#everything feels like linkin park lyrics right now

[bloomingonionbitch]

a very low-res, slightly regressive representation of my day that was fun to make while i waited for my gummy to kick in

[groovesnjams]

13 / 50

"Red Wine Supernova" by Chappell Roan

MG:

There’s so much Shania Twain (I suppose, though if I’m being precise, I think there’s so much LeAnn Rimes on the Coyote Ugly soundtrack) in “Red Wine Supernova.” We’re in a boom period of re-examining, re-contextualizing, and re-appreciating late-90’s radio rock. It’s something Grooves N Jams never stopped doing; I remember where I was when I first listened to Third Eye Blind’s self-titled debut like it’s my own personal national tragedy. So it’s a bit surreal and, honestly, kind of deadening to bob on these waves a second time. I can feel us all, in this moment, careening toward Evanescence, Linkin Park, eventually Puddle of Mudd and Staind, and then the total death of radio for a second time. I think there’s a wont to put all of that on streaming and pirating, as though the medium itself was flawed and the music can be salvaged. The medium was flawed, but also, this sound was extremely easy to replicate and the imitators were often nothing more than fridge magnet poetry cloaked under a couple production tricks.

Anyway, I feel like Shania caught some short shrift during this period, so, unlike the general 90’s ennui I’m starting to feel, the resurrection of “You’re Still the One” via boygenius and “Man! I Feel Like a Woman” via Chappell Roan is still fresh and delightful. Shania could be playful and camp in a way that our often serious, humorless pop culture really, really misses. Perhaps I’m missing the point and part of the joy of her quasi-drag and over-performed yelps is to bop along and not overthink it, but I’m here to overthink it. There are plenty of artists who could fit themselves inside of “Red Wine Supernova” (Rina Sawayama tried it with “This Hell,” for example) but Chappell is comfortable with performing in way that feels slightly waylaid by our current era of always on branding and universal blandness. She’s using her voice, flexing it and manipulating it, a commanding tour de force woman and a goofy, confessional girl by turns. It’s a stage show, for sure, but after years and years of single facet performers (professional mope boys like Drake and The Weeknd or Ariana Grande’s mumbled “yuh” or Charli XCX’s irony pop) it’s a delight to see someone prowl around like she does, fully owning her character, imperfections and all. In that way, she’s taken what Shania did – her kick your feet up and laugh friendliness – and added a layer of vulnerability on top by not trying to strangle every last drop of productivity from her margins. It’s possible to dislike Chappell Roan and that’s what makes her so loveable.

DV:

If I was a teen in 2023 I would be basing my entire personality around Chappell Roan right now, to the annoyance of everyone around me. Like others on this list, she has a way of encapsulating an entire world and attitude inside a single song and making you a part of it whenever you listen; unlike those others, at its most inviting Chappell's world is centered around getting drunk and naked in the most ostentatious way possible. MG and I didn't catch Chappell's tour this year due to "fuck LiveNation" reasons, but you don't need to see it live to realize that "Red Wine Supernova" is made for crowdwork, full of call-and-response moments and subtle punchlines. I say subtle; I mean, "Want me to fuck you" is tucked halfway through a verse rather than in a more obvious spot like the chorus. But in Chappell Roan's hands, everything seems obvious, belying the skill it takes to take a lyric this packed with obnoxious theater kid energy and make it irresistibly charming. "Red Wine Supernova" wears itself on its sleeve and demands you do the same. It's a dialogue between Chappell and the listener as much as between her and the girl biting her neck.

[tjreidwrites]

The End Matters

A short story by Taylor Joseph Reid

My loft bed had a desk underneath and that’s where I did my homework and played video games. I had been practicing different combos against the CPU on Mortal Kombat until my thumbs ached. I knew if I played long enough for that to happen, then bedtime was around the corner. Sixth grade had only started, and tomorrow was a school day.

“I’m turning your lights out for you,” Mom said. “And Joe, you need to wake up when your alarm goes off tomorrow. I have way too much to do in the mornings as it is. It’s not my job to wake you up.”

“Got it, Mom.” I climbed the ladder and got in bed.

“Okay, goodnight.”

I said goodnight. She told me she loved me, and I said it back. Apparently, I said it too quietly because she replied, “What was that?”

“I love you too!”

She laughed and clicked my bedroom light off.

Sleep never came right when the lights went out. I stared mindlessly at the posters hung up by thumbtacks on the wall beside me. They were crinkled rectangles with blobs that couldn’t be recognized in the darkness for the Pokemon characters they were. I stared at the distorted images hoping my eyes would tire out.

It wasn’t working. I sighed and turned on my back, staring up at the black blank ceiling. Should I just keep trying to go to sleep? The thought alone made my mind race. What twelve-year-old needs eight hours of sleep anyway?

I sat up and reached down by my feet. A Gameboy Advance SP loaded up with Pokémon. Next to the Gameboy was my portable CD player and headphones. Both devices were lodged between the mattress and bed frame where I left them. I grazed the Gameboy but wasn’t in the mood to hide the light of the console under my blanket. I opted for the music and only the music.

I put the headphones on. The soft plush gently conformed to my ears. The sense of isolation from the outside world was now complete. At home in bed with the lights off and a pair of padded headphones on. Away from everything. Not bad at all. My video games served me as the ultimate escape, but even those adventures were worth getting away from sometimes. With a little help from music, I could create my own worlds.

Most of the records I owned were Christian music CDs I got from family members for birthdays and Christmas. Even though I liked some of the music, I was sick of those same old songs and obsessed with my latest disc. It was the first one I bought with my very own money! I never heard anything quite like it! I don’t think my mom and dad would have cared if they knew I had Linkin Park’s first release, Hybrid Theory, but I kept it a secret anyway. They had this thing about ‘secular music.’ I don’t know. Not going there. Besides, I didn’t like my parents knowing every little thing about me anyway. Having some secrets, big or small, felt right. Made me feel normal.

I lifted the comforter up to my neck and got cozy. I put the player by my side and grazed the buttons until I found the indented sideways triangle and pressed it.

The heavy-hitting trip-hop beat in the intro of ‘Papercut’ caused me to sink my head even further into the pillow. I shut my eyes and smiled as the turntable sounds went off. One measure later, the emotional hit of the full band—drums, guitar, and bass—came flooding in through my ears.

The explosiveness of the band with its genre-bending iconic nu-metal and alternative sound is what drew me in, but the lyrics and vocals are what made me obsessed. I let the music take me on a ride. It's like a whirlwind inside of my head. It's like I can't stop what I'm hearing within. It's like the face inside is right beneath my skin.

I pressed my eyes shut tight. Then tighter. White flashing fireworks exploded behind my eyelids with purple lights trailing behind like sparks of lightning that danced to the beat. I was on top of the world and only halfway through the first song.

Gooseflesh raised up on my arms as Chester sang, “The sun goes down. I feel the light betray me. The sun goes down. I feel the light betray me.” I could tell that his singing voice was coming from deep within him. It was beyond powerful. It was like his personal pain and joy of performing was its own entity, extending an arm to understand. I knew they (Linkin Park) understood me too. It’s not like they wrote the songs for me, but as if they wrote the songs for people like me.

I never knew how to express what it felt like to get picked on and bullied and made fun of as a kid. Who knew having a stutter and a little extra belly fat could be such a detriment? I was angry and confused when older kids would call me things like fat and worthless or spit on me while they circled around me on bikes like vultures. I was just trying to walk home from school. I never bothered anyone. There was a time when I was even younger, and a different set of kids pushed me to my knees and kicked the breath out of me if I tried to leave the park to go home. They would trap me there. Why? I don’t know. I had built up some anger and confusion, but it was more than that. More unexplainable feelings that I didn’t have words for. All the memories I wanted to repress but couldn’t get to leave. These songs had a way of making me feel better. They gave me ideas I didn’t know how to express with words. When I listened, I could think about the things in life better forgotten through a different lens. Does everyone feel like this when a band resonates with them?

The angst I had must have rivaled the most pissed-off twelve-year-olds on earth. When Chester screams, “Shut up when I’m talking to you, shut up! Shut up!” I mouthed the words.

Suddenly, the fireworks that were behind my eyes flipped and morphed into stage lights, and in a flash, I’m standing in a crowd. A sold-out concert. It's them. All six of them. Spikey blonde hair and everything. The moment of being with the crowd was short. I blink, and now I’m up on stage. Mike Shinoda even introduced me to the crowd. “We want to welcome our friend Joe Kennedy to the stage for this next one!” I have a mic clutched tight in both hands. I sang the entire next song with them. I’m screaming alongside Mike and Chester! How is this possible?

During the times I was stuck listening to my parents argue, I snuck out of the house so I didn’t have to listen to what they had to say to each other. I would rather go to the park and make believe I was a character from one of my favorite anime or video games, someone with power. Power and control. I’d launch myself off the swing at the height of its elevation point and barrel roll across the wood chips, springing up in a fighting position. Make-believe is nice. I get to be far from the things that bother me. If I would have stayed and listened to my parents fight, it would only end in me fighting myself. How much of it is my fault? Is it my fault?

Even though the next song called ‘Crawling’ was surely not written about the imminent divorce of one’s parents, it still made me feel like I wasn’t as alone.

To find myself again

My walls are closing in

(Without a sense of confidence, I'm convinced)

(That there's just too much pressure to take)

I've felt this way before

So insecure

I was still riding the wave, but my eyeballs began to flutter, telling me sleep was around the corner. The song ‘By Myself’ had me imagining myself behind the drum kit. I knew how to play a little bit, but I wanted to get better. Maybe if I was a good drummer, my classmates would think I was cool. Then Chester let out that piercing high scream, “Myself! I ask why, but in my mind, I find I can’t rely on myself, myself!” And I can almost feel a scratching in my throat. How does he do that? That scream. How does he sing like an angel and scream like that? I’m going to learn.

And maybe the opening piano of ‘In the End’ is what finally lulled me to sleep.

The angelic line, “It starts with one…” I enter the space where a daydream becomes a real dream. I fly through cold clouds under an ethereal moonlight, flipping and turning and going the speed of sound. The crowd screams its applause. I can hear it from the sky. Maybe it's for me, maybe it's for Linkin Park. “In the end, it doesn’t even matter…” because the applause is for you.

But the words of the song don’t mean that nothing matters or that life lacks substance. No, I don’t think that's what they wanted to convey. It's about the futility of trying to control what we can't. In the end, it won’t matter if the bully kicks you down; you can’t change them. Did you stand up for yourself? If your parents get divorced, you can’t make them love each other. Did you ask them to try one more time? Did they? That’s out of your control. If the love of your life leaves you, you can’t make them love you. You can’t even make yourself love you, so how could you make them do that? If your best friend betrays you, you can’t make them care as much as you do. If your boss fires you, they don’t know what you sacrificed away from the job, but they don’t care, and you can’t make them care. Did you do enough for yourself during all of this?

My dream becomes a premonition, and I truly am on stage. I’m older now. I’m not sharing the stage with LP anymore. It’s my very own band. Our own song worlds. I scream my best scream. It's as close to Chester’s tone as it gets for me. Maybe he’d smile if he knew. Shoot, maybe he knows better than anyone.

The crowd’s applause is deafening. “Thank you so, so much,” I say into the mic. The stage lights let up, and I can see in front of me. So many people. But there's a spotlight on the one I’m meant to notice. I’m at a loss for words. It’s me. Just from a moment ago. My old self. A wide-eyed kid that’s going to get yelled at in the morning when his mom has to shake him awake. He was too busy daydreaming to fall asleep when the lights clicked off. Then dreams inspired by his favorite band. The one that got him through everything.

The End (matters)

[numetaljackdog]

what i'm listening to 1/5/2023 (song notes under cut)

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Laura Les - Haunted: haunted. by laura les.

Radiohead - Packt Like Sardines In a Crushd Tin Box: i literally could have just put all of amnesiac in here but that would exceed the number of tracks i allow myself to put in any given WILT. just know that this is one of my new favorite songs of all time and i've been listening to the album on repeat for about a month

The Cure - Charlotte Sometimes: when i found out that the cure had a song with my name in it, i knew i had to listen to it forever and ever regardless of how good it was. thankfully, it is actually a pretty damn good song. i've been wanting to get my hands on the book it's based upon as well, but that's still a work in progress.

Fontaines D.C. - Skinty Fia: this is the other album i've been listening to nonstop for the past month. as i mentioned in the last WILT, i didn't love this record when it came out, but upon a relisten i've been obsessed with it. this is also where the theme of this month becomes glaringly obvious - it's been a lottt of post-punk for me recently. just the winter mood i guess

Nirvana - Marigold: really great b-side from dave. i'm not as familiar with the in utero era in general but i feel like this song is indicative that dave was always going to break off and do his own thing, even if things had gone better than they did. sort of comforting to think about, i think

Wham! - Last Christmas: i listened to A Lot of christmas music throughout december, for various reasons and occasions. this song, though, is special. even though christmas is right in the title, it feels like such a real song. the holiday is almost incidental in what it actually is trying to be about. for these reasons, i have decided that i genuinely like this song as an any-time-of-the-year listen

Fontaines D.C. - In ár gCroíthe go deo: SUCH a good opening track... i also just love that they start the album off with some irish language lyrics. it lets you know right away that the record is going full dive into its subject matter. plus, as some of you know, i've been learning irish for a couple of years now, so it's cool for me to get some further experience by listening to music in the language. god i could talk about this album forever. i sure hope i'll get another chance to do that later on

Deftones - My Own Summer (Shove It): obligatory nu metal song. i've been watching the music video for this one a lot, it's a good video. in general, i've been getting into deftones a lot more recently than i had been for a long time. i'm also putting a live cover that linkin park did, which is a good cover but i think it's funny (in an odd way) that they don't do the "shove it, shove it, shove it" parts. like i guess they were trying to get the crowd to do that, but i feel like mike could have shouted it a couple of times to demonstrate what they were meant to be doing. idk lmao

Pink Floyd - Welcome to the Machine: i've been listening to a lot of pink floyd as well, especially since i've been going through the top albums list on rateyourmusic. there's a ton of great stuff, i really like the band, but this song is one of my favorites. as demonstrated by my "synthetic solution" tag, i really like allegories that involve machines and stuff like that, so this fits right with me

Kurt Cobain - Burn The Rain: weird little demo. i haven't listened to much of the montage of heck recordings but it's always interesting to hear kurt so unfiltered. the dialogue at the end of this one is curious too; he sounds so... unguarded. i am normal about these things

Radiohead - Knives Out: men will see a mouse and be like is anyone else gonna eat this and not wait for an answer

Fontaines D.C. - Nabokov: oh good, my other chance to gush about this record! this is a great closer on top of everything else... plus it's one last chance for the harmonies and backing vocals to really shine. seriously, if you're into post-punk or alternative stuff at all, give this album a shot, it is golden stuff

Bauhaus - A God in an Alcove: yet more post-punk! i've been enjoying this album a lot too. something about this song in particular just feels so unnerving, like trying to squeeze through a space that you aren't certain you can fit through. maybe that's just the junji ito i've been reading this month too

Tems - Higher: i'm all in on the tems train. she's such a great performer, and the live version on the youtube playlist is definitely worth checking out. this is a great ep, very soulful, and although my favorite track might actually be ice t, higher is definitely the one that rolls around in my head most frequently. honestly just listen to the whole thing. i'm not even usually a big r&b fan and i'm rocking with it big time

Radiohead - Life In a Glasshouse: one last spot for amnesiac. it feels only fair, after skinty fia got three spots too. speaking of great album closers, this is another. i lovelovelove the inclusion of jazz influence into. well, into most things, but especially when radiohead does it. the chorus almost feels brutal, in a way, like being still in a room but with every single muscle tensed

Radiohead - Reckoner: does this count as cheating? this feels like cheating somehow. well anyway, in rainbows is also a really good record, and this song felt incredibly familiar somehow. i can't think of any context in which i would have possibly heard this song before, as it hasn't been my impression that this was like some big hit for them or anything. in any case, that feeling makes me want to keep coming back to it again and again

Looking Glass - Brandy (You're a Fine Girl): here's a little change of pace from all the alternative. looking glass were one of those unremarkable bar band one-hit wonders who wrote a really good pop song and then immediately slipped through the cracks of history. i listened to this album and found it mostly unremarkable, though i did also enjoy the song "from stanton station." not much else to say, it's just a pretty damn good pop song

R.E.M. - It's The End Of The World As We Know It: i don't need to explain this song, i imagine you all know it. however. next time you listen to it, pay attention to the backing vocals on the chorus. that's what's been keeping the song on loop for me. there's a unique catharsis to the repetition of "it's time i had some time alone"

Pizza Kids - We Like Pizza: thanks kiwi

as a side note, the full version of this song is almost funnier during the second half because it literally sounds like it's being arranged and mixed in real time by someone who has no idea what they're doing or how much longer the song is going to keep going

[justanotherdouchebag]

Linkin Park - Hybrid Theory

No better way to open this blog than to review a classic. Truth be told, I'm late to the party - in the 2000s I was far too busy listening to Beyoncé to pay any mind to nu metal acts. We all know late is better than never, and denying how obsessed I currently am with Hybrid Theory would be nothing short of a crime. Without much more to add, I'll dive back into the track-by-track review.

Papercuts - 8/10 Incredible album opener, and a perfect way to set the mood for what's to come; high-energy, yet inviting enough for the uninitiated. This is one of the more rap-heavy tracks, which is not at all a problem in LP's case. The highlight in this track is for sure the bridge though - a beautiful buildup, poetic lyrics and the perfect ambiance for the final chorus. Blends into the next track seamlessly.

One Step Closer - 9.5/10 A song that opens with "I cannot take this anymore" immediately gets a sympathetic reaction from me. I suppose we can all relate, in this economy. Jokes aside, this is one of my favourite cuts from the album - despite the length (or lack of thereof), it manages to capture the right amount of angst. Corny as it might seem, no one can resist a "SHUT UP WHEN I'M TALKING TO YOU". If you think you can, you're just lying to yourself. Either way, Chester's vocals on this song have an oddly soft ring to them during the verses, in particular the first one - and oh boy does it work. It almost makes me think this is going to be a vulnerable track.

With You - 7/10 I admittedly overlooked this track a lot initially, but it's grown on me over time. The screams in the pre-chorus are visceral, raw, gritty - everything they need to be. The instrumental break before the bridge is well-placed and builds up a good amount of hype. Overall a solid track, would probably earn a higher score in a different album. But this is Hybrid Theory we're talking about, and it's bound to be shadowed by the other gems in here.

Points of Authority - 10/10 Singlehandedly my favourite song on the album, and Linkin Park's entire discography perhaps. Controversial opinion, I'm aware. The lyrics are vague enough for anyone to hate on a person of choice while singing along, which I can appreciate on a spiritual level. If you can't find the appeal in this song, just picture yourself screaming the lyrics at the top of your lungs at the face of someone who's pissed you off. Come on now, you can't deny that sounds appealing. The energy in the chorus is just unparalelled, and the rap lines are infectious enough to be sung along to on the first listen.

Crawling - 8.5/10 This song has admittedly become far worse after hearing the demo version that was released with the 20th Anniversary edition of Hybrid Theory, which is miles better than the final product. I believe this might be the best song on the album, lyrically speaking. The contrast between Chester's sweet, almost whisper-like voice in the verses, and the gut wrenching screams in the chorus is haunting. "Against my will I stand beside my own reflection" - couldn't have put it better. This may not be their strongest song in terms of composition but Chester's vocals and the lyrical content make up for it.

Runaway - 6/10 I can't say this song evokes much emotion in me. It is well-crafted, lyrics are nice enough, and the atmosphere is cool. But it pales in comparison to the rest of the album. I still listen to it anytime it comes on, it is by no means a skip (hence the slightly higher score), but it would not feel right to rate this the same as some of the other cuts. The bridge is for sure the highlight, and if I was shuffling my liked music I would for sure not skip it, because it is a high quality song after all.

By Myself - 9/10 One of the best choruses in the whole album. Only one point substracted because the verses themelves are not as strong as the rest of the song. However, the visual this song brings to mind makes this exciting to listen to everytime. Don't ask me why, but the chorus makes me mentally project myself in a car at night angirly driving home from the gas station with a can of RedBull, in the best way possible.

In the End - 10/10 So, funny story. I initially got into this song "ironically". As in, I started listening to it as a "joke". Clowning on emos or something like that, I suppose, but it quickly turned unironic. I can now recite all of the lyrics by heart. Anytime I start I cannot stop. My acquaintances are sick of me breaking into song everytime this absolute anthem gets brought up. I need urgent pyschological help. Please. This has ruined my life. I want my wife and kids back.

A Place for my Head - 7/10 I really dig the instrumental in the verses, that guitar is sick. I can't allow myself to rate this any higher for similar reasons as Runaway - the fact that this is on Hybrid Theory makes the competition far too tough. Chorus is catchy. Bridge is fucking incredible with the blood-curling screams.

Forgotten - 9/10 Much like With You, this was a late bloomer for me. Except for the fact that, when I did get into it, I got into it real hard. The chorus makes me want to go run in the wind or something, the atmosphere is legitimately incredible. It is damn near impossible not to sing along to it. "When the paper's crumpled up, it can't be perfect again." Fucking powerful, man.

A Cure for the Itch - x/x I will not be ranking interludes or intros in this album unless they feel like "songs" to a certain extent. This is a personal choice based on the fact that I simply cannot give them a fair rating for their role/purpose in an album. But I can say this is nice to listen to, and I don't skip it when it comes on.

Pushing Me Away - 8/10 Not sure I enjoy this as an album closer necessarily - but the song itself is beautiful. Some of the lyrics are a bit corny (like rhyming "frown" with "break down"), but the melody is nostalgic-sounding in a delicious and it flows well enough. The experience of finding yourself screaming along (very offkey, might I add) to the chorus is oddly uplifting. Despite the bitter lyrics, this song feels motivational. Source? I pulled it out of my ass. Deal with it.

BONUS TRACK: My December - 7.5/10 Would've rated this slightly lower if it weren't for the lyrics and Chester's haunting delivery of them. This is not the usual kind of sound you would expect from Linkin Park at this point in time, but it would not be fair to bring this into consideration for the rating considering this wasn't part of the main album in the first place. The lyrics hit close to home is all I will say. It took me a couple listens (and a decent amount of emotional turmoil) to "get it", but I got there eventually.

BONUS TRACK: High Voltage - 10/10 Every day I wake up and suffer because my physical copy of the album does not have this track on it. Where Points of Authority is my favourite, High Voltage is likely my second. I believe this is lyrically one of Mike Shinoda's best works, and would probably be one of the first tracks I'd pull out to prove someone that he's actually talented at what he does. The wordplay is incredible. The addition of Chester's short-lived bridge is very much welcome. What a banger, dude.

OVERALL: 9/10. Banger album, worth listening from start to finish everytime. I have added it to my list of "albums that permanently altered my brain chemistry".

[aplateoflasagna]

My thoughts on Treasure - The Second Step: Chapter Two

(edit: I wrote this in 2022 and didn't post it for some reason :p I'm posting it now, cause it was fun to read my reactions to the songs. wrote VolKno was my least fav song from the album and it's just not true omg, I love VolKno 😭)

Finally getting around to typing out my thoughts eventhough the album has been out for like a month and promotions have basically ended lol

Hello: Perfect song 10/10! I swear I cried when i first saw the MV/ listened to the song because it's just so them! It's everything Treasure stands for: being young and having fun.

People are still calling Treasure 'a young group', eventhough they have been in the industry for 2 years and are no longer rookies. They are not even younger then other groups who debuted that same year, but they seem like it because they are allowed to act/look their age. Other groups mostly go for a serious and mature concept so having Treasure release 'Hello' feels like a breath of fresh air.

It's a song meant for festivals and concerts! The choreo is fun to watch and I can't wait to see them perform it for their Seoul concert + Japan concert tour + MAMA performance 💙

VolKno: It's a rock song with rap and about rap which is cool. the instrumental sounds like it could be from Linkin Park.

It's probably my least favorite song on the album but that's only because the other songs are just so good. the reason is that they went with a classic kpop song structure for a rapsong which is just weird to me. They did verse-prechorus-chorus-verse-prechorus-chorus-bridge-outro while most k-rapsongs i've listened to are verse-chorus-verse-chorus-verse-bridge-chorus

This would bave allowed Yoshi to have an entire verse to himself instead of getting the prechorus. He had to keep to the beats and couldn't rap in his flow. and that's too bad because out of HyunHaYo, I love Yoshi's flow the most.

I also want to apologize to Yoshi. Reading the translation of his verses, I was really dissipointed because they didn't seem that good/interesting? But then I saw ItsANDYandJAS's analysis video on youtube and I realise how wrong i've been lol

translated the lyrics of his first verse are:

"Bang Bang, appearing like a lightning

Handle every single dirty rats

Flip the stage proudly, i'm a star

Our company is hip and turn silent"

I took his lyrics at face value while obviously i shouldn't have smh.

I was thinking, why use rats in your lyrics?, and i'm not going to pretend to know Yoshi, but that doesn't sound like him at all. Now I realise it's a play on words with the next part of the verse. (flip the stage/flip the word ---> rats becomes star ughhhh i did not see that)

"Our company is hip and turn silent" is a play on words in Korean as well + he delibirately accentuates certain words so it basically becomes: "Our company = hiphop." It's what the whole song is about -> the influence their seniors had on the K-hiphop scene.

Really looking forward to the MV! the teaser images make it seem like it's western inspired. In the bridge there is that 'hands up' moment, it would be cool to see that in the MV.

CLAP!: What a song! Again so much fun + they added a singalong ending. This will be so much fun on stage. Asahi really outdid himself on this album. Yoshi's rapverse really stands out to me here. The next Darari. Now Yedam and Asahi should release that christmas song they teased last year lol. My favorite bside of the album. (edit: ah now I see why i never posted this 😭 I wrote this right before it was announced Mashidam left the group omg)

Thank You: Another masterpiece by Asahi. A rock song which I totally didn't expect Asahi to do. + now it's a whole song with only his voice . i've been waiting for this moment since his one line in Going Crazy lol. he's going to rock the stage. can you imagine Asahi and Haruto on stage together during their Japan concert tour?? singing this song in Japanese?? my heart srsly this will be amazing. I'm so fucking proud of him. it's the perfect fusion of Kpop and Jpop. I kind of need Asahi to release an album with songs he composed and are sung by the treasure members. as their editor puts it: Give me that guys hard drive. his voice is srsly insane. like the prechorus?? it's so fucking good

Hold it in: (edit: apparently I hadn't written a review for hold it in back then so I'll do it now ^^ It's my absolute favorite slow song from Treasure (it rivals Orange?!) and I hope they never remove it from their setlist! Before the album came out, I remember thinking 'It's the last song on the album and those are usually slow songs, but how it that possible when Hyunsuk wrote it???' The fact Hyunsuk wrote such diverse songs (this and VolKno) on 1 album is just so amazing and I hope the next album will have another song written by Hyunsuk!)

It's an OT10 comeback and while I miss Yedam and Mashiho alot, I also didn't feel sad listening to this album, watching the promotions etc. Treasure really gave it their all so we wouldn't feel Mashidamr's absence and I'm actually so proud of OT10. It's tough on fans but it's even worse for them and they didn't show it at all.

definitely their best album. very diverse, but still they songs fit well together. it's shows what treasure is capable of.

[black-occamy]

So, this is going to be weird (-er than usual), because my old ass has recently listened to some songs of my teenage years and got Emotional about stuff and then started overthinking it.

Anyone ready for the Linkin' Park - induced rambling about the Black family - feel free to go under the cut.

I was initially aiming for a nice mind visual (you know, that kind of detailed music video that plays in your brain when you listen to a piece of music) (maybe that's just me) of Gemma practicing some magical battle stances along the "Numb" of Linkin' Park, but once I actually started to play it and fully recalled the lyrics, two things came to my mind.

One: that my teenage interpretation of the song being about abusive love relationship, where one side is smothered by the expectations of the other, is no longer prevalent in my brain when I listen to it.

Two: that the interpretation has now switched to one of an abusive child-parent relationship - specifically that of Sirius and Walburga (Regulus could be pulled in as subject of the song as well, although he never really openly rebelled, so that's a bit far-fetched).

I have seen at some point somebody's fancast of Walburga being Eva Green and NGL, that image stayed in my head and heavily populated the mind visual of the song. I see her looking at her rebellious son with disdain and her heart broken at the same time. She has tried to raise him as a pureblooded heir, loyal to his family ties and traditions in the ways she was raised herself. She tried to influence him, tightening the leash more and more to keep control over his thoughts, because deep inside she believed it was a sign of love to lead your child on the path you chose for them. But the child, the ungrateful, angry, charming and beloved rascal did not consent to the control as he should have. As she had had before him and her parents before her, on and on again.

Sirius is drowning in her influence. He rejects it, he has his own path, his own ideas - his own IDEALS, so much different from the ones his family wants him to have. He fights back, snaps at every tightening of the leash, finally escapes to pursue the freedom he wanted so badly for so long (and for a teen even a year is an eternity). He is ready for it, failures and all.

There's an image I have for the intermission, when the subject of the song mentiones that their oppressor is just the same as they are - at some point in their life they were in the exact same situation of facing disappointment from someone else. In my visual Sirius is trying to reconcile with his mother's portrait, with the twisted and malformed image that Walburga's madness in her final years has become. The painting represents everything Sirius hates about her. It's not of a poised and dignified lady of house Black (Eva) - it shows an angry, vengeful shadow of the woman who got poisoned with her own bitterness right before she died, alone.

But when he reaches out, in that one moment of understanding that in truth, heavily, deeply flawed as she was, hurtful as she was, cruel even, she was trying to follow her misguided idea of love with what little affection she knew - the portrait changes. It's her face, her younger self, just like he remembers her from when he was a little boy. And the portrait cries, because even though it's only a reflection of Walburga herself, only a thin portion of her ensnared in the paint and canvas, she did, in her own way, love her son and she weeps for his fate.

[xtianvetray]

I've just got pierced with 45 needles, it was an odd and cathartic experience, i was able to think a lot about everything that has happened in the past few months, all the tears and sleepless nights, about all the things I've done and think, about all the shit storm I have in my head right now.

I feel I can not longer express myself freely or truly here, but i just need to say that right now i have a lot going on in my head, in my heart and in my life and it scares me to the core.

I'm not sure if i enjoy my current life anymore and I'm sure i want something else, something more, something better.

Now I wonder... How long can I keep going like this?

m'I doing things right at this moment?

I want to cry... I no longer feel safe in my safe place, i know now I'm broken and I need to fix myself.

Now i feel so deeply some lyrics that had touched me before.

"cos im only a crack in this castle of glass, hardly anything else for you to see"

"And every second I waste is more than I can taste"

I'm fucked...

[cruelfeline]

Entrapdak/Hordak songs currently in my listening rotation. And I'm marking what I find to be the best lyrics just because!

Work Song - Hozier Especially: "My babe would never fret none; about what my hands and my body done; If the Lord don't forgive me; I'd still have my baby and my babe would have me; When I was kissing on my baby; and she put her love down soft and sweet; in the low lamp light I was free; heaven and hell were words to me."

Ashes of Eden - Breaking Benjamin The entire thing. Like, I will cry.

All That You Are - Goo Goo Dolls Essentially all of it, but especially: "You, see me through; I was alone in the dark, and the fear was my truth."

What I've Done - Linkin Park So let mercy come and wash away; what I've done; I'll face myself' to cross out what I've bcome; erase myself; and let go of what I've done.

And especially: "For what I've done; I start again; And whatever pain may come; Today this ends; I'm forgiving what I've done."

On My Own - Ashes Remain "Every little thing that I've known is everything I need to let go; you're so much bigger than the world I have made; So I surrender my soul; I'm reaching out for your hope; I lay my weapons down; I'm ready for you now."

This one is particularly funny because I'm pretty sure it's Christian Rock and has the exact opposite meaning of how I interpret it.

I Don't Care - Ed Sheeran "'Cause I don't care as long as you just hold me near; You can take me anywhere; ANd you're making me feel like Im loved by somebody." Break the Cycle - You+Me All of it.

Like Half the Centaurworld Soundtrack Pretty much anything involving losing one's identity and/or being separated from a loved one against one's will. Dearly Beloved - AmaLee (From Kingdom Hearts) "My Dearly Beloved; Be strong, I shall be there; Always here beside you; So, keep your head held high; The shadows of this world; Will try to steal you away into their arms; But you belong in mine."

Falling Apart - Papa Roach "I'll follow you out of the dark; I tried it my way; But I keep falling apart."

And: "I stand here again; Forsaken in a place that feels like I can never win; I'm reaching for a saving grace' I can't even trust no one; I need to rise above; I don't think I'm good enough; To feel your perfect love."

Crush - Dave Matthews Band "It's crazy I'm thinking; And here, I'll be dancing on the ground; Am I right side up or upside down?' To each other we'll be facing my love, by love; We'll beat back the pain we've found; You know I mean to tell you all the things I've been thinking; Deep inside, my friend.; Each moment the more I love you."

Flames - David Guetta "Go, go, go; Figure it out, figure it out, but don't stop moving; Go, go, go; Figure it out, figure it out, you can do this; So my love, keep on running; You gotta get through the day; There my love, keep on running; Gotta keep those tears at bay."

Time Stands - Nathaniel Rateliff I don't actually know; just the whole sense of it, somehow; the melancholy of post-Prime recovery.

[soullikethesea]

Music stuff from when I was much younger

I know, it’s not really fun to listen to music when you just want to read a blog. It’s okay if you won’t. I just want to tell my story.

And before I had words, I had music, stories, and drawing. These things *gave* me words. I had no idea what feelings I was having were actually called, but these things helped me to make sense of it. When I was around 11 I bought a music player and used Limewire to put music on it that I liked. I liked music that I felt broke me free from being a “nice” girl. I was not NICE. Those days were OVER. I mostly listened to (punk) rock bands: Three Days Grace, Sum 41, and Linkin Park. English was new to me, so it was good that the lyrics were short and sweet. Three Days Grace helped me so much by giving words to how I felt about my parents... I couldn’t feel good about them anymore, those days were over. I think the first song that really spoke to that feeling was “Just like You” (link). You thought you were there to guide me You were only in my way You're wrong if you think that I'll be just like you. The next step in addition to that was “Gone Forever” (link). I feel so much better Now that you're gone forever I tell myself that I don't miss you at all I'm not lying, denying, that I feel so much better now That you’re gone forever First time you screamed at me I should have made you leave I should have known it could be so much better. Sum 41 gave me words to put to the dissociation. Almost all of their lyrics felt like they were describing my life, for example, the lyrics to “There’s No Solution” (link).  Reality or fiction Am I out of my mind? TW suicide They also unwittingly wrote the song that described my thoughts about suicide. It was their song called “Some Say” (link). Seems like, everything we knew Turned out were never even true Don't trust, things will never change You must be dreaming ... Some say, we're better off without Knowing what life is all about I'm sure they'll never realize The way It's too late

End TW And then there’s also the song that accompanied me through the worst of the starving vacations. I turned 12 years old that year. It’s called “Time of Dying” by Three Days Grace (link). It helped me stay angry and strong. I felt alive whenever I spoke to Bf, so I was keeping him mind as a source of strength. On the ground I lay Motionless in pain I can see my life flashing before my eyes Did I fall asleep Is this all a dream? Wake me up I'm living a nightmare I will not die (I will not die) I will survive Now you might know a bit about what I went through and a bit about how painful it was, even when maybe I still don’t have the right words to make people understand. - Mae

[binch-i-might-be]

raystie any song recs?

omg I've never like made a list if song recs before,,,, let's see Imma go through my favourites list hehe

okay!

21 guns by green day (pretty sure you probably know this one but it slaps so 🤷)

alone together by fallout boy. bestie PLEASE listen to this it's so good

500 miles by the hooters!! Impeccable Vibes

bones shatter by hedley. literally been listening to this for ten years

breath by breaking benjamin. this song has fucking KEPT ME GOING

brother by gerard way. I've been wanting to recommend his whole solo album to you for a while now but a few songs will do for now :)

bullet by hollywood undead. this is an absolute BOP but HUGE trigger warning for selfharm, pills, and suicide. it's extremely upbeat but the lyrics can potentially be very triggering

cemetery drive by mcr. don't know if you've listened to it already but it's definitely worth it :)

common people by pulp. mcr has also covered this one and it slaps!

could have been me by the struts. I can't describe the person I would have been if I'd had this song as a teen

creep by radiohead. I'm a creep I'm a weirdo ect ect

dance mephisto by falco!!! it's largely in german but the VIBES this exudes. too powerful

dance with the devil by breaking benjamin :)

drugstore perfume by gerard way! it feels like Warm and Safe

empty spaces by drown in grace. this is also one I've had on my phone for a decade lmao

face down by the red jumpsuit apparatus!!! this just slaps tbh

final masquerade by linkin park. it's giving "everything ends and that's okay" vibes

five years by david bowie! it's just Good idk what to tell you

forbidden colours by ryuichi sakamoto and david sylvian. hrhrhhrjrjrjkfjd homo????? MY LOVE WEARS FORBIDDEN COLOURS!!!!!!

here we are by breaking benjamin!

hero of war by rise against!!!! this is such a good song for all the soldier blorbos!!!!

how it's going to be by gerard way. I'm not exaggerating when I say this has singlehandedly gotten me through Some Shit

I'm not okay by mcr in case you haven't listened to it yet!!

in the end by linkin park. hrhdghrhrhjrjd

insomnia suite by the dreams! this is just so vibey!

it takes a fool to remain sane by the ark. this song. this song,,,,,

jeanny by falco. it's again largely in german, I'm suggesting it because his acting on this is SO iconic. like the song is from the pov of a serial killer stalking a young girl, and it's framed by the news report of her disappearance. it's chilling and the song was banned for a time because it was so convincing and they thought the man had ACTUALLY kidnapped a girl. king

leave out all the rest by linkin park :)

life on mars? by david bowie. somehow this makes me cry when the lighting outside is just right

love grows (where my rosemary goes) by edison lighthouse. it's just a very sweet vibey song and it reminds me of my parents :) (read: dad and stepmom lmao)

my demons by starset. it's just a bop!

one day too late by skillet. I had a religious experience to this song in the forest in like 2015

paper wings by rise against. oh my FUCKING god

rock me amadeus by falco. mostly german again but it's still a bop

slow burn by david bowie. very specific vibes

somewhere I belong by linkin park. this was the anthem of my teenage angst in like 2015

space oddity by david bowie. just because I think Everyone Should Listen To This Actually

still breathing by green day. hfgdhjdjdjdjk

surrender by billy talent!!!! oh my god!!!

sympathy for the devil by the rolling stones. I'm sorry this song is objectively a masterpiece

the dead can't testify by billy talent. this song has a chokehold on me

the diary of jane by breaking benjamin. the acoustic version slaps too!

the ghost of you by mcr if you haven't already

the light behind your eyes by mcr. sad but comforting

the mercy seat by johnny cash. this song puts me in a trance every time I listen to it, I stop breathing and then I usually cry. yeah

the world is ugly by mcr. HELLO???

titanic by falco. the theatrics of this,,,, unattainable for a mortal

touch-tone telephone by lemon demon. this just slaps lmao

tragedy + time by rise against. help me :)

unchain my heart by joe cocker. joe only had bops tbh

under the sun by the dreams! I have very fond memories of past blorbos to this :)

whatsername by green day. I don't know how to explain this but you feel it in your soul

welcome to the black parade by mcr. I can't NOT add this okay

white sparrows by billy talent. literally sobbing thinking about this. great song for tragic blorbos

wish my life away by kan gao m. I can't think about this song I can't talk about this song I Will Cry

alright that's IT, I went off a lil bit sry lmao <3

[bnhasimpgirltm]

Why Is It That You Only Ever Hurt Me? (Part 2)

Parings: Bakugo x Reader (Past), Yo Shindo x Reader (Present)

Warnings: none

Type: Oneshot

Genre: angst? (this hurt my heart to write)

A/N: I had to use Yo Shindo for this because Bakugo DESPISES this guy. It might have been a bit much to do the entire song, but I didn’t want to remove anything because I really like how well this songs fits. I just didn’t write this very well, and it feels a little repetitive, but I think that’s what adds to it. Let me know what you think, and as always, Enjoy!

Song: “Heavy”- Linkin Park ft. Kiiara (2017)

note: the last lyric line “If I just let go I’ll be set free” was added by me so I could tie the story together nicely. It isn’t actually sung at the end in the song. I cried while writing this oh crap.

Read Part 1 HERE

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I don't like my mind right now

Ever since you broke up with him, Bakugo had been miserable. He couldn’t think, he couldn’t function. The only thing he could do was train. He had lost you and he couldn’t get you back.

Stacking up problems that are so unnecessary

He still loved you, and you didn’t love him back anymore. One sided love creates all sorts of problems. So many problems piled up.

Wish that I could slow things down

He wishes that he could take back what he said. He wishes that he didn’t speak so impulsively, that he slowed down and though about his words before they left his mouth. But he couldn’t turn back the clock, so the only thing he could do was let go.

I wanna let go but there's comfort in the panic

He wanted to let you go, but he couldn’t. He wanted to hold onto you for as long as possible, and every waking moment that he wasn’t training, Bakugo as looking through your social media.

And I drive myself crazy

You had removed all of the pictures of the two of you together after the break up. He missed seeing his tag on your photos. He missed being able to retrace your entire relationship just from your social media page. He missed you.

Thinking everything's about me

Bakugo still had all of the pictures with you on his pages. He knew that if he archived them it meant that you were really gone forever. He didn’t want to think that it was all over, even if deep down he knew the truth. He wanted to hold onto these last threads of your broken relationship. Bakugo knew he had to let go, so he tapped on one of his posts with you in it.

Yeah, I drive myself crazy

He knew you were gone, but he couldn’t do it. Bakugo couldn’t wipe you from his life, so he exited Instagram and opened messages. His finger hovered over your name. He wanted to text you and tell you how much he missed you, how much he loves you.

'Cause I can't escape the gravity

He couldnt escape you. Everywhere he went he saw you. Even if you weren’t really there, to him, every place you went together had a small piece of you. 

I'm holding on

When he saw you for real the first time after the breakup, he thought it was his imagination running wild again. That was until you looked at him. Imaginary you never did that. Bakugo knew that it was really you. He thought that you had finally given up running from him, and that maybe he could move on because you had too.

Why is everything so heavy?

But he couldn’t, because when he saw you, his heart ached so much that it felt like it was physically hurting. It felt like a weight heavier than anything he had ever lifted was placed on his back. He knew that he couldn’t let go. He couldn’t set himself free just yet.

Holding on

He couldn’t let you go. It had been months since the breakup, and he still couldn’t let you go. He still held onto the hope that you still loved him as much as he still loved you.

So much more than I can carry

He wanted to go and apologize to you, to take the weight off of his back, to end it for real. To tell you that he was sorry for everything, and that he wouldn’t bother you anymore. 

I keep dragging around what's bringing me down

But he couldn’t. Bakugo couldn’t bring himself to go and talk to you. Not after everything he did. So he let the weight sit on his back.

If I just let go, I'd be set free

Everytime he saw you, he considered finishing it for real, to tell you that he was sorry and move on. He could be set free from his guilt. 

Holding on

But he didn’t want to. He was going crazy, trying to keep this nonexistent relationship alive, but Bakugo didn’t care that he was being insane. He just needed something to care about, because the only thing that he truly cared about was gone. So if the only thing Bakugo cared about was this pretend relationship he still had going with you, so be it.

Why is everything so heavy? 

When you saw Bakugo, you felt your heart fall. He still made you feel this way, even after all this time. Even after you told yourself that you had moved on.

You say that I'm paranoid

Everywhere you went, you saw him. His blonde hair poking up between the people in the crowds. His black tanktop passing by on the trains. Every time you saw him somewhere, you felt haunted by a ghost. A ghost from your past that you couldn’t let go.

But I'm pretty sure the world is out to get me

You hated that you couldn’t face him. You were too scared of what he would say to you. You were too scared that he would say that he had moved on.

It's not like I make the choice

But you were more scared of what you would say to him. Because if he moved on, then that meant that you would have to move on.

To let my mind stay so fucking messy

So you pushed your emotions back like you always did and continued to live your life with thoughts of Bakugo constantly ravaging your mind. 

I know I'm not the center of the universe

You didn’t mean anything to him, he made that clear, but he was the center of your universe. He was your everything.

But you keep spinning 'round me just the same

You knew he didn’t love you, but deep down, you still loved him. You knew it would take a long time to move on, so you started dating again. Hoping you could move on and find someone else to love. And you did, you found someone else.

I know I'm not the center of the universe

Bakugo knew that he didn’t mean anything to you, you made that clear by avoiding him for months. 

But you keep spinning 'round me just the same

Bakugo knew you didn’t love him, but he still loved you. So he kept himself away from the dating scene.

I'm holding on

Bakugo told himself multiple times that he wasn’t dating because he ddin’t have time, but in reality, he still held onto the hope that you would want him back.

Why is everything so heavy?

Until he saw that Ketsubutsu guy, Yo Shindo, walk into the common room. He wondered what that idiot was doing at UA, until he saw you smile and walk towards him. Then it clicked.

Holding on

Shindo grabbed you in a hug, and threw a dirty look over your shoulder straight at Bakugo. The worst part was that you jumped into his arms willingly. 

So much more than I can carry

He wanted to say that he was okay with it. He wanted to just roll his eyes and walk away.

I keep dragging around what's bringing me down

But he couldn’t lie to himself, he was jealous. Not just jealous, Bakugo was enraged that you were hanging out with that Shindo guy. He was enraged that he had been replaced.

If I just let go, I'd be set free

So instead of going back to his dorm, he followed you and Shindo.

Holding on

Bakugo watched as Shindo did everything he didn’t. Shindo held your hand and talked with you. He kissed your cheek and laughed when you said something funny. He bought you lunch and gave you a flower. 

Why is everything so heavy? I know I'm not the center of the universe

He saw the way you looked at Shindo. Like he was the center of your universe. 

But you keep spinning 'round me just the same

It was the way you used to look at Bakugo. 

I know I'm not the center of the universe

He watched as Shindo looked at you the same way. The way Bakugo looked at you. The way Bakugo still looked at you.

But you keep spinning 'round me just the same

He knew that he wasn’t the center of your universe anymore, but for some reason, he still couldn’t let go, no matter how much he tried.

And I drive myself crazy

He hated himself so much for losing the best thing that ever happened to him. He hated himself for screwing up everything good in his life.

Thinking everything's about me

He hated that he couldn’t get over himself just to keep you with him. He hated that the weight of your breakup was still tied to his back and that it wasn’t getting any lighter after seeing that you had moved on.

Holding on

Years passed, and Bakugo never got into another relationship.

Why is everything so heavy?

He was still dragging around the weight on his back. It never got lighter. Not when he immersed himself in his hero work, or when he saw you and Shindo on the news together as the hero couple that everyone loved.

Holding on

Bakugo felt like he was being crushed, but he continued on with his life. Until one day, he got a letter in the mail. “You are invited to the wedding of Yo Shindo and (y/n) (l/n).” It was at this moment that the weight became too heavy. It crushed him, and Bakugo Katsuki, the pro hero Ground Zero who feared nothing, broke down into sobs.

So much more than I can carry

His entire world shattered that day. It should have been his name with yours on that invite. It should have been him who you were marrying. Bakugo was so overcome with sadness that he did the only thing that he could when he was sad. He masked it as anger. Why the hell would you invite him to your wedding? Was this some sort of joke? 

I keep dragging around what's bringing me down

Bakugo was angry, but he still loved you even after all this time, so he went to your wedding, and he watched as you walked down the aisle to marry a man that wasn’t him.

If I just let go, I'd be set free

He watched as you and Shindo looked into each others eyes with so much love that he regretted his decion to attend the wedding. Bakugo regretted not tearing the invite in half and shoving it into the recycle bin. 

Holding on

He listened as you recited your vows and said “I do”. He listened as he heard the priest say “Any objections?”, and Bakugo wanted to stand up and proclaim his love for you. He wanted to stand up and tell you that you belonged with him. To take you back and love you just as much as you loved him back at UA.

Why is everything so heavy?

But the he remembered what you said to him all those years ago. He remembered: “Were you always this selfish?”, and Bakugo made his decision. For once in his life, it wasn’t selfish. He owed it to you. Maybe the selfish part of him wanted you to be with him, but the part of him that still loved you and wanted the best for you was telling him to let you be happy, so he stayed silent.

Why is everything so heavy?

As Shindo swept you into a kiss, it was all crystal clear to Bakugo. He would never get over you. He would carry the weight of your breakup for the rest of his life. Maybe the weight would get lighter, and maybe it would only get heavier, but it would always be there.

Why is everything so heavy? 

Bakugo finally realized that you had moved on from him. You had Shindo. You didn’t need him anymore. 

If I just let go I’ll be set free.

 You had finally let go. You were finally free.  

[tick-tick-moo]

"the decision is please" KSJDNZKZMXBSJZKZNZNKZMZNZJZJZNZNZ BESTIE IT TOOK ME OUT LMAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO (you're so funny 😭😂)

N e ways

∞∞∞∞∞∞∞∞∞∞ (10 songs please 🤲)

XD I'm happy you found that funny! I try😂 And thank you for asking, I'm excited!!!!!! (this got long)

1. Rewrite the Stars by Zac Efron and Zendaya

"But I can't have you. We're bound to break and my hands are tied" Yeah, my heart is bound to break.

2. Numb by Linkin Park (cover by Fatin Majidi)

"'Cause everything that you thought I would be has fallen apart right in front of you" I just really like how she sings this song. And this lyric just,,, ack

3. Shelter by FINNEAS

"'Cause the way you love me, I could drink the river dry and still die of thirst" I remember hearing this song and just pinpointing this feeling to different moments in my life and AGH. As the kids say, "the feels".

4. The Other Side (Alessia Cara version)

"So I'm packing my bags, I'm gonna leave it all behind. I wanna open up my eyes and see you on the other side". I love this lady and this lyric is just,,, so much.

5. Theodosia Reprise by Sara Bareilles

"We bleed and fight for you. Sometimes it seems that's all we do". Need I say more? *sobs*

6. Piragua by Eliseo Roman (it was bound to show up at one point😆)

"Tengo de mango, tengo de parcha. De piña y de fresa. Tengo de china, de limón. De peso y de peseta, ¡hey!" I love this song so much for multiple reasons. Shout out to "Keep scraping by til I can say: Hey 'pana! I run this town!"

7. Livin' on a Prayer by Bon Jovi

"It doesn't make a difference if we make it or not" A classic.

8. The Phoenix by Fall Out Boy

"You know time crawls on when you're waiting for the song to start, so dance alone to the beat of your heart". Nice message on our finite time and what we do with it :)

9. Take Me To Church by Hozier (this violin cover)

"We've a lot of starving faithful". No comment (I need to listen to more songs by this dude)

10. The Phoenix by Fa- (it went twice)

10. I Got You by Bring it On: The Musical Original Broadway Cast

"All we have is here and now! Before you know it, high school's in the past". Fitting this is the last one! Grand finale. Awesome song, comes with all the cheese.

Thank you Serpzie!! This took forever XD I kept listening to the whole thing.

HONORABLE MENTION: Pacienca y Fe, which came on right after the last one!

[azems-familiar]

hello! are there any songs you associate with any of the kotor characters? (totally not asking bc my brain is hungry for animatic ideas haha,,)

OH BOY DO I HAVE SONGS

first things first, i will direct you to my twelve hour Revan playlist that i use for writing vibes, it's a mixture of vocal and instrumental and it has both a bunch of Revan songs for different eras of Revan, plus revalek songs, plus some revastila songs, plus some songs that just vibe.... it's good and most of the songs i'm about to highlight, if not all of them, are on there already.

NOW. HERE WE GO.

first things first, i need to introduce you to the title song for my mandalorian wars fic, oblivion by the aviators! god, this song doesn't fit all Revans perfectly, but it fits mine so well it was like it'd been written for her specifically, i swear. listening to the song was what inspired me to write the fic to begin with (and now i have a whole series oops). i mean, come on, look at the chorus:

Let the broken heroes rise Let the victors take their prize No one wins when justice dies War has let this age begin It's where we've gone and where they've been What a state that we're in Here in oblivion

can't look at that and tell me that isn't Jedi Knight Revan and the war that broke them.

next up!! liar by the arcadian wild, my beloved. this song is currently my top all time on spotify, closely followed by the song i'm going to rec after it and then achilles come down - and the fact that anything unseated achilles for the top spot should tell you something. (and if you don't know what achilles come down is look it up that one's on my playlist too.) this is a really good one for Revan's slow fall down, the corruption arc - again, all of the songs i'm mentioning really fit my own versions of the characters best, but they're just good in general. some of the lyrics i enjoy from this one:

hnext up, we have it all by pim stones. this particular one feels very revalek to me, early in the Sith years when they still maybe had good intentions, maybe after the war but before becoming Darth. there's this softer, almost desperate tone to the way the singer sings it that just hits me hard - this is the song i'm using as the title for my Sith years interlude fic! a lyric snippet:

All my life I've been heading for hell But never had I thought I'd drag you down as well I just couldn't resist what he was trying to sell

There's glory ahead but our love will be forgotten If my heart was still mine I would go to the bottom And apologise to you until the day it went rotten

next up we have the balancer's eye by lord huron, which is the song i named my series after (have you noticed a trend yet?). it's a very Revan vibe in general, and while i'm not as much of a fan of the style, the lyrics are really excellent!

Nothing's waiting for us in the great sky Life is equal to dust in the balancer's eye Now I know that I can't lift an old curse Tell me, how does a man change the universe?

Will I ever be forgiven for the crime of my life? Will it haunt me 'til I die?

mmm let's see what next. OH! go to war by nothing more. this is just straight up a Sith years song for revalek, whether you ship them or not - they were important to each other either way! ..... i am not going to tangent into yelling about revalek. that is not what this is for. anyway, the song itself is a) a banger and b) talking about love corrupting and falling apart and it just. it hits, man

Do we censor? Do we flow? Are we drunk on the chemicals? Every feeling in my bones Tells me to lash out and tell you to fuck off You've got my heart and I've got your soul But are we better off alone? With every battle we lose a little more Remember everything that we'd die for You are everything that I'd die for

oooh NEXT we have the song i was going to use for my Jaw Scene before i decided to write a full sith years fic. saints by echos is the song, and again, we've got Sith years Revan and Malak here (yes yes i have a type), the vibes of losing faith and anger and it blends really well with how Revan basically played off being a legendary figure to the Republic to fuel their war against it!

You were standing there like an angry god Counting out my sins just to cross them off Saying that my tongue was too loud to trust And that my blood couldn't keep you

My dear, you're not so innocent You're fooling Heaven's gates So you won't have to change You're no saint, you're no savior

mmmm okay the discord has informed me that ten (10) songs is the maximum i should do in one post so. i will only do four more. chrysalis - the last breath by delain is yet another Sith Revan and Malak song and honestly you can read it as a response to the song above, if you think of saints from Malak's pov and chrysalis from Revan's, they mesh really well together.

Hey, are you still mad? About the time We almost went too far I know your regrets In my defense; By now, it's just a scar That distracts you from Your broken heart Like you wanted it to do How do you feel? I don't... How do you know? You won't... To let go of you I will try Until my last breath How do you feel? I don't... How do you know? You won't... To let go I promise I will fight

next! for a complete change of pace, i have a revastila song for you - warrior by beth crowley. it somehow manages to capture exactly the dynamic i think of in my head when i think about Bastila, the uncertainty, the forbiddeness of it, but the way Revan ultimately strengthens her and she strengthens Revan

You fascinated me Cloaked in shadows and secrecy The beauty of a broken angel

I ventured carefully Afraid of what you thought I'd be But pretty soon, I was entangled

You take me by the hand I question who I am

uhhhhhh i am desperately trying to think of songs that aren't just about Revan but instead here i am with another Mandalorian Wars Revan song, what did we know by rachel rose mitchell! this song was introduced to me by the same friend who sent me oblivion, and it really captures the fall of the Mandalorian wars incredibly well imo - the way it started with righteousness but ended in pain (compassion leading to destruction and that's a ramble i'm not going on here either), and there's this line in there that i'm not including in my snippet that's what scares me more than anything / if we could choose the past / we'd probably choose the same and it's like. yes! that's it! i'm going to once again go insane over the scene in the Korriban tomb in kotor 2!!! knowing the price.... would you choose to do it all again........ aaaaaaaa

It's been so long since we began. It seems so long ago That in the name of loyalty We started on our own. Answering the call of a house we once called home, We knew that we were right. What did we know?

We swore that we understood this wasn't a game, But somehow we found ourselves fanning the flames. Those who cautioned and abandoned us, they were the same. I saw them turn away.

the final song i'm doing is the song i used when i wrote the Betrayal scene from Malak's pov, the little things give you away by linkin park. this one just. it vibes, it vibes hard, goes really into the actual grief of betrayal, and also has a super epic instrumental solo so there's that. as usual, lyric snippet:

Don't want to reach for me, do you? I mean nothing to you The little things give you away But now there will be no mistaking The levees are breaking

All you've ever wanted Was someone to truly look up to you And six feet under water, I do

All you've ever wanted Was someone to truly look up to you And six feet underground now I Now I do

god okay now that you're completely overwhelmed and never want to talk to me again....... i should've probably put this under a readmore but eh. thanks for the ask!

[writerjuliannaf]

Thank you so much @laurajournal for tagging me!! I had a blast participating ❤︎

About Me~

MUSIC

Favorite genre(s)?

Rock, Folk, Eighties, Pop, Alternative/Indie

Favorite song(s)?

1. Wrecked by Imagine Dragons

2. Follow You by Imagine Dragons

3. The Funeral by Band of Horses

4. Little Did I Know by Julia Michaels

5. Stakes by Vancouver Sleep Clinic

6. When We Were Young by The Killers

7. Lost by Dermot Kennedy

8. Papercut by LINKIN PARK

9. Fix You by Coldplay

10. Someone You Loved by Lewis Capaldi

11. So Far Away by Staind

12. Everything Changes by Staind (… if I could keep going, I would)

Most listened song recently?

If The World Was Ending by Julia Michaels & JP Saxe (I’m a sucker for duets)

Song currently stuck in your head?

Let Me Down Slowly by Alec Benjamin

5 favorite lyrics?

1.  Now that we're here, it’s so far away

All the struggle we thought was in vain

All in the mistakes

One life contained

They all finally start to go away

Now that we're here, it’s so far away

And I feel like I can face the day,

And I can forgive

And I'm not ashamed

To be the person that I am today

~ So Far Away by Staind

2.  But everything changes

If I could

Turn back the years

If you could

Learn to forgive me

Then I could

Learn how to feel

Then we could

Stay here together

And we could

Conquer the world

If we could

Say that forever

~ Everything Changes by Staind (Aaron Lewis’ voice just sends me right back to my childhood)

3. Loud thunder, heavy rain

Thin line 'tween joy and pain

It's a long strange trip, it's all insane

You ain't never gonna be the same

~ Loud and Heavy by Cody Jinks

4.  Hear the fallen and lonely, cry out

Will you fix me up?

Will you show me hope?

At the end of the day, you were helpless

Can you keep me close?

Can you love me most?

~ Someone to Stay by Vancouver Sleep Clinic

5.  Please let me take you

Out of the darkness and into the light

'Cause I have faith in you

That you're gonna make it through another night

~ Lullaby by Nickelback

Pick!

radio or your own playlist | solo artists or bands…… both | pop or indie | loud or silent volume I slow or fast songs | music video or lyrics video | speakers or headset | riding a bus in silence or while listening to music | driving in silence or with radio on

BOOKS

Favorite book series?

Twilight by Stephenie Meyer & The Lorien Legacies by Pittacus Lore

Comfort book(s)?

The Merchant’s Daughter, The Captive Maiden, and The Golden Braid —all by Melanie Dickerson

Favorite book(s)?

Divergent by Veronica Roth and Jane Eyre by Charlotte Brontë

Perfect book(s) to read on a rainy day?

Hendrix by softsloth (an amazing werewolf romance on Wattpad) and You Are Not Alone by penbehindthemask (the BEST Phantom of The Opera fanfic on Wattpad)

Favorite character(s)?

Bella Swan, Edward Cullen, Four, Jo March, Jane Eyre, Mr. Rochester, and Six —from The Lorien Legacies

5 favorite quotes from your favorite books?

1. “I am no bird; and no net ensnares me.” ~Jane Eyre by Charlotte Brontë

2. “I’ll be your family now.” ~Insurgent by Veronica Roth

3. “Penguins. Lovely.” ~Eclipse by Stephenie Meyer

4. “One of the gifts our planet gave us is to love completely. Without jealousy or insecurity or fear. Without pettiness. Without anger.” ~I Am Number Four by Pittacus Lore

5. “It was too mangy. A little bit like you.” ~Her Wolf King (THE BEST Beauty & The Beast/Jane Eyre retelling) by @linsimin

Pick!

hardcover or paperback | buy or rent | standalone novels or book series | ebook or physical copy | reading at night or during the day | reading at home or in nature | listening to music while reading or reading in silence | reading in order or reading the ending first… both | reliable or unreliable narrator | realism or fantasy | one or multiple POVS | judging by the covers or by the summary | rereading or reading just once

TV AND MOVIES

Favorite tv/movie genre(s)?

Romance, Fantasy, Superheroes, Comedy, Action/Adventure, Dystopian, and Sci-Fi

Comfort movie(s)?

Jane Eyre (2011 version), Barb And Star Go To Vista Del Mar, Pride & Prejudice, The Silver Linings Playbook, Ratatouille, The Phantom of The Opera, LOTR, and The Hobbit (… I wish I could keep going)

Movie you watch every year?

The Santa Clause

Favorite movie?

X-Men

Favorite tv show(s)?

The Office, Portlandia, Fruits Basket, Friends, Wolverine and The X-Men, Last Man Standing, Cobra Kai, Man With a Plan, Gilmore Girls, Sweet Magnolias, #blackAF, Dr. Who, North & South, Adventure Time (… and the list is neverending)

Comfort tv show?

The Office

Most rewatched tv show?

The Office

5 Favorite tv/movie characters?

1. Logan Howlett from X-Men

2. Luke Danes from Gilmore Girls

3. Michael Scott from The Office

4. Tohru Honda from Fruits Basket

5. Cindy Berman from Fear Street

Pick!

tv shows or movie….. both | short seasons (8-13 episodes) or full seasons (22 episodes or more) | one episode a week or binging | one season or multiple seasons | one part or saga | half hour or one hour long episodes | subtitles on or off | rewatching or watching just once | downloads or watches online.

I tag: @sincerelyrachelr @linsimin and anyone else who wants to join in on the fun 🌸

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♪ ♪?

For every ♪ in my inbox I'll post a song I listen to for character inspiration.

(I really wanna throw some songs out there so I'm gonna do two for each muse.)

Everybody Likes You - Lemon Demon

(The tone really helps me get into character for him, it also has a lot of energy)

Dangerous - Big Data, Joywave, Oliver

(This is another one that is based on energy, It also helps me get in the mood for fight threads/drabbles)

you not the same - TileKid

(It's quiet and somber but also peaceful, there's something about the song that is just so him)

Creep - Radiohead

(This song really helps me get in his headspace, no matter how he may be feeling in a thread; I am usually listening to more somber music for him.)

Superstar - Toy-Box

(They may not actually own a single thing but they'll always have the mindset that they're the best)

I Threw Glass at My Friend's Eyes and Now I'm on Probation - Destroy Boys

(This song is one of the many that inspired this character so it reminds me of them a lot.)

Disobedient - Kate Micucci, Michaela Dietz

(Lyrically, this song can very easily tell her story.)

Hater - Korn

(another one that I really just relate to her character)

1989 - Mindless Self Indulgence

(It's mostly just the tone, any msi song suits him)

No One Lives Forever - Oingo Boingo

(Everything about this song suits him so well, like its perfect for him)

One Step Closer - Linkin Park

(The song speaks for itself, really. He's an angry guy and he has a reason to be)

His Eyes - Pseudo Echo

(Again, its one of those song that can speak for itself. The tone is also nice for him)

HUMANS - KLOUD

(It's mostly the tone but lyrically, it suits him as well)

Getting Away With Murder - Papa Roach

(It's just the tone, listening to this helps me separate him from 16 and write him differently)

People Eater - Sodikken

(This song is lyrically great for her, like it perfectly explains my interpretation of her)

Philophobia - Sunday Cruise

(I can't really explain this one, I guess it's just the vibe?)

Another Way To Die - Disturbed

(The level of aggression is just right to get me in the headspace for him)

The Good Life - Three Days Grace

(This is one of those songs that help me through tone)