#esp since one of the people is someone ive tried to talk to abt it before and like

[aemiron-main]

me, watching people post the edward stuff to twitter literally copy pasted from my posts & act like they came up with all of it like

[1eos]

What’s your take on Taek always posing with Starbucks lately? I’ve been so conflicted. Many people have tried to educate him but he hasn’t stopped

hmhmmmm. what im abt to say isnt exclusive to him this is just my general stance when it comes to ppl w privilege being out of touch but its one of those things where im not gonna defend it. obviously. if anyone criticizes him (or anyone else i like) im not gonna fight them or try to make excuses but im also not gonna fall into the trap of centering all talks of palestine around a celebrity!

i purposefully havent been talking abt who has and hasnt been boycotting starbucks since november bc i saw someone point out that if you searched palestine on twitter the results were literally clogged with shit abt idols and that's not productive esp bc a lot of ppl have not spoken a word abt palestine until a famous person was caught w starbucks and suddenly theyre mobilizing to get them to stop posting their drinks but will never mobilize IN GENERAL

and this isnt just about kpop i remember being skeeved out by the beyhive for palestine stuff bc theyre STILL focusing *beyonce* when she's a millionaire! she's not starving! and she said nothing when break my soul became a fucking war song for isnt real which is way worse than starbucks i can admit that. and i remember during the big wave of black lives matter how frustrated i was that everyone just wanted to make it all about what this celebrity donated or how this celebrity was forced to post abt blm and to make ethnic cleansing abt idols is just a million times more fucked up.

i say all this to say that in general. me, personally, im always gonna try to put more effort in actually centering palestinian issues. i do feel guilty bc as much as i would love to be immune to the celebrity machine im not 😭 and i have the privilege of escapism when millions don't. like i slipped up and thoroughly enjoyed ushers half time show without even thinking and woke up the next morning and saw all the zionist shit he had posted months earlier. BUT instead of letting that guilt propel me to try to push a celeb to boycott to make myself feel better im gonna use my energy and privilege to send money every paycheck, boycott myself and spread awareness and talk to the ppl i *can* influence :')

and i hope this doesnt sound like one big cope 😭😭😭😭 ive been disappointed in a lot of ppl including really close friends who hate isnt real and are sympathetic to palestine but aren't consciously boycotting and resolving myself to do more and focusing on the ppl who *are* doing what needs to be done has been better than worrying abt how *i* feel when in the end of the day im (relatively) safe

[sunnyyflowerrs]

🔪 ⇢ what's the weirdest topic you researched for a writing project?

🏜️ ⇢ what's your favourite type of comment to receive on your work?

☁️ ⇢ what made you choose your username? chosospinkytoes. answer me

🧩 ⇢ what will make you click away from a fanfiction immediately?

🔪 ... what's the weirdest topic you researched for a writing project?

ok i don’t want to spoil my fic but the ending of fire extinguishers has me looking up some weird chemical stuff. i tried to use ai for research but it told me that they couldn’t tell me the answers bc they were worried for my safety ….

a lot of my weird searches are like arson related so im probably on a watchlist somewhere

sorry it’s not a super crazy answer, ngl i do not really fact check my fics, i really should tho bc i think there is an actual firefighter cadet reading my fic?? so i’ll try to be more accurate LOL

🏜️... what's your favourite type of comment to receive on your work?

obviously i love ANY AND ALL COMMENTS every single one makes my day!!

but my favorite comments to receive are thoughtful and long ones! i’m very intentional when i write, so when people pick up on things that i allude to, or talk about my choices (esp with world building in AUs) it makes me so happy that someone noticed 🫶 got me cheesin and giggling n shi

☁️ .. what made you choose your username? chosospinkytoes. answer me

next.

🧩.. what will make you click away from a fanfiction immediately?

ok so content wise … and don’t hate me for this … mpreg. or just pregnancy in general. i don’t wanna read abt that pls 😭 it’s a personal preference tho, no hate to those who do like to read that!

also if everything is lowercase, idk it’s harder for me to read. or there are no quotation marks, i can’t do it. this isn’t a fanfic , but u literally could not read “normal people” because there were no quotes like huhhh

i will also not read a fic if the characters are so mischaracterized they are unrecognizable. i’m especially super particular about how people write megumi and yuuji, bc they’re my favorites.

☁️ .. what made you choose your username?

ok ok since you asked ….

tbh when i posted my first fic, i figured it would be the only one? and i had an old miraculous ladybug username so i was like lemme just change it to something jjk related, and i think its hilarious when someone does something with a random part of a character. my go to is leftpinkytoe bc its hilarious, and i chose choso bc i love him. i was in a rush to just post so i picked it randomly

maybe i should’ve thought more about it since ive been writing more and more, but also chosospinkytoes is hilarious and does make me laugh so i hope others giggle at it too

thank you so much for asking!!! 🫶😘

[wickedpact]

Crim pls do a J/N fic rec post at some point in the future I trust you more than I trust myself looking rouge through AO3

im kinda eh abt the concept of fic recs myself just bc the whole 'Different Strokes For Different Folks' thing (idk how many times someone i liked in a fandom made a fic rec list and i ended up not liking anything they posted). plus i have weirdly specific tastes and i.. .. honestly havent read a ton of joenicky fic! (i have a FAT to-read list) but ive been asked this a couple times now so i will slap together a couple joenicky fics i like (not comprehensive, i only spent like 15 minutes making this. also not in any particular order.)

Kiss Each Other Clean by moodlighting

i like this whole fic, but the last 6 or so paragraphs in particular SEND ME TO SPACE, i love cuddling. also [joe voice] nickel neekee

what you seek is seeking you by bankrobbery

i actually recced this one once before. idk its cute i just Like It. (also nicky pretending not to know english bc a customer is pissing him off is Very Funny and i love it)

with every inch of my heart by smilebackwards

i like this one a lot, i think nickys pov should Always be this tender. i dont like miscommunication trope much, (esp with joenicky) but i do like this fic-- the miscommunication in question is far-fetched but its joenicky so of course it is. just enjoy the Angst™

i love michelangelo seeing nicky all dirty and bloody after a fight and being like 'DAMN this bitch is fine' (same). (AND the fact that nicky only agrees to travel with him in the name of wasting the pope's money lmao). the fact that joe and nicky broke up But They Still Snuggle. nile knowing like 2 things about joe and nicky's breakup & pretty much immediately taking nicky's side. joe looking at the creation of adam and bein like 'EH'.

nicky carrying around his little joe drawing? nicky carrying around a spare toothbrush for booker? nicky telling little children stories about a princess locked in a coffin under the sea? ('perhaps someday, if an iron coffin is caught in a net or washed up onto the shore, they’ll remember the princess, a victim and not a monster' EXCUSE ME)

(also 'I have drawn you a thousand times since we parted. I sculpted your likeness, just so that I could pretend to cup your cheek. You are so much warmer than marble, hayati.' R O M A N C E)

Pas Un Ange by inlovewithnight

there are a lot of fics i love in a way thats like 'this fic is fun but it doesnt feel like something that would happen in the Actual Canon' (which is fine!) but this one Does feel like it could happen in The Actual Canon which is cool

this fic also has probably my favorite depiction of nicky's relationship with god/religion in any fic ive read ('[nicky's] peace had come only after walking away from faith as a competition of intensity in favor of faith as a steady compass that he followed like the beat of his heart in his chest.'). i love the whole Drama played out by the background characters and how they all have their own ideas and motivations & nicky is just kind of resigned to being caught in the middle of it.

(also love how near the beginning joe's like 'the Right thing to do in the situation would be stay at this river and help these people.... ... ....... ... .... ... anyways see ya guys later gotta go find nicky'.)

also joe chatting up a pig and the five minutes later chatting up some goats was so cute. & nicky trying to tell the baby's mother how to save it!!!! </3 AND THEY ARGUE ABOUT CHARITY on the way home (not before joe injects a comment abt nickys ass into regular conversation bc Romance™) its a bit of a sad fic tho, that poor baby 🥺

Intercession by PrincessDesire

can i interest you in some Swamp Man Nicky in this trying time?

someone recced this fic to me and i dont remember who. but note that the major character death tag is not, in fact, for a major character but for a background one. neither joe or nicky perma!die in this. also normally i dont like fics where joe or nicky are bi bc Thats Not Canon Babey but i do like this one, i love joe's relationship with Grace and how nicky's perception of that relationship gets flipped on its head halfway thru the fic. i also love joe's Weariness Of Immortality, like when joe talks about how 'youthful' nicky makes him feel. his pov just kind of Feels like an old man and i like it

theres a smut scene in this fic which im personally not big on smut scenes but theres this bit where joe tries to figure out condoms and its very cute. also 'You have many kinds of magic, Nicky. All your spells have worked.' ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°).

also i just like how WHIPPED joe is from like the first 3 seconds he sees nicky. theres one bit where nicky's like 'ill come visit you!' and joe's like 'when🥺' and nicky's like 'as soon as you like!' and joes like 'now?????🥺🥺🥺 literally come home with me???' incredible.

also the Magic System was cool. i also love how nicky just Accidentally made himself immortal. what a man. also i like this line 'it would never occur to [nicky] to attend any service that wasn’t going to have a direct outcome. Grace takes comfort from it, so maybe that’s the only outcome needed.' idk its so sweet

edit: also i cant believe i forgot the iconic line 'Yusuf is a man of two minds, one large and underutilized, the other small and underutilized.' absolutely iconic & relatable

[carpsurprise]

bro 👁👁 if u wanna talk more abt jodi and her parenting i would LOVE to hear it :D honestly you worded it much better than i could asdmsbf ty!!

THANK U SO MUCH IVE BEEN DYING TO TALK ABOUT THIS FOR A HOT MINUTE ok im gonna bleed this in with some of MY headcanons personally and some of the canon dialogue!! i’ll bold my headcanons so its easier to differentiate what im talkin about bopbop also this is SO long im sorry

also this makes it seem like i don’t like jodi i do!! (thats my mom in law hehe) but like... just some of the stuff she says points to deeper insecurity issues. 

so in short: this is kind of a jodi analysis.

it’s def touched upon by multiple people that she doesn’t seem happy (her dialogue is full of ‘i wants’ and ‘i wishes) but i do think that’s not entirely the case, it’s just a classic mother thing to feel sort of (lack of a better word) trapped into motherhood and her responsibilities. and i def think kent being away probably worsened that.

with kent being away she was pretty much a single mother, and as seen in sam’s canon character, he has to do a lot to make up for kent’s absence... financially and emotionally, for both her and vince. vince needs a positive male figure to look up to to inspire him to be the best he can be, and jodi needs stability and help with her own responsibilities. sam tries to fulfill all of that and even some of his marriage dialogue (and his three heart event) it definitely puts stress on him.

so, sam tries his best! but in some dialogue and sam’s heart events you can see she still gets on him for things that makes him like :/ she still views him as a child occasionally despite being a full adult who is also sorta-parenting vincent, acting as some sort of doing-good role model for him, and i believeeee he says he tries to be his best specifically for vincent’s growth.

jodi still treats vincent like a child, but she still treats him better than she treats sam often. which kinda ties into the point i made about sam being the trial/error kid. i’ve headcanoned and i’ve seen others also say that kent and jodi got married straight out of high school. u kno typical military stuff. this also kind of explains her sort of ‘trapped feeling’ dialogue since it seems like she didn’t get much time to explore the world or maybe even explore herself as an individual. caroline likes gardening, marnie loves animals to death, and robin knows woodworking/a trade but jodi... just has regular ‘housewife’ things like cooking and cleaning.

^ like this doesn’t sound like someone who had a CHOICE in what her life has turned out to be. and i think sam got the BRUNT of that.

and here ^ she’s kind of immature in some of her dialogue, esp since (like u said in ur post!!) that sam caught on to it and has reacted negatively to it. i would venture to a point and say she most likely suffered with post-partum depression for sam especially if she felt trapped with kent as she does in game. i def think that with this and in canon, sam was probably used as her guinea pig for parenting. obviously no one is a natural born mother but if kent had just gone away in the military and she had sam, i can definitely see where some resentment for kent and sam would come in... along with resentment for herself for getting herself into that situation.

which that kind of train of thought could be an explanation for some of her self-deprecating/wants and wishes dialogue. once the issues of raising sam had kinda smoothed out, and he became old enough to realize exactly what was going on with his father/the war and his mother’s reactions to that stress, she probably already figured out how to parent vincent. esp since sam and vincent seem so similar (adhd imo) what didn’t work with sam jodi was able to figure out.

but going back to how she treats sam! i do think she would still kind of hold some resentment. obviously she loves sam but she still views him as a child, despite how mature he really is... like in his marriage dialogue and his three heart event. i honestly think his whole sunshine/golden retriever boy personality is ofc true but. partially true. i think he does it as a save face for how he really feels, which is anxious (about his fathers return and vincent growing up).

but one of the first tags i put! def more headcanon-y just from the stuff i mentioned above. jodi definitely gives me the ‘weaponizes basic needs’ in an argument type of mom. u kno the whole “i feed you, you have a roof over your head, i put clothes on your back” kind of manipulation. which.. yeah jodi you should! i think she’s very insecure about herself and very anxious over her situation and is at a constant state of trying to prove to herself her own worth. like.. the only thing she is/does is be a mother so when sam (or not so often vincent) fuck up, she takes it personally because raising those two is the only thing she really does. if she sees herself as a failure there... then what as she spent her life doing (instead of travelling/having hobbies/etc)

kids naturally fuck up she learned through sam!! one of the things my mother told me all the time while growing up was that it was “her first time ever being a mother” and i think jodi would honestly... have those same thoughts. she’s tired and overworked and on top of that has to raise two boys as a ‘single mother’. i think she’d snap easily on sam from too much pressure, whether he was younger (by accident) or as he got older (on purpose). it seems like there’s little room for accidents on anyone else’s part in her house.

like sam’s four heart event. ignoring the obvious why-the-hell-are-you-handing-me-an-egg issue, sam very obviously drops the egg on accident, and jodi storms in and creates an issue out of it. which... it’s an accident. it seems out of character for sam to drop the egg on purpose and cause an issue for his MOTHER. obviously he does stuff that makes lewis mad on purpose, but he doesn’t do stuff like that to jodi. but she still gets upset over... his hand slipping.

and his ten heart event. why don’t we talk about that more often? from her dialogue its hinted at that she thought he was ... y’know... but still had said if i recall correctly!! “i’m coming in”. there was no question and it gives sam no option to tell her no. so it seems she has that kind of ‘control’ in their house where she can just invade sam’s privacy (granted.. she knocked but still) even when she thought he was doing THAT. idk i don’t like the “i’m coming in”... it seems like she is not giving sam the further consent for her to enter his room (or private space)

ok this is long i need to wrap this up but bottom line she loves her kids. of course she does! but i think sam definitely gets treated ‘worse’ and kinda has as the firstborn/oldest. jodi, with her kids, finally has some control of her life back since she is their mother and they have to listen to her. she doesn’t know exactly what she’s doing still, and once one of the boys (sam) messes up she takes it as a personal attack since the One thing she does in her life is be a mother. this was very long but thank u !!!! i love doing a lil character analysis

[choibinn3]

get to know me game!!

tagged by: @tyunni

tagging: @tyuncafe this is suuper long btw so dont mind it if u dont wanna do it!! hehe

what day is your birthday? dec 8th, sunghoons bday 😥 (thats how i heard abt enhypen actually, my friend was like "OMGG u share a bday wirh my bias!!!!")

what’s your favorite color? pink <33 it makes me so happy

what’s your lucky number? 8!!! like my bday date :')

do you have any pets? no :(( want a kitty real bad though

how tall are you? skipping. no comment. next question.

how many pairs of shoes do you have? like THREE and i rotate between two ♥️

favorite song? kpop?? um rn fever by enhypen or ghosting.. non kpop would be amoeba by clairo (shits GOOD plz go listen to it)

favorite movie? not the biggest fan of movies, but im suuper into slasher films/horror!!! so maybe smthng from there??

what would your ideal partner be like? jungwon ♥️ LMAO

do you want children? nope!! love kids but parenting doesnt sound like smthng id want to do unfortunately

have you gotten in trouble with the law? not that i know od?? Dont tell anyone

bath or shower? shower.. i dont thinj ive ever taken a legitimate bath b4, always showered

what color socks are you wearing? soz to say this but socks suck!! also irs 11pm and im in bed BUT THAT STILL STANDS

favorite type of music? like genre?? no clue, but i typically like music that reminds me romantic pining (aka, fever ♥️ or around you by hyunjin)

how many pillows do you sleep with? pillows are four!!! plushies,?? infinite bitch!!

what position do you sleep in? curled up on my side hugging smthng hehe

what you don’t like when you’re sleeping? yk that sleep where like,, ure sleeping... but u feel awake the whole time?? and rhen u wake up fuckin groggy like uve just been lying there.. that.

what do you have for breakfast? no breakfast!!! 2 cool 4 that. also i wake up at like uhh 11am-3pm sometimes

have you ever tried archery? NO!! sharp objections should not be in my possession apparenrly. tch 😒

favorite fruit? strawberries? mangoes?? anything fresh

favorite swear word? no favs, jm too indecisive for that :((

do you have any scars? yea, i dont have a cool story for them though.. i was just a scab picker kid lol

are you a good liar? SHITTY. horrible, the worst. i cant lie dor shit nd it gets me all shcoked everytime someone is like "mai ure LITERALLY so bad at this" during a lying game lol

what’s your personality type? istp-t!! same as huening whoooo 🎉🎉

what’s your favorite type of girl? mean girls...... i jusy like mean ppl in general but mean gurls have a special space in my heart ♥️!! theyre so demonized but as long as theyre not acrually complete assholes (like homophobes, bigots yk?) they r everythint 2 me

innie or outtie? gots an innie :]

left or right handed? right

favorite food? no favs again!!! but SPICY FOOD YUMM

favorite foreign food? probs uhh Bún bò Huế!!! im viet so idk if that counts as "foreign" but omgg ITS SO GOOD

are you clean or messy? messy!! i feel like everythings much more comfy and natural.. not like too messy though

most used phrase? BARK BARK (not proud of this one guys)

how long does it take you to get ready? like 40-60mins... ONLY BC i zone out tthough and forgot im meant to be gettinf ready LOL

do you talk to yourself? Yes. i do <3 thats also why i read&write fanfictions

do you sing to yourself? mhm!!! esp when the songs too good i sing along or throughout the day

are you a good singer? actually, literally not sure at all. i took chorus since like elementary school tho if that helps

biggest fear? heights and commitment ♥️

are you a gossip? what does this mean. but i think?? i like heaeinf gossip but im not tonna get outta my way to talk abt it ?

do you like long or short hair? on myself short!!! but guys&girls nd just everyone in general look so damn good with long hair sometimes

favorite school subject? none lol <33!! school sucks this question pains me every time i see it on back2school answer sheets

introvert or extrovert? introvert, im a lil hermit all cooped up inside my room all the tim3 ://

what makes you nervous? ppl i like are cool!!! or like ppl in general, i cant even order my boba by myself dude

who was your first real crush? i THINK. it mightve been my bff from when i was in 5th grade.. idk if this counts bc i (THINK) but like...... i cried so fucking much when we stopped being friends. it felt like a breakup and im still not over it tbh (tmi?)

how fast can you run? not fast at all but i can JUMP

what color is your hair? black, still have virgin hair!!

do you like your own name? umm tbh no, but my screen name (mai) is my middle name anyways so i dont think that matters too much

what makes you angry? people who dont listen :( pisses me off but tbh i dont get angry often

do you want a boy or a girl as a child? NEITHER. if i had to pick maybe boy but NOOOOO

what are your strengths? ive been told im endearingly stupid (like twice by the same friend) and it stuck with me. like AWWW :(( U THINK IM ENDEARINGG??

what are your weaknesses? id say im too socially anxious, public speaking makes my hands shake and i cant speak so its real bad

what’s the color of your bedspread? like white with blue polka dots ^_^

what’s the color of your room? this nice beige color,, like the color of my blog rn actually!!!! i based it off of jungwons color scheme but ig this works too

[enderspawn]

🎵 Schlatt? 🥺🥺🥺

Hrrrmgmgn alrighty I got some good good songs I think fit

Dead Inside – Younger Hunger

Thank God That I’m Not You – Himalayas

Jesus Christ – Brand New

more stuff under the read more

okay so listen….. ive had a lot of Thoughts recently abt the Bad Dynamic between schlatt and quackity so I tried NOT to make it all abt that but… listen it’ll be Included jfkdlsjf FOR EXAMPLE SONG ONE

“Hey pretty baby with the sun in your eye You make feel like I'm up in the sky I wanna tell you, wanna make you mine”

“Hey pretty baby, can you feel that heat? You got me twitching to the edge of my seat I take your hand, lead you out to the street”

Mans is flirting, what abt it JFKDLSJFKL

“I’m all talk with a thorn in my side I've got a real big heart That I'm willing to hide You ask me what I want from life I said to make a lot of money And feel dead inside”

OKAY SO the first line? Is true. Schlatt IS all talk, man. he talks big shit but we all saw that in the end it doesn’t mean anything bc he cant back it up. Also, he did (I think) still genuinely care for those who were with him for a long time, like quackity and fundy (ESPECIALLY fundy. Mans didn’t know he was a spy until the final confrontation). But in the end he didn’t do enough for the ppl to put them first, he wanted his power and addiction. Also schlattcoin reference w making money go brrrrrrrr

“To tell you that Your golden hair and pale blue eyelids Make me feel like I might go wild Cheetah print makes me a liar So I tell you I just like you for your smile”

Hohohohooo okay this one is fun bc you can honestly interpret it in many ways based on how you think schlatt viewed his relationship w quackity. “Cheetah print makes me a liar, so I tell you I just like you for your smile” is this abt him gassing quackity up and faking their whole relationship in order to use quackity for his power/votes (thus lying abt liking him for something ABT HIM) or is this an admission of guilt abt him lying abt only liking quackity for his power/votes/”smile” when in reality he cared more than he really expressed?? Honestly you can take it EITHER WAY like bruhhhh its GOOD

OKAY NEXT SONG THIS ONE IS JUST A BANGER VILLIAN SONG PROB @WILBUR TO TAUNT HIM

“I'm a coward, I'm a freak The scum of the earth A liar and a cheat But I could be so much worse”

Okay so. One: Hes a coward bc in the end he doesn’t fight his own battles. Even when confronted WITH a battle he died of a damn HEART ATTACK. Two: he’s a freak could be about him being a ram hybrid (bc dream smp has a furryphobia problems JFKDLSJFK) Three: “a liar and a cheat” he lied his way into the smp and lmanberg by saying he would endorse pog2020 then didn’t, then he “cheated” his way into WINNING by pooling his votes w swag2020.

“You could call me narcissistic You could say I'm of no worth You could call me the scorn of Satan But I could be so much worse”

So im not gonna go into the narcissistic line bc idk if he would apply at all and having an abusive villain be someone w a personality disorder is uhhhh. Kinda Fucky! Anyway fjdkslajfk, goats are often considered a symbol of satan so like…. Eyes emoji

The chorus is LITERALLY just him bashing Wilbur. He KNOWS he’s a piece of shit and he doesn’t care that he is, and he’s using it to push Wilbur further down his spiral. Yeah, sure, he’s awful, but at least he’s not Wilbur

“I'm such a sinner And I have been since birth Full of greed and full of lust But I could be so much worse”

Mans has greed for power (not only getting the presidential role but also expanding lmanberg’s territory) and…... listen that man would NOT stop talking abt quackity’s ass. Full of lust, babey.

“You say I'm hedonistic And a bit too extrovert Described as positively sadistic But I could be so much worse”

The hedonistic line is fun bc hedonism is indulging in pleasures, which I choose to interpret to be about his alcoholism. He throws himself fully into it bc it makes him feel better, ESP as more people leave him.

LAST SONG POG (I didn’t mean for this to be the longest analysis yet jfkdsfjl)

So this one is the most… sympathetic? Idk it just. The vibes. Its contemplative of someone dying and realizing they’ve fucked up a lot. Listen just…. Consider

“Jesus Christ, that's a pretty face The kind you'd find on someone that could save If they don't put me away Well, it’ll be a miracle”

Hhhhhhhhh quackity and schlatt brainrot go brrrrrr. He KNOWS he’s fucked up, he’ll be “put away” which could be killed or exiled.

“Do you believe you're missing out? That everything good is happening somewhere else But with nobody in your bed The night's hard to get through”

EVERYTHING GOOD IS HAPPENING SOMEWHERE ELSE. Everyone left him. His (ex)husband, his secretary of state, even fundy. He’s falling apart bc of it.

“And I will die all alone And when I arrive I won’t know anyone”

Schlatt was the first person to be fully canon dead. He WAS alone, in the afterlife

“Well, Jesus Christ, I’m alone again So what did you do those three days you were dead? 'Cause this problem's gonna last More than the weekend”

He drove away EVERYONE. The issue’s gonna last more than the weekend bc it simply cant be fixed. ALSO if you want this not from schlatt’s view, you could see it being that “the problem” is schlatt INFLUENCE. Those closest to him are still traumatized from what he did, Wilbur is GONE entirely and stuck as a shell of himself because of schlatt’s exile. These issues last.

Okay as the song gets more religious ill prob stop analyzing as much bc I do NOT have the authority nor brainpower to go into religious symbolism in this song NOR dream smp right now, but like. Its there if yall wanna go buckwild

“Do I divide and pull apart? 'Cause my bright is too slight to hold back all my dark”

In short, schlatt knows he’s fucked up. He doesn’t know what’ll happen when he dies but he knows that he’s done more bad that good so…. Hell time baby JFKLDSJFKL

“I know you're coming in the night like a thief But I’ve had some time, O Lord, to hone my lying technique”

Ill be real I don’t have good analysis for this line it just makes my brain go brrrrr and I want yall to look at it

“I know you think that I’m someone you can trust But I’m scared I’ll get scared and I swear I’ll try to nail you back up”

Once again ignoring the religious context, in short its “I know you think you can trust me and help me but im scared ill just hurt you again instead” and. Hrrm. No one really trusted him near the end sure but like. Hrm. Thoughts Time.

ANYWAY SORRY THIS IS SO LONG THANK YOU FOR READING HERES A BONUS SONG FOR SCHLATT AND QUACKITY

Curses – The Crane Wives

[lostcryptids]

as someone whose actually never seen it and only ever seen GLOWING praise abt how its like .. vindication for abused women or s/t, can u pls tell me what you don't like about hereditary? I'm interested to see a negative take I don't think ive ever seen one

ok *cracks knuckles* why i hate this movie so much I feel like to start, overall to me it doesn’t feel like a HORROR movie. I see people praise it as such a scary and horrifying film and I just didn’t feel that at all watching it. It lends itself much more into being a dark family thriller than anything. I very very much hate when people call it one of the best horror movies because personally, it doesn’t feel like it even belongs in that genre.

So starting with the writing and pacing, this movie is very shoddily written and paced. While watching it I was waiting a very long time for something to happen but it moves at a very slow pace. There are long stalls in the movie where it’s just bland and boring as hell to watch. It's mostly full of shallow emotional moments that mean nothing since I don't care about the characters. 

The whole plot of this movie makes me very pissed off just because of how convoluted it is. If you know about the basic plot of this film, it includes the fact that the young daughter Charlie is killed off in a very specific chain of events so that a cult can eventually put a demon into her brother Peter’s body. It’s implied that this cult that worships the demon Paimon plans for all the events that lead to her death to happen. So apparently all of this was planned out in advance and they knew this would happen: 1. Peter wants to go to a typical high school party and smoke weed with his friends 2. Peter's mother says he has to take his sister. Instead of just not going he takes his little sister to a high school party with drugs 3. Charlie the sister eats a piece of cake with nuts in it. Which she is allergic to. And she doesn't have her pen to stop the reaction. 4. Peter is doing drugs while she's choking, then jumps in the car with her instead of calling an ambulance 5. Charlie sits on the right side of the car, opens her window, and sticks her head out to get air, then gets hit by a telephone pole and her head flies off  And if that doesn’t sound absolutely ridiculous i don’t know what does. So let's talk about this. This is apparently the cults whole plan. They even show the cult logo on the phone pole which is stupid to even include but whatever. So you're telling me this cult has super ESP and they predicted all these events were gonna happen in order? The movie never even tries to explain this! 

You can’t tell me they knew this is how it would exactly go down! She could not eaten the cake, she could have not even gone to the party! So if you're gonna put this ridiculous chain of events into place please explain why they have the power to know this will all happen. Because otherwise this plan seems like horrible writing and just in the context of the film, way too complicated. This just gets me so much like why do they need such a specific chain of events to occur. Just kidnap the kid. Just kidnap the brother. Anything makes more sense than the list I wrote above it's just a MESS!!!! How can you LITERALLY highlight a passage in a book explaining stuff important to the plot in the movie and not explain way larger plot points I just don't get it at all.

The family themselves are just all. Not very good characters. They’re all pretty shallow in their own ways. The father is basically not in the story, i don’t even remember his name. Peter, the son, is absolutely infuriating to watch in the way he doesn’t care for his sister and eventually is so aloof that it leads to her death. And worst is Annie the mother, who shows what i’d call abusive to some degree behavior towards Peter - at one point trying to murder him in his sleep and telling him she didn’t want to be his mother. Yes she is a grieving mother upset about her daughter’s death but she’s no “unhinged girl power woman” like some people try to make her out to be. She has problems and takes them out on her teenage son and she’s not sympathetic. I just can’t like any of these characters and I didn’t care what happened to them over the course of the film.

[matoitech]

what are your thoughts on heris as a character? while i know promare tried to redeem her i've always felt like a lot of her actions were irreedemable personally. esp when she overloaded the burnish engine even tho it could've killed like a ton of ppl? sure she tried stopping kray's plans but it could have cost a ton of lives to do so.

my thoughts on heris are.. complicated.. because i agree with you i think pretty much all of her actions are irredeemable, and i think killing more burnish.. to stop killing burnish.. was a really strange and shitty way to go about stopping the parnassus. she never showed she regretted her actions bc the burnish were people who didnt deserve to be literally tortured, she only talked about how she was wrong to trust kray? 

i think she couldve been an interesting character because i feel like they intended for her to be, and i do think its interesting that apparently the only person she gives a shit about in the entire world is her sister and shes willing to go to extreme lengths to save her sister rather than the world, but i ALSO think aina was just her excuse to go play around with human lives.. like yeah she was against it from the beginning but she also gave the go-ahead as one of the head scientists to let the experiments continue and the human-powered engine to run. i dont even know if she was ‘redeemed’ in that trigger was trying to redeem her, because if so thats really shitty since you.. cannot redeem her lmao? shes going to prison for life just like kray. you cant b a lead scientist for smth like this and get off free. ppl who write kray as going to prison but heris as just on house arrest for a while or smth COULD i guess b saying something to further the point about the system being broken by making the decision to let heris off on a light sentence, but they never do, they just dont think heris deserves to be in prison i guess so its not even a consideration to give her as much time as kray? but she definitely does deserve to be in prison.. and i think she knows it! and i think it would be interesting to see how aina reacts to all this. and just saying “oh heris is fine cuz she said sorry” is both an uninteresting interpretation and just super not logical or realistic at all

theres also this implication that kray is a creepy misogynist with how he treats her (which is not an unfair assumption given how horrible of a person he is and the many other ways hes terrible) and ive seen ppl take that to mean she was being manipulated similar to how galo was, but i dont think thats a fair comparison bc 1) when galo found out what was happening with the burnish he immediately tried to put a stop to it, and he was kept in the dark on purpose bc kray knew how he would react. heris was aware of what was happening and didnt stop it or even try to stop it? and frankly, she had a lot less to lose than galo did. 2) the relationship between an employee and her boss vs someone who was manipulated since he was a child and viewed this adult as a parent/family figure are VERY different relationships and the way abuse would function between those relationships is not that comparable. its a take i can understand but im also not sure how much im in2 ppl saying that kray was manipulating her by preying on her fears abt her sisters safety or something, bc thats implying that she didnt have as much of a choice w what she did. and i think she did have a choice regardless of what was happening behind the scenes and she should b held accountable for that. even if she apparently has a complicated relationship with kray i hesitate w focusing too much on it bc it implies that shes simply a victim who couldnt make her own choices.. and like.. whatever happened w that doesnt make her killing ppl ok? 

idk. doing the Right Thing at the end doesnt automatically make for a redemption arc and it isnt justification for why a character should be redeemed. especially when heris apparently didnt actually care about what she was doing. why did she trust kray in the first place i do not understand.. promare not having the time to explain character relationships better definitely hindered some points and this is one of them

[gallickingunexposed]

Tl;dr - morgan and leaf (one of the mods) are both guilty of kicking people in the server by personal preference and enable the possibility of plagiarism happening again within bnhabookclub

I wasnt going to send this bc frankly im unbothered. However, ik this is smth that can easily happen to someone else and they may undermine their experience if they believe theyre the only one this has happened to. And since i have made attempts to get answers from leaf (since morgan and i are mutually blocked) but havent been able to get through, i might as well speak up to help others since the bookclub admin/mod team wont

Ik she said she wishes she did things differently so some may believe she regretted her actions, but her actions are still the same. When a blogger was concerned over her keeping a picture of their ID and morgan refused to acknowledge it, she kicked them by her personal choice and didnt tell mods. Recently, she did the same to me. When i asked a mod, i was told that this mod had no idea this happened and had to ask, as of which only one other mod (leaf) knew about it. I tried to contact leaf weeks ago on discord and she still wont accept my friend requests. Ive sent and re-sent it jic she missed it since i was told shes busy, but at this point its clear that discussion is being avoided again, similar to the previous time someone was kicked without notice or breaking rules.

The reason i was in the server until this point was bc there was a mutual understanding between me and the bookclub staff team that id be there to make sure they didnt continue to steal from my friend’s server and my server. This was discussed months ago and we barely managed to get bookclub to properly attribute us and stop using my friend’s content when he said it made him uncomfortable. The mods had agreed during the “inactivity” kicking session that i could remain (even if inactive) in the server and leave of my own accord to make sure that bnhabookclub didnt continue to take credit for things they took from our servers. I expressed i wanted to leave but was staying and will continue to stay until i was sure that they wouldnt plagiarize from us; however, i sent one message within the server during that time jic to cover my back about being kicked for inactivity. that purge never happened, but suddenly morgan and leaf went back on their word months later and kicked me, not informing the entirety of the mods of their actions so they can get away with it (since again i was told morgan believed she’s in the right for this). If theyre to say they never agreed to this, i have ss of my conversation with the mod who helped me through this whole situation. I dont believe she would made that stuff up and put herself in the hot seat.

It’s convenient that im someone who morgan plagiarized from and also one of the many people she scammed and tried to prevent giving a refund to, and now shes removed me from the server because she “saw no issue with it” (quoted from the mod i did talk to that was unaware of the situation) even though the server is where half of those offenses occurred. Now that im not there, she has full capability to reimplement the stolen ideas and procedures that she got from me and my friends, which is likely since she is repeating other actions the same as she did in the past without remorse. I had remained in the server this whole time to make sure she didnt continue to plagiarize our content. Morgan as well as the entire mod team was aware of that since it was discussed months ago during the time these things were being properly attributed, but they kicked anyway and will probably say it was “unrelated” to the plagiarism, but that merely overlooks and gaslights the situation. Kicking for personal choice can only be regrettable if it doesnt happen again, but morgan and leaf have made it even easier for her to get away with the same issues and have continued to solidify bnhabookcoub as a space that isnt run by the rules shown, but simply run by morgan.

Is that a community i want to be in? Ofc not, but if it meant ensuring morgan and her team didnt continue to steal from me and my friends then that was fine with me. They know the sole reason i was there was to make sure they didnt plagiarize me and my friends — there should be no issue with that unless there was intent to oick up where they left off and continue plagiarizing. Had i been able to leave of my own accord then i feel like no flag wouldve been raised, but morgan and leaf are simply solidifying the accusations from before: removing and silencing ppl that were wronged.

All of this leads into me saying, please take her words of regret with a grain of salt and believe in her actions objectively instead. Victims of morgan’s theft, bullying, etc have no reason to lie — theres no prize or pot of gold for saying these things, and also it is difficult for some people to speak abt what shes done to them. However, morgan has lied to cover her ass when people come forward and made herself the sole victim through words while she continues to act the same. Please just be careful about the spaces you join, esp if its one that she and her friends run or are apart of.

psa

[gaeilgelupin]

9, 10, 11, 22, 23, 24, 37, 51, 61, 62, 68, 69 HAVE FUN HAHAHA

THESE ARE SO MANY FIEJRHSKHDSJBDKSBS OKAY LETS GOOOOO BABIESSSS

9: do you bite your nails: YES YES YES I need to stop! They’re honestly awful. So disgusting. But it’s an anxiety thing Ive tried so hard to stop but nothing’s working. I went to my dentist and they actually told me that I was wearing my teeth away because of biting my nails. But stopping is harder than it sounds oh god. It’s a bit embarrassing actually but I just need to find a way that will make me stop AAAA

10: when was your last physical fight: I’ve never gotten into an actual serious physical fight. So I guess I was boxing w my brother (it wasn’t actual boxing we were just punching each other HAHAHAHA) about a week ago???? LMFAO

11: do you like someone: I DO AND I DONT WANT TO LIKE THIS PERSON BECAUSE THEYRE AN ARSEHOLE. Well I say I do. I sort of do. I’m getting over this crush. They’re nice sometimes and then other times they’re not :( SAD TIMES

22: do you want to have kids? How many?: I always said no to having kids when I was younger because I just don’t like babies crying. They’re so ANNOYING OH MY GOD. And the vomit and the shit and the piss and the crying and pregnancy etc. But I suppose it’s a small price to pay to have kids. I do want kids yes. I never used to want them because #responsibility but the more I think about it the more I want them. If I were to have kids, I’d have 3. It’s tradition throughout my fam (except for me and my brother, we’re only 2) hehehhee

23: do you have piercings? How many?: I DO! I have one piercing in each ear, and I’m getting my second done soon. I also want to get my nose and my lip pierced too hehehehe

24: what are/were your best subjects: hmmmmm art was always my best and my fav subject. I did quite well in English and it’s one of my favs. And I did surprisingly well in physics and got an A*! I don’t know how I managed that but YAS!

37: is it easier to forgive or forget: I genuinely don’t know. I’m the kind of person that holds grudges. It’s really bad but I do. So I’d say forgive, if they actually show me they’re sorry. In a way, to forget is good because everyone makes mistakes, but if it’s something really bad, they’d have to show me that they are genuinely sorry, and that they’re a good person if you know what I mean. I’m not a good explainer ahahahahha

51: favourite food: CHOCOLATE. And ice cream. Are they considered foods? Well I Jenna the ya re but food foods like meals yk? I also like eggs and noodles and rice a lot. AND PASTA OMG! I’ll literally eat any pasta dish I love pasta so I have to say pasta.

61: is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby: YES! But in an English accent it sounds so weird sometimes and it’s really cringe sometimes HAHAHAHA. But if someone calls me baby I’m all yours pls and thank you.

62: what makes you happy: SO MANY THINGS. Chocolate, WOLFSTAR, friends (irl and ibfs), food, thrift stores and vintage markets, we have these parties sometimes out the front of the house w the neighbours and they’re always really fun && make me happy, fanfic, art, THIS BLOG ESP and so many other things. I could co t’unir but I think I’ve got enough cringe in here for now HAHAHAHA

68: who’s the last person you had a deep convo with: probably you @wxlfstxrx idk if it counts as deep since we were just ranting about how shit things are sometimes & ABT parents and all sorts of shit but it got pretty deep. Other than that I guess it was w my friend on the bus & we were talking about this girl who’s having a really rough time of things atm, and we kinda just spiralled for like an hour.

69 (hehe😏😏😏😏😏) : do you believe in soulmates: or like to think that there’s someone for everyone, so yes I do. I love the idea of it. But I also think that just because you found the right person for you doesn’t mean that you can’t fall out of love and fall in love w another person, too. I don’t think people are restricted to one person. And I think that if you fall o of love with your soulmate, perhaps they weren’t mean to be your romantic soulmate, and if they stay best friends, they become platonic soulmates instead ehich i think is a really lovely concept.

THANK YOU FOR THE ASK RAE AND THANKS FOR SO MANY QUESTIONS HAHAHAHAHA!! LOVED IT TY <3

[paperpeachy]

mimi!

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How I feel about this character shes alright i guess

All the people I ship romantically with this character OH BOY. ok ok lesse. ⦁ nastasia a lot of it is just bc i adore the personality dynamics BUT!!!!! i rlly rlly love the substance of it all like... nassy is one of the only team bleck members mimi acts polite w and nassy herself doesn't pick on mimi.. at all rlly. she’s always excused from her inadequacies pfff but i also feel like theyr both v emotionally...weird ppl LOL? mimi has trouble empathising w nassy’s situation and nassy herself is emotionally constipated over the count actlly. mimi's tone deaf but it's that sincere want to distract nassy from stressing that nassy kind of indulges in..sorta selfishly? but it leads to somn more meaningful eventually.. mimi gets better at loosening her up and getting her to do fun things w herrr.. it's hard ! and mimi herself i imagine rlly looks up to nassy's management skills- esp since she prolly learned how to operate her sweatshop thru her and- in post-game, would go to her for advice abt her cafe and just *SPARKLE* at how much she knows her way around these things fdkjfkjskg MAYB IM PROJECTING but i think mimi is 1000% sapiosexual and that's why she's impatient w like 4/6ths of team bleck LOL ⦁ bombette a long while back i had this hc that during th void days, mimi skedaddled a lot and tried finding new ppl and places, and bombette was somn she managed to b friends w??? and then one day i was like hey what if mimi realised she liked girls thru bombette and then i was like hey.  hey. AND I SORTA WENT HAM BC.... ok i think mimi needs like...a normal person in her life. i think the best thing for her is to ~expand her horizons~ and som1 down to earth like bombette would rlly ease her into...society more u know? out of the surviving team bleck members, she’s def still most unorthodox, what w being a robot and the whole sweatshop thing in chp 2 and how shes STILL talking abt boy stables post game sdfkskk I JUST THINK SHE NEEDS SOM1 NORMAL IN HER LIFE and bombette herself is tired of bruce's shit and the idea of dating a former evil robot is exciting to her.. i think they both becom v impulsive ppl around each other in the best way !!! wow i rlly made a whole paragraph for this ok. ok. ⦁ goombella this is hilarious ive never even TALKED abt this pairing. but ive thought abt it. a few times and decided its rlly good. half-same reasons as bombette but w goombella it's a side of “omg ur so creepy ugh but.....(damn this chick is literally a product of a thousand yrs ago. i need to know more)” AND GOOMBELLA IS SUPER SMART AND MIMI is a sapiosexual remember. everything is coming together theyr perfect. mimi gets rlly flirty w her and uses her spooky form to fluster her and goombella just sasses the hell out of her and its v gay theyre both v interested in each other and theres just the right amnt of spice to this and its perfect. . i wanna draw them now UGH UGH

My non-romantic OTP for this character i talked abt this w doopliss! heres the linkk ! BUT I ALSO would like to take the time to talk abt her relationship w princess peach- who is def the most important chara to do w mimi in spm....i think the fact that they’re pitted against each other in chp 8 is perfffect, esp since peach has already been thru her chara dev the past few pm games, acting all immature and irresponsibly, and now facing someone who’s a LOT more dangerous in that department. and mimi specifically rags on peach- not bc she’s a girl, like she seems to start off w, but that she’s a princess. “i got beat...by a princess?” if that’s the part that’s rlly bothering her...then there’s a lot to unpack here, and i can see a lot of opening up the two could have w each other from this, which would b esp easy bc peach is the only one who got mimi to reconsider her beliefs in-game. i actlly do ship these two too but !! brotp is rlly good as welll i love their dynamic a lot...

My unpopular opinion about this character

i don't think shes...a v warm n welcoming person like the fandom makes her out to b. she actlly sits out on like, a lot of team bleck interactions- dimentio is never involved w her (no floro sprout treatment), and mimi doesn't like... offer herself for the count's life like o'chunks n nassy do. the only time she's involved in any grand sentimental act is when peach is pouring her heart out to her- and it takes peach showing some humanity for mimi to turn around. shes attached to team bleck ofc, she vaguely misses dimentio playing along w her shenanigans, and she rlly did respect the count.. but it was those interactions that like... scratched the surface. ig mostly it’s just that i don’t see her reacting to the count’s sacrifice and dimentio’s betrayal so deeply, she voices her disdain for dimentio p quick after his betrayal, and she moves on w her life fairly quickly. i think she’d rlly come to appreciate her time in the castle more AFTER she finds new ppl that help her understand what ‘home’ is.

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon. uhhh nothing shes perfect. actlly WAIT i wish they gave her a post game side mission where u can help build her cutie pie cafe and hire ppl and she gets to wear this cute waitress outfit and its like...this whole post game story and it end w all the charas partying and taking a picture in the cafe and its cute n nice. flint cragley is there too and he has squirps n luvbi on either shoulder. nintendy hire meee PLEASE

[jaeminlore]

Library Assistant!Wonwoo

i'm back with one of the most precious boys in t world, jeon wonwoo <3

• anon wanted a troublemaker reader so here we gooo • you and mingyu are best friends and since you’re kind of outgoing and daring you tend to drag him everywhere • to the library for instance

• and even though you’re supposed to be studying what you’re really doing is drawing pictures in one of the library’s resource books

• stick figures of you and mingyu • the caption is probably something like • “skool sucks lolololol” • “kim mingyu smells” • “if ur reading this u r a loser” • you’re just a harmless troll really • bUT • this particular day when you two are hanging out in the library, mingyu suddenly slams your book closed • and you turn around to give him a piece of your mind bc what the heck mingyu who does that • until you see jeon wonwoo • aka the librarians assistant • aka the silent brooding type • aka one of the most handsome people on campus • with his oversized sweater and his large glasses that always slip off of his nose • he is really is handsome • too bad he’s so boring !!!! • ur convinced he went to some special librarian school where they sucked the fun out of him and made him into this super quiet boy who only makes an appearance when a book is being abused • you’re not here for it tbh • uNfOrtUnateLY wonwoo is mingyu’s other best friend so you two sorta kind of know each other • and he hates you so much lol • he KNOWS you are the one writing in his precious books but unless he catches you in the act he can’t technically prove it • BACK TO THE STORY • so wonwoo comes over and he’s shooting daggers at u like • “u just wrote in that book” • bc u were never one to back down from a fight you’re like • “maybe i did. maybe i didn’t. what you gonna do abt it????” • he does this semi cute huff and just frowns as he takes the book out of ur hands • “you wrote mingyu smells i know it’s you.” • cue mingyu: “i don’t smell!” • you try to tug the book back bc he can’t prove anything without it • “give me back the encyclopedia!!!!” • “lolololololololol no” • “wow i hate you” • “h8 u 2 m8” • this is basically how you two react on a daily basis • UNTIL ONE NIGHT • so mingyu had been cramming for exams and when he does this he kinda goes into Hibernating Bear Mode™ except instead of sleeping he does nothing but study • and the two of you had planned to watch neflix this particular night just to kind of distract yourselves from exams and whatever • but mingyu is nowhere to be found • and you check EVERYWHERE • you check his favorite coffee shop, the park he studies at, the gym he goes to when he’s stressed, the canteen, his dorm… you even called the 97 liners like “where tf is mingyu we have a marathon of bob’s burgers to watch” • and no one knows • but minghao gives you the best hint you can use at the moment “did you ask wonwoo?” • no way,,, there is no way u r gonna swallow ur pride and ask that … bookworm … to help u find mingyu • but thinking of wonwoo makes you think of the library, so you head on over hoping he had just fallen asleep and the security guard missed him • because at this point it’s reaching midnight and u aren’t even supposed to be out of bed,, let alone the campus library like come on • anyway the library isn’t open but you find a cracked window in the back to slide through • “mingyu!” you start whispering for your friend, hoping the security guard isn’t roaming the halls • you head over to the study second w all the tables and stuff • and lo and behold,,, mingyu isn’t there but instead it’s wonwoo • nd he’s just lazily walking thru the library w a squeaky cart, placing books back in their proper places • he’s tired, and in the dark you can see him cover his yawn with a sweater paw • ur heart does a lil somersault but like,,, u would never admit that bc you can’t find a dork attractive • esp not wonwoo, who is rumored to date books • you started that rumor but tbh you don’t doubt it • wonwoo finally catches you peaking around the corner and lets out a scream of terror bc he thought you were some kind of ancient book demon or smth • “wHaT tHe heCK!!!!!!” • you fall on the floor dYing bc his reaction was so funny • he looked like a startled deer tbh • “that was hilarious” you’re still giggling • and despite his absolute Hatred™ for you,, wonwoo finds himself blushing bc of how carefree you are in the moment • so … he gets kinda quiet and tries to become brooding again because that’s his Brand around here and there’s no way you’re going to break it with a simple giggle • at least… you aren’t going to know you did • “what do u want?” • after u sober up it gets kinda serious bc you’re still rlly worried for mingyu “is mingyu here? i can’t find him?” • “mingyu? i haven’t seen him.” • you let out a distressed sigh bc mingyu is a scatterbrain and he genuinely could’ve gotten lost around campus or smth •you sigh in distress: “he was supposed to come to my dorm a few hours ago and i can’t find him. ive looked everywhere.” • and as you speak wonwoo is suddenly,,, really disappointed,,, but he doesn’t know why,,, • “oh really? i didn’t know you two were dating…” nd he just kind of kicks himself mentally bc why wouldn’t you date mingyu honestly? • he’s handsome, he’s buff, he’s a great cook… wonwoo should’ve seen it coming tbh • but then you crinkle your nose like “dating? ew! i’d rather date you than mingyu and that’s saying something.” • even tho it was an insult and he’s slightly offended, wonwoo still felt a bit of hope blooming in his chest that for some reason just got bigger whenever you smiled at him • he also was blushing pretty dang hard but we aren’t going to talk abt that • anyway back to the topic at hand • wonwoo scratches the back of his neck and nervously suggests looking together. “we can try the kitchen if you haven’t looked there.” • “the what?” • “the kitchen. yknow, mingyu goes there every once and awhile to make food and wind down. he’s got a key and stuff so i don’t think the cooks mind him doing it.” • this is all very new information to you • but it’s the best bet so you agree. • you let wonwoo come with you because you don’t know the way • and also he’s rlly cute and kinda nice when he’s not yelling at you for an overdue book • but you would never tell him that ofc • as you both walk over there • nd it’s sort of awkward so you try to start a conversation • “isn’t the library closed? why were you stocking books?” • wonwoo smiled embarrassingly, “well i was actually just pretending to stock books. you see, there was a new shipment of books coming in and i wanted first pick of all the good ones before anyone else got to them.” • you giggle. bc,,, of course he would • “so you don’t mind breaking the rules, as long as it’s for books.” • “yeah and you always go against books which is why i can’t be associated with you.” • “well it gets boring in the library,” you whined. “can’t there be legos or coloring books to play with when students want to wind down but don’t want to read?” • “what are you, five? and why go to a library if you aren’t going to read?” • “mingyu needs someone to keep him company,” you said. “and i don’t like reading or studying so i would appreciate you taking note of that in the future.” • “right okay let me go buy a bunch of coloring books just so you can stay busy when you can literally bring one yourself.” • “that’s all i’m asking” • during your banter, you arrive at the kitchen • lo and behold mingyu is just chilling at the stove, eating some seasoned chicken • “hey guys grab a fork! i made extra!” • after you and wonwoo chide him for worrying you so much, you all sit down and eat • and • you don’t want to admit it • but it was rlly nice being able to get along with wonwoo • and he’s even cuter when he’s eating • his nose scrunches up and like you can’t help but stare at him a few times bc he’s a cutie • but he’s staring at you too so it’s all good • when the foods all eaten mingyu tells you guys to go ahead; that he’d stay behind and clean • he just ships y'all and wants one of you to make a move if we’re being honest • so wonwoo walks you back to your dorm and • you just stare at each other bc what do you do? do you ask for his number? kiss his cheek? • wonwoo answers your question by holding out his hand • fOr a haNdSHakE • but it isn’t that awkward because his hands are soft and warm • “i’ve got to go take care of some things,” he says, letting go of your hand and backing up. “i’ll see you tomorrow.” • “okay. thanks for helping me!” • “anytime.” • and that’s … that • and you’re pretty sure your crush was just fleeting and one-sided like there’s no way he’d ever like you • but • the next morning you walk into the library and on one of the tables • is a coloring book and some colored pencils • you pick it up and look around hoping to see wonwoo • you do, and he’s stocking shelves again, unable to come and talk • instead he just gives you and soft smile and mimes for you to open it you do, and his number is scribbled in • “maybe we could do something together? xxx-xxxx, let me know. wonwoo” • yep. your crush definitely isn’t one-sided.

[yumenosakiacademy]

metr0con 2019 thursday diary

Cosplayed: tsuka-sa suou, summer uniform, w my burger king crown n my leo sign. Breakfast: ramen. Snack: none, but i did bring a package of poptarts.

This is for future me, so i’d prefer if ya didnt read but i mean. w/e.

Okay so.. I had a crappy morning and I only slept for 2 hours BUT! Con tiiiime! I got there and arrived at the hetalia panel a few minutes late but that's okay, it wasn't by many. I remembered I asked sealand during truth or dare n he said dare n I asked him to reenact his favorite fortunate dance n he was like "oh I've been waiting for this" or smth and later, I asked him how his gamer youtube channel was doing n america was like “oh dude i was ur 5th subscriber!!” n sealand was like “subscribe to me plss” n america was like “dont forget to like n subscribe. n receive notifications.” n someone dared canada to b as loud as america n she yelled when they said “be as loud as you were when u lost to russia in hockey”. at another part, someone asked america if she would rather never eat fast food again or save sealand from falling into a volcano n she hugged sealand n said “my lil bro!”. someone dared america to speak in proper english and she was all “oh pip pip cheerio” and mocking england haha

at the end of the panel, a girl came up to me n she said she liked my costume n i was like “!! r u into ES??” and they said “almost” or like. kinda or smth but they took my picture n i felt so happy gjhns

OKAY then i tried to go to the adventure t!me sing-along n q+a panel but they only did truth or dare for a few minutes n im not big into AT anyway so i wasnt rly having fun then they decided to start the singalong when they got the wifi working via someone turning on their hotspot but i had a bad throat so i just left the panel and then had abt 4 hrs to walk around! aw jeez, right?

while on my walk i saw a riku n got their pic n i was like “male idols unite hell yea” n we talked for a bit n they were talkin abt a boy idol series they had heard abt called dank!ra n i mentioned i had also heard abt that! i also came across someone who said they liked my costume or knew who i was (someone in a red beret) n we were talking abt ES n i was like “best boys go” n they said shu and i think keito n i was like “chiaki n mika.. theyre baby” n they were like “ryuse!ta! n rabitz r the most baby in ES” n i was like “oh dude those r my fav units.....” at some point, i saw kuro again!! i saw them but was too shy then later they spotted me as i walked past them n went “tsukasa!!” n i turned around n i was like “erin!!!” n i hugged them n the beret person was there too bc they were their friend apparently and kuro said they were just gonna b kuro for thursday (they were cosplaying summer uniform!kuro like they did in a previous yr) n they just wore it cuz they were hot n went “summer uniform solidarity” (bc i was summer uniform!tsukasa) n we fist bumped and i was digging around my shirt pocket to show them my souma keychain n they were like “oh dude u reaching into ur pocket reminded me i need to get smth from my pocket. i hav Fangs” n they put on costume fangs! eventually they started looking at jojo figures at the stall we were next to n we eventually parted.

at some point, the person running the itabag booth (theyre an ES fan, i kno. their site has ens-tars itabags in the examples gallery n they cosplayed ES last yr) saw me n went “ousama!” bc of my sign n i went over n they were like “guess what ia ctually got to meet arashis va last week” n i was like “RLY??” n they were showing me their arashi itabag n they were like “yea i got to shake his hand n everything aaa. n during his talk/panel (?) i kept showing off my arashi stuff as if to say “I LOVE ARASHI” n i was like “arashi is best knights member.. ara-nee............”

at some point my crown fell off while i was on the escalator? i tried to go back for it but it was gone in the Minute it took me to ride te up escalator? i assumed someone took it to wear but kenyan said someone mightve thrown it away..

i went to metro night live n it wasnt all that funny?? idk what to talk abt from it. they did a “luigi being a gamer” video series n one of them was him playing hotl!ne miami (not knowing it was violent) n he was like “ive never been to florida but i guess this is a game to simulate it!” n it said “proloogue: the metro” n he was like “oh like the convention!” n when the mask selection came up he was like “oh look we can even cosplay!” n he went thru the door n saw one of the mafia members n went “look! a congoer! hello- oh” n accidentaly shoved one of the guys down n he was like “can i help you up-” but then the character (jacket) smashed the guys head in w the button press n luigi went “....o-oh. uh-” and some of the other games were fortnite n he played a violent game n he was like “THERE IS NO GOD HERE NOW” or w/e. they also had an “Edgelords anonymous” skit in which reaper was a new member of the group but it ended w ruby r0se describing brutal ways to kill people (while listing em cheerily) n the others being disturbed n alucard ending the session.

at 7 i had nothing so i walked around. then when 8 hit, i was gonna go to Whose Line Is It Anime but apparently its time had been changed to 7 pm?? the 8 in “8:00-9:00 pm” was scribbled out in sharpie on the schedule board in front of the room n it said 7 pm but now that i think abt it.. i think they meant 7-9 pm. ....shit. oh god damn it. anyway i got sad n left then since it was kinda empty/slow bc it was nighttime, i sat down on a wall thing to open up my sougo plush keychain n some guy next to me started talking to me abt my nails and we got ot talking n apparently he had wanted to go to the dealers room but didnt kno they closed @ 8 n he was here w friend n only had a single day pass bc he had work the other days (his name was spencer) so he was just lounging and i suggested he tell his friends what he wanted n they get it for him if they hav weekend passes n asked if he knew abt the game room n he said no so i invited him to go play smash w me so we went but couldnt figure out how things worked bc there were many consoles n screens w games, but mosst had no controllers but it turns out u borrow the contollers w ur con pass! kenyan was there running the controller borrower table. he said “psst” bc he saw me n i ws like “kenyan!!!” n hugged him n he was like “hows ur weekend going dear” n i said not that great but only bc it was thursday! also my throat hurt” n he was like “did u drink?” n i was like “well.. i have water but..” n he was like “drink juice. it’ll help. that’s what ur dad wwould say” (he woukdnt) anyway we got our controllrs and started playg smash n i went, in order: joker, robin, chrom, bayonetta, greninja n he was teaching me how to play w the gamecube controller (im used to a wiimote) n he beat me every time but i had fun!

after that i was GONNA go to the v-ld panel but i looked inside while walking by n there werent many ppl so i said “okay lets go to the BB panel then. take a look” so i went in there n there were a TON of ppl anyway it was kind of boring bc im not big on murder mysteries n stuff but apparently someone solved it by saying ciel slipped n fell, no one murdered him. then they did the raffle n i didnt win but thats okay! most ppl left after the raffle ended n q+a started n i couldnt hear many ppls’ questions anyway so i was bored n thought of goint to the vl-d panel but ended up not but w/e! oh! also everyone received candy at the beginning of the panel n i ahd a mystery lollipop n it turned out to b birthday cake flavor! id never had that before. it was Good.

after that i was just wandering around n i called dad to startdriving there but the ciel i asked for a picture of, them n their friends were gawking at my nails ns tuff n one of the teens’ dads was like “how do ya pick ur nose w it??” but after that, as i was wandering around, the gundam id sen earlier that day saw me n waved n i said oh hi n went over n they (it was them n an izuru) were like “wanna hang out w us for a while?” so i was like “oh. shoot. id luv too but im waiting for my dad to pick me up” n theyw ere like “it’s okay we can just hang out til then, then, if ya’d like” so i hung out w them n the gundam was talking abt how earlier, a mukuro complimented them on their outfit n they returned the compliment n went to leave n the mukuro was like “uumm arent u gonna hang out w me? we’re from the same series n all” n they were like “not w that f***in attitude” n i was like “did ya rly say that?” n they were like “yea. ppl dont expect me ta hav attitude” n we also talked abt piercings n how i said they seemed cool n goth (the gundam had a nose ring n the izuru had a piercing near their mouth) but how it must hurt n they said it just feels like a pinch. at some point i roled over my bag so my sougo wouldnt get dirty n the izuru saw my rei button n mentioned smth abt only findin one rei button at the idol table n i was like “UR INTO ES???” n they were like “i just kno undead n a few other characters. like [points @ my leo sign] i kno him” n i went “he’s dumbass supreme” n the gundam was talking abt getting the rythm game n i was like “jut read the stories on the wiki the game is boring imo” n the izuru backed me up by saying it wasnt a rhythm game n a lil while later, i showed them the 2 cool rei cgs n i was like “big sexe” n they agreed but the izuru had said theyd seen the croassroads one i showed em (the first of the 2) n the gundam said they wnted to cosplay bloody banquet rei (the other cg i showed em) n the izuru said they wanted to cosplay them All gjhnsm i showed them ryu-seitai too n showed them undead n gundam showed an interest in adonis! we also talked abt k!n stuff n all that! im not gonna go into detail on that (esp bc it’s so late rn as im typing!) but gundam was like “i dont trust junko k!n. like, evreyone else, yea, but junko? no. or like, any other character that’s just so irredeemably shitty”. oh they also talked abt this one messy, ugly, tangly junko wig they found for $300 which shouldnt have been that much n it was just a mess of tangles. anyway t’s getting late oh gosh. anyway they said they’d b on the lookout for me tomorrow so we can say hi again! 

random fun fact: SO many ppl complimented my nails today gjhnsm

[nureyevsbf]

ive been doing this to everyone and ur no exception. do all of them!! with a Special Boy of ur choosing

that’s TOO MANY!!!

im going w foggy though because fucking of course i am

✨ Describe your favorite thing about them

oh my god this is a bullshit question idk where i could even start with this let alone narrow it down to a single thing but. god do you have any idea how much i love this boy’s heart. he’s so fucking. sweet and kind and is always going out of his way to help people and do the right thing i mean for gods’ sakes he helped fix the damages in mrs cardenas’s apartment, just for free on his own time, and then proceeded to run off and make sure he was there for anybody who needed help despite having just taken shrapnel to the side like. i’m in fucking l o v e

👑 Describe their favorite thing about you

having a positive self-image that includes specific traits you can talk about? in this economy?

lord uhhhhhhh i mean as a person i guess i’m also always Doing The Most™ for other people? and that would probably appeal to him a lot. (esp since i’m not terribly sure he’s used to being on the receiving end of that sort of kindness so,,)

❤️ Describe your first date!

luckily i’ve thought abt this one a lot (i don’t have anything set but it’s the thought that counts)

i think it’d be just something really casual, like, there’s a small restaurant in the neighborhood foggy’s really fond of - it’s not expensive or anything, it’s a real hole in the wall type place but foggy insists it’s the best of its kind in all of hell’s kitchen. there were also a lot of really good movies in theaters may 2015 (which would be about the time we had our first date) so a movie after is likely, maybe stopping for desert somewhere after that. like, nothing extraordinary, but really casual and intimate where we don’t have to worry about anything but just spending time with each other

🔥 Are they a good kisser?

absolutely like this is borderline canon.

to elaborate, i would think he kisses,, almost drunkenly. like the first couple of times, especially when it’s just good night kisses, it’s very slow and sweet and he knows exactly where to put his hands and when to pull away and it’s just nice and well-paced, it’s just not a lot, you know? but later down the line when things get more intimate it’s like. he can’t get enough, you know, hands are all over and he tries to be very tender and romantic about it but it just winds up hungry and passionate and uncoordinated but in a really good way and. fans self. fuck.

💍 Who proposes and how?

hhhhhhhhhhhhh oooh uhh i think i’d be the one proposing

i haven’t gotten the chance to touch on it on this blog but tl;dr i’d wind up having to leave for a few months after civil war, and during that time i’d probably get serious about like. shopping around for a ring. keeping it on a chain around my neck once i’ve gotten it.

so by the time i’ve returned, after everything’s settled a bit we’re out one night and maybe it’s not. a particularly impressive date. it’s not like i’ve planned this out there’s just…a lull in things where the time is right & i just sorta take the ring out and get on one knee

i don’t think i’d have a speech so to speak but i’d at least have a good idea of what i want to say but he doesn’t let me get a word out it’s just immediately a yes

📖 What’s your favorite thing to do together?

hmmmmm i would just,, like being intimate w him. we don’t even have to be doing the same thing, as long as we’re doing it together, you know? like, reading or working on paperwork or watching tv, but joined at the hip while doing it. resting our head in the other’s lap, leaning on the other, etc etc

i’m also into baseball, and foggy is really into baseball (i think football too, based on some dialogue in the first episode?) so i imagine we’d go to games a lot, or at least watch it on the tv(i don’t think it’s been mentioned what teams he’s into in canon? not real world, major league teams anyways. there’s the baseball poster in their college dorm but i just can’t fucking discern what team that is and i’m not sure it’s real. or major league, anyways. so personally i’m gonna go w the mets and giants, which i can get behind. there might be some mild rivalry given i’m real diehard into the rockies and broncos, but it’s not like he’s a diamondbacks fan or - god forbid - a patriots fan, so it’d be fine. hell, i mean, it’d probably be more about which of us hates the patriots more. might have been interesting while payton was on our roster tho.tl;dr sports)

🙈 Share an embarassing moment between you two

i’m sure it’s some drunk bullshit honestly like y’all’ve seen how he gets drunk

he’s loud and forgets himself, i’m impulsive and affectionate, it’s not a good mix

👶🏻 Do you ever have a family together? 

some dogs down the road, maybe, but i can’t have kids, don’t want kids, and don’t particularly like kids. like just for 1001 reasons there’s. no reason on god’s green earth i would or should have kids

(and i don’t think foggy would be too beat up about this? like he’s definitely a family man, because of course he is, but i also think he’s the kind of person who doesn’t want kids full time, just wants to spoil his nieces and nephews, of which he has plenty)

💪 Do you ever fight? Who’s the first to apologize?

hmmmmmm probably a little,, but it’d be more over something someone did and tbh whoever is in the wrong would i think. i don’t really think communication or fighting would ever be an issue.

😷 Who’s better at taking care of the other when sick?

it would be nigh impossible for me to get sick with my enhancements and all, so i would just by default. also i’m incredibly doting and know all the secrets and hacks to get through a cold or the flu, and i wouldn’t have to worry about getting sick myself so i could still get close.

i should, like, give him credit where credit’s due, though - when i’m injured or some stupid bullshit? he’s tremendous at taking care of me. i don’t think he’s very good at cooking so it’d mean a lot of takeout but he’d still be good with literally everything else, bc he’s like…….equally as doting, lbr

💋 Do you have nicknames for each other?

u h h h hhhhhh gosh i surprisingly havent thought abt this too much uhhhh,

i mean fogs for him, ofc. i think preferred petnames honey and darling?

and my uhh,,,, my name doesn’t really have any diminutives that i’m ok with, and there’s not a ton of petnames i care too much about either way but. for s ome fuckin reason. something abt calling me sugar? makes me weak as hell.

☁️ Who accidentally kicks the other off of the bed in the middle of the night/Hogs all the sheets?

i did address this earlier in another post but i guess i’ll do it again uhh,,

neither of us, really? bc either we’re wrapped up in each other’s arms, or we’re just sort of comfortably on our bags, not curled up and yanking sheets around and shit. and i don’t really thrash in my sleep and i don’t think he does either so.

[ayyponine]

yall im touched u want to know

just a warning these questions will low key get v real and personal so let’s dive into the pain shall we

*screaming yes!! the insanely cool jared kleinman: i think idk before i even turned twelve both my grandma and aunt were lost to cancer and i often think abt them bc they were just. such good and interesting people and i missed having them in my life while going through high school and becoming an adult. up until the time they passed that bond was really solid and i just know they would’ve been people i couldve relied on. also my mom doesn’t really have any immediate family left except fr me and my sister so it would’ve been nice if she’d had them for a bit longer.

cynthia: oh man i’m sure i’d ask my sister some shit to have her explain herself but i wouldnt even know whhere to begin and how to phrase it bc how do i even ask what i want to ask. smth between do you regret what you’ve done, do you even fully realise what you’ve done, how do you feel abt yourself, what do you think abt me, who do you blame, why do you hate me, have you always hated me like this, what have i done to deserve the way ive been treated but like honestly - just because you get a truthful answer frm someone wouldnt mean it’d be the objective truth anyway (im sure that in her eyes im the absolute villain and deserved every bit of it) so. i’d need to figure out how to factor that in as well idk.

if i could tell her: this is real fukn corny but i’d probably just spend it with a friend. just quality times with any friend that i low key miss a lot. we’d just talk and take in the view.

anybody have a map: a theme park i guess? those are always fun? maybe some distant disney land park would be cool (*yt searches vloggers exploring those parks and having a good time while im tearing up a lil* it’s like im really there)

requiem: goin to pride with you guys!! this year and the previous two it’s been so great and i’m so glad we stayed fr so long this past weekend to hang out n talk at the cafe i’m really glad we all got to spend that time together it was all i ever couldve wanted really. another great memory i have is my (still living) grandparents who used to do produce n flowers got this huge empty field behind their house now so us, ten grandchildren, esp the younger ones, we used to drive an old car through that field and the woods and fuck shit up a lil (deep mud tracks and side wheelies all round) and one day it was so hot the others had gone swimming. the adults assumed i’d gone with them but i hadn’t. so i stayed in that dried mud n hay smelling car for a few hours with my tunes, just sort of kicking it back, taking in the sheer vibrance of the colours. twas a pretty fukn incredible way to spend the afternoon and if it turns out heaven is real after all, i wouldn’t be surprised if mine would be exactly like that.

good for you: my friends???? i would fucking die for yall 100%

waving through a window: *cracks knuckles to get typing because all the kids are too real. i mean the adults as well since they just mean so well, tried so hard n got so far etc etc theyre all just trying their best to make things work but dem kids. lord. with alana just throwing herself into projects (to maybe. not have to admit Stuff and keep busy and just sort of low key high key Relating to others though) n having trouble makin friends, and jared diffusing w humor and just like alana just kinda hiding behind a facade of false confidence (they truly both just. fake it till they make it. but not really making it at all so *nervous sweat*). but really Main Character and the Murphys get the most exposition and are probably therefor easiest to relate to so imma get into that entire mess fr a sec to close off.

evan: Anxiety™/ like the moment you start yr bootleg chancesare you’ll hear the nervous ramble before you even see that boy so it’s like lmao same what the fuck/ “either you interact with pizza delivery guy or you dont get food” …. *stomach grumble* “this is fine”/ denial city: population: me/ im ok mom :’))) just dandy dont u worry abt a thing/ speaking of, yes, fuckn love my mom, dont love being a burden to her but sure as fuck love my mom/ how do i m a ke fr ien d / all of “words fail” like cool cool cool :))) fuck/ *nervous laugh, nervous wreck / people pleaser to the max/ always caught between saying too much and not saying enough, constantly worrying abt both and turning that shit over in mind indefinitely

connor (problematic fave): tfw mental illness/ yall: cool we got another fukn fuck up with bad coping skills fr you to relate to me *groaning great thanks put him on the pile with the others/ hOw do i MaKe  fr iEn d??/ ((what is trusting other people. always assume the worst and let that snowball you straight into Hell))/ ((what is actually talking abt your issues. get upset? shut people out, withdraw, take out on self, rinse and repeat))/ *me listening to that cut song “a little bit of light” like ……mother fuck. same @ all of this i am shook. even like. possibly tmi bc idk how many of you have ever been that far down that youre considering yr options re: methods to Go but guess what’s in the personal top three. i mean top one. has been for a long while. fuck. moment of ice cold realisation re: that line on missing pills/missing kid tbh like nbd but damn alright jesus christ/ irl more flawed than the way u remember it but ok then sure / …..tol. good hair. occasional bitch face/ *finger guns

zoe: resident family peacekeeper/ tfw yr older sibling is some kind of intoxicated and tryna bust through yr door screaming n threatening yr life :))/ tfw theyre gone and youre learning how to breathe again/ tfw others are pretending they were a perfectly likeable or even admirable person and you are low key screaming on the inside continuously/ tfw someones like dont you miss them and youre like :)) not really :))) bc youre sick n tired of lying to protect they ass and ready to pull out dem receipts at any point tbh like give me one fukn reason/ trying her Best to just. live her life to the fullest/ trying her Best re: everything really including trying to make it ok fr other people/ gr8 looks and personality thanks

(yall see why relating to them all is. confusing. this entire musical has like 1.5 happy songs the rest is pure Suffering)