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Nothing better than some gaming after spending hours studying 🎮
#ts4#sims 4#ts4 gameplay#ts4 legacy#postcard legacy#postcard gen 2#robbie reichmann#mickey kealoha#this post mirroring last but with robbie!!#everyones hard at studying#doing this to lead up to next post..#and i love his bedroom too!#wtf happened to mickeys wrist#just noticed it today! he is posing a female pose after all lmao
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Im saying this with love in my heart, I highly doubt Siffrin likes people touching their face post canon.
#Isat#Isat Siffrin#Isat spoilers#Cause I'm about to explain why in tags lol#First up! LOSING AN EYE! He probably doesn't like people touching where they were JUST INJURED?? Plus I do think it contributed#To him flinching away from people touching them. Not being able to see the touch nor being able to articulate the way it traumatized them..#Next <3 Euphrasie... Darling... Sweetheart... Baby.... She grabbed his face and then proceeded to break his mind open like a watermelon#With the worst news anyone can fucking imagine hearing <3#Then Mirabelle slaps them! She does that! Lol!! Straight to the face!!!#Mal du pays grabs him by the face as well <3#Isabeau pushes them away after getting kissed... and these are just off the top of my head of things that would lead to Siffrin going#Nope! No touchy the facey!! No more ever ever forever!!!#But I bet Loop loves getting their face touched btw. I bet they love that a lot#Anyway it's my firm opinion that Siffrin has a very complicated relationship with touch post canon <3
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undecided independents who have no actual political knowledge or opinions are the bane of my existence right now
#text post#sir you have no original thoughts and are literally telling me you don't understand any of this#why am i listening to five minute rambles that lead to nothing#just hang the fuck up bro bc clearly there's no getting thru to you#my super is telling me to hurry the fuck up#I'm literally talking over this man to get to the next question what the fuck else can i do#literally im asking him like. do you think the gov should have incentives to buy electric cars and he can't say yay or nay#'the world's gonna blow up in ten years bc that's what jesus wants'#great sir but i need a yes or a no#he says Reagan should have been gay to solve the AIDS crisis#buddy I dont think this is the topic for you rn#i am not the person to help you with this#this survey should take ten minutes we're on fucking twenty im gonna kill myself
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#this is just regarding a post and what i shall do first#i can’t decide. too many ideas running through my head 🤧#alsooo don’t worry i’m actively working on story things but i want to draft up a couple posts because!#the next few are revealing a LOT and moving the arc quickly so#i don’t want there to be huge waits in between!#but i will be posting edits while i do that. heheh which leads us back to this poll 🫵🏼
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a friend who'd wait :)
#im posting this very late because i was sort of weary of how it came out and ended up messing w it until it was like 4am oops.#and i have plans tmrw so... oh well! i did my best and ill put it out while i can!#and i tried to make the scene match barnard's colors lol#finn's ocs#finn's art#i know i said id do more sillay stuff with the simpler screentone only style but i had a couple more of these in me#and this is the first piece im making thats like an actual part of the story too rather than just setting stuff for fun#i wanna write something to go with it too but for now ill just sort of briefly explain the context in the tags here:#barnard has a pretty bad case of OCD and his compulsions have made it difficult to make friends in the past#he was never outright bullied or anything but people just didnt really have the patience to deal with it#he has compulsions that include stuff like walking through doors until it feels right and needing things to be perfectly aligned#which in group settings has lead to people having to wait for him to finish his rituals and join them#they might find it tolerable at first but eventually they grow impatient and hes just... not invited to stuff anymore#but juno is a newer member of the guild who ends up frequenting the same library. hes also kinda a little weird#and they dont become fast friends or anything but just sort of naturally spend time in the same place#though they never plan meetups they eventually fall into a routine. around the same time theyd just both be at the library#and read next to each other. and maybe talk a bit. and eventually they end up walking back to the guildhall together#since theyre going to the same place after all. and juno always waits for barnard outside the door#eventually barnard asks if this bothers him. juno kinda just tells him 'of course it does' without any malice or anything. just a statement#barnard is surprised and apologizes and juno says not to. but the next day juno doesnt show up at the usual time.#barnard assumes hes committed somekinda more by bringing it up. he ends up staying there late reading to get his mind off it & not ruminate#but when he leaves juno is in fact still waiting for him down the hall (see pic) having collected a bunch of books literally abt ocd#he fell asleep bc barnard stayed later than expected. and hes an eepy guy generally. and also one very bad at expressing himself#but now barnard gets that juno's 'of course it [bothers me]' had the implication of 'but its worth it' which no friend has previously done.#and from the interaction juno was also able to understand that this isn't something barnard just does for the hell of it so. he studies.#and checks a bunch of stuff out because he thinks it could help his friend too (theres ocd workbooks and such- i remember working w them)#and thats the point where they became more ''friends'' than ''pleasant library acquaintances''#from there on they also do get into juno's problems. whole other bag of worms. but this specific scene is more about bernard from his pov#sorry about when i said briefly explain. i lied </3#but compared to the whole sequence im picturing its brief so shhh
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this is exactly how equinox ended
#idk sometimes i feel like they have done chakotay so dirty with this ending and the fact they reconciled so quickly#like it felt like his agency was being taken away?? i always imagined that he was so quick to respect her as a captain and then *cough* fall#in love with her bc he saw that she chose to save innocent lives against starfleet regulations. and starfleet's inability to do so was the#reason he resigned despite the fact that it cost him so much to get there in the first place. and i feel that janeway must have completely#broken his illusion of her ergo him asking something along the lines of kathryn what happened to you#it would have been so delicious if she had to earn his trust again you know... but everything that happens in the episode of voyager stays#in that episode#on the other hand it was so funny how quick they were to talk again like um i restricted you to your quarters... uh..... will i see you at#the party tonight... they are so fucking STUPID she didnt even outright invited him#chakotay please bestie respect yourself more#also the way that she didnt even make a proper dish for that potluck but brought croutons for chakotays salad...#girl after all that happened you could have at least made your own dish#the image of this is so funny to me. imagine you see your commanding officers fighting each other which leads to one being restricted to his#quarters and then the next day they bring a dish together to the potluck. amazing stuff#hope they invited that guy whom janeway tortured. since he ended up serving on voyager#mr lessing pass me the cassarole will you.... sorry for torturing you for information btw <3 i have my moments#my post#star trek voyager
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the rituals are intricate and very comical
#idk what to focus on here. ron my guy dont you worry yourself about anything ❤️#your jealousy and resentment will lead you to make a mistake so big next year that it knocks enough sense into you for a lifetime#🔮 you will finally recognise your role as the glue that holds the trio together and you will vow to never abandon them again#only then will the circumstances be right for you discover that they both love you and need you🫵 as much as you love and need them 🔮☝️#that being said i did clock how flustered harry’s compliment made hermione and additionally#how harry blushed hearing hermione describe his romantic appeal.. id get scared too if i were ron. with or without inferiority complex#Also undeniably ron must agree with hermione that harry is ‘fanciable’ as fuck. or he wouldnt feel this threatened#also him gagging on his food after hearing someone verbalise this fact DHJDJ. you could of course chalk it all up to his crush on hermione#or you could add the very interesting layer of his own perception of harry to it#bc as i have wisely stated before in a previous post. ‘hee is obsessed with that harry kid’ <- i could write essays on this#but it boils down to the thin line between ‘i want to be that person’ and ‘i want to be WITH that person’#a very well known phenomenon amongst the members of the ‘in gay love with my best friend’ community#you can’t make this shit up. i don’t even have to try that hard to see romionarry in everything they just literally keep doing the work 4me#hp6
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thinking about vampiric arakawas again just so i can make a 'blood-sucking politician' joke
#snap chats#have i ever posted my vampire arakawa musings. i think i did long ago in a distant land. or at least for halloween vjaERLVKJ#anyway i was having my evening stroll with my dog and thinking about how much i love dark-renaissance age stories and whatever#which is a weird way to lead into vampires since At Least Dracula vampire stories dont start until the victorian - progressive era#though i guess you can do whatever you want with mythical creatures and its not as if vampiric stories cant start during the 1400s either#theyre immortal and Not Real (i hope) so anythings possible theres no need to be super restrictive#i am. literally not getting to the point Point Is it could be funny .....#thats why they cna be really good assassins like just eat your targets tf <- vampires dont eat people#but then of course i have to wonder the implications ... oh ive definitely made this post but im still curious#fuuuck man i wanted to make my joke but i just realized how do i even get to that joke cause i dont think masato would be a vampire#dhampir as i definitely said way back then IF THAT. what were the circumstances wait shut up why are there police next door#bro im too nosy this post is interrupted hang on#not nosy enough to keep watching im bored its probably nothing anyawy. cause i think sawashiro and ikumi woudlve been human#like during the uhhh idk dark ages and maybe arakawa turns sawashiro into a vampire later on but what of masato .....#idk im not gonna think too hard about it. right now just take my blood-sucking politician joke idea we'll figure it out later#stopppp i was wondering about vampires in japanese pop culture but then i rmemebered mandurugo WHICH. are filipino but STILL FOUL#im everywhere im ending the post now bye#wait i have to end this post cause why tf did my bestie send me a tweet being like 'look forward to the future of chao'#since shadow x sonic generations is coming soon LIKE DONT PLAY WITH ME AVBOUT CHAO I DONT PLAY ABOUT THEM FUCKERS#ok im ending the post now for real bye im gonna throw up
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Returning from war with the only decent thing I have written in the last few months. Entirely written in the notes app at 1am so I apologize for the dubious quality
Inspired by roger water's song The bravery of being out of range
For context the setting is tgm on the carrier during the Mission just after mav and roo are shot down
#theres paragraphs upon paragraphs in this note just to lead up into this tiny thing#i couldnt figure out how to end the actual fic and ive since pretty much given up on the original plotline so im posting this now#did i write a whole oneshot just to abuse one single lyric and then abandon it#yes#always found the whole what if ice was on the carrier fic plot interesting#theres a whole new level of numbness required to leave two people for dead#especially while their only real family is right next to you#top gun#icemav#top gun maverick#topgun fanfic#alsooo important addition i do not really support roger waters as a person i just think he has good music sometimes#that is all
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Oh, I did Lesson 38 so spoilers
Honestly, I wish they had the DiaLuci fight last longer. Also, suffers so much from the lacking visual presentation of Obey Me. Still was was enjoyable for what it was tho. And Lucifer! the! Menace! Once again gets to fuck MC >:( Because yeah no they totally bone after his pact scene if you take the more romantic options. I better get to roll in the hay with Belphie before this seasons over or I'm gonna be pissed!!!!! LET ME FUCK HIM!!!!!!!
#om posting#I am interested where the story is going and assuming the next couple chapters are just lead up to s3's story because there is absolutely#not enough time to cover another full arc unless they like do the cliffnotes version of it
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Just a reminder of what this conflict actually, tangibly means for the Jews in your life while you get to sit at your desk untouched by this violence.
#Antisemitism#Current Events#Israeli-Palestinian Conflict#TW: Israeli-Palestinian Conflict#And of course Muslim people are also facing increased rates of violence too#I'm not ignoring that#I'm saying that maybe if you aren't personally affected by this conflict (such as being at increased risk of violence)#It's time to shut the fuck up#What do you actually think you're doing by tweeting and reblogging and sharing on Facebook?#You are doing nothing to concretely support the civilians who are suffering#Or the global victims of antisemitic and Islamophobic violence#Next time you think about hitting reblog on a post about the Israeli-Palestinian conflict as a white goy#Donate a dollar to UNICEF or Save the Children or the URNWA#If you do this every time you think about sharing a post that cannot possibly affect you in any way#You will probably have donated hundreds of dollars while refusing to spread information that palpably leads to violence#If you find that you cannot afford to donate to those organizations every time you think about this#Then perhaps you cannot afford to have so many opinions#Because you are not helping anyone and you are concretely making things worse for real people
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I've always liked the idea of choices and how they change the narrative, so for this day of @khoc-week we'll be poking around one of each's most impactful choices that could have changed everything!!
This'll be like... AU 2: Electric Boogaloo, except it's a different flavor of course.
They're all very angsty, so no one wins this one, alas.
Day 6 - One Choice, New Life
Iris:
Ohhhh yeah~
Right out the front gate we're starting strong!
Since Iris, thanks to poking around in places she shouldn't, ends up getting smited before the Keyblade War even began, imagine if she kept her nose out of things just long enough...
She gets to know everyone that Alto got to meet, and finds herself having even more things to add to her list of suspicions as time goes on.
She finds out about the Dandelions, about the weird happenings and disapperances, about the fact that the Foretellers are hiding more than they are letting on.
Things start to get more tense, more stressful. Iris grows a resentment for the Union leaders and those they associated with, as the days lead to competition that grows ever more violent.
Her final straw was when Aced dared to strike down Alto, who just wanted to spare two wielders an otherwise fruitless fight near the fountain square. She denounces her Union involvement, essentially going rogue all to keep a protective eye on Alto.
She turns down a spot on the Dandelions only because Alto did, despite her efforts to plea with him so they could leave safe and sound. But she respects his choices, so together they will face the music head on.
Eventually, the Keyblade War swings around. Even though it's a free for all at this rate, she still teams up with Alto to stay close and keep them both alive no matter the cost.
Now, ideally she would get taken away with Alto to the digital Daybreak Town and the two would continue to suffer towards the end of the world, perhaps both finding themselves on a journey to reincarnate in Scala ad Caelum, however the newly uncovered, very hostile Foretellers of the Apocalypse have other plans.
Despite Igni being an angel of the battlefield, at least in the eyes of the wielders she saves, for very interesting reasons never really disclosed she just leaves Iris to die, or rather finishes the job herself. Either way, Iris does not make it out, at least not in an ideal state.
Nobody in the future gets to learn who Iris is despite Alto carrying her memory with him, he had forgotten her just as much as he forgot everyone from that time.
Her Chirithy got to her just in time before she was whisked off to sleep, and she now resides in the Realm of Dreams as a Necho Cat, assisting in keeping that realm and the other lost wielders safe.
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Irene:
Irene also had a strong case of sticking her nose where it doesn't belong, which later ended in an act of martyrdom for two boys that barely gave her the time of day.
This time around, despite her heart telling her to act, she kept to herself and followed along blindly alongside the other castle staff (loyalty to Master Ansem and all that), where it eventually lead to her witnessing all of the horrid experiments happening within the castle walls.
She ends up involuntarily becoming a Nobody, Nexier (it's just Reixen backwards lol), with a healing element, one of if not the only passive member of Organization XIII. While not branded as an official member, she is given her own infirmary quarters in the Castle That Never Was, where the other members are sent to receive mending and care, most likely a hint to all that remains of who she was.
When she's returned to wholeness, she's confronting Sora on his final trek to confront Xemnas. It's more of a mercy upon her granted by Sora, but part of her seems so far gone even when recompleted. She will never be the same, now jaded towards her place of work, yet she stays because where else does she have to go? She needs to be there for the others who also suffered the same fate...
All we have is hope that maybe she could find healing from all this.
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Iliana:
I thought of two for her, so I'll share the less dark option first!
When she takes up a roost with her uncle after the fall of her world, a pivotal point was her choice to leave and seek closure in the depths of space. Here, Russell managed to talk her down from persuing what isn't there, so she doesn't take off on a fruitless chase for answers. Instead she takes up work as Russell's apprentice at his shop, biding her time until she can handle the journey on her own. Or with friends-
She ends up in Sora's mess here anyway, just with less death on her end this time around. Unfortunately, destiny has it out for her either way-
The second option was from before she left her home world.
She had already been actively packing to leave by now, a slow process considering she had to swipe many things from under her parents' noses. Unfortunately, finishing that task couldn't have come fast enough.
During its final day standing as the world was crumbling to pieces, she had tried returning to her home city to grab her brother, the last thing she needed in order to go. The only thing holding her back was swarms of Heartless and, well, the world actively falling apart.
Originally, she realized she was outmatched and decided to flee, since she knew fighting her way through would mean certain death, and with certain death it meant no one would be able to go back and save it later, nor could anyone escape that hadn't tried already.
It was devastating to leave her brother behind, but it was necessary to make sure she wouldn't lose him completely.
This time around, however, she continues to persist, battling through hoard after hoard to reach the city gate... only for the city to totally sink into darkness before she could make it there. Her way back was starting to crumble as well, so she was all but completely trapped.
Of course, Heartless are an inconvenience, so on her furious trek back she nearly makes it to the ship, but! Comes up short as she is taken with the broken pieces of her world to the Realm of Darkness.
Her persistence kept her from being swallowed completely -unless she totally gives up which is possible- nevertheless she ended up finding herself wandering this new realm aimlessly for a couple of years, maybe bumping into Aqua-nort and her mildly unhinged gf, Myst, while she's at it, until by pure happenstance she may be rescued...
By Sora, of course. She can never avoid him-
She doesn't come out of this herself anymore, in fact she's far from the person she may have been, left now to take her time relearning how to be human, and her recovery monitored in Radiant Garden while the Guardians of Light are actively hunting down where Terra ended up.
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Oh, how I love me some angst!
The most heartbreaking part is that if this is all part of one timeline they never get to meet, with the exception of Iliana and Irene I suppose, but they won't click in the same way they do now. Maybe they learn to heal together, but it's so strained that it's best to let them handle themselves separately.
Iliana would also have no reason to take the Mark of Mastery until way later this way, if at all, so she'd never meet Dreameater Iris, alas.
Anywho-
Wowie zowie, we're almost at the end, just one more day!!
I'll see y'all tomorrow for Day 7!!
#sham's art#shamsbabs#irene#iris#iliana#alto#igni#master igni#in passing mention#khoc week#khoc week 2023#my poor children...#i'd let them lead happy lives but alas i'm entering my villain era >:3c#besides good things are coming for them tomorrow so! worth it#kh oc#kingdom hearts oc#khux oc#digital doodles#tag edit: i was looking back on prev khoc week posts and#i used the same exact choice for iliana in 2019...#no hate upon me it's a good solid choice#it's just super ironic that it barely changed is all#4 years and it still holds up eyoooooo#the rest of the lore from then changed signifigantly tho#we stan#myst#<- passing mention anyway#i might do her for next year's event alongside lugh to fill in lore gaps#she's pretty new so it'll be worth the time :)#hills of progress
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#my post was going to be ''you know you’re that bitch when they say you’re the first person to do category fraud at the oscars''#btw she submitted lead because she knew they won’t nominate her for showing up the next year
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Have you ever wanted to draw something but you fought due to your skill level at the time you decide not to do it
oh definitely. the hardest part of art is starting- and being comfortable making something that’s not perfect. i find drawing something *intentionally* bad to start or like, with stick figures and very basic shapes, is a good way to get over that first hurdle. and there’s also tutorials online for pretty much anything if you don’t even know where to begin!
you never know what you can do if you never try though, and you also can’t improve if you never do- i avoided backgrounds for years & i’ve been slowly getting myself used to them and have been really liking what i’ve done! (not showing the piece i have in mind yet cause it’s for a zine that’s not come out yet hehe)
#that mental hurdle is the hardest one#+ as a person with ADHD i’ve often had an idea i really wanted to do then put it off for this reason and just. kept forgetting to do it.#without having a deadline or anything my brain is just like ‘oh so this gets done never 👍 got it’#highly recommend just going ‘okay. i will do One Single Thing.’#like okay. well i don’t want to draw this yet; but i can make a new file and name it#cause that often leads to my brain going ‘well that was so easy i guess i could do another thing’#then ‘well i won’t draw the full thing but here’s like. a single circle where i want something to be’#then maybe i’ll go ‘well i can add a few more guidelines just so i remember what i’m envisioning’#and then eventually i’ve gotten so far that i just. ended up doing it. or making a lot of progress#not always! sometimes it really is just the first few things! but it makes it easier the next time i make myself do ‘just one thing’#breaking tasks down like that always makes it much less daunting#crazwaz posted#audience participation
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like i think that we really really really need to actually gain the social literacy and compassion to understand that. not tipping your server isn’t praxis, but the fact that it’s expected that the customer pay the wage of the server also doesn’t mean that the customer (often also stiffed and a victim of wage theft) isn’t obligated to do so, and that while this is within our own economic system a great injustice and act of violence that needs to be rectified, it is in fact not the greatest injustice in the world and seeing people comparing getting screamed at for war crimes to not being tipped demonstrates a drastic lack of any sense of proportion. this is me speaking as both a service worker and someone engaged in organizing. let me be absolutely clear that I am not saying that not tipping your server is praxis. if you are able to tip i think that you should. i also think that “it’s the social contract in america to tip your server” needs to be read as “the structure has been built so that resisting it is tantamount to being a class traitor, and there are no winners in this situation”. i make less than 1k a month. tipping at 15% is straight up not viable all of the time if i want to pay rent. that’s not praxis, that’s me trying to keep a roof over my head, same as the service worker who i can’t always tip. so much analysis of this matter on social media tends to boil down to brute utilitarianism that causes further fragementation among the working class, and not for unjust reasons.
but just as not tipping my server isn’t praxis, tipping my server also isn’t praxis. not because it doesn’t help the individual (it does) but because it functionally validates the extant system in which the customer directly pays the wages. especially in the digital age: whereas cash tips are often considered nontaxable income, digital tips are administered as directly taxable income by the employer. when tips are paid out as wages i think it’s a little unfair to consider them to be “gratuities”.
again: not tipping isn’t praxis, but i wonder often about how many people who parrot this point are engaged in labour organizing or support in any way other than tipping. everyone deserves to be paid for their labour. but likewise, putting the onus on the working class customer to do so doesn’t actually help anyone except for the employer.
if you’re getting pissed at other working-class people for not tipping high numbers, especially impoverished and/or marginalized people, i hope that you are also engaged in literally any form at all, no matter how intense or dedicated, to any kind of action or organization that supports increasing minimum wage and shifting this responsibility from the customer to the employer (i.e. working class to owning class).
#vent of sorts#i keep seeing that post about ''not tipping your server isn't praxis'' with the addition of#''i was a server who got yelled at by a european for being american at an american tourist memorial for 9/11 because of the iraq war''#and again i say this in a sense that isn't meant to diminish the legitimate trauma of service work#trauma in a very genuine sense#(brief reminder that this is what the term ''emotional labour'' was coined to describe is being expected to regulate and perform emotions#for your job but only being paid minimum wage because the only ''labour'' you're doing is physical/mental and keeping a smile while being#berated isn't ''labour'')#but without directly comparing and weighing traumas and experiences in order to invalidate another#i'm so tired of seeing ''not tipping your server doesn't help anyone'' specifically being backed up by the idea#that tipping and paying into the tipping model (no pun intended) is a morally neutral or net-positive action#without actually considering the widespread consequences of tipping culture as a whole on labour wages and employee rights#of course not tipping isn't going to solve anything#nothing is solved on an individualist level#but the idea that NOT tipping is a non-solution that individuals take#being refuted by the idea that tipping as a buffer that individuals engage in#rather than it leading into any discussion about organizing#is absolutely fucking infuriating#because believe me i WANT to tip servers i WANT to make sure that everyone is paid#but if i walk into a local brewpub and buy a beer at the isolated beer shop next door by a till worker i am prompted to tip as if it were#a full service establishment and transaction#and i think that is evidence enough that tipping is not a ''thank you'' to your server but rather the employer offloading the expectation#of paying their employees proper wages onto the customer#anyways as ever the solution isn't individual action but collective organizing and community support#if you're going to tip then tip in cash and if you're not going to tip then be as kind as possible#and if you're acting as if tipping your server is the ONLY morally correct action in this situation then please#look around at your local community organizations and labour organizations and housing organizations instead of yelling online at people#who often are not being paid enough to be able to pay rent let alone pay another person's wages#mutual aid is great and important but i straight up don't consider it ''mutual aid'' if it's filtered through an employer's income
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I love it when i accidentally stay up on the night im supposed to be catching up on sleep it totallly doesnt make me feel horrible all week long
#talk post#i love this blog i want to live here#I cant!!! i just cant!!! go to bed at a normal fucking time istg#but noooooo the wild grinders wiki no some stupid bullshit no one has ever cared about before#WHEN I DONT GET ENOUGH SLEEP MY MENTAL HEALTH GETS WAY WORSE!!!!! IF I DONT FIX IT WE ARE GOING TO GET TOO SILLY#(yelling at a mirror)#seriously bothers me tho that Im always worried about how intense my negative feelings have been lately#and im like “oh ill just get more sleep” and then immediately fuck it up the next night making me tired all week#making me feel SO bad in the mornings and at night and increasing my paranoia and other such thoughts#and in trying to tune it all out just forget about it again leading to me fucking it up again#this is a bit dramatic its only happened 2 weeks in a row#but that feels like a lot because thats like 10 nights where i felt like i blinked and i had to wake up and go to school#and not only deal with my shitty social skills but the results of said thing#and also try to fight the thoughts that are like “this shits pointless im not doing this” LIKE PLEASE pretend to be normal for one year#and also that one teacher i have who demands every students attention while he teaches like i already finished the work sheet shut it#like i do well in that class just let me do what i want im not being distracting like girl i have at least an 87 dw about me#PLUS most of the time im not even on my phone he just really wants me to look at the board but girl as i said I ALREADY DID WHATS ON THERE#i feel like i never get to relax but i do all the time so i dont know what i mean#i keep saying “its ok as long as i can bury all my thoughts and just keep going while filling what free time i have with things i enjoy”#but things only work for so long#i hate the passage of time#anyawy erm wrong my guitar is in my mind (stupid ass guitar riff)#walks over to my bed and trips on the way falling asleep on the floor#ramble#hit post
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