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I love you. I'm head over heels in love with you. I love you a lot.
We Are (2024) | 1.12
My Favorite Scenes [7/?] | dir. New Siwaj Sawatmaneekul
#we are#we are the series#aou thanaboon#boom tharatorn#tanfang#aouboom#thai bl#thai series#bl series#mambo.gifs#tan you sweet angel baby you#i love how even though fang is experiencing so many conflicting emotions#tan is able to ease his anxiety by minimizing the intensity of it through playfulness#as someone with anxiety that's always in my head like fang and thinking the worst#having someone sit there with you and help you realize that the earth is still revolving around the sun#even though this is a shitty situation#as long as i can continue to adore admire and love the fuck out of my anxious boyfriend#what more can you even ask for
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TW// Abuse implication
Thinking about possible Vox and Angel's interactions and how they'd go down. Theres such a unique mix of hatred to each other and common ground with their different experiences with Valentino, has me thinking.
Also just want to clarify I love Vox's character a LOT but ofc obv don't sympathise with him or think he is any way shape or form a decent individual, cant with stupid toxic dumbass x
AND IF YOU SEE ANY MISTAKES OR TYPOS NO YOU DONT- (i was so tired when drawing it forgive me TwT)
#Man though the ANGST potential!!!!#vox and angel are in such different situations#but they have one thing in common that keeps them really close#val#and like we all know vox is super jealous#even though vals a dick#i just think the way they would go about interacting is so so interesting#ALSO THIS IS NOT HATE TO VAL OR VOX i think they are really well written and I love how shitty they are#but also no apologizing for them either ygm? :>#SENDING LOVE AND KEEP YOURSELF SAFE OUT THERE. 🤍🤍#hazbin hotel#vox#angel dust#hazbin hotel vox#huskerdust#voxval#hazbin#hazbin hotel fanart#tribbleart#<3
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i was hoping to make a post like this under happier circumstances, but here goes.
as some of you know, everything with the cancellation and renewal campaign has happened right on top of the worst part of my mom's cancer treatment (plus the show was cancelled on my actual birthday 💀). i won't go into details, but it's been tough. lots of ups and downs, mostly downs, luckily ending (for now) on as much of an up as circumstances allow. the whole thing has been weirdly tied to the cancellation for me, kind of amplifying every feeling. the grief got mixed up, and there was so much of it - mourning the loss of the kind of future i thought i'd have with my mother and the time we might not get, mourning the end of a show that means so much to me and is such a big part of my life. different types of grief, sure, and of different magnitudes, but in one big ugly swirl. i sort of had a breakdown right at the start of february, and it was because of news about my mom, but it morphed into my brain telling me everything i'd ever written was shit and wanting to delete it all. stuff like that, spilling over.
anyway. i was holding off on writing this post to see if the show got picked up by someone else. but i still want to say it. because what also spilled over was the support and community from this fandom, and being in this space (despite the rough times and high emotions) helped me through it, because of all of you here. whether we talk regularly, or you left a comforting reply or simply a like on one of my posts about having a hard time (i tried to keep them few), or wrote a nice comment on a fic, or said something funny or nice or insightful in the tags of a gifset, or was active here (or on twt) in any way, talking/sharing/creating stuff about the show - THANK YOU.
you all helped me through all the ups and downs, and i am so grateful. thank you for being here, listening, distracting, helping me feel some joy despite the horrors. i love you and i love this incredible show and all it has brought and will continue to bring and inspire, and although it should go without saying, i'm not going anywhere. just do me a favor and give yourself a big ol' hug from me, and know that you made a difference for some random guy on the internet (but in reality for many more, and for this fandom as a whole, just by being here and being you) 💕
#🐭📓#oh wow this got long#i grieved so much in january and never truly got my hopes up even though i of course wished something would happen#that the second “cancellation” message did not hit me as hard as it did for others - like i'd already absorbed that reality#but no matter what. all the effort was worth it - even for just the slightest chance of renewal and showing the cast and crew all the love#and seeing the fandom rally and all the fun moments we found along the way in a shitty situation none of us wished to be in#and for the record - i don't think this means there is no possibility of anything happening in the future#i just think the current/immediate negotiations fell through due to the current streaming landscape#you never know what can happen even if nothing happens for years#it's just that it's not happening right now and we shouldn't be at the edge of our seats. but instead settle into long term fandom mode#instead of constant campaign mode. keep showing all our love for the show and letting it inspire us and move us#and keep supporting the cast and crew in their next works#there is so much more to come from the same creative minds#and i for one am looking forward to experiencing it with you all 💗#ok i will stop rambling now skdjfhdjks
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remember him losing his mind over dreams bath space 😭😭😭😭😭 and turns out dream really WASNT in his right mind so we were like My bad. Sorry a6d.
how was the bath space real 😭 a fucking fever dream for us and dream
#cq.asks#it happened the morning of my high school graduation 😭#which made it even weirder for me LOL#actually let me overexplain the situation#the week of my graduation i got fucking PINK EYE#so when i was driving to my dads house I accidentally hit a mail box and that was the first time#i ever got in any kind of accident#so it made me feel weird for a while like freakd out even though all that happened was I broke my headlight XD#but on top of that#i couldn't just go back to my room and chill#bc my grandparents were staying at our house#so they rented an airbnb for me and my brother so stay in?#so we were stuck out in the middle of nowhere with shitty wifi#adn it was the night before my highschool graduation#and dream went live with the fucking bath space#adn i was like this is the weirdest week of my life#anyways
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Every character on this show struggles with feeling unlovable because they're somehow broken or dirty or just put together wrong but for my money the real winners in this terrible competition are Claudia and Armand. There are, I think, a lot of echos between them especially in showverse- parental abandonment, abuse, being rescued and remade by vampires. Armand was one year older than Claudia when a vampire found him in a terrible situation and brought him home. So naturally just as Claudia finds someone she thinks could really love and know all of her Armand is going to kill her in the desperate hope of keeping someone who might love and know all of him.
#press says iwtv#you can say many things about louis and lestat's parenting but then there's marius. which tbh in bookverse i think it's a tossup#though ok the question of are vampires just like that or is louis just shitty at moral education bcs he's evil#and lestat is also evil present and not even trying a little bit#is actually somehow less funny than is armand just like that or is marius shitty at moral education bcs he's evil#interview with the vampire#lestat could offer advice about stalking a man until he loves you but armand tried and it didn't work!#claudia meanwhile is not a stalker. she pursues mutually engaging and affectionate relationships until someone gets eaten#i am still thinking about how basically normal amc claudia is aside from her sadism towards humans. which is itself normal for vampires#she's not supervamp at all! just a woman in an awkward situation.#i love her and wouldn't trade her for anything but at the same time i'm not sure how i feel about that as an adaptation choice.#also curious about how armand is going to feel about the lestat-claudia situation given his. everything.#i mean i guess to be fair all of these people are evil and broken and approximately half of them asked for it#however i love them so whatever
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Someone just said that The Ballad of Songbirds and Snakes was boring because we didn't get to know in the end why Snow became evil...
#congratulation for not getting the kilometer huge point#that he is simply a bad guy#always has been#simply a shitty personality who is power hungry and got the good chances to act on it in#how can you miss such an important and fantastic choice#i remember being anxious that collins will go the anakin skywalker way and write a tragic villian#who became evil after traumatic experiences#but i knew i can trust our queen#and she wrote this guy who even though went through a lot of stuff get the chance multiple times to be good#she even put there tigris who is in the exact same situation as him but stays good#and we just got more and more thoughts from him that showed how terrible he is#perfection#coriolanus snow#president snow#the ballad of songbirds and snakes#tbosas#the hunger games#thg#suzanne collins#my ramblings#not star wars
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i am once again thinking about emma
#thinking about how if dean could do anything without failing he would be a father#abt how he did fail her. that he couldn’t protect her like he promised#how he saw a scared girl with blonde hair stuck in a shitty situation that he caused and couldn’t help wanting to protect her#wanting to help her in the ways he couldn’t help jo#in the ways he couldn’t help emma#i think dean deserved to have a chance at being a father that wasn’t doomed by the narrative#i think the people who came into his life who he so badly wanted to protect deserved the chance to actually be a kid and feel safe#i will never stop thinking about emma.#spn#supernatural#dean winchester#emma winchester#claire novak#jo harvelle#(to be clear i do not think dean saw jo as his child)#((moreso i think it’s an exact twisted replica of his dads trauma with loss))#(( losing his father at a young age; a famillial/parental relationship [mary]))#(( losing his wife and not being able to protect her even though she was right there; close interpersonal relationship [jo]))#((his first child who he thought was fine and would be safe under the right care; only that child was not fine [claire]))#((his second child who was doomed from the start but god did he hope he could save; he couldn’t [emma]))#((( which the people who fit in these roles are specifically the blonde women in deans life that he couldn’t save regardless)))#(((i haven’t even touched on charlie ben krissy or jack)))#(((or even really gone into depth on exactly how jo claire and emma fit in those narrative roles)))#(((and i won’t on this post or i’ll run out of room)))
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writing share - body horror edition
So, the lovely, amazing @space-writes expressed interest in reading my fucked-up body horror that I wrote last night/early this morning, and who am I to deny a friend? So, here you go:
A brief bit of context: Just under two days ago, Sigmar, Rook's beloved mentor and kinda-sorta father figure, ended up being revealed as a corpse being puppeted by the BBEG, Dr. Purity. The rest of the party brutally killed him while Rook watched. (Via tooth and claw, and also a sonic shockwave from a magic guitar.) And just today, Warren, the party gunslinger, a werewolf and Rook's other kinda-sorta father figure, died (like perma-forever, never-coming-back died) in order to save Rook's life. (Or rather, in order to resurrect Rook, since he was dead at the time.) Now Rook is extremely sleep-deprived and also being affected by mind-altering parasites, two factors that are working together to give him some pretty vivid and fucked-up hallucinations.
(fair warning, this isn't written out fully to the best of my abilities because this scene hasn't happened yet. So this is just my description of what Rook will be seeing and hearing, not a full prose write-up with his internal thoughts and all that. I will almost certainly do that after next week's session, though, so let me know if you want to see that then.)
major tw for extreme gore & maybe body horror under the cut (also emotional manipulation/guilt-tripping)
Rook hears a strange sound, like clumsy, disjointed footsteps. He looks around wildly for the source, and freezes. Out of the hallway we have just come from looms a horrible sight: Sigmar’s corpse is lurching towards him, somehow propelling itself on shattered limbs. All of his joints are dislocated, giving his body a freakishly elongated appearance. His shredded clothes are soaked with blood, and every inch of his skin is covered in hundreds of claw and tooth marks, all of which are weeping blood. A web of dark black veins branch out across his face, and thick black ichor drips from his mouth. It falls to the ground, splattering onto the tile with each step. He reaches out towards Rook with jagged, broken fingers, and says, “Rook… your friends killed me. Slaughtered me. Ripped me to pieces like wild animals.” He takes another staggering step towards Rook, who backs away, shaking. Sigmar’s face is pleading as he says, “You said you trusted me. You promised to help me.” Rook takes another stumbling step backwards, shaking his head. “No…” he mutters, “no!” Sigmar points an accusing finger at Rook, and his demeanor changes, a dark fury crossing his face. For a moment Rook can see why people fear him. “I should never have spoken to you. I should have burned down Warren’s house with you still inside. It’s what the two of you deserve.” As if on cue, another shape lurches out of the shadows of a hallway across the way. It’s Warren. His chest has been blown open, his ribs pointing in every direction, and the remains of his guts are dripping from the hole where his stomach used to be. His body is splattered in gore. He’s missing one of his hands, the arm ending in a jagged point of bone surrounded by burnt and blackened flesh. He opens his mouth to speak, revealing pointed canine teeth that clash with his human appearance. “Rook, you stupid bastard. I died for you. You.” He bares his teeth and snarls at Rook, an animalistic sound that rattles him to his core. He takes an involuntary half-step backwards. Warren scoffs in disdain. “We should have left you to rot in that fungi-infested hallway. You brought him to us.” He glares pointedly at Sigmar, then looks back to Rook. “You’re the reason those two attacked us – attacked Cherry. You’re the reason I’m dead. The reason Cherry won’t ever have a father.” Sigmar steps closer, looking Rook up and down, disgust plainly visible on his face. “Speaking of fathers, yours was right: You are a useless piece of shit.” He spits in Rook’s direction, then takes another step closer. Across the room, Warren moves to flank him. “Traitor.” “Liar,” Sigmar adds as the two stalk closer, matching each other step for step. The corpses lumber forwards, stumbling on broken legs until they’re so close that Rook can smell them. The awful scents of Warren’s burnt flesh and the blood soaking Sigmar’s clothes fill his nose, nauseating and overwhelming. They’re right in front of him now. He tries to shrink away, further into the corner, but to no avail. His limbs refuse to obey, and he stays frozen in place. They reach for him, one with shattered fingers, the other with a charred stump of an arm, and say in unison, “good-for-nothing”. As they do, he hears a third voice layered over the other two: his father. But he doesn’t have time to think on this, because in that moment their outstretched arms reach him, and everything goes black.
#morrigan.text#my writing#morrigan plays dnd#oc: Rook#*Liars#godddd there's so many little details to this that make it so much worse if you know all the context#like the fact that ''Sigmar'' did indeed know Rook's shitty abusive asshole father.#in reality when they met Sigmar told Rook that Rook's description of Alistair didn't sound like him but he did believe Rook and was kind.#but now Rook already hates himself so fucking much. He feels guilty for bringing Sigmar into the party and then Warren killed himself to#save him so he feels awful about that. And Warren wouldn't even have been put in that situation if Rook hadn't brought Sigmar along....#plus the description of Sigmar's corpse echoing the three ways he was tormented before he died:#the teeth and claws from Maka the shattered bones from Aki's guitar and the black veins and ichor from the poison from Hawthorne.#and Warren specifically killed himself by falling off a ledge and hugging his personal villain to his chest with a bomb between them.#hence the explosion-related descriptions.#and Sigmar calling Rook a liar even though that was their thing for each other....#goddd I can't with this shit.#and then the eulogy Rook is gonna deliver a bit after this? fucking makes me sick man. It's the most depressing thing I've ever written.#the funny thing is that Rook wasn't supposed to hate himself. He really wasn't. And then he ended up being my most self-loathing character#His og concept was to actually be pretty arrogant but I guess he had other plans lmao.#space I hope you like this.
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Fuckkkkk my parents just mentioned taking the family to see Sonic 3 when it comes out
#Unfortunately they're both conservatives so I can't tell them the actual reason I don't want to see it#And even if I told them that I didn't want to see it because it looks bad (which would be true)#Then they'd probably all just go without me or bring me anyways#Even though this isn't really a situation I have that much control over I'd still feel shitty if I just completely went along with it#But I don't know how to get out of it without looking suspicious or completely embarrassing myself#At least I have about two months to try and think of something#Maybe that's enough time to come up with a good idea#Krafter Talks
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this is mental illness.
#i agree that mbb’s parents are weird when it comes to her image but i doubt the whole marriage is forced#and i also doubt jake is awful and possessive lmao he may not have his own money but his dad is worth a LOT more than millie#so marrying ~up doesn’t work in that case. that’d be millie marrying up but she’s not#and yeah the PR is excessive but that’s the brown family. greedy fuckers. not sure about the bongivios bc idk them well enough#but also. maybe it’s what millie wants? maybe? remember when emma watson cut her hair after she wrapped the final HP film? it’s like that#but on an extreme level. millie is transitioning into adulthood and she wants to shed her 11 image even though she loves the character#but she is ready to move on. pls give her some credit. this isn’t another britney situation (and i rly hope it’s not) but c’mon#also ofc noah is the chopped liver. he was there for her 18th and possibly will attend the wedding. funnily enough if anything goes wrong;#they will blame noah for being a shitty friend and enabler 🙄 and the cast were right the whole time for disliking jake. apparently#all this simping for finn is cringe btw. he is finn NOT MIKE and not even mike is like that 💀 y’all are stuck in your mlvn fantasy that you#have projected the ship onto finn and millie ffs. have a word with yourself
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Imagine bending over backwards like this to defend a character for screaming at and choking his pregnant wife...
#wow... just... wow#it's not even like i hate anakin but i just sure as hell ain't gonna make or tolerate excuses for domestic violence and abusive behavior#btw the second incident of domestic violence is in TCW w/ him showing up unannounced at her apartment and wrecking up her living room while#while beating up her guest to a pulp and yelling at her in a jealous rage because he misread the situation. (and showing up later on her#balcony and forcing a conversation even though she'd just asked for space)#tw dv mention#tw: domestic violence#please learn to enjoy characters without also defending their shitty behavior#i'm gonna lose some followers for this but so be it
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like i really believe trevanion was holding that damn country together for nine years if only because he's the only character for whom there is evidence of him actually doing something
#its interesting that the monts posit tildas greater suitability for the throne than carles given that she seemingly also never achieves#anything outside the home even though as queen (while obv shes not got carles' level of power) she should at least be wielding some#influence over someone somewhere at some point. & this never shows up on page. really im vagueing saro here bc the royal family was#functionally being held hostage by the impostor at this point. like the inaction wouldve been fucking with flatland lords' profit margins#too & they seemingly were just content to let that slide even though it's at odds w/ their motivations as well (shitty but in a different#way). like during the curse is one thing but during the dragon ship situation literally everyone benefits from his removal yet trevanion is#the only one fucking doing anything. & even then he still has to follow the king & be his man or whatever. mate he sucks!! you owe#him nothing!!!
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post-forced-extension of that assignment i was losing my mind about tuesday/wednesday i experienced a very familiar "ah.... it's as if the deadline no longer exists....." feeling that has now been replaced with "wait i still can't find the resources i need. and i don't know how to organize this. and i don't know what im presenting on (<- super broad topic and i can't fucking find the information i actually need bc our university doesn't?? give us jstor subscriptions or whatever anymore??? so it's all scholarly stuff i can't read or ppl's blogs which im not fucking using for this and half of them just copy entire paragraphs from encyclopedia britannica. who is saving my ass but whatever)" mixed with "I'll figure it out later 🙂↕️" IM PRESENTING IT IN 11 HOURS 💀💀💀
#im having a really hard time focusing too. which always happens bc when AM i focusing anymore but like#still. would love to do anything but stare blankly at my screen humming will wood songs for like an hour. if anyone can make that happen#can someone just fucking tell me what the effects of ireland's political Situation in the 20th century meant for its literature#im begging you just tell me because im finding nothing. i have read so much General History but i can't find lit analysis thats not paywalld#and thats what the presentation's supposed to be on. not a bio of wb yeats which is all im getting somehow#why is this so hard why couldnt i have just presented on the byronic hero or something. fuckkkk#at least i have rascal lying behind me in the chair. we are ass to ass sorta in solidarity (he doesnt care)#he has been oddly cuddly the past couple of days which is nice. have i mentioned that? whatever#but like i havent even edited the ppt since wednesday morning. ive jist been doing more research i have to write a script and do visuals#and it has to be under 15 mins even though im talking about ireland starting before the famine AND the literature from that whole period#if i can fucking FIND ANYTHING ON IT GRRRRR and also can someone just tell me when the celtic tiger happened#idk why but im struggling to find super basic facts and i feel like im losing my MIND. why is this so shitty#it's not supposed to be this hard why is everything. soooooo hard for me all the time orz orz orz
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If you could have any Asmo/reader fic what would be the things you would want from it? like an ideal fic would contain what tropes or AUS or situations or whatever
uhmm anything wellwritten that characterizes asmo similar to the way i do ! i rlly like character exploration , both more serious stuff & just sillycute...anything where asmo is a little cunning and toxic and also gets railed into oblivion.anything where hes a vampire. ill write a tag essay about the specifics
#xreaders are too unrelatable for me usually .. im aroace and the only relationship dynamics that r rlly interesting to me r likee#toxic or tumultuous...i think in many asmo fics hes just very one note or like not a complex love interest .which is fine because hes like#that in the game but i am especially drawn to fics where the author has their own kind of unique take on it. nuance. etc#it's really interesting to see situations in which asmo kind of reaps the consequences of shitty behavior or struggles with parts of himsel#f he doesnt like. not just in like ohhh im insecure sobsob but like deeprooted issues & patterns thought processes that come with being a d#demon that maybe clash with human morality or ideals...like what if he sees human lives as generally more disposable because hes lived for#so long?? what would a fic be like about him wanting a fling with a human that ends up taking apart their life but to him its just a fun#little romance without any real consequences or commitment?? even if he was obsessed w them professing his undying love etc etc he could ge#t bored and drop it anytime and outlive them by millions of years and forget...& how does a human love an entity like that? how could the r#relationship look anything close to normal ever...anyway i like fics that touch on questions like this theyre kind of rare though#this all being said i def dont think asmo is completely evil💭 nuance#at work so im literally just wasting time by thinking about this rn but this was like the asmotoni dynamic its too interesting to me#asmotoni is like this in my head but on papwr i just draw them fucking witj bunny ears sorry#this doesnt even answer ur question really. if i could write a fic rn it would be like 200k word emo band au that isnt xreader or a romance#fic it would just be asmo beel belphie as humans starting a band and their rise and fall etc ive been thinking abt that plot nonstop
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Me after I research the way ppl with light coloured hair were treated at school in Japan and make a bunch of headcannons about how Ichigo was probably picked on for his hair since he was little and teachers probably turned a blind eye or encouraged it and Masaki would always come to pick him up and yell at his teachers when they made comments about her 'fixing' his hair so he could fit in and then she decided to put him in karate classes so he could at least learn how to defend himself when she's not there and told him that he has to get big and strong so he could protect himself and his sisters like the superheroes on TV and when she died, everything got so much worse for him and he quit the dojo but he was getting older and bigger kids starting picking on him and beating him up and he wasn't good enough to beat them so he would come home all bruised and yuzu cried every time so he always tried to hide it from her but Karin always knew somehow and Isshin always patched him up and tried to reach out and tell him that he could talk to his teachers but Ichigo always refused because he didn't want anyone to take his mother's place and it would only make things worse for him if he got adults involved and Isshin understood that but hated feeling helpless, like he couldn't do anything to protect his own kid until finally it got bad enough that he couldn't stand by anymore because one of the stupid shits pushed Ichigo down the stairs and he broke his arm so he told Ichigo he would either have to get directly involved or Ichigo had to learn how to fight properly so he could protect himself and obviously Ichigo picked the latter so Isshin basically taught him hakuda because that was the only hand to hand combat he knew and this accidentally made it so that Ichigo dipped into his reiatsu reserves and made him as abnormally strong as he was in canon and after a while this training devolved into their usual silly chaos in canon because Isshin is not nearly as bad as the fandom makes him out to be and that's how they bond:
#bleach#ichigo kurosaki#isshin kurosaki#isshin shiba#kurosaki masaki#kurosaki family#Isshin doesn't hate ichigo#or abuse him because that was slapstick humour which was oddly how anime dads/adults are portrayed for some reason#Orihime WAS abused tho#and he definitely doesn't blame Ichigo for masaki's death I will fight you if you say that#the situations he put ichigo in were shitty and his timing for telling ichigo things he should know are even worse#i wish more ppl wrote him as a okay dad instead of over the top bashing with URAHARA of all ppl becoming the parental figure when he is#arguably much worse than Isshin in that regard#I do like him as a mentor though#Isshin is neither or good or a bad dad#i wish we got some more insight on how ichigo felt about him
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me actually being here 4 retris' birthday is something that 2023 me wouldnt ever be able to comprehend. if i told them that, they would actually fucking die XoP
#i literally inhaled anxiety and exhaled paranoia. i still do that today but back then it was even worse#but then i was in a pretty shitty situation back then. thats a story 4 another day though i dont wanna ruin my mood :oP#today was a really good day!! i stimmed a lot today and now i am all burnt out Xo[#either way - well done sango pardycity arsen1cs4ng0 for making it to retris' bday!!!!#well done to them 4 healing massively since they first joined this awesome community... <3#<- i like 2 congratulate myself often because its true. coming here has been a huge leap in my healing. again thats a story for another day#it's 5am as i type this btw. i need sleep desparately#ᯓ★ p@rrdy ponderrs ✮⋆.˚
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