#every day i WAKE UP ********* PLEASE
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being aromantic is like. hey btw you're going to live a life that is the culmination of most of society's worst nightmares. sorry lol ✌️ but then you turn around and take a really good hard look at it and it turns out that living in that nightmare is fucking awesome and you get to wake up every day and take that fear that other people have and laugh and hold it close until it's a great joy for you instead. and being happy is a radical act that you define instead of someone else. and you're sexy as fuck that's just a fact of life i don't make the rules on that one
#aromantic people are just sexy i'm not making the decisions here it's just facts#course ur hot as fuck. it came free with the aromanticism#being sexy is just default settings for aromantic people 👍#hope this all helps. anyway i'm on my 'i hope i die alone <3 i can't wait to die alone <3' kick rn#i think the existential fear that people have of Not Partnering specifically is so. well.#obviously that shit is strong and it is SO awesome to be free of it.#realizing you're aro and you don't Want a partner can be such a hit to the solar plexus#cause society says that's the only thing that'll make you happy. so either you go without that thing or you force yourself#into doing something you don't want which would make you unhappy anyway.#so you think it's a lose lose situation and you have to come to terms with what amatonormativity presents as the worst possible situation#but then! whoa! turns out personhood is inherently valuable in and of itself and romantic partnering is just a construct!#and that nightmare is now your life to do with as you please... define as you will... structure as you want...#best case scenario. is what i'm saying.#every day i wake up ready to spit all that amatonormative rhetoric back in life's teeth by being alone and being happy#and it's so fucking satisfying. every day.#fucking JUBILANT being by myself. and i love being a living breathing 'fuck you' to the romantic system#you need a partner to be happy? oh that's sooo fucking crazy guess i'll go be miserable then. in my perfect fucking dream life lmao#yeah obviously it's the worst possible outcome on earth to die without a partner. so terrible. can't wait for it :)#aromantic#aromanticism#aro positivity#aroace#arospec#sorry to bitches who are sad about not having a partner. i could not give a fuck though get better soon#you couldn't EVER pay me enough to go back to a mindset in which my inherent value wasn't enough by myself.#FUCK that shit. absolutely miserable and a bad life outlook in general. like genuinely do the work w/ amatonormativity and get better#life is something that can be so fulfilling whether someone wants to kiss you or whatever or not#i'm on antidepressants and i have people i care deeply about. what the fuck would i need a partner for lmao
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#honkai star rail#hsr dr ratio#hsr aventurine#ratiorine#aventio#whatever other ship name they have. i saw like 4 THATS ENOUGH! /j#making horrible memes to speed up the time (aventurine banner please hurry)#Its not working. I cry every day i wake up hes still not here#Why do i always talk about him like im mourning him .#sorry im ramblinf Anyways . Here#★ my art#art#★ animations#my sona (a sliver) (aventurine sniped them with the water bottle if u didnt see that)#do i reblog too much?am i annoying yall? sorrryyyy……..#i reblog like everysingle aventurine related thing ever i feel like itd put 1 of my followers into a coma
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t girl apollo I love you 2 the ends of the earth ♡
(Click 4 quality as per routine)
#here she is!!#man i loved doing this one#transfem apollo has just been on my mind#apollo so trans doenst even matter what direction#that being said.#please Do Not tag this with anything like#“i prefer him as transmasc” “personally i dont think hes transfem :)” i dont care and ill block u#i personally think apollo just wakes up every day a different gender. but its not the time nor the place <3#that being said my apollo stuff never does nearly as well as my nrmts so 😎#ace attorney#my art#digital art#phoenix wright#apollo justice#klavier gavin#klapollo#narumitsu#fanart#Zombchat
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MediaMatters.Org - A guide to Project 2025, the extreme right-wing agenda for the next Republican administration (LINK)
#us politics#every day i wake up in a lowkey panic attack no biggie#please vote blue in november if you oppose this agenda
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i think. i need to go for a drive and get myself a tasty beverage
#anyway so being alive right. its a ton of fun through and through < sarcasm!#i love the constant discomfort and terror and stress and isolation and existential dread <3#sigh. anyway#what is this about again?#oh yeah. floor tiles#sometimes i stare at grout and feel a little too much kinship with it. and that is All!#dont mind me just. using art as an outlet as its meant to be!#please dont ask me about this!#its very self explanatory anyway! theres not much else to Say!#floor tiles! you see!#every day i wake up and i lay motionless in bed while my brain screams at flesh melting decibels#Floor Tiles!!!!#lying on the floor asking the grout if it screams and claws at its own insides too#will keep you all updated on the answer (there will be None)#no tags posting it Late in the hopes that no one sees me coughing blood all over my own blog. Again.
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UUGHH I JUST HAD THE WORST DAY IM SO ANGRY AND FRUSTRATED GRRRR !!!!! goes to draw my best friend @jumjum-crafts 's guy to blow off steam
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★ song : "STATIC ELECTRICITY HUMAN – Computer Flavor" – kairikibear
#before you ask . dear jummy – yes . this was what the ask i sent you the other day was alluding to#i have a very complicated relationship with your colin . but you should be aware of the fact that seeing him invokes intense primitive –#– feelings within me . and one cannot decipher whether they are positive or negative#in any case#JDHDHDJRJRHT I HATE MY LIFE#I HATE THIS SHIT#I WANT TO BE DEAD#there's so much stuff happening every day and im constantly overwhelmed and tired and it's so hard to get out of bed and i don't even want –#– to wake up in the morning . every day just gets worse than the last#everyone around me is doing so much . living their life to the fullest . making huge future and career decisions and planning way ahead#and what am i doing ?#im laying in bed . crying because today was just too much to bear . trying to gain an ounce of happiness by ripping out another piece of –#– my soul to hand out to someone i admire#is this what it's going to be like forever ? bleak nothingness ? constant desolation ?#...#im gonna go to bed#dhmis#dhmis art#dhmis colin#colin the computer#fanart#fanart for a friend#vocaloid#vocaloid inspired#i actually had a lot of fun with this . even if the background was the biggest pain i ever had the pleasure of drawing#this entire song makes me feel comfortable#i might make something for someone else#and im debating if im actually gonna be doing a halloween drawing in the first place . at least one that will be on time with the holiday#whatever#please ignore me
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and if i said this was ollie re- *GUNSHOTS*
#ollie reeder#im so sorry for this#please dont be mad at me#this is me trying to reach out to the thick of it posters hi hello#every day i think of ollie and what a little freak he is#it consumes my every waking thought#i HATE THAT LITTLE FUCKER i want to pick him up like a rag doll and rattle him#sorry im sorry ill shut up#the thick of it#ttoi
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me finally understanding why i prefer skk over sigzai even though sigzai is tailor made for me
sigma and dazai see parts of themselves in each other. sigma is a young kid (three year old casino owner is CRAZY) at his core. dazai is too, don’t get me wrong—his constant childish personality is both a facade and the part of himself he wishes he could have back—but it feels very different in a way. dazai puts in so much effort to keep sigma around because sigma is like fifteen dazai. a young child at his heart who has been dealt such a horrible hand that he becomes cold and unwilling.
i think that’s why i cant ship them even if I wanted to—it’s like dazai taking care of himself when he was fifteen. that, and it feels like the friendships formed in primary school. so for me it’s like shipping two eight year olds together if that makes sense. i love their dynamic and i really hope sigma’s alive but skk and their history remain supreme. sigzai shippers ur actually iconic and I understand u sm but this is just my take :] feel free to disagree.
my proof of this lies in the dancing scene mainly. like you could not look me in the eyes and tell me that isn’t primary school kids learning how to waltz. it’s so endearing omg. it’s dazai dragging sigma into this childish display, with sigma protesting like “bitch get ur hands off of me” and dazai just hums along. reminds him of himself. he’d probably react similarly. or maybe sigma’s reaction is akin to chuuya’s, but that’s a WHOLE different can of worms.
#i was so conflicted over this for ages and i think this is accurate to my head#sigzai shippers ur so cool please don’t take my words as an act of war#skk just feeds my brain worms more. no hate here <3#bsd#bungou stray dogs#bsd dazai#dazai osamu#soukoku#sigma#bsd sigma#chuuya nakahara#skk#bsd chuuya#mersault arc#every day i wake up#today happened to be sigma flavored#asagiri if he’s dead you will be receiving a strongly worded complaint (my screams)
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how do u draw so much so fast
well,
#the short answer is autism and ritalin. btw#the long answer is: i wake up anywhere between 730-0900. i draw. if i have work when i come back i go and i draw.#i go to bed anywhere between 0100 and 0230. i wake up the next day and i draw.#i dont draw fast and in fact i get distracted and/or procrastinate quite often#i just have 16 hour days! every day! i am awake for 16 hours! sometimes more depending on the general mood! [cursed emoji here]#and like! wtf do you even do at that point?? how do you fill a 16 hour day? an 110 hour week? an almost 6000 hr year?#i draw! i have been drawing *seriously* since grade 2! and i have *seriously* loved the persona series since like mid/late 2017!#for those of you keeping score at home; i am 19! 2017 was grade 7 for me! ive loved this series for almost a full third of my life!#[continued emotional rant cut for length] but this is my community and my arts been the way i interact with this community since#(looks at my blog archive) 2019 when i posted my first persona art! please dont look at any of that now tho lmao!#so i guess. if the long answer needs to be short too then the long answer is love!!!! its always been love!!!! AND ALSO STILL RITALIN!!!!!!#asks & requests#personal
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any tolkien characters or locations you'd like to see me have a go at an edit for? i've gotten out of rhythm because of mine education i fear.. and i need a little inspiration. a jump for my creative clown car so to speak. from your mind to mine.
#render unto me.. 🥺 please. i will regain the muse's spark!#brought to you by me#every day i wake up + get on my little soapbox
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"Its Interesting how Toshiro loves Falin but 'hates' Laios even though they're so similar almost like the same person--" It's interesting how I will start slaughtering man if I see a "Falin and Laios are basically the same person" comment ever again. So fucking interesting huh
#PLEASE STOP. PLEASE. THEYRE BOTH SIBLINGS WHO ARE AUTISTIC AND ALSO SILLY#THEIR APPEARANCE IS SIMILAR#AND THEY HAVE SIMILAR INTERESTS AND VALUES#BUT THATS WHERE IT ENDS#THEIR PERSONALITY IS VERY DIFFERENT#THE WAY THEY PRESENT THEMSELVES IS VERY DIFFERENT#IF LAIOS IS LIKE A BRIGHT SUMMER DAY#THEN FALIN IS THE SHIMMER OF THE WAVES AT THE BEACH IN SUNSET#THEYRE SO VERY DIFFERENT#please. PLEASE.#THEYRE SIMILAR AND ALSO IN AUTISM SIBLINGISM SOLIDARITY#BUT . TOSHIRO'S CRUSH ON FALIN AND HIS ENVY OF LAIOS. IS LIKE. VERY MUCH . EASY TO FIGURE OUT#ITS NOT FUNNY . THEYRE NOT THE SAME FUCKING PPL.#its funny how ppl see Falin and Laios as genderswaps of each other huh. almost like you don't see siblings as individuals#but merely a unit /silly#IK ITS NOT THAT SERIOUS BUT LIKE. GENUINELY THIS TAKE PISSES ME OFFFF#THEYRE SIMILAR BUT NOT THE SAME . GEEZ#dunmeshi#sash talks#every day i wake up and have to block ppl on my touden staredown posts cuz they tag with this shit over and over again
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fan art for @ittybittybumblebee s oc new guy, their friend goopy, and her parental units!!!
#mech.art#everyday i wake up and every day i think of new guy#i want him in all the situations#i want xem in all the shitty awesome shirts#i love the lore so far it makes for a lovely story#please ignore the gamzee they just give me same hair vibes#anyways love and kisses xoxoxoxo#have a lovely day and a wonderful time in life
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Does anyone wanna know what my favorite Gordon gayass moment is
Edit: CHECK THE NOTES IT'S THERE
#hlvrai#every day i wake up and beg for attention please god someone pay attention to me#frenrey#cassie rambles#🔫I’M GOING FUCKING NUTS [gordon freeman]
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So uhm instead of doing my 8 essays due Tuesday morning I went down a rabbit hole learning about the romance farming sim Fields of mistria. And I adore Ryis so much....I've spent hours finding out about what I can of him becuz I can't play the game before the end of November...
My s/i and him would be perfect for each other... First of all he loves birds like HELLO.! When I learnt that fact I had multiple exclamation marks on top of my head I think. And it's not even a one-off thing he mentioned, I'm pretty sure it's established as one part of his personality. He also builds bird houses. And he has a feather collection. He is just like me for real.
Ok continued with lots of words down here Woops
He's so kind and creative... He does woodworking, and some of the gifts he loves can be carved on as mentioned in the item's description. It's crazy becuz I have an oc (ik I don't post about my oc's but they're always brewing in my head) who also likes to carve intricate patterns on wood (he has a wooden arm he carves on, and likes Batik patterns and the artfulness of Wayang Kulit which is Malay shadow puppetry.) like bro. Okay. And it means he's also an artist of sorts...Um yeah I'm projecting traits of that OC into the art we'd like to do together. I think my s/i would like to carve cool patterns with him... Like what if we carve birds... And they would love to sit outside and watch birds and try to sketch them together. Not to mention that one of the events you can do with him as part of a romance stage is. Planting a tree together. I'm normal. Like hello. Planting a TREE as a symbol of your love I think that's so crazy to me it's having me so whipped. And he's so down to earth I think he moved from the city to the more village setting of the game and also he was important in helping the village recover from the earthquake becuz of his skills and also he's very lovable for his kindness I think. I'm so invested now but my essays 😊 my esssayyss.... Oh yeah he also reminds me of Kiawe becuz he dresses like he works on a farm and it was my first impression... Also I think red is his color (one of his outfits is blue though. My s/i's color but it's whatever it's nothingggg that doesn't mean anything to me) and his personality is similar to kiawe's. They both have creative interests, work with wood in some way (kiawe's staff is wood okay it's more of a stretch but. Yeah haha) they're both hardworking, relatively quiet people but very kind. Help me
#Idk what to tag this I can't even play this game till after my exams#And after I get a computer💀💀💀#Also about my essays. It's not like I already have the knowledge to start writing. We learnt this stuff last year#And since then I've forgotten EVERYTTHINGGG. It's so over for me#I have to relearn everything before writing#And oh it's 2.21am#I know if I carry this on till tomorrow (as in#Monday morning)#I will wake up so late and get nothing down#Done*#I'm So Bad at school I'm so bad at studying I can do like anything else PLEASE I would hike 20km right now in the dead of night and every#subsequent day for the rest of the year if it means I don't have to do my A levels#Make that 30km I don't Care JUST SAVE ME#Wrenryis
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referencing my last tags but actually I'm gonna say it, if you weren't around when people got regularly called slurs and sent death threats for having gay ships you literally do not get to judge what the worst fandom ever is, thanks :)
#Void Rambles#if the worst thing you've ever seen is a little fandom discourse you have no room to talk#I grew up in the age of “no slash ships” rules in public forums#waking up every day only to hop online and beat back the subliminal homophobic messaging from my closest friends with a stick#fighting just to get ffnet to let me post songfics#while hoards of readers actively went out of their way to mass report you for it#next thing you know everything you've created and shared with friends is deleted without warning#swaths of hate mail from complete strangers hiding behind a message board for saying Dean is bi#literal fandom-wide campaigns to kill off gay coded characters and women who moved wrong and beloved characters of color#if the worst fandom take you've ever had to look at is a misinterpretation of your blorbo please exit stage left
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I literally keep on having dreams about Hannibal being renewed and either it’s a premonition or my url is becoming a reality
#STOP.#EVERY DAY I WAKE UP AND HANNIBAL HASNT BEEN RENEWED#hannibal#hannibal lecter#nbc hannibal#hannibal nbc#hannigram#will graham#fuller please#mercy
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