#dude idk if i can rp anymore

[ferineelegance]

((privated the majority of the aforementioned.. idk.. painful posts expecting there to be some place where I can view privated posts to more easily mass delete them buuuut... if a place like that exists I cannot find it, so I.. guess effectively said posts are 'gone' now. as they're not showing up in archives or anywhere that I can see.. so I guess the job is done? I'd bet that there is a way to get to them still and knowing my luck I'll accidentally ambush myself with them at some point in the future but for now, I guess we're good.

[autisticempathydaemon]

hello everynyan :3 /ref

4 the redacted match-ups ! not sure if you're still doing these or not bc i'll be damned i'd give up after the first 3 🙌🙌🙌 power 2 ya ! (if you ARE, in fact, not doing these anymore pls ignore this. this never happened. kay.)

What song are you fixated on at the moment? What lyric or verse, and why?

this was the hardest question bc i LOVEEMUSIC so bad i can never really pick ONE fav bc it changes every 2 seconds but !!! gun to my head as of rn i'd say -- "but not kiss" - faye webster

'i want to see you in my dreams,

but then forget.

we're meant to be,

but not yet.

you're all that i have,

but can't get.'

i chose this song primarily because of the aesthetics & instrumental,, + the feels - i love how the piano carries and portrays every feeling (dread? maybe?) alongside the vocalist ugh sick to my stomach /pos

as for the verses i've chosen i just. really like the way she sings them HA i guess depending on my current mood i might relate to the lyrics for .5 seconds due to a past relationship of mine that had me fuckedd anyway.

Do you love gargantuan Youtube video essays, and if so, which is your favorite and why?

i WISH i could enjoy these as much as others but i have the attention spam of a fucking goldfish i need to be stimulated 24/7. i cannot stare at the same face and occasional photo/clip for over 10 mins.

i might watch more of em if they had like a satisfying slime video in the corner or smth. i find i only watch ones that have a topic/interest of mine that i am actively curious about/into????if that makes sense??

for instance, the only one that comes to mind rn is "in defense of chat noir" by toon ruins UGH ITS SO GOOD i used to be a huge fan of miraculous so that defffinitely takes part in why i rewatch it every few months.

What is your go-to way to fall asleep?

on my stomach. arms under pillows. one leg up. yo i bought these headphones made specifically for sleeping while listening to relaxing noises or smth & i kid you not i use them shits to listen to asmr/rp audios. sometimes it puts me to sleep other times i'm up all night tryna figure out what position the listener and 'character' are in. anyway!!!

If you had to change your name, what would it be, and why? (In tandem, if you have changed your name, why did you pick that one?)

first thing that comes 2 mindd for whatever reason is 'may' ?? possibly bc i really like my birth name already and 'may' is somewhat close to it already? also because i'd love writing it over and over in my handwriting . probably just an excuse to write the letter 'y' actually.

What is your favorite of Redacted’s audios, and why?

fav character changes ALLL THE TIMEE for no reason my fav is all of them rlly i just wanna love and be loved BUT when i reaaaally think about it ?? hudson. even though he's like. an easter egg. i cant have anything. wanna "D D D D DDDJJJ ANXIETY" into his pants. what. who said that. just got hacked wtff

What Redacted boy holds no appeal to you, and why? Like, not the one you hate but the one who you don’t get the hype for. (I won’t judge, I promise.)

a know a LOTT of ppl love david but i am sorry i just cannot. angel better than me idk how they do it. srry. my momma raised a bitch. i've never ever gotten to finishing any of his videos so maybe im the problem but from the get-go THIS BITCH IS SCARY BRO he's so damn intimidating . the fact that his voice is rlly deep doesn't help either :C ..& don't even get me started on early david.

Which Redacted boy are you platonically attracted to? Like- forget dating, which dude do you want to be your best friend?

this is such a good question rlly makin me think . hmm . OK I FEEL LIKE A BASIC BlTCH BC PPL HAVE BEEN SAYIN THIS ALREADY BUT . hux. we like this 🤞 . as for why?? i feel like i need and would . honestly really appreciate more,, warmth and positivity in my life - and i def get that sorta 'aura' from him. & i know damn well he'd give the best hugs. and we could go to the gym together. it'd be so fun. so precious.

Do you have a go-to thing you ramble about when you’re tired, and if so, what is it? (For example, my boyfriend knows I’m ready to sleep when I start talking about space.)

ok first of all #relationshipgoals that is so sweet awe :((

i wouldn't say i really 'ramble' per say -- i just talk. to myself. like a normal person. mhm. i struggle with sleep in general, so i'm usually up till like 5am. typically endlessly scrolling through my phone, or talking to the abyss about something personal that's been on my mind for a while. if it's really bad, i cry in my voice memos. if i just need to - refresh? get smth off my mind so i can sleep? i write songs.

...and then i record them on my $15 wireless headphones. onto that very same voice memos app.

Tell me your go-to gas station and drink combo.

if im being honest,, depends on my mood . but god could i fuck up some strawberry milk and mini oreos right about now. . mind you i've had strawberry milk like once but it changed my life u dont understand

Tell me about your favorite playlist at the moment.

i mean i don't listen to it 24/7 but man i outdid myself w this one. it's called "insanity" and every single song matches the vibe of . just straight up 'otherworldly' ?? if u catching what im throwin?? all songs r pretty 'out-there' - in terms of the vibes - at least i like to think so. for reference it has songs like "goth - sidewalks and skeletons" and "eternal youth - růde" . IDK i guess it makes me happy when songs from a playlist actually match up with one other

What’s your guilty pleasure media, and why?

i listen to this japanese-kawaii-metal-based group called BABYMETAL and i loveee them soso much. a few "metal enthusiasts" go out and call their work 'not real metal' , which is why i guess you can technically call their music a pleasure media -- as well as the fact that whenever i put on one of their songs mfs r like ... what is this - cause its three young japanese girls talking abt bubblegum with the the most insane guitar riff in the back. their newer stuff is incredible. womanhood at it's finest. give them a shot plspls /nf

ALL DONE !! ty 4 reading & have a lovely day/night, wherever you may be <3

Oh, this one is perfect and required, like, no thought. Vibes-wise? Given your energy? It’s just gotta be Guy.

Building on that, I love that you write songs and he writes screenplays(?). I think it’s so cute to pair writers together so that you might inspire one another and be each other's biggest fans. I also like Guy for you because he strikes me as one of those people who calls themselves “polyjamorous”, listening to basically anything and everything. He loves all your songs and all your playlists, vibing along to all of it even if there’s no words or words in another language. He doesn’t care: he’s with you, so he’s having a good time.

I would predict a fun, artistic life for the two of you like parallel-playing co-writing sessions with the two of you having individual headphones on, making funny faces at one another when you catch the other staring. You take turns showing each what you’ve created and hyping each other up, offering critique. When the writer's clock keeps y’all up till 3 AM, he’s got leftover pizza and any snacks you could possibly want. (He strikes me as the sort of guy who always has junk food caches.)

Song:

It was just two lovers/ Sittin' in the car, listening to Blonde/ Fallin' for each other/ Pink and orange skies, feelin' super childish/ No Donald Glover/ Missed call from my mother/ Like, "Where you at tonight?" Got no alibi/ I was all alone with the love of my life

Given your passion for music, I tried to pick a love song for y’all that was emotionally evocative to the mind and the ear. I chose this one because I thought the piano instrumental and how it evokes that mental imagery of sitting with someone during the golden hour might resonate with you. I also like it for y’all because this song got really popular on tiktok, and Guy would probably know it from there.

Runner-ups:

Obviously, we have to have Hudson as a runner-up. As a DJ, he’d be so loving and so supportive of your craft, hyping you up on air all the time and playing your work whenever he can. He’d also make you really bomb-ass playlists. A less obvious runner-up would be Anton, but I really like this one. You’d be more of an opposites attract sort of pair, but I think it’d be cute, and listening to music would remind Anton of you while he’s away~

Read this post and send me an ask if you’d like a match-up of your own! 💌

[ayeitzagusty]

What roblox games do you play?

(sorry for not responding ur ask) ------------- too much games (kindaaa???..) to tell but id like to say.. piggy (havent played in like while??? i dont even know i think i stopped playing it after 2023 or smth) bear alpha (i love bear so much bro) adopt me (i used to play that game but stopped playing it because there's ppl trading me) evade (havent played it after 2022 and 2023..) phighting (im bad at it but i rarely play that game using controller and mouse) cac (catalog avatar creator) any tycoon i rarely play (dude i loved playing fnaf tycoon game and the classic one doesnt exist anymore) any tmc game (i havent played it alsoo.. but played it a lil) animation mocap (BROO i love playing that game since 2020 and i used tooo plaayyy that game in alt acc abd (off topic i think or whatever idk) i got popular for it i think but the fact i still have the agusty..txts tiktok acc (plus no longer have the roblox alt acc cuz i gave that acc to my friend) (if u know agusty..txts, i am that person) rnabs! (stands for: roblox npcs are becoming smart!) (i have not playe d that game, but i think when i first played that game i fr did not know what to do but it was before the cath girl was removed i think) doors (i be dooring rn) some militaru (or atmy idk) game (if u understand that i misspelled + i used to play that kind of game back in 2021..) public bathroom sim (dont ask why) RHS and RHS2 (i think) (ive been playing rhs since 2018 and.. rhs2 2019 i think) meepcity (i know the craetor of this game is weird (as i heard that after they removed the party ones + before they removed the plus one or whatevre) but i heard that the plus thing is gonna be removed and i can search anything in the avatar thing woohoo and ik i dreamed abt being in the old meepcity map back then + the fact ive played that game since 2017) any fnaf game (maaan i loved the animatronic world and that one fnaf rp game so much back then but stopped playing animatronic world) gacha online (dont ask why.) super bomb survival game (I LOVE THAT DUDE.) FtF (flee the facility) noob train (2020 game core ahh) (okay okay 😭😭😭) marble mania (i love marble mania) beat the robloxian (i enjoy it hell) camping (i be campiiinnn) and other games i played. -- (idk why am i telling things like story thing) ty for asking me! :D

[killianhemlock]

Ok I’m gonna be so fuckin fr rn- I genuinely hope senz knows how much his character is loved. Often I can see him burning out from the city, Link doesn’t have anyone ride-or-die for him the way he is (or was) for his friends. Link isn’t a very open person anymore (?) and Jan is one of the only ppl he’s really clicked with (and their relationship is pretty rocky). To a lot of characters, he seems cold and dismissive, or just completely unreadable. I feel like his character is overlooked a lot bc of that or completely forgotten :( (and I eat that shit up every time don’t get me wrong)

Idk where this is going but DUDE I LOVE YOUR RP CHARACTER OK 🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️ SHOUTOUT TO PPL WHOVE MOVED TO A NEW CITY WITHOUT KNOWING ANYONE 🗣️🗣️🗣️🤝🤝🤝🤝 I RESONATE WITH THAT AND I THINK THATS SUPER INTRUIGUING AS AN RP CONCEPT 🗣️🗣️🗣️

I went into said concept in more depth somewhere in my bou bugles tag, I genuinely feel like it’s such a good example of new city anxiety and self isolation !!! Keep doing your shit dude !!!!

[tamedgod]

What are the trends when it comes to writing that you adore?

What are trends when it comes to writing that you dislike?

what i like:

idk if i'm just finally on the right side of tumblr or what, but i love love love me a good soft character, especially if they're a lady. soft female ocs were the bane of the writing community when i first started writing; the term mary sue was very popular at the time and was used very liberally when it came to any female character that wasn't overly sexualized, cold, distant, emotionless. while it's cool those characters exist, it made it frustrating to write at the time, so i'm glad that soft ladies are a bit more accepted in the scene :)

i'm a big fan of personal lore??? like yes fam, make more shit up???? whether it's steeped in pre-existing mythos or you make up your own world or species or anything else, i have mad mad respect. PLEASE tell me all about your shit, let me help you DEVELOP your shit, let me WRITE in this universe of your own making. i know from past experience writing haru that getting others into your lore can be challenging, but i promise you can always infodump about it to me.

having been writing on this site for over a decade now, the slow evolution from toxic, fetishized lbgt rep to the now abundantly healthier rep is a BIG plus for me. i love diverse cast and characters, and i love that this place has become a haven for better rep (this is at least my experience over the years).

what i don't like;

ahhh i hesitate to talk about stuff like this, but i am not a big fan of callout posts / culture. as someone who's lived through too much drama in my twenty-eight years, online and offline, the rise of callout culture in the rp community here just served to add extra stress for me. there are definitely shitty people on here whose behavior should not be excused, but to me there's no point in expending all that energy to hate them and shit on them. block, report, blacklist, and just forget about them. take it from someone who spent years of their life expending energy on hating someone to the point of obsession and exhaustion; you'll be and feel a lot healthier if you just cut them loose and leave them behind.

while i feel lgbt rep has improved over the years i've been here, i can't necessarily say the same for diversity in terms of color. on my old occult multimuse (can be found at @magmarisen if you want to explore, but it's inactive), i tried very hard to ensure i had a healthy amount of rep and culture in my characters. there are folks i don't associate with anymore that i can't say the same for, whose characters were always straight white folks. while this isn't necessarily an issue overall, i just personally don't care for that trend. part of writing is expanding your knowledge, understanding, and writing diverse characters to keep things fresh. add some zest to your muse list!!! variety is the spice of life!!!!

gonna end this one with uhhhhhh if you still don't want to write with ocs (fandom or indie) in 2023 then damn dude quit being a coward. like to each their own, but the trend that ocs have to jump through hoops of fire to even potentially qualify to write with you (and trust me i know this feeling all too well) is just absurd. every character ever written is an oc, some of them just happen to have public lore. you taking an established / canon character and giving them your own take and headcanons is, funnily enough, pretty much making that muse your oc. part of writing with someone is talking to them; ask them about their ocs. if you want to know something and you can't readily find it somewhere, just ask. i'm sure you'd make their day. thanks for coming to my ted talk.

[antiresolution]

| 9:15 AM | 

“You’re distracted, gege.”

Xian’s face is a distorted ghost in the bakery’s display glass as Wenhan watches lips move and stares at the back of a head peppered with peach fuzz. His brother’s dramatics were so precisely habitual. Always changing something drastic outwardly to match the inside.

What was he trying to get rid of?

“Am I? You look like some fucking anime villain now. It’s distracting.” 

He adds a croissant to Xian’s choice of baguette and pays before his little brother can fish out any money. The paper bag stays cradled in one arm once they’re outside, turning his back to a man in a simple black suit that had been trailing them since the airport. Xian easily follows the direction of his quickening pace.

“You’ve been quiet… even mama calls me to ask about you.” There’s no edge to Xian’s words. Simply a hum. “You make jokes to hide.”

Wenhan turns on his heel, not hiding the upward curl of his mouth when Xian trips trying not to crash into him. He offers the bag over to his brother, eyes on the man across the street. His father wasn’t even trying to be fucking subtle with these new bodyguards. He’d become an ant under a microscope after Busan. 

“You’ve been keeping your own secrets. I’m not mad about it.” Xian looks up at him, silenced by a mouthful of bread. “You have your reasons, and you shouldn’t be careless with trust.”

Trust. 

That’s what had brought them together in the first place. 

Trust was so fragile and easily disguised.

Wenhan raises and swings his fist into the center of Xian’s face. The paper bag crashes to the sidewalk as his brother’s reply dissolves into a gasp of pain and cursing. 

Wenhan does no more than flex his hand and barely dodges Xian’s returning swing.

“Stop whining... I’ll put ice on it for you later.” The guard now had a phone cradled to their ear. Wenhan can only imagine the call he’d get from his father later for being reckless in public. “It’ll give our family something to talk about...”

and a narrative to distrust. 

| 4:12 PM |

Wenhan walks under the shade of Cafe de Flore’s famous canopy. His bright red suit is like a shocking spill of blood across the backdrop of their soft brown and cream architecture. He’s out of place just the way he wants, a little too much of a show for the quiet evening, and doesn’t turn his face away when a stray photographer from fashion week’s chaos raises their camera. This is about being in the wrong place at the right time as he takes a seat across from someone who in contrast has been trying so hard to hide. 

“Wenhan--” 

Minseo stares at Wenhan, eyes widening a fraction before they narrow. 

The piece of waffle on her fork thuds back into a puddle of syrup. Wenhan wastes no time stealing the pastry into his own mouth.

He smiles as he chews.

“You shouldn’t put landmarks in your photos if you don’t want to be found, darling. You’re terrible at this runaway game, or maybe a bit too clever.” 

Minseo sits up a little straighter. Her lips close and become thin. Wenhan flips off the photographer that raises their camera on the two of them. Minseo’s shoulders only relax with the lens pointed to the ground.

“You’re planning something.”

“Aren’t you?”

Wenhan takes one of her hands, and they sit in silence, simply looking at each other. 

Her grip tightens around his. Careful fingertips hover over bruising knuckles.

“If you need help…” 

His hand slips out of hers, and he smiles before checking his watch.

4:30. 

Every head at the cafe turns to the sound of an ambulance siren as it wails down the street. 

Wenhan keeps his eyes on Minseo until the siren fades. 

“Oh, before I forget-- Blondie says hi, and to beware of soil.” Her brow furrows and lips part without a sound. “Every soil pit will want to keep you rooted.”

Minseo doesn’t stand up to chase him. 

They would always find each other at the right time.

| 6:32 PM |

Wenhan’s shoes hit dull hospital tile floors with no intention of being sidetracked. He walks fast as if he can outrun familiar smells that launch him into years spent mostly in bed. Always at the mercy of wires taped to his skin and tests that never seemed to offer an escape. 

Yet, the smile on his face is easy and practiced once he enters the room. He sets an obnoxiously dressed basket of fruit on a table already filled with flowers.

“From my father‒‒ who sends his regards, and me. Ahh, so cliche. Shame all this shit will rot.”

The only response that comes is the steady beep of a monitor and rasp of an oxygen tank. The man remains immobile in bed, but silent eyes follow Wenhan as he tears open plastic and casually peels a banana. 

“People love to hate cliches, but everything is built on them. They make great stories.” Chair legs scrape the floor, and Wenhan sits close enough to see the veins sprawled over tired eyes. He waves the half eaten banana under a nose filled with wires. “It’s so cliche… that you survived.” 

He boredly chews on his banana, dropping the empty peel on his old ‘friend’s’ chest.

“I heard there’s a chance you’ll fully recover. Can’t move, huh? But you still feel.” Wenhan lets his hand curl around their throat, grip slowly tightening, watching frantic eyes bulge. His own face is a blank canvas. Lips together, brow smooth, gaze steady. “You should have stayed the fuck away from Sol.”

And just like this, he lets go. 

Wenhan stands and buttons his suit jacket, smoothing hands over unwrinkled fabric. 

“Yingyue will miss you at the show.”

[crappy-homestuck-confessions]

dnd anon!! Could the kids DM?

John/June: yeah, but mostly joke campaigns. Not too good at keeping things serious with the world, and will add some silly homebrews. really fun as a DM, and often follows the rule of cool more than any actual rules.

Rose: Yes, but will get a bit frustrated if people derail the campaign. Won't show it, but will regularly jokingly threaten to do a godstrike yahtzee (IDK if this was just something from my dad's groups that he taught me, but when the dm is too mad so they roll all the dice in the room and that's how much dammage your character takes. if you survive then you can never be godstrike yahtzee'd again, and the dm has to let you do the thing you wanted to do.) has never actually given a godstrike yahtzee, but does give out a few cursed items which she hasn't let on that they're cursed yet. Overall good, remembers the details too and will build in people's backstories to the campaign. Might end up the forever DM.

Dave: well yes but actually no. What he is doing can no longer be classified as dnd. There is only the rule of cool. he accidentally did a tpk but then brought them all back to life and said they 'heard god say 'My bad dudes, but you gotta admit that was pretty funny" If he's DMing it's gonna be a good time, but it's more like calvinball than dnd. But every once in a while he plays by the rules and gives the perfect mix of homebrew + official material and rule of cool + RAW and just blows everyone away with the most epic oneshot ever before going back to pure chaos.

Jade: Yeah. She could keep everyone on track, follow the rules AND the rule of cool, I think she could make a really cool world. Not much else to say, I just think she'd be great at keeping immersion and would definitely have a whole setup for the players ready. I think she'd do great.

Jane: Yeah, but mainly sticks to RAW. Gets mad about derailment, so everyone needs to agree to stick to the plot beforehand, but that's easy enough. Overall decent, plus she brings snacks!! Mainly does serious rp heavy campaigns with a bit of fluff.

Roxy: YES. Roxy would rule as a DM. End of statement. This is just vibes honestly but I wanna be in Roxy's campaign.

Dirk: FOREVER DM FOREVER DM FOREVER DM. Good at rp campaigns and combat campaigns, gets a bit too into worldbuilding and lore but that's amazing. Great with immersion, NPCs always feel like real people, in depth reasons for everything, does countless hours of research for anything but accepts when things get derailed. Sometimes calls a session early because he didn't have a plan for what the party did and needs some time to come up with something, but by next session you wouldn't even know that it was derailed. Wishes someone else would DM so he could play as a PC, but isn't actually sure how to go about playing cuz he's only done NPCs for so long.

Jake: Yes, but I think he would mercilessly mix the rules from various editions as well as homebrew until nobody knows what the heck they're playing anymore. Just a feeling. Overall does a good mix of rp and combat, and believes in the rule of cool. Pretty good once you figure out what rules he's using. IDK why I think he'd mix all the rules, I just think he would. as always, mostly vibes but pretty fun!!

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[pr0cayne]

Hey everyone! So excited for this rp to open, I love surreal and paranormal. 🔥 I am Belle and my hobbies include writing gremlin bois and oscillating wildly between regular capitalization and lapslock. I also live on like the opposite timezone of basically anyone in the US so sorry if my replies come at weird times. I also work and am dramatic abt my energy levels so often I’ll either post on weekends or queue things (tho we’re out here w a 3 day weekend bc I have Monday off this week 😎)This is Noh Harang, resident gremlin, morally ambiguous and in the trade of plots that verge on the wrong side of functional. Here is his about and profile page which has the more relevant of information, but I’ll drop some additional quick facts under the cut along with some attempted plot ideas! If you want to plot just like or dm + I have a discord on request if it’s easier to plot there. 

if you want the full gist of why he is the way he is i’d rec reading his bio + checking his profile page, bc this is like: scenario, this is me trying my best, but my best is never good enough 😔 his apt details are:  B2, #08(?), West  🔥

was born in korea, his dad died when he was pretty young and was largely raised by his mom w help from other family members. he is  ✨inspired ✨ by sharp objects (bc i Love it), only less murder-y, but his mom has munchausen by proxy and it influenced his emotional development a lot. 

moved to [REDACTED] as a preteen when his mom remarried, which meant there were new and exciting doctors to visit who weren’t suspicious yet. cowabunga, dude. spent a lot of time in his room drawing when he was ~sick~

he’s decently smart, and he did go onto uni for art, but then he got pissed at someone else and sabotaged their assignment by breaking into somewhere he shouldn’t have been and prob broke like 4 school rules in the process and was kicked out his second year. so he never finished. good life choices? check. clearly.

he is vindictive and revenge-driven and will act immediately on those feelings without considering the consequences on getting caught. harang in the moment is always like: i will definitely not get caught. and the narrator is like: mmm idk about that bitch.

is he a good person? no. does he try to better himself every day? also no. memes aside, he does have good qualities but he’s def not sugar and spice and everything nice. if you enjoy complicated, emotionally wrought, and sometimes dark plots 👀 👀 👀 pls come to me, that is what i’m weak and design my chars for.

he’s a webtoon creator/artist. he’s into horror, esp supernatural/paranormal horror. his webtoon is similar in storyline/vibe to something like stagtown? but his art style is different. he takes inspo from junji ito of course

obsessed with herbal tea, has So Many flavors in his apt. 

really into vinyl, though he usually collects based on cover artwork first and music second. likes playing atmospheric music when he’s making art.

he smokes, his favorite is cherry tobacco. they’re bad for his body but he’s pretty sure his body was basically destroyed in his youth so what does it matter anymore anyway?

he has a weird vibe but he’s good at covering it. will default to auto-mirroring people’s gestures and personalities around him without super realizing he’s doing it. if you spend enough time around him though it fades, it’s mostly done for people he doesn’t interact w regularly. 

has a pet centipede. he’s so gross, why does he have one? he didn’t even buy it at a pet shop he just found it. i hate him for it. it doesn’t even have an official name, it changes depending on what harang feels like calling him ✨in the moment ✨

he’s not always the nicest person but he’s also not mean for the sake of being mean. it can take him a while to emotionally connect to people. he doesn’t frequently get into romantic relationship because of it, def finds casual to be easier. his sense of love and how it should be expressed is ✨very off ✨

he hates doctors, not in a take it personally sense, more just going to the doctors and being treated sense. will avoid going to the hospital At All Costs. 

can be manipulative, and isn’t always the most empathetic person (in this house we support morally grey chars 👏 )

plot ideas -- tbh i often prefer to like talk apps and come up with something organically, but here are a few ~general ideas~ that might be nice to have, and a few that could be starting off points if we’re really stuck. 

so i think it would be fun to have a plot that throws them both immediately in a relationship, but this relationship is falling apart and is kind of on its last leg? i’ve always wanted to do a dying relationship plot but it’s so hard to work through the whole thing from beginning to end so this is a solution perhaps?? they can still have like feelings if we want but clearly something is not working out and it is collapsing. the only kind of requirements i want here are A. it’s falling apart because for reasonings on both of their ends, i don’t really want it being one person is doing everything wrong and the other is doing everything right and it’s one muses fault and B. nobody super really younger than him. (we would also need to plot a lot probably to set up the ground work but if you’re up for it i think it could be really fun to write out 👀 )

if nobody takes the above just an ex that was messily resolved and has complicated vibes is fun too!!!

one fwb (if the above gets filled, it could’ve been something from his past, or even if it’s not filled it could still be from his past), purely physical with no overlapping emotions (at least on harang’s end, if u want it be more complicated Who Am I to say no), we meet bc we’re horny kind of vibes. i don’t care who you are kind of vibes. i don’t have you saved in my phone kind of vibes.

conversationalists. they keep meeting on the rooftop at the same time during smoke breaks. but the strange part of it is there’s no real set schedule, and the time that they go up to smoke often changes, sometimes drastically. could be fun if they know some deeper pieces of each other’s life without knowing the like basics of each others personalities (like an inverse of basic friends, unbasic not-friends, if you will)

a bff? like we really click together and even though you make bad life choices and are lvl 500 dumb sometimes i’ll still help you with whatever mess you invite upon yourself. can go both ways, of course. 

me, sweating and running out of plot ideas i’m brainstorming on the spot, someone who’s into harang’s webtoon. ofc it would need to be  ✨developed ✨ so it could be interesting, but yes. or his anti!!!

i Am a fan of antagonistic plots, i think they’re really fun, esp when both chars are kind of catty about it and it’s not just one being the ~evil~ one, tho i don’t have any ideas on how to get there but if someone really wants one and to figure out a reason why i’m down!!!!

if someone wants to kill his centipede they can, he will be v upset but it’s so gross and i had to look up aesthetic centipede pictures for his pinboard and i’m officially Done.

okay i think that’s it i’m out of ideas, but i’m v excited to plot and write so pls don’t hesitate to let me know if you like something or have another idea or wannna create something organically 👀

[ruinrisen]

*  knowing  your  partner  well  can  potentially  make  writing  a  lot  easier,  

name: amy 

pronouns: they/them (even tho some of my blogs probably have ‘any pronouns’ on them rn i just havent changed it gender is hard pls bear with me LMAO)

preference  of  communication: hmmm... IMs if we’re just getting to talking but if we click , discord :)

name  of  muse(s):     rn i’ve got gaara .. duh , kakashi @flashfall and diluc ragnvindr @dawnrift

experience / how  long  ( months / years ? ):  2012 bro rest in pieces

best  experience:  dude... so many good experiences?? IDK.. UHHH... best best best... i dont think there’s a single best experience tbh ;-; i’ve met so many good friends that i’ve had for 10ish years now that i’m so soo thankful for , i’ve gotten to meet up with several of my friends i’ve made on here and i even got to live with castle for a few years. i met my best friends here and that’s all i’ve gotta say. i love them. 

rp  pet  peeves / deal  breakers:    y’know the usual deal breakers. whitewashing , lgbt+ erasure , shipping minors with adults or teachers/students (looking at u kakashi) , incest , non - con , THE WHOLE ORDEAL REALLY. as for pet peeves. ... constant harrassing for responses in or out of character. if a bitch is busy or not feeling it LET THEM BE for gods sake bro

muse  preferences  fluff,  angst,  or  smut:   i will turn most things to angst but (looking at my muses ... it’s not my fault

long  or  short  replies:   both both both both i’m feral i’m feral i’m CRAZED

best  time  to  write:  i ... i used to love writing in the mornings but now i mostly just work in the mornings so :thinking: ... idk about anymore i just write when i can </3 mostly in afternoons after i get off work tho :) around 3-5pm. but i think my favorite is still mornings even tho i can’t do it as much

> yeah i stole this from sam , take if you’d like <3

[lunatic-fandom-space]

Okay, you know how I said I wanted to watch all these german minecraft series and then watch 3rd Life SMP? Yea, I actually dont have the attention span to watch a bunch of white bread boys fuck around in minecraft with little to no story, regardless of wether theyre american or european so Im just gonna write this post and them start watching 3rd Life SMP so yeah.

First, I kinda want to discuss what Im hoping for on like, a meta-level I guess. The only other minecraft RP Ive watched that seems similar to this is Dream SMP so expect lots of comparisons.

I like to split dsmp into three major parts: no story/non-rp, story/non-rp and story/rp.

The first part was literally just a live streamed vanilla minecraft let's play and it was boring as shit. It felt exactly like watching a bunch of dudes play minecraft and unless they acknowledged the people in their donations (who could uncomfortably pushy and even shippy at times) you did not at all get the impression they were even aware of the stream. And as much as I appreciate some level of authenticity in this type of content, I also expect to be entertained by it and this did not even meet my bare minimum standard of entertainment. Admittedly, my attention span is very low so that definitely has something to do with it, but still. I personally have never felt anything but boredom and occasionally intense discomfort while watching anything from this 'era' of dsmp.

The second part was the start of the first conflict, and thus the start of some semblance of a story. They were kind of 'roleplaying' already (both in the sense that they obviously have their personas for their content and in sense that they didnt actually have grievances with one another and were just playing it up for the sake of entertainment) but it was more on the fly, even less focused and less serious. However, it was already legues more fun to watch.

And then we had the third part, where, starting with Wilbur Soot joining and deciding to larp Hamilton, they started to plan things out more and have more complex and/or dramatic conflicts. Needless to say, this was/is the best part in my opinion and what made me see the appeal of dsmp.

What Im hoping for 3rd Life SMP is, that they skip atleast the first part. From what I can tell, it was created sometime after dsmp has been in that third part for a bit and it is a minecraft rp, so Im assuming the people behind it wanted to do something similar, just with the story aspect there on purpose and from the get-go, if you know what I mean. And by the way, I dont think thats wrong or even "copying" in the slightest. Dsmp very much seems like a case of "they did it first, not best" and if anything, I think it would be a shame if people didn't want to do their own spin on this basic concept.

What Im personally hoping for in terms of the 'style' of roleplay itself, I really hope that they dont seperate it as rigidly into lore and non-lore as they did in dsmp. Ideally, they would do it like Ranboo (Wilbur when he was playing Ghostbur to an extend too, but he didnt actually stream and have his own POV back then), where he's always kinda 'In-Character' even when there isnt really anything happening in the plot at that moment. Again, I just dont have the attention span for no story in series like this anymore, so I'd appreciate it on a personal level, but I also think that it could humanize the characters more and potentially add additional depth to them. Especially since it looks like 3rd Life is made by the Hermitcraft group and if the stuff Ive read about Hermitcraft (especially in comparison to dsmp) it wont thrive off intense conflicts and wars in quite the same way, so that could also be a way of making a calmer rp interesting.

And now, some actual plot predictions!

So, the way I found 3rd Life SMP was this really neat 'Pitiful Children' animatic by ZylisticArt. I didnt actually 'watch' it because when I look up animatics I just kinda stare at the screen, not processing anything because Im too busy imagining my own OC animatic to the song, but I did read the description and was mildly intrigued, and its the main reason I wanted to watch 3rd Life so Im going to properly watch it now and post my predictions for the plot below.

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The description mentions something about the animatic being based on some kinda theory, but I only skimmed it in order to not get spoiled so idk what thats really about. Im mostly intrigued by the fact that the description mentions it being a hardcore SMP (with a twist!), that, combined with the name and the visuals of the animatkc lead me to a couple conclusions;

I dont really know how Hardcore mode works in multiplayer, but in singleplayer you just get permanently kicked out of your world when you die, so Im assuming it works like that on a server too, except on a server, Im pretty sure you have the option of being 'reinvited' onto a server by the admin(s) so you could theoretically have three lives while keeping it a hardcore project where you cant regenerate without potions or golden apples and all that. Again, idk if thats actually how hardcore works but I sure hope it is, because thats what Im basing pretty much all of my predictions on.

In the animatic there were like green people, yellow people and a red guy who was like, the antagonist I guess. I think the green guys still have all their lives, the yellow ones are down to two and the red lads are all down to their last one. Maybe theres gonna be a thing thats like, if you lose a life you lose a part of your soul and that makes you evil or something? Yknow, like the whole "character comes back wrong" thing, except its the conflict of the entire series. Pitiful Children is very much a 'Manipulating Others Into Doing Harmful Shit' kinda song, and I feel like that would be very in-line with a plotline like that, yknow?

Im not expecting there to be wars/conflicts on the scale of dsmp (no blown up countries here bois) but I am expecting to get ridiculously attached to a place that inevitably gets blown up/set on fire by an antagonist.

Speaking of antagonists, theyre definitely also doing the whole multiple POV thing, which means everyone is an antagonist in one way or another and Im a solutely watching every POV from every characters so that I know the full context and story of everything, so I can have the most correct opinions on them, which is both normal to want and possible to achieve.

Since these are the Hermitcraft guys Im expecting some beautiful builds that make me feel insanely untalented and the same thing with redstone shit.

Ghosts. If they havent added some kind of ghost mechanic/lore at the time Im writing this, they will add one in later, mark my words 3rd Life fandom, mark my words...

Thats pretty much it. This is all going under my mcyt tag too, and I dont think I'll be live blogging it, but it really depends on how interesting it is.

Also, if youre a 3rd Life fan who already watched all of it, the only thing youre allowed to respond to this with is a meme that is horribly incomprehensible to anyone who hasnt watched it.

Have a nice day!

[theunconcernedembalmer]

Toko! I was thinking of creating an ask the character blog for IDV or Genshin Impact and wanted a few tips on how to start off. Anything you can share?

ey yo my dude!! thank you so much for this question, now im lowkey tempted (again) to make a genshin ask blog sjadhlkshgkahshglsaj anyway my 1.5 cents is under the cut, yall know how much i talk here HAHAHAHAH

uhhhhhh so i guess we start with picking a character u really Vibe with tm? I KNOW THIS SOUNDS LIKE COMMON SENSE BUT LIKE ive been considering making a genshin ask blog for a while now but i never really got to it cos i couldnt really decide on a character (plus the fact that their outfits are. so intricate. is also a hmm since i try to follow details to a t) (at first i wanted to do zhongli, but i feel like to be able to muse him well u need to know the lore super super well, which i dont n im too lazy to research on that aha. n u know how much i respect characterizations, especially for such a complex character like him. i also considered xiangling for a period of time mostly for guoba but also like i have 2+1 blogs here n having one more might not be a very good idea aha) (as for aesop he was my Hyperfixation Character tm also cos i looked at his kit n went Yep i could work with this. probably)

so assuming ur not a dumbass like me n u kinda know who u wanna pick, id actually say to snoop around here for other ask blogs n kinda get a feel of the... scene? is that the word? or like u know, other blogs that u can potentially vibe with. ive run a couple of ask blogs before this current one (both that have died for different reasons) n from my experience interacting with other blogs (if theyre okay with it, i think most should be) is pretty fun. it also kinda helps get ur blog around to other ppl on other blogs so they can go Oh whats this cool shit n check u out, n its also a reason why we kinda reblog promo posts for other blogs (also cos we’re always excited when someone new comes on, its really the more the merrier. we see all :eyes:). interacting with other blogs is also an option when ur inbox is looking real roomy too

another reason why i havent exactly done a genshin blog is that idk i cant actually seem to find genshin ask blogs around (i have seen rp blogs, or those that answer asks with mostly text instead of art, but thats. not my thing since i hate my own writing aha) (i did find one aether blog some time ago, but for some reason i hardly see them around anymore??? idk man i might be wrong). its not like im trying super hard to find them ask blogs, so im sure they exist out there (hopefully?? im not sure but im being optimistic). i mean theres nothing wrong with just starting an ask blog without others around, but for me i do find a difference when i interact with other ask blogs n when i dont, n i prefer when theres others to have fun with (unfortunately i couldnt find any ask blogs to interact with in my previous fandom. i tried, but the blogs i approached seemed to go inactive shortly afterwards...) plus u get to meet friends that way too :D (i made a lot of friends via idv askblogs n its really been a joy vibing with others)

as for the idv scene. gestures around me. unfortunately there are a lot of ask blogs that arent that active anymore, but theres still some of us who are alive n kicking empty inboxes, n im sure everyone would love to see a new face around. winks at u. also there seems to be a lot more blogs popping up lately, which is really heartening to see.

then u kinda just. make ur blog? n a starting introduction post so ppl can reblog it n spread the word XD n yay u have a blog i guess??? XD

i gotta say tho. dont expect ur blog to take off immediately (especially for smaller fandoms like idv, tvbh i didnt think my blog would even get half this far when i started cos of how non existent idv tumblr seemed to be) n ur inbox will probably be looking pretty empty a lot of the time (or at least filled with some that u havent quite thought of how to reply to yet aha) (but also like empty inboxes happen pretty often, im sure most of us here have experienced this problem)

in the case of the first ask blog i ever started, it never really took off at all. ngl it was kind of demoralizing n depressing but to be fair i had picked one of the more obscure characters in the series, so obscure that many ppl in the fandom would have never heard of this character before. if u wanted to know, i took a character that only appeared in the 2nd musical of the series, who also made a very brief cameo in the manga to acknowledge his existence within that universe. thats how obscure my character was, but i went with him purely because he was my favourite character. i will say though i did enjoy it while it lasted n i learnt a lot from the experience, n i think thats whats important really.

i guess this kinda leads on (not really but let me digress) to the whole uhhhh thing where if u choose a more popular character, u get more attention. which is fine i guess? if u really vibe with the character, i mean theyre popular for a reason. n choosing a more popular fandom (like genshin) would objectively also get u more viewers n numbers. but like honestly i believe that ask blogs are meant for u to have fun with, n like trying to get popular gets tiring pretty fast (this shouldnt be like a main goal, but u know sometimes u subconsciously also want that gucci follower count n bomb ass notes or something. i used to be guilty of this until i realized it isnt worth it) especially if ur not enjoying yourself in the process. (case in point: my previous fandom was considerably larger n my blog got about 700 followers within a year or so, but it got very tiring n stressful to maintain after my interest in it died, n no one was really interacting with the blog even though i tried which kinda made it even more depressing despite the so called success n popularity of the blog)

anyway on a less serious note, theres a lot of fun stuff u can do with the ask blog, like some ask blogs have really fancy tags that i really like n try to do but also like not really HAHAHAHA. i kinda just channel what i want to see in an ask blog into my own ask blogs (good art is one, i try very hard for it to be good :,DD another is characterization, n others is just extra miscellaneous arts n stuffs like au ideas or memes. these are also somethings u could work on during ask box downtimes perhaps)

uhhh another side thing is like a posting schedule i guess? like ppl would be more likely to interact (i think) if ur blog is relatively active, n this is usually determined by the last post u made (i think XD). but like generally for blog maintenence id say try to kinda find a frequency that ur comfortable with?? cos i know my once a day posting is kinda insane if i wasnt so hyperfixated on all of this n fight the urge to dump all ur replies when u finish them XD (though ive seen some blogs do that n they do it pretty frequently so its pretty nice to know once u see their post u can spend some time going through the latest batch of posts XD) the queue function is pretty useful here even though i truthfully have never really used it, i kinda just post from my drafts really but it also helps to space out ur content to seem somewhat active especially when u dont have the time to be working on replies sometimes. i hope u know what im trying to say here aha

ANYWAY that was like my 1.5 cents cos i dont even think its worth 2 cents HAHAHAHAH these are just my thoughts from running all my blogs up till now, some that are still running n the others that have just died a natural death. i wouldnt actually delete them (theyre still around actually XD) cos theyre kinda like archives n i can look back at what i did last time. cos ngl i made some high quality stuff back then, n i dont even know how i managed to do that aldhflhdsgk. also ppl do look at archive blogs every now n then for the content thats there yknow

BUT YES anyway if u do decide to join the idv ask blogs hmu, ill be sure to give u a lil shoutout here. winks

[saint-eridell]

Okay, y'all. Time to get candid for a sec.

First off, I'd like to apologize for the severe lack of writing on this blog lately. It's been quite a while since I posted... well, anything, and that's honestly because I haven't had anything to post.

Writing inspiration has been incredibly hard to come by lately. I find myself staring at blank docs or half finished drafts for hours on end more often than I find myself actually working on them. I will say a portion of that can be attributed to some very stressful moments in my personal life that have stacked up over the months, but I'm not gonna sit here and be like "Wehhh I'm so stressed feel bad for me" either. Without dipping into self-pity territory, I do ask for a bit of leniency due to personal situations I'm still handling. I'm fine, no one is dead, I'm not about to announce a GoFundMe or anything, I'm just... strung out, and it's for reasons I don't really feel like expounding on a platform where I'm otherwise largely anonymous.

With that said, let's talk about inspiration.

I'm gonna be dead honest: I'm tired. I've been writing fanfic for fifteen years, my dudes. That's over half my life. Maybe it's the Late Twenties hitting me or quarantine plucking at my sanity, but I can't help but wonder how far I'd be in a career I very much desire if I had taken even a fraction of that effort and put it into original works. I've found myself caught in an interesting paradox where I have a ton of original concepts, but no motivation to work on them because I know they won't gain the traction my fan work does.

Don't get me wrong, I'm insanely grateful that anyone, for any reason, enjoys what I write. That in itself is what keeps me going, fatigue be damned. But I have to be real with myself (and you, the reader, by proxy) and say that I'm burned out of writing fanfiction. There is very little joy in it for me anymore, as it's replaced my passion projects for central focus and as an artist before anything else, that's not okay with me. If I don't enjoy what I'm doing as an artist, or I'm foregoing things that will make me happy for things that will forward my platform, then I'm doing something very wrong.

With that said, I have decided to take a hiatus from fic writing for the remainder of the year. I will still be co-authoring Three Days as that fic is based in RP threads, but all of my personal fic projects are now on hold. I want to start posting more of my original ideas and works for you to read. That is where my heart is right now, and I intend to stay true to what I feel is best for me as a writer. I have two requests in my inbox that will be given to other authors for completion; if you're one of those two submitters, I WILL get your request filled.

If you decide to unfollow me, please know that I completely understand and don't hold any animosity toward you for doing so. You are allowed to tailor your content to what you want to see, and if what I'm posting isn't what you want to see that's totally valid. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for supporting me this far. I wish great things for you in the future.

So... yeah. Idk how to close this. Save the turtles. Be excellent to each other.

[cbspams]

Soft (Sentimental) Saturday

@5sosxjieun : You, genuinely, are one of the kindest souls I’ve ever met. Every post you make reminding other they’re loved and that they’re valued is filled with care. Every word you put out into the world is touched with love and presented with enthusiasm I wish I still had. Although you’re on break right now, know that I cherish you.

Some words from Minho: I couldn’t even imagine a world without you in it anymore. Without your voice, screaming or whispering. Without your touch, sweet and gentle. I love you more than the universe loves its creations made of stardust and gold.

@moonlightchn : We stan a creative soul. I am so excited for more of your lore, it is so unbelievably fun to read and learn about. I love how distinct you make your Chan’s, how each of them has their own personality. I love that you’re so determined to have a good time with everyone else, never wavering. I love the way you write. I love the kind of power your words hold

A few words from Felix: I look up to you, as someone I want to reach someday. Your dedication and tireless work doesn’t go unnoticed. Thank you for everything you do for me!

@gamer-yeji : Hello precious adorable one! I’m never going to forget you as one of my first interactions. Your spirit to always look out for your fellow community member is something I admire and adore. I know it’s been a bit rough for you recently but you’re incredible for pulling through and finding your own balance again. Thank you for always checking in.

A few words from Chan: Yeji, you are always so cheerful and you bring a lot of light and joy to my day. I know we keep putting off movie night (because adminnie is bad at proper schedules) but I’m excited for a fun, cozy night together.

@singledad-minho : I. Love. Your. Concept. Can’t get over it. Every post you make is so adorable and even though I don’t personally want kids (right now), I have every urge to want to baby Minjun. You’ve got the doting father down to a tee and it’s such a delight reading what you write. I know I haven’t really interacted with you because I’m shy and bad at things but I do really like seeing you on my dash.

A few words from Jisung: Everything you guys do is so cute! Hey, do you think I could meet Minjun someday? When you’re both comfortable with it! I think we’d get along, maybe as animal buddies.

@vampiremomo : Okay I know it’s been like, 3 days since I’ve gotten to talk to you but you’re amazing? You have a kind of daring energy I love seeing. And you’re so supportive! I see you liking and rbing things from me. Someday I’ll return the favor when I get my shit together. Your concept is so powerful too I’m excited to see more of it!

A few words from Minho: Damn princess, well aren’t you a sight for sore eyes. Having fun with our little game yet?

@modelyonghee : So cute!! It makes me smile when I see notifs of you popping up. I’m looking forward to talking with you more.

A few words from Jisung: Ah Yongyong! Come find me anytime, I’m always here for you! And yes you’re the best at cuddles and you have magic hands hehe

@freerentskz : Don’t think I don’t see you liking all my posts. I’m having a ton of fun with our RP! There’s a really dynamic quality to it where it’s constantly moving the plot forward but also creating really delicate relationships. I’m looking forward to what happens when they leave the church heh

A few words from Minho: I trust you enough not to stab me in the back at least. You’ve gotta a strong spirit, I know we’ll make it work.

@starsirah-oc : Thank you for living in and loving my story. And for always interacting with me! I treasure the talks we have. Sirah’s so fun and your writing is absolutely fantastic! Lowkey feel a little bad about not giving you lengthy replies hajdhd. I’m looking forward to building a world with you!

A few words from Chan: I’ll be waiting

@yourdahyxn : You have a great sense of aesthetic?? Your posts are the prettiest thing and I love seeing them. Plus you put so much fun on my dash and in my dm’s, which is really really appreciate!! I also want to get to know you better someday

A few words from Felix: I’m having lots of fun with you noona! Our pillow fort’s gonna be the best ever!

Honorable mentions:

@yourchaechae : I know it’s been rough for you lately but I’m really proud of you for properly owning up to and apologizing for your mistakes. All your posts are so lighthearted and a greatly needed break from the kind of gloom the community sometimes has. Chae is adorable! I love how you portray her as someone so bubbly and warm. Here’s to having a better future.

@sxltyshima : Eyyy what a journey we’re making! What’s hiding in the shadows mmmm???? I’m so glad you chose to RP with me and I’m super excited for your fic to come out. Let’s have a good time together!

@mafia-chaeyoung : dude you’re so funny ahdkshsj seeing you on my dash never fails to make me laugh

@empress-jiaqi : I know I don’t interact with you much if at all ahdkshdj but you seem like a lot of fun and I’d like to get to know you better. Still not over the fact that you thought I was pre-debut Chaeyoung aaaaahhhhh

@cupcake-yeri : we just started talking but I think you’re a lot of fun! Your concept is really sweet too (pun intended). You can always reach out to me for weirdly extra waxing about things

@camgirl-jihyeon : also haven’t spoken much but you made me laugh really hard at work yesterday and I almost squeaked. Hope I can talk to you more

@shinhaneul-oc : idk what to say about you other than you seem really cool and considerate and I wanna get to know you

My various anons: (Slaps inbox) this bad boy can hold so many fun and interesting questions and interactions. I love and cherish every ask you send.

Thank you for a week and a day of fun! I know I joined at a weird time with reforming the community and all but I’ve really enjoyed my time here. I’m a little shy so I’m working on knowing more people but I really am so happy with everyone I know now. I hope we can keep having really fun and memorable times together 💖

[furby-organist]

// what am i thinking about?

i’m thinking abt alexa SNAPPING!

idk if it’s anything i want to write anytime soon, bc i am TIRED, i’m tired of writing conflict, my main rp blog has navigated conflict for nearly 9 years, alexa is a FUN and STUPID outlet

but anyway. he’s a fun one bc he’s so performatively friendly, and yes, he does care about his friends and tries to do good for them, but he’s also very emotionally detached, to a pathological degree

im thinking about like... someone who’s an acquaintance / friend but not a Good Friend, crossing a LINE and pissing him off beyond a point he can shrug it off (which is hard to do! he has a good sense of humor) and him like, flipping a 180

and like u THOUGHT he was like, this fun wacky dude who makes you crack tf up, he’s been an asshole troll all in good fun, but he’s never been cruel to you,

but here he is, unrecognizable from the person you thought you knew, terrifying, reminding you who the fuck do you think you are. did you think he was at all conflicted on taking you out? do you think he actually, genuinely gives a fuck about you? that you were anything more than a way to bandaid the loneliness bullet wound and give him a laugh while in his line of sight? you’re going to regret not being exterminated, you get no special consideration, you’re another notch in the figurative gun now and he’ll forget about you in a fraction of the time it takes to tear you to shreds

and you sure as fuck aren’t thinking of him as ‘alexa’ anymore

what is the line? i don’t know! i have no idea! he hasn’t gotten that pissed off yet. he’s really hard to actually piss off beyond mild irritation, and things like idk, slurs he draws a line at, he’ll just shoot you probably. this is not an invitation to try to piss him off, I don’t let him start shit bc I am too tired to navigate conflict. i’m just thinking OUT LOUD

[hyperkittyjkat]

I'm gonna ramble about nonsense here bc no one pays attention to me; /dsmp /rp /LORE SPOILERS for my friend ace, click away my dude

tbh i love my last reblogged post (lrp???? lmao) bc i genuinely? kinda feel bad for c!dream and i always felt guilty bc of it... like, i had my sister and everyone else telling me all the bad shit he did and how it's amazing that this is happening to him and whatever, but i felt /bad/ for the guy. I'm still a new stan, i still don't fully know what happened in the lore besides the "huge" key points or whatever up until mid-february bc that's when i got into it. all i knew was; c!dream is a bad guy, he hurt all these people, and then later down the line; it was Good that he was getting tortured in the prison.

now me, as an empathetic person, i felt kinda bad once i realized like,,,, he was basically alone now. he literally had no one left after he did all that shit to everyone, no one cared about him anymore, and that's sad?? very sad???? and i felt bad for feeling that way bc everyone in the fandom are literally like "if you feel bad for him you're just as bad as c!dream, he deserves all of this, he deserves it" and i was like ?????????????? like damn okay, i guess i too am a bad person for feeling bad for a character i still don't know that well sjdbdndbnchd

this last lore stream with c!rivals really like... idk it kinda got to me? bc i broke when i saw c!dream just kinda inch closer to the lava, when he said the burn was exhilarating, when he just... idk i guess it hit a bit close? and i realized like this dude isn't okay, he needs,,, help, he needs company, friends, something that isn't just torture and neglect. c!techno being there puts me at ease a bit, because he finally has human interaction that isn't just c!quackity beating the shit out of him, he finally has someone who can make him laugh a genuine laugh for the first time in months, someone to call him out on his bullshit but also just be there for him since no one else is atm... aaaaaaaaaa

as of rn, i don't know if c!dream can change, as he's not doing too well, but i do have some hope that c!techno will help him out a bit.. will help bring some,, humanity, back to c!dream's life *head in hands*

sorry for the long ass ramble, i just wanted to get my thoughts out and i don't really have anyone i can ramble to at the moment sjhdjsbdnc I'm gonna start to dig through the old lore vods again; I'm gonna try to watch all i can to understand the past lore more, so i can form my own Solid opinions on c!dream and the rest of the cast that way i don't have to feel so... conflicted about stupid minecraft roleplay shbdnsvdnc

[bediiism]

I know this probably doesn’t matter to anyone but quick life update;

I have a nice job now for the past almost 3 months. social interactions at work with others closer to my age has done well for my mental health. all the girls are so pretty and nice to talk to. the guys are nice too. there’s a gay guy who totally doesn’t look or act 32 but he’s awesome as hell. I’ve encountered transphobes, and an old white dude asked me if i was a satanist because of my face mask with baphomet on it and then proceeded to preach to me. 

not much else has happened and I still don’t know when, if at all, I’ll be active on here again. I just lack motivation to write. Maybe it’s because I’ve been drawing more again but idk. I still love Nathaniel as a character (i still talk to muhu about him and archer occasionally) but I just don’t have motivation anymore. I think I feel like if I tried writing again it would come off as forced and blasé. Also I’m getting older which makes me feel a bit out of place in the rp community when many others rpers are younger and typically underaged. And also better at writing. 

The thought of changing into a multi muse peeks my interest but then I think of all the work I have to put into doing all that and that’s what stops me because I can’t code or make decent graphics. I can barely make decent icons.

That’s all I really got to say for right now.