#ep 19x21

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i hope no one minds if i liveblog this bitch: ncis: hawai’i s2 from ncis 19x21

since the first ep back is a crossover with ncis i just decided to watch those eps first. if this is their way of getting more ppl to watch the og…it’s working lmao

— ncis 19x21 + ncis hawaii 2x01

roman’s hilarious

“salted or unsalted?” “i…did not taste them” lmao

i don’t like this deputy director at all

parker’s ex wife is definitely lying and probably setting him up

“if i’m the sucker, consider me licked” 😭

*pretends to be shocked*

lmaooo they got the commander good in that diner

at least parker is suspicious

WHAT???

hm. i wonder if the commander is the raven

damn this storyline is insane

jane and nick would be such a hot couple why lie

oh wow it’s the prisoner

kate and lucy are so cute

“don’t worry, you’re gonna get to know the inmates, believe me” pls

oh they got played

bombside manner 😭😭

i love bam-bam she’s hilarious

“screw you, torres!” “you’d like that, wouldn’t you?” skjfhghcjjs

IT WAS A SETUP

i’ll never get tired of ocean shots

this crossover was SO MUCH better than the first one omg

— ncis: hawai’i 2x02

kate wants to tell her boss about lucy so she can meet her team 🥹

he was shot in the face?? how horrific

ernie gossiping 😭

“first off, it’s a movie about family” dkfjgjfjdn

mai tai o’clock 😭😭

that’s a lot of blood

i love that kate’s venting to jesse

NOT THE CROWBAR

that chase was cool as hell

“i don’t have friends, i got ohana” lmaoo i love them

“it’s like a trilogy, right?” lmfaooo

“i’ll be right here, with ya” aww

“welcome to the fbi family” 🫶🏻🥹

THEY’RE SO CUTE

— 2x03

why is this woman so nervous…

oh shit they cut her brakes

“i’m like half your size!” 😭😭

oop not lucy coming at her with her full government name

“well now you’re just trying to turn me on 😏” LUCY CLAPPING TO GET HER TO FOCUS PLS 😭

SHE FULL ON BODY SLAMMED HER ICB

wait, what??

this audrey looks like she’s wearing a really bad wig

bam-bam doesn’t remember jesse lmao

“but mostly, we spoke the language of love” 😭

“ohhhh i see it now!” hours later lmao

oh redhead looked like she saw a ghost when she saw kate for the first time

“open yourself up to more mopping” plsss

oh shit this is intense

“my love” 🥹

“being with you has changed everything” i love them y’all i really do

— 2x04

a backup shoe 😭

hell no i would never think to cook in someone’s house when i’ve never even met them before

i do not like cassandra at all

they were all scared to death…what a terrible way to die

“their fear is his high” how evil

no fucking way it’s the ranger who was helping them earlier

PIKE??????

THAT WAS INSANE

jane lying and saying she likes cassandra pls

besides the season premiere, this was my favorite episode of the season so far

— 2x05

oh my God

lmao that kacy scene was so awkward

i can’t wait to find out who this aj person is

all of these construction men are hot…assholes but. hot.

kate really put her foot in her mouth with that financially responsible comment

not him blaming ben + the team for what’s happening as if he didn’t get into bed with them in the first place

this ep was frustrating but really good

i don’t trust aj at all. he’s probably the one who had the brothers attacked.

that was such a beautiful ending

— 2x06

i’m on daniel’s side with this one sorry

God this is making me never want to leave my house again…fentanyl scattered all over the beach are you fr

“if the devil got into the drug business, fentanyl would be his product of choice” so true

“it’s not every day i get to spend time with my little buddy” the smile on kai’s face when he thought ernie was talking about him is making me lose it

i’d like to thank the writers for gracing us with shirtless kai scenes

bam-bam and ernie beefing is hilarious

oh my God i really thought jesse was gone

kai really threw down that bag so he could hug jesse jdjgjvjdhsvc

alex getting a job at kai’s dads restaurant oh wow 😭

“your dad doesn’t know what he missed out on” i love their friendship so so much

stella knows there’s something wrong

well that was unexpected

i want more annoyed kate

jesse’s insane

lucy “my love” tara and kate “my sweet” whistler you are so adorable

the tear ☹️

i get the writers needed an excuse for yasmine being gone but lucy deciding to spend four months on a boat in the middle of the ocean is so out of character

— 2x08

kai is such a SWEETHEART

not jesse being a theater kid omg?

“the pirate queen” “no, just stop. you’re embarrassing yourself” the way kai just nods 😭

mcu mention oh this is hell

alan’s an idiot

ernie 😭😭😭

okay a movie shoot was not expected

lucy needs to come home NOW

“walk away” he is very much not going to do that

not at all important to the plot but charlie’s neck is so freaking thick lmfao

cassandra needs to pack her shit and go already

jane is such a badass i don’t care if what she did was a stupid move

they did alan so foul

oh shit kai’s dad took money from those men???

CHARLEMAGNE 😭😭

oh jane’s gonna kill alex

[kasiehinesfreakingrocks]

[poipoi1912]

Carisi-Centric Thoughts on Ep 19x21

A brief post tonight, because Brooklyn Nine-Nine just got cancelled and SVU was renewed for Season 20 and obviously there is no God and everything is terrible.

Overall Thoughts

I’m glad the writers remembered everyone in New York City isn’t white. There are black people too. Black people who pimp out their entire family, and also black people who are prostitutes on crack. Representation!

Fin Thoughts

Ice-T was so good. I loved seeing more of him. And he and his little grandson? My heart!

Sonny Thoughts

No thoughts. I’ll just wait until they release his deleted scenes for this week, apparently all his character development gets left on the cutting room floor.

Finrisi Thoughts

By far my favorite cop configuration. They have a great vibe together, they’re both lowkey and chill and objective.

Stray Thoughts

[piepeloe]

SVU 19x21 Guardian

Scrolled through social media before seeing the episode, like always, but I wasn’t spoiled at all. Few people were talking about the ep or anything that happened in it. A lot of chatter about SVU being renewed for s20, and I might do a post on that later. Anyway, here goes:

- The case was pretty interesting if depressing. It’s the kind of situation where there’s no good outcome, no matter what happens. I think they were a little late in trying to have us feel for Malik, maybe if we’d spent more time with him or learned more about him that could have worked but now all we had was Tiana saying how she loved him and that was just sad.

- Also, what happened to the 3 teenagers? That’s what started everything, did they just get scolded by their grandma?

- I read a comment that said this was the first case all season to have a black victim. I’m pretty sure I’ve blocked some of the season, but I think that might be true. That’s terrible. And the fact that the one case is all about how tough it is in the hood and that it’s Fin’s episode... Hmmm...

- But: next week the victim is an old woman. We rarely see that, even though I’m pretty sure they’re more likely to be victims of (sexual) abuse. And the ep after that, the season finale, has loads of Hispanic guest stars as far as I can tell. Could it be that they actually listened when fans complained about the lack of representation? Or is it all a coincidence?

- Fin was great in this. I’m ashamed to admit I was a bit surprised, Ice T’s acting isn’t always the best, but I’d definitely like to see more of this Fin. I liked the phone call to his son/grandson at the end even if it was a bit awkward.

- For the rest of the cast it was a nice ensemble ep. Rollins got relatively little to do, but then she had her ep last week. I really liked Liv in this one, being the leader, kept in the loop, etc, but letting her detectives work. Stone is still bland IMO. Carisi got quite a bit to do early on in the ep. I love when he’s partnered with Fin, they seem to amuse each other a lot. He disappeared completely halfway through the ep though.

- Carmen: I know some people are upset she’s working for Stone, but, really? She’s Barba’s BFF in fanon, but we have no idea about their actual relationship. She may have been the assistant to the person before Barba as well. She might not have liked him, she might not like Stone, or she might like Stone better. Or even if she *is* Barba’s BFF, it would have been foolish to just leave before she knew where Barba would wind up. He might not even need an assistant anymore.

And that’s about it for this ep, I guess?

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I said at some point that I felt Hanssen failed Serena in this storyline. @alielpez asked me to expand on that here. This became ridiculously long and involved and I feel very sure that everyone, including me, has better things to do with their life, but here this post is anyway. Also, this could easily be read as critical, though that is definitely not the point of it. It’s just me sorting though the storyline and my thoughts while having Feelings(TM).

I was hopeful in the beginning. I liked when Hanssen had her called, asked to meet in Pulses. One of the things I loved about that conversation with Serena (here) is that he wasn’t critical of her, he wasn’t patronizing, in fact he made himself vulnerable by apologizing and the effect was a 180 degrees from everything everyone else had tried up until that point. It was a breath of fresh air to me because it was the first time someone was able to connect with her since Elinor died, and she actually opened up.

But during 19x21 The Price We Pay, after she has her eh episode, Serena and Hanssen have a conversation. Serena says about her break down that “I clearly have an issue with grieve and I was taking it out on Jasmine.”  Hanssen answers with “Now that we know what we’re dealing with (...)” and outside of a Holby context I would say Noooooo, how about a formal assessment? A suspension might go a bit far but if he can tell Dom to take some time off a few eps later, he can tell Serena that too. Presumably, he doesn’t know how she dropped the ball with her patient on Valentine’s Day but nonetheless he should be worried. She just said she is having an issue with grieve. 

As her boss he shouldn’t just care about Serena but also about her patients and coworkers. She has people’s lives in her hands and she’s people’s boss. There has been a complaint against her about bullying, he’s seen it himself and Serena just had a complete breakdown. This isn’t about punishing her, it’s about keeping everybody, including Serena, safe. 

This is Holby though, so okay: “Now that we know what we’re dealing with, I suggest we just monitor the situation very carefully. That’s all.”

“That’s all?”

Hanssen nods.

“You’re prepared to let me loose on your wards again?”

“We all need support from time to time, Serena, and at least you’re recognizing the problem. That’s the important first step.”

“What if I can’t take the next step? What if I don’t want to?”

“Then we will continue to support you.”

(Emphasis mine.) 

1) Her only response to Hanssen’s faith in her is 4 questions in which she clearly signals that she does not feel able to take the next step and isn’t ready to let go of her grieve.

2) He promises to monitor the situation and to support her. He says we, I know, but that does include him. It is very clear at this point that he can’t trust anybody on AAU to tell him anything. The complaint came from Jac. We don’t see him talk to Bernie at any point to coordinate anything. And we never see him on AAU again. In fact he monitors nothing and gives no support. 

I understand why Serena and Jasmine want to try the mentoring thing again but that is really something Hanssen should have put a stop to. If Serena’s bullying was a structural problem that’s different, you can’t accommodate a bully that way. But Serena is normally not a bully. Her behavior stems from recent trauma. She’s basically a wounded animal and Jasmine has become a stand-in for what is causing Serena’s pain. They can’t take away all of Serena’s pain but they could lighten it, maybe give her a chance to heal by easing the pain, by not allowing the mentoring. They could at least have avoided Jasmine being hurt more. 

So things go wrong again. It is again Jac who steps in and again there is a conversation with Hanssen.

Serena is not going to any of them for support, it is very clear she is pushing everyone away. It is clear she is not coping. She indicates to him that she wants it acknowledged, that maybe she should be reviewed, get assessed, get mental health workers in, that maybe… she should be stopped. This is the clearest she’s been about the fact that she needs help and wants help, that she’s not coping.

He stops her from talking about it.

I understand that this is supposed to be a nice thing for her, career-wise, but mental health wise this is not at all nice. All he does is say she can come to him and he would do anything for her, and then he does nothing and let’s her loose on his wards again.

And if he really means that, if he wants to do something for his friend who he clearly loves, his friend who is suffering, who has not felt able to go to her friends for help or support, who has been pushing everyone away, who has been so afraid to put her weapons down, her guard down, who has been veering between fight and flight this whole time, who has barely been able to let anyone in, let alone on her own initiative, often not even without a fight, than the thing he really needs to do is stop being reactive and passive and take some initiative. She finally indicates she wants to talk. You can’t talk in your office? Fine. Fill that thermos, take your blankie, grab your friend’s hand and go up to the roof. Talk there. Take her for a drive. Go to a pub, go sit in the peace garden. But. Take. Some. Initiative. Because if there is one thing Serena has shown it’s that she somehow isn’t capable of coming to you. You already know this. This is not rocket science, it is not a difficult action to take.

She is the wounded animal. You are not. She is hurting. You aren’t. She is bullying someone, acting out of character, unable to stop and you are her boss and a friend who loves her and frankly, it is the least you can do.

And in fact, she doesn’t go to him. She goes to the roof, alone, with two bottles of wine, as if she hasn’t been spending enough time alone with her gloomy thoughts soaked in alcohol. And can you blame her? He’s her boss and he just told her not to talk to him about personal things in the hospital.

The only thing he has done for her is keep what happened out of her file, but he failed her as her boss and as a human being. As her boss he was best placed of everyone in that hospital to do more for her than just offer a shoulder and he left her to flounder and didn’t even give her a shoulder.

An episode or so later he says to Dom that he failed to give pastoral care (or something like that). I’m not entirely sure of the connotations of that term. I do think monitoring an employee who is not functioning within acceptable parameters is his job as the boss and as a boss he therefor failed Serena, Jasmine and Bernie.

As a human being I think he fails her in that last conversation when she is so clearly indicating she needs help, and he shuts her up and gives her no help.

I don’t think any of this is malicious, some of it is even well-intentioned, but that doesn’t mean he doesn’t fail her.

Sorry for this very depressing view on things and sorry it is so long and emotional. If you see things differently, I would love to hear it!