#drawing food my beloathed

[thesiltverses]

I wanted to start off by thanking all of you for this most wonderful crustacean filled story! Having grown up in Maryland (a little US state so defined by its relationship to a giant estuary that the state college gives new students a crab mallet and some Old Bay seasoning), I loved seeing crustaceans get the proper reverence (and dread) they deserve.

My question is in regards to Val and The Last Word (who I love, love, love!!):

In the story, it seems to be implied that The Last Word is not only a newly created god, but also may be mixed up with Val in a way unusual for most god-saint cases (or maybe I’m misreading it, and the only weird one here is Val)

In that case, when Val died, did The Last Word also die with them? Or is it still out there, limping along without any worshippers? Considering its need for an audience to warp realities, would it even be possible for it to influence the world now that Val isn’t around to speak for it anymore?

Part of me thinks that if it survived it might end up a stray god in a similar way to The Watcher In The Wings, laying dormant until some hapless soul manages to draw its prayer marks (would there even be any records for how to summon this highly illegal and secret god?) I feel like the only living person who might be directly aware of it would be Chuck Harm (and now I’m imagining Chuck living his best life with the dogs while The Last Word futilely tries to tempt him into going back to newscasting to spread the word, like a puppy begging for human food)

TLDR, did our beloved walking war-crime take her beloathed god down with her?

Thank you for listening! I adore your thoughts on the Last Word and your story about the Maryland crab mallets is bizarre and horrible in all the best ways.

Personally, I don't see the Last Word as necessarily having an existence outside of Val (and as you mention, we see throughout the season that increasingly Val can lie without calling upon it at all). Which could be either:

1) because Val is right and she has lied her way into being a walking, talking god of lies

2) because a god of lies is necessarily insubstantial and evasive

3) because the Last Word does exist in some form, but it has no need for attention or communication as it's being worshipped far more meaningfully and effectively by characters like Carson and Chuck without even using its name. In this reading, Val is effectively a god-hacker tapping into its usage without having its attention.

[hals-hell]

hermit a day day 17 Etho!!!!

made very quickly technically after midnight in the timezone i’m in but i’ll forgive myself because things keep Happening To Me. storytime below the cut i guess

tonight my shower head broke and managed to flood half my room and it took me like an hour to fix. there is a broken spork holding it in place now. ethoslab drawing save me from the shower head? idk man.

and bonus!!! from yesterday!!!!

if you noticed my wels drawing yesterday was a little empty of comments, that’s because i was tired because i managed to go into anaphylaxis on day 2 in a foreign country (food allergies my beloathed). as an extra bonus, i don’t think the urgent care workers fully understood what was happening because they made me and the two people i was with go around four different rooms as i held an empty epi pen. and then they were like yeah you’re good you can go home 15 minutes later. which is not a uh. typical response in my experience but ok i guess. it meant i could draw wels before 3 am though. (i’m making light of this but please be cautious with allergic reactions. i knew from experience i’d probably be fine and had the people stay with me for another two hours to make sure i would be ok. it probably wasn’t a very good thing for them to just send me home.)

[nouveaumoon]

my beloathed wrist (carpal tunnel) has kept me from drawing for two days and i am creatively shaking and screaming. what do you think every ravenloft resident's favorite food is/was (besides blood)?

[harmony-discord-pipeline]

cw vagueness ocd distress loneliness and things I'm forgetting or not...aware enough to cw for right now

my particular type of ocd, my fucking beloathed...it's been incapacitating me for...well, it's creating a nice (derogatory) positive feedback loop with my fears and rsd symptoms and depression and isolation resulting from being...well, isolated...and that particular type of...********...since tuesday*

I'm really having to draw upon my most effective (derogatory) coping mechanisms to be functional enough to stay above water for this previous week okay fine since my parents visited me here recently the week before new years...it was...Bad, at the time made worse by nope not typing words now, the...I'm trying to avoid spiraling further internally, but...I've been relapsing into compulsions I've avoided for over half a decade...thankfully I avoided a...no absolutely not fucking elaborating on this.

...maybe I should just...avoid staying in the Sadness & Distress room whenever I'm feeling like this, but I don't have enough spoons to be in any other room? Especially given how that might entail seeing other friends and I'm...I don't have the composure for the interactions that could result in...I should leave that room but...I mean I can pick up food that's what I'm doing while I still can to get a few precious minutes away from...my brain experiencing the worst of this distress and sadness and ******** and...okay maybe the Sadness & Distress & ******** room is accurate? No, because ******** is just a synonym for...but I am not saying that actually right now (because I do not want to say what I'm asterisking with that thought). It's (Ysma's voice) "Why do we even have that room" right? But not really much I can do about that now?

*okay, technically since the...for a while before that, (definitely my parents visiting made it much worse, the days following that were So Bad) but really was the past...no that's what sending discord messages is for not making vague posts on some tumblr blog. hah "some" as though it's not my own personal blog

I really hope I can feel better sooner...my forehead is now sore every time I slam my hand into it and my pinky on my right hand hurts after punching the shower tile wall repeatedly yesterday evening. (unrelated to my OCD compulsions btw, all those...are a different kind of too much).

[beanmom]

For both my own sanity and my diabetic cat George's health, we feed the cats at 8a and 8p.

(We can't just put a big bowl of kibble down and let it sit all day, both bc George needs his own special prescription food due to kidney issues, and bc both cats would eat themselves into obesity if given free rein. Also they eat mostly wet food at this point, and it's a whole goddamn production every 12 hours with separate foods and separate bowls and insulin needles and feeding in two rooms and on and on and on...)

But the other cat Fred has been showing some odd symptoms recently and we are working with the vet to try to understand them, and the next step of our investigation requires fasting bloodwork.

Okay, great, I say. They eat at 8 and 8, so I can bring him in at like 7:30 and you can do the draw? Oh no no, the vet does surgeries in the morning, the earliest we can see him is 9:45.

So now I have to spend the next week moving their mealtimes forward 20 minutes a day to get them to that point, and they haaaate it and they are just sitting next to me right now staring at me like why are you doing this to us, we should have been fed half an hour ago and I'm like buddies I KNOW.

And. AND! The day I take Fred to the vet, I'm gonna have to shove him in his cat carrier (the beloathed), load him into the car, then leave him there while I go back upstairs and feed George and give him his insulin, and then when Fred gets home I'm going to have to lock us both in the bathroom and give him his very late breakfast while George yowls and attempts to dig his way through the very wood of the door. Having pets is so fucking fun.

[mandoposting]

I want to give each Cresh Squad member a gentle and tender kiss on the forehead and make them pancakes also

that's very sweet of you :)

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[sm-baby]

hey uh, well i saw poseidon and he seems like hes one of my favorite kind of characters which i bitch (affectionately beloathed) and here. sorry if its a bit wonky i havent draw villagers since like 2012 lol but i just wanna say i care him a lot even if i wanna grab him by the shoulders and shake him around at the same time. anyways hope your having a nice day and your designs are bangers as always

TUMBLR USER GUTSYCATNIP!?

OH MY GOSH HIII, GUTSY!! I MISSED YOU, I HOPE YOURE DOING WELL!! hehe you really cheered me up, I love you man!!

Also augh... Poseidon... You drew him so snarky bastardly.. thank you for the food gutsy...fucking bitch bastard boy...

I get you tho hes archetype is the skrunkly vibes and really honored you like him

[idonthaveanyurlideas]

8 9 & 19!!

thank youuuuu questions from this ask game

8. What’s an old project idea that you’ve lost interest in

for a long time i rly wanted to do like, team rosters of the beams for every season. and i did season 1 and then i was like actually i hate this (realised i would have to draw a dragon for like 18 seasons straight)

also i was once very close to doing a joe voorhees animatic but then the narrative ended up not working out for the song i wanted to use so it never happened

9. What are your file name conventions

usually just describing the characters involved and sometimes my emotional feelings about it. gomimoments. squad. my beloved. gomiiiii (I have a lot of gomi ones). not very exciting sdfgsfdg

19. Favorite inanimate objects to draw (food, nature, etc.)

i do enjoy drawing flowers. they are fun and cute! guitars are also pretty fun i like guitars. for the most part though inanimate objects my beloathed. i sob every time i have to draw a chair

[into-the-daniverse]

okay so i have a few so i'm gonna send two asks (rodrigo's crew vs meredith's crew): 1, 10, and G for rodrigo my beloathed; 13, 38, and H for jacqui love of my life; 13, 16, 22, 30, and 38 for my baby louis

I am kissing you directly on the mouth <3

Uncommon Questions for OCs/Creators

Rodrigo

1. What’s the maximum amount of time your character can sit still with nothing to do?

He’s usually pretty good at entertaining himself, but if his normal distractions are nowhere to be found, and he has to sit still, he’s going to lose it after about a half hour. A part of him has to be moving at all times to keep himself sane.

10. What lie do they most frequently remember telling? Does it haunt them?

Promising his Mami that he’d stay inside and hidden during the attack on his village. It haunts him almost daily, and he is always wondering what, if anything, might have happened differently if he listened and stayed hidden.

G. What trait of theirs bothers you the most?

The fact that (in normal circumstances/universes) he’s so extremely possessive and jealous over the people he cares about. He’s capable of doing awful things just to make sure he doesn’t lose any of them, and would do almost anything - except, of course, actually talking to them and sharing his feelings.

The rest are under the cut!

Jacqui

13. What color do they think they look best in? Do they actually look best in that color?

He likes to stick to cool/jewel-toned colors like blues, greens, and purples, and while he does look Amazing in all of the above, he would also look great in warmer colors like yellow and red.

38. What memory do they revisit the most often?

A good memory that he revisits most often is the first time Keean told him that he loved him. Jacqui all but turned into a puddle of mush when that happened, and it’s a memory he revisits often when he’s having a bad day - and he most definitely cried about it the night it happened.

H. What trait do you admire most?

I admire his selflessness, and the way he puts others above himself always, but recognize that he often doesn’t know when to draw the line and that ends up causing just as many problems. But, when he is able to communicate, he always tries to work towards compromise.

Louis

13. What color do they think they look best in? Do they actually look best in that color?

He tends to stick with white, tan, and brown colored shirts, mostly because he doesn’t want to ruin anything more colorful while he’s working, but also because loud and vibrant colors can give him a headache (he avoids Rodrigo’s quarters as much as he can for this reason). He would probably look best in a baby blue, or even a light yellow, and the very few more “formal” shirts that he owns are in those colors, as he finds them soothing.

16. What makes their stomach turn?

As a doctor, he’s pretty much immune to blood, gore, vomit, etc, etc, and isn’t shocked easily, but he is very very grossed out by specific textures or smells. He can never be on dishwashing duty because touching wet food will make him queasy, and similarly, the smell of cilantro (he inherited the “cilantro tastes like soap” gene and Paulina weeps daily for him).

22. How does jealousy manifest itself in them (they become possessive, they become aloof, etc)?

Louis isn’t one to get jealous over anything, but if something bothers him, he tends to retreat into himself and talk out loud a lot less. He is usually the first to notice it in himself though, and he will always try to rationalize with himself first before bringing it up to the other person.

30.  Who do they most regret meeting?

He both regrets and doesn’t regret meeting his former mentor, one of the Original Scholars at the Sea Palace. He regrets meeting them because he would have been better off not knowing what really goes down in the catacombs, and how the scholars largely obtain their knowledge, but at the same time, he doesn’t regret it, because he was able to use the knowledge he took from the Palace to help the people he cares about now.

38. What memory do they revisit the most often?

Meeting Dimitri’s sister, and his now best friend, Laila! She was very very shy when she first joined the crew, but the way her face lit up when she realized Louis could understand and talk to her in sign is something that he revisits often. 

[hearteyeswangji]

FOOD SERVICE MY BELOATHED. just let me go home and draw gay people.