#do not call me neuro spicy

[trans-wojak]

[dream-sans-mogai]

Here's a tip! Even if you're nice to me and ask me a genuine question, im not gonna answer shit when you call others/insult yourself (jokingly) by calling yourself a "mental invalid" :)

I have this thing called a mental disability and I also have this thing called a developmental disability. Y'all think you can insult us or call us shit (retarded, slow, "special", etc.) and we are "too stupid/slow" to figure out that what your saying is offensive and is about us but we arnt. Most of us are perfectly capable of both understanding you and advocating for ourselves. So fuck you actually. I'm not gonna inform an ableist just because they didn't know I was a "mental invalid" and actually, apparently, smarter than you. :)

[uhgood-girl]

i haven't had a chance to fully form this thought yet so bear with me while i explore my own brain but my immediate response to this is i think two things can be true at the same time.

this is me playing devil's advocate with both you and myself, tbh. if you do not enjoy borderline pedantic over thinking, i recommend you turn back now.

i watched the entirety of standing next to you with my jaw on the floor. beyond seeing jk in what i would consider to be the epitome of his element, the arrival of all that experience and hard work and raw talent finely honed, culminating in the absolute pop perfection that is both that song and performance... well, i've made a joke on here before about my brains inability at this stage to not insert jikook into things. i could maybe help it if i wanted to (i can stop at anytime, says the alcoholic 🥴) but i don't want to because i'm having fun and i've made friends with the brain worms. they're my brain worms, who are you take them from me.

i have also mentioned jikook being it's own form of pattern recognition drug for mine, obviously, and probably other's more neuro-spicy tendencies. once you have seen and unlocked the code, it's really hard to turn the goggles off.

so let's talk about patterns. what is a pattern? a pattern is lmao no, i'm kidding, i don't think i need to define this for you but i guess when i say pattern here i'm referring to what a lot of people often call coincidences. (have i lost you already bc of this word? i know people throw it around often here, but again, bear with me) coincidences can become patterns if they repeat enough. how many coincidences does it take to form a pattern? three, i believe, is the universally accepted number but that feels so small when i type it out, much less think about it, tbh. but i suppose in the discourse of coincidences, something that reoccurs without apparent connection, (traveling strangers who keep ending up in the same cities together, you and your friend always texting each other at the exact same time, two people in a band who keep mysteriously referencing things that connect them in a particular sort of light) bc of the unlikelieness of their serendipitous nature, it makes more sense. and because i want to discuss this in a more tangible form and i believe humans to be meddling by nature, i think coincidences become patterns, beyond the number three, when intent enters the equation.

was that a very long way to say that despite the fact that jk didn't write any of the lyrics himself and is quoted in the article above as telling people to not take things too literally that i'm still going to intuit some autobiographical meaning from them? well, yes. i guess so. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

because ✨context✨(glass closet and comp het in particular). a context that i fully admit i am abscribing to the situation myself but if you're reading this i assume you're already in this boat with me, it's your context too, at least tangentially (GUILTY, your honor) by association. the entirety of any jikook argument has to exist in this space and to have gotten here at all required taking some liberties, a certain reading between the lines that is a tightrope of wanting to respect what someone says outloud and at face value while being aware few things are ever black and white (minus the infamous couple in question bah bum tiss 🥁).

if it feels different to you bc it's something he explicity expressed, that's totally fair. i've been back and forth about it a few times myself and maybe i'll feel differently tomorrow. but rn, this is where i'm at and this is all just spitballing at the end of the day, no?

in an attempt to not be accused of only picking and choosing the lyrics that suit my (gay) agenda, it feels worth pointing out that the lines i find applicable to jikook are not literal. as in while i fully believe jk could probably do anything he set his big, beautiful heart out to do, leaving someone's body golden like the sun and moon is unlikely. ( the jikook relevance is in it's choice, why that particular metaphor) and despite being more in the realm of possibility, i don't really believe he's fucking seven days a week either. his agreeance to the use of female pronouns in some songs and even the women in his music videos are a. the comp het standard for this worldwide pop boy takeover (inarguably) and b. don't automatically negate any potential underlying queerness of the artist himself. so when he sings she (is there even anything in the lyrics beyond the pronoun itself that could only refer to a cis woman? hell, does "she" only have to refer to a cis woman in this day and age? jimin is v in touch with his anima these days, don't kink shame :P) I'm taking that as an artistic liberty the same way I'm taking something like it's deeper than the rain. and the latter rain line only stands out to me because, again, broader context.

he didn't write any of the song lyrics but he was there for every step of the production and still approved what actually made it on to the album. he didn't write there for you, the song in gcf tokyo either but i dare you to go find a jikook argument about that video that doesn't list that song and its lyrics as evidence. he didn't write them but it's definitely something he cares about and is very aware of. i doubt anything was chosen without some degree of thought. which brings us full circle back to coincidences vs patterns and intent.

do i think the lyrics a lot of us collectively recognized as jikook coded, even if you respectfully don't want to read that far into it, were a coincidence this late in the game? ain't no way lmao. our jikook roads are paved with these sort of "coincidences." you think they weren't apart of the appeal? helped boost it right to main track status? maybe if it had just been the lyrics, without any of the imagery in the video (i would love to know how much creative direction he had here too, i hope we find out) to back it up, but between that not straight red line of fate, the black swan like wings, the dancing in front of the sun painting, the two households, both alike in dignity, in fair verona where we lay our scene aka the forbidden love vibes, etc. - it's too much for this sad little hyper-fixated romantic queer, personally lol.

so, i think two things can be true at the same time! i'm sure a lot of the songs and their implications have no autobiographical meaning to them beyond a universally relatable conversation and narrative about love, i do believe him. i think based on all the responses and feedback his first releases got, making a statement such as the one in the article was a good? pr move if nothing else too and definitely in line with what we have come to expect around an industry that bts is both sort of moving away from but still restricted by at this stage. if you've read any of my other ramblings so far on this site, you'll know i operate from a place of the more smoke screen around all this (this being a potential romantic relationship between jikook) the better, bc at the end of the day i want all of bts more than anything safe, happy, and free to pursue whatever creative fancy they can dream. them building a level of plausible deniability into this sort of stuff protects them. i will remain a broken record on that point.

but bc of the larger context of jikook as a whole and my belief that jk is both clever and also a romantic at heart, i'm going to take these crumbs and go. 🚗💨 i'm not in any sort of who can be the more superior, rational delulu competition, we're all in our own little clown cars no matter your chosen dressings until proven otherwise. that's the nature of this whole shebang, bby. 🤠👉👉

def feel free to come respectfully argue with me though, i'm never here to convince anyone but i enjoy these conversations and i love other people's perspective. are you ignoring the standing next to you jikook bait?

[kaidraws69]

Agni lore

Full Name: Agni Pele Ignatius

Meaning of Name: Fire god

Nickname(s): NiNi (by his little niece)

Birthday: 4/14/1996

Gender (Assigned Gender, pronouns, and if they’re trans): he/him/his

Species: Mount Rageon

Race / Ethnicity / Nationality: Goyle

Eye Color: Red

Skin Color: dirty red

Hair Type: silicon dread-type

Hair Color and Length: Orange- shoulder length

Build: Thin and tall

Age: 28

In School? (If so, what grade): N/A

Height: 9’2”

Weight (vs. what it’s supposed to be): 100 LBS

Healthy? Why or Why Not: Agni is in very good shape and health, dispite his disability

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Do they like their name?: yes

How old do they appear?: 28

Glasses?: no

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Backstory: Agni grew up in a sketchy neighborhood in Under Rageous. Surrounded by violence and bounties, he was forced to work at a young age to help support his family. Everyday he feared he’d die on the dangerous streets. As he grew, so did his pent up aggression and rage. His parents split and he was left along in his fathers care, going to his mothers on the weekends. As soon as he reached eighteen, he booked it out of his fathers care and packed his bags and searched for a place to call home. Eventually coming across an old warehouse for welding/ construction, he contacted the owner and bought the warehouse for 1600 Bitz. (16,000 USD thank you Nally for helping me with that) He gradually moved in all while fixing up the place, teaching himself how to weld and construct things. Ever so slowly, he eventually started to make and sell traps to other Rageons for their bounties, getting paid good! Unable to keep up with the high demand of traps, Agni started hiring other Rageons who needed a place to work, making sure to pay them fairly. Word spread that PyroTech Construction made high quality traps for a fair price, causing a certain Strobe Rageon to hear about Agni’s little company. One busy day however, Agni was busy connecting sharp metal teeth to a snap-trap when a razor sharp steel plate fell from a steel beam and sliced his arm clean off. The shock sent him back as the adrenaline kept him from feeling pain. He was rushed to the hospital, where he got the wound closed off, somehow surviving all that blood loss. After he recovered, he immediately began working on making himself a prosthetic, taking months to build and program. After half a year, he finally completed the prosthetic, and just had to install and activate the neuro connector. A neuro connector is like a hearing aid but it cuffs behind the ear. Pressing the small button, a long surgical needle pierced into his head, right to the section of his brain that moved and controlled his arm. Bam. He had a new arm now!

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Core Personality Traits: highly territorial, sarcastic, so passive-aggressive it hurts

Daredevil or Cautious: daredevil

Selfish or Selfless: a mix of both

Major Strengths / Pros: durable, strong, risky, territorial, wants things done his way

Major Flaws / Weaknesses / Cons: stubborn, doesn’t care if he gets more scars, will fight and murder anyone who gets in his way

Likes: his job, close friends, a handful of Rageons

Dislikes: Rageons who call him out, insult his work, employees, or close friends, low quality work

Good Habits: Loyal, protective, damn good at what he does, if you’re buddies with him, you get discounts

Bad Habits: too many to name lol

Sexuality: Omnisexual

Opinion on Sex / Relationships: open to them

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Powers(?): brute strength and a thick skull

Weapon: horn(s)

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Taste in Clothes: he really refers the light, loose clothing. Tank top, cargo pants, work boots

Hobbies: welding/construction, forging, smithing

Favorite Sport: Ram-headding (it’s a Goyle thing)

Favorite Game: the Rageon version of CoD

Favorite Genre of Music: rock/ metal (anything aggressive)

Favorite Class: ig he teaches welding?

Favorite Food: Anything spicy

Favorite Person / Role Model: himself

Celebrity “Crush” / Secondary Role Model: he’d kill me if I told you

Quote(s): “You was in my way”

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Family Situation: separated parents, no contact

Best Friends: Nova, Apollo, Lito

Friends: Bro doesn’t have a lot

Enemies: succubi Rageons

Crush: again, he’d kill me if I told you

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Phobia?: atychiphobia (fear of failure)

Deepest fear / the worst thing that could happen to them / what would break them?: losing his arm and part of his left horn

What are they reluctant to tell people?: His past

The worst thing (currently) in their life: coping with his traumas

The best thing (currently) in their life: his friends and work

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How do they feel about themselves?: Agni is very proud of himself

Are they the same alone?: absolutely

How does the character try to differ from how they actually are?: he doesn’t

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Fun Facts (Miscellaneous):

Agni lost part of his horn in a territory fight while butting heads

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[fg203]

Yeah so I had no idea that my appreciation of healthy communication could hit kink levels until I found @scarlettohairdye’s fics.

I read I Know Who I Want To Take Me Home first, and daaaamn. Suddenly I realized that while I occasionally enjoy a level of toxic in my fiction I wouldn’t tolerate in real life- that reading about people having open and healthy communication about sex is hot AF.

Then, I read Leave All Your Love and Your Longing Behind. Yay more hot healthy communication, and all sorts of warm fuzzies of awesome acceptance that warms my cynical and jaded heart. I heart Wei Ying’s “weird queerplatonic extended family grouping over two apartments.” Also Bunny, because she is the best and the belly is NOT a trap. And even Bruce because he is a big lover and just needed a friend to teach him manners.

And of course, because of my brain with all the hyper-SQUIRREL-fixa-SHINY-tion, paired with a whoa busy life, I am reading ALL THE THINGS between all the OTHER things that I am reading/watching/scrolling/doing. Which naturally means I read For a Good Time, Call. I am so ridiculously in-love with this modern incarnation of all the MDZS characters, but most especially Wei Ying and Lan Zhan. I love the feelings and the talking about them once they get around to talking about them. I love the neuro-spicy in all flavors. I love wedding planner extraordinaire Jiang Cheng and Nie Mingjue’s “Like I haven’t seen a fucking dick before.” I love the fashion. I love Wei Ying’s (off screen) therapist and want to be her (I am already a snarky and sarcastic asshole to clients who appreciate my snarky and sarcastic ways, I think he would appreciate me). And damnit, apparently I now love Jin Zixuan, and his naked calendar, hanging with cats, and haunted kitchen.

I have actually reread this one in bits and pieces because I wasn’t ready to move on, and sometimes when doing other things thoughts of this would pop up and I’d come back to visit. I am pretty excited that this is part of a series of works and I get to visit this world and particular incarnation of these characters again.

So do yourself a favor, if you are open to modern AUs, enjoy some explicit smut in your fic, and are on the healthy communication kink-train (or want to explore it) - and check out @scarlettohairdye’s work.

[merp-blerp]

So I haven't seen Disney's Wish myself (I'm waiting for it to assumedly go to Disney+, theaters are a lot of money to spend too often), so I can't speak on the film from my own point of view yet, but I have seen the reaction to it so far and I wanted to share my thoughts on why I think some of these reactions are happening, based on my own experience of watching and listening to the Disney fandom's critiques over the many years I've done so. These are just my observations based on my experiences and it's okay to disagree, just be cordial.

Opinions below the cut ↓

I feel like a part of why Wish is the way it allegedly is has to do with something that has been plaguing Disney for a while: trying to prove bad-faith criticisms wrong instead of knowing their strengths.

I'm sure they still happen, but especially in the early and mid-2010s Disney had a lot of half-baked criticisms directed at their stories and characters. Wish might be another one of many attempts to quell these critiques. For example, I remember a common piece of writing advice would be to make villains complex all the time, with villains who are evil for evil's sake being seen as less well done (this was towards media in general, but it applied to Disney too), so Disney began the surprise villain and/or the sympathetic villain trend in their films. Now people have seen that shtick so much they want traditional villains back (me too). It's now overdone and no longer shocking or subversive in their movies anymore. [And as a little add-on, I understand why people want King Magnifico's design to be more "traditionally villainous" but I'm actually happy he isn't, as it's really hard to design a villain like that without perpetuating some kind of bigoted stereotype that a lot of traditional villains have. Even Mother Gothel, one of the last, if not the last of the classic villains Disney has attempted, had a lot of antisemitism baked into not only her design but also her actions. Disney's done that a lot, which is likely accidental, but still bad. I'd much prefer him to look and act like some guy over an awful Jewish stereotype or something similar.] People also called princesses with the temperaments of, say, Aurora, Belle, or Cinderella "boring", or hell, "sexist" in their characterization, so the heroines were made more relatably quirky, as that type of humor towards/by girls and women were very popular in the 2010s. Asha is allegedly somehow both socially inept and socially competent, which arguably isn't a flaw at all, just contradictory. (My neuro-spicy brain wants to somewhat lean towards neurodivergence when I hear that, but I haven't seen the film, so what do I know?) Now people are souring to that too, understandably, as that humor's kind of dated and overdone with Disney's heroines. These traits aren't bad on girls automatically, especially if they make sense for the environment they grew up in like Anna or Rapunzel, but they've just been done to death with Disney. Ironically, now when I see people suggest alternative traits for Asha they propose a more "sophisticated", "mature", or "self-assured" type of personality, aka, what the "sexist" traditional heroines had a lot of the time.

The newer tropes Disney tried to do in place of their old ones don't have as much staying power as the old. Once they're done so much they get stale. If they're based on trends in media rather than being actually captivating in writing, they become timely. People can digest characters like Cinderella, who are interesting and aren't overly worried about upholding trends in their characterization, for centuries whether they realize it or not. But characters like what Asha is allegedly like are based on trendy, shallow politics that aren't as deep as they sound, maybe sometimes even circling right back into the bigotry it was trying to combat (like the girl-boss stuff), and become overdone and/or dated if they aren't done well or in a new way. I feel like because of the poorly made assessments that people used to make towards Disney, Disney is almost embarrassed by their past films when they really shouldn't be. This is why the recent remakes tend to over-correct the originals. In the original Beauty and the Beast, it was not a flaw that Adam was eleven when he was made to look like a beast in my opinion, it just made it more interesting, but some reviews saw it as a bad thing, so they changed the line in "Be Our Guest" that implied his age. It was seen as a flaw that the original Cinderella didn't have a clear reason to stay with her abusive family, even though that's how familial abuse works often and it's really rude to victims to ask "Why don't you just leave?" or something like that; so Disney gave Ella the explanation that she stays because it was her father's home in the 2015 remake, which only added more flaws when you remember that she does leave the house in the end anyway. What was the point in saying that? People wanted strong female characters, so Mulan in her remake is a flawless, emotionless girl-boss. It was seen as sexist when female characters wanted romantic love because "girls don't need a man, so romance is sexist", so Disney stopped telling love stories and focused more on issues of the self, which isn't bad, but now people want Disney to tell love stories again and are disappointed that Asha didn't have a romance with the mostly cut "Star-Boy" character in Wish (again, me too, I love Disney's love stories). All of these are overcorrections to things that were never flaws to begin with, just nit-picks from bad observations of their films. There are too many examples. It's like Disney is insecure.

If Disney understood that these things weren't bad in essence, Wish would be more liked by its critics; if Disney wasn't afraid to let their female characters have actual flaws, not see romantic love as something dated, not continue to listen to these types of shitty judgments, or just take more risks again because that's what shaped the company—taking risks against the odds, Wish would be better (I assume all of the former based on what I've heard, again I haven't seen Wish myself). The pseudo-feminism and CinemaSins type of critiquing from the 2010s has mostly died out. The culture's changed. The tropes people once condemned are now being begged to be brought back. What goes around comes back around. It showcases what was truly timeless and what was just a trend in media.

In my opinion, old bad-faith "fan" responses are partially to blame for these themes in recent films, but of course, Disney is ultimately at fault because they make their own choices. There could also be plenty of other reasons why Wish feels half-done to some, like the alleged poor treatment of employees behind the scenes.

By the way, if you were a Disney fan who had these types of opinions in the past, you shouldn't be hard on yourself about it, especially if you were just a kid listening to and trying to appeal to the adults that were around you or influenced you. The latter is the boat I was in once, and now I've grown up past that. Needlessly cynical film takes and pseudo-feminism were all the rage for a while and many have had that phase of being really into those mindsets. You're not bad if you've been in it at any time in the past as long as you are learning and growing.

I'm choosing to be optimistic about Disney. Somehow I still am. They have been in a creative rut for what seems like a while now. Disney-creative doesn't seem to be allowed to tell the stories they want to tell, instead being made to cater to the wrong people. The people who like to insult Disney more than they like watching their films. They should make movies for the fans of all ages who love them. But I believe Disney can bounce back from this. Disney has been through rough patches before, but these rough patches in the past have led to eras like the Disney Renaissance. I'm hoping the backlash from Wish will lead to Disney making changes once more. They've done that repeatedly in their complex 100 years of establishment. Gone are the times when the Disney remakes were panned by fans but still made tons of money that justified their continued production. And long gone are the days when fans were actually excited about the prospects of Disney recreating their movies (because yes people felt that way once upon a time). Now the remakes aren't making as much as Disney wants and sometimes even flopping. Gone are the days when their animated films were their critical lifeline, Wish proves that they are not immune to being received poorly. It's time for something new. Or old done new. Just something different. It would be one thing if this were just another bad movie, but this was their 100th-year celebration, you think they'd be more careful to not muck it up. But apparently, all it did was reflect all the flaws that have been in Disney's storytelling as of late. That's why the backlash is so great. It feels like the last straw. Once time goes on past the 100th-anniversary era, I think the hate for Wish will die down, but that wouldn't make it less potentially flawed. When I first caught wind of this film, way before we had a trailer even, I was very excited that it seemed like a return to form for Disney, but apparently, it might not be, and that's got a lot of people disappointed, especially since this movie was meant to be a celebration. I've loved Disney for as long as I can remember and I know a lot of people are the same way. People wouldn't be so disappointed in the state of the company if they didn't care deeply about Disney and believed that they could do better. I still think Disney could be great. I still believe in them. They just need to believe in themselves again.

If you made it this far, thank you so much for reading! ♥

[lionheartapothecaryx]

Wake up it’s the 1st of the month …. 3/1/24

Happy Venus Day 💕 Life Update

As a black, neuro spicy love witch, I’ve always struggled a bit with the shop, blog, group and managing a business especially when I'm not in a creative space but finally I've been inspired again.

So let me reintroduce myself again. I started this blog almost 4 yrs ago and it took off really quickly, gaining lots of followers overnight. This was right around COVID and there was a renewed interest in Hoodoo and love magick around that time. I’ve mainly posted vintage photos, wrote articles and shared spells and had so much fun interacting with all of you.

I started off 2023, grieving a difficult breakup and reflecting on lessons learned about myself, my former relationship, his spiraling addiction and uncertainty about the future. On top of that, I got to the point where I quit working at my high paying but super intense civilian job that was leaving me constantly exhausted, giving me severe panic attacks and driving me crazy.

I decided to take a sabbatical and reconnect with my body, self and my craft. I’ve always struggled a bit with imposter syndrome and the past few months have been difficult but healing for me as I reconnected with spirit, the elements and my spiritual allies. I finally got my spark back and found a good creative space after working with the spirits of Mercury and Venus.

Some of that inspiration has come in the form of creating new spell oils. The past few months I’ve had multiple recipes come to me repeatedly. After struggling to figure out the logistics, finally I can start testing oils out on myself and a few other volunteers before I place them in the shop. It’s been such a cool but confusing process, I wanted to share with all of you, if you still care 🤣 what I’ve been up to.

The first spell oil that I’ve been working is called Love Uncrossing, inspired by myself, other women, friends, clients, SW’s, crazy experiences and some of the strongest people I know. In traditional Hoodoo, an uncrossing is used to spiritually repair and fix an situation or individual with crossed conditions. To be crossed is to be blocked up, stagnant, unlucky, jinxed or even hexed. As a practitioner for hire, I’ve come across crossed conditions for love work so often, I know it’s fairly common.

Experience has taught me as a devotee of Venus/Aphrodite and the Venusian Arts that real genuine love doesn’t always come easily for everyone. Life is full of wonders but often unfair. Whether it’s the grief of a bad breakup, the intense pain of heartbreak, aggravating soul ties, deep traumas, negative cords an attachments or simply never ending bad luck, love does not play fair … but it can be.

For my SW’s friends who regularly work the club, do other forms of s-work or are ex industry, I’ve found that protecting and clearing the sacral, life force energy regularly can protect your spirit, energy and mental health, shielding you from intense burnout. I’ve charged the oil to assist with this. Even if you aren’t in the industry though, regularly cleansing and protecting your life force/ sacral energy can help with bringing you more balance and stability, within yourself and others.

For survivors of SA & abuse (physical, emotional, and s*xual) this oil is also spelled to assist with healing and overcoming any traumas associated with that. As a survivor myself, I understand the unique difficulties that come with processing light and heavy traumas, so I worked hard to create a spiritual blend that covers a variety of issues.

*** this is not intended to be a substitute for proper mental health services. Item is intended as curio only.

After carefully gathering the right herbs, I’ve been crafting and charging the oil for the past few days.

I wanted to create something energetically restorative, with abundant free flowing energy, that also cleared stagnant energy. It needed to be cleansing but also help with dissolving blockages in all matters of love and relationships. Than the oil was imbued with strong protections. I found this part to be really important because it’s easy to be re-traumatized, especially if you’re dealing with heavy traumas which sets you back and impedes your progress and healing process. It’s kinda like picking at or having a scab ripped off accidentally. Likewise if you want the best results in love magick, you can’t leave it up to chance.

The last thing I did was enchant the oil to cut and clear out any negative cords, soul ties and spiritual attachments and then spell it with a soothing potent healing energy using the highest quality lavender and other herbs so the healing process wouldn’t be super painful or stressful.

For those who are spiritually sensitive like myself, spiritual hygiene is a important part of our regular routine. The oil will serve as a multipurpose spiritual primer, to remove, cleanse, heal, attract and grow more love for themselves and genuine love from others. It can be used generally, to maintain your spiritual hygiene in all matters of love and relationships or be set for a variety of aforementioned intentions. The oil is blended to work on five spiritual levels, the auraric field, soul, energetic/sacral/lifeforce, mental, and physical.

I hyper focused on this project because I want you guys to love it as much as I do. I also wanted to give something back to the community, I cherish. I know you guys appreciate my passion and attention to detail.

Before launching the spell oil, it will be beta tested on myself and a few other volunteers.

Thanks for reading and catching up with me. What do you think ? Is this oil something you need ?

Shoutout to my spirit team for sending me the downloads and recipes.

With Love, Gratitude & Magick

Lyonessa 💕

aka The HoodooBarbie

[snootlestheangel]

🦈🦈🦈🦈 (i love your ocs)

ATTENTION!! This is important!!

Truck's wife's name is Candice but he calls her Candy and she's the only sweet thing in life he enjoys

There, y'all have been blessed on this day

Flash: I accidentally said "Thanks Dad" to Woody after he helped me with something. He's now violently shaking and I think he's gonna cry. I broke him, what do I do??

Ness: I've never met a more neuro-spicy neurotypical person in my life. Woody: Thank... you? Ness: You're welcome :)

Graves: Things have been quiet around here lately. Truck: Mhm Graves: Care to explain why? Truck: I think you know why. Graves: You cannot keep doing this Truck: They need to learn somehow, Commander. Graves: Stop chasing recruits with a fucking wrench, it's not okay. Woody, who was there the entire conversation: You have to admit, it is pretty funny to watch. Cause the recruits ain't the only ones that start running from him. Graves: That makes it worse! Woody, wheezing: Fuckin' watched Bombshell trip as he scrambled! I don't know what he did but he looked scarred for life! Truck: He knows what he did and that's enough. Graves: I give up

[demented-tours]

ADHD/Autism/Neuro-spicy/Exec Function Issues/Burnout Life Hack

So listen, as the owner and sometime operator of a brain with medium to hot neurospicy wiring, I occasionally struggle with... well. Everything. But particularly making myself do Small Tasks That Require One More Spoon Than I Ever Have Thanks To Having to Exist in this Dumpster Fire World AND Never Being Taught Anything Useful About Myself Much Less How to ACTUALLY Recharge or Regulate My Nervous System Which Only Has an "Actively Being Mauled By a Bear" Setting. (TM)

It's been a long few decades.

Anyway, as such, I have tried so many little ways to motivate myself, and some of them are decent, but I also have days where just... nothing seems to work.

Except this one thing. Now, it's only working NOW, but it seems to be working semi consistently, so I'm hopeful. Ish. As hopeful as I get anyway.

And it's low cost, requires no bullshit medical professionals or meds and it appeals to my competitive spirit and inner gamer nerd.

I figured I'd share here, though it's likely a terribly unoriginal idea, but hell, sometimes it's just reframing crap that you knew to be true once but forgot about it in the current depression-inspired stew.

We're gonna call this one Warmie Magic.

Step 1: Acquire/make a warmie. Those are the things you heat up and apply to body parts for relaxation/pain relief. They come in all shapes, sizes, stuffed animals forms. Let your sensory needs go wild. I like THIS ONE because it can be used on hot or cold settings and it comes unscented. It's also made for neck/shoulders, which basically always hurt. But they make them cheaper and in whatever shape you like. It just matters that you can heat it up in the microwave.

Step 2: Figure out your temperature setting timing for your warmie. For me, that warmie thing takes 4 minutes in my microwave to acquire that perfect near-scalding-yet-still-soothing temperature. Bonus if it's over 2 minutes of time, but really, whatever works, here.

Step 3: Fixate on some mundane, small task that you Need To Do: dishes. Laundry. List making. Toilet cleaning. Whatever. Put the warmie in the microwave, set the timer... Then get ready... get set... PUSHBUTTONANDGO! Try not to let your lack of body sense knock you into too many objects on your trajectory to the Task at Hand.

Step 4: Do the tasks for the duration of the short timer. You would be AMAZED at what you can do in 4 freakin minutes. Single load of laundry in machine. Or most of one load folded. Or at least a few pans washed. One toilet insides scrubbed. Dishwasher loaded/unloaded. Whatever--do it until the timer goes off.

Step 5: Stop the task, retrieve the warmie, and enjoy the sensory snuggle reward. Fuck about for a while.

Step 6: When the warmie is less warm, get up and repeat the process. OPTIONAL: Set another timer without the warmie and do it again while enjoying the sensory snuggle reward.

What I like about this is that I can trick my brain shit with the, "Well, hell, it's JUST four minutes" line. Or the, "We have to wait for the damn thing to warm up anyway, and it'll take fucking forever if we just stand here." Usually some combo, there, works. And it gives you a positive reinforcement reward that the body feels that isn't food oriented or what have you.

Obviously, your mileage will vary. All neurospicy settings are unique. I'm just going to enjoy this method while it manages to be effective. This is how I've made myself do my stretching routine, laundry, and dishes for the past few weeks, so...

This could also work for all sorts of things in all sorts of applications. I also used to write like this, sometimes. I'd set a timer for 30 minutes and just GO. Whatever happened in 30 minutes was golden. Six words or six thousand.

I've also done something like this with a snack pack of fruit snacks and I get one per tiny item completed because, yeah, my brain sometimes operates with a psychotic toddler's reward system setting. But it got the damn Wal Mart delivery unpacked.

Oh, and one last thing that's helped me... Do your breathing exercises to slow yea olde burnt out nervous system right after you pee. I can do a solid round of box breathing (5 seconds breathe in, 5 seconds hold, 5 seconds out, 5 seconds pause, rinse and repeat) while washing my hands. And sooner or later you have to pee so might as well use that as a functional reminder. Not that I remember to do this more than one time out of seventy, but in THEORY, it'd be great.

And now let's get back to our usual soft-porn-funny-shit-pretty-shinies programming around here.

<3Dee

[secondgenerationnerd]

Could we get some teen lian and dad roy at home pls (ps i have always felt like irey had adhd and jai has autism what are your thoughts on that?)

Ooo if we’re talking the comic versions, absolutely! My versions lean more toward the Hyperactive ADHD, meshing interestingly with Mar’i’s austim. (Lian is some form of neuro spicy, she just doesn’t care enough for a diagnosis) Fun fact: ADHD and Autism have a fair amount of similar traits

Adding in Jason for some fun 😂😂😂

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“Dad?” Lian calls out, tossing her keys to the side.

“In here, Pum’kin!” Roy calls from the kitchen. Walking in, she takes note of her father’s mussed up hair and rumpled clothes, even if he’s causally sitting on the counter. Wouldn’t be too weird if Uncle Jason’s dark hair wasn’t sticking up, or wearing one of her dad’s goofy shirts, chopping vegetables for dinner like it’s any other night. Doesn’t help that her dad’s checking Jason out way more than ‘best friends’ should.

“You two are shameless.” She snorts, kissing her uncle’s cheek.

“Uh-huh. You do remember that two of your teammates are my little brother and my niece, right, kid?”

Her dad raises an eyebrow at the other man, “Why would she need to remember that?”

“Because, Dad,” Lian jumps onto the counter top beside him, lowering her voice to mimic Jason’s, “They’re the big scary Bats.”

“Ah yes. The big scary bats.” Roy nods grimly, “Mysterious. Spooky.”

“One could even say Creepy.”

“Or Kooky.” As if on cue, father and daughter snap their fingers twice, then crack up. Jason rolls his eyes and waits for it to die down.

“I was telling her to remember because she and that boyfriend of hers—“

“You can say Jai, Uncle Jason. Your brother’s best friend’s son. My best friend.”

“The one shoving his tongue down your throat every 20 minutes. At least according to Mar’i.”

Roy shakes his head, “Nope. My Squeaker’s never kissed any one. Male, female, non-binary, anyone in between or beyond those descriptions.”

“…Roy, babe, you do realize she and the speedster fu—“

“Fundamentally get along, yes.”

Lian can’t help but snort, “Yeah, Dad. Just like how you and Mom ‘Fundamentally getting along’ lead to me.”

Roy makes a face at his daughter, which she happily returns, “If Jai gets you pregnant, I’ll castrate him.”

“Bold of you to assume I wouldn’t have done it already.” Grabbing a water bottle from the fridge, she heads upstairs, “I’m gonna change! Don’t forget Mar’i and the twins will be here later!”

“What? You don’t want them to know you’re in private school? I’m sure they’d love the uniform—“

“DAD!”

Shaking his head and laughing, Roy looks back at Jason, “Remember when she was little?So sweet and even tempered?”

“The feral hellion, who swore at classmates in preschool?” Jason snorts. But he puts down the knife he was using, looking at the other man, “Do I need to have a conversation with Jai?”

“Nah, he’s a good kid.” Roy shrugs, “If Wally didn’t teach him to respect a partner, Linda put the fear of God into him. Now, get over here.”

“She’s right upstairs, Roy.” But Jason moves towards him. Arms bracing against the counter, boxing the archer in, he raises an eyebrow. The picture of patience. Like they hadn’t been 5 minutes away from stumbling upstairs when Lian’s car pulled up.

“Yeah, but she always hides her school uniform. We’ve got, like, 15 minutes at least.”

“In that case.” Jason leans in. Just as their lips meet, a shout comes from upstairs—

“Dad? Do you know where that explosive arrow I was working on went?”

Dropping his head, Roy grumbles, “Have a kid they said. Such a blessing, they said.”

“Roy, we both know damn well no one told you to have a kid.”

[otter-pop-supreme]

Here a lil “about me” to be pinned hehe

Hello! You can call me Otter or Asher. I go by any pronouns(including neos). All terms apply!

I also have a pronoun card:

https://en.pronouns.page/@OtterPopSupreme

Neuro-spicy, hoping to get back into therapy soon. Probably autistic.

I don't have a problem with you unless you're hurting people(directly or indirectly). No matter what race, ability, gender, sexuality, body type, preferences, etc, you are welcome here. Just don't hurt people.

I have recently been stepping into the Tumblr Skypeople Community and I am just really happy to be here!

I'm fairly new to Tumblr and I'm generally an awkward person. I've social anxiety and a lotta issues. So if I sound off, that's prob why.

I will mainly post Steve Saga-related stuff here. The Steve Saga has been a 6-year-long comfort, emotional support, and generally a strong hyperfixation of mine.

Very recently I got hooked on RRFF. It's like a hyperfixation squared. And I find myself heavily relating to Memory. Take that as you will.

I like drawing and writing, I post my silly drawings here & post my silly writings to my Wattpad(otter-pop-supreme)

Random shit, go;

favorite color's yellow & recenty purple as well. Generally space colors scratch my brain nicely

I love reading more than I do watching things

I hope to be a fantasy/dystopian/romance author one day

I have a cat named Luna. Got him as a kitten, he's turning 8 months soon. HES A FULL GROWN MAN ISTG. He makes a lotta pigion noises (= and eats our hair

I am a minor(15) currently on summer break!!! :3 Going into sophomore year.

I'll be adding and subtracting as I choose. Feel free to ask me stuff!

[kaidraws69]

AGNI LORE DROP

Full Name: Agni Pele Ignatius

Meaning of Name: Fire god

Nickname(s): NiNi (by his little niece)

Birthday: 4/14/1996

Gender (Assigned Gender, pronouns, and if they’re trans): he/him/his

Species: Mount Rageon

Race / Ethnicity / Nationality: Goyle

Eye Color: Red

Skin Color: dirty red

Hair Type: silicon dread-type

Hair Color and Length: Orange- shoulder length

Build: Thin and tall

Age: 28

In School? (If so, what grade): N/A

Height: 10’7”

Weight (vs. what it’s supposed to be): 100 LBS

Healthy? Why or Why Not: Agni is in very good shape and health, dispite his disability

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Do they like their name?: yes

How old do they appear?: 28

Glasses?: no

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Backstory: Agni grew up in a sketchy neighborhood in Under Rageous. Surrounded by violence and bounties, he was forced to work at a young age to help support his family. Everyday he feared he’d die on the dangerous streets. As he grew, so did his pent up aggression and rage. His parents split and he was left along in his fathers care, going to his mothers on the weekends. As soon as he reached eighteen, he booked it out of his fathers care and packed his bags and searched for a place to call home. Eventually coming across an old warehouse for welding/ construction, he contacted the owner and bought the warehouse for 1600 Bitz. (16,000 USD thank you Nally for helping me with that) He gradually moved in all while fixing up the place, teaching himself how to weld and construct things. Ever so slowly, he eventually started to make and sell traps to other Rageons for their bounties, getting paid good! Unable to keep up with the high demand of traps, Agni started hiring other Rageons who needed a place to work, making sure to pay them fairly. Word spread that PyroTech Construction made high quality traps for a fair price, causing a certain Strobe Rageon to hear about Agni’s little company. One busy day however, Agni was busy connecting sharp metal teeth to a snap-trap when a razor sharp steel plate fell from a steel beam and sliced his arm clean off. The shock sent him back as the adrenaline kept him from feeling pain. He was rushed to the hospital, where he got the wound closed off, somehow surviving all that blood loss. After he recovered, he immediately began working on making himself a prosthetic, taking months to build and program. After half a year, he finally completed the prosthetic, and just had to install and activate the neuro connector. A neuro connector is like a hearing aid but it cuffs behind the ear. Pressing the small button, a long surgical needle pierced into his head, right to the section of his brain that moved and controlled his arm. Bam. He had a new arm now!

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Core Personality Traits: highly territorial, sarcastic, so passive-aggressive it hurts

Daredevil or Cautious: daredevil

Selfish or Selfless: a mix of both

Major Strengths / Pros: durable, strong, risky, territorial, wants things done his way

Major Flaws / Weaknesses / Cons: stubborn, doesn’t care if he gets more scars, will fight and murder anyone who gets in his way

Likes: his job, close friends, a handful of Rageons

Dislikes: Rageons who call him out, insult his work, employees, or close friends, low quality work

Good Habits: Loyal, protective, damn good at what he does, if you’re buddies with him, you get discounts

Bad Habits: too many to name lol

Sexuality: Omnisexual

Opinion on Sex / Relationships: open to them

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Powers(?): brute strength and a thick skull

Weapon: horn(s)

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Taste in Clothes: he really refers the light, loose clothing. Tank top, cargo pants, work boots

Hobbies: welding/construction, forging, smithing

Favorite Sport: Ram-headding (it’s a Goyle thing)

Favorite Game: the Rageon version of CoD

Favorite Genre of Music: rock/ metal (anything aggressive)

Favorite Class: ig he teaches welding?

Favorite Food: Anything spicy

Favorite Person / Role Model: himself

Celebrity “Crush” / Secondary Role Model: he’d kill me if I told you

Quote(s): “You was in my way”

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Family Situation: separated parents, no contact

Best Friends: Nova, Apollo, Lito

Friends: Bro doesn’t have a lot

Enemies: succubi Rageons

Crush: again, he’d kill me if I told you

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Phobia?: atychiphobia (fear of failure)

Deepest fear / the worst thing that could happen to them / what would break them?: losing his arm and part of his left horn

What are they reluctant to tell people?: His past

The worst thing (currently) in their life: coping with his traumas

The best thing (currently) in their life: his friends and work

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How do they feel about themselves?: Agni is very proud of himself

Are they the same alone?: absolutely

How does the character try to differ from how they actually are?: he doesn’t

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Fun Facts (Miscellaneous):

Agni lost part of his horn in a territory fight while butting heads

[blue-orchid-boi]

MAKING A LONG WINDED EXPLANATION OF MY DESCENT INTO THE XFILES FANDOM BCUZ I CAN >:3

As some of y’all can tell from a couple of my previous posts, I recently had a short yet intense hyperfixation on the Magnus Archives. And while I still really love tma, I now feel the burning need to talk about my newest hyperfixation: the xfiles.

And I know what you’re thinking;

“Orchid, that show ended years ago!” And “It wasn’t even around when people were really making fandom space accessible!” And “Why would you, a tragically queer gen z, get into a show where the main relationship is blatant heterosexuals??”

Well, do I have a story for you, my friends.

Only a few short weeks ago, when I was in the throes of my tma hyperfixation, I did what any neuro-spicy individual would do; I info-dumped to anyone who would listen, ie: my parents. And being the generous, yet clueless parental figures they are, they let me ramble. I very poorly explained the plot of several episodes, including MAG 6, 18, and 32. I also gave a rather feeble attempt at explaining the meta lore, which ended in my repeating “But it’s all connected!!!” over and over again.

My dad, being much more invested (or at least better at hiding his disinterest) than my mom, offhandedly recommended the xfiles to me after one such session of ramblings.

And while as a member of gen z I was less than enticed by a show that began in the 90’s, I eventually agreed to watch the first couple episodes to really see if I was interested.

And let me tell y’all, I was hooked.

We’re on season three now, (and yes I know that’s not impressive considering the sheer amount of content in the xfiles universe) and I literally cannot stop watching. It was exactly what I needed when my tma obsession was mellowing out, because on a general level, they’re in the same genre of content.

Both are some type of workplace comedy (definitely), both have rather weird/gross/fucked up episodes, both are set in the perspective of academia (while Mulder and Scully deal with more of a bureaucratic side of academia, Jon and Martin are inherently researchers and employees of an academic institution), and both have the main characters as love interests!!

And I’ve been playing a game, as we slowly plow our way through the absolute mountain of content that is the xfiles, I call it “Assign an Entity”. I’m sure you can’t guess what it entails :3

I’m genuinely having so much fun watching the show, and my parents are excited about getting to introduce me to a show that was a large part of their late-college lives.

We watch a couple episodes almost every night and it’s genuinely, like, the highlight of my day. Despite how much I yell about Mulder being dumb or how much I despise the antagonists, my parents constantly letting me yell out my theories and silly comments is what makes it such a fun experience.

Anyways thanks for comin’ to my Ted talk I’m so obsessed with this show lmao

[liminal-librarian]

We used to call this, 'adult themes' not as in 'sex' (though that also can be an adult theme) but as in 'there's some things in here that might take several days and emotional work to digest.'

Of course it's problematic, that was the point, to have an emotional puzzler to work through and become stronger.

When I was ~12 I read 'Stranger in a Strange Land' at a time when I was reading books that size in ~3 days. But it took me a week and a half, because I didn't have experience dealing with the concepts and I had to figure out "I've only heard my culture's take before, and no here are characters suggesting the opposite. Do I believe these characters? Do I believe my culture. Are they both right? are they both wrong? etc." When I was ~25 I read the same book in ~a day. And came to somewhat different conclusions, and much faster. Because I was an adult, and ready to handle adult themes. (And because I knew what contradictions were on offer.)

If you think fiction is only for enjoyment, and not as practice for real life.

If you think dealing with other RL people is only for enjoyment. If you think that people can and should judge you for the friends (and customers and vendors) you have. Or the political stances (or neuro-spiciness or not, or transness or not, or sexual orientation or not) of the authors of your blorbos.

Then you're in a situation where you must treat every person, character, and piece of media, you interact with as guilty until proven innocent.

Where you are required by the status game you're trapped in, to be everyone's harshest critic / judge & jury. So that you must race to say "Huckleberry Fin contains depiction of racism therefore canceled" before anyone else can criticize you for interacting with it. Rather than ever interacting long enough to understand that "Huckleberry Fin contains an interesting critique of class divides and race separation as it existed at a point in the past, and portrays a character struggling to reject them utterly."

I'm sorry, but I've always preferred difficult media. Send me your cult classics. If I wanted to be in a race to cancel things, I'd be on x not on tumbler.

starting to hate how people use the word problematic. "don't support this person they're problematic" "dni if ur problematic" "they're literally problematic" what does problematic mean here? wtf is it supposed to convey? it's so goddamn vague and it doesn't tell me anything, it could literally mean either "has an opinion on pride flag discourse that i disagree with" or "actively grooming minors" and i wouldn't be able to tell which one was the intended meaning without asking for further information, which most of the time i'm probably not going to interact with these people more than once so i don't wanna go through the trouble of doing that, i hate it so much goddamnit.

[clayexists]

Ya know when your brain does that weird thing and replays embarrassing moments from the day and just keeps doing it until you forget?

Well someone at work called me neurodivergent and called it neuro-spicy and it devolved into what each person used and I tried to make a more… offensive joke?? By saying “I’m not going to say what my family uses” And uh- it….

Now you why it keeps replaying in my head.

[skinni-girls-eat-books]

Wednesday, April 24th, 2024!

Day 9 :) 🥳

6:23am: God I feel amazing right now I'm so proud of myself :') I love my life. Did a little grocery shopping last night, new litter box, gonna get my brakes done today. Life is good! Amen!! Everyday is a new day and I get to live it however I choose to. ❤️

11:40pm: Day 9 complete! It feels like 9 months. I'm not even joking. Once you start dating other people it's just like who? My focus is elsewhere. Texting a guy for two nights straight and don't know what to think?? Kinda odd, seems kinda nervous as hell but I don't know why exactly. Definitely a little neuro spicy but I can't specify. I think he thinks we're exclusive but we haven't met in person yet?? Don't really want to burst his bubble but that's not exactly how I work rn. Unadded me from tinder after having a semi serious conversation with him but again..... I haven't seen you in person yet so it's not really giving exclusive to me homie. Plus he literally declined my date offer for Tuesday night after I asked him yesterday if weeknights were ok to hang. It's giving weeknights are ok to bang but not hang? 🚩🚩 It's giving 1,2,3 strikes you're out but I'm not one to call it quits so fast 😂 not gonna slow my roll for someone who doesn't like nerd nite 🤓 lame-o.

On the bright side, I did have a hella stressful day and talking to him was a really good distraction from me spiraling about money, so I'll give him that ❤️ I just don't know if I can do another neuro spicy guy that I can't read very well. $300 car stuff turned into $700 unexpectedly but it is what it is. Cheaper than a car accident!!! 🙏🙌 Glad they caught it because I didn't know anything was wrong. SEE this is why I hate my tire light. Yesterday it was 60* today it was 85* and keeps doing that aka that's why I thought the light was on. No I literally had a bent rim that was disassociating from my tire 🤦‍♀️ Could've been a damn nightmare on the highway. They should have two tire lights, one for BS and one for serious 😂

Tomorrow is the final grind and then we'll really kick this shit off Friday I suppose. Could kick off tomorrow but it just wouldn't feel right to me. I know I'm good but it's not the same until you walk out of that exam review.

Still need to continue to work on myself, find friends, Meetup groups and hobbies, gym classes, things that make me an interesting person. You're getting there, I love you.