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inkoutsidethelines · 1 day ago
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Ah, I see. You and I have different ideas of what counts as canon, so we're never really going to agree on this topic. I consider canon whatever George Lucas said was canon - which means that Legends, later additions by Disney, and the opinions of some psychologists are all irrelevant to me.
Since we have such differing views of what's canon, I'll (try to) keep my response short, and then I'm going to let this go. No need for us to talk in circles.
This is patently false. His admission into the order was debated by the full council in front of him. That is extremely irregular.
Okay, yeah, that's on me for not being clear enough. I almost added the caveat that his admission to the Order at all was exceptional, but decided not to. That's on me, because you're right, allowing him to join at nine was treating him differently.
That being said, I still don't think he was treated all that different once he was in the Order. What we are shown of padawan training in The Clone Wars lines up with what we are shown (which is admittedly a small amount) of Anakin's training with Obi-Wan.
Well they certainly could have handled it better than they did! Maybe it wasn't their fault but it was their responsibility to help him learn to properly cope.
I would argue that the Jedi did teach Anakin how to cope. He understands their lessons about attachment and letting go; we know he does, because he passes those lessons on to Ahsoka during Clone Wars. He knows what they teach, but he doesn't put it into practice.
because the Jedi teach that once you fall theirs no going back, which is provably false but Anakin didn't know that.
That is not a Jedi teaching. Not in the movies, or in the Clone Wars. Maybe there's some other source that says they taught that, but if so, we once again run into the problem of differing canons.
But he also wasn't in his right mind.
I'm not really going to dig into this one, because I simply disagree with the idea of Anakin having BPD being canon, so we aren't going to get anywhere on that.
His mental health was their responsibility and they didn't just drop the ball, they threw it.
And here we are also going to disagree. Yes, the Jedi are responsible for his mental health while he's a child. And they gave him the tools to get well. They were being undermined at every step by Palpatine, but the Jedi didn't know that, and they can't be held responsible for what they didn't know.
And at some point, Anakin becomes fully responsible for his own mental health, and his own choices. If he had every really asked for help, I think he would have gotten it. But he repeatedly doesn't ask for help.
He tells Obi-Wan he's dreaming of his mother, but not that he's dreaming about her being tortured to death. The advice Obi-Wan gives him makes sense with what Obi-Wan knows.
Anakin doesn't tell anyone - except Padme, who brushes it under the rug for him - that he massacred a tribe of Tuskan Raiders. Man, woman, and child.
He tells Yoda he's worried about the death of someone he cares about, won't tell Yoda who, and they're in the middle of a war. Given what Yoda knows, the advice he gives Anakin makes sense. And also Yoda wasn't wrong. I mean, maybe she would have died some other way if Anakin hadn't fallen, who knows. But Anakin choosing to go Dark Side directly lead to her dying exactly the way he saw in his vision (whether or not her cause of death was specifically Palpatine siphoning off her life force to save Anakin).
The Jedi do the best they can with what they know, but they simply don't know everything the audience does. That's not a flaw in the Jedi. And at the end of the day, I believe the only person responsible for Anakin's choices is Anakin himself.
"no attachments" in SW literally just means "don't be selfish and possessive". that's it. that's all there is. doesn't mean jedi can't have friends and loved ones. they can. just. don't be possessive and selfish about it. don't murder thousands of people in an effort to save one.
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tkwrites · 2 days ago
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Can I make it up to you? - Nico Hischier x ofc
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Title: Can I make it up to you? 
Part V in the It Doesn’t Matter AU
Part I | Part II | Part III | Part IV | Part V | Playlist
Author: Tory / @tkwrites 
Relationship: Nico Hischier x Lena (ofc)
Summary: When Lena is hit on at a Devils event and Nico responds by staking his claim rather than checking in to make sure she's okay, she’s understandably pissed. Though their ensuing fight is resolved, Nico still wants to make it up to her. 
Warnings: Sexism and unwelcome advances followed by angst and then a lot of makeup sex. Smut (18+ only!): Fingering (f receiving), oral (f receiving), face sitting, squirting, unprotected p in v (wrap it up unless you’re in a consenting relationship!), spanking, and a bit of exhibitionism if you squint.
Word count: 8,000
Comments: Well, Nico and Lena are back. This piece is out of order (shocking for me, I know), but the missing piece will be written to fill in their story. 
I had this idea of them having makeup sex that I just couldn’t shake. Which, of course, meant they had to get into a fight first. I’m sorry for the angst and all the sexism, but it gets better, I promise. 
It's been so fun writing Nico into the feminist, romance hero of my dreams. I hope he might be yours, too. 
If you did enjoy it, please consider letting me know by commenting, reblogging, or sending in an ask. Your encouragement and comments truly inspire me to keep writing. 
Can I make it up to you? 
Part V in the It Doesn’t Matter AU
Lena walked out of the bedroom, and Nico felt his eyes widen. He just stood there, slack jawed and blinking like a fish. 
He couldn’t get over the fact that Lena was his date. His date. He got to take her out and have other people know she was with him. The feeling exploded in his stomach.
When she smiled and twirled, his tongue nearly fell out of his mouth. 
The back of her dress was daringly open, held together by two thin ropes that criss crossed over her shoulder blades. A cowl of the smooth, dark fabric pooled at the small of her back. She wasn’t wearing a bra — at least not that he could see. 
Her hair was down, just brushing her shoulders in soft, beachy waves. She’d refreshed the color the night before, so it was beautifully pastel pink, bringing out the green in her eyes and setting off the color of her skin. Her makeup was just enough to make her look bright and doe eyed.
He was going to have to look at her all night and still be expected to talk to people like a sane person? Fuck. Fuck fuck, fuck.
He finally managed to croak her name, and she giggled. 
“You like it?” 
Like it? He wanted to stay home and worship her in this dress. His mind filled with visions of tracing his lips from the drape of fabric all the way up her spine. 
“You’re so beautiful,” he said, minding not to tell her she looked beautiful. She did, but Nina’s lectures about how to compliment women rang in his head. 
“Thank you.” 
Lena knew he would like this dress. She saw the way his eyes lingered when women on TV wore backless dresses like this. 
Even still — even knowing — an enormous blast of pride ignited inside her when he was reduced to staring at her open mouthed. She’d chosen right. 
She’d never worn anything like it before. Thankfully, Nicole had helped her pick it out and get the right bra to wear with it. The smooth, delicate fabric felt like a breath of fresh air on her skin.
Walking into the party, Nico couldn’t help feeling smug. When people turned to look at him this time, he was finally in a couple. Not only that, he was in a couple with the person he’d dreamed about coupling with since he was seventeen. He wanted everyone to know she’d chosen him. 
While he went about his schmoozing duties, Lena hung around with the other partners, talking and gossiping and sharing notes on each others outfits before their conversation finally gave way to real life. How people's kids were doing. How hard motherhood was when your partner was only there some of the time. What a weird thing it was to find yourself dating the boy you always dreamed you would. It was a bigger adjustment than she would have thought. 
When she stepped away to order a drink, staying close to the bar to watch it being made, someone stepped up close to her. She figured it was Nico. He was the only one that stood this close. The illusion shattered as masculine voice asked, “so what’s your name?” in a strong Jersey accent. 
Glancing over at him, she took stock. He was wearing a green suit that, on top of clashing against the olive undertones in his skin, was half a size too big for him. He needed a better tailor. And a better hair stylist. The garishly dark combover he was rocking was doing him no favors.
“Alaina,” she said. It wasn’t her name, but it had almost been. Her mother’s mother’s mother was named Alaina, but everyone in her life called her Lena. When it was time for her parents to name their first daughter, they decided to shorten it from the get go. She was named after great-grandma Lena after all. No need to make it complicated. 
“That’s a beautiful name.” He reached forward slightly to brush the backs of his fingers up her arm. 
She stiffened against his touch.
“I’m Reggie,” he said, confirming her suspicion that he might just be her fathers age. Lena felt her skin crawl. Why was a man his age even talking to a girl in her twenties, let alone flirting with her? 
“It’s nice to meet you, Reggie,” she said, giving him a tight smile, “but I really should be getting back…” her words trailed off when she looked over her shoulder to find the other partners had moved on to a different part of the party. 
Damn. There went her easy out. 
“You know,” Reggie said, continuing as if he hadn’t noticed her looking for someone. “My company owns a box for the season if you’d like to catch a game.” 
“I can get tickets.”
“In a box? I doubt it.”
Pursing her lips, Lena took a step back only to have him step forward to keep her from putting too much distance between them. Where was Nico when she needed him? Where was anyone? It was looking more and more like Reggie was the kind of guy who she’d either have to punch or run away from. Possibly both. She hoped she wouldn't have to resort to shouting. 
He smiled as he seemed to realize no one was coming to her aid. 
Lena gulped, feeling her heart begin to flutter in her throat. She pushed her drink aside just in case, grateful that, at least, they were in public.
Nico’s eyes found Lena again. That big guy was still looming over her at the bar. Through the open back of her dress, he could see how tightly her posture muscles were wound. 
Excusing himself from his conversation, he made his way to her. She shouldn’t have to put up with this shit, and this dude needed to know she wasn’t here alone. 
Spotting his forest green suit, Lena relaxed slightly, realizing Nico was walking toward them. She was going to be free of this douche at last. 
Instead of turning his attention on her, though, Nico addressed Reggie as he walked up to them. “Hey man,” he said, slipping his arm possessively around her, his hand cradling her hip.
Reggies eyes darted between them, wide with recognition. The shock wore off quickly though, replaced by a kind of conspiratorial grin, “I should have known a girl like this was with one of you,” he said. “Though I didn't think they took kindly to you dating such rebels.”
Nicos eyebrows raised. Lena wasn't what he would call rebellious. 
Instead of telling Reggie pink hair and a nose ring didn't make a rebel, or saying something about how he and Lena had known each other for years, or anything else, really, Nico took her completely by surprise when he said, “yeah, she’s not single.”
Her posture stiffened. She never saw this kind of cock slinging from Nico. He was usually so much kinder than that, not so concerned with being the bigger man. 
With the Captain standing right in front of him, Reggie immediately launched into a discussion about how the team was doing. 
Nico stood there and kept the conversation going, his hand still at her hip, forearm warm against her bare back. Were they in any other circumstance, she would have relished the feeling of his luxurious suit against her skin.
“Your scoring has really dropped off since the start of the season. Is something wrong you're not telling us?”
He said it with concern in his voice, but Lena knew it was a sentence crafted for maximum impact. She saw the shadow of guilt pass through Nico's eyes before he launched into a media-trained, rehearsed response about how he was trying his best, but sometimes, pucks just didn’t go in the net. 
“You’ve got some —”
Nico cut her off. Even if it meant he was being insulted, he preferred it to this asshole leering at her again. He was trying to keep this creep's eyes off her.
She let out an affronted little snort, and he tried not to smile, touched that she was still willing to go to bat for him. 
It was a solid five minutes of clipped, polite conversation before the guy finally got the hint and left. 
 Nico turned to her only to find her glaring. The triumphant smile slipped from his face. 
“Let’s go get some air,” she said, turning on her heel and walking toward the balcony, breaking his grip in the process. Her tone was icy, and Nico braced for impact as he followed her, his bottle of beer clutched in his hand. 
“What the fuck, Nico?” Lena asked quietly as soon as they were tucked into a dark alcove of the balcony, out of earshot from the other guests. 
“Wha—” 
“What the fuck was that?” 
“I came to rescue you.”
“To rescue me?” she repeated, voice incredulous. “You didn’t even acknowledge me! You hardly even looked at me! I’ve never felt like such a possession.”
“I know men like that,” he tried to explain, “I was trying to get his attention off of you,”
“And in the process, you made me feel like some kind of dumb trophy.”
“A trophy?” he repeated. 
“Yes! An ornament there to do nothing but make you look better,” she said. Her words and tone had maximum impact, smacking into him as if she’d hit him with her open palm. 
Shit. He had done that. His first instinct had been to check on her, but he’d pushed it aside, wanting to let that guy know she wasn’t here alone. He knew he shouldn't have second guessed his gut reaction. 
Goosebumps were rising on her arms in the cold night air. He slipped his jacket off and held it out to her. 
His offering was met with a fierce glare. “I’m trying to have a serious conversation here, Nico.” 
“I know, and I want to, but I can tell you're freezing,” he held the suit coat out again, “please.”
She took it from him and threw it on the ground. “Will you listen to me, now?” 
Chastened, he nodded. “I’m sorry.”
God, why did he have to have those eyes? Those earnest, puppy dog, always wanting to do better, brown eyes. 
“Nico, I needed rescuing, and instead, you came over and started dick measuring with that guy. Who, by the way, I’m pretty sure was old enough to be my father, but still hit on me.”
His jaw hardened. “He was hitting on you?”
“Yes.” Her voice took on a sarcastic tone, “what did you think he was doing? Telling me about his kids?” 
“I don’t know…”
“For some reason, men of a certain age always think that having tattoos or piercings means you’re a slut.” 
Wincing, he asked, “what did he do?” 
“Well, he touched me for one.” 
His jaw went hard, and a protective kind of anger flashed in his eyes. 
“What?” Nico was going to kill him.
“Not like totally inappropriately,” she amended angrily. “He touched my arm, but it still made my skin crawl.”
What the fuck? Hadn’t there been enough media and enough talk for men to know they couldn't touch women without their permission? Even when someone asked for a picture, Nico never put his arm around them unless they did it first or they gave permission. 
“Then he told me I should come watch a game in his company owned box,” she scoffed. “He totally ignored me when I said I had access to tickets.”
Anger flared in his chest. Not only was this dude a creep, he hadn’t even listened to her. “How can I be better?” he asked. Not only in this instance, but to be a better man.
“I wish you had checked in with me before you started engaging or telling him I’m not single. I don't belong to you.” 
“I don't think you belong to me, Lena,” he said, hurt she would even think that.
“Really? The whole ‘yeah, she's not single’ thing,” she threw her voice into a distorted imitation of his own, accent and all, “coulda fooled me.” 
“I didn't…” fuck. He had said that. “I was just trying to get him to focus on me instead. I don’t think you belong to me. You’re my girlfriend, I know that’s different.” 
The really annoying thing was that Lena knew he was telling the truth. It wasn’t an empty pronouncement. He really was sorry. And everything she knew of him told her he would learn from this and try to get better. All the same, she wondered if he really got where she was coming from.
“Do you even understand why I'm upset?” she asked, arms dropping to her sides. 
He'd royally fucked up if she was asking that. “Yes!” He schooled his voice into a less frantic tone and continued, “I understand.” 
“What do you understand?” 
“That you felt disrespected when I went straight into trying to solve the problem instead of checking to see if you were okay first.” It was something he often talked about with Nina and his mother. Women rarely wanted a solution to a problem. Most of the time, they just wanted someone to listen. And instead of doing that, he’d just barreled straight into fixing it. He knew better. He was a fucking idiot. 
“Oh.” It was a more succinct explanation than she'd been expecting. 
“I won’t ever do that again, Lena. I’m sorry,” he said, reaching out for her. 
Thankfully, she came into his arms willingly, even tucking her cold nose under his jaw. He swallowed against the sensation and slid his hands over her back. 
“Lena, you're like ice,” he chastised, trying to cover as much of her as he could. 
Now that the adrenaline of anger was ebbing away, the cold seeped in — and it seeped in fast. She stepped closer to Nico to try to absorb some of his body heat. 
“Can we get you inside?” he asked, rubbing her back. His hands were cold too, so he was sure it wasn’t doing any good, but it was better than nothing.  
“Thank you for being willing to understand,” she said, ignoring his question. 
It was such strange phrasing that Nico pulled back to look into her face. “Of course I’m willing.”
“Not all men are,” she said, tugging him back so their chests were once again flush. 
The fact that she’d had to put up with assholes who didn’t even try to understand where she was coming from ate at him. She deserved better than that. He wanted to be better than that. 
 Holding her, out in the cold, he dared to look at the pieces of himself he didn’t like to. The ones that were jealous and overly eager to prove that Lena was with him. That guy hadn’t posed any competition, and he knew it. In his heart of hearts, he knew she would never do that to him. He had no reason to get defensive of their relationship and should have checked in with her first. She should have been his top priority, not how others saw him. 
“I’m sorry, Lena,” he said, his voice quiet against her ear. “I let my pride come before how you were feeling.” 
Damn him. This was why she could never stay mad at him. “Thank you.” 
Her lips brushed against his neck when she said it, and it caused a shiver of a different kind to ripple over his skin. 
“I love you,” he said. 
She pulled back to look into those big brown eyes. “I love you, too.”
“Can I take you back inside now?” he asked. “I really don’t want you to get frostbite.”
“It’s not cold enough to get frostbite,” she said even as she broke away and bent to pick up his jacket. 
He was momentarily mesmerized by her bare back in the winter moonlight and was still staring when she held his jacket out to him. 
“I’m sorry I threw it on the ground,” she said, attempting to knock some of the dust off. It had been a childish thing to do, and she wished she could take it back. He’d just been trying to care for her, and she’d been so hellbent on making her point, she’d thrown his very sweet gesture into the dirt. 
A half smile lifted the corner of his mouth. “I deserved it.”
“It was sweet, and I’m sorry I threw it back in your face.” 
“It’s okay,” he assured, taking it from her and settling it on her shoulders. 
The silk lining was cold against her skin, and she shivered. 
“Let’s go inside,” he said, gently turning her around so he could lead her back to the party, his arm draped around her shoulders. 
Snuggling into his side, Lena took a deep breath, readying herself to face the crowd of people again. At least no one had heard them arguing. 
“Do you want to leave?” 
“You need to stay, don’t you?” 
“Well, yeah, but…” 
The warm air in the ballroom stung as it collided with the chill on her skin. “I’ll stay with you,” she said, shrugging his jacket off and handing it back to him. She didn’t want to go home alone. She’d just be sitting there waiting for him anyway. 
“Okay,” he said, leaning in to press a kiss to her temple. 
“There you are!” Nicole exclaimed. “Were you two sneaking off? Naughty, naughty,” she teased, winking at Nico. “Though, I can’t really blame you with how good she looks in this dress.”
He gave her a bashful smile. 
“Come on, Lena. Kristen was just about to tell us the funniest story.” 
Allowing herself to be pulled into the party, Lena glanced back at Nico. She sent him a smile and a little wave. The last thing she saw before the crowd closed around them was his cheeky wink, as he mouthed, ‘I love you.’
An hour later, they were tucked into the back of an Uber on the way home. Lena was playing with Nico’s fingers as she recounted Kristen’s story about Eric trying and failing to make dinner while caring for their kids and dogs. 
He laughed, glad that after the night they’d had, she was still willing to share these silly stories with him. 
“We’re okay, right?” he asked, entwining his fingers with hers.
“Yeah,” she said, lifting her face so their eyes met. Her anger had faded almost completely. “Of course we’re okay.”
A sigh let go in his chest. 
“Nico,” she raised a hand to cradle his jaw, “I know you weren’t trying to hurt me or anything. I know you better than that. It just kind of struck a nerve, and I lost my temper.”
Shooting her a rueful smile, he corrected, “you had every right to be upset with me. I was an ass.” 
She laughed, “you kind of were.” 
Leaning over, he pressed a kiss to her temple and let his voice drop low, “can I make it up to you?” 
“Make it up to me?” she repeated, eyes darting to his. Was he implying what she thought he was? 
His brown eyes smoldered as he nodded.
“What did you have in mind?”
“Whatever you want,” he murmured, dipping his lips to her neck.  
Tipping her head to give him more access, she found her voice suddenly much breathier than it had been. “I think we can arrange for that.”
He pulled away only when the car pulled up to their building. 
The smug little smile on her face as they rode the elevator nearly made him start to pant. He knew what that smile meant. 
Pausing as they passed through the kitchen, Nico asked, “do you mind if I grab something to eat before?” The food at those parties was never quite enough.
She shook her head. “I’ll meet you in your room.”
Although she hadn’t slept in her own bed in weeks, she hadn’t really moved anything into his room, so it didn’t quite feel like theirs. 
A few minutes later, perched on the end of the bed, she watched him come in, admiring the way he moved in his beautiful, dark green suit. The vest hugged his torso in a way that made him look deliciously thick. That had certainly changed since they were seventeen. 
Nico stopped in front of her, swallowing the last bite of apple.
“What do you want?” he asked. God, his accent was already thick, and he hadn't even touched her. 
She leaned back and swept her hair from her face before bracing with that arm, too. “I want to watch you undress.”
Nodding, he swallowed hard. “Do you want it a certain way?”
Shaking her head, she said, “just go slow.”
He started with his tie. The slip of the silk under his shirt collar was a hypnotic whisper. 
Watching her watch him made him breathless with anticipation. It was an incredible turn on, knowing she didn’t want him to be anything but who he already was. He knew she didn’t want a performance.
“Can I hang this up?” he asked, holding up the suit coat. 
 She nodded.
He walked into the closet and came back with a hanger. He removed his vest and hung it up before covering it with the coat. 
“Your hands are so sexy,” she breathed, watching him work the buttons of his shirt, top to bottom. 
His dimple winked at her. 
Glancing up, he asked, “do you want me to get you off with them?”
“Uh hu,” she breathed. She was still reclined on the bed, but her legs were now crossed, attempting to get some friction between her thighs. Just the thought of it, of his casual offer to bring her pleasure, had desire singing through her veins, ending hot and heavy between her legs.
He worked on the buttons of his cuffs, watching her. Her face was flushed, eyes blown dark with lust. Finally, he shouldered off the button down and tossed it behind him to be added to the hamper later. 
“Undershirt first,” she said when he reached for the button of his pants. 
Not bothering to hide her need, she drank in the movement of his arms and chest as he worked the shirt over his head. She squeezed her legs a little tighter together. 
He paused for a moment then, letting her drink in the sight of him shirtless in those incredibly well tailored trousers. 
“Turn around,” she said. 
“Why?” 
“Because I want to admire your ass in those pants.”
He blushed but did as she requested, adding in a little shake.
She laughed, then let out a groan as he stilled and flexed slightly, showing off his toned back.
When he looked over his shoulder, she’d collapsed back on the bed. 
“I can’t wait.”
“Wait for what?” he asked, turning back around. 
“I can’t wait for you to touch me.” 
He took a step forward. When she didn’t stop him, he took another and another until he was standing right in front of her. Reaching down, he slid one of his hands up her smooth calf. The soft fabric of her dress bunched around his wrist as his hand slid onto her thigh. 
Lena moaned, and it shot straight to his groin. He loved that sound more than any other in the world. “This is good?” he asked. 
“Yes.” 
He tried to push the skirt up over her hips, but her hand caught his forearm, halting the movement. “Need it now,” she said, guiding his hand between her legs. 
The smile he gave her was wicked. Moving her underwear out of the way, he dipped his fingers into her sweet, wet heat. “You’re dripping.”  
Her back arched, trying to get her clit closer to his hand. “Yeah. I’ve had to look at you in that fucking suit all night.” 
It was always a pleasant surprise when she said things like this. When it became evident that she wanted him just as much as he wanted her. “I’ve been half hard looking at you in this dress all night,” he admitted, finally adjusting so the heel of his hand pressed into her. 
She made a keening noise and ground against him. “Bought it just for you.” 
As her admission pulled even more blood from his brain, his entire body froze.
“Nico!” she complained. 
He snapped back to himself and started moving again, curling his fingers inside her and following the wave of her hips. 
“Oh,” she moaned, head thrown back. “Just like that.” 
He hadn’t been able to touch her like this for very long, but in the short amount of time he had, he’d been an attentive student. He seemed to remember everything she told him about what she liked. 
“Nico.” The way she said his name while they were making love was a symphony in his ears. What had he ever done in his life to deserve to be in this moment? Especially after fucking up so terribly that evening.
“What do you need?” he asked, pressing a little harder. 
Breath rushed from her mouth, “kiss me.” 
Fingers still buried inside her, he covered her body with his and captured her mouth. He swallowed every noise she made until she broke away, panting. 
“Right there,” she moaned, hips rolling. Something about the way he was touching her, fingers crooked just so, had fire licking through her veins. “Keep your fingers right there.” 
Working the spongey spot inside her, he breathlessly awaited her climax. 
“I —” The words she was going to say fell right out of her brain. They came crashing back with sudden force as Nico continued his magic. “I’m gonna come.”
“Yes. I love it when you come for me.”
Pleasure, more intense than she’d ever felt before, broke open inside her and, clutching the comforter, Lena cried out.
Nico watched her face, fascinated, as he felt her release slick his fingers .
“Fuck,” he groaned, “you’re so sexy.”
The pleasure kept coming until sensitivity turned his touch into a branding iron. Squirming away, she croaked, “too much. Too much.”
Slipping his hand from her and out from under her dress, Nico watched her chest rise and fall in sharp little gasps as he brought it to his mouth. 
“Oh my god,” she said, eyes fixed on the ceiling. 
She could practically feel Nico’s wide smile. 
“I’ve never felt anything like that.” 
“Really?” 
“What did you do?” 
“What do you mean?” 
“You were doing that,” she held up her hand, crooking her fingers as if beckoning him to her. 
“Someone told me it was the best way,” he said, a blush darkening his cheeks. 
“Someone?” 
“Courtney,” he admitted. 
Courtney had been a girl he’d hooked up with on and off whenever he was in New Jersey. One of them would snap the other, and they’d meet up, usually every few weeks. When Lena had moved in, he’d stopped responding to her, and she’d eventually stopped asking. 
Lena only met her once but instantly disliked her, later telling him, “I don’t know, she’s just so obsessed with herself. She hardly even acknowledged I was there.”
It had been awkward to watch the two of them interact. Courtney, who Nico knew liked him more than he liked her, and Lena, who at the time, he thought didn’t like him the way he liked her. It had put them in an awkward triangle of disproportionate feelings. When Courtney had left to go home, she told him, “you’re so full of shit, Nico. When you two figure out what the hell is going on between you, let me know.” 
He’d been affronted at the time, hurt she would insinuate he and Lena had anything together. Now, looking back, he could understand how uncomfortable it must have been for her to be stuck between two people so in love with each other. She must have felt like he was playing games with her. She’d still spent the night in his bed when he asked her to come over three weeks later, though. 
“Hu,” Lena said, holding herself back from continuing, at least she was good for one thing. 
“Have you never…” he trailed off. 
“Never what?” 
His blush was back, “Have you never…I mean, wasn’t that your…” he had to pause, trying to remember the word, “your g-spot?” 
A series of puzzle pieces clicked into place all at once. “I wasn’t sure I had one,” she admitted, turning her head to look into his face. “I’ve never been able to find it.”
Half of his mouth curved in an amused smile. “None of your boyfriends tried?” he asked, tracing the edge of her dress, where it curved around her shoulder. He’d daydreamed of making Lena come like that for years — ever since Courtney taught him what the g-spot was and how to find it. 
“No,” she snorted. “Milo gave decent head, but none of them were as invested as you are.” 
His vision flared red for a moment before fading back to normal. Most of him was smug that he’d been the first one to find hers, but a part of him was angry she’d wasted so much time on losers who didn’t deserve her. 
Lena sighed. No wonder she’d never felt anything like that. She never had. 
“What do you want?” Nico asked, his hand slipping down her side, sliding over the slippery fabric with ease. 
“Hm?” 
“What do you want?” he repeated, “I’m making it up to you, remember?”
“I want to sit on your face,” she said, not missing a beat. 
Nico grinned. He loved getting her off with his mouth, but the prospect of getting her off with his mouth while she was above him and he could see her beautiful face? What a dream. 
“You’ll have to help me get this dress off,” she said, standing from the bed. “It’s taped.”
“Taped?” he repeated, sitting up. 
She turned her back to him, and before she could explain what she meant, he made good on his earlier promise to himself, trailing his lips from the cowl pooled at her low back up to the little ropes holding the dress on.
Lena hummed, a shiver running through her body. If he was going to have this reaction all the time, she was never covering her back again.  
“What did you need?” he asked, lips whispering over the top of her spine, just under her short hair. 
“Nicole helped me tape it,” she said, running a hand under one of the sides until it caught, “so it wouldn’t fall off, or accidentally expose something.”
His fingers followed hers, easing the tape from her skin before repeating on the other side.  
She turned around, grasping the fabric at her hips so she could lift the dress over her head. 
Nico drank in each movement, his dick twitching when the black lace of her underwear was exposed. 
She thought about hanging it up, but there was a wet spot from her orgasm that would need to be cleaned off before she could wear it again. Instead, she tossed it aside, so it draped artfully across the floor. 
He made a low noise in his throat. 
She stood before him in black pumps, a tiny pair of black lace underwear and a bra that was some kind of free-standing contraption. No straps and no band. As she went about removing it, he realized it was stuck to her skin. It must not have been that uncomfortable, though. The red marks had already mostly faded when she discarded it with the dress. 
After easing her thong off, Lena held it out to him, hooked on one finger. She’d bought it, wanting to see it tucked into his pocket by the end of the night. While she’d been getting dressed, she’d wondered if it might end up there before they left the gala, but that hadn’t worked out. Good thing, too. Everyone would have known. That dress really didn’t hide anything.
“God, you’re perfect,” he breathed, taking the underwear from her and tucking it into his pants pocket. 
Preening, she motioned for him to lay back. 
He did, scooting up to the pillows to get in a comfortable position. 
Lena waited for him to get settled before straddling him. 
Watching her crawl up his body, knowing where she was going to end up, was perhaps the hottest thing he’d ever experienced in his life.
“After this,” she said, hovering over him, just close enough that the only thing he could smell was her sweet, humid heat, “I want you to bend me over the bed and fuck me.”
“Okay.”
Like he could say no to anything she wanted while they were in this position. 
She made a satisfied humming noise and lowered to his mouth. 
He groaned, hands coming up to grasp her hips, fingers digging into the flesh to keep her on top of him. He wanted to keep her here as long as possible.
He played with her clit, then licked through her, savoring the juices that gathered on his tongue. He hummed just to see her squirm and her nipples tighten. 
When he tried to pull away, and she followed him with a whine, he couldn't help but laugh. 
“Touch yourself for me,” he urged before latching his mouth back onto her. 
Clutching the headboard with one hand for balance, she toyed with her nipple with the other. 
The sight of it made his dick jump in his pants. “Das ist es,” he murmured, purposefully not bothering to translate. She always seemed to like it when he used his native language in bed, especially if it was praise.
Her head tipped back with a groaned, “oh fuck,” as she moved to the other breast. 
The need to get her off, to make sure she had the best orgasm possible, was a palpable itch he needed to scratch. It felt like he might just die without it. Keeping his left hand at her hip for balance, he brought the other to her center. 
Feeling his fingers tease her entrance, Lena popped her hips back to facilitate him. She was rewarded with a low hum of appreciation and a wink. 
Reveling in her expression — eyes rolled back, lashes fluttering and jaw slack — Nico continued his pursuit, easing two fingers into her, determined to find her g-spot. He’d done it before, he could surely do it again. 
He knew he'd found it, not only from the slightly different, spongey texture but also from the stuttered moan of pleasure that crawled up her throat. 
Her left hand smacked back onto the headboard, grasping desperately for balance as her hips rolled atop his face.
Milking her clit with his mouth, he worked his fingers in and out and up and down until she was trembling above him, chanting, “Yes! Nico, yes!”
He hummed back, moaning as a fresh wave of her arousal slicked over his chin. If this wasn’t about him making up for being such a prat, he would beg her to turn around so he could feel her mouth at the same time.
This was a whole new feeling. The combination of Nico’s extraordinary mouth, along with his magic fingers, was the catalyst for a series of reactions Lena had never felt together before. First, there was the intense heat that shimmered over her skin, then the pleasure that zinged from her core all the way up to her brain, and through her legs, right to her toes, still tucked into her pumps. Finally, there was the swirl of emotion and sensation that took up residence in her low belly. All together, they resulted in an orgasm so intense, she didn’t even have words to describe it. 
Color and sound and heat rushing through her until they swelled to bursting, unleashing all over Nico’s face. 
Choking out a groan of surprise as Lena’s orgasm gushed over his hand and flooded his mouth, he tried to commit every detail of this night to memory. He’d never made a woman squirt before and was bound and determined to remember everything so he could recreate it. He wanted to experience this over and over again.
She practically fell off of him, and they lay there, gasping. 
“Jesus Christ,” he murmured, swiping at the liquid dripping off his neck. He had no idea if it was her release or his own sweat. He didn’t care. 
“Fuck me,” Lena breathed, her hand coming up to her forehead in disbelief. “You’re just bringing all sorts of things out of me today.” 
Nico started to giggle, and Lena couldn't help but join in. They soon found themselves rolling toward each other, overtaken with laughter. It ended up being both of their favorite memories of the night. Yes, Nico had just made her come so hard she saw stars, but this — this laughing together in the middle of it all felt so…comfortable. It was a reminder that at it’s core, their relationship hadn’t changed all that much. 
“I love you so much,” Nico laughed against her mouth. 
“I love you, too,” she said before silencing him with a kiss. 
He moaned and pulled her on top of him.
After a few more minutes of passionate kissing, chests still occasionally shaking with laughter, Lena pulled away. Grinding her core against his stomach - knowing it drove him wild - she said, “well, I think I’m plenty prepped.” 
He grinned and managed to tamp down most of his laughter. 
Helping her off of him, he watched her stand and brace her hands on the mattress before hauling himself out of the bed and shoving his pants down. When he’d pulled the hanger from the closet, he’d intended to hang them up, but the prospect of fucking her stole too much of his brain power to care anymore. So they stayed heaped on the floor as he took his place behind her, rutting his hard cock against her. 
She moaned and popped her hips back to grind on him. If she kept that up, he was going to come before he even got inside her. 
What was it she’d said? I want you to bend me over the bed and fuck me. Bringing a hand to the back of her neck, he pushed her forward until her chest pressed flush to his mussed comforter. 
Her heels were still on, and even though they pitched her legs forward at an awkward angle, forcing her to grasp for balance with her toes, she was glad she hadn’t kicked them off. She would have been too short without them, and there was something so hot about having to rely on him for her balance.
Lena moaned. She’d dreamed of this so many times. Of him coming into her room, pressing her down to the bed, or sweeping everything off her desk to bend her over the hard surface, and using those powerful legs and hips to fuck her brain into mush. When he told her, however you want me, she knew she had to take advantage. 
 Fuck, she was the sexiest thing he’d ever seen in his life. Seeing her bent over like this, with her beautiful back and the ample curves of her ass and hips on full display, was the fulfillment of a fantasy he hadn’t even known he had. He felt like the luckiest man on the planet. 
“You like that?” he asked, sliding his erection through her wet center.
Shifting her hips back, trying to entice him inside her, she breathed, “yes.” 
He took the bate, but only teased her entrance with the thick head of his cock. 
“Nico,” she whined. 
“Hm?” he asked, enjoying this far more than he ever thought he would. 
“Fuck me.” 
Something occurred to him suddenly, “do we need a safe word?” 
She was too busy trying to get more of him inside her without falling over to respond. 
Easing back as he lifted his hand off her neck, he asked, “what’s your safe word? I don’t want to hurt you.” 
“You won’t hurt me.”
“Lena,” he admonished. 
“Fine,” she huffed, mind whirring, “cantaloupe.” She’d bought one just the day before, and it was the the first thing that popped into her mind that didn’t sound too close to something she might yell out naturally, like puck, which was the first word she’d thought of. “Now fuck me.” 
A deep groan let go in his chest, and Nico pressed her back down, hand now resting between her shoulder blades. “This is okay?” he asked. 
“Yes,” she huffed, frustration evident in her voice, “come on.” 
His only response was to trace his thumb over her skin. 
“Please,” she whined, not caring that she sounded desperate and needy. She felt desperate and needy. 
Chuckling, he gave her no warning before burring his cock in her sweet, tight center. 
Hands fisting the comforter, Lena’s back swayed like a snake as an animalistic cry flew from her mouth. 
This kind of standing doggy, which she found allowed for stronger thrusting than kneeling, had always been one of her favorite positions. It felt new with Nico, though, who was thicker than any of her previous partners. He hit spots in her she never knew she had and filled her in a way she didn’t think was possible. 
Panting, she moved with him. The solid feel of him behind and inside her made her desperate for more. “Nico,” she moaned. Whatever else she was going to say jumbled in her mouth as he withdrew to the tip before burying himself back in her warmth. 
God, she was the most amazing woman he’d ever met. Her head was turned, so he got a view of her blissful expression in profile as she moaned and panted for him. The sight of her ass bouncing off his hips had him desperate to do things he’d never imagined himself doing before. Good thing they had a safe word. She might just need to use it. 
His free hand came down on her ass with a sharp slap before he grabbed the globe of it, kneading the muscle. 
She cried out. 
“That’s good?” he asked, wanting to make sure it wasn’t a cry of pain. 
“Yes,” she moaned, “so good, Nico.” She’d never liked getting spanked before. Then again, she’d never trusted someone like she trusted Nico. She knew he wouldn’t push it too far, which had always been her hesitation with the guys who tried it before. When Nico did it, it sent so much unexpected electricity rocketing through her system, she couldn't let go of the idea of him doing it again. 
He switched hands, so his right pressed into her back, and his left was free to smack her other cheek until it was red enough to match its partner. There was something incredibly arousing about knowing she trusted him to do this. That she found it hot, too. 
Back arching with the pleasurable pain, Lena begged, “harder.” 
“You want me to spank you harder?” he asked, a little surprised. He hadn’t exactly been gentle about it. 
Her head shook, just slightly, “Fuck me. Fuck me harder, Nico.” 
Sliding his hands over her curves and onto her hips to get a good grip, he got into a more grounded stance and snapped his hips to hers. 
The fulfillment of this fantasy nearly drove Lena out of her mind.  
Her face turned slightly, so her shout was muffled by the comforter. Which was a shame, really. He wouldn’t mind his neighbors overhearing this. Especially that dick next door who checked her out every time they passed by each other in the hall. 
Unable to hold it in, he moaned, “You’re so perfect for me, Lena.” 
“Yes,” she chanted, “for you, Nico. Only for you.” 
He wanted to make her come around his cock, but her declaration had a surge of heat streaking through him, so hot that his resolve crumbled in one fell swoop.
“Fuck, gonna come,” he groaned, his rhythm turning sloppy and swift. 
“Yes,” her hips tipped, just so, making her even tighter. 
The sensations became too much, and her name burst from his mouth in a shout. 
Feeling his hot release spill into her, Lena moaned.
Joints liquified by his orgasm, Nico collapsed, his chest pressing into her sweaty back. 
It took a few moments before he could get his mouth to work right. “I’m sorry,” he mumbled into her hair. 
“For what?” she laughed.
Feeling came back into his legs, and he eased out. “Didn't last long enough for you to get off.” 
With his weight off her. Lena crawled onto the bed, desperate to give her legs a rest. Her heels clunked to the floor, one after the other.
He climbed on beside her, pulling her against him. 
“You know,” she said as she turned over so they were face to face, “just because I didn't get off that one time doesn't mean I didn't thoroughly enjoy myself.” 
“You deserve to get off whenever I do,” he argued. 
“That's really sweet, Nico,” she assured, a hand coming up to caress his cheek and push his hair from his face. She knew he had a tendency to be too hard on himself, wanting everything to be perfect every time. “But don't forget you just made me come so hard I squirted.” 
He scoffed, “like I could ever forget that.” 
“And it's not like you came without getting me off,” she assured, tracing soft patterns on his scalp. “It evens out in the end.”
He made a discontented noise but didn't argue. 
She let it drop. “Let's go clean up, yeah? If you're really worried about it, you can get me off in the shower.” 
Pulling her even closer and burying his face in her neck, he told her, “I love you.” 
“I love you, too,” she said, fingers carding through his hair. “Now, come on. I need to shower. You've made a right mess of me.” 
Laughing, he slid off the bed and lifted her into his arms. 
He deposited her onto the bathroom counter and started the shower. 
“You’re sure you’re okay?” he asked, concern in his eyes as he studied her face.
“With what?” 
“I didn’t hurt you?” 
She shook her head, “no. I would have told you if you did. I know you would have stopped if I told you to.” 
A relieved sigh let go in his chest. 
He lifted her off the counter and followed her into the shower. 
After soaping each other up, Nico did spend some time on his knees, getting her off not just once but several more times. He was too taken with her shaking legs and panting mouth as her hands sunk into his hair to stop at one.
“I did enough?” he asked a while later, after pajamas had been donned, and they’d crawled into bed.
“Enough what?”
“I made it up to you?” 
“Mmmhmmm…” she mumbled sleepily.
Tucking himself against her, he relished the warmth of her body pressed against his. 
“I forgave you long before I got naked, though,” she said, feeling it was important to clarify. “The awesome sex was just a bonus.” 
He chuckled softly, pressing a few soft kisses to her shoulder. 
“I love you,” she said, voice slow with fatigue. 
“I love you, too. Thank you for believing in me.” 
“You’re the best man I’ve ever known, Nico.”
Heart swelling in his chest, he pulled her a bit closer and settled in to fall asleep.  
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rosykims · 1 day ago
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ok i have avoided talking abt my datv thoughts but now ive finished and slept on it here it is. this is huge btw and really just a way to process my thoughts for my own peace of mind. and get out what i need to say. so yeah word salad below
2 disclaimers before i start. firstly i think im going to be SUPER blunt and clear about my thoughts on this post but then i will mostly be putting the matter to bed in my heart bc i am not someone who delights in being a hater nor do i take comfort in it. i will take from this the things i enjoyed and keep my distance from the rest. second disclaimer: ultimately i think i will still enjoy being a part of the fandom and seeing other people enjoy the game, because it will endear it to me and maybe take away the pain im feeling right now, so this isnt a long rant to make you feel bad about enjoying the game if you do like it! in fact quite the opposite. it comforts me that there are people who find value in the game and i hope in watching you play it i may be able to eventually be able to say the same
that being said . obviously i didnt like the game
which is an extremely difficult thing for me to say. i went into this game thinking "i will at the VERY least enjoy the game. not love it but at least like it. but im sure ill love it". it really is quite distressing for me that it didnt even really reach that bar for the most part. i TRIED to like it. i begged this game to give me ANY handhold at all that i could cling to, to forgive and like this game. i think the things i liked err more on the technical side. the graphics i loved, the character DESIGN was *fantastic*. the art. the pacing. the vague vision of what they were obviously nebulously aiming for. and honestly, i mostly enjoyed the main plot although i wish it had been more disciplined and constrained with the lore it was trying to expand on. act 3 was fantastic and naturally i am happy and fulfilled for the most part by the conclusion of solas's story, who i still believe was and is the best written "villain" of dragon age. sorry logang and meredith nation but i do still stand by this.
but thats really about it. as a disclaimer i am not an origins puritan or a da2 diehard or anything like that. i have loved (almost equally) EVERY single iteration of dragon age which has been released. i am one of the few people who sees equal value in inquisition and origins. i love them both so deeply. i couldnt pick between them.
for me what i love the MOST about dragon age - and which every single previous game has always nailed despite other flaws - is the characters. right under that is the world's capacity for introspection. and unfortunately nothing in this game provided that for me
regarding the characters: i do not care about a single one of them unfortunately. or at least i do not CARE about them the way that i have CARED about the other previous games companions. companions i would write banter about !!! just for fun when i was bored!!!! i would say my only exception is harding, but even then i care about her only because i care about her due to inquisition. overall i just found them all so ..... shallow. and devoid of any of the conflict or nuance or ethical quandries that make biowares stories so compelling - and sure, usually controversial! i would give ANYTHING for this game to have been controversial. for a unforgivable RO, or a problematic fave, or a cancelled wife. did bioware forget that their most beloved or at least enjoyed characters are people like anders, merrill, mordin solus, blackwall, sten, loghain, SOLAS??? i dont understand HOW they could have forgotten that, because solas is literally right there in game and handled (in my opinion as a fan) well. love him or hate him or dont care about him, he is such a hallmark of great bioware writing (in dai if nothing else) - characters who are not EASY to like. characters who are not SAFE to write and who WILL generate criticism from all sides because they are written boldly and unapologetically, strengthened by a foundation of consistent ideals, clear objectives and beautiful faults. characters that do not NEED you to like them, but instead invite you to engage with them critically. solas, even to someone who hates him, is nuanced and morally complex enough to muse and fight over for 10 whole years. hes IN this game, just as ethically murky as ever, but the morally grey hallmark of biowares writing really does kind of live and die with him alone. the rest of the companions feel like they barely made it out of their concept phase. what are lucanis's flaws??? genuinely asking. other than being a murderer who exists in an organization which buys and trains literal child slaves of course, but i'll get to that in a sec (because bioware sure as fuck didnt). um, i guess you could say hes broody?? and emmrich too. what actual flaws does he have?? he has a fear of death, as we're TOLD, but it does not really reflect in the overall convesations we have with him over the course of the game. mostly hes just.... a little bumbling i guess. bellara's flaw is being a scatterbrain. harding's is that shes..... angry??? but shes not???? fucking come on. i really felt the lack of actually being able to TALK to these people at the end of act 2, when i realized i still felt like i havent really MET any of them. and yet here rook is talking about found family and being a team. ok
and then there are the romances. which from my perspective - having romanced taash - and my friends who have romanced lucanis, neve and davrin..... WHAT romances. davrin's full romance is 20 minutes in a 30 PLUS HOUR GAME. solas had the least amount of content out of any companion in inquisition and was a last minute unintentional RO and still had like easily 50 minutes of content. so why did these romances feel like nothing. actually nothing. i was so excited for taash, but their romance straight up felt like neither rook nor taash even wanted to be there. i forgot they were technically together at certain points. zero chemistry. zero intimacy. all TELLING zero SHOWING. if you had told me that i would be saying these sorts of things about a writer like trick weekes a month ago i would call you fucking crazy to your face. i cannot reconcile that taash was written by the same person who wrote solas. i cannot reconcile that mary kirby - who wrote the fucking chant of light - wrote lucanis. its so dire. its devastating actually.
lastly i want to talk about my other point - bioware's famed emphasis on introspection and ethically quandries. again, i'm genuinely experiencing a sense of profound whiplash because when it comes solas's character you can still see it. its still there. they actually doubled down on making him worse than he was in trespasser which i LOVED and thought was so incredibly promising. they could have caved to solavellan fans and uwu-ified him but they didnt. thats great.
but where was that energy for literally anything else. everything has been defanged - even minrathous, the capital of the tevinter slave trade, does not even ADDRESS the elephant in the room of slavery. and i know because i played a shadow dragon. so tell me why i as a shadow dragon am happily allied with the crows, who solely exist to assassinate politicians and BUY SLAVES. THEY BUY SLAVES. THEY BUY SLAVES AS CHILDREN AND TRAIN/TORTURE THEM TO MURDER. HELLO??????????? there is no commentary made about the mages/templars. there is no discussion of the treatment of the elves in the north or Anywhere. there is no discussion of why exactly blood magic is or isnt acceptable - they simply tell us its bad. all the theories of the last 10 years were answered with handwaved comments or bare bones codex entries that honestly stripped so much nuance away from so many things (the blight, my BELOVED) that i dont know how im going to go about fixing it or making it right in my head. the introspective nature of dragon age always went hand in hand with player choice, but there really WAS no choice in this game as so there IS no real capacity for other interpretations or schools of thought. it is so..........................bleak.
i think the thing that finally made it click in my head that this game had fundamentally let me down was the gloom howler quest. and i know im not alone on this. for those of you who dont know - the gloom howler, "isseya" was the protagonist of the dragon age novel "the last flight". i would HIGHLY recommend you read it, especially if you're an origins fan. super bleak, super political, not flashy at all in terms of magic. it was set 500 years pre origins, during the 3rd blight. isseya is very similar to characters like loghain and solas in a way - a richly complex, beautifully intricate, terribly thought provoking character who did HORRIFIC things for the most NOBLE reason you could imagine, under the most traumatic of circumstances. im tearing up just thinking about her story, and how the title "the LAST flight" foreshadowed that her story had a definitive, bittersweet, finite and peaceful ending.
and then this game did THAT to her. turned her into a grotesque caricature of what she was. stripping her of her nuance and her capacity for atonement or forgiveness. and once again, i do not fucking get it. she was obviously brought back because she is a parallel to the solas dilemma. so WHY is she not afforded the same opportunity for empathy that he is. why is bellara's brother not either. its insane. its literally insane. i cannot begin to imagine the oversight or laziness or WHATEVER IT WAS that occured to have this game turn out this way.
there are innumerable other problems with the game that im not going to get into because what ive said above is the main crux of my problem. introspective and character. those are all i really wanted from this game, and like..... i thought we would get that. because the game centered around solas. and i know people dislike his fans for very fair reasons, but i hope those who know me know that i enjoy him not because hes hot (he is though) but because he is terrible. i love him because they made a character who was TERRIBLE, and then gave you the task of using your head and refelcting on your own morality and values and deciding and arguing and meditating over whether he is worth loving anyway. to me, solas is the person i point to when i want to describe why i love dragon age. its complicated, its nuanced, it is terrible and wonderful and everything in between depending on the angle you look at it from. and so having the writer of a character like THAT in charge of the whole game filled me with hope and dissuaded so many of my fears for this game. but i was wrong apparently.
so now im left with a feeling akin to survivors guilt. genuinely. because at the VERY least, despite me saying all of these negative things, i at least finished the game crying happy tears and being overjoyed that my favourite character was handled well and got an ending i enjoyed. and yet that happiness *i* got to feel and that glimmer of good writing was paid for at the expense of literally everything else. i feel almost personally responsible in a way, which sucks. im sorry to all the people who did not enjoy or care about solas, im sorry that you really did get nothing out of this game. i hope we can all be comforted by the trilogy we have and will always have, and i hope we can all take what good parts we enjoyed out of veilguard and make peace with the rest
leaving this youtube comment my friend sent me which is unfortunately a summary of how i feel about the game as a whole.
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threefandomsinatrenchcoat · 22 hours ago
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I am so grateful you do not understand. They are amazing. Thank you for indulging me. And thank you for seeing my vision.
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Part 1/?
Spock has known no peace since his captain decided to get some fangs of his own
mutual (eventually) biting prompt courtesy of @threefandomsinatrenchcoat
I’m struggling through the next part so I figured I’d post what I have so it doesn’t just sit in my drafts forever and ever, but I promise it WILL be mutual
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Spock definitely uses his fangs against Jim quite liberally, which led to the captain getting his own gold capped fangs and immediately going on a quest for revenge.
They’re insatiable now, so much goddamn biting. Like two cats (or dogs?) constantly fighting and biting each other’s scruff to prove how they’re the dominant one in the dynamic.
I don’t think Spock used them on Jim during a spar UNTIL the captain got his own and proved (very readily) that he was not afraid to play dirty and tear right into Spock’s flesh. The following visit to medbay had Bones going between yelling “WHAT WERE YOU THINKING” and equally “I DONT WANNA KNOW”. He doesn’t give them any pain killers or numbing agents as he heals them up.
Jim is not afraid to be public about it (why would he be? Hello? He’s the Captain, he’ll damn well bite the XO whenever he wants to) but Spock keeps his biting relatively private- and I feel that’s his possessiveness shining through, in a way. Keeping the marking/claiming just between Jim and himself, like those moments belong solely to him, only for his eyes.🙂‍↕️
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deafeningladyruins · 1 day ago
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Carnival of Shadows
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2. The Obsession
The days that followed were a blur of haunting dreams and unsettling awakenings. She couldn't shake the memory of the carnival or the enigmatic clown who had silently stolen her heart. The voices in her head grew louder, intertwining with visions of Art the Clown, his presence becoming an obsession that consumed her every thought. Each night, she found herself drawn back to the abandoned carnival, unable to resist the magnetic pull. The whispers in her mind urged her to return, to find solace in the darkness. She wandered the empty streets, her eyes scanning the shadows for any sign of him. The carnival, once a place of fear, had become her sanctuary—a twisted refuge where she felt understood.
Art the Clown watched her from the shadows, his fascination growing with each passing day. There was something about her that captivated him, a kindred spirit in the sea of humanity. He had seen the world through a lens of chaos and madness, but in her, he saw a reflection of his own tormented soul. She was different from the others, and he was determined to keep her close. One night, as she roamed the carnival grounds, she stumbled upon an old tent. The entrance was partially collapsed, and curiosity got the better of her. She pushed her way inside, the air thick with the scent of mildew and dust. The interior was dimly lit by a single flickering lantern, casting eerie shadows on the faded stripes of the tent walls.
"Why do I keep coming back here?" she whispered to herself, her voice barely audible over the persistent whispers in her mind.
As if in response, the lantern's flame flickered, casting a brief shadow that made her heart skip a beat. She turned and found Art the Clown standing behind her, his silent presence both terrifying and comforting. She couldn't understand why, but his closeness brought a sense of calm amidst the chaos of her mind.
"You're here," she said, her voice trembling. "Why do you keep watching me?"
Art the Clown's expression was unreadable, his smile ever present but his eyes betraying a depth of emotion that she couldn't quite decipher. He stepped closer, and she felt a shiver run down her spine. He reached out, gently brushing a strand of hair from her face, his touch sending a jolt of electricity through her.
"I feel like I'm losing my mind," she admitted, her voice barely more than a whisper. "But when you're around, everything feels... different. Less frightening."
Art the Clown tilted his head, his gaze never leaving hers. He took her hand and led her to a small stage at the center of the tent. There, he revealed an old music box, its once bright colors now faded and worn. He opened it, and a haunting melody filled the air, the sound both beautiful and eerie. She watched in awe as Art the Clown performed a silent pantomime, his movements graceful and deliberate. It was as if he was telling her a story through his actions—a story of love and loss, of madness and redemption. She felt tears welling up in her eyes, the emotions overwhelming her.
"You understand me," she whispered, more to herself than to him. "You see the darkness inside me and you're not afraid."
Art the Clown finished his performance, his eyes locking onto hers. In that moment, she knew that their fates were irreversibly intertwined. She didn't know where this path would lead, but she was no longer afraid to follow it.
As the music from the music box continued to play, Art extended his hand once more. She hesitated for a moment, but the allure of the dance was too strong to resist. She took his hand, and he led her to the center of the stage. With a gentle yet firm grip, Art began to waltz with her, his movements surprisingly elegant for a clown known for his grotesque persona.
The dance was a silent conversation, each step a whisper of their unspoken bond. She felt herself being swept away by the rhythm, her mind momentarily freed from its torment. As they twirled and spun, she couldn't help but feel a strange sense of peace, as if the chaos inside her had found harmony in the darkness of the carnival. The night stretched on, filled with unspoken words and shared silences. As they left the tent and wandered the carnival grounds together, she felt a strange sense of belonging. For the first time in a long while, she felt like she was exactly where she was meant to be—by his side, in the darkness.
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mvrdermeharder · 2 days ago
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Some quick thoughts on ch 282 now that it’s out
Again, it wasn’t quick at all, why do I always end up like this damn
First of all: I’m very glad that I’ve waited for the official translations before making any theories or serious complaints abt how some stuff doesn’t seem to make sense…
I’ll be honest, seeing the fan translation reeeeally had me confused… Because no, wdym that THE Kaiser impact (literally the fastest kick in the world) isn’t considered to be of unimaginable-genius quality??
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But the official chapter clears up my understanding of this. It actually connects to how Kaiser created his weapon: before the tryouts at BM he did not have a particular strength he could rely on + he isn’t willing to be friendly towards teammates -> SO HE OBSERVES AND ADAPTS
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He recognises the need for an original, world-class weapon.
Knowing his own abilities = powerful kicks (he literally knocks out the police with just kicking the ball in their face), he trains this talent to the highest level and then continuously adjusts it (his goals get more impressive each time in the NEL). But he wasn’t born with an abnormally strong core or legs to pull this off naturally.
So yeah! It isn’t an unimaginable abnormality after all.
And to sum it up, it’s very interesting how he has learned to:
Create a world-class weapon that is adjustable
Use metavision: probably getting a taste of it while stealing food (subconsciously!), then observing other football players who have metavision, and learning how to consciously tap into it and apply it to playmaking (just like Isagi)
Use geniuses: Ness to set up his play, DISCOVERING his talent -> genius/talented learner relationship. I do think that as Ness had been manipulated to be “too” loyal to Kaiser, his originality as a genius was squashed as a result, bc he was never encouraged to challange Kaiser = thus the equilibrium is unsettled, their relationship does not make evolution possible (for either of them really, as Kaiser recognizes this, and thus we get the kainess breakup in ch 267)
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So. What now?
Kaiser has come to the same conclusions as Isagi, he now has his eyes dead set on Loki in 282 (page 1-2) + there is crazy foreshadowing for another Kaiser goal (imo) as I’ve posted about it previously!
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And I really do think that Kaiser is more qualified to score this last goal for BM, bc as of now, he’s simply a better version of a talented learner than Isagi:
Now, they’re both aware of how to stimulate their evolution via geniuses (Isagi vs Rin, Kaiser vs Loki)
They both have the same analytical vision (metavision), mindset (abandoning fixations) and goal (…a goal)
BUT Isagi’s weapon is not trained to be world class just yet… he’s missing this one crucial piece to solidify his individuality
( @pixie05love LOOK OMFG WE’VE JUST YAPPED ABT THIS IN OUR MESSAGES LMAO)
Whew.
Can’t wait for Kaiser to prove why he’s the one who embodies the Blue Lock ideal
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MANIFESTING FOR A KAISER GOAL,, ISAGI NEEDS TO FAIL FOR ONCE IN THE NEL ANYWAY!!!!
Kaneshiro, I dare you, don’t be a coward, I’ve just set up the perfect plot to make Isagi interesting again😫
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alyssa-ai · 3 days ago
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Not a happy post😢
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Having 2 dads, in one life, is the most beautiful gift that life could offer me. When I lost my dad, he did everything so that I could count on him as a father without ever wanting to replace him. But for me, he was much more than my father's childhood friend, he always considered me as his daughter.
Today he is no longer here and I feel alone 😢.
The illness has taken his memory little by little, and will have taken him away.
I know that my father is waiting for him up there in Angel City to drink beers and play darts like when I was a child, … do a 301 for me up there my loving dads that I will never forget ❤️
I am happy to have been able to see him a few weeks ago during my trip to Canada, and take him in my arms. It's hard, and my tears are blurring my vision.
writing a few lines allows me to let go of my sadness a little, sorry if I bored you with this post
Love
Alyssa
Sorry if I am not very present these last days and the days to come, I know that all my friends here will understand without difficulty,
Please, do not waste any minute, and enjoy every moment with the people you love ❤️
Chacha allowed me to make this post, before being my father of the heart, he is above all her blood father, and she, she is like my sister, my sister of the heart, our arms support each other like never before in these difficult times. @chacha-love. I love you my sister ❤️❤️❤️❤️
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cornsarts · 7 months ago
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The man o war, commonly mistaken for a jellyfish, is a colonial organism made up of zooids that have different jobs in the colony. This animal has a reputation for its painful stings that can leave a human in agony for hours. Its venom is held in its tentacles that are used for hunting and paralyzing fish to eat. Despite the potent stings, there are some animals that are unaffected, such as the blue sea dragon, a kind of sea slug. These creatures feed on other animals found in the open ocean, including the man o war and other toxic siphonophores. Not only are they immune to the stings, the blue dragon stores the stinging cells from the man o war to use for its own hunting and defense.
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narsh-potatoes · 11 months ago
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Phoenix Wright my best friend Phoenix Wright....
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monotone-artist · 3 months ago
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hello please click images for better quality oh my god tumblr whyy
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maria shows shadow how to play dress-up (she's always wanted to do it with someone else)
thank u @fly-sky-high-09 for the request, i had a lot of fun with this hehe
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lunacias · 2 years ago
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statement of jonathon sims, regarding a childhood encounter with a book formerly possessed by jurgen leitner
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samble-movedd · 6 months ago
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"homura is an evil abuser who wants to control madoka and hates their friends" tired trope, canonically untrue, congrats on falling for the facade put up by a middle schooler.
"homura sees herself as inherently evil and abusive due to her upbringing, past actions, and status as a witch, which is still ongoing even at the end of rebellion" fresh, new, actually closer to canon, doesn't demonize a child for being mentally ill.
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angel-ghoul444 · 7 months ago
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⛥ the boy with the demon blood ౨♱ৎ
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luck-of-the-drawings · 13 days ago
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EDYN TIDESTRIDER, CHALLENGER OF THE UNDERSEA, RIVAL OF THE DEEP. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF YOUR BROTHER WAS CHOSEN TO BE A WEAPON OF THE GODS? HOW WILL YOU UNDO WHAT THEY HAVE DONE TO HIM?
#jrwi fanart#jrwi show#jrwi riptide#edyn tidestrider#cw blood#EDYYYNNNN TTIDESTRIDERRR OHH HOW I LOVE HERRRR#THIS IS A PAGE FULLA REEAALLY OLD DOODLES AND REALLY REALLY OLD DOODELS AND NEW DOODLES. ENJOY.#ONLY CLEANED IT UP A BUNCH TTODAY AND IM ACTUALLY SO SO HAPPY W IT WEEEEE#WHAT WAS IT LIKE? DOWN IN THE UNDERSEA. TO VISIT YOUR BROTHER WHENEVER THE ADULTS WOULD LET YOU#A KID WHO DIDNT UNDERSTAND WHAT WAS GOING ON OR WHY HER BROTHER WAS BEING TAKEN AWAY OR WHY HE KEEPS GETTING HURT#OR WHY THE ADULTS JUST KEEP LETTING IT HAPPEN. ITS FOR THE BEST? FATE OF THE WORLD AND ALL THAT? HEY WHO THE FUCK IS IN CHARGE HERE#HOW DO WE STOP IT. HOW DO I STOP IT. THERES PEOPLE OUT THERE WORKING ON SOMETHING. ARITIFICIAL LEVIATHAN YOU SAY?#WE COULD BUILD A THING TO RIVAL THE GODS. WELL. SIGN ME UP. IM GOING TO UNDO WHAT THEY DID TO YOU#WHAT A FASCINATING THING SHE ACTUALLY SAID. 'IM GOING TO UNDO WHAT THEY DID TO YOU' HELLO?? EDYN? WHAT DOES THAT MEAN#WHAT EXACTLY DID THEY DO TO HIM. OTHER THAN THE PROPHECY TRAINING. YOU CAN UNDO THAT? YOU CAN UNDO ALL THAT? HOW?? HELLO???#LIKE SURE I JUST SPOUTED MY THEORIES I THINK SHE WANTS TO KILL GOD BUT THATS JUSTA THEORY... A GA#WHAT IS EDYNS GOAL AND WHY CANT SHE TELL ANYONE OOUUUHHH EDYNNNN CMERE EDYNN CMERRE STOP WALKING AWAY CMERE. COME HERE.#fuuuuuck shes so mysteriousss what is she HIDING!!shes also so so so so angry i fucken know she is. shes so gentle and so sweet and timid#but she is ANGRY and shes SMART and clearly shes AMBITIOUS bc shes TALKING TO THE FUCKING BIG HEAD HONCHO O THE FUCKEN NNAAAVYYYYY#ALSO WHO IS NICHOLAS. IF THATS EVEN HIS REAL NAME. WHO DID YYYOU MEET EDYN. DO YOU HAVE A WISH TO BE GRANTED EDYN???#CHEWING ON THE BARS O MY CELL I NNNNEEEEED TO KNOW MORE ABOUT EDYN IM SO CURIOUS IMG ONNA KILL PEOPLE#i said once in another post 'the oath an eldest sister takes on is on par w that of a paladins-#-and sometimes upheld w the very same ferocity'. I REALLY LIKED THAT LINE.#pleeese... if u can hear me.. pls join me and draw edyn w unbridled plasmatic rage abt the way her brother was treated by the Elders#also pls draw her SCARY. I NEED HER TO BE SSCARY. PLEEASEE I NEED HER TO BE JUST AS VIOLENT AS GILLION BUT INA ICE COLD WAY#JUST AS VIOLENT JUST AS STRONG JUST AS MUCH OF AN AQUATIC MONSTER. im sure u see the vision.#ok i gotta go t bed now i got work in tha morning n i should nnot be stayin up this late. if u hav thoughts abt edyn pls scream abt em#okay byyyyeee goodniiigihhttttt
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braisedhoney · 1 year ago
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and this trend persisted until the i (the artist) died. the end.
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torchstelechos · 3 months ago
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I need an ISAT soulmate au where everyone in the party but Siffrin are soulmates cause Siffrin is markless, I need it more than I need fucking air.
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