#everyday i wake up feeling more like a potato

[sevizzz]

I can't write. My brain won't let me. I wanna write. I can't. My brain hates me. That's the post. Goodbye.

[critterbitter]

HELLO HI ID LIKE TO ASK WHAT PROGRAM AND BRUSHES YOU USE CUZ IM LITTERALY EXPLODING EVERYTIME I SEE YOUR ART

actually actually... *pulls out whole stack of paper*...I have. a FEW,, a good few,, questions to ask. they are not many I swear 😇

OK SO FIRST OF ALL HOW DO YOU DRAW SO FAST???? everyday I log onto Tumblr I always see something new from you and I get very very happy. But then I start to question my own existence because not even I CAN SPEED RUN ART LIKE THAT. AND SO SPECTACULARLY TOO

Last question! how do you color and make it look so well?? just. How. I need to know. This is a CRY FOR HE-

anyway thank you for being one of my favorite artists that always feed my brain rot, pls keep making amazing art because like a little yamper I will follow behind and stay updated.

(Stands there)

Response and thoughts under cut!

First question! What art program I use!

Mostly procreate, along with a handful of brushes! (Specifically the Jing Set and some custom stuff, which is really just a circle brush with the shape changed to a square.)

Second question! How do i draw so much!

Okay so. I am. Ahhah. Unemployed,,,,? No, I do freelance illustration, but hmm. A studio job would be nice.

i graduated college last year and I��m very used to eight hour art shifts. The body sort of remembers to keep working, even though I no longer have storyboards or visdev homework to do.

Also. The hyperfixation is a deep vast tunnel I STILL have not seen the end of the light to, good golly. (I have dreams now about the kids committing shenanigan crimes. I wake up in cold sweat and write them down in a journal. It’s like being the mouthpiece to an angry god.)

So the overall gist is: I was trained to be a storyboard artist with a visdev background, and I’m using that higher education to draw funny muppets because my brain’s funny.

I also DO have a queue, and I’ve been treating this as a sort of inktober project. I am definitely going to slow down soon though! Maybe. Hopefully. Ah… (sheepishly drops my kofi here)

Third question! How do i color!

I. I, uh. I dont know man the coloring demons have a grip on my soul and i just go along for the ride. But also, if it helps, i prefer to limit my pallets to only a few colors at a time. Lighting is king, so if you can figure out if you want to focus on either on your lights or shadows, you’ll have a much easier time composing. That, and symbolic colors— idk, something hits different about art drenched in gold with a tiny hint of a man staring into the blinding horizon, or a green leafy environment with a single dot of artificial red. I also like using blue and purple for shadows, and I’m a big fan of muting colors with only one or two that pop— one of the reasons why I was so attracted to submas in the first place is because from a design aesthetic, they’re both super funny muppet men AND really cool train guys that have a limited pallet and thematic apparel.

Overall response! THANK YOU SO MUCH. This goes out to a BUNCH of people who sent me inbox queries— sorry for not responding, it’s a tad overwhelming because some of them are story questions even I don’t really know will go yet, and others are words of praise and I’m selfish and like scrolling through the inbox to look at them when I feel down. I am more of an artist who sits in the corner and sprouts like a potato rather then a branching vine who socializes, but I really do see people’s responses and they make me go :)))))

Okay ramble over. Thanks for coming to the soapbox, and good luck on creating!

[books-and-catears]

Stalemate

Solomon x GN! MC (Angst, Fluff, Suggestive)

You wake up in his bed again. Before him as usual. It's still too early for him. You cup his face and glance over his exposed neck. Spotless and unclaimed - unlike back in the future, where Asmo was sure to leave his traces.

Perhaps that was better. You wouldn't have had to fight your temptations to mark him as yours.

You place a secret kiss on his forehead and leave the warmth of his bed, adjusting the covers around him. You know better than to linger any longer.

"Good morning, my favourite apprentice."

You remembered your last sleepover. It was the best thing you'd ever woken up to. His smile was radiant and so full of genuine happiness - it almost slipped off your tongue.

You're so perfect...I love you.

Words you bit back and exchanged for a morning greeting. You hated doing it but you did not have a choice. Nothing good was going to come of it.

You start cutting up some potatoes for breakfast. In a few years you'd start to look older than him. And in a few more, you'd be reduced to a grave he'd bring flowers to once a few hundred years. The faster he forgot you the better.

Asmo could keep him company for much longer, keep him happier. You couldn't allow yourself to love him too closely - no matter how badly you wanted to.

"Gummorning, MC."

His early morning voice is deep and warm. Half-awake, he wraps his arms around you and leans onto you for balance. You secretly wish he never lets go.

"Morning, Solomon. Did you sleep good?"

You chuckle as he screams like a doting husband from the bathroom as he freshens up and you make his favorite meal.

"Breakfast smells good, honey!"

Maybe if everyday was like this, you would finally grow the courage to ask him for immortality.

Solomon was awake when you kissed his forehead. His hands twitched to grab you and keep you under the covers for longer. Today was one of those rare days he couldn't get a whiff of one of the demons on you.

Don't go. Please stay with me.

But you'd have to leave soon. Away to perform your attendant duties for those demon brothers. All seven of them you'd loved better than you'd ever love his sorry self.

They had a whole family to offer you, a lively house, daily shenanigans to make you laugh, and all of them beloved and accepted by their society. What could he possibly offer you that they wouldn't give you sevenfold?

But you appeared at his doorway most days with your pillows, looking exhausted. He tucked you in next to him, and you fell asleep hugging him tight, a small smile plastered on your face as you mumbled,

"You feel like home Solomon..."

How he fought with himself to keep himself from kissing you on the lips, to keep his hands from roaming even as you pressed yourself so ardently against him. Pressing a soft kiss on your cheek, he wished you goodnight.

Oh god, MC....if you knew what you do to me.

Forcing himself out of bed, he followed you into the kitchen. He would keep you in his sights until the very last minute.

He notices the prep of his favourite breakfast and his heart swells. His arms wrap around you letting go of his inhibitions for once. You don't push him away, leaning back toward him and smiling instead.

"Off to the washroom with you now, darling!" You laughed as you played the part of a fussy wife. Solomon looked at your matching toothbrushes in a kitty mug and felt hope ignite in his ancient heart.

Maybe if he pleaded on his knees, just maybe you might smile his way and say yes.

[hopeful-engineer]

🌞 Self-care vs. self-indulgence vs. avoidance

Sometimes it may be a hard to swallow pill, but there's a difference between self-care and self-indulgence:

🍭 self-indulgence: spending too much money on stuff you want, but don't really need, like clothes you'll wear twice and then leave in your closet, where all they do is take up space, books you'll never read, subscriptions you'll forget about

✨ self-care: saving money; planning your budget; buying less, but better quality; thinking twice, before buying something you want, but don't need: "Will I really use it? Do I have enough money to buy it, without worrying, that I won't have enough to buy something more important? I want it now, but will I still want it tomorrow?" (note: I didn't write "don't buy anything except necessities" anywhere. Buy the stuff you want, but do it consciously, plan it and think before buying.)

🍭 self-indulgence: eating fast food and unhealthy snacks; drinking soda pop, energy drinks, tea with a lot of sugar, or too much coffee; adding sugar to everything; drinking too much alcohol

✨ self-care: eating as healthy as possible; learning to cook; avoiding fast food, sweets, potato chips and other unhealthy snacks; reducing your sugar intake; drinking water, fruit juices, tea without added sugar; planning your meals; buying natural food (note: It doesn't mean "never eat anything unhealthy again, never add sugar to anything, never drink alcohol". You can treat yourself with some pizza, or sweets, or beer sometimes, but it should be a treat, not part of your everyday meals.)

🍭 self-indulgence: staying up until 3 AM to watch films/series, play computer games, browse social media, chat with someone, or even to do something, that doesn't involve technology, for example draw or read books; sleeping until 11 AM, because you went to bed too late; sleeping 12 hours at the weekend, because you slept 4 hours a day during the week; hitting the snooze button; laying in the bed for too long after waking up

✨ self-care: fixing your sleep schedule; waking up earlier; going to bed earlier; sleeping 7 to 9 hours every day; avoiding all-nighters; having a fixed wake up time and a fixed bedtime, the same every day, including weekends; getting out of bed immediately when your alarm clock rings (note: I know there are circumstances, that can mąkę having a fixed sleep schedule is impossible, or next to impossible, I also know in some situations it's totally normal to stay up late, like you don't have to leave a party at 9 PM just because you want to stick to your sleep schedule, that would be unreasonable. Do it the best you can under your current life circumstances, and remember, this is about everyday life, not some rare exceptions.)

There's also a difference between self-care and avoidance:

😨 avoidance: staying home all the time; not going to any events, because meeting new people is stressful; always declinig your friends' invitations

✨ self-care: not going to that big, loud party, because it's too overwhelming, but going to a pub with a few friends instead; inviting your friends to your home, when going out feels too stressful; declinig some invitations, when you don't have time and/or energy, but accepting others, when you feel better and have more time; gradually increasing the number of social interactions you have, to be able to meet new people with less stress

😨 avoidance: having no plans for the future; thinking, that there's no point in having any goals in life; telling yourself, that ambitions are generally pointless and hence you don't have to do anything and be good at anything

✨ self-care: having specific, short-term goals and an overall vision od your long-term future; knowing, what you really want to do and what you're good at, and sticking to these things; consciously choosing, what to learn and what to give up on, based on if it's important to you, not to other people; not distracting yourself with too many side plans, when you have one main goal; knowing, what is your passion and what is your ambition; knowing, that you are ambitious mainly for yourself, and only secondly for the society; believing, that you are capable of achieving your goals

😨 avoidance: not studying at all, because it takes time and energy; procrastinating until the last moment before the exam/test/project deadline; always talking the easiest way possible with no ambition beyond barely passing the exam/test; having no plan, no study schedule; never asking for help, even if you're failing, because you think asking for help is a shame, or you're simply too shy; dropping out of school/college because it's stressful

✨ self-care: knowing that you're studying for yourself, your grades don't define you and that real knowledge and skills are more important, than grades; focusing on these topics, that are important to you for your future studies/career, and being the best you can in these areas; being good enough to pass at everything, that isn't important for your future plans; planning your studying and starting early; taking regular breaks to avoid burnout; asking for help if necessary, but trying to do as much as possible and reasonable on your own; acknowledging that, despite the education system being flawed in so many ways, it also gives you many opportunities;

Of course, self-care includes bubble baths, eating cake, listening to your favourite music and slowly drinking tea, while watching the rain outside through the window and letting your thoughts wander, but these aren't only forms od self-care and definetely not the most important ones. Of course, sometimes it includes staying home with your cat instead of going to the party, sleeping in, instead of studying for an exam, because you're exhausted, or giving up on something, instead of trying again and again, but this should happen in some, specific situations, not be your default response. Real self-care should focus on improving your life, not escaping it or avoiding it.

This post doesn't mean, I'm perfect at all of these things. Actually I struggle a lot with many of them. This is a piece of advice for me, too.

[reginageorgesgirlfriend3020]

Jill Roberts adores you! (Part 8)

"Baby". Jill said.

"Hmm". You said. You started to wake up.

"I'm back". Said Jill.

You mumbled something and said "Goldfish".

Jill laughed. "I love your sleepy voice". She said to you.

"Come on baby. Let's go to bed". Jill said to you.

"Noooo". You whined. "Cant we sleep here?"

Jill chuckled. "Come on babe. We can sleep in my bed. It's more comfortable. And my chest is yours to sleep on". She said

"Do you promise?" You asked

Jill smiled. "Yes. I will hold you so tight while you sleep"

You smiled. "Yay!"

Jill walked with you to her bedroom.

You got in the bed and under the covers.

Jill got in the bed with you and held you

"Goodnight baby". Jill said

"Mm". You said

Jill is super possessive

Like so possessive over you you're all she thinks about

She always has her eyes on you

She doesn't mind wrapping an arm around you when Sidney is around

When Kirby calls you Jill asks who you're talking to

When you wanna go for a walk she asks where you're going

Even in school Jill gives that creepy teacher that evil stare death glare

Like 'Look at my girlfriend the wrong way and you wont live to see your grand kids!!'

Sometimes you think Jill is a bit of a stalker because

She has many pictures of you on her phone

But really she wants everyone to know you're HER girlfriend and you belong to her

You never ever thought you'd fall in love with Jill

And you'd never thought she'd fall in love with you

But when you and Jill kissed it was like you

Never wanted her to stop touching you and kissing you

When you and Jill are watching a movie downstairs she's always the big spoon

Sleeping next to her makes you feel safe

Even Sidney says you and Jill are super adorable together

When Trevor tried to scare you because you drank his ginger ale and ate his potato chips

He dressed up as ghostface

You ran. You grabbed a bat and

Screamed "Me and Jill love each other!! Leave us alone!!!"

One ghostface said "But we wanna have fun with you"

You swung the bath hitting one ghostface on the shoulder as one went down in pain

The other ghostface you destroyed his knee cap

"Aaaaagggghhhgghhh!!!!!!" They both said in agony

"Baby!" Jill said "What happened?"

You took off both their masks

"Charlie? Trevor?" Jill said

"Agghhhh my shoulder!!" Charlie yelled

"My fuckin knee cap!!" Trevor yelled

"Oh. Sorry". You said

Jill smiled. "Remind to never play a prank on you". She said

You giggled.

Jill loves you with all her heart

With every fiber in her being

Loves when you give her a lapdance

Loves to see you dressed in some sexy lingerie

She always wanted to ask you because

She says you're the most beautiful and prettiest woman shes ever seen

Her cuddles are everything to you

Tells you she loves everyday

[flexistentialism]

194.7

part of who we are is our manner of the living the 'already' and the 'not yet' of our existence, made concrete by how we handle our immersion in the everyday

I have not been consistent with my eating. I haven't created a program. All I did was start this blog. I am still waking up every day and winging it.

But I know what a healthy work-from-home day looks and feels like. Today, I will do that.

5a wake up, start the coffee, read a few pages in this existentialism book. 5:15a drink coffee, lounge of the family room sectional with my laptop.

5:50a get off the couch to brush my teeth and dress for running, 5 min later than I wanted to because I proscrasticated getting up for no discernable reason.

6:15a run for 3.1 miles, less than I initially planned due to the 5 min delay above + I talked with my wife for a 10 min or so as we needed to touch base on plans, a delay I welcomed because we won't see much of each other on Tuesdays with the kids' updated soccer schedule.

7a drive my younger son to school, drink coffee in a disposable travel cup.

8:15a back home, work, drink water.

12p break for lunch, heat olive oil in a pan, take a daily multivitamin before starting cooking, throw some baby spinach in there, we have too many red peppers, chop one up and throw that in there, slice up one chicken sausage and add that, there's a few pieces of leftover flank steak, add that, fry an egg in another pan, sprinkle on everything bagel season on both pans, toast two slices of organic wheat bread, throw everything into a bowl, add salsa and shredded cheese, spread guac onto the toast, put that on the bowl, have one last cup of coffee and drink some water, eat 2 slices of mozzarella cheese after.

1p back to work, more water.

3:45p thought about not snacking but opted for a protein bar, more water.

6p dinner, steak, (NY strip, probably a tad too much but not an absurd amount maybe 8-10 oz, should be able to hold myself to 6), roasted red potatoes, steamed broccoli, sparkling water, ate at home with my older son and daughter as my wife and younger son were at soccer, I think this will be our routine on Tuesdays with our Feb-May soccer schedule, it's nice to mix up the intra-family groupings from time to time, after we ate, we did a Mount Rushmore snake draft of peninsulas, I had third pick and took Iberian, UP Michigan, Denmark and Cape Cod, walked the dog while the kids cleaned up the kitchen.

7p drove my daughter to soccer, ate 2 squares of 70% cocoa dark chocolate in the car to end the night, more water, last sips around 7:30p, brushed my teeth shortly thereafter to signal I was done eating and drinking for the night

Today, I did it, I visualized a healthy day and I sort of did it.

[meditating-dog-lover]

Intermittent fasting day 36

It's been 36 days! Over a month!

So fasting with my work schedule has been very easy. I wake up at 7:30, start work at 9, eat breakfast and drink coffee at 12, have my lunch anywhere between 3-4:30 and then have a snack at 6-7 and then my final meal at 8. It can be a slightly bit more challenging on the weekends, so I switched my window start from 1 to 12 and that really helped.

I do get hungry and my stomach does rumble from 9-12 before I break my fast. I had a 4 hour assembly in the lab yesterday that ran until 1 and I was definitely tired and hungry.

I've been pretty much eating the same stuff everyday. On Saturday my sister's friend came over and decided to bake some chocolate chip cookies at night. It was past my feeding window, so I did not have any. I didn't feel very deprived either.

I had some cookies on Sunday as well as a caramel latte from a local new cafe (1 pump). I normally enjoy dark chocolate with some of my snacks, so this time I did not have any and had plain Greek yogurt with my berries because I already had a cookie and latte. I didn't want to consume too much sugar and chocolate.

I do like to enjoy snacks and treats towards the end of the week, from Wed-Fri (especially on Friday). That's perfectly fine, I just need to learn how to fit this in with my intermittent fasting schedule because I am eating less within a shorter time-frame now, so I have less room for food in my stomach and get fuller. So I don't treat myself as often. I'll have a mocha with some dark chocolate caramel pieces as a treat instead of something heavier like a cookie and a brownie. I also like having pizza or chicken tenders, but I want to learn how to portion it and fit it into my feeding window so I'm not full and overeating. I also like white cheddar popcorn and sweet potato/pea puffs from Whole Foods. They are low in calories, but they're so good. Again worth looking into portioning them and fitting them into my feeding window. Also worth planning my week knowing I like to enjoy these foods towards the end of the week (on Friday mostly).

This is something worth experiencing with. Also I started walking a lot since the snowstorm ended and I've been getting minimum 8k steps daily, which includes my pacing around at work, walking my dogs, and my own personal brisk walks. Walking and IF pair very very well, so I'm happy I'm able to walk. I'm going to keep it up. I'm glad I no longer do my more intense workouts. I got tired of them.

I'm going to keep this up and experiment and pay attention to any trends I noticed in my eating, hunger cues, and walking. But so far things have been going very well.

[norwayblogging]

Week 18/09 - 24/09

18th September:

Leirschole week!!! Today is the first official day of leirschole (some sort of forestclasses where children do outdoor activities and learn basic outdoor skills) Me and my group had breakfast at 8. Around 9h30, the children started to arrive. We helped them with their luggage and once all the kids had arrived (around 67 pupils 😱), we helped them with making their beds too. After unpacking we had lunch and the leirschole teachers told everyone the program (In Norwegian sadly, but we already had the program on paper so it was okay). The entire group got split up in 4 smaller groups. Each group was at a station for 30 minutes. The stations were; First aid, Canoeing, seeing how goats get milked and a little tour of the leirschole. After visiting the 4 stations we ate dinner (yes, at 15h30 already!), we got meatballs, potatoes and vegetables. Then we had some spare time because the children were doing a feedback moment with their own teachers, so me and my leirschole group watched a movie. Around 18h, there were 2 and a half hours of activities planned by the leirschole. Activities existing out of; milking goats, walking bunnies, canoeing and horseback riding. At 20h30 we had the chance to eat cornflakes, since we had dinner so soon. I ate some and me and my other classmates went to our room to prepare for the night.

19th September:

Since breakfast is at 8h everyday, we don’t go to bed too late and do have to wake up pretty early. Today we are separated into 2 groups. Group one did map and orienteering first, were you had to orient to a post where a paper hung. Group two went canoeing to a place and hiked back to the starting point while learning about edible things in nature like berries. (they even ate ants... ANTS???) After some time, the groups switched activities. In between activities, we had lunch inside since it was raining a bit. After the activities, we had dinner; Potatoes with fishcakes and vegetables. Just like yesterday, we had some spare time and watched a movie, then did some activities which existed out of; milking goats, rowing with the canoes and woodworking. We had cornflakes at 20h30, watched the rest of the movie and went to bed afterwards.

20th September:

Day 3 of leirschole! After breakfast the entire group was split in two again. Group 1 went with a bus to a nearby farm and to a museum not far from that place. Group 2 would stay at the leirschole, climb the nearby cliffs as well as fishing, canoeing and setting up camp for those who wanted to sleep in a tent the upcoming night.

I went with group 1, since I really wanted to see the museum and the farm. First we drove to the farm were they kept cows and deer. They slaughter their animals from time to time but they also process the wild deer that get hit by cars and die on the road. We got some information on how the meat gets processed and how they care for the cows. We also had the chance to meet, feed and caress the cows who were inside of the barn. THEY WERE SO CUTE! It was also the first time I let a calf suck my hand, their tongue feels kind of rough. It was like a sandpapery feeling on my hand, which I didn’t expect to be honest.

After the farm, we drove to an outside museum. about the war they fought in that area during the second world war. First we got some information (sadly it was in Norwegian so we didn’t really understand it that well) then we went outside. The kids got sheepbells around their neck and they went crazy with them. It was very funny 🤣 Then we looked for the sheep in a certain area and got some more information about the war. The sheep ran away since we were with so many people but that was okay. Lastly, we went to a small house in the area where they displayed artefacts from the war. We even got a book about the war in English for free! We said our goodbyes to the guide and left with the bus back to the leirschole. We ate dinner; sausage with potatoes and had the same schedule as the days prior. I went to the woodworking activity today and made my very own cheeseslicer! I’m glad to take this back home with me 😊

21st September:

This is pretty much our last full day since the children leave again tomorrow morning. Today there’s a hike planned. There were 2 options; either the short steep route or the long less steep route. I went with the second option. It was foggy anyway so I doubted that the scenery would be visible from the top of the small mountain. We hiked until a certain point and ate lunch there, the leirschole teacher accompanying us made nature soup; they picked berries and plants from the surrounding area and boiled it in water and sugar. It was surprisingly amazing! I drank 2 cups and ate my lunch. We hiked a little further down until we came back on the small road near the leirschole. Then we walked back to the school. When everyone was back, we ate some dinner; wraps with taco meat!! (very delicious) and me and 3 of my dormmates organised one of the afternoon activities; braiding friendship bracelets and making dreamcatchers. We had fun and socialised a lot with the kids that participated in our activity. Then at 20h30, other dormmates set up a disco so the children could have a fun last night at the leirschole. After about an hour, everyone went to bed.

22nd September:

Our last day of leirschole 😢 We had a lot of fun this week and are a bit sad that it flew by so fast… We helped the kids with packing their stuff and waved them away. After that me and my dormmates went to the camping spot to put down the tents that were still there. We had a big leftover lunch and took the bus back at 14h. When we arrived back at the studenthousing, everyone had different stories from their week. We talked a lot with each other and shared our experiences. Today I also recieved a letter from a friend back in Belgium! She drew me ducks on the other side of the letter. I loved it!!!

23rd September:

Ooooh how good it feels to sleep in your own bed. I mostly relaxed today. Went to the gym in the morning and worked on my blog. I also cleaned my room a bit. Later that day I went to the library.

24th September:

Sunday funday! I had a very nice breakfast and decided that today was my ultimate selfcare day. I did a facemask, painted my nails in the kitchen and socialised with everyone there. I decided to check on the bruise on my thigh because during one of the days of the leirschole, I fell slightly on my hip but the huge black spot looks more terrifying than the actual pain I felt during the incident itself. Later that night I decided to go to the library again.

Week 18/09 - 24/09

18 september:

Leirschole week!!! Vandaag is de eerste officiële dag van leirschole (een soort bosklassen waar kinderen buitenactiviteiten doen en basisvaardigheden voor buiten leren). Ik en mijn groep ontbeten om 8 uur. Rond 9u30 begonnen de kinderen te arriveren. We hielpen hen met hun bagage en toen alle kinderen waren aangekomen (ongeveer 67 leerlingen 😱), hielpen we hen ook met het opmaken van hun bedden. Na het uitpakken hebben we geluncht en hebben de leirschole leraren iedereen het programma verteld (in het Noors helaas, maar we hadden het programma al op papier dus het was oké). De hele groep werd opgesplitst in 4 kleinere groepen. Elke groep zat 30 minuten bij een hoek. De hoeken waren: EHBO, kanoën, zien hoe geiten gemolken worden en een kleine rondleiding door de leirschole. Na het bezoeken van de 4 hoeken aten we (ja, om 15u30 al!), we kregen gehaktballetjes, aardappelen en groenten. Daarna hadden we wat vrije tijd omdat de kinderen een feedbackmoment deden met hun eigen leerkrachten, dus ik en mijn leirscholegroep keken een film. Rond 18 uur waren er 2 en een half uur aan activiteiten gepland door de leirschole. Activiteiten die bestonden uit; geiten melken, konijntjes uitlaten, kanoën en paardrijden. Om 20u30 hadden we de kans om cornflakes te eten, aangezien we al zo snel hebben gedineerd. Ik at wat en ik en mijn andere klasgenoten gingen naar onze kamer om ons voor te bereiden op de nacht.

19 september:

Aangezien we elke dag om 8 uur ontbijten, gaan we niet te laat naar bed en moeten we vrij vroeg opstaan. Vandaag zijn we in 2 groepen verdeeld. Groep één deed eerst kaart- en oriëntatieloop, waarbij je je moest oriënteren naar een post waar een papier hing. Groep twee ging kanoën naar een plek en wandelde terug naar het beginpunt terwijl ze leerden over eetbare dingen in de natuur zoals bessen. (Ze aten zelfs mieren... MIEREN???) Na een tijdje wisselden de groepen van activiteit. Tussen de activiteiten door lunchten we binnen omdat het een beetje regende. Na de activiteiten aten we aardappelen met viskoekjes en groenten. Net als gisteren hadden we wat vrije tijd en keken we een film, daarna deden we wat activiteiten die bestonden uit; geiten melken, roeien met de kano's en houtbewerken. We aten cornflakes om 20u30, keken de rest van de film en gingen daarna naar bed.

20 september:

Dag 3 van leirschole! Na het ontbijt werd de hele groep weer in tweeën gesplitst. Groep 1 ging met de bus naar een boerderij in de buurt en naar een museum niet ver daar vandaan. Groep 2 zou bij de leirschole blijven, de nabijgelegen kliffen beklimmen, vissen, kanoën en het kamp opzetten voor degenen die de komende nacht in een tent wilden slapen.

Ik ging met groep 1 mee, omdat ik graag het museum en de boerderij wilde zien. Eerst reden we naar de boerderij waar ze koeien en herten hielden. Ze slachten hun dieren van tijd tot tijd, maar ze verwerken ook de wilde herten die door auto's worden aangereden en sterven op de weg. We kregen wat informatie over hoe het vlees wordt verwerkt en hoe ze voor de koeien zorgen. We kregen ook de kans om de koeien in de stal te ontmoeten, te voeren en te strelen. ZE WAREN ZO SCHATTIG! Het was ook de eerste keer dat ik een kalf aan mijn hand liet zuigen, hun tong voelde nogal ruw aan. Het was een soort zandpapierachtig gevoel op mijn hand, wat ik eerlijk gezegd niet had verwacht.

Na de boerderij reden we naar een buitenmuseum over de oorlog die ze in dat gebied voerden tijdens de Tweede Wereldoorlog. Eerst kregen we wat informatie (helaas was het in het Noors, dus we begrepen het niet zo goed) en daarna gingen we naar buiten. De kinderen kregen schapenbellen om hun nek en daar gingen ze helemaal los mee. Het was erg grappig 🤣 Daarna zochten we de schapen in een bepaald gebied en kregen we wat meer informatie over de oorlog. De schapen renden weg omdat we met zoveel mensen waren, maar dat was niet erg. Tot slot gingen we naar een klein huis in de buurt waar ze voorwerpen uit de oorlog tentoonstelden. We kregen zelfs een gratis boek over de oorlog in het Engels! We namen afscheid van de gids en vertrokken met de bus terug naar de leirschole. We aten het avondeten; worst met aardappelen en hadden hetzelfde programma als de dagen ervoor. Ik ging vandaag naar de houtbewerkingsactiviteit en maakte mijn eigen kaasschaaf! Die neem ik graag mee naar huis 😊

21 september:

Dit is zo'n beetje onze laatste volle dag aangezien de kinderen morgenochtend weer vertrekken. Vandaag staat er een wandeling op het programma. Er waren 2 opties; de korte steile route of de lange minder steile route. Ik ben voor de tweede optie gegaan. Het was sowieso mistig dus ik betwijfelde of het landschap goed zichtbaar zou zijn vanaf de top van de kleine berg. We wandelden tot een bepaald punt en aten daar de lunch, de leirschole leraren die ons vergezelden maakte natuursoep; ze plukten bessen en planten uit de omgeving en kookten het in water en suiker. Het was verrassend lekker! Ik dronk 2 kopjes en at mijn lunch op. We wandelden nog een stukje verder naar beneden tot we terugkwamen op het weggetje bij de leirschole. Daarna liepen we terug naar de school. Toen iedereen terug was, aten we wat; wraps met taco vlees!!! (erg lekker) en organiseerden ik en 3 van mijn klasgenoten een van de namiddagactiviteiten; vriendschapsarmbandjes vlechten en dromenvangers maken. We hadden veel plezier en socialiseerden veel met de kinderen die deelnamen aan onze activiteit. Daarna, om 20u30, zetten andere klasgenoten een disco op zodat de kinderen een leuke laatste avond op de leirschole konden hebben. Na ongeveer een uur ging iedereen naar bed.

22 september:

Onze laatste dag op de leirschole 😢 We hebben veel plezier gehad deze week en zijn een beetje verdrietig dat het zo snel voorbij is gevlogen… We hielpen de kinderen met het inpakken van hun spullen en zwaaiden ze uit. Daarna zijn ik en mijn huisgenoten naar de kampeerplek gegaan om de tenten die er nog stonden neer te zetten. We aten een grote lunch van overschotten en namen om 14u de bus terug. Toen we terugkwamen aan het studentenhuis, had iedereen verschillende verhalen van hun week. We hebben veel met elkaar gepraat en onze ervaringen gedeeld. Vandaag kreeg ik ook een brief van een vriendin uit België! Op de andere kant van de brief tekende ze eendjes voor me. Ik vond het geweldig!!!

23 september:

Ooooh wat voelt het goed om in je eigen bed te slapen. Ik heb vooral gerelaxt vandaag. Ik ben 's ochtends naar de gym geweest en heb aan mijn blog gewerkt. Ik heb ook mijn kamer een beetje opgeruimd. Later op de dag ging ik naar de bibliotheek.

24 september:

Sunday funday! Ik had een heel lekker ontbijt en besloot dat vandaag mijn ultieme selfcare dag was. Ik deed een gezichtsmasker, lakte mijn nagels in de keuken en socialiseerde met iedereen daar. Ik besloot de blauwe plek op mijn bovenbeen te controleren omdat ik tijdens een van de dagen van de leirschole op mijn heup was gevallen, maar de enorme zwarte plek zag er angstaanjagender uit dan de pijn die ik voelde tijdens het incident zelf. Later die avond besloot ik weer naar de bibliotheek te gaan.

[lifewiththelulus]

Mimi was always the first between them to wake up. Not just because she started preparations at the store early but because Hazel, despite being steam, could sleep like a rock. Though getting herself untangled from said stone like grip was a challenge. Wrestling free she took just a moment to gaze mirthfully at her wife cradling a pillow. The early morning haze allowing her to imagine for a moment, something or maybe someone else between them. Remembering with a start the nights full events she hurries quietly to see if Mason had awoken. Stopping in the hallway her gem grew bright at the sight before her. Sunflower was watching over him, as she had always done for Mimi as a child. She was truly a sweet old girl. Mason has seeming gotten quite comfortable through the night,splayed out in a silly way and sand covering the couch and floor. She stifflied a giggle, wishing almost to wake Hazel just to see it.

As much as she wanted to stay in the peace of this moment she knew she needed to call the orphanage now that the lines were back up. They might accept their story but it wasnt exactly legal to pick up a kid off the street the way they did. She heard Hazel stir and enter the room. She could tell Hazel found as much joy in the scene as she had as she barely hid tears. Gesturing to the phone Hazel understood what she needed to do. "Good morning sweet potato, why dont you make our guest some of your turf cakes while I take the phone. "

She didnt need to be in at work till 10 and normally she would revel in the time with Mimi but now her steam was in knots, there was so much to say,so much they didnt know, a million reasons not to do this; but something her father taught her from hearing that story over the years was there could be a million no's but one yes that was more important than any of it, plain and simple love.

When Hazel gets off the phone she enters the kitchen with a dower expression, until she sees Mason fully awake,poorly sneaking sunflower food over the counter with Mimi exaggeratedly pretending not to notice. everyday could be like this she thought,her heart aching with want. She mentally scolded herself again, she knew even if this could happen for them it would take a long time. Shoving everything aside for his sake she finally says "Good morning bud, wipe off that sleep sand we're going for a ride".

the more Mason talks excitedly about places he sees and how theyll go together like its obvious,the more Hazel feels ill. She grips the handle trying to will her precipitation to hold shape as the tears well up behind her goggles. The closer they get to the orphanage, the more anxious he becomes, gazing up at her with worry. She cant bring herself to meet his eyes as it comes into view. "ms. Lumen, why are we here, i thought stuff was ok I thought we were home now". The staff came out relived to see him returned safely. She looks at him with a forced smile "its gonna be ok, just wait for me ok?" They talk for awhile behind closed doors before Hazel is allowed to speak to him again. his body shook as she bent down to his level. "Mason listen to me bud…you are always part of our home no matter what happens,but we cant just take in a kid like this,its..its more complicated than that. Im going to fight for you I promise, but it might take a long time and you wont always see us ok?". He shook and pushed her back."i dont understand" His sand was starting to clump together from tears.

"Mason please understand its not that we dont care about you-"They always say that" he interrupts. "They say they want me, my first mama said a mixed kid was good for videos" he says confused as to what it even meant. "They say they love me until my sand gets too much to handle,you're the same, nobody wants a mixed kid". He was inconsolable, a woman nearby tells hazel that its ok, hes always like this,shes free to leave. He shys away from her touch when she reaches out so she just says " Mason, Im mixed, I understand how hard it is,how elements look at you, how elements dont know how to act around you,i know". He looks up confused "huh, no way youre air!…right?" She laughs slightly "I can pass for it some days, and some days I was trying too, but my mom is fire and my dad is water. They came together even when it was hard because they loved each other, and that made me,steam.And my brother" she added smiling. He looked at her with awe and wary. She continued "We want you in our family Mason;just like my parents fought to have me we will fight for you.I want to hear your stories and maybe, maybe if you're lucky, ill ride in a balloon with you".

He still looks wearing but she coaxes a smile out of him. "Okay but you have to pinky promise or else" he said pouting. "You got it bud" Hazel laughed before growing serious "just wait for us ok, even if it takes a million years you'll come home, I promise"

She can't help but look back as she gets on her bike. Mimi meanwhile has been been texting Flint, both trying to explain the situation and asking if there's any way they can sponsor them

[cythoughtsnmemories]

11.10.23

Thank God I was wfh on Mon. Took meds and feeling drowsy. So I took a few short nap. MIL get helper to prepare lunch. A veg soup, potato with baked beans and onions egg. Hmm no meat? Although I'm okay w vegetarian. Hope is not like that for all lunch.

Anw, I'll have to go office everyday on both wks after Mon.

Helped out for Mental wellness day event for Co. Grateful my booth (scent making) was the first to go out of stock and I could go back to work ard 2pm. Only had sandwich and my bbt when I went back to my desk...luckily I had heavy breakfast. But my nose was blocked n runny. The air con is making it worst. I think I need to sweat it out. Supposed to gym but colleague suggested to push it to next day since not meeting ex colleague tmr.

Decided to return to d clinic I visited on Sat but sadly it was closed. Only found out when I was outside d clinic. Omg why d app didn't update d operating hours 😤

Went home to cook my salmon and head back to MIL hse. Planned to shower and shower before SIL n her hubby arrives. FIL was showering and I was told not to wet the toilet in d kitchen. Cannot shower lo. (Err then what's d use for toilet sandals?) Plan ruined. Told hubby I'll be quick but SIL came n FIL just out from shower. I wasn't even hungry but annoyed my plan keeps getting ruined. I need a plan n follow. Why can wait for SIL to come but cannot wait for me to shower?

Actually...think abt it. Must be sis got say sth to her parents (on behalf of her hubby), that's why then got d rule of cannot wet toilet when BIL comes over.

Went to do my laundry and MIL emphasise again cannot put underwear into washing machine. I didn't reply cos i just find d reason is ridiculous. She told me d day I moved in and cos its not my hse. LL use hand wash lo. Hubby was there and told her I used my hand to washed already. She doesn't believe me and still accused me that I already threw it in d washing machine since there's only 1 underwear in d toilet hanging. Pfft! Triggered. I just said wdym women is dirty, we r all same what. Next time (when my own hse is ready) I'll also not hand wash underwear. Does it even matter. She went in.

5.53am

I can't sleep back since 4.50ish after came back from pee. Alarm rang twice, I heard opening of door with a bunch of keys. Then arguing about the portable charger not charged. 45mins of chattering later, they went out. Here I'm wide awake...road starting to get busy. I tried to sleep back, but I can't...soon hubby's alarm will ring and by d time he left hse, I left 20 mins before my alarm ring.

Bet I should only blame myself for waking up at d wrong timing and not able to fall into deep sleep before 5.

I uds its different lifestyle. I won't say hubby will enjoy when it's his turn to move in my hse. But acknowledge and uds what are d inconvenient that it has caused me. It's definitely more inconvenient for me but all I get is getting said that I'm picky, I'm d problem. I mean that's what I felt when I told my hubby. He would just say till like it's nth and ignore. Cos he will nvr ask his parents to change anything for me. At least discuss?! I just have to deal w it, live w it.

The marriage book I passed to hubby to read it's not even halfway through, and it's been 5 mths? Idk how to to tell my hubby, he is going to stay w me for his rest of his life. I'm his wife, and he needs to help me, think for me. It's us and issue, not u and ur fam vs me (alone).

Idk what more issues will appear. 💔

[jamieroxxartist]

Dani Update: 9.28.23 8:00am EST

I have had some people asking about something that I mentioned in the audio post I made about Dani having trouble with her eyes on top of all of her diverticulitis deal.

Yes, I hadn't posted publicly about that and hadn't mentioned it until that audio post. Not for any particular reason other than all of this has been a lot.

So She started about a month and half ago waking up Every morning with very blurred vision and double vision. This leads to heavy-duty dizziness and nausea. You know real fun stuff to wake up to Every Morning. Now it does settle down and become manageable after awhile, but yeah, still. Anyhow we were Real Worried about this.

I was / am thinking that this was probably a side effect of all these hardcore Antibiotics she has been on for the past couple of months. I mean there's a lot of stuff being pumped into her system.

Anyhow Dani made a good point as well. When you're only eating like 200 / 250 calories a day.. that could absolutely lead to issues.

Folks she's not doing this on purpose. She's on this liquid diet because it's all she can hold down and doesn't send her into problems and painful cramping.

But honestly we were both worried it might be something harsher, a brain problem or some-such. And that was a very worrisome and scary thought.

So an MRI was done of her head and brain last week. And we had a week of intensified worry about this until we saw her neurologist (who is great btw) yesterday…

And her brain is ok! No abnormalities! And everyone agrees that this is most likely a result of the medicine and could definitely be a lack of nutrition deal also. Most likely a bit of both. More tests are scheduled and happening tomorrow. And also a Neurology follow up a few weeks from now, post-surgery of course. We are all hoping after her surgery that things settle down.

Thing is her surgery is happening this coming Monday. She is all set for that. Oh! That was another speed bump on that, last week, same day our cat passed away, we got a call from the hospital because they found that there was a problem with her insurance policy; The surgery was not covered! UghhH! So after us both having a panic attack after hearing just how much this surgery was going to cost (up front prior to surgery mind you) We got with the insurance and were able to get her on a plan that Does / will cover the surgery and possibilities that may come up. It was definitely and up and down day… like a lot of them.

Anyhow she is all set now and we verified everything yesterday after seeing the neurologist and everyone has signed off on it and all the T's are now crossed and i's dotted. And both our blood pressure sure did feel like it was back down to were it should be.

There have been a lot of days filled with little speed bumps. Yesterday she got too many antibiotic doses sent, she'll be in the hospital so won't be getting those at home. And at the prices that this medicine costs we had to make sure we don't get charged for them as we won't be needing them and it was a mistake on the pharmacy's side. Just minutia like that, daily. I get it, there's a lot of spinning gears going and we have a lot of plates in the air with all of this. It's just a lot. And all the hiccups don't seem to let up. But there is light at the end of the tunnel and we are pretty confident it isn't a train heading our way.

But we are handling it and getting the bumps knocked out. And it's not always other people, sometimes we make bonehead moves. Last night we had some premade Mashed Potatoes (me with my dinner, Dani as her dinner) and boy was that a mistake. The dried, powder ones, you know that you rehydrate, well those had been fine. She could eat those without issues (other than Monotony. Even chocolate cake would get old if you had to eat it everyday. (no, she cannot have cake)

Anyhow I think that there must have been some sort of preservative additive or something or other in these pre-made ones in the tub because they did not agree with either of us. Me I can take some Imodium and get through (sorry TMI, I know) but poor Dani cannot. She can't mix anything like that with her medication. So She was in pain and having issues last night. So yeah just another night.

So yes, this is were we are. Doctors appointments (pre-surgical and blood stuff) tomorrow and then the surgery Monday. She (we both are) are really ready to get her fixed and on the mend soon.

And thank you to everyone who has reached out and OMGosh the Go FundMe campaign, we are just blown away. See my audio post. Thanks everybody. Now I had better get back to work.

*note: this pic is of Dani and her pet Albino Ball Python, Ursla Whom she loves very much and has not been able to hold since all this started because we didn't want to risk and weird animal contamination with her PICC lines and such. So Ursula has been hanging out with her Papa, but that is no fun. Mamma is always more fun to hang out with. All Papa does is paint and talk to people on the phone ;) lol

[dirtytransmasc]

No thoughts, just Quaritch fathering spider HC's.

Instinctually putting a hand on his shoulder or keeping him pressed against him in any potentially dangerous situation. Spider used to protest it, claiming he was fine, but in time he grew used to it, liked it, liked being protected as if he was something to be cared for; but before that, he would throw Quaritch's touch off like it burned and he would flee from his presence if he tried to guard him and Quaritch would just try harder, he had to, he couldn't not protect him.

working more and more Na'vi into their conversation, mostly terms of endearment, and familial possession (my son, my spider, my idiot). they have fluent conversations and use it to shit talk the RDA staff cause they're the only ones fluent/close to fluent. (spider is so proud, and Quaritch loves to see how happy it makes the boy to use his true native tongue)

anxious dad hovering, all the time, it never stops. Spiders climbing up on something, Quaritch is most likely off to the side, sweating bullets. Spiders squaring up to an avatar or to one of Pandora's many creatures, Quaritch is 3 steps behind him, ready to scoop him up. in the meeting room he keeps close to spider, making sure no one says anything to him, messes with him, makes sure he doesn't break anything or cause trouble. at first spider thinks its annoying, then really entertaining.

after a singular rough ride on an ikran, Quaritch insists on holding onto spider at all times, especially while in the air. spider uses it as a time to sunbathe (much like a cat in their grumpy owners arms) and take a little nap (he feels safe and content)

as they get more comfortable with each other, spider claims to be 'tired' during more boring parts of a walk or hike so that way Quaritch will carry him. he likes to be up on his shoulders, likes to see the world as the na'vi do. He normally ends up sleeping (kid can drop into a nap in like 5 seconds and wake back up in half that. he has very feline habits) or nearly break his dads neck with how fucking wild he gets. (Quaritch will never admit it, but holding spider makes him feel whole in a way that nothing else will ever manage to do)

Quaritch kinda just formed a habit of carrying Spider like a toddler or sack of potatoes, especially when they had to basically drug him to keep him from ripping himself, the lab, and everyone in it to shreds. that habit never died, sometimes he just carries him around (when he's throwing a teenage temper tantrum) and no one dares to say a thing; they see them in the halls, sitting together in the rec room or at meetings, out on the land, it just become a part of everyday life. (spider will totally do that thing where he just drops all muscle tone in his upper body and just flops back, much to Quaritch's horror every. damn. time)

He likes when Quaritch (who's always saying its a rats nest, cause it, in fact, is since the kid barely showers and never really does anything with it) does his hair.

if Spider's doing something he shouldn't, he'll just pick the kid up by the armpits and walk away with his arms fully extended, dangling Spider like 4 feet off the ground (he has a scrunch instinct, he curls his legs up like the feral little bastard he is, so in all likely hood its more like 2 or 3)

Quaritch, whose only really used to his na'vi body, is convinced that spider is fragile, like a paper cut will kill him since he's "just a little human", so any injury gets spider fawned after.

Quaritch is the only one allowed to question spider, especially out in the field. He doesn't let his men say a thing to the boy.

Mother hen to the max, have I made that clear enough

if and when the Sully's and Quaritch make-up, the custody battle is fucking gnarly. quaritch is possessive of his kid, especially when he learns how he was treated before.

he loves his kid so fucking much

[ithinkilikeit-reactions]

Ateez “You fall asleep on their shoulder”

Ateez Masterlist                                     Group Masterlist  

Ask: Hi,You falling asleep on ateez’s shoulder please~

Hongjoong: 

The couch in Eden’s studio was so soft, too soft truly. This was supposed to be a day where you learned more about what Hongjoong did behind the scenes but you found yourself dozing off instead. It wasn’t that you didn’t find it interesting, you did, the day was just horribly long and this experience did make you admire Hongjoong even more. You were just tired and you couldn’t imagine how Hongjoong felt doing this day and day out.

Your eyes drifted shut, your head gently falling onto Hongjoong’s shoulder as he explained something to Maddox. “and I was thinkin-ing- oh.” Hongjoong stuttered softly, feeling the weight of your head on his shoulder. It was cute and endearing, but he couldn’t help but laugh a little bit. Knowing you, you would be embarrassed if he didn’t wake you up so he gently shook you. Seeing your disoriented expression for a split moment before springing awake fully, acting like nothing happened. 

“Does my day bore you?.... Well I understand, we can leave early and get a good nights rest together.” 

Seonghwa: 

Your day was quite possibly one of the worst you had experienced in a very long time. Normally, you would simply go home and just drink a glass of wine and destress but today had reached new levels. You just wanted Seonghwa and found yourself at the dorms, explaining to him what happened while fighting tears. Once he saw how emotional you were, he ushered you to his room for privacy. 

“It’ll be okay.”  He cooed, stroking your hair as you sat next to him in bed. Seonghwa had been doing this for the last half an hour, after listening to your rant and giving advice. It was clear you were exhausted, your day having taken alot out of you. To say he was worried was an understatement, but he knew he couldn’t do much other than be there for you. He was truly only relieved seeing you were asleep, meaning that you were finally feeling more at peace. 

“If I could fight all the demons in the world for you, I would.” 

Yunho:

It wasn’t everyday you got to spend hours without break with Yunho and it wasn’t everyday you actually got the option to go and do something fun either. So when the opportunity presented itself to go running around an amusement park like crazy middle schoolers, you took it. Going on every ride, taking pictures everywhere and eating nearly every food item you could see. Needless to say, it was tiring while also being ridiculously fun. 

You were ridiculously comfortable in the car back home, his manager driving as you two sat in the backseat. You truly felt like kids again, your matching headbands on the tops of your heads. Yunho’s fingers toyed with yours, not noticing just how sleepy you were until your headband tickled his cheek and the weight of your head landed on his shoulder. With his free hand, he carefully took off your headband and fixed your hair. 

“Today was fun, baby. I want more days like this together.” 

Yeosang: 

Couch potato days were few and far between. While you both did have them, it wasn’t often though that you had them together. It was rare and so you wanted to make a good day out of it, junk food, skincare, dramas and maybe even some video games. You had spent the whole day having relaxed fun with him and now you could feel yourself crashing. 

“We can go to bed if you’re tired.” He remarked, catching you yawn as you turned on your next movie of the evening. “No, no, I’m not tired.” You lied, not wanting to waste a second you had with him and knowing the next day was back to your normal schedules. Yeosang knew you were lying but simply pulled you to lay against him. Though he severly underestimated just how tired you were, feeling you dead asleep on his shoulder within 15 minutes. Yeosang had to bite back a laugh, covering his mouth a carefully turning down the tv. 

“Next time just tell me, I don’t mind going to bed early.” 

San: 

His job consisted of a lot of waiting, waiting in cars, waiting for standby, waiting for your makeup to be done. It was a normal thing that San brought you along because he would hardly have time with you otherwise. You would play games, read, talk, make up for some lost time. 

Though this music video was proving longer to film that anticipated and you were both absolutely exhausted. He still needed to film though and while you were trying your hardest to keep him energized while waiting on the sidelines, you found yourself drifting off on his shoulder. “Baby, if you’re sleeping what am I supposed to do?” San asked, stroking your head and lifting it off of his shoulder. He made you look at him and you just pouting, him allowing your head to drop into his chest. “But Sannie I’m so tired.” You whined, shutting your eyes again. 

“It’s okay, You can go to sleep. I’ll wake you when it’s my turn.” 

Mingi: 

Mingi was your person, in every single way and if you ask him he would fight the world. Well right now, you just needed him to hold you. You needed his comfort, you needed him to feel better and Mingi was ready to do just that. Fingers laced with yours as your head rested on his shoulder. He was your pillar and today you needed that more than anything. 

He was speaking with you about random things, anything that came to mind to distract you. “And so in the show, the guy’s hair turned a flaming red when he got angry-” Mingi explained and you hummed in response, not having the energy anymore. Mingi understood that, the things he was saying weren’t important anyways only the way you felt was and it seemed like you were feeling better. He continued talking, explaining random things from his show only garnering no more response. Glancing down at his shoulder, he could see that you were entirely passed out which was a relief. 

“Todays bad day is gone now, get some rest and tomorrow will be better. I’ll personally make sure of it.” 

Wooyoung: 

While you had had a busy day, you didn’t want to cancel out on your plans to go out to dinner with Wooyoung and his friends. Over the years he had aquired so many friends and they were all important to him, so the evening was guaranteed to be a long one. Not that it bothered you, you were simply a little tired. 

You had enjoyed a great time with his friends, laughing, talking and eating good food. It was late but you were still drinking, Wooyoung’s arm having found it’s way around your shoulders while chatting away. You were starting to feel super drowsy, head fall onto his shoulder every few minutes. However you couldn’t fight it much longer, head fully falling onto his shoulder into a light sleep. “Is Y/N okay?” One of Wooyoung’s friends asked as Wooyoung laughed a little at you. He fixed some of your stray hairs gently and turned back to his friends. 

“Work’s been stressfull, so they’re a little tired. We should probably head home soon.” 

Jongho: 

Being clingy wasn’t something you normally did because you knew Jongho wasn’t the biggest fan of it. Though when you were tired you really couldn’t help yourself, it was like being drunk, your body acted before you could really think about it and Jongho could tell. Jongho, however didn’t mind. He often knew you better than you knew yourself and could tell that exhaustion was the main contributer to this. 

Your arms were wrapped tightly around his waist as he sat in the dorm living room, talking with some of the members about upcoming schedules. His arm was wrapped around you, hand tracing circles into your back and making your whole body feel warm and cozy. It would have been harder not to fall asleep, so you let your body go. Jongho knew you were drifting off, making him stutter as he spoke and look at you with a small smile. 

“If this was anyone else I would have shaken you awake, but I love you so I won’t.” 

[never-enough-fanfiction]

Everyday chores HC

Well, you actually did not mention who you want in this request. I’m almost sure it was supposed to be Joker request because of sharing the VA with Tatsu from The Way of the House Husband.  

So I did both of them.

Not as househusbands tho. Doesn’t really suit their characters for me, but your request gave me ideas for some HC about everyday life with them.

I hope it will be enough.

Enjoy!

Benimaru:

Benimaru is NOT a morning person. Unless it's an Infernal, it's hard to dig him out of the sheets he's buried himself for the extra five minutes.

Were it not for the fact that he had to comb the twins' hair, he would probably sleep until noon.

He has a relatively constant wake up time, but going to bed depends on the company at the bar.

You can give him an exact grocery list, including the stores he should buy them in, and he'll forget half of it anyway.

Usually, he just walks with you or Konro and is a bags-carrying man.

Has difficulties with bargaining without fights, and sellers in Asakusa will have no qualms about squeezing out the last penny even from Beni-chan

In terms of cooking, he can survive on his own, but his food doesn’t have much taste.

Usually Konro is the cook.

Beni at the other hand is an irreplaceable jar opener.

If you cook him Sukiyaki will carry you in his arms.

Cleaning is a torment for Benimaru.

He'll wash these floors, but sweet Sol at what cost? The whining, sighing, and rolling eyes can be louder than festivals.

Dusting off always makes him sneeze.

Sometimes it feels like babysitting Shinra and Arthur is better than cleaning.

How long he stays in the hot springs depends on whether or not you are there with him.

As a rule, he gets bored quickly, but he can sit there for hours with you.

Also, as a captain, he doesn't always have time for such laziness, so when he can finally, he uses it.

Joker:

In the beginning, even when Joker was sleeping, he didn't really sleep much. His state of everlasting alert only allowed him to take a series of naps rather than actually deep sleep.

With time, when he considered the house a safe place, he began to sleep better, and the sight of Joker in the morning, not remembering what year it was, became more frequent.

Which does not mean that he always allows himself such luxuries. Our dark hero still has a job to do and he can't always afford to sleep till midday.

Sometimes you go to sleep alone, wake up with Joker. Other times you go to sleep with Joker and he is gone before you wake up. Other day he seems to sit in bed all day or not sleep at all.

If he has no other quests, it's very easy to convince him to take extra snuggles in the morning

Joker may be a dark hero, but this guy can be really lazy at times

No sleep schedule whatsoever

He learned all the house chores while living with his first family

If you give him a list, feel free to send him shopping alone

If you decide to take him with you, you will mainly be complaining about the high prices

"Can't we just steal it?"

Willing to help with cooking

Surprisingly good at chopping things up. Generally good in handling a knife.

He likes pointing out your mistakes, not because it bothers him, but just to tease you.

"You want me to choke on this potato?" muttered Joker skeptically looking over his girlfriend's shoulder.

"How come you have only one eye and I asked you to keep it on pasta, yet you still can see how I'm chopping vegetables?"

Absolute and unquestionable master of preparing chicken. Although sometimes it's hard to convince him to show off his abilities. He sees this as special occasions that will lose their charm if they happen too often. Dude just won't let be used for continuous cooking.

If he is supposed to cook himself, he'd rather order take out.

He likes tidiness more than you think. Not "not an ounce of dust", but rather "I don't like stumbling over my own things."

Takes care of his clothes. It is not easy to find something in both his size and style.

It does a great job of mending them and removing stains. Especially getting rid of blood on white shirts.

It is unknown what takes him so long in the shower.

It's not like this guy thinks his whole life over.

Maybe it's his secret hair routine?

After all, such hair does not care for itself

Joker makes noise all the time. Outside, it moves soundlessly, giving you heart attack as a hello, but inside the house he constantly hums, mumbles, thinks out loud, or even just sighs loudly.

[meditating-dog-lover]

Intermittent fasting day 9

I went to a restaurant with my dad at 1:30, which was pretty much a dinner for breakfast. It was really good, we had bread with olive oil, halloumi cheese, green salad, and I had chicken with potatoes (the chicken looked like it was barbecued because it looked a lot like the chicken we used to make on our own barbecue at home back in the day). Everything was good and filling and even healthy. I enjoyed it a lot.

I had a late oat breakfast with coffee a bit later because the dinner was so filling. And then I had an egg breakfast with toast before my feeding window closed. So it was overall filling.

I feel like I can keep this up. Obviously with my flight it might get a little messy. But that's only 2 days and not a big deal. I also did not go for a walk because I was a bit tired and wanted to spend some time with my dad. But I enjoyed walking in Cyprus a lot and had an amazing walk last night because it was very self reflective. I obviously do a lot of walking in the US so that's not going to be a hard goal to achieve.

I feel like I am less bloated with fasting. Before eating after I wake up, after my fasting window begins at night, and in between meals. It helped better than probiotics and limiting foods that are known to cause bloating such as salty snacks and carbonated drinks. I will get a little grumbling when I wake up and am hungry. But overall I'm doing okay and will continue to monitor my progress. Bloating was an issue I previously discussed that I wanted my probiotics to take care of, along with anxiety, nutritional absorption, eczema, dry skin, and dandruff. IF I feel took care of the bloating well. I'm still working on anxiety and my skin issues.

I deal with a lot of stress and anxiety and I need to end it once and for all because it is debilitating. I wouldn't be surprised if it contributed to my eczema. Other things I believe contribute are inflammation, poor gut health, needing a detox (pollutants and heavy metals are also inflammatory), trigger foods, and of course stress. But these are issues I obviously want to address just like I did with bloating, along with the nutritional absorption. A functional doctor can help in this case and I will be seeing one eventually.

I was worried that I would be hungry with eating less food, but not with IF. I seem to be doing perfectly fine because I don't have to restrict calories and am craving and eating healthy and filling foods which keep me satiated and happy and not deprived nor nutritionally deficient (causes a lot of hunger). And I'm limiting and restricting calories without knowing it. I'm just doing it in a much healthier manner. I feel like this is more doable than having to workout everyday like I used to when I was eating more. I get tired after work and I personally do not enjoy intensive exercises if I want to be honest with myself. I enjoy walking, maybe I might incorporate some yoga or gentle strength. But not HIIT or sweaty circuits. I even want to reduce my mass both via fat and muscle, so I want to take it easy with the exercise. I also don't want intense exercise to be another addition to my already existing stress. But I'll be okay. Walking and IF are perfect for now.

Tomorrow will be a bit messy because I'm traveling and cannot walk and my flights will mess up my IF schedule especially with the time zone differences. But I'll be back on track.

[thatwildnya]

a commission from @sugarandmelody ! i am so sorry it took so long

thirds years with an SO that one day just says very seriously, “let me introduce you the song of my people.” Then proceeds to sing a song like WAP, Anaconda, or Face Down Ass Up- Basically saucey shocking songs to mess with the boys

warning: sfw but suggestive wording is present

Trey, Anaconda

awkward dad vibes

reminds him of cater

ask him to twerk and he’ll die

if riddle is around he’ll grab you and speed outta the room

gotta go fast

wake him up with an earrape version and he’ll throw a pillow at you

He jolted awake as Anaconda blared through your phone speakers. Raising his head with a grumpy groan, he glared at you dancing on the other side of the room. You were ‘throwing it back’ as the kids say.

“Good morning my honey buns!” you sing, twirling over to the bed. He said nothing, opting to let his head flop back down. Unsatisfied with his reaction, you raised a hand to give those booty cheeks a good spank. Trey bolted up feeling his tuchus slapped. A feeling of dread seeped into you as he faced you slowly.

“No sweets for a week.” “NOOOOOOOOOO.”

Cater, CPR ft. Misery and Reese's Puffs

hell yeah dance for the magicam

wants to learn all the dances teach him

obviously starts a trend

makes a metal version with Kalim and Lilia

preforms it for your birthday hope you like screamo

is ecstatic if you dance with him for a post

Riddle was trying so hard to control his temper. He was working on managing his anger and made a lot of progress recently. But the moment he heard this song everything was thrown out the window.

“TIGHT AS A VIRGIN BOY DON'T GET NERVOUS.”

“REESE’S PUFFS REESE’S PUFFS. EAT ‘EM UP EAT ‘EM UP EAT ‘EM UP EAT ‘EM UP EAT ‘EM UP.”

“SO LET ME BEEEE. AND I’LL SET YOU FREEEEEE. I AM IN MISERYYYYYY.”

Every. God. Damn. Day. Thanks to you and Cater the song has become a hit in the dorm and everyday someone is blasting it through their speakers and or dancing to it.

His grip tightened on his teacup as he heard the song for the twelf time in the past five minutes. Someone was trying to make a video and kept messing it up.

Pray to the seven he doesn’t find you and cater ever playing it. Unless you laugh in the face of danger. Then go wild.

Leona, Face Down Ass Up

he’s an ass man so this song resonates with him

doesn’t particularly care for this type of music but he doesn't hate the song

it’s kinda catchy tbh

when you start dancing he raises an eyebrow but says nothing

“is this what you listen to back in your world?”

if you ask him to dance he’ll flat out refuse

you can’t change his mind take the loss

You looked silly dancing like a bird doing a mating dance. But he won’t say anything. He’s too busy staring at that juicy dump in the trunk of yours. So much so he doesn’t notice a certain hyena has entered the beast’s lair.

“So you're an ass man, ey?” Ruggie laughed at his glare, “what? You’re staring at their ass like you do when you’re about to eat a freshly cooked steak.”

Vil, Cvm$h0t

what is this nasty so proclaimed music

why do you enjoy it

disgusting, turn it off

no turn it off not up

sweet potato you’re really asking for it

that’s it, no more nice guy

prepare yourself, you asked for it rip you’ll be missed

The audacity you have to even consider playing and letting this abomination touch his eardrums is insulting. This will not do.

“Sweet potato, turn that off.” the queen glares at his betrothed. You stare back, and when he sees a glint in your eyes he makes a grab for your phone. You, however, are closer and quicker than he.

Now he’s chasing you through the pristin halls of his dorm, demanding you to turn off such revolting music. Unfortunately Rook is nowhere to be found leaving him to do the dirty work himself.

It’s all fun and games until you get demoted from sweet potato to potato. No going back now, have fun.

Rook, D33pthr0t

thinks it’s interesting and of course beautiful

if you start to dance he claps along happily

*insert scene of snow white clapping while the dwarves dance and sing*

doesn’t join cuz Vil would kill him if he did

if you do a video with him in the background he just smiles and continues doing whatever he was

happily records whether or not you asked

be careful when you direct any suggestive moves at him

he’ll see it as an invitation

It recently became a normal thing for you to start setting up your phone while he was doing his own thing. You wouldn’t say a thing, just doing your prep before tapping the button to let the music fill the room.

Apparently your fans enjoyed having him in your videos just being in the background. They found it amusing. No matter, he didn’t mind. 

Though he especially enjoyed when you directed a saucy gesture at him, it riled him up and he always enjoys a good hunt.

Idia, WAP

heard music like this before

memes are born from songs like this all the time

he likes some more than others

however when you start WAPing on his bedroom floor he loses it

his hair is smoking and Ortho is dumping water on his

you will be the death of him

he can’t take it

please surprise him he’ll literally “kndgkdrigh”

Why are you dancing like that. It’s too much. Stop humping his floor he’s feeling things. And these things are very conflicting.

“Nii-san your hair!” oh no he can’t hear us his brain is keyboard smashing.

“Y/N-nii please go get some cold water!” “... nah~” “Y/N-NII PLEASE.”

Lilia, Feelin’ Myself

he’s felt you too

you feel very nice

says he’s heard worse

not his first choice of music genre but this one is catchy

will definitely dance with you like Cater

and makes a screamo version with his clubmates

gets this look in his eyes when watching you dance

You can always feel his gaze burning into your back whenever this song comes on. And it’s unsettling. When you look at him he turns away. You want to call him out, but something tells you you’ll end up regretting it. Oh well, you’ll just have to distract yourself-

A hand spanked your juicy rump. Oh, it is on old man, it is on.

Malleus, Squidward Nose

What are you doing who is Squidward why would you want to use his nose instead of a pp that’s probably not sanitary wait why are you moving like that no stop stay away child of man please no stop GO AWAY WHAT ARE YOU DOING TURN IT OFF YOU HEATHEN DON’T COME CLOSER CHILD OF MAN WAIT NO BACKAWAY-

SPECIAL BONUS ROUND

ortho

the entirety of the twst fandom kills you for trying to taint the robot child you won't be missed see you in hell