fashion

*Theo tends to prefer Hogwarts robes and wizard fashion in general more as they’re more gender neutral. ( as in both genders wear robes though they differ in style and in Hogwarts case they do not differ at all from one gender to the other) so she wears them more.

When it comes to muggle clothing she’s most comfortable on cable knit sweaters and plaid ( though she favors the former a lot more) because she used to steal Taghd’s though if she has to “dress up” she’ll wear more masc fashion. She’s influenced by Teddy’s fashion sense a bit for that. She also wears her Gryffindor tie even after leaving Hogwarts but with dress robes/a shirt and vest instead.

She tends to prefer more muted colors with like accents of one color or one point of color (i know nothing about fashion please bear with me. Hopefully the pinterest helps)

Allegiances

Hogwarts House: Gryffindor.

Ilvermorny House: N/A

Affiliations/Organizations: Gryffindor Quidditch Team. Taghd Lynch Protection Squad. Gryffindor house.

Professions: Student. Writer/Anthologist. Becomes an auror in the Taghd Dies Verse.

Hogwarts Information

Class Proficiencies:

Astronomy: ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ ☆☆☆☆

Charms: ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ ☆☆☆☆

DADA: ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ ☆☆

Flying: ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ ★

Herbology: ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ ☆☆☆☆☆

History of Magic: ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ ☆☆☆

Potions: ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ ★☆☆☆☆☆☆

Transfiguration: ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ ☆☆☆☆

Electives:

Apparition

Muggle Studies

Study of Ancient Runes

Quidditch: Plays as Chaser and Beater reserve.

Extra Curricular: Does writing count?

Favourite Professors: I think she’d like both Atticus Irwin Grimsley ( @cursebreakerfarrier ) and Toby Moore ( @unfortunate-arrow )

*Will probably add teachers as more details of the games are release

Least Favourite Professors: Pretty much any teachers that have issues with how she dresses or are of the snobby pureblood category are a safe bet.

*Will probably add teachers as more details of the games are release

Relationships

Misc Siblings: None. Theo is an only child.

Father: Unknown atm. All Theo knows is he was a muggleborn wizard.

Mother: Emily Abbott

Love Interest: N/A

*arospec but might have fwb/flings as she figures things out and possibly a platonic life partner/partners in the future. Most likely will end up living with friends as family either way. ( the friends she lives with may even have spouses of their own just...a bunch of friends living in a house as family)

Best Friends: Taghd Lynch ( @unfortunate-arrow ) Lu Morrison ( @rosievixen ) Arthur -Teddy- Elllsion ( @cursebreakerfarrier ) Adelia Selwyn ( @that-ravenpuff-witch)

Rival: She hates Cillian Lynch ( @unfortunate-arrow) and Ernest Ellson ( @cursebreakerfarrier) bc they are unkind to her boys/two of her closest friends. I can imagine they do not like her that much ( seeing as Theo’s about as secretive and sublte about not liking people as a wrecking ball through the wall)

Enemy: tbd

Dormmates: Lu Morrison ( @rosievixen) 3rd and 4rth room mates unknown atm.

Pets: Theo adopts a niffler in the future once she’s out of Hogwarts. Her family has very strict rules about owning pets though at some point in Hogwarts she adopts a stray cat and somehow manages to keep it a secret even when/if she has to go back home for Holidays.

Closest Canon Friends: tbd

Closest MC Friends: Taghd Lynch ( @unfortunate-arrow ) Lu Morrison ( @rosievixen ) Arthur -Teddy- Elllsion ( @cursebreakerfarrier ) Adelia Selwyn ( @that-ravenpuff-witch ) Fred Morrigan ( @ljthebard1) Gabriel Sapieha ( @lizzieparkerhphm ) Danny Gibbson ( @catohphm )

Background/History

Pre Hogwarts: Theo was an “indiscretion” born to Emily Abott and an unknown ( to most) muggleborn wizard. The family kept her, fed her, made sure she knew the proper way for an Abott to act, but there was no affection to this and Theo sometimes wondered if it wasn’t only out of duty that her family did all this. After it becomes obvious that Theo who dresses in boy’s clothes, never keeps a comment inside her mind, and buckles against the propriety forced upon her more and more as the years pass is not going to be changing to fit what her family thinks she should be; it’s decided to send her to Hogwarts where she’ll at least be kept out of sight.

4th Year: Was sent to Hogwarts by her family to be kept out of sight and hopefully shape up ( with the added sentiment that if she does not, at the very least she’ll be out of sight) Met Taghd Lynch, Lu Morrison, Teddy Ellison and Adelia Selwyn.

5th Year: tba

6th Year: tba

7th Year: tba. Graduates with her friends. Though she undoubtedly has to leave some behind as I can see her befriending underclassmen.

Out of school: At some point she moves back closer to Teddy either because she received the news that Taghd died or that Taghd almost died. ( depending on the “canon” or “Taghd Lives AU”)

At some point she might adopt a daughter who is as chaotic as she was and then some ( though much more open and less angry/defensive because Theo’s a better parent than her mother )

In the Universe where Tagdh dies she becomes an Auror alongside Teddy.

At some point she cuts her parents off Completely ( no letters, no firecalls, nothing absolutely nothing) whether this happens because they did something that just got to her too much or it was more a case of her getting away and going “wooow they’re actually horrible to me” remains to be seen but she’ll come to rely on her friends for moral support and also to figure out how to live on her own without their monetary support.

Spoils her friends’ kids so so much ohmygosh she loves them.

Old Age & Death: tbd

Personality

Temperamental and impulsive ‘’jump now, think later’’/’’it looked like a good idea at the time’’ sort of person. Disaster Bisexual. Gets angry quick but it fades just as quickly. Frank, warm, empathetic. Honest-sometimes too honest- The one in a friend group to try to make people laugh. Will encourage you to hex someone who hurts you ‘’hell I’ll help you/cover for you’’ (That Friend) the opposite of the common sense friend. ( ‘’sounds illegal, I’m in.’’ )

Theo’s general status is defensive which to her can often be loud and assertive ( and a bit abrasive though she’s usually sorry about that last one when it happens) due to insecurities that took root during her time with her mother and her family To wit, she believes she needs to defend the way she is subconsciously since it was often the case at home and this leaks into her personality. When she met all her friends her first setting was “im like this and Deal with it” expecting resistance but when she met none ( as her friends all accepted her for who she is) she became a lot less so. ( shes still loud and chaotic as that's also part of who she is but she’s a lot less defensive afterwards.)

Has a really loud laugh. When she’s goofing with her friends or talking to them and laughing with them you can hear it echo through the halls.

Is sort of...a loud person in general.

Theo’s a passionate individual and incredibly stubborn when she sets her mind to something.

Skips the sad/crying phase and goes straight to angry. Might or might not have “/don’t cry/show weakness” complex. Her other emotions however are expressed be they annoyance, happiness ( her laughter Echoes through the corridors when she’s happy about something) excitement ect ect ad infinitum.

Her poker face is shit though. She couldn’t keep her opinions through herself if she tried. Her face will say them for her.

She’s fiercely fiercely protective of her friends and found family. ( see: “would happily hit Teddy’s dad with a blugger if she finds out about him being abusive ‘’curses out ppl who say mean things to Adelia or Lu and half the time will wind up throwing down for it” and of course “I’m actually going to Kill Cillian” circa Taghd’s duel in the Taghd lives AU as examples)

Misc:

Theo’s animagus form is a Pine Marten. She learned it specifically so she could get out of the house which she often found overbearing due to her mother, grandmother, and aunts attitudes towards her.

While her family kept her, fed her and clothed her it was done out of combination of duty and not wanting to waste magical blood. They might have love for her but it’s very clearly overridden by ( if not outright contingent on) their need forTheo being the kind of child they think she ought to be which she is very much not and only grows to stray more and more from it as she grows up)

Theo sometimes does suspect they did it more out of duty than any love but tries not to think about it deeply or think about them at all if she can help it ( and with an entire castle to explore with friends and mischief to manage with those same friends it becomes quite easy)

She has a fascination for the muggle world because it was her father’s world and the part of her her family shuns and kept her from knowing about.

She’s often in trouble with either Taghd or Teddy ( or both) or Lu ( or all three) and the teachers might or might not have a running tally of which combination causes the most chaos.

Theo learns Gaelic from Taghd-they start with the swear words and then she just really wants to learn the language.

Whereas Taghd tends to complain about getting dragged into fights by Teddy and her but does it Theo’s more like you feel the air shift next to you and...yup. Yup she’s there.

If her friends are in a fight nine out ten times she’s there too. That one of ten times she’s not there, she’s going to be soon.

Theo’s a night owl and can often be found the last in the common room reading or writing or talking to Taghd or Teddy or Lu. Sometimes she’ll sneak out to fly. ( specially on really clear nights)

She’s perfected the art of wolfing down breakfast in the last minutes before going to class or even just grabbing a piece of bread and running off to class because of this. As it'll lead to her oversleeping.

Adelia’s her mom friend and possibly one of the few people that can tell her what to do without her going ‘how bout i do anyways.png’

She writes a lot and can be seen talking animatedly about it mostly to fellow writer friend Teddy Ellison.

She’s bit Taghd’s brother Cillian in her animagus form at least once. It was the subject of laughter in the Gryffindor table for a good week after. Theo, ( who keeps her animagus form a secret aside from her closest friends because its a way she has to get away from people or hide or cause trouble when she wants to) becomes very interested in whatever’s in front of her and trying not to laugh when it gets brought up.

She gets really attached to Teddy’s mom ( and is a bit jealous of how nice a mother her friend has) as she both from her experience and what she gathers from Tagdh and other friends of hers she didn’t...think parents could be nice? Like empirical evidence just overall does not seem to be in their favor tbh (specially mothers) and she’s mystified by her and overall thinks she’s wonderful.

This also means she dislikes Teddy’s dad that much more ( though she keeps it to herself around Teddy’s mother ) because as far as she’s concerned he doesn’t deserve her or Teddy with what some of his actions are.

Tends to be physical with her close friends ( bumping shoulders, linking arms as they walk hand on shoulder) though on different levels depending on the different dynamics and how comfortable they themselves are with it.

She hates all the propriety she was brought up with ( one of the bonding things she Taghd had was their shared lack of decorum) but one of the things she enjoyed to learn back in Godric Hollow was calligraphy. She stills practices it as a hobby, keeping multiple colors of ink in her room at Hogwarts and later in life. She likes making calligraphy for her friends and also when they’re adults makes calligraphy for each of their children with their favorite stories.

Finally did a proper profile for Theo.

I’m hoping to get back to doing more content ( including other profiles for mcs I’ve mentioned and going back to my hphm kiddo Marti and writing out gameplay now that I have more spoons. Figured this was a good place to start.

Profile skeleton by @hogwartsmysterystory

#my mc #my profiles #hphl #Theo Abbott

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tojisveryown · 4 years ago

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omg im so happy youre doing the jjk match. you can bet your ass i zoomed to your ask as soon as you posted

personality type: infj-t star sign: sagittarius word that describes you: extra an emoji that describes you: 😛 hobbies: hiking, going out w friends/fam, selfcare, casual drinking fav anime: pls im indecisive so i cant choose one. haikyu, jjk, kakegurui, naruto shippuden, hxh fav manga: chainsaw man atm!!!!! fav jjk character: sukuna supremacy<3 fav song: this one is hard but fav song of all time is prob audobon by suicide boys or big ole freak by meg thee stallion. two very different songs appearance: asian (not that it matters) mid-length dyed blonde hair, 5'2", petite but curvy, i have a rbf (so i have been told many times), lashes + nails are always done. all this but deep down im a bruh girl. match preference: male jjk manga: only up to chapter 95

I match you up with...

𝐈𝐭𝐚𝐝𝐨𝐫𝐢 𝐘𝐮𝐮𝐣𝐢

↳ I matched you up with Itadori because I can imagine Itadori dragging you out of bed on a Sunday afternoon telling you he wants to go on a hike and during the hike he’ll constantly act like he tripped and pretends to fall off the mountain until he actually does... but luckily for him he was able to grab onto a branch before he yk.. died? He would also never ask to go on a hike after that experience ever again.

↳ I head canon that Itadori would use up all your facial products and when you ask him where your face mask sheets are he’ll walk into the room and say “I don’t know didn’t you put them in the drawer?” acting as if he doesn’t have one on his face. For payback you make him give you a massage while you take a bath

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souprights · 4 years ago

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DIY for Transmasc Minors/Those still living with unsupportive family

For context, I'm just turned 17, still living with my parents and live in the USA. This is just my experience! It may not be the best/easiest way to go about DIYing. I'm going to do my best to make this as comprehensive as possible, and please let me know if anything if incorrect or if I should add anything.

Firstly, if you're under the age of 16, I don't recommend this at all!! DIY should be a last-ditch effort, after you've tried all else. Please seek therapy, a supportive friend group, and a good community before turning to illegal means, because, yes, purchasing and being in possession of T without a script is illegal.

What's it Gonna Cost?

For cost, you're going to need about $60 - $115 of reliable income a month. Depending on the site you use, and how many millilitres of (injectable) T you purchase, that's going to vary, but $60 is the typical minimum I can find. Don't forget shipping is going to be around $15-30.

This only includes the T!! Don't forget you're going to need needles, bandaids, and alcohol swabs if you're injecting, as well as blood tests.

What Kind of T?

Whether you use gel or injections is entirely up to you and your comfort. However, please avoid orals! Those are just gonna wreck your liver, no matter how painlessly tempting they may be.

Gels run more expensive, but with injectable, there's extra purchases/packages to be had.

Hang On, Blood Tests?

To make sure your levels are in a safe/normal range, you're going to need a blood test. If possible, look for Quest or LabCorp-esque places to get proper bloods done. I was too nervous to do that, given how closely my parents track my every move while I'm not at home, so settle for finger prick at-home tests if necessary. Unless the site advertises Discreet Packaging, I highly recommend having these sent to a friend and picking them up at school/when hanging out.

Do one before starting T, one at Month One, Two and Three, respectively. Based on your levels, adjust or figure out your dose. If everything is typical at Month Three, you don't have to test again till Month Six. After that, check at your One Year mark, then yearly thereafter.

Where/How Do I Get All This?

eroids.com is the first place I turn to when looking for places to order T. You can read reviews for each site listed, and get an average rating from people who've used the sites. If you want to go for gels, I suggest poking around Reddit and finding other people who've DIYed with gel, and asking them for their opinions and recommendations. Make an informed decision no matter what you choose, and spend PLENTY of time researching.

For needles, bandaids, and alcohol swabs I honestly just use Amazon. MAKE SURE you mark your order as a gift, or else you're probably going to run into the issue of the packaging being marked with "medical supplies." Imagine your overbearing parents seeing that and ripping open your package, and immediately assuming you're spending your days in back alleys shooting up. Not fun. Take my word, and learn from my mistake.

As for bloods, just poke around till you find a test that takes your free T and total T both, or go somewhere and have it done proper.

Now, you might try using a PO box to not worry about your family seeing any packages arriving, or having it sent to a friend with more relaxed/accepting parents. Later in the year (when I'm doing this) using the approaching gift-giving holidays to keep people out of your parcels might be plausible. Or maybe your family doesn't care. Ultimately, imagine the worst case scenario and judge what to do knowing your own situation.

Okay, But....Bitcoin

Ah, yes. Daunting, tricky Bitcoin. Majority of sites only accept Bitcoin as payment. But I swear it's not as bad or hard as it sounds. Your first issue is honestly going to be finding somewhere that doesn't require you to be 18+ to purchase it. Now, don't worry too much. For me, I got my older sister to put in all her details, and I just used my money to make purchases. You can do the same with an 18+ friend, relative, or relative of a friend's. Or, send an 18+ friend's CashApp the money necessary to make a Bitcoin purchase and transfer for you.

Now, my first order of T was only about $60, with shipping and everything, since I only bought 4ml total to begin with. If you buy a bigger vial, it's going to cost more. $60 was as much as I could spend without making my parents suspicious (they keep an eye on my bank account), so if you have a similar problem or a smaller spending threshold of concern, don't worry. Just spend your max threshold on buying Bitcoin as often as you can. The Bitcoin will be stored for you to compile and use later. Keep in mind its value may go down, so buy a bit extra if you're saving up over time.

I use an app called Edge to handle all my Bitcoin transactions. It's simple, easy, and you can use a card, a direct bank transfer, Apple Pay or Cash (if there's a Bitcoin ATM near you--no worries, there's a handy map in the app itself to lead you to the nearest one of those). I used Apple Pay, so unfortunately, I can't help with any other methods than that. You can also use CashApp, but Edge's verification went much much faster, and I was not in the mood to wait a few extra days.

There's going to be a fee, usually outlined before you select your payment type. I included that in the cost of the T above, which might be more or less.

And lastly, it's not instant. It usually takes a few hours, but if it's more than a few days, reach out to customer support.

Each site lists instructions with how to send payment once ordered. Just follow their instructions, and talk to them if you have any trouble. They're usually more than happy to help you send them money.

So I've ordered my T

Shipping times are going to vary!! Keep this in mind. If you used eroids, users typically include shipping time in their reviews. This may influence which site you pick. Domestic sites tend to have faster shipping and don't risk customs seizing your pack--if customs seizes a pack with an illegal substance, you're going to get a letter. That's pretty hard to find an excuse out of, way closer to impossible.

Typical processing times are 2-5 days, but may vary a little, depending on things that may include a lovely little pandemic. Shipping is typically 1-2 weeks for domestic sites, 3-5 weeks for international. Shipping prices tend not to vary much, however, no matter where the warehouse is.

Hiding Changes

This is going to be the tricky part. I've known some people to only go on T for three months or so, as to get some changes to reduce dysphoria, but not have family members notice. If you spend a lot of time around family, the changes are gradual and they might not notice. But keep your own safety in mind above all else. What's the worst that's going to happen if your family confronts you over your changes? How long will you be able to write off your voice as "a cold" before someone wises up? How much longer are you going to be staying with your family?

I'm out to my unsupportive family, so despite being discouraged from any transition of any sort, any and all voice changes I'm writing off as voice training. Facial hair? Minoxidil. More muscle? I've been working out. These may or may not be things you can use, so consider carefully.

Aside from your voice and facial hair, there won't be anything too difficult to hide or write off. Shave your facial hair away as soon as you get up if it develops/needs to be hidden. Consider and compile a list of excuses as to why your voice is changing in case of questions.

Hiding Supplies

This is going to depend a lot on your house and situation. Do you have animals, parents or siblings who invade your spaces and find your hidey holes? A piece of advice I read in an MtF guide to DIY is to hide something you won't get in trouble for where you plan on hiding your hormones, and see if anyone finds it over a few weeks. Repeat until somewhere safe is scouted.

I have small cardboard boxes I keep under my bed, in a cabinet I have in my room, and on my desk. Only bandaids are kept on the box on my desk. But the other places I hide things have an equal distribution of my supplies, so even if someone finds one box, I'll be able to continue HRT.

Try to keep your T much better hidden than other supplies. I'm in an arts-focused degree in college, and a very artistic person, so I've managed to write off needles and syringes as pieces to build a 3D art project for a portfolio. Try to find an excuse to use if your needles are found. Maybe the art thing works for you, maybe not.

Consider taking precautionary measures of removing/covering labels of your T if you're using an injectable kind. You might be able to get away with calling it a prop of some kind, for a TikTok video or something if it's found.

Disposing of Needles/Wrappers/Etc

Alright, so you've done your first shot of T, or applied your first gel packet. Congrats! Now, how to hide the evidence? Firstly, for gels, it won't be too difficult. Just use a plastic grocery bag and fill it with other miscellaneous rubbish and mix the wrappers in with that. Toss the tied bag in your own bin, or a neighbour's bin if that's safer. If that's not possible, do so at school.

Needles are a more tricky circumstance. If you're able to purchase and safely dispose a sharps bin, 100% do that. If you're in a place like me and that's not possible, go and buy some soda with twist-top lids, or get them from friends. Once the bottle is empty, you can toss needles into there. In my experience, 1ml syringes and the small needles used for T injections fit in these 500ml bottles no issue. I throw these sealed bottles in the bin once they're full. I know this isn't proper disposable, but I'm unable to get a sharps bin.

Never throw exposed needles into the bin, or leave them somewhere anyone or anything could possibly be exposed to them.

For T bottles, I've only ever found one site that sells it in containers smaller than 10ml. I'm not sure if the 10ml bottles would fit into the soda bottles or not, so follow the same procedure as disposing of gel wrappers. If that's not possible, use a sharp knife to cut open your soda bottle at the widest part and put the bottle in there, before using a strong adhesive tape (not scotch tape--duct tape or something similar) to seal the incision before disposing of it.

In Conclusion

I've left out a list of the changes T causes, and starting doses, because those are all easy things to find, which you probably know already. Regardless of what this small guide says, please keep your own safety in mind and do as much research as possible before moving forward with DIY, and know that I'm no kind of professional, and all this is based off my tiny bit of experience.

As of the original posting of this, I haven't yet started T. I'm going to start in about two weeks, however, and have gathered everything necessary. I may update this guide further as I take T.

#ftm #trans #ftm minor #t #testosterone #transition #reblog

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recording-this-journey · 4 years ago

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A few things; I came out to my dad. He took it okay, but we'll see how it goes. Now I just have to come out to my brothers.

The other thing is my 1am internal spiral.

I miss being 'one of the boys'. I use to have a group of friends that were mostly guys and I always struggled to fit in because I tended to lean hyper fem so no one would realise I'm trans and have to face potentially coming out before I was actually safe to.

I'm not part of that group for non trans related reasons, but fuck it hit hard that I just have no guy friends anymore and I don't know how to fit in. Especially with straight men who just have never stepped outside the box of normal.

I just realised how absolutely isolating this is being surrounded by women constantly because while I get exactly where they're coming from because I've been there… They don't get this.

They don't get trying to find a balance of masculinity and fitting in and trying to have manly enough interests and wondering how to fit in with other men and be interesting and fun and have the weird experiences men get to have while young that I didn't for the most part.

Hell I'm currently just struggling to reconnect with my sexuality since coming out. Being bi is a weird trip of emotions and judgment when seen as a girl, the mixed emotions and fears of judgment it brings up as a man tho is so different. It definitely clears up why my parents homophobia felt like a personal attack growing up tho.

Finding myself and finding safe places to explore my identity and who I am now is really hard and I don't know what to do about any of it. I don't know how to be myself, I've never been myself fully before. So what does that look like now?

I went from so excited to start T soon because I want to see myself finally after years of waiting for this and praying my PCOS would give me facial hair (I would cause PCOS flares to grow a faint moustache. I have it atm tbh.) to scared to start T because I don't know what my future looks like or how to even begin construction of my life as a man when I didn't get the chance to be a boy.

How the hell do I catch up on two decades of missing life experience when I have the same internalised misogyny issues mixed with the trauma of being raised fem for 22 years?

I'm going to have to work it out eventually.

#a trans man’s diary #diary of a trans man #ftm #mine #transitioning #trans #trans masc #trans man

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eveningclouds · 4 years ago

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I have a genuine question for you and I hope I am being as transparent, honest and polite as possible. I was reading your about page. can you explain your sexuality as being lesbian while also identifying as male? Truly, I am trying to be more knowledgable in the LGBTQ community. thanks in advance!

thank u for asking so politely! i’ll try to answer as concisely yet accurately as possible, & feel free to hmu if u have more questions :)

a) i think the first thing to note is that pronouns don’t inherently have gender. some pronouns can be associated with certain genders [ex. most cis women typically use she/her pronouns], & pronouns can reflect one’s unique experience with gender [ex. someone who is nonbinary but might identify more with masculinity might use he/him or they/them pronouns].

but at the end of the day, pronouns just replace people’s names in a sentence. [ex. ‘this is robin’s backpack’ -> ‘this is his backpack’ or ‘this is their backpack’ or ‘this is her backpack’].

names aren’t necessarily gendered [ex. i know a man and a woman who both go by jordan] & therefore, pronouns aren’t [necessarily] gendered, either!

by this line of reasoning, i use he/him pronouns, but i do not identify as male/a man.

b) there are many definitions of lesbianism because sexuality is both an individual and an environmental/societal thing! some people define lesbianism to be ‘a woman who is exclusively attracted to and pursues relationships with other women.’

however, i find that a more accurate version of lesbianism is ‘someone who does not identify as a man, who is exclusively attracted to others who do not identify as men.’ i still have a few qualms about this definition, bcz i’d rather not define myself by what i am not, but it’s the most...encompassing one i can find atm

many lesbians only feel a connection to womanhood through their lesbianism - if they weren’t lesbians, they wouldn’t identify as women. their love of women, as people who aren’t men, is what connects them to womanhood. therefore, some lesbians might define their gender identity as ‘lesbian’ rather than ‘woman.’ some bisexual wlw may also consider their gender to be ‘bisexual.’

c) according to some people, lesbianism is inherently gender nonconforming.

their line of reasoning essentially follows: women are expected to only be in relationships with men -> women who do not only wish to be in relationships with men, go against typical gender roles ascribed to women. [if ur curious, i’d recommend looking up monique wittig - i disagree w many things she writes, but she has some interesting things to say]

lesbians [& bisexual women, & other wlw] have a history of playing with gender & subverting gender norms as a result of their attraction to, and prioritization of, other women...butch/femme relationships/identities are one example of this!

someone’s gender might also be influenced by their race, disability, or other factors -- ex. gender is a colonial construct that legitimizes whiteness, so women of color might experience gender differently than white women [ex. women are typically expected to naturally have less body/facial hair...but women of color tend to have more hormones that grow facial hair, & so, go against the typical expectations of their gender]

d) there’s a history of lesbians [& likely, other wlw], who use he/him pronouns to reflect their relationship with gender & womanhood & sexuality.

storme delarverie, from stonewall, used he/him pronouns; leslie feinberg, author of stone butch blues, was a lesbian who used he/hir pronouns [https://www.lesliefeinberg.net/]

#sorry if the read more doesn't work & lmk if u'd like further explanation!!#mail #lesbian

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