#elise speaks

[elisebal]

I apologise for my absence. And for the reply that was half finished, I um went into labour. I'm currently recovering from the, admittedly, extremely painful and tiresome task of giving birth to my beautiful twins. The twins are perfectly healthy (and have one hell of a set of lungs each, our poor ears) we have a boy, Joran, and a girl, Alari. Miraak is already attached to Alari, I don't blame him but I hope he treats both of them fairly, without favouritism.

They're currently sleeping after having been cleaned and fed, I had a bit of an unexpected arrival when my oldest and closest friend Lleralyn showed up not long after I went into labour, I must have accidentally given them a message through our telepathy bond. I'm not upset by any means, I'm eternally grateful that they are here to help us. Their skills in restoration helped me a lot when it came to ensuring the babies are healthy and making sure there were no complications for me. They will likely be staying with us for, at the very least, a year to confirm for certain that I am still complication free. As eager as I am to show them the new areas of the manor and the new homes we've been building it'll have to wait until I can walk because at the moment I'm unable to stand up for long periods of time.

Overall, myself and the babies are healthy and happy, if a bit tired. My blog will likely go on a break as I continue to recover, thank you for your patience.

[unwantedtomost]

i think i’m going to try to write a joel miller series. there’s just something about him that is going to perfectly capture everything i need it to. pov me getting passionate about something for no reason

[0aemnia0]

lord forgive me but i actually like sonic 06

[elisebal]

My Durnehviir says the same thing, I feel awful about it because beyond summoning him into tamriel on occasion, I cannot do anything to help him. His connection to the soul cairn and ideal masters is far too great for even my magic to help him.

durnehviir moodboard? if you're still doing them

Durnehviir moodboard

[angst-and-other-things]

This is the one night a year Doug will spend with his wife and daughter willingly (well not really willingly, but hey Tammy wanted him there and now he gets to skip out on Christmas

[sonknuxadow]

do you ever see a post that's like "x character would HATE y character!!" and instantly know that they're only saying that because they themself like x character and hate y character. because whatever take they had could not be more wrong

[tecchous-thicc-buttocks]

someone remind me, is it canon that the terrorist sadists turned whores for good gossip about their little gremlins' war crimes while taking the munchkins for their nature walk???

[suitmana]

whenever i doodle leb i tend to give her slight eye bags, like she's quite the night owl despite how early she presumably has to wake up for her nun duties. whether that's because she has to stay up late to help with church matters, or just procrastinates sleeping because she feels like nighttime is one of the few moments she truly gets to herself, i imagine she just developed sleep issues from that in general

[trains-boy]

Not a fan of when people call Elise a victim of Mori because she's not. She's as much a part of him as he is her.

Elise quite literally is not forced to do anything she doesn't want to. Also, can she even want anything unless Mori has her want it? Can you exploit something made specifically for you to alter as you wish to fit your wants? Her bratty behavior is because Mori made her that way, not because she has any genuine disdain for things

People are worrying about a character who could not give a fuck even if she wanted to

[elisebal]

What do you think about being super old? Is there anything you dislike?

There are many things, but I'll name the main ones for simplicity.

There's more room for mistakes. I've mentioned before that I've made mistakes, I don't mean simple ones either like: losing my favourite dagger or cutting my hand while making something. I mean big mistakes, ones that cost innocent people their lives (and souls as the case may be). I'm not elaborating further as its extremely personal.

I've outlived so many of the friends I made throughout my long lifetime, unfortunately I'll likely outlive most, if not all, of the friends I have now as well.

I practically saw Nirn be created. I'll likely see it end too, that makes me sad whenever I think about it because Nirn is an immensely beautiful place if you know where to look.

It's very easy to put things off for potentially decades without realising it and then remember to do them when it's already too late. When you're immortal it's easy to lose years if you have nothing to do. This can be anything from simple tasks like: going to your favourite tavern to see the innkeeper for your favourite drink and arriving only to find out they died three decades ago. Or important tasks that once had meaning.

Despite all this, I do not fear losing my husband or children to old age. My husband has daedric corruption as deep as his soul and already survived thousands of years inside of apocrypha. I realise that this doesn't make him permanently immortal, but I hold onto the belief that he will stay that way.

While yes, time does flow differently within daedric realms if the prince chooses, Hermaeus chose for Miraak to be aware of the years he was there.

As for my babies, they are not yet born and while I do worry about the future, they are quarter daedric prince and, Akatosh willing, Dragonborn like my husband and I.

[elisebal]

I'll be honest here, your family actually sounds fun.

Is everyone in your family addressed by others with your surname?

In a formal setting or by people we are not close with? Yes. It is also incredibly convenient, given that it is monosyllabic.

It starts to be seriously funny once there are more of our family members at the same place, so everyone switches to using our titles, trying to figure out whether you call an Ambassador "Your Excellency" or "Your Embassiness".

Then there are people who refer to us as "Tharn the [insult]" and we guesstimate (usually correctly!) whom is being referred to by insult alone.

[dog-violet]

ok the scene at the end of beast with Mori and Atsushi blew my mind and I had a lot of thoughts but it got kinda long so I’ll be nice and put a read more

Mori’s character changes in beast are SO interesting to me and Elise being older in beast is a VERY significant detail regarding his growth imo. the only other time Elise changes is between Yosano’s time with Mori and after Mori loses her, where Elise went from emotionless and a bit older (a teenager, I think?), to a bratty child, somewhat reminiscent of Yosano as a child.

this line also reminded me of Yosano’s backstory and how Mori uses violence to force Yosano into using her ability so he can keep his undying army

essentially, when Mori had this mindset of using violence and fear to manipulate people (CHILDREN), losing Yosano made Elise change into a child that tries to defy him, the sort of relationship he had with Yosano, except Elise can never escape Mori. in beast, where he realizes that a child should never be treated that way, Elise changes in the complete opposite way, becoming an adult. Mori also doesn’t seem to patronize her like he did when she appeared as a child.

the other detail that really stuck out to me was how Mori was described as “the man who raised Dazai.” despite technically being his boss Mori really was like a father to Dazai considering their closeness, Dazai’s young age and lack of parents, and Mori saying Dazai reminded him of himself. Mori’s inability to save Dazai being what led to Mori taking in Atsushi feels a lot like a parent failing one child, realizing their own faults, and trying to do better for their other kid (not that that’s always how it goes…) which perhaps is the reason for Mori’s changed philosophies. Mori saying he’ll take Atsushi in as his son instead of his student is like Mori fully accepting his fatherhood role instead of… sort of half-assing it by trying to raise a child and a tool like with Dazai. raising children in an orphanage is maybe a better idea than doing it in a mafia organization, or so I’m learning

also because of all that, Atsushi being Mori’s son sort of makes Atsushi like Dazai’s little brother which I think is sweet

[elisedonut]

just had the concept of Percy going back in time to save Fred but not being able to with 100% certainty and having to try to run to save him or save someone else that he'd have a far higher chance of success with pop in my head

[trashcreatyre]

N e way I think they’re multilingual :P

[sageedwardsxo]

"I don't quite follow." Sage gave Elise a puzzled look. "I feel so left out on everything, please like dumb it down just a bit for me." She laughed. @elisevdw

[angst-and-other-things]

GET HIS ASS!!!

Elise beats the shit out of Doug p.2, Electric Boogaloo