#dont know if its enough for a trigger warning tho

[trud-hub]

looks at you with wet sopping eyes

can we get sum mor coolkid x reder fluff by chanc... we ar starbiiinngggg

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“Bile”

--TRUD!Past!C00lk1dd x Reader

notes: coming up with a storyline and characterizing c00lk1dd properly drove me INSANE 🥀🥀 im sorry if its bad, i still hope you can enjoy it tho !! criticisms welcome bc the amount of plot holes here would trigger someone's trypophobia

WARNINGS: swears, possibly inaccurate descriptions of adhd (dont be afraid to tell me if i get anything wrong), death threat

wc: 2.6k

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Most days, C00lk1dd retreats to the embrace of his floral sanctuary — a place where nobody can bother him. The sunflowers and zinnias are old friends of his that understand him the most. Conversations held in silence are more meaningful than those plugged with unnecessary words, which is why he’s reluctant to share the garden’s serenity with other people. However, he makes an exception for a certain person who occupies the space nearest to his heart. You.

Your voice does not clash with the sounds of nature. It harmonizes. So long as you are with him, the garden needs nothing else to be complete.

Be that as it may; his tools and equipment, however durable they may be, are long overdue for a replacement. His shovel is decapitated, his wheelbarrow is paralyzed, and his lawn mower has taken its last breath. No gardener can keep a flower alive with their will alone, lest they’re 2x2 themselves. The situation has evicted him out of his home and forced him to look for a decent hardware store.

Unfortunately, the nearest one happens to be in the busy, bustling metropolis of Bloxity — Robloxia’s capital and hub. Wherever there are people; swarms of a hundred smells, sounds, and sensations follow. They’re overall nuisances; buzzing around like flies that he can’t catch.

In spite of this, C00lk1dd is determined to ensure the wellbeing of his plants. They are his purpose, his source of respite, and his pride. You’re determined as well, insisting on going to BloxWare in his stead, knowing too well of how he reacts in crowded places. That idea of yours planted seeds of doubt in his mind: what if it made him rely on you so often that his confidence grew stale? It sparked a disagreement between you two, one that either side was reluctant to give up.

Eventually, you came up with a compromise. He’ll go to Bloxity, but you’ll come along with him. That way, the errand becomes less daunting and he gets to be independent. Hesitantly, he agreed, though it was mostly the thought of being able to spend time with you that swayed him.

Maybe, he tried convincing himself, this was for the better.

…

Now, more than ever, he is grateful for your persistence.

As if the traffic on the way to the city wasn’t enough, he has to deal with people this early. Generalizing like this isn’t fair, he knows, but it’s difficult not to call out the pattern of ill-tempered drivers in Bloxity. One cursed him out, the other kept honking at him for not defying the speed limit, and this one almost crashed into him.

“Jerk.” You sneer, glaring at the silhouette of the aforementioned driver who replies with a crude hand gesture.

Barrages of insults pile up at the tip of C00lk1dd’s tongue. But instead of letting them spill out, he forces them down his throat before they make a bigger mess of things.

Deep breaths. Deep breaths.

They’re no longer here; there’s no point in clutching shards of glass. He knows better than this.

“Those people sure are something…” Your palm warms the tempest of his anger, and his breathing steadies.

Wordlessly, he pulls the gear stick forward and continues driving. As he passes through the bridge, the number of cars slowly diminishes, making the road more bearable to navigate through. The city’s vast expanse becomes more apparent the closer he gets; it’s clear the map didn’t do Bloxity’s size justice. A light breeze hits his cheek, the same one combs through your hair.

“Just one hardware store in a place as big as this?” You mutter, craning your neck to get a better scope of the city.

“Apparently.” His pupils flit around but land nowhere.

Bloxmart is front and center, followed by a train station packed with people impatient to get to their destination. Clothing shops, diners, and houses follow. Billboards boast the emergence of the new BloxWare store but lack directions.

He glances at the rear-view mirror, “Could you check the map?”

“Ah, yeah— okay. Let me just—” Shuffling through your satchel, you retrieve a copy of Bloxity’s map. It crinkles in the wind, which threatens to take it away. He hears you muse a few unintelligible phrases (the only ones he can decipher are your complaints about the city’s complex layout) to yourself.

“This is it? …I think.”

When he gets to an empty lane, C00lk1dd stops his car by the side of the road. With your finger, you trace the path the two of you are meant to take. It stops at a blue building.

“Should be pretty close, just gotta make some turns after Ro-Avenue.”

Upon closer inspection, the map omits a few key landmarks and buildings that you both encountered.

“...Are you sure this map is accurate?” He asks, unsure.

“Not really,” you chuckle nervously, “but this is the most recent one according to the vendor who sold it to me.”

“Plus—” You point out the nearby structures that the map had gotten correct.

“See?”

“If you say so.” His eyes get to work memorizing the route. Straight ahead, left after the first skyscraper, right after the next…

From the corner of his vision, you riskily near his cheek. Only the air kisses you back as all it took was for him to move his head a slight right.

“We’re not doing that here.” He obscures the side of his face.

You feign disappointment, “Awh. Thought you weren’t going to notice.” and with the fall of your shoulders, recline into your seat.

You shove the map into your satchel. Stubborn parts of it seeped out from your bag, but you take care to fold it neatly in place. When C00lk1dd sees you’re ready, the car engine hums to life as he sets his foot on the pedal.

“Later then, maybe?” You suggest with a clumsy wink.

Returning to the steering wheel, your lover’s hands neglect the rosiness of his bare face.

“...when we get home.”

…

Is it some sort of cultural norm that he doesn’t understand? Because the locals have their egos shoved so far up their asses that they regurgitate it in the form of vulgarities and curses. Having gotten lost (for it turns out the map was indeed outdated, your sources are horrible), you and C00lk1dd sought the help of a young woman who bore the gentlest of eyes and carried herself with such poise and elegance most fashion models would envy.

Though, as he has just learned today, the devil can take many forms: including that of a dainty young lady.

“Ma’am, please, we’ll be on our way.” He utters with clenched teeth. His patience grows thinner.

She scoffs, gripping her parasol even tighter, “Do you hasty-witted dolts think that approaching a lady so clearly distressed is anything but inconsiderate?”

“I swear we didn’t know!” You try to reason.

What the woman says next eludes his hearing.

He looks at her with knitted brows, “I’m sorry?”

“I hope your vehicle crashes into a lamp post. Or better yet, you find the courage to surrender yourselves to a bridge. In simpler words that you pillocks can understand: jump off a cliff.”

Awfully generous of her to make such an offer. So generous, in fact, that his fist itched to return the kindness by denting her beauty with purple and blue. But he doesn’t entertain the thought — he's no brute. So be it if she wishes to stoop this low, he’ll keep using the one thing she doesn’t have: basic human decency.

You click your tongue, “She’s a prick but it’s not worth it. Come on.”

One glare from him is all it takes for you to shut up. He is not backing down, especially not after what she just said. Does she think she reserves the right to threaten you after one bad day? For someone with such a refined appearance, she lacks all the courtesy that comes with it. C00lk1dd is very willing to shove the definition of propriety down her throat if that’s what it takes for her to learn.

However, as he readies his own reply, a girl with a magenta-colored bun attempts to stop things from escalating.

“Hey hey hey‐ let's all take a step back.”

She looks familiar.

“Wuh- whah-huh- is… Is that Builderman’s dau—”

…

Jane Doe is a lot more soft-spoken and quiet than her influence would suggest. By some stroke of luck, she managed to convince the hag to let go of the minor grievances (or, well, storm off would be more appropriate in this case.) It still irritates him how she got off with a mere slap on the wrist, but C00lk1dd is glad he’ll never have to see that pompous crone again. Hopefully.

With a lowered head, Jane approaches the two of you.

“I-I’m really sorry. You two aren’t from around here, no?” She asks, an asymmetrical smile on her face.

“Nope!” You reply.

“It doesn't seem very welcoming here.” The comment escapes his restraint.

Jane rubs the back of her neck, “Do forgive me for the residents’ conduct. Everyone’s been on edge for the past few days because of the rumors.”

The mention evokes a slight reaction from him, namely the quirk of his brow.

“Rumors?” You inquire further.

“A group of Robloxians have been spreading hearsay about how the admins have been demolishing people’s homes without their permission.” She fiddles with the strings of her hoodie.

You follow along with periodic nods of your head. “I see.”

“That is why me and my brother are working on clearing panic among the residents.”

He taps your shoulder, stiff in his movements.

You briefly turn in his direction, “Huh? Oh…” —you face Jane with an apologetic look— “Er, we gotta go now. But good luck with that.”

“Ah, right. Apologies for taking up too much of your time, take care.”

This will be the last distraction of the day, he hopes. Fishing out his car keys from his back pocket, C00lk1dd, almost too eagerly, rushes to his car.

“Wait!”

Are you serious?

“Were you two looking for directions to the new hardware store?”

…

Is it even worth it anymore?

BloxWare stood intimidatingly, its height dwarfing most of the small stores in its vicinity. The large, glass windows foreshadow the numerous crowds of customers and employees in the store. His shoulders droop; it’s bad enough outside. Imagine how much he’ll have to put up with once he finally enters the building.

“Staying in the car is always an option. Just give me a list of things to buy, I’ll go get them for you.” You reassure him.

“No.” It comes out a little too harshly, he can tell by the look on your face, which he is quick to correct by clearing his throat.

“Sorry. I can manage.” Sheltering his ears within his ear muffs, the outside ruckus slowly abates.

His hand is squeezed in yours.

…

Aisles of wrenches, screwdrivers, pliers — they all start to look the same. C00lk1dd tries to focus on the tools and equipment he’s supposed to get. Shovels, a watering can, a rake… Sawdust and new lumber scents aggravate his nose. The unoiled wheels of carts produce an earsplitting screech.

“C00lk1dd… You okay?” You let go of a shovel and place it back on the rack.

He’s not sure anymore.

“Have you heard?”

How can he tell you that he is trapped in a room with the gunshots ricocheting off the walls and shooting his ear drums?

“‘Bout what?”

How can he put into words the individual maggots that burrow in the fabric of his sleeves, and about how raking his fingers through his skin does not stop the visceral pain and itch buried under layers of skin that he cannot reach?

“I heard Builderman's children are being sent to cover the whole demolition thing up.”

How can he express how much he wants to curl up in a ball and block out every part of him that sees and senses and hears?

“It’s all a hoax! You people are all stupid.” “This is ridiculous.” “They’re trying to keep us ignorant.” “My friend’s home was destroyed last week…” “The admins have our best interests at heart.” “I don’t even know who to believe anymore.”

C00lk1dd’s eyes retreat under his brows. Anger. Sadness. Skepticism. Conflicting tones and snippets of information bombard him all at the same time. Glaring light from fluorescent tubes blind him. Even as he hides his irises behind his lids, the light pierces through them, intent on ripping his eyes out of his sockets.

One, two, three, four, five …

The man takes a deep breath, trapping your hand in a grip sure to break your knuckles had he not restrained himself. It’s not on purpose — he releases when he realizes — and you must understand how much the world is bent on infuriating him.

Your lover doesn’t know why but the smile on your face irritates him more than it reassures him. Nothing makes sense anymore. He’s mad at everything — those asshole drivers, that entitled bitch. You. And by extension himself.

Because he knows you deserve his anger the least.

The words that escape your lips are disorganized syllables, but he registers the wind chimes that bid you farewell.

Leather cushions his back. A car engine starts.

The intimidating skyscrapers morph into chaotic blobs. Roads and highways stretch on for longer than they should. Lamp posts form bright, four-pointed stars.

But they get farther. And farther.

Until the sights are shrouded by the trees and hills. The car stops at the foot of one of these mounds with a sudden halt. C00lk1dd thinks he’s dreaming, he hopes he is, but the prickly grass that retreats beneath the wheels are clearer than the ones his mind concocts. So do the mildew that color the leaves a grainy white.

You lead him away.

You come to a sudden halt, before you push his shoulders down — ushering him to sit. Chary, the man does so, and a suffocating pressure that drives his arms to the sides of his chest ambushes him from behind. C00lk1dd flinches at first, glares next, and ultimately gives in to that expression of yours.

He hadn’t even noticed he had been crying until you wiped away his tears. In a low, non-invasive tone, you whisper, “We’ll stay here for as long as you need.”

…

Hours pass — he’s not sure how many but you assure him that it isn’t plenty. Domineering colors, textures, and sights harmonize, instead of clash. The world slows down to a pace he can keep up with.

Sighing, C00lk1dd shelters his head beneath your chin and kisses your jaw, “...’m sorry.”

“Hm?” You tilt your head to the side, meeting his vision.

“I overreacted.”

“Now all our efforts…” —he looks toward the colorful lights highlighted by the night sky in the distance, hugging his knees closer to his chest— “...have gone to waste. The store has closed by now, and it means we have to stay longer in this godforsaken city.”

“Getting overwhelmed is not your fault.” Your arms lazily drape around his shoulders.

“None of what has happened today is, but you've handled it the best you could.”

“And if we have to wait? Fine by me, I'll be patient. After all, I've always been here for you, haven't I?”

For the first time today, he smiles. It's subtle. It's quick. But it's there.

He closes the distance between your foreheads.

Worries, doubts, and unanswered questions linger in his mind, but he’ll let them plague him another day. Right now, he clasps a hand on the side of your face and captures the confused parting of your lips with his own.

[majorasnightmare]

💢,💔, ☀️ !

!!!!! HIYA!!!

I LOVE seein you on the dash+ in my activities its always such a delight !!! I dont know much about drow society outside of what ive picked up from mutuals and mintharas character, but what ive managed to see about vhaerun from your stuff looks so cool!!!!!

thank you for indulging me in smacking around my favorite pinata 💜 ask game from here!

💢 ANGER - what are some habits they have that will take some getting used to?

If you want to be around Dirge you're just going to have to do some mental gymnastics to be okay with the killing. He isn't going to stop, just slow it down or redirect it onto better targets.

Besides that he doesn't intuitively grok the idea of a personal bubble, he's touch starved and affectionate, hes a recreational biter+chewer, he enjoys blood and will lick it off of you as a grooming behavior, hes a social mimic so anything you do to him he'll mimic back to you so unless you want a 6'5" tiefling with an extra 6 inches of horns to twist himself around you koala style while sitting on your lap think twice about asking to sit on his, and above all he does all of this with a genuine earnestness that betrays that he has zero idea what normal body language or social interaction is like.

💔 BROKEN HEART - what could their partner do that would absolutely break their heart?

Call him a monster with genuine disdain and contempt. Dirge puts a lot of effort into making sure his loved ones are heard, acknowledged, and cared for, and he pushes himself to breaking multiple times to try and keep everyone safe from himself. He handles himself like hes a constant threat, like a disaster about to happen, he considers it his own problem and no one elses and doesn't involve them, only warns them, and he constantly tries to prove himself worth of his loved ones attention by dedicating all of his time and energy to helping them.

To be called and treated as a monster anyways ruins him. Important to note that this exact circumstance does happen in game. Multiple times.

Thankfully never from Minthara 💜 To hear it from her might shatter him beyond repair.

☀️ SUN - are they a morning person? what is the first thing they do in the morning?

ABSOLUTELY NOT LMAOOOO

Dirge USED to be a morning person, tho not like. Happily. Bhaalist era Dirge used to pass out at 2 am and wake up at 6 am. He hated being idle and he had horrible insomnia from the Urge nightmares, so he just slept as little as possible. Work with the temple usually kept him busy, so he just stayed occupied.

Nowadays though? The sun is his mortal enemy and he fantasizes about blowing it up. He wakes up at the crack of dawn (not voluntarily) regardless of when he goes to sleep but he takes a few hours to actually come alive again. Hes a late sleeper in general, and he sleeps better without the sun.

The first thing Dirge does in the morning is puke. He has brain damage induced chronic migraines and sunlight is a major trigger, and one of his primary symptoms is nausea. The sun coming up over the horizon for dawn is strong and sudden enough that it stabs into his skull and intensifies his nausea so bad he ends up throwing up. He doesn't have a camp tent, and he has to sleep outside for most of the game, so he has no real sun protection. So its a mandatory trip to puke and headache city!! After that he crawls back into his bed and is an immobile shivery lump for several hours before he chokes down something to eat and gets ready for the day.

[yin-shimo]

Collective (and final) Post

- because I'll be deleting the previous posts and hoping this singular one is good enough for everyone.

Let's get the biggest issue out of the way,

Yes, I am a proshipper and no i don't care how you feel about it. As always, please feel free to block me now and not bother to read the rest, its the reason i was open about being one in the first place.

I never cared i was banned from yoonie's server. i never talked in it and i wasn't there to make friends. I was in there solely to see if they said anything about me and yeah they did. You can go crazy and call me a stalker for that too, I get it. What they said is irrelevant (such as my cc, i don't know why its made out to seem like im upset abt that..) to why im upset, i just disliked them viewing my account like stalkers even tho none followed or liked me. Thats it. I would have never called out names etc if yoonnie hadnt vague posted me.

secondly, for all the csa and sa mentions and me supposedly posting weird ships or whatever. Please, please actually scroll through my account and show me where i have EVER talked about any ships (aside from wx), posted images abt the topic, or anything similar.

while youre at it, please show me where it was that i failed to tag such 'problematic' nsfw posts. you do know i only tag them with #xian: spice, my oc tags and occasionally #simspice, right? My pinned says im an 18+ blog, my description says 18+ only, how many warnings are expected of me?

next, where and when did i ever interact with anyone, especially from that clique, that made them so uncomfortable? it couldnt be in yoonie's server. i didnt talk about my self or interests and no one ever posted in the nsfw channel of my own server when it existed. so again, it couldnt be there either. I dont even interact with minors on discord or tumblr!

please, please understand that i KNOW there are many many topics people arent comfortable with (i have some too) and theyre 100% valid! especially to block/unfollow me for! Aside from one recent render, I have never posted anything worth a CW (and the render is properly tagged with #cw: implied abuse) and if i do again, it will always have the proper CW. I am not trying to trigger anyone.

If somehow, my pfp, description, etc, is enough to trigger you, please please just stay away from my account for your own sake. and the yarichin argument is weak and only proves the people so uncomfortable and 'triggered' by me apparently still look at my page and saw my current pfp lol

the only post that will be left is the ask i answered showing how harmful corona 'jokes' are towards all asians whether theyre chinese or not

[silvercrane14]

That helps a ton !! Unfortunately im a horror manga fiend so that does cut out a lot ToT

I'll start with some recs that u might have already read and go from there.

For some reason I always group Land of the Lustreous/houseki no kuni with WHA. Theyre not like. similar at all really but I feel like theyre just. in the same group.

LOTL has a really unique style- the mangaka used to illustrate those two-toned high-contrats instruction pamphlets which is where it derives from. At the beginning it kinda feels like a fighting manga but pretty quickly it proves otherwise. Its really beautiful both in art and story, I would highly suggest it.

Why I think you would like it: very interesting characters. Large cast !! VERY compelling plot and lore of the world.

Frieren: Beyond Journeys End - Frieren is an elf who helped a group of adventured defeat the demon king many years prior. As elves are incredibly long-lived and feel little desire to pursue interpersonal relationships, she viewed the years with them originally as just a small blip in her many years of life. One of the members of the party asks her to take Fern, a young child, as an apprentice as he (being human) is old and will not live long enough to do so himself. She agrees and does so. She also begins to realize that she does care for the rest of the group, and regrets not adequately spending her time with them. Explores character and regret.

Why I thunk you would like it: Similar to WHA in its fantasy aspects, and very character-driven. Both the manga and the anime are beautiful. Tragic relationships (bittersweet)

Dungeon Meshi - I dont. think I really gotta explain this one but maybe im speaking from bias bcs my dash is filled with it lmao. I couldnt do it justice explaining so look up a summary if u dont know 👍 sorry im a little tired (writing this out of order so this is like my seventh one)

Why I think you would like it: Fantasy aspects similar to WHA. The characters have very strong. character. and the art is BEAUTIFUL. Very enjoyable way to portray many species' in a story

The Horizon - two children find themselves stranded in the midst of a war. Having nowhere to go, they decide start walking down a road, towards the horizon

is a manhwa but it has the same page-style b&w format as a manga. Also nite that while it does take place during a war, its not like. A War Manga about fighting or anything. its Really Sad and if u decide to read it and have any triggers or sensitivities to certain things lmk and I can give u some warnings. ITS REALLY GOOD THO. I say sad because. it is. but its also kinda bittersweet. It'll make you cry but at the same time.

Why I think you would like it: Looks into how the characters deal with the loss of their normal lives, how experiences change people, and goes deeply into each character relationship.

!!! I really appreciate these, so sorry for answering these like two days late oops. Anyway

Land of the Lustrous I've heard of but I've never actually read! So I might look into it ^^

Frieren and Dungeon Meshi I've read, although admittedly I didn't finish Frieren (forgor) so I might pick that up again,,,

The Horizon sounds really good!!! I love bittersweet stories,,, I'll check it out!!!

[nishiriks]

‼️THIS CONTAINS SPOILERS FOR THIS SMAU AND THE TWO SPINOFFS (happy death day and dont shoot me)‼️

this smau is very dark so i HIGHLY suggest reading through the warnings. the spinoffs are slightly lighter themed however can still be triggering so AGAIN just to reiterate—READ THE WARNINGS!!

Sweet Like Candy

IM SORRY BUT THE WAY FELIX WAS DESCRIBED IN SLC WAS SO DISTURBING?? i genuinley felt so scared everytime i would read a scene with him 😭😭 BUT IN A GOOD WAY IF THAT MAKES SENSE!! no but guys he was so unsettling it was crazy 💀 had me pissing myself over this. bro i fr cried over jisung and felix cs wtf. felix did NOT have to die like that man,, then the open casket thing like do you want me to shoot myself?? cs girlie the gun is LOCKED AND LOADED. — all jokes aside the plot is very interesting and is something tou can easily get sucked into. it takes you through a rollercoaster of emotions but is defo worth it!!

Happy Death Day

now i will admit i was STILL terrified of felix but even so i chose to read this which added to the whole anxiousness of the plot for me!! —the description of of him in sweet like candy,, having lifeless eyes and him cornering us and being able to slip away without being noticed very much scared me!!— this one left me so anxious bcs i thought felix was gonna die 😭 when i saw jisung saying he better make it out alive. OUUUUUUU. i was about to start bawling💀 chan lowk pissed me off sometimes but i cld occasionally see his point ig. nana and gaon have my whole heart though 🥹🥹 MY BABIES!! AFHSHSHSG soojin or wtv her name was can go fuck herself bcs quite frankly she was embarrasing. i loved channies relationship and trust with/in felix tho!! that was so cute “lee yongbok, if i knew that week was the last time i’d see you, i would’ve thrown a party”

“if hiding is the best thing for him right now, then i respect that”

OH MY POOR HEART 🥹 — this whole triology was so well written i felt like i was going insane if i put it down for more than an hour at a time so i had to read all three in one sitting

Don’t Shoot Me

ok now this one is either your fav of the triology or your least fav — no inbetween. see personally it was my fav!! im a sucker for a good fluff and this was exactly what i needed to end the binge reading of angst, violence, death and more angst that i was going through!! as much as i loved the darkness of the story i will ALWAYS be a fluff girl at heart 🫶🫶

not to say the other two werent good!! but damn did they fuck up my brain. slc has left a LASTING imprint on me. LONG LASTING. at that. dont shoot me had the least interesting plot emotionally but with a series like this—it worked perfectly. it also was interesting enough that tou could read it as a stand-alone even without all the emotional plot. it was focused on jisung healing and becoming better which was so sweet,, i also loved to see that side of things where jisung has no idea why he is the way he is,, but is also aware that he ISNT normal and that something sets him and his ability to understand emotions aside from everyone else. it was so cute to see that girls gc although i did notice nayeon was missing!! -mayb she js didnt say anything at the time who knows 🤷🏾‍♀️-

my fav moment was defo the last chap where all the boys meet. it was so refreshing to see!! (jisung and hyune being bffs was mind boggling btw) plus,, chan defending hdd y/n was something i was NOT expecting!! and seeing hyunjin defend slc y/n made me laugh bcs i cldnt stop thinking about how they used to HATE each others guts 😭 jeongin was honestly such a cutie i love him sm! OH AND I LOVED WHEN JISUNG SAID “i know for a fact all i feel for guys is love” AWW YOU PREVIOUSLY-INSANE-BUT-RECOVERING LITTLE GUY!! cmere lemme kiss you!

anyways thats all from me,, all im saying is GET TO READING TS CS ITS GOOD!!

🍭 SWEET LIKE CANDY | hwang hyunjin smau

pairing: hwang hyunjin x reader | enemies to lovers / strangers to lovers

genre: angst, mature, social media au, university au, anonymous au, a tiny bit of fluff and crack in between

warnings: contains vulgarity, extreme cussing, degradation, use of death as an insult, not a sweet fic, sexual/explicit themes but no detailed smut, sabotaging and blackmailing, extreme academic competetiveness, y/n and hyunjin both talk shit about each other’s college majors, mentions of drugs, illegal drug use, excessive partying, irresponsible drinking, drunk driving, criminal(??) acts, insults are h e a v y, bodyshaming (yk what, all kinds of shaming). syndicate undertones. death.

synopsis: long time rival hwang hyunjin has been the bane of your existence for as long as you can remember. thank god your secret anon textmate always has your back— sweet, caring, and good with words. definitely not like hwang at all.

a/n: y’know it was hard trying to come up with this “anonymous app” thing idea without naming names (bc i don’t wanna do that and also idk, i’m dumb) but basically the website/app that candy and y/n (her anon name is chocolate) is like a mix of deviantart and tumblr-ish. the idea started with it being kinda like omegle but then i ended up switching it up.

[FINISHED] DIRECTORY: (pink = written chapters)

ACT I— THE PLAYGROUND

prologue ~ 001 ~ 002 ~ 003 ~ 004 ~ 005 ~ 006 ~ 007 ~ 008 ~ 009 ~ 010 ~ 011 ~ 012 ~ 013 ~ 014 ~ 015 ~ 016 ~ 017 ~ 018 ~ 019 ~ 020 ~ 021 ~ 022 ~ 023 ~ 024 ~ 025 ~ 026 ~ 027 ~ 028 ~ 029 ~ 030

ACT II— THE WARZONE

031 ~ 032 ~ 033 ~ 034 ~ 035 ~ 036 ~ 037 ~ 038 ~ 039 ~ 040 ~ 041 ~ 042 ~ 043 ~ 044 ~ 045

ACT III— THE END

046 ~ 047 ~ 048 ~ 049 ~ 050 ~ 051 ~ 052 ~ 053 ~ 054 ~ 055 ~ 056 057 ~ 058 ~ 059 ~ 060 ~ 061 ~ 062 ~ 063 ~ 064 ~ 065 ~ 066 ~ 067 ~ 068 ~ 069 ~ 070

BONUSES

01 ~ 02 ~ 03

LOST HOOKS. SPIN-OFF/SEQUEL: HAPPY DEATH DAY (the story of lee felix) SECOND SPIN-OFF: DON'T SHOOT ME (the story of han jisung)

(mm/dd/year)

started: 10-11-2021

completed: 01-09-2022

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[t0asty1]

blehhhhhh reaches into my mouth ansd pulls this out and gives it to you

hooray for writing!!!!! i writed something!!!! yaaay!!!!!! i physically cannot finish the last part of this yet tho i used all of my brain on the first part. also this is my first ever fanfic i put on the internet :)

@blaxolt is this what you wanted. is this the same horrors that you were bluetoothing into my mind.

anyways. my jjk x dandadan x pjsk au. except theres no dandadan in this yet,. i guess some bg info is first of all im having trouble naming my oc so they are literally just [oc] T_T and also the oc is genderfluid because they are me i am he we are one and the same. also also!! their cursed technique is cursed speech but instead of affecting others it affects herself which is cool because it allows her to shapeshift and stuff. second of all, n25 + akito, shiho and shizuku are all jujutsu sorcerers in my au and yeah toya is there too but hes more of a maki situation. oh and. toya is my ocs brother. yeah im just collecting brothers here ngl

anygays. here u go. TRIGGER WARNING SUICIDAL THOUGHTS

as the first grade curse slinked away into the thickage of the forest after its self proclaimed victory, [oc] toppled over from the sudden lost sense of balance and overwhelming increase in gravity, face planting into the mud.

they tried to roll over onto their back, but they just... couldnt. their head was spinning and it was hard to breathe. everything hurt.

that voice was back. the voice that instead of saying useful things, only beats her down and tells her how much of a failure she is.

"you bit off more than you can chew, [oc]!" its laughter bounced around her head, making her ears ring. "face it, you knew that it would end up like this—defeated, on the ground. you know you're weak, but every time you take on a battle you think things will change. thats not something an intelligent person would think."

"shut up..." [oc] tried yet again to push herself off the ground, or at least out of her current position, but it was in vain.

"you dont have to be in pain anymore."

the voice's tone had shifted to a more sincere, gentle way of speaking.

it intrigued her. thats the bad part.

"you have the power to end your pain. you can end it all. you can end yourself. you have the power..." it trailed off before finding a new harsh tone of voice

"say it! tell yourself to die! say it out loud! it has a 100% success rate. say it, say it, SAY IT."

"NO!"

two voices were battling inside her head, one repeatedly saying "DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE," while the other says "NO NO NO NO NO!"

another voice, the one that narrates their conscious thoughts, joins the cacophony. "it would be easy... it really would... but no, i cant- i have people counting on me to live! toya, tsukasa, saki and kanade-" a broken sob escapes their bleeding lips. they cough as their fingers dig into the dirt beneath them, which has been softened by the rain. "i want to. i cant. i cant. i want to. i need to live. i need to be there for everyone. i want to die. i need to live. im not strong enough to do either of those things. where is everyone? where is inumaki? i miss my siblings."

under all of these is a voice saying "it hurts, it hurts, it hurts..."

every muscle in her body screamed. she felt like she was being crushed. tears streamed down her face, mixing with the rain as she did one more act of defiance, maybe her last.

she let out a raw, blood-curdling, terrifying scream.

it lasted for 30 seconds.

she screamed with everything she had. she screamed with her pain, hope, fear, and rage. as a heavy metal singer, she had a pretty good metal scream, but this was nothing like that. this scream was not meant for music.

as she lay there, her blood tinting the mud a sickening dark red and the mud soaking into her open wounds, the rain softly landing on her hair feeling like someone patting her head, she listened to her scream echo throughout the woods. her last conscious thought was "i hope somebody heard me."

she then passed out.

-

a bone-chilling scream could be heard from every corner of the forest.

toge, ena, nobara, yuuji, megumi and satoru were already done with their parts of the mission, and were getting antsy about how long it was taking [oc] to give them any sort of update on their situation. it was truly unfortunate that the most inexperienced of the group had to go against the highest grade curse in the area, they hadnt planned on this happening.

they all had tried to regroup, but they kept getting lost in the forest, fog and dense patches of drooping branches obscuring their view.

the scream at least gave them a destination to reach.

-

just as they were about to reach the source of the scream, the curse that [oc] couldnt defeat blocked their path, its horrible eyes lingering on each member of the team with malicious intent.

"inumaki, go ahead and find [oc]! we'll take care of this! hurry!" satoru shouted.

"salmon!" inumaki agreed, dodging to the side and sprinting behind the curse.

behind him he heard sounds of fighting, but he wouldnt look back. he knew they could take care of themselves, even that newbie ena could hold her own in a fight.

the puddles of water got deeper as inumaki approached a lump on the ground, the fallen unconscious body of [oc]. their mouth and nose were almost covered by the water.

inumaki flipped them onto their back so they could breathe. as they sputtered for air, he slammed a hand down on her shoulder and pulled his hood's zipper down. he gathered his strength to activate his cursed speech, and then yelled directly in her face,

"STAY ALIVE."

immediately [oc]s heart rate increased, stronger and steadier than before. blood trickled down the corner of his mouth, but inumaki persisted and slung [oc] over his shoulder to carry them back to the rest of the group who were already done fighting the curse.

although the others offered to carry [oc] because of inumakis weakened state, he refused to let go of them. he felt attached to this stupid other cursed speech user, responsible for them even. the two were found siblings, afer all.

-

in the hospital

oc realizes their fucking leg is gone and crie,

uhhhh............ the end. was it cringe. was it good. the answer is both!

[foursdarkdays]

(Major trigger warning, please dont read, even if you do , pretend like you didn't . I dont want to talk about this))

Dear diary.

idk whats wrong with me. why do i keep crying? why am i feeling this way? i feel numb but so painful? i honestly think because i have nothing to do. So my brain is free to think whatever it wants. too much free time on my hands to go back to depression. I want to go out but its wayy too cold lol. What do i do? maybe i should study? not today tho because i need to go to the concert. Myabe ill play genshin to divert my brain. Stop depending. Plus there's something i did today and i realised things. lol. i was showering and suddenly it hit me that maye, maybe i never stopped self harming. i dont do it like okay im going to hurt myself but its always indirectly. be it cutting vegatbles or just shaving or cleaning something. I know what im doing but i do indirectly. And i end up hurting myself. idk what this means. Even yesterday i was cutting onions and i was waiting for my hand to slip and cut and i kinda did it? even while showering i was shaving and i was like oh is it sharp enough? you think i was actually curious about its sharpness? no. It hit me hard today. Wow im actually shivering rn. and maybe me starving myself on bad days also counts in this. its basically me hurting myself physically to divert the emotional pain.

Okay so i never stopped self harming. wow thats something new

(09/12/24)16:06

I pity myself soooooooo much lol. I’m a lost cause and theres no way for me. lol

[spoookyb0t]

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[digitalcarcrash]

For someone who has seen your Passenger posts and is starting to have their interest piqued, but who knows very little about the movie and is also a bit of a weenie, how would you give, I dunno, I guess a summary? of the movie? A cliffsnotes "this is what it's about, this is why I like it, these are some things I'd warn about" type thing.

ooooough all good questions. warning you have opened the floodgates i am about to ramble for a prolonged period of time. i'll divide all this up tho so you know at what point im talking about What

SUMMARY: the passenger tells the story of this guy named randy, who is. very antisocial and just generally very Meek? if that's the right word? and one day he goes to work, and after being harassed by one of his coworkers, benson(another one of randy's coworkers) decides that enough is enough, and kills all the restaurant's' employees, Except for randy. the movie then tells the story of what follows the killings, i dont wanna spoil too much but Essentially benson looks randy dead in the eye and is like "i can fix him" and then that's just. most of the movie. benson trying to fix randy. they just drive around a lot doing things and visiting people from randy's life

WARNINGS: if you're sensitive to gore you don't Really have to worry, this isn't a very gruesome movie whatsoever, i actually consider it to be relatively tame. the worst of it happens in like. the first 20 minutes of the movie and things really chill out from there. general trigger warning though there is lots of gun violence, as well as implied csa. i think that's it. if i'm forgetting something i am so sorry

WHY I LIKE IT: i personally like this movie for a Whole number of reasons. for starters, just to get The Weird One out of the way first, i am very very into movies about bdsm. and i think the dynamic between randy and benson does toe into the waters of being a kind of unspoken dom/sub type dynamic. the queerness of this movie is also something that really draws me in, ive always always always had a think for movies and media in general that don't feature Explicit queer rep but that Does have queer subtext. i also am just generally a bit of a horror slut lmao i love me a good ole spooky movie. even though the passenger doesn't really feel like a horror movie to me, but that's Technically what its classified as so idgaf ill call it horror. also kyle gallner is hot as fuck and i need to see him and johnny berchtold kiss on the mouth sloppy style

hope this was helpful lol

[deadlycalamity]

yeah, ive never been on toyhouse but just that linked reply gives a enough context that was omitted from the op

anyone interested should give it a read if you havent. Here's a link to the reply again if you dont wanna scroll. Reading the OP's intent and perspective for why they were made is a good practice even if you still end up disagreeing or not liking them.

a few things they point out that I want to call note to: they're not supposed to be trigger warning specifically, but content warnings, which are similar but an important distinction. They're inspired by visual icons that would be on dvds or before movies.

At first I agreed about the screenreader point with the text, but knowing that its actually HTML just squashes that. Having screenshots like this on tumblr makes it really hard to tell so that's much needed context.

lastly, seems like when you go to post on toyhouse it shows you a full warning of that person's profile, which is a big reason these were originally made. as someone with adhd I could totally get how reading these on every post would get exhausting for your eyes/brain, as well as dyslexia, etc. Its not like on tumblr where you type warnings in the tags or before specific posts. (correct me if im wrong tho, Ive never been on toyhouse till today)

overall these are for a niche purpose on a niche website. like yeah maybe some of them look a little corny, but if you have better ideas the original creator has been open to feedback and has taken a lot of it. If you dont like them at all then no need to use them, especially since like I said, its pretty niche anyway. i feel like this post has kinda blown past the original purpose

oh wait i want to be a hater. the stupid fucking phenomenon on th of people using those cutesy graphics for trigger warnings is literally one of the most annoying things ever just fucking have a LISTTTTT of things that someone can easily read instead of having to look at cute pixel art gifs with the text PHYSICAL ABUSE right beneath

[somewhattired]

killing stalking? more like koogipleaseletmerestbeforeyoucontinuetomakethispoorchildsuffermoreemotionalandphysicaltrauma stalking, amirite???

(koogi why)

[sparklyeyedhimbo]

this is gonna be a veeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeery long post. Open it in another tab or something. This is gonna be like this bird post so be warned

Get yourself some snacks and a drink.

where to begin to start explaining my gear and your gown.

first of all a few trigger warnings: homophobia, violence, under age drinking, parental figure dying, attempted rape*, singing

when you see this shot in episode 10 at 34:55 skip to 36:07 if you can

Let us check out the plot summary now.

IMBD what you got for us

Not much as expected this is like the base plot like the 1% of it all. (kali why are you even looking there. IDK i wanted some VARIATIONS idk)

Let us check MyDramaList they like to give some more meat

...and this is as far as i go down the fires of MDL. Now we have a LITTLE bit more base knowledge.

This is an enemies to study buddies to "friends" to enemies to strangers to friends to lovers story. (very long trope but you will get it)

..with a cast that makes newer and older bl fans go like WAIT THEY ARE IN THIS?

Before we get more into the plot of this story, let me introduce the boys and the gurls and who is who and who is doing what with who. Confused? you are welcome 😎

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Lets start with the MAIN people that this story is about

oh btw the colors mean nothing is just wanted to have some colors in this so it's not just a wall of text

This is pai our little, nearsighted, insecure, introverted and bad with his words boy. That falls head over broken glasses for itt that saves him not once but twice. But he can't really see itts face everytime because his glasses fall off.

He will get rid of his glasses (because of lasik he rich booooy and glasses make people ugly apparently) when he gets older. Will also do everything in his power to make sure that itt gets to live his dreams. With questional techniques to make sure it happens.

highschool!pai: i'm only gonna tutor you so you can get into uni. Pls pang (itts ex girlfriend) get back together with itt so he is more motivated to go back to school, i'm only gonna forgive you if you let me tutor you again.

uni!pai: i lost your trust so ofc you hate me and don't want me in your life i know this. i'm okay to watch you shine from afar

This is itt (badumtiss sorry everytime i have to read this phrase i have to laugh) our angry, can recognize pais handwriting everywhere, ball is life, grumpy and loves to stare at pai boy. Will wear a bowtie when he hits rock bottom.

And will do anything to make sure his boy gets more out of his shell, even tho his techniques are also questionable at best. Its not that bad in highschool but boy does he dial it up to 100 when they are in uni.

highschool!itt: ..pierce your ear you coward [affectionate]

uni!itt: ..you want your earing back? Join the beauty pageant, pai wants to entertain people, pai wants to answer this question, asks pai stupid med question (because he sees that pai feels uneasy talking infront of people) which pai has to correct and make him ease up, etc

IttPai

These two are the main couple in this "masterpiece". Staring at eachother (from afar to near to angry to lovie dovie) and miscommunication are their favorite activities. They both will continue doing these even in uni which will give you the urge to pull your hair out. wich will lead to much unnecessary drama. Because both just want the other one to have their best lifes, because BOTH of these two idiots think they are not good enough for eachother. Can you belieeeeeeEEEeeeeve that? They once go out for some wonton noodle soup because pais parents can't make dinner (it's a date but pshh dont tell them). And thats where pai gets his ugly ass earring. That will be the plot device to move things along.

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Now lets get to know the rest of them.

This is folk, the very tall, handsome, with a little obsession with pai at the start, going to be a dentist and writer boy. Is not so happy that pure always sabotages him and pai. Can quote barbra streisand from the top of his head.

Enters the story right before the timeskip, he gets scolded by pai for reading the number for a classroom wrong and that is what made folk fall hard. Folk meets pai in uni again and uses their "first" first meeting as a pick up line, didn't really land. He will try to forget about pai after that camping trip in uni with a little help of pure *wink*

There is a subplot in the series where there is an Mr.950. You will think Folk is Mr.950 (because that was the number he read wrong) that is giving pai little gifts. But he is not that dude it's itt its always itt kidz.

This is pure very small, loves to fool around, will not use the hecking condoms (gets an "well deserved" std-scare that makes him and waan bond and become real good friends and you try not to ship like the doc that reads out the test waan made pure take, always have protection with you kidz) his sucky mom throws at him because she is as bad as her son when it comes to fool around, will do anything that makes his BFF itt happy, ball is also life, his first love was a coward and let him get beaten up by bullies, and will fall head over heels for a certain dentist boy.

He pushes folk to confess to pai (do it bro or it will be to late), and folk getting brutally rejected by pai. And after that pure and folk drive back to drink the pain away and for pure to "comfort" the poor soul.

folks fish: they were banging. There was so much banging happening

PureFolk

Thank you folk for explaining purefolk, love me this trope when the two people that gonna be together in the end. Tell them stuff like that and ask the other for an answer.. AND IT HAPPENS LIKE THE OTHER ONE SAYS. THEIR SHIP DYNAMIC IS JUST TOLL/SMOLL, enemies to friends with benefits to with a lot of unnecessary drama lovers. ..pure even saves folks face id so folk can unlock pures phone. It was love at first oishi ad scene

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last but DEFENETLY NOT least

This is waan (and his girl beau) second most intelligent, token straight, with no game till he meets beau (at one point you will and want to slap waan for beau because lord he stupid*.), best friends with pai by fate (fate as we are both have the most brain lets be friends) a very kind boy.

*this part of the camp. SHE WAS SO HAPPY AND HE CRUSHES HER HOPES BECAUSE HE THINKS THAT AFTER PURESAID IF HE COULD HELP HER WITH HER, THAT PURE IS GONNA STEAL HER AWAY FROM HIM. *tries to calm down*

...they figure it out after he gets hurt by getting hit by an basketball that Itt was throwing (you have to watch it pls). BUT BOY, what a mess it was thanks pure (but ofc pure only did that to give waan a push to finally stand HIS ground) what i want to say about these two is they are the cutest and i will forever love them

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phew now that we got that out of the way lets go through the plot a bit. Lets just make it some bulletpoints because i want you all that you watch this.

I lied this got out of hand have bulletpoints with all my brain came up with enjoy.

STILL PLEASE WATCH IT.

pai starts his first day of school after 5 years in england. It's his last year in HS. (and trust me you saw me how angy i was with simm and lemme tell you NO ENGLISH WORDS pass pai lips once NOT ONCE) his parents are so busy they won't even eat breakfast with him :(

he gets to school gets hit by a soccer ball, this is were he first meets Itt and after that pai gets announced head of the bishop club (the smartie pants club) because he smort, but he declines at first.

after school and pai and waan are about to get driven home by pais driver. He just looks at waan and runs away. (To this day i have no clue why he does it) He almost gets robbed by thugs in a back alley BUT Itt is here to save the day. Sadly pais glasses break from the run in with said thugs. But no worries itt fixes them with a tape.

back at school pai ask waan if he could find the owner of said tape. But waan will only help him if pai takes on the role of head of the bishop club. So pai accepts this deal.

But as soon as pai said yes, the teacher approaches pai to tell him that the knight club (the sport nerd) lost their building and now are going to get the bishops clubs room, because they got more accomplishments. And his is going to get disbanded.

pai goes to the principal and guess who he meets there? The head of the knights club and it's itt. After talking to the principal and promising him that he will use his connections with his dad to get some activities going. The principal decides that they have to share the room.

after this pai talks to itt infront of the principal office and thanks him for helping him and if he remembers him. itt just tells pai that he doesn't remember people who lik to pull strings.

enter the we are "enemys" now phase, with Itt and his knight club members trying to annoy the bishop club members to leave.

pure takes one of his hook ups into the room and spills some juice and trys to mop it up with some very important papers, waan sees that and they get into a little fight, a projector gets damaged.

waan sees his time as his chance to get the knights out of their room. But he overhears pure and his mother talking and it's not the nice (at this point just throw away the whole mum) in the end he takes the blame for damageing the projector.

because of this situation the teacher tells pai that he has to agree to her proposition that he has to tutor itt or she will disband the bishop club (don't look at me i still have no clue how this makes any sense)

pai agrees and now the whole study buddies era happens. Naturally not without Itt ditching the first lesson, but he had a reason. His mom is in the hospital with sickness (it could be cancer?) and he was visiting her. Pai goes to see his parents that are working at the same hospital itts mum is a patient in. And pai sees itt with his mom and also overhears and sees the argument he has with his father (WHO BRINGS HIS MISTRESS WITH HIM TO HIS DYING WIFE INTO THE TRASH WITH HIM)

because pai sucks at hiding itts sees that he overheard this confronts pai. They make a deal that pai won't say anything about this if itt lets him tutor him. NOW we are entering the study buddies to friends era.

Itts mum finds them studying together and happily demands that they should do these lessons in her patient room. She is really happy and jokes around with pai about her son (first supporter of IttPai)

everything is going great and pai and Itt becoming friends and mayhabs feelings blossoming, they even go eat wonton noodle soup, when pais parents ditch him because of work. And thats where pai gets the gown earring and his ears pierced. When pai gets home is parents are very suprised and shocked about this. (to this day i am confused because of pais parents, their reactions to things are so CONFUSING)

pai proudly wears the earing to their next tutoring session, but itt also invited his girlfriend peng along. Pais new found confidence goes back into the shell.

everything is going to shit at this point (we are only in episode 4 so buckle up) Pai is very cold to itt and even declines the offer to go eat together.

SOMEHOW pai does go to the wonton noodle shop (don't ask me why he decided to go like i just write here what i see for you guys) and sees itt eating there with peng. Pai walks away sad and gets hit by a car.

while this is happening itts mom also not doing so good. She passes away when pai gets hit by the car.

at the same time waan and pure also kind of bond and become friends. After waan sees two people fight over who gets to be with pure. Waan asked pure for help, the both of them go to an cafe and pure tries to teaches waan on how to flirt which back fires and they go out drinking.

on their way back from the cafe waan asked pure why he is the way he is with his relationships. And he drops the my first love was an ass he let me get beaten up by guys so now i don't feel love anymore. (trust me at this point you will go 👀🏳‍🌈 at them)

at the club our little player gets in a fight with someone accusing him on giving their girlfriend HIV.

waan goes looking for pure after he didn't show up for school a few days. He talks to pure and on how important it is to use protection even to it is from your shitty as moms leftovers (this whole scene is very bf coded but alas), waan drags him to the hospital to get a check up.

Where we get this iconic scene

back to pai and itt we are now in another we are no friends anymore era where itt is angry at pai for "not being there when his mom died" even tho he himself was also in the same hospital. Out of fear to lose his home (because shitty dad), itt even tries to drop out of highschool (rock bottom time the is a bowtie involved). Yes i say tries, because not on pais watch is that gonna happen. Pai tries to convince itt that he will earn more money as an engineer then whatever job is is doing right now. (we have a little pai almost getting hit by another car moment but they stare at eachother way to long 10/10) Pai playfully calls itt and idiot if does not show up to their tutoring session the next day.

He even tries to persuade peng to get back together with itt so he has more motivation to go back. But it backfires itt saw how peng was trying to kiss pai. (Just as we thought the drama is over right?)

the boys are "fighting" again but thanks to waan and pure the conflict is set aside very quickly. The four boys are now all friends and have a few nice days/weeks

pai and itt get accidentally locked in school and have to spent a night there where pai loses his earring.

in the morning the teacher calls pai to her office to tell him that he done his part, and that the bishop club now have their room back. Itt finds the earring and was about to enter the teachers room and overhears these two talking. (the real enemy era starting now)

the next day itt confronts pai that he has pais earring and he tells pai that he overheared the conversation with the teacher and pai just yield and begs itt to give him back his earring. Itt will only give it back if pai gives his club the room back. But because pai can't do this he promises to do anythingelse to get the earring back. But itt is not having it and keeps the earring.

folk enters the story at this point he first get scolded by angry heartbroken pai that he should read the room numbers correctly and take school seriously.

folk ruins a hook-up for pure because he tries to give back a pencilcase to the wrong girl.

pai gives notes to pure for itt..but because itt KNOWS pais handwriting he get so angry and goes to pais house to throw these notes at him and yell at him.

all of the boys get into their unis

TIMESKIP WE ARE IN UNI NOW

pai now has no glasses anymore (we get the first sotus call back with them trying to tell the meaning of the letter but JINKS they don't do this anymore..PUuuuh) and we meet beau for the first time and waan totally falls for beau.

this is also when mr.950 comes into play, it's a mystery person that gifts pai little gifts over the next 4 episodes.

pai gets a bit dizzy and almost faints after painting 2 lines of paint but he gets saved by the mystery man mr.950

pai also meets folk again, who straight out flirts with pai. He gets rudly interrupted by pure, who jokingly accuses him of being a player and sleeping around. (lets just say he uses it as a revenge for when folk wanted to give back that damn penicle case to the wrong girl pure was trying to flirt with)

this iconic scene happens after

at the dance thing the freshy have to do, pai has to do a little dance, because itt called out his name and said that he wants to.

folk joins him with the dancing because our dear pai is just to stiff and awkward

pai confronts itt after that event and begs itt to leave him alone.

beau ask pai to become their facultys king for the beauty contest but as always pai declines. (and ofc itt is in earshot and hears it)

we get this little scene where Itt uses the earring to get pai to join the beauty contest.

this amazing purefolk scene happens (it's their Ohhhhhh moment because after that its on....but folk still has his crush on pai)

a photoshoot for the freshy king things happens and pai really isn't feeling all to good on how stiffly and uncomfortable he looks in his pictures. Itt teases pai on how if he keeps doing so poorly on keeping his promise he should say bye bye to the earring, which REALLY riles up pai and he promises that he still has some tricks up his sleeves.(at this point you can feel that itt does these things from a place of love because booooy)

folk casually follows pai to his dormroom (don't worry he also lives there but still i was ehk?) and asked him for an chance to hit on him. Pai answer is "... to have it his way but he stands by as his friend first" (don't look at me i am also confused) Folk uses an even lamer pick up line this time.

folk gets to his room and he meets his neighbour! Guess who it is! ..imma tell you it's pure

waan tells pai that he likes beau but that he knows that she is out of his league (oh broother..noo) and that he is gonna join the freshy competition as a volunteer so he can be around beau. Because thats all he needs to be happy

ITS FRESHY COMPETITION CAMP TIME BEECHES time to get some progress on these couples!

Everytime pai has to do an activity, there is always itt trying to make him feel at ease or do things that help pai feel at ease (asking a stupid med question when pai feels uncomfy when he has to introduce, hurting himself so pai can show how to treat a wound, holds his hand when they have to walk blindfolded) They have a little moment in the tent, like they had back in hs when they where locked up.

waan gets closer to beau and helps her out in camp as good as he can. You could say they kind of flirt with eachother. But this spark of hope is soon put out by pure asking waan at the white band ceremony if could help him flirt with beau. Our boy waan is so defeated that when beau "ask if he wants to hit on her" he is like no..but a friend of mine does. Which in return leaves beau sad and a little heartbroken because she thought waan liked her.

talking about pure, his whole stick this camp is to keep folk away from pai. Or to sabotage them from having any interactions. Pure only urges folk on to man up and to confess his feelings after folk saw that itt and pai was holding hands. He gets rejected by pai

pure and folk drive back together to drink have a little talk and one leads to another and to bring back the fish from earlier

they decide to become friends with benefits (i am at this point that i believe that no one knows what a friend with benefits is because what these two are doing? Is kinguea league of doing it)

back at school pai talks to folk, if he is mad at him because pai heard that folk wasn't feeling so good. Folk ask for some time from pai so he can get over him.

after the meeting for the freshy competition folk just wants to go back and write his novel, but there is pure with other ideas. But folk brushes those ideas off and leaves without pure.

we see yachts character again nickey...we will meet him again and all i can say is with a gif

nickey wants pure to go to a party with him but pure declines with probably the biggest 🥺 while looking after folk.

pure and folk some cute moments while folk tries to write, when pure comes home from a bar, in school, (trust me guys you need to watch it)

folk reads some msg between waan and pure (thats what happens if you save your FWB faceID on your phone and say stuff like i won't keep secrets from you and you act sus buddy) where waan ask pure why he is messing around with folk if he wants to hit on beau and pure the idiot that he is answers that waan should fawn over her and that he going to enjoy folk until he gets tired of him. (put the pitchforks down this will get resolved...somehow)

we are at a basketball match now and pai is standing on the sidelines lost in thoughts. They begin to throw a ball at eachother angrier eachtime.

waan gets hit by a ball that itt throws at pai and hurts his wrist

let me remind you now at the trigger warning from the beginning the one with the door? well thats gonna happen now. I'm no going into detail

back to Itt and pai, Itt comes by to apologize to waan in the hospital but pais not having it and tells itt that from now on that this hatred is no longer one-sided.

all in all the boys are doing great

we finally get an inside look on why itt did the things he did to pai

pure comes clean about his intentions for beau, that he never liked her and that he only saied it to give waan a push. (they get together i mean beau and waan heheheheheh)

a sad heartbroken pure is at a club and gets a little "..Sowwy for you know doing almost a bad thing with you friend :< here have this" gift from nickey. (It's a hook up and oh boy will pure regretti spagetti this but he will punch nickey and make him apologize to folk so theres that but still puuuure whhhhy)

folk and pure talk with eachother and they decide to no longer to be FWB and that they are now going out. Pure has to promise folk that he is going to be his only one.

pai comes by to bring folk some congee and tells folk that he no longer has to refer to himself as mr. 950 BUT SUPRIIIIIIIIIIISE folk never was it. Pure gives pai the tip that it is the number of their old club room in highschool.

pai goes to visit waan in the hospital and waan no longer can keep the secrets he had and tells him everything.

ITS COMPETITION TIIIIIIIME time for our queen to serenade us! (i only just realizing what lyrics she is singing oasdjhjdksad)

everyone is getting ready for the show, the boys show off their little talents. And then there is itt who just goes up to the microphone and gives up. (yet still he wins the popularity vote i am amazed 10/10)

pai sings the song itt played for them when they all where in highschool.

PAI WINS THE HECKING CONTEST

after the competition he meets up with itt infront of the photography club. Itt gives him his earring back and pai asks what the room behind him looks like inside (he doesn't even wait for an okay he just walks in)

BIG DARK BLUE KISS ENERGY *intro plays in the background* with all the photos all over the room (okay they are mostly just pai but okay itt is on this hecking crush for a bit) as they watch a slideshow of pictures of pai they tell how much they love eachother

Itt finally reveals that he is mr.950 and shows pai his own earring he got himself as a memento of pai.

their shipname is brick/white now

they exchance their earrings and FINALLY kiss. But they get rudly interrupted by pais parents and his mother almost fainting.

pais parents are not really okay with their son kissing a boy in puplic and him talking back at them. Pai is so devastated by his parents reaction that he breaks up with itt

pais parents make him change schools back to england? When pai gets to school to pick up the papers he meets itt that does the same. Itt tells him "he only went here because of him" and gives pai back his earring

At lunch with his parents at home pai cracks and just cries and his parents finally see maybe we did something wrong? They even talk to an psychologists.

When it's time to fly back to england?? Pai stops his parents to say to them that he does not want to go. His mother asks him if he is really sure? AND when he says yes with confidence. His father calls out Itts name and itt comes out of his hiding place (imagine pai NOT doing this..the awkwardness oooof)

the parents and itt had a talk and now pai gets to stay and be happy and together with itt (hecking finally and like going to england won't make your son less anxious and gay. Thank the lord they figured that out. Itt is gonna be favorite son-in-law in no time)

pure and folk are back at the hospital, because nickeys little gift well...wasn't as clean as hoped BUT pure is now! So HAPPY ENDING FOR THESE TWO ASWELL

The friendgroup go on a camping trip and all three couples are as disgustingly cute as they can be.

WE MADE IT TO THE END OF THE POST I DID IT

I hope i made you want to watch this show now, or if i already took away everything and you are now nah thanks i am good. And i hope you got the infomation you needed out of this long ass post.

i think i need to rest for a day now

........anyhow it was kinda fun diving into this and keeping my mind busy.

@markpakin @petrichoraline @jyuubin @pajindapat

if i missed anyone that wanted a tag i am sorry but ENJOY

[actualbird]

woop i guess here i go− does it ever bother u how they don't really ever quite explain what's going on with luke's illness other than "aAAAH he'S sUDDENLY in PAIN!!1!1!" and some sort of nerve damage and what not... not that it doesn't make it any less sadder... BUT!!! sometime ago i looked up the symptoms of nerve damage and apparently it says stuffs like sharp pains (which we see happen often to luke through out) BUT ALSO numbness, tingling, loss of muscle strength, and suddenly dropping stuff??? so i'm just wondering if you have any headcanons on luke's illness? DO YOU THINK HE'S JUST IN CONSTANT STINGING PAIN, AND HIS PAIN KILLERS ARE SO STRONG IT JUST NUMBS HIS WHOLE BODY??? OR DO YOU THINK HE ALTERNATES BETWEEN FEELING NUMB AND SUDDEN SHARP PAINS??? this has been my personal hc ever since jfjsjd i'm sorry you could see i'm a luke stan cause all luke stans are angst enjoyers /hj i just wanted to share my brain rot to the world thank you

hi anon!!! first off, i deffo wanna say uve come to the right place both abt luke hcs (because im a luke enjoyer first, a human being second) AND thoughts about his illness

tho i wouldnt say im bothered by how they dont explain the symptoms of his illness much since narratively, i can see how this would be necessary to maintain a certain amount of suspense on the NXX drug

however, ur so right in bringing up those other symptoms, bc ive got a bunch of thoughts and feelings about this!!

for context, i also have a longtime undiagnosed-after-years-of-tests neurological condition, but it's not serious and more just a lifetime inconvenience. i experience muscle myoclonus, which means that at any time without warning, my legs, arms, or neck can suddenly jerk into movement and ive actually got a bunch of those symptoms u mention haha!

but enough about that! lemme go thruuuuu

some of my thoughts/hcs on luke's illness

wc: 1.7k

before i start, this is whole thing is going to be mixing fiction (tot's story) and fact (IRL information on certain illnesses, medications, etc). the fiction bit is important because while tot describes luke's condition and shows us its effects, does Not name what it is, and the whole thing is still shrouded in a lot of mystery. but the fact bit is important because there are real conditions out there that are similar to what luke has, based on what we know.

among them, Fibromyalgia seems like the closest real world condition to what luke has got, but since it's not outright stated in canon, i'll be making some stuff up. still, it's important to me to have like, a somewhat sensible system in making stuff up, which is why im laying down all this ground work jhvjdhsfd, and because in the hc portion of this post i'll be riffing off of some of my own experience

anyhoo, let's REALLY start with what we already Know

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what we know of luke's illness thus far from all the available story information from the global server

key words in that above title are "global server", because im aware that main story episode 9 in the cn server looks like it'll give us more info on this, but i dont like to or want to spoil myself for tot's future main story. so i'll be working within global server parameters!

so heres everything we know (...or rather, what i was able to remember in the course of me writing this response HAHA), as its been outright said and confirmed in canon:

luke's condition is currently diagnosed as terminal

luke's condition mostly manifests in sudden pain episodes that happen randomly and without warning. these pain episodes are not described to be coming from any specific body part, just that it's pain in general.

these pain episodes happen without any external trigger (i.e. luke doesnt have a pain episode when somebody bumps into him suddenly, but he can have a pain episode out of nowhere just doing something as passive as sitting or standing)

immediately after a pain episode, he takes his meds

these meds are analgesics (painkillers) and he was prescribed them by his previous doctor (the one who was handling luke and his condition before aaron)

even now that aaron has taken over as luke's primary physician, luke still takes painkillers immediately after any pain episode to manage the pain

luke's condition was caused by the NXX drug. after a mission where his team was attacked with toxic gas, he was the only survivor and the medicine he was given was somehow contaminated with the NXX substance

the NXX drug causes damage to the central nervous system, and luke's condition is confirmed to be related to his nervous system because in SSR Under The Milky Way, he describes his condition very specifically with the lines "[The contaminant] caused irreversible damage to my nervous system." and "[I] will constantly suffer from intermittent nerve pain."

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hcs on The Experience Of The Condition

the main physical symptom we see in canon is pretty clear: sudden and randomly occurring debilitating pain. i like to think it's of the stinging variety!! but dialed up to 10000000 because it's always shown to be intense enough that always luke reacts to the pain. and luke's pain tolerance is High. in personal story 4, he didnt even flinch when mc was stitching up his gash, but he did double over in pain, trembling and shaking, when he got hit with one of the pain episodes.

in addition to the pain though, i totally second the motion on the symptoms of numbness, tingling, loss of muscle strength (which then leads him to train more to compensate for any loss, because luke is a madman with low self worth and one of his skills is his physical strength so he needs to keep that up for as long as he can), and suddenly dropping stuff, the ones you mention. a

those are my thoughts on possible physical symptoms. but with a condition as heavy as this, there will be psychological/emotional ramifications too

because of how tot's canon shows luke experiencing the Pain Symptom, the pain itself is put front and center. but personally i also think that the fact this symptom occurs Randomly, Suddenly, and Without Warning is on the same level of "oh god why this" as the pain

in general, not being able to know when your body is going to start working against you really really sucks! you cant prevent it, you cant avoid it, and you cant see it coming. sure you Can prepare for its random eventuality through out the day, which is what luke does by carrying around his painkillers everywhere with him, but even then, that only alleviates the specific instance currently happening and not the overall trend of It'll Happen Again! When? Secret....

it's hugely frustrating. in my case with involuntary movement, eventually i tried to constantly and impossibly try to expect it so that when it does happen, i dont knock over glass to the floor or fall down the stairs

but always trying to expect something you cant predict causes tension and anxiety.

luke's condition is much more severe and painful than my quirk. so keeping a mental background program, so to speak, always running and looking out for a pain episode of his condition must suck bigtime.

because he'll basically always be bracing himself for pain, even when nothing is happening.

and on a metaphorical level, being constantly braced for pain even when things are fine is something luke does A Lot. luke is always worried and preparing for worst case scenarios, luke is always trying to think ahead to have various backup plans to ensure people's safety, and luke seems more used to pain and bad things than he is prepared for happiness and good things.

bracing himself for pain gives luke a semblance of control over something that is terrifyingly out of his control completely. at least if hes always thinking about its inevitability, he'll have things that can help mediate its effects. but the price for that control is a constant tension and dread building inside of him every second, because hes always waiting for the other shoe to drop

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my ideal hope for luke's story when a kind of treatment for his condition is found

i dont actually want for the condition to be completely cured. like, dont get me wrong, i obviously want the Terminal aspect of his condition treated because i love him and want him to live a long and happy life, but i dont want all of his symptoms gone. personally, i'd find it much more compelling narratively if his condition is treated and will no longer kill him in a few years, but still causes him pain that needs to be managed with meds and other treatments. and why i want this is because:

1 ) given the sheer struggle of his condition in the story thus far AND the fact that luke himself literally said the damage done to his nervous system is Irreversible, having a medical miracle like that happen feels a teensy bit like a deus ex machina to me. (sidenote: ofc, ur free to disagree with me! and feel free to disagree with this whole post in general, we've all got different opinions and thats chill)

2 ) in general with stories, i am less drawn to super neat resolutions and im more drawn to resolutions that are more like "and things werent perfect and they never will be, there will always be problems, but our characters will be okay and theyll keep getting better and better, and it's in this push and pull of struggle and learning and progress and getting through where their happiness lies"

ever since luke was a kid, even before he developed his condition, hes had the fear of being a burden to his loved ones. and when he does get his terminal condition, this fear is worsened and he starts to see his existence in other people's lives as a whole as a burden of pain and grief that isnt worth the trouble. and...i dunno, i just like the idea of him continuing to live but also continuing to have these problems that still spark fear inside of him and still take so much work to manage every day. and out of habit, he braces himself for pain, not just for the kind his condition gives him but from Life because Surely, His Loved Ones Will Get Tired Of All Of This, Of Him and The Problems He Comes With, Right?

but surprise surprise, they dont. because they care about him. because this should not and is not a dealbreaker for them continuing to care about him.

aaron creates treatment thats more on the preventative maintenance meds angle so luke doesnt have to just wait for a pain episode to pop up and then dry swallow painkillers every time. it's not infallible , but sometimes luke can have hours, even a whole a day sometimes where the pain hes bracing himself for doesnt come.

mc always reminds luke to take his meds whenever luke gets too busy or caught up in a case. he worries at first that it's an inconvenience to her for her to have to remember his routines for him just in case, but that worry becomes quieter as luke realizes she reminds him in the same tone as she says "good morning" or "have you had lunch yet? wanna join me?", just this casual and loving thing thats now integrated into both their lives

the team are always ready to help too in their own way. when luke gets a pain episode in hq, marius offers distraction in the form of idle chatter on (harmless) internal pax gossip while luke waits for his painkillers to dull down the stinging. when luke feels uncomfortable tingling crawling across his whole body while out with vyn, vyn subtly helps luke move from a crowded area to a quieter one where outside stimuli cant further overwhelm luke's senses. when it's a bad grip strength day and all luke wants to do is punch something and fuck his useless hands up even more, artem tells luke about custom silicone grips that exist for things like pens or knives or such and that they could look for some next time they go shopping.

it is not perfect. but luke's life, even with the pain, is still worth living. everybody is trying to help and eventually, luke learns how to start helping him self along with them too.

soooo yea theres my thoughts!! thanks for the ask, anon :D

[ed-recovery-affirmations]

im sorry if this is hard to answer but i was anorexic for nearly four years before... idk my life got good enough that i decided recovery was worth it. im in a really good place right now.

im a trans guy with unsupportive parents tho, and they decided to send me to an all girls private catholic school next year. i know a trans guy who goes there and he relapsed this year and its so toxic there thar he had to transfer out.

i know i cant handle this place, nor can i change my parents mind, so how do i minimize the damage next year? how do i get through this alive? what can i do to stay as healthy as possible while in relapse? i need to prepare to be as healthy as i can. and pls none of the bullshit like ’talk to a friend’ or ’just eat’ it. it does not help.

thanks so much, you dont have to reply if you dont want to, im just so fucking scared because i have 4 more months of being recovered at best and i dont want to go back.

Oh man. That is a really tough situation you're in. I'm so sorry to hear that your parents don't want to put you in a supportive environment.

Is there anything you can control about the situation? For example, does the school offer uniform pants? I know a lot of religious schools have traditionally only offered skirts for AFAB students, but a lot of them have been shifting to offering pants as a part of the uniform. Do you have any flexibility with shoe choice and hairstyle? You could also opt to size up with your shirt choice and to pair it with sports bras, which tend to minimize breast size if that is a dysphoria trigger for you. I know that consistent binding is not safe, but if you can get a proper binder, perhaps you can wear it safely during school hours to feel a little more in-control in that environment. Idk if it'd be worth it to risk punishment by cutting your own hair or adopting a gender-neutral nickname, but perhaps you could give yourself a pixie cut that looks neutral and feels less traditionally "girly" if you haven't already.

If you can't get the control of your outfit that you need, perhaps I could help find recommendations of social media accounts of men, both cis and trans, who wear skirts and/or do things that aren't traditionally "masculine." Just to help you keep affirming to yourself that clothes don't necessarily make a man a man, and if a man wears a skirt then it's a man's skirt. Consuming this content might help you feel less alone this school year.

This friend might be able to be a resource to you by warning you about what was hardest to handle about this school environment/what you can avoid vs. what you can seek out. If they have a theater department and you're allowed extracurriculars, I'd suggest you join that for the camaraderie. In my experience, a lot of closeted queer kids group together in theater.

I wasn't trans, but I was a neurodivergent kid who didn't quite "fit in" and I can say that I often took my lunch to the school library rather than trying to find cafeteria seating with people I didn't know well. You might find comfort in books like I did, or spend time writing for yourself. (You might want to destroy some of your writings as I did in order to avoid the repercussions of snooping parents, but even the act can be so, so therapeutic and self-affirming.) Outside of school, if you can manage to peruse/buy queer books and sneak them into school, you might have some good solidarity reads to get you through that environment. You could even just memorize your most affirming quotes and write them/draw art/print out pics of fave trans icons and decorate the insides of your binders and notebooks with them. Just find what affirms you and do it as much as you possibly can.

I think that finding trans-affirming activity you can do, even under the radar, will be key in maintaining both your mental health and your bodily self-esteem. That's one of the reasons I recommended taking your lunch to the library or to find another space that feels safe. It might be easier to eat, and to perform the mental self-care necessary for semi-healthy eating patterns, if you are in a safe space, even if that safe space has to be self-created. You could try internally repeating the following affirmations at school, especially before and during eating:

"The clothes I am wearing are a man's clothes, because I am a man and I'm wearing them."

"Toxic peoples' perception of me does not determine who I am. I know who I am and I know my worth."

"I will not be here forever. There have been so many queer icons who've been where I am and blossomed after. There is life after high school."

"It's not right that this time has been taken from me, but there will be better times in the future and I deserve them."

"Feeling bad doesn't mean I don't deserve to eat. Actualizing my negative body feelings will only make them worse. I deserve to feel good in my body."

"I can invest in my future. I will invest in my future."

This may be the subject of another post, but what is your relationship to religion? You may be just needing to get out entirely, which is valid, but you should also know that there are queer-affirming pastors and churches out there. If you are stuck in an environment where prayer and religious study is enforced and required, I might be able to recommend some sources that could give you covertly affirming prayers to focus on during that time. However, if you just need out of religion entirely, which some religion-traumatized people do, the above affirmations are religion-neutral and you could try to focus on those during prayer times.

It may feel affirming to focus on your future, OP. One of these days you will be out of school and will have control over yourself and financial freedom too. It might be worth looking into starting points in your area. Investing in your future may help you feel like there is something to keep fighting for, and like investing in your wellness has worth. It is self-affirming to invest in your future because you are sending the message to yourself that you are worthy of having a good future and that you are strong enough to fight for it.

Please feel free to follow up and be in touch for more support. I care about your well-being and I'm sure there are others out there who've been through things like this and can offer support. And while I'm not trans myself, I have other followers who are, and to other followers - I would love to get your input on things that can help this guy! Perhaps you can just be in touch with him and offer companionship and solidarity.

[perpetually-sad-but-its-fine]

chicago pd 10x10

TRIGGER WARNING: RAPE/SEXUAL ASSULT. ITS NOT AT ALL MENTIONED IN THIS REVIEW BUT IS VERY MUCH PRESENT IN THE EPISODE. PLEASE PROCEED CAREFULLY

alright

this is a nice start

poor torres looks so lost

what in the actual hell is this story tho

adam checking up on torres is peak big brother behavior

‘how’re you getting home, man? i drove you’

‘uh, there's a thing called uber’

we love torres for that

adam and dante are now besties

im sorry

but i don't make the rules

adam coaching torres is great

i love it

adam further proving that bob ruzek was a shit father is great

we love bob ruzek slander here

oh yay

a call

can't wait to see how this goes

i don't have a good feeling about this

at all

im scared

irrelevant but adam and dante make a good team

watch it be only for this episode and it never happens again

oh shit

what's happening

oh no

ohhhhh noooooo

these poor people

aw dante being so considerate

he’s so kind

i love him

oh this poor poor woman

its not even five minutes in

and im crying

DANTES SO SWEET

SOO SWEETTTT

why can't we ever have a break

oh hailey looks GOOD

god i hate this so much

kim looks *mwah*

KEVINS STYLE

jesus christ im just thirsting over all of them

adam and danteeeee

danteee and kevinnnnn

i don't like this guy

this detective is a dick

i do not like him at all

like

youre worried about solving enough cases to keep your record up

instead of the victims

I DONT LIKE HIM

dante

im in love with you

I DO NOT LIKE THIS DETECTIVE

i wanna stab him

this is fun

i never understand how they can read the license plates from so far away

only thing I can see his blurred blobs

how do they do it

OH MY GOD DANTE SAVED ADAMS LIFE

holy fucking shit

oh no

this keeps getting worse and worse

i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it

no no no no no no no no

come on

oh

guess detective dick is atucally useful

holy fucking shit

nope

still a dick

oh no

detective dickwad

i hate you

with everything I got

like

jump off a fucking cliff

poor dante

guys still a newbie

and dealing with all this bs

dante works so well with all of them

i love it

detective dick is back

i wanna kill you

i also don't believe you

youre dick face

hes getting rid of dante cuz he did something

i know it

oh i wanna see how this goes

dante hurry it up

come on

i don't want detective dick to come back

i don't believe his statement

at all

detective dick threatened him

i know it

dante would be a great detective

i want him to be one

FUCKING DETECTIVE DICK

ILL KILL YOU

I WANT TO CARVE HIS EYES OUT

ILL DO IT

dante looks like hes about punch him

i don't blame him

also

i love the way Kev says ‘chicago pd’ before slamming the door

YES

MY BABY

DANTE YOURE SO GOOD

YOURE FUCKING PERFECT

AND DETECTIVE DICK

DONT EVEN LOOK AT MY BABY

shut the fuck up asshole

nobody likes you

trudyyyy

YES 

TRUDY AND DANTEEE

I LOVE TO SEE ITTTT

god

i love how everyones looking out for torres

hes the baby of the unit

and everyones taking care of him

you don't understand

I LOVE IT

this interrogation is interesting

im curious to see where it goes

kev looking at torres

hes concerned for his baby brother

GET OUT OF THE WAY DETECTIVE DICK

HE WOULD HAVE ANSWERED

YOU FUCKIN IDIOT

WHATS WRONG WITH YOU

COME ON

kevvv

my sweet baby

please

i love you so much

take care of torres

shut the fuck up man

this is your fault

torres

what're you going to do

adam and torres

again

i love my babies

what did he find

oop

what's gonna happen

please adam

support him

plEASE

LISTEN TO HIMM

oh no

come on

chicago pd writers

the fuck are you doing

please don't destroy their potential friendship 

i need this more than you understand

where's this going

thank you adam

YES

‘before WE doing anything at all’

I LOVE THEIR PARTNERSHIP

poor larry

dudes just trying to do his job

and then ruzek comes along

i wanna know what happenssss

adam

just play the goddamn video

lets seeeeee

fucking detective dick

i hope you rot in hell

ooooo

the witnessss

we’re backkkkk

oh this poor guy

FUCKS SAKE

I KNEW IT

detective dick

i will MURDER you

i feel so bad for alex

this guy didn't ask for any of this

AGHHHHHH

I DONT LIKE THIS

I WANT TO K I L L HIM

oh how's this gonna go

god i don't like either of these options

IM GONNA CRY

adam and dante heart to heart

we love to see it

how're they gonna explain this to voight

real smart ruzek

voight humouring them is great

he knows what's happening

and he doesn't want to question it

we love it

oh mY GOD

THIS IS REALLY

oH MY GOD

whAT

i lowkey want voight to find out about what's happening

he’ll somehow make this better and worse

we’ll see

EVERYTIME I SEE HAILEY I DROOL AND THEN I CRY FOR HER

oh no

NOOOOOO

COME ONNNN

ITS HAPPENING AGAIN

THAT POOR WOMAN

hailey looks great

detective dick is gonna do something stupid, isn't he?

he will

i can feel it

i'll slap him

TORRES

SAVE THE DAY

PLEASE

if detective dick ruins this, ill riot

i will

NO

I CANT HANDLE THIS

PLEASE

I WANT THIS TO BE OVER

dick

don't ruin this

torres wait

he might have a better idea

comE ON

TORRES

oh this actually worked

maybe i don't hate you as much anymore dick

maybe you aren't terrible

i change my min

you are extremely terrible

OOP

FIGHT

FIGHT

FIGHTTTT

TORRES

BEAT HIS ASS

YOU COME NEAR MY BABY

I WILL MAKE YOU BEG AND SCREAM FOR MERCY

voight

do something

bro

torres

youre awakening something in me

thaT VOICe

AGH

OH MY GOD

PLEASE

‘this is why i became a cop’

sir please

im not strong enough

voight looks so proud

ruzek and torres

again

in a bar

oh no

poor dante

im so sorry

ugh

i hate detective dick

with every fiber of my being

oh no

‘i just became apart of the blue wall’

oh poor poor dante

adam doing his best

hes so nic

trying to advise dante 

god I miss season one Adam

he was so innocent and carefree

and now look at him

trying to convince the newbie that everything's okay

god

im not strong enough for the next episode

im really not

[noeggets]

Scourge? Thoughts on his character or how would you interpret him in your canon?

okay well in my canon which i call our canon (me and @ssxdz2 i tag her because its more of her scourge i just use him every headcanon comes from how she interprets him in our world)

Scourge is not Sonic im not gonna go into Sonics family in Scourge i will if anyone ask about Aleena but sense this is Scourge i will go into everything that matters on his part

Scourge is the first child of Aleena and Dash (Dash is like a country boy who she met when they were children playing with Bernie she met Dash and his best friend Mighty's dad who i dont remember his name right now) there is a story there about Mighty's dad but i wont go into it cause this isn't about Mighty or his family

Aleena has super speed Dash has super speed so Scourge is gonna be a product of that

i don't remember why she had to leave him with Dash cause she took Sonia Manic and Sonic with her (and lost her children cause this ain't sonic underground Chuck took Sonic with him back to knothole / island place and she took care of Manic and Sonia until she had to leave to go to the hedgehog - echidna war and help out AGAIN im not getting way into this because this isn't about her but thats some backstory)

she did have to leave him with her husband anyway Dash didn't really know how to take care of him he took care of him wrong causing him to hate him more so he gave his son to a temporary new family planing on going back to get him but forgot about him

the new family wasn't a good family and i don't think they really cared about him so he hates his dad and his new family

Scourge grew up in station square where he met up with Manic and Sonia sometime in his life he knows Manic and Sonia are his siblings cause he saw them as babies he doesn't really care or talk to them much at this point in his life but does ask for help from them when he really needs it (Sonia gets dragged into the whole BuT wE'rE fAmiLy act everytime)

//Trigger warning Drug Abuse//

Scourge and Manic are drug buddies Manic makes money by being a dealer Scourge will again use the family status to sway him to give him some but if it doesn't work he will threaten him if Manic is feeling brave enough to refuse

//End//

Sonia believes him to be a good for nothing not bothering to check in on him because hes probably always up to nothing good she tells Manic to stop interacting with him cause his bad will rub off on him

Scourge and Rouge are really close friends like almost definition best friends she lets him hide in her house (her secret house before she was part of G.U.N) when hes on the run they enjoy almost the same things theft included i think they almost were together but Rouge was like nahh thats my bestie

The only reason they met is because they both lived in station square i don't know how they met but they met and that duo is one of my favorite things about him

they are still friends Rouge is just a little busier nowadays but she visits him sometimes they still a duo she talks to him about her love life hes that kind of friend

Scourge and Sonic's first meeting was like a puppy meeting a dog for the first time Sonic didnt even know he had family outside of Uncle Chuck Sonic was eager to meet him and get to know him when they moved to station square from the island sonic soon found out Scourge is hard to deal with and makes really non-heroic life choices but they continue to be on good terms enough to chill together always Sonic really cares about him Scourge really cares about Sonic he nicknames him Blue but calls him that and only that all the time

Scourge hates his dad he wont even call him his dad or dad at all it is his life wish for his parents to separate he really loves his real mother and aunt tho

(Aleena and Aunt Bernadette who he affectionately refers to as Ma and Auntie ) Bernie spoils him and gives him his favorite food her home made lemon squares he ate so many he got fat once

Scourge is a player we know this everybody knows this but he kinda really likes Bunnie i think he keeps trying to sway her every chance he gets

Scourge also was with Fiona when he lived in station square she left the island Sonic and Tails lived on in the orphanage when i think Eggman took her but she escaped him and became friends with him never saying a thing about her past to him fearing he wont understand yet felt okay enough to form a relationship with him that was not the best for her mental health due to him cheating all the time

(IDW era) Scourge currently lives with Fiona and her new boyfriend (Lightning Lynx) alongside the Destructix he lives a calmer more relaxed life now his team who hes not the leader of anymore (Fiona is) he does a little good now and then but is ultimately still a trouble maker

He made friends with Mighty who introduced him to Ray he is a bad influence on Mighty but Mighty seems to not change from it at all

Scourge is the first child i said before i don't think he ever uses his status against his siblings

Scourge 18 | Sonia 16 | Sonic 15 | Manic 14 Sonic DX Era

Scourge 22 | Sonia 20 | Sonic 19 | Manic 18 start of forces

everybody kinda lost their minds in forces so i cant talk further on that until our written what happened in forces document is recovered so i can tell you what he did

Over all her Scourge is a funny little dude who makes wise cracks and i like her ver of Scourge who is like the guy who makes fun of everyone in the room