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a-confused-spoon · 2 months ago

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Jinx's haircut: how Powder and Ekko's story comes full circle

Hi! So, it appears Jinx will be cutting her hair short in season 2 (which is cool as fuck), and I’ve been seeing a lot of discussion on it, so I wanted to share my two cents 😊

I might refer to Jinx and Powder as if they are different ideantities, but I'm aware that's not how that works; it's just an easier way to express myself. Also english isn't my first language, so apologies for any possible wiritng mistake (this is a bit of a mess 😅)

* deep breath in *

As it has already been pointed out, this choice must have a deeper reason other than esthetic (I've been seeing the phrase "hair holds memories" used a lot), and what's even more interesting is that her new look resembles a lot how she used to look like as a kid; a bit bizarre, given how the entirety of season 1 showed us how Powder and Jinx's coexistence only brings the girl pain. As a matter of fact, the finale makes it clear to us that even she sees these two sides of herself as mutually exclusive.

So why and how exactly would this happen now?

What I keep going back to is the idea that maybe, just maybe, this has to do with her possibly "taking the lead" in Zaun; whether she actively becomes a leader or if she just "leads by example" (therefore passively), it doesn't change the fact that for better or worse she will be depicted as a leading revolutionary figure.

And fair enough: she singlehandedly killed half of the Council, the people who hold decisional power and have contributed to the misery on the other side of the river. After Vender's failed attempt on the bridge and Silco's focus on his own business dealings with Piltover among everything else he did, Jinx's attack on the city - something she does to ultimately solidify her identity as Jinx - opens a door that the Undercity was waiting to be opened for decades.

Here's the thing:

Being Jinx doesn't just mean acting on unbridled rage and being a menace to society; it means being feared by most, if not all, with the only possible exceptions being those who also accepted their inner monster. To put it in Singed's words, "If you take this path, they will despise you".

Being Jinx fundamentally implies loneliness.

Silco was consistently reminding her this: "I am your family; everyone else betrays us" / "Everyone betrays us Jinx! Vander! Her! They will never understand, it's only us".

In the official clip 'Enemy of my enemy' we find out that he only saw her cry twice, the two scenes we also witness as an audience, meaning he didn't see her cry once during the timeskip, and I'm sure it's safe to say that she most definitely did cry a lot given how she goes from episode 3 Powder (scared, couldn't grasp the concept of killing someone, heartbroken by the nickname jinx) to episode 4 Powder (a beast, kills in cold blood, has taken Jinx as her actual name)... it must've been an ugly transition, and it definitely didn't happen overnight; if Silco, who was the closest person she had all that time, didn't see it, then I think it speaks a lot on how alone Jinx really was in her darkest times.

For all the love he had for her, he reinforced this idea of isolation as an unescapable consequence of the right path, and I think this is also reflected in the lair that (supposedly) he found for her, especially when you compare it to the Firelights’ one:

The Firelights (this is important for later) are all about community and sharing joy as well as struggle and pain; they live in a place of healing, filled with life, without a roof so the sunlight can reach them during the day, and at nights living bugs that shine a light of their own fill up the hideout.

Jinx's place is diametrically opposed to this: it’s dark and looks cold, it's completely made of metal, the roof’s blocking any natural light and it hangs above an abyss with no bottom to be seen; the only company she consistently has are the puppets of her dead brothers and the only living thing that knows his way in is the only one that can understand, the only one she can rely on - aka Silco himself.

However, as Jinx herself knows, this may have worked for him, but it wasn't working for her for the longest time: she never stopped yearning for affection, love, friendship- that part of her never really went away; it was only being suppressed, suffocated, maybe unintentionally, and I strongly believe that it only worsen her trauma, and it's one of the things that made her spiral so bad into her depression, to the point of hallucinating.

I think that Silco's line in the baptism scene is particularly relevant here: "You need to let Powder die, so the fear of pain will no longer control you", where the fear of pain would refer to the fear of being on her own, of always failing and disappointing others, of being weak and never satisfying the desires, expectations, hopes that Powder carried within her to be “a valuable member of the team”.

If she lets Powder die (which again, she does in the final episode of season 1), this is no longer a problem: if she doesn't do teams, because teams don't want a jinx to begin with, that fear can't get to her; if she's a solo player, a self-sufficient loose cannon, she won't need to rely on anyone but herself because she's strong on her own and does not need the support of others.

If her power lays in the monster she is, the one everyone condemns her for being, then that childhood wish of hers just isn't a realistic option.

...but then this happens.

We know from the teaser trailer that in the operation Caitlyn's leading, 'finding Jinx' and 'neutralize any agent still loyal to Silco' are separate objectives. Which makes sense, since as far as they know Silco was the leader of a group of people, and now that he's gone Jinx is an individual under her own agency and her own agency alone. If initially she fights by herself, for herself because she can and fuck Piltover, then it all falls in line with what I stated so far.

But then we hear Sevika, who has hated Jinx's guts and who Jinx has hated back since day one, telling her to get the people together, to unite the Undercity as one because she can do that. Mind you, the girl has lived in Zaun all her life, she knows damn well that the end of Piltover is something the entire Undercity has been waiting for (“Imagine what the whole of the Lances could do!” from episode 2); yet despite this she needs to be openly told what is going on, that she’s not sizing the opportunity she’s created. She isn't, cause... her? Leading? A group of people? No. Not after the last time she tried to help, and most importantly, not after everything she learned under Silco.

Jinx can't fathom the idea of herself as a part of a part of a team. How can she? She literally just came to terms with isolation as ever present- and now, for some reason, the people of the city, who always either ran away from her or wanted her gone, are dying their hair blue in her image, trusting her, following her, painting murals of her as the bringer of revolution.

She isn't taking power forcibly like Silco did; she's just doing her thing, her Jinx thing, and Zaun, on its own, is choosing her as the leading figure.

Imagine how frustrating it must be for Jinx to look back and realize that Silco, her father- who has loved her, forgiven her, raised her, called her perfect, defended her, was there for her, saved her, guided her- was wrong, and put her in a condition of never ending existential pain when she could’ve had it differently the entire time; imagine how confusing it must be for her to look back and realize that it never mattered whether or not others understood her, 'cause she wasn't as unlovable or unforgivable as she thought herself to be in the first place, that Silco and Vi were never her only options.

Imagine how painful it must be for her to look back and realize that for all this time she could’ve had friends and be accepted and be trusted and rely on others because she never HAD to be alone.

...keeping this in mind, let's talk about Ekko and the missing flashback from episode 7 for a moment.

Admittedly we don’t have a lot of information, other than it took place not too long after the events of episode 3 (then again, to be fair, we don’t know a lot about their relationship as enemies as well: it’s all between the lines; I surely have my own opinions of how they feel about each other being on the enemy side, but I don’t believe it’s super relevant here). What’s for sure about this flashback is that it was a defining moment in both Ekko and Powder’s journey, especially for the latter. Someone surely died, and it 100% was Powder’s fault. It could be both the result of her very first crisis or her first intentional murder; in both cases it results in her deciding for herself to align with Silco as opposed to her best friend.

The way I like to see it is that, since the trauma was still very fresh, she might have been too scared of the idea of fighting alongside others after what happened last time, and she pushed herself to kill someone on purpose just to push Ekko away and prove a point (Silco’s point). I love the idea of the tragic irony of Ekko being the one person Powder managed to really save, and Powder being the one person Ekko couldn’t.

Personal headcanons aside though, the last part is the most important one here: Ekko couldn’t save Powder from Silco, and by extension everything he represents.

I’d like to point out that one of the most tragic aspects of the two becoming enemies (to me) is that, throughout those years, they reciprocally were the only living person the other shared a past with (well, Vi too, but she was in prison the entire time).

Silco not only takes over by force, he also marks as his all the places of said past: the Last Drop, Vi and Powder’s house… one line that always stuck with me from episode 7 is when Ekko tells Vi “All that’s left is Jinx, and she belongs to Silco”.

Not with Silco; to Silco. As if she too a piece of the past he turned into his property.

It’s like he understands that while yes, Powder made the decision by herself, that she wants to stay with Silco, he also knows that the man is the one to blame for... well, all of it; the kid was there when Silco showed up unprovoked at Benzo’s place, he knows things went downhill from there.

Ekko knows that he is the bigger problem and the bigger enemy. Even Vi, without knowing a thing about the past few years, can tell Silco put some shit into her sister’s head; Ekko can probably guess the same, difference being that Ekko has the responsibility of keeping other people safe, and he can’t risk it all for someone that, while possibly manipulated, ultimately isn’t collaborative. Ekko can’t jeopardize all he’s built and done for his former best friend, no matter how much it hurts him to be her enemy.

Back to season 2.

Like the entire fandom has already pointed out, there’s a 99.9% chance there will be an alliance between them and Jinx, especially when looking at Ekko’s new outfit.

Of course, this will not be immediate: my guess is that while Jinx works alone at the very start Ekko will be with Heimerdinger and following the arrest of the Firelights we see in the trailer maybe there’s a split. And even after Jinx takes charge so to speak, and possibly frees them, among others, from Stillwater, it’s possible there will be (and there should be) stages in the alliance: initial distrust, potential fight within the community- like yeah, let’s not forget what Jinx did to these people.

Even if they do go ahead with it, it is probably out of necessity more than anything else, with not one but two military forces against the whole of the Underground. It’s not like they’d be the most ecstatic faction about it, and the same goes for Ekko, which is why the new look will probably come in later.

But exactly like he could see Powder for a brief second on the bridge clearly enough for him to stop himself from beating her, he will, most definitely, see her again through Jinx's inner turmoil... that, and she also can’t keep her shit together when it comes to what she's feeling, the girl really is an open book.

And yeah, the situation would be pretty emotionally disorienting: she's being as Jinx as ever, but people like her now, which is something she used to want as Powder, who is supposed to be dead, and they're willingly following her like they willingly followed Vander and there's murals of her with him, though she's pursuing what aligns more with Silco's dream, but also turns out Silco was wrong about Powder, who might still be alive deep down- the whole thing is a big big mess.

Despite everything that I said about him, it’s not like Jinx would start to resent Silco. She could never, not after his last words to her. They mean the world to her, he means too much to her, and let’s not forget she probably hear his voice now too, along Mylo’s and Claggor’s; it might even be a calming voice to her, one she’s happy to hear even if she knows he’s not real… which makes it all worse and more painful to deal with.

In this scene from the trailer, it seems like Ekko’s talking to her (some have pointed out the blue hair out of focus). Since this is still the look in season, at this point in time Ekko (and the rest of the Firelights) are not truly committed to this alliance with Jinx, and vice versa, Jinx is still figuring out how to deal with all this unexpected appreciation.

If there’s one thing we’ve learned about Jinx’s way of dealing with inner conflicts, especially ones that deal with the memories of the past, is that it often leads to disaster. This is a bit of a long shot, but what if the reason Ekko’s so beat up Is because she unintentionally sabotaged one of their own attacks on Piltover? Or perhaps they were caught up in a tough situation because of something she did or didn’t do? My point is that if he really is talking with her while in this condition, she probably is in a similar one.

Regardless, they are on the same side, and they are having a conversation. This is very likely the first time they reach out for each other since the day she chose to not go with him.

And I think it’s believable that of all the people she now has beside her, she’d talk to Ekko: he has this leader stuff already figured out. He has and still is taking care of people and keeping them safe better than she ever will, and on top of that, he still is the only one in Zaun (again, aside from Vi) who has known her since before she was Jinx, and he spared her on the bridge. He’s the perfect person to open up to.

And, get this, not only Ekko understands the pressure of taking the lead: he knows what it means to look back at someone you were fond of and feeling the pain of being wronged by them. He knows what it’s like to look back at old memories of someone you trusted and wonder if all those moments together really were what you thought they were, he knows what it’s like to wish it could all go back like it was, just so that candid version of them you have in your mind can still be true, present and untainted by the ugliness that now ruins all those precious moments.

He knows, 'cause he went through it with her... and now he can finally reach her.

Ekko may have not been able to save her from Silco then, but he can save her from Silco now.

And since he has built a community that grieved together, went through pain and joy together, he simply does what he’s always done with the Firelights. Sharing.

He tells with her what has worked for him: “Sometimes, taking a leap forward means leaving a few things behind”- in the Franch dub he says “leaving a part of oneself behind”- meaning it doesn’t have to be all or nothing: she has the power to choose what to kiss goodbye and what can stay…

…and then she cuts her hair.

I think it’s important to note how these two moments are very similar in setting. I kid you not, the first time I watched the trailer I was convinced this was a scene where Jinx was burning Silco’s body after she killed him- which frankly could still be the case. I’ve also seen discussions being made for the little girl we see in the trailer being burned here, or Sevika, but I don’t think it’s either. Jinx is completely desensitized to death, even when Silco died her makeup isn’t this ruined. My guess is that this is something much deeper:

Jinx never properly grieved the past. Ever. So, maybe, she’s burning the part of herself she’s leaving behind. The hair she cut.

The hair Silco used to braid for her.

These two scenes parallel each other because “nothing ever stays dead”, but Silco must stay dead, for her own sake. For her own happiness: she is leaving him behind for good.

Only after this moment we get the new look for Ekko: he can work with this new Jinx, the one that now knows she can work within a team, even to the point of committing to the outfit (lol).

If in season 1 Jinx accepted her identity as it was defined by Silco, in season 2 she's re-inventing it under her own conditions: she gets to choose what "being Jinx" may or may not include. And it will always include a little bit of Powder.

Thanks for reading! 💚💙

#or I could be completely wrong #and someone just cuts it #but still #it was fun to write this #arcane theory #except not really #arcane #arcane season 2 #jinx arcane #ekko arcane #arcane silco #powder #timebomb #i ship it #but this also works platonically

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esuemmanuel · 2 months ago

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Eres libre, tan libre de irte o de quedarte, tan libre de gritar o callar, tan libre de hacer o no hacer, pero libre, porque de nadie dependen las decisiones de tu alma, sólo de ti.

You are free, so free to leave or to stay, so free to shout or to keep silent, so free to do or not to do, but free, because nobody else makes the decisions of your soul, only you.

#el hombre de la soledad #escribiendo en soledad #escritores en tumblr #the man of solitude #writing in solitude #writers on tumblr #poetas en tumblr #poets on tumblr #pensamientos #poeticstories

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religion-is-a-mental-illness · 1 year ago

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By: SEGM

Published: Aug 13, 2023

Near-zero regret” findings among adults suffer from a critical risk of bias and have low applicability to youth

Recent research published in JAMA Surgery evaluated satisfaction and regret among individuals who had undergone chest masculinizing mastectomy at the University of Michigan hospital. The average patient age at the time of mastectomy was 27 years; no patients who were under age 18 were allowed to participate in the study.

The participants reported high levels of satisfaction and low levels of regret at an average of 3.6 years following mastectomy. The study authors lauded the “overwhelmingly low levels of regret following gender-affirming surgery,” and framed their findings as in conflict with the “increasing legislative interest in regulating gender-affirming surgery,” referring to current legislative attempts to restrict or ban “gender-affirming” procedures for minors. Another group of authors provided an invited commentary on the paper, reinforcing the view held by the study authors, and asserting the presence of a “double standard:” “gender-affirming” mastectomies have come under undue scrutiny by states’ legislators, while other surgical procedures with higher regret rates do not appear to concern legislative bodies.

The study suffers from serious methodological limitations, which render the findings of high levels of long-term satisfaction with mastectomy among adults at a "critical risk of bias"—the lowest rating according to the Risk of Bias (ROBINS-I) analysis. ROBINS-I is used to assess non-randomized studies for methodological bias. The "critical risk of bias" rating signals that the results reported by the study may substantially deviate from the truth. The results also suffer from low applicability to the central issue the study and the invited commentary sought to address, which was whether legislative attempts to regulate “gender-affirming” surgeries are warranted in minors. Unfortunately, these highly questionable findings are misrepresented as certain and highly positive by both the study authors and the invited commentators, several of whom have significant conflicts of interest.

Below, we provide a detailed explanation of the key methodological issues in the study which render its claims untrustworthy and not applicable to the patient population at the center of the debate: youth undergoing gender reassignment. We also comment on the alarming trend: several prestigious scientific journals appear to have deviated from their previously high standards for scholarly work and instead have become vehicles for promoting poor-quality research, seemingly to influence judicial policy decisions rather than advance scientific understanding. We conclude with recommendations about how journal editors can restore the integrity of scientific debate and raise the bar on the quality of published studies in the field of gender medicine.

[ For in-depth analysis, see: https://segm.org/long-term-regret-satisfaction-mastectomy-critical-appraisal ]

SEGM Take-Aways

Although this study reports extremely high rates of satisfaction and low regret, the timeframe in which these outcomes were assessed is insufficient—just 3.6 years post-mastectomy on average. The sample is also highly skewed: 50% of the participants had mastectomies in the last 3.6 of the 30 years. This skewing of the length of time since surgery is expected, given the sharp rise in the number of people (especially adolescents and young adults) identifying as transgender and undergoing chest masculinization mastectomy. It is also a short time in which to assess regret, particularly since one quarter of study participants were younger than age 23 at time of surgery and the median age of first birth in the US is 30 years.

The conclusion of high satisfaction/low regret suffers from a critical risk of bias due to the high non-participation rate, important differences between participants and non-participants, and lack of control group. Problematically, the authors misuse the (critically-biased) results from adults to argue against regulations for irreversible body alternations for minors and do so with a decidedly politicized spin.

The only intellectually honest commentary is that we do not have good knowledge of the likely rates of detransition and regret following chest masculinization mastectomy, nor do we know how many people experience regret but remain transitioned. There is an urgent need for quality research in this area. Previously, detransition and regret rates were considered to be low: they may have indeed been low due to the much more rigorous screenings, or the results may have been biased by the notoriously high dropout rates that plague “regret” research. Regardless, there is now growing evidence of much higher rates of medical detransition.

A recent study from a comprehensive U.S. dataset with no loss to follow-up revealed a 36% medical detransition rate among females within just 4 years of starting hormonal transition. At least two recent studies suggest that average time to regret among recently-transitioned females is about 3-5 years, but there is a wide range. Much less is known about detransition among those who undergo surgery. A growing number of detransitioners now express regret associated with the loss of breastfeeding ability, with one case study detailing breastfeeding grief experienced some 15 years post-mastectomy.

The study and invited commentary exemplify three problematic trends that plague studies emerging from the gender clinics: problematic conflicts of interest of the authors; leveraging scientific journals to disguise politically-motivated pieces as quality research; and a conflicted stance by the gender medicine establishment on surgery for minors. We expand on each briefly below.

Conflicts of interest of study authors and commentators

The significant conflicts of interest of the gender clinicians who study and report on the outcomes of “gender-affirming” interventions cannot be overlooked. These clinicians are conflicted financially, since their practices specialize in “gender-affirming” interventions, as well as intellectually. While conflicts of interest among experts are common, such experts should still attempt to be balanced in their discussions and should acknowledge and reflect on their conflicts of interest.

The interpretations of the data in the study is neither rigorous nor balanced, and both the study and the invited commentary have a decidedly political spin. Further, the invited politicized commentary does not disclose that at least one of the authors is a key expert witness opposing states’ efforts to regulate “gender-affirming” surgeries for minors. This role alone precludes the ability to provide a balanced commentary.

There is a fundamental problem with research emerging from gender clinic settings. The same clinicians provide gender-transitioning treatments to individual patients in their practice; serve as primary investigators and custodians of data used in research informing population health policies; and increasingly, provide paid expert witness testimony in courts defending the unrestricted availability of hormonal and surgical interventions for minors.

As a result, such clinicians cannot express nuanced perspectives. Since any balanced statements may be used against them in a court of law when they serve as expert witnesses, they must resort to the lowest common denominator of the "winner-takes-all" adversarial approach. Such an approach does not tolerate nuance. Unfortunately, this approach contributes to the erosion of the quality of the published work in the arena of gender medicine and accelerates loss of trust about the integrity of the scientific process.

Misuse of scientific publications to promote politically-motivated articles disguised as scientific research

That prestigious medical journals now serve as platforms for promoting misleading, politically motivated research that aims to apply a veneer of misplaced confidence in highly invasive, irreversible treatment should worry everyone committed to evidence-based medicine and the integrity of science. Moreover, it impairs our ability to accurately assess and improve the long-term health outcomes of the rapidly growing numbers of gender-diverse and gender-distressed youths.

This is not the first time that a JAMA has been used as a platform for positioning advocacy for “gender-affirming” care as scientific research. In 2022, JAMA Pediatrics published a study that assessed bodily happiness in a group of subjects aged 14-24 three months after chest masculinization mastectomy. Despite the very short follow up and dropout rate of 13%, the authors argued that their findings supported the premise that there was no evidence to suggest that young age should delay surgery. They also asserted that their research would help dispel the misconception that such surgeries are experimental. The editorial commissioned to bolster the authors claims was descriptively titled, “Top surgery in adolescents and young adults-effective and medically necessary.”

Another troubling trend is the misuse of statistical tools to reframe research findings that contradict the author's own position. For example, a well-known study that claimed that access to puberty blockers reduce the risk of suicide disregarded the fact that individuals reporting use of puberty blockers use had twice as many recent serious suicide attempts as their peers who did not use puberty blockers. Like the finding cited above, the doubling of suicide attempts was not statistically significant due to a small underpowered sample—but the magnitude of the effect was striking and should have tempered the authors’ enthusiastic conclusion that puberty blockers prevent suicides. Another recent gender clinic study, widely and positively covered by major media outlets, claimed that puberty blockers and cross-sex hormones led to plummeting rate of depression—even though the rate of depression among youth taking those medications remained demonstrably unchanged. More information about problems with research originating from gender clinics is detailed in this recent analysis.

Gender medicine’s stance on pediatric surgery

More generally, the gender medicine establishment is in a curious state of internal conflict about its stance on “gender-affirming” surgeries for minors. On the one hand, it has become common for advocates of “gender-affirmation” of minors to insist that surgeries for minors are not performed and anyone who suggests otherwise is spreading “scientific misinformation” and “science denialism.” On the other hand, gender clinicians publish mastectomy outcomes for minors in major medical journals, and laud surgeries for minors as “effective and medically necessary.” It is not uncommon for these opposing claims to be made by the same group of researchers and clinicians, as they test various arguments, searching for the "angle" that is most likely to convince judges and juries--and public at large--that scrutiny of the practice of pediatric transitions, which is increasingly occurring in European countries, is not warranted in the United States.

Notably, none of the European countries that are enacting severe restrictions on the use of puberty blockers or cross-sex hormones for minors have ever allowed surgeries for youth under 18. That the U.S. gender affirmation professionals continue to fight regulation of these problematic procedures speaks volumes about how far the U.S. healthcare has drifted when it comes to "gender affirmation" of minors.

Final thoughts

While it is challenging to determine how best to reduce the temperature of the highly politicized nature of the debate in gender medicine, the editors of scientific journals can begin to restore balance by recognizing how far the field has drifted from the standards of quality scientific research, and begin to expand their circle of peer-reviewers to those with diverse views. Inviting those concerned with the state of gender medicine (and not just the practices’ advocates) into the peer-review and commentary process is the first essential step to improve the quality of research published in the field of gender medicine.

The activists are predictably - and consistent with the superficiality of their own ideology - upset that anyone should look below the surface. It seems to be more troubling that anyone would notice the shoddiness of the research, than that the research is shoddy.

If this is supposed to be "healthcare," you would think that they would want the best healthcare, and be more alarmed at the misrepresentations of the study, than by people finding those misrepresentations.

Could it be that this is ideological rather than medical? 🤔

The conflicts of interest and funding sources alone are remarkable.

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owl-falls-au-gravity-falls · 1 month ago

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Inktober Challenge

Day 15 - secret | Día 15 - secreto

EN ESPAÑOL

"¡Stanford! ¡Haz algo! ¡Stanford!"

Cuando Stanley cae en el portal, Stanford sintió una enorme culpa...

Sabía que no podía traer a su hermano de vuelta sin poner en peligro al universo, así que desmanteló el portal entre lágrimas, sintiéndose peor al sentir que condenó a su hermano a cambio de la seguridad de todos en el mundo humano...

Por desgracia, tuvo que guardar muchos secretos, lo que le paso realmente a Stanley, la verdad del portal, probablemente haya dicho más mentiras que nadie, y guardar muchos secretos lo volvió alguien paranoico y temeroso...

Cuando Dipper y Mabel llegan a Gravity Falls de visita, Ford hace todo lo posible para que sus secretos jamás sean revelados, no estaba dispuesto a confiar en nadie de nuevo, no con el riesgo de que alguien más termine herido por sus decisiones...

Lastima que los secretos no duran mucho tiempo guardados bajo llave cuando compartes todas tus desgracias al único hombre en quién confías; Fiddleford...

Fidds en este universo fue cuidado por Ford, y ahora está mucho mejor, aunque entiende por lo que está pasando Ford, y ahora es su asistente, les da a los niños pistas del pasado de Ford para que los niños entiendan lo que está pasando.

A pesar de eso, Ford siempre preferiría ocultar todo en su cofre de los secretos, donde no tiene que afrontar las consecuencias de sus propias acciones, dónde puede culpar a Stanley por todo lo que pasó, donde puede jugar a ser el héroe que hizo un gran sacrificio por un bien mayor...

...

Si te cuento un secreto, jura lo guardarás

en tu bolsillo con candado y a la tumba llevarás

Si te cuento y te lo enseño, sé que no lo dirás

Que dos guardan secretos, cuando uno muerto está...

¿Y por qué sonríes como si te hubieran dicho?

Mientes y te ríes porque juras no decirlo

y el secreto ya está dicho, todo ya está dicho

¿Por qué lo más oscuro que hemos hecho lo decimos?

Quema el cerebro y al infierno nos rendimos

Porque todos lo decimos, Todos lo decimos

Si te cuento un secreto, jura lo guardaras

en tu bolsillo, con candado y a la tumba llevaras

Si te lo cuento, y te lo enseño se que no lo diras

Que dos guardan secretos, cuando uno muerto está...

Mírame a los ojos ¿Te sientes cansado?

¿Estás hipnotizado por secretos que tú guardas?

Sé lo que tú guardas Sé lo que te callas...

Si te cuento un secreto, jura lo guardaras

en tu bolsillo, con candado y a la tumba llevaras

Si te lo cuento, y te lo enseño se que no lo diras

Que dos guardan secretos, cuando uno muerto está...

"¿Fiddleford...?"

"¿Si, Stanford?"

"Tengo algo que decirte, pero tienes que prometer que no le vas a decir a nadie..."

"Te lo prometo..."

"¿Lo juras por tu vida?"

"Lo juro por mi vida..."

Juraste no decir

Ahhh

Si te cuento un secreto, jura lo guardaras

en tu bolsillo, con candado y a la tumba llevaras

Si te lo cuento, y te lo enseño se que no lo diras

Que dos guardan secretos, cuando uno muerto está...

Si te cuento un secreto, jura lo guardaras

en tu bolsillo, con candado y a la tumba llevaras

Si te lo cuento, y te lo enseño se que no lo diras

Que dos guardan secretos, cuando uno muerto está...

Si te cuento un secreto, jura lo guardaras

En tu bolsillo, con candado y a la tumba llevaras

Si te lo cuento, y te lo enseño se que no lo diras

Que dos guardan secretos, cuando uno muerto está...

Sí, dos guardan secretos, cuando uno muerto está...

IN ENGLISH

"...Stanford! Do something! Stanford!"

When Stanley falls into the portal, Stanford felt enormous guilt ...

He knew he couldn't bring his brother back without endangering the universe, so he tearfully dismantled the portal, feeling worse for the fact that he had doomed his brother in exchange for the safety of the human world...

Unfortunately, he had to keep many secrets, what really happened to Stanley, the truth of the portal, he probably told more lies than anyone, and keeping many secrets made him paranoid and fearful...

When Dipper and Mabel arrive at Gravity Falls to visit, Ford does everything possible to ensure that his secrets are never revealed, he was not willing to trust anyone again, not with the risk of someone else ending up hurt by his decisions...

Too bad secrets don't last long when you share all your troubles with the only man you trust; Fiddleford...

Fidds in this universe was taken care of by Ford, and now he is much better, although he understands what Ford is going through, and is now his assistant, he gives the children clues from Ford's past so that the children understand what is happening.

Despite that, Ford would always prefer to hide everything in his chest of secrets, where he doesn't have to face the consequences of his own actions, where he can blame Stanley for everything that happened, where he can play the hero who made a mistake. great sacrifice for a greater good...

...

Got a secret, can you keep it?

Swear this one you'll save

Better lock it in your pocket

Taking this one to the grave If

I show you, then I know you won't tell what

I said 'Cause two can keep a secret if one of them is dead

But no one keeps a secret, no one keeps a secret

Why, when we do our darkest deeds, do we tell?

They burn in our brains, become a living hell

'Cause everybody tells, everybody tells

Swear, this one you'll save

Better lock it in your pocket

Taking this one to the grave

If I show you (Secret), then I know you won't tell what I said (Keep it)

'Cause two can keep a secret if one of them is dead

[Verse 2]

Look into my eyes

Now you're getting sleepy

Are you hypnotized by secrets that you're keeping?

I know what you're keeping, I know what you're keeping

[Chorus]

Got a secret (Secret), can you keep it? (Keep it)

Swear, this one you'll save

Better lock it in your pocket

Taking this one to the grave

If I show you (Secret), then I know you won't tell what I said (Keep it)

'Cause two can keep a secret if one of them is dead

[Interlude]

“Fiddleford...?”

“Yes, Stanford?”

“I have something I want to tell you, but you have to promise to never tell anyone.”

“I promise.”

“Do you swear on your life?”

“I swear on my life.”

[Bridge]

You swore you'd never tell

[Chorus]

Got a secret (Secret), can you keep it? (Keep it)

Swear, this one you'll save

Better lock it in your pocket, taking this one to the grave

If I show you, then I know you won't tell what I said

'Cause two can keep a secret if one of them is dead

Got a secret, can you keep it?

Swear, this one you'll save

Better lock it in your pocket, taking this one to the grave

If I show you, then I know you won't tell what I said

'Cause two can keep a secret if one of them is dead

Got a secret, can you keep it?

Swear, this one you'll save

Better lock it in your pocket, taking this one to the grave

If I show you, then I know you won't tell what I said

'Cause two can keep a secret if one of them is dead

[Outro]

Yes, two can keep a secret if one of them is dead

Yes, two can keep a secret if one of us is dead

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cartas-de-luchi · 8 months ago

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Carta 11.

Para J:

Odias tu segundo nombre, ni siquiera lo utilizas y yo, en el afán de ser diferente para ti, lo utilizo cada tanto. Porque engloba cosas importantes, esconde sueños rotos y revela secretos. Me pregunto como cuatro malditas letras pueden ser tantas cosas siendo tan pocas. Cuando a veces me faltan letras para definir lo que siento por ti.

Y es complicado, ¿sabes? El quererte de esta forma irracional y nada convencional. El quererte incluso doliendo al hacerlo. Es un poco enrevesado, no te voy a mentir ni voy a endulzar las cosas. No cuando lo que yo meto dentro de la definición de amor tiene tantos nudos, tantas intersecciones, cortes y remiendos. No cuando querer implica tantas cosas y, al mismo tiempo, tan poco.

Ya te lo dije una vez, yo quiero de una forma complicada, pero quiero de verdad. No lo hago ni bien ni mal, porque no creo que solo haya esos dos matices, sino que lo hago como aprendí a hacerlo y como me gustaría que a mi algún día me quisieran. Quiero los defectos, los fallos y los fracasos tanto, o más, que las virtudes, los aciertos y los triunfos. A ti te quise mucho más después de lo malo y eso quizá me hace masoquista o tonta, vete a saber, pero fue lo que pasó. De ti me enamoré después de la primera y última cita que pudimos tener. Me enamoré después de esa distancia que nos pusiste, después de la sinceridad que me regalaste en aquel preciso momento. Aunque no la entendiera del todo en aquel maldito instante.

Me enamoré tan despacio que no sé cuando empecé a estar enamorada de ti hasta la médula. No sé diferenciar los momentos previos y posteriores a este enamoramiento. Aunque sí que sé que todo este revoltijo de sentimientos que me acompañan son amor. Un amor un poco complicado y con más sombras y matices de lo normal. Pero es que nosotros tampoco somos normales, somos más increíbles que eso. Más nuestros. Creo que por eso me enamoré en primera instancia, por esa complejidad que te envolvía. Por lo humano que eras, con todas las cagadas que eso implica. Por lo distintos, y a la vez similares, que éramos. Y un poco por esos hoyuelos que me vuelven loca.

Y es que lo pienso y lo natural, para mi, es quererte. Lo difícil hubiera sido no hacerlo, ¿sabes? Al menos así lo siento yo al pensar en nosotros, en ti. Y es que me lo complicaste todo mucho, desde el primer momento. Te colaste por la rendija de mi corazón y terminaste adueñandote de lo que quedaba de él, pero fuiste silencioso y no me di cuenta hasta que fue tarde, porque ya había sentimientos implicados. Y aún así quererte no significa que me guste todo de ti o que acepte todas tus decisiones o movimientos, no. Joder, si a veces incluso siento que te odio, aunque sea poco y momentáneo.

Quererte, para mi, significa aceptar que no siempre aciertas, que cometes errores, que eres un poco impulsivo, que te domina la ansiedad, que eres sentimental, que huyes un poco cuando todo es demasiado, que te hundes en el insomnio y esas bebidas tan dañinas, que no te pones siempre como prioridad. Y enfadarme a veces por esas cosas, odiarte incluso. Pero aprender también de ti, pedirte perdón, apreciar tus rotos.

Quererte, para mi, también significa valorar que eres de corazón puro, que eres gracioso, que tu ingenio consigue salvarte muchas veces, que sonríes con los ojos, que eres sincero, que hablas de los sentimientos, que sabes pedir perdón, que nunca dejas de aprender, que escribes precioso, que te gusta la música y el rap, que eres profundo. Y recordártelo siempre que pueda, ser incluso empalagosa. Y sonreirte también con los ojos, acariciarte el alma.

Y si, a veces me estanco en odiarte, porque resulta más sencillo que quererte. Pero es que también soy humana y fallo, fallo mucho. Y me da miedo el amor y a ti te resulta tan natural, tan vital, que yo temo perderlo todo. Tu eres un poeta romántico y yo una poetisa nostálgica y, a veces, me da miedo que mi nostalgia eterna te engulla, devore y hunda. Pero todo se resume en que me da miedo que me hagan daño, me da pavor y me encierro en mi cueva mental. Y, aún así, tú conseguiste que te quisiera, con lo malo y lo bueno; contra toda barrera y todos los candados y muros. Fuiste muy persuasivo y convicente, a mi corazón te lo ganaste incluso antes de que te quisiera. Creo que incluso te ganaste a la parte de mi cerebro que escribe, porque hace tiempo que escribo con tu nombre como inspiración.

Y si, a veces soy impulsiva, huyo o me escondo. También soy algo testaruda y no sé decir las cosas despacio, soy bruta con los sentimientos. Incluso estoy un poco loca y tarada, aunque eso termina siendo lo mejor de mi esencia. Pero, aún con eso, puedo decirte que te quiero y que estoy enamorada de ti. Aunque no sea de vuelta o no sea nuestro momento, aunque me duela un poco este sentimiento que lleva tu nombre, aunque me pase los días pensando que quizá no debimos cruzarnos tan pronto. Pero lo que ya pasó, no puede reescribirse y siempre termino agradeciendo haberte conocido, quererte y recibir de vez en cuando sonrisas de tu parte.

Así que te quiero, sin adornos. Y te quiero por todo eso que eres, también por lo malo. Espero que algún día entiendas que cualquier chica que quieras, es afortunada.

Te quiere, muchísimo,

tu luciérnaga.

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black-beauty-poetry · 7 months ago

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Lamento el daño que te he causado.

Sé de las repercusiones que ocasionaron mis inmadureces al ser demasiado joven para conocer las responsabilidades afectivas que conlleva el amor.

Jamás pensé que lo que consideraba divertido son en realidad cortes al corazón que forman heridas enormes.

Y estoy muy arrepentido de ello.

Y de los besos que te di sólo para compartirlos con alguien más.

Y de las promesas que te hice sin seriedad, y de las veces que las rompí sin tener en cuenta lo importantes que fueron para ti.

Y de las maneras en que te llamé amor, a sabiendas que en mi corazón había otros nombres tatuados.

Y de cómo te hice creer que lo que me hacías sentir era único cuando nunca le daba estimación al amor.

Y de los motivos por los que les hice derramar lágrimas a esos ojitos dulces que tanto me gustaban mirar, a causa de cosas que no puse interés, pero que eran significativas para ti.

Y de cómo huía por miedo a enamorarme.

Y de lo mucho que mis acciones, errores y decisiones desequilibraron tu estabilidad emocional, provocando que no quisieras saber más del amor, después de nuestra ruptura, por temor a repetir lo mismo.

Empezaste a cerrarte para que nadie destruyera lo que tanto te costó reconstruir. Creías que, si mostrabas tu vulnerabilidad, tu mejor versión, te pisotearían de nuevo, como yo lo hice.

Lo siento.

Y de la confianza que me tuviste y yo simplemente traicioné deleitándome con otros cuerpos.

Y de la fantasía de un final feliz que inventaste y yo esfumé desilusionándote, decepcionando tus expectativas. Ojalá encuentres a esa persona que te haga sentir amada incondicionalmente, que te dé lo que te mereces: paz y felicidad.

Y de los poemas que me escribiste sólo para que cada verso terminara quemándose, al convertirme en otra decepción amorosa.

Y de cómo no te idealizaba en mi futuro, mientras tú ya hacías planes de nuestro hogar.

Y de la depresión que sufriste cuando te diste cuenta de que lo nuestro no fue más que una etapa.

Y de lo que tuviste que ver para abrir los ojos.

Y del hecho de que sólo me fijaba en ti por tu físico, pero nunca me preocupé por tus sentimientos.

Y de las peleas por celos que te armaba, ¿quién era yo para ponerme celoso? ¿Quién era yo para desconfiar de ti cuando me diste todo y no lo valoré?

Y del imbécil que fui comparándote con otras chicas. Créeme, me siento decepcionado de mí mismo.

Y, especialmente, lamento haberte generado esas inseguridades que hacen que no quieras verte al espejo, que te hacen pensar que nunca serás suficiente, que te hacen creer que todo aquel que diga amarte sólo jugará contigo.

Lo cierto es que tu amor es una obra de arte que un idiota como yo no supo apreciar. Me creí artista, y no entendía sobre el arte.

Probablemente ya no quieres saber nada de mí ahora, pero si llegas a leer esto: te deseo lo mejor y espero que hayas encontrado al indicado que se haya enamorado de la bonita persona que eres, porque sentimientos como los tuyos ya no viven o son cazados por los infelices que les gusta jugar cruelmente con los ingenuos, haciéndoles creer que hallaron al amor de su vida.

Jamás digas que estás agradecida conmigo porque nadie merece tener una experiencia como la que te di, pero me alegra saber que ahora lo piensas dos veces antes de lanzarte a la piscina.

Mi karma será vivir con el remordimiento de haber roto preciosos corazones como el tuyo. Ahora que he madurado, soy más consciente de mis actos; y si llego a experimentar lo mismo, lo tendré bien merecido.

Me comprometí a volverme mejor persona para que - si tenemos un reencuentro - notes lo mucho que aprendí de ti.

-Dark prince

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loopscereal · 14 days ago

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Day 4: friends/halloween

vamoooooos estan disfasados como personajes de undertale!!! que viva 2016 ok uh Fox - alphys Creemos que a Fox le gustaría el tema de la moralidad que tiene Undertale, lo que sucedió entre monstruos y humanos, y más los experimentos entre los dos que hizo Alphys. Ver que un personaje que fue presentada por la historia como alguien nervioso y amable, aprender sus gustos, confiar en ella para que ayude en guiarte, ver que si te ayuda, y luego aprender que es capaz de someter a varios monstruos a estos experimentos de inyectarles determinación. Tenia sus razones, queria romper la barrera y mantener vivas las almas de los monstruos fuera de sus cuerpos, pero sigue siendo un acto bastante terrible lol. Creemos que estaría muy interesado Bonnie - sans Ok, si "jajaja, , sans undertale," esa es gran parte de la razon inicial para elegir sans. sans es EL personaje de Undertale. puedes vestirte de el sin saber mucho del juego es un poco más seguro que los otros personajes xq puedes decir que es ironico- ¡Pero creo que a Bonnie le gustaría el personaje! los chistes, la dinámica entre el y Papyrus. Creo que Bonnie se encariñaría con el desde el principio de su primera vez jugando Undertale, solo porque es un personaje divertido, tiene una dinamica divertida con su hermano, y luego, cuando lo encuentra en la sala del juicio, su mundo se pone al revés (¡¿al revés?!) otra vez un personaje que conocias de forma agradable, chistosa, y casual cambia. no de forma tan seria como los experimentos de alphys pero ahora vez que sans toma nota sobre lo que haces, y se acuerda de lo que intentas ocultar. Creo que por primera vez Bonnie tomaría una ruta neutral del juego y trataría de hacer save-scum, pero ver cómo cambia con esas decisiones le fascinaría. Chica - mettaton mettatoooon!! De nuevo, es un personaje divertido, tiene una faciasion con ser una estrella, tener atencion, y tiene toda una historia con lo que quiere hacer, y como se siente sobre compartir una pasion con un camiliar (nabstablook) . Creo que a Chica le gustaria todo como se mueve, su forma de ser, lo dramaico que es, la energia que tiene y por supuesto su musica. Todos los personajes de undertale son divertidos man que quieres que te diga lol... Creo que ella se identificaría con el, chica siendo una niña muy alegre e energetica, y vería cuán dividida esta/estaba el fandom con Mettaton, ya sea disfrutándolo o estando molesta con el y se identificaría aun más. Creo que la gente la trata de manera similar, viéndola como ruidosa y molesta la mayoría de las veces. Y lo de compartir una pasion con un familiar la recordaria a su relacion con Robin. (la hermana mayor que le dimos) o y chica es la unica que puede ponerse una peluca kjarfgb , nose ve su cabello y con fox y freddy si. #cosplayer Golden - nabstablook Un fantasma triste que le gusta hacer música, tiene talento, pero más que nada quiere poder tener una vida alejada, tranquila donde pueda vivir en paz... yeah. creo que golden tiene el mejor disfraz, me gusto es diseño pero no puse eseñar como funciona en este dibujo. tiene 2 formas... silly...

Fred - chara,

get abandoned get abandoned get cast out of humanity and seek vengeance ? find a family in unlikely places, but want to go back anyway? get abandoned and misunderstood and hurt the people you love you freak

Freddy - asriel.

cuándo estoy en en una competencia de personaje que muchas personas no saben cómo manejar para alguna razón y mi competencia es freddy fnafhs y asriel dreemur… uh ok astiel personaje que es amable pero wue nos eseña wue todos solos capaz de ser peores pero tamien es ejemplo que nunca estamos demaciado lejos para ser salvados uughgh

chara y astriel tambien tienen todo. una . cosita de loteralmente. combinan sus almas? combinacion de monstruo y humano…. es. auagachggahfGHGHA AAAAUGHH

hjhhhhhghgh..... hhhhhhhhhhh.... iykyk... iykyk.............. fml

aqui les paso los conceptos, donde pueden ver mucho mejor la idea que tuve para golden... ft meg as mad mew mew con una mascara de a mad dummy yayyyyy.

#fnafhs #fhs #fhsz3r0 #fhszero #fnafhs fox #fnafhs bonnie #fnafhs chica #fnafhs golden #fnafhs fred #fnafhs freddy #fhs week 2024 #fnafhs week 2024 #halloween

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tormentadepensamientos · 5 months ago

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He amado tu piel, tu boca, tus sonrisas. He deseado perderme en ti con la facilidad de un niño en un laberinto. He amado tus silencios, tus secretos. Tu forma casi despiadada de hacer que te recuerde. He amado tus gustos raros por la música, por el fútbol; he amado que no seas perfecta y que cada día seas como distinta, sin dejar de ser tú misma; he amado tu pasión por ayudar a los demás, tu entrega. He amado tu sinceridad en cada «te quiero», tus días de indecisiones, de llegar tarde al trabajo, de contestar a destiempo mis mensajes. He amado tu ausencia, el poco tiempo que me dedicabas. Te encontré siempre en cada libro que abría. Y ahí, en ese espacio de letras y palabras, quise meterme y quedarme contigo. He amado tus apariciones en mi mente en cada canción romántica que escucho. He amado tu cabello. Tu decisión de cambiarlo de color dos veces. Te amé pelirroja, te amé azabache, te amé a ti sin decírtelo, gritándotelo a cada rato, sin que me escuches, por estar encerrada en tus silencios. He amado el que seamos diferentes, tu nula necesidad de dejar de ser como eres, sin otro propósito que hacerme ver el mundo de otra forma, mientras veía que el mundo te admiraba, y los hombres me envidaban, y las mujeres querían ser como tú. He amado tantas cosas, todas tuyas. Tu singular pasión por los detalles. Las canciones de Birdy que sigues poniendo al leerme. Las veces que necesitaste escribirme y no lo hiciste. El que hayas notado más de una vez toda la atención que te ponía. He amado tus palabras, tu desesperanza, tus malos ratos; te amé a ti pidiendo auxilio, un abrazo. Te amé y quizá lo sigo haciendo. Es una de esas decisiones de las que no quiero desprenderme. Porque eres única y aunque no estés ni pienses volver, yo sigo amando tu ausencia, tu forma casi despiadada de hacer que te recuerde… Autor: Heber Snc Nur Libro: Tormenta de Pensamientos Disponible en Amazon

#escritos #tormenta de pensamientos #vida #amor #reflexiones #prosa poética #poemas #poesía #frases #citas

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imfreemdfks · 5 months ago

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La libertad y la responsabilidad son dos caras de la misma moneda. No podemos tener una sin la otra. La verdadera libertad implica tomar decisiones y, al mismo tiempo, asumir las consecuencias de esas decisiones.

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alquimistaliteraria · 6 months ago

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Soy de blanco o negro,

sin grises,

O todo o nada,

No me gustan las mitades,

Quiero a alguien completa,

Y tú estabas a la mitad,

en medio de dos amores,

Al saberlo,

a pesar de que mi corazón quería permanecer,

Por amor elegí hacerme a un lado,

Por amor me elegí,

Y por amor permanecería a la distancia hasta que el amor por ti desapareciera.

-Diario abierto-

No me elegiste pero si decidiste no elegirme. Con todo el amor en las manos y un corazón roto decidí que yo no me podía fallar, yo si debía elegirme y hacerme a un lado con todo este amor a sabiendas que te amaría en silencio hasta que todo el sentir desapareciera.

Bueno, eso intenté hacer pero observé a mi corazón queriendo permanecer en una amistad que no podía ser, mi mente bloqueada por el trauma se rehusaba aceptar la magnitud de la situación y el daño, y mi corazón fingiendo que su amor podría con una amistad a pesar de todo lo ocurrido, me convenció por un momento, después comenzó el dolor, obviamente no era cierto que podía seguir en su vida después de todo, me estaba mintiendo, me costó procesarlo, realmente todo fue tan rápido, muchas emociones, sentimientos y entré en crisis, realmente no respondí desde mi verdad por no tener claridad.

Después de meses, de darme en la pared y varias decepciones que yo misma me causaba por ciertas expectativa, después de… esto me da sentimiento (respira profundo) me di cuanta que estuve esperando a que me llegara a corresponder en algún punto/futuro y lo comprendí en la segunda ocasión cuando llegó de nuevo a su misma conclusión donde no me elegía pero decidía no elegirme, en ese momento deje la esperanza, debía aceptar y dejar de esperar a que me fuera a corresponder, a elegirme.

Ahí noté que todo esto dolía tanto por qué era la repetición de un trauma, y tenía que hacerle comprender a mi niña interior que no era personal, que jamás podría controlar las decisiones y acciones de los demás pero si podía controlar mi reacción ante ellas, que si, había un riesgo al amar pero no me evitaría hacerlo, debía aprender a cuidarme y respetar mis límites, debía cicatrizar y aprender amar desde la cicatriz.

También comprendí que elegía no compartir mi verdad con ella por qué era un aspecto tan vulnerable para mí, mi defensa era fingir que todo estaba bien pues no tenía la certeza de sus intenciones, no podía confiarle algo tan íntimo y doloroso, había mucho miedo de volver a confiar en ella, de tomar una elección errónea, había un remolino de sentimientos y a pesar de todo, en la raíz seguía vivo y aferrado un sentimiento el cual no podía evitar, un amor no correspondído. Debía vivir con ello, aceptarlo y dejar de negarlo, después comprendí que ese amor me pertenecía, acepté que le ame demasiado y debía direcionar ese amor hacia mí.

Todo esto fue muy complicado, muy duro, me encontraba en momentos luchando conmigo misma, destruyendo partes de mi que ya no me servían, realmente fue un espejo enorme para mí, fue un tornado y fue a la vez fue deslumbrante para mí, me encandilé con el sentir. Yo decidí amarle y a pesar de todos mis esfuerzos jamás pude odiarle.

Siento que esto estaba destinado y las decisiones que tomamos debían ser esas pues era las que correspondían a nuestra consciencia.

Algo importante fue dejar de preguntarme que habría pasado si… o que tal si en el futuro… era importante desaserme de esos pensamientos que no me llevaban a ningún lado y solo presionaba mi herida.

Si pudiera retroceder en el tiempo, me recordaría a mí misma que debo expresar mis emociones, retirarme con amor y enfocarme en sanar.

Y si pudiera decirle algo a ella, no necesitaría palabras, lo haría de la forma más íntima y certera, le compartiría en mi mirar y silencio mi verdad.

En cada etapa de mi proceso he escrito cartas que no llegarán a su destino, y en todas ellas le he expresado mi verdadero sentir, cada palabra no enviada, contiene mi esencia y mi proceso de sanación. Todo esto se convierte en la semilla de un libro que reflejará mi amor, mi dolor y mi crecimiento. Mi forma de escribir refleja mi alma, mi sensibilidad, mi empatía y mis observaciones de los patrones de las relaciones y el amor.

Realmente me sorprendo de mi forma de escribir, como fluye y surgen frases tan inefables.

Se que hay la probabilidad de que algún día llegue a leerme y tengo la certeza que en mis letras seguirá encontrando el reflejo de lo que encuentre necesario para ella. Creo firmemente que entre nosotras existe un entendimiento más allá de lo que vemos y también esa sensación que tanto ella como yo sabemos perfectamente el porqué de todo esto, información que guardan nuestras almas.

Al final todas las piezas se encuentran, los mensajes se revelan y el amor es transformado en un acto de liberación, autodescubrimiento y evolución.

By Yls.

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