#dude was quoting an interview where quinn talked about jack

[lover-of-mine]

I just watched an interview with Jack where the guy talking about Quinn being basically an older brother to him and Jack being Jack just went "he is my older brother"

[novemberdevils]

So today’s media day was Something Else like I dont really fuck with merc or rb -Ferrari all the way- and it kept me wide awake just waiting for another quote to drop so while waiting I decided to comment on the chapter.

ONTO ROUND SIX WE GO!!! -not prepared for the fact we are already on race six please never finish this fic- jack wanting to blame nico because luke is looking at him suspiciously but he can’t because it would be hypocritical of him because he was participating in it, also him thinking about sending nico a picture??? Boy calm down before you air your business to the media, omg I just pictured jack in the plane with his palm covering his neck and I laughed so hard I started my cat 😭😭, “You’re being so weird about it,” he presses. “If you just told me, dude, I’d leave you alone.” No luke if you who it was you will not be able to leave it alone believe me, jack NEEDS someone and some place where he can feel 100% comfortable in letting himself go because apart from the race pressures this also is not helping; the feeling of not belonging is wighting on him more than he thinks, god jack’s inner thoughts make my heartache for him, him comparing the hotel rooms in way; the one with nico made him feel wanted in a way that when he is alone never got and honestly reading those paragraphs a stab would have been easier to handle, jack hun believe look up the heavy blankets-still dont know the term and I can’t be bothered to search for it- it would solve a lot of the problems you have when nico isnt there to solve them for you, but like talking seriously him feeling like America is not home and neither is Monaco it makes me think about how will you tackle this because as cheesy as it sounds that yeah maybe nico could be his home but I feel like he needs to find a place that he belongs in away from him.

Jack you are fucking rich dont buy a drugstore concealer that doesn’t even match, it honestly a blessing in disguise that jack doesn’t get recognised when he is racing in America because I feel like it would be his last straw, I know they are siblings and everything but realising that jack can’t escape what he says because it would be always thrown at his face even in a lunch with his brothers hurt a tiny bit, also quinn asking jack how he feels and jack answering in a media-like answer but him not taking it as the reality because sure it might be media-like but it still is his feelings, “I think Hisch is rubbing off on him.” He is doing something alright, also jack needs to get it together when people ask him about nico because he makes it so much more suspicious,  I can’t stop watching his interview clips, because sometimes, he says something nice about me, or about my driving, oranything, and I need to hear it, really, I need there to be someone in F1 who thinks I belong there, I need him to see it, to acknowledge it, I need—“Can’t you just, like— be proud of me?”Torturing me and putting lemon and salt on my wounds would have hurt less than reading this; like genuinely didn’t even think about the fact that he might be watching him because he praise him and that feels like an acknowledgment from someone who belongs in f1 telling him yeah you can race here; like please this fucking HURTS and him having to ask to be proud of him genuine tears down my face, You’re only saying that now because I backed you into a corner. Fuck jack no💔 my god I need to hug him; THEY ARE PROUD OF YOU the people around him need to tell him that more.

ONTO ROUND SIX WE GO!! -how are we already at round 6 I don’t want this fic to end- trevor surprising jack I love that rn trevor is the only one in my good books-look I feel protective about jack leave me alone-, jack makes me sit in the dark and just overthink everything about him he is such a well written character like you have killed it!! I also sometimes feel like he missed a chance? I know his dream has always been f1 but does he watch trevor and see how much easier indy racers have it in comparison to f1 drivers? Because for me f1 feels more political sometimes and indy feels genuine, like does he feel he missed a chance by not racing trevor for example in a real race?, also jack wanting to do indy500 but he can’t even tell the press about it because as soon as he mentions anything other than f1 it would be used as a weapon against saying BREAKING jack wants out!!!, and if he were to do it and perform well,then— would that be a cause for pride, or would it just prove those idiots were right all along? Fucking hell he shouldn’t have to think like this the media is AWFUL, “Well, if you don’t age then McLaren will never drop you,” jack has some jokes this was too funny 😂😂, omg jack I JUST said you need to control your reactions to someone asking you about nico because why was your first instinct is to touch your neck and then pretend you have no fucking clue what has been said, rivals with benefits is one way to describe their mess, “Does he know you told anyone?” Trevor they are idiots 1&2 they don’t talk they just fuck and choke each other without talking limits my god those idiots are causing me a headache, why do we even have a miami gp like really?? A question I ask myself each year and still don’t have an answer, i think this is the best shot jack has ever had at winning a home race and i’m gonna be there omg you broke mine and lex’s hearts how do plead? Like lex WAS THERE how dare you do this to my queen.

The double standards of American drivers being hated on if they had their flags but Europeans are ok to do it has ALWAYS infuriated me because if you are going to hate on something hate it when everyone does it you don’t get to pick and chose who to hate when both have done the same thing, I need to know what goes through nico’s head when he sends jack his room number like does he get off of having that power over him or what?, if I was an f1 driver and ot was my home race I fear that I would land my ass into the hospital because I will get sick because of anxiety; I can barely watch Monaco this year and you are going to expect me tk race yeah jack is real for feeling nervous I get him, oh you fucking knew what you were doing making him crash I will find you and let my cat at you-she will either scratch and hiss at you or would be the sweetest girl you have seen- but no like building up the fact he is the home hero and then boom-im getting ahead of myself I need to stop-, Maybe not a world championship what can I do for you to make him win the wdc? Whatever you want it’s yours as long as you let him win please, please I fucking love the couch they always put the messiest group and I eat it every single time; but having both jack and nico is crazy behaviour from the fia they are usually too soft, Are you happy to be racing at home? No he actually hates if and doesn’t want to race there next question, “but Miami is one of my favorite tracks, so I really want to do my best out here.” AGAIN HOW DARE YOU I will be sulking about this until I get something that will make me unsulk, NICO COMPLIMENTING JACK IN FRONT OF EVERYONE???? Both of them are fucking insane thankfully they’re teammates irl and can compliment each other whenever they want, omg that whole scene about the championship is INSANE I pity the other drivers for having to deal with their asses, but the way jack finally touches on the fact that the wdc feels so much bigger than him like I need him to talk about that more without media filters at all, also him feeling how everyone’s eyes are on him so he gets nico involved so he doesn’t get the pressure of everyone watching him is kinda sweet, “I didn’t get so much shit when I was a rookie for where I was from. What we both have to prove, it isn’t the same.” Nico is fucking insane wtf is wrong with him?? “Jack, do you agree? That you both have something to prove, but also, that it is different?” Okay I will go on a rant because this fucking pissed me off; the only way it would be something different to prove is because of everyone around jack putting that on him, he never asked to be American or asked to fall in love with f1 rather than an American racing if he would be able to choose he wouldn’t choose to be belittled because of the place he was born-mind you he has lived outside of that country far more than he he didn’t- so the fact that the media and some drivers might think jack needs to prove he belongs here is stupid because he did prove it when he one in the feeding series and he proved it every time he stepped on the podium and people still question whether he belongs here or not, nico hischier: professional complimenter of his active title rival lex with banger quotes as usual, nothing about this season is real neither is the real season all of them are A Mess.

Ok this would be all for today because im getting sleepy but I will be back to my scheduled puck drop and intermission thoughts tomorrow-as long as I don’t fall asleep-.

abu dhabi has been a crazy time in the real lifes. like what is all that. but it did remind me i should include the drivers' dinner when i get to abu dhabi in my fic so thanks for that

hey we are not even a third of the way done with the fic yet... i keep thinking about that as i'm writing monaco bc once i'm done with that i've written 8/24 races aka a third. and the word count is. well. what it is. which fills me with some kind of dread probably. i have never in my life written a fic this long Hello but then again one of the only times i finished the first draft of an original novel it was nearly 200k words so maybe it was in the cards

ANYWAYS. jack wants to blame nico for everything. or just Anyone, really. it means he doesn't have to take accountability for any of the things being his fault. if he does not acknowledge the thing then the thing does not exist... which is bullshit and we all know it but he really tries. he will not be calming down every day he wakes up and digs himself an even deeper grave get ready for the nonsense that is everything jack does in imola it's all crazy. craziest race so far. and i'm allowed to tease that race bc i am posting the chapter tonight no bribery necessary i am just answering this before i go finish the last things bc i need my brain to turn off

see luke really thinks that knowing would help bc he in no world is assuming that it's nico hischier. at least Not Yet. they continue to be incredibly conspicuous. oops

i do intend to explore jack's lack of feeling at home Anywhere some more as the fic goes on -- haven't totally figured out how yet, but i do think jack's character here in this fic is more of a home is people person than a home is a place person. which is some more blatant projection because i'm the same way lmao when i get homesick i very rarely miss my actual house, i usually miss the people who aren't around. i temporarily lived in florida for like 8 months of this year for reasons i will not get into rn but i was around a lot of people who would need to visit home to cure their homesickness, but for me like my mom flying down to visit me would have the same effect, i didn't need to go all the way back to my house to feel better. Anyways. my point is that i view jack as being similar, even if he hasn't totally figured it out yet. e.g. seeing quinn in miami helped him feel at home for a bit more than Being In America did, but he was also too busy just being stressed about his home race to actually settle and feel very at home at all. maybe he does need to find/build himself an actual Place where he feels at home, or maybe he just needs to realize that it's more about the people for him. idk i haven't fully figured out that whole arc yet. i write based on Vibes a lot of the time. like fun fact you'll see it in ch4 but i wrote this thing where it was clear that Someone was lying to jack about something bc only one of the things he was being told could possibly be true, but i didn't actually decide which of them was lying and Why they were lying until like midway through writing monaco lmao it is just like that sometimes. the fics do in fact write themselves, in a way

it's late and i'm exhausted and i'm rambling forgive me but i will keep going soz

jack may be rich but he is also stupid. at least he tried </3 even if it might have just made everything worse. but yeah he is kind of trapped in this vicious cycle of everyone expecting things from him. which re: jack feels more at home with specific people rather than specific places, the people who are home to him (his brothers) making him feel targeted in the same way the media (evil) does kind of robs him of that feeling. so half the comfort he should've gotten from being around quinn and luke in miami was kind of missing because a lot of the time he was stressed out and they were adding fuel to that fire. all would probably be solved if they talked about racing less or talked more Positively about racing or didn't ask all the same questions the media did et cetera but that would be no fun for My Narratives

and another fun fact but jack stalking other drivers' interviews and such to find nice things about him came before my decision to give him the world's most blatant praise kink. a chicken and the egg situation. it reached a point where -- as always -- it was writing itself, and i was like well i can't not give him a praise kink at this point... it is very blatant though. even when he knows it actually hurts him to dig up what nico says about him when he isn't listening, in rooms he isn't in, he can't stop doing it because what if the one interview he didn't read/watch/listen to was the one where nico complimented him or said another thing about how tough of a competitor he is or how amazing it is to race him. jack's very fragie ego needs those things... he will wilt without it... like the things nico does say to jack's face/when he is in the room with him aren't enough he also needs to scavenge all the others

i love trevor. he is arguably one of the only characters close to jack left who hasn't blatantly wronged him at this point. even if none of the ones who Did wrong him intended to it doesn't mean they didn't do it. such is life... and thank you i am glad you like jack's character i am very attached to and proud of him!

and maybe? i might actually expand on that in the fic in the future. jack does have a lot of jealousy in him that he directs in all sorts of directions, and one of them is for sure trevor. because he does have such an easy view into the indy world via trevor (like he's not Just perceiving it from the outside) sometimes he does wish he raced in a series that was a little more chill like that; indycar just is more chill by default because it isn't nearly as big as f1 is. they can get away with more shit because less people are watching, and it takes place at a smaller scale (north america vs the actual entire globe) so it's just. such a different animal. i could go on forever about that. and i probably will waffle about it some more in the fic thanks for the reminder to do that lmao

zak brown hires twinks and i will keep saying that. har har

I INSERTED THAT IN THERE VERY INTENTIONALLY i got real life mad when logan revealed his helmet ahead of his rookie season and he got flamed by certain corners of the internet. like oh my god. SO many drivers on the grid have their flags or some kind of blatant reference to their flag on their helmet, it's not like logan was crazy for it. it just only stood about because he was american and it was the american flag and that will always piss people off more -- not necessarily Just f1 fans. i always really liked logan's helmet... and i definitely had the I Am An American F1 Fan tax on that but also it was cool to see a driver who was not only american, but also was SO down to be blatantly patriotic about it. like yes he would put his flag on his helmet and his stupid florida accent did Not get dampened after living in europe for over a decade and at any opportunity he will go back to florida and sit on a boat idk now i'm rambling it's 2:30 am and can you tell i was always really endeared to logan .

anywho. EYE know exactly what goes through nico's head when he sends jack his room number... but it is still a secret for now mwahahaha. they will Talk about it eventually and all will be revealed. but i will say nico is also pretty terrible at expressing things. for as honest as he is he is also. he suck. he sucks really bad at some things. but he's Trying. it isn't 100% Not a power trip but he has other motivations behind it too

one of the only things in my sketchy ass outline is that jack crashes in miami. i was planning that All Along. for the narratives. hehe

and that whole excahnge is very much insane and obnoxious. a whole lot about pressure and expectations and also pressure. jack has a very complicated relationship with all of that, as you can probably tell, so of course he will deflect it onto nico. but he has no idea how to handle any of it and he kind of wants to explode. which. me too. nothing i am thinking makes any sense anymore so i should probably stop talking

i need to go. finish and post ch4. bye bye