#dude get this SCREEN out of the way !
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for the record, this is a ✨nagisa safe space✨
~~please dni if you dislike nagisa and/or nghy~~
#please block me if you don’t like nagisa btw~ given the chance i could go on about him for ages#don’t force yourself to look at things you don’t like yk~~~~? that’s why i have like 250 lhy/yhy shippers blocked on twt alone#anyway live laugh love nghy let’s watch them become happy together~~~~~~#we stan a failgirl gf and her failgirl bf#though. while we’re here… a little thing i liked about the chorus was how the lyrics drifted onto the screen#it kinda reminded me of seaweed for some reason. y’know. just wriggling its way into view…#even the animated lyrics were adorable. i seriously can’t get enough of this mv#as much as i want to make a post about the shsl cope going on in [redacted ship] twt i’d rather not think about too many negatives for now#i mean!!!!!!!! the long-awaited kimikawaii mv finally came out!!!!!!!!! i wanna bask in this happiness for a while longer…#i love nghy sm i just wish i could see this cute nghy when i look for it instead of the en.st*rs pair#dont get me wrong; those dudes are cute too in their own way. i just!!! have a one true nghy in my heart and it’s the adorable beach couple!#the dude from gamushara
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i think its weird that i have to make this disclaimer but the internet is crazy so wtvr,, anyway,,
if i say i dont like something, that doesnt mean "that thing is bad and nobody should post it.."
i swear literally every time i even mention that i dislike something, people will go "wow does that mean u fucking hate me cuz i post that thing? ur a fucking stupid bitch and all ur opinions r wrong" LIKE ?? er.. no. just because i say i dont like certain characterizations of certain characters (the saiki k fandom is CRAZY about this cuz i can state an opinion on literally any character and a group of people will still go 'well only we're allowed to post our opinions about them because we're always right!1!1!'), or certain ship tropes (mentioned my hatred of toxic yaoi maybe once or twice on here months ago and people STILL get mad at me as if i said toxic yaoi lovers r evil or something), or certain ships, or WHATEVER, does not mean that i HATE the people who are posting them or that i think they shouldnt post them at all, NO, im just posting about my personal tastes on my personal blog and it would be extremely weird and hypocritical if i decided that i was the ONLY person that was allowed to do that,,
i think the only reason people assume that is because there are a lot of other people on here who ARE like that, and a lot of people toe the line between posting that they dont like something and posting that they think everyone who likes that thing is stupid, annoying, and wrong,, so i guess all i can say is, sorry for whatever made you make these assumptions but they arent true about me so plz leave me alone ʘ‿ʘ ur doing the same thing to me that ur accusing me of but i didnt do it in the first place so ur just actively being a dick for no reason
#crazy that the mindset some people on here have is that theyre the only ones allowed to post their opinions#ive repeated this a lot on this blog but i rlly think people forget that the person on the other side of the screen is in fact a person#if ur harassing people and publicly making fun of them then ur just as bad as any real life bully#that shit isnt as funny or harmless as u like to pretend it is#not once have i ever targetted anyone or went on someones blog to harass them over my opinion#yet people think its fine to do the same to me and treat it as if its like. revenge or something#like ? me saying 'i dont like toxic yaoi' is not equivalent to someone going on someone elses page and going 'how tf do u like toxic yaoi'#I DONT CARE !! all ive ever done is sit in my own little bubble and had opinions and that makes people mad#honestly though the people who will publicly talk and post abt it are significantly meaner#and i want to act like im not bothered by it because i know most of them r just angry that someone has a different opinion#and they want all their followers to bandwagon off of them (idk why maybe for validation or whatever-same reasons anyone would bully)#but seriously if u actually do think that something i said was out of line and crossed thise boundaries- just fucking tell me ?#im a person bro. ur solution to disagreeing with me shouldnt be 'lol im gonna post abt this and make everyone harass them'#have a conversation with me dude i dont bite ? if u cant talk to me like a person then just dont fucking say anything wtf#its so cowardly to be like 'well no i didnt wanna say anything to u cuz i didnt wanna be rude.. so instead i publicly made fun of u!'#LIKE WHATTTT STOPPPPP </3333#ok anyway this post wasnt supposed to get THAT serious.#MY POINT IS just be considerate of other people and dont base ur hatred off of assumptions#ur deflecting the blame onto someone else because u dont want to admit that ur just a fucking bully lol#being inconsiderate on here is something ive also been guilty of back when i first joined the fandom and was clueless#but grown ass adults who have been on here way longer r still doing that shit which is crazy#and i cant say anything because they have so much leverage over me and idk if its on purpose or if they dont even realize#ok im putting fandom tags cuz i want people to see this sorry. this is my one post thats actually targetted but its at a lot of people#so if u look at this and think 'hey i do that' pls evaluate urself<3#i mean its also targetted at everyone who does this anonomously so i dont know who it is OKOK IM DONE BYE SORRY HOPE THIS IS UNDERSTANDABLE#watch nobody read this fr#saiki k#tdlosk#the disastrous life of saiki k.#meows post
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Unfinished comic that I’ve bee sitting on for literally over two years. Anyways when you and the bestie have a complex situationship that very quickly spirals into something so agonizingly one sided (unless….? 😳)
#genzen#zengen#genya shinazugawa#zenitsu agatsuma#demon slayer#kimetsu no yaiba#dude my girlfriend and I literally went fucking insane over yesterdays episode#we genuinely have been frothing at the mouth airing for this episode to be animated for literally like five years#genzen nation this is what we’ve been waiting for.#rise up.#*crickets*#I’ve been seeing a few people on twitter talking abt them in nthis episode hopefully genze finally gets it’s just desserts#I pray to god we get more people into this ship I need it I need it in my blood I need it I my veins#my girlfriend and I were sitting there beating each other to death the entire episode they showed up on screen next to each other#we felt nothing but genuine pure unbridled insanity#anyways a bit of lore for some of our au we’ve been cookin#genya and zenitsu both mutually have a crush on tanjirou but they both know he’s way too out of their league#so they end up forming a bit of a semi codependent bond on one another for comfort and helping each other through various other aspects#of extreme mental illness 💀#they both also end up developing feelings for one another but genya is too stubborn to admit that he could ever like zenitsu#zenitsu is more open to the idea of being romantically attracted to genya#he oftentimes tries to do things under the guise of their preestablished situationship#but it’s really him pretending that he and genya are doing things together like a genuine couple#and he ends up getting his feelings hurt every time bc genya ultimately rejects the idea of it being anything beyond platonic
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every now and then i remember the time a few years ago, when sdmi fandom first had its revival thanks to netflix, when a wildly popular sdmi blog run by an anti said the words 'perfectly good Black woman' in reference to why you should ship [man you could easily read as white, whose arc she was fridged for] with her instead of [hatesink character whose race is ambiguous due to being a furry, but has a BLISTERINGLY antiblack narrative under a thin layer of fantasy racism, with a fun side of homophobia and holocaust denial the latter of which is directly invoked in the post], which got hundreds of notes, and i grimace my face through the back of my head all over again lmao
#sdmi#scooby doo: mystery incorporated#cassidy williams#ricky owens#professor pericles#like man i'm sorry i really do love rickidy and their dynamic and it's rich and complex and deeply tragic on both sides#but they textbook fridged her and i have never once seen someone talk about that in the wild#instead there is just nearly-always-antis being blatantly balls-out racist about her in like a dozen different ways and EUGH#while also turning around and gushing about a privileged misogynistic white boy who abuses a girl and refuses to let her leave#and literally talks about how he should have thought of hiding a tracking chip under her skin without her knowledge#and this is treated as silly + cute and kinda immature but also About His Trauma Making Him Abuse Her; and they get back together in the en#and making endless posts about how he's Cute Tragic Best Boy because he's autistic and traumatized and (genuinely!) endearing#and reblogging and celebrating and cheering on Cute Art of Them while conspicuously not shaming or excommunicating anyone l o l#you're not required to hate fred over it but god damn dude fuckin yikes#and 'perfectly good Black woman' made me physically recoil from my screen lmfao#racism cw#misogyny cw#antiblack racism cw#abuse apologia cw#homophobia cw#holocaust denial cw#the salt files#the crit files#SDMItag
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hey tall roommate !!!!
there is BIRDS out there !!!!!!!
what the FUCK ?!?!?!?
#toronto pigeon#cat#cats#neighborhood watch#dude get this SCREEN out of the way !#i want to be out with them so i can catch them !!!!#mostly by lying on the ground and waiting for them to land on my little paws !
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You know I realize I forgot to mention this before in the Crocodile Power Level Speculation Post/Ask (btw I did go back to edit it so it's actually legible and has a point now lmao)
I really wanna know if Croc has any new tricks with his hook
Like in Alabasta the dude had a poison hook under his regular hook, which was also hiding a tiny blade beneath it as well. This is all fine and dandy, absolutely iconic etc etc
And then we never see him reuse either feature again.
Now to be fair, the only other time we could've seen Crocodile use them would've been in Marineford, but the dude just escaped from prison. Although people are quick to meme about the Marines being 'kind enough' to let Crocodile keep his gigantic fucking hook in prison-- If we're being realistic here, they probably let him keep the base of the hook simply because without a hand any shackle would just slide off his wrist and fall off. Of course he wouldn't still be able to escape or anything since he'd still have the Seastone cuff on his right, but if they wanted to keep him properly shackled then letting him keep even just the hook base would just be the easiest option for the Marines.
It's the fact that the Marines went out of their way to retrieve his missing hook attachment and gave it back to him that's a bit wild
But let's keep in mind that Luffy did break the poison hook back in Alabasta. Even if the Marines let Croc keep the hook attachment, I find it extremely unlikely they would've gone out of their way to fix/replaced the poison hook when the guy's going to jail anyways. If anything it'd make far more sense if they got rid of whatever poison might've still been left in the base and confiscated the blade. Like there's an argument to be made for the Marines letting Crocodile keep his hook due to disability reasons, but the poison and the purely stabby weapon? Not so much
So really, it's very likely the reason Crocodile never used his other weapons in Marineford might've just been that he literally didn't have them on him at the time, just the basic hook
But hey, it's been two whole whooping years. That would be plenty of time for him to replace the broken hook and blade and get some new poison into the hook base too while he's at it
Or
Are there any new weapons Crocodile could've gotten inserted into his hook base that he could whip out
Like just because he could get a new poison hook it doesn't mean he has to get a poison hook, same for the blade as well, right
To be fair, dude feels very old fashioned so I'm not expecting any Inspector Gadget kinda tech from him. Like I don't think Crocodile's knowledgeable about stuff like that himself, at least not enough to install any technically advanced weaponry into the hook on his own, and IDK if he'd trust his hook with anyone to "upgrade it" either for an extended period of time either
But could you imagine if Croc had gotten access to a busted ass Pacifista and stole a laser and had it built into his hook base. He just pulls of the hook and starts blasting people with the laser. How fucking funny would that be. Franky eat your heart out
#Moon posting#OP Meta#Sir Crocodile#A machine gun inside his hook would also be funny as hell but. Dude can create giant sand blades what does he need a gun for#Honestly I think the coolest and unironically the most useful new hidden weapon Croc could potentially have in his hook base#Would be some kind of a Seastone weapon. Like a Seastone Hook or a blade or even just a stick like Smoker's#That shit would be so OP but also make him such a massive threat. Like much more than his poison hook ever did#It's just where the fuck would he even get a custom Seastone weapon to build in to his hook#Like it's the WG who hoards the shit for themselves so getting one would not be easy. Or cheap#Since you can't just make stuff out of Seastone yourself like you need specialists for it etc#But like I said. I think it'd be the coolest fucking thing he could possibly whip out#Aside from a Pacifista Beam but lmao that ain't happening as funny as it'd be#For the record yes it is possible Croc's hook isn't detachable at all#I just have to question how he ever changes clothes if he can't even take the hook off#Also for the record. Croc's hook could've been treated the same way his clothes were treated in Impel Down#Like Oda totally could've just drawn him without the hook and then just told us in the SBS the Newkama had stolen it from the guards#And returned it to Crocodile after he escaped since he could use it etc. While he got some fresh clothes to wear etc#Like that totally could've been an off-screen thing that could've happened. But if it was something that unimportant then why even bother#He might as well keep the hook for the brief scene in the jail cell because it doesn't actually matter for the narrative
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man makes a post specifically about /mike's/ level of comfort to do overtly gay shit, and how often it's /will/ who gets written as the uncomfortable one, people read it on mike and will's ability to do public gay shit /together/ in hawkins. okay
stopppfbshsjsbsbd it's ok 💔 the mike angst jus doesn't hit like the will angst does on bylertruther.edu.gov i guess.. they were going based off of someone else's tags so thts why it steered tht way i think.
one day we will be able to acknowledge that mike's inability to withstand even the most innocent and brief of touches with will specifically and his constant pushing will away and hyperfocusing on el may be something more in the realm of mike struggling with his sexuality and his feelings and choosing to focus on the less scary and more "normal" thing as a means of trying to get control over his situation instead of just.... (looks at the gen tag) assuming that mike is a gay disaster with no depth who is in a relationship with a girl he knows he doesn't romantically love but obviously that's as deep as that goes and there's nothing more to it or troubling about that at all? okay ❤️
mike can't hug will, can't even brush arms with him, but that's just because.... (checks tag again) will is so unbelievably sexy that it melts his brain? ok. mike is in a relationship with a girl he doesn't like Like That or in the Correct way and he STAYS in it even though he feels like shit and tries his best to make it work and worries the entire time over it way more than even she does.... but nah. he's fine! he's got that shit on lock bc he's clearly the king of compartmentalizing and self-acceptance. he'll jump right into that gay shit easy peasy and kiss will on the mouth asap!!
like. jdvdjsnshahajsn. rambling in this ask bc my tummy hurty which is making me feel like my brain is a box of bees tht someone just shook but i just. mike as a character is so endlessly fascinating there's an entire WORLD to explore in him as a queer dude in his precarious position like. it's a wealth of angst it pulls at your heartstrings he feels so much but he can't express it he Refuses to express it until he has no other choice and they're at the literal end of the fucking line he ruins things and then he tries desperately to fix them he knows his loved ones so well that he knows just where to strike and what to say to make it better like he's just . he thought he had to let go of what he loved to be a man he quit holding and touching his gay best friend that he has feelings for and tossed him to the side in favor of his gf who is supposed to resemble him.
i just. HE LITERALLY DOES THAT WITH NO ONE ELSE?! AND YOU GUYS (/gen) THINK ITS WEIRD AND CRAZY AND OOC FOR HIM TO BE HESITANT TO DO GAY SHIT..... TO BE SCARED TO ENGAGE WITH THAT PART OF HIMSELF EYES WIDE OPEN KNOWINGLY WALKING INTO THE LIGHT AND EMBRACING THAT LARGER THAN LIFE CHANGE WHICH IS SO OFTEN A DEATH SENTENCE........ YOU THINK IT'D BE WEIRD OF MIKE WHEN WE ALREADY KNOW HE DOESN'T ALLOW HIMSELF THE SAME GRACE, UNDERSTANDING, OR ACCEPTANCE AS HE DOES OTHERS?
takes a deep breath and plops down on ur dash . i jus have a lot of Mike Feelings okay ...... i see an opportunity to speak on him n i Take it!!!!!!! there is so much to him and his experience and people just don't want to come anywhere near it or any of the possibilities and it Kills me it really does .
#the ppl on tht post were right im not saying they were wrong at all we were jus having diff conversations ❤️#bc although it can be fun to read about Out and Proud mike chasing will ..... i do like to consider the natural continuation of what we've#seen on our screen and the way that mike would approach a romance with another boy. for himself first and foremost#it's such a common queer experience and yet... it gets no love or acknowledgement here#ive said it fifty times but mike couldn't even hug or touch will................. meanwhile he was hugging and touching other dudes.....#the difference? mike doesn't have feelings for those dudes. so the true difference is the homosexuality involved.#laikeeeeeeeeee im just saying............... even will can continue to touch other dudes even the ones he's in love with..........#but mike can't..... and mike is the one that pushes will away and lashes out and gets mean and acts weird....#but somehow the idea of mike not being as enthusiastic or eager as a lot of ppl assume is Weird. ok ❤️#asks
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been following you since PRE bubblegum karkat days and it’s been really nice watching you grow and heal and whenever i see you on my dash and think of your growth it reminds me of my own healing journey. i find that really nice
HAHA that was AGES ago dude. my god. i cant believe youre still around, that was like, the worst of it LOLOL weve both probably come a looong way since then, yeah. life used to be abysmal but now ive got my hubby and mother in law and were moving to nola next month so theres nothing to fear =')
#we found the perfect house in the perfect neighborhood in the perfect part of the city so#we are hoping and praying. our sickass real estate agent did a walkthru yesterday and said#'its been on the market for a while so if you put in for it youll probably get it'#very exciting news theres even a patio we can screen in EASILY for our cats#right outside our bedroom door! it would be perfect for entertaining!#were finally going to make irl friends!!!!! sdkjksdjfksd#i had a couple freak friends in phoenix and like 2 cool friends but like. mostly. freaks.#so im hoping to make real actual friends this go round cause we sure as hell didnt out here in the sticks of al#yippeeeeeeee#babe is also going to get a job so i can take a break bc ive been doing coms to support us for years now and its STRESSFUL#im gunna get to go on a small vacation and kick back like#life is so good#im so excited to rest and chill#im gunna sew!! so much stuff!!!!#maybe ill even list some on here for people to buy like i just want to make so many little dudes all the time#but i dont have the time or energy to devote to that bc making patterns takes time and materials#IDK IDK TOTALLY OFF TOPIC#i dont talk about my daily life much actually its usually just specific shit so im taking the opportunity to say.#i grew up in a VERY bleak way. brother were talking moldy food bank food house rotting both my guardians so so sick#dropped out of middle school to be a fulltime caregiver lost both of them anyway#then a bunch of falling out with my family etc etc i had NOTHING going into my twenties but a FUCKTON of trauma and mistrust#and now im heading for my thirties and i am the healthiest and happiest i have ever been in my entire life#i look great i feel great i do pretty good for myself and the people around me#i love love love my friends im t4t gay married i have a cat thats like a pokemon partner. to me. its perfect#yes weve made a lot of plans that have fallen thru and were not where we thought we would be by now#but honestly? honestly? my life is really great. were broke as fuck but we get by and we love each other and thats whats UUUUUUUP#youll get there! just keep going! you have no idea what kinds of opportunities youll be offered in your life that can change everything
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beloved hallmark show about treason and repression and living in the past and Andie McDowell running into the surf to have fun for the first time since 1999...save me
#TREASON#iconic#they need to give casey goodwin (and their anti-colonialist despair/anger) more screentime#and food truck boy less screen time#and eliot's dad needs less screen time but also eliot should get to time travel to beat up his own father. on screen#aaaand i don't care for andie mcdowell's love interest but della should get to be happy#and Susanna deserves the world. look at her with that lil smile doin witchcraft#and is casey goodwin time traveling? 'i think i'm here to find out about my family' sounds like some pond shit to me friend#i AM losing my footing with my time traveling horse theory. disappointing that so few horses have been seen recently#i think kat is being too quick to forgive dude that shot her...but that's just my hot take i guess#truly get it together augustine family...eliot should tell his bestie that his dad sucked bricks...his dad should shut the fuck up#beloved show that is so different from other hallmark shows....please get fifteen more seasons#hallmark the way home#the way home hallmark#the way home#hallmark channel
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Is the male lead a little boring? Yeah I guess you can say that. Am I going to ship her with the guy who profits from drugging and killing innocent people - who tried to kill her mom?! Of course not, why would she ever forgive him for that?!
If he wasn’t rich and pretty, y’all would never. This is Fifty Shades all over again except this guy actually KILLS people.
#strong girl nam soon#drama rant#strong girl rant#even if they might have better chemistry on screen or whatever#she as a character has always been shown to fight for justice no matter what#why would she ever want him and his drug money?#i bet he would turn and have her killed the second he finds out she’s been lying to him#no way he’s capable of seeing her as anything other than an object he wants to own#i don’t care he has a tragic past#dude’s fucked#also I’ve seen this debate getting very heated online#so i wasn’t sure if i should post this or not#cause i really don’t wanna start anything#but my whole thing here is sharing my thoughts so#so that’s what I’m gonna do
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I feel like such a captive to my mental health.
#went to the science museum with some friends for one of their birthdays and we wanted to see the space film in the dome#which the dome is a massive theater where the screen wraps around the ceiling and such#and we took some edibles beforehand to have fun and I didn’t even take like half#and it wasn’t even that but my motion sickness made the first ten minutes so unbearable that I had to leave#and I had an anxiety attack on the way home like the first real one in like months#it’s a great reassuring thing to have happen when I’ve been trying to work on my anxiety with actually doing shit and interacting w people#I feel like I failed but like the first part was good at least???#my mom gave me money to get lunch on the way back and I couldn’t even stop I was shaking and felt like passing out#godDAMMIT dude I was doing so good#anyway I’m gonna relax because I’m exhausted now and I ordered jimmy john’s so I didn’t have to go out#fucking anxiety#hmh
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i did tell you people i met a they might be giant right.
#I DONT THINK I DIDDDDDD like an insane person i left out one of the most bonkers moments of my california vacation#saying it now makes it seem like im making this up and the following story will seem made up but dude just trust me.#im fucking. ok sunday morning the morning of Thee Concert and i (used to waking up at 4-5 am) have been awake on and off since like 6 am#my friend? asleep.#now i enjoy waking up and falling back asleep for a couple of hours however by like 9:30 im starving i need BREAKFAST#like the very nice friend that i am i dont wake my friend up i let him sleep and leave him a message on my open laptop screen#because the fucking hotel room doesnt have a pad of paper?? so i leave my modern post it note of a message#saying that im going out for croissants and coffee#because im an idiot i severely misjudge how hot it's already gotten in los angeles in july#ive chosen to wear jeans (bad idea) and a long sleeve flowy black shirt (worse idea)#i also dont look my Greatest because my friend had been telling me dont wash ur hair before we curl it for the concert!!!#so this is my hair after flying in and everything the day before (It Needs To Be Washed)#im following google maps to the coffee place as i brave the streets of los angeles on a sunday morning#hollywood boulevard around the chinese theatre is insane btw. insane. but being from new york i am unfazed (well. a little fazed)#i am Sweating. its already gotta be 80 degrees. im also reaching critical hunger levels. but i continue on my journey#google maps leads me down a sidestreet and tells me to turn down some alley and im like well thats not right.#so i turn to go back the way i was headed and find another way to get to the coffee place#as i turn and head back up theres a guy going down this same block heading in my direction#i look at him and im like hey that guy kinda looks like oh my god it actually is him. mr john l of tmbg fame#and so i have a split second decision of like do i sayyyyyy something do i just ignore him while geeking out#somehow i decide to be bold and im just like gdjgmm hi excuse me i recognize you uh do you mind if i could get a photo#he was very nice and suggested we move into the shade and i took the photo trying to turn off google maps before i did#and i was like aa im seeing you in concert 2nite love your music thank u! and we went on our way.#i think i kinda like. stopped for a moment before i went on to the cafe and was like. that just happened??????? insane. but it gets better#i do finally get the coffees n croissants btw and get back to the hotel after melting in the heat#and my friend who likes tmbg better was losing his mind once i finally told him#so the following morning after our spars concert insanity we have breakfast at a diner and then head back to our hotel#and he's wearing a tmbg shirt he got and im in a spars shirt and as we're walking back a car horn honks near us#AND ITS BOTH THEY MIGHT BE GIANTS IN A CAR and they say hi and are like we like your shirts!#and my friend and i are like losing it but trying to be cool and like oh thabk you we loved your show hi! so theres my insane story
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realized I can make gifs from mvs on my new phone
#dude the quality was not that bad before i cropped them#like it wasnt astoundign quality but it wasnt THAt bad#but first making gif from the screenrecording nuked ghe quality whih i understand BUT THEN i had to crop the gifa#gifs* bc ther eqs a black bar on the aide of ghe screen like from where my phones camera is ig#and it bothered me#but then just cropping thay out made the gifs get way worse quality AGAIN which i dont jdnerstand. Ur juat removing like 5 pixels from the#side
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GAAHAHHHHH
#venting in the tags#maybe its just past darkness and the Bad Thoughts which i shouldnt listen to are clouding my brain too much#but i feel so fucking weird and inadequate over everything rn#im unable to work on drawings as i usually would have and its kinda plaguing everything which it should like yeah i love drawing but#i cant let just one aspect of me ruin everything. right? the fact that i havent been able to draw as well as i usually can should make me#feel sick to the stomach and unsure about everything i do but it happening and i hate it.#plus i got the ipad id saved up from the comms to buy and its fun and nice and all and maybe i just need more practice with it but i feel#like im not able to draw on it even more? and i spent the whole day trying to get used to it but its just not as good?? and then when i went#back to the no screen wacom i couldnt get a hang of it becuase idek its just not happening#and also the fucking art block wants me dead i swear i want to draw so bad and i have so many ideas but the moment i start anything its just#crumbles down into nothingness and i hate everything i do and gods fuck i want to cry but i can because there are people at home and#usually im a big 'crybaby' when im at home but i dont fucjing wanna be like that anymore like i can handly my shit myself im fine.#i dont need to just fuckinf cry abiut it becuase thats not gonna fox anything but also i feel like crying might just make me feel better#but then id have to hear shit from my family and i know theyre just teasing in a /pos way but i dont wanna fucking deal with that#plus my brother iust talking to him os annoying sometimes like he talks about things so condescendingly and fucking hel dude shut#the fuck up i dont need you telling me that my art is something people can 'just do' and the fact that i was able to get the ipad#'basically for free since i got that money from the little drawings i make' as if they dont fucking mean anything to you like#shut the fucking fuck up dude i worked hard on those and even though i dont like my own shit sometimes i still fucking work hard on those#fuck you you bitch#i think a lot of things are just piling up and i need to sleep#tomorrow will be a new dawn and a fresh start and maybe ill hate myself less#ps. note to anyone reading the tags#im fine i just needed to yell out and express my frustration a bit. some sleep will help surely.
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order 86 Ratchet online to complete my tfp autobot cast*
shows up 2 weeks later, defective copy
have to mail it back (need a new box cause i don't have the actual one) wait for that to go through, then order him again from bbts at higher price
have to wait another month cause they hate shipping to ireland
#online shopping causes me nothing but pain#dude why can't there be better nerd shops near me#Dublin has a bunch but my spot has like 1 comic shop thats been selling bbm soundwave for like 2 years#gamestop sold TFs for a bit. but then they died so like. shit#Smyths usually has new stuff but they just skip out on half of studio series for some reason#probably cause transformers sell like shit#that section gets smaller every single day. it grew again when the movie came out but now its back to being tiny.#even then 80% of it is just shelfwarming movie toys. no wonder the mainline focuses on adults now. kids dont care about the brand anymore#also *“erm achtually i don't have Cliffjumper ” fuck you#That dude's on screen for 2 minutes and then he dies. I'll be fine without him#>coping because the only way to get him is a 110 euro 4 pack with 3 other dudes idc about#I'm not doing that. im already mad i have to buy tfp breakdown in a 2 pack. and thats including a 2nd guy i also think is neat#im mad he's a bulkhead repaint but thats a rant for another day#anyway uuhhh didn't expect to type this long. stay in school don't do drugs ok bye bye
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Istg I actually need to sit down and write a proper bio for Riku because even I get confused af as to what his personality is sometimes.
#oc tag#“but prince he's your oc how tf did this happen” he has a mind of his own trust me#i mean this is literally one of the parts of his character he is literally so good at adapting his personality#because he felt he needed to as a kid both in school and in the business world#that barely anyone knows what he's actually like#like one minute he's a suave overconfident guy who can take on anything#but hes also the quiet dude in class who never participates is probably asleep but somehow gets everything right and is top of the grade#he loves to flirt but will absolutely blue screen if anyone flirts back because despite the fact he flaunts himself-#he doesn't think hes attractive LMAO#his biggest motivation is spite and he doesn't know when to quit#this boy has so many fucking issues istg#def one of those characters who has so many masks that he hardly knows himself#i have a fear that he's nearly too complex to the point where he's a confusing character and i personally dont think thats a good thing#so i really hope that's not the case for you guys 😬#over my break ive really spent time trying to iron out his character and just make him into soemthing im even more proud of you know#the good thing is that at least his story now has a clear arc and theme which im really proud of#so im gonna use that to build off and iron him out even more#the way i put more work into this funky dude i came up with than like my entire uni work#i love him so much sorry to be mentally ill about a guy i made because i liked a ship too much (and crossover i was having fun with too)#one day i will have a proper post for him with references and everything for him his outfits his personas the lot#one of these days
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