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likeitovich · 1 year
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Everybody Hates Johan (Alle hater Johan) by Hallvar Witzø (2022)
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tiginit · 11 days
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My random ahh headcanons and PTJ verse in general
Vasco is undiagnosed autistic boy I mean LOOK AT HIM. There's no way he's just not clever (we have Logan, who's just dumb as fuck).
Jace actually talented at very big amount things but it's not a fighting. And also he's the one who can take care of somebody like Vasco
Zack despite being a bully in past and having some toxic masculinity he's surprisingly okay with LGBTQ+ and gender nonconforming people (because his friend who's almost bro is the one)
Johan (Yohan) is actually gender nonconforming boy. And I hate the same body syndrome from PTJ, I think he's body type is skinny and slightly feminine for a man. Also his hobbies is actually reading and writing.
Jake is aroace, and Samuel is just aromantic.
Yuseong is actually WAY SMARTER than he looks. He can write, read and understands everything and of course he's way smarter than Logan (everybody smarter than him)
James Lee despite being genius of a lot things is that one guy who's BANNED from kitchen. His grilled cheese is somehow burned and not melted AT THE SAME TIME
Gun is sleepy every time when it's not fighting, training or some other criminal.
If Goo wasn't included in crew drama he'd become some nasty politician
Kouji is the only one who can scare the other geniuses
Seongji is everybody's fav in 1st gen because he's genuinely good. Also he CAN COOK and actually wanted to make som cooking channel on NewTube. ALSO he'd be pretty much awkward in romantic
Taesoo Ma is having his podcast and it's way better than any other "alpha male redpill"
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amyunshader · 2 months
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Lookism cast as anime characters
James Lee as a My Hero Academia character:
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• the Sparkles TM
• unexpected reveal award
Gun: unholy mix of
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• acknowledged strongest
• heir of famed Japanese clan
• teacher
• who left him near children
• fighting pervert
• sunglasses to cover the eyes of dominance 
• too-hot-to-hate controversy
• everybody's out to get him
• definitely can, has or will destroy your favorite character 
Manager Kim as a Jujutsu Kaisen character:
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• Too tired for this bullshit
Jay Hong as a Fairy Tail Character:
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Sally Park as a One Piece character:
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Samuel Seo: 
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• Evil version be like: I want to be the n°1's son
Also Samuel:
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• His dream was to be a Sasuke
• why didn't you notice me sensei
• rags-to-riches but illegal story
• team leader in an evil organization 
Vasco as a Naruto Character:
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• too much energy
• 0% talent, 100% work out
• kicks the geniuses' ass
• sold last brain cell for muscles mass
• care for his friends
• awkward at dating
• wear a one-piece overall
• dress like his master
Johan Seong as a Bungo Stray Dogs character:
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• badass
• foul mouth
• everybody gangsta till he walks in
• disrespected but acknowledged
• ultimate one-man army
• switch between ally/enemy
• like dogs
Ryuhei Kuroda as a Seven Deadly Sins character:
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• simp
• blond
• pervert goofball up until he gets serious
• badassery was not expected from him
Jake Kim as a Naruto character:
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• charismatic leader
• stoopid
• outgoing personality 
• legendary dead dad
• bullied when he was young by people who later became his subordinates
• growth type
• fight to protect his home
• Sasuke come home pls
Yenna Jang as a Demon Slayer character:
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• smoll
• must protect
• reason to live
• hands exist to forfeit all mortal possessions to her
Daniel Park as a Bungo Stray Dogs character:
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• poor
• who dragged such a pure boi into this mess 
• traumatized
• black out berserker mode in a different body
• does investigations
• get kidnapped
• protect the boy- oh he kicked their ass
• when did my son get so strong I'm proud
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I. JJTS FINISHED WATCHING MONSTER AND HOLYYYYYYY FUCK
IM SO SAD THAT THIS IS THE END 🙁
SPOILERS!!
NO WAY JOHAN ESCAPED AGAIN BRO HE'S GONNA FUCK EVERYTHING UP 💀
ALSO TENMA IS SUCH A SWEETHEART WHAT THE HELL.. JOINING DOCTORS WITHOUT BORDERS HES A GEM I CANT BELIEVE THE LACK OF TENMA CONTENT AFTER ALL THE GOOD THINGS THAT HE HAS DONE FOR EVERYBODY IN THIS SERIES
ABSOLUTE GEM OF A MAN I CANT EVEN EXPRESS HOW I FEEL ABOUT JIM WITHOUT SOUNDING FERAL AND CRINGE CRONGE (potential verbal appreciation post? It’ll probs be rotting in my drafts HAHSHD)
Also can we talk about how pretty Nina’s voice is when she’s serious, it really reminds me of nausicaa’s voice WHIHC IS A WIN WIN!
Really wanted to find out their real names
ALSO WHEN ROBERTO WAS ADOLF REIN WHATEVER??? THINKJNG ABOIT HOW GRIMMER WAS TALKING ABT HIS BESTIE OMG I NEARLY CRIED BRO.
THAT ALSO LEFT ME WITH MY JAW DROPPED BECAUSE NAW WHAT THE HELL HOW DO U EXPECT ME TO CASUALLY REGISTER THAT INFORMATION WHEN YOU DROP SUCH A BIG BOMB ON ME. AT LEAST WARN ME 😀
Johan being a menace to society (in the worst way possible) never fails to make me giggle
Adding on, Roberto is a meme of a character cos just when you think everything is going okay, he makes an appearance and suddenly you know damn well everything is not going okay anymore
ALSO I DIDNT KNOW GRIMMER WAS GOING TO FUCKING DIE??? WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT ABOUT
FRANZ BONAPARTA BEING SUCH A SISSY,, GOING ON A MF TANGENT OF HOW HE FUCJED UP LIKE YEAH NO SHIT STFU
wim being so adorbs <33
EVA AND MARTIN BRO THEY HAD IT GOING;;;(;;(::-6;;) WHY DID HE HAVE TO DIE
Eva redemption arc I mean queen was lowkey killing it throughout the series.. sometimes questionable but otherwise ily (but I HATED how she treated tenma 😒)
NINA GETTING THE BEST SCORES GO YOU QUEEN YOU DESERVE IT
What was Johan and Nina’s mum doing bro- did that favouritism play a role in this outrage.. guess we’ll never know!
OH NOT TO MENTION MONSTER SOUNDTRACK SLAPS SOOOO HARD. SKIPPING THE OPENINB FEELS LIKE A CRIME. FULLY LISTENED TO THE ENDING IN THE LAST EPSODE BC YK I WANT TO GO OUT PROPERLY AND DAMN IT’S RLLY NICE? BUT I DONT THINK I WOULDVE BEEN ABLE TO LISTEN TO IT AT THE END OF EACH EP BECAUSE MAN THESE CLIFF HANGERS AND HOOKS MAKE ME GO FERAL FOR THE NEXT EP
WHENEVER “THE SEEDS OF TIME” STARTED PLAYING IN A SCENE I WOULD GET SO EXCITED IT’S PROBABLY MY FAV OST RN. OMG AND “Present” IT’S SUCH A CUTE OST AARGRGEGSGESHSGDFFEDD
THIS AJIME IS SO GOOD HOW COME I BARELY SEE OR HEAR PPL TALKING ABT IT… ???DEFINITELY TOP 3 BRO MAYBE EVEN TOP 2 (idek what my anime ranking list looks like 👹)
LUNGE CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT ARC REAL?? When he said he’d buy a beer for grimmer n they can talk about this whole case 💔💔
Nah Lunge was mad funny, his only personality trait was hunting tenma down,, then half way through the series he goes “I’ve made a fatal mistake 😗” n reconsiders his life decisions. The audacity,, and I was loving it.
Milan bro 😢 AND TENMA TELLING THE KIDS TO STUDY HARD AND NOT GIVE UP?? I NEED A TENMA IN MY LIFE.
DIETER IS SUCH A CUTIE PATOOTIE OMLLL
okay after some reflection johan saying "which one didn't she need" or stmhn like that at the end BAFFLED me. it made me really sad too
oh yeah HAHAHAHA johan being an iconic cross dresser. you can't tell me he wasn't rocking that outfit when he was with suk... also when he dressed as young anna HIS FACE WAS SO FUNNY "welcome back! :D" bro is so devious HEGHAHSDG
just thhnking about that tenma push up scene it had me giggling and swinging my feet OGH LET;S NOT FORGET WHEN HE WAS LIKE "good girl" TO NINA .... that's the stuff i want to hear frfr
on a serious note though, he's such a good father figure. this man would make the best father ever.. i've seen multiple comments saying that even johan saw him as a father figure and LORD DOES THAT MAKE ME UPSET :(((((
that nameless monster book spoke facts at the end tho, johan is such a beautiful name no joke
his hair looks so fluffy too
HAHA no how about the scream he scrumpt i was lowkey embarrassed like johan you can scream sm better than that.
idk why but he's so fine when he drops the ground- both times in the library and in the rain. i swear it's the hair and his back
yk this anime reminds me of that one tiktok sounds with the garden song that says "no matter where you are, everyone is always connected". it's quite cool to think about it holistically, but in a sense it's also so surreal, and even scary. this masterpiece is an extreme reflection of our world imo, with many elements of truth and reality. anyways i'll leave this kind of stuff for another post (draft lol). but honestly though, i really liked this series. maybe since it's older, it has that sense of authenticity?? not invalidating other anime series but idk. i really enjoyed it.
RAHAHGSHJDHFGHJG LET'S STAY TOGETHER BEING TENMA'S FAVOURITE SONG OMG THIS IS KILLING ME HES SO my heart is aching sm..
im jus reading about tenma's childhood rn :')
WAIT THETRS;S SOMETHING CALLED ANOTHER MONSTER?/ IS THIS A SEQUEL OR SMTHN... well yk what time it is then!
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sheogayrath · 2 years
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saw norwegian explosion-themed comedy film Everybody Hates Johan yesterday and i recommend it and also the banger soundtrack is on spotify under 'Alle Hater Johan'
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the-fire-eyes · 7 months
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Chapter Twenty- Akira
It had been two months since I had found out I was going crazy.
My thoughts were short, unfocused.
I saw the shadows everywhere, the blood always dripping off my hands.
Johan said they were always covered in scratches, but I couldn’t tell.
I had been in one battle. Killed only two, got a bad hit on the shoulder. Kytor had kept me out of combat since.
I mostly sat in my tent, watching for the shadows. I was starting to hate darkness.
My wings hung limply by my sides most of the time, and I barely ever flew.
Being near fire helped. I sat staring at the fire during dinner, hoping to burn the shadows away.
It never completely worked.
In a way, it was better when I could see the blood on my hands. I knew the shadows weren’t following me then. 
I didn’t feel the scratches, anyways.
Had it been two months, or twenty? Weeks, or years? Time was difficult when your mind was breaking.
I had heard of a broken heart, but never of a broken mind. Why?
A broken mind was so much worse.
I wasn’t completely broken yet. But I was cracking. 
Everybody was my enemy, nowhere was safe. I knew that they weren’t my thoughts, and that was worse than thinking them.
If I couldn’t control my own mind, what could I do against the invaders?
I was useless. Useless and weak. A waste of resources.
I kept waiting for Kytor to make me leave.
As I fractured, I remembered. Memories I had pushed so far down, I had never expected to see them again.
Clinging to my mother as a child, wings straining against my shirt. She had told them I was a humpback.
Keeping my eyes down, standing in line to buy water. Afraid. Always afraid.
Listening to the stories, the stories of how the invaders had driven the demons out and taken their place as overlords of the city. 
Watching my mother dragged away from me by the soldiers, wanting to run after her and fly far away at the same time.
Working for a merchant, trying to earn my keep. Taking the beatings, trying not to cry.
Finally running away, meeting Johan. I had found him stealing food and asked him to teach me.
I had taught him how to fight, bare-handed and with blades.
Growing up on the streets. Trusting nobody, until Kytor had found us. 
Johan had noticed his eyes, ringed with fire around the pupil. Stopped me from killing him.
We had joined the rebels, learned to disguise ourselves.
Fought, killed. Learned the worst of what the invaders did. 
I had stopped pushing down the rage. Had brought it to the surface.
Still did, every time I fought. It fueled me, pushed me to do better.
The shadows whispered to me, hissing like snakes.
And I hissed back, whispered back.
Or maybe that was just in my head.
I asked Johan how long it had been. He told me two months.
Halfway through, if the Great Spirit smiled upon me.
I thought about the strange dream of the burning realm. The demon who had called me a child.
If demons were immortal, all of us humans would seem like children.
In my dreams, I sometimes burned. But I hadn’t yet gone back to the strange kingdom of fire.
Perhaps if I did, I could burn the madness away.
I began to sleep more, hoping to find my way back.
All I saw were suffocating shadows. Dark fire, flaring along my wings.
I often woke up screaming.
I had moved my tent farther away from the camp.
Two more months, if I was lucky enough.
Halfway through the madness.
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the-firebird69 · 8 months
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So all of us we hate you Stefan for what you were doing there and what you're singing in the song and start seeing it and your people getting killed and you're the dumbest person we've seen ever and we start collecting all their money we don't let you have any of the stuff or money or cars or anything we take it all.
-there's other things happening and now they're out there at the parks and we have to keep reminding that a****** is not next door and they're at the parks and they are fighting to get their stuff out but fighting bugs and yeah it's a waste of time the bugs don't have anything you didn't have to fight people and 50% of the stuff out across the world all the parks everywhere that's true in the midwest here it's 60%, it's going to go up to 70% tonight or more and they are losing huge huge portions of their army last numbers in the past few days they lost in the Parks war globally about 10% of their own forces but with including all the other battles 25% tonight that will go up to about 35% and tomorrow and if the South engages and it's similar in other areas different times and they're probably lose another 15% to 20% because those are packed full of them and New Zealand is under attack so it might be more a total of 55% perhaps from tonight into tomorrow and the next day it's going to be more The edge of Tomorrow will be underway and they will lose probably another 20% and they're starting to get small already and these armies are very big but they're not really huge and they don't recognize it they're also getting creamed by a lot of people so these numbers might go up higher and because of the Christmas card thing and a lot of people are sending Christmas cards to their friends and family and they're noticing these idiots there blocking it and they're going after them a lot harder and it's perfect and they're saying this this is what it is he knew about it and he did it on purpose and my son says I knew about it and my wife had me do it because I forgot about the function and she's the one who holds on to him and because I get very angry and tired and they said God bless your wife and I think that's great and same back to you and don't forget you can have him and turkey and Thanksgiving and Christmas and they said that's terrific I think we're going to do that and a lot of people hear it and it's good you get a little bit of salt and it clears you up and people think it's nice. And globally but it's Kwanzaa and this other holidays and they happen here and everybody can have fun giving each other gifts and stuff at a different time so don't forget your friend it's from a foreign country to give them a gift according to their religious calendar or it doesn't matter when actually you can send it anytime and people like that too and it's going to happen so that's going to be nice
-we hear that the racism is intense but really he's oppressed these people might be doing it because they're stupid and don't know what to do and he says that quite a bit and boy are they stupid and Trump tries to prove he's smart and her son says you're trying to do something and you're f****** it up already so he says they're trying to get in there we can't you know he tried and you're f****** it up already and you should be defending at all as a unit you're going to lose it those monsters will come out and attract the big folks they'll be pushed out and he says oh that's not good and it started to try and do stuff and he figured out you're right so if you come in with suits and use extreme force Brian is going to turn around and do stuff instead of you having a piece of pie you'll have nothing can you do get it the first statement but you know who's keeping who the hell is keeping points back there she has a smile and said I'm playing Dave so you're homo and Dave was a homo but you're a massive homo I don't like massive hormones and I'm not gay your son says hello. The smiles and says that's terrific and he's Johan and that's the name from the dragon Ball z people so he's trying to figure out if he's Johan too and Mr Satan is going around and around and they dragged that out a little. So he goes to Brian he'll be a perfect opportunity I mean the other one for the small super speed boats that can submerge for a little so he designed his stupid speed boats and they're going like 800 mph sometimes s*** they come in and they slow down they're going to water and it works pretty good Stefan takes the design s to use all the stuff and it works and get there in the same what do we do now and they ended up aligning a little and they're fighting monsters and they're fighting the pseudo empire and pseudo empire kind of alliance and they start fighting the empire which is true
Couple more things are happening
-there's a huge number of people who notice that our son doesn't like these guys and they're giving him the creeps and they won't stop doing it and they want to stop them and informing coalitions to do so all over the world and they're going after trumpsters and taking the stuff and using the right thing as an excuse twice two different things
-there's other things happening but these trumpsters are ridiculous he's been indicted like four times and there's three more indictments coming and 10 more in the works and he's ridiculous if he's indicted 20 times and still runs we're going to fire his ass no matter what
-the guy is way outside the lines with everybody it's just a very humiliating experience being near him and degrading he's a bum and his people are bums.
-a few more things are going on and they're starting up the ships up north seem to be revving up and we stay there in the final cycle all the time and we think it might be or the second to last we don't know they've been doing it for a while and adjusting the motors changing motors and doing for quite a while and they didn't have problems so we do understand that we're going to have to monitor them more closely they seem to be just sitting there digging around and they're going to ruin themselves and it's just awful their fleet is getting chased around in space and there are 30 million chips and it is a firefall of 300 million but the empire is going after them for the ships and the pseudo empire and some warlock who get wasted pretty quick out of the 300 million left 100 million are engaging right now with Tommy f and have attracted the pseudo empire and there engaging and they're not doing too good and subtracting the empire actually right now the empire is moving and they're going to take them down most of the fleet will probably be destroyed underground they're forcing their way up there the more locker fighting Max forces and they're fighting stand and Biden and they're destroying each other and not going anywhere and it's going on right now it's going to go on for a while and this hefty death up there and the numbers are staggering the more luck are dwindling and will be out we said that for a while but they like us to
-several more wars are erupting there's news about the moon and mega AI of Will and Bill and it possibly being on hoth and hoth is a planetoid off Saturn and the second version is Uranus it's too far away and it's too cold and they could not get in there fast enough and it's true they don't have the ship for it they think will and Bill could figure it out that they say they didn't in the atmosphere is too thick and you'd see the beam on the dark side you would see a hole because the water would be not melted and it's true but Europa is what they're after and I think it's there just like someone had on Titan which was actually ghwb there's a lot of force going on to try and get there the movie is starting up 2010 space Odyssey and 2001 space Odyssey and it is beginning now they're going to be fighting each other very hard all over the world and it will be Jason and others and it will turn into a classified with the spaceships above cities and Independence Day 1 will begin tonight is a preamble to space Odyssey 2010 and it's going to start shortly there are other things starting up the islands off South of Florida are embroiled and A few Good Men will begin the movie with the Jets is going to start the Jets were pushed off late Sunday and to the islands and they're not held at mayport because the idiots would be there and they are idiots and out at the islands they have a few on each island and it's not many it's just a pain in the ass and they roped Tom Cruise is doing it and they tried to shoot him and they don't show what happened and they keep doing that to him and it's very stressful there's a lot of people rooting for our son and we hope that things change we think they will there's a lot of people getting up to stop people from stopping Christmas cards and cars for Hanukkah and Kwanzaa and other holidays around this time and they're sending tons of cards and they now see what he's saying is a good time for people to talk to each other and it's moving. The card people love him and it says I could use a card. So you trying to knock the competition out by sending me a card with a gift card in it so so they're starting to laugh and say this really of a few big ones it says oh yeah. So the smiles all around but it's not really fun thing and he's learning from this idiot next door. It's going to happen that Tom Cruise will be trying his drug dealing and we know why he needs devices to stop them out here and he is going to be trying a lot of stuff to do it threatening our son and he's a hooky a****** now it's too small and squished and he's stupid and it's going on like that he gets caught he gets put into this class and they go out and say they're grabbing Obama or something and people think it might be and if something's it might be too A lot of people think it is and start some sort of conflict out there for cerebus which is another way of saying a different configuration of the light computer and the max are trying to start these things and they're really stupid and slow and don't do anything and they're just trying to grab it you'll see them there in the background doing practically nothing and the mission goes off and it looks like they have something with them and they fly around they get arrested they bring it back with the ships they move something to a sub the sub is disabled destroyed almost. The item is actually in one of the missiles and they did fire a few off no and the sub is salvaged and they go down and pull some stuff out that's another movie and it is very important because it is Obama and he might get put in the museum I know that's where he came from so stay tuned
Thor Freya
Olympus
This is great news I mean people stop passing our dead relatives around your just disgusting people
Hera
Gross. And isn't that illegal
Zues
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I'm seriously tired of everyone stepping on me. And please don't think you can take my kindness for weakness forever.
I got this job with racist management, hateful attitudes everywhere, and getting paid WELL under minimum wage, and when I reacted like a normal person, I was persecuted not blatantly but underhandedly, back handed, and treated like an outcast.
But I hung in there.
When the most racist manger got fired unexpectedly for no reason and other managers where getting transferred anywhere else I was happy. It wasn't so much that I was getting what I wanted, but I was actually seeing karma take it's place in my shitty shitty life.
When it was me and Johan, we had to carry EVERYBODY because we had no one, literally no one doing our job position. Where we appreciated??
No. We got shitted on until they hired someone else and let us know we were ALL expendable.
"Oh god, dear God, PLEASE tell me how I'll EVER find another job paying me $5 an hour!!"
When Red, came into the picture I trained you.
But when you took me.for granted and ASSUMED you could take your place as being in charge you were wrong. That was my place.
It's not over, it will never be over.
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vole-mon-amour · 2 years
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I was a cog in the world; I was not in the way. I did what I was supposed to do. Was a nice boy.
But what did I want?
This was what I wanted.
To be a smooth running cog in the world.
To do the right thing.
Nothing more.
Was that cowardly?
Was it really?
Not everybody wants to be head of a corporation. Not everybody wants to be among the top sports personalities of their country, to sit on various committees, not everybody wants the best lawyers on their team, not everybody wants to wake up in the morning to jubilation or catastrophe in the headlines.
Some people like being the secretary who’s left outside when the doors close on the meeting room, some people want to drive the garbage truck, even during Easter, some people want to perform the autopsy on the fifteen-year-old who committed suicide early one January morning, and who’s found a week later in the lake, some people don’t want to be on TV, or the radio, or in the newspapers. Some people want to watch movies, not perform in them.
Some people want to be in the audience.
Some people want to be cogs. Not because they have to, but because they want to be.
Simple mathematics.
So here I was. Here. Here in the garden, and I wanted to be nowhere else in the world.
[...]
Should I perhaps have done something else?
Didn’t I have ambitions?
Of course I did.
I dreamed of the same things as you. I wanted to go places too, to have a job I burned for, I wanted to see Prague, spend a year in Guatemala, help the farmers with their crops, soothe my own bad conscience, save the rainforest, wash beaches clean of oil, I wanted this party elected into Parliament instead of that, too. I went and voted. I wanted to work for the good of all. I wanted to be useful too.
But I didn’t want to stand in the way. In the way of people who wanted to be in the front row, visible to all, not that there’s anything wrong in it, all credit to those who dare, the people who make a noticeable difference, rescuing airline companies from bankruptcy, laying off thousands and then receiving hate phone calls in the night, taking on the cases that nobody else will touch.
They’re cogs too. No less important, just more visible. I just didn’t have a need to be seen, to have you tell me when I was being clever. I knew when I was.
— Buzz Aldrin, what happened to you in all the confusion? by Johan Harstad
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doitytoity · 2 years
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10.1
Hung out with Marco last night and boy oh boy why must guys take it there…
Like I haven’t seen you in years why are you trying to put your arm around me? God it’s so awkward to be like can u not™️
But if he tries to kiss me or get all in my face I’m gonna have to shut that down. I’ve been realizing that I’m making all this too important to me. Why am I worried about any of this? Like why am I wasting thought on things I’m really not trying to actually pursue?
I cannot do this right now lol so much shit needs to change before THIS!!!!!! comes anywhere near my field of vision. Like what.
It’s crazy. I’m not going to be happy unless I live fucking TRUTHFULLY. I’m not ready for any of this. I’m not ready for Marco or RUdY (so dead @ my autocorrect) or fucking anybody. I have so much to do…
Fuuuuuuck. Like I really do. I am so obviously being called in a different direction. I can be friends with whoever! I just cannot commit… like that’s how I feel right now. Like I’m getting clear direction to hold out. I’m going through too much mentally.
Last night Marco asked “are you better now?” which I’m not really sure what that meant but I said yes because I was applying it to the broad sense that like I am not doing codependency anymore so in that sense I’m better.
But like I think he meant it like “are you gonna dip out on me again” which LIIIKKKKEEEE sounds like a claustrophobia trigger. Because idfk. I’m better in a sense that doesn’t necessarily serve him in any way outside us being friends. I’m no longer prioritizing committing myself to someone when I’m not even committed to myself in many ways. We can hang, we can go places, but we won’t be like cupcaking lmaoooo nah
I feel silly. Man I guess if I’m being honest it’s because that’s not where I want to be. The place I want to be is actually despicable! And not at all viable. And just fake and sad and imaginary. Even though I know there were good parts, I’ll never know the truth about them. It’s hard to be in love with someone you hate.
Like I know I’m so so so lucky to be free! I cannot overlook that. I just wish so much that things would’ve been different. But they were not and I am 100% aware of that. We are solid on that one chief.
I really take my life for rides just kinda carelessly and I’m seeing that miss girl on that Johan Lennox album was really right like you kinda gotta move with steady intention… or this shit can just take your ass. It’s wild.
I’m really off the romance train. Like I’m decidedly off it.
I can see a future version of myself who is super successful and living a life I know I deserve. Living the life I know I am destined to live. One of simple luxury and vast wealth. I just need to wake up. Like what is going on. Why do I wanna put my head down so bad????? WHYYYYY
I am destined for so much more than a relationship. Having someone choose me should not be my main goal. There is literally an empire to build idk how I’m gonna do it but I am.
I want to commit to and invest in myself as an artist. I don’t know where I’m headed but it has to look better with my head out of my ass.
Everybody’s gotta learn sometime is on, how perfect
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thesungod · 2 years
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moodboard for going crazy about Nico Di Angelo
(1. bipeds on tumblr 2.I hate everybody by Halsey 3. In the Valley of Death by Miro Gabriel 4. Clementine by Halsey 5. heavensghost on tumblr 7. My Tears Ricochet by Taylor Swift 8. Evening on Karl Johan Street by Munch 9. Home is not a country by Safia Elhillo)
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dannyboyzone · 3 years
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Why these Lookism Bad Guys are liked, a rant by me
Alright, so I have came across a post talking about how Johan is hated on despite being a "bad person", and trashing other characters for absolutely no reason other than guilt tripping people. I personally think the post is immature, but due to my own personality and mental state, it has still got me kind of pressed, because it all sounds ridiculous. This post will be about some people in Lookism that are viewed as a bad people and or are hated on, and why I think they are liked. I won't speak for everybody liking these characters, and it will include some characters that I hate. This post is just to give a general idea for people who are really ignorant about why some characters might receive love. You might have come across that post, and if not, I am talking about this one below. - Well, only a small part of it, that threw me off. -
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I didn't include the person's username out of respect and also so they don't feel attacked or anything of the sort.
Before starting this off, there are a few things I would like to say. If I sound petty, I truly don't care. I never saw anybody hating on Johan, at max maybe give criticism, I also don't hate Johan or try to disvalidate anyone's feelings, just get some things straight. Liking someone's looks does not immediately mean you are attracted to them, neither does liking the person's look you are attracted to mean you are toxic. It means you are loving. If you like someone's personality, you will find them beautiful consciously or subconsciously. If someone finds a character handsome, it is not a crime, people have types and preferences, and if they do it's none of your business. Hating good looking people doesn't make you woke, neither hating on people who are attracted to good looking people. What are you, Crystal Choi? And yes, people will be attracted to looks, it's a normal human act. People will notice if they find someone more attractive or unattractive which is not a bad thing. What is a bad thing when they start treating people different because of it. I assure you, most of the lookism fandom that I have came across doesn't do that.
This post will not include Seong Yohan because I never saw him get hated and I don't think nobody knows where he is coming from.
Samuel Seo
Yeah, so what seemed to be a surprise for me is that not a lot of people like Samuel, or at least understand why the people liking him would. Now, I personally feel no romantic attachment towards him. - Which is yes, normal, even if he is fictional. It's called fictophilia and I better see no judgement about it. - However, I do love Samuel a lot, and would love to care for him and grow a strong bond. To me, Samuel is not a monster. At all, believe me, Samuel isn't liked only for his looks. For me, personally, I love him so much because I can relate to him. I absolutely hated him at first, but grew to love him because he is human. He is complex, has a hard life and isn't perfect. That's exactly why I love him, and someone else I really adore does too. Yes sure, as you grow to like someone's personality, you find them handsome and or pretty. It's so much easier to say someone is pretty than to say, 'Hey, I love this person because they helped me go through so much.' Not everyone has the same love language, not everyone is comfortable with blunt affection. Besides, Samuel can and will achieve anything he wants. He has SO much sides to himself, not just 'good looking violent guy with big tits'. That's not Samuel at all. Besides, if PTJ oversexualises him, it's hard to not notice his body.
Yes sure, Samuel hits women, but I personally, don't f%cking care. Your vagina doesn't define if you deserve violence or not, your behaviour and the person's you face personality does. I am personally someone that doesn't mind violence as long as the person deserved it, because some scumbags in this world do. If they happen to be a woman, that's not on me, they shouldn't have done whatever they did. If you are not a violent person, I am not even sorry to tell you this, but you are probably sexist. It's not like all women are fragile and unable to get hit. Besides, if his violence is the problem, why is it fine that he hits men? Because men can handle it? According to statistics women have a higher pain tolerance. By your logic, you should call him out for hitting anyone in his way. Stop acting like hitting women is a necessarily bad thing, start saying that hitting innocent people is a bad thing.
If you must hate on him, maybe use the fact that he killed his abusive and neglective parents. Don't give a hard time to others for liking him though.
Ahn JongGun
Does Gun seem like a bad guy? Absolutely, he has done some horrible things. Then why do we like him? Because he seems to have a smaller character development coming, he has so many things to him and he is an absolutely incredible and complex character. I am very curious of his background and what caused him to be so violent and yet so calm. I like him because he allows himself to be human. From his religion, to his knowledge of material arts, to his adoration towards Vasco's material arts teacher - I forgot his name, so excuse me for that -, to his attention to details, to his fashion sense, it all makes him human. It's nice to see someone be a human, instead of just 'hot guy' or 'villain'. He is a nice character that brings many depth to the story. I could list a hundred of reasons why I love him, and no, none of it is his "weird" fashion sense. I do find him incredibly stylish, I just think some people in this fandom don't understand fashion. - Oops, I guess. - My main reason to liking him is that he is most likely either bisexual or pansexual. That he has a crush on Daniel. I might seem like I have a weird fetish or something, or that I am a crazy "fangirl". That's not the case though. I am a part of the LGBTQ+ community, and while not huge, I adore the hell out of the representation. It's nice to see such a smart, elegant and powerful guy be the representation. Because he is a character that's not there simply to be gay and full of stereotypes. Like, no hard feelings if you fit into stereotypes, but as a person who doesn't fit into them, it's a refreshing thing to see someone that's allowed to have many sides to himself other than just 'the gay friend'. Of course I am sure there are a lot of people who have many other reasons to love him, like his endless knowledge of material arts. There is so many reasons to be interested in his character, and just because you can't see it that doesn't mean others are blind to it too.
Yeah, he might have slept with countless women, but the main reason you can't count it is because he never stated the amount of women he slept with, neither did anyone else. Sure, he did say that Daniel is better than any women he ever slept with, but for all you know that could have been 3. Even if, it doesn't matter. He could have slept with 3, or 70 women. It doesn't matter, because not everyone's sexual life will reflect your own. And other people's sexual life is none of your business. Sure, you can say it's only fiction, and that I am overreacting, but when it comes to such small or personal details, people tend to put their own personal view into it. It's really not fine to shame others for their sexual life. As long as he uses protection, and didn't make anyone pregnant and doesn't play with the feelings of anyone, who gives a f%ck.
Some people tend to lash out sexually if they experience trauma or stress, and no, I don't mean they go and r%pe people, I mean that they go and have sex with different people who give consent. Even if he doesn't do it because of that, why does it bother you so much? Sex isn't a disgusting act. Some people like it, some people don't. Whatever their decision is, as long as no one is hurt, you should respect their decision.
Kim JoonGoo
Alright, this got me f%cked up. Goo is such a good character, and no way he would ever cheat on his S/O. He has morals and a lot of good sense in himself. Sure, he might have said that Samuel will be his secret friend, which led OP to believing Goo would cheat, but that's... a terrible reason, in my opinion. Gun knows that Samuel works for Goo, and Goo owns up it too. Besides that, nothing, absolutely nothing would lead to the fact that Goo would cheat. Because he wouldn't.
Now, why do I like Goo, and why some other's might like him too. He is such a well put together character, unpredictable yet so simple. He damages people to a point they have to retire, doesn't get scared of murderer, is a money maniac and hates his boss. You would think, he is dirty and fits the "gangster" stereotypes. That's not the case at all. He is more hygienic than most of the characters of lookism, if not the most hygienic one. He hates drinking and smoking, doesn't have tattoos - not that there is anything wrong with that - and is incredibly patient.
He might be a money maniac sure, but his ability to control money so well the way he does just shows how high his IQ is. I find that amusing, since it's something hard to do. What I completely love to the moon and back about Goo is his creativity.
When he gets into fights, he is patient and maybe let's himself get hit a few times. That's a good thing because he has time to learn about what he is facing. I think that's neat, because not a lot of people think about that during fights, and he taught me to do that. Also, the way he harms people is very creative too, no matter how harsh that sounds. He stabs people with chopsticks, kicks people with a glass piece stuck in his shoe and harms people with a katana. It's all so unpredictable yet fits him so well. I really love the way he fights and handles situations because it tells so much about him. Also, he is so fun, who would do karaoke after beating a bunch of guys unconscious? Only your one and only Kim JoonGoo. He is such a fun person to study and to read about.
So, no, I will not put up with the bullsh%t that he would cheat on his s/o, because he is a very respectful and none judgemental person. Just because his fights look violent to you, and his friendship with Gun unstable, that doesn't mean he is a bad person. It just means he is different from you, and yeah, he does f%cked up things, I won't deny that. That's exactly what makes him an interesting character.
Xiaolong
Now, I personally don't like Xiaolong that much, so this will not come from heart, but a place of logic. For a disclaimer, I am not caught up on the latest chapters, because I want to binge read it.
Now, even though I do not like Xiaolung, I can see why other people would.
He is a responsible person, who takes good care of himself even though he has to look after Vivi 24/7. He is not only good in his job, but takes it very seriously too. He isn't afraid to take action to make sure his job is going smoothly, and that everything is on it's place. He would do anything to protect Vivi, which can be appealing to some.
And from what I saw from spoilers, he is very strong. No, admiring his strength does not make the person toxic or fragile. It means they find the place in their heart to appreciate the type of struggle and hard work he puts into it. He has an unique way of fighting, which I could only see a small portion of. However it's clear that he must be impressive. I completely understand if people find that neat.
Also, Xiaolong seems like such a f%cking loyal person. That's so incredibly important. A lot of people can find that appealing, for various reasons. I am aware there are poly people, or anything similar to that, but loyalty is so important for some people and can form a very deep sense of love.
Yeah, he might take care of Vivi when she is drugged and let her get away with drugs but consider this that's his job. He is payed to do that and swore to do his best in it, as it's very important to him.
Outro;
Yeah, I don't care, like who ever you want to and defend them, but if you drag down other characters and guilt trip people because of liking specific characters, you are not going to be "woke" or special. And I will find you, and e a t you. - For legal reasons, that's a joke. -
That is not the only post that I saw shame those characters and people who like them, but is the one that made me messed up.
This fandom absolutely loves shaming people if they love the character design and looks of their favourite character. Let me tell you something though; You are missing the point of the whole manhwa you are reading.
Finding people attractive and beautiful is completely normal. Treating them differently because of that is not. As far as I am concerned, I never saw any lookism fans hate on characters they find less attractive. - Rather on the attractive ones. -
People have a type and that applies to looks and personality. Literally everyone does, even if it's unconsciously.
If you want your favorite character to get more love, don't make other people's comfort characters look bad on purpose, because in their eyes they aren't simply the bad qualities you see in them. And if you highlight them at least make sure they are true or at least reasonable bad qualities.
Well yeah, that was my little rant. And I didn't even mention the psychological aspects of why each character is like, or in other words what people they might attract. Or, the difference kind of personal life experiences people had to go through to appreciate each kind of little detail about the characters.
Yeah, this is the end of my little rant. If this post will get actual mature answers and discussions, I will make a similar one for Vinjin, Logan, Olly and Jiho. Yeah, I hate all of them, but other people might not.
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hostelsbigbro · 3 years
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I say things to lookism stans bc I am bored and can't think of incorrect quotes
Ps if it doesn't apply dont get upset!
- Oooh you used to ship Daniel and Jay? Alright, so tell me why you ship Guniel now
- If this fandom would be a person it would be really horny but have an incredibly low s#x drive
- The person reading this simps for Mary
- That man... U simp for.. lowkey toxic bby
- I mean yeah but at least you hate Crystal's dad
- You are on tumblr so much bc there is barely any lookism content else where <3
- How does it feel like to be in love with a fictional character?
- I see you simping for Johan and you know what? You are right
- Pls stop crying whenever you see Sinu he will be fine
- WHY would you think about Jake's ass so much?
- It's ok to find logan's skinny body handsome but if I see u simp we gon fight
- So you miss chubby Danny too?
- You are totally right, Goo is a fashion icon
- You look so much at Samuel's titties but ask yourself this.. Does he have nipples?
- Ur having a real weird eye contact with HTF over there
- Ik everybody knows an odd fact about lookism, what's yours? Mine is that ik ptj admited to trying to draw handsome faces on purpose
- The person reading this is a member of the Duke fanclub
- Okay so which character did you forget about?
- Ur right Olly Wang really is dirty
- Its ok we all got scared of that ghost lady
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dreamsinkandcoffee · 3 years
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What your favourite character says about you, Lord of Heroes edition (please don't take these seriously):
ROUIN: You just started playing.
LORD: You read self-insert FanFictions.
ASTRID: You write self-insert FanFictions. And play otome games.
FRAM: You're basic, and you like girls.
JOHAN: You're basic, in pain after the last update, and you like boys.
CHARLOTTE: You roast all your friends to Hell and back.
MIKHAIL: You're 15.
SCHNEIDER: You're either a parent of four, or four yourself.
MEI LING: BUNNY!!
ZAIRA: You're single and in need of a big muscular girlfriend like. Now.
KROM: You ship Krom/Zaira.
CHARLES III: You read yaoi manga. Probably spicy ones.
LUCILICCA: You're thirsty af.
TANELI: You just read Extreme Mode and are thirsty af.
LAPHLAES: You hate terfs. As everybody should. And, you guessed it, you're also thirsty af.
BARETTA: You're a furry.
DHURAHAN: You like them with trauma.
LAIREI: You are very stressed about the comments people leave on Lairei's profile in game. Like... VERY stressed. Either that, or you wrote one of those.
HELGA: You're my new best friend and I'll give you a lil' platonic kiss on the forehead for your God-tier taste in Korean waifus.
WALTHER: You like daddies.
ASLAN: You also like daddies, but another kind of daddies.
ROSANNA: You're either a hardcore feminist or a lolicon, no in-between.
ALEV: You just want to hug her and wish her the best. We all do.
SOLPHI: You spent 3 millions on her just to find out you don't really know what to do with her, because you don't play pvp. You started playing pvp.
LUMIE: When she was actually relevant in Hard Mode you cried.
VANESSA: You bought Light Vanessa from the shop swearing it will only be this once.
OLIVIA: FIVE MILLION RENOWN?!?
NINE: You just hoped so hard all elements would be free to get...
JOSHUA: You like K-pop.
KARTIS: Yes.
CESAIRE: No.
ANY OF THE NEW CHARACTERS FROM VARHYA EXTREME MODE: You just want an update of the story. Just that.
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the-fire-eyes · 7 months
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Chapter Fourteen- Akira
I began to bring myself back from the edge.
Inhale, exhale. Close my eyes and try to forget.
The battle was over, and we had enough water to last for months.
Inhale, exhale. Wash the blood from my hands.
We had killed two hundred guards and a palace commander. 
Inhale, exhale. Take my knives from the table.
We had lost seventeen. Good soldiers, all of them.
Inhale, exhale. Clean the gore from the blades.
I didn’t need to fight right now. There was no danger.
Inhale, exhale. Sheath the knives and put them away.
My eyes were still burning, hours after the battle.
Inhale, exhale. Stretch my wings and check for damage.
Had I fought for minutes or hours? Seconds or years?
Inhale, exhale. Treat the scratches on my arms.
The rage begins to fade, and I am exhausted.
Inhale, exhale. Open the tent door and head towards the fire.
I would check on Johan, get some food. Then sleep.
Inhale, exhale. Scan the crowd. Mourning, laughing, celebrating. 
My thoughts start to line up again. I am not a phantom, a shadow. I am real.
Inhale, exhale. Walk towards Johan, one foot in front of the other.
He’s eating. He’s fine. I should check on him anyway.
Inhale, exhale. Sit down. Try not to hit anybody with my wings.
He asks if I’m all right. I tell him I’m still coming back from the edge.
Inhale, exhale. I had been right in front of the enemy commander.
I will be better next time. I will do more.
Inhale, exhale. My thoughts are still sharp, as sharp as the knives I left in the chest under my bed.
I look down and see blood on my hands. I must not have gotten it all off.
Inhale, exhale. Get up and go back to my tent.
Scrub at my hands. The blood isn’t coming off.
Inhale, exhale. Try to stay calm. Wash my hands again. 
The blood is still staining my hands, too dark to be real. But it must be.
Inhale, exhale. Keep breathing. If I can just keep breathing, I’ll be ok.
Scrub harder. The blood is starting to drip now, staining the water red.
Inhale, exhale. I can smell the blood. It’s like rust, and the smell is getting stronger.
I’m clawing at my hands now, and the blood dripping is mine. I don’t care.
Inhale, exhale. No matter what, keep breathing. 
Johan knocks on the tent pole. I keep my sobs quiet, contained. Keep scrubbing.
Inhale, exhale. Ignore Johan calling. He shouldn’t have to see me like this.
He comes in anyways. Sees me crying, sees the scratches on my hands. 
Inhale, exhale. He doesn’t see the blood. It’s not real, but it must be. I can feel it dripping off my hands.
He’s rushing me to the medics, and my eyes are burning again. 
Inhale, exhale. Just keep breathing. It will be fine if I can keep breathing.
The medics are afraid of me. I am dangerous to my enemies, and right now, everybody is an enemy.
Inhale, exhale. Johan is trying to get close enough to give me a sedative.
I panic, lashing out with my wings. Shouldn’t have left the blades in my tent.
Inhale, exhale. Keep breathing. Even when the whole world spins around me.
Johan is trying to hold me down, but I fight. Maybe I’m Collapsing. But how? This isn’t what Collapsing looks like anyways.
Inhale, exhale. Johan manages to give me the sedative through a needle in my arm. 
I always hated needles, and the metal under my skin is like a worm crawling through my veins.
Inhale, exhale. The blood is still on my hands, like I’m wearing red gloves.
The world is turning upside down, and everything is going black.
Inhale, exhale. Keep breathing. If I am asleep, how will I remember to breathe? 
The last thing I see is the blood on my hands, soaking into the ground. Maybe a karo vine will grow. Then everything disappears, and I dream.
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pridewhatpride · 3 years
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omg pls talk more about GX rival shipping once the transfer students come
Dear anon, I love you for asking this of me, but I have to wonder if you want everyone who follows me to start hating me.
Long post coming up? You know it. I apologise to all Johan fans, he's great and I loved him and his deck as a child. Now I'm just salty because he's too perfect. Warning because this is a mess of unrequited feelings and it's an all around bad time if you ship anything in gx. I did mention I do not practice self care in a previous post of mine. Enjoy your pain c:
So here are my bad takes of the day, under the very handy cut!
You see, gx rivalshipping becomes a lot more complicated and angsty when the transfer students arrive. The dynamic changes. If there is a dynamic at all. I mean, imagine yourself in Manjoume's shoes. You've lowkey had a crush on this dumb guy who kind of ruined your life (but actually improved it and freed you from the restraints your family imposed on you), just to watch a handsome scandinavian dude who is a lot more muscular than you are and maybe a little bit nicer, maybe just waltz in and completely captivate said dumb guy's attention. Just when you had managed to admit your own feelings to yourself.
Johan comes in and steals the room, everybody loves him, he's good looking, charismatic, kind and has a magical exclusive shiny sparkling deck at his disposal that he uses as if it was the most natural thing in the world, like he hadn't received approval Pegasus himself on top of the duel spirits. And Judai clearly can't get enough of it, because he's always seeking him out, ever since the duel they had in front of everyone, and Manjoume finds that he's really annoyed by it. He wishes he'd been chosen for the demonstration, deluding himself into believing that if he'd won, Judai would have never started caring so damn much about Johan. But a part of him knows he would have probably lost and that even if he hadn't, Judai would have not cared about the outcome at all. It's nice to think that winning a card game can solve all your problems, but, while Manjoume has only ever experienced how much losing one can mess with your life goals, he isn't stupid enough to think that winning would grant him happiness. Not anymore. No well-thought-out strategy can rid him of his bad temper and his worthless pride.
The thing is, he can't really hate Johan, because nobody can hate Johan. He's just the perfect picture of everything Manjoume isn't and, going by everyone's reaction, the fact that 'everyone is unique in their own way and worthy of love' is absolute bullshit. There clearly is an objective better one of the two and Manjoume is very aware that he isn't it. And he'd probably begrundgingly be cool with it, after all he'd accepted that Jaden was braver than him, that Asuka was emotionally stronger and more resolute, that Daichi was smarter, not to mention how much plain better than him his fomer upperclassmen were. Forget about pros like Edo, whom Judai had stood on equal grounds with. But Judai is clearly playing favourites, too, hell, he hardly even acknowledges Manjoume.
He finds himself forcibly removed from his already shaky position as rival, because now Johan is there to take it up, on top of the titles of 'best friend' and 'emotional support and crutch' and 'maybe something else I'd really rather not know'.
Manjoume just generally hates it all. He might have changed and improved himself, but there is no saving him from the fact that some people were just better. That doesn't stop him from trying. But again he finds himself pitted against Judai, the irony of his fate never giving him a moment to rest. Manipulated and turned into the enemy of those he cares about, again.
A part of him despises how good it feels to learn that Johan has gone missing, but Judai is screaming like his arms have been torn off and while he hates that it's all for Johan, he hates that Judai is in pain even more. Judai had saved him before and it's only right for him to return the favour. So he insists on helping him on his stupidly risky plan to save Johan. And it's all to get the old Judai back.
...The rest, from Manjoume's perspective is a mess. His feelings of anger stem from the hatred he harbours towards himself and the bond between Judai and Johan. He'd been trying to help, he had, he sincerely had, but everything just swirled together and the next thing he knows is that he is shouting at Judai because it suddenly made sense to guilt trip him over the fact that he'd abandoned his friends, he'd abandoned him as soon as someone better had come into the picture. And it was Judai's fault for letting them- him believe that he cared when he didn't, when he couldn't have cared less, because clearly he had one priority only and that was Johan. They had come to help and it still wasn't being appreciated.
Disappearing is a relief, for a moment, but then he finds himself in another hellish place and he can't help but think that it's retribution for being so upset over something that has nothing to do with him. That's right. It's his own fault for making Judai, his only real friend (aside from Fubuki, sorry for breaking the immersion, but I love Fubuki), carry the burden of the stupid hopes that came with his feelings. Judai has no fault. Johan has no fault. It's his own for desiring something that would always be out of reach.
As he is tortured by his own thoughts and regrets in the other dimension, Manjoume silently wishes his words meant nothing to Judai, that he'd be spared the pain of betrayal. He wishes Judai can achieve his goal.
When Shou appears to him, he knows there is no time to waste. If he is alive, the others are, too. Judai would want to know that they are safe. So he asks Shou to carry his message, along with his good luck wish. He hopes it's enough to make up for his mistakes.
Next thing he knows, they are back at DA, Judai is nowhere to be seen. Manjoume mourns the loss of his first and only friend and curses himself for tarnishing that memory. (Judai's return and season 4 would be too much to cover, this was only Manjoume's pov and I might as well just rewrite the entire show at this point.)
So what about Judai?
I personally want to believe that he genuinely does like Manjoume at some point. But as much as it pains me to admit it, season 3 just wrote Manjoume off from the list of main characters and relegated him to 'he's your funny comic relief, nobody really gives a shit about what he thinks or feels, so why should you, the spectator who has grown to love him, care at all? Also here's his sticker that confirms that Judai going after Johan makes him really angry for some reason, make of that what you will c:' (fuck the writing staff, I'm not even sorry).
Judai is so clearly smitten with Johan. It seems to me that his refusal to accept Manjoume's help that one time on the cliff shows that Judai doesn't really understand the way Jun operates. He probably labeled him as just someone else who counted on him to be saved. And sure, Manjoume is saved by Judai in multiple occasions, but he doesn't ever really... ask for it? Or more importantly expect it. He doesn't get himself into situations he can't handle because Judai can save him anyways, the trouble just kind of happens at him and more often than not he's only involved by accident, because he happens to be close to Judai.
The problem still stands, as season 3 starts, Judai is very much burdened by everyone's expectations and Johan is a breath of fresh air and the only one Judai actually considers a friend and an equal. It's heartbreaking that he felt that alone.
They get their gay 'have we met somewhere before moment', they duel gaily, they homoerotically tell eachother how admirable the other is, they shamelessly flirt and whoohoo Judai has an unofficial boyfriend and who can blame him for concentrating on him along with wanting to escape the pressure his former gang unknowingly laid on him.
But yeah, Judai in season 3 has a one track mind and it's hard not to see it as romantic. Does he know it is? Maybe? I honestly don't know. I feel like Johan is the one of the two who is aware of the implications of their interactions. Which also kind of brings me to say... does Johan think that all of Judai's friends are horrible people? Because he never once comments on how Judai distances himself from them once he arrives. He probably thinks they were never good friends in the first place.
Judai probably excuses his attentions towards Johan with the fact that they are alike because they can see spirits, but then he rememebers that so can Manjoume and maybe he feels guilty for a second, but Johan cracks a joke and Judai laughs and thinks to himself that Manjoume is probably happy to have the peace and quiet he so often claimed to want.
Like... I think a part of him would get that tightness in his chest because it's like he's betrayed someone, but he knows he hasn't, because there isn't any actual mutual agreement he's going against. So he lets himself fall deeper into the comfort of Johan's presence. Johan is, to Judai, the ideal person. He is exactly who Judai wants to become. Judai admires him very deeply and strives to be more like him, but he falls gradually into despair as he learns, once Johan is gone, that no, he can't be like him, because Johan is so much better than him, and if he doesn't get him back soon he might even forget what he was like in the first place. Johan can't be erased, can't be forgotten. And Judai feels like he's vanishing already, so he throws himself into a wild interdimensional manhunt to save his hopes for the future.
Turns out that wanting to do good doens't always result in a good outcome. That's what Judai learns when Manjoume lashes out at him just seconds before disappearing. Along with the others, too. Judai doesn't even have the brain power to compute that some people are still there, that he can still save someone, because he realised then that he had focused so much on Johan that he'd completely overlooked the fact that while his friends relied on him a little too much, they hadn't meant any harm. And if he'd just told them, maybe they would have been fine, they could've cooperated- but Manjoume had told him that he was a traitor, that he'd doomed them with his irrational behaviour.
Manjoume's last words to him had been spoken with hatred and Judai realised only then that he had misread him entirely. He lets despair and self hatred take over as he realises that if he had managed to hurt the ones he cared about so easily, discarding them for the new good thing, he could just keep doing that. And it would stop hurting, eventually.
I like to think that Manjoume really does have an impact on the awakening of the Supreme King. Yeah, I know he only turns once Johan's death is mentioned, I know. I just suffer from abandonment issues and can't stand that Manjoume dying in front of him is more impactful to Judai than a guy who literally can't be trusted saying "Joke's on you, the one you're looking for is in another castle already dead."
So yeah. That's the angsty overview.
TL;DR Johan is an Adonis, Judai is smitten and Manjoume is very very heartbroken. But actually so is Judai. Because while being with Johan feels right, there's someone whose absence feels wrong, but he doesn't allow himself to dwell on it and everything goes to shit. All around a bad time for everyone and they'll have a lot of talking to do once they properly reconcile after graduation.
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