#elis vent tag

[xelinielx]

I fucking hate the new tumblr thing showing if you’re mutuals or just following bc now I saw that one of my friends for over six years isn’t even following me back and to see that today out of all days when I’ve had a shit day isn’t making anything better

[sophiasharp]

The experience of a new hyperfixation being a band

Cons:

No overarching story or characters to chew on, just real people with real lives

Listening to songs over and over and over till I get every drop of dopamine out of them I can and being paranoid on when it’s gonna run dry

The urge to lie in bed listening to music and do absolutely fuck all else

The fact of them being real people makes embarrassment over hyperfixation go up by 200%

Trying to satiate the want for more content requires social media (don’t have shit other than tumblr and not about to get instagram just to follow some theater kids)

Even finding the scraps of social media reposts I can on what platforms I DO have makes me feel slimy, like I’m becoming the worst type of fan

Just the barest acknowledgment that any member is attractive awakens some latent puritanical instinct who shouts “EW YOU’RE ATTRACTED TO A REAL HUMAN PERSON? CRINGE” at me and it’s really annoying.

Despite being a band of basically fully grown theater kids (theater men?), they are all either heterosexual, spoken for, or both, and all interactions are so completely platonic that there is no reason to ship any of them.

Pros:

There. There’s no reason to ship. Any of them.

Oh my god. I don’t feel the urge to ship any of them.

It’s all platonic. Completely. Platonic.

I don’t have to worry about shipping wars. Or if one ship is considered problematic or not. I just simply don’t care.

I’m free.

I’m fucking FREE!

I’M GONNA COME UP WITH AN AU SO UTTERLY DIVORCED FROM THE SOURCE MATERIAL IT’LL BE LIKE CALLING 50 SHADES OF GREY A SPIN-OFF OF DRACULA!

AND I’M GONNA MAKE EVERYTHING RATED MATURE AT WORSE WITH ZERO ROMANCE INVOLVED! ALL FRIENDSHIP ALL THE TIME!

AND NOBODY CAN FUCKING STOP ME!!!

Oh yeah their harmonies are really good too. I mean have you heard their cover of Nothing Else Matters? Who let them do that? Cruel and unusual use of talent

[lur1d1llus1on]

This was sparked by an interaction I had on reddit but uh....

If you believe that pedophiles are victims get the fuck off of my blog, I won't entertain that thought for even a second.

[bleakbluejay]

i would really love to see more people like me in the media i consume, and i really would've loved to see people like me in the media that i consumed as a kid.

like. i'm lifelong disabled, i've always been disabled, i've only gotten worse. but when i see disabled kid characters, they have helicopter parents (like Stevie from Malcolm in the Middle). i didn't. i was largely neglected beyond my basic needs because i was a "good kid, just lazy". so i wasn't taught how to do basic things, and i was very socially stunted. i got my socialization through video games, books, and cartoons. and i'm forever weird because of it (not that it's the worst, i like having a unique personality for sure. but i'd like to see more weird poorly socialized kids, too, that aren't like... bullies or something -- and the fact poorly socialized or socially disabled characters are often coded as bullies or creeps of some kind could be a rant in itself).

when i see disabled characters in general, especially ones in wheelchairs like me, they're all skinny. i'm not. i'm fat. like very fat. muscular, sure, i could punch like a kangaroo i bet, but i'm 300+ lbs. because it's hard to exercise when your walking/standing are so limited. and it's hard to cook healthy food, too, leading to eating shit microwavable junk. but all the wheelchair-using characters i know, minus Franklin from Texas Chainsaw Massacre, are skinny. in general, there's too many skinny people in media, and we need more variation in body types and builds, but focusing on disabled characters for this one.

when i see amputee characters get a prosthetic, they have no issues. they don't ever deal with poorly fit prosthetics, or blisters, or pain. if they deal with anything at all, it's usually a sight gag (which could be done well, it IS funny when i get my fake foot caught under stuff sometimes, but it often isn't done well at all). they don't deal with any internalized ableism, and i think the only times i saw a disabled character deal with outright malicious ableism was Walt Jr. in Breaking Bad season 1 (who was genuinely an amazing disabled character imo, one of the best I've ever seen) and Patty in Dinner in America. I understand the argument that nobody wants to witness ableism... and self-hating disabled characters also suck... but I feel like we're being so dishonest when we write things to be perfect and always work out and there's never any problems, and it leads to non-disabled people not being aware of the problematic things they do or say or think. i remember as a disabled kid being really frustrated when shown disabled characters that were so well-off in terms of how other people treated them and how easy it was to "fix" their disabilities... it made me feel broken or wrong that I WAS so frustrated and confused and in pain and mistreated. It's why characters like Lt. Dan from Forrest Gump, and John Locke from LOST, and Bran Stark + Tyrion Lannister + Jaime Lannister from A Song of Ice and Fire/Game of Thrones meant so much to me and were so magnetic. (I could write a whole different rant about disabled rep in ASOIAF/GOT btw... I love you Davos Seaworth) ... Being disabled can suck. People can mistreat you. You sometimes have to be forced to adapt when you shouldn't have to. You have to, at times, confront that some of your dreams are impossible to achieve, or that you can no longer do something that you love, and learn to accept it (but there's often a lot of bitterness and rage before you get to the point of that acceptance).

What about how PTSD and depression are shown? See, I don't relate to the wilting flower brooding archetype that feels so common. If I spend all day in bed, it's usually more for pain than it is because of mental health. What about psychotics shown in a positive light? I'm not a threat to you because of my paranoia or hallucinations, and neither are my psychotic friends. What about OCD, shown in ways other than counting and germaphobia? What about autism, shown in ways other than robotic apaths? What about BPD, shown in a way other than abuse?

Let's move away from disabled characters into queer ones. Because I don't see a lot of queer characters like me, either. I am transmasc nonbinary, and I identify as a lesbian, and also on the ace spectrum (demi or grey, idk, shit's hard). Where are my fat dykes? Transmascs in general, but also transmascs that still enjoy makeup? I love makeup... I love the pageantry of it -- esp tradgoth or punk makeup or corpse paint. It's amazing how many transmasc nonbinary people I know in real life that engage with femininity compared to how nonexistent they are in any media. God forbid you have a character that takes testosterone but still calls themself a lesbian. God forbid you have a lesbian that leans more butch that ISN'T a sex-hound or a villain or a joke character. God forbid you have an ace character that isn't treated like a robot. Authentic queerness feels incredibly rare. I know it's because they're going for either sanitized queerness that is accessible for straight people, or for softcore porn also for straight people, but fuck, man. It sucks. The closest thing to representation I've ever seen in regards to my queerness was Al from Little Evil -- a masc person of indeterminate gender identity with a wife. And Al rocked. Even if that character was largely a comedic relief, their identity itself didn't feel like the joke, just a point of mild confusion for the main character. The next best representation I've seen was Aziraphale and Crowley from the Good Omens show, which are good and feel very authentic and real. Next best after that is probably the entire cast of the What We Do in the Shadows show... I know so many Laszlos and Nandors and Guillermos and Nadjas in real life, they feel like pretty authentic queer characters actually. None that I, in particular, relate to, other than maybe Guillermo at best, but it's nice to see my friends on TV, too.

I know that a character exactly like me is a bit too much to wish for. But I just want something. I like to feel seen. I like to feel present. I like to feel like people like me are worth having on TV and in movies and in video games. I would've really liked to see any of that as a really confused, lonely kid that was trapped inside because of my health and sentenced to read/watch/play hours and hours and hours and hours of media that did not contain any piece of me within them. It worsened my loneliness more than ever needed.

[who-needs-words]

Pro tip to Magnus protocol fans with early access: google what ‘vague’ means

Use a braincell.

AND DON’T POST A SCREENSHOT OF THE TRANSCRIPT????

[ashtraysystem]

you ever gain access to a memory that was previously locked away?

i gained access to a memory where a "friend" hit me over me beating him at some sort of video game, i think mario kart. i rationalized it at the time but like. that was fucked up. that was not playful. that was a genuine tantrum moment from what i can remember. it is incredibly hazy but its there. and like, it was highschool, we werent just children at that point.

and like bc most of that memory is kinda locked away i dont really feel anything about it other than "wow okay that happened i guess"

[elliot-rambles]

dice and al go away!!!!! (wrists, veins, and suicide mention) i hate everything i'm going to kill myself I swear to God i'm going to rip my brain out of my skull i'm going to slit my fucking wrists I hate it here I hate it here I hate it here I hate it here!!!!

[lightning-girl]

saw somebody just say that at the end of Agatha all along billy is going to become the young avengers stray cat. bruh that was TOMMY stfu I'm literally gonna start fights I swear I hate this timeline

[resu-rlbmut]

vent post incoming but. this has truly been one of the months of all time ever. definitely a month with events and happenings and things that took place. i feel. Overwhelmed and Bad. but tbh mostly just feeling tired

i missed a bunch of uni requirements and i probably flunked my exams because i couldn't get myself together enough to actually study!!!

(on the bright side it wasn't All of my exams. but sadly i definitely DID flop on the subjects i hate. and the reason why i hate them is because they're the most difficult and boring ones. fuck i hope i won't fail or anything because if i have to retake those courses i will SCREAM)

on a more personal note i finally realized the reason why i resonated so much with the am i a lesbian masterdoc despite being a cisgender man. (yeah yeah i have he/they pronouns on the bio so what. can't a guy also be a they slash them now??? mind your business!!!) because i'm like. 98% sure i'm gay??? ok even typing that was scary to me but also saying that i'm gay felt more truthful, more instinctively true than me saying that i'm bi, so. 100% sure i'm gay

anyway back on topic i really actually resonated with the document because as it turns out, the feelings i was feeling was comphet??? because whenever i imagined a future with myself and a woman it was usually for The Bit. like some sitcom where the premise was "isn't it funny that SHE'S the breadwinner and HE'S the homemaker? gender nonconformity is hillarious!" so yeah. turns out all the people making fun of me when i was a kid were all correct </3

i just really wanted to write this down somewhere, somewhere public, even if it's not gonna be associated with me irl because. idk. i'm hoping that someone comes across this and relates, maybe? just screaming into the void for validation... i would be writing this down on my priv twitter account but. honestly some of the people i knew in middle school that (jokingly?) shipped me with one of my guy friends (don't ask) still follow me there and i don't want them to realize how right they were. i refuse

speaking of like, old friends or whatever, i really do wish i kept in contact with more of them but. here's the thing, i already know about myself that i don't talk to people over the internet unless i see them irl. like i know internet friendships can be just as valid and emotionally fulfilling and whatnot but tbh if i don't see them irl i just forget to talk to them :( like that sounds shallow and i know it's a problem i've known for years i really have. i just. don't know how to solve it??? and now i don't really talk to anyone in my college batch because i'm too tired to even make the effort of socializing and now i HAVE no friends to talk to because talking to other people even on the internet (ESPECIALLY ON THE INTERNET WHERE I CAN'T SEE THEIR FACES) is scary and nerve-wracking anf HDJSDBSJDHSJGH. i hate this i hate this i hate this i feel horrible and guilty and lonely the time thinking about it (<- random but i would be so easy to induct in a cult)

[xelinielx]

this is my official request to the universe to stop. forcing. me. to. endure. SA. i cant anymore. stop it it's enough

[catinasink]

introduction teehee

most recent edit: 2/03/24

hi!

general questions

who am i?

i'm cat (dont capitalize, as in Cat) and tentatively eli or nico. i'm a minor, as well as in middle school (ages 11-14). i go by it/its (if you're calling me cat) or they/he (if you're calling me eli or nico) or no pronouns. i am transmasc agender, aroacespec (aroflux and aegosexual), and pan.

what do i post about/reblog about?

marauders

genshin impact

other random fandoms

dreamscape nexus (...)

life things! (vents, random events, etc)

things about my friends :D

classes outside school (ballroom dance, art, aikido, russian, math)

writing (i am a writer)

music (i post lyrics from music, is fun)

gay (i am gay)

my friends

family, pets, friends?

one older sister

two cats - kim and shego (or floorshitter)

irl friends:

pissboy (my husband. he/they) (pissboy origin story)

lee (my wife. not a permanent nickname. she/her)

preppy (my wife, not a permanent nickname, she/her)

miss eighth* grader (she/they, talks abt sui a lot)

ashes (she/her, my bbg)

may mention some other ppl as well lol

can you tag me, ask me questions, tag me in chain asks or tag games?

sure, i might not participate in tag games or chain asks tho :>

timezone?

PST, inside a sink

dni?

if over 25, bigots in general, the usual

what can you call me?

no: bro, guy, gal, sis, girl, man, boy, dude, etc. (gendered terms in general)

yes: pet names (sarcastically and/or platonically, ofc) such as sweetheart, honey, bbg (please dont fully type out babygirl); lil guy is fine

i might call myself a girl or a boy, dont take this as permission please x

--

*used to be miss seventh grader

other info

i would appreciate tone tags if you feel you are speaking too vaguely, but otherwise it's fine

am either a slytherin or ravenclaw. slytherin most-likely

am INTP-T

scorpio sun, sagittarius moon, scorpio rising (i think)

pandora sun, lily moon, regulus rising

i speak english and russian, am learning german and hebrew (long story)

one sideblog, @catinasink-writes, this is only for my fanfiction

i also have another sideblog. kudos to you if you find it

I might ask you to explain a sentence or a phrase for me, it's bc words tend to not be understandable for me sometimes

i. might be neurodivergent

please alert me if you're going to leave, it scares me sometimes

am matching banners with @shrimpysstuff!! go check her out, her blog is wonderful :3

tags!

ramblies, vents, anything thats not a reblog and doesnt fall into another category: #cat's rambles

posts mentioning my cat, or with my cat: #cat's cat

writing (in general): #cat's writing

writing (actually writing: #poetry maybe

my art: #cat's art

my asks: #cat's asks

posts made during school (tend to be queued): #cat's schoolposting

music-related posts: #cat's lyricposting

my own music: #cat's lyrics

my beloved friend @this-is-me-lolol: #basil my beloved &lt;3

pissboy, my friend: #my lovely pissboy

my friend @o-kye: #tumblr user o-kye

cali cult: #calicos

sink lore: #happenings of the sink

blender anon: #cat's blender anon

dear anon (dreamscape nexus thing): #cat's dear anon

dreamscape nexus (...): #Dreamscape Nexus

ao3 details

my account (catinasink)

i've got a good feeling that we could be something

rated T

the Selection but rosestarkillerchaser

features the Blacks as the Schreaves

the Order as the rebellion

rosestarkillerchaser, emmarlily, wolfstar

unfinished, 8/30 (estimate)

watching pixar on a school night

rated T

a texting fic for the marauders 5th year and skittles 4th year

modern au w magic

rosestarkillerchaser, emmarpanlily/sunkeeperflowerseer, wolfstar

background benjy/peter + nobleflower + frank

slowburn

unfinished, 25/?

they're so pretty it hurts (i'm not talking about boys, i'm talking about girls)

rated T

oneshot about marlene

in the universe of wpoasn

features slavic marlene!! bc that is my love >>

also ace marlene!

2.7k words

finished, 1/1

dear angel lacy, eyes white as daisies

rated T

in the universe of wpoasn

noblesea (molly and alice) focused

has noblesea, nobleflower, and fralice (polyam alice)

slowburn

unfinished, 2/8 (estimate)

fic summaries (definitely accurate)

tumblr writing masterlist (chronological order, first most recent)

song-resembling thing (aka big mistake) (with voice ;-;)

maybe one day

to old friend once again

jolly ranchers

to v

my love

piano

fuck periods

more vent (green)

to my old friend (again)

to my old friend

more poetry/rambling/vent whatever :>

more poetry

poem thing that blender anon said i should share

have a nice day!

[who-needs-words]

You know I still don’t get ship wars. Just. Ship and let ship. It’s that simple.

[rose022]

hi~ im rose! (among other names lol, ask for them or find them) welcome to my intro!

- dont feel bad about blocking or unfollowing me, just wanna say this. i may make posts abt being confused when i see people leave but curate ur own experience idc be happy

- you can call me whatever you want idc, just lemme know. like genuinely any nickname. i do have others tbh but ehh

- yeah yeah im an adult so dont block me if i like ur post and u say mdni ight? also for any minors if that makes u uncomfortable u can leave. i dont tend to post anything nsfw here, just sometimes suggestive stuff and both nsfw and suggestive are tagged just like that

- pronouns are whatever is funniest in the moment. or just use your own. neos are ok

- asks and dms always open for anything. i won't really reach out first but i promise you can always talk to me about anything. if you don't have anyone else or just want to talk about a particular thing or want to vent, etc. like genuinely pretty please talk to me about your interests i will gladly listen!!! <3

- also you can always tag me in anything!! i love tag games (i may take a bit) and if theres anything you think id like or reminds you of me id love to see it!!

- don't really have a dni but like i will block you if you're a bigot. im a fag and autistic if you don't like that go away idc. also if you are pro cop or military stuff fuck off

- if we're mutuals please tag stuff with cw rose for anything with touya or akito being shipped with anyone else or TBHK nene and tsukasa as a ship, self harm images, stuff about spiders (or any bugs kinda) mostly pictures of them or them on someone (bees moths and butterflies exempt), needles if theyre detailed not cartoony, real life gore of animals or humans (not sfx or art just real stuff), sa, stiff about veins, and please use tone tags but mostly just for joking or sarcasm as i tend to assume everything is serious.

- MUTUALS PLEASE TELL ME STUFF TO TAG FOR YOU!!! i do my best to read carrds and intros and stuff but i might forget please remind me please. gore and sexual stuff will get tagged as gore and nsfw but it's mostly explicit stuff. things are tagged as what it is, not with cw or tw.

- !!current things i tag are homestuck, eye strain, saiouma, bsd, religion (marlo dont look), elie shoo (csm saiouma gore), suggestive (anything relating to anything nsfw like jokes or anything else), adrien no look (alcohol, crickets, girl interrupted, hospital innuendos clowns, child death, natural disasters)

- tags

#rose rambles - my posts

#rose tagged ramblings - i made a separate one for when i talk a lot in tags

#rose art - quite simply rose's art

#rose ocs - the sillies from my brain

#ask rose! - asks

#rose pics - look i don't get creative with naming these i think you can tell

#rose cosplay - ^^^ yeah

#helpful - things that could be helpful to anyone

#save - similar to above but more so personal things

#important - maybe not technically helpful but i think people should see

#favs - self explanatory, i believe

#sillies - similar to above but not really

#luv - mutual appreciation mostly

#heart! - things made by mutuals!

#liebe - things made for me!

#mecore - woah thats so me frfr

#rose writing - idk man take a guess

#für das rose - submissions aka post limit

favfavs - fav art or fandom things

(i wanna like fix all my posts to have tags but i reblog so much and itll take me a million years to get back to the start of my account atp. maybe one day.)

- commission info

art:

writing: $2 per 100 words (?)

i also take requests for these!! or other stuff but like it will almost definitely take me a bajillion years to finish so if you wanna make sure i do something, gimme money. but u dont gotta its ok ily anyways

i have a k-fi rose226 and dm for p-ypal

- sideblogs

@nightcord-luka-official

@luka-spotted most active

@daily-akiyama-mizuki hiatus!

@daily-asahina-mafuyu hiatus!

@kokomi-sangonomiya-official

@mafuyu-asahina-official

@wansho-luka-official

@junior-high-enanan-official

@fischl-official

@rosemusictime lol no followers

@oz-the-bird-official (to translate my Fischl)

@ako-udagawa-official this and above in progress

@daily-purple-character send reqs

@rose-poll-account

@aoi-shirosaki-official pjsk oc rp blog

@hikari-itsuki-official ^

@yuki-jigoku-official ^

@kei-makura-official ^

@roseswonderland things i make

@yuki-spotted

@niigo-va-updates

(i may remove u as a follower depending on if i trust you enough for these next few but if we're mutuals ur pretty much safe)

@moonlit-thoughts22 vent

@selfless-lvr selfship/kin

@softrosebud agere

@shhh-its-rose moots only ig.

@eros-engel who needs secrecy anymore. fuck it. nsfw blog.

(guys i think I have too many sideblogs help)

im not active on many other social media but if we're mutuals you can ask for like anything and ill probably have an account. somehow im most active here tho (and in one discord server but u guys cant join)

[t1r3d-gh0st]

Ask game!! Kin ask game!!

Hi~! I'm Wren!!

He/ask

Some fandoms I’m in are

Bungō Stray Dogs

Vocaloid + Project SEKAI (Vocaloid is my spintrest so expect to see a lot of that!!)

Kagerou Project

Persona

OMORI

Kinlist: (In no particular order, but know that my highest kin is Q :3)

Kyūsaku Yumeno (BSD)

VFlower (Vocaloid)

Rui Kamishiro (PJSK)

Kel (OMORI)

I'm also Angelkin + Ghostkin. If you have any questions related to my alterhumanity, feel free to ask!!

Uh no DNI since they don't rlly work but know I'm pro-contradictory labels and pro-endo!!

BYF: I am autistic and might be blunt and/or rude, so I apologize. I am also a minor, so I'd prefer if no adults interacted (Unless I interact first). I am also still in the process of completely unmasking, so I might pick up on your personality and kinda steal it.(? Idk how to word it) I also am very clingy, so keep that in mind too lol (trauma woo!! /sarc)

Tag Directory

#eli.txt <- all my posts, used to be #eli's posting

#eli's asks <- my asks

#eli's art <- art

#tw vent <- any of my vent posts. Please don't interact with those unless I say you can.

I'll will try to tag any potential triggers, if I miss smth, feel free to tell me :]

Userboxes + other info under the cut!!

[elliot-rambles]

❝𝕴 𝖆𝖎𝖓'𝖙 𝖊𝖛𝖊𝖗 𝖍𝖆𝖉 𝖆 𝖉𝖔𝖚𝖇𝖙 𝖎𝖓𝖘𝖎𝖉𝖊 𝖒𝖊, 𝖆𝖓𝖉 𝖎𝖋 𝕴 𝖙𝖔𝖑𝖉 𝖞𝖔𝖚 𝖙𝖍𝖆𝖙 𝕴 𝖉𝖎𝖉, 𝕴'𝖒 𝖋*𝖈𝖐𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖑𝖞𝖎𝖓𝖌.❞

Hi! I'm Eli, your local alterhuman! This blog is for all sorts - heartstopper fans, umbrella academy fans, therians, alterhumans. Whoever you are, surely you'll have a place here <3 about out MaDD (maladaptive daydreaming disorder) || tag list! requests: open! rules are here! :3 PFP CREDITS GO TO @wild-forest-critter! I DID NOT MAKE IT!

DNI: - basic DNI (racists, homophobes, transphobes, etc. - anti therians (why are you even here in the first place?) - PROSHIPPERS!!!!! - Z00PHIL3S!!! GET OUT OF HERE!!!!! I DON'T LIKE YOU!!!! - anti-recovery/anti-cluster a, b, c - anti-oxford comma (this is so random but I'm very passionate about it) - gore, smut, pro-conact big 3 paraphilias/any gross philias - proana/ed/sh blogs. this is very distressing as most members of our system (such as nico, raul, luther, and xip) struggled with things like this in the past. do not interact with me. do not interact with my blog. I check every blog I see pop up in my activity feed. if I see you, you will be blocked. - anybody mean in general (you will be blocked if I don't like you!)

Basic stuff: - Pronouns: they/xem/he (check my pronoun page here for more details) - Gender: Genderfaun and non-binary - Other identities: monsterkin (unspecified as of yet), therian (timber wolf, Pallas Cat, unspecified bird theriotype), alterhuman - I am a petre/agere - I don't feel comfortable saying my age but little age can vary from 3-6, petre to a puppy - I am disabled (crutch user and wheelchair user), I have spherocytosis, POTS, and a spinal issue. We are also recovering from an appendix removal surgery after our appendix ruptured.

system info for y'all! :D : - we are the catch and throw system! we are a mixed origin median system, and I (Eli) am the front-stuck host, with Xip often co-fronting too! signoffs are as follows ^^ eli (host) - 🫶🪐🍄 (he/kir/xe/claw) xip (co-host) - 👻👾💋 (they/he/bro) raul - 🏳️‍⚧️🎨🎧 (he/they) luther - 🌕🌎💫 (he/him) maria - 🌈🌊🌫️ (she/her) jax - 🌙🕸️🪼 (they/aer) lulu - 🌷🐾🍨 (she/he) nico - 🌧️💀🖤 (he/they/cat/shad) kaecha - 🩷👘🌺 (she/her) danny - 🥇🥋🎒 (he/xe) johnny - 🎆🎒🔥 (he/him) pony - 🐎🧡☀️ (he/they) misha - 👾🌈🍪 (it/its) onyx - 🪸👺👀 (hyt/hyts) five - ⌚👀☕ (he/it) side blogs: @king-of-the-dead (Nico)

newer reblogs will be under #eli rebarks, agere/petre stuff will be under #eli feels small, therian stuff will be under #eli's gone wild, answers to asks/requests will be under #eli's answers, basic text posts/fandom stuff will be under #eli feels chatty, system things will be under #catch and throw chronicles, caregiver stuff will be under #papa eli, and vents will be under #eli's darkest hours!! :0

❝𝐌𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫, 𝐭𝐞𝐥𝐥 𝐦𝐞 𝐬𝐨 𝐈 𝐬𝐚𝐲❞ Ever growing hoard of userboxes (all creds go to the creators! [@/kthecritter, @/genicpunk, @/ghosting-plural-userboxes, and @/hazelnut-hearts])

[ajisaikei]

introduction ꕤ hyde

doing my best to live my life my way. my tag "ajisaikei" comes from my favourite flower, the hydrangea, mixed with "jirai kei".

about me

above 18

any pronouns - he/him preferred, but others are ok!

EN/CN/JP/FR ok!

if you want to mute my vent posts, please mute the ajisaikei.txt tag

some notes:

minors - please don't take this personally, but I will not follow you back. I am a bit older and want to avoid making you uncomfortable!

I won't talk very much about menhera or other jirai lifestyle things - they are still real for me even if I don't always talk about them. that being said, there will still be an occasional vent post.

will mostly be posting little moments from my life, with maybe a vlog every now and then

interests

anime / manga

zoology

j-fashion

sanrio

j-rock / j-pop / j-idols

oshikatsu

vocaloid

favourite media

genshin impact

promised neverland

kill la kill

dungeon meshi

promare

black butler / kuroshitsuji

love live

uta no prince sama

takane no nadeshiko

asukano / tomorrow I'll be someone's girlfriend

favourite characters

kaeya alberich (genshin)

yip gaming (genshin)

ciel phantomhive (kuro)

sebastian michaelis (kuro)

takahashi yua (asukano)

ayase eli (love live)

tsushima yoshiko (love live)

idol oshi

mint fantome (indie vtuber)

haruno riri (takaneko)

momiyama himeri (takaneko)

hashimoto momoko (takaneko)

haibara heidi (merkmal mermal)

phoebe chan (kaigai idol)

kashii katy (haze)

kageyama shien (holostars)

tokoyami towa (hololive)

DMs open!