#do with them what you will

[realchemistry]

In addition to Buck wanting Tommy's attention, he was jealous that /Eddie/ was the one getting Tommy's attention when /he/ wanted it. So yea, peacocking in the gym when Eddie is on the phone with Tommy makes sense bc it either A. was an attempt to get Eddie's attention (while he's talking to Tommy) to maybe get included on their plans, or B. get Eddie 'away' from Tommy bc Buck was jealous Eddie was getting the attention he wanted from Tommy.

I don't think he wanted T's attention, tbh.

Like, say Buck wanted to get T's attention away from Eddie and all to himself, why would he go about it through Eddie? Wouldn't inviting T to do something without Eddie make more sense and be more effective than inserting himself into their plans?

Maybe Buck enjoyed getting the attention once he did (or it was convenient...), but I think he was trying to get Eddie's back to himself. Buck was jealous and feeling threatened or insecure about his place in Eddie's (and Chris's) life, hence his reaction and actions.

[my-shields-are-down]

Thoughts on 5.10 and Chenford moving forward?

Anon Y Mous is in the house! Party People! Whoop whoop!

I’ve been listening to my 1980s and 1990s mix tapes all day today - because 10 has put me in the best mood and I can’t stop smiling and being emotional. So I listen to the music that makes me feel that way and remember the summer I dated my best friend.

He’s now married with two kids - and that summer, my last summer in DC was magical- in large part because of him, and us. I am so grateful that I had that experience, that we got to have our own bubble. 5x10 brought back my memories of that summer and brought me a lot of joy.

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I really loved this episode. Was it perfect? No, but I’ll address this in a minute.

First, I was really surprised that they were getting together so soon in the season, I honestly didn’t expect that to happen until the end of the season. So I was giddy like stupid, can’t think straight, over excited like I was going on my first date. I was blushing in anticipation. I had bad-Tim Bradford brain - I couldn’t do math or tell time. But I loved that too, feeling that way again, for me anyway, was such a gift and a reminder that love is always possible and everything will work out like it’s supposed to. A perfect way to start a new year!

The montage of them getting dressed was fantastic and perfect. Tim with all his button downs of various colors still on the store hangers looking great in all of the dark colors (wear the navy!) and Lucy with all of her dresses. So many dresses. And then Tim calling Lucy to find out what she was going to wear, Because she calms him down and she teases him? I love that flirty banter.

And then not 5 minutes later, in completely new outfits in a gorgeous restaurant (I think it’s in Silver Lake), they have nothing to say to each other. They are gorgeous and awkward and nerves are flying every which way. I was happy to hear Tim is eating bread again.

Watching Tim is my favorite thing, he’s this tall, attractive man, who exudes confidence as a cop- like he’s a force, he has presence, but sitting there next to Lucy in this moment that he has wanted for so long, and his shoulders are pulled in, he can’t look at her other than those sideways glances checking her out…and you know in his mind he’s berating himself for blowing it for not talking about anything and the woman he cannot stop thinking about is right there…. So he makes himself smaller next to her.. I think he still doubts that she’s as into this as he is. He’s afraid she’s going to change her mind and leave like every other woman (minus Angela) has done.

And then Lucy in that dress - looking like a dream - she is gorgeous, stunning, super sexy in that dress sitting there desperately trying to break the ice starts shimmying her shoulders back and forth which makes the necklace in her cleavage sparkle? I was so excited to see bold, confident and very sexy Lucy on that date. Like we’ve seen her desperate for praise because she never got any from her parents. That version of Lucy was not on this date. This confident Lucy took charge of the situation, put Tim at ease by teasing him, then spoke up for herself and clearly stated how she wanted this to go - slowly which is not the version of Lucy we saw in 5x1 or really any time previously.

I was really struck by the dichotomy of Lucy wearing this seriously sexy, come fuck me dress while telling Tim that she wanted to go slow, to build their relationship up and savor these moments of creating intimacy, and falling in love, and romancing each other, respecting the friendship foundation and savoring all of these last “first” moments with him. She doesn’t want to miss a moment of this new chapter with him. Doesn’t want to skip a step, wants to do all of that with Tim. I loved seeing Tim, at first worried then melting into this moment she’s creating, this vision she has of their future … this isn’t a one and done date. She’s got the future in her mind, more dates, more time with him, more intimacy and yes more naked time.

I think for Lucy, being loved by Tim will fill in and fix all those foundational cracks created by her parents. I am so excited for Lucy to be confident in herself.

She’s already thriving in her work. Let’s just take a moment to realize how big of a deal it is that the Patrol Watch Commander trusted a P2 officer to hold down the fort over all of the higher raking officers on his team. He chose LUCY to reign in Smitty, ha! Nolan, Jan and all those background cops are likely higher ranks than her. And they all fell in line under HER command. Amazing. She did it beautifully, sure it stressed her out, but she impressed everyone.

I think for Tim, being loved and cared for by Lucy will bring him confidence and a sense of calm that he hasn’t had since before the Army. That he’s not just defined by work, that there are things that are more important. And that he deserves them for just being him, flaws and all.

I loved that Lucy was laughing when the cops showed up at the restaurant

I thought the whole Aaron and Celina thing was hilarious- especially the conversations with Nolan who was a total hypocrite lecturing Celina about romance during her training period. I really loved how the show had all the other characters bring up and talk about consent, and power dynamics, and privacy, and perception.

I was really impressed by all the subtle almost subconscious messages coming through that scene with Nolan, Celina and Aaron. One one hand, you’ve got old school vs new school. Nolan personifies old school cops - older, white, male, kinda clueless on some cultural shifts, while Aaron + Celina represent new school cops- younger, people of color, both of whom have been affected by violence and in a way betrayed by the system that was supposed to protect them . Aaron and Celina respectfully but stridently tell Nolan to get with the times because a) they don’t look like him; b) the world they grew up in is vastly different; c) both of them were victims of horrific violence, etc so the rules created to manage and govern Nolan don’t necessarily work in governing and managing them. So thank you for the condescending advice old man, but based on what we know we will choose who we date without any input or interference from you. Just brilliant! My inner sociologist loved that whole scene.

I really hope they bring back Percy - we are long overdue for a Jackson memory moment that Lucy and Percy could share.

I was let down by the car dangling over the edge of the parking garage. I was yelling “don’t go in there! Turn around!” at my tv. Lots of potential for Lucy/Tim don’t die on me moments - but the episode was so full of other stuff I can see why nothing else happened.

We must do everything in our power to save and protect Aaron. I love that he’s become the comic foil for Tim. I love their relationship. The writers are having so much fun with his comments - speaking for the audience. And Tru’s delivery is spot on.

Lucy and Tim in the principals office. LOL

And finally the date redo. I loved that it was more casual dining by a group of food trucks - away from the station. I loved that they were interrupted by crime again - like dude! Really? I especially loved that after all the failed date and color commentary by everyone that Tim chose NOT to intervene, to show Lucy that yes, the job is important, but so are you. And every chance where I can choose you, I am going to. And Lucy for her part, was so into Tim she didn’t even notice the car guy until Tim said something. So she was telling Tim, you have my attention and focus. You are still my most important relationship. Her grandkids comment - teasing, yet sent major signals to Tim that she’s in this for the long haul. He’s not alone in considering forever for them. Can you imagine Rachel or Voldie saying something like that to him? No. Their relationships weren’t like that. But Lucy knows he’s heartbroken that he doesn’t yet have his own family and he’s worth the effort to her, so she’ll help him get that.

Yes the seating for the kiss was awkward and yes, the lighting was behind Tim’s head so Lucy was in shadows, but frankly so what? THEY KISSED. Tim initiated the kiss. Slow and sweet and that second one was deeper and held promise. I loved that the shot ended with them lingering in the moment with their foreheads touching- which, in case you didn’t know (I looked it up) - is an ancient greeting that honors the heart and soul of another human being. I mean, how perfect is that?!

Two thumbs up! I enjoyed it.

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Moving forward. Here are my thoughts- do with them what you will.

I believe they will be found out before they go to Grey. It’ll be messy and angsty. Percy will come back because Grey asks him to handle it.

Tim will leave patrol and step out of Lucy’s chain of command. He may or may not keep the coming promotion to Sergeant2. - ✅

Lucy at some point might pull a Chandler and freak out about how serious her relationship is with Tim and go to Nolan 🤮 for guidance.

Chris comes back for something unrelated and sees Tim and Lucy kissing and wreaks an episode or two of havoc- angsty because Lucy feels guilty about the break up.

Rosalind or an acolyte comes circling back. She was too big of a part of the first episode for her story to be done. Now whether they come after Nolan/Bailey or Tim/Lucy or both couples? Too soon to tell.

The dangling shop was foreshadowing Aaron and Tim being in graver danger- but instead of Aaron getting out first, he doesn’t (or can’t)- potential cliff hanger for season finale (pun intended)

Lucy will be offered a dangerous but short UC op that goes awry putting her in mortal danger.

She will also by end of season be given two possible career options - I think either detective/UC or sergeant. I hope she goes the Sergeant route. She already knows all the study material. Tapped to take both tests and gets her results early in season 6 which is all but guaranteed at this point I think - angsty for both. Tim will want to protect her and she’ll feel pressure to choose because of him vs what she really wants. Hopefully by then, we have some insight into what that is. (Previous bullet definitely would play into decision)

There will be naked time, and I love yous and depending on the wackadoodle Rookie timeline a Valentine’s Day romance focused episode for our major characters and a possible proposal at the end of the season. With an answer to be given at the start of the next season.

Angela teases Tim mercilessly about Lucy

Bailey bails on Nolan, who starts dating Genny- much to Tim’s dismay (this is how/when Tim finds out about Lucy + Nolan) and a love triangle ensues.

No pregnancy scares, no Ashley or Isobel returning. We have enough angst devices to last well beyond the next 10-12 episodes that we don’t need to bring them back.

I really want a new character cop to be introduced who is Rosalind’s acolyte or partner who has a seasonal arc like Armstrong, looks good but is secretly evil.

I am sitting on cloud 9 listening to my mixed tapes celebrating all the joy and happiness we’ve got going on right now.

[velvette-hussle]

One, Valentino is to pimps what Joker from Suicide Squad 2016 is to gangsters and Two, Valentino kind of looks like Offenderman (iykyk) so….yeah.

Thank you. 🫶🏾

[hikineet-trash]

Heyyyy sorry if this is weird lol but I saw that you reblogged that upcoming Bat Bites Toys bat model and were very excited about it. I just wanted to let you know about a model with a similar idea by Carnal Compendium https://carnalcompendium.com/product/torp-the-ancient-vampire/ in case you wanted even more bat lol. I’ve never bought it so I don’t actually know what it’s like but it sure does look beautiful.

I don’t even know if you’ve seen it before or if it’s a design you’d like and I’ve never heard of Fallen London but I am indeed a monsterfucker who also has a love for bat-esque beings and fantasy toys so I thought I’d let you know lol.

Ooh, that does look like a good one. Shame CarnalCompendium don't seem to take pay in installments though.

Also a bit sad they don't do handpainting, but understandable why they don't.

Still, thank you for the reccomendation! I might get my hands on one in a few months. You want a review if I do, that way you know if it's worth getting?

[afigmentofyourcreation]

Holy crap I forgot I made these

[lgbtlunaverse]

The world exists in such a baffling state of simultaneous sex-aversion and sex-hegemony. Every social platform on the internet is trying to banish sex workers to the shadow realm but I can't post a tweet without at least two bots replying P U S S Y I N B I O. People are self-censoring sex to seggs and $3× but every other ad you see is still filled with half-naked women. Rightwingers want queer people arrested for so much as existing in the same postal code as a child and are also drumming up a moral panic about how teenage boys aren't getting laid enough. I feel like I'm losing my mind.

[thought-begone]

I guess the real glorious evolution was the homoerotic yearning we made along the way

[shesmore-shoebill]

"I had choice paralysis :(" is a KILLER line.

He's such a comedic powerhouse, I'm glad more people are getting exposed to him :'D

[more-raging-heart-than-grace]

you want what

[dirtytransmasc]

the men and boys are innocent too.

we cry "the innocent women and children" to appeal to the masses, to try and force their sympathy, but the men and boys are innocent too.

I have seen sons crying out for their mothers, their fathers, their siblings. I have seen them break down at the loss of their families. I have seen them cling to their dead and grieve.

I have seen fathers cradle their dead children, seen them kiss their faces and hold their little hands. I have seen them faint with grief when asked to identify the dead. I have seen them carry their sons and daughters. I have seen them fasting to provide what little they can for their families.

I have seen men and boys digging through the rubble with just their bare hands, I have seen them comforting strangers, playing with children, rocking them, hushing them, even if the face of such imminent danger. I have seen them cry, seen them grieve, seen them break down into each other's arms, seen them be selfless, beyond selfless, becoming something I don't have a word for.

I have seen the men who are doctors refuse to leave their patients, even when they have no medicine or supplies to give them, even when they're threatened with bombings. I have seen fathers who have lost all their children pick orphans up into their arms and proclaim them their child so they are not alone. I have seen men and boys digging pets out of the rubble.

the men are innocent too. the men and boys are being hurt and killed too. the men and boys are grieving too. the men and boys are scared too. the men and boys are fighting to save their people too. the men and boys deserve to be fought for too.

[marypsue]

Keep seeing that post where OP starts like 'Thinking about...grieving the undead' and then adds on about like. Real life situations where people have not died but have left your life and you would have reason to grieve them.

All respect, that's an important concept, but that is not what I am thinking about when I read 'grieving the undead'.

[kensatou]

(✿◕‿◕) die (ꈍ ꒳ ꈍ✿)

[ellierenae]

write unpublishable things. it's good for you.

[hinamie]

post-graduation trip airport looks

[zanmor]

We are well beyond canary in the coalmine warning levels with the way trans people and particularly trans women are treated on this site.

Maybe you've heard the metaphor of allowing wolves and sheep to share the same space, welcoming everyone. You end up with just wolves because allowing them in that space makes it unsafe for any sheep. Or the story about how a nazi goes into a dive bar and is refused service. The bartender then explains to someone else at the bar that if you serve them once they tell their friends and before you know it you're the nazi bar they all go to and normal customers don't feel safe.

Terfs and other bigots are seeing these targeted harassment campaigns succeed against trans women and rejoicing. They see Tumblr ban them and officially stand by those decisions as endorsement for their harassment. It's a sign to bigots across the internet that Tumblr is a good place for them.

And what's more is that a lot of us probably don't realize just how much trans women contribute to Tumblr. The women banned recently were sources of site-wide memes and posts I wasn't even aware originated from them.any years old memes and references can be traced back to trans women on this site.

How many of these folks have to be removed before this is no longer a site you want to be a part of it? Sure you cultivate your own experience, but you can't follow or interact with people who aren't here. And if I wanted to interact with the nazis and terfs I'd go to reddit.

I encourage everyone to reblog this. Trans women shouldn't have to be the only ones speaking out against the bigotry they're experiencing. They shouldn't be the only ones risking their blogs being nuked by staff. We have to stand with them.

[thatrandomblogsays]

Annabeth: I, a child, had to earn Thalia’s love, that’s how the world works! I have to earn my moms love. Love is transactional, you gotta be worthy of it first silly :)

Percy, listening to this on the train