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fortruechaos · 29 days ago
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relationship document.
this is a small place intended to honor some of the dynamics i've written over the years... i thought it would be nice to keep track of them somewhere. not every muse written by my friends is here (especially noting rain who writes like every sonic character and all of them could basically be a main for my shadow but we've threaded more extensively or plotted with these specific characters so they deserve special places).
(note that i hate the assumption that these things have to be reciprocated, it feels very performative sometimes and i've found it also often forces people into feeling obligated to something they don't wanna feel obligated to, so please don't take this as pressure to have to list my shadow anywhere or think of him in a certain way. i literally don't care about stuff like that. ok thanks for writing with me <3)
this isn't comprehensive at all and is a constant wip. in no particular order.
@/npcharacters ;; ROUGE.
My best friend. I trust her more than anyone else, despite her preference to think of herself as the deadly femme fatale.
@/npcharacters ;; THE DOCTOR.
It's complicated. I feel an immense pity for him, and yet I hate him like I hate no one else. The feeling seems to be mutual, which is oddly comforting.
@/unfortunatedarling ;; YU-NAE.
I want to make things right for them. So they can live the life they deserve to live.
@/spirestar ;; AMY.
My dear friend. I wish she wouldn't pay so much heed to the occult though...tch.
@/spirestar ;; SILVER.
He means well, but he jumps to conclusions more often than not, and can be annoyingly brash...regardless, he is a powerful ally.
@/lightdash ;; SONIC.
Every time I think I understand Sonic, he keeps me on my toes. He also continues to encourage me that it's okay to be on my toes. It's strange to say, but I've begun to appreciate it.
@/badnikbreaker ;; AMY.
One of my closest companions. They need to learn how to take breaks and step away. We've been through much together, so I wish she would trust her own strength.
@/badnikbreaker ;; BEAST.
Maybe I shouldn't trust her, but I do. She had no name for so long. I know what it's like to not have a past, so I don't care.
@/badnikbreaker ;; AVA.
Too small to be let down in the ways she has been. I don't know much about her outside of that impression though.
@/badnikbreaker ;; MARIA.
My sister, reborn of my own hubris. I messed up. I can only attempt to make it up to her again.
@/familylightfox ;; VOLT & HARMONY.
I seem to wind up in their universe more often than not, and every time it seems the both of them have undergone significant growth. They may just be acquaintances, but I feel I know them quite well by now.
@/shadowsceptered ;; MEPHILES.
A cockroach who keeps coming back. He should be a bug instead of a half-god. I should have known better than to think I could shake off such persistence. (+ faulty knight verse): The only one who has promised me what I want: answers. Cryptic for reasons that lead me to be suspicious of him, and yet he is the only one willing to see me for who I am.
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092s · 21 days ago
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     ฅ υ˶˃ ﻌ ˂˶υ ฅ ✧  #092s.tumblr.com   !
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an independent & selective portrayal of yoo dohwa, also known as adrenaline puppy, an original character written into squid game verse.  + dawn, sporadic activity, twenty3.
    ¹ law.    ² dossier.    ³ verses.    ⁴ musings. 
telling the tale of a high stakes gambler who never loses, the jaded worldview of the daughter of a man who lost more than he could ever win right up until his dying day.
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sitehound · 25 days ago
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— [ #STORMSPLIT ] ┊ THE SIGHTHOUND ✧
I THINK A WOMAN LIKE THAT NEEDS TO BE PUT DOWN LIKE A DOG. Do I think she did a good job? That's relative. It's fine, it doesn't bother me to say that she solved the case. The problem, and you can't let this get out, is this: she's fucking crazy. I don't know who gave her that Janitorial license, but they need to be shot alongside her. ❜ — Anonymous account of Detective Mochida
Independent, not very selective roleplay account for an OC by the name of TSUGUMI MOCHIDA. A supernatural detective set against the backdrop of a lively city marred by the scars of its folkloric creatures that it has spurned with its modernity. Luckily, there's one woman crazy enough to take the cases of man and monster alike.
( carrd ✧ consent check ✧ promo )
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beastawoken · 3 months ago
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#beastawoken.
⋆ a roleplay/writing blog solely focused on a prominent character in the late akira toriyama's beloved dragon ball franchise, son gohan.
quick rundown.
⋆ mun is above the age of 21. muse is above that age too by default, though of course it depends on the verse. ⋆ i've absolutely no tolerance for callout culture, drama, vague posting, and incessant negativity. i tend to disregard dni lists because i refuse to allow anybody to determine who i can or cannot interact with; that is my discretion. ⋆ oc, duplicate, cross-over and multi-muse friendly. ⋆ non-roleplay blogs and minors are unwelcomed and will most likely be blocked on sight. ⋆ triggers won't be tagged unless explicitly asked. i am dealing with dragon ball, after all, so depictions of violence, death, gore and other mature themes will be present here. follow mindfully. ⋆ please reblog from the source. this isn't a resource blog, and i want a clean activity feed. ⋆ semi-selective, mutuals only, multi-verse and multi-ship.
but wait, there's more!
⋆ while i prefer dragon ball and dragon ball z, i have absolutely no problem with writing with characters that originate from super, gt or any other spin-off. though, i kindly ask for your patience because i have not seriously watched or read much of anything related to dragon ball that's been released in more recent times, and i'm not sure if i want to, quite frankly. i keep up to date with the video games and movies for the most part, but i'm aware they may not give the full picture. so, i will use whatever available information you have of your muse on your blog, as well as do my own research if need be, as to get an idea of how mine would interact with yours. i apologize in advance if i'm rusty or forget important details!
⋆ gohan is available for ships outside of videl. this isn't to say i dislike godel, quite the opposite, i just love shipping and exploring possibilities. if you want to ship, hit me up! send a meme, shoot me a message. and needless to say, ships don't just have to be romantic, so whatever kind of dynamic or connection you have in mind, i'd be delighted to hear about it!
⋆ i can be slow, forgetful and fickle, and this may sometimes be reflected in my activity and the pace at which i reply. if you want to remind or nudge me, do it! but if i feel like you're rushing me or acting entitled, then i'll block you. this is a hobby, so the last thing i want is to feel stressed or pressured or that i'm obligated to anybody. let's keep this lighthearted and fun, please!
⋆ you can call me skibidi. i'm not all that interesting, tbh, so i dunno what else to put here. if you want my discord, lemme know!
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hymnblood · 2 years ago
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This is a PERMANENT INBOX CALL so mutuals can like this across as many blogs that they have and this will be a personal post I will refer to when I don't have the energy to write at that point in time and choose to send asks to people !! This will ofc be a mix of unprompted asks or asks from your ask meme tags.
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donutghoul · 1 year ago
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#𝐃𝐎𝐍𝐔𝐓𝐆𝐇𝐎𝐔𝐋   ━━ just your friendly neighborhood poltergeist from aidairo's jibaku shounen hanako-kun. this is a private, selective, & in-depth character analysis with personal headcanons of AMANE YUGI ╱ HANAKO.
FOLLOW   REQUIREMENTS :    18  +  older.
NAVIGATION.     carrd. soundtrack. prompts.
rules under the cut ╱ please read before interacting.
I AM:
over 21 years old, picky when it comes to following back, sometimes lazy & uninspired (which can affect the rate of my replies). bisexual, and latino.
DO:
be understanding and patient with me (english is not my native language, I apologize for any possible grammar mistakes), interact with me and/or send me memes provided that we are mutuals.
DO NOT:
godmod, force interactions and/or shipping, try to hurry my replies.
FEATURING:
genre elements of action, comedy, romance, and horror. heavy triggers and dark themes. usually includes blood, violence, and disturbing content. I will always try my best to tag everything, but if I forget feel free to remind me.
WRITING:
I can roleplay multi / single para, one-liners, and more so just let me know what works best for you. I can match any kind of writing, but you absolutely don't have to match length. quality over quantity; so be sure to write what you feel. ( side note: when writing threads with me or replies, please only use small icons or no icons for formatting. no banners, large GIFs, etc. )
FOLLOWING:
I will roleplay with original characters and canon characters. I am more selective about self-inserts and multi-muse blogs. overall, I follow based solely on your character and blog content. I do like to read whoever I am following what they've written/posted on the dash.
ABOUT MY PORTRAYAL:
my portrayal is sometimes canon-divergent and headcanon-laden. by this, I mean that I will use canon for the basis of my characterization, but it's not always something I will adamantly stick to. this blog is single-ship (romantically) only.
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vampiricbisexuality · 15 days ago
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like to charge, reblog to cast <3
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butchfalin · 1 year ago
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the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again
#yeehaw#1k#5k#10k#posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours?#also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that!#unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference#edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense#also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags#1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now#he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic#2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign#like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock#3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing#it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is#extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once#it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life#i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about#Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect#if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it#aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week
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thstrongest · 2 days ago
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#THSTRONGEST  ⸺  AN  INDEPENDENT  ROLEPLAY  BLOG  FEATURING  JUJUTSU  KAISEN'S  SATORU  GOJO.  CROSSOVER,  AU,  MULTI-MUSE,  &  DUPLICATE  FRIENDLY.  MULTI-VERSE,  MULTI-SHIP.  TRIGGERING  CONTENT  WILL  BE  PRESENT!
BLOG  IS  CURRENTLY  UNDER  HEAVY  CONSTRUCTION  WITH  LOW  ACTIVITY.  ADORED  BY  BELLE,  21+,  SHE/HER, JJK NOOB BUT DOESN'T MIND SPOILERS!
NAV  COMING  SOON! RULES BELOW!
i.  i  strictly  follow  fellow  roleplay  blogs  with  adult  admins,  and  even  then,  i  will  be  selective  as  to  ensure  a  pleasurable  and  easy  viewing  experience  for  my  dashboard.  in-character  interaction  between  our  muses  will  only  be  possible  under  the  circumstance  that  we  are  following  one  another,  so  if  we  are  not,  please  do  not  disrespect  this  boundary  or  you  will  find  yourself  blocked.
ii.  considering  jujutsu  kaisen  is  of  the  horror  genre,  expect  to  see  such  themes,  subjects  and  material  on  this  blog,  likely  in  abundance.  please  forgo  following  if  you  are  squeamish.  i  try  to  be  accommodating  by  tagging  content  that  is  particularly  egregious  as  best  i  can,  but  ultimately,  you  are  the  one  who  is  responsible  for  your  well-being.  i  am  willing  and  able  to  write  in  the  realm  of  nsfw,  and  yes,  this  includes  smut.
iii.  while  i  understand  that  satoru  gojo  is  a  popular  character  in  the  fandom,  please  do  not  project  your  personal  interpretations,  headcanons,  opinions,  etc  onto  me  and  make  it  seem  as  though  i  "should"  be  portraying  him  a  certain  way.  i  respect  that  everyone  might  have  a  unique  perspective  on  who  he  is,  so  i  implore  that  you  respect  mine,  no  matter  the  extent  to  which  it  differs  from  yours.  by  the  same  token,  do  not  assume  that  just  because  a  ship  involving  gojo  is  widely  beloved  in  the  fandom,  means  i  possess  the  same  feelings  (especially  since  i  am  biased  towards  crack  ships,  rare  pairs,  and  oc  x  canon,  tbh).
iv.  speaking  of  shipping,  my  favorite  topic,  i  absolutely  love  it.  i  invite  you  to  let  me  know  of  your  interest  in  doing  the  thing  with  our  muses  if  you  are  feeling  brave,  i  believe  i  am  unlikely  to  turn  anyone  away  or  refuse  to  hear  out  any  ideas.  even  though  this  may  be  a  divisive  choice  in  the  rpc,  i'm  not  opposed  to  'auto-shipping'  if  it  feels  right,  and  of  course,  i  am  open  to  the  classic,  tried-and-true  route  of  seeing  how  chemistry  develops  through  interaction  over  the  course  of  time.
v.  if  you  would  like  to  plot  or  just  approach  me  for  any  kind  of  chat,  i  welcome  you  to,  though  please  be  mindful  that  i  am  a  shy  person  and  this  may  show  in  delayed  replies.  i  guarantee  you,  it's  not  you,  it's  me,  and  i'm  just  easily  intimidated. also, i am extremely new to jujutsu kaisen, so please be patient with me and forgiving in the event that i make an error!
vi.  i  would  appreciate  it  if  you  reblog  roleplay  resources  from  the  source.  the  less  cluttered  my  activity  feed  is,  the  easier  it  will  be  for  me  to  keep  track  of  ic  interactions.
vii.  of  course,  standard  roleplay  etiquette  applies!  don't  be  rude,  pushy,  disrespectful,  entitled,  and  so  on.  should  any  issues  arise,  let's  hash  them  out  in  a  mature  manner  in  a  private  setting,  or  just  immediately  part  ways  and  move  on.  needless  to  say,  i'd  rather  not  deal  with  negativity  when  i'm  trying  to  enjoy  this  hobby  of  mine  and  would  like  to  avoid  it.
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fortruechaos · 1 month ago
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DOSSIER.
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NAME: Shadow ALIASES: Ultimate Lifeform, Project Shadow, Shads, etc. etc. SPECIES: Artificially created hedgehog imbued with Black Arms DNA AGE: Partner-headcanon dependent ; default is about 23 GENDER: Nonbinary something or other...he doesn't think about it. PRONOUNS: He/him/his SEXUALITY: Grey-aromantic bisexual ALLIANCES: Team Dark, GUN (sort of but not really anymore -- see under the cut for more info)
MY SHADOW: follows the color palette of his original SA2 incarnation (tanned muzzle, brighter reds, etc.). He wears a RED STAR RING for Zone travel underneath his left glove cuff (mostly utilized in crossover threads). Often keeps the GREEN CHAOS EMERALD on his person.
HIS PERSONALITY: is mostly driven from SA2 with heavy influences from his portrayals in Archie, Battle, and 06. He is closed-off, brusque, serious, overly determined, but is not above taunting people or egging people on and he smiles and smirks pretty often. He is driven by his love for Maria and his desire to uphold her wish, and is fine with being seen as morally grey for it, as he ultimately believes in his ability to choose what is right since regaining his memories and sense of self. He hates those that he sees as flighty or noncommittal and is often over-bearing in his pursuit of duty and doing what he thinks is right.
In short, Shadow is a loner who simply struggles with socializing and puts too much emphasis on his personal sense of justice, and will sometimes make fun of people or outwardly look down on them for not seeing things his way.
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My Shadow's GENERAL BACKSTORY AND LORE is a hodge-podge of various Sonic canons but mostly sticks to game-verse with emphasis on his portrayal in SA2.
THINGS WILL BE CHANGED A BIT DEPENDING ON WHO I'M WRITING WITH to make threading more interesting. For example, Finitevus and Cosmo might not be "canon" to my general lore, but if I ever were to write with a Finitevus or Cosmo it'd probably just be easier to assume the muses have interacted in some capacity or are at least somewhat familiar with each other. I, the mun, am pretty familiar with all Sonic lore in at least some capacity so I don't mind just jumping around with what's canon and not canon for my Shadow.
The biggest thing I'm a stickler about and the largest point of divergence is that Shadow the Hedgehog 2005 is NOT CANON for my Shadow.
Shadow does not know Black Doom and has not interacted with him. In place of the plot revolving around the Black Comet and Gerald making a pact with Black Doom, this is what I have come up with.
Shadow, post-Sonic Heroes and leading into and intertwining with the events of Battle, sets about traveling the world to learn more about his past and who he really is. He breaks into various GUN facilities (many of which are seen in ShTH anyway) to uncover this information. Some of his travels lead him into a digital white space a la Shadow Generations and Archie 171 where he can interact directly with data recreations of Maria and Gerald and make peace with their passing.
Instead of Gerald's pact, what happened is this: in his attempt to create the Ultimate Lifeform, he looked to the ancient Echidnas and Babylonians for guidance and traveled to Mobius. This is when he uncovered the Gizoid (Emerl) and also found an interesting set of alien DNA that didn't match what he knew of the echidnas nor the Babylonians' tech. He dubbed the DNA "Black Arms" for its interesting appearance and infused it with his creation and Shadow woke up shortly thereafter.
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CURRENTLY: Again, this is sort of dependent on whom I am writing with, as I don't generally treat IDW events as "canon" to my Shadow (but it is easier to have Shadow interact with Whisper like he knows of her from her time in the Resistance). In the case of IDW-centric threads, PLEASE NOTE MY SHADOW WAS NOT ZOMBOTTED. Idk why they did that it was a bad writing choice.
Anyway post-Forces and I guess also post-Frontiers (even though Shadow's not in that game), which is where I generally assume most threads to take place, with Eggman largely dissolving GUN during his reign over Mobius, Shadow is beginning to step into more of a separate vigilante role as the dark protector of the planet and outside of his role as a GUN special operative. In the instance of my Shadow, he was primarily teamed with them as a means to an end in using their vast information networks to help him make personal judgement calls on where to go and what was the biggest threat to Mobius.
But since they no longer have access to that kind of information after Eggman's reign thanks to their once-ubiquitous information networks being destroyed, Shadow no longer views them necessary to his own goals, and is beginning to sever ties.
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LIL NOTES: I call the planet Mobius and refer to the anthropomorphic animals as Mobians but I don't consider it to be Archie's Mobius.
I refer to the disease Maria contracted as NIDS (although I guess this is canon to everything now and not just Sonic X anymore).
I have certain issues and concepts from Archie I've adopted into my Shadow's canon, but since Archie!Shadow is such a separate guy from the main storyline of Archie, they don't really feel pertinent to mention. But as an example, I like to imagine the Freedom Fighters still exist in Shadow's lore, they are just more of like a separate side-group that sometimes cross paths with Sonic and co. Namely I envision them helping with Perfect Chaos in Station Square during the events of SA1, things like that. I know most people writing Archie characters stick to Archie canon, so dw, I won't operate under the pretense of my made-up canon with your muses.
I consider the Sonic Universe arc where Shadow got sent to Blaze's dimension to handle Metal Sonic to be canon, and it takes place shortly after the events of Rush Adventure.
During the events of Sonic Unleashed, Shadow spent most of his time on Angel Island helping manage an onslaught of Dark Gaia creatures trying to take the Master Emerald. I like to imagine Tikal (or maybe Tikhaos if you're feeling really spicy) get to be briefly re-personified here to help Shadow manage the threat.
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panahm · 2 days ago
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#panahm   [...]   independent roleplay blog featuring panam palmer of cd projekt red's cyberpunk 2077. multi-everything and everything-friendly. mutuals only and adults only, will contain nsfw content. adored by layla (she/her pronouns, 21+).
—01. i prefer to have a dashboard that is pleasurable to view and easy to navigate and so me following blogs selectively is for the sake of catering to this preference of mine. it's nothing personal. if we are not following one another, please refrain from interacting. blogs that are highly likely to be blocked on sight are those ran by minors and those that are completely unrelated to roleplay.
—02. please be mindful that "cyberpunk 2077" is abundant with heavy subjects, themes, and graphic imagery, none of which will be sugarcoated or downplayed here. i advise that you protect your well-being by opting not to follow should you have a litany of triggers or are squeamish. if you make the conscious decision to follow this blog, i trust that you know what to expect to see. i do not tag the common triggers (blood, swearing, weaponry, etc) but if i feel like i'm reblogging something that is particularly jarring, i'll likely give it a tag.
—03. i love shipping. i genuinely do not mind if you send a meme that implies our muses have got a thing going on or if you approach me with ideas in mind for any kind of connection or dynamic. i will only decline if i absolutely do not think it will work, but to be honest, i believe this is unlikely to happen. i am, of course, okay with going the route of just having our muses interact and seeing how things develop naturally over the course of time. and yes, i am open to writing smut, preferably if we as muns are friends and are comfortable with each other, but that is not a requirement.
—04. i ask for the bare minimum of patience and respect. this is a hobby, after all, so i will not tolerate being pressured, guilt-tripped, or made to feel as if i'm obligated to anyone. my activity will depend on my mood and state of affairs.
—05. please reblog musings, aesthetics and memes from the source. this is a roleplay blog, not a resource blog, so i'd appreciate if you only follow if you actually intend to, well, roleplay with me. moreover, i want my activity feed to be as clean as possible.
—06. i don't participate in call-out culture, drama, witch-hunting, vague posting and general negativity, and i am unlikely to follow those who do to the extent that it appears to be what their blog mainly consists of.
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zytes · 1 year ago
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this manatee looks like it’s in a skyrim loading screen
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qiinamii · 15 days ago
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new guy in the Express
bonus:
adding more to the whimsy
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bloomspirit · 2 months ago
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ㅤ█  ✿ᅟ*ㅤ𝕯.ㅤㅤwelcome to dawn's league mumu , where you can find canon characters such as : ezreal , evelynn , seraphine and ahri with a sprinkling of original characters designed to fit both league and arcane universe(s). please note that this blog is semi - selective.
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please note : with the release of ar/cane and the announcement of further league series , i've naturally become curious about the world of runeterra. this admin has very little knowledge on lore as of the present moment and has seldom played the game on which these series are based , but would like to explore canon lore to become familiar with it . due to this slight block , please do not assume connections as there is a chance i don't know what you're referencing - always check with me first , please !
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a gentle reminder on etiquette is in store . n/sfw content may make an appearance on this blog but it will be tagged and no visuals used . even though i'm caught up on arcane i will be issuing spoiler warnings on my writing until the end of december so that everybody has a chance to enjoy the show .
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erzvolnes · 9 months ago
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sidras-tak · 9 months ago
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Accessibility takes too goddamn fucking long.
My brother was paralyzed in October 2023. We got him home from the hospital (in Texas, when we live in Iowa) in a clunky old hospital chair. He hated it. He was scared and angry and in pain and his life had just changed forever and he couldn’t do anything for himself in that wheelchair. His first goal (aside from learning how to transfer) was to get a wheelchair. My family was lucky enough to afford one so we thought it would be easy enough. Nope.
We couldn’t buy him a wheelchair. He needed a prescription. For a wheelchair. A doctor had to examine him and declare him in need of a wheelchair. It wasn’t good enough that he had scans and tests showing tumors cutting off his spinal cord. He needed his primary care doctor to examine him during a physical and write a prescription. He was making 2-4 transfers a day, tops. He had no energy to get to a doctor. Home health was in and out every day. He had no time to get to a doctor. He didn’t get a prescription for almost a month. Then it had to go through insurance.
We asked if we could skip insurance and just buy a wheelchair for him. Nope. They wouldn’t sell us one, not even at full sticker price. It needed to be approved by Medicare. We ordered a wheelchair, a nice one, a good shade of green, sporty, small. It would let him move around the house. He would be able to cook, to reach drawers and get stuff from the fridge and brush his teeth and put his contacts in at a sink. We were told it would take awhile, maybe two months. Silently we all hoped he would be around to see two more months.
He went on hospice care on a Saturday in March. On Monday, I was calling his friends to come see him before he died. I got a call on his phone. It was the wheelchair company. They were about to order his wheelchair, she said, but there was an issue with insurance— had he stopped being covered by Medicare? Well, yes. When he started hospice care, he got kicked off Medicare. The very nice woman I talked to told me to call her if he resumed Medicare coverage so she could order his wheelchair. He died less than 12 hours later.
We ordered that chair for him in early December. Medicare didn’t approve the order until March. He was dead before they got around to it. He wanted that fucking wheelchair so badly. The only reason he had any semblance of independence and any quality of life for the last five months of his life was because the wheelchair company lent him an old beater chair, a very used model of the chair he ordered. If I could go back and change one thing about his end-of-life, I would get him his dream wheelchair. He told me again and again he couldn’t wait to get it, so that he could feel like a person again. He made the best of what he had with that old beater chair, but it still makes me mad to this day. He was paralyzed. He needed a chair that afforded him dignity. We had the money for it. And yet, we were left waiting for five months, for a chair that wouldn’t even get ordered until the day he died.
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