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EMILY DICKINSON x READER
YOU CANNOT PUT A FIRE OUT
A/N: HELLO HELLOO! How are you guys doing? Missed me?
Enjoy this new chapter â¤ď¸
Sending you love â¤ď¸
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Summary: Emily meets Y/N at the well one day and just falls in love for her. When she tries to find her again the next days, it seems like she just disappeared. She was ready to lose hope when one day she finds her in her house to start a job as her new maid with her aunt Maggie. What will happen then?
Warnings: just slightly groping, nothing too much explicit.
Word count: 15380 words.
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The sun beamed all over the expanse of the Dickinsonâs garden, warming up Emilyâs face as she decided to spend her morning outside, leaning on her favorite three and just soaking up in the calmness that was the nature. She closed her eyes and leaned her head back on the treeâs trunk surface to take a few moments of quietness in, smiling widely when she heard a few birds chirping around her, setting a warm and fuzzy feeling in her chest that always put her in a good mood. "Emily!"
The brown haired girl sighed loudly at her moment being ruined and tried to drown the sound away, but she heard it again a few seconds later and inevitably opened her eyes and turned towards the source of the sound coming from her right side, right where her house was, "yes?" Emily had to restrain herself from rolling her eyes when her mother called her name once again, ignoring her answering to her calls and making her sit up and abandon her morning in the nature to go and see whatever she needed from her.
"Emily?! Emily?!" The brown haired girl scoffed under her breath on her way back to her house, she knew her mother had head her when she was leaning on the tree but called her over nonetheless and was keeping calling her despite seeing her walking over her house, "oh Emily, dear, youâre here."
"Yes mom, what did you need? I was enjoying my day out in nature."
"I am sure it can wait, honey. I need you to go fetch water."
"Why canât Austin or Lavinia do it?"
As if on cue the blonde made her appearance from behind Emilyâs mother with what Emily deemed her trademark adorable frown since they were kids, "I did it yesterday and Austin is a man. He canât do it."
"Right, you would believe he would be perfect for it since menâs are always bragging about themselves being strong, stronger than women, when in fact they are staying all day behind a desk while women do all the physical, exhausting stuff."
"Youâre talking nonsense sweetheart." Emily rolled her eyes right in her motherâs face and grabbed the two empty buckets she had in her hands and trudged begrudgingly outside her house to walk towards the well to go fetch water as her mother asked her to.
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"Oh no, Iâm so sorry! I shouldâve watched where I was going! Oh no, your dress is completely drenched, here let me help you." In mere seconds Emily bumped accidentally into a girl carrying four buckets full of water, resulting in one of them spilling over her blu navy dress, but got also got flooded with a multitude of rushed words of regret and of apology, an adorable sight that made Emily forget about her dress being completely drenched in the late summer weather.
"Donât worry, itâs totally fine. I wasnât watching where I was going, I had my head elsewhere. So I should be the one apologizing." Emily smiled reassuringly at the distressed girl as she desperately tried to find something to dry Emilyâs dress.
"No, no. It was my fault!"
Emily tried to look at the girlâs face but it was completely covered by her hair cascading in front of it as she had her head down in search of a cloth in her small apronâs pocket she had around her hips, "I insist on taking the blame. Hey, please stop worrying. It will dry up eventually, itâs not a big deal."
"No, no. It should be here. I had it here an hour ago!"
"Hey, please. Relax, take a deep breath." Emily tried to calm the girl down and for the first time she seemed to do listen to her, sighing loudly as she took her hands out of her apronâs pocket and lifted her head up slowly.
Emily felt like the world stopped existing for just a moment when her eyes met the girlâs ones, establishing a connection that send a thrill down her spine and that lighted up her whole body, a sensation she had never felt before. "Are you okay?"
Emily took her time to commit to memory every single feature on the girlâs face, from the perfect slope of her nose to the soft bump of her cheekbones, from the gentle but still defined angle of her jaw, to the smooth surface of her chin and finally focusing all her attention on the plumpness of her velvety lips. Emily almost got lost again in the vastness of the girlâs eyes when she met them again that she almost forgot to answer the girlâs question, making her appear a bit dumb in front of her for gawking at her, "yeah, yes. Iâm fine. Totally fine. Great. Hm-." Emily cleared her throat to stop herself from embarrassing herself some more continued with a regained composure, "how about you? Are you okay?"
"Yeah, I am fine. Thank you."
"Good, Iâm glad to hear that." Emily smiled gently at the girl before shaking her head as if she was the dumbest person on earth, "Iâm Emily by the way."
"Y/N." The girl smiled gently at the poet while putting a strand of hair that fell in front of her face behind her ear, a gesture that made Emilyâs brain melt as she took in the girlâs beauty.
"Y/N." Emily repeated, testing the girlâs name out, feeling a warmth spreading throughout her entire body as the name rolled over her tongue. "I like it. Y/N. Itâs a really pretty name."
"Thank you. Emily is a great name too."
"Yeah, it has a Latin origin, it-."
"Itâs a Roman name. It means laborious and eager among other things." Y/N interjected the brunette before she could speak and Emily had never felt so infatuated by someone in so little time.
"Yeah, how do you know that?"
"I like reading a lot. I do it whenever I can." Emily didnât know it could have been possibile being interested in someone in so very little time, but she was starting to feel something for this girl, something she had only felt for one person only before.
"I like that too, a lot. What are you reading right now?"
"I just finished reading âThe Old Curiosity Shopâ by Dickens. I liked it. What about you?"
"I am in the middle of reading The Divine Comedy by Dante. Iâm halfway through Inferno."
"Oh I liked it a lot even though Purgatorio and Paradiso are just as beautiful. I mean his writing style gets more complex and more refined after each part."
Emily felt like she was floating through a new dimension where only Y/N and her existed, instigating a myriad of new emotions Emily never felt before that mixed with a few ones she only felt for Sue. "Wow, I-. I donât know what to say. Itâs the first time I hear someone talk about Danteâs amazing work without it being repeated from some stupid journalistâs review. No one really care to really read it. Or at least comprehend its real meaning behind his words."
"Because not everyone can see through whatâs in front of them. Thereâs beauty hidden in every single thing we know, creating something new that just awaits to be discovered, studied. Most people just waits for someone else to do it." Y/N reasoned with a shrug, like she just didnât made Emily fall madly in love with her brain.
"Wow- I- I feel like you had been in my mind and found a way to make it speak for itself. You-."
"Y/N! Are you ready to go?!" The poet got interrupted by a loud voice coming from behind Emily and when she turned around to look at who was yelling, she found a middle-aged woman with blonde hair styled in a perfect, classy bun, a blue dress with an apron on her front similar to Y/Nâs one waving at her from the groceryâs shop a few feet from them.
"Sorry, I need to go. It was great talking with you Emily."
Emily felt her stomach drop at the aspect of having to part ways with Y/N, trying to find a way to prolong their time together. As she closed herself in her mind to think she didnât notice Y/N refilling the bucket she unwillingly spilled over Emily and walked towards the woman, saluting Emily with a small nod. The gesture pulled Emily out of her thoughts and coming up empty-handed with ideas to make Y/N stay with her a bit longer, she could only sigh out loud, resigned but also completely smitten for the Y/H/C girl, before letting out softly, "the pleasure was all mine Y/N."
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"Emily, where is the water?"
"What?" Emily got ripped out of her own thoughts full of the mysterious and intriguing Y/N by her mother as soon as she entered her house, her mother stopping her in their small hallway in front of the door and the living rooms before she could run upstairs and let her thoughts flow freely as she wrote a poem or two.
"The water Emily. I sent you fetching water an hour ago. Where is it?"
"Oh shit!" Emily just then noticed she came home empty-handed, she forgot her empty buckets at the well after her encounter with Y/N. "I forgot them at the well!"
"How?! You went there just for fetching water. How did you manage to forget that Emily?"
"I- I gotta go. Later!"
"Emily!"
"I donât have time mom, I need to-." Emily got stopped mid-sentence and in her track towards her houseâs door by her motherâs authoritative voice calling her from the living room.
"Emily! Come here, now."
"Mom, I have everything under control. I got distracted and I forgot the buckets there. I will be quick. I will go get them, fetch water and come back here." Emily explained quickly, hoping her mother wouldnât be so much angry at herself for not doing what she asked her to do and getting ready for her scolding when she sighed out loud, pinched the bridge of her nose angrily and closed her eyes.
"Itâs not that Emily. You are always avoiding doing chores, always complaining about them and never doing them in the end. Itâs time for you to grow up. You will need to know how to be a proper housewife."
"But mom, I-."
"No buts." Emilyâs mother ended their discussion with those final words spoken with authority and nodded at her daughter when she nodded dejected at her not winning this argument. "Since Lavinia is going to get a few groceries from the store and Iâm going with her with the carriage, Iâm going to go fetch water, while youâll go into your room and think about what you did."
"Okay, mom. Iâm so sorry." Emilyâs mother smiled gently at her daughter for apologizing and laid a soft kiss on her forehead before she walked towards the stairs that would led to the first floor where the bedrooms were. She smiled apologetically at her mother once again but before she could go up the stairs and into her room to think and most importantly let her mind flow with writing her poems, she got stopped in her tracks.
"What is happening here?" Emily turned around at the sound of her fatherâs voice reaching her ears as he made his way into the living room after exiting his office, where he had been holed up the whole morning.
"Edward, your daughter Emily this morning was tasked to go fetch water and after disappearing for more than an hour, she also forgot our buckets at the well. Unbelievable!" Emily hung her head down in shame and closed her eyes to get herself ready for one of her fatherâs scoldings, not particularly thrilled on having her good mood ruined right now, but she had a feeling it was coming anyway as it was well due after her forgetting their buckets at the well.
"But also hilarious." Emily lifted her head up in shock after hearing her fatherâs words, not exactly expecting them, and widened her eyes comically. What was actually hilarious to Emily was her motherâs bewildered expression that stretched over her face as she stared in shock at her father. If she wasnât already walking on thin ice, she would have laughed at her motherâs expression, so she kept quiet and listened to the conversation unfolding in front of her.
"Excuse me, dear, what?!"
"Oh câmon, Mrs. Dickinson. You have to admit, itâs funny." Emily laughed nervously when her father started laughing loudly while looking at her mother then at her.
"But-." Emily bit on her bottom lip to prevent her smile to widen when her mother tried to reason with her father but he waved her off with a few chuckles still coming out of his lips.
"Oh, come on now Mrs. Dickinson. I know you want to laugh." Edward smiled at his wife and pointed his finger at the blonde woman, not putting it down until she saw a small grin making its way onto the womanâs lips, "ah there it is!"
"Oh dear, always finding a way to laugh! Anyway, Iâm going with Lavinia to the grocery store and to retrieve our buckets to fetch water for dinner tonight."
"Great, Iâm coming with you girls. I need to go to speak to Ronald about a really important matter I worked on this morning."
"Oh thatâs wonderful, dear. Emily, why donât you make it up to us by starting dinner?" Emily almost let her jaw drop down on the floor at her motherâs request. She knew she wasnât a great cook, she hated cooking and something always ended up catching fire. But she also knew this was her motherâs way to tell her she wasnât forgiven for the fetching water fiasco as her father made it sound and as much as she wanted to fight over it, she knew there wasnât a way out of this. Oh, well it was worth a try.
"Mom, I donât th-."
"Oh what a wonderful idea Mrs. Dickinson! I canât wait to taste what you will prepare for us Emily! Letâs go now, we are gonna be late!"
Emily sighed dejected while making her way towards the kitchen to start up dinner and as she tried to not set the whole house on fire, she let her mind fill with the few memories she had of Y/N. She was fascinating, captivating, alluring. She piqued Emilyâs interest with just a few words and when Y/N expressed her passion for books, ignited a fire in Emily that had been extinguished since she had broken things off with Sue. Could that mean something? Emily was sure she felt their souls connect in such a raw and deep way she had never experienced before, but would that be enough for Y/N as it was for her? As she started baking the freshly made loaf of bread, a sudden need to know if Y/N felt the same hit her and with a renewed determination she set her mind to try to encounter the Y/H/C girl the next morning.
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"Good morning my dear mother." Emily entered the kitchen with a grin so bright they could have used it to light up the whole house at night, arousing suspects from her mother that stared at her warily as she watched her make her way towards her as she prepared their breakfast.
"Emily, good morning to you too. Did something happen that put you in a good mood?"
"Nothing in particular. I just woke up like this today. Do you need help? I still want to make it up to you again for yesterday. Maybe I can go fetch the water again? This time I will bring back the buckets, I promise." Emily tried to be as subtle as she could without making her mother ask the real reasons behind her intentions on wanting to go fetch water, finishing with a joke to sell it better.
"Oh sweety, what a wonderful idea. You can help me with putting everything in the living room. And donât worry about fetching water, Vinnie already went this morning."
With her heart sinking down in her stomach, she reluctantly grabbed the tray full of their breakfast her mother already prepared to the living room, trudging a bit in her steps as she tried to think of another strategy to meet Y/N again.
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"Emily can you please help me with dinner?"
"I canât mom, I need to write. I donât have time to help you with dinner or chores."
"Well, I am sure it can wait." Emily snorted under her breath at her motherâs rebuttal as she made her way into her room.
"No mom, it sadly canât. When words flow out of me I canât stop them or ask them to wait to help with chores."
"Itâs worth a try, isnât it? I need help Emily, Vinnie is setting the table after cleaning the house, so youâre the one who will help me. Câmon, it will be fun!"
"Iâm sure it will, but I really canât right now. It would be so much easier if we get a housemaid to help you out."
"You are talking nonsense Emily, I am perfectly capable of doing it all by myself and with the help of my daughters everything can be done faster, so now please come down with me and help me out. You will write later." Emily sighed out as she let her pencil fall down on her desk, the soft clinking sound of the pencil hitting the wooden surface of her desk calmed Emily just a little, making a quick grin appear on her lips before a small frown took its place. The poet sat up slowly from her desk, placing both of her hands on it to slowly stand up, the screeching sound of the chair moving back filling the sudden silent room as her mother watched her movements with rapt attention.
"I will help you for just a bit, but I canât take too long on helping you with chores because Iâm really trying to finish a poem."
"Thatâs the spirit! Câmon honey, I will show you how to make the perfect roasted chicken that will make you the perfect housewife every gentleman would love to marry."
More like gentlewoman. Emily added in her mind and as soon as that thought came into her mind, Y/N appeared right after as she smiled lovingly at her. That instantly made Emily stop in her tracks on the stairs, watching blankly her motherâs back as she descended the stairs and rambled about roasted chicken Emily wasnât interested in listening at the moment. What made Emily freeze in her spot was the fact that for the first time since she could remember she didnât imagine marrying Sue. She imagined Y/N. And that thought excited her to no end, instead of scaring her. "Shit." Emily sighed dopily as she smiled with her eyes full of love as another image of Y/N waving at her entered her mind.
"Emily, hurry up!" Emily let her dumb smile linger a few more seconds on her features before shaking her head and resuming her way down the stairs to join her mother in the kitchen and help her with their dinner.
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"We should hire a maid to help mom out in the house."
"What?"
"We should hire a maid to help mom out in the house."
"I heard you the first time dear, I was just shocked by the request." Edward smiled gently at her daughter repeating herself before going back to being serious as he regarded her with a curious look in his features. "Why should we hire a maid? Your mother is perfectly capable of doing a good job here."
"Ah- a great job dear! I told you this earlier Emily. We donât need a maid."
"But it would be so much easier for you. For all of us! She would help mom with chores so she doesnât tire herself out every single day. And she would do a lot of things mom asks me or Vinnie to do. Câmon dad, think about it!"
"Well-."
"Edward you are not seriously considering it, arenât you?"
"Honey, she is not completely wrong. She would help you out, you know I hate how much tired you are at the end of the day."
They kept discussing it for a few more minutes as they enjoyed their dinner but when the dessert came, her mother served it in an unsettling silence so they moved onto a new subject Emily wasnât interested in listening. As she ate her dessert she couldnât help but let her eyes linger on her mother a few times and observed her as she stayed quiet for the rest of the dinner with a sad expression on her features. Despite her mother not taking assuming a maid to help her too well, Emily was sure she will come around eventually. Emily knew she was asking to hire a maid to have more time to write but she also really wanted her to help her mother and ease her load of work to do in the house.
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"Good morning dear family."
"Good morning to you too Edward." Emilyâs mother smiled widely at her husband as she finished serving everybodyâs breakfast before her grin got ten times wider and brighter when Edward leaned over and kissed her gently.
"Hm, I can smell so many delicious things today." Emily watched as her father sat down in his chair and brought up his newspaper to read the news, his smile never dampening.
"I can see you are in a good mood this morning, dear."
"Because I am."
"Iâm glad to hear that, honey."
"How is my family doing this morning?" Edward brought his newspaper down after reading a few paragraphs of the first news and took a sip of his tea, then moving onto taking a bite of her wifeâs famous scones, humming in satisfaction at the taste.
"I am good dad, I just finished reading an article about financial management that I found pretty interesting." Austin was the first to speak up after taking a sip of his own tea, smiling at his father as he did so when he nodded at him in understanding.
"And what about my girls?"
"Last night I finished sewing a pillow for my cat, he loves it!" Lavinia announced with a bright grin, her enthusiasm filling the room as everyone at the table smiled at the ecstatic blonde.
"I finished a few poems I was working on."
"Thatâs great guys, I see everyone is proud of their achievements! But now letâs move on why I am in a good mood today. There is a reason and that said reason is- after considering it for the last few days, I decided that we will hire a maid to help in the house!"
"What?!" Everyone exclaimed at the table at the same time with excited tones, except for Mrs. Dickinson, who looked at her husband like he went completely nuts.
"Yeah!" Edward smiled alongside his son and daughters, not noticing her wifeâs expression yet, "I thought about it and in the end it was a really great idea Emily!"
"Iâm so happy to hear that dad!"
"Honey, why are you doing this?" Mrs. Dickinson finally found her voice to speak up and asked in a strained tone the first thing that came up in her hazed mind still shocked from the news Edward delivered.
"Oh dear, it will be good for the house and for you. You tire yourself up too much for this house."
"But- Iâm fine."
"I know you want to make it look like it, but I know some days are really stressful. I see how spent you are after those days at night. Iâm doing this for you too!" Edward explained calmly as he enjoyed his breakfast, his good mood still on.
"Yeah, I can be a little tired, but a great night of sleep sweeps it all away and restores my energy back."
"I am sure of that, but it will good! We can do more small trips or spend days differently when I am not working and youâre not thinking about doing any kind of chore in the house."
"Yeah, mom, it will be good for everyone here, youâll see!" Austin butted in with a cheerful tone and nodded at her mother still looking worried and skeptic.
"Yeah mom, you can finally focus on yourself a bit more." Lavinia then decided to add her thoughts too, trying to encourage her mother on relaxing on this topic, although she knew it was a sore spot since she always aspired to be a great housewife and having a maid restrained her from doing that in her mind.
"Mom, think about it, you can find a new hobby with the extra free time you will have!" It was Emily this time that spoke up, encouraging her mother with a brighter-than-the-sun grin that unfortunately her mother didnât reciprocate as she stayed frozen in her chair with her eyebrows furrowed together and a sad expression on her features.
"See? The kids have all good points!" Edward looked at his wife with a wide grin, nodding at her encouragingly, "anyway, the decision is already made. They are coming here tonight."
"They?" Emily wanted to snort under her breath at the outraged tone her mother used to pose the question to her father, but decided to stay still for once and enjoy the show in front of her.
"Yeah, two of them. One of my dearest friends is moving to Minnesota and he doesnât need his maids anymore since he wonât take them with him, so they are coming here. He told me they are the best maids in Amherst. An Irish woman and her niece."
"Thatâs so exciting!" Lavinia exclaimed as she clapped her hands enthusiastically, making Emily and Austin smile fondly at her.
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"Ah, good evening! Come inside please!"
"Good evening Mr. Dickinson." Emily could hear from downstairs his father greeting guests at the door but she shrugged and went back to her poem, but for some reason her attention shifted back to the new guests in their house and after a few more attempt of focusing to write a few more lines in vain, the poet gave up and sighed out loud as she placed everything in her small drawer in her desk, before sitting up from the chair and making her way downstairs to greet their guests.
"Weâre so happy to have you here!"
"The pleasure is all ours Mr. Dickinson." An Irish accent waved through the air, increasing Emilyâs curiosity and made her almost sprint down the stairs to go see the new maids as soon as she realized who their guests were.
"Oh Lavinia, come here. They are our new maids."
"Nice to meet you!"
"Nice to meet you Miss Dickinson." Something like a familiar voice reached Emilyâs ears as she descended the last few steps and almost fell down of them when she got at the top of the last set of stairs and her eyes met with a pair of wonderful, familiar irises.
"The pleasure is all mine, trust me!"
"Ah, Emily! You are here too. They are our new maids."
"Oh hello Miss Dickinson."
"Good evening Miss Dickinson."
"H-hello. Just call me Emily, please." The poet found the strength to descend the last few steps and even talk coherently before walking slowly towards the two new guests in her house, stopping right beside her father.
"You will meet my son soon. He is coming here with his wife tonight. And about my wife, I really donât know where she is." Edward joked, making the two guests laugh softly under their breath, clear, wide smiles etched on their lips. "Anyway, they are Mrs. Maggie and Miss Y/N."
"Itâs a real pleasure meeting you both." Lavinia butted in sincerely and nodded at them softly, meanwhile Emily still tried to properly kickstart her brain.
"Itâs a pleasure for me too. I hope you will enjoy staying here."
"Oh Miss Dickinson, I am sure it will be amazing staying here." Maggie countered back with a warm grin, mirrored by Y/N right after with a small nod of her head.
"Alright, girls would you mind showing them around?"
"I need to finish a few things for my art lesson tomorrow." Lavinia admitted dejectedly and the fact that she could potentially be alone with Y/N again thrilled Emily to no end.
"I can show them around the house, no problem Vinnie. Dad we will see you later."
"Okay, have fun!" Emily smiled and nodded at her father before dorkily lifting her thumb up and saluted him before signaling Y/N and Maggie to follow her in the kitchen.
"Alright, this is the kitchen. A place my mom likes to call her kingdom." Emily joked with a soft snort that morphed into a squeal when her mother appeared out of nowhere.
"Thatâs right dear."
"Mom! You scared our guests!"
"I think you were the most scared here, honey." Emily rolled her eyes at her motherâs teasing and shook her head with an amused smile.
"Mom, they are Y/N and Maggie. Our new maids."
"Nice to meet you Mrs. Dickinson." Y/N was the first to speak up, trying to look cool when inside she was freaking out about meeting Emily again. She thought she wouldâve never encountered her again.
"Itâs a pleasure to meet you Mrs. Dickinson."
"You are so young Maggie." Emily smiled subtly as she sunk her teeth on her bottom lip to prevent to be caught laughing about her mother being so caught up in being mad for having maids in their house that she didnât even pay attention remember their names, since she called Y/N Maggie.
"Mom, she is Y/N. She is Maggie." Emily emphasized the word âsheâ as she pointed to the redhead and noticed, to her surprise, that both of their guests had amusement on their faces.
"Oh sorry, I have a terrible headache and I do not have my usual laser focused attention on anything today." Emilyâs mother tried to cover up her mistake with a made up lie and laughed softly to light the air up quickly.
"Ah you should see me with an headache, I donât even walk straight. I bump into things all the time." The redhead joked before moving on telling Emilyâs mother an old Irish remedy for headache.
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After a delicious dinner her mother prepared Y/N and Maggie disappeared into the kitchen to clean everything up, despite her motherâs protests, who in the end stayed still in her loveseat in the living room. The whole family stayed about an half an hour to chat, before everyone called it a night, saying goodbye to Sue and Austin, before going upstairs to sleep. Emily stayed in the living room a little bit more to pretend to read, staring at the words written on her book, as she waited for the perfect moment to âcasually bumpâ into Y/N before she could go to sleep in her room. Luckily she didnât have to wait too long. "Go to bed aunt Maggie. We are almost done. I can finish the last touches myself."
"Are you sure?" Emily could hear the hesitation in Maggieâs tone, not wanting her niece to finish alone, but she could already picture Y/N protest with a resolute nod despite not knowing the girl at all except for a few details they shared a few days prior.
"I am sure auntie. Go. I will finish this up quickly and I will go to sleep too."
"Okay munchkin. Donât wear yourself out. We have to wake up early tomorrow for breakfast."
"I wonât. Goodnight auntie."
"Goodnight Y/N/N." Emily immediately moved herself from her position on the loveseat as she was leaning over to take a small peak from the kitchen and eavesdrop as good as she could and pretended to casually read before Maggie could catch her. "Oh Miss Dickinson, still up?"
"Oh hey, Maggie. Yeah, I couldnât sleep so I decided to read for a bit hoping sleep to find me."
"Ah, you should try the concoction my uncle used to make me when I couldnât sleep. It was disgusting but it always made me sleep like a baby." Maggie delivered another one of her great and funny anecdotes to give her personal advice and Emily smiled kindly up at her as she caressed the pages of her book.
"One of these days you could make me some and we will see if it works for me too!"
"Alright. Goodnight Miss Dickinson."
"Goodnight Maggie." Emily smiled widely at the redhead before watching her walk up the stairs until she disappeared behind the wall. Emily stayed still for a few more seconds, listening for Maggieâs roomâs door to close before immediately closing her book and sitting up, placed the book back in its designated place and almost sprinted into the kitchen, excited to finally spend some time alone with Y/N. She had been trying to do that for the whole evening, but she always had something to do with someone always in the way.
"Spying on people is wrong Miss Dickinson." Emily jumped up in fright as she had been caught staring from the threshold of the kitchen Y/N putting the plates they used during their dinner in the cabinet on top of the counter.
"Sorry, I was watching you work."
"Yeah, I noticed it." Emily smiled as her teeth sunk in her bottom lip at Y/Nâs sarcastic counter back and walked into the kitchen, stopping right in front of Y/N, the kitchenâs wooden table separating them. The fire in the fireplace was still crackling softly in the silent room, bathing the room with an orange light that highlighted Y/Nâs Y/E/C irises and almost made Emily faint at such ethereal beauty.
"Have you finished yet? You must be tired."
"I am, just a bit, but I am almost finished."
"Do you need some help?" Emily asked in hope Y/N would say yes, so she could prove to her she wasnât the snotty rich girl that didnât want to help in her house with chores. She didnât exactly know why, but she just wanted to do it.
"No donât worry. Arenât you tired?"
"Not at all, I tend to have a lot of energy at night."
"Oh so you sleep during the day?"
"Not really. I am not a morning person, but I donât oversleep."
"Oh I see." Emily detected a sarcastic lilt in Y/Nâs tone and immediately wanted to prove to Y/N she wasnât a lazy person.
"I swear I am not! Do you remember when we met a few days ago? It was around 7 a.m.! That was early in the morning!"
"Yeah, but I also remember that after that you forgot your buckets at the well." Y/N teased making Emily drop her jaw on the floor flabbergasted, making Y/N snort under her breath.
"I-I was distracted! I wanted to get them back but my mother prevented me to and did it herself."
"Yeah, I saw her." Y/N still had an amused grin on her lips but Emily could see the entertainment in her eyes that made Emily realize she was just messing with her and for a mysterious reason Emily wanted her to keep going, she wanted to be the subject of her teasing and entertainment just to see her smile.
"I tried to find you again at the well the next few days but I never did."
"Yeah, I was busy in the house helping Mr. Peterson with packing all his familyâs stuff for their moving."
"Oh, yeah. That makes sense." Emily nodded in understanding before detaching her eyes from Y/Nâs magnetic ones and focused instead on her wringing hands.
"Did you finish Danteâs Divina Commedia?"
"Yeah, last night actually. This morning I tried to find something new to start but nothing piqued my interest." Emily admitted after moving her gaze back on Y/N, who now placed the cloth she had previously in her hands neatly folded on the table.
"Ah I see. It happens to me all the time."
"Do you have some recommendations?"
"Hm, I need to think about it. I am a little bit tired and I canât actually think about anything worth your while right now." Y/N chuckled after finishing speaking as she shyly made her way towards Emily, who stood a few feet from her.
"Oh then I wonât keep you away from sleeping."
"No, no. Donât worry. I like talking to you but for now, as late as it is, I would like to keep our conversation as simple as possible."
"Thatâs fine by me."
"Do you want to stay here or-."
Emily didnât let Y/N finish as she spoke up without thinking, blurting words out without any control, "we can go up to my room."
Y/N seemed taken aback for a few quick moments before a mischievous grin replaced the confused frown she had on, "oh I see where this is going."
"What-? OH! NO, NO, NO, NO! Y/N!" Emily exclaimed in shock before slapping Y/Nâs shoulder gently, watching as she snickered under her breath at her joke.
"What?! It was a legit reaction from me!"
"I am not trying to seduce you!" But I would like to. Emily thought wistfully in her head as she tried to look as shocked as she felt a few seconds prior instead of looking like a kicked puppy yearning for cuddles.
"Thatâs not what your words sounded like Miss Dickinson."
"Ugh, you are unbelievable!"
"Letâs go now." Y/N shook her head with a small chuckle, making Emilyâs heart clench at her cuteness.
"I-Okay. But itâs not done!"
"Whatever, now letâs go!"
"Okay, okay. Relax." The two made their way up the stairs as quietly as they could since everyone was already asleep and as soon as Emily closed the door behind herself, she felt butterflies fly around her stomach in excitement. She was with Y/N, in her bedroom, alone.
"Nice room." Y/N admitted as she took Emilyâs bedroom in, walking around the small room to try to take in as much details about Emily as she could in the softly lit room.
"Thank you. You can sit on my bed, you are tired. I will take the chair."
"I canât sit down Emily. I am your maid."
"I donât care."
"I am serious Emily. It wonât be a problem-." Emily stopped Y/N mid-sentence by walking towards her and stopping right in front of her before placing her hands on her shoulders and pushing her gently backwards until the back of her knees touched her mattress, then she pushed her down and made her sit on the bed.
"There, it wasnât so bad, was it?" Emily smirked proudly down at a shocked Y/N and following the bold thrill she had been hit on, she sat right beside Y/N and bumped their shoulders together.
"You are always so full of surprises Miss Dickinson." Y/N admitted and Emily called herself crazy because she saw Y/N blush slightly under the soft light coming from the fireplace. It must be her infatuated mind playing her games.
"Itâs something you need to get used to from now on."
"Hm, I like it though."
"Iâm glad to hear that." For a moment they just stood there, sat in silence in Emilyâs room, gazing into each otherâs eyes as small smiles adorned their features.
"I noticed all those small scraps of paper on your desk, what are those for?"
"Oh I write my poems on them. I am actually working on a poem right now."
"Are you serious?"
"Very." Emily nodded and smiled as she pushed her chest up proudly, "do you want to read a few things Iâve written?"
"Oh yeah! Absolutely!"
"Okay then." Emily sat up from her bed and walked towards her desk, opened the small drawer and grabbed a few poems she was sure Y/N wouldâve liked, of course she didnât grab the few ones she wrote about her.
"Wow, there are so many!"
"Yeah!" Emily smiled brightly like a kid on Christmas Day, just like every time she talked about her poems, and watching Y/Nâs eyes fill with excitement warmed her heart.
"I canât wait to read them!"
"Okay, which one do you want to start with?"
"I donât know, you are the poet. You should tell me."
"I- I donât actually know! Let me think- I want you to start with-." Emily trailed off to pick one out of the five ones she brought to Y/N as she sat back down on the bed, "this one, but then I also want you to read this one first." Emily pointed to another poem with her pointer finger as she held the previous poem she choose in her hand and smiled sheepishly at Y/N.
"Okay, letâs try with this. What is the poem you are the most proud of. Donât think too much. Just point at it."
"Okay, hm- this one then."
"Alright." Y/N grabbed the poem Emily gave her and opened the small folded up paper, reading the words written in Emilyâs elegant but a bit messy handwriting. The edges of the paper were a little bit dirty with ink but it only made the poem ten times better, full of raw emotions and vulnerability.
"What do you think?" Emily asked anxiously after a few minutes passed by and Y/N havenât opened her mouth yet, her Y/E/C irises glued on the small piece of paper and her face completely blank, making reading her face a really difficult task for the poet.
"I-I-. Itâs the most beautiful thing Iâve ever read, Emily. Itâs so raw, so real. It opened my mind to new possibilities, it made my eyes see the world from another point of view. It felt like I was in your mind and I could see the world how you see it."
"Do you think so?"
"Absolutely!" Emily felt tears prickle behind her eyes at Y/Nâs words, something really rare despite how emotional Emily was about her poems. She was very proud of them and when people complimented them it only helps to boost her self-esteem but it never happened that just a few words made her almost cry. Y/N was really special.
"Thank you. Truly." Emily smiled appreciatively at Y/N as she tried with all her might to not cry in front of Y/N. "No one ever complimented my poems that way."
"Well people are dumb and stupid. You are an amazing writer and your poems will change lives." Emily smiled bittersweetly at that as she picked at a thumbnail nervously. Those words. She recalled them being said by Sue.
"Yeah, I already heard that. Someone already told me."
"And why do you not believe in them?"
"Itâs not that I donât believe in them." Emily started slowly, swallowing the small lump that immediately formed in her throat as her mind filled with memories of Sue, of all the great time she spent with her, of how much she cared for her. "Itâs just that- the person that told me that doesnât tell me those words anymore."
"Why? Did they change their minds?"
"No absolutely not. We just- grew apart I think. She has a new life now. Iâm not a part of it anymore."
"Do you want to talk about it?" Y/N asked in a soft voice, leaning her head to the side, in a cute manner Emily noted, and looking at Emily with a gentle gaze as soon as she noticed the poetâs sad expression on her features.
"Not right now. I will, I trust you. I just- I donât want to ruin the mood or like- annoy you."
"You wonât ever annoy me Emily Dickinson. You have such a way with words that you make listening to you alluring." Emily felt her eyes prickle slightly with unshed tears again as she listened to Y/Nâs words and smiled appreciatively at her.
"I- I donât know what to say. I-thank you."
"You donât need to thank me Emily. I mean that. I hope you know I am sincere."
"I know, I can sense it from your voice and your eyes." Emily pointed her words out with her brown eyes as she glued them to Y/Nâs Y/E/C irises, noticing Y/N swallowing almost imperceptibly at the bold gesture but decided to not comment on it.
"You know-." Y/N started after a few moments of them just staring into each other eyes, both feeling the air around them charge with an unknown electricity but not dwelling or thinking about it too much, but got cut off by a big yawn. She promptly covered her mouth with her hand before placing it back on her lap and smiling embarrassedly at Emily with a small blush on her cheeks, "sorry, I am a bit tired."
"Donât apologize. I should be the one apologizing for keeping you up this late at night after the busy day you had. Not to mention the busy early day you will have tomorrow. Shit, I am so sorry." Emily grimaced after she realized she had been keeping Y/N from her well-needed sleep, but Y/N, the cute self she is, only shook her head gently.
"No, no, no, Emily. Itâs fine. I wanted to spend some time with you too."
"Are you sure?"
"Positive." Y/N smiled widely at Emily before starting to get up from her bed, "well, I should go to sleep now. I need to be up at 6 a.m. to start preparing breakfast."
"Do you need some help with that tomorrow morning?"
"Another one of these questions. Hm, are you sure you really needed a maid? You seem to want to do all these chores by yourself." Y/N questioned with a mocking tone as a small, entertained smirk appeared on her lips, mirth clear in her Y/E/C irises as they eyed Emily teasingly.
"I just-." Emily trailed off to ponder her options. She could easily lie about her real intentions behind her question or she could be bold for once and actually tell she just want to spend as much time as she could with Y/N to get to know her. She decided to be bold for once. She was tired not listening to her heartâs desires. "I like your company and I really want to spend more time with you."
"Oh Emily, we will spend more time together, I promise. My aunt Maggie established a few shifts between us. I have an early morning but I work till 6 p.m., then Iâm done for the day. We can do something together after dinner like tonight." Y/N suggested as she idly played with her fingers, anticipation filling her whole body as she waited for Emilyâs reaction to her suggestion.
"That would be great!" Emily exclaimed excitedly and had to really stop herself from jumping up and down in happiness at the prospect of spending more time with Y/N, just sticking on grinning widely at Y/N, who did the same.
"Okay then. Goodnight." Y/N nodded towards Emily and turned around to open the door, before turning her head back around to look at Emily once again, waiting her answer.
"Goodnight Y/N. Sleep well."
"You too."
Y/N opened the door completely and exited the room, smiled at Emily one more time before closing the door, sauntering into her room, across from her auntâs one. As soon as the door closed, Emily sighed out dreamily and let herself fall on her mattress with a dopey smile on her lips, the soft thud filling the silence in the room. "Y/N." She whispered under her breath before closing her eyes and let her mind be filled with images of Y/N as she let sleep take over her.
-
"Good morning!" Emily exclaimed as soon as she entered the living room, her face illuminated by a big grin that lighted up the whole room, making her whole family, already seated at the table, look at her curiously.
"Someone is in a great mood today." Edward pointed out after he pushed his newspaper down and took a look at her daughter.
"I just slept good, thatâs all."
"You are right on time honey, I was just telling your father that Austin and Sue will join us for dinner tonight again." Emily spit the sip of tea she was drinking at the news, not noticing the small snort that left Y/Nâs mouth as she served the poet her breakfast, luckily only Emily heard that.
"What?"
"Isnât it amazing? Itâs been too long since they had been here with us. They are so busy with their sophisticated parties these days. Itâs a rare occasion having them joining us for two nights in a row."
"Parties I am paying." Edward pointed out making Emily grunt in acknowledgement. She was avoiding Sue at all costs and she was glad the night prior they were all busy chatting, it made avoiding Sue easier.
"Parties we are not invited to. Em you are Sueâs best friend, why donât you ask her to invite us?" Lavinia lamented with a whining tone, pushing gently on her sisterâs shoulder but then crossing her arms stubbornly when Emily just gently shook her head.
"She has new friends now. She is not interested in hanging out with us anymore." Y/N couldnât help but notice the bittersweet tone Emily used as she addressed her sisterâs question and the sad expression that flitted over her features for just over a second before it got covered by a calculated blank expression, but she couldnât dwell on it too much as she kept serving breakfast to the Dickinson family, so she made a mental note to ask Emily about it that night.
"Speaking of friends, Emily!" Emilyâs mother caught the poetâs attention and continued only when she met her eyes, "I met George this morning at the grocery store. He is such a nice guy."
"I know where this is going mom. Iâm not going to marry him. He is a great friend. Thatâs all." Y/N missed Emilyâs mother counter back and she didnât hear the rest of the conversation going between Emily and her mother as she returned to the kitchen to tidy up the kitchen a bit before starting up lunch, not having the time to notice her stomach jumping up in happiness at Emily refusing to marry her friend.
-
"Are you sure? I can help you with all this mess."
"Oh donât worry Y/N/N, go get some rest. You had a very stressful day. Itâs my turn now." Maggie assured her niece, waving her off as she tidied up the kitchen after the Dickinsonâs dinner. "No, donât try to convince me. Go!"
"Thank you. Goodnight."
"Gânight."
Y/N exited the kitchen to go up the stairs and to her room, but unfortunately she had to pass by the living room where the Dickinson family was still chatting after their dinner. Y/N sighed out of relief when no one seemed to notice her presence and kept minding their business and continued her quiet way up the stairs, a little bit sad that she probably wonât spend some time with Emily like they planned. Despite good mood being slightly dampened by hers and Emilyâs plans ruined, when she arrived at her door she sighed out wistfully at the mere thought of finally getting rid of her devilish corset and lay on bed, but before she could open the door a hand touched her shoulder and squealed in fright. "Shit- Emily!"
"Sorry, sorry! I thought you heard me." Emily reasoned with an apologetic grimace, warming Y/Nâs heart at the cute sight when she turned around and was met with puppy dog eyes.
"No, I was just thinking about getting rid of my corset."
"Oh I know the feeling. Looking forward on breathing normally again, hm?" Emily joked, making Y/N snort softly as she nodded in agreement with the poet.
"You have no idea."
"I have actually, because I need to get rid of my corset too. I canât stand having it on me for one more second. Do you mind if I change in my night gown and then we can hang out?"
Y/N looked a bit taken aback from the question, not really expecting it from the brunette, "donât you have your entire family downstairs?"
"Yeah, but they will be fine. I spent enough quality time with them, now itâs time to spend some quality time with you." Emily admitted with the slightest rosy tint on her cheeks and for once she was grateful for the lightly lit hallway so she can hide it from Y/N, who didnât seem to notice Emilyâs shy behavior.
"You make me feel too special Emily. Choosing me over your family, wow- thatâs flattering." Y/N felt the need to half joke with her hand on her heart as she tried to not show how much touched she was by Emilyâs words, since she only met the poet a few days prior and she was her maid.
"Get used to it! Now letâs go, Iâll help you with your corset then youâll help me with mine."
"Hm, so eager to see me naked. Are you trying to seduce me Miss Dickinson?" Emily felt her face heat up in a millisecond at the question, not sure this time she could hide it from Y/N, her heart skipping a beat before starting beating fast in her chest as her mind filled with completely not innocent images of a naked Y/N on h-. "Emily? Are you okay?"
"Oh- I- I was-wasnât. I was just trying to help, yâknow since corsets are so difficult to take off. I always ask Lavinia to help me because I canât reach the strings behind me, but she is busy right now so sh-."
"Emily, itâs okay. I was kidding, relax." Y/N giggled softly under her breath and bumped her left shoulder with Emilyâs one to help the girl calm down, effectively stopping her ramblings.
"Oh I- I knew that." Emily laughed awkwardly for a few moments before clearing her throat, "should we, I donât know go in your room or-?"
"Oh yes, letâs go, so I can help you undress." The last part of Y/Nâs phrase sent Emilyâs brain out of control as it replayed those words over and over again and each time it only helped melting her brain into mush as far from innocent images filed in.
"O-okay, letâs go." Y/N nodded and opened her bedroom door, letting Emily in first then following her, closing the door a moment later to have some privacy.
"How was dinner?" Y/N asked as she tried to look as nonchalant as she could despite having a really pretty girl in her bedroom about to undress her. Okay that totally sounded really dirty and out of context it could sound like what it actually sounded like, but we all know the truth, right?
"It was good. I liked your special bread recipe, you need to teach me how to make it."
"Oh yeah, itâs actually aunt Maggieâs recipe, but I added a little bit of raisins to enhance its flavor."
"They definitely do their work because it was the best bread Iâve ever tasted. Do not tell my mother that." Emily was quick to whisper the last part with the hand on the left side of her mouth, making Y/N laugh heartily at her goofiness.
"Noted." Y/N nodded as she still smiled widely at Emily, before starting playing with her fingers nervously. "Hm-."
"What?"
"I- I really canât resist another second in this. Can you please-?" Y/N trailed off, letting the half-finished question hang in the electrified air between them as she stared at everything around the room but at Emilyâs magnetic brown irises, moving her hands to signal behind her back to hint at Emily she needed to take off her corset.
"Wha- OH! Your corset. Of course. Yeah. Yeah." Emily nodded as she stumbled over her words, grimacing inwardly at her awkwardness. "Hm- turn around please. Iâll help you out."
"Oh yeah, thank you." Y/N held her breath as she turned around and almost gasped out loud when a pair of slightly cold hands touched the skin of her back.
"Sorry, my hands are a bit cold."
"Donât worry." Y/N let out in a breath as she tried to calm herself down and not look like she was actually melting under Emilyâs touch. After a few moments, Emily succeeded in loosening the strands of Y/Nâs corset and the girl visibly relaxed, "letting your corset loose is like- the best feeling ever, right?"
"Yeah, every night I feel like my soul comes back in my body."
"Yeah, they should be banned. Why women need to suffer this much while men wear the comfiest clothes ever created?"
Emily listened to Y/N talking as she focused on her fingers unfastening Y/Nâs corset, "thatâs what Iâm always thinking about. I tried pants once, it was a breakthrough. Never had on something so comfy in my life. Even my night gown isnât that comfortable."
"Wait- you had the privilege to try pants on?"
"Yeah! Of course my parents donât know that, but yeah."
"Wow, I always imagined trying them! How do they feel?"
"Amazing! And I even tried a blouse with a vest. No corset on. Even better than having pants on." Emily admitted and watched delighted Y/Nâs face illuminate like a Christmas three, full of curiosity and wonder.
"Wow, that sounds amazing." Emily focused on untying the last strand of Y/Nâs corset with shaky hands even if she tried to stop her body from shaking with her nerves, the mere thought Y/N was a few beats away from being naked short-circuited her brain. "I always wanted to try menâs clothes on."
"When do you have the whole afternoon free?" Emily asked with excitement shining brightly in her eyes, almost jumping up and down in her spot in anticipation as an idea popped in her mind.
"Thursday. I start at 18 Friday afternoon then."
"Alright, I really hoped it was Thursday afternoon. My parents and Lavinia are going to some kinda spa thing my aunt Lavinia organized, Iâm not going because Iâm not in the mood to go, even if my mom and Lavinia have been trying to convince me for days. But now that I know we can have almost 24 hours together Iâm definitely not going."
"Wait- hold on, are you serious?"
"Yeah, I can even convince them to bring Maggie with them or let her have a few days off. I think they will be back Friday night or maybe Saturday morning, I need to ask them."
"Wow, I donât know what to say!"
"Well, my dear Y/N get ready for these days all by ourselves." Emily announced excitedly, finding the same amount of excitement she had in her eyes into Y/Nâs Y/E/C irises, warming her heart to no end. She was afraid she could come off as too eager to spend some alone time with Y/N, but the Y/H/C girl didnât seem to mind or she didnât pay attention to it and it reassured Emily.
"I canât wait." Y/N exclaimed excitedly before shivering slightly as cold air hit her hot skin, "I should put something on quickly."
"Oh yeah, itâs freezing!"
The two girls stayed looking at each other for a few more seconds before Y/N moved her gaze away to find something to put on, Emily quickly turning around as her cheeks warmed up and her heart beat loudly in her ears. "Okay, we can go now."
"Oh thank God, I seriously need to get rid of this corset as well."
"We better hurry up then." Y/N snickered at Emilyâs whiny tone, ushering her out her room.
"Have you ever thought-." Emily stopped in her tracks when, after looking at Y/N for a moment on her way out Y/Nâs room, she turned back around to look where she was going to not trip over something and she was met with a pair of familiar eyes.
"Emily."
"Sue." Y/N exited the room right behind Emily and stopped in her tracks too when she was met with Sueâs confused and also a little bit⌠jealous? - Y/N couldnât tell - eyes, but she sure she could feel a little bit of electricity palpable in the air, especially when Sue detached her eyes from her and stared Emily down with an hard gaze, silence filling the small hallway for a few long moments.
"I- I hoped we could talk a bit. Itâs been a while."
"Oh- can we do it tomorrow? I am a bit tired."
"Oh- oh y-yeah, s-sure. How is it going with your poems?" Sue asked with a bit of a shaky voice, her eyes full of a nostalgic glint that intrigued Y/N to no end.
"Itâs going just fine. They are my safe place where I can hide when I need to be away from the world."
"Yeah, I remember. They were the most powerful way for your heart and mind to speak out loud. I miss them." Sue admitted with a nostalgic tilt in her tone that kept fueling Y/Nâs curiosity about the strange dynamic that Emily and Sue shared.
"Well you decided you didnât want them anymore. So itâs a bit hypocritical missing them, donât you think?"
"I- I- uh, thatâs why I wanted to talk to you." Sue started with her voice full of anxiety and anticipation, "itâs been too long and I-."
"You were pretty clear the last time we spoke to each other. If you want to tell me about your amazing parties and your new friends, fine. But if you want to say anything else, you donât need to worry. There is nothing else to say."
"I-." Sue sighed out loud while her shoulders lost their tension and slumped back in their position, "I guess you are right. I have no right to want to make amends after what I did and said. I just miss my best friend."
"What? Arenât your new friends enough? This explains your need to always want more."
"I guess I deserved that." Sue hung her head down a few beats before meeting Emilyâs eyes again, "I didnât want this. Us fighting."
"I didnât want this too. I- listen, we will talk. Tomorrow. Okay?"
"Thank you." Sue went to hug Emily but she stopped in her tracks when she stepped back and shook her head a bit.
"Right. Iâll see you tomorrow. Goodnight."
"Goodnight."
"Have a good night Mrs. Dickinson." Y/N chimed in for the first time since they bumped into Sue and smiled politely at the girl who looked her up and down before smiling politely too and nodding back.
"Have a good night too-."
"Y/N." Y/N finished for Sue, who trailed off waiting for the Y/E/C girl to help her out.
"Y/N." Sue repeated before turning around and going down the stairs where chatter was still going animatedly. Y/N watched the brunetteâs back a few seconds as her mind replayed everything that went through in the last couple of minutes before focusing her attention back on Emily, finding her already looking at her, making her heart skip a beat.
"Hey." Y/N started with a soft voice, her smile widening when Emily grinned gently at her.
"Hey. Sorry you had to witness that." Emily apologized as she opened her bedroom door and lead them in her bedroom.
"Thatâs fine. Are you okay?"
"Yeah." Emily sighed out loud and nodded gently at the Y/H/C girl while closing her bedroom door. She stared a few seconds at Y/N before turning around, "can you help me?"
"Yeah sure." Y/Nâs voice was a slightly bit hoarse as she walked on shaky legs towards the poet, who was standing in the middle of her bedroom, but she paid her no mind as her brain played the conversation she had with Sue a few minutes prior.
"I canât believe she told me those things. She had no right to tell me those things!"
"Iâm sorry Emily but I donât know what youâre talking about."
"Youâre right. I will tell you after getting out of this damned corset."
"I feel you." Y/N snorted as she started unfastening the knots on Emilyâs corset to help her out of it faster, the poet already sighing out happily.
"Oh yes. This is wonderful." Emily moaned out in delight as soon as she felt the corset starting to loose around her upper body, creating a tingling sensation all over Y/Nâs body at the unexpected sound, but she kept going instead of fainting embarrassingly behind Emily.
"Yeah, I feel you."
"I hope one day we can get rid of these things. They are awful." Emily admitted and watched as Y/N nodded in agreement when she turned her head around slightly to Y/N behind her still working on unfastening her corsetâs straps.
"Yeah. It will take a lot but Iâm sure they wonât be used anymore."
"We would wear something similar, maybe something that doesnât feel so tight and that doesnât need help to take it off."
"Oh wow, that would be wonderful. I still struggle trying to take it off myself." Y/N snorted under her breath as she shook her head.
"Wait, do you really take it off yourself?"
"Well yeah, most of the times I ask my aunt Maggie to help me, but a few times I had to do it myself when she is still busy or not around in that moment."
"Wow." Emily exclaimed, but furrowed her eyebrows when she heard Y/N chuckle under her breath, "why are you laughing?"
"Because I remembered I once struggled so much in taking my corset off that I didnât see the bed and fell down on it and then on the floor." Y/N explained, giggling after finishing with Emily doing the same as she imagined the hilarious scene, "here you go. Iâm done. Youâre free from your corset."
"Oh yes! Thank you!" Emily moved without properly thinking and pushed the top of her dress and her corset down to her hip as she turned around, exposing her upper body to Y/N, who widened comically her eyes as they inevitably fell on Emilyâs exposed chest. "Oh my God!"
"Oh- sorry, sorry!" Y/N immediately turned herself around and covered her eyes as a deep, burgundy blush fell on her cheeks. "Sorry for looking I- hm." Y/N cleared her throat and tried to find the right words that would not make this situation even more embarrassing but her brain seemed to be stuck in a spiral of images of Emilyâs round and full breasts and was incapable of forming coherent thoughts, so she decided to just shut up.
"No, no. Donât apologize. I should be sorry for- flashing my tits in your face." Emily turned around too, making now both of their backs face each other, and touched her cheeks to try in vain to subdue her scorching blush, while frantically searching her night gown to put on.
Y/N snorted imperceptibly under he breath and let the next, murmured words slip out of her mouth without her consent, "I should thank you instead."
It was almost imperceptible, but Emily caught it since the wired silence surrounding them was almost deafening and it made her stop in her tracks as she opened her drawer. She couldnât have heard right, could she? Do those words mean Y/N felt something for her too? Or maybe that she was at least attracted to her? She needed answers. "Iâm sorry again. I wasnât thinking."
"Donât worry. I hope I didnât make you uncomfortable."
"Are you serious? I hope I didnât make you uncomfortable." Emily countered back as she carefully took her dress and corset down her body, then putting her night gown on, purposefully choosing one that has a slight see-through fabric around her chest area. This way she could know if Y/N was interested in her in that way or not. If her eyes struggled to not stay focused on her chest, maybe she had a chance with her. "You can turn around."
"So, what happened with-." Y/N did as Emily told her but stopped mid-sentence when Emily turned around and she almost flashed her breasts to her again. The top half of Emilyâs dressâ fabric was see-through, that much so that Y/N could see Emilyâs erect nipples, but she wasnât sure they were erect from the cold of the room despite the fire crackling on the right side of the room or from something else. Y/N immediately noticed her slip up and her ogling and forced her eyes to look at a portray on Emilyâs wall, beside her head, instead as she cleared her throat, forcing herself to not stare at Emilyâs visible chest again, "hm- with Sue?"
"Oh yeah, right, hm. Can I trust you?"
"Emily of course. I promise your secrets are safe with me."
"No, I know it. Itâs just- nobody knows about this but- we had a thing going on." Emily admitted quickly, not exactly knowing how to put into words what she wanted to say, extremely afraid to watch Y/Nâs facial expression at her revelation, so as soon as she finished talking, she focused her eyes on the fire crackling on her left and played around with her fingers.
"Oh wow."
"Yeah."
"Did you love her?" Y/N asked after a few beats of silence, completely taking Emily off guard.
"Wow, I wasnât expecting this question."
"Sorry, it was too personal. You donât have to answer me."
"No, I didnât mean it like that. I-hm, I was expecting you- well I donât know what I was expecting. Maybe you asking about our arrangement. Or maybe not reacting this well about this- new information about me."
"Oh yeah, I got it. You donât have to worry about that. Like ever. I- I know what it feels like to like- love a woman."
Emily had to rectify her previous statement. That took her off guard. "Really?"
"I realized it when I was 15. I started working with my aunt Maggie in a beautiful house. Their owners were a wonderful family. Always so polite, never getting angry, very sweet with me since I was a kid but also with my aunt Maggie. They were treating us like we were part of their family. But Molly. Molly was the sweetest of them. Not to mention beautiful. We were close since we were the same age. But- hm- you were lucky enough to have some kind of something with the person I presume you loved. I wasnât that lucky. I had to endure watching her loving someone else. For the entirety of my time as a maid in their house."
"Iâm so sorry Y/N." Emily butted in as soon as Y/N, after turning around towards the fireplace, trailed off to stare blankly at the fire, too caught up in her thoughts to notice Emily approaching her slowly.
"Donât be. It happens. Especially in the world we live in. Where people like us has to hide."
"I hope one day we donât have to." Emily admitted a little bit wistfully, her heart aching for the pain she can clearly see in Y/Nâs Y/E/C eyes when she finally looked into her brown ones. She had been lucky enough to at least act on her feelings somehow. Y/N hasnât been that lucky.
"I hope that too." Y/N smiled gently at Emily, their eyes meeting a few seconds before Y/Nâs Y/E/C oneâs focused on the fireplace again.
"Did you tell her how you felt?"
"Oh God, no. Are you crazy? She wouldâve ruined my life, my reputation, I could have lost my job."
"Yeah, but you broke your heart that way."
"Yeah. It will heal, eventually." Y/N shrugged like it was nothing, "itâs already healing."
"How long has it been since it happened?" Emily asked a little bit sadly, her eyes conveying as much compassion and sympathy she could to try to make Y/N feel a little bit better. Little did she know she was already making her feel better by healing her broken heart.
"About two years."
"Wow." Emily exclaimed as her brain wrapped itself around this new piece of information. She didnât know what to say to Y/N to help her make her feel better, she had been broken hearted by Sue, but they at least had some kind of relationship.
"Woman full of words I must say. It must be easy being a poet."
Y/Nâs joke made Emily snort under her breath, a gesture that she hoped distracted Y/N enough to not make her see the blush she triggered with her words. "Shut up. I was just shocked." Emily pushed on Y/Nâs left shoulder when she snickered under her breath and pretended to be offended.
"Oh no, donât be mad. I was joking. Well- not completely but- HEY! Donât hit me with your pillow."
"Or what?" Emily smirked widely when, without Y/N noticing, grabbed the pillow laying on the chair beside her and lifted it up to hit the Y/H/C girl, but before Y/N could form any sort of warning, she got blocked by Emily swinging the pillow forward and hitting her on the face.
"Ok, you asked for it." Y/N stopped another hit with her right arm while she fumbled behind her to grab a pillow on Emilyâs bed and as soon as her hand wrapped itself around the soft pillow she flung it around and hit Emily right on the face, stopping her movements altogether as she stared with a shocked but amused expression on her face at Y/N.
"You. Didnât."
"Oh I did. I can do it again if you want."
"Donât you dare! No! Y/N!" But it was too late. As soon as Emily finished threatening Y/N, a pillow hit her face and made her stumble a bit, but she regained her balance quickly and flung her pillow at Y/N, hitting her on her arm.
"Alright, alright. Truce." Y/N placed the pillow back on the bed and waited with an entertained smirk on her lips for Emily as she mirrored her gesture and placed the pillow onto Y/Nâs one on the mattress.
"Anyway, before someone interrupted me, I was gonna say I am sorry for what you went through."
"Itâs in the past now. Iâm finally healing. Iâm finally moving on." Y/N admitted, a slight rosy pink tinting her cheeks, something that didnât go unnoticed from Emily but the poet decided to not ask anything about it, for now.
"I'm so happy to hear that."
"Yeah. Itâs not that easy, but I will be fine. Hopefully soon." Y/N admitted with a shy smile, a gesture that Emily mirrored as she nodded in understanding.
"Good, you deserve to be happy."
"Yeah, you too. Speaking of which, how about you?"
"What about me?"
"You two had a thing going on. It must be painful calling everything off."
"Itâs actually going good. I missed her a lot since we stopped our thing, but it got better in the end."
"Iâm glad to hear that." Y/N smiled widely at Emily and nodded, igniting a fire within Emily that she thought it was extinguished when her thing with Sue was over.
"I- hm." Emily trailed off to ponder her next words carefully, not completely sure she wanted to admit out loud and to Y/N what she wanted to say. After a few beats of silence she made up her mind and decided she wanted to be brave, she wanted to take a shot and discover if Y/N actually liked her more than a friend. "I met someone. I- she made me feel things I thought I only felt with and for Sue."
"Oh." Y/N cleared her throat, successfully getting rid of the jealous lump it formed in her throat at Emilyâs admission, but as hard as she tried no other words left her mouth.
"Yeah."
"How is- she?" Y/N stuttered, cursing herself for being so obvious about her jealousy, but it seemed Emily paid no mind to it.
"Perfect. Extremely funny, always so polite and sweet." Emily gushed uncontrollably, her eyes shining brightly with all the affection she felt for the other girl, "oh and she has a great mind too, full of ideas that fascinates me. We have a lot of hobbies in common. She is perfect."
"Wow, from what Iâve heard from your description she might be. Is she pretty?"
"No. She is beautiful."
"Already so smitten for her, hm?" Y/N teased with an arched eyebrow and a small grin to try to divert Emilyâs attention on her to prevent the poet to detect her jealousy.
"How could I not? She is perfect. I think- I never felt something so hard for someone. Not even Sue."
"Does-hm-." Y/N cleared her throat when her voice wavered a bit, "does she feel the same?"
"I donât know, but Iâm trying to figure it out." Emily admitted a little bit cryptically, noticing every little reaction coming from Y/N to at least detect any kind of sign from her and if her instinct was right, she was jealous, so she maybe felt the same.
"Have you told her?"
"No. Iâm a little bit insecure about it. She could feel the same but- what if she doesnât?"
"Yeah, I know what youâre feeling. I felt the same way with Molly. I spent a year beating myself up for not telling her. Maybe we could have worked out in some way or maybe definitely not. I spent a year living on âwhat ifsâ. But I have to be honest, now that Iâve moved on I think it was better that way. I donât think she was the one for me."
"So youâre saying I shouldnât tell her?" Emily smiled slightly at the girl rambling her thoughts out, finding all of that an extremely adorable sight witness and it became ten times cuter when Y/N blushed at her stare before shaking her head softly.
"No, what Iâm trying to say is-." Y/N trailed of to take a deep breath as she stared intently into Emilyâs brown eyes, "do whatever your heart craves. Iâve thought a lot about it and with a clear head I realized I was just deeply infatuated with Molly. I wasnât actually in love with her. If it was true love I wouldnât have moved on. So if you feel like she is the one, like you need to tell her because you truly want her, then do it. Donât think too much about it." Emily looked at Y/N like a lovesick puppy as she talked, flaring up the fire she felt burning for Y/N, so with a made up mind and without properly thinking, as soon as Y/N finished speaking Emily surged forward and planted a soft kiss on her lips, lingering only a few seconds before pulling away abruptly, fearing Y/Nâs reaction when she felt the girl completely frozen in her spot.
"I- shit- Iâm so sorry- hmph." Emily got stopped abruptly when a pair of soft lips unexpectedly pressed themselves hard on her own, making her head spin out of control with a plethora of emotions she only felt when she wrote her poems. Emily felt her brain completely shutting off as she completely dived into the blissful sensation of Y/Nâs mouth on hers. Their lips danced sensually over the rhythm their heartbeats set, their bodies burned from the passion the two girls shared but had to suppress for their own fears of losing the other if their feelings werenât reciprocated, their minds were a delicious mess as their senses were completely filled with the otherâs taste, perfume, essence. It was a perfect mix that both of them wished it could never end.
But Y/N had to reluctantly slow their kiss down and pull slightly away from Emily to take some needed breath as her lungs screamed for some air and she was pretty sure Emily felt if her heaving chest was anything to go by. "Do not apologize for that. Because it was so perfect."
"I was just panicking. I thought I read your signals wrong and I went too far."
"It was extremely impossible to read them wrong since Iâve been trying to not stare at your boobs for the past 20 minutes and Iâve been failing miserably." Emily snorted at Y/Nâs admission, feeling a sense of pride swell in her chest as well as a familiar burning sensation in her lower stomach lighting her whole body up at Y/Nâs admission.
"I think now is the right time to confess I chose this night gown on purpose." Y/N swallowed loudly when Emily winked seductively at her while puffing her chest up, giving Y/N the intoxicating view of her half exposed breasts.
"You like to torture me." Y/N murmured under her breath as her eyes never moved away from Emilyâs chest, watching it move up and down with every breath the poet took and feeling her insides melt each time a nipple came in sight through the see-through fabric of Emilyâs night gown.
"Why?"
"Because I canât touch them."
"Who said you canât?"
"Yo- wait, what?" Instead of answering verbally Emily smirked mischievously, grabbed Y/Nâs wrist and pulled her hand towards herself. Just when it was hovering inches from her covered chest, she lifted her right eyebrow and silently asked Y/N if it was okay for her and smiled widely when the girl instantly nodded enthusiastically. The Y/H/C girlâs grin dropped as soon as her hand came in contact with Emilyâs right breast and let out a small moan without noticing, making the poet groan at the unexpected attractive sound.
"Oh, Y/N." Emily whined and gripped Y/Nâs wrist a bit more strongly when the girl squeezed her breast tentatively, but just right to light up her whole body with need.
"Come here." Y/N snaked her other hand behind Emilyâs neck and pushed her harshly onto her lips to share a bruising kiss, reigniting the fire they set up a few moments prior. Y/N promptly swallowed another sound coming from Emily as she changed the angle of their kiss, full of passion but still chaste. But Emily needed more. She wanted to taste Y/Nâs mouth fully. Just when Emily was debating with her mind to try to find the courage to deepen the kiss, Y/N beat her to it as her tongue licked the seam of Emilyâs lips to ask for entrance. The poet granted it a few beats later with another small whine and her body got completely wrecked by a shiver running down her spine when their tongues met just as Y/Nâs thumb and pointer finger found her nipple and pinched it gently but firmly.
"Oh fuck." They let their desire take over for a few minutes, giving their tongues time to explore the otherâs mouth, licking every nook and cranny of each otherâs mouth and swallowing every small sound they could pull from the other. As they kissed fervently, Emilyâs other hand, until now placed meekly on her lap, sneaked into Y/Nâs hair, after freeing them from the bun she had on all day and pulled on the Y/E/C girlâs scalp each time Y/N found a new way to stimulate her nipple or when her tongue moved just right. Their small moment was abruptly interrupted when they heard Emilyâs family wishing each other a goodnight and they had to reluctantly pull away from each other, but not before sharing a few small, sweet pecks.
"I should go."
"No please, stay." Emily begged, leaning their foreheads together and sighing disapprovingly when Y/N removed her hand from her chest, only to smile widely when she grabbed Emilyâs hand and intertwined their fingers together.
"I canât. Your family is going to be upstairs any minute. We canât get caught."
"Youâre right." Emily sighed and nodded gently. Y/N had a point. "With Sue it was easier. My parents always let her sleep with me."
"Already talking about your ex with me Dickinson? Are you trying to make me jealous?" Y/N teased with a wide grin that widened when Emily blushed softly and pushed her gently on her shoulder.
"No, you jerk. I just wished it was that easier with you too. We wouldnât have to stop this." Emily murmured seductively before leaning slowly towards Y/N and capturing Y/Nâs lips in a slow but sensual kiss, making it last just a few seconds to tease Y/N and smirking widely when she accomplished her mission after hearing Y/N grunt in disapproval at her pulling away from the kiss and trying to follow her lips to kiss her again. "But you have a point. You sadly need to go. When do you have some time off tomorrow?"
"Around 11 a.m."
"Perfect, meet me here. I will tell my mom I need some help with my surprisingly ripped dress." Emily winked as she stressed the word âsurprisinglyâ and felt her heart swell at the sound of Y/Nâs cute giggle.
"Alright. Goodnight Emily. Sleep well." They shared another kiss full of passion before Y/N quickly slipped out of Emilyâs room, just a minute before Emilyâs parents walked up the stairs to go into their room, followed right after by Lavinia.
Both girls had some troubles falling asleep that night as adrenaline still pushed through their bodies still burning with their passion, but after about an hour both girls fell asleep with wide grins on their lips, excited for the next day.
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"Good morning my dear family!" Emily entered the living room with a brighter-than-the-sun smile, making the whole family stare at her weirdly.
"Should we get used to her being in a good mood every morning?" Edward asked his wife as both looked at Emily weirdly, eyebrows furrowed and confused expression on their faces.
"I like it." Lavinia interjected and giggled loudly when Emily run towards her and hugged tightly her over the chair. After a couple of seconds she walked to her chair and sat down, immediately stuffing her face with the delicious breakfast she had in front of her on the table.
"Hm, Maggie this breakfast is amazing!" Emily murmured with her mouth full of chocolate cake, rolling her eyes back in pure ecstasy as all the flavors hit her taste buds, completely ignoring her motherâs reprimand stare.
"Thank you Miss Dickinson, but I didnât make it. Y/N did."
"Oh really? Where did you take the recipe?" Emilyâs mother spoke up in disbelief as she too took a bite of her cake and widened her eyes comically at the tasty cake.
"Itâs actually mine. Itâs not that difficult to make. The secret is chocolate."
"Ugh, Y/N you need to teach me how to do this." Emily requested as casually as she could, this time waiting to swallow the cake and swiping the chocolate away from her mouth before talking, to not rise her familyâs suspicions of her asking Y/N to teach her how to make a cake since she always refused to help her mom in the kitchen. "Itâs delicious."
"Oh please Y/N if you succeed in making Emily do anything in the kitchen I will give you a week off." Emily turned her head towards her mother and stuck her tongue out, making her mother laugh at her in amusement.
"It would be a pleasure Miss Dickinson."
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"Miss Dickinson?" Emily asked in a mocking tone, trying to make her best impression of Y/N, on Y/Nâs lips after pulling away from the bruising kiss the two shared after Emily literally flung herself into Y/Nâs arms as soon as they entered her bedroom, slamming her on the door.
"I canât call you with your first name Emily, even if you asked me to."
"I know, but it was hilarious hearing you calling me by my last name. Itâs weird."
"No, weird is being in a room with your parents when all my brain could think of was how good it felt kissing you." Y/N admitted with her eyes glued on Emilyâs plump lips, biting down on her own bottom lip then to emphasize her appreciation of Emilyâs lips.
"Not as good as feeling your hands on me." Emily countered back, purposefully arching her back to flush their chests together but whining in frustration when their corsets and dresses prevented them to feel anything.
"Yeah, itâs pretty much a tie." Y/N joked and thanked the door behind her back holding her up when Emily giggled on her mouth and the cute sound made her almost faint. "You are so beautiful." Y/N spoke up without even noticing as she stared at the poet with a loving gaze, creating goosebumps all over Emilyâs skin.
"Not as much as you Y/N. Thatâs the first thing I thought that day at the well. Iâve always been fascinated by the beauty of the nature, but as soon as my eyes landed on you, it was like threes and flowers never existed. It was just you."
"Shit, do not say things like that." Y/N shook her head as she bit hard on her bottom lip while closing her eyes and leaning her forehead on Emilyâs one.
"Why?"
"Because it makes me want to kiss you."
"Then why are you not doing it?" It was all the validation Y/N needed. After opening her eyes for a brief moment to meet Emilyâs brown irises for confirmation, finding in them only affection and entertainment, she surged forward and captured Emilyâs lips in a slow kiss, full of passion. Y/N decided to keep the kiss as chaste as possible to savor the softness of Emilyâs lips, caressing her back with both hands to feel Emilyâs every curve she could despite the dress and corset in her way, but when Emilyâs fingers dug in the back of her neck to silently ask for more, Y/N whined softly into the kiss and immediately bit down gently on Emilyâs lips. Y/N shivered at the poetâs whispered whine but took advantage of that to slip her tongue into Emilyâs mouth and lick every angle she could reach. "Oh."
"Shit." Y/N murmured into the kiss when her mind finally stopped spinning from Emilyâs moan and shivered wildly when the poet took advantage of Y/Nâs dazed state to suck harshly on Y/Nâs tongue, pulling a whine from her throat. After a few moments Emily had to pull away to take some needed breath, not too far away, just enough so their noses could brush together gently. "That was so fucking hot. And fuck- that sound." Emily giggled at Y/Nâs murmured words, her eyes staring lovingly at the her and a dopey smile adorned her kiss-swollen lips, and she thought about how happy she felt in that moment.
"Ugh, I wish you could stay here all day." Emily admitted out loud after a few seconds of them basking in the comforting silence, the two girls just existing together, wrapped up in each otherâs arms, with their forehead leaned together and with their breaths mingling, sighing out sadly and leaning into Y/N touch when she caressed her back comfortingly.
"I know, but your mother and sister will be back with my aunt soon." Y/N sighed out sadly, caressing Emilyâs sides gently as she committed to mind every small detail she could.
"Yeah and Sue will be over in an hour. We still need to talk."
"She just wants her best friend back, Emily. Give her a chance to be a good friend. You two were friends before having what you two had."
"Youâre right. I want to talk to her too. I want my friend back, but I just- want to spend more time with you."
"You will, tonight." Y/N nodded encouragingly and smiled widely to hope to make Emily do the same and when she did a few seconds later her own grin widened ten sizes.
"Do not forget we have the house all for ourselves on Thursday."
"Already trying to get under my dress Dickinson?"
"Maybe." Emily winked with a mischievous grin, making Y/N laugh heartily before kissing her gently and slipping out of her room.
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Title: a wind that rose, though not a leaf
Relationships: Ben Clark/Taylor HernĂĄndez
Additional tags: Fluff, Flower Language
Prompt: June 2nd (Roses)
By: @sbgpairingsmonth
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The bouquet of roses he picked up on the way over rests in pink and purple plastic wrap, obnoxiously loud every time he adjusts his grip.
The plastic crackles in the quiet suburban afternoon, somehow louder against the buzzing in his ears. A breeze lifts the hem of his shirt, cool against the sweat on his back, while he wonders- again- if heâs made a mistake.
Itâs not that big of a deal, really, giving flowers to his new girlfriend. People do it all the time.
But Ben was nothing if not thorough- and heâd spent the last few hours researching flower language and everything it meant.
Nine red roses meant âeternal loveâ- and sure, it was a bit cringe, but Taylor was a hopeless romantic, and so was he. They werenât going to make fun of each other for something that made them both swoon.
They were wrapped in purple for admiration and pink for gratitude- and heâd even made sure the roses didnât have thorns. Apparently, that meant âlove at first sight,â or something equally ridiculous.
Heâs just about to knock when the door swings open- fast- and Taylor stumbles slightly, eyes wide like sheâd been mid-sprint inside the house.
âBen?â she says, breath catching like sheâs surprised, even though they agreed to meet at five.
Sheâs in a faded hoodie and bike shorts, hair half-pulled back, cheeks slightly flushed.
Sheâs adorable, his mind offers, and he pretends not to hear it.
Taylor was sunshine, energy, and chaos bottled into one person- the moon, the stars, and the truth- everything Ben was made of, everything Ben was made for.
Yeah. Sheâs fucking adorable.
Ben swallows. Hi, he signs.
He holds the flowers out with both hands, a little too fast. These are for you.
Taylor blinks down at them. And then she blinks at him.
âYou brought me flowers?â
Her voice lifts the way it does when sheâs not sure whether to laugh or cry- or maybe both. He canât tell which.
Yeah, he signs before rubbing the back of his neck. Is that okay?
She takes them like sheâs handling something precious, something sacred.
âAre these... do the colors mean something?â she asks, gesturing to the wrap. âBecause this-â she points at the purple, then the pink â-feels very intentional.â
Benâs ears go red. Maybe.
Taylor looks up at him and smiles- not her usual wide, effortless grin, but something softer. A smile heâs only seen once or twice, and never directed towards him.
âYouâre such a nerd.â
You like that about me. He smiles back, signing quickly.
âI do,â she says, quieter now, âa lot.â
She steps aside and motions him in with her elbow. âCome in! I think I have a vase somewhere under the sink.â
Ben exhales the breath he hadnât realized he was holding, and follows her inside. The door clicks shut behind him.
The Hernandez house smells like cinnamon and coconut shampoo- normal and warm. Heâs been here too many times to count, and the familiar scents calm his nerves.
He watches her set the roses down carefully on the counter, biting her lip as she unwraps them like theyâre something delicate.
Ben leans against the counter, arms crossed, watching her move.
âDid you know,â she says suddenly, pulling a glass vase from under the sink, âthat purple means âenchantmentâ?â
He nods. Admiration, too.
She glances back at him, eyes dancing. âAnd pink?â
Gratitude. Maybe a little sweetness.
Taylor turns to face him fully, holding the stems gently. âAnd the roses?â
He hesitates.
âŚEternal love.
She doesnât react at first- not outwardly- but then her expression shifts, just slightly. She steps toward him, the roses still in hand.
âYouâre dangerous,â she murmurs, resting her head on his shoulder.
Ben tilts his head, brow raised. Why?
âBecause itâs only been a month,â she says, âand I already want to keep you.â
Ben smiles, really smiles, and reaches for her hand.
Yeah. It was definitely a good idea to bring her roses.
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Because I could not stop for death AO3
Here is the link to the first chapter of my AgathaRio backstory fic on AO3 "Because I could not stop for death, she kindly stopped for me"
It's inspired by Emily Dickinson's poetry and will follow Agatha and Rio from their first meeting up until whenever I run out of motivation.
#agatha all along#tv: agatha all along#agatha harkness#agathario#agatha x rio#agathario backstory#agathario fanfiction#agatha all along fanfic#nicholas scratch#emily dickinson
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Counting the lines in the sky
Emily Dickinson x Male Reader
Request - If you write for the Dickinson TV show (starring Hailee Steinfeld) could I request one where r is Emilyâs brother who is a creative writer like her?
Emily wants to attend to a lecture but women aren't loud to attend. Then Emily gets an idea but Sue isn't sure about it.
âI don't think it will work. Why not ask, Y/n about it and he can tell youâ Sue said.
âNo! I want to be there and experience it. Not fair, that only men can go to the lectureâ Emily said.
âI know. But how are we going to get in?â Sue said.
âWe will dress like men,â Emily said.
âExcuse me?â Sue said.
âWe will dress like men and we will sneak insideâ Emily smiled.
âBut we don't own menâs clothes. No one woman has ever worn trousersâ Sue said.
âBut we will. And we can wear Y/nâs clothing. Now follow me!â Emily smiled.
Emily went to her brotherâs bedroom and opened his closet. She takes out a few pants and gives it to Sue. Now, Emily picked out the shirts
âNow, we put them on,â Emily said.
âI can't believe Iâm actually doing this,â Sue said.
Now, Emily and Sue start to get dressed. Emily looks in the mirror and she likes how the trousers feel. They leave the house and head to the lecture and Emily is feeling excited.
You are at the University, waiting for the lecture to start. While talking to some friends, you noticed Sue and Emily. At first, you thought your mind was playing a trick on you. The more you kept looking at them the more you knew it was your sister and Sue. You walk towards them fast and Emily pretends not to know you.
âEmily and Sue, what are you doing here?â You whispered.
âIâm not Emily,â Emily said.
âWho is Sue?â Sue said.
âOkay, enough. That mustache is fake and why are you wearing my clothesâ You said.
âFine, we are here for the lectureâ Emily whispered.
âBut it's for men only,â You said.
âSo!? Please, don't tell anyone. We just want to attend the lecture. As a writer, you should know thatâ Emily said.
âFine! If you two get into trouble I don't know who you areâ You said.
âFine,â Emily said.
âThis won't end well, I just know,â Sue said.
The girls followed you inside the lecture hall. You are hoping no one will recognize them. But Emily is feeling excited listening to a famous writer and Sue is enjoying the lecture also. But someone recognized Emily and she panicked. Sue and Emily started to run before the headmaster got to question them. But you quickly left the lecture and started to run.
âââ
You went to look for Emily in her bedroom, but she wasn't there. But on her desk, you saw her journal opened. You grab the journal and you start to read it. You keep reading it then Emily walks in and takes the book away.
âI was reading that!â You yelled.
âItâs mine and you shouldn't have read it, Y/n,â Emily said.
âWhy not? Is it because I write better than you?â You said.
She laughed but you didn't.
âIâm a better writer. Just because you are a man doesn't mean you are good at everythingâ Emily said.
âI never said I was better than you,â You said.
âJust don't read my stuff,â Emily said.
You stand up and before you leave you turn around.
âWhat Austin said about you he is wrong,â You said.
âThank you, Y/n,â Emily said.
You leave her bedroom and she hides her journal for now.
⯠⏠⯠âŹ
Emily took a break from writing and she sees you from the window. You are sitting by a tree and you are writing in your notebook. She went outside and she sat next to you.
âWhat are you writing?â Emily asked.
âJust writing stuff,â You said.
âSue told me what happened. Your headmaster doesn't know what he is talking about, you are a talented writerâ Emily said.
âI think he was jealous of me,â You said.
You and Emily laughed. You let her read your writing and you just wait for her to say something.
âWow, Y/n this is well written,â Emily said.
âI have written more than I started over because I didn't like what I wrote before,â You said.
âIâm glad you didn't stop writing when the headmaster said you were wrong,â Emily said.
âWe are stubborn writers, Emily,â You said.
âYes, we areâ Emily laughed.
She gave you back your notebook, and then you and Emily started to talk about writing and poetry.
âââ
Not often but you and Emily would write together. But you and your sister don't agree on many things.
âDo you think, people will read our writing from different countries?â Emily asked.
âThat would mean that we would be famous,â You said.
âYou could work on your spelling,â Emily said.
âI know how to spell. If I become famous don't be jealous, Emilyâ You said and winked.
âY/n, it will be the other way. I will be more famous than youâ Emily smiled.
You rolled your eyes at her. Later, you went to write in your notebook, and you got new inspiration. Emily couldn't stop daydreaming about being a famous writer as a woman.
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i want a slow burn where there isn't love or lust at first sight. one where both characters have a first meeting that doesn't have to leave them starry-eyed. no meet-cute. no butterflies, no blushing -- that will come later. they might not even like each other, yet. it doesn't matter. they meet again and again and those rough edges melt away. they joke, maybe. they share things: food, stories, a long look, a touch. they grow to truly know one another. something hollow begins to gnaw at each of them whenever they are apart, and then it grows, takes shape into something warmer, more sincere, with feathers; slowly, they learn to love one another. perhaps they dare to hope that the other loves them back. maybe they get together, and maybe they don't. but this is the love i crave: deep and enduring, forged gently and with time. just two people who find that, against all odds, they fit together.
#the slow burn i'm always searching for is this#real chemistry and real interaction without the pink stage background and everyone throwing them roses#just two people who meet and come to genuinely love one another#also thanks to emily dickinson for writing such lovely poetry which i played off of here#slow burn#ao3#writing#romance#romantic#fanfic writing#fanfic#fanfiction#demisexual#demiromantic#lgbtqia#asexual
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updated my masterlist
- added a section for DC because it was getting out of hand and clearly needed it's own space
-added a section for hailee steinfeld and hailee steinfeld only
#marvel#mcu#fanfiction#marvel masterlist#masterlist#dc fanfic#dc masterlist#hailee steinfeld#hailee steinfeld masterlist#emily dickinson#charlie watson#kate bishop#nadine franklin#fluff#marvel fluff#vi arcane#gwen stacy
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Vampride 2024

A violinist becomes hostage of a Lelio and Flaminia.
"Hope" is a thing with feathers.
Where did you get those eyes, mon cher?
Always on the margins.
To define is to limit.
Allons-y ChĂŠr(ie).
Full collection here.
#enbylestat#vampride#vampride 2024#valenfangs#fan fiction#fan fic#my writing#lestat de lioncourt#the vampire lestat#nicolas de lenfent#oc: audrey#claudia eparvier#madeleine eparvier#emily dickinson#josephine baker#carmilla karnstein#carmilla#dorian gray#the picture of dorian gray#bisexual#queer#lesbian#lgbtq+#vc fic#vc fanfic#iwtv fic#iwtv fanfiction#vampire chronicles#the vampire chronicles#amc iwtv
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chapter one - garnet






WIP - Hope Is A Thing With Feathers
After the death of his brother, Sirius tasks himself with going through his old books of poetry, lives in a library-hotel for two months, and uncovers a little bit about life, while heâs at it.
#Spotify#wolfstar fanfiction rec#wolfstar#remus loves sirius#sirius and remus#remus x sirius#remus lupin#sirius black#sirius orion black#regulus is dead#im sorry#current wip#work in progress#ao3#ao3 fanfic#harry potter#hp fanfic#hp#hp marauders#marauders era#james potter#poem#emily dickinson
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Quick survey for my Gilmore girls fans
Explain your reasoning in the tags
#I am conducting â¨research â¨#for a fanfic I started writing in a fever dream last night#gilmore girls#literati#rory gilmore#jess mariano#jess x rory#rory x jess#poll#emily dickinson
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Kaz reads to Inej
"Why?" you may ask, to which I shall answer, "Why not?"
Sharing a bed is a milestone they both fought for, and it only worked thanks to a precise organization - separate blankets, long sleeves, Inej with her back to the wall, Kaz with the easiest way out. And yet the struggle continues, some nights harder than others. Tonight they both sit - it's safer than lying down. Talk to me, she asks, and he rambles on for a moment about the latest addition to the Dregs, but he can feel it's not enough tonight, his words aren't enough. Without thinking, he reaches for a book on his nightstand - some forgotten poetry lying around the club that he had intended to throw away. Maybe if he can gently jolt her out of their usual script... He picks a random page and reads Good Morning, Midnight / I'm coming Home / Day got tired of Me / How could I, of Him? His voice feels strange, unused to the way words demand to dance on his tongue, but her breathing slows and her hand slides closer to his. He reads each stanza, growing more confident with each line.You are not so fair, Midnight / I chose Day / But please take a little Girl / He turned away! With a sigh, she lays her head on his shoulder and murmurs Again, please?. So he does - how could he not? He starts from the beginning and the rasp of his voice coupled with the softness of the words slowly lulls her to sleep.
#six of crows#soc#Kaz Brekker#inej ghafa#kanej#*cries in kanej*#soft kanej#they're trying their best#inej x kaz#inej my beloved#kaz is a soft boy#I think he could like poetry#or at least reading#he can have layers alright#anyway#emily dickinson#poetry#poem#headcanon#fanfic#ao3
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Does anyone remember the name of that one emisue ff where Emily is a rich ass mfr cuz of her family business, and Ella is, like, getting sold to people for a month, and Emily pays for her and blah blah blah. That's the only part I really remember but I fuckin loved that ff
I need this shit rn
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~~ Dickinson Fanfic Update ~~
The next chapter is of Accidents Happen is here!
Sue has been doing work on herself in hopes that this time around, she and Emily can make things work.
Emily is coming to terms with the fact that maybe she and Sue will get a second chance.
And Ben and Vinnie are there as very enthusiastic cheerleaders.
Will the stars finally align for Emily and Sue?

#wlw#f/f fanfic#ao3#fanfic#sapphic#dickinson apple tv#dickinson series#dickinson#emily dickinson#susan gilbert#emisue#star crossed lovers#fate and destiny#modern au#angst with a happy ending#mutual pining
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morn should beam and noon should burn
In the space distant from reality yet closest to the truth, Dan Heng was dreaming. At least he thought he was dreaming. With the sounds around him becoming distorted, it couldâve been blissful ignorance with the chance of liberation. For some reason, though, he knew this wasnât true. The walls melted away to reveal a void, and in it, gathered memory of nobody.
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In the furthest recesses of Dan Hengâs mind, a delirious tempest built. His consciousness was cracked open and the world tore loose from its moorings. Fingers of reality stretched with no grip to anchor them. The fog encroached around his skull like fingers reaching desperately for his eyes. He couldnât see anything but red and black.
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In the furthest, coldest corner of Dan Heng's mind were no thoughts. There were simply feelings and images and dreams. The only anchor to reality he had ever known was gone now, his brain frozen like a stone in earth that had been thawed by the sun. He couldn't move at all. His shaking fingers clenched tightly into fists in despair, trying to find any sort of sensation in the cell but all he could feel was the bitter chill fogging around him. The longer he hung there, the more hopeless it seemed that this would ever end, that he would never go home again. What was home, anyway?
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#manip#crackship#fanfic#fanart#joe cole#hailee steinfeld#actors#peaky blinders#emily dickinson#john shelby#gangs of london
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River Song Appreciation Week
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May 25-31, 2025 (and every year thereafter!)
River Song Appreciation Week is backâan annual celebration of our favorite time-travelling archaeologist, space-queen, and Luna U's infamous darling professor. After several past editions (most recently in 2023), this fan-favorite returns on May 25-31 and will now be an annual celebration hosted by @expectiations. Weâre bringing RSAW back to life with even more ways to celebrate!
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Day 1 | May 25: Favorite Scene(s)/Episode(s)
Day 2 | May 26: Favorite Quote
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Feeling stuck? Pick one quote that captures Riverâs essence and riff on it however you like:
⢠âFor time may be a river, but the mind is a tide. They say the river canât be turned, yet the tide can shift and slide.â â Nishant Prakash, Falling In & Out ⢠âMemory is a way of holding on to the things you love, the things you are, the things you never want to lose.â â The Wonder Years ⢠âLife is either a daring adventure or nothing at all.â â Helen Keller ⢠âForever is composed of nows.â â Emily Dickinson ⢠âThe thing with heat is, no matter how cold you are, no matter how much you need warmth, it always, eventually, becomes too much.â â Victoria Aveyard, Glass Sword ⢠âItâs very painful to start loving someone when holding on to the idea of hating them keeps you safe.â â Fern Brady, Strong Female Character ⢠âTime isnât the only thing that can surprise you.â
Use these as optional promptsâno pressure, just sparks for your imagination.
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Letâs light up the days leading up to May 31 with gifs, fanfic, art, and musings worthy of River Song herself. Time to show our space-queen how much she means to us once moreâgeronimo! đâ¨
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