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I have a joke for you all
What would you call the race of Cybertrons?
-Megathon 🤣🤣
Ha ha. Very clever.
Megathon? Oh! Of course. That is clever.
😆👉👉
😊👍👍
Careful not to laugh yourself sick over there, Prime. And, please, tone down the little pictures.
Tone them down? I can't do anything about the vibrant colours.
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#tfe#maccadam#transformers earthspark#transformers memes#tfe optimus prime#tfe op#dot malto#video#lol#my stuff#tf earthspark#emoji abuse
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"Someone has got to stop his emoji abuse."
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crazy all-over & for you
oneshot
cw/tw: vague-ass spoilers for twin peaks; creepy fluff; danny's very delulu; some allusion to kidnapping but it does sound more like trapping (staying under coersion/ obligation/ dependency, not necessarily the baby-type); good ol' referenced child abuse (thanks johnson-senior); matricidal ideation (but you kill eachother, idek how to tag this shit)
can be read as a sequel to 'vulture.
when you become a writer or an avid watcher, you begin to take notice of patterns, tropes they're called. repetitions of behavior that makes up a character's personality, you know them at a glance and your immersion is ruined; eventually due to them, your taste begins to change towards the unpredictable. you want something more real, more marking, more scarring, more... if you want it done right, do it yourself.
danny lost his immersion in life. during his many years limping on earth, each life-lesson hammered in the teachings of his father.
teachings-rants that sounded like it described someone, that talked about people, about relationships, about loyalty, about fear, about respect, about trust, --- about consequences for breaking that trust.
'people are... you can't trust people to stay. you gotta tie them down, give them a damn good reason not to leave.' he slurred, his sour breath stank of fermented and stale bread, clutching tiny-him by the shoulder to look'im in the eye. ('just like you give them something to cry about' went unsaid)
if he were to describe his father in movie tropes, it'd be the crazy homeless man who was right all along. sounds harsh, but it's true. raving about the war, being watched, communists, trees and (his phobia of) spiders.
he learned everything from him, he was thoughtful as a father, always preparing him for the worst case scenario so he didn't need to worry too much while making contingencies for unaccounted variables.
a slap against the back of his head (it hurt, always made him cry when he was younger, but kid-him knew he held back) always reminded him to never let anyone sneak up behind, watch his surroundings.
he was his father, who did dad things like making sure his room's not clean (perfectly horizontal pennies), got food on the table (always canned), kept the house clean (the stomach-acid smell of white vinegar) and safe (gun safety, tourniquets, traps)...
gave him... affection (the heavy shoulder pat when danny finally got that deer) and told him bedtime stories, even though he grew too old for them (gunfire, the fading light in their eyes, shells-hock).
sure, danny hid under his blankets like a spider's cocoon and pretended to sleep when he was drunk (suffocating safety), but... he truly tried raising (a soldier) him.
his role in that relationship is stoic, patient and efficient. but you...
you didn’t know him by his real name– only as meek, weak, jed olsen--- you were... too... (minds eye picturing himself gesturing weakly with his hands to all of you) too you for danny, out of his league. but this man he pretended to be, meek but earnest, maybe he has a shot--- sure his typecasting was off (gaunt, grey, gangly and definitely not giddy) in his role as jed the only thing that salvaged his performance was his acting.
he couldn't reduce to just a love interest... it was... as if you were real. not a character unlike these... figurants--- these extras.
you warranted softness, normalcy, something he learned when comparing his childhood to others- he never had. you wanted a movie date (more like you were appalled that he never watched twin peaks, and wanted to amend that. but a man can dream) and he could never say no to you.
so danny has to make sure jed's house is clean. which includes... removing the evidence and preening himself 'til he looks presentable to his... (not a date, not a date, not a) series-binge-hangout-slash-maybe-comma-hopefully-sleepover.
danny grabs the collage of pictures on his wall and throws them into a shoebox beneath his bed (worst case scenario he'll say it's a sex-toy box, and lose more of his pride in the process) he feels kind of bad, like a parent boxing his kid's toys for a garage sale after they went away for college (not like he'd know what that's like, on neither end), he locks his bedroom for extra precaution.
now onto the... situation at hand... well, the ghostface's killings were described as messy crimes of passion, it's not going to be clean. it's not like he uses that sink to brush his teeth, anyway (it's broken to only use cold-freezing water, it's practically fate). it's not like the sink has visible traces of blood (it dries dark enough to look like usual inescapable grime) but-what-if you wanted to use the restroom and got sick?!
bleach, his father taught him, is just chemical white-out. he bets his father never thought he would use his knowledge of skinning deer for--- well maybe he did. gloves and a mask, disposable. his first bought-instead-of-handed-down sweater still has that pink-salmon-flesh spot.
danny uses mint air freshener this time, still have the same (spider) smell-of-crime warding-off properties of white-vinegar without the gag-inducing smell.
you shave-and-a-haircut-two-bits knock on his door. speak of the devil, but you weren't a devil, and he wished you'd appear as often as he thought of you. you smile at him, a hand holding what he assumes is the tape you brought.
danny keeps a hand on the door and stares as you enter, and closes it for you--- cushioning the doorknob behind him with both hands, he rocks backwards on his heels and plants his weight on the door until there's a 'click'. shoulders pressed against the wood as an anchor. trying to project playful, not predatory.
---him following soon after, he smiles. you smile back waving the tape in your hand. the ecstasy of having your eyes on his, it's a combination deadlier than any drug. he'd kill for one look, he'd die for one glance.
(4 weeks and 5 days of knowing him, you were so trusting its as if you wanted him to---)
"ready to create a conspiracy board? i'll even tell you if you're getting warmer," you smirk, all teasing "but for now, get us the snacks, henchman! don't want you to get spoiled for the plotwist."
jed made a mock "sure thing, boss." with one of those smiles he knew made his employers give him less work and spun on his heel to grab them (wasn't hard to, his pantries are practically for cobwebs). danny splurged a bit from his okay-ish paycheck, is it sad that this is the only indulgent thing he bought (aside from the hobby items) and it wasn't even for himself?
danny arrives, with the colorful packaging in his arms. all your favorites--- a coincidence that he also likes them (you two have so much in common it's like fate).
he sits beside you on the couch and you swing your legs over his lap, using him as a foot-rest when there's a perfectly available coffee table, oh-well. danny's not complaining. but jed does make a half-attempted whine-complain at the treatment.
you keep a close eye on his expressions, as jed plays up some of his reactions, not even paying attention to the show. the knowing smiles you had whenever anyone cried during the show, the dissecting gaze as you watch him just like he watched the show... it looked...his fingers twitched and he dismays at the lack of camera.
then, danny feels the weight on the couch dip and your neck is resting-bending uncomfortably on the arm-rest.
you're sleeping.
he resists to keep watching the series without your supervision (see? he has impulse control), and ejects the tape, keeping a mental-note of the hour-tally (a few episodes subtracted, for more time with you.)
danny stares, you looked so peaceful, untouched by the ghostface's reign of terror. this was where you belonged, in his... under...no, at his mercy.
he reached out a hand and trailed the delicate lines of your neck, he could just crack-snap your neck and get it over with... but it needs to be special, not just one-and-done murder, there has to be a build-up, some meaning for you, because this means so much to him. you have this stabbing grasp on danny and he wants to make sure that the feelings are mutual--- it needs to be mutual, its only good if your hands are also on his vulnerable throat. the only way you'll be allowed to die is by his hands and him, yours.
you both, at the same time. you will become his legacy and he will become yours, your deaths intertwined like veins of the same pulse. that's something to put on the headlines, a romeo of juliet but on-with purpose--- not due to some stupid misunderstanding but a mutual death.
you made your choice when you came here, you had to know what you were getting into, the newbie in town when, coincidentally, the murders began and he just-so-happens to be there to report ghostface's every move--- like a demented slasher-parody of peter parker. because you wouldn't be here if you...
if you... what if you didn't. you were only there because you didn't know. if you did, then you're danny's; if you didn't, then you're jed's.
that can't be. there's a narrative, a storyline, a fate. you were fated to be. you and danny. forever.
he's had a taste of what it feels to have you in his life, and it feels like---love a-and... it's like you wanted him t-to... (obsess, desire, envy, bleed).
--- and, and now he just can't let that feeling go. can't let you go, if you're not staying for danny, he'll just... tie you down and give you a damn good reason to stay.
#danny johnson x reader#danny johnson#the ghostface#jed olsen#implied child abuse#creepy fluff#sub yandere#idk if i'm getting good at writing him or if my headcanons are just taking a life of their own#i should prolly use other 'fics as reference but... i'm picky *pleading eyes emoji*
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There is something so beautiful and melancholy about the idea of failed rockstar Eddie who was on the verge of being a major hit but ended up giving up his dreams because he didn't like who he was turning into.
Eddie who leaves Hawkins behind as quickly as he can and dedicates his entire life, every waking moment, to building up his music career. He sleeps on couches for years, staying with whoever will take him in for a night or two in exchange for a bump of coke or joint from the remains of his sizeable Reefer Kick stash. He carries everything he owns in the back of his trunk. Amp, wires, guitars, clothes, etc and basically converts it into a portable practice studio.
He plays every gig he can get his hands on. Playing as a last-minute substitute guitar or base for any band that calls, playing for pop bands and punk bands alike until he convinces enough people to join up with him and start a new metal band.
With the band comes more stability, for a while. They share a cramped two-bedroom among the five of them. Writing and jamming every day, going home to smoke up and decompress.
Just over four years after Eddie lands in the city, they play their first real show. A show at a respectable, if small, bar venue with people in the audience there to see them. People sing their songs and dance to their music. It's not sold out, not even close really, but it's the start of something big, they can all feel it. That night they go out to the club around the block with a couple of people who came to the show and party harder than Eddie ever has before. He wakes up with that distinctly fuzzy feeling the next morning that tells him he dipped into the harder drugs the night before, something he hasn't done since he learned his dad passed three years ago.
It scares him. He can't remember anything past walking into the club last night. He doesn't remember anything he did or said and desperately hopes he didn't do anything weird with a fan, but he brushes it off. Tells himself it was a one-time thing, a celebration of their success. They deserved to let loose, right?
Except it wasn't a one-time thing. In fact, it turns into an almost every night kind of thing, and as their fan base grows what feels like overnight, the parties grow in intensity with them. They play their hearts out on stage, eventually selling out all of the smaller local venues and moving on to the larger, more serious ones. The occasional disagreement over music between the band members turns into larger, more personal arguments. Eventually, they reach Fleetwood Mac Rumors Era levels of drama. Everyone is sleeping around, the drugs are out of control, and they can't hardly stand to be in the same room together anymore, only pulling it together enough to go on stage at the end of the day.
Eddie lives that handful of years in a daze. It can mostly be attributed to the copious amounts of alcohol he's turned to to cope with the stress, but he uses his fair share of snow to keep himself in the creative spirit too. It feels inevitable when he reaches a kind of low he doesn't know if he can come back from.
Eddie wasn't a saint, but he has always sworn off meth. It was the thing that killed his mom. He remembers the way she'd wasted away, the days when she seemed crazed, and how sorry she was to him when she stabilized. The regret in her eyes when she looked at him. But when he's asked if he wants a needle all he can think about is the prospect of spending the rest of his life stuck with this band full of people he can't stand and people who can't stand him if the record deal they've been negotiating goes through, and it feels like it will.
Thinks of what all his hard work will mean if it doesn't.
He says yes.
Wakes up the next day starfished in the alley of an apartment he doesn't recognize staring up at the little sliver of blue sky he can see between the fire escapes and weeps. He's become exactly the kind of person he never wanted to be, some asshole almost rich guy laying in a damp alleyway all alone with no real friends.
Eddie lies there for an hour just thinking. Trying to remember when the last time he called Wayne was. Thinking of all the girls he slept with when he probably shouldn't have, when they were both too fucked up to make the right choice. Thinks of his mom and dad.
Tries to remember the last time he made the world a better place to live in instead of contributing to the filth.
He gets up and leaves. Leaves it all behind. Gets in a taxi to take him to where his van is parked by the venue from last night. Frantically takes everything out of the back and leaves it on the street. The only things that remain are the few keepsakes he brought with him to the city and his acoustic, the one his mom left him and Wayne helped him paint. The amps, his sweetheart, and the performance wear all get dumped on the side of the road and then he's jumping into the front seat and stearing himself toward Hawkins.
Hours of driving leads him back home to Hawkins Indiana, the one place he promised never to return. Hawkins has seen a boom in the last few years, it seems. More shops, a bigger main street. He even spots a proper cafe. It all feels less haunted than he remembers. More people, fewer familiar faces. The trailer park, though, looks almost the same as it did the day he left, right down to the sight of his uncle lounging on the porch, waiting patiently for whatever comes next the way he always has.
Wayne doesn't ask any questions, not right away. He just scoops his nephew up in his arms and holds him in the cool morning air. He always knew his nephew better than anyone else, never needed words to know when he needed his uncle to help hold up the weight of the world.
And that's how Eddie finds his way back home. It takes a while for him to feel well enough to face the world again. A mixture of detoxing and coming to terms with the feeling of starting back at the beginning, like the last six years of his life didn't even happen leaves him licking his wounds in his partially empty childhood bed. It looks the same way it did when he walked out the front door.
When he does come back to the world, he starts small. Stepping out on the porch to share a cup of coffee with his uncle feels like one of the hardest things he's ever done. Maybe the most important.
He's proven right when he steps out to find he's not the only guest his uncle is entertaining this morning. Another resident of the park has already claimed the second chair as his own.
Steve Harrington.
Steve Harrington who never made it out of Hawkins but also never regretted it. Who's made a small, happy life for himself here in the trailer park after his parents kicked him out for good when he turned 20. Who works part-time under the table at Miller's Mechanic and collects disability checks for the lost leg and minor brain damage he got from a car accident at 21. Steve Harrington who keeps his uncle company and makes sure he has everything he needs, taking care of the other residents in the park to the best of his ability doing easy car maintenance, babysitting, or just offering company to the more lonely residents.
Steve is so different from the guy Eddie vaguely knew in high school that he might as well be a stranger. They all sit and talk together for the entire morning, laughing and sharing stories. Steve never asks about where he's been or why he's back and Eddie wishes he could tell Steve how much he appreciates it.
Before Steve heads back he asks if Eddie would like to come over after he gets back from his shift. Asks if he wants to drink a beer and watch a movie. Eddie is quick, maybe too quick judging by the sympathetic look Steve sends his way, to turn down the beer and scoop up the movie invitation like the precious thing it is. There's something about Steve that soothes his soul. An easy connection between them that Eddie hopes they both feel.
Steve kisses him that night, slow and easy like they've been doing it their whole lives. Like they didn't basically meet for the first time this morning. Like Eddie hasn't been in denial about his sexuality for his entire life. Eddie cries at the warmth it fills him with. Steve just cradles him by the cheeks and lets him. That night Eddie doesn't go back to Wayne's. He lets Steve drag him to bed and hold him close. Lets him tangle their legs together and breathe warm air into the crown of his head until morning.
Steve shows Eddie how to live a life without dreams. A life without ambition but full of love and comfort. A life without plans, but with the knowledge that every day someone who loves you will kiss you when you wake up and hold you through the night.
#Steddie#fanfiction#stranger things#eddie munson#steve harington#wayne munson#rockstar eddie munson#of a sort#disabled steve harrington#cw drugs#cw drug abuse#cw minor character death#mentioned#dreamer speaks#I am extremely ill and waiting for my door dash soup to arrive#so this may not make any sense#insert shrug emoji
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My Collection of Perverted Anon Toys: 🪦🪭🌺🍴🌼🌡️🔌🧥🔦📺🍇🐂🍗🛸🧠🧎🐕🦺🪨🪓🍋
You know who you are.
If you want to join, succumb to my filth and entice me.
#if you ask where I live or any question I don’t like#you’re going to get blocked immediately#anons only get one emoji don’t be picky#yandere#yanderecore#violent love#abuse k1nk#bd/sm blog#bd/sm kink#bd/sm dom#bd/sm lifestyle#bd/sm slave#trauma k1nk#autoassassinophilia#erotophonophilia#horrorporn#gorep0rn
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S2 Rafe has my heart I fear
#rafe cameron#obx#rafe obx#outer banks#drew starkey#i fear i want him#you don't understand how badly s2 rafe is needed in my life like i hate him but i want him#he's just soooo#literal drool emoji rn#need that#want that#use me abuse me blah blah blah
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Whumptober 31 - Asking For Help
title: for him it was not an important failure
fandom: limited life smp
cw: discussion of child/spouse abuse, murder
this is another part of my bad boys gang au, continuing days 6, 14, and 22!
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“Hey, could I—”
“Jimmy!” Joel cheers, sliding Jimmy his half-drunk beer. “Have a drink! You’re old enough to drink, right?”
Jimmy rolls his eyes. “Right. That one never gets old.”
Grian snorts. “Just like you.”
“Dude, shut up!”
“Come on, sit down, sit down,” Joel waves. Jimmy takes a look around at the rest of the busy bar, then slides into their booth, folding his hands in front of him.
“I’ve got—”
Grian raises a hand, flags down a waiter who just happens to be passing by. “Yeah, could you get him something light? It’s his birthday, first time drinking—”
“Bro,” Jimmy growls, leveling his strongest glare at Grian. Joel almost chokes on his beer (which he had promptly taken back once Jimmy sat down).
“Oh, no, I think you made the kid mad,” Joel can’t help but rib. Jimmy turns his glare on Joel, which does nothing to intimidate him, but does make him laugh a little harder.
“I didn’t come here to get bullied,” huffs Jimmy. “I—I have a job, and I wanted to ask your help for it.”
A job? Why would Jimmy have a job?
Grian’s the one who usually brings back the jobs for their little team, as he’s technically in charge of them. Jimmy’s never just showed up with a job ready to go.
It’s unheard of. It’s weird.
Grian is just as confused as Joel, apparently, because he only frowns for a moment before holding out his hand.
“Yeah, right. Show me.”
Jimmy pulls a plain white envelope out of the inside pocket of his jean jacket, passes it over to Grian. “I asked for a job,” he says, and Joel can’t help but notice that his voice has taken on an oddly nervous tone, lowered to not be heard over the sounds of the bar. “They said I could pick a team. Will you?”
Grian opens the envelope, his eyes scanning the paper. After a moment, he passes it to Joel.
It looks like a run-of-the-mill intimidation job. Some guy who owes the Bad Boys a considerable amount of money, has already missed more than one payment. Joel doesn’t recognize the name, so it’s probably a local politician or some corrupt businessman.
“Why would they give you a job?” Grian asks.
“I—I asked for one. I want to—”
“You want to rise in the ranks, huh?” Grian says. “Leave your old pals behind for greener pastures?”
“No, I—”
“Joel?”
There’s something not quite right about this. Jimmy has never mentioned wanting to lead out a job before—why would he go out of his way to ask for one?
But a job is a job, Joel supposes. They get paid by the job, and he likes to get paid as much as possible. It looks pretty easy, in and out, get the money and give a warning.
“Sure,” he shrugs. “Sounds fun!”
“With Tim leading, it’ll be a trainwreck. . . .”
“Hey!”
“That’s half the point, see? I want to see the train explode in slow motion.”
Grian snorts. “And somebody has to drag your bodies out of the wreckage, I guess.”
Jimmy opens his mouth to argue further, but he’s cut off by several waiters approaching, a cocktail and a cupcake in hand. “We heard that someone here is a birthday boy?” one of them encourages, holding the cupcake out to the table.
Jimmy’s face goes redder than a tomato in one second flat. “Grian, I will kill you,” he moans.
“That’s him!” Joel points to Jimmy delightedly. “Old enough to drink as of ten-thirty this morning!”
The waiters break into a rousing chorus of ‘Happy Birthday’, despite Jimmy’s repeated mutterings of “I’m literally twenty-two!”
Joel just laughs and downs the rest of his beer.
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The mark, a man named Ed Fowler, lives in a townhouse in a quiet part of the city, a moderately nice car in the assigned street parking spot and a recycling bin out on the curb. Joel pokes his head into it as they sneak past, under cover of the late night—empty. The guy must’ve forgot to drag it up yesterday.
Breaking into the house is easy, even with the security system advertised on the sign outside the main window. Ed had left his kitchen window cracked, and Joel boosts Grian up and through it, then crawls in himself, aided by Jimmy below. Once he’s crawled his way over the sink (full of dirty dishes, geez, can this man not clean up after himself?), he turns around and takes Jimmy’s hands, heaving him through.
Grian’s already going through the cupboards by the time Joel pulls Jimmy all the way through, eventually finding and withdrawing a box of Cheerios.
“No good cereal,” he grumbles.
“Do you even eat dinner before these kinds of jobs anymore?” Joel asks, leaning up against a counter—much of the counter space is taken up by a microwave and a couple of empty beer cans. There’s a tied-off, bulging trash bag near his feet, and judging by the sound it makes when Joel kicks it, it’s full of more beer cans.
Grian opens the fridge. “Nope. Oh, gross, his milk is expired. Maybe he’s got chicken nuggets.”
“I’m gonna check the living room,” Jimmy mumbles, and with barely a sound, he slips out of the kitchen.
Grian glances at Joel, and Joel finds a reflection of his own feelings in his face—confusion, concern, suspicion.
“Jimmy’s being weird,” Joel says. Grian nods.
“Super weird. Do you think it’s just . . . y’know, leading a job?”
Jimmy had been the one to scout out the house, had presented a plan. Sure, it had been the usual plan for how Grian ran these kinds of jobs, but being in charge is a lot of pressure. It probably didn’t help that Joel and Grian had both been teasing him all day about it.
“What time have you got?” Joel asks, instead of responding. Grian checks his watch.
“About two in the morning. Just jitters, you think?”
Jimmy doesn’t go quiet when he gets jittery, though. He over-talks, laughs too much, hollers out his nerves. He’s so loud when he’s got jitters.
But this is a new situation. Maybe this is just a new kind of Jimmy Jitters that they haven’t seen before.
“Yeah, probably,” says Joel, though it feels not-quite-right. “Does he have any chicken nuggets?”
“Chicken strips, actually. And a handful of frozen dinners—you wanna pop this in the microwave?”
Grian tosses him a freezer meal. Joel raises an eyebrow as he examines the package. “Really? Spaghetti and meatballs?”
“You underestimate my love for pasta.”
“Yeah, but the salisbury steak ones are way better.”
“He doesn’t have any of those, he has that one and some ham and potato ones. Clearly, I chose the best option offered.”
They aren’t trying to be quiet. They’re honestly being pretty loud, and Grian turned on the kitchen light before Joel even got in, so they’re about as inconspicuous as a pack of drunk teenagers trying to sneak in. Joel only adds to it when he rummages through the silverware drawer for a knife to cut slits in the top of the frozen dinner’s plastic film, then tosses it in the microwave with a slam of the door.
It isn’t a stealth mission.
It’s intimidation.
That’s all the noise it takes for Joel to hear creaking coming from the staircase, the door leading to it situated between the kitchen and the living room. He leans back against the counter, making sure he looks carefully unbothered. Grian keeps rummaging through the freezer, making occasional noises of disapproval.
“This salmon has got to be centuries old, it’s covered in ice,” Grian says. He chucks it in the nearby trash can, heavy enough that it drags the trashbag down with it into the can.
“Get out of my house.” Joel looks up. Grian doesn’t.
The man standing at the bottom of the staircase must be Ed Fowler, and he isn’t exactly what Joel expected. Judging by the food and beer cans, he’d expected a portly, greasy guy, the kind of guy who spent hours in front of the TV without eating a single vegetable.
Ed Fowler is fairly fit, his grey nightshirt showing some pectoral definition, his arms muscular. He’s a big guy, definitely taller than Joel, and his light-brown hair is speckled with grey, cropped short enough to almost be militant.
And maybe it is militant, given the steely look in his eyes and the gun in his hands.
“G! Three makes company!” Joel says, and Grian makes brief eye contact with him, his sight of Ed blocked by the freezer door.
Three makes company—their code for whether or not someone has a gun. They haven’t used that one in a while, not since Jimmy joined them. Now they usually say something like our friend is here, but for some reason Joel had jumped to the old one.
Ed doesn’t move, his gun trained on Joel.
“Ed Fowler,” Joel says. The microwave beeps beside him. He ignores it, though Ed’s eyes flick toward it. “How long has it been since you washed dishes?”
Ed’s chuckle is humorless. “Too long. What do you boys want?”
Grian grimaces. “Look, I know Joel’s not that tall, but we’re fully adult men,” he says, closing the freezer. He still doesn’t look at Ed, instead walking back toward the silverware drawer, holding a frosted-over carton of ice cream. “Got any clean spoons?”
“Right. I suppose I should say Bad Boys,” Ed says. “Why are you here?”
Grian shrugs nonchalantly. “Oh, you know. We get a job, we do it. I think the question is for you, Ed—why would the Bad Boys be at your house at two in the morning?”
Ed looks genuinely confused, though he hides it well with a small smirk. “I’m guessing it isn’t a booty call,” he jokes, and Joel almost laughs.
This guy is pretty cool, actually. The kind of guy that Joel would grab a drink with, probably. Well, maybe. Depends on his profession—his build kind of looks like a cop, and that’s a red flag from the get-go.
Where’s Jimmy? He was only going to check the living room, it can’t have taken too much time.
Last time Jimmy went missing during a house visit like this, it wasn’t pretty.
The microwave beeps again. Another minute that he hasn’t appeared.
“You’ve missed some payments,” Grian says, his tone still casual. He manages to find a spoon, but the ice cream is so frozen solid that it won’t even dig in. He chips away at it, finally turns to face Ed. “The boss sent us to collect.”
“I haven’t owed the Bad Boys anything in years.”
Joel shrugs. “Not according to our records. Nothing we can do about it, so you might as well fork something over.” Now that Grian has eyes on Ed, he turns to the microwave, popping it open. The freezer meal looks more unappetizing than it did earlier, but he pulls it out anyway.
“That’s stupid,” Ed spits. “I don’t have any debts!”
“Yes, you do.”
Joel looks up.
There’s a gun just in sight, pointed straight at Ed’s temple, and Jimmy takes a step into the light, eyes trained on Ed.
Ed’s eyes glance to the side. His face turns red quicker than Joel’s ever seen, cheeks suddenly ruddy with anger.
“James,” he says, and despite the clear rage in his face, his voice is calm. “Put the gun down.”
James? Does this man know Jimmy?
If he does, then Jimmy never should have accepted this job. It’s an unspoken rule in the Bad Boys that you don’t do jobs that involve people from your personal life, and Jimmy knows that well enough.
Jimmy doesn’t move. His hand is steady. “I don’t think so,” he says. “I think this is when you put the gun down.”
Ed’s fingers tighten around the grip of his gun. “What, and leave myself defenseless?”
Jimmy laughs—short, sharp, ugly. “Yep. Drop it. Kick it over to Grian.”
Joel glances at Grian—he’s gone still, the ice cream forgotten on the counter. He’s staring, staring at Jimmy, worry creasing his brow.
This isn’t right. Something about this isn’t right at all—maybe it’s the cold tone of Jimmy’s voice, usually so lively; maybe it’s the whitening of his knuckles around the grip of his gun.
After a long, long moment, Ed slowly drops into a crouch, carefully setting his gun on the ground. He pushes it to Grian, the gun skittering across the tile floor of the kitchen. Grian catches it under his foot, but makes no move to pick it up.
When Ed straightens, he keeps his hands up and open, so that everyone can see that there’s nothing. “All right,” he says, voice once again even. “How much do I owe?”
“Twenty-thousand,” Joel says quickly. “That’s the first payment. Seventy-thousand, total.”
“Right. Well, I want it made clear that I don’t owe anything, but I’ll cut a check for fifteen-thousand now if you can arrange a meeting with one of your bosses. I want to get this cleared up.”
That sounds good to Joel, honestly—this situation isn’t right at all with the way Jimmy’s acting, he suddenly wants to get out of here—so he casts a look toward Grian, waiting for him to accept the deal.
Grian doesn’t say a word. He looks toward Jimmy.
Oh, no.
Jimmy’s leading this mission.
Can’t Grian take over? Doesn’t he see that Jimmy is clearly acting on some personal grudge and thereby compromised?
Jimmy doesn’t look at either of them. “I don’t think that’ll cut it,” he says, and Joel’s heart sinks. That isn’t the right choice to make; he’s letting his emotions get in the way of this job. He should accept it and let them get out. “I think you know that.”
Ed growls. “Look, I can get the money. I just want to talk to your boss.”
“I don’t want the money, though,” Jimmy says softly. “I know you don’t owe anything.”
“James—”
“Jimmy—” Grian says, reaching forward—
“I want you to talk to me like a grown man,” Ed says. “Can you behave long enough to do that?”
“I’m going to kill you,” Jimmy says, as if he didn’t hear either of them speak, voice still so eerily soft. “You see?”
Ed’s adam’s apple bobs. “If you do it like that, you’re nothing but a coward. Sit down and talk.”
“I’ll do it as a coward. I don’t care how disappointed you are in me. Not anymore.”
Joel swallows. They need to get Jimmy out of here before he does something he regrets—yeah, all of them have killed before, but not like this. Not as whatever—whatever revenge this is.
“Grian,” he whispers. “Tell him to stand down.”
Grian doesn’t say anything.
“James,” Ed says, and now his voice trembles, cracks in his cool facade beginning to spiderweb out. His eyes dart back and forth between Grian in front of him and Jimmy to his left, his mouth a thin line. “James, put the gun down and let’s talk about it. I’m not ready to die today.”
That’s the wrong thing to say.
Joel sees it in Jimmy’s face, the way his features darken, the way his eyes harden. “Was she ready to die?” he asks.
“I—”
“Was she ready to die? The doctor said the hemorrhage was caused by recent head trauma.” Jimmy digs the gun into Ed’s forehead; the man blanches. “Which concussion do you think caused it? How many times did you slam her head against the wall over the years?”
“I didn’t kill—”
“Was I ready to die?” Jimmy asks, and his voice is shaking now, as well. “How old was I, fifteen? A kid that you left bleeding out on your bedroom floor. Do you know that I thought of her? I was dying, and all I wondered was if she felt the same way. Alone. Terrified. Sick.”
“Yet you survived,” Ed spits. “James, I didn’t kill your mother.”
“Keep telling yourself that. It won’t save you, in the end.”
Oh.
Oh, no.
When Jimmy was only eighteen, Joel had become fairly certain that Jimmy was experiencing some level of abuse at home. He and Grian had started slipping extra bonuses into Jimmy’s money (he remembers how excited the kid had been, showing them that he was getting paid more than he expected), and when Jimmy had announced to them that he was going to be able to afford an apartment, they celebrated with him. They bought him a tiny cactus as a housewarming gift and never mentioned their involvement in his pay raise.
After he got the apartment, Jimmy finally started to mellow out. He started laughing more, blaming himself less for mistakes, getting control of the anger that burned within him.
He had stopped showing up after every weekend with new bruises.
If Joel’s right, this man is his father.
Now that he’s made that connection, he can see the resemblance. Jimmy’s hair is just a couple shades lighter than Ed’s, his nose the same sharp angle. Ed’s eyes are the exact same hazel as Jimmy’s, and if there were a few more lights on, Joel expects he would find the same light freckles on Ed’s cheeks that Jimmy has.
He—he thought this man was cool mere moments ago. He almost laughed at his joke.
This is a man who abused Jimmy, and—apparently—almost killed him.
Joel feels sick, and it isn’t from the the smell of the microwave dinner.
“You don’t want to kill me,” Ed says. It might be a threat, it might be a beg. Jimmy laughs again, still that horrible, ugly laugh that’s so unlike Jimmy.
“I’ve wanted to kill you since I was fourteen,” he says. “Lizzie’s the only thing that kept me from shooting you in your sleep.”
Ed latches onto that. “Elizabeth wouldn’t want you to—”
“Lizzie isn’t here right now. She’s sound asleep in the apartment that I saved up for for years to get us out. I got her away from you. I saved her.”
“I’m not the monster that you think I am, James.”
“What, so you’re normal?” Jimmy scoffs. His words come faster and faster, emotion driving each syllable. “Normal people don’t choke nine year old boys until they pass out. Normal people don’t—don’t put their cigarettes out on their kids’ backs. Normal people don’t hurt their kids, dad!”
“I—and what does that make you, now?” says Ed. “A gangster? How is that any better?”
“Anything’s better than a wife-beating cop,” Jimmy snarls, and for a moment, his hand shakes. The gun slips from Ed’s forehead briefly, scrapes down the side of his face, and Ed freezes.
“James—”
Jimmy reasserts his hold on the gun, one thumb running over the grip. “This is your gun,” he says, his voice soft again. It’s scary, how quickly he can go from one to the other. “E.J.F., your initials. You gave it to me. Remember?”
“James—” Ed says again, but Jimmy cuts him off.
“I want to make it hurt. I want to watch you bleed out. But I’m better than you.”
Silence.
A bit of ice drips off the ice cream carton.
Joel hardly dares to breathe.
“Please don’t kill me,” Ed whispers, the blood entirely drained from his face, leaving it pale as milk. “I don’t want to die.”
Jimmy’s face doesn’t change. “Neither did my mom.”
BANG.
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For Jimmy, the job was surprisingly well-executed.
As it turned out, he had gone to TIES.
He had approached Etho of TIES six months earlier, presenting him with a fat file folder of evidence of Ed Fowler’s corruption. Ed Fowler, a high-ranking police officer, was known to take bribes from certain less-reputable gangs while borrowing money from those less likely to kill him, including TIES. In fact, he had borrowed sufficiently from TIES that Etho felt justified in sending someone to collect. He gave Jimmy the details and Jimmy forged the handwriting of a higher-up in the Bad Boys to write out the job. While in the living room of the townhouse that Joel now knew to be Jimmy’s childhood home, he had disabled any security systems or cameras that might incriminate them.
With Etho’s permission, as Jimmy claimed, they ransacked the place and made it look like TIES had destroyed it looking for money. Of course, they took any money and valuables they could find. Joel found a couple of very nice guns in the master bedroom—he wasn’t just going to let them go to waste.
(He looked at the floor, at the stained brown carpet, and shuddered.)
By the time they leave, it’s almost four. Nobody speaks, but that morning, for the first time, Jimmy pulls up GPS navigation to an apartment address on the other side of the city.
They walk into Jimmy’s apartment at around five in the morning, the pink-haired woman living there already awake. She and Jimmy make long eye contact, in which Jimmy kind of shrugs and blushes, and she frowns.
Then she smiles, and invites them all in, and introduces herself as Lizzie Fowler.
Joel pays more attention to Jimmy than he does to her, keeping an eye on his emotions, but Jimmy seems fine. A bit shaken (he’s barely spoken since he did it, face pale and blood spattered across his knuckles), but fine.
Lizzie and Jimmy go about preparing something to eat—and Grian raids their cereal, humming in satisfaction as he finds something sugary—and Joel just stands awkwardly in the center of the kitchen, not sure what to do.
Soon enough, the eggs and toast are done, and everyone retires to the living room.
“Thanks for the help,” Jimmy mumbles, once they all have some sort of breakfast item in hand, and Jimmy’s sitting between Grian and Joel on the cheap sofa, his head leaning on Grian’s shoulder. Lizzie’s on the floor in front of him, her back against the sofa, idly picking at Jimmy’s pant leg.
“I don’t think we did anything, Tim,” Grian tells him, idly running a hand through Jimmy’s hair. “Like, that was all you.”
“Not that.”
Jimmy’s at the most relaxed Joel’s ever seen him, his eyelids fluttering, his shoulders slumped. He yawns, leans further against Grian.
Joel wraps an arm around him, leans in as well.
Grian smiles at Joel when he catches his eye. Joel smiles back.
They can reprimand Jimmy later. They can tell him how foolish he was for getting other gangs involved in personal revenge, how terribly that situation could have ended. He’ll probably be getting suspended from jobs for a while, restricted to manning the front or janitorial duties.
That can wait, though.
The sparse living room grows lighter and lighter as the sun breaks over the horizon, gradually bathing them all in its warm yellow glow.
It’s a new beginning that isn’t for him. It’s for Jimmy and Lizzie, almost uncomfortable in their silence, but not quite leaving each other’s side. It’s for Jimmy, a release of the weight that he’s been carrying for years. It’s for Jimmy, able to seek out comfort at last.
Joel just has the privilege of witnessing it.
#whumptober2024#no.31#asking for help#limited life smp#fic#discussion of child/spouse abuse#limited life#trafficblr#traffic smp#life series#jimmy solidarity#smallishbeans#grian#limited life fanfic#omni/impotence au#mas writes#that's what i've decided to name it#it's a song by typhoon#and that sound makes me think of this au's jimmy soo strongly#WOOOO WE LOVE A COOL SUNGLASSES EMOJI JIMMY#i've been thinkin abt this one for a couple of days now#i have at least one more jimmy fic in my head for this au#but we'll see#thanks for joining me this whumptober!#lmk what you think#love you guys
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Sibling Abuse
pt: sibling abuse
#aac emoji#aac symbol#custom emoji#emoji#discord emoji#discord emotes#emoji blog#emote blog#custom emoji blog#abuse#sibling abuse#abuse cw#abuse tw#tw abuse#cw abuse
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I think I’m in trouble. This is all from one person.
Optimus does this too. If it were him, 75% of those would be the little picture things. Mostly "🤖".
#asks answered#transformers#megatron#lots of messages#optimus likes emojis#emoji abuse#overfilledcoffee
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Ro headcannons
She is autistic. Think about it, her disregard for social skills, the sensory problems she experiences, her ‘I’m not a hugger’ thing, she just feels so autism coded to me
She let Cadfael go after the fight with the trolls because he helped, it was an eye for an eye.
Her mother is emotionally neglectful, she has never once talked about her, leading me to believe that she hasn’t seen much of her mom
In contrast, her father tried his hardest to stay involved despite the fact he had kingly duties, he carried the toddler Ro around and when he couldn’t, he entrusted his baby with the bast babysitters around. He taught her how to fight, he taught her the best moves he knew to keep her safe, loving words were sparse, hugs were rare, but when he ruffled her hair and murmured, ‘good job’ she felt so proud of herself she thought she might explode. A babysitter hurt her once, just a light slap when she was whining and her father killed the babysitter slowly and painfully.
She’s got the same texture of hair as a black women, it takes her half an hour to do it.
Keefe was once trying to draw and his hair got in the way so many times that she dragged him to the bathroom and trimmed it just so she didn’t have to hear him be annoyed.
She gets severe nightmares, and rarely sleeps. She has ptsd from battles she has been in, any loud noises put her on high alert, one time Grizel jokingly snuck up on her (she was only able to cause she specializes in stealth) and Ro flipped her over her shoulder and punched her so hard, Sandor thought that Ro had turned sides and was attacking. She was so mortified, she didn’t look any of them in the eyes for days.
Cadfael hit her once, outside of sparing, they were arguing and he punched her in the face. She, despite knowing 17 ways to kill him in under a minute, just stood there, her face still turned away from the hit and fighting back the lump in her throat. She broke up with him before leaving, he was remorseful and promised he’d never do it again, she left immediately. Ro got home and her father asked her what had happened, a few tears trickled down her face and she just said Cadfael and her broke off cause she’d gotten bored of winning.
#kotlc ro#kotlc#keeper of the lost cities#ro kotlc#autism#tw abuse#king dimitar#emotional neglect#black hair#but she’s not black#Cadfael#ptsd#ptsd mention#war mention tw#headcanon#am i crazy#probably#i’m just a girl#shrug emoji
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Self proclaimed empaths on their way to "advocate for the mentally ill 🥺" by demonizing every cluster b personality disorder
#you tell them having a personality disorder doesnt inherently make someone more capable of abuse than someone without one#and they go fucking ballisitc! Assflash newshole! everyones capable of harming others! it came free with your being a person!#and oohh they just love flooding the NPD safe tag with as much hate as possible which is! Not normal behavior! What the fuck!#also when i say “self proclaimed empaths” i do NOT mean high empathy ppl! thats completely different!#we have fluctuating empathy so we'll go from completely without out it to overwhelmed by it at random#its just atjglejkwgk agifeli#be nice to people with personality disorders! we're people too! and more often than not we're victims of abuse!#graaah sorry just#got harrassed in a fucking emoji server on discord by some dickwad who noticed i had NPD in my intro like bro? Im here for funny cat emojis#wawawewa#npd#npd safe#cluster b safe#cluster b#empath
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" medical trauma " and " illegal restraint " (also added to trauma & abuse page)
image 1 : a caduceus, a medical symbol, with the end sticking into a brain. two red lightning bolts come from where the end impacts the brain.
image 2 : light brown rope with a big red 'not allowed' circle and line through it. in front of it is a gavel
#trauma#abuse#medical trauma#illegal restraint#restraint#self advocacy#communication symbol#communication image#aac image#aac symbol#aac emoji#custom emoji#disclosure
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Do you DNI fableings?
I don’t know completely what this means , but I do not think you can be anything alike to a fictive if you are not a traumagenic system (the only system origin). I dont mind copinglinks or fictionkins as long as they don’t claim or invade system spaces , and as long as they aren’t coming from a delusional standpoint.
my DNI includes ;
basic hate groups, (transphobes, homophobes, racists etc etc.)
Israel supporters in relation to the Palestine genocide.
Endo/Non traumagenic “systems” and their supporters.
People who demonize or romanticize cluster B , including narc abuse believers.
Proshippers / Poppytwt members and any other pedophilic/r@pe/incest romanticizing group
Heavy NSFW blogs
DA/IRL/DELUSION supporters. I am delusional myself and hate people who support or encourage delusions.
People who trace or are heavily inspired by emotes/art. It makes me uncomfortable as I’ve had my art stolen and posted in horrible corners of the internet.
Honestly, just mostly basic DNI. If you’re a piece of shit or someone who fakes, romanticizes or glorifies mental disorders don’t use my art or speak to me. I don’t want any drama on my blog but I will not hesitate to block anyone who claims to be an endo system, as they directly go against my beliefs and I have major trauma with them.
Emoji Tumblr has enough horrible creators and drama. My DNI is important to me to keep my peace ! Ty for listening
#emoji blog#endos dni#narc abuse truthers dni#dni list#proship dni#non traumagenic dni#boundaries#boundary#k9boundaries#k9emotes
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oc questionnaire tag
here i am, trying my best to catch up on tag games 😭😭 i have no idea who tagged me in this one anymore because this went around so long ago, and after scrolling through three months worth of notifications, i don't know if i found everyone who tagged me, but i do 100% remember @stargazer-sims @dandylion240 & @jonquilyst tagging me!
BASICALLY thank you so much to everyone who tagged me, and i'm so sorry if i missed acknowledging you here because i am pretty sure i did miss folks! but anyway, i'll tag in return:
@windermeresimblr @slightly-ludic @nikatyler @swallowprettybird @changingplumbob @vercosims @sertrallne @nectar-cellar @sparkiekong @papermint-airplane
NAME: bae yunha (배윤하)
NICKNAMES: yun, yunie, princess pear (배공주) 🍐
bonus fact: princess pear is spoofing off her name and the translation of princess peach (피치공주), who is yunha's main/ favorite character in mario kart! as for the name thing, yunha's last name doesn't mean pear, but the word for pear is pronounced and spelled the same exact way as her last name (배). so,,, the nickname is kind of princess bae, as in princess bae yunha, but it's also princess pear at the same time lol
GENDER: cis female
STAR SIGN: pisces ♓
HEIGHT: 5'5"
ORIENTATION: bisexual
NATIONALITY/ETHNICITY: korean 🇰🇷
FAVORITE FRUIT: peach 🍑
FAVORITE SEASON: winter 🎄
FAVORITE FLOWER: orchids 💜
FAVORITE SCENT: oddly specific but miss dior blooming bouquet perfume (it's her favorite perfume but she rations it out in the tiniest of portions because it's $$$$$) 💟
COFFEE, TEA, or HOT CHOCOLATE: all of the above! yunha doesn't discriminate against liquids, she just likes them in different contexts. she drinks coffee out of the house at coffee shops, tea at home (unless it's boba, at which point she'll buy it at a boba shop), and hot chocolate during winter, mostly if it's snowing ☕
AVERAGE HOURS OF SLEEP: 10 😴 she likes her beauty sleep!
DOGS or CATS: cats! she likes both, but she prefers cats 🤍
DREAM TRIP: paris and/or france more generally! she's aware it's not, like, the romanticized place it's portrayed as in media, but she wants to go to see the museums and architecture, check out the cafes, and walk around the parks and whatnot
NUMBER OF BLANKETS: just one! she's always slept on the floor on a futon, and in her opinion, it's a bit much to have too many blankets when you're doing that because the blankets aren't really anchored onto anything, so if you have more than one, they start getting tangled and crawling off the mattress in multiple directions
RANDOM FACT: she has an uncanny ability to solve puzzles! she's the girlie you give the "solve the maze without lifting your pen off the paper" challenges, and she's proud to say she has never looked up a walkthrough for games like portal or the stone matching mini-games in skyrim 👑 part of the magic is definitely stubbornness btw. she will stare at the puzzle until it's either solved or the universe decays into oblivion, one or the other! she is otherwise not competitive, though; that attitude is quite literally reserved only for puzzles
#hlcn: oc info#hlcn: yunha#vaguely related but if anyone deserves to be a princess it's her#also i really stay talking about my characters' names LMAO#i love it almost as much as i love abusing emojis#i know in the last tag i rambled about shannon's middle name#and there is a lot of waxing poetic about grant's name on here and his choice to (eventually) change it#ANYWAY
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