#everyone's so nice and im like. the Worst

[starry-bi-sky]

on a completely separate note; shizun luo binghe with a disciple shen yuan who fell into the abyss??? *thinks about LBH canonically stealing SQQ's corpse for 5 years* he'd hallucinate i think. like, like visual and audial hallucinations.

Keeps thinking he's seeing SQQ in the corner of his eyes, or wandering between the trees, amongst a group of disciples. Thinks he hears him calling for him, but its just the wind or another disciple.

Gets Xiu Ya reforged but patently fucking refuses to make a sword mound. Because his disciple Is Not Dead :))) There was No Body. He's Not Dead. And If You keep Insisting That He Is, He's Gonna Skewer You :). He's holding onto Xiu Ya so he can return his most favored disciple's sword when he returns. It's on his hip right next to Zheng Yang where it's supposed to be.

Also this motherfucker?? does not sleep btw. He has the image of SQQ, wide eyed and hysterical and standing at the mouth of the abyss burned into his fucking eyelids. Can't use the dreamscape to escape it either because he keeps trying to save him and either he does and it's an incredibly cruel trick to wake up to, or he doesn't and he gets his heart broken in several different pieces again.

There is no convincing this man that Shen Qingqiu is dead. Absolutely nothing at all. He is buried so deep in denial that moles would be jealous of how deep he is. He keeps making tea for two in the bamboo house only to remember that it's just him. SQQ's fans are hiding everywhere, little reminders of his presence. He goes to wake up SQQ on the mornings he sleeps in-- only to find the room empty.

[isa-ah]

met a really cool queer stranger today that i thought was just so fucking neat i wanted to talk but if we were playing tennis they were, with the most gentle and earnest voice ive ever heard, shoving the tennis racket down my throat. every compliment or joke i made was turned away but in the sweetest way possible that made me sound like an absolute asshole lunatic. it was so scary.

[hauntingblue]

CAUSE THIS IS THRILLER (bark), THRILLER (bark) NIGHT

Usopp's outfit is so funny for reals

He got the whole squad laughing

Luffy enablers at it again.... (Robin.... I know.....)

The humor panels so far have been so good!!! God this arc is so funny

HE SAID IT‼️‼️

They look like birds 😭😭

It's just too good... luffy taking cerberus and zombies what can't he do

It's just banger after banger what can I say

Franky feeling for other people because of his guilt complex and sanji lying through his teeth and pulling out the women excuse to seem unaffected... yeah

Look at them.... look how they ate

Omg joyboy reference?? (No)

Sanji is rubbing off on usopp.... also chopper noticing that is sogeking's weapon akdhaksjak

ANOTHER SLAY!!!!!

Their priorities: I'm not strong enough, there isn't enough food, and nami isn't here

Franky going from wanting to kill brook for his jokes to making a joke like his after he hears his backstory... exactly (Robin was already enabling him before the backstory even fdagjsfha)

Sanji is altering his body and actually being on fire to communicate to us how fucking mad he is..... I need more of him going insane I do I do

My god what is he doing ALDJALAJALA

AHSAHAHQHAH THEY ARE THE SAME!!! naaah sanji wouldn't force a woman to be his wife

You cant see me but I am nodding my head in agreement over and over

You don't understand he altered his body to communicate to us how mad he is. He inploded himself and then reconstituted again. Those germa 66 genes are insane

You tell em usopp!!!! The first of many girls you've scared into defeat!!! Akdjqknql

Zoro zombie regressed to not trusting robin akdjaks he's still in there

ROBI-CHO SUPLEX??? HELL YEAAAAAH

There is zosa- [GUNSHOT GUNSHOT GUNSHOT GUNSHOT]

Super frapper gong.... he is doing combo shots with frobin... omg.... parents....

Everything is so fun I'm having such a good time reading.... and then zosan angst like damn I am being fed well here

[rallazart]

Ah fine I'll post somethin. Experimenting with designs and shit is all I'm doin. Nothin new.

(Not posting the colored in versions yet. These are only concept sketches. Keep that in mind)...

The digital "version" of ^this^ is just some lazy color blocking I did. (Pay no mind to the weird light effects); But it does add a little clarity to the original sketch that might be helpful. Note: the values will change to some degree later.

Full body type idea ^here^. The tail is fan shaped from proper perspective.

The basic blocks of his design include an array of different animal features i.e. plucked feathers and skin, goat horns and eyes, coyote skull and body, and lizard scales. Idk if anyone was curious though;

if anyone asks for more detail in the design inspirations and lore I might share it. I just don't really feel the need to post every part of my process yk (especially if I'm not 100% happy with it)

[screechingfromthevoid]

Cyrus is alive in the fic I'm plotting out and like tbh

[puhpandas]

its been so long since human content/new content with no book relevancy even the youtubers and theorists like dawko and john are getting restless😭

[theguardianace]

it should be illegal to feel like this on your birthday

[nintendont2502]

being transmasc + pre t + visibly neurodivergent is such a great fuckin combo because everyone that so much as looks at you thinks that you're far younger than you actually are and treats you as such and even when you're talking to people who *know* how old you are you can tell. you can fucking tell they're doing the same thing even if they don't realise they're doing it

[jils-things]

SKADJKAJFKSFSAA content warning: embarrassing moment during my dinner out... /lh

[iwoulddieforienzo]

Something that makes reading TOA so devastating is how fucking much Apollo feels about Everything. There’s so MUCH. Like I don’t even know how to describe it to you if you haven’t read the books yourself. He has so many complicated thoughts and emotions about just about everything and he cares about everything so much and there is just SO MUCH going on in his head. And yet none of it ever reaches his mouth!!

He almost never says what he’s feeling. What little comes out of his mouth about his thoughts barely even scratches the surface of what he actually means. Like he’ll be having a long ass monologue about how incredible someone is, showing a deep understanding of them as a person and empathizing with them so hard you’d almost think it’s projection but it’s not he’s legitimately just mind melding with this random person he met like a week ago and he’s thinking the softest, kindest thoughts about them like he knows they’re fucking incredible - and what comes out of his mouth is just like, “you’re a wonderful friend :)” AND ITS LIKE. THERES SO MUCH MORE UNDER THE SURFACE. the sheer admiration and adoration he has for everyone around him……… UGHHH!!! But he never VOICES ANY OF IT!!!!!! He never tells anyone about what Zeus did to him……. He never tells anyone except the reader about his realization that Zeus is abusive…. He never even tells commodus about how much he adored him, not then and not now… he refuses to tell anyone when he’s in pain or tries to justify the things he does when he actually had Decent Reasons for why he did something… I’m. I’M. AUGH. AHHHHH

HE DOESN’T EVEN TELL US ALL OF HIS THOUGHTS IS THE THING. THERES EVEN MORE THAT HE IS NOT TELLING US!!!!! THE FUCKING OCEAN OF FEELINGS AND THOUGHTS HE HAS ABOUT EVERYTHING IS THE CLIFF NOTES VERSION. I AM IN DISTRESS.

And YET…. Even what slips out of his mouth is so fucking devastating it is SO devastating. He’s so fucking kind and gentle with Harley and Meg and and other younger Demis and his kids… he’ll act like an obstinate idiot and then turn around say something that drags the core of the person he’s talking to into the light like nail on the fucking HEAD like he reached into their soul and gave them the words to express something that they were struggling to say aloud or that they didn’t even realize about themself. Around the 2nd book he starts putting voice to some of his feelings and thoughts about others and even that tiny fucking sliver is overwhelming to the people he’s talking to bc he’s SO. AUGHHHH

[brokebuckkmountain]

2024 kicked my ass and it's not letting go without a fight

Picture this: You move to a brand new state. You don't know anyone. You spend your first several months living here dealing with a medical emergency that leaves you basically stuck in bed (and with a big ole nasty scare). By the time you get healthy again, it's the holiday season. Shortly before Halloween, actually. You're obsessed with Halloween, your birthday is in November, your long term boyfriend's birthday is in December, as is your anniversary, plus it'll be your first Thanksgiving and Christmas in the new house. You know you won't get all that time off as the new girl at work, and you have some savings, so you decide to just start working again in the new year. Upshot to this: you have lots of downtime to redecorate and enjoy the new place. Downside to this: you still don't know anybody in this state.

Then. Your long term relationship ends on Thanksgiving. You spend December in a fugue state, grateful to have a project (I spent so. much. fucking. money. on Christmas this year. I made a Christmas tree out of crafting stuff because I hadn't gotten mine out of storage). But. New Year's is coming up. It would've been your anniversary. And you know you'll be a wreck. Not to mention, you want to dress up and go out and take nice pictures since your ex has been creeping on your social media. Better than sitting at home feeling sorry for yourself.

You have one (1) friend in this state- your little brother that is also your roommate. Who you used to be best friends with, you guys hung out all the time and went on vacations together. Since he got into a new relationship a year ago, though, he barely speaks to you. His girlfriend, through no fault of her own, is going through a rough patch. And your brother is the self appointed "therapist friend". The kind of guy who gets so worked up over a friend, or even a friend of a friend's drama, that he will pace his bedroom for hours and yell at everyone else to fuck off because he's "dealing with something". So since he started dating this girl, the two of you barely speak. He goes to work, sleeps all afternoon, and stays up all night on the phone with her (he doesn't even talk to his friends anymore). You try to give him space. You do his laundry, wash his dishes, clean up after him (he is, in fact, a grown man). You loan him money constantly, even though he's working, so he can buy his girlfriend nice things. You cut his hair and help him plan a visit to her. You hide the relationship from your parents until he's ready to tell them and cover for him. Then. He decides to go visit her for her birthday (which is a few days after yours). You don't see him on your birthday because he's picked up so many extra hours to have money for his girlfriend. He blows off rainchecked plans with you until the point that you tell him to just give you your birthday presents on Christmas because he still hasn't done so after weeks and expressly doesn't care to. But fine. You still spend a fuckload of money on him for Christmas. And when he opens his gifts he immediately runs back to his bedroom to talk to her, and you spend the evening alone cleaning up his discarded wrapping paper and stacking all the gifts he left strewn over the living room.

Over a week before New Year's, you ask him to hang out. Because you don't want to go to a bar alone, in a strange city, as a young woman. He says he can probably cancel his plans (to watch a stream with his girlfriend) given the circumstances, but he works on New Year's Day. Then. Evening of the 30th, he tells you he read his schedule wrong and he has the 1st off. But also. He's thought about it and changed his mind- he will not be cancelling his stream on NYE. Despite it all, you will be sitting alone in your bedroom on New Year's Eve, on what would've been your anniversary with the very recent ex, sobbing your eyes out and totally alone.

[du-hjarta-skulblaka]

Shift at the chipshop last night and there was this one kid who must have been around 16 but looked younger, first job, big autistic vibes. Half the size of me working right next to me and clearly just super anxious the entire time but also chatting to me about jobs

Idk people are hard to read and I cant tell if he's just naturally shy or like. SUPER intimidated by this big friendly dude with way more job relevant experience than him deffering to him and asking his advice on stuff

[ratmans-notebooks]

its been such a godawful day i feel like something inside me just broke. Im gonna start acting like a total bitch from now on i just cant handle playing nice any more. Its too much its too much im eighteen im just a kid i cant keep carrying all this

[teruthecreator]

hhh

[kirishwima]

do i need help and comfort? yes

do i desperately want to gouge my eyes out when i receive it? also very much yes

[gemharvest]

Need to get on top of whatever dumb fucking inferiority complex I got going on I'm tired of looking at everything about myself and going "Wow I am really sub-par." I know it's 2am but this isn't the midnight thoughts talking this is a fucking persistent curse throughout my day.