#enlargedheart

[centsie]

Live or Die

So for a while now I have been feeling very much "if I die meh!". At the same time I don't want to die simply because there are two very vulnerable people who need me to stay alive for their sakes. There are many people who would miss me but I figure they would get over it but the two most vulnerable people never would.

So here's the thing, now I have an enlarged heart. Just found out. This could be the reason for the year's worth of heartburn,the 5 months of dizziness and often feeling drunk, the swollen legs, depression, exhaustion and the upper left quadrant of my body pain in my chest, back, neck etc.

If I was told something like "you have 6 months to live" I could plan to set things up for these two people but with the heart it's so fricken random. I could be going about my day and suddenly drop dead. I think that is the scariest part, that I would go (even mid planning) and I would not be able to tidy things up and organize things for those I would leave behind.

Dying doesn't bother me to be honest, it's not being able to look after those who really really need me that would upset me and leaving them in his world that right now is so full of anger, hatred, mistrust etc.

I am caught between not wanting to be alive and not wanting to die. It sucks.

[whisperingwillowssds]

Poor, sweet Millie woke up this morning and the side of her cheek is swollen. Most likely a tooth abcess. An antibiotic was called in for her and she will be starting it immediately. Girl just can't catch a break this week. 😭 Send lots of love and good thoughts for Millie Dillie, she needs it! 💗💗💗 #milliedillie #cardiomyopathy #enlargedheart #toothabcess #ouch #whisperingwillowsseniordogsanctuary #whereloveiswhisperedtothelastbreath #seniordogs #boxer #seniorboxer #sweetgirl (at Whispering Willows Senior Dog Sanctuary, Inc.)

[iviesnroses-blog]

This is a customised herb for enlarged heart. This is a condition whereby the heart stop pumping blood effectively. This herb assist in revitalising the heart muscle so the heart start working properly. It will also help treat the underlying condition. #heartfailure #heartfailureawareness #healingherbs #hustlersqure #stayhealty #9jamen #9jabusinessmen #ilesha #enlargedheart (at Osun (state)) https://www.instagram.com/p/B1cBlHGgvjn/?igshid=1ot5yo2l8ttis

[jackity-and-lukin]

Pupperstink Update #sickpuppy #hypothyroidism #enlargedheart . This poor puppers is a sick 👻 Boo. He has been diagnosed with hypothyroidism. 💔 And has an enlarged chamber in his heart. Does anyone have any experience with this with their schnauzers that they can share? Any advice would be welcome. _______________________________________________ #Lukin #Boo #LukieBoo #schnauzer #standardschnauzer #mittelschnauzer #schnauzersofinstagram #standardschnauzersofinstagram #schnauzerlove #blackschnauzer #blackstandardschnauzer #petsofinstagram #dog #dogs #dogstagram #dogsofinstgram #ilovemydog #lifeisbetterwithadog #mydogiscutest #dogswithbeards #cooldogsofinstagram #vancitydog #vancouverdog #bigcitylittleboo #littleboobigcity (at Vancouver, British Columbia) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bs_Iko7gMRu/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1juqka9ek5ky0

[therealharrypotter36]

Tips on fitness and nutrition

[instagrampuppies]

Hi friends, My name is Kronk. But my mom calls me bub or bubba. I love to play but I get tired quickly, and sleep a lot during the day. When I lived at the shelter (Gulf Coast Humane Society) I heard them say it’s because I had “special needs”. They told my soon to be mom, I have an Enlarged Heart and I have to be careful when going for walks or playing. That’s okay, because I love cuddling and watching movies. Usually after baths I get all the zoomies out. Follow me to learn more about my story and come along for an adventure with my mom and friends! 🐾 🐾 🐾 #Gulfcoasthumanesociety #dogsofinstagram #followforfollowback #dog #doggo #animals #cutedogs #puppies #Specialneedspets #special #enlargedheart #handsome #emotionalsupportdog #pitbull http://bit.ly/2JqYHs3

[wallpunch]

@carlwooley @timcarpenter @on_the_origin_of_ of @tisbooks sans @enlargedheart with @natylonglegs and #andreamodica thanks @phlartbookfair for good times

[jacquelinesilberbush]

RepostBy @enlargedheart: "#😑" (via #InstaRepost @AppsKottage)

[direk-eric]

Sa dami ng problemang iniisip... nagkalagpas lagpas na naman ng pag take ng meds :( kulang na nga, di pa nasunod mga oras ng inom nila... Sabay sabay na lang, pareho din naman... magkikita kita din sila sa finals... hahaha Minamani ang gamot... good sa #heart ko eh sa liver kaya. #boom #medications #healthiswealth #enlargedheart #puso #repacol

[whisperingwillowssds]

Millie is showing us that she is a fighter! 🥊After she was diagnosed with Cardiomyopathy recently we were concerned with how she would respond. If you remember she collapsed the same night Alfie died. We have been monitoring her and waiting for all her medicines to kick in. We have now gone a whole week without her having a syncopal episode! In fact today she has been running and doing her Boxer bounce. The most activity I've seen out of her in weeks! Millie is not giving up that easily, she's come too far! 💗 #cardiomyopathy #enlargedheart #boxer #seniorboxer #fighter #toughgirl #whisperingwillowsseniordogsanctuary #whereloveiswhisperedtothelastbreath #seniordogs #rootforMillie #endanimalabuse (at Whispering Willows Senior Dog Sanctuary, Inc.)

[frigidfirefox]

A tv show about dying people is giving me life! So sad that it got cancelled too soon though :( #RedBandSociety #Cancer #EnlargedHeart #Anorexic #Coma #FOX #TV #Series #Season1 #Cancelled #NurseJackson

[beratherthanappear]

A scripture I saw hanging in a friends kitchen a couple of years ago coupled with this picture of Lincoln and I at the Jays game on Saturday, culminated in a message to the ladies at Teen Challenge GTA Chapel this morning. Hearts enlarged to rest secure. “Let the beloved of the Lord rest secure in him,     for he shields him all day long,     and the one the Lord loves rests between his shoulders.” Deuteronomy 33:12 NIV #friendskitchen #deuteronomy3312 #lincoln #papa #bluejays #enlargedheart #loveofgod #youhavewonme #brokeneverychainwithloveand mercy

[speak3]

"Always break her heart to make sure it still works"-Reynold Martin

[yashapro]

U guys heard it right deh Final Verdict : start phase #enlargedheart is one of my causes of my #chestpain tht I've been having most of diss month. I'm still gunna live. #irregular #heartbeat

[iamlifeheisexistence]

Sad and tired. Just stoked for my show Wednesday. I want to scream my lyrics at some faces. #singing #screaming #vocals #life #music #highhorse #theresolution #tosieway #adamantine #enlargedheart

[wallpunch]

@enlargedheart may have overkilled on ordering 10 items for Dim Sum.