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[honey-floret]

CW// Anxiety Attack

Log X11012555 Journal of Dr. Beatrice "Honey" Lewis

A very tired looking woman appears on screen. Her silver and brown hair a mess of bed head.

Groggily Good morning, this is Dr. Beatrice "Honey" Lewis, this is the.... I'm honestly too tired to really care at this point, I'll just look at the log date later. Last night was just... a lot. I've been trying more lately to socialize with my fellow researchers. It's been hard, but mostly rewarding.

So I pushed myself to go to a staff event last night. A mixed Affini - Sophont social. I really didn't know what to expect. I'd only been to a couple of events way back in my undergraduate; I always felt out of place, and typically left quickly. This event was, I don't know how to say it exactly but more. More sights, more sounds, more smells. The air felt warm and slightly tingly. It was a wave of sensation the moment I entered the room.

There was even more Sophonts there than just the staff. Many of my affini coworkers brought their florets. Including Cybil, her floret was in a pink companion dress, her hair a dark chestnut brown, and her eyes amber and distant. I've seen florets playing in the parks, and walking down the street with their affini, always with these blissed out dazed looks in their eyes. I've always felt this slight disgust whenever I looked at them but also just a weird desire. But yes these florets were busy making out, or playing while their Affini watched. Some of them even looked slightly familiar, but I couldn't place my finger on it. I decided to stay near the other independents.

That was also a mistake. I truly wanted to talk about my interests and hear about theirs but I just couldn't. I couldn't hear the people I was talking to half the time, and the times which I did their voices were just a jumble of meaningless words. I wasn't able to understand a word anyone was saying. My anxiety started to flare up, I started to worry that I was saying the wrong things to their queries. My ears started to feel, how do I say this, like they were bigger than they are. Like I felt the space around my ears pulse, and my throat was running dry constantly from trying to talk over the music and sounds. Then some of the affini came over, and I think? Started to flirt with some of the people I was talking to. One that wasn't Cybil came up to me and said something, but her words also just got lost on me.

I started to hyperventilate, things just spiralling out of control. I felt just a pit form in my stomach. I just ended up breaking down in front of everyone, and just sobbing. It felt like the party grinded to a halt in that moment. Everyone's eyes were on me and that just made it so so much worse. The affini in front of me looked very surprised. She tried to reach out and it felt like she was trying to hit me with one of those blasted needles. I shirked and screamed "No! I don't want that!" I ended up running out of the room and into Cybil who had I guess stepped out with her floret at some point.

I don't know what came over me but I just dug my face into the vines that made up her leg and held on. She reached an arm down and held me. The other partygoers caught up to us, and I don't know what they were saying. Probably something to do with me and my breakdown. All I remember hearing is her voice rumbling through her vines.

"It's okay, I'll look after her."

When everyone was gone, it was just Cybil, myself and her floret.

"It's okay now Honey. They're all gone, you can come out now if you're comfortable."

I remember her saying. I slowly detangled myself from vines. I tried to say something but words just didn't form.

"You're alright, you don't need to talk, you've been having a rough night haven't you? Here drink this."

I nodded sheepishly as she handed me a glass.

"These things happen. Let me guess, it was all just too much for you wasn't it? Affini parties can be overwhelming especially for cute little sophonts like you."

My words slowly started to return "Y... Y.. yes."

"Oh! Look at that, your words have started to come back. What a good girl you are. You were just overstimulated weren't you?"

"I... I... guess. I really wanted to.. to...to be social.. but... I... it's hard"

"You wanted to be social, and you think it's hard. But aren't we being social right now?"

"I mean I guess, but this is different! I know you and it isn't loud and there aren't so many people all talking at once!l

"Mhm, but you don't need to be in that kind of environment to be social. You don't need to be in that kind of environment to make friends. We're friends aren't we?"

"... yes"

"Exactly, and I think my little Alma would also love to be friends with you too, wouldn't you Alma?"

The, up until now, quiet floret piqued up. "Oh yes Mistress! I love making new friends!" She turned her gaze to me, "I would love to be your friend...." she paused and looked up to Cybil.

"Dr. Honey Lewis"

"Dr. Honey Lewis!! Oh I remember now! Miss Acaule has told me a lot about you and how smart and kind you are! Won't you be my friend!?"

I was taken aback for a second from the sheer earnestness of this floret. She wanted to be my friend and she's only just met me? After I was just sobbing into her Affinis vines?

"I... umm.. don't know what to say" I replied

"Silly! You're supposed to say yes!" Said the Floret

"I guess.. yes?"

"Hurray!!! Great yes good!!! I love being friends!! Would you like to play with me? We can do all sorts of games and and!!" Alma went silent as a one of Cybils vines pressed itself against her mouth.

"Hush little one, your excitement is noted, but I think Dr. Lewis is tired after all that excitement. Aren't you Honey?"

I hadn't even noticed until now but after all that crying my limbs felt heavy, and my head fuzzy. "I think you're right Cybil"

"Of course I am. I could tell just how much you want to just get home and sink into your bed. Alma and I'll make sure you get there don't you worry. If you want you can even fall asleep now and I'll carry you?"

I found myself nodding and growing ever more tired with every passing second. Cybil's eyes seemed even more pretty every passing seco....

And then I just awoke back in my bed and it was morning. I... don't know what to make of any of that. I suppose I made a new friend... and Cybil was just so nice to make sure I got home safely. I just hope no one expresses like worry about me when I'm in the office next. I just don't think I could handle that.

Anyways I suppose I should get my day started. This is Honey Lewis signing off

-End Recording-

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[phlaimeaux]

Hello!

I mentioned this on the ISOLATING podcast today.

Here is a six round quiz you can do with your friends/family/frenemies in person or over the internet/WhatApp. The questions are mostly from the amazing Louise O’Connor and I wrote some of the less good ones. Please go on Twitter and say thanks to her. She’s @oconnola.

You can use this quiz but the only rule is that you have make a donation to a charity that is helping vulnerable people at this time. In Ireland, good ones are Alone or Age Action. Please find a similar one in your country/area. And if you could ask the people who are playing with you to do likewise.

It’s one point for a correct answer plus a bonus of two if you can get the link that ties each round together, so the whole quiz is out of 72 points. Sometimes it’s easier to figure out the link and work backwards to get the questions.

The way I did it with my family was to use the main O’Doherty family WhatsApp. There are forty people across three time zones on that. I told them we’d be having a quiz at 8pm Irish time and to form teams and nominate a captain. In the end there were six teams and they could converse with the rest of their team across video platforms. At 8pm I cut and pasted the questions from round one up on the WhatsApp and gave them 10 (more like 15mins really) for the team captains to get the answers back to me directly . Then we moved on to round two. There was a threat of excommunication from the family if anyone cheated.

I corrected them and my Dad did the scores while they were deliberating on the next round and it was one of the most fun nights of the pandemic so far!

Good luck with it and let’s all just keep putting one foot in front of the other.

Let me know how it goes.

DO’D

ROUND ONE

1. Brazilian forward and politician Bebeto played for which northern Spanish club for four years in the 1990s?

2. What is the currency of Sweden?

3. Name the transparent front part of the eye that covers the iris, pupil, and anterior chamber, and provides most the eye’s focusing power.

4. What is the scientific name for the family of birds that includes jackdaws, rooks, ravens and magpies amongst others?

5. What number appears directly opposite 1 on a standard dartboard?

6. What is the Internet country code top-level domain for Colombia?

7. In anatomy, by what name is the crown on the top of the head also known?

8. Which song on The Freewheelin’ Bob Dylan features a woman’s name twice?

9. Which brand regrettably launched its hard seltzer line in the USA in early 2020 with the tagline "coming ashore soon"?

10. Who is the lead singer of the Yeah Yeah Yeahs?

ROUND TWO

1. According to singer Edwin Starr, what is good for absolutely nothing?

2. The Pub Landlord comedy character is played by whom?

3. A rock group, record label or film not belonging or affiliated to a major record or film company is known by what name?

4. ‘______snipe,’ is originally Wall Street slang for ‘streetcorner broker.’

5. Which 2020 Democratic presidential candidate was the mayor of South Bend, Indiana?

6. What was Spike Lee’s film about murderer David Berkowitz?

7. Which international football team played with the letters CCCP on their shirts?

8. What was Lewis Carroll’s sequel to Alice in Wonderland?

9. In Star Wars: The Empire Strikes Back, what is the name of the Imperial troop transporter/combat vehicles that defend the ice planet Hoth?

10. French duo Air had a hit with ‘Kellie Watch ___ _____’ in 1998?

ROUND THREE

1. Ursula Andress appeared as Honey Ryder in which James Bond film?

2. After Romeo and Juliet, which character has the third most lines in the eponymous play? We never actually learn this person’s given name.

3. What 1994 Robert Altman film was shot on location during Paris Fashion Week?

4. Otto Octavius is the real name of which myopic enemy of Spider-Man?

5. Louise Fletcher won the Academy Award for Best Actress for her portrayal of which character, the antagonist of a character played by Jack Nicholson?

6. An 1886 book by Robert Louis Stevenson investigates the dual lives of which two title characters?

7. What does assassin Leon call his work in the movie ‘Leon’?

8. What genre of song was first published in Tommy Thumb's Song Book, published in the 1740s? Subject material includes the destruction of a major thoroughfare in the English capital, an expedited order of a very special cake, and the threat of a tragic arboreal accident?

9. The term PhD is an abbreviation of which academic title?

10. Jackie, played on TV by Edie Falco, and Betty, played on screen by Renée Zellweger, both share what job in the title of their show and movie respectively?

ROUND 4

1. How are Athos, Porthos and Aramis better known?

2. Which 1991 film stars Keanu Reeves and Patrick Swayze?

3. How many countries of the world begin with the letter O (in English)?

4. As of 2020, how many times have Manchester City won the premier league?

5. On a typical dart board, which number is directly to the right of the number twenty?

6. How many claws does a rabbit have on its foreleg?

7. In Greek mythology, how many Muses are there? They are the daughters of Zeus.

8. Does a vein carry blood to or from the heart?

9. How many players are typically on a volleyball team?

10. How many countries are permanent members of the UN security council? They are also the only countries with a veto.

ROUND 5

1. What denotes the letter C in the NATO alphabet?

2. What is the surname of the central family in the sitcom Keeping Up Appearances?

3. A 'black light' emits what kind of light?

4. Which Louisiana general led the Confederate troops at the Battle of Shiloh in 1862 during the American Civil War?

5. Which rock group sang the 1988 number 2 hit, The Living Years?

6. What was first broadcast on August 1st 1981?

7. Which Roman emperor succeeded Julius Caesar?

8. What five letter word, beginning with G, refers to sloppy or sticky semi-fluid matter?

9. A Plantar wart is most commonly known as what?

10. Which (US) city hosted the 2002 Winter Olympics?

ROUND SIX

1. Which long running BBC music show is hosted by Jools Holland?

2. Which Shakespeare comedy features the characters Benedick and Beatrice?

3. Complete the title of this Duke Ellington song: ‘East St Louis ______ ____’ 

4. What breed of dog is or was a pet kept by, amongst others, Elvis Presley, Martha Stewart, President Calvin Coolidge and Sigmund Freud?

5. What is the chemical symbol for the element copper?

6. The sitcom Frasier was itself a spin-off of which sitcom? I hope everybody knows its name.

7. Which cereal, marketed in the UK and Ireland by Nestlé, features the cereal in question falling into a bowl with blue, red, yellow and green stripes?

8. Which condiment is made mainly of mayonnaise and finely chopped capers?

9. Constantinople was the capital of which empire, also known as the Eastern Roman Empire, until it fell to the Ottoman Turks in 1453?

10. Which Australian musician’s singles include Chandelier and Cheap Thrills?

ANSWERS

Round ONE

1. Derportivo La Coruna

2. Krona

3. Cornea

4. Corvids or Corvidae

5. 19

6. Co

7. The corona

8. Corrina Corrina

9. Corona

10. Karen O

Theme: Coronavirus

Round TWO

1. War

2. Al Murray

3. Indie

4. Guttersnipe

5. Pete Buttigieg

6. Summer of Sam

7. USSR

8. Through the Looking Glass

9. AT-AT

10. The stars

Theme: Oscar Wilde Quote. ‘We are all in the gutter but some of us are looking at the stars.’

Round THREE

1. Dr No

2. Nurse

3. Pret a Porter

4. Dr Octopus

5. Nurse Ratched

6. Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde

7. Cleaner

8. Nursery Rhymes

9. Doctor of Philosopy

10. Nurse

Theme: Heroic front line workers at this time

Round FOUR

1. Three Muskateers

2. Point Break

3. One

4. Four

5. One

6. Five

7. Nine

8. To

9. Six

10. Five

Theme: Pi

ROUND FIVE

1. Charlie

2. Bucket

3. Violet

4. Beauregarde

5. Mike

6. Teavee

7. Augustus

8. Gloop

9. Veruca

10. Salt

Children in Charlie and the Chocolate Factory/Willie Wonka

ROUND SIX

1. Later

2. Much Ado About Nothing

3. Toodle-oo

4. Chow

5. Cu

6. Cheers

7. Cheerios

8. Tartar

9. Byzantine

10. Sia

Theme: Ways of saying goodbye.

[robynqueenofstuff]

Something I’ve Always Wanted To Say To Those Who Complain About A Lack Of Good Female Characters.

Yes we are just SHORT on good female characters, aren't we?

‘Takes a ginormous breath’

I mean besides Ellen Ripley, The Bride, Katniss Everdeen, Imperator Furiosa, Rey, [insert surname here] Princess Leia, [One of the greatest fucking characters ever] Sarah Connor to just name the most well-known few. We only have Hermione Granger [obviously], Luna Lovegood, Ginny Weasley, Minerva Mcgonagoll, Molly Weasley, Lily Potter, Bellatrix Lestrange, Jyn Erso, Padme Amidala, Hera Syndulla, Sabine Wren, Mara Jade, Jaina Solo, Tahiri Veila, Jan Ors, Nomi Sunrider, Lumiya, Juno Eclipse, Bastila Shan, Satele Shan, Ahsoka Tano, Barriss Offee, Luminara Unduli, Aayla Secura, Adi Gallia, Shaak Ti, Jaden Korr [Optionally female], Asajj Ventress, Aurra Sing, Zam Wesell, Steela Gerrara, The Seventh Sister, Satine Kryze, Shmi Skywalker, Darth Zannah, Mother Talzin, [The fucking Hapes Consortium places women higher over men] Belle, Jasmine, Mulan, Pocahontas, Tiana, Jane, Rapunzel, Ariel, Cinderella, Megara, Lilo, Nani, Nala, Vanellope, Lady, Merida, Jessie, Dory, Helen/Elastigirl, EVA, Edna Mode, Joy, Sadness, Anna, Elsa, [Yes i think she's a good character but for different reasons than others do] Kida, Wendy, Alice, Judy Hopps, Kanga, Kala, Captain Amelia, Moana, Esmeralda, Flora, Fauna, Merryweather, Rita, Miss Bianca, Mary Poppins, Eglantine Price, Sally, Audrey Ramirez, Mittens, Maleficent, Ursula, Cruella De Vil, Queen Grimhilde, Yzma, Lady Tremaine, Queen Of Hearts, Madame Medusa, Mother Gothel, Honey Lemon, Go-Go, Chel, Marina, Eris, Tigress, Ginormica, Roxanne, Astrid, Valka, Ginger, Fiona, Fairy Godmother, Tzipporah and Miriam. Chihiro, San, Moro, Lady Eboshi  Sophie, Kiki, Shizuku, Arrietty, Ponyo, Nausicaa, Princess Kushana, Kaguya, Sheeta,  Marnie, Annie, Coraline, Anastasia, Mrs Brisby, Elle Woods, Dorothy, Matilda, Alicia Huberman, Violet, Corky, Alice Creed, Clarice Starling, Mrs Danvers, Janine Melnitz. Kylie Griffin, Junior Ghostbuster Catherine, [yeah there were already female Ghostbusters before that crappy movie] Lisbeth Salander, Mathilda Lando, Marge Gunderson, Judge Cassandra Anderson, Ma-Ma, [Madeline Madrigal] Regina George, Cady Heron, Clementine Kruczynski, M, [the one played by Judi Dench] Moneypenny,, Elle Driver, O-Ren Ishii, Julie Kohler, Yuki Kashima, Amelie Poulain, Lucy, Rose Dewitt Bukater, Joy ‘Ma’ Newsome, Grace Howard, Philomena Lee, Ofelia, Kara, [From Dragonheart] Sarah Williams, Maria von Trapp, Marion Ravenwood, Dr. Elsa Schneider, Evelyn Carnahan, Officer Anne Lewis, Dr Ellie Sattler, Paikea Apirana, Motoko Kusanagi, Carrie White, Arwyn, Eowyn, Galadriel, Yu Shu Lien, Jen Yu, Jackie Brown, Nefretiri,  All the girls from St Trinians, Bliss Cavendar, The girls on the Roller Derby Team, [Maggie Mayhem, Bloody Holly, Rosa Sparks, Smashley Simpson] Sally Albright, Jean Louise ‘Scout’ Finch, Claire Standish. Allison Reynolds, Kim Possible, She-Ra, [Plus the female characters in She-Ra and He-Man] Jem, Synergy, The Holograms, The Misfits, Penny Gadget, Jessica Jones, Buffy Summers, Willow Rosenberg, Anya Jenkins, Faith, Cordelia Chase, Drusilla, Emma Swan, Carol Peletier, River Tam, Xena, Lady Penelope, Roseanne, Dana Scully, Morticia Addams, Wednesday Addams, Lily Munster, Vastra and Jenny, Jessica Fletcher, Olivia Benson, Lilly Rush, Korra, Asami Sato, Lin Beifong, Opal Beifong, Suyin Beifong, Kya, Daria Morgendoffer, Jane Lane, Susan Foreman, Barbara Wright, Jo Grant, Donna Noble, River Song, Ace, Nyssa, Romana, Sarah Jane, Clara Oswald, [the majority of the Doctor Who companions are female] Madame Vastra, Jenny, Zoe Washburne, Kaywinnet Lee ‘Kaylee’ Frye, Lagertha Lothbrok, Claire Underwood, Uhura, Nurse Chappell, Nurse Abby, Captain Katherine Janeway,  B’elanna Torres, Seven Of Nine, Kira Nerys, Jadzia Dax,  Deanna Troi,  Penelope Garcia, Kima Greggs, Evelyn Salt, Starbuck, Lois Lane, Katara, Toph, Mai, Azula, Suki, Ty-Lee, June, Serras Victoria, Sir Integra Hellsing, Dr. Girlfriend, Elektra Nachios, Alex Drake, Cameron, [Even if she's a cyborg she counts] Veronica Mars, ALL THREE CHARLIE'S ANGELS, THE POWERPUFF GIRLS, The female rangers in Power Rangers,  Sabrina Spellman, The majority of characters from My Little Pony, Mabel Pines, Wendy Corduroy, The Crystal Gems, Princess Bubblegum, Marceline The Vampire Queen, Flame Princess, Princess Allura, Katie ‘Pidge’ Holt, Violet Baudelaire, Lucy Pevensie, Alice, [again] Nancy Drew, Annabeth Chase, Clarisse La Rue, Sally Jackson, Thalia Grace, Piper Mclean, Hazel Levesque, [I AM GOING TO GET SO MUCH SHIT FROM PERCY JACKSON FANS BECAUSE THESE ARE THE ONLY ONES I CAN THINK OFF THE TOP OF MY HEAD]  Daenerys, Arya, Margaery, Catelyn, Brienne, Olenna, Sansa, Susan Sto Helit, Liessa Dragonlady, Tiffany Aching, Hannah Wolfe, The female characters in Malazan Book Of The Fallen, Harriet The Spy, Althea Vestrit, Aerin, Sorcha, Daine, Sabriel, Maka Albarn, Tsubaki Nakatsukasa, Liz and Patty Thompson, Meryl Strife, Milly Thompson, Winry Rockbell, Izumi Curtis, Riza Hawkeye,  Mikasa Ackerman, Pepper Potts, Gwen Stacy, Black Cat, Wonder Woman [That’s a fucking no brainer], Batgirl, Batwoman, Supergirl, Raven, Starfire, Huntress, Black Canary, Zatanna, Catwoman, Hawkgirl, Mera, Katana, Talia Al Ghul, Enchantress, Poison Ivy, Black Widow, Scarlet Witch, Natasha Irons, Storm, Rogue, Ms Marvel, Emma Frost, The Wasp, Invisible Woman, She-Hulk, Gamora, Kitty Pryde, Psylocke, Valkyrie. Mystique, the female Agents Of S.H.I.E.L.D, Not to mention the girls from Fables, Rayne, Clementine, Amanda Ripley, Coco Bandicoot, Bayonetta, Ms Pacman, Valna, Yuko, Amu, Lena, Alex, Etna, Flonne, Jennifer, Raspberyl, Vulcanas, Usalia, Maya Amano, Ulala Serizawa, Yukari Takeba, Fuuku Yamagashi, Chie Satonaka, Yukiko Amagi, Rise Kujikawa, Naoto Shirogane, Ann Takamaki, Haru Okumura, Kyoko Kirigiri, Sakura Ogami, Aoi Asahina, Chiaki Nanami, Sonia Nevermind, Akane Owari, Fiora, Melia, Sharla, BB Hood, Morrigan, Felicia, Q-Bee, Lara Croft, Samus Arran, Aya Brea, Elizabeth Comstock, Ellie, Faith, Jill Valentine, Ada Wong, Garnet Til Alexandros XVII, Tifa Lockhart, Aerith Gainsborough, Yuffie Kisaragi, Rydia, Rosa Joanna Farrell, Celes Chere, Terra Branford, Relm Arrowny, Rinoa Heartilly, Quistis Trepe, Selphie Tilmitt, Ultimecia, Ashe, Fran, Freya Crecent, Eiko Carol, Yuna, Rikku, Lulu, Aqua, Zelda, Midna, Alice from Mcgee, Odessa Silverburg plus all the females in Fire Emblem, Vocaloid, Touhou  and Sid Meir’s Civilization. Not to mention the option to play as female characters in most of the LEGO games plus the option to play as a female in Mass Effect, Dragon Age: Origins, Elder Scrolls, World of Warcraft, Fallout, Saints Row, Fable, Terraria, Borderlands, Jade Empire, Neverwinter Nights, Rock Band 2, Tardew Valley, Vampire: The Masquerade - Bloodlines, Fate, Harvest Moon: The Tale of Two Town, Guilty Gear, Overwatch,  Street Fighter, Mortal Kombat, Tekken, Dynasty and Samurai Warriors plus the enormous roster in League Of Legends, Every last female in Skullgirls, All the female Pokemon trainers, All the females from Magic The Gathering, Hit-Girl, Powergirl, Tigra, Lady Sif, Spider-Woman, Vixen, Witchblade, Lady Death, Stephanie Brown, Jem, Aeon Flux, Gwen, Morgana, Morgause, Nimueh, Maid Marian, Djaq, Lady Isabella Of Gisborne,  Irene Adler, Carolyn Berek, Serena Stevens, Megan Wheeler, Kate Beckett, Nikki Heat, The girls from Women’s Murder Club, Beatrice Adela Lestrange Bradley, Temperance Daesee Bradley, Brenda Leigh Johnson, Joanne Kilbourn, Josephina ‘Jo’ Lupo, Catherine Willows, Alex Rovias, Alicia Claus, Jennifer Tate, Sarah Kerrigan, Joanna Dark, Catherine 'Ann’ Archer, April Ryan, Claire Redfield, Alis Landale, Alyx Vance, Heather Mason, Elena Fisher, Amaterasu, Shantae, Rosalina, Chrodechild, Chris Lightfellow, Ellen from Folklore, Jade from Beyond Good And Evil, Maya from Septerra Core, Miriam from The Guardian Legend, The female characters from Dead Or Alive, And even if you choose to play as a male character in games like Mass Effect and Dragon Age there are still a number of female characters to choose from such as Liara T,Soni, Tali'Zorah nar Rayya, Ashley Williams, Miranda Lawson, Kahlee Sanders, Samara, Morinth, Dr Kelly Chambers, Samantha Traynor, Morrigan, Leliana, Wynne, Shale, Flenneth, Cassandra, Even older games have ones like Jill Of The Jungle, Debra Dare, Lady Bug, Kangaroo, The heroine from Secret Of Mana, The female ninja from Ninja Warriors, Princess Rosella from King’s Quest IV. Even Princess Peach and Daisy can count as they kick total amounts of ass in the racing and fighting games Nintendo puts out. Aunt Entity, Sergeant Rita Vrataski, Polgara The Sorceress, Cutie Honey, Vicki Barr, The girls from The Babysitters Club, The ladies from The Sleepover Club, Princess Cimorene, Egwene al Vere, Elizabeth Swann, Tia Dalma, Lieutenant Jordan O'Neil, Kyra/Jack, Carolyn Fry, Mimi Kirogoe, Hana, [The mother from Wolf Children who is now one of my favorite characters ever] The girl from The Fox And The Child, Annalise Keating, Lady Macbeth, Cherry Darling, Cathy Gale, Emma Peel, Cybersix, Elphaba, Samantha Barker, Karen Silkwood, [who was a real person] Meg Altman, Thelma Dickinson, Louise Sawyer, Shoshanna Dreyfus, Trinity, The girls from Charmed, Emma Swan, Regina Mills, Mina Harker from The League Of Extraordinary Gentlemen, Pauline Hargraves, Max Caufield, Jodie Holmes, Samantha Greenbriar, Thea Queen, Squirrel Girl, Beatrix De Costa [Fire], Tora Olafsdotter [Ice], Wondergirl, Dazzler, Black Alice, Dove, Gypsy, Jade Canary, Cassandra Cain, Big Barda, Darna, The Boss, Meryl Silverburgh, Mei-Ling, Naomi Hunter, Sunny Gurlukovich, Olga Gurlukovich, Fortune, Quiet, GLADOS, SHODAN, Velma, Daphne, Miss Ernst/Grand High Witch, Sailor Moon and the Sailor Soldiers, [Sailor Venus, Sailor Mercury, Sailor Mars, Sailor Jupiter, Sailor Saturn, Sailor Uranus, Sailor Neptune, Sailor Pluto,] Bulma, the majority of the characters in Orange Is The New Black, Leslie Knope, Ann Perkins, April Ludgate, Asuka Langley Soryu, Haruko Haruhara, Nana Komatsu, Nana Osaki, Lucrezia Noin, Lady Une, Dorothy Catalonia, Sally Po, Reyna, Zoe Nightshade, Meg McCaffery, Calypso, The females from The 100, Alicia Melchiott, Isara Gunther, Cosette Coalhearth, Miku Hinasaki, Leah, [from Diablo]  Melody Farklight, The Totally Spies!, Mia Dolan, Kathy Selden,  Vianne Rocher, Princess Ann, [Ann ‘Smitty’ Smith] Margaret Hale, Lauren Olamina, Sara Crewe, Mary Lennox, Jennifer Simpson, Christine Collins, [Who was also a real person] Turanga Leela, Tauriel, The ladies from Steel Magnolias, All the female Transformers, Farah, Annie Sawyer, Nina Pickering, Gabrielle, Saturn Girl, Sage, Negasonic Teenage Warhead, She-Thing, Scorpion, Songbird, Silk Spectre II, Spider Girl, Silver Sable, The ladies of the Wildstorm universe, Fault Zone, Solara, The Wink, Paragon, Lady Deathstrike, Madame Masque, Cheetah, Emerald Empress, All 20 superheroines before Wonder Woman, Alanna of Trebond, The ladies of The Lunar Chronicles, Catti-Brie, Alyx, [From the Adventures Of Alyx books] The ladies from Marvel's Runaways series, Veronica Layton, Marguerite Krux, Mako Mori, Blaze The Cat, Toby 'Kissy' Masuyo, April Ryan, Mona Sax, Fox,  Ninja Princess, Papri, Lady Master Of Kung Fu, Reika Kirishima, The ladies from the Tales series, Noel Vermilian, Shield Knight, Petra from Emerald City Confidential, The ladies from Elsword, Anna Leonowens.[another lady from real-life but perhaps best known from The King And 1] Eliza Doolittle, Ree Dolly, Hushpuppy, Unicorn/Lady Amalthea,  Aeryn Sun, Chiana, Mallory Kane, Pauline Hargraves, Gwen Cooper, Toshiko Sato, Samantha Carter, The Tiger Woman, Barbara Meredith/The Black Whip, Hana Tsu-Vachel, Tessa Alvarado, Jo March, Liesel Meminger, Betty Barrett, Marinette Dupain-Cheng/Ladybug, Shelby Woo, Jaime Sommers, Molly Moon, Torchy Blane, Eliza Maza, Angela, Demona, Fox Xanatos, The girls from W.I.T.C.H, Mona The Vampire, The Worst Witch, Ms Frizzle, Carmen Sandiego, Leslie and Joni from Cluefinders, Ren Stevens, Jules Paxton and Jess Bhamra, [from Bend It Like Beckham] Hazel Grace Lancaster, Mara Of The Acoma, Aerin Dragon-Killer/Firehair, Angharad 'Harry' Crewe, The three sisters from Ballet Shoes, Anne Shirley, Lyra Belacqua, Kerowyn, Dashti, Sadie Kane, Zia Rashid, Samirah-Al-Abbas, Lydia Deetz, Juniper Lee, Gretchen, Spinelli, Alex Mack. Or female characters for really young kids such as Lizzie Mcguire, Andi Mack, Dora, Peppa Pig, Lola, Charlie, Looby Loo, Ramona Quimby, Pippi Longstocking, Star Butterfly,  Meg Murray, Madeline, Angelina Ballerina, The lovely ladies of Balamory, Jemima Puddle-Duck, and Mrs. Tiggy-Winkle. Or females from Greek mythology like Gaia, Hestia, Demeter, Nemesis, Medusa, Nyx, Ananke, Rhea, Athena, Demeter, Persephone, Artemis or their Roman counterparts. Or the ladies from Norse, Finnish or Egyptian Mythology. Or historical female figures to look up to such as Elizabeth the 1st, Joan Of Arc, Queen Cordelia, Queen Gwendolen, Ethelfreda, Boudicca, Florence Nightingale, Amelia Earhart, Marie Curie, Catherine The Great and Audrey Hepburn. You play as a female Avatar in Cooking Mama and all of the Imagine series, The Jurassic Park dinosaurs were all female, Minecraft allows female appearance through customized character skins EVEN BARBIE! THERE! I SAID IT!

But besides that entire fucking catalog, I find myself and the rest of the female population well under-represented.....Except of course for the huge fucking roster of female characters available.

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Log X06272554 Journal of Dr. Beatrice "Honey" Lewis

*A picture of a woman with long dark brown hair with grey streaks, wearing a set of glasses a bit too big for her face and red sweater comes on screen*

Hello, this is Dr. Beatrice Lewis signing on for the first time. It's been about a month since the Terran Accord dissolved with the signing of the Human Domestication Treaty with the Affini Compact. In that time, I've thankfully been left alone, just like before the treaty, to work on my research in peace and quiet in my cozy office at the university.

The books and other physical research material there allowed me to continue my research, even after those damn affini changed the structure of the internet, making my search for the centuries old articles even more difficult. While the old Accord internet might have just been full of spam, ads and dead links, it still held onto the information I needed on prior near ecosystem collapses and subsequent development of terraforming. As well as other things but no need to get into that.

Anyways, the reason for this journal, the reason that I was trying to say. I was finally noticed in my cozy nook of an office. Yes, I know that the financial and government systems of the Accord fell in the treaty, but I didn't do my research for the sake of the Megacorps, or for the sake of the Cosmic Navy. (Unlike some of my colleagues, and former students). I did it for myself and my own interest, which is probably why I'm describing my office as cozy and not really what it was, a shoebox in the basement of the university's botany department.

Where was I, oh yes, I was finally noticed as an Affini was going through the building making sure everyone had left. (They probably sent a message out about it, but I hardly ever check those). Something about dangerous, unsafe conditions and the building needing to be updated to current Affini standards. I guess I looked more disheveled that I thought I was. It might have also been 5 am, and I might have been collapsed over my computer asleep. This was apparently enough to cause alarm.

That alarm caused my housing situation to be looked into, and it was deemed unsafe as well. I'm also apparently "asocial, and incapable of living by myself". And a wellness check was called on me.

So, that's why I'm writing this journal, as a way of quelling any concern those damn weeds have for me. They said if I write in my journal and do a better job looking after myself they'll leave me to be the independent person that I am. But... *shudders* if I'm don't I'm to become a floret. A pet. I'd prefer not to become one of those glassy eyed, blissed out fools.

I think that's enough sharing for now.

Dr. Beatrice Lewis signing off

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Log X07242554 Journal of Dr. Beatrice "Honey" Lewis

A oddly calm woman with long brown and silver hair, and crooked, oversized glasses hiding slightly blown out eyes comes on screen, you can see the legs of an affini behind her. In her background is a large room, its white walls covered in bookshelves. The room is brightly lit by natural light.

Hiiiiii, this is Beatrice "Honey" Lewis. Recording in... my j.. jou.. journal for the the woman counts on her hands, this many times!!! and holds up six fingers. I... I... I'm a.. at the n.. new hab unit now.. I'm I'm happy to be here, it... it.. it's bigger than my old apartment and a..aa.. all my things are here. And so... so.. so is Ashli!!! Say hello to my journal Ashli!!

Hello journal, isn't Honey just the cutest like this?

Giggles You called me cute!

I did didn't I? It's because you are. Honey do you mind if I take over your journal for today? You should go have your meds and rest you had a long day.

Okiieeee Dr Beatrice Honey Lewis heads off screen

Now that I'm alone, I should give an accurate account of what happened today, and then I'll lock this recording.

The affini adjusts something on the datapad.

Today was moving day for Honey, I knew it was going to be a stressful day for her. I found her datapad recording last week and I ended up watching her journal entries. She talked about how much she hated moving. I decided that in order to reduce that stress that I'd take her out for a walk during the moving process, and then bring her over to her new hab unit when everything was set and done. It... didn't go exactly as I had planned.

Honey was nervous and upset the entire time. She kept complaining about how she wasn't there to make sure they had gotten everything, and that they knew exactly how to put everything out in the new place.

She started spiralling, crying about how it was unfair for us to move her. How unfair it was that she wasn't allowed any amount of freedom; how she wasn't allowed to just be alone. We had only left her place for half an hour before she had a complete meltdown, falling to her knees and crying. Very different from the persona she tries to give off.

I know that Honey didn't want any Xenodrugs. She has been very adamant about that. But, there wasn't anything else I could do in the moment. So... I pricked her with some class E's. And some class D's. And A's. And later I'm sure she won't want to remember this I'll slip her some class Bs.

She was honestly doing so well this last month. I know she says that it's all an act in her journals, but she said under the effects of the class Ds that she's really enjoyed it. That she appreciates the care and routine that I've given her, and all the instruction in how she can look after herself. She still expresses a want and need to go back to work, but I can see her making a good floret.

I think that when the time comes I will release her from my care, but on the condition that she be put in an work environment with affini. I have a good friend, Cybilpedium Acaule, who works in xenoarcheology, who could keep an eye on her...

She really is just the cutest.

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Log X11022555 Journal of Dr. Beatrice "Honey" Lewis

A woman with frazzled grey and silver hair appears on screen. Her glasses askew, and her navy cardigan unbuttoned with one shoulder exposed, her her white tank top showing underneath.

Hello, th..this is Dr Beatrice "Honey" Lewis... I can't, I just can't believe what I just did. I.. I asked Cybil out for coffee tomorrow. I mean it's not like it's a date or anything; but it's so like me to do something like that! Like I don't even know why I asked her, it just all came out all at once!

And the worst part about it is that she said

"Yes Cutie, I'd be delighted to."

And I just stood there dumbstruck, gazing up at her gorgeous eyes as she touched my nose with her vine and walked off. Goodness it would be so nice for her to just touch me again...

Shakes head Ever since the party I just haven't been able to get her out of my head! Every waking thought has been about her holding me or comforting me or just telling me what a good girl I am. The woman on the screen shakes excitedly Petting my head, and wrapping me in her vines..

AAAAAAAAAA!!! And now I have to go see her out of work, alone, away from everyone else. Just us. I really want to impress her, but I also have like just absolutely nothing to wear! But also just coffee do I even need to wear something nice... goodness I've just never have done this before! I don't even know... wait I do know someone who I ask about how to deal with this situation....

I'll come back to this later. Right now I need to call someone... Honey Lewis signing off

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Log X07102554 Journal of Dr. Beatrice "Honey" Lewis

Hello, this is Dr. Beatrice Lewis, recording in my journal for the 4th time. As much as I am exasperated by Ashliclepias and the Affini in general, I suppose my time with them isn't so bad.

While it's completely unneeded, having a schedule is actually giving me more energy to focus on my research than before. And as much as I hate to say it, having an apartment where I can see the floor and surfaces is somehow making me feel good?

I'm still upset over the fact this was all forced upon me. Ashliclepias is also just annoying, constantly fretting over me, keeping me away from my own kitchen, preventing me from cooking. Just insisting that I just work on getting better. Getting better from what I'm still not sure.

Half the time it just feels like she's infantilizing me.

Like she insists on calling me Honey!

She said that once I learn how to maintain my routine, and keep my own space tidy that she'll leave. Otherwise... well otherwise is the explicit threat. If I don't get better, if I can't look after myself the way she wants me to, then she'll have no choice but to bring me to a domestication centre. I have to do everything I can for that outcome not to happen.

I think that maybe, if I do everything she asks of me, outside of the Xenodrugs, then maybe I can get her out of my life, and just go back to the life I had before.

She's supposed to arrive soon for breakfast and morning meds. I think I'll do my best today to impress upon her that I'm capable of independent living.

This is Dr. Beatrice Lewis signing off.

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Log X07252554 Journal of Dr. Beatrice "Honey" Lewis

A bedraggled woman comes on screen. It's clear from her posture, and voice that she has just woken up

Hello yawns this is Dr. Beatrice "Honey" Lewis and this is my 6th recording. I have awoken from a strange dream in a place that's just completely unfamiliar to me. I suppose it's the new hab unit. It's definitely bigger than what I had anticipated. I haven't even begun to look if those weeds have placed everything in its correct position. I don't even know how I got here. Last thing I remember was going to sleep in my apartment. I guess they must have moved me along with all the furniture. Which seems just weird but I guess I'm here now.

But yes the dream. I dreamt that I was a dog shudders. I was all alone in some back alley somewhere. Fighting for scraps with the other dogs. It felt like anytime I had found any food, some bigger dog pushed me aside to claim it. And I was just so afraid of everything. I often hid in some dark corner that felt safe to me. One day a woman found me hiding in my corner, I yelped as she tried to grab me but I was too afraid to do anything. She brought me home and washed me and fed me and at that point I woke up. It was a really weird dream. Probably means nothing.

I think I'll spend the rest of the morning making sure everything is where it should be. I have no idea when Ashliclepias is supposed to arrive. I just feel so dazed and tired.

Dr. Beatrice "Honey" Lewis signing off

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Log X07012554 Journal of Dr. Beatrice "Honey" Lewis

Hello this is Dr. Beatrice Lewis signing on for the second time since I've started this journal. I've been essentially confined to my apartment for the time being. The Affini who keeps coming to see me, Ashliclepias or something along those lines, has been rather bothersome. She keeps fussing over me as if I were some kind of child who couldn't look after herself. I've been looking after myself for over 12 years now, ever since I was 20. I don't need some xeno to come in and tell me that I'm living my life wrong! Yesterday she tried to feed me!! When I wouldn't eat because I wasn't hungry and I was just more interested in reading about extinct plants. At least extinct plants don't try to force feed you...

All I want to do is be left alone to do my research in peace. What I wouldn't give just to be alone with a book and a nice cup of tea.

What's also bothersome is that my carefully curated apartment is to be torn down for being not up to Affini code and that I'll get a new hab unit at some point soon. I'd... rather not move. Everything here is exactly how I like it, and moving will just disrupt my system! Everything has a place and I just won't be able to find things if suddd.....

KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK

Beatrice?

Damn that weed is at my door again. Fine. Yes Ashliclepias I'm coming. And I told you please call me Dr Lewis!

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Log X08052554 Journal of Dr. Beatrice "Honey" Lewis

A woman in a professional yet colourful outfit, with brown and silver hair, and oversized glasses appears on the screen

Hello, this is Dr. Beatrice "Honey" Lewis, recording in my journal for the 7th time. Today is the day. Ashliclepias said that I've been a good girl over this last month and a bit, and she's so proud of me. I guess I fooled her. In doing everything she's asked me to do over the last little bit I've convinced her that I've changed and can re-enter society. I never took xenodrugs and I'm definitely not becoming a floret. Phew.

I was told that I can go back to the university and they'll be waiting for me with a new office in the xenoarcheology department. I told Ashliclepias that wasn't my subject but she assured me that I'll fit right in and not to worry about it. That I'll be working with other Sophonts and Affini.

I... I don't know exactly how I feel. Ashliclepias has been such a pain, but it was kinda nice to have had some contact with someone. It kinda feels like for a long time I just didn't. I was screwed over so many times by my fellow Terran Sophonts that I just shut everyone out. I worry what being back in society will be like. I really haven't left my apartment and now my hab unit ever since I was so rudely awakened in the university basement.

I'm also just.. concerned about that one time I just woke up in my bed in the new hab unit after being in my bed in my old apartment. And I have a locked journal entry that I can't seem to unlock. It's probably best not to worry about it but it's still troubling.

I think I'll continue just to do my best to follow the routine set out for me and just get back to work. I certainly don't want another wellness check called on me. Even if I might get to see Ashliclepias again .

I should go. Dr. Beatrice "Honey" Lewis signing off.

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Log X10222555 Journal of Dr. Beatrice "Honey" Lewis

A woman in a cozy jacket, with her silver and brown hair tied up in a bun. Her glasses oval in shape fitting her face nicely appears on screen

This is Dr. Beatrice "Honey" Lewis, signing on for 202 time. I know I mentioned in previous journal entries about that Affini who takes an interest in my work but I don't think I ever named her. Her name is Cybilpedium Acaule, Second Bloom. She's been working in Xenoarcheology longer than I've been alive!! She's also quite pre... pre...pretty... The way in which her foliage looks like an extinct plant from earths history. She resembles almost a Pink Lady slipper in how her flowers are arranged around her head and down her chest.... I could look at her for hours... shakes head... Sorry I really have no idea why I said all that

Anyways, it's been amazing of her to tell me of the hundreds of planets she's been to within the Compact, sorting through old folktales and data logs to discover the history of the Sophonts who live in the compact! It honestly sounds a lot like what I've been doing here before the Affini arrived. But while her focus is culture mine has always been botany and ecology.

Which is probably why she's taken such an interest in me. Purely from a professional sense of course. I believe, perhaps... she's complimented me a couple of times and I just can't seem to get her words out of my head. The good girls, the clever sophonts. The ever so slight touches she does when she's looking over my shoulder when I'm reading my datapad. It's all just, s..s.. soo much. I mean that's just what friends do right? And I suppose she is my friend. Probably best not to think about it so much.

There's supposed to be a staff meeting later today to go over some new exciting findings on Mars. Apparently someone dug up an ancient Rover from the days of humanities first steps into the cosmos!

I'm very glad that Ashli recommended me to this position... I should really thank her.. shakes head

This is Dr. Beatrice "Honey" Lewis signing off

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Log X07182554 Journal of Dr. Beatrice "Honey" Lewis

Dr. Beatrice Lewis comes onto the screen, her long brown and silver hair is frazzled, her glasses set skewed upon her face. She is wearing a green sweater

Hello this is Dr. Beatrice Lewis, recording in my journal for the 5th time. I was told by Ashliclepias that my new hab unit should be finalized soon. I still don't want to move, and I told her as such. It feels like she just dismissed my feelings on the matter, and tried to tell me how much better my new hab unit was going to be. How much bigger and safer it was. How they'd make sure that all my things were going to be moved there and I didn't have to worry about any of it. Just that I had to physically move from this apartment when the time came.

I don't really care? I have a system for everything in my apartment and it's not like they're going to replicate that. It's going to take me weeks to redo everything and figure out where exactly I want everything. Let's say if my if my glasses case isn't in its usual spot, I'm going to go nuts trying to find it, or if my books aren't in the right order. I order my books according to subject and date published, not alphabetically.

It might be bigger and better or whatever in the end but it's not my apartment. They've torn down the university buildings too saying they'll put state of the art facilities, with new equipment. But I'm sure it's going to take me forever to get used to the new layout and I'll have to set up my office again and it's just gahhhh.

This is just too much and fuck it I'm going to bed......

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A tall feminine being, seemingly made of vines, with what appears to be a shock of pink hair made out of small round flowers appears on the screen. A long arm with a large hand grabs the recording device. The being face becomes more visible, her light golden eyes flicker as she watches something.

Oh poor dear, seems to have been so upset by our conversation about moving earlier she just fell asleep. She didn't even shut off the light or stop the recording. Hmm she hasn't taken her nighttime meds yet but I'll let it pass for tonight.

The lights flick out

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Log X07022554 Journal of Dr. Beatrice "Honey" Lewis

Hello, this Dr. Beatrice Lewis, this is my third recording in my journal. You know I thought I really enjoyed plants, I made my whole life researching them, both the plants of today and the plants of yesteryear. My research through centuries old files even found seed banks from before the first total ecosystem collapse. Before the Jumpdrive was even invented.

Not that I was recognized for my efforts. That went to Neal Pearson, my supervisor at the time.

He stole the file from my computer and received a big buyout from one of the megacorps to investigate and claim the bounty of the vault. He told me after he got recruited by the same megacorp that "Victory goes to the first one to publish. And besides who were they going to believe? You or me? Besides you're a sissy freak who only got into the program on my good graces. You've served your use."

To be honest the rest of my career was more of the same. I might have been able to force my way through grad school, doing well enough to get my doctorate and a minor position at a second rate university but at least I achieved that much. None of my contributions were recognized. My most promising students went off to join the Cosmic Navy to fight the Affini. Lot of good that did.

But to go back to my first point. I thought I enjoyed plants, but then the Affini came and now plants talked back and thought they knew what was best for everyone. What's best for me... I know what's best for me. It's to be left alone to do my research in peace. No distractions and no one to bother me.

Certainly no plants trying to make me take my meds, or eat or go to bed on time. I haven't mentioned this sooner but Ashliclepias keeps trying to encourage me to take Xenodrugs, I keep refusing saying I'm perfectly fine with my Terran medicine. Besides I've seen what those Xenodrugs do to people. I've seen the Compact propaganda with those dazed humans, or what they call them again, florets? I'd prefer to not be so intoxicated that I can barely stand up straight.

At least she's respecting that decision and providing me with my Terran meds.

Anyways I think that's enough for today. This is Dr. Beatrice Lewis signing off

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OOC: Holy moly! I've been writing up a storm. I've written like 4 recordings so far. And probably going to write a 5th. I'm going to release them slowly over the next week. I hope y'all enjoy them.

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Log X10252555 Journal of Dr. Beatrice "Honey" Lewis

A woman in her nightgown appears on screen, her long silver and brown hair in braids.

Hello, this is Dr. Beatrice "Honey" Lewis. It's quite late or early depending on who you ask. I was sleeping and in my sleep I had that dream again. That dream where I was just a frightened dog, all alone on the streets. No one to help me, all the other dogs looking down on me. Refusing me shelter, refusing me food.

This is the same dream I've been having off and on for a while now. It always seems to end when I'm found by a nice woman who offers me food, even when I'm scared and I bark and snap. She isn't afraid of me. I can never see her face. It's always a blur to me.

Just why, why does this dream just haunt me so. I feel like I'm doing well now, or I guess mostly. I've kept to a routine, I've generally kept to a cleaning schedule.

Work has been going well. Even if outside of mandatory interactions I've just kinda kept to myself and done my own thing. So many other Sophonts and affini have been trying to get me to work with them, to go out with them and do things. But I just can't bring myself to. I just find it hard to relate to them. Even if they're in my field. And even worse I feel like I'm finding it hard to trust. Trust them with my work. I know the affini highly encourage collaboration, but.... cries

The only one I've let into my life and have considered a friend is Cybil. She's just been so nice to me. She makes it easy for me to talk to her. I just don't know why that is.

Alas, I should really get back to bed. It's an early day tomorrow. Dr. Beatrice "Honey" Lewis signing off.

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Log X10212555 Journal of Dr. Beatrice "Honey" Lewis

... The Affini if I could compare them to any mythological creature just truly give Fae energy. They are wiser, more powerful and ancient than humans but far more dangerous and unpredictable. It's truly a wonder why they didn't just destroy the Terran Accord in a manner that we have done previously to other xenos in our, I mean the previous governments conquests.

They'll respect rules, well the rules that they force upon us, but anyone who falls outside of those rules is fair game. I've seen the broadcasts of former rebel Terrans, now docile florets, talk about just how nice their new affini mistresses are, but because they chose to fall outside the Human Domestication treaty, they really had no choice (But you could say that by choosing to be feralists they chose to end up as florets). Although from what I heard about the conditions on those feralist ships, they're truly living better lives now.

But to get back to subject of Affini as fae, if you accept food or drink from an Affini, if you play their games or make deals it's a good way to get Florted. Or in the case of fae to be stuck in the fae realm forever. And taking humans as pets is not so dissimilar as fae keeping humans to themselves out of amusement. I know that if they take an interest in you, it's more likely than not that you'll become a floret sooner than later. I think, unlike fae, Affini do this because they truly see us Terrans as cute adorable Sophonts who need loving homes. I also believe they see themselves as truly friend shaped creatures who believe their whole existence is to protect and care for Sophonts, for me... I mean us.

For myself, I try to keep myself at arms length from most of my Affini coworkers. I truly love my research, even if sometimes other aspects of my life suffer. Although there is one Affini who seems genuinely interested in my research and has been a great help in trying to explain the Affini mindset to me. But more on her later. It's a bit late, and I should be getting back to my hab.

Signing off,

Dr. Beatrice "Honey" Lewis

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