#english is my first language. im just bad at it

[manari-archives]

things I wish you said | LN4

When I saw you cry, I didn't handle it well Without you here I don't know what to do with myself I hope you know it scared me to death The night that your sister said that you got in an accident

pairing: Lando Norris x Reader

warnings: alludes to a sexual relationship, a crash, hospitals

word count: 1k

note: IM BACK AFTER ALMOST 2 YEARS, this is probably the last part of the emails I can't sent series I'm gonna write, sorry </3. again this isn't based on the entire song, just a couple of lines. also english isn't my first language and this hasnt been proofread yet, so any corrections feel free to let me know and any feedback is welcome :)

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Lando Norris sat alone in his car, staring blankly at the empty street ahead. The hum of the engine was barely audible over the ache in his chest. His fingers clenched the steering wheel as memories of Y/N flooded his mind.

They’d been here once right here in this exact car. That night was supposed to be the beginning of something more, but instead, it became the moment everything slipped away.

“Lando,” Y/N had whispered back then, her voice unsure, “is there something you want to say?”

He hadn’t responded. The words had burned his tongue, begging to be released, but his fear had silenced him. Instead, he’d reached out and placed a trembling hand on her leg, hoping she'd somehow understand.

But she didn’t.

And how could she?

The silence between them had stretched on, heavy and painful, until she pulled her coat tighter around herself and looked away.

“You know I can’t read your mind, right?” she finally said, her voice laced with sadness.

But still, he said nothing.

Now alone in the quiet of his car, Lando winced at the memory.

“I was such a coward” he muttered to himself, slamming the steering wheel. “You were right there, and I let you go.”

Every corner he turned, every flickering neon sign, brought her face back to him. The way her eyes lit up when he joked, the way she got his humor when others thought he was just cold or sarcastic.

No one understood him like she did.

Back then, when she had broken down in front of him crying, vulnerable, real, he hadn’t known what to do.

“I don’t know why I’m like this,” she sobbed, wiping her face as she sat curled on his couch.

“You’re not broken,” he’d whispered, heart pounding in his chest, “you’re just... feeling things I don’t know how to fix.”

Instead of holding her, he had shut down. Instead of comforting her, he froze.

And that was the beginning of the end.

The shrill ring of his phone snapped him out of his thoughts.

“Hello?” he answered, voice rough.

“Lando, it’s me,” came the shaky voice of Y/N’s sister. “She’s been in an accident. A car hit her. It’s... bad.”

Everything else became a blur.

At the hospital, Lando paced the hallway, hands trembling.

“What happened?” he asked, almost breathless.

“It was some drunk driver,” her sister replied through tears. He didn’t wait, he pushed through the doors and into the room.

Seeing her pale, bandaged, broken tore the air from his lungs. “Oh God, Y/N...” he whispered, approaching her bed. He reached out and held her hand, cold and unmoving in his.

“Please,” he whispered, voice cracking, “you have to wake up. I need to say what I never said.”

When she finally opened her eyes, days later, he was still there.

“Lando?” she rasped.

“I’m here,” he choked out.

She blinked slowly, her voice weak. “Why?”

“Because I should’ve never left you in the first place.” He leaned forward, tightening his grip on her hand. “I was afraid, Y/N. Of what you made me feel. So I hid. I said nothing when I should have said everything.”

She looked away.

“I remember that night in your car,” she murmured. “You didn’t say a word.”

“I know,” he said softly. “But I wanted to. I wanted to tell you I loved you. That I was falling for you and it terrified me.”

“And when I cried... you disappeared.”

“I didn’t know how to comfort you. I was so afraid of doing it wrong that I did nothing. But not anymore. I’m done running from my feelings.”

She closed her eyes, a tear slipping down her cheek.

“I don’t know if I can just forget all of that.”

“You don’t have to,” he said quickly. “I don’t expect that. But I’m here now. And I’ll prove it to you, every day, for as long as it takes.”

Weeks later, the air between them was lighter, but still cautious.

“You always leave the milk out,” she teased one morning as he handed her tea.

Lando grinned. “Old habits. I’m a changed man, but not that changed.”

“You’re working on it.”

“I am.” He grew serious for a moment. “And I want to be better. For you.”

She looked up at him, eyes soft.

“You’re getting there.”

Months passed, and slowly, carefully, they built something new.

“I missed this,” she said one night as they sat on the same couch she’d once cried on.

“Me too,” he whispered, resting his forehead against hers. “But I’m not going to miss any more chances.”

[pet-cemetery-emotes]

Hey, just a heads up, since I've been seeing media and media triggers in the DNIs of people who follow this blog - make sure to block tags you are uncomfortable with!

Some hot ticket items are not off the table for me. I don't watch but don't mind Minecraft YouTuber series and characters, and I am willing to take requests for them. I also am sometimes open to taking requests for FNAF or Hazbin Hotel. You probably won't run into any of these things often, as I'm not in these fandoms and so they will be lower on my priority list.

I think my main concern for media is a) is money ending up in the hands of creators who will use that money to fund discriminatory laws or practices or platform those views, and b) if A is handled, is the media being consumed responsibly. Are you dissecting or disregarding presented prejudices and subtext? Or are you internalizing them.

I trust myself to take both into account, and I hope you'll do the same! But that's in your hands. As such, as anyone could misuse any of my work with a little effort, I’m allowing requests of any kind in the hopes this will aid in accessibility and communication, even silly kinds, and will disregard asks at my discretion!

[nightyraven-art]

As I'm working on my post-botw au I have the final design of my Link

It's been a year of me trying to find a design and writing this project I wouldn't say its finished but I'm at a great starting point.

A big thanks to the people who helped me continuing this projects bc I was stuck for months XD

The premise takes place after botw when Link and Zelda found out Ganon's skeleton (inspired by totk trailer) this au doesn't have zonai. If you are wondering what happened? Gloom takes over Link's body. Purah helped making the suit with the remains of the divine beast and ancient Guardians parts.

The Adventure starts with Zelda this time(still a wip) meanwhile Link goes to the depths. Later on they both will work together.

However Link will be not alone after awhile...someone is watching him or maybe waiting for him

I'm still working on this project in the meantime, it's not done but big thanks to my friends helping me out with this.

I'm currently writing a fanfic abt this au and designing Zelda, it might take some time but don't worry!!! I'm still working once I have free time

This started as a joke and began something more, I wouldn't made it to this point if it wasn't for my friends!!

I just ask any of you to be patient in the meanwhile but I hope I'm not letting anyone out I'm just trying my best to make it memorable.

I'm very proud of my progress on this project!!

[icras]

i usually mostly do like portraits with zero(0) background and things like that so why i decided to just like. try to make a wide shot with mostly background work is beyond me but. i feel like i could do it like i have a vision i just know next to nothing ab perspective or composition but the vibes are there

[wh01s-isabela]

EDDSWORLD DRABBLE

⬇️⬇️⬇️⬇️⬇️⬇️⬇️⬇️⬇️⬇️

(I'm dyslexic and a MASSIVE stutterer, english is not my first language and I'm full of shit so be warned)

(It's nothing freaky tho, relax yo ass bro)

Okie but HEAR ME OUT

Yunno Tom's parents?

So, in my a̶u̶t̶i̶s̶t̶i̶c̶ head I see Tom's dad (the 🍍) being called Philip (It just fits shut up) and his mom (the 🎳) being called Bethany.

✨LOGICS✨

(But I saw and artist the apparently calls Tom's mom Bethany too so I'm not crazy-)

Also,

I have a headcanon that when his parents died, his guard was passed to his aunt or smth (specifically 🍍's sister)

BECAUSE,

I think that she would be a Red Spanish Pineapple (I'm delulu)

And her name would be Anna

Because if I'm not mistaken, those are called Ananas in France I guess 🧐 ✨LOGICS again✨

(I'm not a trustworthy font)

So yeah basically I just wanted to spit it out

If someone sees this I mean

But if someone do, I would like to hear your thoughts 🫵🫵 on Tom's family

Or anything eddsworld related crazy bullshit you need to shout to the world

Okay das it AaaaaaAAAAAAAA *disappears from time space*

[elis-corner]

crying because why the fuck did i pick a three year course of latin i can barely string a sentence together in english and it's literally my first and basically only language

[vyibunni]

the fontaine characters im looking forward to the most

[selamat-linting]

i let my friend explained to me about the subtlety of two different words that basically mean the same thing and now there's randos assuming i dont know bitch can be a verb. fuck off.

[crepegosette]

btw i'm really sorry for those who asked for elaborated answers about certain topics. it's not because i don't want to answer them, i'm just really bad writing texts

[sky-kenobye]

It's really dumb to be bilingual but shit at speaking because I can read and write in english perfectly fine, but I speak like a 3 years old and I'll make everybody repeat themselves twice

[eepyestgirlthateverlive]

I was playing jackbox quiplash and it was the 3rd round, aka thriplash. Wich means I needed to think of 3 funny responses to the prompt "if you see _____ you can never un-see it" and I couldn't think of anything. I thought of the twilight movies eventually and saw I only had 30 seconds left. And I still had 2 responses to think of. So of course my nerd ass only was able to think of depth zones of the ocean (surface, twilight zone, midnight zone, abyssal zone) so I then wrote "the midnight movies", and "the abyssal movies" and it was the joke with the most narrow audience I have ever made.

[orphilism]

it happens to me that midvalley gave me full older brother vibes, you know. i don't know how or why, but i suddenly thought about it and said, the non-blood older brother and younger brother trope fits so good on him and nicholas :o it sounds crazy even though i consider that nicholas is very avoidant with certain things, or at least i get the impression that it is like that or would be with midvalley, because just for that reason, midvalley would be the typical older brother who bullies you but not too much. and in front of others he is the type ““ mess with him and i will destroy your brain ”” (bro literally can and will do it) even if his younger brother could defend himself, he would still do it because that's my favorite love language as an older sibling myself and i'll add to any character whether you like it or not.

nicholas, although he finds midvalley insufferable¿, would enjoy the music he plays as long as it doesn't break his eardrum, midvalley being amused by this because he sees him as the younger brother he never got and couldn't hurt him (yeah i did read trigun i saw those panels but im delusional).

and i also feel that those two would be, midvalley holding nicholas on a leash and nicholas as the furious and aggressive little thing meme that rips off your arm if you get close, since i feel that midvalley triggers him to violence but that would be the part of himself that doesn't show to no one else so that's why he'd be like that with him. it's like when you can't be something with the rest of the world but you can be that something with THAT specific person and that's why i think and feel that nicholas's whole feral side is brought out with midvalley.

another thing is that midvalley also gives me a lot of vibes that he is older than nicholas in canon, even without anything confirmed (i hate you nightow) i say that midvalley is in his thirties, close to forty, and nicholas is around there in his twenties (i'm looking at you tristamp coded nicholas)

[turtle-ier]

my toxic trait is misgendering everything, including my OCs, my Obviously Gendered in a Certain Way co-workers and family, and myself

[vogelmeister]

omg your tags on the reblog of my post - that's word for word how i feel and i HATE it, things have felt artificial to me since 1989, reputation was better but ever since lover it's felt like that 1000x more idk.. it just sucks but yeah you're not the only one feeling that way :')

THANK YOU! It's really nice to see that someone else has been feeling this way and I really begun to think deeply into why I feel like this. And you're right, it has really been since rep that it has felt... idk, less authentic.

I remember during the red and 1989 era, taylor was doing a lot of shit that actually showed how much she loved us. And by all means, she didn't have to, but it was little things such as the hidden notes in her album lyric books that made me feel a bit more connected to her. Not to mention stuff like swiftmas, the secret sessions and of course t-party all made us feel like one big family and that she was actually thankful for us. She didn't gain anything out of this, it was all "for the fans" and it made being a swiftie loads of fun, especially those hidden messages, which lbr costed nothing to keep doing. (1989 was her last i think)

Nowadays, when she does it, it feels more calculated and less authentic and I get maybe it's a safety thing that she can't do secret sessions and swiftmas etc anymore, but now even when she does things for the fans, it's stuff like releasing loads of versions of the one album so we all buy it (see, the midnight clock), and because we have this relationship we built up with her, we feel we owe our loyalty. It feels like she does these things to show she cares, but she wants our money in return. And believe me, there's other ways you can show it. The wiping of her social media defs slightly killed her authenticity, I think. Even though I understand why she did it, it certainly didnt help her relationship with the fans or it's authenticity. I do believe she still is thankful for us, but I can't help but notice the business aspect creeping in, and I just wish a lot of swifties knew you don't have to buy in to it. She's human, she has flaws, you don't have to always defend her, or buy her merch. It's almost business at this point, and I hate it.

I hate it. And I hate it more because I almost understand why its like this.

[kayayeteae]

I saw some spoilers for RE4R separate ways and MY GOD. LEON FR HAS TO BE BISEXUAL THERE IS NO WAY YOU CANNOT FIND LUIS AND ADA NOT FINE AS FUCK CUZ SHITTTT.

[todayisafridaynight]

Literally will sit and rewatch the episode of Super Salaryman the first photo is a production image from just to see Tsutsumi's character super excited to see the monkeys <3 love him dearly and the show as a whole big serotonin boost <3 also less Hostage Situation shot of the second one

AND OKAY I WOULD'VE TOLD YOU ABOUT RASEN IF I KNEW YOU LIKED ADO THE SONG S L A P S AND SO DOES THE INTRO SEQUENCE IN GENERAL

One Google Search Later how could you not tell me bout this show sooner the premise sounds so fuckin cute hold ONNNN 😭😭

OH BUT YEAH MY ADO FANATICISM WASNT EVER MADE PUBLIC IG LMAO yeah i love her :)) the intro IS mundo cool (;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`)(;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`)