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ima need some cutesy "can I kiss you?" đđ
Sorry this took me so long! Hope you like it! <3
Content: Fluff! First kiss, gn!cc!reader
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A slight breeze ruffles your clothes, but youâre comfortable as you walk along the beach, listening to the soft crashing of the waves beside you.Â
Itâs a perfect nightâthe perfect end to a perfect day. It all started with you appearing on Chuckle Sandwich, finally getting to meet Schlatt and Ted in person for the first time.
âSo, this is your first Vidcon?â Ted had asked after introducing you on the podcast.
âYep!â you had confirmed with a grin. âFirst Vidcon, first time on a podcastâa lotta firsts this week.â
You know Vidcon tomorrow is going to be chaotic, but youâre looking forward to it. Still, youâre glad you arrived a day early to be on the podcast and get yourself acclimated to the unfamiliar area.
After you finished recording, Schlatt had invited you to dinner. For all the complaining he does about Los Angeles, heâs visited enough times now to know the best places to eat.
Now, Schlatt walks alongside you on the beach. Heâs quiet and contemplative, so different from the loud personality that you witnessed while filming earlier in the day.
Deciding you want something small to remember this day by, you begin scanning the sand around you for seashells. You stoop down when you find a good one and pick it up.
Now a few paces ahead of you, Schlatt stops and turns around once he realizes youâre no longer next to him. âWhatâre you doing?â he asks.
âJust looking for seashells,â you say, holding up the scallop shell youâve found.
He takes a couple of steps closer to you. You smile at him, noticing the way the moonlight reflects in his eyes. You wonder if he sees the same thing in yours.
âCan I kiss you?â he asks softly after a moment.
You freeze, eyes widening, breath caught in your throat.
Noticing your reaction, Schlatt backtracks, âIâm sorry, Iââ
âNo!â Youâre quick to cut him off as you regain your composure. âSorry, itâs justâŠâ You look down, suddenly very interested in the footprints in the sand around you. âIâve never been kissed before.â
âWell, we can add it to your list of firsts for the week,â he murmurs.
You take a breath before meeting his eyes, finding nothing but softness and understanding there.
âIâd like that,â you breathe.
Schlatt closes the small distance between you, gently cupping your face in his large, warm hands. He leans in, and your eyes flutter shut as his lips meet yours. The kiss is soft, tender, unhurried. You would be perfectly content to stay in this moment forever, you think.
Eventually, he pulls back, stroking your cheek with his thumb. âHow was that?â he asks.
âCan we do that again?â you ask in place of answering.
He laughs, a breathy thing that makes your heart flutter. âYeah, we can,â he says, pulling you towards him once more.
You drop the seashell and wrap your arms around his neck. You donât think youâll need a souvenir to remember this night, after all.
#schlatt#jschlatt#schlatt x reader#jschlatt x reader#x reader#cj's writing#don't look at me i'm yearning
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Jade Harley and her favorite barnacle
#don't look at me I'm yearning#but I'm also too tired/stressed to actually talk to people so#it's a vicious cycle#why is it so hard to be gay :(#arajade#aradia megido#jade harley#homestuck#hs#my art
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Being touch-starved and aromantic gotta be the worst combo ever like what do you MEAN I want to be cuddled ALL THE TIME but also alone FOREVER???
#soft pupa hours#don't look at me I'm YEARNING#aromantic#touch starved#im the most platonic of ways I need to be held for a very long time#or put into one of those cow smoosher machines for like 1-2 business days#no happy tail wags tonight Ăș__Ăč#Growing up with almost no POSITIVE physical affection has made me insane I fear đ#I think if someone put their hand on my shoulder I would melt rip
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i think transatlanticism by death cab for cutie should count as emotional terrorism at this point
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The more the show progresses, the more I want to see the 90s cast infiltrating the modern timeline. We've gotten hints of it with Shauna and her younger self, her Jackie hauntings. We've gotten a little more with adult Lottie seeing teenage Nat (and Laura Lee), and with Natalie getting teenage Lottie in her final moments. I want more. I want the teen cast to be absolutely invasive on pivotal adult moments, infecting their adult counterparts when least expected. I want Taissa's argument with Van to dissolve into their teenage selves, their bond endless and timeless and inescapable. I want Misty absolutely wrecked by young Natalie lurking around corners, watching from mirrors. I want to see these women unable to navigate adulthood without the specters of their teenage selves cropping up absolutely everywhere, more and more as they let the memories in, as they stop being able to repress the trauma. They didn't grow up. They never could. You are always doomed to regress around your high school teammates. You are haunted by the phantom elements of your misspent youth. It is a comfort, and it is a gift, and it is a trial, and it is a curse. I would love to see that reflected with greater intensity, until the lines blur, until the timelines have no choice but to intersect. They haven't escaped themselves at all. They didn't grow up. They just got older.
#yellowjackets#yj meta#yj theories#i love the moments of younger cast popping up in the modern timeline so fucking much#i am truly obsessed with the idea that they look at one another and they see the girls from the woods#they don't see the adult versions at all. they don't see adults in the mirror either#the older i get the more i feel like i'm 10 or 15 or 20 in a body that keeps outwardly aging#and if that's going to hit anybody it's going to be these people who have never been able to leave the hell of their adolescence behind#give me hewson and savoy brown popping up in the middle of a taivan fight (or makeout. i ain't picky).#give me thatcher continuing to appear to lottie and to misty in moments of duress#give me nelisse staring shauna down as she tries to backpedal into suburbia#haunt! these! women! haunt them GOOD#(also outside of narrative purposes it would be so fun to see the dual roles intersect. actors playing the same character getting#to play together. scenes where they blend. it would be satisfying in so many ways. i yearn.)
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Pull up a chair in front of the full-length mirror, and sit me (naked) on your (fully clothed) lap facing the mirror with my legs spread. Make me watch you play with my sensitive clit until I'm whining and dripping and begging for you to put your fingers inside me. Insert one finger slowly. Hold my chin with one hand to keep my dizzy eyes focused on you gradually fitting a second, then third, finger inside my aching pussy. Pick up the pace. Move your hand from my chin to cover my mouth to silence me as I moan louder and louder. Make me climax so hard I'm shaking and squirting all over your lap.
#PLEASE#PLEASE I NEED THIS RN#i just wanna forget how fucking sad i am okay đđ„ș#don't mind me#just daydreaming about happier things#if you see this no you don't#đ#my post#softgothbabe#long reads#hornyposting#need this#needy#i'm in a mood#don't look at me#me and who#tags for days#nsft concept#nsft community#nsft bd/sm#nsft overstimulation#nsft yearning#nsft thoughts#nsft writing#nsft#bd/sm community#bd/sm kink#bd/sm blog#my writing#overstim kink
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370 words of dracopia yearning.
he first sees you in a rainstorm, glowing against the muted blues and greys, drenched and laughing as you hurry across the abbeyâs stone paths. he stays in the shadows, of course, shielded in a small alley between buildings. watching. caught in the simplicity of your joy. the way your smile never falters as you run for cover, and how you clutch your veil tightly over your head, yet tilt your face to the rain.
he memorises your routines and lingers in the places where you find solaceâa small alcove by the chapel where you go to read on warm days, the herb garden you tend to some mornings. he notes the way you hum joyfully to yourself as you run your fingers over the lavender and sage. he's fascinated by your rituals; by the way you're so in tune with the earth, and before he knows it, heâs following you to the next sacred space. he tells himself itâs curiosity, nothing more, but heâs not sure he even believes himself.
he leaves tokens and small signs of his presenceâa lavender sprig left on your windowsill, a page in your book turned back to a favourite lineâand finds himself quietly hoping that youâll notice. that perhaps some part of you already knows heâs there.
in the evenings, he listens to your footsteps echo along the abbey halls. he feels their rhythm in his still chest and imagines your warmth spreading through itâa pulse that doesn't belong to him but still feels familiar. he hears you before he sees you, humming that same spritely tune as you move closer.
one night, when the storm comes again, you linger by the window and watch the rain trace its path down the glass. he stands somewhere unseen, hidden by the darkened sky. a shadow watching the sun. he wonders what it would be like to reach for you, to pull you into his arms, and to feel the undeniable thrum of your lifeblood against him.
but he doesnât step forward; he doesnât dare. instead, he becomes part of the night that surrounds you, and lingers in the strange, impossible hope that somehow you might sense him there, waiting just beyond the light.
#dracopia#the band ghost#thinking about him#trying to write more and get to a place where i'm happy enough with it (read: not crippled with anxiety) to share it#i don't really know what it looks like for me but i do know that i enjoy it. and also it is hard.#been finding it difficult to concentrate on really anything recently tbh but i don't want to stay in a grief slump forever#so what better way to get out of it than *checks notes* yearning vampire. got it.#writing
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All Admiral Piett scenes! I edited this basically alongside the Veers video but kinda forgot to post itđ« He's got a bit more screen time but still not enough for my liking. I think I adore particularly his mannerisms and his rather measured voice/way of speaking, I find watching him just to be very soothing (even though he himself gets increasingly stressed throughout these scenes, poor manđ„Č). My beloved Firmus he's so cute I want to hug himđ„șđ
#I'm about to go to bed so I'm imagining dragging him with me and having him curl up against me there <3 he needs to sleep#also I kinda want to watch this on loop I don't want to stop looking at himđ#my beautiful little admiral#oh damn the f/o yearning is strong again#star wars#the empire strikes back#return of the jedi#sw esb#sw rotj#firmus piett#admiral piett#galactic empire#star wars imperials#kenneth colley#fictional other#fictional crush#video#selniaspost
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Hihihi!
First and foremost, I hope you're doing greatâ€ïž
Could I get headcanons for Leo with a fem! reader who likes to bite him? Like, when he least expects it, she love bites his arm or shoulder?
oh hell yes i am doing great looking at this ask! you can absolutely get some headcanons for this anon-chan!
⊠normally iâd pick one, but i want to explore their differences and similarities so you can have both.
edit: you: asks for headcanons me: but what if? it turned into a story instead? (sorry anon-chan, i uh got carried away)
Bayverse Leo: He would hate it at first. I imagine that he and Raph used to fight a lot as kids (âused toâ lol) and as we all know, turtles bite. So when you first start doing this, heâs going to jerk away and think youâre crazy. Why are you trying to fight with him??? When you explain that you were just so overwhelmed with affection that you couldnât help yourself, he might check your temperature to make sure youâre not sick. Eventually, heâll get used to it. He seems to tolerate it at best. You have to be careful, if heâs in a certain mood he will snap at you for it. No matter how adorable his pouting is.
The change is, to you at least, sudden. Heâs never made any indication that he does more than tolerate you biting him. But there is a day when it seems like everything has gone wrong for Leo. Mikey and Raph literally crashed into him while he was meditating during a prank gone wrong. He spilled his tea on Splinterâs favorite Lionel Ritchie album. Patrol was a hot mess that ended up with Raph injured. By the time Leo makes it to your apartment, all he wants is to lie down and not get up again.
You already have his favorite pizza, so he just needs to eat it and lie down with his head in your lap while you turn on some mindless television to take his mind off things. Your fingers run absentmindedly down his arm as you keep your eyes on the TV. You have to bite your lip to stop yourself from biting him, you know it wonât be accepted. Youâll have to find another way to show him how much you love him.
So you startle badly when he lifts his arm and holds it in front of your face. You look down to find him watching you, an intense look youâve never quite seen before in his eyes. He nods. You hesitate only a moment more before opening your mouth and gently biting down on his wrist. Leo sighs as all the tension leaves him, and your eyes widen as he picks up your hand and brings it to his own mouth. He holds your gaze as he bites down, even more gently than you did to him. Oh. Oh.
After that, he doesnât do it often. But if you catch him just right, heâll give you a little love bite back.
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Rise Leo: He would be amused the first time, and a little confused. Would definitely make a joke bad enough that you start gnawing on him in annoyance. When you explain to him that he is just too cute and you couldnât stop yourself, heâs going to stare at you for a second as he tries to comprehend that you think heâs cute. Then heâs going to strike a pose and say something about knowing how irresistible he is. He doesnât mind at all if you keep doing it, but gets super uncomfortable if you do it in public. Every time you bite him, his smile gets a little warmer and more genuine.
Itâs a normal day, the day you realize exactly how important you biting him is to Leo. Youâve just arrived at the lair, excited to see him. You drape yourself over his back where heâs reading comics on the floor and snuggle into his cheek, proclaiming dramatically how much you missed him. He leans into you with his customary smirk, not taking his eyes off the page in front of him.
Before you can give him a little bite on the shoulder, practically a customary greeting for the two of you at this point, Mikey calls your name. He wants to show you a piece he recently finished. You get up and follow Mikey out, not noticing the way Leo sits up straight and watches you go with a look of distress. You donât think anything of the fact that you didnât give Leo a love bite.
When you return, itâs to find your turtle sulking. When you ask him whatâs wrong, he studies you without a word. Then he manhandles you onto the nearest soft flat surface and lays down on top of you. Leo nuzzles your shoulder and stretches his mouth around it, biting down firmly enough for you to feel it but not enough to hurt. Youâll have to apologize later, but for now you just hold him and give him a love bite back.
After that, you can never give him a love bite in public again. But he will bite you back.
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head bonks: @yorshie @avery73 @justalotoffanfiction @thejudiciousneurotic @writinandcrying
#tmnt#bayverse leo#bayverse leo x reader#rise leo#rise leo x reader#aw fuck#theory tag#i'm not putting this in both#talking tag#hhhhhhhh as someone who would love bite everyone i know if i could this makes me yearn#d-#don't look at the time#just don't think about it#it's fine#i'm fine
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I want drama!!! give me DRAMA!!
#also i'm. not satisfied at all with this but i don't want to look at it anymore take it out of my sight#you should be able to get my vision anyway#give me struggle give me nostalgic yearning and i'm sorry's don't just give me a suddenly unbrainwashed chuuya without buildup PLEASE#make it hurt before making it better i want HURT with my comfort#in the meantime let me live in fanfic world. not that asagiri is above giving us something similar to this (probably less tender though)#bsd#bungou stray dogs#bungo stray dogs#bsd fanart#bsd 107#bsd manga spoilers#bsd dazai#bsd chuuya#bsd dazai osamu#bsd nakahara chuuya#skk#soukoku#nawy's art#also hehe yea i made it to match my corruption arc chuuya art for funsies
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I fucking swear, if I see another person say that an explicitly bi/pansexual character is "gay-coded" or "straight-coded", I'm going to yartz.
Just straight up hurl.
Perhaps even spew.
Or retch. Disgorge. Upchuck. Yarf. Etc. You get the picture.
#taking the term â(blank)-codedâ from you all and putting it on the top shelf until you learn how to play with it#squirrel speaks#sometimes I'm in so much pain looking at my recommended posts that it feels like I'm going to pass a fucking kidney stone but in my soul#yes i know i keep harping on this but GOD we've been through this so many times.#âhaha he's yearning he's so gay-codedâ FOR YEARNING?!?????????#THAT'S YOUR REASON FOR BIPHOBIA. THAT HE'S YEARNING. HATRED UPON YE; CONTEMPTIBLE WRETCH#don't make me come over there and wag my finger at you#UGH ignore me I'm venting carry on carry on
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Life is good but y'know what would be even better? If SOMEBODY were to take me away to a small cottage so we can be disgusting together. Let me snuggle up to you in bed while it's chilly and raining outside. I want us to curl up together like you're trying to live in my ribcage, legs intertwined and arms around each other, a hand on the back of your head to keep you close. Let me lay in the warm grass with you so I can feed you bits of cut up strawberries and sketch your face. All you have to do is lay there and look cute. A couple kisses never hurt anyway
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kevjean sleepy kiss!!!!!!!! :D
24. A sleepy kiss
Jean never needs to set an alarm. His body wakes up at the same time every morning, no matter what time he goes to bed. Itâs very annoying sometimes, when the dead haunt his dreams. Luckily, heâd slept well the night before. How could he not after the night theyâd had?
The thought of last nightâs events has him waking up elsewhere and Jean pushes those images away. Itâs far too early for that. Even if it wasnât, Kevin is of course still snoring into Jeanâs pillow. He has his back to Jean, curled up on his side with his bad hand curled to his chest protectively. Even at rest, he canât relax. And itâs been years.
Jean sighs softly, under his breath. Heâd rather be dead than get out of bed right now. Heâd rather be dead than a lot of things. But the reason heâs stuck around is right next to him. Close enough to touch.
So Jean does.
He places a hand on Kevinâs hip, âKevin?â
He gets no response. He hadnât expected one. His love will not rise for at least two more hours, he knows. Heâd like to stay here until then. Hm. Maybe he will. Jean moves until his chest is flush against Kevinâs back and drapes an arm over him to pull him closer. Kevin stirs just barely and Jean sighs against his nape.
A sudden inhale, then Kevin is conscious. âWha time âs it?â
âSeven. Go back to sleep,â Jean whispers.
âYou gettinâ up?â Kevin mumbles, his mouth still not quite awake. Fuck, Jean loves this man. He thinks about it for a moment.Â
âNon.â Jean says, âNot yet.â
Kevin turns his head a bit, to look at Jean. He has the nerve to look annoyed. Itâs more cute than anything though. âThen whyâd you wake me up?â
âI wasnât trying to. Youâre very holdable,â Jean says, emphasizing his point by squeezing Kevin tight against him. He watches Kevin roll his eyes, but thereâs a soft, sleepy smile on his lips. Oh, his lips.Â
Jean presses his own against Kevinâs shoulder. Once, twice, three times. Then his neck, his jaw, his cheek. Finally, Kevin gets the idea and turns around in Jeanâs arms. His hair is an inky mess against the pillowcase and Jeanâs never seen anything more beautiful. He rewraps his arms around Kevin and captures his lips in a kiss that is far from innocent. Thereâs more tongue than there should be and the morning breath is terrible, but he doesnât care.
When he finally pulls away, Kevin is wide awake. And half-hard against his thigh. âWhat was that for?â He asks, breathless.
âMaybe I was trying to wake you up.â
#mari dayurno this was you right? i assume it was... anyway here you go.#pls don't look at me i'm YEARNING and it's embarrassing TWT#kevjean#the foxhole court#all for the game#aftg#answered#anon#my writing#đïž
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"ur repressed" okay well have u even considered that emotions r purposeless and only serve to cause harm to those around u and I have achieved a unique transcendent state beyond them. have u considered that
#joking but like. am I wrong though#yeah no one is able to overcome the inherent human flaw of emotion and anyone who thinks they can is in fact mentally unwell#except for me I'm built different I have actually managed to transcend emotion. this is a good thing and not a problem#I saw my father's anger and my mother's discontent and my brother's self loathing and my friend's yearning.#and I saw how it only made everyone more unhappy. and I decided I would be above them all and never let my emotions rule me.#I was scared of the dark until I realized that fear wasn't useful to feel. so I stopped feeling it#this is a good thing and I am a paragon of mental health I think#mmm alternatively I was made to play mediator in a family of traumatized ppl and learned to repress my emotions to the point of dysfunction#but I prefer to think I'm enlightened and have no problems. this is fine and will not blow up in my face#anyways. just now realizing that this might stem from my childhood. oops#also realizing that I'm probably not aro and I just learned to turn off romantic attraction bc I saw how miserable it made my friend??#well. I still don't experience romantic attraction. but probably I should and I will if I ever sort out this repression thing. whoopsie#really she was ready to kill herself over some white guy and I looked at that and was like. nope. I'm never stooping to that level#mm might not help that my parents never loved each other and I never had a healthy romantic relationship modeled for me as a child#but still like really like what is the point. of having emotions. they're just not useful#oh hurr durr I'm angry at my friends for talking over a tv show. there is no way to act on this without damaging ppl and relationships#ohh I'm in love with this guy who will never love me back. THERE IS NO PRODUCTIVE WAY TO ACT ON THIS#literally emotions can only be destructive and I'm a better person for opting out of them#there are no downsides to being repressed! I can still feel positive emotions. I'm happy sometimes. sometimes I'm excited. it's fine#guy who is Unpacking Things live on ur dash. sorry#narcissus's echoes#vent
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everyone loves the golden retriever boyfriend but can we take minute to appreciate the great pyrenees boyfriend. the livestock guardian boyfriend. the loyal and kind boyfriend who's a little bit of a goober but who also can and will rip the throat out of anyone they must to keep their loved ones safe. the
#my diary#yes I'm yearning shut up don't look at me#this has absolutely nothing to do with eliot from leverage why would you say that#you can't prove SHIT#archive
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(cw vent, sorry it's just been A Couple Of Days)
Not really having many irl friends comes at the price of feeling so terribly lonely, I feel like I have no one to talk to because I'm not close to enough people, or maybe I am and I just haven't talked to them in a while and I don't want this to be our first conversation qwq
I'm honestly just. Tired, tbh qwq
#I mostly talk to my partner#But they've been more absent lately and like they have their own life#But the second they're gone I realize I don't talk to anyone that much#I used to have someone else I spoke to daily; it was an awful friendship though and it took a lot of struggle to end it#But god; just qwq; I'm so tired of everything qwq#Honestly I'm disappointed in how upset it makes me that my partner is more absent because I know it's bc they've found a game they're into#And have been playing non-stop#They'll come telling me that they've done this and that and I'll be struggling HARD and will try to mention it at some point but#But like I wanna leave them their space to be excited but I just#Look. Look the NPD is getting to me; and I know these are not kind or fair feelings but#But I hate it here; I don't care about their game; I don't care about what they've done;#All my brain focuses on is that I've had a shitty fucking day and everything's gone wrong and they weren't here#Because they were fucking playing#And I know that's not fair for MANY reasons and that voicing all that would make me a massive asshole#And that at its core; it's more of a matter of never going anywhere; not having people to hang out with;#Not leaving my house nor talking to that many people#I feel so lonely and so fucking hollow qwq#My bag got taken away and I feel like I've lost an intrinsic part of myself#And to top it all off; I had today's exam and the project I'm doing#And my dad screaming and my period coming and all the things I have to do and how much I yearn for friends#Yet when I'm with my friends I can't wait to be alone#Man; just#I didn't wanna go this far; and I only say it here because no one's really gonna read it;#But I genuinely just wanna kill myself at this point#There's no point nor reason#I'm trying hard to enjoy life but nothing goes my way#I have so many things I want to do and nothing fucking goes my way#I'm so tired; I just want to go to sleep and not wake up; it's gnawing and clawing and it's such an ugly feeling qwq#I feel like if I cut myself I'd be even more pathetic; I wouldn't even be met with sympathy; just. Disappointment#It's been a while since I last self-harmed in a way that was visible
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