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gay-for-the-snz · 10 months ago

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A First and Last Date (M, Allergy)

I had a need deep in my soul for sundress snz and was once again so thankful that sundress season and allergy season line up so beautifully. And what better excuse to facilitate this than a (relatively unsuccessful) first date?

Elliott, 4k, allergy, modern!AU. vague cw for light mess description and sneezing into hands, mention of divorce

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If there's anything he expected to be doing on a Thursday morning, it's not going on a blind date. He's never done this before--gosh, he feels like he's barely even dated in general--but especially based on someone else's confidence in matchmaking. Matt and Colleen thought that the best way to thank him for helping out at the wedding was to help him find a romantic partner himself, and while he appreciates the sentiment, he isn't sure if this was a good idea now that he's sitting in this cafe.

Perhaps it's just nerves, that fear that things are going to go wrong, but he feels kind of silly, being the guy alone at a table and hoping that his date shows up. Maybe he shouldn't have worn this--was a dress on the first date too much? He'd figured while he was getting dressed that the best way to weed out anybody who wouldn't be able to handle him being flamboyant would be a dress right out the gate, but maybe he should have been more subtle. A nice blouse, or a fun necklace and painted nails--something a little more understated, so as not to potentially scare him off before he had a chance to decide he liked him first, or--God, maybe he should have leaned more masc at first? Was this too much? Is he overthinking this?

He's startled out of his thoughts by a voice behind him. "...Elliott?"

He jumps and nearly tips the chair over in his haste to stand. "Yes! Devontae, hi!" He reaches out, takes one of his hands eagerly to shake it, and oh, he's absolutely gorgeous. A dazzling smile and butterfly locs and a pair of round wire-frames that make his eyes sparkle. "Oh, you're beautiful..."

He flushes immediately, floundering to try and sound less creepily overzealous, but Devontae's gracious enough not to mention it. "I could say the same about you. Here." He offers a slightly flattened bouquet, mums and daisies and baby's breath and who-knows-what-else packed colorfully into the brown paper. "I tried to keep them from getting too flat in the car, but you'll have to excuse that gravity had other ideas."

He has to fight the urge to immediately make a fool out of himself and cry. "...oh!" He gingerly accepts them, looking down at the flowers in his arms like they're wholly foreign.

"If you don't like them--"

"No! No, no, I do, I promise. I just--" he laughs, wipes quickly at his eyes with a little sniff, "I'm just surprised. I don't think anyone's really ever gotten me flowers before, except maybe once for my birthday a few years ago." He's suddenly sheepish, looking back up to meet his eyes. "Gosh, now I feel foolish. Here I came empty-handed when you were so thoughtful."

"You actually showed up, and that's a good start. Sit back down." He grins, taking a seat across the little table from him, and accepts the offered menu. "Have you already ordered?"

"I haven't! I didn't get here too terribly long before you did." That's a lie. He's been here for almost forty-five minutes, so afraid of being late and giving the impression that he doesn't care that he's been sipping on an ice water long enough to make the waiter come nervously check in on him three times. Devontae isn't even late; it's only twelve twenty-one, they weren't scheduled to start their date until twelve thirty-ish, his suggested "ish" granting wiggle room on either side to give flexibility to being late without being late.

"Excellent! I always appreciate punctuality." He looks over the menu, brow furrowing slightly as he takes in the options. "Have you been here before?"

"I haven't! But they had good reviews, and I, uh--well, I'd kind of thought you had suggested it, actually. Matt just told me on Monday that I had Thursday plans, and only told me yesterday what, where, and when." He can't help the nervous, awkward little laugh that bubbles up from his throat when Devontae looks up from his menu in bewilderment.

"Oh! They didn't even--" He smiles ruefully, taking off his glasses to pinch the bridge of his nose. "You know, that does sound like something they'd do." His smile is sympathetic when he replaces his glasses and looks back to him. "I'm sorry that they did that. They're known to be a little...overenthusiastic, sometimes."

"I'm sure they meant well, I was just surprised to hear that I had a, uhm, date all planned out for me." He sniffs, reaches up to rub at his nose as subtly as he can manage. The antihistamines he took this morning were doing a decent enough job at dealing with the ambient pollen from the mere fact that it's springtime, a tad itchy but more than manageable, but they're already pretty well wearing off, he thinks, and the addition of the bouquet, beautiful as it is, is proving to be over the capacity of a single dose of Costco's off-brand Benadryl.

"I take it you don't do this sort of thing often?"

"A blind date? No." He laughs, takes a sip of his water to ease the scratchy feeling in his throat. "I'll be honest, I don't even go on planned dates very often, let alone something so spontaneous done for me."

"Colleen mentioned that she didn't think you were much one for the dating scene."

"Did she tell you why?"

Devontae takes a sip of his own water, eyes on the menu to ease the pressure of being watched as he speaks, voice low and thoughtful like coaxing a spooked animal. "She mentioned you're divorced, and that it was nasty business."

"I guess you could call it that." He drops his eyes to his hands, fidgeting with his rolled silverware for something to occupy them. "Did she, uh, mention that I'm a parent? That the ex-husband is still in the picture at least a little bit?"

"They didn't mention that, no." Devontae doesn't seem entirely comfortable, the weird tension broken by the waiter's realization that there's finally someone else at the table.

"Can I get anything started for either of you?"

The man rattles off the specials at a rate that makes his head spin, and he takes the opportunity to rub more roughly at his nose, hopeful that the conversation drowns out the worst of the liquidy sniffle. He's already decided he just wants a salad, something quick and cheap (but not here, good Lord), and easy to pack up in case things turn weird again and he is suddenly very urgently needed at Warren's school, so sorry, gotta go!

The waiter moves the bouquet a bit closer to reach across the table and take the menus. He can't help it--he sneezes. "Hh--TSHH'ue! Hih'TSHieww!" He manages to get an arm up in time to hastily duck into his elbow, but it's close.

"Bless you!"

He blushes and sniffles again, making a conscious effort not to unroll his silverware to steal the napkin just yet. "Thank you! Sorry--snf!--you were saying something, right?"

"I was just going to say that I hoped it wasn't too presumptuous to get some bruschetta to share. You seemed a little distracted." His expression is so warm that he can't help but relax a little from it.

"I don't mind at all, you've got great taste." He pinches at his nose, somewhat distracted still by the way the prickling irritation is lingering in the back of it. "Other than that, I still don't--snff!--think I really know anything about you. Tell me a little about you--what do you do?"

He grins, adjusts his glasses a bit, and brushes his hair back from where it's falling boyishly forward towards the space he's disrupted with the action. "Would you believe that I'm a teacher?"

"Oh! That's so lovely, I--snff!--excuse me--I have a lot of respect for teachers. What grade do you teach?"

"I teach art at the high school across town. It's not the most glamorous thing, I'm definitely not making life changing money, but I love what I do. Working with kids and seeing them absolutely light up when they've found something that they love doing is just phenomenal."

"That's so--hh-! So--hH'IISSHH'yue! yiISSHHiew! Hh...hiH-! hiITSSHH'ue! ...oh my gosh, please excuse me--snF!--I think that's amazing. I can only imagine how gratifying it must be to--snff!--get to do something that's so meaningful to you."

"Man, bless you! I guess I've got a taste of what that wedding was like for you."

He flushes crimson, face half hidden behind his napkin. "They told you about that but not that I'm a father?"

"They did, but that's not what's important here. Are you getting sick? Do you want to raincheck this so you can go home and rest?"

"Oh." He blows his nose as softly as he can possibly manage. "Uhm, no, it's allergies."

It registers on his face as he glances towards the bouquet on the table. "Oh. Here, I'm sorry, let me take those--"

"No!"

"No?"

"I want them."

"I guess I can't stop you, then."

"I know this sounds ridiculous, but they just--I don't get flowers much. You were so thoughtful to get them for me, and they're so pretty, and I want to keep them." He picks them up and holds them protectively against his chest. A foolish move, he knows, but the idea of losing them just breaks his heart.

Devontae shows his palms in a gesture of mock surrender with a shrug. "Far be it from me to try and take them if you want them. They were a gift, you can do whatever you want with them. I will, however," he reaches into his pocket, and slides a travel packet of tissues across the tabletop, "give you these."

"You just carry tissues with you?"

"Never know when they might be handy in springtime."

"A man after my own heart." He accepts them gratefully, setting the bouquet back into an empty chair to give it a little space, and scrubs at a reddened nose that's running like a river. "I would've taken a second pill if I'd been expecting anything."

"That unfortunately ruins the 'surprise' portion until you develop that clairvoyance." He rests his chin on his hand, leaning forward a bit. "But you still haven't told me what you do. Oh--thank you." Their appetizer is set between them, and neither of them waits long to try one.

"Oh! You're right, I'm sorry. I'd forget my head if it wasn't attached to the rest of me. It's, uh, not really much to brag about. I work in a warehouse a little ways out of town. The Captain--uh, I mean, he's not a captain anymore, but I swear on my momma's grave if you think the word 'sea captain' he looks like he just stepped out of an oil painting after making love to the Gorton's fisherman--he owns and operates the warehouse, but he leases space to local business that need it, and then we take care of the storage and getting things moved to where they've gotta go for orders and stuff. I'm hardly gonna have anybody from the paper interviewing because it's so cool and mysterious and interesting of a job, but it's union, and it pays the bills, and I'm really lucky to work for someone that cares so well about everybody working for him."

"Everything is interesting if you look at it the right way." He reaches across the table, takes the hand that isn't busy fussing with his nose, and brushes a thumb over his knuckles. "I'm sorry about your mom."

"Oh, it's fine--I mean--I don't know, it's been awhile since they've passed, I've kind of made my peace with it by this point. I didn't mean to, uhm--I mean, it's kind of a bummer for a first date, I'm sorry."

"No need to be sorry. Why don't we talk about something else?"

"That might be n--hh-? sorryI'mgonna--hIH--! hyEISSHHue! 'TSHieww! hiISSHHyue! yiISSHH'uhh! hH--!? ...guh! SNF! Oh my gosh, excuse me." Devontae hasn't released his hand this whole time, just holding it through the fit even when he'd gotten distracted enough to not really be holding back, and he blushes at the idea that he may be so accommodating as to do this always. "I hope it doesn't--ohholdon--heITSSHHyue! ISSHHuue! Oh my gosh, sorry. It's uhm--snff!--I hope this isn't too offputting, if this is a deal-breaker for you then you should know right now that it's, uh--what I mean to say is that this is sort of a constant, so if it's too terribly--" he winces, "--icky, I guess, that's fine and it won't hurt my feelings if you'd rather not deal with it."

"Elliott."

"Yeah?"

"It's allergies. I don't think that that, or a cold, or whatever else is gonna be a deal-breaker for most people. But I'm gonna be honest. You seem like a very nice guy, but I don't know if this is really what I'm looking for."

"Oh."

"I don't want you to think it's anything against you--"

"No, I understand--"

"You don't, because you haven't let me explain it to you." He...has a point. He nods in assent, gesturing vaguely to give him the floor. "Thank you. Like I was saying: I don't want you to think that it's anything against you, because I can already tell that you've got a lot going on inside that heart of yours, and it's not because you're 'icky' or 'gross' or whatever else."

"...okay?"

"But I don't think, as well-intentioned as they were, that they really gave us much of a chance for this romantically. Because, no, Colleen didn't mention that you're a parent. And I'm sure your kid is fantastic! But even if they were the most angelic creature on the planet, I'm just not looking for that kind of responsibility right now. I don't wanna be a dad, and I also don't wanna be the dad's boyfriend that doesn't let the kid be around, or only comes around when they aren't, because that isn't fair to either of you either."

"I get it. I'll, uhm--I can just cover the bill, if we're done here."

"I don't see any reason why we can't still enjoy our lunch. We've already put in for an appetizer, and even if we aren't going to date, that doesn't mean we couldn't still get to know eachother. We've already got mutual friends--or acquaintances, at the very least--and who knows? Maybe somewhere down the line we might decide we wanna give this another shot when things are different."

"I uhm...I guess that makes sense, yeah. I'd be silly to deny a friend just because you may not be a boyfriend." It feels odd to admit, but aside from the initial gut punch of rejection, there's something...kind of relieving about this no longer being a date. No fear that he may be ruining his chances or romantic prospects. "If you do find someone, they're going to be lucky to have you."

"Aw, nah, but you're a sweetheart for saying it. So, I actually am kind of interested in what you do. What's your boss just doing owning a warehouse to be able to lease the storage to people?"

"So, the thing is, he used to be a sea captain, had his own ship and everything. but he decided after awhile that that kind of thing was better left to..." The tickle is toying with him, now, making him falter enough to actually bring up a curled hand to rub a knuckle beneath flushed nostrils. "Hold on...I'm going to sneeze."

He laughs and leans back, crossing his arms over his chest while he waits. "I can tell."

He can't help but mirror the grin, though it melts quickly into a look of anticipation, jaw slack and brows pinched in irritation as he wills this thing to hurry up and do something. He rarely finds himself with an issue of not sneezing, so it's frustrating in the rare instances that he gets much warning, but especially a lot of it that leaves him just sitting in limbo as he waits for it. He rubs at his eyes--he shouldn't, he knows it, but he can't help it, trying to both wipe away the tears that have already spilled down over his cheeks and to soothe the itchy, gritty feeling. "Sorry."

"For what? Like I said, I don't mind. Allergies seem like a killer, you're braver than me for dealing with them. Especially willingly." He inclines his head towards the flowers in the chair between them. "Does this happen often?"

"No, actually." He laughs, a light, mirthless little thing. "That's kind of the problem."

"Do you--"

"eiISSHHuh! hH'TSSHHieww! hyYIITSSH'uhh! hHTSSHH'hue!" His lashes flutter, wavering on the edge of relief as the tickle hovers right on the brink of letting him sneeze. Damp nostrils scrunch and flare, before a little sniff seems to do the trick. "hiiSSHH'ue! 'TSSHHhyue! Hh-! Hih--!? ...guh!"

"You poor thing." Devontae brushes the hair back from his face, eyes crinkled in concern as he looks him over. He's sure he must look horrible, all mascara streaked, itchy misery, nose the same shade as the tomatoes on their food. "You said you already took something?"

He blows his nose, embarrassed both from the attention and from how dreadfully wet it sounds. "I did, yeah. It's, uhm--it's kind of a whole thing. It's already mostly out of my system, though--I was probably going to be pretty sniffly soon here anyway. You don't have to worry about it, it's just allergies, they're not gonna kill me."

"Are you gonna be able to drive like this?"

"That is a great question! I think so. And--snff!--worst comes to worse, I live close enough to walk back home and can come back for my car after a shower or something." He can feel how raw his nose is getting from the extra attention on top of the springtime irritation that he hasn't gone away for weeks, now. "I don't want to make this a huge thing, but I might--hh-? ...snf! I might just pay for the food and--andthenhH--! hHYIISSHHuhh! ISSHHue!"

"You will absolutely not be paying, nor am I letting you walk back like this." He gently takes Elliott's elbow and helps him to stand, still occupied by the fit that's taking its sweet time to resolve. "Come on, up we get. Let's get a move on."

He guides him out, pausing by the door just long enough to stop by the front and hand over a few bills to cover the food they've packed up, and then shepherd him out the door. Despite his best efforts, he doesn't respond except to sneeze again, an absolutely sodden triple that doesn't even make a dent in the itch that's invaded every inch of his sinuses and anything else it can get itself wormed into.

"Bless you. You'll have to tell me where I'm going. Just point if you can't get the words."

It is probably not helping, he thinks, that every time he snaps down he is just getting his face that much closer to the bouquet bundled in one arm, practically burying his nose into the soft, fragrant petal each time, but his other arm has been taken, and he doesn't have any other choice unless he wants to turn towards Devontae to sneeze rather than away from him. He can't help the situation much, unless he's willing to give them up, and he'd rather spend the next week sneezing like this than to lose such a kind-hearted and profoundly thoughtful gesture, not to mention how much he's sure they must have caught, given the price of flowers nowadays! No, he'll be fine once he's showered and taken something, and then he'll be able to enjoy how pretty they are until they fade on their own.

He manages to point in the direction of his building, to choke out "few blocks" and "that way" between the desperate sneezes that have him suddenly regretting the choice of a dress, afraid he's at risk of folding in on himself too far and flashing his drawers to anyone behind them. The thought is mortifying. He's never had fantastic posture, always awkwardly slouched or curled in on himself to be a little smaller, take up a little less space, but right now it is as ramrod as he can make it.

He only barely bothers to buckle, the flowers gingerly taken from his arms to grant him the ability to not be practically snorting a line of pollen the entire way there, but also to give him hands to shudder into. It's far from the ideal solution, but he's already reduced the remaining few travel tissues to sodden pulp, and it's better to make a mess of himself than someone else's car--especially when he's going way out of his way to be so kind to him and take him home like this.

"Oh, Ell, are you still going? You poor fucking thing." He rubs his shoulder affectionately, and earns a somewhat breathless groan of defeat in response.

"You should've seen--h-huH'HEISSHhue! hyISSHHieww! Ohh...should've seen the only time my husband ever--ESSHHyue!--took me to the--heIISSHHieww!--the botanical gardens. Snff! Famous last words but I--snff!--think I'm done for now."

He laughs, looking over at him. "I cannot imagine that went well if a bouquet has you this bad."

"To my credit, I d-didn't--snfff!--anticipate this. That I had the forewarning and forethought to be able to take something before we--SNF!--before we went. But we were there way longer than we expected, and as nice as it was to have a date go unexpectedly long, I was a fright by the time we got me out of there." It's a fond memory, horrible allergies aside. One of few he can remember going on at all, but especially that was so genuinely pleasant to have been on.

"Maybe someday you'll give it a shot again?"

"I hope so. It'd be nice to go back and see what they've done with it lately." He points hastily, realizing he's gotten too caught up in the reverie. "Oh! Turn right here. It's the, uh, building back on the corner back there. You can--snF!--get into the lot from this side, the other side's a nightmare since they still haven't fixed that pothole that I think I could get lost inside of."

"You're what, six foot at least?"

"Six-three."

"That should be illegal. I was feeling pretty good about being five-eleven."

"You should see me with my daughter's mom--long story--she's four-eleven."

"That's minuscule. Here?"

"Yeah. You can, uhm--snff!--park anywhere you want--or you don't even have to bother! I can just get out and let you go. There's no point in making you find a spot just to get out."

"It's really not a big deal. I don't have to walk you to your apartment if you wouldn't feel good about me knowing where you live, but you're not putting me out any just to park or anything." He makes the choice for them, pulling into an empty spot and throwing it in park. "So! This was nice, right? We'll have to try lunch again another time, when we both know what we're getting into."

"Should I expect flowers?"

It's a joke, but Devontae smiles at him, some dreamy, half lidded thing that makes heat rush to his cheeks. "You should."

He laughs, dropping his gaze to his lap. "Why? It won't be a date."

"Yeah, but you love them. Why not? It'd be nice to see you smile a little more and apologize a little less." He takes one of Elliott's hands, ignoring the streaks of moisture along the skirt of his sundress where he's wiped them off, and gives it a gentle squeeze. "You take care of yourself, y'hear? I'll be keeping tabs on stories with you in them."

"I will." He reaches back and takes the flowers again, then looks unsure of himself as he leans forward, then back, awkwardly having opened his arms for a hug and then thinking better of it. What's the protocol for a date that's no longer a date, even if it hasn't gone badly?

He pulls him into a half hug, gives him a firm squeeze, and releases him. "You can take the bruschetta with you, it won't be any good by the time I get home."

"Right."

He's almost to the stairway when he hears Devontae yell from the window, paused in the middle of the lane. "Hey, Elliott!"

"Yeah?"

"Bless you, for the rest of the week!"

#this guy is so girlfriend to me. absolutely in love with him #I don't usually write a ton of allergies so hopefully this is still acceptable lol #unbeta'd as always #snzfic #sickfic #snz #Elliott fic

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noro-noro-noro · 3 months ago

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there are a few shades of makeup that i still would like to get at some point to round out my collection. i am making a post about this to release these desires into the wild so i no longer have them & feel zen. i only have to buy a birthday present or 2 for my sister.

back when i was still getting into makeup, i ended up with a lot of similar colors bc i'd just buy things i thought looked nice & then later comparing them would be like "oh boy another dark burgundy, or dark red, or a dark rose color. who would've ever guessed."

like they're fine colors. i like them for a reason. i do not need any more of these and in fact need to get rid of some. do you live in my area? i have several barely used lip products in these shades that i'd love to give away & can also donate 60% used up nail polishes that are still fine that i just do not use anymore.

i want one nude-ish lipstick but like a slightly purple or grayish one. are those called corpse nudes? the problem is that i'm not sure what any of these will look like unfiltered & swatched on someone who isn't EXTREMELY pale. i follow someone that's super pale that's always singing t he praises of these two specific ones, but i don't think they'll look remotely as good on me.

dramo01 might get me that slightly saturated (in comparison) but still nude-ish color, but it's hard to tell with them. i haven't bought from them before, so i'm not familiar with their formula. i was also interested in diana by unearthly cosmetics but that seems to be out of stock & not for sale on their site right now.

2. i want a sheer black lip balm. i bought one from abomination cosmetics but it's patchy & smells weird. i've tried smoking out a very small layer of two black lipsticks i have (one liquid matte & one more like a mud texture) with varying degrees of success, but it'd be a lot easier if i didn't have to get my hands dirty to blend them. also the mud one has 0 staying power & will end up all over my face if i'm not careful.

also there's a lot of sheer black glosses on the market & that's great but i heard romand is gonna eventually put out a black version of one of their juicy lip tints & i like that formula a lot so that'll be my gloss whenever that drops.

3. i've been trying to find a bubblegum pink lip product like just to have, but they always end up being way too "my lip but better" shade. i have a few too many of these.

4. we're onto eye products now. this should be obvious

5. dramo red shimmer eyeshadow. should also be obvious...though maybe i want a matte instead...? i do need a few more matte base colors....i have a lot of grayish purples & browns from the one expensive palette i bought last year (love it btw) & one rusty redish matte but might be nice to diversify...or i can just use my eyelinerp encils & scribble on that thing. doesn't really matter. i don't have that much eyelid space.

6. i've been hunting for a semi-sheer like yellow-green shimmer eyeshadow, or any like olive green shaded mini palette. i'm hesitant to buy something with more than 4 colors bc i hate the idea of anything going to waste if i don't like it. this palette by shedella is the closest i've foudn to something i like - here it is again in someone's photo, but no swatch photos at all. and i wouldn't use the white or the lime green. tch

i also saw a green quad i thought was alright at ulta a couple months ago, i think from juvia's place, but when i looked it up online it doesn't seem to be on sale anywhere either so fuck me ig. shoulda picked it up then.

& i have the cheeryep floating life palette (the gray and cool toned one mentioned above & swatched below) and i love it & they also have like a greenish one, but i do not need that many neutral shades. it's expensive. i'm only really interested in these 3 anyway.

but i KNOW i like the brand's quality. it's the best eyeshadow i've ever used. it could be a decent investment.... like might as well have some neutral mattes....especially from a brand i'm already familiar with & know for sure i love. it can't hurt!

except it CAN hurt because it costs $30 not including shipping. and then the little devil goes "well just order dramo01 & the red shimmer eyeshadow too & then put one more thing in so you reach free shipping at $50!" and then now i'm spending 50 dollars. enough!!!!! i will only make ONE makeup purchase per month & i've already done mine for this month!!! i'm also running out of counter space in bathroom for all the makeup i've accumulated over the past 5 years. i need to declutter & then focus on finding another storage solution.

7. i've been interested in pale blue/gray nail polishes with a red/pink shimmer, though this extends to blue with yellow too. i've bookmarked a lot of extremely similar nail polishes. i wish they had photos taken in non direct lighting. i want to see what the base color looks like with nothing else going on.

1: shleeepolish bride of fire, cloud my vision by emilydemolly, & praise the dog by bees knees 2: chalk on a sidewalk by death valley nails, cirque colors velvetine, ls#3 from clionadh but that's a set of 3 & i don't want the other 2.

8. had my eye on this one from mooncat for a while ever since i first thought about getting a magnet for magnetic nail polish, but ended up just buying from the same brand that sold the magnet (ILNP) to save on shipping.

9. ilnp warm amber.

genuinely this is one that's convinced me from the product photos & other people's swatches alone. i don't have a warm color like this & this is gorgeous & looks just like honey.

honorable nail polish desire mentions: a matte red (i had a LIDL brand that was good in one coat for a while but it went bad really quickly), some kind of vibrant & fun summer color since i mostly tend towards darker shades, & a chocolatey/coppery color for fall.

i'm always hesitant to buy new nail polishes though. a lot of the time i steal one from the store when i'm interested in a color & then i just have it there mocking me forever not getting used. there are only a few that i have that i use regularly because i really like them & those are ILNP eclipse, ILNP grand entrance, lights lacquer virgo, essie high voltage vinyl (THANK YOU TO THE MY FOLLOWER THAT SUGGESTED IT TO ME I KNOW AT THE TIME I WAS DOUBTFUL BC THE SWATCHES DIDN'T QUITE LOOK LIKE WHAT I WAS LOOKING FOR BUT I LOVE IT) & sally hansen hypnautical.

other than these shades, i also have the 2 magnetics i just bought (i like these) & i also have a bunch of drugstore brands that somehow keep showing up. i want to get rid of those.

if i go to my bathroom right now & count the number of things i don't want anymore, it's 17 things. 5 eye products (i learned i don't like the liquid eyeshadows or dip liners), 6 nail polishes (some are probably too old & need trashed but some just don't get used), & a mess of various lip products, half of which have barely been used. i want these things out of here. it'd be nice if they weren't wasted.

i don't really regret buying all these things though. i HAVE been accumulating things over 5 years. it's not like i do crazy hauls all the time - i think i've had like 4 makeup purchases total over $50 EVER. i like most of the things i get & i use them up.

i've learned a lot about my preferences too! lip stains/glazes are my favorite lip product to use because they're lightweight & fairly long lasting. lip muds feel nice on the lips but don't have the best longevity. i don't really like lipsticks like from the tube. or any liquid formula of anything really - i find it too hard to control, whether it's highlighter, eyeshadow, dip liner with brush tip, product where you twist up the liquid formula - absolutely not. i don't like anything "plumping" because my lips are big & beautiful enough already.

anyway yeah that's the main makeup things i've been thinking about purchasingggg yayyy..i also still want to preorder the OFF hat & poster ($70 with shipping) but it's soo EXPENSIVE ... and speaking of expensive i also want this ring but it's $85 & only goes down to $60 when it's on sale. also dont know how big my finger. but this is like way on the backburner ✌ it dont matter

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4 Color Suggestions for Romantic Bedroom Decoration

Romantic Bedroom one of the most crucial rooms in the house is the bedroom. We have offered color recommendations for calm and cozy bedrooms in our last two posts. The colors that can be utilized to create a romantic ambiance in the bedroom are the main topic of this essay bedroom decoration it will be great colors for you.

Ruby Red

Ruby red is a color of passion, whilst raspberry pink is a hue of enjoyment. Natural hues and light black accessories go well with ruby red.

It would be more suitable to use this color on one wall and pair it with light-toned hues in bedrooms that are small or have limited natural light.

Raspberry Pink

In a room painted this shade of reddish pink, it is quite difficult to sleep on edge with your lover. Warm-toned metal accessories (such as copper, bronze, or gold) or shades of this color will work well together. By utilizing a lot of white in the remaining parts of the space, you may finish the color. You can select a more subdued tone if the raspberry tone is too strong and dark. Without sacrificing the romantic structure of the hue, you can use a matte, somewhat lighter tone in place of a brilliant one to create a more cozy and serene space.

Blackk

Beyond pink and red, black may add a great deal of heat to the bedroom. However, because it absorbs too much light, it may give the impression that the space is too tiny. As a result, it works well on a single wall and in spacious spaces. The space will also require excellent lighting. Using black for flooring is an additional option if you prefer the look of black but your space is small. A straightforward yet powerful solution is to have white walls encircling a black floor.

Caramel

One of the hues that makes people feel sweet and nice is this one. However, using orange-ish tones instead of caramel-brown tones might be more acceptable when selecting this color in particular. Caramel-like browns can look like mud, especially in dimly lit spaces.

If you are looking for a lighter and brighter tone, a peachy tone can give nice results. Ideas for a Romantic Bedroom With the room's armchairs, you can at least allow for some movement. Night lights can help you establish a space in your room where you can move about comfortably. You might try to make the most of your space because the bedroom is small. You can make use of any long shelves that are mounted on the walls. By arranging a variety of items on these shelves, you may fill in the empty spaces in your room. Your bedroom with your significant other will inspire you to create a cozy space with calming and fashionable décor and to decompress from the stresses of the day. This article offers thoughts and ideas for decorating a romantic bedroom. The furniture in your bedroom is too heavy to be painted. How about replacing a few shelves, chairs or poltrons? What are the romantic touches that your bedroom needs to be romantic? First of all, we recommend that you do not have too many color schemes in your bedroom.

Therefore, you can occasionally use these colors on closet doors, armchairs, and drapes to incorporate them into your bedroom. We advise against the use of pink, green, and blue hues. Although these hues seem to be reassuring, they also sabotage romance. Every property is meticulously designed to feature a cozy bedroom. Another crucial element in this context is providing the chance to have a variety of exquisite furniture designs next to the bed that are appropriate for reading a book, watching television, and receiving radio signals. To create a bedroom decoration that is both enjoyable and practical, you will need to choose from different designs and models. For this reason, everyone should choose a home furniture that suits their needs. To create a seating group, a large shade stool or a small armchair is a great way to use in a bedroom. On either side, a specially designed table or coffee table will create an ideal spot for couples to sit while chatting together. The most crucial elements that maintain a marriage are love, desire, and affection. Couples can grow closer by expressing their feelings to each other in a healthy way and by acknowledging that the other person is interested in you. One of the elements in building a strong foundation for a marriage is this circumstance. Romantic Bedroom are a great way to properly show the other person how much you care. It is simple to create a romantic environment in the bedroom, which is one of the most private and comfortable places for many individuals. Although both sexes seek a private space to discuss their emotions and relationships, women typically prefer more romantic settings. Read the full article

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I’d say 90% of the time I work with an over 40 client, they say, “Can you just make me look not so TIRED?!” or, “I want you to make my eyes POP because they seem to disappear into my face!” I’d say that in order to not look so exhausted (because aren’t we all exhausted??), when it comes to doing makeup, the eyes are always my main focus. So yes, our makeup bags can contain pro-aging powers! Of course it goes without saying that a consistent skincare routine is one of your major secret weapons when it comes to a more vibrant face. But you can also use makeup to really take a few years off, especially with the eye area. Ahead, you’ll find a few really great tools and makeup tricks I’ve picked up through the years that work for almost every gal with aging eyes that are going a bit droopy or hooded. I guarantee, they’ll step up your makeup game—and help you look as young as you feel! Keep scrolling to see your eye makeup checklist… Turn on your JavaScript to view content Eye Bed Prep You’ll need: Clarins Total Eye Lift Concentrate, $92 + LUMIFY redness eye drops, $22. It just makes sense to hydrate the crepey skin around the eyes first before any makeup is applied. This is one of only a handful of eye creams that I actually bother using, and it contains a visibly lifting and smoothing plant duo exclusive to Clarins. Apply a few drops of it all around the eye bed, let them sit for a few seconds, then tap them into the surrounding skin with your middle or ring finger until it dries down and you feel a slight lift! And also, whiten the whites of those eyes ladies! It’s just like I preach about whitening our teeth as we age – dull teeth and red or yellow eyes IMMEDIATELY ages you! So fix these two things first. No makeup skills required. I just paid a visit to the eye doctor (you can watch my reel about this much needed trip + my new glasses on my Instagram here) and made sure it’s okay how much I use the Bausch + Lomb drops and she said 100% they’re wonderful and she uses them herself! Turn on your JavaScript to view content Prime & Paint You’ll need: Fenty Beauty Bright Fix Eye Brightener, $28, Colourpop Stone Cold Fox palette, $35. The first thing makeup wise, is to brighten and prime your upper and lower eyelids. Doing that with this Fenty eye brightener is an easy way to do so. And if you just hate concealer, using this product will brighten in a sheer way that could help you omit the concealer step if your dark circles aren’t too bad. I apply it onto the entire upper lid as a primer and then a few dots underneath, just using my finger – I’m using color “crepe.” Then when it comes to shadow, you ladies who have been here a while know I swear by this palette for its great mix of wearable neutrals, shimmers, and mattes. Apply a nude or ivory shape all over the lid, heavy under the brow bone for lift. Then take your pick or warm or cool browns/taupes and highlight the outer corners of the eye bed in a sideways V fashion.This creates enough depth and dimension without overloading your eyebed with too much dark shadow. Line Up You’ll need : NYX Epic Wear Liner stick, shade “Berry Goth,” $9 + tarte Fake Awake pencil, shade “nude,” $24, BK Beauty precision liner brush, $15. Want the key to really pretty eyeliner that looks smooth and straight? Apply your traditional pencil liner as usual. But then grab an eyeliner brush and a matching shadow shade (that closely matches your liner, I used a deep mauve shade from the Colourpop palette) then swipe the brush + shadow over the pencil, back and forth until the liner looks like a smooth line with no jagged peaks. It works so well! Bonus points if you tightline the upper lash line with your pencil. I used a purple-ish shade, “Berry Goth” here, which honestly, this type of color looks good on all eye colors and is more fun than traditional brown or black. Then grab your nude eyeliner, and swipe along the inner lower water line to further make the whites of the eyes appear wider and brighter. One of my very favorite eye makeup tricks. Turn on your JavaScript to view content Curl Up You’ll need: Shiseido eyelash curler, $27 + Maybelline Falsies Surreal Mascara, $13. It bears repeating. Curl your eyelashes, no matter how short. Give them the pushup bra effect. Then coat them in your favorite mascara. Simple as that. I am in awe of the volume that this latest Maybelline mascara can do for sad skimpy lashes!! What Dark Circles? You’ll need: Dior Backstage concealer, $32 + Laura Mercier Ultra Blur Talc -Free loose powder, $26. If you have aging eyes, you’ll love love this Dior formula because of how hydrating and non-cakey it is, and the brush is so precise!! I’m wearing shade 3N. Apply it specifically where you see the hollows of your eyes (not below those) and then into the inner corner of the eye bed next to your nose. Then further brighten and secure that creamy concealer in place with a few touches of loose powder. I do like the pale rose shade of the iconic Laura Mercier powder for adding on top of my concealer for fair to light-medium skin gals, and their honey shade for medium skin, and the medium deep for darker skin. These two Real Techniques brushes are great for applying the concealer here, $6, and the loose setting powder brush, $9, in small areas. Take a small brush or a Q-tip, and dip in a pale shimmer shade of shadow or highlighter, and lightly tap it around the tear duct area for extra bright eyes! Turn on your JavaScript to view content Feel free to just try one or two of these tricks for more awake eyes. Anything helps! But for the full impact, do them all together and see how many compliments you get on your peepers! The Rest of My Look Details My lavender oversized Amazon henley sweatshirt, $36, covers the butt, which I like when wearing leggings! // The Spanx denim jean-ish leggings, are just the best and currently on sale, $60 // My Baublebar colorful semi precious stone beaded necklace with initial gets worn quite often and makes a thoughtful gift for her, $48// L’oreal Paradise Glow in Balm lipstick, $9, shade “Mulberry Bliss” is my new running out of the door shade! If you didn’t catch last week’s post, Spring starts officially on March 20th, so let’s get excited because it’s all about 5 makeup things you should be adding to your spring mood board About The Author Jennifer Duvall Jennifer is our beauty & makeup contributor. She posts a weekly column on Saturdays She also runs her own website & YouTube channel, which you can find by clicking below. Source link

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{ JOSH HEUSTON, 21, CISGENDER MALE, HE/HIM } Is that NATHANIEL SHAW? A JUNIOR originally from SAG HARBOR, NY, they decided to come to Ogden College to study UNDECIDED on an ATHLETIC SCHOLARSHIP. They’re THE BRUISER WITH A SOFT CENTER on campus, but even they could get blamed for Greer’s disappearance.

THE ESSENTIALS

Nathaniel Shaw hates rich people. Raised in a poor family, by an on-and-off single mother thanks to his absentee father, he had to work for every single cent he’s ever had. He dealt with this with bitterness and resentment, choosing to take it out by punching whoever pissed him off, getting into fights and trouble more often than not as he was growing up. With his athletic talents, it was enough to get him a scholarship to Ogden, but not enough that he’d ever get the chip off his shoulder about being the poor kid around the unbelievably wealthy. He’s over-sensitive, withdrawn, and tactless, but if you get on his good side, he may just allow you to share his weed and show that underneath that, he does have a pisces stellium, and does in fact have feelings beyond just letting them get hurt so he can start hitting people.

CHARACTER INSPIRATIONS

ryan atwood (the oc) - billy dunne (daisy jones and the six) - nate macauley (one of us is lying) - marcus baker (ginny and georgia) - jj maybank (obx) - william magnusson (skam) - tim riggins (fnl) - jess (gilmore girls) - matt murdock (daredevil) - johnny castle (dirty dancing) - the ninth doctor (doctor who) - roy kent (ted lasso) - the hound (game of thrones) - diego hargreeves (the umbrella academy) - john bender (the breakfast club) - alex karev (grey’s anatomy)

TV TROPES

BRUISER WITH A SOFT CENTER - dark and troubled past - the stoner - byronic hero - abusive parents - disappeared dad - fish out of water - scholarship student - the casanova - jerk jock - delinquents - book dumb - tall dark and snarky - sour outside sad inside - hidden depths

OGDEN COLLEGE 2022-2023

Major:

Engineering Undecided

Extracurriculars:

Swimming, Crew, Boxing Club

BASIC INFORMATION

FULL NAME: Nathaniel Shaw

NICKNAME(S): Nate, Natey (only from his younger sister, if anyone else calls him that, they’re consenting to be punched in the face)

DATE OF BIRTH: march 23rd, 2001

AGE: twenty-one

ZODIAC SIGN: aries sun, pisces moon, aries rising, pisces mercury, pisces venus (in retrograde), aries mars. have fun!

OCCUPATION: ????????????? part time pool boy, illegal street fighter. idk beyond that

HOMETOWN: sag harbor, ny/melbourne, australia

NATIONALITY: american and australian dual citizen

ETHNICITY: a white man?! no!.gif

LANGUAGE(S): english

GENDER & PRONOUNS: he/him

SEXUAL ORIENTATION: straight, to make it worse

RELIGION: definitely an atheist

POLITICAL AFFILIATION: i don’t think he has political opinions other than eat the rich

RELATIONSHIP TO GREER: he was the Morrison family’s pool boy out in the Hamptons lmfao

PHYSICAL INFORMATION

FACE CLAIM: Josh Heuston

HEIGHT: 6′5″

EYE COLOUR: green

HAIR COLOUR + STYLE: dark brown, worn long-ish like this or maybe occasionally…..like this (yes, the mullet, sorry)

ACCENT + INTENSITY: Australian - it comes and goes with how strong it is. He lived in Melbourne from age 3-15, so it’s definitely there, but it also is faded at this point, especially on certain words, though it can definitely come out stronger as well

TATTOO(S): here

SCAR(S): probably a lot

PIERCING(S): one in each ear lobe - wears a plain gold hoop in them

GLASSES: yes, a la this photo, but he doesn’t wear them 99% of the time. is this man just wandering around blind? very possibly

CLOTHING STYLE: honestly i imagine a lot like Jacob Elordi’s more lowkey style which is cool - something like this, this, this, this, or this. def including the rings too 🥲

PERSONALITY

MBTI TYPE: INFJ

POSITIVE TRAITS: passionate, loyal, independent, honest, brave

NEGATIVE TRAITS: all of them. over-sensitive, short-tempered, aggressive, pessimistic, cynical, crass, withdrawn, resentful, impatient, reckless, (overly) competitive, attention seeking, tactless, brash, intense, aloof

GOALS/DESIRES: (suicide tw) literally nate barely even wants to be alive, so no, he doesn’t have any goals

FEARS: turning into his father

HOBBIES: ….smoking weed, contemplating the misery of his existence, punching people in the face, fucking bitches and getting money (except the money part because he’s poor), playing the guitar/lowkey fucking around with music production

HABITS: his habits include smoking a joint daily, punching whoever pisses him off, scowling when people speak to him……there’s probs more but that’s what i got tbh

SMOKES? weed, constantly.

DRINKS? most definitely

DRUGS? has dabbled, but will certainly get worse if the plots i want work out

HOW THEY EMBODY THEIR TROPE:

Nate is the BRUISER WITH A SOFT CENTER because, at the end of the day, he is far more sensitive than he will ever let on. Everything hurts this Pisces moon, even as he glowers and glares, and yes, punches his way through them. He’s quick to react with anger - which often translates into violence - all while hiding how things are constantly hurting him. It’s easier to ignore it, because there’s nothing he can do. It’s just the hand he was dealt. And if he’s good at anything (which he still thinks may be debatable), it’s throwing a punch.

EXPANDED PERSONALITY:

Most of Nate’s personality is negative. Even what could be a positive trait (such as competitiveness, honesty, sensitivity, intensity….) he tends to turn it up to 1000 until it’s damaging. But honestly, most of it just negative to start with. He’s very withdrawn and broody, spends most of his time and interactions just glowering at people, and yet has an extremely short fuse, so will go from no reaction to swinging in the blink of an eye. he basically throws tantrums like a toddler, albeit a very large, 6′5″ toddler who actually knows how to fight.

However, he is extremely loyal if he decides someone is worth it - spoiler alert, most people aren’t - he will be there for them in the best way Nate knows how. Still tactless, but like, he tries his best. Basically his way of showing emotional support is being like so, uh, you wanna smoke a joint? Because at the end of the day, Nate is not very smart. Emotionally, or in a book smart sense. He can come off a bit of a himbo, just with his attempts to be charming and flirt with women (when he wants to). Plus he’s hot. And he knows it. And isn’t afraid to use it.

When it comes to women (ladies, please run), Nate likes to be pursued. He hates having to make the first move - probably due to of feeling like he isn’t worth it, more on that below - and he will flirt, charm, seduce, but when it actually comes down to it, he wants the other person to make that final leap. Some sort of validation or something. He likes when girls pay attention to him, and tries to coax it out of them. However, he also has a lot of resentment towards his mother for chasing after his father and bending over backwards to try to make things work, so he also loses interest as soon as a girl is too interested. And when he loses interest, he won’t say anything, he’ll just ghost or cheat. The only kind of confrontation Natey boi is good at is one that involves his fists.

His default way of connecting with people is...well, sex. Nate has no examples of a healthy emotional relationship, and he isn’t good at making friends, so typically, when a girl wants to get close to him, he fakes intimacy with his head between their legs, making them feel like they have him because he’s sleeping with them. Like he’s open and connected to them just because they boned. In reality, it’s just his way of avoiding the emotional intimacy he’s petrified of, because he knows it’ll come back to hurt him. The only downside to all that is the rare times he does want to emotionally connect with someone, he has no idea how to. All he knows how to offer is his body, really.

Nate’s very dry, prone to swearing (he did grow up in Australia), and his sense of humor is very deadpan. If you actually talk to him, you realize there’s a lot of sarcasm in his cynicism, put the issue is that he’s extremely withdrawn from most people, and honestly doesn’t even see the point in having conversations with them. He also uses this to hide a lot of his fundamental insecurities - he genuinely feels like he’s not going to amount to much, mostly because he’s been made to feel that way. He acts brash and confident, but he really does struggle with feeling like he’s worth anything. It’s part of why he gets so over-competitive, because he wants to prove he’s good at something.

CONNECTION IDEAS

CONNECTION PAGE TBD

always down to brainstorm and put nate into anything that would fit !!

RELATIONSHIP WITH GREER:

When the Shaw family moved back to Sag Harbor from Australia, where Nate’s mother grew up, they instantly realized they were not on the same class playing feel as everyone else. They had never been wealthy. Four children and barely steady incomes from their parents - when they were even together - guaranteed that. The kids all realized pretty quickly they were going to have to get jobs, especially now that their father was completely out of the picture. Nate ended up working for a few families who ‘summered’ (god, he hated that word) nearby, working as a pool boy. One of those families…yeah, you guessed it, was the Morrison’s. Greer took interest in the pretty Australian pool boy who was her age, inviting him along to join some of the parties she and her friends had, despite him being her family’s staff. No way was that going to end badly.

Also, they may have hooked up a time or two their senior year of high school. But that’s irrelevant.

FAMILY

family page tbd

SOCIAL CLASS: lower class

FATHER: Luke Shaw (Bradley Cooper)

MOTHER: Ella Shaw, née Finnegan (Minka Kelly)

SIBLING(S)? 3 - older brother; Liam Shaw (Steven R. McQueen), older sister; Melanie Shaw (Alycia Debnam-Carey), and a younger sister; Quentin Shaw (Emily Carey). Plus one surprise half-sister; Navy James (Kendall Jenner)

CHILDREN? do not let this man reproduce no matter what you do

BIOGRAPHY

Nathaniel Shaw is the 3rd of four children to a very unhappy couple. Ella was twenty, and Luke, her very new Australian boyfriend - a deadbeat musician who wasted any money he got on drugs and alcohol - was twenty-seven, when they got pregnant the first time, and spent the next five years popping out four children. Ella was from Sag Harbor (aka the Hamptons), and she planned on raising her children there, but when Nate was three years old (Finnegan, the youngest, was two), Luke decided to go back to Australia, not giving many fucks if Ella and his children came with them. Ella, having felt like the last seven years of her life would be a waste if she let him walk away, despite their tumultuous, on and off again relationship, picked up the four kids, moved them to Melbourne with their father, and married him. Even married, they broke up a lot, Luke going off and disappearing for months at a time. Ella was inattentive, cold, and distant to her children, even though it never managed to extend to their asshole of a father. All of her emotional output was in that relationship, and her four Shaw siblings ended up holding themselves together to raise each other.

When Nate was fifteen, after twelve years in Australian, Ella decided she had enough, moved back to Sag Harbor, and immediately began the process to divorce Luke. The sibling’s were all shocked, a move around the world confusing enough when you’re a toddler, but nearly impossible for teenagers. Especially for lower class teenagers moving into a place like Sag Harbor, where people - the people who actually lived there - were comparable to them, but there were mansions worth millions of dollars, celebrities, and whole shit ton of wealth that came there to vacation. Nate took the move the hardest, and he started getting into a lot of fights while refusing to adjust. Nate and Liam had always had a rough relationship, and brawled as siblings do, though they tended to get more violent - egged on by their father, who could contribute little, but could contribute how to throw a punch.

After a few months, one of his fights ended up constituting as assault. It was bad enough, and the other kid had no chance to get any fighting back, so Nate ended up in juvie. He had no idea what he was going to do - he knew his mother couldn’t afford to pay for a lawyer, and he pretty much resigned himself to staying in there for however long he got sentenced for. Luckily, the charges were dropped, which would make you think would scare him straight - perhaps get him to stop fighting, but no such luck. Instead, all through high school, Nate had a bit of a reputation. He was a stellar athlete, particularly in swimming, but even more than that, he was spectacular at kicking someone’s ass.

That reputation quickly got him an invite into an illicit fighting ring, which, as you can imagine in the Hamptons, ended up having a lot of money thrown around as bets. Did he enjoy making these rich kids even more money? No, he didn’t. But, he was a surefire bet to win. And what that meant was that he got a cut of the money for himself too. And as desperate as Nate was for money, that was worth it. Plus, the fact that he had no healthy emotional outlet, well...fighting with people was a good way to let it all out. But it got him a reputation for being dangerous, and it got the Hamptons vacationites intrigued to say the least. So he started getting a lot of invites to hang out with them, to go to parties, to be part of the in crowd. When rich kids - like Greer Morrison - were in the Hamptons for the summer, or sneaking out there during various other vacations to party with no supervision, Nate (and often his siblings) would be invited along. And for the first couple years being in Sag Harbor, as a sophomore, a junior....he was fine with it. But as he got older, as he got more aware of the opportunities they would always be presented that he would never even get a chance to sniff at, he grew resentful, he grew bitter, and he grew to hate them.

All of that came to a head early in the fall of his senior year, when they were having a back to school party in a home that was still being built, music blasting and copious amounts of drugs and alcohol. Of course, young and feeling invincible, no one ever expected for them to be caught. But they were when they accidentally threw a still lit joint out, setting the house ablaze like it was kindling. Honestly, at that point of construction? It basically was. And every single kid there - except for Nate - had rich, influential parents who pulled strings to get them out of trouble. Except for Nate. And he took the fall for it, almost ending up in serious trouble, until he threatened to rat out one of the kids who was there with him. Who’s parent happened to work in law. Then, mysteriously, the trouble mostly went away. But it was still known that he had burned that building down, and invitations from the top schools that had been courting him disappeared, Nate suddenly faced with the sobering realization that he may have completely fucked up his future, because he didn’t have the connections that the rich brats visitng the Hamptons did.

It infuriated him. Enough so that even though he had been dating one of the rich kids - Parker, a senator’s daughter - for over a year, he had no qualms about ghosting all of them after the party, bitterness coating his every thought and opinion towards the rich kids he had previously tolerated. And while his partying may have gotten more under control - slightly, just due to the lack of access - his fighting got worse. There were multiple times where he was almost caught, almost in serious trouble, but everyone managed to cut him a break. They felt for the Shaw kids, especially Nate, with his talent and yet no parent to support him, and the fact that he had almost ruined everything with a stupid party. So his teachers and even a cop or two, cut the kid a break, knowing - hoping - that so long as he got through this last year of high school with his nose relatively clean, he’d be able to get out of town with a scholarship.

And he did end up getting a scholarship. He got a full ride to Ogden for his athletic talents, and even though it wasn’t the type of place he wanted to be, knowing the crowd of students would be much like the ones he grew up seeing descend on the Hamptons every summer, he went anyways. Did the scholarship come through thanks to some strings pulled, hoping his mouth would stay shut about the arson he didn’t commit? Maybe. But he had no other choice - it’s not like he could pay for college on his own.

SOME FUN FACTS

yes, nate has jacob’s real australian accent

worked as a pool boy and mowed lawns and shit during the summer once he moved back to the Hamptons as a teen to make some extra cash, so rubbed shoulders with a lot of rich kids, which just made him more bitter about all of it

he did in fact sleep with several milf housewives while he was doing above jobs

he is basically ryan atwood and i regret nothing

he came to ogden as a freshman in college, but is very much behind in his schooling - as in, he came as an engineering major (why? no idea - think someone told him too and he was like, well, i have no hopes or dreams of my own, so y not), failed a bunch of classes, and then ended up switching to an undecided major for his junior year...so is he going to graduate on time? absolutely not

plays the guitar and piano and likes to fuck around with music production in his free time - his father is a musician so his lack of acknowledging this/sharing this/actually allowing himself to enjoy it is due to his ~daddy issues~

here’s his pinterest it’s not a good one but alas it’s a bit of somethin somethin

#ogdenintro #muse

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Is that NATHANIEL SHAW? Wow, they do look a lot like JACOB ELORDI. I hear HE is a TWENTY year old JUNIOR who are studying ENGINEERING at Luxor University. Word is they are a SCHOLARSHIP student who is FOR The Unhinged. You should watch out because they can be OVER-SENSITIVE and AGGRESSIVE, but on the bright side they can also be LOYAL and PASSIONATE. Ultimately, you’ll get to see it all for yourself.

THE ESSENTIALS

Nathaniel Shaw hates rich people. Raised in a poor family, by an on-and-off single mother thanks to his absentee father, he had to work for every single cent he’s ever had. He dealt with this with bitterness and resentment, choosing to take it out by punching whoever pissed him off, getting into fights and trouble more often than not as he was growing up. With his athletic talents, it was enough to get him a scholarship to Luxor, but not enough that he’d ever get the chip off his shoulder about being the poor kid around the unbelievably wealthy. He’s over-sensitive, withdrawn, and tactless, but if you get on his good side, he may just allow you to share his weed and show that underneath that, he does have a pisces stellium, and does in fact have feelings beyond just letting them get hurt so he can start hitting people.

CHARACTER INSPIRATIONS

ryan atwood (the oc) - jj maybank (obx) - william magnusson (skam) - tim riggins (fnl) - jess (gilmore girls) - matt murdock (daredevil) - ryan atwood, again - no, like really. he’s just costco ryan atwood - marcus baker (ginny and georgia) - dan humphrey (ew i hate that) (og gossip girl) - nate macauley (one of us is lying) - johnny castle (dirty dancing) - the ninth doctor (doctor who) - roy kent (ted lasso) - the hound (game of thrones) - cassian (acotar series) - tyler durden (fight club)

TV TROPES

dark and troubled past - the stoner - byronic hero - abusive parents - disappeared dad - fish out of water - scholarship student - the casanova - jerk jock - delinquents - book dumb - tall dark and snarky - sour outside sad inside - hidden depths

LUXOR UNIVERSITY 2021-2022

Major:

Engineering

Extracurriculars:

Rowing, Swimming, and Soccer Teams

CONNECTION IDEAS

connection page here

and always down to brainstorm and put nate into anything that would fit !!

BASIC INFORMATION

FULL NAME: Nathaniel Shaw

NICKNAME(S): Nate, Natey (only from his younger sister, if anyone else calls him that, they’re consenting to be punched in the face)

DATE OF BIRTH: march 23rd

AGE: twenty

ZODIAC SIGN: aries sun, pisces moon, aries rising, pisces mercury, pisces venus (in retrograde), aries mars. have fun!

OCCUPATION: ????????????? part time pool boy, idk beyond that

HOMETOWN: sag harbor, ny/melbourne, australia

NATIONALITY: american and australian dual citizen

ETHNICITY: a white man?! no!.gif

LANGUAGE(S): english

GENDER & PRONOUNS: he/him

SEXUAL ORIENTATION: straight, to make it worse

RELIGION: definitely an atheist

POLITICAL AFFILIATION: i don’t think he has political opinions other than eat the rich

PHYSICAL INFORMATION

FACE CLAIM: Jacob Elordi

HEIGHT: 6′5″ 😏

EYE COLOUR: brown

HAIR COLOUR + STYLE: dark brown, worn long-ish like this or maybe occasionally.....like this (yes, the mullet, sorry)

ACCENT + INTENSITY: Australian - it comes and goes with how strong it is. He lived in Melbourne from age 4-14, so it’s definitely there, but it also is faded at this point, especially on certain words, though it can definitely come out stronger as well

TATTOO(S): here

SCAR(S): probably a lot

PIERCING(S): one in each ear lobe - wears a plain gold hoop in them

GLASSES: yes, a la this photo, but he doesn’t wear them 99% of the time. is this man just wandering around blind? very possibly

CLOTHING STYLE: honestly i imagine a lot like Jacob Elordi’s more lowkey style which is cool - something like this, this, this, this, or this. bonus felix fit for inspo too. def including the rings too 🥲

PERSONALITY

MBTI TYPE: INFJ

POSITIVE TRAITS: passionate, loyal, independent, honest, brave

GOALS/DESIRES: literally nate barely even wants to be alive, so no, he doesn’t have any goals

FEARS: turning into his father

HOBBIES: ....smoking weed, contemplating the misery of his existence, punching people in the face, fucking bitches and getting money (except the money part because he’s poor), playing the guitar/lowkey fucking around with music production

HABITS: his habits include smoking a joint daily, punching marcello whenever he sees him......there’s probs more but that’s what i got tbh

SMOKES? weed, constantly.

DRINKS? yes

DRUGS? nope. for now. 😏

Most of Nate’s personality is negative. Even what could be a positive trait (such as competitiveness, honesty, sensitivity, intensity....) he tends to turn it up to 1000 until it’s damaging. But honestly, most of it just negative to start with. He’s very withdrawn and broody, spends most of his time and interactions just glowering at people, and yet has an extremely short fuse, so will go from no reaction to swinging in the blink of an eye. he basically throws tantrums like a toddler, albeit a very large, 6′5″ toddler who actually knows how to fight.

However, he is extremely loyal if he decides someone is worth it - spoiler alert, most people aren’t - he will be there for them in the best way Nate knows how. Still tactless, but like, he tries his best. Basically his way of showing emotional support is being like so, uh, you wanna smoke a joint? Because at the end of the day, Nate is not very smart. Emotionally, or in a book smart sense. Why he’s doing engineering, I have no idea - someone probably told him too and he just said sure it’s not like I have any hopes or dreams of my own. He can come off a bit of himbo, just with his attempts to be charming and flirt with women (when he wants to). Plus he’s hot. And he knows it. And isn’t afraid to use it.

FAMILY

FAMILY INFO HERE

SOCIAL CLASS: lower class

FATHER: Luke Shaw (Frank Grillo)

MOTHER: Ella Shaw, née Finnegan (January Jones)

SIBLING(S)? 3 - older brother; Liam Shaw (Nick Robinson), older sister; Melanie Shaw (Virginia Gardner), and a younger sister; Finnegan Shaw (Olivia Dejonge). Plus one surprise half-sister; Navy James (Kendall Jenner)

CHILDREN? do not let this man reproduce no matter what you do

BIOGRAPHY

When Nate was thirteen, after ten years in Australian, Ella decided she had enough, moved back to Sag Harbor, and immediately began the process to divorce Luke. The sibling’s were all shocked, a move around the world confusing enough when you’re a toddler, but nearly impossible for teenagers. Especially for lower class teenagers moving into a place like Sag Harbor, where people - the people who actually lived there - were comparable to them, but there were mansions worth millions of dollars, celebrities, and whole shit ton of wealth that came there to vacation. Nate took the move the hardest, and he started getting into a lot of fights while refusing to adjust. Nate and Liam had always had a rough relationship, and brawled as siblings do, though they tended to get more violent - egged on by their father, who could contribute little, but could contribute how to throw a punch.

Unfortunately for Nate, he ended up rubbing shoulders with a lot of rich, trust fund brats. When they were in the Hamptons for the summer, or sneaking out there during various other vacations to party with no supervision, Nate (and often his siblings) would be invited along. And for the first couple years of high school, he was fine with it. But as he got older, as he got more aware of the opportunities they would always be presented that he would never even get a chance to sniff at, he grew resentful, he grew bitter, and he grew to hate them. Enough so that even though he had been dating one of them - Parker, a senator’s daughter - for over a year, he had no qualms about ghosting all of them at the beginning of his senior year, bitterness coating his every thought and opinion towards the rich kids he had previously tolerated. His partying may have gotten more under control - slightly, just due to the lack of access - his fighting got worse. There were multiple times where he was almost caught, almost in serious trouble, but everyone managed to cut him a break. They felt for the Shaw kids, especially Nate, with his talent and yet no parent to support him. So his teachers and even a cop or two, cut the kid a break, knowing that so long as he got through this last year of high school with his nose relatively clean, he’d be able to get out of town with a scholarship.

And he did end up getting a scholarship. He got a full ride to Luxor for his athletic talents, and even though it wasn’t the type of place he wanted to be, knowing the crowd of students would be much like the ones he grew up seeing descend on the Hamptons every summer, he went anyways. He had no other choice - it’s not like he could pay for college on his own.

SOME FUN FACTS

yes, nate has felix’s jacob’s real australian accent

he did in fact sleep with several milf housewives while he was doing above jobs

he is basically ryan atwood and i regret nothing

he came to luxor as a freshman in college, but he’s ~not very smart~ so he’s in classes with sophomores even though he is a junior. he may or may not have failed a class or two.

#oop #not this being #so fucking long now #new face new intro #luxintro

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weclassybouquetfun · 3 years ago

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THE DARK KNIGHT still has G.O.A.T status but THE BATMAN is pretty excellent. After Christopher Nolan's Dark Knight trilogy someone pointed out that to them his trilogy wasn't a comic book film. Instead they were gritty dramas no different than Michael Mann's "Heat" or Curtis Hanson's "L.A. Confidential". Matt Reeves takes the same grounded sensibilities with THE BATMAN but instead of giving crime noir, he's giving us a thriller. This is David Fincher's "Se7en" or "Zodiac" or ("Forget it, Jake. It's) "Chinatown".

Just ignore the cap and cowl and envision Bruce in a trench coat. While the film does tap into comics' history, this is a true detective film (not, like, "True Detective" the HBO series that screwed the pooch in the second series.). This film put the "detective" back in "Detective Comics". Matt Reeves was the perfect choice to tackle this film- just look at his work with "Dawn of the Planet of the Apes" and "War for the Planet of the Apes".

He took a film series that was beloved despite it being ridiculous and instead of copying the original set of films as Tim Burton had with his 2001 adaptation. Instead Reeves brought real world sensibilities to the film so that audiences wouldn't laugh at the idea of apes on horseback with guns, instead leaving audiences to see the universal reaction of an oppressed class fighting back. It's inescapable for this film to not be compared to other Batman films and Robert Pattinson to other Batmans, but with 82 years of story there's a Batman for everyone's taste and whether it's in-canon or an elseworld, it's all valid so people should keep an open mind if this Batman doesn't feel like *their* Batman; especially considering this film retains the basic element that makes Batman Batman: Posho with dead parents who is emotionally scarred and dresses like a Bat. SPOILERS like Stephanie Brown.

THE GOOD

- He has a face like a parking meter and I couldn't get past one "Twilight" but I have always given Robert Pattinson credit where credit is due. He's a great actor. He spends so much time in the cowl so he has to rely on eye-acting but his eyes tells so much, the way he holds himself in some scenes just conveys the weight that Bruce is carrying. In making him a new-ish crimefighter (he's been Batman for two years) this film gives a chance to see that this Batman is still an extension of Bruce, whereas in other characterizations where he's older he has clearly divorced Bruce Wayne from himself and only dons him as a disguise while Batman is his true identity. He is still close to his childhood pain that it is always just lurking next to him despite the distance he has tried to put from it. This gives the character room to grow. - The Bat and the Cat. Chemistry through the roof (with the convenient skylight).

It's very subtle how he reacts to her. He's still self-assured but there is a pull that he's resisting. This resistance isn't a Tim Drake type of resistance where he turns his back on romantic entanglements because he's too focused on the job. This resistance is just he's in unknown territory with her. Someone who is not Alfred that he can share this part of himself with? Selina thought he was joking when she asked him what's under the suit and he told her he's "horribly scarred". He was being 100% honest. Which brings me to Alfred.

-In the scheme of things Andy Serkis' Alfred had very little to do in this 2 hour and 56 minute film but everything he did count and served to give insight on him and his relationship with Bruce. First off, not just SAS, but SAS working with MI6 (his reference to working with The Circus). I like that this depiction he was a guardian but not a father figure. Though I ankled "Gotham" in S2, there was a similar vibe with that Alfred and Bruce. The very first episode when Bruce's parents are killed Alfred collects him from Crime Alley and after hugging him tells him, "Don't look. Eyes front, don't let them see you cry." Maybe a child who just saw his parents get murked in front of him deserves a good cry without worrying about onlookers. I can see THE BATMAN's Alfred being the same way. He can't handle big emotions and he loves, but it's distantly and that has left him with a Bruce who has adapted that as a way of keeping possible hurt at bay and has also employed that type of love towards Alfred. Total aside: Serkis' son Louis was great in the recent ITV mini-series NO RETURN playing a teenage boy arrested while in holiday in Turkey for the accused sexual assault of another teen boy.

-Influences: a bit of "Zero Year" (the flooding of Gotham), Earth-One, Year One,a bit of "Gates of Gotham" (the Edward Elliott mention, with a brief shout out to "Hush", Elliott's great-great grandson; a bound at the feet Oswald having to waddle around. When the film opens on Halloween I thought we were actually getting "The Long Halloween", but this is close enough. -Since I hated Max and Charlie Carver's characters on DESPARATE HOUSEWIVES, I loved each time their characters got beat up in this.

-It's not surprising that Paul Dano can play deliciously unhinged. Just see THERE WILL BE BLOOD or PRISONERS for proof of that.

I get people wanted to see him don the classic Riddler onesie or something that alludes to his classic look

but that's too camp for the character as it exists right now. Love that like The Joker Nashton does not know who is underneath the cape and cowl but knows that Batman is the truest expression of whoever he is.

-Shaking up the mythos. Like Uncle Ben dying and Krypton blowing up, Thomas and Martha Wayne must always meet their fate in Crime Alley. But I love that they gave more insight into them. While Martha has always just been boiled down to a broken string of pearl necklace, Thomas has had a meatier second life in comics. I love that they fleshed them out more in this in a way that makes perfect sense. Martha with mental issues?! A Thomas who momentarily adapts the behaviour of criminals and hires Falcone to strong arm Edward Elliott? Good stuff.

THE BAD -The whole hot potato over who killed Thomas and Martha Wayne was a bit clunky. "So it was Maroni? So it was Falcone? So it was really Maroni?" I'm glad it's still open-ended. It's like the origin story of The Joker -it's whatever you deem the truth to be. THE OTHER -I cannot stand Peter Sarsgaard so I am amazed this film made him tolerable. Maybe it was easier seeing him because I knew he would meet a horrible fate. But he was quite good. -I was hoping that Jay Lycurgo would turn up again. I thought the film focused too much on him and his hesitancy in joining in with the gang to assault that man, as well as him stepping in to keep Bruce from being shot to just have him ending up being a random character. But it is too much to hope for that he would be a sidekick in the future film as he's already Tim Drake in TITANS.

-Barry Keoghan. It was reported that Keoghan was cast as Gordon's partner. Several months ago it was reported that after test screenings Keoghan's role was going to be cut. Then it was reported that he was actually playing The Joker. While the film never comes out and says that "Unnamed Arkham Prisoner" Matt Reeves confirmed he was. He also confirmed that he cut an earlier scene between Keoghan and Pattinson where Bruce, in trying to figure out the identity of The Riddler, decides to profile another serial killer: Unnamed Arkham Prisoner who is not yet The Joker. -I love that Gotham is not the only place bombed out and depleted. The Wayne Terminus and tower is a mess! It's so fitting! It's like families who come from old money that is long gone but they still have their ancestral homes that they want to retain but just can't afford the upkeep. The difference is Bruce can afford the upkeep but as he tells Alfred he only cares about his name in regards to how it will help his parents' legacy. He's not interested in keeping up appearances. Which is obvious because his wardrobe is busted. And not the expensive busted like Yeezy clothes. The actual "I'm still wearing this Gap shirt from 2004 that is stretched out from when I pulled it over my knees as I rocked back and forth crying while thinking about my dead parents" busted. -Colin Farrell was unrecognizable.

The only time you get any sense that it's Farrell is when he's shouting while being chased by The Batman. Other than that nothing - not the eyes, not the voice to that point, gives him away. He did a great job but I don't see his HBO Max Penguin series being very interesting. If it was about his battle between Falcone, yes (and how great was John Turturro?) but just him and the Iceberg Lounge, etc. etc? No bueno. -Is it any wonder Bruce (depending on which canon) forms the JLA? Man just had to stand there and watch Gotham get flooded. Wally and Clark on hand would never let that happen. I can see him after getting the brakes beaten off him for the umpteenth time just deciding, "You know...I need a couple of aliens. I need an Amazonian. Is there someone who can run really fast? Yeah, Imma need that too. I need whatever Hawkman has going on. Someone with a magic ring? Yes, please. Magic wielders? That too. An archer isn't helpful, but it's good to have another mere mortal on hand to share in getting beaten....spread them out a bit more evenly because this is a bit too much for me."

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But I like he goes out as an army of one. And how smart is he to have a cut out in his body armor so he can give himself adrenaline shots? So smart.

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palmett-hoes · 4 years ago

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Do you have any fan casts or strong takes/feelings on the foxes’ appearances? Fandom tends to use the same Pinterest models, which feels wrong to me.

i do in fact! i've actually been meaning to make a post about how i choose to write all of the foxes' ethnicities anyway

but yes i absolutely agree that the typical pinterest model types u generally see on edits is not how i see any of them. nor is reece king or froy gutierrez or lucky blue smith one of my FCs for anyone

for a lot of them i don't necessarily have a single specific FC so much as i have like,, a general impression of features that i will see on various different people, who all may look wildly different from each other or who may not even look how i see the character as a whole but do have a specific feature i associate with them. mostly it boils down to the Energy i get tbh and that's just a Feeling i cant even explain

fun fact im a tiny bit face blind so that might account for some of why i'm so all-over about this

may as well go chronologically. some of them i definitely have more thoughts on than others

1. Dan

ethnicity: Afro Native (Sioux)

features: medium dark skin. buzzcut, killer fade. she often styles it in waves. she's very butch, wears a lot of basketball and cargo shorts, tank tops and flannels and jerseys, hiking boots. skinny but muscular, with a very rectangular body shape. defined jaw. probably like 5'4 or 5'5

FC/Energy: sometimes i get some dan energy out of janelle monae but more butch. lotta dan energy out of samira wiley. lashana lynch

2. Kevin

ethnicity: a lot of things tbd, but he's pretty multi-ethnic. i like the idea of kayleigh being half- or a quarter-japanese in addition to irish because it gives her more of a reason to go to japan for her undergrad. wymack is from d.c. which is a majority black city for its actual residents, but i also like the idea of him being Pasifika/Hawaiian. HOWEVER - and this is pretty important to my read of kevin's character - he's white passing, and has been mostly treated as a white guy who tans his whole life, like occasionally asked if he's italian maybe. learning that his father was a Distinctly Not White Man was a big shock to him.

kristin kreuk, lindsay price, phoebe cates, and marie digby are all half-asian actresses i base kayleigh on

i suppose i base his story partially on broadway actress carol channing, who revealed publically that she was a quarter black when she was like 80 years old. though maybe wentworth miller, a biracial actor who knows his father is black but also doesn't know him, is more accurate to kevin's story. then keanu reeves is a white passing actor with asian ancestry

also none of these people look anything like how i picture kevin lol. kevin is just like,, a guy. handsome ig. but kind of in a CW character kind of way

actually

kevin looks exactly like young jason momoa

3. Andrew

ethnicity: kayin/karen from myanmar

features: fat and muscular, very wide and heavy. this blog is basically all andrew body type refs. medium-olive skin, has a bit of a greyish tinge that makes him look a bit eerie or unhealthy. deep set, droopy eyes; looks so tired. flat face with a low-bridged nose. crooked teeth, especially his canines. natural hair black-ish but he bleaches it light blond. has the beginnings of martial artist punching callouses in his knuckles

FC/Energy: holy shit the characters i feel have Andrew Energy are all over the place. pedro pascal. babe ruth (yes fr). oddjob (harold sakata) from goldfinger. the jinn (mousa kraish) from american gods. gaear grimsrud (peter stormare) from fargo. takeshi kovacs (joel kinnaman) from altered carbon. and i wanna be clear, it's these characters specifically, and generally NOT the actors outside of that specific role. except pedro ❤️

4. Matt

ethnicity: cuban

appearance: matt has more of an Energy than specific features to me rn. that energy is Warm. he has that Warm bro jock dude energy. kind of a marvel hero build, hunky and muscular. very rectangular face. has this haircut:

5. Aaron

i get to cut myself some slack and not go AS in depth about aaron because he and andrew are identical twins

ethnicity: kayin/karen from myanmar

appearance: similar build to andrew, less confident and casual posture and body language. less apathetically murderous and more emotive expressions. better teeth bc his mom took him to the dentist. yes also bleaches his hair

celebrities: probably a lot like the difference between the characters and the actors. andrew is the characters and aaron is how the actors actually look. idk ive never looked at someone and thought 'hey! looks like aaron!'

6. Seth

ethnicity: have been going with half-vietnamese. considering looking into various south asian possibilities like pakistani

appearance: string bean build. that's all i have to offer

7. Allison

ethnicity: allison's very up in the air for me. she and seth are the two foxes i feel fine with being white, but im committing to having no white foxes sooo. i would say i generally see her as either half-middle eastern or chinese

appearance: plus sized and hourglass shaped. heart shaped face. taller, like 5'8 or 5'9. she has a pretty fraught history with her appearance and her parents payed for/pressured her into getting a nose job to have a 'prettier' nose. she also bleaches her hair blonde. she gets it done at a salon tho the twinyards do it in their bathroom

FC/Energy: elle king and nadia aboulhosn are my main inspos for her, esp body type but nadia esp in Vibes

8. Nicky

ethnicity: multi-ethnic. his mother is southern mexican Indigenous, possibly oaxacan. his father is mixed white/kayin

appearance: definitely takes after his mother while his father is white passing. dark brown skin, warm undertones. slightly stocky build. tall ovular head and thin aquiline nose. he's kind of just,, the opposite of the twins ig, so like their facial features look very different, which is a big part of why people don't make the connection between him and the twins alongside the difference in their skin tones, heights, and builds. nicky's build and features are very vertically-oriented, with a tall head, narrow-set eyes, thin nose with a high bridge, etc. the twins are horizontally-orienged, with broad, flat faces, wide-set eyes, wide noses with a low bridge, etc.

FC/Energy: yalitza aparicio, not a guy but one of the few Mexican Indigenous stars in the film industry and i really like her features for nicky. she's oaxacan

9. Renee

ethnicity: Black. african american

appearance: plus sized, circular/apple body shape. round face. dark skin. microlocs to a bit past her chin, bleached white and dyed at the ends. she and allison go to the salon together. femme but plain style, a lot of blouses and long skirts, practical shoes. knuckle callouses. about 5'6

FC/Energy: dominique fishback. tracie thoms, esp in RENT. gabourey sidibe. nicole byer, but not in Energy. brandy, for some reason, probably bc i think she has very serene Energy and is a little bit otherworldly. like if brandy played arwen or galadriel from lotr it would make perfect sense to me, and that's the Renee Energy™️

10. Neil

ethnicity: mixed. Black/Jewish on both sides. his father is polish ashkenazi and afro-brazilian. his mother is Black British and algerian jewish

appearance: very... sharp. like sharp all over. does that make sense? sharp features, sharp face shape, sharp angles to his body. he's got what i vaguely think of as a 'basketball build' not meaning tall but meaning very rangy and angular and lean. all limbs. seth has a similar build. lighter brown skin. he has waardenburg syndrome which is actually where he gets he gets his eye color, and his eyes are very large and widely spaced as well. freckles freckles freckles. freckles everywhere. 4a hair but at least during canon it's not very healthy and thus the curls aren't well-defined. he grows it out long enough to tie back and starts taking better care of it in post-canon. wonky, slightly crooked teeth, with a gap between the fronts

FC/Energy: now neil i actually have a ton for. mostly models which im a lil ashamed of bc i do try to draw more from athletes. alton mason is a main body type ref. mugsy bogues is good to see what i mean about the basketball build without the height. here're the boys: cykeem white, luka sabbat, désiré mia, Leo Hoyte-Egan, dylan hasselbaink, this beautiful stock photo model i've never been able to track down

i think about him every. goddamn. day.

in terms of like,, real ppl and not models: corbin bleu, especially during Jump In. figure skater elladj balde. rayan "ray ray" lopez from mindless behavior. A$AP Rocky a lil bit, maybe i just like his hairstyle idk

two more models i think are important: carissa pinkston and ralph souffrant

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notasdriedapricots · 4 years ago

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👄👁🖐 for Lucas and Liz please x

IRIS. I'm crowning you the Queen of Prompts.

👄 for Lucas:

- What is your OC’s smile like? Is it bright and wide, or thin and reserved?: Lucas' smile depends heavily on the situation. When he's genuinely happy his smile won't fit in his face. But he has definitely mastered the art of the polite smile as well; it's automatic at this point.

- Does your OC wear any lipgloss or lipstick?: A biiiit of lipbalm in the winter. He doesn't want Liz to kiss dry lips, no way.

- Do they chew their lips?: Sometimes, when he's really nervous. Won't stop until he draws blood, because he won't notice he was doing it.

👄 for Liz:

- What is your OC’s smile like? Is it bright and wide, or thin and reserved?: So bright, so wide, all teeth showing, nose scrunching, eyes squinting. It's contagious, too. The only time she'll compose a small/reserved one is if she has to, and it will only last a second.

- Does your OC wear any lipgloss or lipstick?: Never lipgloss, always matte lipstick. Mostly nudes during the summer, some mauves during spring and autumn, and might go for dark red in winter. Always blood red for special occasions.

- Do they chew their lips?: No, she's more of a "chew the insides of her cheeks" kinda gal.

👁 for Lucas:

- What is your OC’s eye color?: Very dark brown. Think strong coffee.

- Do they have any eye-related habits, like winking or rubbing their eyes?: Rubbing his eyes in exasperation, either at himself or others, yes. Quick but hard, while he grunts; turns into pressing the inner corners of his eyes. He does wink at Liz, tho; a lot. But only at her. Oh, and at Tommy, but that's just cheeky complicity, and a completely different kind of wink.

- Do other people tend to notice their eyes?: Not really. They're very proportionate to his face, so it's not like they stand out a lot. Unless he's smoldering, of course.

👁 for Liz:

- What is your OC’s eye color?: Also dark brown, but a bit lighter than Lucas'. If he's espresso, she's filtered coffee.

- Do they have any eye-related habits, like winking or rubbing their eyes?: She'll close her eyes for a moment to stop herself from saying something she knows she shouldn't. She does wink, but I'm not sure I'd call it a habit.

- Do other people tend to notice their eyes?: Oh yes. They are big, and round, and very expressive. People hardly ever mention it, but unless she's smiling they're the first thing they see when they look at her. Lucas loves them 🥺

✋ for Lucas:

- Are your OC’s hands smooth, rough, or average? Why?: They are average, on the smoother side. I don't see him using hand cream, but there are creams with different effects that he uses on the job, so they're like incidentally very moisturised (?) He should use gloves when riding his bike, but he doesn't.

- How do they keep their nails? Do they bite them, paint them, neatly trim them, etcetera?: He might bite the nail of his thumb if he's stressed, but only that one. He neatly trims them, but other than that doesn't pay much attention to them. The mf has naturally perfect cuticles.

✋ for Liz:

- Are your OC’s hands smooth, rough, or average? Why?: Liz's hands might be my favourite physical feature of her. They are on the rougher side, especially the left one (just the fingertips, though). Liz is a professional cellist that practices like an insane person, so her fingertips would be bleeding (and most importantly her sound would be off) if she didn't have some useful calluses. The right one, because it's the bow one, is a bit better, but she still plays guitar bass on her free time so... No way she would have nice soft hands, no matter how much hand cream she uses.

-How do they keep their nails? Do they bite them, paint them, neatly trim them, et cetera?: Short-ish because she founds nails that are too long uncomfortable. She paints them, always with neutral nail colours aka nude, various shades of red depending on the season, or black. Usually just paints them herself because it annoys her that the professional ones last way less because of the cello, but every once in a while she'll go get them done.

Thank you again, Iris! 💗

Physical Features OC Ask Game!

#lovely mutuals 💜#Liz #Lucas

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yndigot · 4 years ago

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As for Thomas having never been in a space for gay ppl before, I suppose I can maybe reason around it if we consider that he’s from a small town; then he goes to live in a small village w a job where he’s hardly ever free(and any travelling he does do is also on the job); and he’s working class (and iirc most of those bars etc were geared more towards upper class gay ppl) and you could maybe only find these places if you knew what you were looking for. (Also him never having been to a gay bar in his life and possibly not even knowing they existed might also explain why he was so gosh darn bitter all the time lmao; literally no fun time for him at all)

I dig that people want to talk about this!

I don’t think Thomas grew up in a small town! Mostly because while RJC changes the way Thomas speaks in different contexts, he does NOT change his own (real life) distinctive Manc accent, so I can’t really headcanon Thomas growing up anywhere but Manchester or very Manchester adjacent. That’s not a small town with no access to city life. (We can talk about why Phyllis doesn’t necessarily sound like she grew up down the street from him. That’s another post. I don’t think Thomas would have gone out of his way to acquire such a distinctive Manc accent, though, so it’s more believable to me that Phyllis has done some work to lose her accent, not that Thomas is faking his.)

If you decide to discount the Manchester of it all, then sure, he can be a small town lad who went to live and work at country houses and has spent most of his life in rural, isolated areas. But I still see problems with that.

I’ll actually believe that he never went to gay bar in Manchester because he’s a first footman in Yorkshire by (probably) his early-ish 20s, which means he probably went into service, possibly some distance from Manchester, at some point in his teens. Since he didn’t arrive at Downton until c. 1910, it’s possible he worked at another house as a hall boy before then. Relatively young. Especially if he was working at another country house, he probably wasn’t going to gay bars on his half day. I’ll also believe that he didn’t know there were gay bars in York because it’s a MUCH smaller city than Manchester, which I think probably makes the gay scene smaller and harder to find, and tbh, if he knew it was there, you’re right -- he wouldn’t have been so miserable. So. He didn’t know about queer spaces where he grew up, and he doesn’t know about them where he lives now. I’m with you so far.

But at least before the war,* he didn’t spend the full year at a country house in rural Yorkshire. He went up to London for the season with the Crawleys. Including one season where he was sneaking around with the Duke. He had all of gay London at his fingertips and never realised it was there? At all? Not even the Duke clued him in? The Duke definitely had access to the higher class places you mentioned. He didn’t even tell Thomas such places existed? Never took him there as a sort of pet? Also, Thomas has clearly been to disreputable clubs before since he knows exactly what sort of scam Dekner is running with Andy. He’s comfortable getting around London and socialising in his (admittedly limited) free time while working for the family. He never found his way to queer spaces?

Grantham House is in St. James’s Square, which is in the West End and VERY close to major queer hubs. He never saw anyone and clocked them? And maybe followed to see where they were going? He never went cruising? No one he hooked up with ever clued in him to places where queer men socialised? I mean, I know I’ve commented in other places about how Thomas is not always good at picking up signals, but I feel like he couldn’t possibly miss ALL of that. (tbh I feel like this is discounting the number of queer men in service generally before the war as well -- when they’re all in the city for the season, he never talks to these other men and none of them clue him in?)

And we’ve got this passage in Matt Houlbook’s Queer London.

The most distinctive venues were in working-class neighborhoods in east and south London -- dockside pubs like the Prospect of Whitby (Wapping Stairs) or Charlie Brown’s--(West India Dock Road). Dock laborers, sailors from across the world, and families mingled freely with flamboyant local queans and slumming gentlemen in a protean milieu where queer men and casual homosexual encounters were an accepted part of everyday life.

Okay, so admittedly, idk that Thomas was dragging himself out to east or south London in the little free time he had in London. And while there were definitely working-class places for queer men, they do seem to be less nightclubs with bands playing and more pubs and coffee shops and cruising venues where men tried to project a very masculine image, and also places where working class pretty boys would congregate and middle class trade would come to pick them up. Maybe he’s just shocked by the open dancing. (This is my generous interpretation of the movie -- that he’s shocked specifically about the fact that it’s a night club and it’s in York, and that ‘I don’t know men like me’ is a statement about his isolation, not about him literally not knowing where he could get laid, if not in York, then certainly in a bigger city.)

Anyway, working class spaces did exist! He seems so shocked not just by the open dancing, but by the idea that a large number of queer men are gathering, and I can’t imagine he’s never realised that queer spaces exist before or that he’s never spent time in them. I just ... have a hard time imagining he’s that sheltered and clueless. There have been chances for him to be exposed to queer spaces, if not ones exactly like the one we see in the movie.

It made for a very sweet moment when he stepped into that club and his face lit up. RJC did an excellent job. I don’t think Julian’s plotting around Thomas’s previous exposure to other queer people makes a lot of sense, though. I fully believe that he doesn’t have queer friends near Downton -- that maybe he’s never really made queer friends that he keeps in touch with (rather than casual encounters that immediately pass out of his life), and so he probably feels very isolated from gay life where he’s living now. I’m sure that contributed to his depression. I tend to think he may have had an extended period of celibacy, possibly since before his crush on Jimmy, which, again, probably contributed to his isolation and depression. I just think pre-war Thomas had to have been exposed to more than the movie suggests.

I’m not discouraging anyone from writing small-town, wide-eyed Thomas if that appeals to you. It’s just 100% not in line with what I felt we got in the 6 series that led up to that movie. To me, it doesn’t feel like it matches the set up from the show. I came out of the movie thinking that Thomas and Richard were very sweet, but wondering how, given what we’d seen of him previously, Thomas had made it to nearly 40, managed to fuck a Duke, comfortably navigated seedy London, possibly(?) knew he was getting cruised at a bar, and still seemed surprised not just that such a place existed in York, but seemingly that such places existed at all. (If he didn’t know he was getting cruised, idk what to do with him, tbh. I do think he realised that Chris was interested in him, though. He was surprised, but he knew what was going on.)

YMMV. I’m not mad about people having very different takes to mine. It just didn’t really work for me. I preferred the more knowing Thomas from earlier on. Does that have to do with the tens of thousands of words I’d written of him being more knowing and worldly about queer spaces before the movie came out? Possibly. That definitely made it harder for me to see him seem so sheltered. If I wasn’t already annoyed with Julian’s approach to Thomas at various points in the series, maybe that also would have made me more willing to buy in.

*I know they went down to London from time to time after the war -- I honestly can’t remember if they were still regularly participating in ‘the season’ after it started to decline as a central part of the social calendar, although I know they did at least do Rose’s season. Maybe they were still doing it every year. Someone’s free to let me know.

(Also this is very quick and messy, sorry.)

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kayliemusing · 4 years ago

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flower crown: when did you last sing to yourself? - I think a few hours ago lol

fairy lights: if a crystal ball could tell you the truth about anything, what would you want to know? - how does it everything work out in the end

daisies: what is the greatest accomplishment of your life? - i don't really have one yet

1975: what is the first happy memory that comes to mind, recent or otherwise? - When I was 8, my family and I were driving home from the christmas eve service. It was snowing big fluffy snowflakes and i was in a sparkly dress in the backseat. rascal flatts was playing 'god bless the broken road' on the radio and we were all sitting in this really nice content silence.

matte: if you knew that in one year you would die suddenly, would you change anything about the way you are now living? - I think I'd try to do more, go out more, experience more, write more.

black nail polish: do you have a bucket list? if so, what are the top three things? - Write a novel(s) / write successful novels - Fall in love - finally go to a taylor swift concert lol

pantone: describe a person close to your life in detail. - My mom is someone I super close to. She has these vibrant blue eyes that literally carry an ocean of good things. She has a warm soul and she always uses her energy to lift other people up or just to hold their hand when life is rocky.

moodboard: do you feel you had a happy childhood? - Yes

stars: when did you last cry in front of another person? - I don't remember. A while ago I think. Maybe like last september-ish and I only remember that because my job did a really not cool thing to me and I cried when I told my mom and then cried when I told my best friend lol

plants: pick a person to stargaze with you and explain why you picked them. - My mom because we could talk about life while stargazing.

converse: would you ever have a deep conversation with a stranger and open up to them? - maybe. if i felt super comfortable with them and it was the right time for it, then probably.

lace: when was your last 3am conversation with someone, and who were they to you? - I don't know, actually. Probably not since high school or roughly around then bc i'm always asleep by 10 pm lol. it was probably with one of my friends.

handwriting: if you were about to die, and you could only say one more sentence to one person, what would you say and to whom? - I'd probably tell my mom thank you for everything she's done and had to sacrifice for me/our family, and i'd tell her i loved her.

cactus: what is your opinion on brown eyes? - Beautiful! Bright! Lovely! God tier! Wow!

sunrise: pick a quote and describe what it means to you personally. - "I couldn't get the boy to kill me but I wore his jacket for the longest time" by Richard Siken. First of all, this quote makes me like !!!!! just exclamation marks!!!! I think I just love the poetry and the subtext in this quote, because it's kind of like being haunted by this boy was in itself its own kind of death. So like yeah you didn't kill me, but you haunt me instead.

oil paints: what would you title the autobiography of your life so far? - What The Hell Is This: a memoir by me

overalls: what would you do with one billion dollars? - Buy a house and move to a different city, invest a lot of it, buy a car, buy another cat, send money to charity, quit my job.

combat boots: are you a very forgiving person? do you like being this way? - I'm a forgiving person when I feel like someone is worth forgiving, which I kind of don't like about myself because I don't know if that's necessarily the right thing. I don't like that I feel like people have to earn forgiveness, but if I'm hurt by someone or someone has hurt someone I love, I tend to hold grudges and I will especially hold grudges if the hurt or offense is never addressed. But if someone were to apologize and I felt like they were sincere and they gave me a good explanation for the actions, I'm definitely forgiving then.

winged eyeliner: write a hundred word letter to your twelve year old self. - n/a

pastel: would you describe yourself as more punk or pastel? - pastel

tattoos: how do you feel about tattoos and piercings? explain. - I don't mind some tattoos and piercings, but I don't like tons of piercings and I definitely don't like tattoo sleeves or anything like that lol. You do you, but I could never lol.

piercings: do you wear a lot of makeup? why/why not? - Generally, yeah. It depends on my mood that day. Sometimes I'll wear a full face, other times I'll do bare minimum or nothing at all. Makeup makes me feel nice and it can really make your features pop.

bands: talk about a song/band/lyric that has affected your life in some way. - Taylor Swift baby. Taylor has been such an inspiration to me as a writer and a human being. I think she sees the world very vividly and very romantically, and I love that about her. I love that she's kind-natured, even when the world tries to put a masochistic spin on her, she's simply just good. I love her honestly and vulnerability in her story-telling, and I love the work-ethic and careful creativity that's in her work. On a more personal note, her music feels like contentment and joy, and sometimes nostalgia. I started listening to her music in the fifth/sixth grade but I remember when Speak Now came out and at that time I was starting to get into writing and I could really see that she was a writer too so I clung to her, and then Red was released while my dad was fighting cancer and that album was just something I really pressed into as a means of comfort and escape and I'm so glad that I had her music lean on.

messy bun: the world is listening. pick one sentence you would tell them. - *mind goes blank*

cry baby: list the concerts you have been to and talk about how they make you feel. - I haven't actually been to a concert that's really impacted me meaningfully because I've never gone to anyone I legitimately wanted to see lol. When I was 10, I went to a Jonas Brothers concert with my sister who was a bigger fan of them than I was and I do remember it being a good time. Then when I was 15, my best friend took me to marianas trench because our other friend baled so she had a spare ticket. It was a really good show and it actually made me get into their music more than I had been before which was awesome.

grunge: who in the world would you most like to receive a letter from and what would you want it to say? - I would love it if taylor swift wrote me a letter and I honestly wouldn't care what she wrote in it as long as it was something nice lol

space: do you have a desk/workspace and how is it organised/not organised? - I used to have a work space in my room but I moved the desk upstairs to our office. Now I just write in my room and that for me looks like a made up bed, a nightstand with a candle, and a vanilla-scented lamp to create a warm cozy atmosphere.

white bed sheets: what is your night time routine? - I usually write in the evening and then maybe I'll watch youtube or I'll listen to music or scroll through tiktok lol. Then I put on my pj's, skincare routine, brush teeth, and I go to bed (where I end up reading for half the night but whatevs)

old books: what’s one thing you don’t want your parents to know? - I'm pretty open with my mom so I don't think there's anything she doesn't know about me lol.

beaches: if you had to dye your hair how would you dye/style it and why? - I wouldn't mind dying my tips pink or blue just because I think that's a universally cute look. As for styling it, probably what I do now, maybe curl it a little more.

eyes: pick five people to go on an excursion with you. who would you pick and where would you go/what would you do? - I don't think I even know five people (that i'm close to) yikes

11:11: name three wishes and why you wish for them. - I wish for success, because I always feel like a failure or inadequate in someway - I wish to fall in love, because I'd like to know it at least once - I wish to be able to write again in a way that makes me happy, because I feel like I keep disappointing myself and I just want that creative freedom again

painting: what is the best halloween costume you have ever put together? if none, make one up. - I've never done anything super creative lol but one year I dressed like a bumble bee and I loved that costume because it was a little frilly dress with wings.

lightning: what’s the worst thing you’ve ever done while drunk or high? - fun fact I've never been drunk or high

thunder: what’s one thing you would never do for one million dollars? - Anything that involves killing or spiders

storms: you can only listen to one song for the rest of your life, or only see one person for the rest of your life. which and why? - All too well by taylor swift baby

love: have you ever fallen in love? describe what it feels like to realise you’re in love. - I have not fallen in love before but I imagine it feels like contentment and coming home.

clouds: if you’re a boy, would you ever rock black nail polish? if you’re a girl, would you ever rock really really short hair? - I wouldn't do really short hair, but my favourite hair cuts on me was a short bob.

coffee: what’s your starbucks order, and who would you trust to order for you, if anyone? - Just your standard white hot chocolate, and i'd trust anyone to order it for me bc it's not that difficult lol

marble: what is the most important thing to you in your life right now? - My writing / my career I think

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rezdogsyonder · 5 years ago

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Not Like You Think

Pairing: The Powered!Reader is married to an OC the marvel characters come in later.

Summary: You and your family are in trouble. What lengths will you go to keep them safe? Go against the Avengers? A gang infamous among CIA?

Warnings: Robbery, breaking the law, lying, murder, cheating

A/N: the reader is like early 20’s, married young to high school sweetheart. With a 3 year old. The reader has super strength, is bulletproof, and is influential. Like kilgrave but can turn it off. Also: didn’t expect it to be so long.. sorry! Couldn’t get back to present day in this chapter

**********

You don’t know how it got to this.

That’s a lie. You do, but you didn’t mean for it to get this messy.

They’re almost here. You need to leave. They’re not close to being done though. The car is waiting. It’s running. They’re probably gonna see you leaving if they’re here quick enough.

We could hide. Blend in. Yeah, that could work.

**********

2 weeks before.

“Honey? What time you gonna be home tonight?” You yelled from the kitchen. Your preparing your babies diaper bag for daycare.

“Right around 8:30 ish? Maybe 9. They pretty much don’t let you take more overtime after 9.” He peaked out the door while doing his tie. He walked over to the counter and began eating the food you prepared for him.

“I’ll keep some food in the fridge for you.” You walked by kidding him on the cheek.

You walk over to the bedroom and to the bed, “Come on baby, time to wake up.” She just rolls over and shoved her face in the covers. “Come on sleepy buns, it’s early enough that you can have cereal.”

That got her sitting up, she reaches out to you and you oblige, bringing her to the kitchen.

“How’s my nakey baby?” Christopher smiles poking her belly. She giggles a little bit but she’s still trying to fight it, still wanting to go to sleep.

You put her in her chair and pour some cereal in the tray. You grabbed her soft little brush and put her hair in two little pigtails.

“See you tonight. Love ya. Love you too my little bean.”

“Love you. See you.” You say halfheartedly, grabbing Leia’s clothes for today.

You hear the door slam. Getting her dressed quickly and grabbing her diaper bag and an extra outfit, you’re soon following.

**********

“Leia is at daycare, they close at 4:30, so I’ll need to leave at 4:15, drop her off with Joey, and head back to work.” You say to yourself in your car. You park in the one employee parking spot that is left and walk inside.

It’s not much, but this restaurant has been the only place that would hire you. It’s kinda like a subway, but for burritos and tacos, and the place tips well. Especially in the Summer, which is approaching right now. Pretty soon you’ll have to find a different place for Leia to stay. The daycare you go to only works during the school year.

You have your apron on and hat to cover your hairnet, but you see your day going down the drain when you see your least favorite person. The store owner. The one person you hate because, for some reason, he sees you as a threat. Maybe because the franchise owner almost gave this place to you. Yeah, gave. Guessing he found out from another manager in another store, he went to the franchise owner and laid down daddy’s money.

Why was he even working here if he was rich? Honestly you think he just has a personal vendetta against you. He has hated you since junior year.

“Ugh what are you doing here?” He said in disgust.

“How professional, Jamie.”

“I don’t need to be professional, I’m the boss Y/N.” He smirked smugly. “Just in case you’ve forgotten.”

A customer walks in, saving you from having to speak to him. You try to serve them fast, but slowly too because once they’re sitting at their table, Jamie is just gonna berate you for nothing. Like always.

“Who is the one that worked shifts last night? Hmm?”

“That was me and Matt.”

“What is this?”he holds his hand up.

“A bill?” It was 100. We catered a small party yesterday, probably about 20 people but that 20 brought guests.

“A counterfeit.”

“Well we used the pen thingy on every big bill that we get.”

“No you don’t. Cause then you would have realized it was counterfeit.” The door swings open and you expect a customer but Matt walks in.

“Matt tell him we always use pens on big bills”

“We use the pen on big bills. Every time, a habit we’ve gotten from you docking our pay a billion dollars.” Matt said immediately jumping on your side. A bit monotonous and you suspect it’s because of the bags under his eyes.

“If you used the pen then you would have known it was COUNTERFEIT.” He’s starting to lose his shit. Unprofessional as always. “I will dock you both 50 from your paychecks.”

“You’re so... ugh. You know that $50 is nearly a full shift.” You pinch the bridge of your nose. “Give me the bill.” Holding out your hand. He looks at you suspiciously before handing it over. You grab the pen from the register and write over it.

You hold the bill out in front of you mockingly. “Did you use an actual marker?” Showing the yellow marks.

His face goes beet red and Matt is about to laugh, trying to hold it back. Jamie just took out his own marker and marks the bill, the color turning a dark blue.

“See?”

“Well then this is on you. Maybe you should quit being cheep and get us more detector pens.”

You cross your arms, and Matt can’t can’t hold it back and he’s giggling quietly. You know Jamie is trying to find a way to pin it on you.

Jamie opened his mouth to say something, but he sighed and walked away. Matt fist bumps you.

“You know one of these days he’s gonna get what’s coming to him.”

“That would be the dream. But right now he is our boss so we gotta dream while we work, come on. We gotta prep the pico and quac.”

The two of you continued your days work in peace, getting a couple regulars. It was a bit busier today than usual, you don’t know what caused it though. You even had to ask Christopher to pick up Leia.

Pretty soon the last group of people left their table and were leaving the restaurant. These guys were really polite, cleaning up after themselves too.

“You get front, I’ll get kitchen and food?” Matt offered.

“Yep, I’ll get the ice ready for you.” You grab an empty bean bin and a plastic knife from your station and walk around to the fountain machine. You jam the knife in the ice dispenser and go to get the mop bucket from the back.

Once back there you hear arguing, they’re shouting and it sounds like they’re through the back door. The door to drop off garbage. You try to hear better by pressing your ear against the door. One of the voices is Jamie.

“Excuse m—”

“JESUS!” It was just Matt. He has a bag of garbage.

“Huho sorry Y/N. ‘Xcuse.” You put your hand on his chest stopping him.

“Here I can take it.” You hold your hand out, he shrugs and gives you the bag. It was warm from the unused meat from today. You scrunched your nose for a second before heading outside.

The arguing stopped as soon as you opened the door. You saw Jamie and a man you recognized as a regular. He’s kinda too attractive to forget. Long brown hair, but it suited him, especially in the man bun he has right now. He was actually apart of the group that just left.

“Hey.” You wave to the customer, “what are you still doing here Jamie?” You said in a less enthusiastic tone. You walk over to the garbage can. Quickly before the meat burned through the heavy duty bag. It wasn’t fun to clean up.

“Just dealing with business Y/N, just head back in.” He snapped. You heave the heavy bag over the edge and into the garbage.

“Whatever you say,” you put your hands up in mock surrender. “Have a good night.” You say to the man with him.

“You too, ma’am.” He took his hand out of his pocket to wave, his shiny glove glinting in the moonlight. ‘It’s nearly summer.’ You thought, but he was still in a long sleeved jacket and gloves apparently.

You went back inside to continue your work, but that weird altercation stayed in your mind. Consuming your thoughts. Matt has the beans cooled back down, good thing because you had forgotten about the ice, he caught it before it started overflowing.

You’re done with the food heaters, the steamer, the tips, and the till. You’re pulling out the garbage from by the front door when you hear a loud bang outside. You go in the kitchen to see Matt.

“What was that?” You keep walking towards the back.

“Y/N I don’t think you should go out there, they’ll probably hit you in the face with a fircracker... Shitkids.”

“Well, yeah but the garbage.” You open the door, or try at least. Something was blocking it.

“Matt? Can you open this?” You push on the door to emphasize your need, even though he can’t see from where he is. Whoever it was probably stacked stuff on the other side. Garbage most likely.

“Yeah, coming.” He walked around you and tried pushing on the door. Even he struggles with the door, which kind of surprised you with him being kinda buff.

The door is open just enough for you to get out and the two of you hear a groan. You and Matt exchange a glance before you squeeze through the door, him trying to pull you back in.

It’s too dark to see anything, the moon had moved higher and maybe behind some clouds, you can’t make out many shapes. You’re holding the heavy bag with two hands so you swing it into the garbage can and grabbed your phone.

“Turn on your flash, cause holy fuck I can’t see anything.” Matt asks, he’s just getting through. The door closing behind him, making it even darker than before.

“K just a second.” You get it on but the phone is having trouble reading your fingers. Whatever liquid was on your hand preventing it. You wipe your phone on your boob and your hand on your hip, it finally reads.

Once you see, the sight has you and Matt standing in shock. It was a body, face down and covered in blood. A good ten seconds has passed before Matt reacts and jumps to the other side of the person.

“Y/N call 911!”

“Yeah.... right.” You dial the number while keeping the light on the two of them. Your slow with your actions, this situation feeling as if it weren’t real. Not paying attention to the monotone voice at the other end, “Get to TacoTacos on main please hurry, send an ambulance.” You keep them on the line, answering the woman’s questions absentmindedly.

“Does he have a pulse?”

Matt’s hands were already on his throat feeling for one. After a couple seconds he shakes his head.

“No, he doesn’t.”

Matt tucks the man’s arm and rolls him over. It was Jamie. He begins cpr.

“It’s my boss. His name is Jamie Ness. I.. I think he was shot.”

“Don’t worry ma’am help is on the way. They should be there in a couple minutes.”

Yep, this wasn’t real. You look away. At the far corner of the shop is a man standing there. He was the man that Jamie was arguing with. He brought one finger to his lips, smiled, and disappeared behind the corner.

**********

“Do you know anybody that would want to do harm to Mr.Ness?” The police officer asks.

“Who wouldn’t?” You look at the paramedic then at the officer, “Sorry, I know it isn’t good to say, but I haven’t seen one person that got along with Jamie.” You pull the blanket tighter around you.

“Do you know what Jamie was doing back there?”

You look the the corner where you saw the man. The paramedic straps that tightening thing around your arm. “No, he might’ve been coming back, but after yelling at us I wouldn’t think he would.... he’s not the kind of person to apologize or say he was wrong. Yenno?” You feel a stethescope being pressed to your chest.

“Mmhmm” he hums, writing in his notepad before slapping it shut, “I should let you go for now, here’s my card. If you remember anything, call me.”

His card said Carl Cohen, and had his number. You nod and tuck it into your apron.

“You’re good to go. I thought you had shock, and you’re blood pressure was a little low and your heart rate was a little high, but nothing too bad.”

The paramedic takes his cuff off of you and you hand him back the blanket. You walk over to Matt who was sitting on the curb. He was looking at the blood on his hands.

“Come ‘ere.” You pull at his elbow. He looks up, you see the tears looking in his eyes. He stands up reluctantly.

You lead him back into the shop. Through the front this time. Bringing him to the sink. You wash his hands for him. It seems he’s the way you were earlier. The blood stained his skin. You do what you can for now.

You lead him back out the front and tell him to get in the car. He usually hitched a ride with you anyways. You run back and switch off all the lights, also writing a note for the opening crew that said call you and you’d explain why the closing didn’t close all the way.

Running back to the car you’re heart breaks when you see him. He’s just looking out the window as tear roll down his cheeks. You shut your door and his attention switches to you, before switching back to the window.

“Do you want to come over to my place?” You offer, thinking he shouldn’t be alone right now.

He nods back to you.

The ride was quiet.

You get to your driveway and notice that an unfamiliar car is parked in front. You park beside Chris’s car.

You open the door for Matt and usher him to the closest bathroom. Grabbing hydrogen peroxide from the mirror, you spray his hands with it. The stains washing away with it. You could tell he feels a little bit better now that he can’t see it, but it’s still bad.

“Hold on.” You rush to your room, upstairs, as quietly as you can so you don’t wake up Leia. You burst into your room, only to find Christopher and a woman in bed.

You stop for a second and you’re shocked, honestly, but Matt is downstairs. You glare and point at your stammering husband “You’re fucking lucky that I can’t deal with this right now.” You grab the shirt you stole from Matt when you were roommates a couple years ago and a pair of your pajama pants from when you were pregnant and huge.

You run back down to Matt. He’s still in the same spot you left him. You place the clothes in his lap and step past him to turn on the shower.

“Clean up. Take as long as you need. I’ll just be outside. ‘Kay?” You kiss him on the forehead.

You leave and softly close the door. Upstairs, the first door on the left is Leia’s room. She’s still in her crib, sleeping face down. You grab another blanket and place it on top of her. She’s practically in a coma if she’s warm.

You close the door softly before going back to your room.

“Well good to see you clothed!” You gesture to the other woman. You know it’s not really her fault, but you’re angry. You pull her closer. “Did you know he was married? Tell the truth.” Using your powers on her.

“No, and I’m really so sorry. He just told me he was a single dad.” She rushed past you, seemingly embarrassed.

“Are you serious?” You’re trying to stay calm. Not wanting to get to angry. “In our house. In our bed. With our baby in the next room?” Each sentence accentuated with one step closer to him.

“You said you couldn’t get out of work, that you were gonna have a late close.”

“So this is justified?” You gesture to the bed.

“I—ugh, I—“ he steps back for every step you take closer.

“Spit it out.” venom lacing your words. He’s backed into the corner.

“We—ugh—we haven’t been together in a while. Um and just, I—”

“Get out.” Not wanting to hear more. You’re backing away now, knowing what happens when you get too angry. Not even he knows, but now you guess he never will.

“What?”

“Get out. It’s that simple. Leave”

“Where will I go? What about Leia?”

“I don’t care, and if you cared about Leia so much then you wouldn’t have done this.” You said matter of factly.

“But—“

“Nope!” You cut him off. “Get out, and don’t you dare think of waking her.”

Knowing him, he’ll stomp throughout the house just to make things hard for you. He seems to always do that when he loses the argument. You watch him step past you and out the bedroom door. You follow, making sure he actually leaves.

Once downstairs you can see he heard the shower going. He grabs his keys and turns to you.

He points to the door then back to you, “Youre such a fucking hypocrite.”

“No, I am not.” You whisper yelled. You began pushing him out the door.

Once he’s fully out you close the door behind him, trying not to slam it, and lock it. You turn around and lean against the door, you hear his car start up and leave. You feel tears welling up in your eyes, you shut them tightly.

This isn’t going to be easy.

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