#does this need more clarification?

[miaeons]

always knew @neil-gaiman was a creep ... sorry but almost every adult man using this website is 😂 unless ur posting ur art n interactin so minimally with others, ur a creep 🙄

[faksyan]

Have you ever looked at the list of autism traits and very confidently said well I don't have that one only to notice years later you are doing the fun leg movements from a show you just watched in your kitchen at six in the morning and you suddenly Get what they meant by copying body movements and stuff and surprise you've been doing it all that time actually and now you are Aware of it so your body feels weird but you also still want to do it so your brain just bluescreens. or is that too specific.

[knightlycowboy]

you ever think about how no one in star wars gets a happy ending <3 literally nobody <3 what the hell <3

[kor-ee-an-door]

Somebody needs to write a soldier!Alina AU because I am thinking about how Ana Kuya taught and fostered Alina so that she wouldn't die in the trenches but in her separation I do think she has also been spared of the worst that happens in war. Cartography is fine and all, but would she still act the same had she killed someone before? How would she have handled it? What if she had seen her friends die under Fjerdan rifles, would she begrudge the Darkling as harshly for creating the Fold while trying to save his people? All I'm thinking is "yuyeh sesh", over and over and Alina has been through so much and the fact her powers were hidden and that she has wasting sickness is a big reason some of these things were happening, but in terms of show canon, Kirigan is just another General and had Alina been a proper soldier, who saw the bloodshed, the loss, the War and still didn't side with him, I would have found her a bit more credible

[undyinglantern]

“very allosexual scenario” I mean the comment about there being no love there. Like yeah man I feel no love toward the act of sex literally always. All (hypothetical) sex is done without love

[thepringlesofblood]

yes, yes! I personally see a lot of this in ART from the murderbot diaries, who is a sentient spaceship. it’s cool to see how everyone pictures it in their heads, and the art (lol) is amazing, but it always feels weird to imagine ART as a human when it emphatically isn’t, especially since it’s so interesting to explore how it expresses itself with its “ship-body” - flickering the lights minutely to annoy secunit, sending little drones through the corridors to carry things to people, adjusting the oxygen content when secunit first stepped aboard, fabricating a special crew uniform for secunit. it’s fascinating.

on a completely different note, not a robot, but if you want to fuck calroy cruller, you have to at least admit that his canon design is a piece of cake w legs.

he has a top hat. it sits on top of the strawberry you put as a decoration on a piece of cake. he’s committed atrocities. many people want to fuck him. all of these things can be true at once.

if youre gonna fuck the robot, fuck the robot the way god intended

[catboybiologist]

“As a biologist, the terms biological woman and man don’t make any sense to me” okay then you’re an idiot and a terrible biologist. I swear to god, morons like you only become biologists just so you can hold it over others, when in reality, if biology deniers like you can become biologists, then being one really doesn’t mean much anyway. But this probably just gave an autogynophile like you a boner to read, anyway.

Oh fun! Haven't gotten one of these in a while. Disregarding the fact that you somehow think the qualification for being a biologist entirely hinges on defining womanhood, I do need to ask some clarification. I know I'm feeding the trolls here, but here we go: does your definition of "biological woman" mean:

Sociological woman? Eh, context dependent, I'm not fully out of the closet, but oftentimes, I am and present femme. So let's call that one 50/50.

Psychological woman? Because I am one.

Neurological woman? Because I am one [1].

Physical woman? My soft tissue redistribution is handling that well.

Hormonal woman? My blood tests are within cis female ranges.

Transcriptional woman? As a signalling molecule, the downstream effects of estrogen have broad transcriptional effects, completely changing the profile of gene expression and functional genomics of my cells. [2]

Genetic woman? I mean, see my above point- as far as my genes that are actually active, I have all of the same transcripts being produced, controlling which genes are expressed.

Karyotypic woman? I actually have a few signs pre-HRT that might point to a non-XY chromosome pair, but I haven't had a karyotype. We'll put that down as unknown. And hell, even if its XY, there's plenty of cis women who are karyotypically XY, with suppressed sry or complete androgen insensitivity. Interestingly enough, a completely androgen insesitive woman can go her whole life without knowing- and functionally, is very similar to a trans woman, actually. Fancy that. [3]

Reproductive woman? I can't produce an egg cell, but neither can significant fractions of cis women. Also, this is all gonna change soon, which is fun. [4]

There's also a lot of understudied aspects to the biology of HRT and even pre-HRT that are emerging, largely demonstrating widespread cellular and genetic remodeling of trans individuals undergoing hormone therapy. The field is a bit behind due to constant political pressure to revoke funding, but a lot of the results are extremely exciting in both testosterone and estrogen hormone therapies. I'm sure that, as a self professed biology As someone who presumably has a lot of expertise in biology, I'm assuming that you're aware of all of this cutting edge research, and are keeping up with modern papers, including but not limited to these cool findings:

Trans men on HRT exhibit significant genetic and transcriptional changes that make them biochemically male. [5][6]. It's a good hypothesis that the same happens with estrogen treatment, but those studies don't exist yet- I'm sure you're reserving judgment until more publications exist, of course.

Trans men on HRT develop male cell types and tissues. [7]

Trans women experience muscular and blood cell changes that align with cis women moreso than cis men [8]

And many, many more! This is an exciting, underserved, and groundbreaking field of research, and I'm sure you're keeping up with the latest in scientific journals about it.

I'm sure, of course, that you understand that it becomes impossible to draw a distinct line anywhere in here, and that words like "woman" are shorthand for the myriad of traits that invisibly synthesize in our mind and in society to represent a concept? I'm sure you understand that science is fundamentally descriptive, not prescriptive? I'm sure that you understand that these findings, while really cool and interesting, actually don't mean jack shit about what the word "woman" means or not?

As someone who is the ultimate decider in what a biologist is, I'm sure you know that bioessentiallism is a childish mindset that completely ignores and disregards the constantly changing, dynamic nature of biological systems, something that extends well beyond biological sex and its relation to gender.

I'm sure that also, that you understand that beyond just this, that the role of science in society is to advise how to achieve our moral principles, not create moral principles in themselves. And I'm sure that understanding means you know that trans affirming healthcare and supportive societal treatment leads to reduced mortality and increased happiness for everyone, right?

So great to talk to someone who is surely a scientist on this. You are a biologist, if you're talking like this, I assume? I assume you're not going to spit complete misreadings of scientific language from the background sections of these papers that only reveal you've never read a scientific paper in your life if you're thinking this way? I assume you have experience interpreting data like this?

Also, imagining my genitalia while writing this? Ew. Please stop projecting your fetishes into my inbox.

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Florian Raths, Mehran Karimzadeh, Nathan Ing, Andrew Martinez, Yoona Yang, Ying Qu, Tian-Yu Lee, Brianna Mulligan, Suzanne Devkota, Wayne T. Tilley, Theresa E. Hickey, Bo Wang, Armando E. Giuliano, Shikha Bose, Hani Goodarzi, Edward C. Ray, Xiaojiang Cui, Simon R.V. Knott, The molecular consequences of androgen activity in the human breast, Cell Genomics, Volume 3, Issue 3, 2023, 100272, ISSN 2666-979X, https://doi.org/10.1016/j.xgen.2023.100272. (https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/S2666979X23000320)

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[chuluoyi]

the secret wife

- nanami kento x reader

follow the first years’ misadventures as they find out that apparently, the infamous 7:3 sorcerer is also a dutiful and loving husband in private!

genre/warnings: crack, fluff, the first years are simply chaotic, an attempt at humor, gojo cameo (he’s so insufferable), mentions of pregnancy, nanami being the best husband there is

note: based on an anon's suggestion, this is a spin-off to love entries' wife (so gojo is married to love entries reader naturally!) this is full chaos and crack omg so sorry and isn't proofread bc i’m kinda tired so pls forgive any mistakes and my dry humor :')

general masterlist

On one fine, sunny day, which was supposed to be a calm and relaxing afternoon...

“Hello? Yuji—”

Megumi could've sworn, they weren't usually this nosy.

“Gojo-sensei! It's urgent!”

Call it indulgence, because Nobara's curiosity just got the better of her.

“Oh? What's—”

“Does Nanamin have a wife!?”

And Yuji... well, he just needed answers, because the three of them were now in the ‘Mom and Baby’ section of department store, having just witnessed a monumental sight of their esteemed mentor, Nanami Kento—

—with a remarkably stunning woman hanging onto his arm.

“Huh?” Gojo's confusion was evident from the other line. Oh, yeah. Yuji had decided to cut to the chase and call him too, hoping for a swift clarification.

Okay, so why were the trio—plus Gojo on the speakerphone—hiding behind a pillar just to spy on Nanami and his very possible wife? Let us rewind 30 minutes before...

Yuji considers himself to have an exceptional eye and taste for women.

And 30 minutes ago, when he fell on his butt on the rough, hard asphalt in the jammed Shibuya crossing after accidentally getting shoved by the crowd, and encountered a kind, vivacious older woman—you, who extended a hand to help him up, he was even more convinced of that.

“Are you alright, Itadori-kun?” your soft voice entered his ears, catching him off-guard, and Yuji was certain of two things then.

One, that you were just like a literal angel descended from skies above, all dolled up and pretty with your flowy sundress.

“Ah, uh—” he stammered, eyes darting everywhere and anywhere at once as his palm started sweating after clasping your hand. “I-I am…”

And two, for the life of him, he had no idea who you were.

But it registered late in his mind to ask as he was busy controlling his ragged breathing and instant crush, and before Yuji knew it, you graced him with another kind smile and went on your way.

And did he feel so miserable afterwards.

. . .

“She’s sooo hella pretty, Fushiguro! And she knows me! Me!”

Megumi sighed, eyeing his friend in disgust. Truthfully, all he wanted was to return to the dorms and collapse onto his bed, and not listen to his friend’s incoherent ramblings.

"You sure you weren't imagining things?" Nobara questioned with slight irritation. "After you embarrassed us in front of Gojo-sensei's wife a while back, please think more before you act."

"I'm not, I swear! She said my name!"

"Itadori, can you please just not?" Megumi grumbled, having enough of this ruckus. "I want to walk back in peace."

And so tucking away his pout, Yuji walked in silence just as his best friend asked, and he was really going to leave it at that when suddenly he caught the sight of a familiar pristine coat and the sundress from earlier. “Oh?”

"Isn't that Nanami-san?" Nobara also spotted him, her eyes widening when she saw you, who was happily beaming as well as Nanami's light chuckle. "And wait, who is—?"

"That's her!" Yuji burst out, pointing decisively in your direction. "That's who I was talking about!"

Oh, no. Megumi dreaded it already. He could already see the utter catastrophe—

"I'm going after them!"

"Wait, Itadori! Me too!"

Too late. Before he could stop them, Nobara and Yuji had followed the pair. Reluctantly, Megumi trailed behind them too, albeit wearing a vexed scowl. Yet despite his misgivings, he couldn't deny that the things he saw over the next 30 minutes were genuinely unexpected.

Nanami consistently led you to a quieter spot away from the bustling crowd, his hand holding yours firmly. He would occasionally throw you a smile, or when you didn’t hold hands, then he’d wrap an arm around your waist. And to the trio's bewilderment, they also saw him tenderly brushing his lips against your head while on the escalator.

Soft and gentle. It was a side of Nanami Kento they had never witnessed—either with anyone else or even himself.

The two of you ventured through home appliances, visited food stalls, and eventually... the ‘Mom and Baby’ section.

"Do you want to rest for a bit?" Nanami's voice held a touch of concern as his hand settled on the small of your back, and seeing that, Nobara positively swooned.

"Oh, no, I'm fine," you responded with a reassuring smile. "Let's head over there. I'd like to see that next!"

Watching you and Nanami meticulously going through strollers and cribs like a pair of would-be parents was apparently too mind-blowing for Yuji and Nobara, leading to the decision to call Gojo right then and there. And, as they say, the rest was history.

"Last I heard, Nanami wasn't married," Gojo answered resolutely. "If he is, then it's the ultimate betrayal because he never told me!"

"But we see him with a woman! At mother and baby care section!"

Gojo hummed in thoughtful manner. "Okay, students. Now I'm tasking you to see this to the very end! Keep me on the line!"

With that, Operation: Uncover Nanami's Wife was officially underway, and frankly, the way the three of them were clumsily tailing the 7:3 sorcerer made Megumi want to facepalm. How was it that Nanami hadn't noticed their rather conspicuous attempts at all?

Now you were fawning over baby clothes, cutely trying not to squeal as you picked a little blue and yellow overalls. "Kento! Kento! Look, how cute!"

And all of them were floored once again when the expression on his face softened, as a warm smile adorned his lips. "Yeah, they are."

"Is she pregnant? She doesn't look it..." Nobara remarked, squinting and frowning, still watching the two of you like a hawk.

"Or maybe they're shopping for someone else?" Megumi suggested, earning teasing grins from Yuji and Nobara, to which he quickly rolled his eyes, as they chorused, "Looks like you're curious too!"

After a while, you moved from the clothes to sections stocked with mother's necessities. Yuji leaned against one of the racks, pressing his ear against it, with Nobara and Megumi crowding behind him, attempting to catch a snippet of your conversation with Nanami.

"I think we should get some heat packs and these pillows—"

"Oh, Kento! You're such a worrywart, I still won't need them for a few more months—"

"Wait, what?" Yuji whipped his head around in surprise, causing Nobara, who was leaning on him, to stumble and inadvertently collide with the racks.

"Eh? Huh!?"

Unfortunately, the racks weren't sturdy enough, and the force caused them to sway dangerously. Nobara, sensing her imminent fall, instinctively grabbed Yuji's arm to steady herself. However, he got tugged instead and their combined weight exacerbated the situation, leading to the racks quickly toppling over and a deafening commotion ensued—

Crash!

"Careful!" Nanami immediately pulled you behind him, a protective arm around your shoulder, sensing your shock from the sudden crash. He was on high alert, expecting some sort of attack of cursed spirits, but instead, he was met with the most astounding sight of the bickering culprits amidst the fallen racks.

"Kugisaki! What are you doing!"

"You dumbass! Why didn't you stop me from falling?!"

"Itadori-kun...?" Nanami called out in utter disbelief, his mind couldn't fathom as to why the first years were here. However, his attention quickly shifted to Megumi, who was seething and sending his friends a glare so hard it could drill a hole into them.

Then, the boy swiftly fixed himself into a low bow in front of him, ashamed, disregarding Yuji and Nobara's groans altogether. "Nanami-san, I'm very, very sorry on their behalf."

"What are the three of you doing here?" he inquired, and poor Megumi seemed at a loss, huffing as he nervously rubbed the back of his neck, unsure of where to even start.

Meanwhile you were full of worry for the fallen kids. "Oh my gosh, are you alright?"

For the second time today, you tried to help Yuji to stand on his feet, and this time, he really had a good look over you.

It wasn't exactly noticeable due to how loose your dress was, but now he could see that under it, your belly was slightly rounded—an unmistakable baby bump.

Amidst his shock and pain, Yuji couldn't bring himself to take your hand as he inadvertently let this slip, "N-Nanamin! You knocked her up!"

Nanami blinked. You gaped. Megumi and Nobara went pale in sheer horror, ready to murder their friend on the spot for his extreme height of rudeness.

“Itadori-kun,” Nanami cleared his throat then, and if he was offended, then he chose not to show it. “First of all, I’m sorry for not introducing you sooner. This is Y/N, my wife, and yes,” his tone hardened slightly, “She’s carrying our first child.”

“S-so you are married!”

“Yes, that was what I—”

“What the hell?! NANAMIIII!”

Oh, the freaking phone. After his fall, Yuji’s phone ended up on the floor, and of course, Gojo did hear all of the entire madness, evident from how his voice blared from the phone.

Nanami frowned, unwittingly reaching out towards the phone. “Who—?”

“NA-NA-MI!" Gojo screeched in righteous exasperation, and the former immediately pulled away from the phone with a cringe. “How could you?! I invited you to my wedding! Are you a hermit or something—how could not tell anyone!? Didn’t you say I can officiate—”

“I said no such thing. Please refrain from saying outrageous things, it’s both annoying and misleading,” Nanami stressed, growing more irritated by the mere sound of Gojo's whining voice and feeling his patience waning rapidly.

"Aren't we friends?! How—!"

"Should I find you instigate one more of this... shenanigans with the kids, I won't hesitate to report you to Yaga and your wife," he interjected then with clear irritation, and right that second, Gojo shut himself up.

Yuji, Nobara and Megumi couldn't help drawing that one conclusion in wonder: So, that's what Gojo-sensei is afraid of.

Nanami swiftly ended the call with a flick of his finger, returning the phone to the still mystified Yuji. Turning back to the trio, Nanami's irritation simmered as he glanced at the mess of broken goods on the floor, as well as noticing the approaching clerks.

"You three..." Nanami started, his voice rising slightly, unfaltering even as the three of them flinched. "Do you realize what you've done? Are you so idle that you can ditch your assignments?"

"Kento, don't be too harsh," you rebuked, placing a hand on his arm with a frown on your face. Nanami sighed, looking over the situation once again. It was a whole rack of baby necessities destroyed; plates, glasses, and whatnot scattered across the floor.

Nobara bit her lip in anxiety. “Oh my god, who's going to pay for all this damage?” She could already imagine the staggering amount this mess would cost. This is worth millions, anyone can go bankrupt.

There was only one person who can and will. Immediately, both Nanami and Megumi turned to her with a shared resolve.

"Gojo," Megumi blurted.

"He will be charged for everything," Nanami added with spite.

Epilogue

"You just love those kids, don't you, Kento?"

That night, when both of you were ready for sleep, Nanami had one hand caressing your still growing belly, and you teased him with a chuckle.

"Huh?" your husband looked at you in mild confusion as he stopped stroking you. "What do you mean?"

You giggled again. "You said to put it on Gojo's name, but in the end, you were the one who covered the damages first."

Nanami huffed lightly. "That's because I can't get the kids in trouble. But mark my words, I'll make sure Gojo pays up later, by force if I need to." He made a face when he remembered just what a massive bill it was. "That's too much money to be spent carelessly. We have our child and our future to consider."

"You're always like that," you sighed fondly, taking his hand and placing it back to the swell of your belly. "Always on the first line of defense for the students." Your smile widened. "It makes me think... just how lucky our kid will be with you as their father."

"On the contrary, I'm counting my blessings that they'll have someone as soft as you for their mother," your husband retorted with a smile, kissing your temple. And your heart melted into a puddle by his affectionate gesture.

"That's too sweet... ah, yeah," suddenly, you were reminded of a critical thing. “Kento, have you ever considered telling everyone else that we're married? At least to people at school?”

Nanami always wanted privacy for safety reasons most of the time, and you understood that, but seeing that Gojo and the first years knew already, you thought it might be the best time to let everyone know.

"I honestly don’t see the need to, why?"

"People like Gojo are confused—"

Your husband rolled his eyes then. "Don’t worry, dear. People like Gojo exist to spread the word so we don't have to."

[oceanxveiined]

Her obsession with the Abyss, as well as each and every undertaking she's tasked herself with always had pretty much one common denominator and purpose–to assure her own well-being and safety. To ensure she would never be powerless in the face of a threat on her life ever again, however she can. It has been that way since she'd received her Vision, since she'd had to fight to protect her family, and each and every lethal encounter after that. At her very core, she wants to survive.

Admittedly though, even that will be secondary to not only whatever knowledge she seeks to gain from an encounter, but the assurance that her brother, or more recently her group will survive, regardless of whether it will doom her or not. Hence, it is why she will take such horribly reckless and seemingly thoughtless extremes of risk to herself in her information gathering. It's never been just her maddened drive to succeed and achieve that fuels it, but in fact because at least one of her most precious allies either stand behind her in the endeavor or happen to be one who will benefit most if she pushes to return to them with something to show for her efforts.

That, she will consider worth more than her own well-being, any day.

[jacepi-time]

Regardless of how one feels about priesthood, confessing to one another and holding each other accountable isn't a bad thing however the Bible does distinctly mention Jesus being the high priest of Whom we can directly confess our sins to. Because it was originally set up in the old covenant in the OT where people had to go to levitical priests to sacrifice their sins, but with the new covenant it's different, the whole point is that Jesus has become the new and permanent High Priest who intercedes for us and our sins. HEBREWS 7:21 (for they indeed became priests without an oath, but He with an oath through the One who said to Him,

“The Lord has sworn And will not change His mind, ‘You are a priest forever’”);

22 by the same extent Jesus also has become the guarantee of a better covenant.

23 The former priests, on the one hand, existed in greater numbers because they were prevented by death from continuing; 24 Jesus, on the other hand, because He continues forever, holds His priesthood permanently. 25 Therefore He is also able to save forever those who come to God through Him, since He always lives to make intercession for them.

26 For it was fitting for us to have such a high priest, holy, innocent, undefiled, separated from sinners, and exalted above the heavens; 27 who has no daily need, like those high priests, to offer up sacrifices, first for His own sins and then for the sins of the people, because He did this once for all time when He offered up Himself. 28 For the Law appoints men as high priests who are weak, but the word of the oath, which came after the Law, appoints a Son, who has been made perfect forever.

HEBREWS 4:14 Since then we have a great high priest who has passed through the heavens, Jesus, the Son of God, let us hold fast our confession. 15 For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but one who in every respect has been tempted as we are, yet without sin. 16 Let us then with confidence draw near to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need.

1 JOHN 2:2 My little children, these things I write to you, so that you may not sin. And if anyone sins, we have an Advocate with the Father, Jesus Christ the righteous. 2 And He Himself is the propitiation for our sins, and not for ours only but also for the whole world.

JOHN 14:6 Jesus said to him, “I am the way, and the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me

1 JOHN 1:9 If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. PSALM 32:5 I acknowledged my sin to you,     and I did not cover my iniquity; I said, “I will confess my transgressions to the Lord,”     and you forgave the iniquity of my sin. 

It's important to the whole scope of salvation that we have direct contact and communication with Jesus and that He forgives us of our sins, human priests are still limited by their own humanness and even if one believes one can confess to priests for sin be it for accountability or something else, that doesn't negate the fact you can go to Jesus at any point without needing a priest to intercede for you. Jesus Christ is the Intercessor.

girl help I'm being faced with the overwhelming depth of my own sin

[blkkatsuki]

methinks I shall not interact with any blogs that constantly participate in naruto discourse

[incognit0slut]

The Last Laugh

Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3

Spencer is forced to share a room with his rival. This is part two of Lose Control but can be read as a standalone.

warnings: sexual tension, a lot of banter, female oral, edging, rough sex, unplanned creampie (is that a thing?) words: 5,3k a/n: someone requested a part two with a one-bedroom trope and since this is one of my favorite stories, I had to do it

...Thinkin' you're winnin' with all of your grinning but I got the last laugh...

"I'M NOT SLEEPING WITH REID."

The idea was absurd. Ridiculous. Insane. Out of all the people in her team, why was she paired up with him?

According to Garcia, the only choice she had to spend the night in this remote town was with the person she least wanted to engage with. Did Garcia not know how much she had been trying to avoid him? How much she had been attempting to act as if the mere proximity with him wasn't making her lose her mind?

"Why not?" Garcia asked, handing her a key. "He's not that bad of a roommate, well, if you overlook his tendency to share random facts in the middle of the night, then he's really not that bad."

"Do you not hear yourself?" She steadied her gaze to her friend. "You want me to share a room with the person I hate the most?"

Garcia rolled her eyes. "You guys really should stop with this nonsense. You're both grown adults."

"I'll treat him like an adult if he starts to act like one." Her eyes drifted toward the man of the hour, standing at the other end of this old-looking hotel that seemed too close to falling apart, engaged in conversation with Luke. She then glanced back at Garcia. "Why can't he share a room with Luke?"

"Because I'm sharing a room with Luke."

She shot Garcia an incredulous look. "You're rooming with Luke? Since when?"

"Since always. We're buddies, remember?" She cocked an eyebrow and Garcia sighed. "Don't look at me like that, we're just friends. Besides, you and Reid are the only ones left without a roommate. Consider this your opportunity for personal growth or whatever."

"Personal growth? More like a crash course in patience. And what's the deal with Reid anyway? Why does he always have to be the exception?"

Garcia leaned in, her tone conspiratorial. "Well, let's just say Luke and I enjoy our peace. Reid, on the other hand, is like a walking encyclopedia. I figured it's your turn to experience that charm up close."

She scowled, a mix of annoyance and resignation on her face. "Charm? That's a generous way to put it."

Garcia stared back with an air of nonchalance that only seemed to amplify her exasperation. "Look, it's only one night. What's the worst that could happen?"

She shot her friend a withering glance as if the absurdity of the situation needed no further clarification. "The worst is that I might end up committing another crime in this town before the night ends."

Garcia raised an eyebrow, her amusement evident. "You're exaggerating, Reid is harmless. Plus, all the other rooms are fully booked. Consider yourself lucky we even found a place to stay."

"Lucky is not the word I would use right now."

"Just try to survive the night without killing each other," Garcia chuckled, ignoring the glare shot towards her way. "Give him a chance."

Her incredulous stare intensified. "A chance? Garcia, the man tried to argue with me about the most efficient way to organize my desk. And you know what's ironic? His own desk is a complete mess."

Garcia sighed, her playful demeanor softening. "One night, Y/n, that's all I'm asking."

She pursed her lips together. She could go on about how bad it would be to share a room with him, but the thing was, it would raise questions she did not want to answer. There was a limit to how much her disdain could stop her from entertaining the idea, and her avoidance, she realized, was more than just mere hatred.

Annoyed that she couldn't do anything to escape the situation, she shot a disapproving glance at him, who was still engrossed in conversation with Luke. With a resigned shake of her head, she turned back to Garcia.

"Whatever." She sighed, begrudgingly accepting the key Garcia handed her. "But if he starts reciting facts about, I don't know, the history of dental floss or something, I'm blaming you."

Garcia laughed. "Fair enough." She shoved her shoulder playfully. "But who knows, maybe you'll discover he's not as bad as you think."

That was the problem. Spencer Reid, in her eyes, was starting to... change. And she hated that. Why was the man she had never bothered to befriend occupying her mind more than she wanted him to? Was it because she now knew what it felt like to have his body pressed against hers? What it felt like to have him grunt in pleasure right in her ear? Just because they had sex?

Nope. Nuh-huh. She wasn't going to think of him differently tonight—or ever, for that matter.

She gave Garcia one last glare before making her way across the creaky floorboards toward him. Noticing her presence coming close, Spencer looked up and a slight tension filled the air as his gaze locked with hers. She quickly shook her head.

"You're sleeping on the floor," she declared with a point of her finger when she reached him.

A small amused smile played on his lips. "We're sharing a room?"

"Unfortunately," she grumbled. She then focused her attention on Luke. "Do you want to switch roommates?"

Luke chuckled. "I'm afraid I'm stuck with Garcia. Besides," he patted Spencer on the shoulder, "Don't act like you're not eager to spend the night with him."

Her eyes went wide. "What is that supposed to mean?"

Luke simply shrugged with a mischievous glint in his eyes, and walked away, leavingher staring at Spencer with a mix of confusion and suspicion. "What did you tell him?"

Spencer frowned. "Nothing." He sighed when her stare didn't back down. "Nothing, I swear. Luke tends to have his own way of interpreting things."

She narrowed her eyes, not entirely convinced, but decided to let it go for the moment. She turned on her heels, not waiting for him as she walked to their destinated room. She felt his presence close behind her but kept her mouth closed.

Spencer, on the other hand, found the situation amusing. He really shouldn't find any entertainment in her visible annoyance towards him, but he did. He couldn't help but notice that despite being angry, she still looked unbelievably attractive. The scowl on her face, her pursed lips, her chest heaving in anger. He took a step closer.

"This must be hard for you," he commented.

"What is?" she shot back, maintaining her brisk pace.

"Staying the night with me when you've been avoiding me."

Her jaw tightened. "I haven't been avoiding you."

"Really? So you haven't gone out of your way to avoid looking in my direction ever since what happened?"

Her steps faltered for a moment, but she quickly regained her composure, refusing to show any vulnerability. "That doesn't mean I've been actively avoiding you. It just means I have better things to do than engage in pointless conversations."

Spencer raised an eyebrow, a knowing glint in his eyes. "Pointless conversations, or conversations you're trying to avoid?"

She shot him a sharp look but didn't respond. "You know," he began again. "You do seem to be acting differently ever since that day."

"I don't know what you're talking about."

Spencer couldn't resist a faint smile at her denial. "You really don't know what I'm referring to?"

She huffed, not giving him the satisfaction of a response. The narrow hallway seemed to amplify the unresolved tension between them as they stopped right in front of their room. She could feel his gaze on her, and it only fueled her annoyance.

She tried to ignore him by unlocking the door, but as she pushed it open, she felt his presence looming behind her. His proximity was so close that she held her breath as he gripped the edge of the door in front of her. His breath brushed her neck and her eyes involuntarily fluttered close when his other hand slowly rested on her waist.

"Should I help you jog your memory back?"

Her eyes shot open. She shoved him aside and stepped into the room. "No funny business, Reid. Keep your dick in your pants tonight."

His laughter lingered in the air as he followed her inside, closing the door behind him. "The question is," he taunted. "Can you keep it in my pants?"

She scoffed. Who was he and what did he do to the Spencer she once knew? The guy she remembered lacked any humor and always kept his distance from her. It was hard to believe a simple encounter—could you call sex as simple?—had turned him so crude, or maybe, she considered, this was his true self all along.

She decided to ignore his words as her eyes scanned the cramped room, containing only an old dresser, a nightstand, and a queen-sized bed, which she pointed at assertively. "That bed is mine."

His brow furrowed. "Why do I have to sleep on the floor?"

"You want me to sleep on the floor?" Her hand gracefully moved to her chest in a dramatic gasp. "Where is your chivalry, Dr. Reid?"

"We could share the bed."

She simply stared back at him, her eyes narrowing with a mix of disbelief and incredulity. Spencer, unable to resist stirring the pot, shot back with a mischievous glint in his eyes. "Come on, it won't be so bad. Did you know that the concept of sharing a bed has been a cultural practice for centuries? It symbolizes unity and—"

"Reid," she interrupted, shooting him a pointed look. "If you're trying to annoy me, you're doing an excellent job."

He grinned, clearly enjoying her irritation. "I'm just stating a fact. Sharing a room, sharing a bed—it's all deeply rooted in human history."

She sighed, rolling her eyes. "I highly doubt our situation is deeply rooted in anything other than poor hotel arrangements."

Spencer chuckled, undeterred, his laughter resonating in the dimly lit room as he took a step closer to her. The worn-out floor creaked beneath his feet, echoing the subtle tension that lingered in the confined space of the room. "You never know. We might be making history right now."

She shot him a skeptical look, her gaze unwavering. "I doubt historians will be interested in this disaster."

He raised an eyebrow. "Are you always this skeptical, or is it just reserved for me?"

"It's just reserved for annoying people," she retorted, not missing a beat. She took a deliberate step closer to him, the air thick with a blend of tension and... something else. Her heart quickened as his gaze swiftly swept over her lips before dragging back to her eyes.

"Really?" He closed the distance between them, and she held her ground, tilting her head back to meet his gaze due to his towering height. A subtle trace of his scent hung in the air, his presence enveloping her. She felt a sudden shift in the air, her senses heightened, and her eyes traced the contours of his face—the sharp angles of his jaw, the warmth reflected in his hazel eyes. She also could sense the initial surge of longing coursing through her body.

Shit.

"Believe it or not," he added, his voice a low murmur that resonated in the confined space. "I find your company quite fascinating."

"Fascinating?" She responded, but it came out more breathless than she had intended. She took a deep breath, trying to act as if his close proximity wasn't affecting her. Her pulse, however, betrayed her composure. And it was evident in her voice. "T- That's a stretch."

"Really?" His lips curved into a subtle smile, catching the shift in her demeanor. "I think there's a small part of you that's enjoying this."

"Enjoy what? Your random facts and annoying habits?"

Spencer leaned forward. A tension crackled between them, and it swam in his eyes and played on his lips. It pulled at her chest, making her heartbeat flutter in her throat, and to her surprise, he extended his hand, tucking a loose strand of hair behind her ear. His touch left a searing sensation on her skin.

"Admit it, you're starting to see a different side of me."

She shook her head, refusing to acknowledge his point. "One night doesn't change anything."

"You're right." His hand made its way to the back of her neck, pulling her closer to him. "It can change everything."

Before she could register what he was doing, he closed the distance between them, holding her still as his lips crashed on hers. A thousand things flooded her mind all at once—each of them revolving around him. The way she melted into him felt oddly natural. The way his hands began to roam her body, the way her mouth opened for his tongue, the way her kisses became hungrier, also felt natural.

Which was bad. Really, really bad. This wasn't supposed to happen. One time, she could call it a mistake. But allowing him to have his way with her for the second time... there was no one to blame but herself. She should push him away and set the boundaries she was supposed to set the moment he invaded her personal space. But it was hard to think rationally when he tasted so good.

It was hard to stand her ground when his teeth softly nibbled her bottom lip. It was hard to think straight when she was already pulling hard at the locks at the base of his neck as his tongue explored her mouth, blindly walking her back until her back was pressing onto the wall.

"Look at you," he laughed against her lips. "You're not pushing me away."

"Shut up," she hissed, trying her best to keep her tone icy. But then again, it was hard to stay angry when he was touching her like this. His greedy hand traveled up her thighs, massaging the plush flesh. His fingers finally found the hem of her pants, and he swallowed her moan when they dipped underneath the material, slipping right underneath her panties.

Her breath hitched when two of his long fingers slide between her folds, spreading her slick before finding its rightful place on her clit. Spencer didn't hesitate when he started rubbing at her nub, smooth and deliberate, it made her toes curl and her body jumped in a moment of surprised bliss.

Her sound of pleasure was music to his ears, urging him to satisfy her even more. He was quick when those same fingers dipped inside her core, her inner walls tensing at the sudden yet pleasurable stretch. There was a distinct sound along her needy whines, wet and slapping as his palm makes contact with her clit every time he was knuckle-deep inside her. Her head fell back to the wall, mouth agape, face flushed—a sight Spencer secretly wanted to commit into his memory.

Without even noticing it, her hips started grinding to chase his fingers, desperate to reach that familiar pleasure twisting in her core. Her movement didn't go unnoticed by him, an amused, deep chuckle reverberating from his chest while he pulled his fingers out of her, rubbing her clit aggressively, knowing it would make her reach her high faster.

"You're going to cum, aren't you? This quick?" She glared at him through half-lidded eyes, not giving him an answer. His smile widened at her resistance. "Do you think I should let you?"

Her heart quickened its pace, knowing well enough what he was about to do. He was going to tease her, or as she liked to think, he was going to torture her by not giving her what she wanted. Her theory was proved right when he leaned down, his face inches away from hers, a sly smile on his lips.

"Beg me."

She quickly shook her head. A hand snaked up her back until it found the base of her skull. His fingers brushed through her strands before gripping hard, sending a jolt of pain down her spine as he yanked her head back.

"Beg me."

"Fuck you—ah!" A sudden pressure of his fingers sent pleasure shooting through her, pushing a moan from her that filled the room like a ringing bell—a bell that signaled the fact that despite how much she knew she shouldn't, she was already surrendering to his touch.

"No?" He taunted, his breath brushing against her ear. "Then I'm not letting you cum."

And just like that, the pleasure rippling through her body was ripped away.

He swiftly pulled his hand from under her pants with a smirk she wanted to wipe off before turning his back to her, leaving her all flustered. She took a moment to collect herself, her mind racing to grasp the situation. She loathed him. She really did. She despised the way he was so full of himself.

With a determined exhale, she shook off the flustered feeling that lingered. He may have momentarily unsettled her, but she was not one to let her guard down easily. She was not going to let him get under her skin. If he could make her sexually frustrated, then so could she.

If he was going to play dirty, she was going to get filthy.

Her shirt was the first thing that came off. Then she unbuttoned her pants, pulling them down over her legs. Dear god, she was going to regret this, wasn't she? But she couldn't stop. Not when the rustle of her clothes echoed in the quiet space and Spencer turned around, jaw slacked, a startled expression crossed his face as he watched her.

"W-What are you doing?"

There. That was what she wanted. That priceless, wide-eyed, disbelief face. She had to keep going.

"Taking matters into my own hands."

Her hand reached around to unclasp her bra before she intentionally took her time sliding the straps down her arms, enjoying the way his jaw clenched as you did. Eyes still focused on him, she tossed it to the side. Her hands lowered afterward, and an audible gasp escaped his lips as she slipped her fingers into the waistband of her underwear, sliding them down her legs.

"You're always so smug," she murmured, taking a step forward, closing the distance between them. "Thinking you have control of me."

Right hand reaching up, her fingertips just lightly swept the length of his stubbled chin, just below his lips. The corner of his mouth only drew up further at her touch. She smiled at his reaction, and her fingers dropped down to grip his chin firmly.

"But I can satisfy myself just fine."

And then she pulled away, the smirk now missing from his lips as she backed out of his reach. She then settled on the bed, and with her eyes never leaving him, she spread her legs wide open. She watched as a breathless sigh escaped his lips and smiled triumphantly, especially when the bulge growing in his dark pants was impossible to ignore.

With her gaze lingering on his steadily growing erection, she trailed her hand down her stomach, the tips of her fingers paused just over her clit. "What's wrong, Reid?" She hummed out, watching his chest heave. "You seem to be speechless."

Because he was, how could he not be when the pad of her middle finger slowly started to lightly circle over her clit. He watched as she teased herself, fingers gliding between her folds, gathering her arousal before slipping a finger inside. She gasped, the wet sound was audible even to her own ears as she gradually pumped her finger in and out.

He took a step closer, and her fingers moved faster as his eyes raked over her body—her luscious breasts fully exposed, legs spread apart, fingers between her thighs. A faint moan fell out of her, her eyes partially closing all the while her fingers never ceased their movement, vigorously thrusting into her cunt.

She then proceeded to put on a show for him, throwing her head back and rolling her hips. He was standing close to her now, eyes focused on her body, his tongue sliding along his lower lip. Her cunt immediately clenched at the sight of him, a bulge straining at the fabric of his pants. The sight sent a surge of warmth through her body, spreading from between her thighs to her cheeks as her fingers quickened in pace and her legs spread farther for him to see.

He was trying to hold himself, it was obvious in the way he held his composure. But then she watched with satisfaction as he stalked towards her, and just because she wanted to fluster him, she couldn't help herself from letting out a needy whine as she slipped her fingers out before rubbing her clit desperately, her eyes boring into his.

"Spencer," she moaned.

That was precisely when he lost it. He didn't even hesitate. He marched straight to her, and her finger stopped in its movement as she watched him settle between her legs, sinking to his knees. He wrapped his arms around her thighs and roughly yanked her over the edge of the mattress, and she fell on her back with a squeal.

"You're a goddamn tease, you know that?" He sneered, his warm breath brushing over her heat. "Fine, I'll let you win this time."

A gasp escaped her lips when he wasted no time leaning in, burying his head between her thighs. He wasted no time as she grabbed onto the sheets, feeling his tongue draw circles around her clit before flicking up and down at a rapid pace. Her thighs tighten around his head. and her whole body trembled beneath him, encouraging him to move his tongue faster.

His fingers dug into her thighs, holding them apart as he took his time. Ever so slowly he licked up her slit, gathering her juices on his tongue until he reached her clit, groaning every second of the way until she was shivering beneath his touch. She was breathless, mind buzzing and the room spinning as he thrust his tongue into her warmth, face becoming so deep between her thighs that heat rushed through her body.

When her thighs trembled and threatened to close, he made sure two heavy palms kept them open long enough for his tongue to drag deeper inside her. With a roll of his tongue, he was lapping at her walls, swallowing every drop until the second he heard her begin to whine.

It was embarrassing, letting him hear how worked up she was. But she couldn't help it, not when she was losing control of her mind and body. Her hips were starting to buck to meet his tongue. Her jaw slacked. Low moans spilled from her lips as he continued to ravish her, and her fingers dug into the sheets beneath her to hold onto her sanity as waves of pure overwhelming pleasure took hold of her.

"Oh my god," she whimpered, voice two octaves higher before growing silent. She was so, so close to the edge, his tongue relentlessly sucking her clit, licking, swirling over her entrance until her mind fell blank from the bliss. The heat began swelling from between her thighs, tension tightening and all she did was screw her eyes shut.

But seconds before the pleasure was nearly too much to bear, he suddenly pulled away.

"Reid!" She hissed, looking down between her legs. "You're fucking annoying."

He looked up at her with a teasing glint in his eyes, then his mouth parted a second before his tongue swiped over his lip to taste the remnants of her arousal. "What?"

Unbelievable. After pulling that stunt, he had the audacity to feign innocence. She huffed and opened her mouth to retort something but when he started to undress himself, she couldn't think of anything. Her mind was too busy taking in his slightly toned arms, his broad chest, his slim waist, and that patch of soft hair trailing down his stomach, disappearing underneath his pants.

And that was gone too, and now he was standing without any shred of clothing, and it then dawned on her that they were both very much naked. Their first time in that dusty storage room happened too fast that they didn't bother taking off their clothes, but now she had the time to sink in the way he looked wearing nothing but a smirk.

"I didn't bring a condom," he said as he climbed onto the bed. Like that was going to stop them, it didn't stop them before and it most definitely won't stop them now.

"It's fine," she mumbled just as he settled between her legs again, but when his eyes lit up at her words, she smacked his shoulder. "But you're still not finishing inside me."

He merely hummed a reply. Then seconds later he was lining up the tip of his cock with her entrance. His eyes meet hers as he teased her, and she noticed the smirk appear once again on his lips. She pushed her hips toward him, gripping his arm irritatedly, and released a breathy 'hurry up' before she could change her mind.

He wasted no more time pushing himself into her without warning, earning a gasp while he stretched her completely. He pressed his body into her, allowing her lips to collide with his and moan into the kiss when she felt him pull away just enough to slam back into her with one harsh thrust. His hands suddenly reached for her wrists, and he gripped them above her head, pushing them onto the mattress.

His eyes darkened as he looked down at her, and she quickly shut her own as he pumped himself into her cunt over and over again. His motions were aggressive, sloppy, and wild. The moment a particularly deep and brutal thrust hit her at the right spot was the moment she finally gave in to weakness as she let out a loud moan, her mind going blank to everything but the pleasure he was giving her.

Then he pulled back again, and his thick cock slid out of her partway, glistening with her juices, splitting her pussy apart around it before snapping forward, his hips going at a brutal pace, making her whole body bounce from the contact.

"God, you feel incredible," he groaned out just as she gasped from the intense pressure of him inside her, head falling above her, jaw slacked, sweat dripping down his temple. Her eyes fluttered open before exhaling a heavy breath, feeling him tightening his grip on her wrists. "We need to do this more often."

Though she didn't say it, she agreed with him. And it pained her to even consider making this a habit. But it was tempting. It was so tempting that the thought of having him inside her anytime and anywhere had her clenching around his cock, earning a low grunt deep within his chest.

Then something snapped inside her. She had started off holding back, keeping herself in check against the rising wave of sensations. But then, in a moment that felt like a long-awaited release, she decided finally to let go when he continued to hit that perfect spot inside her, and she almost felt ashamed at the noises she was making. She wasn't as vocal when she was alone, nor with other men, yet the man she claimed to hate earned every whimper, every desperate moan.

Hearing her cries urged Spencer even more. He leaned over to her and pushed himself deeper, earning a gasp from her as her legs fell apart even further, letting him sink himself as deep as he could. He pushed her hands above her head and hovered above her, letting his temple fall against hers as his hips rutted violently.

The pressure rose and the tension coiled in the pit of her stomach. Sweats beaded over her skin just the same as him, crying out for him, moans mixing with filthy noises of him thrusting into her wet cunt. His powerful thrusts then quickened, causing her to grow weak her body began to quiver in his grasp.

She cried out, wanting to warn him she was growing close to the edge, her mind growing numb, everything around her fading into black. But didn't give her the chance to speak before he pressed his mouth on hers in a heated kiss, all sloppy and wet and desperate, latching on her lips with so much fervor.

She felt him everywhere. On her lips, biting on her soft flesh. On her breasts, his chest rubbing against her hard nipples. And between her legs, his cock stretching her deliciously, a pleasant feeling that had her whining against his mouth.

But before she could whimper anything else, the pleasure erupted inside of her, red hot heat unraveling to every limb. Her release was a fiery blast—white-hot and overwhelming, turning her into the image of destruction. Her hair stuck to her skin, her back arching off the bed, feeling overwhelmed as his cock hit her deeper. She succumbed to the bliss, eyes shut tight, and her furrowed brow as she surrendered through her orgasm. 

He held her tighter, pumping himself into her as she finally let go, calling out his name in a breathless whimper. She came so hard her legs were shaking uncontrollably, but he didn't stop. He pounded into her harder, reveling in the way she fell apart for him.

"I-I'm close," he grunted. "Where... where do you want me to—"

"Inside."

He looked down at her, trying to hold himself to not combust right there and then. "Are you—" he groaned when she clenched around him. "Are you sure?"

She was already too deep in her climax that any worries faded away. It was like time slowed down, and all that mattered was the intense sensations taking over her body. It was wrong, but it was what she wanted. She wanted to be full of him.

"Yes. Please, just—please," she whispered. "Cum inside me."

It was enough for him to let go, chasing his own pleasure inside of her, hitting deep within her walls as her own arousal dripped out around him. The slick and messy noises mixed with his groans filled the room, heat continuing to rush to her face as her entire body became overly sensitive.

With one final, sharp inhale, the bliss took hold of him. His hips slowed as he began to release inside of her, filling her up with a few huffs and grunts, creating a bigger mess between her thighs. He thrust one last time as the last few drops spilled from him, continuing to press his body against hers as closely as possible.

Then everything went silent except the sound of their ragged breathing. He pulled out of her with a heavy sigh, just as spent as her, breathless beyond belief. He collapsed on the bed, his chest rising up and down as he tried to gain some sense of control, his mind trying to grasp on the euphoria that happened moments ago.

"Well that was—"

She quickly nodded beside him. "Yeah."

Spencer turned his head towards her, and she could already feel him gloating that before he had the chance to say anything, she covered his mouth with her hand. "Do not say anything."

His reply was muffled underneath her palm, and she didn't understand what he was trying to say. She didn't even bother wanting to listen to him anymore. So she got off the bed, wincing when she felt the mess dripping down her thighs as she walked over to the bathroom.

"Where are you going?"

"Taking a shower," she called out. "I feel... sticky."

She then heard some rustling and she turned to see him hopping off the bed, following behind her. She narrowed her eyes. "Where are you going?"

"I feel sticky too."

"Spencer."

His lips twitched into an amused smile. "You called me Spencer."

She groaned and turned around. "We're not showering together, Reid."

"Why not?" He pressed, following her behind. "I promise to be on my best behavior."

She looked at him, assessing the way he was practically begging with his eyes. She was pondering whether it was a good idea to spend more time with him in an enclosed space. Probably not, but considering all the filthy, nasty things they had done, sharing a shower seemed harmless. 

"Alright, fine," she caved in, letting out a sigh. "Just keep your hands to yourself."

He nodded eagerly, but she should've thought better when the spray of water finally hit their bodies and he closed in around her, burying his face in the crook of her neck as he held her waist. Then he pressed her against the cool tiles of the bathroom wall, and it was safe to say that he could not, as a matter of fact, keep his hands to himself.

Not that she was complaining.

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a/n: I know this was supposed to be enemies to fuckable enemies but they're really starting to grow on me, they kinda cute

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[talisidekick]

I don't care what nationality you are. US, UK, French, German, anyone in Europe, please do me the grandest of favours and spread this around. Steal the link, make your own post, I don't care; just get it to the eyes of your viewers because if they're Canadian, I need your help.

This petition ends May 26th 2023:

What is this about?

"Whereas:

The world is becoming increasingly hostile to transgender and nonbinary individuals;

Transgender and nonbinary people's rights to live as themselves are being restricted and removed in many places;

This includes the so-called "Western democracies" which have historically been presumed safe;

More than a dozen American states have enacted or are considering legislation eliminating or criminalizing gender-affirming care; and

Canada has prided itself on being an inclusive, tolerant, and welcoming society for everyone regardless of gender identity or gender expression.

We, the undersigned, residents of Canada, call upon the House of Commons to extend to transgender and nonbinary people the right to claim asylum in Canada by reason of eliminationist laws in their home countries, whatever country that may be."

It's better to give people an exit plan, and just hope they won't need it, then to do nothing and assume they'll be fine. Help us keep making Canada a positive place for everyone. I hope you'll sign if you're Canadian, and if you're not, I hope you'll help us make some positivity by sharing this around.

(Edit: A bullet point in the petitions description has been removed from this post, but remains on the petition. It's removal is due to misinformation around the UK's Equality Act 2010 only providing protection for those seeking sexual reassignment surgery. And while the Equality Act 2010 does explicitly state this, the Equality and Human Rights Commission has released an Equality Act 2019 Code of Practice document that specifies all transgender people are protected under the protected characteristic of "gender reassignment" regardless of desire to undergo the specific surgery initially identified in the Equality Act 2010 document. There has been, as of this editation, no direct quote or statement of plans to remove these protections from discrimination to the public.

I'd also like to add that there do exist protections already for 2SLGBTQIA+ folk to seek asylum in Canada, and the MP who made this petition has apparently been made aware of this, however, due to certain restrictions on that act, Canada currently lists the US as a safe country for 2SLGBTQIA+ folk because as long as there is one safe place(state, province, or territory) in the country for queer folk, the ability to seek asylum is denied. This petition clearly states a need to make a more specific clarification regarding this and open up assylum if any discriminatory laws pop up at all within a country, no matter if it's regional laws, or country wide. Specifying this because there's been a reblog or two calling this petition pointless and because I'm already clarifying UK law misinformation, might as well tackle misinformation from my own country as well. ♡)

[youwillfindilluminating]

dude take a breath. I literally am a person with an extremely specific whump-related kink. I was talking about myself.

I specified "fiction only" in the tags because a close family member of mine died from munchausen's by proxy, if you really needed to know that. so that's why the tags say that. jesus christ.

no no. you don't get it. the reason I injure my blorbos until they can't walk is because that's the only way they'll ever let someone else carry them. the reason I curse them to be sick and feverish is so that they'll finally open up about their emotions while delirious. the reason I force them to overexert themselves to the point of exhaustion is so that when they pass out they can finally rest.

I'm doing this for their own good.

[listen-to-the-inner-walrus]

(genuine question sorry if it comes across as spam or trolling) is porn addiction not actually a thing? and how is it connected to terf stuff (again genuinely want to know so I don’t repeat the retoric)

No worries anon, I do not get enough asks for things to come across as spam or trolling.

But yeah no, porn addiction is not a thing. Over two decades of research has not proven a goddamn thing; rather, it's proven that it doesn't exist. [1][2][3][4][5][6][7][8][9] *note, some of these are more accessible than others and some are more specific

While those who believe in it will present what seems to be a mountain of evidence for it, their evidence is often unscientific or unreliable or uses flawed measures or uses incredibly small sample sizes, including a sample of 1 in some cases.

The actual scientific consensus is that while excessive watching of porn can be a bad habit and can negatively impact your life, you can't become addicted to it the way that you can with things like alcohol. Things like alcohol addiction or tobacco addiction are related to a significant change in the neuronal transmission in your brain. Like certain drugs mimic certain neurotransmitters and impact the neuro-receptors on either side of a synapse.

Porn doesn't do that. Or moreso, porn is not unique in how it can change your brain chemistry. Someone who spends twelve hours a day seven days a week watching reality TV doesn't have a habit inherently different to someone who spends the same amount of time watching porn.

Often excessive watching of porn is a symptom of a larger issue such as depression. Many of those who self-report as porn addicts match the primary diagnosis of depression.

Also, within research, it is often found that those who self-report a porn addiction watch the same amount of or less of porn as someone who doesn't report it, mostly because a lot of it is related to shame and guilt and not addictive behaviour.

Porn addiction as an idea is most often rooted in religiosity and not science.

It can also be rooted in terfism. Because terfs hate porn.

Their arguments against porn boil down to the idea that women cannot and should not have sexual autonomy. They dress it up obviously, but if it walks like a duck and talks like a duck, it's a misogynist.

Almost any argument against porn they make can be easily countered by the fact that all their criticisms occur in every industry that exists currently, especially so in creative industries.

The porn industry is not uniquely exploitative. If people's labour is involved, it's probably being exploited or it has the potential to be exploited. Not knowing if the person on screen was treated well on set is not unique to porn, you know how many movies I can list that included actors being treated like shit? The porn industry does not have an issue with human trafficking that is unique to any other industry; it's a massive issue in industries with manual labour. etc.

Point is, it is not inherently evil. Terfs want you to think it is though because A) they hate women and B)

To them, porn equals predatory men (they include trans women in this) exploiting poor innocent women who cannot possibly consent.

The idea of women who actively partake in sex work and enjoy doing so is mind breaking for them; they often rationalise it as the women being mentally ill and being indoctrinated by porn. The idea of porn addiction suits them well because they believe porn is inherently evil like men are.

Terfs can't perceive any situation where women are not being actively victimised by men. They are always the victims and they always need protection from men who are inherently evil and inherently predatory.

They're misogynists and idiots (and very often very racist though that's not currently relevant).

I don't know how coherent this is. It is approaching the time I go to sleep so it might be very rambly. I hope it was helpful anyway. Feel free to ask for clarification that I'll reply to in the morning.

[gf2bellamy]

caring — spencer reid

pairing: spencer reid x fem!reader ( no use of y/n ) summary: your dad does not approve of spencer content warnings: established relationship, spencer being insecure, reader's dad being sort of rude / cold to spencer , reader's dad think he's doing the best for reader, reader has a good relationship with dad, spencer shutting reader out, reader works in cyber divison, reader and spencer live together

The soft rustle of leaves brushing against the windows filled the quiet space of Spencer’s apartment. The golden hues of an autumn morning streamed through the curtains, casting a warm glow on the cozy room.

You stood by the door, pulling your coat tighter as a brisk wind rattled against the glass outside. 

Spencer approached you, a faint smile on his lips. He held your scarf in his hands, carefully unraveling it before stepping closer. “Hold still,” he murmured, his voice soft but steady. 

You obeyed, smiling up at him as he draped the scarf around your neck with precision. His long fingers worked carefully, adjusting the fabric so it sat just right. 

“There,” he said, stepping back to inspect his handiwork. His warm brown eyes flicked to yours, and he smiled, satisfied. 

“Thank you,” you said softly, your voice carrying a touch of fondness. 

His cheeks flushed the faintest pink as he adjusted his own scarf. “It’s windy today. I don't want you to catch a cold,” he explained, as if that needed clarification. 

You chuckled, reaching out to smooth the lapel of his coat. “You’re too good to me, you know that?” 

Spencer tilted his head, a flicker of shyness in his expression. “Well, someone has to make sure you’re taken care of.” 

The two of you were heading into work, it wasn’t an urgent case—just a simple day of catching up on paperwork.

As you slipped on your gloves, Spencer grabbed the bag slung over the arm of the couch and handed it to you.

“Ready?” he asked. You nodded, meeting his gaze with a warm smile. “Ready.” 

He opened the door for you, the cool autumn breeze brushing past as you stepped outside together. 

As you stepped outside, the crisp autumn air greeted you, its cool touch a refreshing contrast to the warmth of Spencer’s apartment.

You walked side by side, heading towards the car, when something caught your eye—a figure standing near the sidewalk, slightly obscured by a tree. 

Your steps faltered, and for a brief moment, the world seemed to slow down. The figure was familiar, but it took a moment for your mind to register who it was. 

“Dad?”

Spencer, walking just a little ahead of you, turned at the sound of your voice. His expression was a mix of confusion and surprise as you pulled your hand from his. 

Without a second thought, you stepped toward the man standing in front of you, your eyes widening as you made your way over.

The last time you had seen him was a month ago, maybe more—life had been so hectic, and the guilt of not visiting more often weighed heavily on your chest.

“Dad, what are you doing here?” you asked, trying to keep the mix of surprise and concern from your voice. 

He looked almost like he’d been waiting for you, his weathered face softening when he saw you approaching.

“I thought I’d surprise you,” he said with a sheepish grin, though his eyes held a hint of something unspoken. “Been a while, hasn’t it?” 

You’d been busy with work, the last few weeks especially, and the guilt gnawed at you.

You’d meant to call, meant to visit—but life had gotten in the way, as it often did. 

“I didn’t think I’d catch you on your way out,” your father continued, his voice laced with quiet affection. 

Spencer, who had been standing off to the side, observing quietly, stepped forward, his presence almost unnoticed until he was right beside you.

The moment he moved closer, the atmosphere seemed to shift. 

Your father, who had been focused on you, looked up at Spencer. For just a split second, you caught a glimmer in his eyes—something unreadable. It was the kind of look that made your chest tighten, but you didn’t mention it. 

“Hello, Dr. Reid,” your father greeted your boyfriend in a polite, neutral tone, though there was an edge to it that made you instinctively glance between the two of them. 

“Spencer. Spencer is fine,” Spencer replied quickly, his nervous smile never faltering as he reached out to shake your dad’s hand.

The gesture was stiff, formal and a little awkward.

You shifted uncomfortably, watching the exchange with a tightness in your chest.

You’d been dating Spencer for over a year now, but you still weren’t sure about your dad’s true feelings toward him. You knew he didn’t exactly dislike Spencer, but he certainly didn’t seem too fond of him either.

Spencer, ever perceptive, had long since picked up on your father's dismissive feelings towards him.

You could sense that Spencer, despite his usual confidence in everything else, was trying to navigate this delicate moment. But you could also see the unease behind his smile—the way his eyes darted between you and your father, trying to gauge where things stood. 

You glanced at your dad, trying to shift the conversation. “Dad,” you began, your voice gentle but firm. “You’re barely wearing anything. It’s freezing out here.” You pointed at his bare neck, where the cold wind seemed to bite even more fiercely. 

You saw the smallest shift in your father’s expression, something like embarrassment, before he cleared his throat. “I’m fine,” he muttered, brushing it off. 

But you could tell he wasn’t. 

“Let me grab a scarf from Spencer’s car,” you suggested, already taking a step toward the vehicle, but not before glancing back at the two of them. 

Spencer gave you a small smile, one that was so tender it almost made your heart ache. You could see him silently telling you he was fine with you stepping away.

You nodded at him and then turned back toward your father. “I won’t be long,” you said with a small, forced smile. 

As you made your way toward Spencer’s car, your thoughts felt scattered. You knew leaving wasn’t the best idea. There was a part of you that wanted to stay, to attempt to bridge whatever gap still lingered between your father and Spencer.

But the other part of you knew that staying would only make the atmosphere more unbearable—like you were sitting on a ticking time bomb, waiting for the explosion of the awkward tension. 

"So my daughter is staying at your apartment?" Your father's voice was calm but laced with a quiet intensity that immediately set Spencer on edge. 

Spencer, already feeling the pressure of the conversation, turned slightly to face him. His nerves betrayed him as he fiddled with the strap of his bag, the small movement signaling his unease. "

Yes....yes, sir," Spencer responded, his voice steady, but it was clear from the way his shoulders tensed that he was aware of how this conversation was going to unfold. 

Your father narrowed his eyes, clearly sizing Spencer up, perhaps trying to gauge his worthiness. "How long?" 

"Two months," Spencer replied, trying to keep his voice even. His eyes flicked toward you, though you were too far to hear or see. You seemed to be having trouble finding the scarf in the back of the car, your movements a bit more frantic than usual.

Spencer’s gaze lingered on you for a moment, silently hoping you would find it soon, but his thoughts were quickly dragged back to the uncomfortable exchange. 

Your father shook his head, his disappointment clear. "Two months, huh? That’s quite a bit of time." He seemed to be chewing on that thought, weighing the idea with a deep furrow in his brow. "She told me you work in the Behavioral Analysis Unit." 

"I do," Spencer answered immediately.

He was starting to see where this conversation was headed, and it wasn’t a place he wanted to be. 

"Must keep you busy," your father remarked, his words dripping with something more sinister. "You travel a lot, don’t you?" 

"Yes," Spencer responded, his foot unconsciously tapping against the concrete, the rhythmic motion a sign of his growing anxiety.

He paused for a second, attempting to read the situation, but your father’s next words took him completely by surprise. 

Your father’s expression hardened as he continued, his tone becoming more pointed. "You realize that this job of yours… it takes you away more than it keeps you here, right? You’re never really going to be here for her. And I’m not sure that’s something she deserves." 

Spencer’s chest tightened as he processed the words. He hadn’t expected this kind of conversation—wasn’t ready for your father’s directness.

It was clear now that your dad wasn’t just concerned about the job; he was worried about you, about what kind of future you might have with someone like Spencer. 

"I’m not saying you don’t have a good job," your father continued, his voice taking on a more condescending edge. "But you’re always going to be more away than with her. And that’s not fair."

He shook his head again, his lips pressed into a thin line. "I don’t want her alone, Spencer. I don’t want her left behind because of your career. She deserves more than that. She deserves someone who can be there for her." 

The weight of his words hit Spencer like a physical blow. He felt as if the ground beneath him had shifted, the certainty he once had about his place in your life now crumbling with every syllable your father spoke.

Spencer’s stomach turned in knots, his mind racing for something to say, but all that came out was a quiet, "I… I understand." 

Your father took a deep breath, his gaze never wavering from Spencer. "I’m just telling you this because I care about her, Spencer. And I don’t want her getting hurt in the end." His voice softened a fraction, but the finality of his words was undeniable.

"You need to think about what you’re offering her." 

Spencer stood there, speechless, his throat tight as the conversation sunk in. He hadn’t expected this—he hadn’t expected the quiet disapproval from your father. But now it was clear.

The man who had raised you didn’t trust Spencer to be the partner you deserved, not when Spencer’s job kept him so far from home. Spencer wasn’t sure how to respond. 

The air felt thick with pressure, but before he could gather his thoughts, he noticed you walking back toward them. You had the scarf in your hands.

You stopped beside Spencer, casting a quick glance at him before looking at your father. 

"Everything okay?" you asked, your voice light, but there was a faint tension behind your words as you noticed the heavy silence between the two men. 

Spencer took a deep breath, forcing a smile, though it didn’t quite reach his eyes. "Yeah, everything’s fine," he said, his voice softer than usual. 

But your father didn’t respond right away. Instead, he gave Spencer one last lingering look before turning his attention back to you.

His tone had softened, but the protective distance remained. "Just remember, sweetheart," your father said, his voice almost gentle, though the underlying message was as clear as ever. "I only want what’s best for you." 

You could feel the weight of the conversation hanging over you. You knew exactly how it had gone—the unspoken judgment, the subtle disapproval your father carried for Spencer.

Your gaze shifted to Spencer, who was standing beside you but not meeting your eyes. He was staring straight ahead, his expression distant, almost like he was retreating into himself. 

You let out a small sigh, a mixture of frustration and helplessness filling your chest. “We have to get to work now,” you said, forcing a smile as you turned back to your father.

You were trying to maintain some normalcy, trying to erase the discomfort that had seeped into the air. “Do you want to catch dinner tonight?” 

You hoped that by inviting him, you could ease the tension, maybe even convince him about how good Spencer was for you.

“No, no, I don’t want to be a bother,” your father replied quickly. He stepped forward and gave you a quick hug. “I’ll visit you some other time.” 

He pulled away, and before you could say anything else, your father turned toward Spencer, giving him a quick, almost reluctant nod. “Spencer,” he muttered, and though his tone wasn’t unkind, it wasn’t friendly either. 

Spencer, his shoulders tense, barely glanced up at your father. He gave a small nod back, his response as polite and curt as possible. 

As your father walked away, heading toward his car, you stood there in silence with Spencer, both of you watching as he got in and drove off. 

Once the sound of the car faded into the distance, you turned to Spencer, but he was already walking toward the car.

A lump formed in your throat as you watched him. You knew him too well. His silence was louder than any words he could have said.

“Spencer,” you called, your voice softer than you intended. 

You could hear the slight hitch in his breath as he paused for a moment, standing with his back to you. 

You sighed loudly, frustration and helplessness flooding over you as you stared at his back.

You knew your father—his protective nature, his quiet judgment, his insistence that you deserve more.

And you knew Spencer, his brilliance and kindness and all the ways he loved you, even when things were difficult.

But right now, both sides seemed to be pushing against each other, leaving you caught in the middle, trying to hold it all together. 

You took a step toward him, your words almost catching in your throat.

“Spence.” you called out again. 

He turned slowly, his expression unreadable, but there was a heaviness in his eyes that made your heart ache. He wasn’t angry—not at you, anyway. 

"What did he say?" you asked softly, your voice careful, like stepping on glass. 

Spencer paused, his shoulders stiffening. He closed his eyes for a brief moment, as if trying to push the memory away.

“Nothing. It’s okay,” he muttered, his tone clipped, before he turned and made his way to the driver’s seat. 

The finality in his words stung, even though you knew he didn’t mean it to.

You bit your lip, trying to hold back the tears that threatened to well up. You didn’t want to cry now. Swallowing the lump in your throat, you climbed into the passenger’s seat. 

The silence between you was deafening. You stared out the window, the familiar streets passing by in a blur, but your mind wasn’t on the scenery.

You found yourself missing the easy, lighthearted atmosphere that had filled Spencer’s apartment just an hour ago.

Neither of you spoke the entire drive to work. Even in the elevator, where you usually exchanged soft smiles or playful remarks, the silence persisted.

Spencer was clearly lost in thought, his brows furrowed, his gaze distant. The tension in his body hadn’t eased since the conversation with your father, and though you knew he needed time to process, the quiet was starting to feel unbearable. 

You spent the morning at your desk, your fingers hovering over your keyboard, barely getting any work done.

The cyber division hadn’t assigned you much today—thankfully—but even the small tasks you had felt like too much in your distracted state.

Your thoughts kept drifting back to Spencer.

By lunchtime, you couldn’t take it anymore.

You needed someone to talk to.

You rushed toward Garcia’s office. The door to her brightly decorated space was slightly ajar, and you didn’t hesitate to step inside.

Garcia was at her desk, typing furiously, her energy as electric as ever. 

“Hey, sunshine!” she greeted, glancing up with a warm smile. But her expression shifted the moment she saw the look on your face. “Oh no, what happened? Did someone hurt you? Who do I need to destroy?” 

You let out a shaky laugh, her dramatic response easing the tension in your chest just a little. “No, it’s not that... It’s just... I need to talk.” 

Garcia’s face softened, and she swiveled her chair to face you fully. “Of course, sweetie. Sit down. Spill.” 

You sat on the edge of the other chair in the room, your hands wringing in your lap as you tried to find the words. “It’s Spencer,” you admitted, your voice small. 

Garcia’s eyes widened slightly, but she didn’t interrupt, letting you continue. 

“We saw my dad this morning,” you explained, your words tumbling out in a rush. “And… it didn’t go well. My dad said something to Spencer. I don’t know what exactly, but whatever it was, it really upset him. He’s been distant ever since.” You paused, taking a deep breath as the emotions you’d been holding back threatened to spill over. “And I don’t know how to fix it. I don’t even know what to say to him.” 

Garcia reached out, placing a comforting hand on yours. “First of all, breathe. It’s okay to feel overwhelmed.” 

You nodded, trying to steady your breathing as she continued. 

“Second,” she said, her tone gentle but firm, “this is Spencer we’re talking about. You know how he is.Whatever your dad said probably hit a nerve—he’s probably overthinking every word, replaying the conversation in his head a thousand times.” 

You nodded again, her words resonating. “I just don’t want him to think my dad’s opinion matters more than how I feel about him. I love him, Garcia. I don’t want him to doubt that.” 

Garcia smiled softly, her eyes warm with understanding. “Then tell him that. Remind him how much he means to you. Sometimes, when people are hurting, they just need to know they’re not alone.” 

Her words struck a chord, and you felt a small wave of relief wash over you. “You’re right,” you said, your voice steadier now. “I do need to talk to him.” 

Garcia gave your hand a reassuring squeeze. “You’ve got this, sunshine. Spencer loves you. He just needs a little reminder that he’s enough.” 

You smiled at her, feeling a little lighter for the first time all day. “Thank you, Garcia. I don’t know what I’d do without you.” 

“Anytime,” she said with a wink. “Now, go get your genius boyfriend and fix this.” 

After work, you stood by Spencer’s car, your scarf pulled tightly around your neck as the chilly evening air bit at your skin.

Normally, Spencer would meet you at your desk, both of you leaving together like clockwork, but today he’d been distant, avoiding the usual routine. 

The wait felt endless as you fiddled with your scarf, trying to keep the cold at bay. Spencer was always the one to fix it for you, his fingers deft but gentle, ensuring it was snug enough to keep you warm.

The memory brought a small pang to your chest.

Finally, you spotted his familiar figure emerging through the building’s glass doors. When he reached the car, he stood just in front of you, fumbling with the keys to turn it on remotely. 

“Hey,” he said quietly, not meeting your eyes. 

You leaned your back against the car, the metal cool against your coat. “Hey,” you replied softly, watching him. 

Spencer moved to open the driver’s side door, and you felt a pang in your chest as he avoided lingering near you.

As he opened the door, you spoke, your voice quiet but carrying a weight you couldn’t hide. “I missed you today.” 

Spencer paused, glancing at you briefly. There was something unreadable in his expression, a flicker of emotion that disappeared as quickly as it came.

Without a word, he got into the driver’s seat, shutting the door behind him. 

Your heart ached at the distance between you. You slipped into the passenger’s seat, closing the door softly, the silence in the car feeling heavier than the cold outside.

Spencer adjusted his mirrors and reached for the gear shift, but before he could start the car, you reached out and placed your hand gently over his. 

“Spence, come on,” you said, your voice trembling slightly. “Talk to me.” 

He froze under your touch, his fingers stilling against the gear shift. For a moment, he didn’t move, didn’t say anything.

“Please,” you whispered, your voice wavering. “Don’t shut me out.” 

Spencer let out a shaky breath, his hand slipping from the gear shift to rest in his lap. He still wouldn’t look at you, his gaze fixed on some distant point outside the windshield. 

You felt your throat tighten, but you pressed on. “Spence, I know my dad said something to you. I don’t know what, but I can see how much it hurt you. Please, just tell me. Whatever it is, we can work through it together.” 

He turned his head slightly, finally meeting your eyes. The vulnerability there made your heart ache.

“It’s not just what he said,” Spencer admitted, his voice barely above a whisper. “It’s the truth in it. He’s right. I’m gone so much—I’ll always be gone so much. You deserve someone who’s there for you, someone who can give you the stability your father wants for you.” 

Your chest tightened as his words sank in. “Spencer, no,” you said, shaking your head. “That’s not his decision to make. That’s not your decision to make. It’s mine. And I chose you. I choose you every single day.” 

He looked away again, his jaw clenching as he wrestled with his thoughts. “I don’t want to hurt you,” he said, his voice cracking slightly. “I don’t want you to end up resenting me because I can’t always be there.” 

Tears pricked at the corners of your eyes, but you refused to let them fall. “Do you know how I feel when you’re not there?” you asked, your voice soft but unwavering. “I miss you. Of course, I do. But I don’t resent you for it, Spence. I know what your job means to you. I know how important it is. And I love that about you. I love you.” 

Spencer��s gaze softened as he stared into your eyes, his brown eyes searching yours for any trace of doubt.

He couldn’t deny how much he missed you today. 

“Your dad really doesn’t like me,” he mumbled, his voice low and laced with hurt. He tried to keep his expression neutral, but the cracks were showing.

It wasn’t just disappointment; it was the ache of knowing one of the most important men in your life didn’t want him there. 

“Spence,” you whispered, your voice trembling slightly as you lifted your hand to his face. You cupped his cheek, your thumb brushing gently over his skin, grounding him in the moment.

“My dad doesn’t know you the way I do. He doesn’t see everything you do for me, the way you love me. And that’s on him. But I do, Spencer. I see it. I feel it. Every single day.” 

Spencer closed his eyes for a moment, leaning into your touch. The warmth of your palm against his cheek was enough to steady him, to remind him that no matter what anyone else thought, you were here, choosing him. 

His eyes opened, meeting yours again, and for the first time that day, the tension seemed to lift slightly. He reached up, his fingers wrapping gently around your wrist, holding your hand against his cheek. 

“I don’t deserve you,” he murmured, a faint smile tugging at his lips despite the lingering sadness in his voice. 

“You do,” you insisted, your voice firm. “And I’ll keep reminding you of that until you believe it.” 

Spencer let out a soft, almost shaky laugh, his shoulders relaxing as he looked at you with an expression filled with both gratitude and affection.

A small smile formed on your face at the sound of his laugh. “You’re stuck with me, whether my dad likes it or not.” 

He pulled you into a gentle embrace, his arms wrapping around you as he rested his chin on the top of your head.

“I love you,” he whispered softly. 

“I love you too, Spence,” you replied, your voice muffled against his chest. 

For the first time that day, everything felt right again.