#don't judge me I WAS INSPIRED

[grapecaseschoices]

It's so nervewracking sending random numbers out into the dark when I don't know what songs they correlate to but aldskfjlsadjf 24 and 44?

I'm coming back for 24, @watertribegirl. 44 just got long, and I dislike all my thoughts and ideas for 24.

who: austyn and joshua.

what: “Girls love each other like animals. There is something ferocious and unself-conscious about it. We don't guard ourselves like we do with boys. No one trains us to shield our hearts from each other. With girls, it's total vulnerability from the beginning. Our skin is bare and soft. We love with claws and teeth and the blood is just proof of how much. It's feral.

And it's relentless.” ― Leah Raeder, Black Iris

when: how it really all started.

44. Teeth

He started it. 

It was the only way Austyn could justify herself: he started it. 

Joshua might not have realized that he had started, what he had begun, it at the time — goodness knows Kendis didn’t still get it, goodness knows that Kendis still didn’t know what he’d done (.... at least she didn’t think; it’d taken Austyn quite a while to see his game, and she was on the outside looking in. For now) — after all, getting your locker moved near someone else’s was a simple enough act.

People did it all the time for various ridiculous reasons. This was high school. The rationael didn’t need good reason as long as the act got you what you wanted.

And that move had clearly gotten Joshua what he’d desired. 

Austyn took a slow deep breath as she unclenched her fingers around the scissors.

Unfortunately, for Joshua that was what she wanted too.

Proximity to Kendis. 

It started simply enough. Kendis turning down baby-sitting opportunities to watch the Blanchard’s youngests - time Austyn previously spent lolly-gagging by the stairs before cheerleading practice waiting just for the minute the other girl arrived to descend in her short uniform - to work on her project with Joshua.

But one project turned into another. Then after-school time became the two of them sitting together during lunch. Austyn could no longer have a second of free time teasing Kendis at the library without Joshua being there. 

He was always there! 

Her entire body tightened in frustration. It was a wonder that the lockers in the basketball team’s locker room didn’t bend under the force of her concentration. Austyn wasn’t a violent person but she itched to slam the blunt of the scissors against the shiny burgundy metal.

As she had with the scissor handle she forced herself to unclench. She only had a limited amount of time for it before someone caught her but she counted down from forty. (The way Kendis had once shown her.) 

It was as if her crush had gained an unwelcome and unwanted growth. One who knew exactly what he was. 

One who – 

“It’ll be a lot easier to destroy my jersey if you don’t break your fingers with those scissors.”

Even during a meet, Austyn had never wanted to jump so high — she was biting down on her tongue to keep from showing how badly he startled her. 

“Here.” Except she didn’t turn to face him. Instead, she watched through the mirror, bewildered, as he tried to hand her his jersey. 

“Did you change your –”

“What are you doing?”

He stared at her silently with that disdainful way that gained most everyone’s admiration but managed to annoy her almost as much as it annoyed Kendis. He was like a cat.

A spiteful, petty little cat. Austyn felt she would’ve liked him if not for …

She kept her shoulders straight underneath his withering yet impassive gaze. Sometimes she felt like — 

No. She doubted there was really a person who truly understood Joshua. But sometimes Austyn felt his movements, though opposite from hers, were familiar. 

“Isn’t this what you wanted?” 

“How - Who -”

This is the first time Austyn’s ever seen him smile so widely outside of Kendis’ presence. It almost reaches his eyes. 

Austyn lets out a shaky breath and places down the scissors.

“I’m not your competition.” He seems unbothered – and she wonders if she’s tricking herself into thinking that he isn’t, or if she’s really learned to read him as unfortunately clearly as he’s learned to read her. “She’s not interested in me” 

Austyn blinks. And blinks. And then blinks again.

Not for the first time, she wondered how someone so smart could be so stupid. 

[intermundia]

(Star Wars: Crimson Reign #3 - The Archivist)

the concept of jedi as celebrities is so interesting to me, mostly because they're monks of an order whose philosophy is grounded on egoless service and humility. one jedi should be roughly the same as any other when sent on a mission, because the jedi serve the force. there may be slight differences in methodologies, yes, but fundamentally, they're not there to make a name for themselves as anything other than as representatives of the jedi order.

but of COURSE it makes sense that the galaxy would be obsessed with them. a mysterious group of wizards who use flashy swords and make peace through persuasive words and heroic deeds? of course people wrote books about them, watched shows about them, adults gossiped about them, and kids pretended to be them when playing. so the question of how all that knowledge was wiped away within a generation is a good one, and the comic presents a good answer:

(Star Wars: Crimson Reign #3 - The Archivist)

the earnest goodness of the jedi comes across to many as sanctimonious. they're too responsible with their power, too cool and restrained. they don't lash out with anger on behalf of those they love, you know? they don't smile enough, too serious. they're seen as the embodiment of "we have food at home" energy. the reality of the canonical order as gentle and joyful, surprisingly playful and open, isn't sexy enough to redeem their moral authority.

based on my inbox and the way people respond to some of my posts about the jedi, the resentment that this engenders in the population of the GFFA feels very real. there is actual HATRED directed toward this fictional group, irrational and out of all proportion. the comic suggests that people jump to hate those who make them feel guilty and self-conscious, because lashing out absolves yourself of confronting the reason you secretly know you'd be judged and found wanting, and that seems accurate.

i would insert a thousand examples here of the jedi not deserving this reputation, but the canon behavior of the jedi doesn't matter, the galaxy cheered as they died anyway and lots of fans love to hate on them. the mere concept of them and their philosophy is enough to alienate people, and i think that's a shame, but understandable. i'll love them enough to make up for it haha

[onthegoodside]

[the-genius-az]

Who do you think would be a werewolf and who would be a vampire in atla? Or what do you think their nations would mainly be

or any other monster

Thanks for the question, Amor!

I like the idea of Azula witch, Mai vampire and Ty Lee female werewolf, that's cool.

But if we talk about all Nations and that monsters exist, well here it goes!

For the water tribes, women would be mermaids, while men would be werewolves, but there are always exceptions.

The air nomads would be mummies, because they are already dead.

The Earth Kingdom would be vampires, you know, because of Ba Sing Se's hypnosis, and because of the fear of the sun.

And the Fire Nation would be witches, why? for an inside joke.

[brookes-safe-place]

Inspired by a user to make the agere ponified engine drawing. The user in question is taking a break from that fandom currently (Or more like, they tend to jump around fandoms because they're multifandom, so it's not a full break), but I was inspired by a couple posts from @c00lac0la 's blog (They're fixated on other fandoms currently but I based it off of their headcanons). I was inspired by a drawing, too, on their blog, but that's all I will say.

Oliver and Duck take a stroll down to the local beach at Maretime Bay (I know people hate G5 and I'm not a fond of it, my AU is a crossover and it's technically G4, so it's nothing like canon). Duck has always wanted to be near the ocean and ever since coming to Equestria to visit their new friends, he's been enjoying being closer to the ocean and feeling the sand.

On this particular day, Duck has been stressed out and having trouble communicating verbally, as a result, their new friends recommended to him to unmask and relax, even if that meant acting younger. Their best friend Misty Brightdawn, recommended to Duck to try out pacifiers as a way to relax. Another recommended stim toys and communication cards. He took all the advice, but he will not use a pacifier in public because he thinks ponies and even his other friends will judge.

The only friend (who is from the same railway as him) he confided about his issues with was Oliver. He understood it and has been playing kind of a babysitter/brotherly role to Duck. Which has made him feel safer, especially in public.

Here, they're on the beach. Duck is concerned, thinking someone will catch on because he has gadgets that are commonly used by younger individuals/foals. But he was also worried that someone would assume he was mentally disabled due to being too anxious to talk (selective mutism) and resorting to communication cards. The only thing that has reassured him was that he refused to bring the most foalish items in public, including the pacifier. Oliver has been comforting him and smiling as reassurance, he would never let anything bad happen to Duck in these vulnerable times.

More info below the cut.

For why Oliver and Duck are not in their heavily recognized colors, that's because in my AU canon, the two engines livery is a lot closer to the real life livery of the Great Western Railway instead of the North Western Railway's green livery. And yes, I made Duck lighter, but he's only lighter in pony form but still nowhere close to the NWR Green.

The reason I see the two as being actual GWR green is because of their pride of their heritage. I don't think they would like being NWR green because they wouldn't look Great Western if they were as light as their actual TVS counterparts. They heavily believe in "The Great Western Way", although that's more of Duck's thing but Oliver has that mentality too, but not as bad.

This where I found the beach background from.

[pastelaspirations]

hello! first i just wanna say ur stories r really neat n have have inspired me a lot! soo I remember when reading perseverance u mentioned a couple of times in the notes bout some of the songs u listened to while writing the chapters so would it be alr if u dropped all the songs u think goes w the story? (u don have to ofc I jus think it's interesting how u might perceive them as songs) much love to u n ur creative mind 💞

Awwww, thank you!! <3 <3 I'm glad I could inspire you! That's what I want to do with my stories! :D

Okay, so. U m. This is uh. A very interesting question. First off, I am. Very surprised people actually pay attention to those, I didn't know if people did or not- XD

Second. Um. Are you s u r e you want me to drop all the songs that I think goes with the story-

There might... be way more than you think.

And that's not including the 3 unlisted ones that I can't remember what they were/don't have the heart to remove from the list. Also, it's a playlist that... includes any song that inspired me ever. For any fic that I made. Not just Perseverance.

I don't think you actually want me to drop all of these on you, man-

[bejeweledbaby]

I just read a fic with rockstar eddie and possessive steve which made me think of how fans will comment on edits of famous people with, "can *this person's partner* fight??" So now I'm thinking of Steve seeing those comments (he has a secret fan account for eddie and favorites a lot of the edits) and then posting a picture of him from high school covered in blood with his nail bat captioned, "I can fight".

[geese-in-flight]

Chapters: 1/6 Fandom: Dungeons & Dragons: Honor Among Thieves (2023) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Edgin Darvis/Xenk Yendar Characters: Edgin Darvis, Xenk Yendar, Doric (Dungeons & Dragons: Honor Among Thieves), Holga Kilgore, Simon Aumar, Kira Darvis Additional Tags: 5+1 Things, Adventure, Flirting Summary:

Holga who takes a step forward and claps Ed on the shoulder sympathetically, which is a terrible sign. “Swept you right off your feet, did he?” she asks, with a grin.

Five times Xenk courted Ed, and one time Ed decided to take matters into his own hands.

[lemonduckisnowawake]

I just want to make clear something

Vampire Books I'm Interested In

literally anything platonic, ZERO ROMANCE. The zero is very important. Not low. Not a little. Not background. Zero. None. Nada. 전혀 없어야데.

if it must be romantic, at least it shouldn't take itself seriously or be Dramatic and Thematic or have the romance NOT be between the vampire and human. The vampire should be their weird friend who sometimes bites whipped cream cans or honey bottles as a nervous tic

Blood, Gore, Violence, Viscera, Alllll the Guts and mess

if there must be an age gap, consider how funny it would be if the human was older than the vampire

"i am not a vampire. Vampires cannot be Christian. The fact that I hate sunlight, hate garlic, and that my hand is burning as I clutch the cross around my neck that is ONLY BY FASHION CHOICE covered by a turtleneck is NOT AN INDICATION OF ANYTHING!"

if there must be a sexy blood drinking scene, consider how funny sexy it would be if the vampire sips his blood from a wineglass like some tired, adhd, chaotic lawful detective trying to crack a hard case because obviously there is nothing sexier than that

"no. I'm not 'magic.' I'm actually a biological construction created for the purpose of carrying different bloodtypes in me to administer it in emergency cases during this space and matter war. The fact that I am a failed product does NOT negate the fact that I'm not magic. I am *science*" which is to say sci fi vampires

Honestly, just go back into the original lore of vampires and make them bloodthirsty but so calculating. After seeing what Frieren did with demons, we really are missing out on monsters who use the power of words to lure in prey

Vampire Books I'm NOT Interested In

"Bloodsucking is so sexy and intense and dangerous. You want to let me suck your blood so bad. Literally. Please. I will die without blood." Go get a blood transfusion and stop gaslighting women with your easily preventable life or death situations. No, I don't care if vampires are illegal citizens. Just rip out the government leaders' throats and establish a tyrrany where an adventure begins where peoole realize that revenge and violence only creates cyclical cruelty and -

"I will reform this vampire through the power of love and blood."

If it has a shirtless man cover and/or a couple cover, I am automatically suspicious of it

Yes that DOES mean Magiford falls under this. My point stands

However, I will read any and all of these if I'm feeling evil enough and need a victim to target

[didderd]

kinks?! on my dash?!

whats-uh-what's tac and snaps into

HHHH

ok eat up simps (this got... a lot longer than i'd hoped DKFJGBH)

(warning: highly sexual and possibly very uncomfortable themes for some.)

mm starting wif Snaps this time (feel slightly more confident wif him after some resent Killer fic reading i did kdjnbgjd (@/lady-of-disdain 's such a good writer. ough))

anyways. over all, they're both on the dominant side, but Snaps is a lot less likely to let someone dom him. tho if he's gotten comfortable with you he might allow it, but not without some amount of fighting back.

ofc, as a Killer Sans, Snaps is very into knife play. he can also be a big brat in bed. teasing, cock warming, edging. all the above. (at least.. when he has enough self control to do that)

he's also very into pray v predator play (bunny x tiger *cough*). absolutely loves when his partner fights him and he has to firmly hold them down. it's probably the thing that gets his magic pumping the most, the thrill of his 'pray' futilely trying to get away (all consensual and playful ofc). possibly the only thing rivaling it being chasing down his partner. (making it vry obvious which of Mystique's fics i'v been reading here kjdnfkjdv)

both of them are into choking. really probably everything i said abt Tic, these two would be on the opposite side of with their partner. (tho in a case where Tac is subbing, he'd probably be into all the same things Tic is. maybe even more so. ofc he wouldn't admit it around anyone but the person(s) he does that stuff with.)

Tac especially likes the collar and leash, and binding his partner.

he also likes when his partner fights back, just not to the unhinged extent that Snaps does.

Tac actually loves wearing his muzzle for his partner. and he especially loves when they take it off. ofc anyone who gets in a bed (or on a counter/etc.) with Tac, leaves with several bite marks. (and ofc not from him ticcing.)

lastly, they'r both into public, or at least semipublic sex. (Tac might claim to hate it when he's subbing, but really he does find some thrill in the possibility of getting caught.)

(ofc all of this they would only do if their partner was comfortable with it :>)

[northgirl09]

Some ✨Morzatorix✨ stuff

He had had a really unpleasant day. Some of the prisoners he wanted to execute had committed suicide, and Durza was taking way too much time bringing back the egg- after all, he suffered without his stone.

Galbatorix entered his room and dismissed his servants from his appartments, and there, lying on his bed, he had the surprise to see Morzan, dressed in red as always, with his shirt slightly opened and reading a book. He raised a brow:

- «What are you doing here?

Morzan lifted his head and smiled a bit:

- I was... reading.

He gestured vaguely in the direction of the library covering the wall at the left. A thought crossed Galbatorix's wicked mind.

- I can leave if you want...

- Oh no. Stay where you are.»

[timeisamarmaladeconstruct]

Super random, you don't know me lol, but I was looking through the notes of the most common breakfast post and I was wondering if you'd be willing to share your breakfast cookie recipe. I've been wanting to make some but the one recipe I tried I didn't like, and I haven't been motivated to look for another one

i actually love this ask and that's partly because @averymayhemeveryday just asked me for this a few days ago and i typed it all up into a discord server we're in, so i'm just editing that braindump into a slightly neater recipe and including the pictures i took on my most recent batch. still, i made this up from nowhere and i cook on vibes, there is precious little exact measurement in here so you will have to do your own experimenting and figure out what you like.

recipe is Long so it's under the cut

step one: soaking your grains

i mix about two cups old fashioned oats, a couple tablespoons or so of chia seeds, about a cup of unsweetened applesauce, and enough (oat) milk/water to get it fairly loose, then let it sit in the fridge for at least a few hours to let the liquid soak into the grains. overnight is better. i've done it for over 24 hours and i really like the texture i got. i tend to mix in a bit of instant coffee granules at this point for taste and caffeine content, maybe a tablespoon or two. you can add cinnamon or other spices before or after soaking, i think i've done it both ways. iirc em said they put in cardamon after soaking and wished they did it before so it would soak into the grains more.

step two: mixing in the rest of your stuff

after soaking, i put in a generous amount of peanut butter, maybe like a third/half cup? i don't measure it at all really, just scoop it in. sometimes i add a bit of molasses, you could do brown sugar too. might be nice to do that before soaking so it soaks into the oats, idk i don't think i've tried it. usually like a big spoonful. i frequently do mini chocolate chips, but i usually do sweetening OR chips, not both, that's just a lot of sugar. then if it's too stiff i put a bit more water or milk in, i get it a little looser than traditional cookie dough but still thick enough to hold together.

left picture is straight out of the fridge after soaking, right is ready to bake

step three: baking

i use a cookie scoop but if you don't have one a spoon is fine it's just more work, flatten them down because without any butter or some kind of fat they won't flatten themselves, you can pack them onto a cookie sheet tightly cause they won't rise or spread, whatever shape you put them into the oven in, they will stay that shape and size. bake about 25 minutes at 375f. might want to check them at 20 depending on your oven. they get a bit brown around the edges when they are done. i use two cookie sheets stacked together, it's a trick my mom taught me that decreases the risk of burning the bottoms.

EDITING THIS TO ADD: please grease your cookie sheet or use parchment paper you do not want to try to bake something without any fat in it and then get it totally stuck!

notes:

i find that it makes enough to eat 6-7 a day for a week, i keep them in the fridge so they don't try to mold or anything, i just split them out into individual storage containers so i just grab one each day and eat on the way to work. i usually take the container out of the fridge the night before so i'm not eating them cold because that's a misery tbh.

for the weekend i usually crumble up that day's portion into a bowl and mix in more applesauce and milk so it's a bit of variety.

my friend em doesn't like peanut butter so we talked about ways to replace that for texture, since it helps it hold together in addition to adding protein. obviously another nut butter or sunbutter would be great if you need to eliminate it for allergy reasons. we talked about using cream cheese instead and i tried that this week, that's the batch those pictures are, i used half a 16oz block and still put in a little peanut butter, and honestly it may be the best batch i've made yet.

honestly it just now, as i am editing this for tumblr, occurred to me that you could add an egg or two in place of pb for protein+holding them together. i'm allergic to eggs so i didn't think of it before and i'm not sure how the texture would be but it might be worth a try.

this week's cream cheese variation, baked, with bonus roasted veggies that were in the oven at the same time, sunday is batch cooking in my house cause i never have any energy (or executive function) by the time i get home from work on weekdays.

they really are more of a cookie by shape than anything, the texture is not at all what a traditional cookie would be, but i quite enjoy them. even on the weeks that they don't turn out quite as well, it's something to nibble on the way to work and i'll eat practically anything half awake at 730am if it means i won't be shaking with hunger halfway to lunch. this week they are so good i am really sad when i reach the end of the day's portion and i will for sure be doing cream cheese again.

[emotional-fandom-soup]

Still thinking about Tuvok and Vorik.

Like, I now really wish that the series had an episode where Tuvok seeks him out and tries to give him tips for how to keep your vulcan logic and emotional control in tact while being on a mostly human ship. And Vorik follows them to a T...only to completely mess up.

Like he just instantly gets into a fight with Belaana, accidentally insults Tom Paris, etc.

Eventually he concludes that nope, this is not helping, and he starts acting more himself again. (I headcanon that he's from a less traditional vulcan family and that's why both him and Taurik joined starfleet)

And he realizes how the humans actually respond better to him if he lets his emotional shields down. Which I can imagine might be exciting for younger vulcans who maybe don't really understand the importance of them yet? (Like how we see with child Tuvok in one episode, even though yk...vorik's clearly older than that.)

So throughout the series we get to watch Vorik slowly turn from your average cold vulcan into someone who's almost openly showing his feelings (as much as he's able to anyways)

I can imagine this would make things between Tuvok and him a lot more akward too since I believe Vorik would subconsciously still look up to him in a way, even if he doesn't feel the need to practice emotional suppression as much anymore.

So it'd probably come to scenes where Vorik's just chatting with a crew member and having a very slight smile on his face, only to turn 😐 again once he spots Tuvok walking past them.

[determinedfanartist]

Hey I noticed that on your “boop” list that you have dreemurr-skelememer but she’s a proshipper 😵‍💫she draws dreammare on a separate account and on her twitter

yeah... But I still love her art and take a lot of inspiration from her! (also I don't have Twitter, nor have I seen the seperate account, so I was unaware)

You can have your opinion on her, I'm not saying it's wrong or trying to start a fight. I just have my own opinions on others as well, sometimes placed upon their art that I see or personality.

Thank you for the ask, and I hope my answer is ok 🥲

[whatgaviiformes]

Craftworks: You're My Satellite

I had some decent light, so I was able to get these loaded and tagged this morning, so I am happy to present my lesson/experiment/exploration in colorwork: John.

Four colors, but I love the layers all those different shades add to the design elements of this doily.  I think our resident genius would appreciate that I used this as a learning opportunity, always pushing his mind into so many fields our John. The colors here overlap slightly with Nutty's @gumnut-logic's palette challenge, but not perfectly. I went with shades that remind me of John's uniform, his hair, the silver for the metallic of Five. In the end, I think it gave me John and a bit of TB5, both, which I am 100% okay with. I've always seen them both as so colorful. The holograms, the pathway lines around her gravity ring. Speaking of rings, I adore the block of that blue-green around the middle.

Pattern: Ember by Grace Fearon Yarn: I used scrap thread, most of which is Hobbii Rainbow Lace or Aunt Lydia's, all size 10 thread. Here are recommendations for something close to this: Hobbii Rainbow Lace in 031 "Blue", 035 "Petrol Blue", 057 "Orange Aunt Lydia's: Dark Royal, Peacock, Pumpkin For the shimmer, Aunt Lydia's Silver Shimmer. (Who had the grand idea to try to do color specific designs while also trying to do a no buy, honestly!) Hook size: 1.5 mm Finished Size:  14 inches

More of the Thunderbirds inspired doilies here:

Scott - “Hypersonic” - Pattern Asha by Grace Fearon Gordon - “Four” - Pattern Cassini by Grace Fearon Virgil - “Stability” - Pattern Tallulah by Grace Fearon Penelope - Pattern Penelope by Grace Fearon

[stayinlimbo]

Almost

There are over 170,000 words in the English dictionary. I flipped through all twenty-thousand pages and scoured for the perfect words to describe us. I ran my finger over each definition, the gliding touch soaking up every syllable. A to Z, I gathered a new vocabulary to illustrate the emotions you evoke in me. 

The paper cuts on my fingers sting. Band-aids shield the fresh wounds, but the nicked skin throbs behind the square cotton pads. Your favorite cartoon characters on the adhesives don’t comfort me the way they used to. They can’t soothe the ache where I need them the most. 

I wish you came with a dictionary or some built-in manual. I wish you were easy to read, with enough time and patience to riffle through every mindless thought. I wish I could understand the glimmer behind your eyes, no longer directed at me. I want to know why your dimples disappear when I try to engage in our shared interests; what changed between begging for me to join you and avoiding my searching gaze?  

“Almost” is the word I would use to describe us; a simple word within the first chapter—the most heart-breaking word in the dictionary.