#don't worry this is the only post I'm going to do

[dewwshi]

i liked the sparring scene from the start of siege of darkness a normal amount

[dolche-tejada]

"I don't care about the rest of your lack of comprehension in the medium but don't disrespect DEKU!"

What lack of comprehension ( I spent my time debunking the pile of crap you're writing in my mentions, you haven't wrote a single relevant argument so far.

As for Deku, I don't see why I should respect this fictional character. He's plain as hell, people constantly glaze him for his amazing traits when his showings struggle to keep up, he has no interesting flaws to nuance him as a character and is just a mouthpiece for the shitty themes of this manga, his character arc mostly consists in him learning to use his powers (how fascinating really...) and he utterly failed his main goal at the end out of sheer incompetence.

"wtf!! be mad cus your favourite villain died!!! but don't you dare accuse Deku of being lazy!"

Why ? Because you don't have any solid counter-argument to refute the fact that he stayed on his ass for 8 years without training to keep being a hero ? And that he needed Bakugo to offer him an easy solution on a plate to do something ?

Or is it because you're salty that Deku is indeed so incompetent at being a hero that he didn't even bother thinking about a plan to save Tomura when it was his main goal, and this despite having weeks ahead to think about it ?

Either way, cope harder pal.

"Lazy my foot bro. Bye bro. You spitting nothing actually."

First time someone trash one of your favs ? Don't worry it will be okay, just take a seat and some deep breaths.

"All the long paragraphs just took proof you lack of respect to the author"

Indeed I don't respect Horikoshi as a writer... And so ?

"and the rest of it just to prove you're just a person who spewing nothing."

He said after failing to prove me wrong even once.

"After losing One For All in the My Hero Academia storyline, Deku faces significant challenges."

Source : Trust me bro

"His journey without his quirk is explored in the series, particularly highlighting his determination and ingenuity in adapting to his new circumstances."

What "new circumstances" are you even babbling about, he literally came back to what he was at the start of the story and even said it isn't anything new for him to be quirkless again.

"They demonstrate that strategy, training, and personal growth are crucial. However, Deku's case is unique because his identity and journey have been so closely tied to One For All"

And in practice, how does being a former OFA user could stop Deku to work out to become a fighter like Shinso, Knuckleduster or Nighteye ? Go ahead, I'm curious.

"which fundamentally shifts his path when he loses it."

Lmao seriously ? That's the best you came up with to hide the fact that Deku never even tried to work out to still be a hero ?

Cause without the bs, you're basically saying : B-B-But it must have been really hard for him to lose a power he only had for not even 1/6 of his life, that's why he couldn't learn martial arts for some reason :'(

What a solid argument, I can't argue with that indeed.

"None of them loses quirk and they're birth with the quirk."

And so ? Besides you know that Knuckleduster also used to have a quirk before AFO stole it from him ? Well guess what : It didn't stop him from learning how to fight and being a quirkless vigilante so nope, you're just looking for excuses.

"Deku also train as crazy as them."

To learn how to use his quirks, not to compensate being a regular human like Stein or Nighteye does.

"Wtf bro, use your brain."

Funny you talk about brain, I was precisely about to ask you if you're having a stroke right now ? Because I can't decently believe anyone could write so much shit in a row without suffering from brain damage.

"Deku's struggle post-losing his quirk can be interpreted more as a narrative choice by the author"

Even if it was the case, that doesn't make Deku any less of a lazy ass bum. He lost OFA during the ellipse and immediately gave up on being a hero, until Bakugo came up with a solution Deku wouldn't have waited for if he was nearly as resilient and well-written as you think he is.

"Kohei Horikoshi, to explore themes of identity, resilience, and the essence of what makes a hero"

No argument here either, just random bs to hide the fact that you don't know how to refute my point.

"It's true that Deku relies on technology, but this can also be viewed as a form of adaptation and teamwork, core values in the manga. Didn't Tony Stark relied on his tech as well? What makes a hero? A quirk. No. A sense to help another person, to protect."

Lmao don't even try. Tony doesn't just sit on his ass and stop being a hero when he doesn't have his armor around him, whether in the comics or the movies (Iron-Man 3 is literally about that). It's even one of his most famous quotes in the MCU : "If you're nothing without this suit, then you shouldn't have it"

Well Deku at the end is nothing without his suit/OFA. It's not an opinion, it's not arguable. It's factual. He doesn't just rely on technology, he's entirely dependent of it. Without his suit, he just stand there without doing anything for years while looking passively at his friends living his dream.

"The eight-year time skip where Deku waits for technology to compensate for his lack of a quirk might be critiqued as a plot device to advance other stories or to give Deku a new form of heroism."

Except he does exactly the same thing as before but with an high-tech suit. If Deku really intended to seek for a new form of heroism, he would have declined the suit so no, "he seeks a new form of heroism" my ass.

"It's not necessarily about laziness but about finding a new way to be a hero when the conventional methods are no longer available to him."

Which is outright false as evidenced in my precedent point, just above.

"This development allows for exploration of his character beyond his physical abilities."

Is this development with us in the room ?

"Deku's growth in different aspects, like leadership"

He never showed at any point leadership skills, only teamwork at best but m'kay.

"strategy, and inspiration, rather than just physical prowess."

Inspiration isn't a hero skill. As for strategy, he didn't have any growth in this aspect either since again, he totally gave up being a hero for 8 years straight.

"In summary, while your addled and rude aspect of critique might view Deku's reliance on external help as a sign of laziness, it can also be seen as part of his character development arc"

On one side actual facts, on the other side your headcanons. Damn, I wonder which one carries more weight ?

"showcasing his adaptability, the importance of teamwork, and the broader message that heroism transcends physical power."

Watch out, you still have some bit left at the corner of your mouth.

"The series uses this plot to explore different facets of heroism, which is a central theme in mha."

The story didn't explore crap. Again at the moment Deku lost his quirk, he just stop doing shit for almost a decade despite having options to still be a hero. All the meatriding and headcanons in the world won't change the fact that Deku is fucking lazy and didn't grow up since Chapter 1 where here again, he never even tried to work out to compensate being quirkless and improve his chances to be admitted at UA.

"I'm done with MHA fans that only read and crop panel for their benefits and play the narrative to fit their imagination."

"Don't you never actually comprehend the material in your hands?"

Try at least to score one relevant argument before saying remarks like that, it's hard to take you seriously otherwise.

Well that was shit. Now sorry but if your next reply is as idiotic and dishonest as the previous ones, I will likely just block you. Given how low you set the bar, I won't waste more time and energy refuting your delusions.

You know, I think this ending would have been slightly less of a fucking disappointment if the heroes hadn't been so unfairly favored by Horikoshi compared to the villains. I mean, seriously

Deku destroys every bone in his body multiple times throughout the story and is warned that if he continues, he'll permanently lose the use of his limbs ? Everything's fine, his body's just got used to being reduced to a bloody pulp somehow so there's no consequences for him. In fact even when he literally loses his arms to Shigaraki, he gets them back two minutes later thanks to Eri because guess what ? Her horn still works even when cut off from her body. How convenient.

Gran Torino gets his ribcage obliterated by Shigaraki ? Don't worry guys, he'll survive that despite his old age and injuries, and this to have no particular role in the plot afterwards.

Bakugo dies heroically trying to buy time before Deku arrives ? Lmao, did you really believe it ?? No of course not, Edgeshot just uses his last-minute Deus Ex Machina to save his life at the cost of his own and- Oops nope he's fine too, my bad !

Hawks murders a criminal fleeing for his life in cold-blood ? The best Hori has to offer is him completely free and in charge of the HSPC.

And no, losing his quirk isn't a real consequence for him because not only it literally played a major part in saving the world with Vestige!Hawks raising an insurrection among AFO's quirks, but also because his quirk has always been the element through which people exploited him.

Endeavor abused his family for years and completely destroyed his eldest son ? No jail time and no media backlash for that, the only blame he received was due to the heroes' failure to stop the League during the Raid Arc.

And don't even get me started on this bs about facing hell or whatever for what he's done : He's literally free and wealthy ; he has Rei, Fuyumi, Shoto, his sidekicks and Hawks on his side ; and all the difficulties he's apparently going to suffer are off-screened.

Deku had to sacrifice OFA and his future hero career to save the world ? Guess what, Bakugo invested all his time and money to make him an Iron-Man suit and now he can still be a hero with everyone else.

There are plenty more examples of this but I think you get the idea. Now let's take a look at the villains' ending :

Toya is now a piece of charcoal kept artificially alive for the few years he has left, unable to move a finger, and whose few minutes a day during which he can stay awake will be spent talking to his father who abused him as a child.

Toga, a literal teenager, killed herself to save Ochako and because she knew it's still better than rotting at Tartarus her whole life.

And not only did she die but she did by bleding to death. Let me repeat for those who have trouble grasping what I've just said : In a manga where the heroes can survive having their heart blown to bits, being impaled Kakyoin-style or smashed against buildings like a fly on a windshield, one of the main antagonists died of a fucking hemorrhage…

As for Shigaraki, after learning that his very birth and all the tragedies of his life have been orchestrated by AFO, after all this development and narrative promises about him being saved in the end... Deku just kills him.

Because despite all his speeches about saving him, it seems like the best our MC could do was beating him both physically and mentally until he crumbles to dust…

Compress on his side is apparently locked up for life and kept alive by machines too.

A begging Kurogiri tried in a desperate attempt to save Shigaraki, only to be unceremoniously blown up by Bakugo and dying off-screen without anyone giving a shit, including Aizawa and Mic.

And Spinner will now spend the rest of his life struggling with the extra quirks inside him that affect his body and mind, while having to cope with the thought that his boyfriend best friend and companions have either died alone or are locked away for life in horrifying circumstances.

Clearly not the same as with the heroes...

Now don't get me wrong, even if they suffered just as much from the consequences of their actions or the plot as the League, this ending would still be a disaster in terms of writing but AT LEAST it wouldn't reek that much of hypocrisy.

[thebearme]

…petey headcanons? *holds plate out like a starving Victorian child*

Don't worry victorian child, you will be fed.

Petey is ace, particularly greysexual.

Petey has that scary cute cat yawn where they just unhinge their jaw then belp :P

He has shrimp posture sitting and standing, his back is wack.

Not so fun fact, his back is messed up because of his tail being chopped. The tail is connected to the spinal cord after all.

He was a BIG gifted child when he was little, he always wanted praise for his accomplishments. Which made alot of the kids around him hate him, and lead to the whole critter scouts thing.

And after awhile he became the exact opposite, he acted up in school for justified reasons but because his teachers wouldn't care to understand and just punished him. They saw him as a trouble child and the kids thought he was a bad kid, so with the change in perspective Petey started to believe it.

Luckily he had Big Jim growing up, he may have been mean to him at the time but nowadays Petey truly appreciates him and wants to apologize for behavior towards him.

Petey HATES getting sick for many reasons but the main one is that it makes him feel weak. So if Dogman or Lil Petey got sick he'll probably be in a hazmat suit before giving them a box of tissues.

Petey believe it or not, has a fixation on robots. AND I MEAN ALL ROBOTS, he would watch robot movies, have robot pjs, robot posters, robots toys on his shelf, robots anything and everything. I was able to show abit of it in my human Petey design with two of his tattoos (one of them being the robot from the day the earth stood still) and him in a transformer shirt. Why else would he make the most mundane things into robots? Cuz they're COOL!

Speaking of which, Petey fucking cried when he heard Opportunity's last words.

Petey gave up on getting an outside job and went freelance, It's not like the job market was that great anyway.

I imagine Petey, to the surprise to everyone but Dogman, is pretty strong. He may look twiggy, but he is an engineer! You NEED upper body strength to do work. Heres a post I made about it

Petey has a depression shaped pit in is bed. He didn't buy that pit, it's something he earned with hard work and so can you. Lil Petey likes loafing in it.

Petey can easily keep working in his workshop for the whole day without eating or using the bathroom if you don't make him take a break. When he's in the zone he forgets he got a body that has needs and can drop dead if he doesn't fulfill those needs.

Petey knew how to cook from his mom but didn't really start cooking till he got Lil Petey. He just ate takeout EVERYDAY cause he was too busy and depressed to cook, and his butler didn't give af to cook for him if he's just gonna to complain. But of course after getting Lil Petey he wasn't going to fed him takeout! So it went from frozen chicken nuggets and apple sauce to homemade pork stirfry and curry rice.

That care in cooking for others also goes to Dogman as well, neither of them had healthy eating habits so they made a deal to help each other in their journey. Dogman would eventually get told by the doctor that he needs to cut the dogfood cause his human body can digest all of that, so Petey is now cook pack lunches for him as well. And personally meals that taste good for his dog tongue, and Dogman gives him the biggest kisses for that.

I'm currently working on a comic for this next one but Petey feels like has no friends. He never just hanged out with any of the gang just to hangout by themselves. He feels like everyone is close friends with each other but not him, they all hang out around him because they're friends with Dogman. And the only reason they knows so much about him is because he trauma dumps on them. But he'll later learn that they do care about him outside of being close to Dogman and they'll hangout and get to know each other more.

Petey has sensitive beans, particularly to the cold. He's gonna be wearing socks and mittens if there's no heating which is funny cause cats usually hate them.

Petey is actually fluffy but just licks his fur down.

He's tail always is bent and not in a normal way but if you crushed paper and tried to lay it back, it still is bent and slowly goes back to that bent form. The only way to make Petey's tail go completely straight is if you surprise him or made him relax to the ninth degree.

Petey still has cat behavior just like how Dogman has dog behavior but unlike him, Petey controls his behavior. He basically masks everyday because of a whole social class stuff I can't explain rn. Cuz he wants to be taken seriously and not just seen as some house pet.

He once made a throne out of boxes and sat in it till Lil Petey or Dogman came back home. No reason for it, he just wanted to feel like a king.

Petey loves midday naps but the sun cuz he's a cat and old. It's true that you'll need more midday naps when you're older.

If I had to give a inuniverse reason for how he understands sign language it's because Petey learned from his mom. When Petey was younger and had a moment where he mad and overwhelmed he would have a hard time explaining his thoughts. Grace taught him sign language so he can explain his thoughts even if all he can verbally do is scream.

When Grace died, Petey was put into adoption and stayed there for a while because of his age and his behavioral problems. But he eventually got adopted by Dr Dilbert Dinkles, he was perfect for his needs, not a child so he won't cry, a cat can take care of themselves and behaving poorly is exactly what villains in training need to be bad. So Petey got adopted by the worst person possible and we know how the rest of the story goes.

Despite that fact that Dilbert is a doctor, Petey had the upper hand on him. He has street smarts, and when you know to build robots and know to use the robots to their full evil potential then you become a true villain to fear.

Petey and Flippy could very well be friends but Petey is literally just holding a grudge against him for some reason? Seriously idk why they're not friends, I think Flippy wants to be friends with him too but it just Petey that's in the way of that in canon. Like- please stop being an ahole for a second and just talk!

Petey also try his hand at gardening... Dogman keeps rolling on his flowers.

And that pretty much all the headcanons I can think of, I still do have my visual hc but yall always know it

heres a lil collage I made from my petey moodboard

And you already know the playlist

[cloversnstrawberries]

older brother!platonic yandere!80s slasher & gn!reader w/ dyed hair [headcanons] ! !

intro post | masterlist

additional notes; i'm actually re-dying my hair as i write this, so i think that proves that i'm totally not biased and absolutely not writing this because i yearn for an older brother who'd be willing to do my roots for me so i don't look like i have a big bald spot on the back of my head. because i have blonde hair and it's a very stark contrast to the bright pink. ough. not very yandere in this, but i needed this as a balm to my soul.

warnings; mentions of murder, violence, and killings; zachary's inherent clinginess, slight possessiveness, soft(er) yandere, overprotective behavior, and if there's any more I missed, please let me know!! this is pretty fluffy, actually.

w/c; 1.4k

The first (and only time) you dyed your hair without his help, it was an utter mess. I'm talking hands stained with the dye, if you bleached your hair then the towel was wrecked.

If you lived in a rented property rather than a house owned by your parents; well, lets just say you would've kissed your sweet, sweet deposit goodbye, what the mess you made in your wake.

Whether you bleached it or had hair light enough to just slap the dye on top, did natural or unnatural colors, the result was still the same regardless.

The bathroom was a mess, and he came home from football practice to find you with a plastic Kroger bag over your head; on your hands and knees, trying to scrub the leftover dye from the linoleum tile floor of your shared bathroom. You were in distress over it, if not in tears. Afraid you'd ruined the counter/floor.

You didn't go in blind, per se-- but you only had tips given to you by the few alternative kids, and from the sweet gas station cashier who dyes her hair to cover the fact its graying-- to go off of.

There was both a fear of having decimated your bathroom permanently, and a nagging feeling that you might've goofed up the actual process; damaging your hair indefinitely.

Whether it was the work of a miracle, or just plain old luck-- you didn't damage your hair too much, if it all. You'd missed a couple spots, namely on the back of your head, but other than that you did a pretty damn good job.

The bathroom, however...

When Zachary came home, he immediately started looking for you. Usually you were on the couch, watching TV-- or in the dining room, doing homework. You weren't in either of those spots, and you weren't in your bedroom either.

He knew it was stupid to worry about this-- But the reason behind his anxiety at not finding you immediately wasn't because "oh, what if something happened to them? what if they messed with the wrong kids and got jumped, or they went missing?" (both were unlikely in a town like yours, but not entirely impossible).

No, he was afraid that you'd committed the grave sin of hanging out with someone other than him-- and without his knowledge, to boot. Zachary didn't think you were the type to 'go behind his back' like this, but the fear was still there.

So you can probably imagine the absolute relief he felt when he found you in the bathroom-- but his sigh soon turned to wheezing laughs when he got a look of your sorry state.'

He's still your brother, after all. Siblings were basically made to laugh at each other in situations like these.

Normally, you wouldn't take it too harshly-- but this time around, you couldn't quite handle it. The fear of messing up your hair due to your inexperience, and the idea that your bathroom would forever be stained with your semi-spur-of-the-moment decision...

Well, he was quick to change his tune when you looked about ready to cry-- or started crying harder, if you already were. He stopped laughing, and immediately crouched down beside you, offering some reassurance.

Before heading off to the storage closet out in the hall, grabbing some cleaning stuff and a rag-- you were just trying to use water, which wasn't doing nothing, but that was mostly in part with how hard you'd been scrubbing. The dye wasn't going anywhere with that method.

You two spent about 20 minutes cleaning the bathroom up. By then, the timer you were using to make sure you didn't overdo the dye-time (that you totally didn't nab from the kitchen, but thankfully it'd been one of the few items spared from the wrath of your messy dye job) had already gone off.

Zachary noticed how uneasy you looked, afraid you'd messed up your hair for good. Again, he reassured you, before saying he'd help with the rest of the process.

Your hands were already beyond saving-- but he had enough foresight to go get some latex gloves from the hall closet before coming back to help you.

Then, for the next ten or so minutes, you kneeled beside the bathtub, head bowed over directly under the faucet-- the water was freezing cold, the nice punk girl, Melanie, told you that helped keep the color longer-- so you were taking little breaks when your scalp started hurting from how cold it was.

Eventually, after you were pretty sure he'd gotten all of the extra dye out-- the gloves having gone from clear to almost opaque with your new hair color--, he helped you up and wrapped an old beach towel around your head.

You sat on the lid of the toilet as he took over the duty of cleaning the tub-- telling you to just chill out for a while. once he was done with that, he brought you into his room and you two played on his Atari while your hair dried.

After that whole incident, Zachary borderline threatened you to come to him next time you wanted to dye your hair or anything of the like. Mostly because he didn't like seeing how scared and upset you were when you thought you messed it up :(

Weirdly enough, he'd rather you be mad at him if he messed up-- then see you be mad with yourself for messing it up. Besides, you'd probably forgive him in less then a day.

...Mostly because he's the one who drives you places outside of town, and has the membership card for your local video rental store. You never got one of your own, because he just always let you use his.

Can't really do that if you're giving him the cold shoulder, yeah?

But other than that, he's pretty good with keeping up with it all. It must've been a bit of a funny sight for the old ladies at the local hair shoppes, seeing a boy like Zachary coming in and asking the staff for tips on dying hair. Products to use, what to avoid, how to keep it from transferring-- etc etc.

After the first time, you never spent your own money on the stuff. It was always Zachary who was buying it; you tried getting him to stop that, feeling bad about spending his money on something that was solely for your benefit--

He gave you a withering look that made you immediately shut up and drop the topic, never to pick it up again. In your mind, he was too selfless-- you didn't want to feel like you were using him or anything.

But actually, he was sort of doing it for his own benefit. It let him spend more time with you-- not like he didn't already do that, but it was another sort of bonding activity that could be added to the list of 'our things'. You've never tried to dye your hair alone after the first time, because you knew it'd upset him.

Once he claimed something as an 'our thing', then there was no way to pry it from his grasp-- it'd be cemented in his mind that it was only something you could do with him present or actively participating.

It was just one of those quirks you have to get used to. In this situation, you weren't complaining that much about it, actually. He was very helpful, and it was nice to just be able to sit and do whatever while he did most of the work.

Whether or not you keep with the same color, or change it every week-- he'll help you no matter what, and won't question it. You wanna keep your hair honey brown for 3 consecutive years? cool! you wanna dye your hair different bright, in your face colors every other week? also cool!

He's not one to rag on you about self-expression, however-- if you did choose an unnatural color, you're bound to get stared or gawked at because of it. You were expecting it, and so was Zachary.

That's why he made sure to sharpen his fire hatchet and hunting knife, obviously. There was an uptick in Fools Killer victims after you dyed your hair-- completely unbeknownst to you, Zachary was using your out-of-the-ordinary appearance and the subsequent stares to 'sort out the bad ones',

To find victims who otherwise would've 'hidden their negative intentions towards you'.

[arsquare]

Happy Valentine's Day!

This is my Heishin Exchange piece (event hosted by @heishinvalentineexchange2025) for oreganocactus on Ao3! The prompt I used was: "heishin yuri would be awesome…i love explorations of how gender would affect how characters behave/change so that would be cool :)"

Thoughts and process under the cut!

And also an NSFW sketch at the very bottom btw. as a treat for clicking on the readmore

So originally I had wanted to do a comic retelling the Murdered Diplomat Case Except They're Both Girls This Time AKA Heiji's debut case, but I got about 8 pages into the storyboards before I realized it would be impossible within the exchange's time frame. The Murdered Diplomat case is really really long, even if I cut everything about the case out LMAO... here's what I had if anyone is curious!

It was already sprawling by my standards here. We're on page 8 and Heiji has nary shown her face in the Mouri Detective Agency (also boy Kazuha is there? The part with the details of the case was supposed to be sort of timelapsed through a bunch of texts Kazuha sent Heiji because he was worried about where she was) So in my desperation I tried redoing it from page 7 to be more concise:

This was the point where I was officially like yeah this is not happening this is going to take one william pages at this rate and I just am not going to have the time to do that!! So I scrapped it and started working on the final product you see up there.

(BTW IT'S REAL!! about 80-90% of the comic actually exists in the real world!! I actually drew and inked it physically this time!)

I had really WANTED to retell the Murdered Diplomat Case because I would have been able to totally recontextualize Heiji and Shinichi's relationship, because I do think it would have been kind of different.

For one, I think Heiji's adoration of Shinichi would have had a more desperate quality to it. Between the two of them, Shinichi is definitely the more self-assured one of the two. With her laissez-faire parents who just does whatever they want, I'm sure they would have been fine with letting Shinichi pursue her detective dreams (though I'm sure Yukiko's even more sad about Shinichi not being a child actress </3 whatever though who cares about that), and so she's more confident that it's something she can be.

Heiji on the other hand comes from a more traditional family. I think her parents would highly disapprove of her detective pursuits, and as a result she becomes a more rebellious child-- but one who harbors a deep insecurity about whether she's doing the right thing or not, even if she knows she wants it.

When Shinichi vanishes off the radar, it's more than just a person that Heiji's developed an intense parasocial relationship with going off the grid, it's an entire nail in the coffin of the idea that being a female high school detective is something that's possible at all. That's why she's so desperate to find Shinichi-- she needs assurance that this hiatus that Shinichi is taking is not because society or the world put her into her place and made her quit doing this, but because of... something else. It has to be something else.

This I think would really bleed into how Heiji ends up treating Conan. In canon Heiji's super dismissive of Conan, initially only treating his as a nuisance on the crime scene before he figures out that he's Shinichi, despite the fact he no doubt was in those shoes a decade ago. But because of the continual pushback from her parents, the officers on the scene, and friends (cough boy kazuha), the struggle of being treated like she isn't supposed to be there on the crime scene is much fresher in her mind. She sees herself in Conan much more than he does in canon.

So I guess all I'm saying is that I think Heiji would have been nicer to Conan in my retelling LOLLL

As for what's going on in the comic I actually posted... well, you know, this wasn't my first choice precisely because I don't think it's necessarily gendered as much? Like, I can see this playing out if they were both still guys as well, maybe even more. After all, girls in general are more able to be physically affectionate with each other while suffering fewer consequences.

At the same time though I think Shinichi has an intense "not like other girls" thing going on. This whole thing is actually a subset of my genderbend universe where the whole teenage cast gets swapped and actually it was originally me just wanting girl Shinichi to comfort boy Ran (but badly because she's lowkey kinda autistic and not great at that...) as his parents got divorced LMAOOO. But anyways it would mean that Shinichi's closest friends are... Sonoko and Ran? Who are both guys...

So I think she would intentionally distance herself from that physical affection girls are able to have. She feels like if she indulges in that, then everyone else will take her less seriously and think "oh she's just a girl after all" and all the negative connotations of not being as capable or as smart as she actually is. In my head, she associates physical affection with being manhandled as a kid.

Another thing I kind of waffled on was... what should Heiji and Shinichi call each other? And maybe it's a bit of a weird choice for them to still refer to each other by last name but like. Hear me out.

I think to refer to each other by their last names is a token of respect, especially from Heiji to Shinichi. He keeps slipping up in canon and accidentally calling him Kudo, and while I do agree that part of it is him being careless and possibly inconsiderate to some degree, I also think... he really wants to call him Kudo? Like, this is someone he deeply respects. He wants to be professional equals to him more than he wants to be friends at the start, but never was able to actually GET that kind of relationship due to contrived circumstances of Shinichi getting shrunk. He can't call Conan "Edogawa", that's weird as fuck, so he has to wait until Conan's back to being Shinichi to even begin calling him "Kudo" for real. I think he'd really relish it, as a long-time-coming kind of thing, and I don't think it's any different as girls. In fact I'd argue it's even more intense because of that.

These two characters are both in such an intense hurry to grow up. Hell, Shinichi even dislikes it in canon when his mother calls him Shin-chan, and I think it's because he feels like this diminishes his self-perception as a "grown person". All the more since they're girls: I think this type of affectionate, diminutive name-calling would have been used against them to try to coax them away from crime scenes they wanted to be at. Like, "Oh, come on~ You're just a little girl, you shouldn't be here, Hei-chan~", something like that.

I think this is sort of an implicitly understood undercurrent that lies between them. If we have nobody else in the world who respects us we at least have each other. So when Heiji tries to push their relationship a bit, tries to become more than just friends, Shinichi sees this as a betrayal in some ways. Even if she rationally knows that Heiji isn't trying to belittle her, she can't help but conflate her recent experiences as a little girl again with how Heiji treats her now in the comic.

This whole thing could have been avoided if Heiji was more straightforward about her intentions btw but of course see above careless and possibly inconsiderate PLUS he's also kind of a tsundere character like everyone in detco when it comes to the person he likes so. inevitable... </3

Anyways thank you for reading all of this nonsense. Originally this comic was going to be longer and like, (this is a grossly incompetent summary,) they'd have a yuri makeout session in the Kudo Mansion Study. But we can't have good things in this world because there's not enough time so I only have this to show for :(((

I hope everyone likes it 👍️

[savage-sinister]

have yall ever checked the comment someone leaves on a bookmark of your work? Not a comment on your fic, but a bookmark where theyve left a note. i think its worth looking, ive seen people say really sweet (and humorous) things in the bookmarks without ever leaving a comment.

Hey pal. <3 First of all, thank you. I can tell you're trying to cheer me up because you think I might be upset about the response/lack of response to my fanfics, and I appreciate it. You're a swell, warm-hearted person and I appreciate you.

Before I answer your question, I'm going to clarify something.

I know it probably looks from all the posting I've been doing that I'm maybe upset that my fanfictions don't get enough kudos. That's not actually the case.

First of all, I only post fic on AO3 at all becasue it's a convenient way to archive the writing my partner and I do. We have about 2 million words of Danganronpa and other fandom fanfiction that pre-date us posting on AO3. We started posting because Skype ate an entire longfic on us.

Second of all, given that I post fic mostly for wildly unpopular pairings in niche fandoms, my fic actually gets a lot of kudos and comments! My audience is great, and I'm so grateful for all of them. I have some repeat commenters that I love to chat with, and I love seeing the same names in the kudos list for fanfics in the same series! (I have about 15k kudos on about 1.5 million words of fic).

This isn't about my kudos, or my satisfaction.

This is about how I started a positivity post to make people feel better about "kudos ratios" and in the process I accidentally found out that a lot of people don't actually even bother to kudos fic they like. They just read it, enjoy it, and move on without ever telling the author about it. And that sucks!

And I've gotten more and more passionate about it as more and more people tell me to "shut up because authors are not entitled to praise." Uh, no, obviously, but if something gave you joy you can take one literal second to click a button and let the author know that happened.

So I'm not upset on my own behalf, and you don't have to worry about cheering me up.

That said, anon. I'm really sorry to tell you this.

My AO3 fics have a total of 2,588 bookmarks as for right now.

Exactly six of those bookmarks have comments of any kind. One of them is really mean 😂😂😂😂

That said it was nice reading the nice comments that were there.

Thank you again anon and have a great day <3

[angstywaifu]

Black Dahlia - 35. Just Sex?

Summary: Fucking War Games.

Garrick Tavis x OC (Dahlia Aetos)

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I can’t help but glare up at the dais. Fucking War Games. Leadership had strolled down the halls at an ungodly hour this morning, ringing bells, banging on doors, and calling for us all to dress and head to formation. Which for those who got sleep was fine. Myself on the other hand… the multiple rounds Garrick and I had gone for had left both of us with very little sleep. And by very little. I got none.

I wanted to burn the memory of me trying to scurry off Garrick, hastily dressing in my dress uniform before I’d rushed out the door only to run into Xaden who was about to knock on the door, as well as Bodhi who had been following him like a lost puppy. Bodhi who was now staring a head with a shit eating grin on his face.

”What’s up with you two? You look like you want to murder someone and Bodhi looks like you’ve given him the best gift he’s ever gotten.” Austin comments as she looks between the two of us.

”Oh because she did.” He joyfully adds as he smiles down at me. I roll my eyes, ignoring his comment.

“It’s nothing. I just didn’t sleep well.” I say dismissively, Austin looking at me like she doesn’t believe me but slowly nods.

”I hardly think Garrick is nothing.” Bodhi teases from besides me, Austin’s eyes snapping to him. I on the other hand turn and narrow my eyes at him, catching a pair of familiar hazel eyes as I do so. “Remind me where I found you this morning?”

Austin grasps my shoulder excitedly. “Holy shit, did it happen?”

”Oh it definitely did.” Liz says happily as she pokes her head around Austin.

”For fucks sake, yes. Now keep your voices down.” I hiss at them as I turn my attention back to the front where leadership and wing leaders are talking.

”So are you two like together?” Bodhi whispers to me as he leans closer.

I shove him away jokingly. “It was just sex.”

Bodhi looks shocked at my words, looking between me and where I know Garrick stands. I don’t dare meet Garrick’s eyes though. I know if I do I’ll want to drag him away at figure out what the fuck we were now. And maybe go another round or two. Two weeks ago he’d essentially broken my heart even though I’d never given it to him. Then he’d come and defended me against my father like I meant something to him. And then I’d thrown caution to the wind and kissed him. Let him consume me, and give into the tension that had been there for the better part of the year. Though the few words we had spoken indicated this was more than just sex. But how much more I wasn’t sure. ”

I don’t think it was just sex, for either of you.” Bodhi states as he turns his attention back to me. “I might have only known you a year Dahlia, but I’ve never seen you like this. Go tell him.”

I look over and see Garrick looking directly at me. His hazel eyes piercing into mine, as if trying to read my thoughts, see what’s going on inside my head. I should hate him. Should want nothing to do with him after everything that had happened in the last year. But I didn’t. I wanted that handsome asshole more than anything. I wanted to leap into the unknown and see where the hell it took me. See what this could be, even if it meant getting hurt again.

”We have War Games to win first.” I tell Bodhi as I turn my head to look at him. “Let’s see if we survive that first before diving into my questionable love life.” A/N: And don't worry, I'm not that cruel to leave you hanging for a week. Post War Games coming tomorrow.

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[livltmntl]

Omg i wanna talk about this too 😩🙏🏻

As much as i hate to say It... Yes, he behaved like an asshole in the second movie. But i wouldn't say narcissist.

A part of me says that the decission he made was kinda out of fear? Like, becoming humans, going separate ways... Loosing his brothers...

Also, another thing to take into account is the fact that Leo is a dude who likes to have things under control and I think that's why he might be scared of change.

Just imagine: He's chilling, living with his brothers, taking down crime, his father finally gave them the liberty of leaving the lair, they have human friends and life seems good, he's confortable... And all of a sudden, BOOM. Purple ooze with the ability of turning them human and the posibility of loosing his brothers just becomes a reality.

Maybe i'm looking too much into It, but, i think part of his reasoning in his decission of not telling Raph and Mikey is the fact that they're both pretty impulsive. I mean-

The second Raph found out he went all out his way to get the ooze? Hello? He didn't even thought of the consequences or the risks of literally sneaking into the POLICE HEADQUARTERS. When he saw the foot take the vial with the ooze his thought wasn't "OMG WE GOTTA STOP THEM, THEY'RE GONNA CREATE MORE DANGEROUS MUTANTS" no, It was "That ooze is our only chance of being human, and it's headed towards the front door".

Although, yes, he stopped the Foot from taking the thing and they probably would've gotten away if Mikey and Raph werent there... But he also put his family at risk, he literally got them exposed.

And i totally think It was a dick move from Leo to not tell his brothers, don't get me wrong, but i also think that there was a reason behind It, and I think that might be It.

Leonardo is not a narcissist, he's a control freak and also has a huge HUGE problem when dealing with other peoples emotions. He hates when things don't go his way and gets frustrated when his brothers don't act the way that he expects them to, cause in his head he's the role model, the big brother, the leader, someone to look up to.

I think that his role as the leader puts a lot of weight onto his shoulders and so he thinks that if his brothers acted like him It'll be easier for him, hence what he said to Master Splinter "I don't know what to do *lists his brothers personalities* I can't get them all on the same page, to think with one mind".

This boy is also insecure as hell when It comes to his role. Every version of Leo is always super worried about doing things wrong, his biggest fear is failing as a leader. And I think somehow he knows he struggles when dealing with feelings and all that, this man was on the verge of TEARS when Donnie told him " You maybe know a lot of strategy but you know nothing about feelings!" On the plane scene when back to New York.

Anyway... Long ass post about the subject, i'm just genuinely OBSSESED with the bayverse turts and I never get to yap about them cause non of my friends watch Tmnt 😔

IF THERE'S SPELLING ERRORS I'M SO SORRY ABOUT IT ENGLISH IS NOT MY FIRST LANGUAGE ✋🏻😭

AND I'M SORRY IF IM DOING THIS WRONG I'VE LITERALLY NEVER POSTED ON TUMBLR BEFORE 😭😭😭

So I've been thinking about the bayverse turtles lately and how everyone calls Leo a narcissist, and its got me thinking. What if they actually lend into it more. Like have a Leo that genuinely struggle to put the feelings of others into account when it comes to his decisions. Like I want a slight psychopath/sociopath Leo who cares but isn't emotionally available.

On that note I don't think that bayverse! Leo is a narcissist in the second movie. An asshole yes, but a full on narcissist no. I just think that spending 15/16 years alone with minimal outside contact would definitely have more negative affects than shown.

[cozymochi]

Ngl, I kind of want to write an x reader fic with one of your ocs, but I don't want to make you uncomfortable, are you ok with having x reader fics written about your ocs? It's all in fun obv, but I want to have your permission. I'm not an artist unfortunately, but I really want to make a sort of fanart for you and your ocs because you're really amazing and I look forward to your posts, especially about your ocs when you do whether without pics or with🫶. (I ask even if there's not even a guarantee I can finish it lol) Sorry for the yap lmao

about that— a friend of mine jumpscared me with writing one herself.

Me being me, I would find it VERy ENTERTAINING to see that. You know you’ve made it when the homies get the canon character treatment of getting one of those (/lighthearted)

I just encounter two issues!

1. I’m not sure who you are 🫵 ur hiding!! (mild joke dw)

2. And this is just a broader thing but actually important. I do not feel like I’ve sufficiently portrayed the characters “narrative voices” exactly in a way that would be usable for writers outside of my usual bubble.

That’s just a personal worry I have. For all I know I did paint a clear usable picture.

I’m not too ornery about characterization so long as the vibes are right. I’m willing to provide more specific insight if needed, because admittedly I only really share in-universe information about them if it’s situationally relevant or prompted. (Besides, I never made any hub with every piece of info and still have no plans to)

Otherwise I kinda leave things open enough on purpose.

Anywho, THAT SAID If I saw another one I would go straight into orbit (positive) cuz IT’D SHAKE THINGS UP A WHOLE LOT and leave a really long tag comment

But I guess for u, I’ll give it a “IF YOU DO IT, SHOW ME” thumbs up because I’d really want to see it.

and so would probably other people but u didnt hear that from me

[beneathsilverstars]

okay the loop pronoun thing its like its like the splinter in my mind that sticks out just enough to get caught on stuff and irriatate the stuff further in.

because they start off with the royal we before going oh wait thats a personal thing not how other people refer to you. so that with the masking literally everything i am genuinely completely undecided on if the pronouns are like they actually just dont associate any with themselves anymore, their lying and covering it up so siffrin wont suspect anything or if its like they just need some time to be around people again and then itll be like ohhhhhh thats why i like these right.

and from there it goes into we literally have no idea how they act around people. okay they were siffrin but now have been so completely transformed by the looping that they are different enough to qualify as someone else.

they get called shy by the party but is that because they realize talking to them will have permanet consequences? is it because they remind them of who theyve lost? is it because they just havent talked to anyone aside from siffrin?

if they got comfortable around others would they be sassy like they are around siffrin?

loops everything is so wrapped up in the timeloops that its like there is almost nothing that can be said for sure about how they would act outside them at this point its like yeah they were siffrin but theyve forgotten all that and are different at least somewhat from everything.

the looping time really has utterly crushed them and then remolded them into something new and it is shown so so well through what is and isnt there about them and its so irritating they are literally a puzzle begging to be solved and the pieces are all blackened from fire and some are a bit out of shape and its like this used to be a solvable puzzle but at this point who knows!

yesss i do think the they/them was just the quickest default that they at least knew they didn't hate, and they're no longer Siffrin Enough to share siffrin's preference for he/him or they/them, though they may now (or one day) have their own preference for they/them. sometimes i give loop more pronouns later because there's no way they won't change a lot post-loops! (or in aus where they've otherwise had more time to think about it and try things out.) i'm fond of she/they/it loop but i may be biased lol

WE JUST KNOW SO LITTLE ABOUT THEM!!!

we know they were siffrin, a long long time ago.

we know how they act with siffrin, who doesn't yet know who they are, during the timeloops -- which are all three very big and specific criteria.

and then we know how they acted in acts 5 and 6, which are also super unique and unreplicable situations! obviously in act 6 they were just faced with the fact that a happy ending was possible all along but it can now never be theirs, on top of this being the first interaction in which siffrin knew loop's identity and loop knew siffrin knew. and then in act 5, this was their first interaction with the party as loop, which only happened because of desperate circumstances, and started off on the very wrong foot of utter devastation at not being recognized, which meant they abandoned their plans and improvised, all while everyone is super worried about siffrin and then trying to navigate the fucked up house. very weird and overwhelming situations!!

you can draw clues about how loop might act post-canon from all of these things we know, but you can't just straight up extrapolate, yknow? their in-game feelings and motivations just will never again apply in the same way, post-canon. and on top of the new contexts in which they'll be living, their trajectory will surely be strongly affected by their immediate post-canon circumstances, to the point that even putting them back into more-familiar contexts somehow would now provoke new responses. they could go in so many directions!! we just don't know!!!

sometimes people are talking about how loop would act post-canon and they say things so definitively and im like. man i think it depends 😭 we know so little about them and they know so little about themself.

[convoy-system]

Addressing the "Micahverse"

This has gotten insanely out of hand. I'm making one big post and then I'm going back to being a normal sysblr blog. I'm just an 18yo guy whose still fresh out of my abuse environment, I'm not some evil mastermind plotting against sysblr. When I say I just want to exist, I mean that.

From my perspective, this all started with me answering 2 asks on this blog.

(Edit: To make my blog timeline clear, I ran dissociative-misinfo and snowchester at the same time last year from Sept-Nov I believe. I made my apology for those blogs in December on micah-nicholas, and by then I was pro-endo privately. I deactivated micah-nicholas shortly after posting the apology because I felt uncomfortable being on sysblr at that point. A while later, I created my current main blog @obviously-im-a-boyo and I ran reveromantics and zain-syscourse as sideblogs. I deleted reveromantics and zain-syscourse after the Dia situation, and that's around when I made this blog. I ran other non-system sideblogs here and there, but currently my only system blog is this one.)

The first ask was an anon that just said "misogynist." I found this funny because it was random as hell, so I screenshotted it and showed it to my One Direction discord server, they made some funny commentary, and I answered the ask with that commentary. A user who claims they weren't the anon started a comment chain accusing me of being misogynistic and transmisogynistic, and when I asked them to show evidence, they refused. I have no idea who this blog is, apparantly they were in my old server when I was dissociative-misinfo, but I have no further info on them.

The second ask was from ratinacoat, a former friend of mine who I stopped associating with after I deleted dissociative-misinfo and stopped being anti-endo. Some timeline info- after I deleted dissociative-misinfo, I took a short break from sysblr as a whole, before I came back anonymously as two sideblogs zain-syscourse and reveromantics. These blogs were pro-endo. I deleted those blogs recently after the Dia situation in which I was blamed for Dia's public mental breakdown and subsequent IRL hospitalization. More on that in a bit because it could be it's own fucking post.

Rat's ask was asking if my recent pro-endo blogs were bait like Snowchester had been. Snowchester was the bait blog I ran cocurrently with dissociative-misinfo. I've apologized for both of those blogs back in December. I was going to ignore Rat's ask because I was ignoring a lot of anon hate already, but I was worried Rat might try to make a post claiming zain-syscourse and reveromantics were bait blogs, so I answered the ask to clear the air. I clarified that no, those blogs were not bait, I've just been changing and going through some questioning about my system. I also clarified that I'm pro-endo and have been for a while now.

Me answering those two asks, the anon and rat's, seem to have opened the absolute hellish floodgates upon me. This is where the micahverse begins, from my perspective. I know multiple of the people who posted about me are in a discord server that discusses me, but I don't know if this was a planned or coordinated effort, or just likeminded people all deciding to jump my ass at the same time.

At first I just noticed the anons I was getting directly, and the direct reblogs to my posts. What was being brought up at this point was all just dissociative-misinfo drama, shit I've already made an apology for and wanted to move forward from. I made a post on this blog clarifying that if you dislike me, please just block me instead of sending/tagging me in hate, or posting about me. Just block me.

Then I found out about the micahverse tag. Validity-system started it, with their long post listing accusations at me. I'll quickfire this.

Yes, I do remember deleting my discord server I ran when I was dissociative-misinfo. Yes, I know I deleted it because I got triggered during an argument about the semantics of the term functional multiplicity. Yes, I know that was stupid. I don't agree with my opinions at that time anymore, they stemmed from me being staunchly anti-endo, and I'm not anti-endo anymore. I also don't care to police other systems or their terms anymore. I've moved past this.

I know I had trouble stepping away from arguments. I know in hindsight that I wasn't equipped to be running that kind of server that's so volatile and built on syscourse. That's why I don't run a syscourse-y server anymore. I mean, I run a One Direction fan server, but all we do there is talk about boybanders and music so I'm not putting myself in a compromising position there.

Yeah, when I triggered myself into a severe derealization episode, I probably did claim I was being ganged up on. I was triggered and in an episode. I know that was fucked up, and it was a messy fallout, but again I've accepted that I no longer have the priviledge of friendship with the people I hurt by deleting the server and blowing up on everyone. I made my apology post for the things that happened on tumblr, and I sent out private apologies on discord to the old server members. This was all months ago.

I have vague memories of the conversation about men and women and dogs. I don't remember the full context of why I brought up my distrust of women, but that's one of my personal trauma triggers. Women who remind me of my abuser (my mother) tend to set off alarm bells in my head. It's not their fault of course, but I guess I wasn't clear about this being a personal trauma thing for me. As for the dog thing, actually fuck off. You misrepresented what I said on purpose. I know for a fact that the only time I've ever mentioned that I would "kick a dog if it got too close to me" is in context of self-defense. I live in a city full of stray dogs, MANY of which are violent. I've been chased by dogs dozens of times in the year I've lived here, and I've mentally prepared myself to potentially have to kick or fight a stray dog if I ever got properly attacked. I would never hurt a dog just because, it's a hypothetical self-defense tactic I've planned for but never had to employ. I've never kicked a dog, is the short version of all that.

Dragging the Wilbur Soot allegations of all things into this is fucking random but fine, I'll address it. I believe in innocent until proven guilty, and Wilbur Soot hasn't been formally charged with any crimes. I'm skeptical of both him and Shubble's claims, and I could get into why, but it really doesn't matter. At the end of the day, they're both massive youtubers and my opinion on their public feud doesn't hold any real weight.

Yeah, on dis-misinfo I did act like an authority on DID. That was shitty, I've already gone into that in my big apology post.

Yeah, again, I do remember telling Prose they weren't real. I was in a severe derealization episode when they dmed me. I apologized to Prose privately, but as I'll get into later in the post, Prose decided to reopen this shit again too.

Yep again my original apology post in DECEMBER addressed Snowchester and the disagreement that ended the server and dis-misinfo.

Addressing Okami. I don't like Okami very much, and I didn't even when I was running my server with her as my co-mod. When I'd started talking about starting a server, she wanted to help, and I was already feeling pressured to stay friends with her because we were common enemies with another server. I felt pressured to let her co-mod even though I didn't trust her, because I didn't want her to accuse me of discriminating against her for her personality disorders like she'd accused another server of doing when she got banned for blowing up at their mods. Okami said multiple questionable things during my dis-misinfo server run, and I never fully agreed or sided with her in my mind. I felt pressured to side with her because she was my co-mod and all this built-up pressure already existed in our dynamic, but I really tried to convey to the other server members that I don't like Okami. I even spoke in VC a few times about wanting to ban or unmod her, but not knowing how to go about it without her reacting negatively. So I was stuck in this limbo with her. By the time my dis-misinfo apology post came out, I don't think I was speaking to any of the server members anymore, including Okami. I don't currently associate with Okami.

Again with the bait blog. I've already addressed this publically in my apology post. Most of these points validity-system has brought up are old drama from dis-misinfo, and it's mainly things I've already publically held myself accountable for via my apology post, or things that happened within the server or dms that I apologized for in private. The main thing that I never addressed was Okami, because I was in a pressuring dynamic with her at the time, and after I stopped associating with the other server members, I blocked Okami out of my mind entirely. I'd actually completely forgotten about her until validity-system said her name.

Summary of this section: So far there's no good reason for why these posts are being made. It's dis-misinfo shit that I've already addressed in December and made it clear I wanted to move forward from. My beliefs and opinions have entirely changed since then, and I've made a public apology that addressed everything the public was present for. There's not much else in that regard to 'hold me accountable' for when I already held myself accountable in December.

I made a post asking validity-system in particular to leave me alone. Some other blogs started noticing what was going on and I got some kind asks from people I respect a lot, which was immensely helpful for my mental state. The flood of posts about me was overwhelming and I couldn't begin to try addressing them when I felt like I was being suddenly attacked on all angles. I also made a post asking anyone with concerns to message me privately, because I didn't want to encourage the micahverse posting by continuing to publically acknowledge it on this blog.

Then I saw rat's list of gripes, which included some outright lies and VERY serious accusations. I made a post addressing it because I was terrified people would see his post and run with it, despite the fact he didn't include any evidence for any of his claims. And yes, I know, the old server is deleted so you all can't get screenshots. But you still can't make accusations this serious without evidence. That's fucked up. ESPECIALLY when they're false. Rat reblogged my post combatting the accusations, but it didn't say anything substantial backing his side. All of that is visible in the link at the top of this paragraph, I won't rehash what I already said in that post.

So, like, to recap. I ran a shitty anti-endo blog, a bait blog, and a server a few months ago. I deleted all of them after a semantics argument got wildly out of hand and I was in the middle of a severe episode. I came back in December, apologizing for all of that mess. Now, the micahverse tag starts with multiple people (mainly ratinacoat and validity-system) bringing up dissociative-misinfo shit I've already addressed and apologized for, and generally being assholes towards me. It quickly spirals into rat straight-up lying about me. It gets worse.

I go to sleep. I wake up to some supportive posts from other syscourse blogs, and a few new kind asks. That was really nice, and again really helped me feel better about the situation. It didn't feel as much like the whole world was against me, at least.

The micahverse's newest argument was people claiming that I 'flip-flop' and change my syscourse stances constantly for attention. A lot of posters were assuming I'm a snake whose out for attention. Particularly, syscoursers were honing in on my change from anti to pro endo. Key note here, I've changed my endocourse stance TWICE. Ever. In all 3 years I've known I'm a system, my endocourse stance has changed twice. I started out as pro-endo in 2021, I became anti-endo in 2022, and I became pro-endo again sometime around December 2024. So, honestly, this whole bit of the micahverse is fucking stupid. People saw "micah changes his stances a lot!" and ran with it, despite not knowing how often my stances my changed or WHY they changed, and it ballooned into some people genuinely thinking I'm flip flopping every other day when I'm really not.

Brief interlude to mention that at some point during all this, I was spam @ in posts saying "hawk tuah" and tagged micahverse. Real mature, guys. Way to handle what you consider a serious situation seriously. Anyway.

Prose's first post. I already have a headache, but onwards I type. I'm not keen on reiterating how unproductive and pointless it is to bring up dis-misinfo gripes again, so I'll be addressing bits and pieces of this and jumping around.

Prose mentions that they mistakenly saw me as an older diagnosed person actively in treatment. I am none of those things and I never claimed to be. Me and Prose actually discussed this privately, MONTHS AGO, where I explained that I had no idea they saw me in such an incorrect light and I couldn't have possibly known that until they told me. I never lied about my age, diagnosis status, or treatment status. Prose made assumptions about me and blamed me when those assumptions weren't accurate.

The trans discourse bit. Oh my god stab me at this point. This is exhausting. Some of the shit being yapped about in trans discourse right now IS very oppression olympics when it comes to which trans people are "the most" oppressed. It's not a competition, we're all crossdressing groomers under the eyes of the law and state. Also the discussion Prose is referencing I believe was about the slur tranny. There were people arguing that only transfeminine people can say it? And not transmasculine people? Stupid ass discourse, I'm a trans person, I can say tranny when referring to my damn self.

Prose claims I pass very well. Uhm. Where the hell did you get that idea, lmao? I don't pass very well. I look fairly boyish, but despite my best efforts I am consistantly gendered and seen as female by everyone in real life who isn't one of my friends aware of my gender identity. But sure, go off I guess. I also never claimed that my oppression is because I "pass as a man and women are scared of men." I'm oppressed because I'm visibly queer and seen as female, so I experience misogyny, homophobia, and transphobia. I'm not seen as a man, I'm seen as a faggy woman who wants to be a boy.

Prose talks about how they also ran a bait blog that interacted with Snowchester, but they deleted it after a few days because it made them feel icky. That's valid. However it doesn't hold relevance to me? The way they phrase it is acting as though I forced them to make a bait blog. That was never the case. In the server, the channel where we talked about the bait blogs was locked behind an opt in role, specifically so people uncomfy with the concept didn't have to see or participate. Prose chose to participate and regretted it, and that's fine. But it's not my fault that they chose to participate?? They said they felt like making a bait blog would gain my approval, but I didn't even know Prose was vying for my approval until AFTER this all blew up and I discussed things with them privately. They were silently treating me like some sort of appraised figure that I never claimed to be, and then got mad at me for not reading their mind and knowing how they personally viewed me.

The "stalking and spam liking" was me making a new blog the day after deleting dis-misinfo and friending some of the server members back because I didn't think the big deletion was a big deal and I was lowkey still episodic, so I thought it was perfectly rational for me to follow everyone back and like a few of their posts. Like, the SAME day I think, I got a dm from one of the server members saying I was making everyone uncomfortable with the likes and follows, so I stopped. The "stalking" was one day of interacting with people I, at that moment, still believed I was friends with.

After I came back as publically pro endo, I believe on micah-nicholas (so post-apology), Prose made a vaguepost warning the endogenic community of people whose endocourse stance changed quickly and radically. It was about me, and I sent them a single dm asking if it was about me. They never replied, and I never dmed them again.

And now, zain-syscourse. I wasn't intentionally interacting with people like rat and august because of my prior association to them, I was just in the syscourse tag and so were they. My alter Zain interacted with like, everyone in the syscourse tag, because he was running a syscourse blog. He was putting aside our histories and interacting without prior bias, just from a pro endo viewpoint. All of my interactions with Prose's friend group after my apology post were a result of those people being active syscoursers at the same time as I was, not out of targetted malice or stalking.

"It made me feel like my privacy was being invaded" for... for me to interact with public syscourse posts YOU weren't even making? I haven't interacted with Prose since my single dm back on micah-nicholas where I asked if their vaguepost was about me, and I find out now that it WAS about me. I genuinely don't understand what you mean with this one.

I don't want to be your friend. I have no intentions of befriending any of the people I used to be in that deleted server with. We are on opposite sides of syscourse stances, and I have SO many gripes with all of you after this entire micahverse situation that would prevent us from being friends again.

Prose made two more longposts about me after this, mostly just ranting about how they can't trust me and are paranoid about me "stalking" them. In the past like 2 months since we stopped being friends, I've only ever interacted with Prose when they made a vaguepost about me. So they quite literally talked about me, and got mad that I addressed the fact they're talking about me. That's not stalking, that's a response to shit that's very clearly about me. If you don't want me to talk to you anymore, stop posting about me. I literally don't care about you one way or another outside of your posts discussing me.

ANYWAY. I said I'd briefly mention the Dia situation. Dia or solxxrsys had a public manic episode/mental breakdown in the syscourse tags, posted a death threat, self-harm baited directly on my blog, and sui-baited before deactivating. I was on zain-syscourse at this point, and I was responding to Dia's posts in a fairly calm manner up until Dia started self-harm baiting at me and that triggered me. Still, I didn't say anything much ruder than calling Dia an asshole. After Dia deactivated, it was found out that Dia got hospitalized, and I was immediately blamed. People were acting like I drove Dia to suicide with my posts, which honest to god weren't saying anything particularly mean.

Interlude over, back to the micahverse. Chips-in-a-bag fakeclaimed me. This is the longest fucking tumblr post ever but there's a lot to address and I don't want to make any more fucking posts after this if I don't ABSOLUTELY have to. So, chips in a bag. I already actually responded in the comments, but I'll add screenshots of my comment in this post in case they get deleted later, to be safe. This was just. rude. to be honest. Like, why?

FINALLY the conclusion: This was all fucking stupid and a thinly veiled excuse to bully and harass me. The majority of the complaints are for things I said and did when I was dissociative-misinfo, which I've already made a comprehensive apology for 2 months ago, as well as the private apologies I sent out at the time. The few things mentioned that weren't already handled in December, I have now addressed, like Okami. After bringing up dead dis-misinfo gripes got old, people like ratinacoat started fucking lying about me and accusing me of serious crimes like animal abuse with zero evidence or reasoning. That's when i started really getting pissed, because what the hell? And now, I get my systemhood questioned on top of all of that, coz like why the fuck not.

If the goal was holding me accountable for my fuck-ups, you didn't do that. There was nothing left to do. I held MYSELF accountable 2 months ago when I made my big public apology post and outed all of the shitty opinions and behaviors I no longer stand behind. In the past 2 months, I've CHANGED. I'm pro endo, I don't police other systems anymore, I don't post to syscringe and I don't condone bait blogs. All the behaviors you have issues with are behaviors I DON'T DO ANYMORE AND HAVE ALREADY APOLOGIZED FOR BOTH PUBLICALLY AND PRIVATELY. So, this has all ended up just being a micah hate train and an excuse for extreme anti endos to clown on me.

It was honestly clear what this was from the first time I saw #micahverse. Turning my name, not even my username but my actual name, into a "universe" tag and treating me like a character you're all discoursing on. I'm a person, man. I'm not a syscourse topic, I'm an 18 year old with multiple severe mental disorders whose trying to move forward from my mistakes and grow. Whose just trying to exist on sysblr and post about my personal system stuff and whatnot. I'm not bothering anybody, I don't even syscourse anymore. What else do you guys want from me?

Genuinely. What more do you guys want. I've apologized and changed, you're trying to hold me accountable for shit I don't do or support anymore, shit I've already publically acknowledged I don't do or support anymore. Anything else brought up I've now addressed in this long ass post. Can it be over now? Can I be left alone now? Can I just exist on tumblr now? Or is nothing enough?

Signed, Micah.

[idolish7imagines]

can you please do a post with the idolish7 period tracker lines SJDJF either that or mayhe hcs for how they would take care of you on your period because i think that would be sweet 🥺

IDOLISH7, TRIGGER, Re:vale + ZOOL Period Tracker Lines

A/N: this is so silly but anon asked nicely so i couldnt not do it lmao

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Iori Izumi

"You're taking your medication right? Its better to do it now than be in pain later."

"I picked up some sweets for you from the bakery in case you have a sweet taste, and chips if you're in the mood for salty.

"Try drinking some tea, namely ginger or chamomile."

Yamato Nikaido

"That time again huh? I'll stay out of your way."

"You aren't gonna hit me over the head if I try to touch you, are you?"

"There there, we can leave the cleaning to Musashi this week."

Mitsuki Izumi

"I'm guessing you're leaving 'comfort food duty' up to me huh? I'll make some time to head to the store with you, or we can go to my family's bakery!"

"I've got some ibuprofen and dark chocolate for you! Did you know dark chocolate helps?"

"Hey, don't go running me ragged with errands!..i'm just kidding."

Tamaki Yotsuba

"You're bleedin' again? How many times is it gonna happen? ...Every MONTH!?"

"are your legs all uncomfortable? I'll carry ya."

"waahh, you got so many snacks! I want some! Maybe your bleedin' week isn't so bad now that the fridge is stocked."

Sogo Osaka

"You're cramping? I have a heating pad stored in my room you can use."

"I understand you might want your space, but don't hesitate to call me if you need something."

"We can spend some time together in my room, I imagine things must be 2 times as hard to deal with while you're on your cycle.."

Nagi Rokuya

"OH NO! The torture! Don't worry, your prince will give you comfort during these troubling times!"

"This is an opportune time to marathon Magical Kokona!! ..You're still going to work??"

"FIGHT! Don't let the cramping win! I'll give you my Special Love Hug and they'll fade away~"

Riku Nanase

"Iori told me when you're cramping I should be thoughtful and get you something to help, so i brought both of us ice cream!

"I got you some flowers too! ...you don't need gifts on your cycle? ..Well, this is to make you feel better then!'

"Only a few more days, cmon, you can tough it out!"

Tenn Kujo

"Don't forget to take care of yourself. Do you need me to get you anything?"

"Let me feel your forehead, if you start to heat up, i'll set the air conditioner to strong."

"..what do you mean i'm being overbearing? I'm doing what a good boyfriend would, aren't I?

Gaku Yaotome

"crap--you didn't come on in public did you? I still have those pads you left in my trunk."

"If you're feeling off, just come to me."

"Here, soba will make you feel better and your insides warm."

Ryunosuke Tsunashi

"I can make you a meal, do you want something hot or cold?"

"I'm running a bath for you! I put in some nice oils and bubbles! They're for relaxation and stress relief."

"Need me to hold you? You know you're always welcome in my arms."

Momo

"Wah, my poor darling! What do you need? Pads, tampons, cuddles, heating pad, emotional support?"

"This time your period should last only 5 days! How do i know that? I averaged all your previous times! Don't think about it too much!"

"I'm excited to pamper you! N-not that i'm happy you're hurting or anything-"

Yuki

"hm...did you need me to do something for you? You must be telling me this for a reason."

"If you're on your cycle that means we can't be intimate this week..oh well..."

"Come rest your head in my lap, I promise you'll feel at one percent better..fufu.."

Haruka Isumi

"...you good? You're not gonna go crazy on me are you?"

"hey, you're still up for hanging out right?...you're feelin tired?? Fine, i'll come to you then."

"Duh i'm makin' somethin' for us to eat? Don't think too far into it."

Minami Natsume

"How cruel mother nature can be sometimes."

"Shall I treat you like a sickly Victorian child? You look like you could use a hug and spoonful of medicine."

"Here, I'll give you the comfort you're craving. You don't have to ask for it this time."

Toma Inumaru

"oh yeah, you've got that every month huh?"

"Am i supposed to not touch you if you're bloody and hurting? We'll need to get rid of those aches fast.."

"I read that exercisin' actually helps during it. Wanna go for a walk?"

Torao Mido

"...does this mean we can't touch each other or...i don't think I'll last."

"I've got movies if you wanna watch those. Shouldn't you be taking it easy?"

"Does this mean you can't drink? ....oh, thats pregnancy only?"

[lemotmo]

Celebrate good times 🎉🎉🎉

Q. Surprise surprise everyone spiralled for no reason. But I'm super curious to know what you thought of the interview?

A. Actually many of us weren't spiralling at all because we understood there wasn't anything he was really going to be able to say regarding Buddie. And surprise, surprise he said nothing. It was actually a very good interview overall (Eddie is Jesus for the win!) I spent the last several days reading quite a bit of Jeff's previous work and he's very good at what he does so I wasn't worried at all about this interview. Listen I was already 100% certain that Buddie was happening and his non answer to the Buddie question only furthered my belief. Every other answer he gave was well thought out and perfectly articulated until he got to the Buddie question. And because he couldn't say anything he just threw out a bunch of words that when jumbled together gave the illusion of an answer when he really didn't answer the question at all. He was clearly desperately trying to not say anything he wasn't supposed to and it was hilarious.

Look it's easy to say that everything we're seeing now is because the show is finally on a network that understands how to promote their shows. And actually wants to promote the show. But the pr focus is very intentionally, and noticeably, Buddie centric. The Family Feud episode, all the Ryan and Oliver interviews, the Ryan photoshoots, Oliver playing in the NBA all-star game, the pop culture jeopardy question (I need people to understand how big that actually is), the New Years Instagram post, it's all Buddie focused. They are getting very close to hard launch territory. So while you can say some of it may genuinely be the result of moving to a network who not only understood what they had, but actively embraced the idea of it, that doesn't account for how singularly focused on them the pr has been. No one else on the show is coming close to getting that much attention from the network. I cannot stress that enough. The majority, including the journalists who cover the show, all believe this is going the same direction. We wouldn't all be seeing it or reading it incorrectly. The network, the show, and Ryan and Oliver all know what people think is coming and I do believe at this point if it wasn't happening they would say it outright. It is not difficult to say something like 'they love each other and have an incredible bond and are absolutely family. We will continue to focus on them and the unit they have created together but it will be in a platonic manner'. That's just not hard to say. And I believe at this point, given the fact that the majority are now anticipating the show pairing them off together, that they would have absolutely stopped the speculation. I've already said I believe they're coming this season but I actually believe it's happening sooner than I even thought. I won't be surprised if we know by 8x13. Does that mean they're officially a couple by then? Not necessarily, but I wouldn't be surprised if we know by then. I don't think ABC has any intention of dragging this out very long. There's too much focus. It's been building for 7 years and I think the network is looking forward to capitalizing on the popularity.

Thank you Nonny!

Yes to all of this. I've already posted extensively about the interview so I won't be doing it here anymore. But essentially, Buddie is coming and I agree with Ali that we will get confirmation sooner than later where the story is going.

Like Ali said though, I don't think they'll be together by 8x13. But I do think they'll both be aware of their feelings and then the whole pining, longing and 'will they won't they' era will begin, just like Oliver wanted. 😋 They'll probably take this story to its natural conclusion towards the end of the season.

It's odd just how sure I am about this. The me from a few years ago could only dream of fandom times like these. 🤗

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chewing on my hands no curly did not need to fucking murder jimmy to protect Anya. He wouldn't, not Just because of the fact murder even in self defense is deeply distressing and therefore. Y'know a last resort (and Jimmy is his friend. I am curious how long Jimmy's weird resentment has existed and if it was ever obvious before the events of the game but I'm getting off track) but also. Anya LITERALLY SAYS "I have to believe our worst moments don't make us monsters" like I'm not saying she's at all okay w what jimmy did but like!!!

She's VERY OBVIOUSLY conflicted and coping! She DOESNT want him dead (well maybe she does but I don't think it's something she thinks would actually be an easy fix. She doesn't want it Logically bc the situation is. Y'know it's a spaceship w 5 ppl and he's the fuckin co pilot)

CURLY COULDVE STILL DONE MORE AND HANDLED THE SITUATION BETTER!!! Personal opinion he didn't realize it was SA and/or didn't realize how traumatic it was for Anya until she brought up pregnancy and its a mix of genuine and willful ignorance (which Logically Makes Sense but is still not an excuse) but like. He says himself she doesn't get psych evaluations!

Murder is not an easy solution! Some survivors/victims want their abusers to die and that's its own discussion, but even beyond morality and ethics: thats 20% of the fucking staff on this stupid ship!

There's a longer post to be made about the fact capitalism is the ultimate enabler of these issues and dynamics, because the combination of isolation, small crew size, complete abscence of support, disregard for employee safety and physical danger all contributed to the fact this Could Happen and the fact this Is Such A Fucking Hard Situation even if you always prioritize the victim bc. Anya's safety is threatened either way- letting Jimmy do Whatever is obviously dangerous, but also HES THE CO PILOT! The events of the game are literally an example of why you NEED A CO PILOT (though in game he's fucking. Shit at his job which y'know) because you need redundancies to make sure you arent Completely reliant on one person (like. Imagine if Anya got seriously injured. There goes the medical staff. Maybe the others have basic training but Jesus Christ being the ONLY medical expert on staff. And even then iirc she's a nurse which not to downplay the work that goes into that but it is fundamentally one of MULTIPLE medical jobs and only having A Nurse is. FOR OVER A YEAR OF TRAVEL GOOD LORD THIS IS A NIGHTMARE) anyways. Longer post by someone smarter Abt how even though jimmy is an awful person a lot of the harm he does is only possible bc of a combination of The Situation (isolation + small group) and His Power (social power as a man over the One Woman and power as the second in command)

This post got away from me bc this game makes me think a lot but what I actually wanted to say is: Curly could have done more by being more present for Anya and being more Aware of Jimmy's actions (and intervening to make sure he isn't able to interact with Anya in isolated settings). Like I also think straight up murder isn't an ideal solution but like. There's a lot of fucking THINGS YOU CAN DO TO SUPPORT VICTIMS THAT ARENT MURDER

In the end I think it's a consequence of basing the approach on punishing the aggressor rather than supporting the victim, because like. It's less important to Kill Jimmy (no matter how much you want to) and way more important to KEEP ANYA SAFE

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[milfbrainrot]

i feel like i type so much more than is reasonable when i do talk to people but i also don't get to socialize a ton so i just have soooo many words in me and if i'm like, tired or short on time, it is so much harder to restrain to the already-pushing-it point i can sometimes manage ;-;