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godforsakenchaos · 6 months ago

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#angry poem #original poetry #it's just more bs #i dont know at all if it's good #doubt ppl see this but that's okay #this is more for myself than anything

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dutybcrne · 1 month ago

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Thinking abt Kae’s Fatui verse,,,,

#☆ ┆ ( .ooc. );#//Him having a sort of fatal attraction vibe goin with Traveler like Came||ya’s whole thing almost hdbfb #//The whole ‘you’re interesting; I really like you; I can’t WAIT to see what makes you tick’#//Except he might actually be more of a danger to them; considering his endgame for those he ‘loves’#v; l’innamorato (fatui!kaeya)#//The love idea of him v attached to Signora; deffo got along with the kiddos of the HotH better fjhdh #//Prolly loved presenting her W|ll Sm|th style; even if the attention it drew to him too did make his skin crawl more often than not #//Love the idea of him stalking Traveler thru their journeyw lil heart eyes; interfering at key moments to hinder or help them progress #//Depends on how he’s feeling at the moment jcbcb #//In this verse would deffo butt heads with Taru in Fontaine specifically—he wants Traveler’s attention too jfbfb #//Prolly met them in Mond as part of Signora’s lil entourage—IMMEDIATELY got intrigued at first glance #//Background wise; I like to think he was a Fatuus meant to infiltrate the knights like many of Eroch’s ppl #//And in the progress of going through the knight thing got acquainted w Luc & began to have doubts abt the Fatui cause #//After visiting his home; hearing abt and meeting his father; then the day of the Heckening happens & they fight #//Bc Kae already planned to come clean & renounce the Fatui & Khaenri’ah; but the mess Crepus’s death made of him #//Tried far too hastily; far too bluntly to tell Luc the truth of his origins; swearing he knew nothing abt the Delusion #//Only to get claymore’d; which absolutely helped cemented him into the Fatui’s ranks more #//A part of him knows it wasn’t the time to say it; that he is at fault for trying to take advantage of Luc’s vulnerable state to tell him #//Only for the lad to have been far too volatile & so it turned out badly; but he still blames Luc for the break of their bond #//Anywho; I like to think as of Inazuma; he does have a certain grudge against traveler bc of Signora #//Before; encounters were more of puppy love bordering on dangerous obsession—after that; the dangerous bit became Personal #//Ohhh I’m writing a yandere here; okay<-should have realized that from the FIRST slew of Fatuiverse hcs lmao #//He genuinely does love Traveler; would like to see them breaking down in despair in his arms #//The two of them together would make a most beautiful ice sculpture indeed #//Even with his grudge; Traveler does stand a chance at swaying him to actually be helpful #//Sumeru quest wise; Co||ei is the magic word—i like to think he came along with there bc he wanted to see abt the Eleazar #//And maybe find clues to her family or even her herself; Traveler or Paimon dropping the name would make him cooperate SO fast #//Klee in Mond is basically his Teucer jffb. She is as good as fam in his eyes—I like to think he keeps up his habit of collecting pyro ppl #//Bc he never got over his broken bond with SOMEONE. Even if this verse has him more bitter abt it #//But ye jdbdbd. Is it rlly a Allie posting if it not short lol blurb and then heckin TAG SPAM lololol

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seaweedstarshine · 5 months ago

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RIP Krakoa 🌹 I can’t lie I’ve been kinda behind since midway through Fall of X I’m gonna catch up before my first SDCC this summer but I hear Vulcan didn’t see much action anyway. Anyway my hand slipped and I found myself looking into the eyes of my canonically psychotic son the best Summers brother who’s never done anything wrong in his entire life, (he’s done lotsa wrong things but I love him more for it)

#canonically psychotic = he canonically has psychosis. (not in the ableist way in that hes evil. which he is. lemme enjoy problematic rep)#Gabriel Summers #art by seaweed #words by seaweed #X-Men Red #the Gabriel hate during the Krakoa era pffffft. was 100% from ppl who didnt read the Rise and Fall of the Shi'ar Empire #“he attacked Storm” hes also a genocidal dictator who tortures ppl for catharsis. drunkenly coming at Ororo is the least bad thing he did #“he's a douche” mother of all understatements. now get this man back w his boyfriend who he forced to be his best man under pain of death #Gabriel fans LOVE that Ororo beat his ass. he deserved it. it was a fake discourse made up by a certain segment of goddess!Ororo fans #I say as an Ororo fan! Shes my fav A-list x-man🥰 yes Gabe was at a mental low but Ororo didnt know that. that was Scott's responsibility.#psychotic Emperor Vulcan is what we call a problematic mentally ill villain trope. I love him SO much. (okay lets talk)#we don’t know much about his childhood but we do know he spent 2 years in a fugue state after escaping slavers when he was like ten ):#as an “adult”-ish he's uh “mentally” 15 or sumn according to the calculations claimed to him by his hallucination of his actual child self #and apart from THOSE hallucinations. he’s very paranoid to the point of killing his advisors because he becomes convinced-#that they’re plotting to kill him. they aren't. he relies on Calseye to ground him thru his paranoia. and then of course in the Krakoa era #he believes his energy constructs of Petra and Sway who drink with him till he blacks out every single day are real. he isnt consciously #creating them; but he sees them- and bc he’s a godlike mutant his subconscious makes his hallucinations visible. making everyone uncomfy #Charles tries to use telepathy to FORCIBLY reality check him. which of course triggers his trauma. and GABE is punished for it?#(oh plus our finding out Gabe got brain surgery done on him by some gods outside the universe offpanel. he never does well with tampering)#and now the writers who pushed Hickman out (also RIP Sabretooth & the Exiles. RIP Hellions) want us to be SAD Krakoa is gone?#yes Gabriel is the mentally ill villain trope. but Krakoa never cared for mutants who couldn’t fit in. who were traumatized. disabled. etc #Alex OF ALL PEOPLE should understand that. ALEX should’ve been there for Gabriel. (why wasn't he. did he hold a grudge for past torture.)#Alex also w Murder-Enjoying Disorder but it was actually treated as an illness and those in authority presented as wrong for excluding him #instead of helping him. which v flawed but Hellions was one of the best mental illness comics? like Zeb Wells was conscious of the genre #but Gabriel was just… cast out. for panicking when his prime traumatizer Charles invaded his mind. he deserved help too #and all because his family were annoyed at him for drinking all night and throwing up and passing out on the floor? for being delusional?#And like- all of the summers brothers are nd (Scott's brain damage; Alex's dissociative episodes; Gabriel's psychosis)#I have nothing to say about Adam X ((I highly doubt he's neurotypical and/or mentally healthy)) ((nothing to say abt him tho))#and Gabes paranoia is 100% rooted in his issues of being made to feel like an outsider. like YES the obvious MUTANT identity but also #he thinks his father abandoned him to be a slave. he's not Summers enough for Scott. hes not Shi'ar enough for the Shi'ar

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tariah23 · 6 months ago

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Noooo…… first it’s Yuuta and Shoko, now they’re yo-yoing back around to Megumi.

#no they’re bashing megumi even more than ever now…. sometimes some characters aren’t built for all of THIS AND ITS OKAY #he’s forever traumatized bro he just lost his sister in front of his eyes and his body was the one that killed her #same situation with Gojo who took care of his sister and he from when they was toddlers and up #megumi doesn’t want to live anymore and yuuji has already tried getting through to him he’s completely broken and even if he’s saved megumi #might not ever be the same #I feel like fans keep on forgetting that these are kids going through all of this stuff that even some of the hardest adults wouldn’t be #able to handle #they bash him but a lot of these same ppl forget what happened to getou and love him unconditionally #they’d say “’well other characters have lost a lot as well and they’re still trying!’ and I just have to #restate that again; simply not every character is built like some hard boiled shounen badass jjk is not the usual shounen that a lot of #fans still refuse to see tbh like it’s kind of built different 🗿#it’s core genres are literally horror/psychological horror like no one if gonna be bouncing back like Naruto bro #and in Naruto’s case he never got to see anyone precious to him die in front of him #who knows what Naruto would’ve went through if sasuke was killed in front of him #but then again #Naruto was already a crazy ass #he vowed to kill sasuke and die with him so nvm #but megumi ISNT crazy like that that’s the difference ajsjsjsj #he’s always been one of the more rational characters amongst his peers #he’s so normal!!! everyone else is fucked up or got larger personalities than he does #maybe ppl are pissed off at the fact that megumi simply isn’t fighting back… it’s frustrating but he’s in pain bro #I don’t see him making it out alive at all either if I’m being real #Yuuji might be one of the only characters to survive at this rate I doubt Yuuta is even going to pull through after the techniques 5 min #are up either…#rambling #the point it…… as sad as it may sound all of the characters fighting so hard now are doing so because they simply have to #Sukuna is literally a calamity and these are the only characters left who will even stand any chance against such a great entity #they don’t have much of a choice man #Gojo tried to prepare his students for the future so that they’ll be strong enough to fight back anything together. not alone #Everyone is doing what they can now

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silvesi · 2 years ago

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GREAT DLC guys been feeling really NORMAL

#its... past 4am #i #YEEZUS #i KNEW the major spoiler and it DIDNT PREPARE ME AT ALL #i have to take my anger out on the textbox when its so late u see #LORDY! OKAY #you know i loved how gw2 feds was that little bit happier and more innocent than eso feds #lol. doubt #PoF #just in case ppl still avoid spoilers???#gw2 #screenshot #silvpost #pof spoilers #oc:fedsy

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bbygirlverstappen · 5 months ago

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#things don't really usually get to me like this so idk what is it this time #but all this fucking les-tappen disk horse going around is so tiring #now ppl talking about what kind of characterizations and tropes are okay and accurate and whatnot #and i agree on some points! certain things annoy me too!#but this talk especially coming from ppl who don't write themselves is bothering me a bit #who have never sat at their keyboard at 1am in love with the story they're crafting barely able to wait to post and see ppl's reactions #i'm suddenly full of doubt like what if what i'm writing is horseshit why bother sharing it #and i know my stories will have their readers and i shouldn't have doubts if ppl don't like them they can just click away i've accepted thi #but i really do but i think this sort of talk is not very encouraging to writers in general no matter what tropes they write #just having a moment here i will continue to write and maybe publish something again some day i'm just frustrated rn #biannual bitching session over #i didn't even say half i wanted to say #maybe i will continue bitching later who knows #talking

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mochinon-yah · 2 months ago

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I think i'm just full of repressed aggression, and it's all slowly seeping out every time i interact with the world

#reli-rambles #i just read a story and bro...#the fresking ml is so stupid i wanted to bonk them #no i didn't think of twisting his neck wdym #HDJSNNSNJSJ #but srsly tho #*cough* i shall ramble a bit #WHY IN THE WORLD THAT KIND OF GUY IS THE KING???#bro ur just joking with me cuz i sure as heck won't believe in that guy #he's so obsessively insane and man i wanna know what ppl have been teaching him because his actions are all stupid #anyway thr good thing is he's dead but in his next life he still remember his past life (ml's buff) and STILL DO THE SAME STUPID THINGS #stop bothering fl????#istg everybody would flip out if they knew ur the ml 🙄#okay i've calmed down now... this is just my rambling btw so don't mind me LMAO #there's also another guy who is like barbeque sauce but expired #he's good but gosh... i'd throw him away #his characteristics seem solid to me but i doubt he would be delusional + stupid in the head if HE'S THE FRICKING MASTER OF THE MAGIC TOWER #he's... okay #anyway i'm done slandering two mls because man i am not gonna spend my energy just doing this lmao #i need to eat now bye bye #also if u ever see a story similar to my descriptions then no it's probably not that one BECAUSE THERE'S A LOT OF STORY LIKE THIS #the author is pretty good tho they make quite solid ideas sometimes but other time i feel like they're forcing some kind of trope that-#shouldn't have been there in the story but whatever i'm not the author and i don't have a say in what ppl want to write #just please keep the... idiotic charas at a minimum or at least make it comedic so it would be cute 😭😭#ANYWAY I AM ACTUALLY STOPPING NOW TO EAT BYE YALL

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dxxtruction · 2 months ago

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#there is a wide margin of interpretation you can take with Armand and I'd like ppl to understand that.#We just quite actually do not have all accurate or full information on him but what we have is enough to prove #he is capable and culpable of all the things he is shown and proven to have done #I think a lot of the writing this season also was intentionally meant to confuse and make you doubt what is happening there. like actually #where do the lies start?#Now are all of them equally valid? Absolutely not. But I'm not like going to judge heavily people who have a different one.#A lot of bad ones (poorly backed) I get where that conclusion gets drawn from and for me it's just kind of fun to theorize those things #People claiming it as the right interpretation are a little like... okay chill out. But I think there can be room for that.#That is unless your ideas somehow vindicate or paint him as somehow also a victim of Louis like wtf are you doing at that point don't defen #him the dude is a massive piece of shit let him be a piece of shit.#It also doesn't make much sense to make him some great mastermind or somehow winning over something he's clearly shown not wanting?#its easier for me to see him as someone who doesn't have very fixed intentions or judgements on anything #his moral compass is self serving even when those morals are aligned to good things or a desire to be good #like he can see something as bad even undesirable and still do it if it serves some larger or more stable benefit to him #with little regard for who gets hurt in the process and with low empathy to see they could be hurt by it #And thats the most consistent thing about him is he falls to whatever is most beneficial w/o regard to others even when regarding them #& those good things r performative even if he's not intending it to be when it aids in exploiting other peoples view of him to an advantage #Or like when he goes about hiding under that persona to meet bad ends intentionally. (These go back and forth)#and something something the purpose of a system is what is does #there's little point in getting into the intentions of Armand when he consistently fails to do what he's claiming be #Idk tho honestly might not post iwtv stuff for a while I'm tired #There's a an amount of interpretation you can take about any other character too just there is so much more speculation there than elsewher

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capriszn · 3 months ago

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theres no way to say this without sounding like an asshole but it fucking sucks being right all the time LMFAOOO

#curse of cassandra or what #my friend has some sort of marriage proposal dude thing going and i have such a bad feeling #but its so hard telling people what they dont want to hear #my whole life i would feel extremely about societal constructs and issues and ppl always tell me its not that deep #when i dislike something or someone theyll say its not that deep #ITS ALWAYS THAT DEEP ffs we have learned over and over again that my hunch is always right can yall just fucking believe me for once #like every!!! fucking time!!!#i hate being doubted and not taken seriously it irks me so bad #but its somehow so common in my life and thats what i mean with it sucks like i wish i wouldnt see these things but i do okay #like cassandra i HEAR you girl. fucking ass im so mad rn lmfao #no way a dude is coming between our 10 year friendship lmfao #then go and get hurt mf🙄 ik i can be controlling but i swear if everyone listened to me the world would be healed #personal

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hooved · 2 years ago

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i dunno if this is like weird advice to give, but for anyone who is or has a partner/friend/etc. who's interested in a threesome (or more), you gotta make sure that everyone involved is emotionally ready for that. if you or someone else might get jealous, then just don't do it. don't lie and say you're ready just because you wanna make your partner happy, or because of peer pressure, or even just because you're attracted to someone involved, etc., if you're having any doubts at all then just say so. this is something you need to discuss thoroughly beforehand. jealousy or any other sort of emotional discomfort during group sex WILL negatively affect your relationship(s) with whoever's involved. if sex is an experience that's very important and personal to you and you're not ready to share that with someone other than your partner(s) then there's no shame in turning it down. a good partner wouldn't be upset by you setting boundaries. your comfort is more important than the opportunity to have a threesome

#sorry if this is too personal/tmi or whatever but i was just thinking about one of my exes and like #i asked her many times beforehand if she was okay with it. i really really wanted to make sure she was comfortable. she told me she was #but it still made her jealous and that did irreparable damage to our relationship. i could tell pretty quickly that it was a mistake #and yeah we don't talk anymore for mostly unrelated reasons (i unfortunately learned she wasn't a great person) but i still regret that #i could see after we broke up (which was mutual because we were....not as compatible as we thought. as mentioned above)#that she was always going out of her comfort zone to try to make me happy. and i genuinely feel bad about that. i would never ask for that #i wouldn't have been upset if she told me she wasn't sure about it because i don't wanna put anyone in an uncomfortable situation like that #anyway this was like. 9 or so years ago at this point. i still wanna apologize to her but i feel like it'd be weird to bring up y'know #but yeah i just want ppl to know this kinda stuff is avoidable if you have a truly honest discussion beforehand #and if there's any doubt at all then it's best to just not go through with it because your feelings could change at any moment tbh #but if you're all emotionally prepared then threesomes can be great ! exhausting but that's a given lmao

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mejomonster · 6 months ago

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Being nonbinary and dressing feminine sometimes despite very much not being a woman is. Its like hello strangers hello new friends im making please dont immediately steamroll

#contemplating a lot #rant #feel free to ignore #i just. so like. im very nonbinary #which i suppose many nonbinary people are #to the point im like. well i cant go to a transmasc support group or a transfem support group cause i doubt either would #see me as someonr who fits (wish my city had a general trans meetup but we arent big enough i guess)#i know I KNOW theres a bunch of cisgender fucks who think nonbinary = woman and it drives me up a Fucking wall #i know theres (even more ouch) a portion of lesbians and queer ppl who see nonbinary as woman-lite or feminine man #and just dont fucking put in the effort to grasp what being outside man or woman (or overlapping) could be #(probably ovdrlaps w ppl who refuse to grasp pansexuality or bisexuality)#and like. when i was young? maybe i wouldve seen myself as a trans man #but when that didnt totally fit i felt well. maybe bigender then. nonbinary. yeah that fits i suppose #or maybe i am a trans man who just doesnt want to change myself for societal pressure #but i do relate to being a woman too? so nonbinary feels best. but i certainly dont feel like a woman #im okay with she he they. but if i tell strangers theyll usually default to ONE so i just say #THEY so strangers dont immediately try to basically pretend im not nonbinary by sticking to another pronoun they feel is easier to them #and if i say They the fact remains: are these new strangers or friends dicks who dont respect my gender even tho they #accomodated to sayibg they? do they say she in private to friends. do they refer to me as a gender im not when im not present #idk i have been... interacting with a lot of straight dudes lately. and im like? im bi and nonbinary so im like. well if ur straight dude im #not sure u would even Wanna date me? u are aware im a dude too? are u okay with that? can u respect that???#which has NEVER happened to me before. cause i only dated bi guys nonbinary peeps like me or nonbinary lesbians #ive never dated a person i feared may actually not see me as I Actually Am and have accepted iy

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horrorknife · 1 year ago

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i love being lgbt as much as the next person but i think that saying a movie where a man is battling the guilt of bludgeoning a child to death with a rock is that director's "most trans movie (the way [other movie] is his most lesbian movie)" on a public platform without elaborating is probably a little unwise. also im very sorry but perhaps we dont need to apply an lgbt identity to every single piece of media we like. maybe we dont need to do that. sometimes art can just be art dude.

#i hope this makes sense #i watched this movie last night and one of the top letterboxd reviews said this #and i was like Uh.................................what !#i dont really know how to word this properly but like #i feel like a lot of young lgbt ppl try to engage more deeply with things by applying a label like this to them #in places where they are truly not applicable #and maybe adults are doing this too but id like to give people the benefit of the doubt and assume youthful ignorance #anyway. i dont see whats so transgender about cheating on your wife and killing a little boy but okay.#jonah.txt

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deityofhearts · 1 year ago

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sometimes I wanna shake ppl and tell them they are not smarter than the protagonist they’re claiming they’d fair better than

#deity dialogue #‘they’re so stupid if it were me I would-‘ it’s not you though #and if it were I doubt you’d be any more equipped than they are there are so many variables to consider #how did you get into this situation what do you know about the situation what are you in general capable of doing?#also people make dumb choices when scared or backed into corners or when they simply are at their wits end #idk it’s such a pet peeve of mine when people continue to rag on the protag of something for being a dumbass when it’s like idk I think sure #the things done are dumb but given the circumstances I can’t like blame them too much ya know?#but whenever ppl say shit I’m like okay you really think you stand a better chance than the protag? I’d like to see you try #I know I wouldn’t be any better at this than the protagonist is.

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zarovich · 1 year ago

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just want my bday to come and go so i can get over this low point. i always feel way more down than usual with it looming over my head like this

#personal #like yeah i announce my bday and shit cuz i like attention who doesnt but my bday always reminds me of the things i never had as a kid #its another reminder of stuff i dont want to think about. leave in the past. unfortunately the past affects the future. fucked up #just a lil less than a week and itll come and go. one less thing to get unreasonably worried over 👍#who knows maybe ill have a good bday? doubtful but one can hope. well i can see some postives actually. less shitty ppl in my life haha #okay. that actually made me feel a bit better even tho i was being a bit silly

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marraletta · 2 years ago

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I SAW RIN THE HECKERS POST ON LIFESTEAL TMA AND I AM HAVING SO MANY THOUGHTS!!!!

#ash is no doubt spiral #clown no doubt slaughter #ro i wanna say is like #okay so i want something thats anti desolation #whats anti desolation #the WEB but i also feel like he has heavy buried energy cuz the yknow obsidion #mapic im just gonna say desolation like straight up cuz like fire #reddoons i agree with rin but i think if not selesa he's corruption #planet literally has to be vast hes PLANET #i think cube is the stranger cuz machines or maybe even the spiral cuz of what he does with the machines but im #honestly rlly leaning twords stranger #LEOWOOK STRANGER OR SLAUGHTER #BUT I REALLLLLLLY NEED TO THINK ABOUT IT #ive been thinkin about it and u can disagree but i think rekraps an odd combination #of the hunt and the lonely combined with HUGE aspects of the eye so #full on i think he'd be an avatar of the eye parrot i struggled too but bcuz its his smp and he's like the #like yknwo big story teller yknow thats how i see him at least I'm saying eye #ZAM RO AND MAPIC ARE SO COMPLICATED I WANNA SAY DESOLATION BUT SOMETHING IN ME SAYS N O #i wanna say web so babdabdabdabdabd #okay rant over bye bye i have more ppl to talk about but we'll see

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cursed-spirit-manipulation · 8 days ago

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Theres a half formed Thought in my Brain about Suguru(?) featuring in the penultimate chapter and the way we can't see his face and can't really tell if it's him (or Kenjaku or what) but like. Everyone talks about the ways in which Gojo is dehumanized and objectified as a tool/weapon and I think Suguru parallels that in a way, but rather than being denied humanity As A Whole the way Gojo is his Body Specifically is treated like a tool (eg. His cursed technique involves Eating and Storing curses, kenjaku wants him for said cursed technique)

#So basically Suguru is a trans man-#I'm being silly but genuinely Suguru is exploited in such an interesting way #And he talks about ''survival of the weakest'' (pre. Y'know) but also!!! He mentions ''discoraging/suppressing the strong"! Like #He clearly has An Ego (see: Utahime interactions. Becoming a cult leader) so I don't think that's like. Something he developed on his own #And I doubt his parents who Aren't Sorcerers taught him that. So what I'm saying is the higher ups manipulated him to try and mold him #Into a way to control Gojo because he's also special grade but he 1. Isn't As Strong 2. Doesn't have powerful family connections #3. Is new to Jujutsu 4. Same age as Gojo #Like. (Contracts rabies) Do you understand me. My take is Suguru lived a lot of formative years in a cult adjacent #If not straight up cult environment and then once he suffered significant identifiable trauma (bc imo jujutsu society is basically #A PTSD for teens factory but that can be hard to identify bc jujutsu society specifically forces you to dissociate from that trauma #Because it gets in the way of working and while in the moment you need to be able to compartmentalize bc. Fighting and Risk Of Death.#Afterwards you get No Help so that's great anyway) he Left and then replicated similar power structures except This Time HES on top #Just. He sucks so bad but a part of me wonders if he actually registers the Level of harm he's doing. Bc he has to know it's fucked up #And he's theoretically okay w it for normal ppl who aren't sorcerers but like. It's a cult! It's abusive! YOU HAVE SORCERERS IN THE CULT #(and your daughters got murdered bc of you you and your idiot ex. Don't raise children in a cult oh my GOD)

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