#do you feel that pain inside you

[ssreality]

In another life. In another life...

Why can't it be in this one?

[uncanny-tranny]

"The only person who can save you is yourself, don't rely on anybody else!"

Actually, what has saved me is books and my favourite video game and my cats and my friends who I've shared late nights and too-early mornings with and the dew-covered grass I walked on on the way to a competition bus in ninth grade band and the sunburn that kept me out of school for days the month prior.

I understand the viewpoint of how you are ultimately the person who can save you, but don't discount that you aren't an island. You aren't meant to be your sole savior. Let others save you, too. You are worth the care and love the universe has for you.

[jadewritesficshere]

Steddie x female!reader thought 18+ only

Eddie blinks his eyes a couple of times to make sure he is actually seeing what he is seeing. He must be living in a nightmare.

You're laying back on one of the pool loungers. One leg dangling over the edge keeping your foot on the warm cement ground, the other spread over Steve's lap as he absently rubs his hand up and down it while he bitches to you about something from work. Your hand rubs up and down Steve's back in comfort. But that isn't the nightmare.

Your bright red bikini bottoms covering enough, but with your legs spread a bit more skin is shown then intended. Spread in such a way that makes Eddie want to just dive in. Get on his knees and worship you, rub his face over your mound as he licks and nips and sucks. Moan as the curly thatch of hair brushes against his face.

Except the curls of hair he is expecting to see peeking around your bikini are gone. Just smooth bare skin. And that isn't the only nightmare. Steve's chest is smooth like when he was in school on the swim team. Not a speck of that beautiful chest hair Eddie would curl into after getting hot and heavy. Not a single curl of the "love rug" he jokingly called it.

Eddie wants to weep. To throw himself down like a little kid and thrash his arms and legs around. Yeah, it's your body and you can do what you want, but he still is sad its gone. Eddie doesn't like change, and suddenly walking in to see both of his partners change something without any warning? Uncomfortable. It makes Eddie feel itchy.

Eddie can barely speak as he walks over and sits next to Steve. He doesn't respond to Steve's warm greeting. Doesn't respond to you asking how the day is. Just stares with big wet eyes at the sight in front of him. A pout on his lips.

A warm hand lands on his shoulder, gently squeezing. Steve's brow furrowed in concern, your wide eyes blinking at him.

"Shaved?" Eddie asks in a quiet voice, eyes darting to Steve's chest and then your clothed pussy. Steve lets out a huff of laughter, "Fuck, thought something was wrong man." Eddie glares," It is."

[transmechanicus]

Really fucked up that two ppl can care about each other and make their best efforts to communicate and still end up hurting each other so badly they cannot stand to be in the same room.

[faaun]

the way that diff languages sound r so fascinating they're all different and all so vivid

[sistersofsilver]

hello fellow shades. hades 2 nation. free icarus reminder for the night: not only did he burn, he drowned after. maybe it's just my experience with dying via drowning¹ but i think we should play in that particular space more.

melis not the sun, and she's never going to be. she's not the moon beat for beat either. shes the beautiful distorted reflection of the moon on churning powerful waves, shifting, a bright spot in an almost perfect void. and when you fall (and you will fall) its going to hurt, that impact, the water filling your lungs, the weightlessness disorienting, but you look for it, that reflection, that fixed point...

cough. anyway, how we feelin' tonight. we good?

[virsancte]

you wouldn’t think having a good time would be so goddamn hard

[vaguely-concerned]

walking through lucanis' mind prison. the tam lin of it all

[bondagebimbo]

THANK FUCK I finally got my pain meds back today and I’m so fucking happy because my fibro has been kicking my fucking ASS for so long now and I really need it back to not doing that (as much) 😭😭😭

now if only the pharmacy would finally stop dicking around with my fucking mood stabilizer AS WELL (for the third fucking time) so I could not feel Like This™️ that would be great or I’m gonna start hunting all the idiot fucking pharmacists there for sport one by one until they give me my fucking meds again 🙄

[pyporapy]

what's the extent of Grisha and Cain's abilities? Grisha can see ghost and a bit more, but what can Cain do? Talk to ghost? see them? exorcize them?

The best way that I can explain this is this: Cain can only see ghosts, but Grisha can see (and manipulate to an extent) souls in general, both those of the living and the dead.

Just seeing ghosts is easier and less dangerous because there is no reason why doing it should cause any strain on the body, since ghosts aren’t tethered to a living body— it’s almost like seeing spots on the corner of your vision. Cain can see a ghost, hear it, maybe talk to it, but if he wants to make actual contact with it, he 100% needs to resort to the usual rituals. Basically, he can only see a soul after it has left a body for good.

Grisha can make contact with any soul with no need of mediums or complex rituals. This is why his condition is dangerous, both to him and the people around him, because it causes serious strain on his body and can seriously harm the other person.

When it comes to ghosts, he can also see them in the corner of his eyes, but he can omit them the way your brain omits your nose in your field of vision. Dealing with living souls is trickier and, again, dangerous, and since seeing and manipulating them are abilities that he has against his will, the only way he can keep them in check is by keeping his hands to himself. He can only see a person’s general aura at first glance, but touching them gives him more information. He can see someone’s memories in the strings that make up their souls, but since that’s not exactly ethical he refuses to do it unless he has no other choice. It’s not the only reason why he keeps his hands to himself and hates it when people touch him, but it’s one of them.

Both can do exorcisms since those can only really be done through rituals rather than through an ability, but Grisha has a certain advantage over it.

Cain can also overexert his ability, kind of in the sense of forcing yourself to read really tiny print without glasses to the point of giving yourself a headache. He could do some of the things Grisha can, but not by himself.

Grisha overexerting his ability is as dangerous as working so hard at the gym you pull an entire muscle. It can quite literally kill him if he’s too careless, which is why he’d rather do things “traditionally” through rituals and stuff unless the situation is too dire.

I hope this makes sense and that I didn’t forget anything abduejfjejeu. Thank you for your ask!!!

[xamaxenta]

Feeling absolutely horrible gut wrenching imposter syndrome in regards to being trans like

The fact i haven’t bothered to do anything about my dysphoria or anxiety about dealing with it means i dont want to transition when i do and idk what to do and its so hard in this country where its very conservativr snd gblsjfbf

Basically trans experience sucking rn i feel like a huge loser and really gross in my own skin

But idk im terrified of having to speak to a fucking doctor about this because i always feel like theyre not gonna believe me.

[anthromimicry]

[angorwhosebabyisthis]

one thing i realized about fandaniel's dynamic with xande that really fucks me up is, like.... there are the obvious parallels that canon draws between meteion and xande, and their roles in hermes/fandaniel's lives. and there are also the parallels between fandaniel and meteion. there's a lot to unpack.

but it hit me recently that one of hermes' deepest, most devastating regrets is having failed meteion, with abuse and hypocrisy and the project he had the authority to make her a part of.

he was painfully aware that he wasn't fit to be a father; that he'd put them in a bitch of an unsatisfactory situation with his lack of foresight; that he was currently fucking things up in ways he did not know how to understand or articulate, much less address. he knew that there was no support system for this; not just for his mental health issues in general, but to educate him and hold him accountable about how to be decent to her, because he knew no one would give a fuck. the closest thing anyone would have given him to advice would be to just kill her and start over.

he says he hopes she'll find a better parent out there in space somewhere, because he knows there is not one to be found for her anywhere on this star, including him. she was one of the most helpless, vulnerable people in their society, and there was no backup for her if he mistreated her, if he failed. and he did.

so of course his next attempt to find a meteion would be an emperor. of course he'd be at the very top of the most powerful empire in the world, at the time. of course he'd position himself as his servant, devote himself to him utterly, and value his authority above all. he wanted someone he could never hurt the way he hurt meteion again.

[babacontainsmultitudes]

80 or so years of life really ain't enough can I have an elf lifespan instead please? Or at least a dwarf's... I need at least a couple hundred years... Oh and a new spine every 5 or so years, if that's not too much to ask. 3. 3 years actually. Yeah, a new spine every 2 years, and a lifespan of 350-750 years, that's all I want really.

[faaun]

procrastination is starting to have its consequences finally

[shima-draws]

Currently feel like I’ve been hit by a truck, hope you all are faring better than me lol