#drvg ramblings

[hole34]

i'm dead serious, if prescribed psychiatric meds were more accessible, drug abuse would go DOWNNNN

one of my friends has struggled with chronic depression, untreated severe ADHD, and god knows what's undiagnosed, and because they couldn't get access to prescription medication they turned to illegal drvg abuse and fell into addiction. i, having struggled with the same things, was lucky enough to have access to prescription meds, and i know for a fucking FACT if they could have too they would be living such a better life right now as would millions of goddamn people in the same position.

I've used c0ke and non-prescribed adderall as stimulants and the difference between them and my actual prescription meds is insane. i have so much sympathy for the people who arent able to meet a psychiatrist and instead turn to the accessible option because there is literally nothing else for them. if we keep villainising those people, and fucking PROSECUTING them, and continue to gatekeep serious medical care, we're going to continue killing these people. Governments are consciously continuing this cycle and it's practically genocide.

[puppyregect-org]

im so done w/ call outs ngl cus like

oh that could've been a private conversation!! that could've been a block! that could've been a rant in a private gc/ mssg w/ friends and never think about it again!!!!

especially if it's like "this person harassed me!"

okay. block them

you're making the issue worse

if someone did something in the past you dont like

block them dont dig it up and shove it in everyone's face people CHANGE

this is why false allegations are so common. people will bring personal drama into the public eye and it always ends up in chasing someone off the internet or suicide

i have an irl that had been sa'd by someone in our school (still goes there) and the guy who did it's boyfriend made 2 call out docs with false allegations of him being a pedo

his ex bf from when he was 15 said he was 14 when he was actually 12 turning 13

he was lied to

also there was shit on tge list like doing drugs stealing, using ai and claiming it as his art and he gave me all tge evidence as to how they were bullshittibg and it baffles me as to why they didnt just

stop talking to my friend

or talked about it

instead of tell the whole school (teachers included) about all this shit

like this is what happens!!

[dead-heart-o-mine]

my bio dad failing to see the morally wrongness of taking his two MINOR CHILDREN to pick up WEED baffles me.

yes, I confronted him and he said he sees nothing wrong with it. Wild.

[kurushimiangel]

Summary for the updated KOMO AU!

Tws: Mentions of Suicide, Mentions of Drug/drug use(?)

In case it's too blurry: AUBREY couldn't find a way to move on without MARI, so 1 year after her death, AUBREY killed herself. Before she did so, she created her alter ego, KOMO. AUBREY has asked KOMO to go into the others' dreams, to make sure they don't forget her. She has a one-on-one talk with everyone in their dreams, and appears mostly in SUNNY's dreams, in HEADSPACE, so she can watch over SUNNY - also because AUBREY couldn't talk to SUNNY the year before AUBREY died. ❗ Sunny figures out Aubrey died from: ~ KOMO talking to him/OMORI ~ A voice-mail from Kel. ❗ CANVAS ROOM still exists, it's where KOMO goes when she isn't visiting others. ❗ KOMO and STRANGER are friends.

[stungunlazertag]

I hate the bits I make up in my head sometimes

Like today I misheard "bundt cake" and now there's an ongoing bit about Pizzi making a cake for Riel and she put weed in it (and may I add, Riel is OBLIVIOUS about it) running rampant in my brain

i may post a written version of the bit later

[unclekaz]

eating breakfast in the tech college break room rn and i just witnessed a drug deal

it is nine in the fucking MORNING.

fuck this im going back home

[dead-cr0w]

Really long and heavy vent because I need to let some of it out

This isn’t everything I could possibly type up but I calmed down a bit ((tws in tags))

My relationship with my parents is so confusing because I me because I don’t know if they hate me or actually care about me???

Like half the time my mom is honestly awesome, takes me places, lets me do stuff, we hang out, etc..

But the other half is times she has straight up told me

I hate you

I never loved you

I wouldn’t care if you died

All you bring is problems

I wish I never had kids

You ruined my life by being born

Or she’ll just insult me for just being in the kitchen

Stuff like that 😒

My dad though is his own thing

In short, they’re both narcissistic, bipolar, and literally blame everything on everyone except themselves

And not to mention when my brother fucking sexually harassed me and they just brushed it off???

Like it lasted for 4 years almost non stop

And they didn’t care

HIS PUNISHMENT WAS HAVING HIS PHONE TAKEN UNTIL HE SAID SORRY. HES A SENIOR IN HIGHSCHOOL WTF

ALSO MULTIPLE TIMES THEY JUST PINNED IT AS “boys have urges sometimes 😊”

I GOT SENT TO A MENTAL HOSPITAL BECAUSE I TRIED TO KILL MYSELF LAST AUGUST.

HER SOLUTION: TAKE MY DOOR AND MAKE ME FEEL LESS SAFE AROUND MY BROTHER

FUN FACT: I KNOW HE WOULD TRY SOMETHING IN MY SLEEP BECAUSE WHEN I WAS YOUNGER I WOKE UP WITH NO CLOTHES ON AFTER I FORGOT TO LOCK MY DOOR AT NIGHT

THERES BEEN TIMES WHERE HE TRIES TO PICK THE LOCKS TO MY ROOM SO HE CAN GET IN.

AND BACK TO MY MOM!

THERE WAS ONE TIME IN THIRD GRADE WHERE I COULDN’T FIND AN OUTFIT FOR SCHOOL SO SHE MADE ME BE LATE FOR THE BUS CUZ I STAYED INSIDE

AFTER SHE DROPPED MY BROTHERS OFF AND GOT BACK HOME SHE RIPPED OFF MY CLOSET DOOR AND FUCKING THREW IT AT ME

LITERALLY MY ENTIRE LIFE IVE BEEN FORCED TO BE THE PERFECT DAUGHTER

STRAIGHT A’s NEVER GOT IN TROUBLE PERFECT ROLE MODEL NOT THE WEIRD KID

AND I WAS FINE

AND THEN A COUPLE YEARS AGO I JUST SNAPPED

AND NOW SHE HATES ME.

Oh yea, then I wanted to watch my body slowly fall apart and break, so I started self harming not, and smoking, drugs, eating random probably poisonous plants etc.. sooo that’s super coolio!!!

Uhh uhh uhh anyways if you read this far, hi I guess

I’m doing terrible right now

Lonely as fuck lmao..

Do you ever want to ask for attention or to talk to someone but you don’t want to seem annoying especially because everyone is closer to the other people around you so they have no reason to talk to you?

I have one friend irl who I almost never talk to anymore

And I feel really awkward trying to talk to you guys online because I feel like I don’t belong or like I’m third wheeling all of you guys

Like I’m forcing my way in, and I’m not supposed to be here

[exstasyplague]

the focus of satosugu is not on the physical aspect. it could've as well happened, it could've as well not happened. it doesn't matter if it did.

as a fanfic writer, i can see both paths, i can comfortably craft the plot towards agape or eros. that was gege's point as well, i think.

no matter what sexual relationships satoru gojo might have, the only one to whom he opened his heart was suguru geto.

people ask me to write fics with gojo x female ocs and i don't mind doing that, (especially on the smut aspect). but i can't bring myself to write about love, a love that gojo would have towards anybody else. it just wouldn't feel right. so of course my narrative would turn... not the brightest since gojo is somebody you, as a person want to love, but he'll never love you like that.

i'm also a bit afraid of publishing this oc x gojo fic i have in drafrs, lol. since i like giving background to my female ocs, the idea i have is for the story to take place in 2007-8, before gojo went to pick up megumi (which happened in 2009), making my oc born in 1987, when some grim things were taking place in japan. in my other fanfic, phenibut flowers, the story is dark because well, my oc is a drvg addict su1cidal hedonist.

in this story, i want to make my oc a child that has been left to die in a coin locker (happened a lot in the 70-80s japan, only in 2007 they took measures against it). it's theme that really fascinated me and i wanted to explore how such an oprhan would grow up. but my writing is rather descriptive and i know that the details of a baby left to die would more visceral than average gore/tws.

i don't know what even is the post of this ramble.

check out my ao3, i guess, lol.

[lunarrexia]

ιηтяσ 🐞

• i’m lunarli but you can call me lunar

• i’m 15

• !! i interact with content about dis0rdered eating and drvgs !!

• i’ll post th1nspo, mealsp0, tips, journaling, wl progress, vents, ramblings, and other nonesense

sw: 161 cw: 136 gw: 110 ugw: 85

[struggleforsuperiority]

pissed bc i passed out right after it hit me. what a waste

[horridc0rpse]

btw what drvgs can make you drop hella weight im that desperate now lol

[struggleforsuperiority]

getting crunk #werk

[struggleforsuperiority]

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[struggleforsuperiority]

quick list of the tags i use

i never posted this because i didnt expect anyone to follow me but...

#ramblings: whatever im thinking about that doesnt fit another tag better

#e d ramblings: anything related to my e.d.

#schizo ramblings: anything related to psychosis

#drvg ramblings: youll never guess

#rb: reblogs lol

#ipod: music :) i love sharing 

[unclekaz]

complained privately.

got asked to leave the tech college

fuck. (:

eating breakfast in the tech college break room rn and i just witnessed a drug deal

it is nine in the fucking MORNING.

fuck this im going back home