#endhell

[scrinja]

unprompted ask / always accepting

@endhell​ said: Everyone else would have died a happy death over this chance, but she could just grimace at the very idea of working with this guy. She barely knew him apart of being quite desired and liked, but mostly having a terrible art style in her opinion, potentially ruining her good grades. Why in the world must it be partner work. "I guess now you are awake," she comments, considering their fate; having rolled over and stopping right beside his table. Popular or not, she wasn't afraid, if anything, just annoyed as she doubted it would be easy with a guy who sleeps mostly in class. "I'm Gao Fang." In case he was completely unaware of her existence; at least she did not have to carry her stepfather's surname, which would have intensified some other issues.  

     it had been a long night, & even longer morning, that everything in-between was nothing more than a hazy memory—a blurred image that tried to be solidified, only to be whisked away with each blink. anyone would have been able to tell that he didn’t get much sleep. his yawns, giving away his exhaustion. teachers barely acknowledged it, though. be it pity, or disinterest for the boy who had lost his parents, a few years ago. when he wasn’t dozing off, he was sketched in his notebook, with a cheek resting against his palm. the sound of his pencil dragging along the paper became his sole focus at times. it made everything more bearable.

      his eyes were partially opened, then closed. a shadowy image was in his plane of sight, but he could not make what it was until another blink followed, & then, another. the image becoming more clear, once his vision became less foggy. it didn’t feel like he had slept for long, but the way that he was greeted with, suggested otherwise. instinctively, sangwoo rubbed his eyelids with the back of his fist, as he tried to stir himself awake. his yawn was contained by having his lips pressed together, not allowing himself to exhibit any more of his evident tiredness. his eyes narrowed in her direction, before placing crossed arms over the table, using them as support when he leaned in the direction of his classmate, whilst wearing a lazy smile upon his lips.

     “i know you.” he confirmed. his voice, a bit hoarse from not speaking until now. it warranted a clearance of his through. “sorry ‘bout that. i worked till late.” which was only partially a lie—the main reason behind his struggle to sleep, being the very house he inhabited. if it wasn’t one thing, it was another. “i know, i know. no excuse, but i will try to do better.” ‘ try ‘ being a key component here. this time, he’d smile with his eyes. “oh sangwoo... since we are exchanging introductions. i look forward to working with you.”

[kitschd]

@endhell​ continued from [x]

Fuck, she had seen him.  To the ordinary by-stander, it definitely looked like a mom scolding her son.  Wouldn’t be surprised that’s what people thought when they were together because of their height difference and were speaking English to each other.  Seeing David at work must of looked strange, especially since his ensemble of a dark maroon suit, black dress shirt that exposed a bit of his faintly toned torso, and gold cross chained necklace made him look like he stepped out of Scarface.  

David looked so out of place along side his very attractive Korean co-workers.  He was the youngest host there, coming across more cute than handsome.  Not like he never got clients.  That had been his appeal so far, even if the women he attracted wanted fulfil their parental instincts with him rather than their sexual needs.  

He tried his best to stay calm and composed as she grabbed him.  He smiled nervously and clears his throat.  “David?”, he played dumb.  “I think you must be confused for someone else, ma’am.  My name is Leo.  Were you interested in experiencing Tokyo’s Eden this evening?” God, it didn’t sound nearly as cool when he said it.  

[mugunghwc]

unprompted ask / always accepting

@endhell​ said: "Mako, don't you play tennis? Can you teach me?" Fu // rip

     her sudden interest in a sport that he had vaguely mentioned at some point, took him by surprise upon being brought up by futaba nonetheless. someone who, he had thought, feigned interest in it as a means to appease him ( which worked every time ). mako would’ve sworn that she had barely paid him any attention, while her interest was elsewhere. her hand sneakily sliding down his thigh whenever he was too distracted talking about himself. he didn’t take her for the listening type, unless it was brought up by her. the motive behind such question, remaining unknown to him. mako let his confusion be seen.

     “yeah, i do. why?” he inquired, not at all believing that this came out of her own curiosity. otherwise, why she’d bring it up now, out of nowhere? if it had always been an interest of her, mako was certain that she’d have spoken sooner about it. ideally, when he initially brought it up. not now, when it came out of the blue. “is it ‘cause you want to see me in action?” mako teased. his smirk being a mere means to convey some playfulness. after all, her reasoning shouldn’t matter to him. it wasn’t any of his business, as much as he’d like to pry. “if you think you will like it, sure. we can sort out a date, for next time we are both free.”

[keikakudori]

𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐢𝐬 𝐡𝐨𝐥𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐛𝐚𝐜𝐤?

the inability to cherish the good things that happen out of fear of them disappearing

you've been hurt, badly, haven't you?

it's been a long time since you've felt comfortable in your own mind. everything's become a sign that you're going to be hurt again. so when something good does come along, you're not used to it. it feels foreign. it's weird and scary. you want to believe that it will work out, but you just can't. you've been burned too many times.

because of this, you've become cynical. you never wanted it to be this way, but you're trying to protect yourself. i see how it's easier to not accept the good, out of fear of its inevitable end. once the dust settles, you're terrified of being alone again.

but by doing this, you're never enjoying those good moments. you're letting them pass you by. you have to start letting the happiness come to you. even if it's in waves, isn't that better than not at all?

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[fearsgod]

𝐓𝐀𝐆 𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐄 𝐏𝐄𝐎𝐏𝐋𝐄 𝐘𝐎𝐔’𝐃 𝐋𝐈𝐊𝐄 𝐓𝐎 𝐊𝐍𝐎𝐖 𝐁𝐄𝐓𝐓𝐄𝐑! ── ♡‧₊˚

favorite color (s): Orchid color so like a deep reddish purple 

favorite flavor (s): I love spice! Jalapenos, Hot Cheetos, etc!

favorite genre(s): It alternates, sometimes I like calm no think games like Valheim and sometimes I like intensity like DBD or Overwatch!

favorite music:  Alternative or metal!

favorite movie: is Hellraiser!

favorite series: is Supernatural. It got me through some of the hardest and lonlinest times in my life so it means absolutely everything to me!

last song is: Gilded Lily by Cults

last movie: Avengers; End Game. man, I cried like a baby.

currently reading: Nothing tbh

currently watching: Junji Ito Maniac; Japanese Tails of the Macabre

currently working on: Wrapping up Celines lore with a nice pretty little bow as well as writing out my DA, Marvel, and DBD verses ... sigh

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[burdenedreverance]

Personality Generator

Warmth– ★★★★☆ Reasoning– ★★★★☆ Emotional Stability– ★★☆☆☆ Dominance– ★★★★☆ Liveliness– ★★★☆☆ Rule-consciousness– ★★★☆☆ Social Boldness– ★★★★★ Sensitivity– ★★★☆☆ Vigilance– ★☆☆☆☆ Abstractedness– ★★★★★ Privateness– ★★★★★ Apprehension– ★★★★☆ Openness to Change– ★☆☆☆☆ Self-reliance– ★★★★★ Perfectionism– ★★★☆☆ Tension– ★☆☆☆☆

“Somewhat accurate, I suppose.”

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Tagging:  @empirelead @uzchis @endhell

[shecharm]

SMOKE is exhaled, yet she keeps kiseru ‘gainst her lips - likely for another puff here in just a moment. lounging, comfortable as she was yet she is aware that there is another presence. “come to pray?” question comes along the wave of silky vocals, easily missed if not paying attention due to her tendency to remain soft spoken. “take your time.” a set of time lustrous tails sway along the expanse of about a dozen purple cushions, those which she currently lay upon. she is clearly at ease with their presence.   (  ||  @endhell​​  ♥  )

[donner-katze]

Ask muse how good they are at.. [ ACCEPTING | X ]

@endhell​ asked:

😏 - lying

               “ Do you need your ego stroked again, Kugo~? I can muster up a few decent lies for you, if so- ”

[deivorous]

@primerawolflord submitted: 🍒  +  @endhell

🍒 Positivity Meme 🍒

SNUUUUU. Gosh, I was reminiscing in their DMs the other day about how thankful I was that I got to meet her so early in my rp days. They’re the very first person who ever wrote with me other than my friends who brought me into rp. I feel like I’ll always be really grateful for that introduction and the fact that we’re STILL MUTUALS! (Cuz, like damn I did not know what I was doing back then, and I still don’t.)

Actually, I’m gonna take this moment to have a little fangirl over here because I actually followed Snu before I was even IN rp. I followed one rp blog,: Skyvar. I was so transfixed! The characterization (I was never in love with Kugo and then I founds Snu and 🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩) was amazing, their writing is so enjoyable to read, their dialogue, the aesthetic, the art, the humor, the romance - I’ve been reading their stuff and loving every second of it. If there’s a thread on my dash I read it. I honestly think that I probably wouldn’t have been convinced to land here if it’s not for Snu.

 And then I GOT HERE and they was so quick to write with me, to let me bounce ideas, to grow my muse, and I’ve been so excited to write with them for every thread we’ve done, which at this point has been multiple muses and multiple blogs, and even when I vanish for unexpected or explained hiatuses, they’re always here to welcome me back.

I really love Snu’s tendency to create NPCs for their canons, expanding their worlds in a way that once can’t without that same expansion - and then watch them take it to a new extreme (as demonstrated by these three once npcs now ocs on her blog). It creates a much more expansive world and I find it really immersive. (I’m super obsessed with Kugo’s sister and Zanpakuto in case anyone was wondering 🥵🔥).

Snu is definitely one of the staples of my RP experience and deserves every compliment I could possibly think to give. They’re faithful and dedicated to their muse and to telling his story, despite a generally unsympathetic fandom opinion of Kugo, and has changed a lot of minds about him, which is a powerful skill in the RPC. I can’t wait to see where they go next and I’m so happy we keep writing together!!

[solitariusdeluna]

"Family always looks like it solves all problems but it cannot be that easy," Ginjo comments, mildly amused a Hollow found his happiness here.

send starrk asks!

' hm. ' a fellow wayward rukongai resident that knew what he was and why he was here -- he was still unsure how since starrk himself hadn't disclosed that. it wasn't like he was broadcasting it since he was supposed to be keeping the babies' existence a secret until they grew old enough at least. -- but former the primera espada had barely interacted with the fullbringer.

Ginjo seemed amused as he asked him the question. starrk thought it might be because he must find it ridiculous. a being like him having a family. it was an anomaly. and certainly, one he hadn't planned on -- not that he could have even if he wanted to. he never thought such a thing was possible and yet here they were. the anomaly of a life that was now his blessing.

' if you look at it that way, nothing is ever really easy, right? I'm not saying this, but it has become a heck of a lot easier now that i'm much more used to dealing with things. ' at the start, it had been practical hell not just for him but for his mate too. they were way out of their depth and they had no one to rely on but themselves. but somehow, they had managed and eventually, a routine was established that allowed for some semblance of sanity. and now that the twins were a little older, they were no more waking nights, thankfully.

but now was the daunting time of them moving about and sticking every little thing they saw in their mouth. that was their form of discovery, but it was difficult to keep up. They kept him on his toes when he had them outside the little playpen area he had made for them.

' i didn't have it before and I can't recall my actual human life since it was centuries ago. but family and spending time with them, that really is important. i'm learning that now more than ever. '

[scrinja]

unprompted ask / always accepting

@endhell​​ said: "Seems like you had no luck," Fang chuckled, noticing how he left the sports hall. "They want the best of the best, ... My team almost always won in the past," she grinned and mimicked the movement of swinging a bat. "For which exact sport do they need you?" She looked down at him, nothing really standing out apart of his height. "Volleyball is fun too."

       it was impossible not to spot her ; catching sight of her right away, the moment that his head was lifted & his attention was no longer on his phone. sangwoo would glance back to where he had come from, before his stare settled back on fang & he let out a snort. she got it all wrong. “i wasn’t trying to apply for anything.” more like noa had dragged him all the way here, only to waste his time & be the one to tell the PE teacher about his situation. his insistence almost annoyed him as much as hers. the blond stared, just mildly surprised to hear she was into sports prior. how depressive it must be for her, he thought. “i’ve played baseball, as well as volleyball.” sports in which he was decent at, even sort of good—his height definitely giving him some advantage in some, but they weren’t exactly a passion of his. it had been a long time since he played with anyone, actually.

      “i used to play soccer, until i started to feel quite sick.” he did not elaborate, nor seemed keen to do so ; shrugging it off. “i don’t have the time anymore, though.”

[kitschd]

un-prompted asks | accepting

@endhell​​ says:  "If you already work there, I hope you already got plenty of chocolate ," Futaba noted. He better be successful at least, she would wish it for him, even if she still disliked the fact that he was working as a host. Perhaps on Valentine some even confessed their love to him, she sure was a little bit curious and kept staring at him. "Anyone special among them, hm?"

David grins, already showing off all the embellished boxes of expensive chocolates.  “Hell yeah, I did!”, he proudly boasts.  Most of it was store bought, but there was a box or two that was home made.  Host clubs were packed on Valentine’s Day and it was no different for Stardust.  He had also received many nicely written notes, both in Japanese and English.  “Do you like green tea?  It’s not really my thing.” He gave her some of the matcha flavored wafers, wondering if she like that flavor of chocolate.  

“Special? Well...”, he was embarrassed to admit this to Futaba, but there was one person that had made an impact.  “There is one, but she’s way out of my league.  Cute girl, but I really wished she dropped the whole mean girl persona”. And also her obsession with Han.  When is she going to realize it wasn’t going to happen?  “Maybe she just needs a little patience.  At least she knows where to find me.”

[mugunghwc]

unprompted ask / always accepting

@endhell​ said:   This was fate, not something she really believed in now, but surely the universe was for once on her side. Approaching Han from behind, she cleared her throat. "Excuse me." Being formal made her want to throw up, but if Futaba bedded this guy, he must be chill, right? Though his brows made her recall someone else, who always tried to push the knit between them away. "But have you seen a tall guy with such ears?" And she pushed her own forward, forcing a smile. "Or do you want something for that info? Do you want to see her again?" Showing a picture of Futaba on her phone. "I know who you are, the most handsome host." Making a peace sign but also to show the number two. "I know exactly two who are into you," she chuckled before pressing her hands together.  "But what about the cute guy? Is he also a host? Maybe from a different club?"

     most people, upon being called, would turn on their heels & expect someone close to eye-level, but in her case, it really caught him off-guard. the wheelchair was impossible to miss, once his gaze was lowered. the person sitting on it, a mere stranger in his eyes. & yet, she had decided to approach him as if she knew him—asking of him, something so specific, that left him feeling confused at first. his brows furrow slightly, as he tried to process what she was asking from him. the description was so vague, that for a moment, he wondered whether it was real, or a mere excuse to approach him. her... demonstration didn’t add much to it, but it was what she said next, that truly captured his attention. before he could question, a picture was presented to him. even though he didn’t know exactly what the relationship was between these two, it at least gave han an idea of who he was dealing with. possibly a friend, or relative. although, judging by her looks, he’d lean towards the first.

    “are you trying to bribe me for information?” his expression relaxes, though his smirk was playful—clearly amused by the prospect of it. her flattery wouldn’t get her anywhere, as it held no meaning whatsoever. something she had probably heard somewhere, & decided to use as ammunition, in order to convince him. at the mention of two individuals, he appeared interested. albeit, what followed soon after, had him at a complete loss. whoever she was referring to, han did not know—mostly thinking of the hosts that worked at stardust, & trying to recall anyone’s ear that matched her description. unfortunately for her, there were none. he hadn’t taken that much notice of that man to even link the two together. “i’m sorry, miss, but i have no idea who you’re talking about.”

[illholy]

tell me how u developed her, or idk rather her origins - the day u were like, damn i need to create this oc 👀 what'swordingasdfgh

𝒖𝒏𝒑𝒓𝒐𝒎𝒑𝒕𝒆𝒅         :       always loved. ↳   @endhell​ 

snow  !    first of all,   I missed you so much !    (   like,   I super do !  )  and secondly,   thank you for allowing me to start this blog  THIS  way !?   it’s such a good way to begin .   my god the way this ask made me smile so, so much ! 

Now,   to answer !    This all began in the first place because I wanted to write for a character that is incredibly innocuous,   someone that can be perceived as   ‘ inoffensive ’   someone that is essentially  just  gratuitously nice.   I thought it would be fun to play with a character that is incredibly unremarkable  ;   like a passing character.    (  that’s why judith looks the way she does as well,  someone that is  ‘ average ’  as if, upon first meeting,  you wouldn’t think she’s any sort of danger nor of interest really !  ) 

Then follows the  HORROR !    I adore this genre to bits,  but especially things that involve inescapable fears,  threats  -   ultimate bad endings and terror in relationships.  Those types of horror that leaves a bad taste in your mouth.  lmao.   I think that’s why Judith devolved into this sort of character were yes she is in fact harmless  and she is in fact inoffensive and innocuous but with a dash of unknowable discomfort.    Like even if she’s gentle with you, treats you well, never harms you, etc, etc,  something is just a little askew with her.  (  I guess,  horror in sanctity.  people with religious trauma will get it !  Like that yucky feeling you get when you’re confronted by  ‘ religion ’ !   it in itself is good and kind but boy is it gross. )

IN THE END,     I just woke up and thought  :   “ it’s time to actually make an oc. ”   Judith is actually my first ever OC  on tumblr.     

random.    you know, snow ! we’ve been mutuals for so long huh ?   I think you’ve seen this oc grow from one thing to another.   thanks so, so, so much for just being there !   You’re actually one of the reason as to why I’ve brave the way into fiddling with fandom verses, I was hesitant and shy but because you gave me a chance and helped me explore things, I was able to do something fun and interesting !    I even still have the drawings you’ve made of Judith and grimmy!  hahaha   I adore you so, so much!  Again, just thanks for being with me all through out !! 

[keikakudori]

♥ What's the WORST thing that has happened to you rp wise?

the salty af munday meme

i'd say one of the worst things that's happened to me, rp wise, is losing touch with people i loved writing iwth. i understand life sweeps people up and away and that there's no obligation that they must stay and keep writing with you, but it's absolutely something that's made me sad. i had such a good friend way back in high school who i'd stay up late with for the purposes of writing together and i have no idea what happened to her; i remember she said she was going into the navy so i hope that she's been having a good life. she was a wonderful person who would write all kinds of shenanigans with me back in the day.

and, thanks to the pandemic, there's a new added layer of quiet fear for me that has me going "did it get them? did the 'rona get them?" because you just don't know if someone who was a friend of yours has passed away. i was told that the first kaname i wrote with, iustacaecastae ( i really need to go dig through my archive because i'm sure i butchered their url ) passed away due to cancer. given my own recent experience with having cancer, it's just heartbreaking.

i'd say losing people you know and were friends with to life is probably one of the worst things.

[fearsgod]

𝐇𝐎𝐖 𝐃𝐎 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐍𝐄𝐄𝐃 𝐓𝐎 𝐁𝐄 𝐓𝐎𝐔𝐂𝐇𝐄𝐃 ... ?

CAUTIOUSLY

your teeth are bared, as they have been, your jaw aching for so long as growls slip free. you always have to defend yourself. you lash out in fear. you need someone who does not shrink back... a hand falling slowly to your shoulder, however briefly, in a reminder that you do not have to lunge. there is no danger here, now.

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