#dysphoric baz?

[artqueen02]

I was suprised by the lack of genderbent snowbaz for the wlw coc prompt so I made a thing. I litterally wrote this in half an hour, and it hasnt been BETA'd or proofread so its really short thats fun.

Cw: brief mention of breasts but in like a very non-sexual way

also dysphoria ig?

It went sorta angsty i swear that was not intended

anyways under the cut

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Baz

Crowley I hate this so much. 

My hair is too long. And I cant get comfortable with these infernal breasts. Aleister Crowley. 

Some fourth year was trying to help their friend with a transitioning spell and completely butcherd it and  now everyone on campus is cursed with being in the wrong body for a day. 

Though I suppose for some it would be the right body. For some it would be more of a blessing than a curse.

Not for me.

Snow is sitting next to me, raking his (Her? His.) fingers through my hair and trying to convince me that its all going to be okay. Aleister Fucking Crowley, Snow, of course its not going to be okay, this is an absolute disaster. 

What if it dosent go away after a day?

“Hey, Baz, love? This is all gonna work out, you know? The spell will wear off after a day - maybe two at the longest - and everything will be back to normal - no, not Normal just normal”

I don’t respond

“Love? We should probably get up and get dressed now, hey? We have to get to class”

Merlin and Morganna I dont have any clothes. I make no effort to move, there’s no way I’m going to class today. 

“Okay love, you can stay here, but I’m going to go to classes today, okay?”

He moves arround the room, getting ready for the day. Once hes ready to leave, he stops by my bed. 

“Is it alright if I kiss you?”

“Yeah” No

He kisses me, and its all wrong. Nothing’s the right shape, nothing fits. I pull away and hide under my quilts. (Because I’m pathetic) (Ask anyone).

“Alright, love. Im gonna head off now okay? I’ll check in on you between clasess, if you want to talk about anything, let me know, alright?”

[nonbaznary]

masterlist - 🌸 Carry-on sapphic week & Transmages Prompt fest 🏳️‍⚧️

yup, its finally here! whew! wanted to get this done before i posted the official @trans-mages prompt fest masterlist. here we go then!

🌸 Day 1 • PROMPTS: coming out

mordelia coming out to baz meme sketch lol

posted on day 4; meme inspired by my nonbinary lesbian mordelia coming out fic 🏳️‍⚧️

🌸 Day 2 • PROMPTS: first / quiet

she's making me feel like this, 1K (T for language)

watford era ebbiona, feelings realization, Nicodemus & Fiona friendship (ao3 only)

+ bonus ebbiona art (also on ao3)

🌸 Day 3 • PROMPTS: pride / warmth

'fuck off homophobes' Fiona sketch

kerixie 'dressing up' art (also on ao3)

🌸 Day 5 • PROMPTS: watford / sentimental

paper airplanes, 2/2 chapters, 3.4K (Gen)

🏳️‍⚧️ watford era mitlucy, anonymous letters + secret admirer AU, trans best friends to lovers (ao3 only)

brobelove / brodylove watford goat art (also on ao3)

🌸 Day 6 • PROMPTS: gift / history (applied very loosely, i must say!)

the person of my dreams, 1/2 chapters, 1.4K (Gen)

Natasha x Daphne, wedding proposals, marriage magic, side ebbiona and Mitali x Lucy (ao3 only) (i'm working on ch2 i promise!! hah)

🏳️‍⚧️ bonus watford era t4t mitlucy art (also on ao3)

🌸 inspired by @carry-on-sapphic-week Day 5 • PROMPTS: watford / sentimental

🏳️‍⚧️ make it last forever, 705 words (Gen) + art

🌸 Day 7 • PROMPTS: home / comfort

Ebb x Lucy, warm and fuzzy feelings, baby dragon Simon Snow Salisbury playing with the winged watford goats because I CAN, domestic bliss, fuck the mage (ao3 only) prompt by @punkjuliandiaz / @aqueeriano

🏳️‍⚧️ bloody hell (genderqueer Nicodemus + t4t ebbiona)

content warning: mentions of dysphoria and menstruation (also on ao3)

i also have three WIPs that will be posted during transmagesweek since i couldn't get them all finished for the prompt fest! felt like including them here as a preview:

["TBA"] (aforementioned "mordelia coming out" fic)

🌸 inspired by @carry-on-sapphic-week Day 4 • PROMPTS: family / storm

teen nonbinary lesbian Mordelia navigating her first relationship (and its problems), exploring her gender identity, and having issues with coming out 🏳️‍⚧️

"i like your chest..."

Baz comforts Simon when he's feeling dysphoric about his chest.

they/them genderqueer Baz, he/him & zie/zir nonbinary transmasc Simon 🏳️‍⚧️

content warning: general mentions of dysphoria and b00biez

Fastidious and precise (wanna try?)

for @aroace-genderfluid-sheep's prompt <3

Baz and Simon take an evening off to treat themselves. Make-up shenanigans and confessions ensue.

they/them nonbinary Baz, he/him genderfluid Simon 🏳️‍⚧️

[thoriffix]

🖊

time for just. Various Oc Lore Dump

baz had a Massive crush on marianna when they first met n it made things awkward for a bit bc he is Physically Incapable of hiding that fact (cant hide emotions when ur face betrays em), but after a while n a couple tough convos he eventually moved on and theyre besties now

arlos parents died when he was around 9, meaning he had to move in with his godmother, a sad main box living in the city (he'd spent his childhood on his parents farm). his godmother was fairly old so he fell into a bit of a caretaker role, but she loved him a lot and supported him when he came out at 18. he did spend a lot of his teenage years massively depressed and dysphoric, and he still struggles with frequent depressive episodes, but hes in a much better place now

ko is super close to her family, and when she moved away from college she got a tattoo of 5 stars on her shoulder blade, for her parents and three siblings. she video calls them a lot!

[ajfanfic]

I was cleaning out my computer because I need to get a new one (and I’m switching google accounts cause my current one makes me dysphoric!) and I got nostalgic about these mood boards from the 8th grade.

1. Dean/Cas from Twist and Shout (anyone else still emotional over that?)

2. Simon and Baz from Carry On (I haven’t gotten around to the sequel yet)

3. Princess Allura, from Voltron (which I stopped watching before it got bad)

4. Ginny Weasly, from Harry Potter (which I continue to enjoy elements of while reading more critically than when I was 8)

5. Nico and Will from Percy Jackson (Rick brought the revolution to us young)

6. Leonard Snart from DCTV (which I still occasionally watch, because it is bad)

[thetransmedtruscum]

Idk what assigned female at birth, female-aligned nonbinary people are dysphoric about? like i REALLY dont know. Also how can you be a nonbinary lesbian??? Lesbians are females who like females, and just cuz you are female aligned doesn’t make you a lesbian?? Femininity doesn’t equal female, literally that just feeds into gender roles

They’re generally not dysphoric, that’s the thing. Most AFAB NB’s are just cis girls trying to be trendy (barf), and some are transmen in denial.

- mod Baz

[ao3feed-snowbaz]

I Guess I Wanted To

read it on the AO3 at http://ift.tt/2yQts5w

by juiceboxjellyfish

Baz is trans and nobody knows. Simon accidentally finds out, and lots of things happen.

AKA Baz is trans and Simon fights homophobes

Words: 3234, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Fandoms: Carry On - Rainbow Rowell

Rating: General Audiences

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Categories: M/M

Characters: Simon Snow, Tyrannus Basilton "Baz" Pitch, Penelope Bunce, Agatha Wellbelove, Trixie (Simon Snow)

Relationships: Snowbaz - Relationship, Tyrannus Basilton "Baz" Pitch/Simon Snow, Tyrannus Basilton "Baz" Pitch & Simon Snow

Additional Tags: SnowBaz, trans baz, Enemies to Friends to Lovers, Baz pov, Simon's POV, tw transphobia, Dysphoria, I'm gonna make all your faves gay and there's nothing you can do about it, LGBTQ, Minor Angst, I started writing this because I was feeling dysphoric and also wanted to write snowbaz idk, hope someone likes it, this was supposed to be really short and kinda angst but ended up 3k with a happy ending, that's just how it is, i can't stand to see these boys sad

read it on the AO3 at http://ift.tt/2yQts5w

[sunshinequeer]

It’s been hot and humid and I’m dying so have some trans!amis in the heat headcanons

• Bahorel has taken to just wearing his binder and overalls, calling it his Signature Summer Look. He likes having the chance to wear his more fun designed binders though and gets a lot of compliments • Enjolras started a group chat with Baz, Jehan, Chetta, Cosette, Feuilly, and Grantaire to share survival tips and also discuss the possibility of starting a fundraiser for trans and nb people to get things like proper swimwear that won’t make them dysphoric and things like binders with velcro/zippers cause they’re safer in hot months • Jehan bought everyone cute water bottles to have with them at all times and sends the chat texts every morning reminding everyone they really need to actually use them • Cosette took Chetta shopping after realizing she didn’t have any clothes that made her comfortable for hot weather and made sure she wonderful with everything she got • Feuilly’s battle with having a sunburn on his entire torso except for what his half binder covers ends the moment Jehan introduces a sunscreen that Actually works and doesn’t feel gross on him • Grantaire shows off his top surgery scars for the first summer ever and it’s difficult to get a shirt back on him • Alot of days spent on someone’s porch eating fruit and comfortably being in each other’s company for hours discussing everything from upcoming pride events, to protests, to “do you really think I have the feet for sandals though” “yes let me paint your nails” • Any outdoor activity though ends at Cosette’s house, who blessedly has air conditioning (as well as aloe plants) and allows everyone to stop sweating just for a bit

[transfagholmes]

I was tagged in this A-Z ask meme by the amazing @beckettsthoughts Thanks, these are fun

RULES: Copy this post into a new text post, remove my answers and put in yours. When you are done, tag up to 10 people and also tag the person who tagged you, and most importantly, have fun!

A) Age: Um, old enough to be on the site, too young to drive

B) Biggest fear: Isolation and being alone forever. That or spiders, those creepy bastards

C) Current time: 19:51

D) Drink you last had: Hot chocolate. That was the last interesting drink i had, but now I’m drinking water so

E) Every day starts with: Figuring out how much sleep I got then fixing my hair and eating cereal

F) Favourite song at the moment: Gods, I can’t pick one, how do you expect me to pick one? Shadowplay, Tranquilize and Bones by The Killers, Big Beautiful Day by PWR BTTM and Yesterday by Imagine Dragons

G) Ghosts. Are they real?: Nope, but it’d be interesting if they were

H) Hometown: Athy

I) In love with?: Baz, obviously. Also Peter Nureyev/Noah Symes

J) Jealous of?: Older trans guys, with their flat chests, deep voices and facial hair. Also people in general, everyone is so much better than me

L) Last time you cried: A while ago I was feeling very dysphoric so I listened to sad songs and cried on the floor for half an hour

M) Middle name: Phoenix

N) Number of siblings: Two younger sisters (the youngest being a half sister), one younger brother and one older brother

O) One wish: Testostrone

P) Person you last called/texted: A groupchat with the squad

Q) Questions you are always asked: I don’t know, “how are you?” I guess. The response is always “well if you wanted honesty that’s all you had to say,”

R) Reasons to smile: The Killers are a band that exist, happy stims, beautiful people, Baz Pitch, books, Peter Darling by Austin Chant

S) Song you last sung: Smile Like You Mean It by The Killers, but The Man just came on so

T) Time you woke up: 9 o’clock, which is really early for me but I had places to go

U) Underwear colour: Blue, and a white binder

V) Verse from a song you like: God, it’s so hard to pick one song but,

I was a sexy little viper ruin In the corner of a King Tut tomb When the hate train started Going “Choo-choo.” I was a rat on a burning ship When we sunk, our fire got put out It was just like the great plague It’s like the birth of underwear Hey dude I hate everything you do But I’m trying really hard to not hate you Hating you won’t make you suck any less

This is from the song Kokopelli Face Tatto by AJJ, it’s one of my favourite songs of theirs, listen to it!!! (Also there’s three verses here but i love this song so shut up)

W) Worst habit: Picking at my skin

X) X-rays you’ve had: One on my hand when I was 9

Y) Your favourite food: Pasta probably. With cheese

Z) Zodiac sign: Scorpio.

I’m going to tag @martin-du-creff @the-ghost-of-helena @a-dinosaur-created-earth @leaving-my-body @therearelizardsinthepudding no pressure though.

[basil-s0up]

Please Read

Hey there, I'm Baz, an aro-ace trans man. For a long time now, I've been looking through for communities for support for and from my fellow aces, aros and trans people. But time and time again I've run into the same thing. Demisexuals. Grey-aromantics. Nano-genders. etc, etc, etc. People who have no business being in those spaces, shanghaiing their way in and effectively taking over. And if you try to speak up against it, you get shouted down and thrown out of the place that was supposed to be your support.

And I must say, I'm tired of it. So, since I couldn't find the place that I needed, I decided to create it. So far I have set up IRC channels and am working on setting up forums on Voat, with the intent to one day set up a full website for them.

These places explicitly ban aro/ace "spectrum" sexualities and non-dysphorics. They are 18+ only, and I will endeavor to keep them as censorship free as possible.

If you're interested in joining or would like more info, send me a message/ask and I'll provide the channel names. I'm also currently looking for mods for the IRC and eventually the forum, preferably ones with experience.

I look forward to meeting you all!

[ao3feed-carryon]

I Guess I Wanted To

read it on the AO3 at http://ift.tt/2yQts5w

by juiceboxjellyfish

Baz is trans and nobody knows. Simon accidentally finds out, and lots of things happen.

AKA Baz is trans and Simon fights homophobes

Words: 3234, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Fandoms: Carry On - Rainbow Rowell

Rating: General Audiences

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Categories: M/M

Characters: Simon Snow, Tyrannus Basilton "Baz" Pitch, Penelope Bunce, Agatha Wellbelove, Trixie (Simon Snow)

Relationships: Snowbaz - Relationship, Tyrannus Basilton "Baz" Pitch/Simon Snow, Tyrannus Basilton "Baz" Pitch & Simon Snow

Additional Tags: SnowBaz, trans baz, Enemies to Friends to Lovers, Baz pov, Simon's POV, tw transphobia, Dysphoria, I'm gonna make all your faves gay and there's nothing you can do about it, LGBTQ, Minor Angst, I started writing this because I was feeling dysphoric and also wanted to write snowbaz idk, hope someone likes it, this was supposed to be really short and kinda angst but ended up 3k with a happy ending, that's just how it is, i can't stand to see these boys sad

read it on the AO3 at http://ift.tt/2yQts5w

[thetransmedtruscum]

i really fucking hate showering because of how dysphoric it makes me but at least it gives me the chance to cover my entire body with a fuck ton of AXE shower gel so i can walk out of the shower smelling like the hormonal middle school boy that has been trapped in this fucking body for a long time

Mood

Though I’m more of an Old Spice man myself.

- mod Baz

[thetransmedtruscum]

I have been well.. a trans guy for several years. I'm even on t and everything. But lately I've been just.. I can't tell if it's because I'm depressed or what. I feel really dysphoric a lot about not being a man.. but like.. ugh it's hard to explain. I just think that I could maybe force myself to be a girl if I tried hard enough because all of this crap I'm going through in transitioning doesn't seem worth it. I don't even know if I'll be happy after I'm done so what's even the point anymore...

I think it would be best if you talked to a professional about this nonnie. Depression is a bitch, and it loves to lie to us. It *is* worth it, and so are you.

Sending good vibes your way

- mod Baz

[thetransmedtruscum]

If you don't mind, can you explain transsexual vs transgender? I never understood it.

Technically, there is no difference. Transsexual was the original term to refer to people with gender dysphoria, but that changed to transgender later, because of:

1. The stigma attached to the term

2. People confusing it with other terms like transvestite, and

3. It sounds like a sexuality, which only serves to make things more confusing.

Older trans people tend to use it still, because that’s what they always called themselves.Nowadays, a lot of transmeds are going back to transsexual because of the NEW stigma brought about by tucutes (oh the irony).

Not everyone is happy with this, because of the same reasons as above, hence the creation of new terms, like Transsex, ADT (actually dysphoric trans) and the newest, NSDD (neurological sex divergence disorder).

But they all basically mean the same thing: a person who experiences clinically significant sex dysphoria.

- mod Baz

[thetransmedtruscum]

its kind of funny. i was never really gnc as a child, more gender didn't matter to me? like, i would talk to my dad while he was pissing and when he would try to make me leave to hide his dick, i'd say "what, everyone has that." I even tried peeing standing up because of it. I would id with boys in video games more, but i also loved dolls and playing with makeup. My dysphoria didnt kick in until i was 10 and started puberty. people talk about being dysphoric at like 1, but nah, not for me.

Same, nonny. It’s actually a lot more common for dysphoria to kick in during puberty than people think. Little kids’ bodies are pretty much the same externally afterall. If you ask other trans peeps who have suffered from mental illness when that started, so many will tell you it started in their early teenage years, regardless of whether they knew if was dysphoria or not. Coincidence? Sadly, no.

- mod Baz

[thetransmedtruscum]

My binder shrunk to the point where I can’t wear it without being unable to eat or breathe properly and I’m so dysphoric hhhh

Noooooooooo, you poor thing!

Is it possible to get another one? There are programs out there to help you if you can’t afford one on your own.

- mod Baz