#do that. but theres also sth wrong with me

[ganondoodle]

(idk if anyone wants to keep hearing my opinions on totk book stuff but-)

apparently it says that rauru DID have kids, multiple even, which yeah... is kinda necessary for zelda to even be connected to them so much so that sonia can SENSE a blood connection (which, even with all the excuses with magic, is just a little too far for me to suspend my disbelief bc its over, OVER, ten thousand years worth of generations that seperate her from them that one lil touch of the hand can sense that (feels more like an attempt to make you care about them or .. see them as zeldas "better" parents just bc they exchange a few nice words, i never got the feeling they were 'better' parents and its also kinda disrespectful to her actual parents, like sure rhoam wasnt the best but i wouldnt call rauru better just bc he was polite)- i could see maybe the light power of hylia or sth but since its the coolest dude that ever lived rauru now that had it which still doesnt make sense and makes me unreasonably annoyed and she can sense BOTH of their powers in her? nah) the fact theres NOTHING about them in the game itself is just so ... no way they planned any of this

i dont think theres anything they can do or say that wont make be believe they either

are making it up alla 'fix it in post' mentality trying to hastily explain stuff the game never bothers to do to try and appease fans or let it appear as if they thought about it at all

something went really REALLY wrong during development, which kinda seems likely given how the game turned out (im sorry i cannot let go, its not just the writing, the game design too and how little was changed in the map while being so damn expensive, i dont know how people dont feel scammed q_q)

given that they (allegedly) spent the last entire year of development on polish (where??? where????? huh??? like it would make it more understandable (EXCEPT for the price) if there was alot of trouble, which was also bc it got delayed and ... turned out like this, but they dont want to say it, especially given their reputation, with that quote i have heard way too many times 'a delayed game blah blah') i just??

are they just gonna go and do it like they did with kashiwa (kass)? "they uuuh where flying around the whole time ony cool sonau tech maschines, you just dont see or hear from them ooooorrr they were uuuuh out of the country at the time" (sending invitations to other continents to join their glorious kingdom ;) )

(bet they are also gonna say they did all the stuff like ... moving the shrines around (lol?) and lifting the islands up into the sky- which is still weird bc ... didnt they also say they were living in the sky before coming to the surface?? so where?? did they park all their islands on the surface and the mystery kids had the keys so they had to repark them back into the sky after they returned off camera?? xD also why are the islands so different as an environment if they where from the surface? like even the STONE up there is different- and if they were first in the sky then on the surface and the nback in the sky .. why is there not a single yellow tree or grass in the past- you cant really argue that it changed bc they were up there so long bc .. nothing else changed, the suddendly and totally always there sonau buildings are largely in prime condition, only some slightly moldy, and what we see of the glorious past looks barely any different from the present, aside from like ... some standard trees shuffled, no castle yet and that glowy uwu filter DESPITE that stupidly long time frame between it)

[pikslasrce]

you guys have nooooo idea how crazy this moving period has been november was CRAZYYYYY literally all three of us are going insane from all the shit going on ever since we found the new place

[stjeromeshospital]

HIIIII!!!!! Im late as hell but, before i get to the art request thing: Ive always been curious about what inspired you to make a lot of your ocs? Like what SPARKED that idea, if anything in particular? Especially for characters like Laika and Audrey!

Also…. Here is my creature son…… I thought you might enjoy him :)

HI MALCALM. i want to say before anything im rlly obsessed bc i think u n me are on the same page in regards to character design that guy with long sharp feature is awesome. like his face shape im obsessed eith i just notice that. i really do fucking love this character design it was fun to draw i need to draw mkre of your chars i never got around to during artfight i can say we both burnt out LAWL

thats a hard quastion but i love you for asking it ehmm its hard because i really dont know i just kind of look at art all the time and what people make and watch and experience and read stuff and 1 small piece of something inspires you until you collect enough small pieces to make 1 big thing. i get inspired by lots of stuff and tuck away whatever i like to use later or i just think alot. these days i dont really have very many OCs that are just "mine" anymore most if not all of them start off as fandom chars and i just make them more complicated until its not abt that anymore. audrey and delainey ar the only characters that i have these days that dont stem from fandom even laika actually is a fan character for my buddy henry's original universe. i like stuff i like what people make and i like that people make things and i like to dance around in them and make stuff up too YAY!

the idea for laika really only exists as it does because of the freedom of the universe theyre in, i wanted to make a character design that is complete nonsense and a premise that i like and think is fun without the restraint of grounding or rulesets, their entire being is based in "i think it would be fun if" and their design is entirely self indulgent. audrey is a different story because he is the oldest character i have and have had, he's gone through a variety of design changes and in fact did not even have a human design until i started posting him on this blog, he had existed for years and years before that. but also he is exactly like laika because he is my MOST self indulgent oc and i do whatever i want to him. having ocs is about smashing them together like barbie

[1hyunjae]

Istg smth happened to me this year it was sooo good until August and then something changed and now ill never be the same

[spicyshiftz]

WHO IS SPICE?..

get to know the girl behind the blog . .

well i thought you’d never ask!

hello very much! i’m spice, and i have a shiftblr blog to express and share my thoughts and reflect everything that goes on in my head (that has to do with shifting) freely without worrying about people being negative. so, if you’re here to spread hate, don’t waste your time and go find something better to do, since i’ll just block u anyway

im 16, go by she/her and i’m also greek (part a͟u͟s͟s͟i͟e as well). i’m fluent in greek and english but also i can speak some extra languages but only a little.

haven’t shifted yet, but i’ve been in the industry since 2021. i fully believe in it - and i genuinely don’t doubt it at all

i have a ton of hyperfixations and interests so please don’t hesitate to talk to me if we have the same interest and wanna yap tgt id love to (well, if u js dm me to spoil me, i wouldn’t appreciate it as much but. you know.)

also i really like robert sean leonard and evan peters. literally my dream men

BYF . . .

i might not interact w you if you are under 13 - it makes me feel weird if i’m talking to someone that’s under that age, so please respect it tysm

if we share an s/o, i don’t mind, but if u rub it in my face/i get jealous, i might block you. please don’t take it to heart i love u it’s js for my own comfort !!

i’m not afraid to block anyone so </3

DNI . . .

basic criteria (zionists, homophobes.. yk)

shifting antis (ofc)

weirdos that r here js to be negative (leave me alone)

don’t really have anything else - but if u do sth wrong i’ll just block ao theres no point in getting into detail

stay tuned for carrd !

𓈒⠀𓂃⠀⠀˖⠀𓇬⠀˖⠀⠀𓂃⠀𓈒

[five-raccoons-in-a-trenchcoat]

rant incomingggg

today (actually i think yesterday but whatever) i was like ugh im so tired of the way I am, I hate how i constantly make excuses for myself and whine and in general just dont do shit im supposed to do. like whatever i dont even have anything diagnosed so why im like oh i probably have adhd so thats why i struggle blah blah blah. no more excuses anymore, im gonna fix my life

right?

so today i came home from school with the intention: im gonna rest a bit, work out and then study

And so I went home after getting some carbs and protein in, chilled a bit and got my sugar to the right level then went out for like 25 mins of skating, not much but some chill cardio is a good start. I showered when I came back and then had a nice dessert with my family

and then I felt like crying

and like. why? there must be a logical explanation for why I feel this way nearly all the time recently. I should feel energized after doing productive stuff, why don't i? and I actually did for approximately 5 minutes after, then it all went away. why why why

okay so that's me reflecting on how actually there might be something wrong with my brain or maybe there isnt but I still tend to feel bad a lot. maybe its due to recent pressure of school year ending and also presidential election resulting in a lot of negative emotions. or maybe theyre just contributing to the tiredness, whatever.

what I mean is, I will try to make less excuses and be more productive and stop allowing myself to just float and let myself be carried by events as life goes on and instead live with intention, do things because I made an active decision to do them. but I will also acknowledge my emotions and feelings and try to figure out what causes them and if they are a result of my own actions and so I can change them, or if they are something outside of my control and I just have to take care of them at the moment. cause idk but recently I really fell into the trap of theres sth wrong with me therefore i expect everyone to treat me in a special way blah blah I think you get what I mean? like the excuses kinda trap. which I am very ashamed of and I will just try to fix it

ugh long rant probably no one cares but also I dont mean it in a way of 'all people with mental health issues and disabilities use them as excuses' im just acknowledging that I mightve kinda done that

yeah guys so lets raise a glass to me trying to be a better person lmao

[smileymoth]

I think theres maybe sth wrong w the blood ciruclation in my legs because despite both my ankles being fucked from constatly rolling them my legs also tend to die really fucking fast when im sitting cross legged or 1 leg over the other. Like the static numbness. Or that when im tired my legs just dont tend to work well like i have to drag them along and its like so physically taxing oj wait a fuckin minute my ex friend had that from stress where her legs stopped working properly for like a year ummm ummmm .... get me out of this school please my body is literally killing itself. Like my legs have literally gone numb mid walk. Like what

I find it intriguing how im like not even doing that badly mentally rn compared to last year but physically my body is probably trying to kill itself

[borom1r]

2, 3, 7, 8, 9, 12, 14, 18, 20, 22 for lotr from the violence ask meme 😈

OK i have answered 2 already but lets do this thing fuck yea (thank uuuuuuuuuu!!!!!)

3) screenshot or description of the worst take you’ve seen on tumblr

look its not really a "take" but the amount of people who just post variations of "I don't like Boromir, he's the worst" IN THE BOROMIR TAG is genuinely insane to me. like have ur (incorrect) opinion but keep it out of the tag worstie

7) what character did you begin to hate not because of canon but because how how the fandom acts about them?

uhhhh no one thank the gods. ive always disliked Denethor Because of canon. but i will say stumbling across the file index of an old LotR fansite + clicking on files w/ no preview only to find graphics thirsting over Denethor did cause massive psychic damage lmao

8) common fandom opinion that everyone is wrong about

idk 😭 i dont interact w/ the broader fandom really. i do find the way ppl reduce Pippin to Just a joke character in fanon insufferable tho

9) worst part of canon

BOOK!FARAMIR + HIS MIDDLEMEN SHTICK MY WORSTIE.

also ngl i do find the Aragorn/Arwen romance....... Weird. like I'm far from averse to "love at first sight" so long as it comes with the recognition that it's really more infatuation + true love takes work. and there's the fact Aragorn fell head over heels for an image of Lúthien, and Arwen's heart did not turn towards him until Galadriel dressed him up in elven finery. not to mention she was "not yet weary of her days" when Aragorn dies + has to die "whether I will or I nill" like she. wastes away? slowly alone in Lothlórien.

like idk [Aragorn kinnie voice] that's my sister, man but all that aside I do think.. Arwen deserved better? I like that the movies made her more active + I do wish she'd actually been there at Helm's Deep bc it would've been fun to see her and Éowyn bond but yeah. the vibes were off with that whole situation imho

12) the unpopular character that you actually like and why more people should like them

huh. does Théodred count? i feel like he's kind of a blank slate so fandom can just kinda run wild with him but i do genuinely enjoy writing him + find that there are solid implications for at least a friendship between him + Boromir (if not more). i mean, Boromir got a Rohirric shield from someone

14) that one thing you see in fics all the time

ok th implication here bein its sth that bothers me which thankfully i pretty much only read Aramir or Faramir/Éomer fics soooo theres not much??

i think the only things that RLLY get to me + they aren't THAT popular trope-wise (or ive been rlly good at avoiding them lmao) are fics that 1) make Boromir overly aggressive or 2) completely woobify Faramir

+ tbh the Faramir one bothers me more actually. that is a grown ass man and captain of the rangers of Ithilien.....................

18) it’s absolutely criminal that the fandom has been sleeping on…

HRM. again idk :3 <- blissfully not interacting w the broader fandom + only interacting w/ ppl w correct takes on Boromir + Rohan

(tentatively i need to start following more ppl i see some of yall in my notes + i shld follow. sorry im like a nervous dog u need to coax out from under the porch lol)

20) part of canon you found tedious or boring

side-eyeing my copies of the Histories. i need to finish those. eventually.............

22) your favorite part of canon that everyone else ignores

ignores?????? nothing i think (thankfully lmao) but i will say there is SO much detail in the films that it makes me INSANE. ik we literally just talked abt this in DMs lmao but i could sit n talk abt LotR costuming for fucking HOURS the films were SO stunning and the clothing alone reveals sooooooo much abt the characters i think its a super underrated vehicle for character analysis :3

[butmakeitgayblog]

Another anon here and regarding straights enjoying queer fiction, there's a perspective I think is worth sharing (for the record, I'm not straight).

So there's a huge fanbase consisting of straight cis women who enjoy mlm content. It's a thing to the point where there's gay shows made specifically targeting this fanbase.

I got to talk to one of my friends who dabbled in this stuff. I asked her why? What's the draw? She pointed out sth I thought was pretty interesting.

She said that for straight girls it can be pretty hard to enjoy straight pairings because they will always experience the story through the eyes of the female character, who is also limited by societal rules or even gender roles. By watching/reading a mlm, there's no female perspective, which takes away all the irl problems.

For example, take the "if guys get sex it's a flex, if girls get sex it's a shame" bullshit. By watching mlm instead of mlw and watching through one or both male characters, they can escape the whole stigma altogether.

To take a step further, since there's an inherent safety/advantage in being a guy in many situations. They can sort of experience that freedom through taking the female character out of the equation. It's sort of like getting gender euphoria but instead it's gender role freedom euphoria???

Theres also the male gaze problem. The majority of straight shoes have gender roles to varying degrees, which skewers the power dynamic within the pairing. This makes it hard for straight girls to enjoy pairings bc they will always be put into a position where they notice inequalities toward them. So again escape.

Anyways, what I'm trying to say is, I agree that this topic is pretty complex.

It is! It's very complex. But just to kind of comment on some of your points - a lot(not all) of the straight women who consume mlm media tend to consume it to the exclusion of everything else.

I could possibly understand the points your friend made better if they also consumed things like mlw media and fics written by women, or wlw fics/media at all. But they generally don't, especially not the latter. Often times a lot of straight women mass-consumers of mlm fic and commercial media, in my experience at least, tend to treat wlw content with disgust, ridicule, or flat out indifference. Perhaps not to the same vitriolic degree straight men tend to treat mlm content compared to wlw content, but it's still there. So that kind of... makes me question if they're actually being entirely honest with themselves as to why they're consuming the specific content that they do.

I'm just saying, straight women can be just as guilty as straight men when it comes to how and why they approach the specific queer media that they do, especially when it's to the exclusion of other kinds of queer pairings.

Because I pose this: if it really all falls down to power dynamics and releasing themselves from the male gaze, then why focus exclusively on a gendered pairing that just erases the woman entirely? Why a pairing that focuses solely on a basic personal sexual preference? Makes women irrelevant to existence? Why not gravitate toward more straight women writers who thwart or rewrite a lot of those societal gender inequities that effect women within their work? Why not give respect or audience to wlw content that makes the male gaze and male/female power dynamics irrelevant as well?

See what I'm saying?

That being said, it's still not my job to police that consumption for all the same reasons I said in that last post. And to reiterate, I'm not saying your friend is wrong for feeling how she feels or that she's making it up. I don't think that at all! People have a lot of complex feelings, which is why this topic is inherently complex. I just think two things can be true at the same time, even when we may not realize those biases about ourselves

[narwhalandchill]

(just my 2.3 pull / general hsr rambles/rant but i get negative abt fireflys characterization again so thought id hide it for all the fans sake. good for yall & good luck pulling her i just cant get into her)

welp got my e1 gallagher (+ e2 mika) in 30 pulls on firefly so thats it from me, ill get e2 from the character selector so at least thats sth!!! i have been playing him a bit even at e0 and i do overall like how he feels so getting him to that e2 breakpoint where he rly starts to thrive as a sustain pick is v nice

anyway no early firefly which is whatever i consider her in game writing an absolute failure anyway and havent cared enough to watch Any of the trailer stuff either bc like . they lost me in 2.0 im sorry girl no matter how hypothetically good those trailers could be the writing team lost me forever at the ayaka-teppei forced date arc and thats it lmao . she couldve been an actual character but oh well what matters is shoving how cute and perfect and sad and in love with TB she is down ur throat at every fucking moment . her idle animation is so fucking bad too it made me laugh irl at how awful and cheap the fanservice is w her like yeah alright navia idle (which is already the worst idle in genshin i hate it) 💀💀💀 how do you do a characters potential this fucking dirty holy shit . we havent shilled firefly self insert ship to players enough so lets upskirt her too uwu!!!!!

But uhhh yeah thats a me being a hater thing ultimately i just physically cannot stand characters like this and first impressions do matter . Dont let me ruin her for u. nothing but props to her VA too like as much as her general characterizations appeal has been unsuccessful on me still shes been giving it the Absolute most to try to make her feel real and sympathetic and i respect that a lot

Still tho only thing that rly sucks w not just getting firefly at 4 pity or whatever and being done w it is just the. Welp Guess ill proceed to be unable to full clear any of the next 7 AS or MoC updates bc i pulled the wrong characters instead of Good Meta Dev Faves acheron and firefly like havent rly been a fan of the way the shilling has been going recently . like i just have rly shit matchups into the weaknesses of most stages these days and idk i havent even felt like Bothering to do PF 4 bc i just. DoT PF is always the fucking worst and i genuinely dont know what the hell to try to slap at it for a clear. guess my bad for not pulling swan either like truly my mistake . whatever its just a game .

Actually am i getting like burnt out ? well tracks for a honkai game i suppose. ig it also has to do w just the absolutely abysmal luck ive had now like. ive lost LC 75-25 of the 3 times i went for it TWICE . ive lost 50-50 like 5 times in a row now lmao and fully expect to lose on jade too at this point 🙃 might not even manage to get her at all . Sigh guess thats gacha at its worst for u

Sorry this got way more negative than i thought HSJSKSKSKSKSKD i hope the 2.3 story ends up being good at least so theres Sth good about it . and its not like i will die not clearing endgame content w full stars or sth it just sucks bc the way its happening just feels bad

edit: yeah im @ coffee break at work and it took me this fucking long to realize i just casually typed mika instead of misha JSJSTUHTS8J5Z9 💀💀💀💀 im so sorry misha youre way better than that nerd 😭😭😭😭😭 esp at c2 w the def shred i might even build him who knows . So sorry for this

[nahalism]

did you ever need to take sth like antidepressants for anxiety or panick attacks? I recall you speakin about having dealth with them in the past & been wonderin if you ever tried medicating urself for it / would consider it if your nerves were getting too much 4 u at some point down the line or did you develop ur own way around those little&big pits of hell

xX

heyyyyy <3 (this will b long but this question deserves a thorough answer so hope thats ok)

ive been strongly encouraged to take various medications over the years, particularly for anxiety/mood stabilisation, and twoish weeks ago i ended up in hospital cause literally i lost my mind, and i felt so out of it that thats the first time i ever considered not just wanting, but needing medication in order to function. however, i didnt, cause i dont like making decisions in the moment (desperation leads to desperate decisions) and because before that experience and even during it, ive never felt convinced that medication was the solution to the problems i was facing. 1) due to the physical, mental and emotional side effects. & 2) because im not convinced the people prescribing the meds even know what is 'wrong' with me.— a lot of that has to do with the nhs being a mess, (its quicker to get meds than wait thru the referral time to get diagnosed & into therapy) but also, theres a lot of comorbidity in the diagnosis ive been given, so there are multiple things to treat & in their eye's medication gives a faster result than unpacking all of that individually. the recommendation was to put me on a cocktail of drugs that can fuck up my liver kidneys and endocrine system to 'see if it will work' .. :/.

the only thing that has ever worked for me is sitting with myself and my emotions, acknowledging them, doing things at my pace in my time, and structuring my life in a way that is tailored for me and my success rather than being successful in the world or in a socially accepted way. that means having a morning routine that caters to my mental emotional and physical health, (mindful practices, yoga, gardening, sound work etcetc), and finding ways to continue that throughout the day (working creatively and limiting my exposure to people or situations that are not for me/overstimulate me).

that being said, this routine (which is still being refined and altered) works pretty well for me, but comes with sacrifices and isnt fool proof. symptoms of my mental illness still persist & without being medicated people are less lenient when helping someone they feel isnt 'helping themselves', im also still working on how to be as sociable as id like to be, and often my spirals are triggered by the very system i have in place to help me. i often face feeling like a let down, like im lazy, like im a weirdo/recluse, like im incapable of being a normal person etc etc. for example, a lot of the friends i graduated with have experienced crazy growth in their careers and have a sense of social and financial security that i dont have because they can function year round, whereas i have months at a time where i dont feel myself and have to disappear in order to keep sanity and peace in my being, lol. that, and the fact that it takes me a lot of base maintenance and effort to function as a normal person makes me feel like shit if i let it, so i constantly have to remind myself on top of the work i do daily, that whilst there are things others have/experience, that i dont, the inverse is also true, and theres beauty to me being me in my way. and .. yeah 🤷🏽‍♀️. that part is hard. but its also worth it to me and has taught me a lot

all that being said, do your own research and decide what feels right and what is best for YOU. speak to your doctors, therapists, and friends who may be medicated, or look on forums online for perspectives from both sides. [*if anyone reading this has a helpful opinion 2 offer pls comment]. the feeling of helplessness when your in the throws of whatever mental illness you suffer from can be debilitating and if taking a pill everyday or when you need it can fix that, no ones opinion should sway you from doing what you need to do to function. some of my friends who are medicated swear by medication!! (particularly when it comes to adhd meds) cause not being able to process thoughts and function is horrible and ruins lives needlessly.

so yh.. i hope this helps. as long as you do whats best for you, i have no doubt you will find your way through this and that it will be worth it. above all, know that the power of your will, your mind, and your person, is what makes you special, and so even if it takes more for you to show up than it does others, that's absolutely fine. take your time with it, and know what nothing is wasted, because you have no idea the good that can come from working out the details. most of the advice i have to offer comes from making it thru an existential crisis or bout of depression. <3

blessings 2 u love

[mithliya]

https://www.tumblr.com/youturningintodust/735765266414387200/yes-this-is-rape-culture-done-by-women-well?source=share

invert in op's bio

honestly the invert stuff is whatever to me bc i guess she’s a gnc lesbian so it’s like.. that was what they were called back then. if she feels it’s more succinct and fitting than terms nowadays, that’s fine, her choice. as a term it’s tied to homophobic ideology but i cant assume that’s her point in using it.

i personally don’t like the strap fixation online or in lesbian spaces, because it has made me & many other lesbians feel like weirdos tbh like. we feel like there’s sth wrong with us for NOT liking that but i guess she’s speaking from a diff perspective here, so that’s fine too.

i disagree with framing it as “butch/femme sex” & i dislike the assumption that there being a masc & a feminine woman within the same relationship means we’re having sex a certain way. it’s rly not like that and it sucks when ppl assume that butches can’t possibly enjoy reciprocal sex and only want to give instead of receive any sex acts. or, perhaps less damaging imo, that feminine women only want to receive and not give. it’s just… not the case. how we present to the world doesn’t say much about how we have sex.

the idea that not liking the fixation with strap that can be found in many spaces for women into women is tied to the idea that u need to “use your vagina (penetratively)” is also odd to me. there’s definitely lesbians who don’t enjoy receiving any penetration but enjoy receiving oral for example, or clit stimulation, or some form of rubbing like tribbing or scissoring or w/e else. idk why theres this assumption that it’s either u wear the strap or u get penetrated?? like. it’s not that rare for lesbians to not enjoy or want penetration, actually. maybe its rare to never want any form of penetration, but that’s also not that rare nor is it limited to butches??

but yeah if someone expresses only wanting sex in one way, to guilt trip them in any way or shame them in any way for not wanting to have sex the way YOU approve of is rapey and gross. she’s right about that.

idk why she’s acting like topping being “alien” to lesbians is normal tho…most of us enjoy reciprocal sex, meaning we are mostly vers. if a woman acted like topping is a totally weird thing to do, i reckon most women would not be compatible with her.

again rly hate the equating of female masculinity with being a stone top! she means stone butches, she should say that. it’s more common among butches, but it’s neither exclusive to butches to only want to have the type of sex she describes nor do all butches fit that standard either.

i’m sure what she describes exists but honestly the phenomena i’ve noticed more often is the opposite where people expect butches to not want to be penetrated or not want to have sex acts done onto them… i agree w her ppl who feel entitled to do that to butches are awful tho.

[quietasfire]

so theres this instagram page i follow thats like lesbian centric and i respect that obviously but recently the admin has posted sth like "do u think its fair that bi women also have opinions when i post polls" which. i kno a lot of her poll questions r phrased this way bc obviously a lot of her audience agree w her and dislike the other pov which i understand but what i DONT understand is why have a public acc if its totally meant to block out other opinions ?? especially when theres a lot they have in common (bi women and lesbians r both into women etc). Like i sent in a dm once in a topic that i thought was aimed at the broader audience like "i totally agree w this bc it makes so much sense and it even lines up w me (not a lesbian) so yall are 100% right abt observing this phenomemon bc it applies to So Many People" which i thought was yk totally harmless bc i wasnt disagreeing or anything. but now im thinking like was that wrong to do bc 💀 Youre talking about lesbian experiences yes i respect that truly i do but do u actually expect and treat bi women like a completely different species like pls u know bisexuals. Are attracted to women too right like what is going onnnnnn truly

[wonryllis]

so done with the world. TwT i just healed myself from depression and another case appeared. theres this casey girl who used to like me and she knew i was straight and i didnt like anyone at the moment so she asked her friend, tina for advice and tina suggested she disguised it as a dare in case she get rejected. an casey did the dare and i thought she was doing it for fun since im the joke idk why. and i rejected her and im sure i did the right thing cuz im also human and have my own feelings. casey was head over heels yada yada but sad and yada yada since she got rejected and yap to tina 24/7. tina came to me and blamed me indirectly (shes so good at blaming ppl in a 'nice' way idk how she do that) she said she had to stop casey from doing things to herself and said i was totally blind and took her bestie's side since ofc she only listened to one side and yeah now im the bad guy. i feel like im in the wrong universe lol. i've never clicked w anyone and never had friends who r like rlly genuine ykyk. im so desperate to feel like a person, wanted for once that im doing stupid things now. idk why i keep pleasing ppl when they just knock when they need sth. now im on the edge of the cliff. again. - 🦖

the most important and first thing is that it's not your fault at all. second, wow these two got some shameless guts to guilt trip you like you got no control over casey's feelings for you and it is completely valid for you to think of your own feelings before anyone else? like wtf those two think they are? please separate yourself from them stay tf away from bullshit people like that blaming their own problems on you. do not let people who won't do you any good and rather just put you down have any influence in your life, it is very very important to learn and accept that. not everyone is going to like you and more often than not you will find people who don't like you than people who like you, you gotta learn to recognize them and distance yourself. the good and right people are rare but it isn't impossible to find them. you need to know your own worth and stop entertaining people who only wish to use you. ofcourse it doesn't happen overnight but you need to have that determination to make that happen slowly overtime. if you don't you'll keep encountering situations like these. the control you do have in these kind of situations is how you let it affect you, you can't keep giving such people the power to bring you down, know that you're better than them. genuine friends come really rarely ik but pls don't lose hope (⁠っ⁠˘⁠з⁠(⁠˘⁠⌣⁠˘⁠ ⁠) when you know your own worth you will automatically only associate yourself closely with people who are as good as you. 🫂🫂 it is valid for you to feel bad right now though do not bottle up these emotions but also do not think the fault is within you.

[soleillunne]

for the ask game, sage and chamomile?

sage ⇢ what ‘medium’ of art (poetry, music, fiction, paintings, statues etc.) is the most touching to you? why do you think that is?

i think for me it's music, mostly because it helps me with my emotions a bit. like when im upset i have specific songs i listen to to feel better etc. also daydreaming is better when theres music in the background /j

chamomile ⇢ what kind of things do you like receiving as gifts?

now this one is a bit more complicated because im probably the most indecisive person you'll ever meet in your entire life. also i will be so honored you gave me a gift i will literally refuse to let anything happen to it lmao i like when i get handmade stuff though! like one of my friends gave me earrings she made herself a couple months ago and i was in tears i still wear them theyre great. i also like it when the gift has sth to do with my current hobbies because ive had way too many boring (in my personal opinion) books as gifts. dont get me wrong, if you get me a book i will read it. how long it takes me to finish it depends on how much i like it though. i also like collecting little trinkets (keychains, tiny toys? idk stuff you can put on your shelf) and i like when i receive those as well

[rpfisfine]

i think my problem is that sometimes im extremely traditionalist when it comes to ppl customizing the main playable character of a video game and sometimes im not. i will watch gtav playthroughs on yt where the person playing doesn't make a change to michael's appearance the entire game and i'll be like boringggg give him long hair and glasses and a stubble and put him in a suit. shave his head and make him wear strictly hawaiian shirts. do SOMETHING. but then i'll see a rdr2 clip where arthur has a moustache and sideburns and is dressed all dapper or a different clip where he has a shaved head and full length beard and is wearing like a floral print vest and i'm like that's not arthur you didn't read the source material. arthur wears the default beige coat and blue shirt for the entirety of the game and only lets his beard & hair grow long when he gets tb in the second half of the game bc its too sad for me to look at his pale sunken cheeks. also you smell so bad