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Plainte d’Adèle Haenel : cinq ans requis contre Christophe Ruggia, pour « remettre le monde à l’endroit »

by Sophie Boutboul - Mediapart, December 10, 2024

Photo from France Dernières Nouvelles,France Actualités

[NB: My translation of the coverage of the first day of the trial can be found here.]

On the second day of the director's trial, the prosecutor called for him to be sentenced to five years' imprisonment, including two years for sexual assault of a minor, so that justice can be a tool in the «fight against silence» when confronting sexual violence against children.

«Shut the hell up!» Tense and exhausted, Adèle Haenel finally exploded with anger in the courtroom on Tuesday December 10, the second day of director Christophe Ruggia's trial. Since Monday, the director has been on trial for sexual assault of a minor, committed between 2001 and 2004, with the aggravating circumstance of having been a person in authority over her. Adèle Haenel was between 12 and 14 years old.

In the middle of the proceedings, the actress rose and briefly left the courtroom of the Paris Criminal Court, followed by her lawyers. The woman who had chosen to withdraw from the cinema could not bear to listen to the man against whom she had brought suit as he rambled in his defense. At the stand, the director said he had suggested that Adèle Haenel change her last name «to protect her», saying «Adèle H reminded me of Truffaut.» Adèle H is the title of a film by Truffaut, released in 1975. A film about a woman consumed by a passionate love affair.

Shortly prior to this, Adèle Haenel had explained at the stand: «Who was there to tell this child: “It's not your fault”? Everyone says I should feel sorry for Mr. Ruggia’s plight, but there are consequences for sexually abusing children.»

At the end of a nine-hour hearing, prosecutor Camille Poch called for five years' imprisonment, including three years’ probation and a restraining order on contacting the actress, as well as an obligation to compensate her. She specified that the two years' imprisonment could be convertible to house arrest under electronic surveillance.

She also requested a ten-year ban on working with minors, registration with the Fichier judiciaire automatisé des auteurs d'infractions sexuelles (FIJAIS) [Automated criminal record of sex offenders] and a provisional sentence.

Two witnesses on the stand

The day began with the testimony of two witnesses: director Mona Achache, who was in a relationship with Christophe Ruggia for a year around 2010-2011, and his sister Véronique Ruggia.

The former gave precise, detailed testimony. As she had already done during the investigation, the filmmaker told the court about Ruggia's confidences during their relationship: once, Adèle Haenel was said to have had «her head»on his lap and his hand had «moved up to her breasts». He then told her that he’d withdrawn his hand when Adèle looked at him with «fright». «I think it's a laudable little confession that conceals a much more disturbing truth», said Achache. A testimony that Ruggia disputes.

The director claims that in 2019, when the accusations against Ruggia were revealed in Mediapart, her own daughter told her that he «was very controlling, with a rather heavy-handed way» with her, when she was 11 years old and they were all living under the same roof.

Mona Achache also stated that while «he talked a lot about her talent as an actress, he was also fascinated by her body». In her own relationship with him, she spoke of «a superior attitude», the fact that he had «a kind of hold» over her as a director who was «more powerful» than she was at the time.

Asked by Anouck Michelin, Adèle Haenel's lawyer along with Yann Le Bras, what had attracted Ruggia to her, she replied: «Obviously my youth [Ed. note: she is twenty-six years younger than he is], an inner fracture, my vulnerability. And a kind of intelligence, to say something positive.» She explained that when she became aware of the situation Christophe Ruggia was describing to her with a child, she «kicked him out» after being confronted with the disaster of a new «abuse» in her life.

Véronique Ruggia was also heard as a witness. The director's sister was Adèle Haenel’s coach on Les Diables, a feature film in which she was also first assistant director. Several years after the shoot, the actress allegedly told her that he had «tried to grope her», but also that he had «declared his love for her and tried to kiss her». She told the court that Adèle Haenel had said: «It's horrible, he's old», it's «disgusting».

Véronique Ruggia explained that she was «shattered» when she heard this statement. She recounted how she confronted her brother a few years later, and that he had «burst into tears». According to her, he told her: «I've lost Adèle», and told her about an «unfortunate action while he was crying» and a scenario about which she would have been «offended».

The defendant's sister confided her uneasiness: «I see Christophe's downfall, banished from his profession, from Paris, and he blames me for having supported Adèle on the feminist principle of saying that if there are acts of control or power imbalance, we must denounce them.»

Anouck Michelin's closing arguments

Prior to the closing arguments, in a vast courtroom still packed with Adèle Haenel's family and friends and film personalities such as actresses Aïssa Maïga and Noémie Merlant who had come to support her, Anouck Michelin began her statement.

«It's often said that speech is silver while silence is gold. In this chamber, silence is rarely golden; rather, it's more like death. [...] To unburden this word, you have to face up to the shame you feel for not having said something sooner», began Ms. Michelin, already bringing tears to her client's face.

She targets the man «who rewrites history» in the 119 pages of his account «Adèle Killed Me», found in his computer and written after our investigation was published in 2019: «M. Ruggia tells us that it's the child who is completely to blame, that she's too sensual, too wild, too dangerous for his sofa.»

Adèle Haenel's lawyer stressed that, while she would only remember «filth» about the director, she described Adèle Haenel as a rough diamond whom Ruggia would have made a «puppet». «The problem is, a diamond is tough, it’s strong», she said, eliciting a smile from Adèle Haenel, her face closed until then.

The lawyer extended the diamond metaphor to talk about a gemological term for the crack in a diamond called a flaw: «This is what you will always be, Mr. Ruggia, a flaw in a rough diamond.»

Anouck Michelin's last words are not for the director or the actress, but for «little Adele»: «You need to listen to me, you're 12 years old, it wasn't up to you to say no, to not get on the sofa... None of this is your fault [...]. I know you were alone, but you're not anymore, and you know, Adèle, when you grow up, you'll be a great actress, and it’ll all be thanks to yourself and your talent. Tonight, Adèle, go home proud because you were able to protect yourself, to free yourself from his stranglehold, his influence; tonight, free yourself for good.»

Her colleague Yann Le Bras followed up with an argument for his client, who «brings the humility of her memory to say: “I'm only denouncing what I'm absolutely sure of”».

He also spoke of a director who introduced a «permissive campaign» with regard to his actress: «He's neither the first nor unfortunately the last.» Mr. Le Bras enumerated at least 120 Saturdays over three and a half years, excluding holidays. At a rate of three or four hours per encounter, he arrives at «450 hours» in which «this man and this young child were behind closed doors»: «Fingers, Orangina and wandering hands on the breasts, on the stomach, in the panties of a little girl.»

«The only #MeToo that doesn't have a #MeToo»

For Ruggia's defense, led by lawyers Fanny Colin and Orly Rezlan, the Mediapart articles have been the target of numerous comments since they are, in their words, «a complementary indictment against Christophe Ruggia»

Colin said she understood the «anger and suffering» but that «history» had been «rewritten», since «all the witnesses either took part in [Mediapart's] investigation, or read it». She spoke of a «contamination effect» among the witnesses.

To justify Christophe Ruggia's words about his love for Adèle Haenel, she talks about his «focus» in his letters, which she says are not love letters, but those «from an admirer to the actress», as he concludes one with: «I miss your friendship terribly.»

She insisted that in her expertise, there was no «abnormal attraction of the pedophilic kind». And that his association on pornographic sites with the words «nice teen», «college teen with his professor», would be «pop-ups» (windows that are opened on the web page): as the police concluded, there was «no [history of] pedophilic searches», she said.

She also pointed out that her client would be «the only #MeToo that doesn't have a #MeToo» compared to the accusations against others that «are accruing». Since 2019, she assured that «not a single person has come forward to say that Mr. Ruggia has so much as looked the wrong way at a child or a young girl».

Colin's fear: «That the judiciary will have to dispense justice with a gun to its head.» «By virtue of the principle that the accused must have the benefit of the doubt», she asked the court to acquit, as this principle was in her opinion «not a patriarchal principle designed to protect aggressors, but to protect the innocent».

Five years to «set the world straight»

For her part, prosecutor Camille Poch made a specific indictment for a conviction, to «set the world straight, to remind us of the forbidden, and who was the child, who was the adult».

She pointed out that Adèle Haenel had always been «clear and consistent» in her statements, whether in the Mediapart article or before the police, the examining magistrate or during confrontation. «Adèle Haenel told us the story of a gradual influence, but just because the hold is subtle and insidious doesn't mean it's any less serious», asserted the prosecutor.

With the actress facing her, the representative of the public prosecutor's office spoke of the «collective abdication of adults, Adèle Haenel's terrible isolation during the time of the events, when Christophe Ruggia became and remained the only adult in her life».

She listed the many witnesses and confidants, including her first boyfriend, then her ex-girlfriend, the director Céline Sciamma, her own brother, and Mona Achache, who was interviewed that very morning. She also recalled the «feeling of unease» described by Christel Baras, the casting director for the film Les Diables, when she ran into Adèle Haenel on two occasions at the director's home.

The prosecutor also described Ruggia's «modus operandi»: «their respective positions, the changes of location, the attitudes, the panting, the hand in the collar of the T-shirt, on the chest». She recalled the «trigger» for the actress to speak out: fearing for new victims with the launch of [Ruggia’s] project in 2019 involving teenagers.

Camille Poch also pointed out that the acts denounced «will stop only through the efforts» of the actress. She underlined the use of a «lexical field of love» that leaves little doubt: «My heart exploded once again in my chest», «Let her know that I loved her».

In asking the court to enter a guilty verdict, the prosecutor also relied on computer expertise, which she said confirms Christophe Ruggia's «sexualized view» of Adèle Haenel, notably through his Google search for «adele haenel hot», dating from 2011, and his words in one of his texts - «Adèle at 12 years was overflowing with sensuality».

Sexual violence, an «inoculated death»

Sexual violence, said the prosecutor, quoting Gisèle Halimi, is like «an inoculated death», which is reflected here in the «massive psychological repercussions» for Adèle Haenel: the «disruption of the construction of identity markers, a depressive episode after the fact, her desire to die, everything that makes up post-traumatic syndrome».

The representative of the public prosecutor's office criticized Ruggia's «improbable line of defense», which tends to emphasize «revenge on the actress’ part». She also highlighted Ruggia's «inability» to recognize the «inappropriate nature of these encounters between an adult man and a pre-teen girl twenty-four years his junior».

«Regarding the absence of consent, coercion is characterized», asserted the prosecutor, by Adèle Haenel's age, the age difference [between them], the total absence of acknowledgement of Adèle Haenel's sexuality, the director's hierarchical advantage and the «obvious domination» in relation to an actress, the occurrence of psychological manipulation, the description of her state of «stupefaction» and her attitude of physical refusal.

In asking the court to convict him, she drew on the actress' «particular vulnerability» in facing an adult who «doesn't acknowledge the facts»: «Sentencing means putting guilt back in the right place.» Camille Poch was also keen to respond to Adèle Haenel's phrase - «Justice ignores us, we ignore justice» - to send a message to her and all other victims seeking this conviction: “Justice must also be the tool of this other enemy which is silence, justice must be there to condemn the act, it must remain as leverage for all those who have no one else.»

[Please don’t repost this anywhere, in part or in whole. Feel free to reblog, or at least cite your source and provide a link back here. Asking permission would be nice in an ideal world, but I’m a realist – I know far too well how easy it is to appropriate stuff on Tumblr. I would be the first to admit that my translations are not perfect – there are some words and phrases that simply do not drop neatly into an equivalent in English, and I constantly fix typos and make changes or corrections in older posts – but they do take a lot of work and time. Thanks for understanding. - C.]

h/t to @thexfridax for the article! Thank you, Ros!

#Adèle Haenel #Mediapart #December 2024 #my translation

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arctichotch · 3 years ago

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why do you support amber?? genuine question no hate at all, I wasn’t keeping up with the case at all

tbh at first i actually supported johnny. simply because all i knew about the case was the whole shit in the bed stuff and thought damn, that was weird. and i knew him more than amber so my gut reaction i suppose was to believe him.

then i started getting spammed with shit like "he haw johnny depp being funny in court" on tiktok and decided to have looksee at the actual trial happening. at this point i didn't have a clue that there had even been a uk trial. i had never heard of amber's op-ed. didn't know about any of the depp/waldman statements. didn't have a bulls notion as to what was happening. but i was also like why in god's name are we as a society sat back overlaying wii music over a trial about domestic violence? and why is it being so well received, getting millions of views?

i think the first time i actually watched the trial was when johnny was testifying and i was pretty much all cringe like awhh poor guy. and fell for his lawyer's stuff and the internet's take on him.

then i watched rottenborn cx him and was like, damn this ROTTEN-BORN guy is kinda mean to this poor johnny depp who has been abused :((((

then i think there was a weekend break where i looked on tumblr and unbiased reddit threads, away from the propaganda machine. and still i was like, god damn these people are stupid. amber heard is obvs evil (keep in mind, i didn't know any evidence, besides johnny's testimony. so, this was all fueled by stuff i saw in pro-depp media)

then, when i finally started to believe amber was when this psychologist came out and diagnosed her with BPD and histrionic personality disorder (yet again having to say that diagnosis in the 21st century is so fucking weird) and i was like wait... (also the fact she had din dins with him got my feathers ruffled straight away ngl)

so then my thick skull finally opened and i was like maybe... just maybe... before making judgements on this case and this woman i do not know... i should perhaps look at the evidence.

so i did. i checked out someone's (i cant remember who's tbh) fact check list here on tumblr. and they raised enough good points that i couldn't in good faith sit back and do mental gymnastics to try deny or defend depp out of them.

so i took those facts on that list and looked further into it. i read uk transcripts. listened to audio. read up some more on domestic violence. looked to twitter threads that were not obviously biased and further looked into the sources provided by the original tweeters.

and by that point i couldn't sit there and say that johnny depp was not an abuser.

then watching amber's testimony soon after, seeing her nearly have an actual, full-blown breakdown on the stand talking about her rape, made me start to actually post about her being the victim in the equation. i had been hesitant because i didn't want the depp pond scum to tell me to die or something (not that they'd ever do that of course)

(kind of irrelevant, but seeing camille vasquez bully amber so intensely on the stand and then be praised made me sick to my fucking stomach. furthering me in my support of amber.)

then seeing testimony from people who aren't even her friends anymore (and them literally crying while recalling it)

also ms girl dawn hughes. she was so on the ball and so qualified in her field of ipv.

then don't get me started on russian oligarch lover mr. adam waldman

sorry this was so long. it kinda became less me answering and more me reflecting on why and when i turned to supporting amber. soz

#lmao #long post #it's 3am i have so much energy #someone knock me out with a horse tranquiliser or something #i stand with amber heard

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1ddiscourseoftheday · 4 years ago

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Wed 26 May 21

Hiiii I’m a lil dummy and I miss stuff sometimes oops so anyway here’s what I missed yesterday-- full audio of Zayn singing the song Leave Before You Love Me (released just a few days ago by the Jonas Brothers) was leaked by Zayn’s cousin! Seems that Z probably demo-ed the song back when it was being shopped around but it ended up going to JB- which would be our loss except heyyyy we get to hear Zayn’s version now anyway! It’s on youtube and it is GORGEOUS, check it out, and anyhow that explains the seemingly random promo tweet from Zayn yesterday- I should have KNOWN to look further, sigh, if Zayn is online there’s ALWAYS a reason. Side note, this is the other song (besides Our Song) that Plested wrote on that was released the same day that Niall was teasing him about the other day, as he is promoting both singles at the same time (and how they’re both smashing it.) Also Niall liked a post of Joe Jonas’ about the song yesterday. Basically: this song is ALL UP IN the updates!

And speaking of Niall and his promo- he continues to insist his pronunciation of Niall and Nile aren’t the same, “they’re absolutely not” he says and clarifies: “Nile and Ni-Al.” Ummm... As someone to whom his demonstration sounds literally indistinguishable I have to say I’m enjoying the show (and thank you Anne Marie, who said “THEY ARE EXACTLY THE SAME” for proving that not being able to hear it is not just an American thing). “Listen to me” insists Niall, and also insisted he has “handsome hunk energy” (not ‘big baby energy’ thank you very much)- and in case you don’t believe it he pulled down his shirt to show off his chest hair in an interview, COULD A BIG BABY DO THAT? About NH3 Niall says “this year, next year, no idea.” He and Anne Marie tell us about a deadbeat employee who was cut from the video-- “It’s not in the video but we paid this dog to speak, like ‘woof’ obviously, when he’s been told to speak... and he didn’t speak when we told him to,” Niall admits he’s a fangirl for The Eagles, and Anne Marie makes him turn bright red by calling him out for looking at himself in the mirror; Niall’s collab promo strategy is hilariously identical every time but damn it, it IS fun and cute and effective, so hey carry on! “That promo with Niall I was quite hyper. I’d had a sip of coffee by accident, I thought it was hot chocolate and it switched up my ADHD like woah,” Anne Marie says to explain herself, no excuses whatsoever are needed but lol. Tickets are on sale now for Niall’s (management company’s) golf tournament.

Harry’s photographer Helene Pabrum was interviewed in a new podcast- she answered lots of Harry questions and shared some lovely unseen pictures, from behind the scenes of HSLOT, music video shoots (as recent as TPWK even), and more. She tells us about what she thought when she first started out with him, “I was a little bit obsessed with the faces of all the fans in front of the stage. They were all at the same time crying and happy and so emotional and I was like wow so for me it was as interesting as the show itself,” and how the pictures they posted during tour were chosen-- “On tour when he wanted to post a picture to instagram I didn’t know if he wanted to post a live, or backstage or audience anything else one. So I would just sent a lot of pictures like take all of this, do what you want and he would post one… he is the one choosing the pictures, he’s the one deciding on them. He’s the one doing it and he’s very good at this. He decides…” and “if he doesn’t want to publish the picture he doesn’t do. It’s as simple as this.” (Meaning, I’d guess, that she was aware of the stupid discourse about how Harry probably doesn’t like her photos- uh huh yeah you can tell about how he has continued to hire her over and over for years- because he doesn’t look “good” in them, but at least we can finally put that to rest now right?? Fans: I don’t like Harry anymore because he doesn’t share enough personal stuff. Also fans: ugh why would he post pictures of himself looking human and accessible I hate this get it away, someone other than him is probably to blame! But she also says “I really feel happy and grateful that I receive so many really truly kind comments and kind messages” so that’s good.) Anyway, she also said her favorites are the candid ones, and “when you see a picture of him with just a t-shirt brushing his teeth it’s just great so for me, I was happy with his beautiful outfit and being simple.” She says he didn’t have much interest in picking up any French from her (or Camille I guess hmmm), “maybe he prefers speaking Italian,” and “I was really surprised to see him dancing. I was surprised in a good way, he’s young so he’s good at learning things really quickly.” (She’s only a few years older than him but he’s just got that Big Baby Energy, WBK!)

Meanwhile, Kill My Mind is soaring up the itunes charts worldwide and Walls got a boost as well as the fanbase got ProjectKMM underway, and two more Australia Louis shows were added ×͜×

#zayn #niall horan #harry styles #louis tomlinson #some people think Marshmello (whose song LBYLM is) might have chosen JB over Zayn b/c Z doesn’t really do promo #which is it just me or does that cast the To Begin Again promo tweet as his version leaked in a much funnier/ snarkier light if it’s true #tho really I think he was just online looking at the leak hubbub and was like oh hey. I sang on that. cool.#listen if you are up on things that I’m not I very much invite people to bring me news!#Zayn news especially it is frankly impossible to find Z blogs I can stand to follow on here #if you know or have a blog that shares up to date Z gossip and news without also hating on any of OT4 or cooing about Elounor and Freddie #I WOULD LIKE TO SEE IT but I don’t think any such blog exists alas. Twitter perhaps? I would not know #what I really need to do is just remember that if zayn tweets-- go like for the discourse some drama is happening #without fail #plested #projectKMM #anne marie #helene pabrum #long post #kinda? idk #26 may 21

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hes-writer · 4 years ago

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Reign (3)

Summary: harry sees something he's supposed to have

Warnings: angst in the beginning, angst in the middle, angst near the end

Word Count: 4881 words

A/N: @devilinbetweenthesheet-s : dont cheat and don’t do drugs, kids

Tarnish (1) . Halo (2) . Reign (3) . Trial (4) .

Errors (5) . Ruin (6) . Crumble (7)

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A writer that cannot write is dead.

When one loses the ability to tell their stories and anecdotes through the mere action of swirling words together to create an imaginable atmosphere of real-world fantasy; they are dead. A writer recovering from the mundane and mediocre way of penning experiences to bounce back into what they used to be is difficult. It is easier to free fall and drown in the depths of despair. The moment thoughts and rumination fog up to form a blurry image of conviction is a warning sign, blaring at the back of their minds and sometimes even in their faces.

Harry is a writer--or, he was. Picking up the pen to style the words lingering in his head used to be as easy as blinking; quick and natural. Now, the words claw at the swell of his throat, trying to spit an adjective to describe the way he felt. It was at the tip of his tongue, waiting to be lathed into existence. It did not matter if his cognition was mingled with various chemicals aimed to be able to feel happiness.

He was sober but he had trouble placing his finger on why it was so strenuous to narrate his feelings throughout the breakup. Being high or drunk was never the answer for him. Weed made him tired and made him have a case of cottonmouth. Harry learned from a young age that he should only ever engage with alcohol if he was in a mindset and setting that catered to increase existing good vibes. He thought that maybe he was in an odd phase of perceiving the opposite, and so he intoxicated himself enough to understand that it didn’t matter if he was soaked head-to-toe in sobriety or whizzed out of his mind by the amber liquid swirling in the glass in his hand. But that wasn’t the circumstance. It also didn’t matter if he was grasping his favourite pen to write--because it was comfortable--or tapping his calloused thumbs against his phone keypad. Hell, it didn’t make a difference when he sat down and prepared his typewriter to indulge in a headspace of vintage songwriting. Maybe that would help.

It didn’t.

He had stories to tell. Everything was laid out in misty overcast yet Harry’s great ideas morphed into gentle mistakes, harsh mistakes and discoveries that had him almost ripping his hair out of the roots of his scalp. When he felt the wave of his ocean-thoughts rise and peek where the sand shifted, his fingers were ready to move and discern for the eyes to see. But with each fritter, he couldn’t seem to get even two paragraphs in to decide that it was utter shit.

Harry was old enough to understand that slumping on the wet sand was a part of life. Sometimes picking up a fistful of grains and throwing them back to the sea was a great way to release frustration. But it seemed like this plunge of his ability to write was a hole of quicksand. He was trying his hardest to displace himself as swiftly as possible but it only made his scenario worse. The muddy sand clung unto his legs like sticky glue, heftier with each effort to leave. He wanted to move on. He wanted to forget everything that occurred in the past four years. Harry wanted to erase Y/N from his life because she wasn’t around anymore to bring those memories back to sparkly existence.

What he needed to do was nestle himself into a certain depth, calmly, in order to pull a limb out and ensure that his progress on the so-called ‘moving on’ did not have any drawbacks. Until then, he cannot possibly create songs that he was well-known for if he wasn’t patient enough.

He wanted so badly to tell his side of the story. Harry craved to think as clearly as he did when he told Y/N about his plan for their future. Admitting to his feelings was a hard route. Sure, he can be vulnerable but it took a great deal of convincing on his part to immerse himself in the deepest parts of his brain to understand why he felt the way he did. He usually had the means of songwriting to help him out but that obviously wasn’t working out that good for him.

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Harry was packing the rest of Y/N’s things in boxes to be picked up later in the afternoon. He was annoyed at first at how she depended on him to fold her clothes properly instead of doing the bundle of the work herself. But he guessed that she didn’t want to be around him for longer than she had to. To be frank, he also did not want to indulge in what might turn into an argument if they spoke about the reason for their breakup. It was just a bit confusing because he had an urge to still want her around despite their less than likely situation.

Torture. If Harry had one chance to describe the way he felt right now; it was torture. With every nook of Y/N’s side of the closet emptying into brown, cardboard boxes--he physically how much she had integrated her life with his. How much space she took up in his life. How his clothes and her clothes were so interchanged between them that he couldn’t decide if the gray pull-over was actually his or hers. And in a moment of selfishness did he tuck it away for his safe-keeping despite seeing the tag imprinted on the inside; a shop that he hadn’t set foot in so it was a guarantee that it was hers.

Her scent embedded in the thin threads of each fabric wafted to his nose; each with a new wave of memories engulfing his senses as if each piece garnered a specific scent tailored to a specific event. Like her sunflower sundress--it smelled of fresh flowers as if the print was a scratch and sniff that released a fragrance. Or their DIY-ed tie-dye shirt of pastel blue and cotton candy pink. It was a matching piece made out of the cheap dye and a simple white tee but it was theirs. Things like these made Harry want to yell in frustration because every time he thought that he was completely over her-- Y/N appears out of visibly nowhere and towers over him.

Seeing her for the first time in days was a breath of relief. She looked fine. Glowing even, and Harry did not know what to make of it. As sadistic as it sounded, he was expecting dry-stained tears and a birds’ nest of hair trampling her head. Instead, Y/N was dressed for comfort in her baggy jeans and an even looser sweater covering her body. Her lips were drawn in a thin line, giving him a nod in greeting as he gestured to the boxes littering the floor.

Harry offered to help--it was the least he could do. And somehow, silence protruded from the tense atmosphere, begging to be cut by a knife yielded through their voices nipping at each others’ emotions.

“Let go of my damn hand,” Y/N stated, her hard stare could turn Harry into stone. He just wanted her to listen before she left.

He shook his head in denial of her request, tightening his grip further. “No. Listen to me, Y/N,”

“What do you possibly have to say that will change anything between us?”

And maybe it was her fault for assuming that he wanted to fix things. The sliver of hope thinly dressed behind closed lids enabled her to think that maybe he was going to say that he wanted to make things work again. That he had broken up with Camille and he realized what a stupid he had done throwing away everything they built up to for the past four years for an affair that couldn’t quench the thirst of his desire to have a family.

Harry sighed, a shadow of mischievous smirk painted on his lips. But maybe it was Y/N’s sight in deception because she could never see Harry as anything other than sweet and kind Harry incapable of hurting a fly.

“What? I don’t intend to. We’re broken. We’re beyond fixing,”

The hitch in her breath was as sharp as the stare he was searing her with. Forcing her to please understand that this would be their last conversation--if time and fate were on their side. “You’re not something I would take the time to handle,”

“Stop saying shit you don’t mean, Harry” Y/N rolled her eyes in annoyance. His macho act was barely an act and more like a stage curtain easily pushed with a flick of a wrist.

“Things I don’t mean?”

“You heard me,” She crossed her arms over his chest in defence, leaning against the closed trunk. “Say what you will but our love was real. Don’t make me seem like I’m crazy. Don’t tell me that I’m a mistake,” Her voice was filled with confidence because she knew the affection that Harry diffused.

The cradles of his palm at the small of her back when they had to walk past a crowd. The subtle graze of the back of his fingers caressing the bare skin of her arm. Kisses pressed to her temple as she read a novel and swirling fingertips twirling her hair. These were acts of love that happened nearly every day in their relationship. A routine that felt different if it wasn’t done to or with each other.

Exasperatedly, Harry felt the same itching crawling up his spine. His ego ballooning into a delicate size and one more word from Y/N’s lush lips would have him on his hands and knees, begging for her back.

“This, us, was a fuckin’ mistake,” Harry’s accent thunked heavily in her cochlea, practically spitting the words out of his mouth as if they were poisonous. Ringed fingers gesticulated the space between them to emphasize how much of a misunderstanding they truly were. “I should’ve known the second things went further than planned,”

Y/N felt her heart drop to her full stomach. The feeling so nauseating that she instinctively palmed her belly over the fabric to protect her little baby from his harsh words. Even though they weren’t directed towards anyone but Y/N. She didn’t think that their unborn child deserved scrutiny from their own father.

“You don’t mean that, Harry.”

Because how could he? Not when he emulated sincerity through his syrupy voice. Not when he spent hours loving on her tummy and spoke to it like he would if she were pregnant. Especially not when every kiss from him felt like a buzz of electricity coursing through her veins because he was the main distributor of her happiness.

Harry truly was an asshole for making her hope and wonder of what the future held when he was unsure himself. He did want a family. That was a statement in all its truthfulness. What he wasn’t sure about was if he wanted a family with Y/N. He could have a family; kids of his own in his own time. But Y/N didn’t have to necessarily be the mother. So was he besotted with the concept of family and marriage regardless of who it was with?

“But I do,”

The rain started drizzling in frequent spurts, planting a fat droplet on her cheek that could be argued as a tear escaping Y/N’s eye. It hurt a lot to hear that from him. The man of her dreams blatantly denying each sugary word because his plans had changed.

“You’re a goddamn mistake is what you are,’

“Why are you. . .saying all these things to me? Are you trying to hurt me?” The shakiness of Y/N’s tone had Harry swallowing his words down his strep throat.

He shook his head in disagreement, “No, I’m not. ‘M just tryna make you see my side. So you can understand,” His head dipped to the side, softening his tone yet stern as though he was speaking to a child.

And that was one of the reasons why Y/N didn’t believe his all-too stoic demeanour about her. Harry was great at making others see his side regardless of how much in the wrong he was.

So why was he struggling?

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Needless to say, he wasn’t very respectful towards Y/N any other time afterwards. He had unblocked her number months after blocking it at one point and demanded answers that he didn’t have the right to know. In retrospect, Harry was embarrassed by the way he acted. He did cheat on her and suddenly he was a saint because she moved on quicker than he thought she would? Unbelievable.

In his defence, the night he became the drunk caller was the same night he fought with Camille about having children; having a family they can call their own. Ever since that discussion did Harry notice a dispatch in their relationship. It was like they were aware of a missing link that had disappeared in their connection, but neither one of them wanted to be the one to bring it up. Harry supposed that now that Camille knew what he wanted (and vice versa)--she was feeling the pressure of giving in to him. Don’t get him wrong, Harry absolutely wanted a family and he thought that Camille was the right partner to build it with. However, he couldn’t help the voice at the back of his mind slyly whispering that he had forced her to give him what he wanted for the sake of saving their failing relationship.

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It had been two and a half years since he mildly and miserably accepted that his dream family was being erased like a pencil on paper.

The first year; Harry still clung to the obscure hope that Camille might change her mind of having kids. Many fights sprouted between the two of them concluding in them sleeping at different places for weeks on end until they eventually crawled back to each other like an invisible string. The second-year; Harry brought up the idea of adoption. It was a hard choice for him as he desperately wanted kids of his own. A boy that looked like him and his love or a little girl that smiled at him with deep dimples mirroring his own.

And Harry liked to think that he was just on the edge of convincing Camille to consider the option when his tour was scheduled a few months after. A new dealbreaker was that Harry wasn’t going to be around much to watch and nurture the little bub they might’ve adopted. It was a sudden intrusion to think about since Harry was good with kids. He knew that. That was why he had three godchildren of his own. But what hit him the most was how sure Camille sounded when she yelled at him about leaving for months at a time and returning for a bit, only to leave again. Now, Harry hadn’t considered that part. But surely he will be ready to choose between a family and his career, right? When the time comes, he thought.

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It pained Harry to admit that his relationship with Camille was dwindling down the drain. The knowledge that there was no future--the one that Harry envisioned--for them was getting more and more real each passing day.

A late-night grocery trip was one of the many examples that had Harry rethinking his actions for the past couple of years. It was the time period where night owls arose and barely any customers littered the aisles. Still, Harry made sure to keep his hoodie up to shield his face.

Camille had an early flight to Milan in just a few hours later that day and she wanted to purchase some things to bring with her; in case they weren’t available in the country. So here they were at three in the morning.

As Camille walked ahead of him in her sweatpants and a plain tee, Harry couldn’t help but let his eyes flicker to the clothing section to his right The first-floor space was decorated with pastel blues and pinks; a stroller was displayed with a price would not make a dent in Harry’s bank account.

“‘M just gonna grab somethin’ over here, Cam,” Harry muttered as he pointed a thumb behind him. She nodded, “Meet me at the produce? Need to get you some fruits,”

Harry felt guilt thudding his chest because although he was losing feelings he thought were written in stone, Camille appeared to care for him the same way she always had.

He walked to the brightly lit area, puffing his cheek as a cute onesie caught his eye, “You’re so golden” with the word ‘golden’ printed in a shiny, yellow glimmer. He smiled at the thought of baby angel cooing at him as he tickled her tummy. Harry passed by the shoes next, picking up a pair barely the size of his palm. His mind flashed back to a conversation with Y/N years ago,

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“I’m just saying,” Y/N took a bite of a pickle she held on her left hand, “Baby shoes have no business being that expensive,”

Harry chuckled from his place across the counter, “Babies need shoes too, love,’

She grabbed her fork and stabbed a piece of strawberry from her bowl, “I didn’t say the don’t need shoes. For tiny things, they could at least be a bit cheaper,”

Harry watched as she munched on a pickle on her left and took a bite of a strawberry on the other. His tongue poked out in a gag at the odd combination, resorting in glare and a huff from Y/N.

“You should try it instead of judging me,’

“No, thank you. Watching you eat it is enough for me,’

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Harry craned his head at each aisle, hoping to find Camille and to distract himself from the endless Y/N related thoughts that somehow returned to his brain. He needed his girlfriend to remind him that he cannot just knock on Y/N’s door and ask her about the baby she has. If he could hold them for a bit because his baby fever was through the roof.

Locating the produce section, Harry whistled mindlessly as he searched for a blonde head of hair, failing to notice that there was a basket in front of his feet. He had kicked it, jolting him out of his thoughts in a hurry.

A man with brown hair sporting an outfit similar to his (sweats and a hoodie), chuckled at him as Harry leaned down to retrieve the gray basket filled with a jar of pickles.

“Sorry man,” Harry muttered, holding the handles up for the man to carry.

“It’s alright, it happens,” The guy had not seen his face yet, too busy inspecting the carton of strawberries.

He decided to continue the conversation, “Strawberries and pickles? Odd combo, huh,” Harry was briefly reminded of Y/N’s obsession with the two rival products.

“Yeah, m’lady loves ‘em. Had a craving in the middle of the night. She’s in the car right now with our lil bubba,”

Harry’s heart fluttered at the mention of a baby. He needed to get his rails in check. He cannot keep having his heart bursting with adoration at the mere mention of a baby.

“I’m Connor,” He said, finally facing Harry after choosing the best carton.

“I'm--,”

“Harry!” Both men turned their heads towards Camille carrying a basket full fruits and green veggies, “Got you some stuff to blend for your smoothies,”

Connor squinted his eyes at the couple and Harry internally screamed because he knew that he and Camille had been recognized. “Harry. Yeah, I know you,” The sudden hostility made Harry confused as Connor grasped his basket from him in a harsh manner, heading towards the checkout.

The rest of the time inside the store was filled with curiosities as Harry carried the paper bags towards the car, barely recognizing Connor’s figure heading towards his own vehicle. Luckily, Harry has parked only a few slots away and could inconspicuously watch Connor and his so-called ‘lady’.

Except, Camille was ushering him to hurry up as she still had a few things to pack at home.

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On most days, Harry was used to waking up alone. Used to feeling the shiver crawling up his side, used to seeing the indent left by Camille’s body instead of her. He had grown familiar with the sudden cast of loneliness blanketing him thicker than the duvet on top of his body.

The early morning trip to the store had tired him out, paired with the overthinking of the man named ‘Connor’ that flipped his attitude towards him quicker than he could kick the grey basket with his feet. He flopped back to the mattress after washing his face and brushing his teeth. It was noon when he jolted out of bed again at the sound of his front door opening, voices filling the empty space that had Harry running towards the foyer in case there was an intruder.

His tense shoulders sagged in relief when he caught sight of his mum and Gemma, “Oh, s’just you guys,”

Both women looked up at him at the top of the stairs, “You forgot we were coming over for the weekend, didn’t you?” Gemma teased as she headed to the living room. Harry followed, walking down the stairs.

He scratched the nape of his neck nervously, “No. . . “

“Can you help me reach this, H?” Anne called out from the kitchen.

His mum gave him a big hug and a kiss on the cheek, “Yes, you did, by the way. Slept through the whole morning. Good thing Camille let us in before she left,”

At the sound of a bag crumpling and squeals echoing the hollow house, Harry scrunched his nose in curiosity, briskly walking where Gemm was currently holding up tiny baby clothes in front of her. “Who’s that for?” He thought of any possible friends that had had a baby recently but couldn’t recall any.

She immediately stuffed the clothing into the bag, nervously placing a hand on her chest, “Gosh, Harry, you scared me,” Her brows went high on her forehead in alarm, sharing a look with her mum trailing behind Harry.

“Well? Did I miss something?”

“Oh, it’s for one of my friends,”

Harry contemplated on his next words, “D-did you know that Y/N had a baby?” It couldn’t be right if his sister and mum knew about his exes baby and not him, right? That’s just plain odd to still be in touch with an ex's family. His brows furrowed in suspicion as both of them declined his question.

“What? Nooo,”

Awkward silence filtered through the air as Anne sipped water from her mug and Harry was slowly putting the pieces together. Gemme dove to the centre of the couch where her phone was when it rang suddenly, surprising all three of them. Harry was quicker, eyeing his mum and sister and inspecting the emoji substituting as a name before sliding his thumb to answer it.

"Hey, Gems! Are you coming to the park? We're waiting for you,”

Harry felt his heart drop to his stomach just as the phone nearly slipped from his clutch. That voice. He could recognize it from everywhere having spent nearly every morning for the four years that they were together hearing it lulling him out of sleep. It was Y/N’s voice calling his sister who was looking extremely anxious.

He tapped on the ‘mute’ button, “What does she mean ‘we’?”

“Nothing! Give me my phone back,” Gemma tried to reach for the device but Harry held it high beyond her reach.

“I saw the picture you sent me. I told you that you and Anne didn’t have to get me anything,” Harry felt dizzy. “Connor and I got some things a few weeks ago. But that skirt is so adorable!”

One part of him was glad to hear her voice. In fact, Harry found himself smiling too, despite what he just heard. Connor. “Harry, won’t be there right? Hello? Have I been talking to myself this whole time,” Y/N laughed a little; she had a habit of talking endlessly when she was excited. It made Harry more sombre, letting his guards down and his arm in reach for Gemma to grasp.

“Hey! I'm just organizing the clothes, see you soon!" Gemma jammed her finger on the red end call, anxiously glancing at her brother, piecing everything together.

“Who's Connor?" Could it be that the Connor he met last night was the same as Y/N’s? The one who bought pickles and strawberries--one of Y/N favourite food combinations? He mentioned that he had a little girl and Y/N just called to meet his sister and his mum at the park. And baby clothes?

Anne and Gemma looked at each other, quickly deciding that for the benefit of Harry that they should tell him at least a little bit. He was looking as if he was going insane, especially with his bed head pointing his hair out in different directions.

“He’s Y/N’s partner”

Harry gulped, reeling his thoughts to a halt, “Partner? And the baby is...?” The last bit of confirmation was all he needed to lash his feelings out.

“Is... waiting for us at the park! Sorry H gotta go,” Gemma was swift enough to gather all the bags without having Harry chase after her. His state of confusion and shock was enough to render him partially speechless and immobile.

“Hey wait!”

Anne garnered his attention, “Oh, Mrs. Q from next door wants me over for dinner. I’m sure wants to see us both. Why don’t you get ready, Harry?” Anne tugged his arm in the direction of the staircase pushing him to stumble up a couple of steps.

Harry was confused. He made the sounds of his footsteps creeping up the wooden stairs, hearing his mum quietly talking to Gemma on the phone, “Elmsway Park, you said? How long till you're home? I’m not sure how long I can keep him occupied,”

With that being said, Harry was out of his house, silently unlocking and locking the door. He was dressed in some basketball shorts and a graphic tee, slipping on the first pair of sneakers he had tossed aside. Harry jogged to his car, typing in the name of the park on his phones’ GPS. The route was only a few minutes away so he decided to take his time, gathering his scattered thoughts along the way.

He parked just beside the playground scouting the trees around the premises. Harry decided that it was the perfect day. The sun was out. It wasn’t too humid and the birds were chirping on the branches. He could see why the playground was full of children running around in delight. The green patches of grass were partially filled with picnic blankets and food to be shared. Families laughed with each other as one in particular caught his eye.

It made him smile at first, seeing just how adorable the couple was with their baby. He exited the car, making sure to lock the vehicle. With his hands jammed deep in the pockets of his shorts, Harry could feel the tethered grass rubbing against his legs. As he got closer, he couldn’t help the twinge of familiarity spark in his chest, recognizing that what he was staring at was Connor playfully chasing a little girl of about two-years-old as she squealed at how close he was getting to tagging her.

Harry stood by a tree, shielding him away from view. He tried to appear invisible without seeming too creepy. He knew that it was only a matter of seconds before his eyes found the woman he had been missing, whether he wanted to admit it or not.

Connor picked up the little girl in his arms, dotting pecks all over the girls’ cheeks, causing her to giggle and push his face away with a tiny palm. And there she was standing outside the raised platform of the playground, coming up to the both of them with a juice box in hand to hydrate the little angel. Connor turned his attention to Y/N, planting the most adoring kiss on her lips that made her smile so wide and the baby cover her eyes. They laughed together, looking like a picture-perfect family.

Gemma sat on the bench, flickering her gaze to the precious family in front of her and to the figure of her brother walking away from the scene. Her heart broke for Harry, and it cracked, even more, when he turned back. This time, watching Connor and Y/N cheer on baby angel to go down the slide. Both of them clapped their hands in enthusiasm as the girl hesitantly slid down the plastic slide. The smile on her face was infectious.

It almost made Harry smile, too.

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septembersghost · 2 years ago

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This could be a random thing to say at a random time but I think harry is gonna end up with someone non-famous who is younger than him. I am not disliking the older women he dated(I am a dark haylor tbh) but something tells me this.Anyway I really hope he finds someone who loves him the way he does. Like in every serious relationship he had he loved the girl more than she did him. Taylor moved on from him within 3 months when it took him 2 albums and 2.5 years. Camille also moved on quick I think while he pinned so bad in FL. He was Olivia's getaway car. I want him to be loved.

now i'll answer this, please don't feel bad! i just got distracted by the other thing (there was so much going on back in the 2012-2015 era!). obviously we have no way of knowing what may happen in the future, but it must be so difficult to find a balance between your public and private life when you have such a spotlight on you, and a safe place where you can keep away from intrusion as much as possible with a serious relationship (as taylor has expressed in both interviews and lyrics many times herself). it can be double-edged for sure, people in the industry tend to date other people in the industry because of their commonalities and because they can understand some of the unique pressures, but then at times that increases the glare. others find more stable connections with people outside of it all. it just depends on what works and what's right. (taylor and joe, ed and cherry). there's definitely nothing wrong with harry dating older, but who knows what that might look like or what he might decide in the future. maybe he enjoys that maturity, maybe he'll eventually look for a closer peer.

i don't know if we can fairly give any measurement to those loves, there are so many reasons things fall apart between people, but he seems to have such a big heart and romantic soul, and i hope he finds that lasting love too. he deserves to have that and to build whatever life he wishes to have. i hope that for anyone who wants it!

#anonymous #letterbox #harry styles #me editing this for clarity what are words

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gothicthundra · 3 years ago

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I die every time I read your pairing of Frugal Lucre and Adrena Lynn! Your new art of them is fantastic! Do you have any other ships in KP outside of Drakgo and K/R?

Oh honey... you are opening Pandora's Box... but I'm gonna let it happen, lol. Okay so... buckle up because this gets a little chaotic and messy and I will feature OTPs... Pairings I am onboard with... and even.. dare I say other pairings of the Chotic Four... because while Drakken/Shego and K/R are endgame... doesn't mean I don't ship them sometimes... I will exclude any OCs or Crossovers.

Drakken/Shego- Obviously. OTP!!!

Kim Possible/Ron Stoppable- Of course. OTP!!!

Bonnie/Junior- The couple that 100% made the most sense! OTP!!!

Gill/Camille- OMG like I could GO OFF on this. It's one of my top OTP's and it brings me all the joy. This is legit a very LONG explanation that I will tell another time. And if I ever finish Pariahs and Piranhas (a WIP) you will HEAR THE STORY! But for now... its in the BG of RTD.

Hego/Electronique- When I tell you this is a top-tier OTP for me! If my butt ever finishes the last 3 chapters of Electric Love you WILL UNDERSTAND!

NOW that I got my tops out of the way... enjoy the remaining chaos! *blows kiss*

Kim Possible/Junior- This is both a thing in the comics even... and honestly once got punched by a super shipper for these two because I was happy K/R got together... a story for another time.

Junior/Camille Leon- Mostly one-sided tbh... Camille deff would try for that money. Ron Stoppable/Tara- I shipped it. Ron Stoppable/Yori- I hell shipped it... Monkey Fist/DNAmy- I like the one-sided chaos Monkey Fist/Duff Killigan- You want to watch Stitch and Time again because... pfft. Monkey Fist/Duff Killigan/DNAmy- How does it work... stay tuned. Duff Killigan/Mama Lipsky- This was a crack ship and I have a LIST of people to blame for this *points finger* Senior Senior/Mama Lipsky- I DO NOT TAKE CRITICISM! Adrena Lynn/Lucre- I have no comment and they are chaos and trouble. Adrena Lynn/Motor Ed- Honestly just casual chaos and stupidity.

Monique/Success!!- I legit just ship this woman with power and success. Sorry lol!

#ask #answer #art #fanart #kim possible #ship #ships I ship #dont judge me

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athenamariee · 3 years ago

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more detailed timeline part I

July 2014

camila was in 5h and met the diva while on tour with her lovely girlfriend, lauren, and had a small pr relationship with dorito boy that only lasted for about a month before going back to her amazing incredible beautiful talented and hot girlfriend lauren. in a glamour magazine interview she says that shawn was one of the only people who would talk to her outside of her hot girlfriend and her best friends/band mates and her mother (we all know mama shinue goes everywhere with her karla) she states that she was intrigued because he would go off by himself and play guitar and she thought it was so cool and she wanted to be his friend. i just find it odd that the diva practiced guitar almost everyday and can still only play the same two cords in every song.

April 2015

the diva plays this game for capital fm called “lips, wife, or leave it” and opts for our sweet gay baby to wife saying “yeah, she rocks”

November 2015

They dropped ikwydls and it sparked dating rumors. they were apparently hanging out at a taylor swift concert when the diva pulled out his guitar and started playing the same cords he usually does “not really thinking about writing a song” he says

March 2017

The queen and the diva post a cover of ed sheeran's “kiss me”. it only sucked because of shawn. I said what I said.

May 2017

the diva tweeted our sweet baby camz about the banger that is crying in the club saying that it left him speechless and with goosebumps all over then called her incredible

April 2018

diva had an interview with beats 1 and called mila “her favorite person in the whole world” he also says “i dont think youll ever meet somebody who feels emotion like her, in all aspects. she can feel hurt like no other but she can feel love like no other” (barf dude). camila responded on twitter saying “i shouldn't be crying at this time in the morning but I AM --- i love you SO much diva boy” ( i added the divaboy part) then she went to one of his shows

December 2018

mila hinted at senorita while posting a photo that had the caption “canadian fury + latin sass”

June 2019

they drop senorita and the lyrics are what caught everyones attention (other that watching white boy try to be a “latin king” cause that was unsettling) the lyrics that catch everyones attention are “you say were just friends / but friends dont know the way you taste / cause you know its been a long time coming / dont you let me fall” (yeah those lyrica were obviously about the pretty girlfriend lauren because the demon wants us to believe that they were just friends but as dinah jane says “we all know what friends means”)

July 2019

the shit show is very much brewing and they get caught holding hands in weho and they also partied together on the fourth of july kissing and splitting pancakes. (cringe cringe cringe)

August 2019

the diva turned 21 and mila gave him an instagram post after eating his face at his birthday party. later she has an interview talking about how she “fell in love” and was writing new music and they also had performed senorita at the vmas and i cringed

September 2019

they finally confirm the shitshow and the disappointment known as shawmila shippers invaded the camilizers and made us regret everything in life. they also posted that weird fish kiss and cringe isnt even the word to describe it

october 2019

camila “confesses her love for him”

November 2019

they are spotted kissing at a basketball game

December 2019

she says that she doesn't kiss shawn while performing senorita is because she gets awkward and shy (yeah because it's not lauren and we don't want the wifey mad)

March 2020

They quarantine together through the pandemic and make music

October/November 2020

They released a documentary about yogurt boys' wonder tour and used camila to draw people in because it would flop if she wasn't in it and all he talks about is her and their pr. they post pda pics on instagram and get fans talking

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holo-styles · 3 years ago

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The funny thing is that Harry dates people he meets. Like, I know this sounds very DUH, but it took me a while to realize why, for instance, he always dated models, and for a while it bugged me because I saw it as a Leo DiCaprio typa thing, but I just don’t think that’s what it was at all

Like, I obviously don’t know every single relationship he’s ever had, and a bunch of stuff we saw in the media was exaggerated or a lie, so I’ll only touch on the ones that are glaringly obvious were relationships/dates/hookups

Caroline Flack -> friends with Lou and Nick

Taylor Swift -> met her at the KCAs, probably kept in touch through their mutual friend Ed Sheeran who toured and collabed with her all of 2012

Kendall Jenner -> friends with Jeff

Nadine Leopold -> friends with Glenne

Paige Reifler -> (iirc) her family was friends with Cal Aurand’s family

Georgia Fowler -> friend with basically his entire group of friends

Camille Rowe -> friends with Alexa and a ton of other people in his NYC group

He wasn’t out there scouring IMG catalogues or watching Victoria’s Secret and taking notes. He didn’t actually use Instagram as Tinder (some people on here who used to say “he’s gonna end up like Leo” also used to say that), in fact I think Camille and Olivia are his only exes he followed on IG. He just met people through friends! It just so happens that his friends have friends in the modeling world. I presume once you meet one you meet a bunch since they tend to have the same circle of friends. It doesn’t hurt that they’re easy on the eyes, my man is human I would date them too, but it’s not like actresses or musicians wouldn’t be just as conventionally pretty (I mean he’s dating one of the most objectively beautiful women in the world and she ain’t a model).

It’s kinda crazy how unfair people are with Harry, including myself, because I too judged him for, essentially, dating people in his circle, when it was probably really hard for him to find people he could trust 🫤 (and some of those people weren’t worth his trust anyway)

Yeah, most people date people they meet through their friends or through work. It’s the most normal thing in the world.

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i loved your response to anon with the stunt song question and i have to ask, what do you make of cherry? it's obviously not his story but i think it's important to him maybe that's because he's really proud of how it came out or whatever but i know i sometimes write non-autobiographical pieces (poems, songs, etc) and i feel a connection to them even if it's not a story i even remotely relate to, so what do you think he was doing there with cherry?

Hi anons, adding those two together I hope you don’t mind :) Yes I do think the song is about Dylan and Camille. It sounds extremely plausible to me, and too much of a coincidence actually Harry writing that song knowing about that story. Here's a post about this theory.

About the song being important to Harry and he feeling a connection to the song… I mean, possibly. It doesn't have to be his story for him to connect. Maybe he connected with the story so much because somehow he projected himself on that as well and used bits and pieces of his own personal experiences on that. Artists write biographical songs all the time, and they all use analogies and other ways to express what they’re feeling which is not always literally what is happening in real life and on their lives. Ed Sheeran, Taylor Swift, Freddie Mercury (unless he actually shot someone in the head which okay…) and they all sound honest, and raw and beautiful… because they're good song writers. That's normal. You connect to things (like we connect with Harry and Louis and their songs and their story every single day… they inspire me so much) and that's the beauty of it, of being creative and being an artist. It pisses me off like so many people think Hamille was real because of it and think it's unacceptable writing from someone else's perspective.

#cherry #lyric analysis #hamille #ask #stunt songs #fine line era #solo harry

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battyaboutbooksreviews · 7 months ago

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🌈 Queer Romances to Love All Year Round

🦇 Good morning, my beloved bookish bats. We're halfway through pride month, but there are still so many amazing queer books to read! To celebrate that love is love mentality, here are 78 queer romance novels you can add to your tbr! Don't forget to #readqueerallyear, and that none of us are free until all of us are free. 💜

❤️ Delilah Green Doesn’t Care - Ashley Herring Blake 🧡 Skye Falling - Mia McKenzie 💛 The Breakup Lists - Adib Khorram 💚 Prince of the Palisades - Julian Winters 💙 Solomon’s Crown - Natasha Siegel 💜 The Borrow a Boyfriend Club - Page Powars

❤️ Full Shift - Jennifer Dugan 🧡 A Shore Thing - Joanna Lowell 💛 Showmance - Chad Beguelin 💚 Exes & Foes - Amanda Woody 💙 Full Disclosure - Camryn Garrett 💜 When You Were Everything - Ashley Woodfolk

❤️ Playing the Palace - Paul Rudnick 🧡 I’m So (Not) Over You - Kosoko Jackson 💛 When Katie Met Cassidy - Camille Perri 💚 Captive Prince - C. S. Pacat 💙 The Lovers - Rebekah Faubion 💜 That Summer Feeling - Bridget Morrissey

❤️ Wild Things - Laura Kay 🧡 Experienced - Kate Young 💛 Lose You to Find Me - Erik J. Brown 💚 The Lesbiana’s Guide to Catholic School - Sonora Reyes 💙 Nate Plus One - Kevin van Whye 💜 Countries of Origin - Javier Fuentes

❤️ The Passing Playbook - Isaac Fitzsimons 🧡 But How Are You, Really - Ella Dawson 💛 Looking for a Sign - Susie Dumond 💚 The Prospects - KT Hoffman 💙 Last Night at the Telegraph Club - Malinda Lo 💜 Malice - Heather Walter

❤️ You Should See Me in a Crown - Leah Johnson 🧡 Let’s Talk about Love - Claire Kann 💛 Bonds of Brass - Emily Skrutskie 💚 Looking for Love in All the Haunted Places - Claire Kann 💙 The Stars and the Blackness Between Them - Junauda Petrus 💜 In Charm’s Way - Lana Harper

❤️ Everything Leads to You - Nina LaCour 🧡 Marriage of a Thousand Lies - SJ Sindu 💛 I Think I Love You - Auriane Desombre 💚 Lavash at First Sight - Taleen Voskuni 💙 The Bump - Sidney Karger 💜 The Disenchantment - Celia Bell

❤️ The Dos and Donuts of Love - Adiba Jaigirdar 🧡 Riley Weaver Needs A Date To The Gaybutante Ball - Jason June 💛 Epically Earnest - Molly Horan 💚 Out of the Blue - Jason June 💙 Flip the Script - Lyla Lee 💜 Imogen, Obviously - Becky Albertalli

❤️ Café Con Lychee - Emery Lee 🧡 A Little Bit Country - Brian D. Kennedy 💛 Late to the Party - Kelly Quindlen 💚 The Key to You and Me - Jaye Robin Brown 💙 What If It’s Us - Becky Albertalli & Adam Silvera 💜 The Falling in Love Montage - Ciara Smyth

❤️ The Love Curse of Melody McIntyre - Robin Talley 🧡 Meet Cute Diary - Emery Lee 💛 Love & Other Natural Disasters - Misa Sugiura 💚 Date Me, Bryson Keller - Kevin van Whye 💙 Just Your Local Bisexual Disaster - Andrea Mosqueda 💜 Pumpkin by Julie Murphy

❤️ She Gets the Girl by Rachel Lippincott - Alyson Derrick 🧡 Home Field Advantage - Dahlia Adler 💛 The (Un)Popular Vote - Jasper Sanchez 💚 Melt With You - Jennifer Dugan 💙 Cool for the Summer by Dahlia Adler 💜 Hani and Ishu’s Guide to Fake Dating - Adiba Jaigirdar

❤️ I Kissed Shara Wheeler - Casey McQuiston 🧡 Jay’s Gay Agenda - Jason June 💛 Triple Sec - TJ Alexander 💚 Finally Fitz - Marisa Kanter 💙 I’ll Be the One - Lyla Lee 💜 This Is Kind of an Epic Love Story - Kacen Callender

❤️ May the Best Man Win - ZR Ellor 🧡 One Last Stop - Casey McQuiston 💛 Late Bloomer - Mazey Eddings 💚 The Fiancee Farce - Alexandria Bellefleur 💙 Stars Collide - Rachel Lacey 💜 Truly, Madly, Deeply - Alexandria Bellefleur

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deertiger · 6 years ago

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Vali Myers photographed by Ed van der Elsken, 1956

Lana Del Rey photographed by Bryan Adams (2012) / Marina photographed by Camille Summers-Valli (2019)

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bisluthq · 4 years ago

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you have been giving bad vibes lately tbh, like ily and you’re the only blog i’ve got notifications in snd check everyday, and i live that you call out antisemitism and homophobia (i’ve messaged you private stuff too and you’ve been totally lovely too, like ily!!!) but some of the stuff you do it questionable, and idk if it’s just because it’s online, but you always talk about how hot women are when discussing them, even when it’s not relevant, and call them bitches and stuff, and i saw some people call you out for misogyny and you never really took it as valid criticism, but you kinda talk about women like a shitty 17 year old boy tbh, it’s just weird, and the going after a hardly 18year old too instead of just ignoring those messages, it’s all just a bit iffy to me, nothing major and you’re definitely not TTB (it’s disgusting to even suggest that, that woman is so fucking disgusting!) but just some things that you should maybe not brush off as people just being pressed, as you say you’re a human being who will fuck up, but it’s nice to acknowledge that and understand why people say it, rather than just thinking people are haters and what not

Hey, this feels like it’s in good faith but I would very much like a chance to respond to some of your points (again in good faith). Like I hear you but I am not sure I agree with you and here’s why:

1) the criticism that I thirst over women or behave like a “teenage boy” is entangled in respectability politics, slut shaming, homophobia and patriarchal standards. Nobody pearl clutches over anons going off about Dino Dick (except people who’re like “wow these anons are wild” and like fair enough). Harmless thirsting over public figures is absolutely normal and not something to feel ashamed for. It’s okay to discuss sex and how horny shit makes you. It isn’t a bad thing at all.

2) “bitches” is used by me as slang. I have called people “motherfuckers” etc as well, it is 100% used in a general slang way and not in a way intended to be derogatory.

3) I don’t think it’s fair to say I’m “going after” Olivia. I said she’s very talented, very ambitious, has some boppy songs, and is insanely good at marketing herself (and performing! Her SNL slammed and that’s SUCH A HARD STAGE TO PERFORM ON). Saying her songs are thematically similar as a marketing choice and she’s copy pasting Taylor’s ideas isn’t going after her. Also, there is a huge power imbalance here and it’s... in Olivia’s favor. Olivia has the backing of UMG and Disney. My saying “she’s contrived in her public persona and good for her hope she makes it since that’s clearly what she wants” isn’t an ad hominem attack on a random teenage girl.

4) I don’t think people are “just haters” but you need to understand that I’ve had a LOT of antisemitic remarks in my ask in the last bit and obviously that’s affected my mood and general vibe. It lowkey sucks. And I do think people willfully and sometimes like obstinately misread what I am saying and take my words out of context or obfuscate what I was saying which, yes, is frustrating.

So like yeah I’m not perfect and yeah I do hear people if they come with valid criticism of me and if people point out stuff I said that’s problematic I take it on board. “Bitches” is offensive to some but is also a linguistic choice. I will think about that one because it doesn’t bother me but I don’t need to be offending people y’know.

The respectability politics stuff is a bit bullshit though. Like I say you can’t just cry misogyny at people thinking people are hot and tbh on that same note at some of the times I’ve been called a misogynist. I have expressly called Harry Styles a himbo, I have roasted him for having Camille teach him to read, and butchering her favorite wanky book for his pussy song. I’ve also like.... not expected Harry to give good critical analysis of a wanky post apocalyptic nightmare novel. Which is a very similar criticism to what I’ve leveled at Madison. Yeah, they’re talented musicians. Yeah, they’re hot. No, don’t expect them to give you a good take on some literary topic that’s kinda unfair to them. Just let them be hot and talented.

I’ve also said that Harry’s hyperconfessionalism on Fine Line annoyed me and I’ve said I can’t stand Ed’s music because it’s like the exact same topic on all of them.

Nobody has been like, “WOW YOU HATE HARRY! WOW YOU ARE A MISANDRIST!”

Because those criticisms have nothing to do with the identity of the people.

One can criticize women for things they’ve said and done and also just.... things you find annoying.... and that doesn’t mean you hate women.

And it does feel unfair that that gets leveled at me a bunch because I really don’t think it’s true at all. I think this is a deeply and inherently feminist space. And yes we thirst in it, which is fine, and yes we don’t act like women are somehow immune to criticism. That doesn’t make us sexist. It’d be worse to be acting like somehow being a woman makes people immune from discourse or needing to be held to a different - presumably lower - standard. Like that’s be fucked up.

Hope this makes sense and let me know if you have any further thoughts or comments. I’ll think about the “bitches” thing.

#anons against bisluthq #kinda

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louisfeatharry · 7 years ago

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filtering out ships in ao3: one direction edition

need to learn how to filter out things in general? refer to this post

i’m going to save you a bit of time and effort and list as many relationships for you to get rid of if that’s your fancy:

within 1d:

harry/louis:��-relationship_ids:"450395" / -relationship_ids:"694925"

zayn/liam: -relationship_ids:"455601"

niall/liam: -relationship_ids:"455376" / -relationship_ids:"859902"

niall/louis: -relationship_ids:"474664" / -relationship_ids:"749970"

harry/liam: -relationship_ids:"480881"

zayn/harry: -relationship_ids:"480965" / -relationship_ids:"703067"

niall/harry: -relationship_ids:"481087"

zayn/louis: -relationship_ids:"479397"

liam/louis: -relationship_ids:"265196" / -relationship_ids:"742148"

zayn/niall: -relationship_ids:"480386"

zayn/louis/harry: -relationship_ids:"480966"

zayn/louis/liam: -relationship_ids:"551016"

niall/zayn/louis: -relationship_ids:"582497"

liam/harry/louis: -relationship_ids:"513982"

niall/zayn/liam: -relationship_ids:"481090"

zayn/liam/harry: -relationship_ids:"602004"

niall/zayn/harry: -relationship_ids:"665710"

niall/harry/louis: -relationship_ids:"515911"

ot5: -relationship_ids:"481088" / -relationship_ids:"774893"

1d + alternate personas:

louis/marcel (best song ever): -relationship_ids:"995128"

louis/alex (dunkirk): -relationship_ids:"17486334"

outside of 1d:

harry/nick grimshaw: -relationship_ids:"563705"

harry/fionn whitehead: -relationship_ids:"17329401"

harry/ofc: -relationship_ids:"1148693"

harry/omc: -relationship_ids:"1043466"

harry/oc: -relationship_ids:"1148697"

harry/taylor swift: -relationship_ids:"655298"

harry/kendall jenner: -relationship_ids:"799769"

harry/camille rowe: -relationship_ids:"18911640"

harry/louis/nick grimshaw: -relationship_ids:"577717"

liam/cheryl cole: -relationship_ids:"9271990"

liam/sophia smith: -relationship_ids:"1055467"

liam/ofc: -relationship_ids:"1148712"

louis/greg james: -relationship_ids:"633422"

louis/nick grimshaw: -relationship_ids:"580260"

louis/eleanor: -relationship_ids:"481098"

louis/ofc: -relationship_ids:"1042844"

niall/niall breslin: -relationship_ids:"894711"

niall/shawn mendes: -relationship_ids:"12678313"

niall/ed sheeran: -relationship_ids:"492247"

niall/nick grimshaw: -relationship_ids:"694919"

niall/melissa whitelaw: -relationship_ids:"4695243"

niall/barbara palvin: -relationship_ids:"1267223"

niall/ofc: -relationship_ids:"1043471"

niall/omc: -relationship_ids:"1042529"

zayn/gigi hadid: -relationship_ids:"7394846"

zayn/perrie edwards: -relationship_ids:"537341"

zayn/ofc: -relationship_ids:"1148731"

just copy and paste each [-relationship_ids:”#####”] into the ‘search within results’ box and voila! no more fics with that ship (primary or side!)

(i’ve obviously missed a lot of pairings but i think this covers a good amount of them!)

#keep #ao3 help

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hellnrocksstuff · 7 years ago

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2017 and concerts

So many things happened this year but I prefer looking back only on the good times I had. I’m the happiest when I’m at concerts so here is the list of my concerts of 2017 aka the best moments of this year for me (in chronological order) :

1. Ed Sheeran - 6 April 2017 in Paris (Accor Hotel Arena)

The first time I met @nottooldforthisship and @freetheankles <3 We had been talking for a year and we were all so excited to see each other :)

The concert itself was mind blowing, seeing Ed on stage was a dream come true! I admire this artist so much !!! Sometimes I wonder how he can breathe when he sings so fast lol.

Fun fact : the morning after, @nottooldforthisship , @freetheankles and I listened to BBC radio 1 on the street in Paris and heard Sign of The Times for the first time ! I’ll always remember this :) Right after we met @myinnerfangilr and @maybeasalways for brunch. I had the most precious time with you all!!

2. Marianas Trench - 15 May 2017 in Paris (Les Etoiles)

Marianas Trench is a Canadian band that I’ve been listening to for at least 7 years. This time was their first ever show in France and I wasn’t disappointed ! I went there alone but I met lovely people and had a lot of fun. It was in a tiny venue so it felt really intimate. I met them afterwards and they were the kindest souls, taking their time with everyone, joking, taking pictures, giving hugs (thanks Matt 😍 ). I hope they come back soon !

3. Simple Plan - 6 June 2017 in Paris (Le Bataclan)

This one is very special to me for a few reasons. First of all, as you may know, SP is my favourite band (I’ve know them for 13 years) and it’s always an exciting time for me to go to their concerts. What made this day special was also the venue, obviously. I hadn’t been back there since the terrorist attack and I was a bit lot nervous to be honest. Before the concert I got the chance to watch their soundcheck and there was a meet & greet (@ Louis if you want to take notes on how to give meet & greets to your fans, ask the SP Crew ;) ). Another thing that was really special (or even weird lol) is that one of the guitar players, Jeff, recognized me and kissed me on the cheeks when he saw me 😳. Finally, one of the members, David, was not here because he’s been dealing with mental health issues like depression for a while and needed to rest. I hope he gets better soon because it’s not the same without him :( But they still delivered a sick show ! I’ve stopped counting how many times I’ve seen them on stage but they manage to make it special and different every time !

Fun fact : For every concert ticket sold, 1€ / $1 is donated directly to the Simple Plan Foundation. In 2017 they gave $200,000 in donations to organizations dedicated to helping young people. This year, they decided to also include organizations working with mental illness awareness and treatment. One of the reasons I love this band <3

3. Green Day - 12 June 2017 in Luxembourg (Rockhal)

The first time I saw them was in 2009 and I hadn’t seen them live since then. So it was definitely exciting to see them again ! It gave me the opportunity to visit Luxembourg for the first time as well, which I really enjoyed :)

This concert was magical and spectacular….! And it blows my mind to see how down to earth and nice these guys are after so many years of success all over the world! At more than 40 y.o they still have so much energy!!! It’s unbelievable! Thank you Tre Cool, BJA and Mike Dirnt, I had the time of my life (pun intended!).

4. Les Francofolies (festival) - 14-15 July 2017 in La Rochelle

Every year with my friends we go to this festival which takes place in La Rochelle, by the sea (well the Atlantic Ocean). The main aim of this festival is to promote francophone music. But now there’s also French speaking artists there who sing in English lol. This festival also exists in Montreal, Canada.

This year I saw, amongst other, Imany, M, Camille and Julien Doré (most of you don’t know them I assume !). I always have fun at this festival ! I can discover new music, as I don’t listen to a lot of French music usually. I had a great time once again and I hope next year will be as good !

5. Harry Styles - 25 October 2017 in Paris (L’Olympia)

Aaaah what can I say ??? I think the excitement that day was not only because I was gonna see solo Harry for the first time but also because I was seeing again @freetheankles and @maybeasalways. I also got to meet @lousthighs @doncasterrsfinest and @cupcakentea who are so lovely !!

Harry was fabulous as I hoped he would be! I loved seing all the rainbow flags in the audience. It felt like we had this amazing weapon against all the nasty people, a sense of comfort maybe ? I don’t know, it’s hard to explain ! Harry’s band was soooo good as well ! The only disappointing point was that he sang Kiwi only once :(

I always said that I wanted to go to L’Olympia at least once in my life (it’s a legendary venue in France) and I’m glad Harry gave me the opportunity :)

6. Harry Styles - 29 October 2017 in London (Hammersmith Apollo)

I was lucky to be able to see him twice ! I went with my friend Lou and her sister. We had a lot of fun and I think this concert was even better than the one in Paris. For one, I could see a lot better (it’s not easy being a smol bean!) and he interacted with the audience a lot more (which is normal since he was at home). He was really funny throughout the show and really amazed me once again with his vocal abilities. He sang Kiwi 2 and a half times haha so it definitely made it up for the Paris show ! I’m glad I got to see him at these intimate venues ! And I don’t regret missing my dad’s birthday to go to London :P (sorry dad!)

Oh, I also saw Jeff Azoff when he went to say hello to a woman who was next to me 😳. Weird.

That’s it for 2017. I’m thankful for all the people I’ve met and for the music I got to enjoy live! For next I only have one show booked for now, it’s Niall !!!! I can’t wait!

Thank you if you’ve read all of this and sorry for rambling a lot :/

#my concerts #2017 in concerts #music

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