#except myself

[blueskadoo-bitch]

I'm sorry was I just supposed to read The Inheritance Cycle 700 different times and then accidentally stumble upon the fact that Brisingr and Inheritance both have alternative titles!?????

JUST GONNA SNEAK THAT ONE PAST US EH CHRIS?!

[coffeexxcigarettes]

Defeat

-

I don't want to do this.

The city is crumbling.

Falling in muffled chaos around me.

The ground shakes,

I grew up here,

And I shiver alone,

And I don't want to do this.

I reach my arms out,

Searching for the water's surface.

The light is breaking through

In nearly crystalized rays.

It is breathtaking.

It is beautiful.

Beneath me,

It is cold,

And dark,

And I don't want to do this.

I sob over the pills,

In that messy little bathroom.

"I've got you." You laugh,

But you never have.

And so I do it.

I finally take the goddamn

Antidepressant.

x

[lewmagoo]

my younger brother’s cooking habits have me vowing to never eat anything he cooks ever 🤢

[fleetways]

no one can stop me from drawing sonadow magnetic

[settsplitt]

Last thing I have to say is that y'all are gonna be SHOCKED when I post the Lestappen fic I've been working on for the past week

[manufactoredxbyxdesign]

“Technically I tolerate men more than I like them.”

[ruby-roseblog]

A hoe in need of cuddles

explain your gender in 10 words or less without using boring words like “male”, “female”, “nonbinary”, “masculine”, “feminine” or “androgynous”.

go!

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

[en-sell-uh-dus]

The only thing that keeps me going is the thought that after few decades when I will retire i will go into hibernation and if that's not enough then aestivation as well.

[badhabitssadtimes]

I dont think I'm anyone's favourite.

[scratchy829]

So does "anything and everything and nothing" go to the boys team for P.E. or the girls team

[romanceyourdemons]

so much love for characters who are desperately unsure whether they’re a good person, a redeemable person, a person worth saving, but are absolutely certain that they’re a grade a hottie

[inkskinned]

because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.

you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.

you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.

don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.

if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.

you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:

how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!

aren't you happy yet?

[isjasz]

Feather and Crystal (I remember)

Set after wild life session 5, under the premise that dd gave each other a feather earring and a crystal necklace back in 3rd life <3 They can be seen in a lot of my past pieces, the og concept was from bugs buggsxp back during dl !!

[epaily]

i love pathetic depressed men

[astralpenguin]

self care is writing a fic that you’re literally the sole target audience for