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no bc like. is it just me or are the banshee and the original wishful aurosa outfit CRAZY complementary ???
the colors VERY obviously ofc, you have the banshee's red hair vs nikki's green, all the reds and silvers and grays and blacks vs the gold and white (even down to nikki's gold eyes vs the banshee's gray), but even beyond that just.
the roses get me so bad. both of their outfits HEAVILY incorporate them: both circlets, countless details on both dresses, both chokers, both tights and shoes.
on one hand, there are the banshee's red roses for elegance and passion (and very possibly sacrifice and martyrdom), versus nikki's golden ones for perseverance and eternity.
but beyond that, the banshee's roses bear GREAT resemblance to the desperate vines born of the dark. the ones that infected the wishing woods, born of the same power which caused the coma incidents. directly opposed by nikki's wishful aurosa, an outfit that specifically allowed her to wake the coma victims, to purify that darkness from their souls.

just. something about the banshee's extremely strong associations with death and corruption, and how she's been creating/capturing people as puppets but its clearly stated that she herself is a puppet of the dark as well. all of that death and entrapment, the warped and twisted eternity that comes with undeath in the first place.
versus nikki, who tracks the banshee down, who dances with her fearlessly, who's capable of matching her if not beating her outright in the styling competition even though the banshee is actively attempting to possess/corrupt her in the process.
we see it!! we see the banshee actively pulling nikki around like a puppet on strings, and we see nikki, halfway through, begin to Resist That Pull. to dance of her OWN accord, instead of under the banshee's influence. nikki's own ability to resist that corruption vs the wishful aurosa's ability to, at least to some degree, actively purify it.
the banshee as the sovereign of elegant and the wishful aurosa specifically as an elegant outfit. how well they compliment one another. death vs life, freedom vs control, purity vs corruption. eternal sleep vs finding eternity in waking.
#infinity nikki#the banshee#sovereign of elegant#sovereign of elegance#infinity nikki banshee#if im missing any details that add or detract from this PLEASEEEEEEEEEE lmk#i honest to god just. need to play through the entire game again and write down EVERYTHING we know about the dark#and the corruption and chigda and the vines and wishes and#bc lord. LORD#something something glorier trying to track down the kidnapped stylists only to become trapped herself#experimented on and tortured#i can Kind Of imagine her making a deal with the dark herself in an attempt to gain the upper hand?#but based on some of the little notes you find ingame#im more convinced that because of her endurance and strength and stubbornness and how hard she fought#that they like. Forcibly Infused Her With The Dark#or something roughly along those lines#that or it was a deal gone horribly horribly wrong but just#everything in the poem about her with the bewildering realm#and no stars shining and how shes only ever out and about at night in the moonlight#and her little song and nonoy's music box and and and#EXPLODES AND DIES FOREVER !!!!!!#see THIS is why i need to replay it#so i can compile a Comprehensive List instead of simply. losing my entire damn mind#alyalyoxenfree
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Happy one year anniversary to In Stars and Time!
#ISAT#in stars and time#siffrin#loop#I truly mean it when I say that this was the best game I have played since Disco Elysium.#It pulls off some of the best examples of Ludonarritive Harmony in a video game...possibly ever?#Not to mention just...wow. What a great story. What a tale of twists and introspection. What a tale about the need for home and connection#I know many of you have trusted me before with media recommendations. Trust me one more time.#Do you want to experience the torment of being in a timeloop? And *still* have fun and feel like your time is being respected?#PLAY IN STARS AND TIME!#Do you yearn for complex characters and love unravelling mysteries? PLAY IN STARS AND TIME!!!!#Please heed the content warnings; I took them a little too lightly on my playthrough! They are there for a reason! Don't be like me!#This game means a lot to me and so many others. On the small chance the dev sees this (they are on tumblr after all):#Thank you so much for all your hard work in creating this game and seeing the project through.#It has been a year for us fans but many years for you. So thank you!#I hope it has been a joyful year for you! Watching as people descend into shrieks of agony from playing your game.#It's good! It made me vomit blood. I had so much fun! I felt like I was torturing the protagonist when I played it. I loved it! I cried.
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transferring period cramps to the retired war criminal💥💥
based on the panel me and my buddy love to use for announcing that we are actively dying

#transformers#maccadam#tf idw#megatron#my art#i was losing my shit when i saw this panel it gave me such a whiplash#awful stuff were happening in comic and then theres megs who experiences the horrors of having uterus#obvs /j its just for shits and giggles xd#i always forget how awful my first day is so i needed to torture a fictional character to feel better
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X-MEN: FIRST CLASS (2011) dir. MATTHEW VAUGHN
+bonus. erik looking up and down at charles and charles looking smug as hell. which could mean nothing.
#the way erik goes 'oh?😊👐' mind you he's known this man for three days top. he's so embarrassing#cherik#x-men#xmenedit#gifset#mine*#charles xavier#erik lehnsherr#xmenuniverse#marvel#marveledit#so funny to me that the first time we see erik teasing and joking around is him going 'haha charles you are being used as an experiment#... i'd know because i was BRUTALLY EXPERIMENTED ON AND TORTURED as a child... we have sooo much in common <3'#jokes on him tho charles is a freak and he's into erik missing social cues#they were so fond of each other :( so flirty :(#i like to Believe this is how they act post-dark phoenix
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Eddie follows up his Tiktok of an old home video of him sick with a current video of him sick. He’s congested as hell and his voice is practically gone when he croaks out, “Don’t marry teachers. They carry the plague.”
“It’s allergies. You have allergies.”
Eddie coughs pathetically and then pans the camera over to the other side of the bed. Steve, who will get a fever if you look at him too hard, has his back to Eddie.
Eddie is not reaching for him but Steve says anyways, “Don’t touch me or I will melt like a spider made of people.”
“…What does that even mean?!!!”
#unless you experience the giant spider made out of your neighbors…you tend to forget that part over the years#Eddie remembers that Steve and Robin got tortured. the fire. that Max’s brother died. and something about the mayor#he occasionally forgets that Hopper died during the summer of 85 so sometimes he forgets the mind flayed#eddie munson tiktok saga#eddie munson#steve harrington
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Katsuki and his childhood







All happened in first year of high school and the beginning of second year.
Just listing some trauma Katsuki went through. I really hate it when his haters or even some"fans" say "bakugou had no reason to be traumatized""he has no trauma "" he has no problem in his life" like stfu I even might have missed sth here.
Also never forget, the torture before his death was so intense bones had to censore it
#In order:#Sludge villain incident and his near death experience#Humiliation in sport festival#Kidnapping incident#Guilt and burden of ending all might#His sacrifice and near death experience#Getting tortured to death#His Death#Also I want to say how disgusted it makes me that ppl use a child getting suffocated to death and kidnapped and tortured and-#- murderered as being humbled and consequences of bullying#Even some of the “fans” treat them like this#The humbling was when he lost to deku or when the 1A kids were mocking him or when things never went the way he wanted to#A kid getting assaulted isn't a consequence of some middle school bullying :/#Bakugou Katsuki#Katsuki Bakugou#Katsuki bakugo#Bakugo Katsuki#Katsuki#Bakugo#Bakugou#Kacchan#great explosion murder god dynamight#Dynamight#Mha#Bnha#My hero academia#mha bakugo
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Thinking about being prepared for what’s going to happen but still not being able to fully suppress your fear of it.
You know you’re about to be hurt, you’ve known that this might happen from the start, and you thought you’d be ready to face it.
But now you’re exposed, feeling the cold air on your skin, at the whims of someone else, completely in their hands, in their power. Maybe they’re holding something sharp, something electric, something you know will hurt but can’t quite imagine how yet.
You try to be brave but your heart is racing. You try to stay still but you flinch as they come nearer. You felt so sure before, as they dragged you into this room, but now you’re having to ask yourself: what if you can’t withstand it? What if it’s just too much to bear?
#it’s in second person because I’m threatening you personally hope that helps :’)#whump#tropes and prompts#my stuff#implied/referenced torture#fear#threats#i just think it’s fun when they’re brave but still afraid#based on uh. incredibly normal personal experiences
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i’m very sorry that society has made you feel this way about your fellow disabled people. i hope you can reflect on why you believe that other people with worse symptoms than you are bringing down this community and giving us a bad name.
(especially in the context of a vent post that is not indicative of whether or not we are “actually trying” in real life.)
i am also sorry that society makes you believe that in order for disabled people to be respected we have to consistently be working toward a nebulous goal of self improvement and overcoming of disability as to not be perceived as lazy and inconsiderate by the world.
i hope you can be kinder and more patient with yourself and your disability in the future, too.
#i’m not mad even though your tags on my post were extremely rude and disrespectful. i understand why you feel this way#it’s the way that everyone in the world talks about this issue to me and everyone else who struggles with it to.#it’s pretty much impossible not to internalize some of that#but a key thing in disability activism is the realization that disability is actually disabling. and that there are wildly different#presentations of disability in different people. people with the same disabilities may have vastly different capacities for dif activity#internalized ableism#ableism#it’s also just a bit funny that the whole reason i made this post was because of the people who tell me exactly what you did in your tags#that all i have to do is work harder and try harder and#refusing to realize that my ability fluctuates day to day and hour to hour#there’s weeks where i’m on time every day. and then i have a moment that lapses into hours of stuporific depression#or similar exec dysfunction#that makes it impossible to consider going anywhere or doing anything.#and during episodes like this the alternative to being late is not being on time. it is simply not doing anything#time blindness is a debilitating symptom i experience. it has soured hundreds of events and relationships for me. this is not because#i just don’t try. or i don’t want to. or i do not torture myself about it. i promise#an explanation of which i am only delving into in the hopes that it enlightens you to my previous posts logic a bit more#not because i believe anyone has to justify their disability to anyone to be owed respect and compassion#i hope this helps a little
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When will the albus severus name discourse in this fandom die omggg. I feel like people are missing a really crucial point when talking about this, which is that all of these characters’ lives were defined around war. No, ginny would not have an issue naming her son after snape because he was a dick to neville! Snape dedicated his entire life to fighting a war on the side she was on, a war that her whole family was heavily involved in, a war that she fought her entire sixth year, a war that took her brother's life, why in the world would she care about something so considerably petty like snape being a shit teacher when he fought and died heroically for her and her loved one's lives?
#honestly everytime this comes up it feels like pure projection#YOU don’t like the name because YOU don’t like snape!#and that’s fine!#personally I think Albus Severus is a horrible name to condemn an innocent child to#but saying that the characters would really have an issue with honoring snape feels like we’re missing a big part of everyone’s experience#honestly I don’t even think neville would have had too much of an issue with this#like we are really understating how much that war would have impacted them#they were children!#they saw people die and get tortured!#but neville getting bullied in third year is more influential on their decision making rightt#not to dismiss the bullying but cmon what are we talking about here its not comparable#anyways#severus snape#ginny weasley#hp meta
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Odysseus: demanding Athena take off whatever enchantment she put on him the second the situation ends.
Odysseus: who constantly reminds Athena that he has great plans to grow old and die with his wife so don't even think about getting any ideas.
Odysseus: side eye diomedes who has started fucking glowing he has so many enchantments on him: bro you should talk to Athena about getting those removed. You're going to end up immortal or some shit
Diomedes: who has been a solider since he was 5 who has intersting thoughts about his own personhood who has a much more traditional relationship with Athena and would rather literally stab his own eye out with a rusted sword than speak out of turn: I don't know what you're talking about
#odysseus#Diomedes#Athena#This is more pulling from my own headcanons than any source material#But I have a lot of feelings about the narritive physically changing a character and how well that works with the idea that#Becoming immortal is a slow process more of a slide than an abrupt change#And I have a lot of feelings about diomedes becoming immortal and how odysseus only ever wanted to be a man#And how diomedes was having a much more mortal experience and odysseus experiencing so much magic and monsters and gods#And how every step of the way diomedes only ever politely thanks Athena never argues only does his duty#And how nearly everything odysseus met tried to change him or keep him and how he fought against that with his whole being#Also a lot of feelings about the traditional reward for heros was immortality#This obviously does not include all the times Athena treated odysseus like a barbie doll because ody was 98% not aware of that#Athena post the whole ajax going insane thing: that was fun#Odysseus: great yah super fucking fun love when my allies go mad with desires to torture me to death BTW#Take off the invisibility spell I want nobody trace of it lingering on me I am remaining mortal if it kills me#Athena: definitely not pouting you're no fun one little spell isn't going to permanently alter you#Odysseus: I am not taking any chances any invisibility I have is going to be my own fucking skill and your excellent training not magic#Diomedes: internally:after getting the ability to see through illusions and see gods#Should I mention this to Pallas Athena? Did she mean for me to keep it? Is it bad if I keep using it?#Is it even more disrespectful to not use it? Surely she is aware that I still have this? Surely it would be an insult to her intelligence#To remind her that would be casting doubt on her memory and perhaps it is part of a plan and#Who am I to question pallas athenas plans who am I but her devout weapon better to not mention it or any of the other lingering magics#Diomedes realizing a hundred years after the fact that he is in fact immortal: ....should I mention this?#Athena finds it funny to try to sneak magic onto odysseus it's a game for them because their both rat bastards#But not post odyssey it's just triggering then#Actual child solider diomedes#Greek myths
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Every single time I see those twitter accounts that go “wind waker/twilight princess for the switch!!” This image i made a while back pops in my head once in a while

#guys please…please emulate…why must you wait??#why must you wait to spend 60 dollars on 20+ year old games#(this also goes for ppl selling the physical game either gc or wiiu)#i understand that you want to experience playing the game on console but sometimes you just gotta emulate#get yourself a nice pc game controller and emulate#ik its hard and scary to find good roms but just look around PLEASE#QUIT TORTURING YOURSELF#txt
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DPxDC prompt: Here is the News
“You’re watching CDTV Now, and I’m Ace Atchinson with a special feature. Last week, the nation was shocked when a team of junior heroes affiliated with the Justice League apparently vandalised one of America’s most beloved national monuments.”
A short, jerky video plays, showing an explosion on a large stone face – one of four carved out of the side of a mountain. The smoke clears to reveal a large hole where the nose used to be. Several figures fly out of the stone and are caught by some sort of flying vehicle. It swoops across the mountain and away.
“With me live in the studio this afternoon are some of the members of Young Justice, here to tell us their side of the story. Superboy, Wonder Girl, Impulse – did you destroy Mount Rushmore?”
“Yeah, we did,” says the boy with black curly hair and a leather jacket over his brightly coloured hero suit. A bar appears across the bottom of the screen. Superboy, it says. Member of Young Justice. “On purpose, too.”
The girl, with stiff black hair and large square glasses, scowls in his direction. “We weren’t trying to destroy it,” she says as the camera closes in on her. The bar across the bottom of the screen now reads Wonder Girl and Member of Young Justice. “We were rescuing our friend.”
“She’s a ghost you see and the apes captured her and held her in this secret base –” The brown-haired boy in goggles stops when he is nudged by the girl beside him. The bar flickers for a moment to say Impulse before returning to Wonder Girl.
“OK, so, we need to go back, like, five steps here. There was a secret government base inside Mount Rushmore where they were conducting inhumane experiments on ghosts.”
The host laughs in a strained, nervous way. “Ghosts?” he asks.
They nod. “I’d like to introduce you to another member of our team,” says Wonder Girl. A mist forms behind her as she speaks, and swiftly coalesces into the form of a pale, slight girl, hovering behind the sofa. “Um,” she says nervously. “My name is – I mean, I go by – Secret, and… I’m a ghost.”
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“Danny! Turn on CDTV now!”
“What? Why?”
“Just do it!”
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“–torture and imprisonment, and she hadn’t even done anything! They’re just prejudiced against ghosts because they think they’re dangerous!”
“She is dangerous,’ says the black-haired boy proudly. The label Superboy appears on the screen again, in case anyone had forgotten. “She can shape-shift and go through walls and even possess people –”
“K– Superboy!” hisses Wonder Girl. “Not helping!”
“I’m right here,” says the ghost girl. The people who do the labels have obviously been hard at work, because she now has one too, saying Secret and Alleged ghost. “And I can do those things, but that doesn’t mean I want to hurt people or –”
There’s yelling from off camera, and a crash. A bolt of blue-white energy flies past the camera and the image whites out. There’s a scream, and a burst of static. The image returns, fuzzy and striated. Another bolt of energy. A large man wearing white rushes into view. Someone in green boots and a yellow and black cape lands on his head and knocks him down. A bang, and the image turns sideways as the camera crashes to the floor. The sound cuts out. There’s smoke, and running feet, and suddenly the side of the studio sofa, before another flash of blue-white light and the screen goes dead.
Nothing happens for almost a minute, and then the TV starts playing a rerun of the highlights of last week’s sports game.
––––––––
“Well, shit,” says Danny.
Superboy here is not in fact Kon but Match pretending to be Kon and trying to sabotage the team. Robin was hiding in the ceiling behind a lighting rig because Batman is going through one of his ‘we are cryptids’ phases and wouldn’t allow him to appear on screen. Anita hasn’t joined the team yet, which is good because her dad is one of the agents and it would have been awkward.
#dpxdc#dpxyj98#me on my greta agenda again#it’s always ‘haha young justice blew up mount rushmore’#and never ‘*why* did young justice blow up mount rushmore?’#in canon they never got to do the live interview they were planning#but what if they had and danny saw it?#my hobby:#conflating the white-suited people who capture ghosts and conduct torturous experiments on them in young justice 98#with the white-suited people who capture ghosts and conduct torturous experiments on them in danny phantom
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hi i finished beast yeast. here are some guys . and purelily…..
#whattttt. crk what was that#i have many emotions#my poor poor boy pv why did they torture you so 😭#anyways shadow milk was really fun to draw might draw him again#the purelily drawing was mostly a painting/rendering experiment#it turned out alright i think!#wow okay i’m yapping normal tags now#fanart#art#beta crk chronicles#crk#cookie run kingdom#pure vanilla cookie#purelily#white lily cookie#shadow milk cookie
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ark aftermath
#being in the ark with knives who had gathered such immense power definitely fucked with vash's brain#their fight before the ark haunts me. what do you mean 'blackness of decay' jesus christ#it reminds me of 'youve got more of them...scars'#knives seeing that his brother is actively like. dying.#also what do u mean knives tried to merge with him. that definitely took a toll on both of them#anyway so vash has vivid hallucinations of his brother and whatnot#wolfwood hates himself for that obviously#just imagine the horror he would experience if vash called him 'knives'#vash literally spitting blood because 1) anxiety 2) hes so fucking tired and tortured and shit#he wants a break guys give him a break#but ooobviously vash (the man he is) he'll never accuse wolfwood of trapping him in the ark. of betraying him etc#so he'll just be happy to be there alive and relatively well and hope the same for his brother#at least for the time being before vash meets him and kills him#this is the longest comic ive made sorry if it feels a bit rushed/not well concluding#best i can do#its been kicking my ass for the past week and i just wanted to be done w it#trigun#vashwood#vash the stampede#nicholas d. wolfwood#trigun maximum#trigun fanart#my art#millions knives#<- for a fragment of a second#what else#tw hallucinations#tw blood#tw emetophobia
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I'm in A Mood™ (stressed) so im going back to my roots of melting two character together into one person. So bruce wayne!danny fenton. Danny Fenton who, for eight years, grew up in a beautiful gothic manor with his mom and dad under the name "Bruce Wayne". Playing piano with his mother, running around the manor with his father.
Then when he's eight it's ripped away from him. There's blood on his hands and pearls pooling at his feet, and both his parents are dead in front of him.
And he gets shipped off to distant relatives "the Fentons" shortly after, Alfred close on his heels because someone needs to take care of him, someone that knows him. Bruce goes to the Fentons for the safety of anonymity. Gotham's press wants to sink its teeth into him.
Danny misses his city even if it took everything from him. There are shadows in his eyes and he's pale as a sheet even beside his distant cousins, and they change his name to "Danny Fenton' because nobody should know that their newest child was illustrious orphan Bruce Wayne.
They call him Bruce behind closed doors. Danny prefers it that way, he clings onto the name -- the one his parents gave him -- like a lifeline. He makes friends with Sam and Tucker. Tucker takes one look at the willowy, morbid little boy standing in the corner like a shade, ghosts in his eyes, and drags him out into the sunlight, and takes him over to Sam.
When Danny is twelve, he's still not over it -- and he's a little obsessed with the Fentons' research, with the morbid. He has books upon books on death, murder, detective work. Anything he can get his hands on. And stars. He loves stars.
Alfred owns the apartment next to them and comes over regularly. Danny clings to him.
When Danny is twelve, he's still quiet, meek, a shy little thing prone to being bullied. Freaky little Fenton with the night in his eyes and too-cold skin even before he put one foot in the grave. in a sleepover in his room with Sam and Tucker, he tells them the truth. They're his friends, he trusts them.
"My name is Bruce." he murmurs, voice quiet as the breeze, always quiet. he's staring at his star-covered sheets.
"Like Bruce Wayne?" Tucker asks, a joking tone in his voice.
Danny smiles a little, lamb-like with insecurity. "I am Bruce Wayne." And he takes them down to the lab, disrupting Maddie and Jack, to prove it. Sam tells them of her own wealth then shortly after. They start calling Danny "Bruce" in private too -- its trust. Thats what it is. It's trust.
Sam goes to media functions and comes back with aching feet and complaints on her tongue -- and Danny soaks it up all like a sponge, splayed across a beanbag chair with Tucker in her room. He's not envious of her, he used to go to events with his parents and they kept him safe from the ugly of Gotham's Elite. For the most part. He's had comments made at him, he doesn't miss them.
Alfred returns to the manor semi-regularly, Danny goes with him. he wanders the hallways and helps Alfred clean, the last thing either of them want is for their home to fall into disrepair. He brings Jazz with him next time, then Tucker, then Sam. They all help him clean, and he shows them his room. The one across from his parents', it feels strange.
When Danny dies when he's fourteen, the first adult he tells is Alfred. He and Jazz go over to his house more often than they stay in the Fentonworks building. At least at Alfred's, the food doesn't come to life. Alfred sits at the kitchen table and weeps when Danny tells him, Jazz is upstairs, and its just the two of them.
Danny's ghost form wears pearls around his wrist and the gloves look stained with some kind of black substance. He looks like a child who died in a lab accident, but he also looks like a child who has shadows dripping off his shoulders, curling at his feet, hanging from his eyes.
because amorphous blob batman has my heart always and danny/bruce will not escape it even in death even if that IS the only reason im giving him Mild BatBlob Vibes...so far
when they go to the manor, alfred helps danny make a pile of stones between Martha and Thomas' graves, nobody but the two of them (and sam and tucker) will know what it means. (not even bruce's children later down the line, not for a long, long time)
danny dives into ghost fighting on shaky feet and not half as witty as he once was in one world. he's skittish, skittering between blasts from shadow to shadow and clumsily making his way through each battle. but helping people lights a fire in him. he still has shadows dripping off his feet but there's a purpose in his eyes.
and god help him, he's going to help people.
#dpxdc#dp x dc#danny fenton is not the ghost king#dp x dc crossover#dpxdc crossover#dpdc#dpxdc prompt#this is just me torturing danny for a little bit because im stressed and i cried for an hour while i was driving so im taking it out on B#thanks for being my little stress ball danny#aha my old middle school habit of frankensteining two characters together is resurfacing again :) yall should've seen my wattpad drafts#in middle school. i had 50 of them and most of them were me combining two characters together to make one person and putting them in one au#my most memorable being skydoesminecraft and harry potter. THAT was a fun worldbuilding experience#do i think that growing up with the fentons would fix bruce/danny completely?? hurm. no. dont kid yallselves jazz is not a licensed#therapist not even at like. nine when she meets danny. she's not helping him through his trauma in the slightest. she's nagging.#she's his sister or sister-like figure before she's his therapist. would he be#*entirely* like canon bruce tho?? no. dannybruce is a mix of the both of them. but this is still the first post of the au and is more so#just me doing the equivalent of popping a stress ball so nothing is smoothed over. mostly im just trying to keep bruce's trauma prominent i#danny's character because he IS Bruce. i dont want him to just be 'danny with bruce's backstory but without any of the ugly bits'.#danny and bruce is used interchangeably because they're the same person but sorry if his personality feels imbalanced i came up with this o#the spot. was going to type more but the stress has left me. for now. watch ur back danny 👀
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It's fascinating the way people will see like... a ritual they're unfamiliar with as the weird, bad thing and not whatever drove it as the weird, bad thing.
My resurrection eggs post is floating around again and I've gotten dozens of responses in the past few hours that range from "hey op what the fuck" to "oh god this unlocked memories" to "yeah yeah the resurrection eggs we've all seen them", but I am so unused to having 0 justifications or defenses (so far) on a post that's getting this amount of response. And don't get me wrong, I'm glad people are seeing the horror of them because they are fucked up and they are disturbing.
However, I am struck by like... the eggs specifically are not the traumatizing part. It is a manifestation of the trauma of the crucifixion and talking about these details of torture with children AND placing the blame for said torture on them. The eggs are bad because they're a culmination of an attempt to make it as interactive (and therefore inescapable) as they can for kids, but the eggs themselves were not the traumatizing thing.
And I can't help but think about how different the response would be if I had just made a post about the crucifixion and how it's fucked up that it's taught to kids and it was going around like this. The justifications that would likely pop up. The defenses. The dismissal of how fucked up it is because it's been so normalized.
A few people have said things along the lines of "oh wow I thought my experience was bad but at least it wasn't THIS" and like, my aim with bringing up the eggs wasn't to be like "I had a uniquely traumatizing and fucked up experience." It was really to discuss just how far the desire some people have to express this to children goes, that they'd go as far as making torture a cute little engaging activity. That's disturbing to me, but the thing that traumatized me wasn't the eggs; it was learning about details of torture way too young and being told that I was personally responsible for it, that I personally was so deplorable and evil that I deserved to be tortured and an innocent person took my place instead. The eggs were just a vehicle for it.
#ex christian#religious trauma#ex cult#ex fundie#like PLEASE don't dismiss your experience just bc you didn't have eggs & mini torture tools to hold lmao#it contributed to the trauma. but it wasn't the trauma
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