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Had a meeting with my new manager and almost cried because she was infinitely more supportive than my previous manager was. And the more I think about it, the more I realize how abusive my previous manager was, how often she gaslit me or took credit for my work, and how the lasting impact of the way she treated me for the last two years can classifiably be considered trauma.
Yay?
#we were talking about how underpaid i am#and i went in fully prepared to have to convince her of this#but she was so appalled for me over the way I've been treated and the volume of work I've taken on and how little support i've had#i actually teared up?#like you realize something is bad in the moment#but someone reaffirms that it was bad at just the right time#and it hits you in really weird way#and i wasn't prepared#i was so nervous going in#it's been years of me having to defend myself#and not having anyone in my corner#and my new manager's only been here for two months but everything feels different#like our entire department is more relaxed#everyone seems happier#higher level people are actively engaging with me and smiling#where they often ignored me when my old manager was around#like it was awful#and i know it was awful#but having someone in a position of authority listening and agreeing how horribly you've been treated#it pays to be kind#the meeting was wednesday and i'm still processing#and i genuinely dread my old manager coming back from mat leave#it's going to be crushing#i really can't say whether i'll be there when she comes back#because fuck me was i relieved when she left#work#trauma
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like i know it's not lotr canon but since that rings of power show is already kind of ass, they should at least let galadriel fuck sauron
#sorry ppl on my dash are putting it in front of me. i dont watch it#i just think everyone would be happier#except for ppl who care about the canon. but why would they be happy with the rings of power show in the first place?#let her fuck she seems like she needs it from the gifs ive seen#high strung as all hell
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chat am I fucked?
#that seems about right i suppose#It's been at least 15 years since I first thought about the possibility of not being cis#and of course i am *not* a female#but why can't I just simply come to terms with it?#internalized transphobia? self loathing? fear?#i wish i was born a male#my life would've been so much better happier AND easier!#i hate every single thing about me#and i feel like everyone already hates me and can't even stand my presence#Everything would get worse if I started transitioning or just “officially” came out#I've always been told i behave and dress like a guy#i remember when i was little and other kids thought i was a boy#perhaps in this case i shall become one#rambles
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I wish everything wasn't so... the way it is
#faron speaks#Everyone seems so much better off than I am. happier. stabler. at the very least not constantly tired
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Alright, who wants cider?
*pouring mugs*
…I have faint memory of going to the movies once with someone that I think was my girlfriend… don’t remember what the movie was though
Me please!!
I'd like some...
#???#Evan speaks 🗡 🎞#evan emh ask blog#evan rp blog#answered asks#ask response#( ooc > )#he just seems to get even happier and happier#the more he realizes that literally basically everyone in this house is just ND and queer as fuck.
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Love how being on the Green and Black small councils must be incredibly aggravating for exactly opposite reasons (jackass fratboy king who wants to go personally stab whoever is most conveniently available versus queen who doesn't actually seem to appreciate that winning a civil war is going to involve some fighting)
And neither of them have shown the smallest iota of interest in, like, what they would do as monarch and why they would be better at it.
#everyone involved would be so much happier getting their own little elbas to lord over and then get idk Rhaenya or Otto#or just someone who seems to even slightly care#to do the admin work#house of the dragon#television
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anyway I love you gay swifties in my phone!!!!!!!!!!
#I am so so so grateful for you all!!!! and for everyone who has supported the gayest song polls#I am so much happier since I was able to carve out this little corner of the fandom#because yeah it definitely did affect my own internalised homophobia being in a fandom where even thinking a song could be gay#can get you attacked and I’m so sad it doesn’t seem like the mainstream fandom has changed at all#but I’m so grateful for all of you
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Don’t know about you but today felt like a proper ski jumping competition? Don’t get me wrong Lake Placid and Sapporo are great and ski flying in Oberstdorf is superb and krafti out is a crime against ski jumping but somehow today felt different? Something about the atmosphere and mood
#more like a beginning of the season comp idk#maybe it was the snow?#and everyone seemed happier?#I don’t know#it’s just a feeling#ski jumping#lahti#season23/24
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haven't had to make one of these for a while...
um okay anyways i'm not doing too hot mentally today!! so i'm gonna take a break for tonight and ask that you please send me Foul Legacy asks (or Arlecchino. honestly i'll take anything at this point) because lord knows i sort of need them
#genshin impact#childe#tartaglia#foul legacy#foul legacy childe#genshin tartagalia#genshin childe#genshin tartaglia#it actually started last night and it is better today but i'm still tired#i was lonely last night and then my brain decided to go whoopsie! here's The Dread!#if you know you know#it was sort of like being on the outside watching people have fun and not being able to join it#because you either can't relate or are uncomfortable with it#and then it made everything Kick In which makes me just sort of pretend to be fine#like someone commented this morning that i seemed more subdued than usual#and instead of saying yeah sorry it's The Dread i was like oh shit i need to act happier#now what that says about meee ahaha we're not going to think about that#honestly i think there's something i should leave#NOT THIS BLOG IT'S NOT HERE I PROMISE#but i used to be comfortable in that place and now it's just. full of people i don't really know#and full of topics i don't understand or like#and i can't say anything because that'll make me look like an ass#and everyone else has something worse than me going on so i really don't have a right to complain#uhhh anyways if you've read this far no you haven't this doesn't exist#/j i love you guys very much#anyways send asks i need comfort from my two favorites#wifi demands talk
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When this other bartender and I work together on busy nights, I really think I need to be the one taking the tables instead of being on service bar.
#It just seems like our tip percentage is higher when I'm the one focused on guests#Plus he's much quicker at cranking out drinks on service so everyone is happier all round#This is me
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It's time for my monthly horrible horrible akeshima brainrot... I like to think that akechi (in the alternate future where he lives and gets to be happy) just can't comprehend how he manages be SO in love with mishima to the point of like. constantly being out of character. When he comes back to the apartment they share he goes straight to pull mishima (works from home) into a hug and grumbles about how it makes him seem pathetic but he won't stop doing it. They share a bed and akechi says he's not big into cuddling but when mishima nuzzles up close akechi would wrap his arms around him because what else is he supposed to do? NOT give in? Akechi thought he'd rather keel over and die before saying he loves someone but he's out here telling mishima how much he loves him with every opportunity he gets. He's absolutely not a romantic person but when he sees something he thinks mishima would like he'd buy it as a gift without much of a second thought. He's so uncharacteristically gentle even with all the profanities he dishes out and the back and forth banter they've been having for years. it's unbelievable to the the pts gang that mishima yuuki of all people has THE akechi goro head over heels for him. It's so cringe but he's living his best damn life.
#akeshima#goro akechi#yuuki mishima#my favorite akeshima headcanon is they started off absolutely DESPISING each other. like straight up enemies#but as time pass akechi becomes more and more whipped for mishima it's pathetic#if anything happens to this little loser idiot cringe-baby he will kill everyone in the room and then himself#what i like about this scenario is how akechi seems utterly miserable to people outside but he's actually happier than he's ever been lol#I LOVE AKESHIMA I LOVE AKESHIMA I LOVE AKESHIMA I LOVE AKESHIMA I LOVE AKESHIMA I LOVE AKESHIMA I LOVE AKESHIMA I LOVE AKESHIMA#i am cringe and i am not free
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my husband genooooo
#watches 0.7 YELLS AT THE END NOOO#fatal was rad to see tho loved the lil things the lil details#mustve been a pain to animate but hello other husband#sasNS I TOTALLY FORGOT... U CHANGES SWEATER#underverse spoilers#anyway that took me a week to get to!#good to see ya ink not being... a dingdong here#cross my dude i promise ull be happier later maybe#or dead! ONE OF THE TWO. dead or alive i dont know. seems to be impliying Death#only because overwriting isnt reseting#so if xgatser dies does everyone else#anyway still waiting for that papyrus fight i might get#one day! oh one day#that or in a frenzied late night state id end up doing so#but that hasnt happened so far
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-Remembers how T’Pring looked as she watched Spock & Chapel vanish into the bathroom together after seeing them kiss on the bridge (which she knew was for a mission and didn’t hold against them but perhaps she could sense something there since they do have feelings for one another), maybe attempting to calm herself and her suspicions as she’s left alone again (and later finds she’s been left out entirely this whole time) and how she doesn’t know that Spock almost told Chapel he loved her then and there, with T’Pring in the other room waiting, and how Amanda and Sevet both think she could have more confidence in herself and how T’Pring thought that she and Spock were in this together (her holding his hand, subtly letting him know to pour slower so the tea flowers would bloom correctly, a whispered ‘well done’, the ritual is over mother) and how mere hours after she expresses to Spock how she feels: Like he doesn’t trust her, like he doesn’t care to include her in his life, how she’s trying her best to show him that she will accept him wholly, how she wants to be his partner instead of an adversary or an obstacle, after all this he’s found Chapel within the hour and is kissing her.-
#I've seen people say 'it's not technically cheating because-' and once you've hit 'technically' in MY opinion it's pretty much cheating#'taking a break' isn't synonymous with being able to kiss/have sex with other people - that's something that needs to be discussed#in my opinion...BUT ALSO. Even STILL. Not even a goddamn DAY went by.#T'PRING!!!!!! SAVE MY GIRL T'PRING!!!#Can you imagine hearing your fiancee who you ostensibly like tell you (very vulnerably - especially for a Vulcan: I didn't mind this bc I#personally assume that Vulcan partners WOULD discuss and talk through feelings though probably with a different goal than humans)#that she feels hurt that you seem to not want to include her in your life and that she feels you should take a break#and then IMMEDIATELY going to find the girl you have a crush on to tell her that you and your fiancee are taking a break and that you feel#bad about it and then IMMEDIATELY after that you're KISSING her??????#didn't feel TOO bad about it then huh!#Anyway I'm not earnestly like incensed I'm tv angry on T'Pring's behalf - love the drama bc I'm experiencing SNW from a very particular POV#I will only be angry if they make T'Pring into the bad guy somehow (like if the NARRATIVE says this is correct)#also off topic but I personally think star trek has had enough 'Vulcan culture is bad and restrictive' episodes/talking points - Enough.#Find some joy and peace through connection to an alien culture PLEASE.#I get it humans are great humans are so much freer and happier than Vulcans humans rule - Enough.#-turns to camera with a smile- anywaaaay I watched the episode once and I couldn't rewatch it for this post so <3#if any of this is wrong just chalk it up to bad memory <3#snw spoilers#idk how long an ep has to be out for that to apply#also just so everyone knows - I /do/ think it's stupid that Spock forgets how to act Vulcan when he turns fully human#but I also just expected it since star trek writers LOVE bioessentialism#I have NO doubt that if Spock turned Klingon he'd suddenly start talking about honor and being rowdy despite those things being#learned and cultural v_v#I SAY ALL THIS...and I DID like the episode! I'm complicated <3#<- just likes episodes with fun hijinks as their thesis and also T'Pring is there
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theres just something about being inherently unworthy of love
#the cycle of i need to make friends. i need attention. why would someone bother with me? i dont have anything to give. are we friends? why#arent you paying attention to me? tell me that you love me. but it could never be sincere towards someone like me. i cant be loved.#love isnt real. i am love. i am the only one who loves. it hurts. why cant i be loved? is anyone else real? is this a dream? am i dead? is#this hell? whats real is fake and whats fake is real. its wonderland. rabbits talk cookies make you big or small everyone is so confusing.#do others love me or hate me or feel indifferent? it seems to switch as random. one day you'll adore me the next its as if we never met. and#i have to keep making friends. i cant keep making friends. if i dont i'll end up with no friends. i dont know how to make more friends.#clinging to bubbles floating up scrambling to catch another as it pops so you dont fall. everyone blends together whats what whos who?#in the span of a few years i feel like an immortal tortured with the despair of outliving all their relationships#except everyone is perfectly alive just out of reach. but i cant just talk to people. thats bad. no one wants me. i cant do that to someone.#every bubble pops at some point. i cant find anything sturdier. fleeting bursts of attention are ok for now#but i cant even get that. so what do i do? i want to sacrifice myself to make people like me but i have nothing left to give.#whats the point of me? if i cant love and be loved if i cant find more than a few people who will stay for more than a second. what do i#have to do? please tell me what you want. i'm sure i can do it somehow. can i do it somehow? i cant. i cant. i cant anymore. im sorry. just#forget about me. you dont need me. youll be happier when you dont even know who i am anymore. i can disappear without a trace for you. thats#all i can do. take the weight off our shoulders. im just using you if you think about it anyways. to feed my own selfish desire for love i#never deserved. keep myself afloat while i drag you down. isnt it time for me to sink? in a shark attack punch it in the gills. youll be ok.#more than ok. free. i didnt want to bite your leg but i just needed something anything. i dont know any better and i never will. thats why i#belong in the depths where i cant hurt anyone. i cant do anything but hurt. what more am i good for? what more have i done? what have i done#for you? think about it. think about it. think about it. think about it. think about it. think about it. think about it. think about it.#its nothing.
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Ok so I don't follow the lore and only see bits and pieces when i randomly decide to load up tumblr once every few days. But what is the situation? You have a man who is out on social media liking other girl's pics and possibly hitting them up? And it bothers you and you've talked to him about it and it hasn't changed? And you're still with him? Because this sounds like it has an easy solution if all that's true. Not a fun solution, but it's easy.
so i dont really want to get into the nitty gritty of it really just because i do like to keep private things off the internet as much as possible but because this aspect of it is an internet thing i dont really care but i also just need to vent and i dont feel comfortable venting about the other issues at hand so yea out of context i just look like a jealous girlfriend but it was honestly so much more than just liking other girls posts on socials. that was kind of just the catalyst for the shitstorm that has basically ruined my entire life and made me question every aspect of it for the past 5+ years.
#we were together since high school#it was a fairytale relationship everyone was jealous of#we were even nominated for cutest couple and most likely to get married#but it has been all lies and manipulation for the majority of the relationship and i got tired of giving homeboy chances#and i found a lot of shit out#that i would have been much happier not knowing about and living in my little fantasy land#i dont really like calling it lore either just cuz it seems like its being romanticised when it's literally driving me insane
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Guilt and empathy SUCKS I want to do whatever I want without caring about who it hurts in the process.
#Why do actions have consequences can someone fix this#I'm trying to make the choice that'd be best for everyone and that's stressing me out because idk what the right thing to do is#It'd be so much easier if I just chose what's best for me and didn't care about how that'd affect the others in my family#I want to be safe#But it seems like everyone is happier when I just keep my mouth shut and don't complain#I'm struggling so hard to find the balance for “what's good for me” and “what's good for the family”#This shit sucks man I just wanna draw cartoon fanart all day instea
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