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midnightmah07 · 7 months ago

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Epel would love the tattoo studio I'm in rn there's drawings of dragons everyone, skulls, everything is black– sounds right up his alley

#💙! mah rambles #also im here bc my mom's making another tattoo #im not making anything yet lol #i still need to discuss with another tattoo artist that i like about my cover up tatoo #...and tell my dad #even tho im 22

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angelstrawbabie420 · 2 months ago

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in my quest to quell my pain ive only hurt myself worse. damned if i do damned if i dont.

#i need better coping mechanisms but it’s so easy to just turn to substances when you’ve never learned how to cope w your emotions #and physical pain. however a lot of it has been brought on by the substance abuse aka i did it to myself #so i probably deserve it #but i started with them in the first place to get rid of pain that was so overwhelming and constant #it feels like every time i do something to preserve myself im punished for it #and im so sick of it. i cant believe its gotten this bad #i drink to help the pain -> i get hungover and the pain is way worse -> i drink to stop that pain #and the worst part is it always works #realistically ive depended on substances for like a decade #i started drinking at 13 and fell into a rut of alcoholism at like 15/16 #my mom was going thru a phase of alcoholism and roped me into it so bad if be woken up by her bringing me a drink at 9 am #and we’d drink till she passed out and i had to walk her to bed and cook for everyone and do all the chores #it went on for months one summer #then it was weed and i smoked every day from like 18-22 #only thing thwt stopped me from drinking until i started again after both my parents died #i havent recovered since.#im still so traumatized and depressed that i looked for any method of relief #the dph phase was the worst. i think alc is even better than that lmfao it was horrible #once i got access to alc i stopped all that. wouldnt have if i hadnt had alc tho #it’s honestly been one addiction after the other for a decade #and my parents fueled so much of it #‘oh id rarher you drink under my eye than do it behind my back’#BRUH YOU WOULDNT LET ME GO ANYWHERE OR DO ANYTHING. HOW WOULD THWT HAVE HAPPENED #crazy how i was obsessed w drugs and shit by the time i was 10 and i remember thinking wow im gojna grow up to be an addict.#why am i so irreparably fucked up #idk whatever. like im not gonna drink abt it lmao.

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funkle420 · 8 days ago

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UC Santa Cruz has a free PDF of Pedagogy of the Oppressed by Paulo Freire!

#it didn't bit me till just now that a lot of young ppl dont even know the difference btwn the parties or what's even going on in the country #like a friend told me she doesn't know the difference btwn Democrats and Republicans #and like fair lmao they both support capitalism and genocide before the people #but dude!!! how???#how does anyone live their life not knowing a thing about the politics that decide what happens to them and their community????#i guess I should clarify this is an acquaintance not rly a friend friend #we just met weeks ago so.#im just baffled but then i think abt how i didn't learn abt what communism ACTUALLY is until 22 when my awesome old roomie told me #and i remember how gentle and patient she was and so i xont wanna be reactionary and mean to ppl who dont know shit #even tho my natural state is bitch lol #*hit not bit i just noticed that typo #there's obviously other important boo #books to read but this is the one that comes to mind now #its easy and good #and free

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guinevereslancelot · 6 days ago

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just wrapped the first christmas present of the year ❤️

#for my friend who hates presents of course 😂#its the stupid teddy bear onesie he has magically instantly putgrown BOTH the previous times i got him one it fit him for like a week 😤#so i got it in the next two sizes up and that's that!!!!#babies grow so fast wtf never buy clothes as a present for a baby that's all i can say #but i can't accept defeat so here we go #his mom will appreciate it even tho she doesn't like getting presents tho lol #and its insane to give christmas presents before thanksgiving but for all i know this baby is gonna outgrow them both by then #i literally bought the size 9-12 months like last month #i ordered it immediately after his mom told me she THOUGHT HE WOULD BE IN THAT SIZE SOON #and it was already too toght on him when it arrived a week later 😭#so now i got size 12-18 and size 18-24 this baby's gonna be cozy this winter or else!!!#i cannot afford this btw #the original onesie was pretty cheap it was o. sale for like $17 but then i bought it twice #and the size maxed out at 9-12 months #so i had to upgrade to a toddler one and it was $22 and i got two of them again plus shipping #and i only make 14 dollars an hour and i'm lucky to work even two days a week at my new job lol #im putting off getting a second job until after i cover a coworkers maternity keave in feb tho bc then i def would be full time #for at least 6 weeks #and its possible she might decide not to come back or another aide would leave by then #so i might have an opportunity to be full time by then ir at least close to that #anyway #no money november fr 😔#just realized my tags are confusing my friend is the mom not the baby 😂#she's the one who gates receiving gifts bc she feels awkward lol #but she's broke af and can't afford clothes for her baby let alone cute ones and she loved the onesie when she fot it at her baby shower #but then the baby came a week and a half late #he was supposed to be a march baby he was born in april #and all of a sudden it was too warm for the onesie and he inly got to wear it once #so i was like ok i will get another one in the fall/winter then #but alas

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orcelito · 2 months ago

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Part of me is like 'I've been a student for so long, how am I gonna handle being Not A Student..!??!' In terms of like. Self perception, I guess.

I think my psyche is already raring for it tho. Here I am daydreaming looking at house listings and writing a damned baby au bc my brain has decided I kinda want one of those, too.

I'll still always be a mega nerd. But fuck dude. I guess I'm an adult, too.

#speculation nation #not that students arent adults. technically ive been an adult for 9 years.#but when ur a young student it doesnt Feel like ur an adult... not really.#now that im genuinely interested in more 'adult' things it has me going like. Huh. duly noted.#like i kinda just rly wanna settle down. yknow?#wanna find a longterm partner if i can. someone who'd be open to raising kids with me. bc thats apparently smth i want.#i Do want kids. even if im undecided whether id prefer adoption or not.#so i need to find someone who'd be open to that too. and also would be open to living in indiana. bc i dont want to leave here.#just. Sigh. somewhere along the years ive ended up being like. a genuine adult.#i do still need to get my license lol. i need to reach out to my cousin about that again soon #once things calm down a bit more with school. ive been dealing with Too Many Deadlines...#ultimately. idk. just looking to the future i guess. i Am an adult. and im gonna have to fully accept that at some point.#for now tho... one more year of interacting with 18-22 year olds and pretending im Totally just one of them.#i mean. i am. but also it's less common for older students to exist in general.#but i do have the benefit of a baby face lol. none of them expect me to be 27. and that works just fine for me.#i just dont feel like having that conversation over and over and over again 😭😭😭

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altfire · 4 months ago

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im so fucking glad i already had so much written for darkwater, it makes working on it now so much easier. like i'm still adding scenes wholecloth but coming into a project with 20k already written makes the task of adding more less intimidating lol

#idk how long dw is gonna be. i'd initially planned for sthg more novella length at 30k but now that im in the thick of it #i can def see 50k+#like 13k in and still haven't introduced a lot of major characters (i.e. anyone but aspen demi and claudia) so it's gotta be a doozy #watch your feet #darkwater #working w/o my outline rn just to get words out. intuitive writing. seeing where a gap needs to be filled and filling it #even tho i failed nano '22 i set myself up for success down the road and that's sick

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unfortunate--moth · 4 months ago

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Ok here's the story;

So my friends and I were playing around with discord nicknames and I wanted to know what mine would be. My Ace Markey addicted friend said that my name would be "Fucking Fuuta Fan".

I replied with "WHY AM I FUCKING FUUTA???" "ISN'T HE 20??? THAT'D BE ILLEGAL?!" playfully. The Ace fan was shook but my other friend, the Muu fan, was taking responsibility as the parental friend for me.

They said I should wash my mouth out with soap for that(jokingly) and I said "alrightt" and drank a little bit of lavender soap.(jokingly but I did do it.)

It doesn't taste good but I'm fine. :3 too small to be bad.

Rule: No Fuuta nicknames.

- Kat, Resident "Coming out as a kinnie is worse" believer.

CHRIST??????????? JAKDMHFHJABDKFJHADFHBMADF

#ask #anonymous #kat #i cant even judge you #ive eaten worse things.#also fuuta fans all live in shame id know /j #i keep forgetting im older than fuuta btw #hes like 21 in my brain #this dude cant even drink in the US #god im gonna be 22 soon. scary #thats off topic tho #thank you for the story kat #it was very funny i enjoyed

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duoibo · 1 year ago

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vent.

#im jobless a uni drop out and broke and i live with my parents at age 22 and cant drive every decision i make has to go thru my parents i ha #ve no friends i can reach out to and im severely depressed and my ed is coming back lmaoooooo #im also trapped in my own home been rejected from jobs left and right way behind on my big girl tasks andi am also just so so alone and unsu #re of yhe futurr Nd like near tears and sleeping all the time and i dont have any hobbies since i dropped art like 5 years ago and im also #stupid and a lying to everyone that im fine and nothing makes me happy and even shopping i cant think of anythjng id like to buy but even #then i just feel guilty bc im brokeeeee #i just feel all so numb to it all like i was really gonna buy some diet pills even tho ik theyre bad but like aaaaaaaaaaa #and i feel useless

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oflgtfol · 6 months ago

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literally what the fuck is in the air lately ive had three guys being weird at me within the past three weeks. thats one guy a week. Stop fucking being weird

#coworker situation resolved itself i think hes just Like That #we’ve been casually texting now and everythings normal its fine #other guy who asked me out to get sushi together. i ghosted him. Lmao #like bro ive only talked to you like … four times you are not getting me to a secondary location #and NOWWW #AT MY INTERNSHIPPPP #im huffing and puffing doing manual labor unloading boxes and shit #and custodial does Not pick up when i call them to perhaps come down to help me out #so i gotta do it all by myself i get a cart load it full of empty boxes and im like man i gotta go toss em all individually into the #dumpster now but lo and behold i get to the loading deck where the dumpster is theres a group of grown men #theyre all doing their own thang theres a bunch of box trucks theyre waiting on and they all turn to me when i open the door #im like. Hi. dont mind me i just gotta toss these boxes in the dumpster #two of the men approach me and just literally grab the entire damn cart itself and shake it out over the dumpster #like oh. Okay #i was like hey thank you so much !!! i literally dont know who you are but thanks for helping out !!#and i have so many empty boxes i need to do this two more times #so i open the door and just one of the original men shakes it out over the dumpster again #and i was like profusly thanking him cuz im like do you even work here like who are you thank you for doing my manual labor?? 😭😭#and so as im ducking out to get the last round of boxes the man says like hey only for you #and im like. in my head im like ??? but im like whatever. moving on.#so i bring out the last round of boxes and im like hey thank you so much for doing this have a great day #and he says something like i see you dont have a ring yet #LIKE WHAT #BACK UP !!! WHAT #IM ONLY 22 YOURE LIKE A WHOLE ASS 35 BACK UP !!!!!!!!!!#so i just say Hm! again and leave #like whenever these PEOPLE say weird shit to me i just say Hm!#CUZ LIKE. HUH?#what the fuck u want me to say that???#anyway thankfully tho this guy isnt a coworker so its literally just a passing rando i will never see again

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hollowfairybabybat · 6 months ago

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its maybe not healthy lowkey my bedroom smells like how my nanas bedroom smelled now bc i walk in n get sad but i also need it to so 🙃

#we still hav a lot 2 go thru but like first day i went around grabbing every air freshner n candle but also i got to keep her perfumes #theyre in a ziplock but there was a tiny one in her car i use on the little nana calico bunny n carry too after that was found n given to me #but yk what my little sister took towels but she took them for dif reasons than im like i need fabric items and scent things please #whatever i can grieve how i want also trying not to cry rn its not sobbing time its 2:22 #thats kinda funny tho i was gna cry then wqs like qhat time is it even n angel number i hav tatted on me <333 #batbaby rambles

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the-acid-pear · 7 months ago

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I really expressed this before but it's kinda sad I didn't find DSaF back when my sibling issues were at their peak bc I'd have been like straight up Branded if I met this guy who is a middle child and is rotting and has a strained relationship with his older brother and used to have to take care of his little sister who on top of everything is a redhead and 6 years old and is extremely guilty but also can have an awful relationship with her like my ass wouldn't have survived brother. My ass would have never came back.

#luly talks #me and Jack we're kindred souls and we'd have been more even so if I didn't get over my guilt #sad!#well i had a brother not a sister but he was 6 years old when i left and also a redhead for no reason #reason was i mean that our grandpa is a redhead but no one else was so the gene just popped back up I guess #but yeah like. i got over my brother pretty well but i used to be super depressed #i no longer think of them bc im tired of being disrespected lmao #the only one i haven't blocked is my older brother #you'd prob go a few years back in my tag 2022 even 23? and see me be mentally ill tho #having breakdowns over that shit #i mean i was robbed of my family but they see me as the villain so #our shit is more toxic admittedly #no need to explain the rotting thing also we all know every so often i start rotting #i was rotting hard a few yeaes back 21 or 22 #like when you taste your mouth and you feel it when your hair thins when you're pale and big eyebags #sometimes your organs just start rotting with you still wearing them and that's that #sometimes death forgets to pick you up

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do-angels-dream-of-starry-seas · 11 months ago

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Oh boy, sure love the American government :D

#quinntessentials #thoughts #fucking angry rn cause #i FINALLY did my appointment with dhs #about getting food stamps #but despite me saying how i buy my own food #and rarely ever be home #i still count under the household income #no matter what unless im not living there #or 22 yrs old #even tho said Household Income #is barely enough to get us through to next month

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baby-xemnas · 1 year ago

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the way you draw law and bepo sitting together close like that is soooo like. god. i could SEE law putting his arm about bepo and its the most natural thing, they are so real to me, thank you. i know nothing about one piece. this is It.

YES

yes he would...hes in company of his closest friends hes so happy and warm ofc hed hug him and see the slight surprise on bepo's face thatd grow back into a happy smile...

(also if thanks to me your association with OP (aside from "rubber man in a hat" and other basics) is that there is also a cute and sweet human x anthro relationship - ill be the happiest camper)

#anonymous #cuz they are very cute #even tho i obviously amp it up #canonically they are still very there and very cute #op highlight #op has plenty people with animal companions but they are pets #bepo is an animal companion who is a 22 year old man #furry dream genuinely #one piece #add: i allude to manga/anime because im a canonfag by choice #its not about whats valid or not. crack is fun but not for me- you wont be seeing ''canon idk her'' in my house

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risingsunresistance · 2 years ago

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i literally played skyblock for like. an entire 12 hours yesterday. it's been too long since i got to play bc i've been busy with a bunch of other things and also pokemon, feels good to be back but *{^}*^}+}^+}*#*

#it is NOT my record. my record is 14 hours with earthbound #that was a horrible mistake. my hyperfocus was unrivaled tho and i didnt even realize how much time had passed #stopped somewhere in the middle bc i realized i had forgotten to use the bathroom and also i didnt eat 😭#i was like. 15 or something tho. now im 22 i've got no excuse JDHFJ #it's my break and i WILL enjoy my break. if that means playing skyblock for 12 hours then so be it #chat #sb

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rollercoasterwords · 2 years ago

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trying to plan a vacation

#how do people DO THIS so frequently #i have friends who travel like every other weekend #my friend the other day was like oh yeah i booked my flights and hotels for thailand and figured out everywhere i want to go #WHAT #how do u just DO that #there's so much to RESEARCH #what about MONEY #i found this super cute hostel in the city i want to go to but its $20/night and there are airbnbs for like. $22...#so im like is airbnb better???#how do u DECIDE???#and u have to choose DATES and book FLIGHTS #everything is so EXPENSIVE #even the cheap stuff is expensive #how do u choose where to stay and what to do!!!!#it is so so easy to stay home and so so hard to travel....#but i want to travel :(#if i have to look at one more hostel or airbnb page my brain might literally melt out of my ears tho

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orcelito · 1 year ago

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current song mood

mostly bc im vibing to it. the song's completely in hebrew & i cant find any official translations online :P but i can get the vibes thru the google translate lol

i. doubt "and they give head" is meant as a sexual lyric. Infected Mushroom doesn't generally have sexual lyrics, like. most of the time? i cant think of any at least, so i wouldnt think it's the case here.

still have no clue based on the alternate translation :P

tho while Infected Mushroom isn't generally sexual. they deal a LOT in drug motifs (as u could mayb guess from the name lol) so. if i had to guess. i'd assume it's smth to do with that.

overall tho it's just a song about Dancing and Vibing, basically. and i love it a Lot.

#speculation nation #music #audio #im kind of a big IM fan. which is a lil funny bc i rly am not into the drugs scene #but i just. really like psytrance. and they have some REAL good shit #it's my go-to for edit music. Focus Music. psytrance is just sooooo good for that #honestly i have so many albums of theirs i havent listened to. theyve been active for some 20+ years. so much discography...#this is from their most recent album tho. what a good album.#at 3 mins 22 seconds this is a SHORT IM song. most of their songs are at LEAST 6 mins long. if not longer.#up to even 13 mins sometimes. this album just has a lot of shorter songs i guess #NOT cookie from space tho !!!!!!!!!!!!! that's over 10 mins long lol #i should give it a listen actually. it's been a bit. i Love that song too.

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