#dunnot like me face

[zialinart]

i'm considering doing the "tattoo myself everyday for a year" challenge and like film it and open a tik tok account for that but sooo much work and i'm too old for this shit

[hikarry]

Aziraphale, when he learns how to use a phone, is going to be like those moms that follow their kids around with a camera and take pictures constantly even though you beg them to stop

His phone is filled with 80% shaky pictures of Crowley, 10% actually nice pictures of Crowley taken at random times in random places, 5% selfis that Crowley forces him to take and 5% photos of their ducks

"Angel?"

"Mhm?"

"Can you hand me your phone? I have no idea where I put mine. I thought I left it in the garden but-" Aziraphale puts the phone in his hand, ever without taking his eyes off his book. "Thanks."

There's a second of silence. Maybe two.

"Aziraphale, what in the Heavens? Is this me covered in bloody flour? When the fuck did you take this?"

"Ah!" Finally he takes his eyes off the book, taking off his glasses and smiling up at his companion. "When you were trying to make those éclaires last weekend. You looked very fetshing all focused and determined. I could not contain myself."

"Angel. The only reason why I know it's me it's because there's a blur of red in the white and black! You can't see shit! And you have like..." Crowley stops for a second, scrolling on the phone. "13 more photos exactly like this one!"

"Do I?" Aziraphale gets up and looks over the demon's shoulder, surreptitiously laying one of his hands on Crowley's hip. "Look, here." He scrolls a bit down and opens another picture. "Here you look just fine. Very handsome."

"Yes. Because I was the one holding the camera for us to take the picture at the café." He swipes right. "See? Again! The only reason you know this is me it's because it's a red and black blur! Do you have Parkinson or something? Why in the name of all thats unholy can you not stabilize the phone before snapping pictures?"

Aziraphale abruptly lets go of Crowley.

"I dunnot have Parkinson! I'm an angel! It is completely impossible for either of us to get any type of sickness!" He crosses his arms over his chest. "It is not my fault if the phone is large and my corporation has small hands."

"Oh!" Crowley turns around to face Aziraphale. "Oh oh oh!" And pokes him in the forehead. "I know those hands, angel. I've seen them holding something quite large last night and they were surely not shaking." The angel gasps. "Am I lying? Because I don't believe I'm lying. I would know if you were shaking, Aziraphale." He pokes him again. "Don't bullshit me with having tiny hands. Your hands are just fine."

Aziraphale rips the cellphone off Crowley's hands.

"I'm never taking another picture of you. Ever!"

Crowley snorts.

"Yeah. Let's see how long that lasts, shall we?"

It lasted 8 hours and 28 minutes. In Aziraphale's defense, it was not his fault. Crowley just looked so freaking adorable sleeping with his head on his lap! And yes, the photo was nothing but a blur.

[hikarry]

Oooooh this looks so fun!! Thanks for the tag!!

Crowley

Genderfluid

Abused by mother figure

(Therefore) Extreme mother issues

Self-punishment

Mostly wear black clothes

Need to always look put together

Extremely dramatic

Sarcasm as a coping mechanism

Resting bitch face

Guard dog energy

When I'm angry and people step on my toe, I explode very easily

I'm extremely over protective over my loved ones

I love space

I'm addicted to caffeine

Queen is my favorite band, and I'm low-key obcessed with Freddie Mercury

Love rock and jazz

Love love love vintage cars

Can't and won't sit straight ever. My gay card doesn't allow it

Pretend to be aloof and like nothing affects me when I get hurt quite easily

Self-sabotaging

Religious trauma

Trust issues

Too much heart that will be my downfall one day

I like children. As long as they are not mine

Anxiety ball that's ready to explode

I've had extremely long hair, but now it's very short

Futurely, I will have his tattoo, so I guess it counts

I prioritize style over comfort clothes wise

I'm kinda low-key obcessed with my hair

I try to, at least, be polite to everyone

I'm an optimist and believe everything will work out in the end because something or the universe itself is looking out for me

I dunnot forgive. I dunnot forget

Suffer in silence

Never cry in front of people

A romantic, even though I'm very bad with words

Acts of service is my love language

Wouldn't mind an Aziraphale to spoil rotten with dinners and fancy outings and to walk me like a dog

Creative

Extremely good at improvising, thinking on my feet, and bullshitting my way through situations

Can and will use my silver tongue into nudging people to do what I want when I need it

Aziraphale

I wish I had a private library

I'm always reading

Love myself some classical music

Extremely stubborn

Once again, the religious trauma

I collect books

I talk a lot with my hands, but that's probably because I'm Portuguese

I try to be nice to everyone and a good person as much as I can, but some people awaken the bitch in me

Almost certainly neurodivergent, but undiagnosed - so far

There's a reason why I identify with Crowley, lads. And that reason is because I've never met a fictional character that's so much like me. I just love him so much

Tags: @crikey01 @mostnormalaziraphaleliker @theonevoice

Good omens tag game

Name two things you have in common with Aziraphale and two things you have in common with Crowley

More reasons to love them!

Crowley

1.- Taste for black clothes and... I WANT TO BELIEVE that I look good too

2.- I love Aziraphale Dramatic

Aziraphale

1.- I love books

2.- Stubborn. Really stubborn

No pressure tags: @fearandhatred @bildads-shoes @harbinger-of-existential-dread @di-42 @sayeverythingwillbefineplease

And of course, open tags!

[just-like-playing-tag]

A Letter from Norman reactions

Tonight I was feeling like reorganizing the notes I took after reading the novel for the first time. Just some random personal reactions I had after reading it; if anything catches your attention and you'd like to know more about a particular event from the novel, please feel free to ask and I'll be happy to help!!!

Under the cut because it's l o n g. That is, if Tumblr allows me to add a "read more", which has never happened before, but I'll keep hoping in it.

• Disclaimer: I'm suing anyone who ever said that the novel is all about NorEmma. I've literally put off reading it because I didn't want to get into something overly romantic while there's??? Nearly nothing about it that is romantic??????? Just a slight mention in that last chapter and that's it???????? Why are y'all like this

Prologue

• I need you all to know that the important letter™ through which Norman informed Emma about his plan starts with him describing the weather. I just think it's a relevant information.

• Ok I'm at freaking page 1 of “A letter from Norman” and. NORMAN IT'S A FREAKING LETTER TO EMMA NOT A SHAKESPEAREAN PLAY THERE'S LITERALLY NO REASON TO BE THIS POETIC

Maybe, I would get it if it was directed to Ray, but to Emma?????

Chapter 1

• Emma in 2038: Let's befriend ghosts

Emma in 2047: let's befriend demons

Seems like a logic consecution to me

• Ok but why has nobody ever mentioned the extremely precious Emma / Gilda moments in the novel???? My heart was completely melting that was the most adorable thing I've ever read??????

• The way Norman is constantly in awe of Ray is so adorable... Baby is so sweet I swear, he deserves the world

Chapter 2

• OK BUT THE SWEET EXCHANGE between Ray and Isabella before him and Emma go out at night?????? Ray is so pure is swear... He's a precious baby who didn't deserve all the shit he went through.

Reporting it in case anyone's curious; for context, Norman is sick, and Emma wants to go out look for a flower that she's read is going to help him feel better. Emma and Ray are convinced that Norman is going to die because babies are just that dramatic, and easily impressionable as well. They're seven here.

“ «Ray, I'm counting on you!»

Isabella pressed an hand on the boy's shoulder, who turned his face to her and diligently nodded, before continuing: «Differently from Emma, I don't think the flower is going to help Norman heal».

«What do you mean?»

«However, it's better than having to sit back and watch without doing anything. I too, like her, want him to heal as soon as possible.»

«Sure, I understand...» ”

NOW that hits so hard. You have to understand, this is after Ray had made the deal with Isabella. He had already started to plan the escape. In this occasion, he was on a very thin line: alone at night with Emma, outside the House, a child who knew the truth. Isabella knew those were the right conditions for him to attempt an escape, so she decided to test his loyalty; one misstep, and their deal - which was fundamental for the escape Ray was planning - would have ended.

But at the same time, Ray needed to go. Because, just like Emma, he just couldn't stand to lose Norman. And to see these three children caring so deeply about each other even at such a young age makes me honestly bawl. This is quite certainly my favorite thing from this series. And Ray deserves the world.

• Ray was so determined to save his two friends, he even considered for a moment, in the woods, to tell Emma the truth about the orphanage. I find it very nice how the novel hinted of all these times Ray almost revealed the truth, it really puts emphasis on how he was trying to find the best moment for the escape- but it also hints to how desperate he was to share this grievous burden he was forced to carry for the longest time.

• “ Ray, you must keep on living, Norman whispered to himself like a prayer. ”

I'm... I'M 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

Doesn't help the fact that this bit was literally at the end of pages of Norman praising Ray and how brave he had been for so long.

• “ Nobody in the House would have wanted for Ray to pay with his life to amend the silence of all those years. ”

I love this bit. Nobody between the children ever hated Ray for speechlessly assisting to dozens of his siblings being lead to death, because they all immediately understood how much he was suffering, how powerless he must had felt, and also, even though it only led to him being even more hurt, how deeply he loved them all. It's really nice to realize that no children ever hated Ray- no one besides from himself. His siblings love him unconditionally, and that's precisely what he deserves 🤧🤧💕💕💕

• Norman: *adventures in a detailed description of Ray's features and gestures for no other apparent reason than the fact that he finds him pretty*

Chapter 3

• Ok I know people use to see Ray and Susan's interactions under the light of Ray having a crush on her but honestly? I think they make the cutest brotp. I never knew how much I needed Ray-having-an-older-sister content untill now.

• For real though!! What hits you really hard is to find out, even though he would had never ever showed it, how desperate he was to have somebody care about him, and to be loved. He literally grieves for losing someone that looks after him and is there to check on him in his lowest days- we know it's the thing Isabella never gave him. Man, this boy didn't deserve all the shit that happened to him. Tpn may have become an old known story for me, but Ray's sufferings in his early age will never stop tearing my heart apart.

• Ok, I wasn't ready for all this angst on Ray's part. I mean, I obviously know GF were hard times for him, but I didn't expect for him to take over the pov. Sis, how wrong I was. Now I'm crying.

• Coming to the realization that Ray's initial plan actually was to bring everyone in the escape, but he clearly had to give up on it after having realized it would have been impossible to save them 🥺🥺🥺

(I mean it was not impossible. He believed it was. But it wasn't.)

• Ok but. The last part of the Ner chapter. I really don't want to spoil it for anyone because it really was a beautiful chapter but I really need to say: Emma and Norman. The way it wasn't just Ray always being there for them, protecting them from afar; no matter their blissful ignorance, they have always been there for him too. They never abandoned that lonely boy, and they made it so that he could have a last reason not to give up. A single, dim light of hope in that pitch black, devastating world he was born in. I may or may not be crying my eyes out.

(Btw I had written this before the Ray special chapter came out, and it's kinda funny to look back at it now)

• The thing with the Ner chapter is: you enter in it after reading two chapters of normal, wholesome children's stories. There's a dark undertune in it, but it's very subtle and it doesn't interfere with the happy, cheerful atmosphere of these children facing adventures together with each other. But then the Ner chapter strikes, and the Ray pov arrives, and it's like being beaten with a bat in the stomach several times. Deep down, you had always known it; but you suddenly realize that all these children are going to die. And, even worse, there's one child who knows. There's one child who has to assist to everything powerlessly. There's one child, one freaking-nine-years-old who knows that all his siblings are going to die, and there's nothing he can do. That a single mistake could ruin the chances of making just two of his siblings survive, which is everything he's hanging to right now. One child who only needs to be loved. Well that... That hits hard.

Me expressing my thoughts: girl this form is shit you can't write something that is understandable to save your life can you

• Also can we please appreciate Norman taking so long to get out of the forest as it's a recurrent characterizzation of his character to be desperately willing to live just *French chef kiss*

• I really like how the novel underlined how Norman's choice of sacrificing himself corresponded to a betrayal toward his friends (when you think about it, Emma definitely felt betrayed). It's almost like in his last moments Norman chose to switch roles with Ray, taking on his shoulders the burden of being both the traitor and the sacrifice.

Chapter 4

• Norman: * “ He instinctively closed his eyes and abandoned himself to the sweet memory of that time he understood how deeply loved he was. ” *

Somewhere, Ray: Can't relate

• Emma: Norman, what you want to do when you grow up?

Norman: It's a secret.

Me:

• “ Ray woke up before everyone, as usual. ”

A remarkable detail. You'd think Ray, as a good depressed person as he is, would sleep more than the average. The truth is: he doesn't sleep at all.

• Norman: There's... Another person I like

Me:

• OK NOW WHY did none tell me about the nine (9) lines of Norman / Don interacting it was worth reading the novel solely for that.

• WHY DID NONE TELL ME ABOUT DON ALMOST STRANGLING NORMAN AND MAKING HIM LITERALLY PASS AWAY IT WAS TOTALLY WORTH READING THE NOVEL SOLELY FOR THAT

• Reading about Conny being there hurts a lot but reading about Sadie and Hao brings up a totally different kind of pain. Also who the hell is Cindy?

• Norman: Oh yes, Emma and Ray, my most dear friends, my closest siblings, the reason I wake up in the morning, my only reason to live, the ones I'd entrust my life with,

Also Norman: Dunnot in the last thirteen hours and six minutes they have been acting pretty sus, I'm kinda sure they're betraying me somehow ://

• “ «I agree, but it feels like you've fallen down a rabbit hole. You're restless, you constantly look off...» said the raven haired boy, distorting his mouth in an hardly intelligible grimace and giving his friend a meaningful look.

«Norman, about that mysterious girl...»

«No, you're mistaken! I...»

Norman, filled with frustration, raised up his voice, starting to lose the coolness that was usually characteristic of him.

«But I haven't said anything yet!»

That being said Ray, with slightly mocking doing, turned on his feet and went away, leaving Norman like that. ”

I LOVE THIS BIT SO INEXPLICABLY MUCH I'm always *so* in for Oreo finishing each other sentences / reading each other's thoughts. Here, Norman answered Ray's question before he could even expose it, because he already knew what it would have been. Equally, Ray knew what Norman was going to say even though he cut his answer halfway through.

I love how much on the same page they are, they really... Totally and fully understand each other even without words, and I find it so sweet. Seriously, their dynamic is so wholesome

• Norman's last birthday gift: the thing that matters the most to him: his family's happiness

Emma's reward: the thing that matters the most to her: her family's happiness

Some things hit harder than others.

• I don't know like. When you read the novel after the series has ended, everything hurts so much more, because you know these are all memories Emma has lost forever.

• So you made colorful clothing by "coloring old clothes"? Have fun realizing y'all have celebrated Norman's birthday wearing your dead siblings' clothes

Bonus this epic note I randomly took I completely forgot the context of:

• Isabella is a bitch. I don't give a fuck about your dramatic past woman, leave that boy alone

(When the protect Ray mood hits™)

[coralsgrimes]

For me personally, if the love song covers are meant to tell a story about Bulianne love the large majority have to fit. It kind of defeats the purpose to disregard the ones that don’t fit ya kno? Bc then it just becomes cherry picking based off of what we think the story is.

So let’s start w the big one. A Song for You. Name of his ep as well as what really made ppl think it was for a girl bc of his caption of “Yes! For You!” That song is about a man reminiscing on a love that he lost bc he “treated her unkindly.” He didn’t get back to LA till March, I just don’t see Ben falling in love with her, losing her bc he fucked it up and pining this hard in the span of 1.5 months all while she’s still publicly with her husband. Frankly idt Ben was ever in a position to “treat her unkindly.”

Then let’s get into the 11/2020-3/21 timeline where most Buliannes believe they were together and we got JH filing for divorce, Montana and a pap walk. I think those songs should be important. But the two we got Last Christmas and Where is the Love, neither fit. They’re both angry love songs. We actually know for sure that Ben was spending time with JH right after Xmas so why Last Christmas?

That whole song is about an ex throwing your love away and now you’re rubbing into your ex’s face you have a new girl. As far as we know there was no other girl he could use to make JH jealous. He was with her days after Xmas. JH would be the new girl in that scenario. He’s always gone for the cheerful Xmas covers too, choosing such a bitter one when he’s about to go on vaca with his boo just doesn’t make sense.

Then Where is the Love in February fits even less. That song is about being frustrated a girl won’t leave her man. JH already filed by then and had gone on a vacation with Ben. He supposedly had her in some capacity by then. Even DL thought it didn’t fit, people just brushed it aside and said well maybe she went back to Brooks, but that was backed by nothing.

I’m not saying Bulianne isn’t real twinflame love, I just don’t think half his song covers fit. So to me, the covers don’t mean much and we shouldn’t think he’s still pining over her now even if he sings more sappy love songs.

Thanks for the breakdown muffin! Good one it is lol far better than my lets see if i remember it still x.x

It's just so fucking weird with him again right? Like ye say, some do work and other don't. I like how some do fit and it brings me joy to look it up lol with the bastard ye never know tho... it's all circumstantial and bitch I'm into forensic big times lol

ALOS we dunnot know wtf happened before twin flame showed us her ways. He could have a lil flings here and there, there was Peyton (question mark) and weeks in Hungarian mud mixed together in 2019 sooo maybe Jules was the new cool girl? we should pray for his standards if fairy queen was the theoretical upgrade lol

I think the recent covers were more to show him up as an singer and that he goes for classics and for new shit, so there is a range. And they are love songs cuz this is already his established brand?? seriously lol now he is just showing off

[just-like-playing-tag]

I would write this in the tags but? Turns out Tumblr has a limit to the number of tags? So here comes me rambling about this beautiful piece of art (in dots because the comments were ment to be tags):

•Op trying to kill me with this beautiful art can you believe it

•Ok but THIS????? THIS is ????? Gorgeous????? Astonishing?????? Mesmerizing?????????

•Op is so good at using colors!!!!! They all match and fuse together so well they make such a pretty effect

It's so beautiful it almost makes me forget how angsty the whole thing is (almost)

•I love /so much/ Emma's peaceful expression!!!! So calm, smooth and secure... This Emma healed all my anxieties.

•Ok but why are Emma and Norman the only ones smiling? Is it because they have the cups? Op please explain

(OH after having written down this question three times: maybe! It could be because they both are so confident in their plans? While Ray's really the only one who menages to foresee the suffering ahead??? Lol dunnot I'm guessing)

•On the other hand probably it's not intentional but the way that a piece of string is on Ray's neck like it's about to chop his head off... Beautiful and sad at the same time can you imagine

•Ok but I love Norman's expression too it's as calm and collected as Emma's but you can also see that Norman's smirk™ behind it??? Op's a genius.

•Also the way his eyes glimmer and is checks are painted more colored and the inclination of his face dhjskshdfffjs baby boy he's so cute.

•But Ray's just. I don't know. Everything. His face. It's heartbreaking. Man.

•But then again the way that the colors come out of Ray's chest like? Flames? And reassemble a stain of blood under Emma's braid? And come from under Norman's clothes and there's a little on the corner of his mouth like! disase! Poetic cinema.

•Uhm also I love the texture of Ray's and Norman's hair and of Norman's jacket!!

•Ah and also also! I get stupidly happy when artists leave the songs they were listening while creating pieces! I always try to go and listen to them when I have time I think it's such a nice thing!!!!!!

Op thank you so much for this!!!!

Yo! So I've been out for a few weeks but I'm finally back!

Gotta admit that the songs I was listening to while drawing each of them were VERY different between them. For example: Emma's songs were Pale Machine and My Time from Bo en (awesome as heck), on the other hand I only listened to one song for Ray's drawing which is Die A Little from YUNGBLOOD (Also awesome as heck and Parents is another song I'm gonna use formynextanimaticonmynewyouubechannel haha). Finally, for Norman I actually listened to a few songs more like Ultimately from Khai dreams, The Man I used to be from the musical The Count of Monte Cristo (YO THIS MUSICAL IS SO BEAUTIFUL AND I GET SO EXCITED WITH THIS SONG) and Solamente Tú from Pablo Alborán.

[carolton-blog1]

A delayed proposal

Befuddled, Alfred tarried around the streetthe corner near the pub, waiting for Arthur to show up.

Several kids tramped along the street andinvited him to come over, but he didn’t bother a glimpse. Holding a bouquet ofred roses, Alfred was gaining a feeling rare.

‘’Oh, come on, not this time.’’ , he moanedpainfully in mind,” it’s not even a date, moron! So why would you act as ifyou’re asking for his hand!’’

Unfortunately, the thought barely eased hisanxiety.

Being slapped on the shoulder, Alfredsuddenly turned around with a dreadful look, ‘’What do you want?’’

Smirking, Arthur raised one eyebrow,’’ Whythe face? It’s just me.’’

Gently yet firmly, Alfred grasped Arthur’s hand.With an awkward smile, he handed over the roses and finally found his voice,

 ‘’How was your day?’’ Oh no that was way much worse than I thought, did I justsound like a god-damn high school graduate who would sure be turned down by hisdream girl.

‘’What were those flowers for? You arefinally going on a date? You don’t need to report me on that.’’, neglecting theprevious question, Arthur showed his patience towards the old behaviors ofAlfred—he is surely not the pub type.

Considering Alfred’s tight budget and hishabit of comic books collecting, Arthur began to feel a pain in his head.

‘’Did you waste the rest of your salary on those? It’s not even the mid of thismonth yet.’’, sighed Arthur, slowly shaking his head in a disapproving manner.

Silently admitting the accusation, Alfredfelt an urge to wipe out the anxiety on that familiarface. “ It’s just for your birthday. Oh man, you didn’t need to worry about mybudget that much.” , moaned Alfred with a decreasing level of voice, smiling anembarrassing smile.

As Arthur’s eyebrows raised, sure Alfredscratched his head, and looked with a feeling rare. Finally, he surrendered anddecided to let the cat out of the bag, “ I’d like to invite you over for adinner party, at my place. It’s not a big deal—you know—just you and me.’’

JUST DUNNOT GIVE ME THAT RIGID FACE—

I like the way your smile brightens up yourcheeks.

Though still starving and exhausted, Arthurcame to feel a bizarre relish glowing in his inner self, not as if a flock ofblue jays were singing inside his heart, but as his heart itself had turned outto be a cunning little canary after so many years’ being mistakenly treated asa cold statue.

A smile slowly crawled onto his lips, hewas a child once again. “ I see and I do.”

Be it ever so humble, Alfred’s existence isthe most splendid thing ever happened in this damned world.

Hiding a small box in his hands, Arthurdecided to delay the proposal for a moment.