#except myself

[blueskadoo-bitch]

I'm sorry was I just supposed to read The Inheritance Cycle 700 different times and then accidentally stumble upon the fact that Brisingr and Inheritance both have alternative titles!?????

JUST GONNA SNEAK THAT ONE PAST US EH CHRIS?!

[coffeexxcigarettes]

Defeat

-

I don't want to do this.

The city is crumbling.

Falling in muffled chaos around me.

The ground shakes,

I grew up here,

And I shiver alone,

And I don't want to do this.

I reach my arms out,

Searching for the water's surface.

The light is breaking through

In nearly crystalized rays.

It is breathtaking.

It is beautiful.

Beneath me,

It is cold,

And dark,

And I don't want to do this.

I sob over the pills,

In that messy little bathroom.

"I've got you." You laugh,

But you never have.

And so I do it.

I finally take the goddamn

Antidepressant.

x

[lewmagoo]

my younger brother’s cooking habits have me vowing to never eat anything he cooks ever 🤢

[fleetways]

no one can stop me from drawing sonadow magnetic

[settsplitt]

Last thing I have to say is that y'all are gonna be SHOCKED when I post the Lestappen fic I've been working on for the past week

[agentem]

I just watched a YouTube video about "how many dragons each side has" in the Dance of the Dragons and it was wrong. So

On Planetos the dragons never stop growing so the oldest are the largest, which makes a difference in battle. Vhagar (ridden by Aemond One-Eye) is twice as large as other fully grown dragons. So the age of the dragon makes a huge difference in battle. Vhagar is basically the Mountain of dragons and the others are Oberyn Martell.

Dreamfyre (Queen Helaena) is the next oldest dragon, but Helaena, precious bug princess, isn't as interested in battle as her brothers.

Caraxes (Prince Daemon) and Meleys (Princess Rhaenys) are both similar in age. Caraxes is about half the size of Vhagar while Meleys is said to be the swiftest of all the dragons.

Syrax (Rhaenerya) is about the same age as Seasmoke and here is where things get interesting. Seasmoke was ridden by Laenor, but Laenor is gone.

I'm not sure the show has really shown this yet, but there are dragons on Dragonstone that are older, and again, larger that don't have riders. We see a glimpse of Daemon singing to one in the trailer for next week (I think it is Vermithor?).

I don't know if we will get it next week, but there will be a race to find people that can ride these dragons which is very interesting to me because we are going to see how a dragon can be tamed. So far we know it involves shouting in Valyrian at them and having Valyrian blood. But we don't know how much Valyrian blood one needs to ride a dragon. Finding this out could be important for the ending of ASOIAF because Dany needs to find riders for her two extras (many including the show Game of Thrones have suspected Jon Snow as a dragon rider, but could there be another?) .

THE GREENS

Sunfyre - Riden by Aegon II, the Poor Man's Evan Peters

Vhagar - Riden by Aemond One-Eye, She's the Baddest Bitch on the Block

Dreamfyre - Riden by Heleana Targaryen, Not Really Seen on the Show

Tessarion - Riden by Daeron Targaryen, Sir Not Appearing in this Picture (aka Alicent's Fourth Child Who Lives in Oldtown who hasn't been cast as far as I know)

Morghul & Shrykos- Bonded to the twins Jaehaerys and Jaehaera (the babies seen playing on the floor this episode), not large enough to ride.

THE BLACKS

[Vermithor - The former mount of Old King Jaeherys. Rider TBD!]

[Silverwing - The former mount of Good Queen Alysanne. Rider TBD.]

Caraxes - Ridden by Daemon Targaryen. Caraxes is most likely the oldest dragon on Team Black.

Meleys - Ridden by Rhaenys Targaryen. Fastest dragon, good for warning people their dumb half-brother got crowned in your place.

Syrax - Ridden by Rhaenyra

[Seasmoke - Former mount of Laenor Velayron]

Vermax - Jacerys Velayron

Arrax - Lucerys Velayron

Tyraxes - Joffrey Velayron

Moondancer - Baela Targaryen

Morning - Rhaena Targaryen (NOTE: Last we saw on HotD Rhaena's egg hadn't hatched. But we saw Daemon retrieve another egg last episode and that was believed to be this one. I am not certain, due to time jumps, if Morning has bonded with Rhaena yet. Would love to see it in the final episode!)

Stormcloud - Bonded to baby Aegon Targaryen ("Aegon the Younger"), not big enough to ride.

[Sheepstealer - A feral dragon never ridden before that lives on Dragonstone. Sheepstealer's age is not known but he may be as large as old as Dreamfyre]

[The Cannibal - A feral dragon known to eat other dragons. Never had a rider.]

[manufactoredxbyxdesign]

“Technically I tolerate men more than I like them.”

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

[scratchy829]

So does "anything and everything and nothing" go to the boys team for P.E. or the girls team

[romanceyourdemons]

so much love for characters who are desperately unsure whether they’re a good person, a redeemable person, a person worth saving, but are absolutely certain that they’re a grade a hottie

[inkskinned]

because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.

you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.

you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.

don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.

if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.

you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:

how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!

aren't you happy yet?

[epaily]

i love pathetic depressed men

[astralpenguin]

self care is writing a fic that you’re literally the sole target audience for

[mono-lee-mmxxii]

I figured out how to make my animation software work

Now no one can stop me

[sugarflow]

hop on lethal company 2 babygirl

[bilaudad]

wing stuff!

experimenting with a more cartoon style, idk what i'm doing loll

tagging: @goodomensafterdark <3