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my personal aspects & placements as random thoughts and opinions:

venus square pluto - i don’t like telling people when i have a crush on someone. i get really embarrassingly obsessive and possessive over them. if they come up in conversation i’ll just be like “oh yeah they’re cute” or just be vaguely agreeable 💀 and i don’t like being the first one to bring them up either, can’t be drawing unnecessary attention 😭😭

venus opposite uranus - i think the norm of couples sharing beds, especially married couples, is too much. like…forever?? we’re already spending the rest of our lives together, we gotta share beds too?!

mars conjunct moon & jupiter + aries 12h - the shit that i write in my journal when i’m pissed…scares ME when i go back and read it 😭😬

8h pluto + gemini nn - i have a deep desire and need to understand things/people that interest me. it genuinely upsets and disturbs me when i don’t. like i wish i could just interview everyone sometimes yk? “why are you the way that you are?” having an understanding helps me conquer my fears, be more compassionate, and feel more in control of my mind/emotions.

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libras…come to the front please.

libras or people with libra in the their big six, how often do you lie? why? what about?

i’ve met a few libras/people with libra placements in my lifetime who have expressed their tendency and even enjoyment from lying.

my best friend is a libra rising and quote thinks it’s “fun” and “harmless” to tell white lies to strangers and what not. by white lies she means shit you’ll never really have to back up like, “oh, i used to be a cheerleader in high school”. by strangers she means people you meet in passing at the store, uber drivers, door to door salesman, etc.

i think we all lie as humans or at the very least stretch the truth. someone asks you how you’re feeling and you say “good” when you’re actually feeling terrible blah blah blah.

but for those who intentionally create small or grand stories for shits and gigs…what’s that like? i wanna walk around in your brain for a bit.

from an astrological perspective i believe it stems from the desire to keep the peace and not rock the boat so to speak (although we know y’all get active when you feel you’re being taken advantage of!). they tell people what they wanna hear. i think libras are actually really good at understanding human behavior. also sometimes just to be considered likeable or interesting to others.

(anyways these are all my personal thoughts and opinions based off my personal experiences. for those who fall into the “i’m a libra and i hate liars.” category, skip this one. liars, this a safe space i promise. speak your truth!)

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cancer mars ⋆.˚

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i’m definitely a believer of the degree theory. i turned 22 this year…my saturn is at 22°… and i just received my first jury summons. 😀

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i’m also realizing that i listen to rap by a lot of saturn ruled/earth sign women. it’s always either their sun, moon, or venus. it’s just something about their music that makes me feel so powerful and confident.

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me coming home after being out all day…

my leo 4th house: why is no one clapping rn? 😕

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just thinking about how charli and meg, sister signs, created the moments and movements that were “hot girl summer” and “brat summer”. they’ve both made history. girlies will be in their 50s still talking about it and referring to stuff as “hot girl” this and “brat” that. sister signs…just shows you can’t have one without the other, love it. :)

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anyone else have the north node transiting their 12h rn? how’s your experience so far? also currently conjunct my lilith exactly and the dreams i had last night were :(

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rantings and observations

something i’ve noticed about having a capricorn mc: i’ve had better interactions with male bosses/supervisors than with the female bosses i’ve had in the past. i hesitate to even say this because of the fear of sounding like a “pick me” and because it goes against the five cancer placements that i have (four of them being personal placements). it definitely goes against and opposes what i feel is my truer nature.

in my personal life i prefer to surround myself with other women/feminine people. i prefer that kind of energy. though when i’m in a work environment/space i’ve found that my experiences and interactions with women haven’t been the same. my experience with female colleagues and supervisors has been: them thinking i dislike or even hate them. them feeling the need to regulate and monitor my emotions/moods (this is just my face…blame my taurus rising), being mothered or “are you ok’d” to high heaven, this energy of being in competition with one another (which goes against my libra 6h), and things of that nature.

while i value that kind of emotional awareness and intelligence in my personal life/relationships, it’s not what i need in my work life. the energy and mindset that i have when it comes to work is “let’s all just get along, respect each other, and do what what we need to do”, yk? making it your job to regulate my moods is not gonna be fun for anyone, trust me. and that’s not at all to say i’m against making friends and networking (gemini 2h). having friends and people i feel i can depend on at work is honestly what gets me through the day a lot of the time. i guess the energy i bring when it comes to work is just different.

i also acknowledge that there’s layers to it. as women we’re conditioned and socialized to be that way in pretty much all areas of our lives, so i try not to take it personally. with male/masculine coworkers/supervisors my experience has been: they don’t gaf. and even when they do they keep it surface level. which ik has a lot to do with how they were socialized and conditioned. still it’s just easier? and while i’m a human who has their days (as one does despite the capitalist society we live in) and my cancerian nature, i still prefer to not get/make things emotional or personal all the time. not asking for sociopathy here, just space? boundaries??

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this is so pisces venus of her, i love it.

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the moon is transiting my 8th house rn and the existential crisis/spiral is reallll. like i have a whole rough draft due midnight and i’m in here balling my eyes out, philosophizing to the wall.

realizing i am not someone who likes questioning themselves as much as do others :))) like i think enough as it is. was not prepared to get this introspective with myself on a monday night. 💀

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kendrick is kinda known for prophesizing in his songs about god, his relationship with him and religion, reincarnation, and being a prophet. “rapping like you bout to get the slaves freed”…all par the course for a 9th house sun, mercury, and mars person. but this song has really become a favorite of mine. the story he tells about his past lives and present (and with that tupac flow) honestly brings me to tears. like, bring back storytelling in rap and hip hop!

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this mercury retrograde is really in effect with all these glitches and errors. had a girl thinking i wouldn’t be able to enroll in classes or pay for them this semester 😀