#do i want to tag all these characters??? ehhhhh

[colresss-assistant]

M8 with how broken my sleep is don’t pretend you where waiting long 😂

[kneworder]

I FORGOT MALIA IM SO SORRY MALIA

hate when the fic is so mean spirited towards one character that it doesn't matter how much it focuses on my fave i absolutely have to click off immediately

[stars-and-darkness]

20 questions for fic writers!

many many thanks to @garglyswoof for tagging m

How many works do you have on ao3? 63. i need to calm down.

What's your total ao3 word count? 747 502. i need to calm down.

What fandoms do you write for? the vampire diaries, shadow & bone, avatar: the last airbender, star wars, marvel. also, that one suez canal x ever given fic, and that one goncharov fic.

Top five fics by kudos: A Queen's Gamble (you know it's an old one if the title is capitalised lmao), make them bow., the fate makes for a lousy poet., where the heart moves the stones, nyctophilia.

Do you respond to comments? i try. i am not very good at it, but every now and then i sit down, crack my knuckles, and go about emptying my poor inbox.

What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? the end. is like ... the only fic i ever wrote that ended unhappily.

What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? see above, lol, literally everything else. i'm a wuss.

Do you get hate on fics? i mean ... not really? i would mostly classify the rude things i got as entitlement rather than hate. the impression i usually got was that those people liked my writing style, or the plot, or characterisation, or whatever--there was just one thing or several that they wanted to happen differently, and they felt the need to tell me that.

Do you write smut? looooooo, no, my ace ass would probably spontaneously combust.

Craziest crossover: i don't suppose i've ever written an actual crossover, but today i put dracula-the-historical-figure into the vampire diaries universe, so ....

Have you ever had a fic stolen? ... maybe? okay, strap yourselves: a few years ago someone asked if they could translate a fic of mine into spanish and post it on wattpad, and i said yes. (THIS is one of the reasons why i don't allow translations anywhere but ao3 anymore). they did, and they sent me the link. i linked the translation to my fic, the usual. then, a lot later, i actually went to check their post, and i realised that i wasn't credited though the person said they would. yaaaaay.

Have you ever had a fic translated? well, other than the fiasco up there, the incredible @winterandmistletoe, who made the edit that graces the beginning of make them bow., has two chapters of the russian translation of that fic up on ao3. there's also been an offer to translate The Manifesto of a Last Love into russian, but that one hasn't been posted yet.

Have you ever co-written a fic before? i have not! and honestly, i don't think i'd be very good at it. i'm a bit of a tyrant, so in an effort NOT to be perceived as such i'd probably be super lenient of whatever the other people came up with even if i didn't necessarily like it. i'm pretty particular in my tastes, and one of the things i love about writing fic is that i have nobody but myself to answer to.

All time favorite ship? ehhhhh, nooo, i can't choose between my children!

What's a wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will? considering that tvd has had me in its claws for two years now, it feels unlikely i'll ever go back to my wips in other fandoms. you never know of course, but it feels that way. i mean. those unfinished wips don't exactly haunt me, but sometimes i remember them and feel awful about it, lmao.

What are your writing strengths? i'm told i do dialogue and humour well!

What are your writing weaknesses? ughhhhh probably action? it's so hard. oh! and my tendency to describe how a character's eyes look in every other sentence.

Thoughts on dialogue in another language? SO fun fact that dracula fic that i posted today? the one where half the dialogue is in french? i had originally written it all IN FRENCH, and then decided to take mercy on my readers and just put the english translation into italics. yeah. anyway, rule of thumb, ig: if the pov character understands what's being said, then english in italics (or if it's just a sentence or two the spoken language with a footnote). if they can hear individual words, then the language that's being spoken, without translation. if they hear only gibberish--maybe they're super unfamiliar with the language, maybe it's being spoken very fast or with an accent--then just 'character x says something in z'.

First fandom you wrote in? marvel, for my own peace of mind. star wars is the first one i actually posted for.

Favorite fic you've written? again, you can't ask me to pick between my children.

tagging: @morningstargirl666 @kirythestitchwitch @helpless-in-sleep @marxandangels @purplesigebert @darkestgrays @averseunhinged

[sp1lled-lemon4de]

My Apple

Fandom: Record of Ragnarok

Characters: Adam x reader

Genre: Fluff if you ask me :)

warnings: none really ummm, physical touch, making out and that's it ig

An: I am so damn pissed that Adam didn't win and the crusty ,short dick ,musty ,dusty ,greasy old piece of Shrek won....im cryingggg how could you kill off Adam like thatttt but beside that me personally Adam is my kind of eye candy ifykyk oooo I find him absolutely stunning.

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"There you are gorgeous"

"Y/n, how are you feeling?"

"Fine thank you, how are you sweetheart?"

" I'm alright"

Positioning yourself next to him on your shared bed.

Taking one of your hair ties you begin playing with his hair, not that he showed interest in it, pretty thing.

You stopped to look at his features, his pretty blue eyes and his gorgeous lashes, his jawline ,his lips he was the apple of your eye.... your man amongst men.

The model of a man was busy reading his book but he wasn't ignoring you ,he would never.

Taking his face into your hands you turned his head to you and squished his cheeks, forming a little pout on his lips.

Its like you were hypnotized by him, suddenly you leaned in and peppered kisses all over his face. One on his forehead, one on his nose. Moving down to kiss the man on his lips you stopped only inches away.

"What's the matter? Aren't you going to continue?" he asked finally looking at you.

"Oh so my pretty baby wants me to continue? Hmm?"

"I mean you might as well since you got me all worked up and blushing" he smiled slyly at you.

You chuckled to yourself. Oh how you loved this man.

As soon as you chuckled and you grip on his face loosed he cupped you face and pulled you in, taking you by surprise.

You let so a small groan and Adam took that chance to let his tounge in.

Rapping your arms around his waist and pulling him towards you to sit on your lap, the book now completely discarded.

Adam had a way of taking care of you, always making you feel safe and loved. He cared deeply for you and wherever you went he followed.

You pulled away from the kiss for air, gosh he was breath taking . Your Adams apple bobbing as you gulped waiting (see what i did there ehhhhh side eye) for his next move.

Deciding to take the league you grabbed him and pulled him down to the bed with you, cuddling him in the process. He landed on top of you wide eyed.

You giggled at his face, getting his attention.

"hmm what's so funny now dear?'' he asked

His hand reaching to tickle you. Before you could get a word out he started to tickle you. Laughter filled the air, your laughter to be exact.

Looking up with tear filled eyes because of all the laughing you were doing you could see Adam smiling to himself.

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SORRY ITS SO SHORT I HAD THIS IN MY DRAFTS FOR SOOOO LONGGGGG <33333

ALSO SRRY FOR SPELLING MISTAKES

(TAGS BELOW)

[theawkwardterrier]

20 Questions for Fic Writers

Blessedly tagged by @walkinginland and @flyinghome-againstthewind so I can participate in one of my favorite activities (talking about myself) during this boring workday!

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

173, although I know there are a few that for various reasons I haven't posted on there

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

1,177,040 which...wow

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Most continuously the MCU (Captain America specifically), Buffyverse, Veronica Mars, and Outlander, but one-offs for many others

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Muscle Memory (Outlander, Jamie/Claire; 18 chapters, complete)

Wingspan (Veronica Mars, Logan/Veronica; 6 chapters, complete)

Here's All the Melting Thrill (And Here's the Kindling Fire) (Outlander, Jamie/Claire; 14 chapters, complete)

things left behind and the things that are ahead (MCU, Steve/Peggy; 43 chapters, complete)

After the War Is Over (Will There Be Any Home Sweet Home?) (Outlander, Jamie/Claire; 6 chapters, complete)

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

99% of the time, absolutely. I appreciate them so much, and want to express that, even if I'm a little overwhelmed and just end up saying "Thanks so much for reading!" Sometimes, however, if the comment strikes me as really negative or is trying to start some kind of debate that I don't want to get involved in, I'll just mark as read and move on.

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

I don't really write angsty endings! (Usually just angsty middles, and third act twists...) Probably my Veronica Mars fic, We Do Not Flinch, because even though the ending is definitely hopeful, not everything is fixed and the character death is not erased.

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Um, basically all of them tbh! I love and reliably provide a happy ending. I guess I'll say Each Step Closer (On Our Way Together) because the whole thing is pretty light and the last section extra so.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Intellectually I know the answer is no. But I have gotten criticism, perhaps validly, about my portrayal of Peggy's emotions in Woman Borne, and also have gotten comments which express frustration with the choices my characters make, and that does feel hurtful in certain ways.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

Ehhhhh, very, very lightly. Pretty much just gauzy linguistics and minimal mention of actual body parts - soulmate smut 🤷‍♀️

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

Haha, I've written a bunch of AUs that borrow from other fandoms and have a lot of fun with those, but I've only written one partially completed Buffy/Bones crossover

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

I think that some of my fics have been included in the kind of automatic sweeps that republish on fake fic sites or ebook sites, but not by an actual person as far as I know.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

No, although I'd be happy to give permission if someone wanted to!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Lol, no and I can't imagine I'd be an easy writing partner 😂😬

14. What’s your all-time favorite ship?

Skipping because I've found that there isn't necessarily a permanence to it for me.

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

I don't really have WIPs that have been posted (because I know myself and that would be too stressful for me!) but the long planned out Chase/Cameron fic, or the Veronica Mars one where Wallace was a superhero, or the various ideas I've vaguely started writing within my head.

16. What are your writing strengths?

Mmmm...Occasional nice turns of phrase/unusual uses of language?

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Writing visuals or action

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

Nervous about it and probably I do it wrong, but I do it anyway 😬

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Harry Potter back in the day

20. Favorite fic you’ve written?

I am my own biggest fic critic and also my own biggest fan, so they are all dear to me. I do have a particular love for my Steggy fic things left behind and the things that are ahead and all the characters and bits of the universe that come along with it.

Tagging @roboticonography, @ghostcat3000, @ckerouac, @kairosimperative, and of course my always meme pal, @lavellenchanted!

[slashingdisneypasta]

In regards to your dark Toon Patrol drabble, how do you think the weasels would be like as yanderes? Individually or grouped together? Do you think they'd be able to work together or would wind up fighting?

Ooh, do you mean this one??

Hmmm, so we're assuming they're all after the same person? Oof... XD

I think- if Smartass wanted to work together, if he was okay with sharing, then they could. Its his whole damn job description to make them work together- he can do this XD

Butttt if he didn't wanna share... then there would be no one and nothing pulling these we | as | e | l | s together anymore.

So they would compete.

Goodluck to you.

Yandere!Toon Patrol x Reader || Blurbs

Plot: The toon weasels all obsessing over the same reader + How likely each one would be to work with each of the others to get you (🚫 = Means no.)

Warnings: This is dark!! Not the usual fun Toon Patrol stuff! Powerplay in a non-sexual sense, Sexual harassment and assault (Mostly Greasy's, of course, but there is a mention in Stupid's- tho it is still Greasy doing the assaulting), Emotional manipulation, Stalking, use of physical force, etc

Tags: @asperol-with-izzy , @disney-android-foundation , @lady-love88 , @marinerainbow , @moxiiscool , @ryantryan6969 , and @spookiifi

Smartass:

Power Imbalance. Smartass has got connections, and the power of fear on his side. And he willlllll abuse this. Smartass also has the added bonus of thinking he's better then the others!- less obsessed, less evil... better for you. Yeah, wonderful. Anyway, so Smartass will use his connections+informants to track you down and know where you are at all times, he'll have you abducted and call it rescuing if he deems it fit (Greasy's around you, Wheezy's around you, Psycho's on the hunt... reasons like that), learn everything! about you (Blackmail is his best friend), and poooosssibly make you marry him eventually... -- Likelihood to work with... Greasy- 🚫 Hell no. Wheezy- 🚫 No thanks. Psycho- 🚫 Get outta here, you loon. Stupid- 💗 Ehhhhh maayyybeeeee... if he absolutely needs some muscle... Look, he knows he lacks it.

Greasy:

Sexual Assault. Uhuh. Yeah. Are you surprised? No? Good. Definitely part of the reason you caught his attention so insanely is because he is... how should I put this delicately... um... popping boners every time that he sees you. Yeahp. Like, you do not have to be doing anything, you dont have to be wearing anything, you don't even have to see him- he just sees you, and is uncontrollably hot. And he will make it your problem. You're gonna be afraid to be alone, because this bastard will come outta nowhere to touch you. Not particularly sexual at first (just shoulder feels, cheek kisses)... then increasingly uncomfortable (Tummy gropes, butt smacks) until he's pressing and grinding his painfully hard erection into your ass and sucking on your neck. Greasy is also very very intuitive and he pays attention, so he will know what you'll like. He'll make your body react well to his touch, even if you and he both know you don't want him. -- Likelihood to work with... Smartass- 🚫 Greasy is not about to be second in command when it comes to you. Wheezy- 🚫 Greasy is slightly envious when it comes to Wheezy. Psycho- 🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫+ Stupid- 💚 Very likely!! Stupid doesn't wanna touch you, just watch. Greasy kinda likes that.

Wheezy:

Emotional Manipulation. I have touched on this a few times ^^ Especially in This Drabble, if you're interested ^^ So, Wheezy is fully aware that what he's doing is wrong- he just doesn't care. He even likes it a little. He'll basically input himself into your life as a friend (Like, aren't the rest acting absolutely fucken' insane? Yeah, I see it too... ), and he'll comfort and console you when it all becomes insane... but the truth is, he tells Greasy and Psycho where to find you. And he loves it when you cry to him. He thinks its so damn cute. -- Likelihood to work with... Smartass- 💙 Sure! Smartass can be manipulated just like anyone, and he can be useful. Greasy- 🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫 (Cant be controlled+he doesn't want Greasys dirty hands on you) Psycho- 🚫🚫🚫 (Just cannot be controlled) Stupid- 💙 Yep. Very easy to use.

Psycho:

Where do I even begin... Look, Psycho is already a tad unhinged as it is, so there is no just one thing to touch on, here 😅 Here are the things that he does (Or, some of them): Breaks into your home to watch you sleep, sneaks up on you, holds you still with fingers digging into your skin to force eye-contact, tells you about disturbing dreams/fantasies he has had involving you and just how crazy it made him to think about, giggle somewhere near you when you had no idea he was even around, sniff you without warning (Anywhere you give off scents. So like, yeah- your wrists and neck if you wear perfume!... but also your pits, your crotch area, the creases behind your knees, your feet, etc), turn up at your house in a feral and emotional state (Crying, hissing, scurrying), and more. -- Likelihood to work with... Smartass- 🚫 No. Greasy- 🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫 x a gazillion. Wheezy- 🚫 No. Stupid- 🚫 No.

Stupid:

Stalking. Stupid doesn't have the intelligence to use things against you (Except maybe his strength) like the Smartass and Wheezy, but he is crazy about you... just so so besotted. And so, you just sorta... start to notice... a giant? Everywhere that you go?? Its very unnerving. This huge fat weasel with a buck tooth and a bat will appear everywhere, and most of the time he'll have his eyes on you. You're walking home? He's on the other side of the road, dragging his bat along the ground after him as he stares dumb and heart-eyed at you. You're standing outside of work? He's behind a wall watching you while tapping his tooth. Greasy is assaulting you?? He will be watching, muttering to himself. -- Likelihood to work with... Smartass- ❤️ Yes boss! Greasy- ❤️ He uhh... likes to watch... Wheezy- ❤️ Stupid falls for everything Wheezy tells him. Psycho- 🚫 Something about Psycho unnerves him when it comes to you... makes him fear for you.

[lesbianwyllravengard]

20 questions for fic authors!

I was tagged by the lovely @ugetelynx and @wisecrackingeric-2 <3 so sorry it took me so long to do this hfsgjhdj

1. How many works do you have? - currently posted on ao3 I have 57 works total. However I have almost twice as many wips it's bad

2. Ao3 word count? - 395,068 ..... I've got a wip that's almost over 100k but it's also been there for years so I doubt that'll change anytime soon

3. What fandoms do you write for? - of the fics I have on ao3, I have written for detroit become human, star wars, resident evil, assassin's creed, and the last kingdom. The fandoms I've written for that are not on my ao3 include lotr/the hobbit, bbc sherlock, bbc merlin, marvel, voltron legendary defender, percy jackson universe, and whatever the Carry On by rainbow rowell fandom is called. Most of those I will never ever write for again lmao

4. What are your top five fics by kudos? - In order:

Sapphire Moonlight (Tequila Sunrise) (Serennedy)

We Look So Good (Reed900)

Hold Fast, the Suns Will Rise (Stay) (Dincobb) (also, my first fic ever posted, and still the fic I hold most dearly in my heart to this day)

We Are Home (Hank and Connor family content)

Tomato Soup (Serennedy)

5. Do you respond to comments? - every single one. I'm obsessed with comments. I have them all saved and stored so I can reread them at any time. Thank you everyone who has ever commented I love you

6. What fic did you write the angstiest ending for? - I only write angst with a happy ending. But I did write You Should Have Killed Me for a friend's dbh x hunger games simulator result and it had an angsty ending by result of being a hunger games simulator.

7. What fic did you write the happiest ending for? - I write many fics w happy endings, but I personally think my fic series Din and Grogu | the Clan of Two Trilogy has the happiest ending because it happened against all odds. It's a fic about Din and Grogu's found family (before BoBF and Mando s3 came out, so it's not canon accurate) and it ends meaningfully to me.

8. Do you get hate on fics? - I have before, but it was all bullshit that showed me the person commenting didn't actually read what I wrote but chose to get mad at something that didn't exist. So it was discarded easily. Otherwise, I've had people try to tell me how to write things, but I ignore them all

9. Do you write smut? - yes. badly.

10. Crossovers? - I wrote a dincobb fic that was set in Assassin's Creed: Odyssey, with Din as Kassandra and Cobb as Anais. I also started a serennedy fic set in the detroit: become human universe but never got anywhere close to finishing it.

11. Ever had a fic stolen? - not that I know of lol.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated? - I had someone ask to translate one of my fics, and I said yes, but I don't think they've done so yet, which is fine. Other than that, no. But I'd be honoured!

13. Ever co-wrote a fic before? - I started a dincobb fic with a friend years ago but we never got around to finishing it. Someday I still hope to.

14. What's your all time favourite ship? - that's genuinely impossible to pick tbh I've had so many that rewired my brain. top three are probably bagginshield, simarkus, and shadowzel, not in any particular order.

15. What's a wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will? - ehhhhh probably the klance fic I started when I was like 15. I don't go to voltron anymore and literally couldn't care less about it. In fact I actively hate it.

16. What are your writing strengths? - I've been told that I'm good at characterisation and plot. I think I suck at plot severely. As for characterisation, I study characters really hard and take a long time to write fics so they remain in character so I'm glad people appreciate that. I also prefer writing dialogue to anything else.

17. What are your writing weaknesses? - Writing. haha I mean exposition.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language? I have before, I find it fun but also intimidating.

19. First fandom you wrote for? - The Hobbit :') my first ever fic was a bagginshield fic I started when I was 13. I still mean to finish it someday.

20. Favourite fic you've written? - *sighs* I guess I should say Another Time. It was the most fun to write, and everyone's responses have made all the difficulties of writing it endlessly worth it. It took me months but I'm so happy I finished it, and I'm working on p3 rn I PROMISE. But again the fic I hold most dearly in my heart is still Hold Fast, the Suns Will Rise (Stay)

[abiteofhoney]

Writerly Questionnaire

thanks for the tag @willtheweaver :) i dont do tag games a whole lot bc… well idk. they scare me? but this one got my attention. mostly because it doesn’t involve sharing any of my actual writing.

About me:

When did you first start writing?

around 2013-14 i think. it was my freshman year of high school. i was recently introduced to one direction, and well…. the rest is history (i wrote bad harry styles fanfic which eventually evolved into fully original work)

Are the general themes you read different from the ones you write?

i would say no. i mostly like to read fantasy, and that’s mostly what i write, i think.

Is there an author/fellow writer you want to emulate, or one to whom you want to be compared?

in short, no. i have learned the hard way that comparing myself to others is the devil.

Can you tell me a little about your writing space(s)? (room, coffee shop, desk, etc)

i’m generally in an old, peeling, faux-leather recliner, laptop in my lap, some mindless show on in the background, and then whatever i need right around me.

What’s your most effective way to muster up some muse?

ehhhhh idk honestly. just thinking about my story will stir up some motivation and inspiration if im not there yet. i just kind of sit with my doc open in front of me until something starts happening

Did the place(s) you grew up in influence the people and places you write about?

in any way that you environment influences you, i suppose. not directly. certainly not on purpose. i don’t pull inspiration from it at least.

Are there any recurring themes in your writing, and if so, do they surprise you at all?

there are probably some i don’t recognize as repeat offenders, but i think all of my stories have the main character incapacitated with pain while their love interest has to take care of them. i eat it up every time.

grief is often a key factor in my stories, but let’s not look to far into that.

My Characters:

Would you please tell me about your favorite character? (Current wip, past wip, never used)

right now, it’s scarlett :) she’s a bitey woman who likes to kill and torture, but she gets carried away too easily, so her girlfriend evie tries to show her how to control herself and how to appreciate death and killing as an art form

Which of your characters would you be friends with in real life?

theoretically, all of them. they’re all amazing and i love them.

realistically, none of them. they’re messy and i’m a recluse that doesn’t like a lot of upset in my life

Which of your characters would you dislike most in real life?

anzurin. he’s one of those “sexy in fiction, a walking red flag in real life” kind of characters

Tell me about the process of coming up with one, all, or any of your characters.

truly, i don’t have much of a process. i generally get a quick idea or flash of inspiration for, say, a single scene, and then i build their character as i write it.

Do you notice any themes/traits about your characters?

the male love interests i write always worship the ground the main character walks on. women are almost always the focus. i love women

How do you picture them?” (as real people you imagined/as models/actors that exist in real life/as imaginary artwork, as artwork you made or commissioned, anime style, etc)

mmm i think i have that thing where you can’t picture stuff in your head. like i can come up with the features i want them to have, but i can’t see them. i can’t “picture” them.

i generally use whatever medium i can find - inspiration from real people, artwork i find, i have commissioned things before, picrews.

My writing:

What’s your reason for writing?

i don’t know, really. maybe i don’t have a reason. it just feels natural. as natural as breathing. like it’s exactly what i’m supposed to do with my life.

is there a specific comment or type of comment you find particularly motivating coming from your readers?

my “readers” consist of one singular friend lol but she has said that im really good at building characters and making them feel real.

How do you want to be thought of by those that read your work? (for example, as a literary genius, or as a writer who “gets” the human condition as a talented worldbuilder, or a role model, etc)

i don’t want to be thought of. i would just be happy if my work was enjoyed. alas, i barely share it because, again, i don’t want to be thought of.

What do you feel is your greatest strength as a writer?

my character building

What have you frequently been told your greatest writing strength is by others?

my character building :)

How do you feel about your writing? (answer in whatever way you interpret that question)

it varies. sometimes i feel like it’s not just good, it’s good enough (that’s a reference to ‘north of the border’ adam the sculptor). sometimes i feel like it’s great. sometimes i feel like i’ve lost it and will never write anything good again.

If you were the last person on earth, and knew that your writing would never be read, would you still write?

absolutely. as i said in another answer, writing is like breathing. i hardly share it as it is, so that’s not an issue at all.

When you write, are you influenced by what others might enjoy reading, or do you write purely what you enjoy? if it’s a mix of the two, which holds the most influence?

i think i mostly just write whatever i want. i fear that lately? i’ve been more conscious of what others might think/enjoy, but im trying to stop doing that. i write for me. i write because i enjoy it, and if i start trying to cater to others, i will no longer enjoy it.

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some of those were difficult to answer but this was a good time :)

i don’t know many of you have already done this, so if i tag anyone that has already done it, sorry :/ you don’t have to do it again

but i will tag a few no pressure tags: @autism-purgatory @finickyfelix @frostedlemonwriter @bluberimufim

[qilingxiong]

Twenty Questions for Fic Writers

Tagged by @extraordinarilyextreme, 谢谢

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

On my current account, 25! (not counting everything from my old account I deleted in 2020)

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

On said current account, 53,972

What fandoms do you write for?

As of right now the brainrot has taken me to MLC, and if I ever get my motivation back, then also DMBJ

What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

1. The War Is Over, And We Are Beginning - Jiang Cheng & Jin Ling, 7.6k, Post-Canon

2. all of this mess (is just my attempt) - Chengning, 2.6k, Cloud Recesses

3. hold the world to its best - Jiang Cheng, 859, Long After Canon

4. won't run away (we're here to stay) - Chengning, 3.5k, Post-Canon

5. welcome to the storm - Jiang Cheng, 1.6k, Fall of Lotus Pier

Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I try to, but god help the ADHD. I read and cherish every one I get though, I promise!!

What is a fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

It's either didn't want us to burn out, which was canon timeline Chengxuan, or come back and haunt me, which was canon timeline Sangyu. I think I'll go with the latter. It had more tragedy about identity and memory, I think

(There's also one Hamlet fic I'm proud of, but that was a one-off I wrote. You can go find it if you want)

What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Oh boy, uhhhhhhh. Out of the stuff currently associated with me, it'll be one of the Chengning fics, I think, or my aro!Wei Wuxian Ningxian fic. Not gonna lie it's slim pickings for happy endings around here haha

Do you get hate on fics?

No, thank god. I was always too much of a small fic writer for that.

Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

Hahaha, not really. I'll do handwavey and fade to black but that's about it. Might get there one day though!

Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

Nope, not a crossover person unfortunately unless you want to count the sins on my old laptop from my superwholock era (I don't)

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Ehhhhh..... as of recently, ideas yes but actual written fics, not that I'm aware of

Have you ever had a fic translated?

Yes! A couple of my MDZS fics and one MCU fic back in the day got translated into Russian

What's your all-time favorite ship?

Bestie I live in multishipper hell you can't make me decide

What's a wip you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?

Basically every DMBJ wip at this point in time, but particularly the one I'm furthest along on that I do not have a working title for other than 'horrible huaxie backstory'. My relationship with DMBJ has changed a LOT since getting into it this year and now my hyperfixation is somewhere else, so who knows what'll happen *shrugs*

What are your writing strengths?

I've been told my narration has a distinctive voice to it, and I think that's what people tend to compliment most? Dialogue is also something I've tried to consciously work on over the years, and I don't know that it stands out as a strength necessarily but it's almost something I find easy to write these days if I'm in the swing of it

What are your writing weaknesses?

Action and smut. Basically don't make me mentally choreograph complex stuff

Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

Now that my Mandarin has improved after two years of study, I think writing bilingual fic could be fun. There's definitely dialogue I've thought up in Mandarin for C-Drama characters that just won't have the same impact in English, and it's a shame I can't just casually drop it into a fic untranslated and be done with it

First fandom you wrote for?

First fics I ever wrote were for Star Wars and they were written longhand into a horrid little hipster notebook from Indigo. The first fics I posted on Ao3 were for the MCU though

Favorite fic you've written?

Nah I'm not choosing on this, I have no idea <3

Tagging @nutcasewithaknife, @eirenical, and @ilgaksu (only if you want to and apologies if you've already done this 😅)

[sunriseverse]

fic author interview

tagged by @killerandhealerqueen (thank you!!!)

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

374 total, as of right now. a good 200 of those are pacific rim fanfics, of which at least 70% are promptfills, because i used to be a fairly heavy promptfic writer.

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

currently, exactly 1,309,300 words, but this will definitely grow—i tend to write between 150k-250k per year, depending on how things go (last year i hit an all-time high at 300k). i've written more total, but that's the amount that i've written since 2017 and not deleted.

3. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

let's see..... 1. strike it through (start again) (938) 2. do you feel the hunger (does it howl inside?) (634) 3. a love that echoes through the distance (484) 4. strokes of love (449) 5. The Trials and Tribulations of One Hermann Gottlieb, PhD (407) honestly i am a little annoyed with my top four fics because they've been in my top four since, like, 2022 when i posted them, and i have written so many better fics since then!!!! unfortunately my better fics are also for tiny fandoms so they stay there at the top </3

4. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

always! even if it's just a simple "thanks for the comment, i'm glad you liked it!" because comments mean so much to me and i want commenters to know that.

5. What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

I loved, I loved (I lost) i think? it's funny, because i love writing angst, but i rarely write things with a solidly unhappy ending—i almost always at least leave something on a hopeful note. no idea how this fic holds up because i wrote it ages ago now and my writing skills have definitely improved.

6. What’s the fic you’ve written with the happiest ending?

what qualifies as "happiest"? i think this really varies from person to person. that said, my personal favourite ending of things i've written recently would have to be in nie huaisang and the no good, very bad day, which ends with 1. jin guangshan's head being cut off, and 2. poor huaisang fainting, just because i think it's hilarious as hell.

7. Do you write crossovers?

not really—i used to, but these days, i tend to write fusions more. i just don't particularly feel the drive for characters from different media to meet each other, and prefer to blend settings or worldbuilding instead. that said, i would like to write a zmyx/dmbj crossover, because i think a dmbj door would be wicked.

8. Have you ever received hate on a fic?

not as much since i switched to mainly posting on ao3, but i used to, yeah. most of it was very repetitive and boring and unimaginative, but a while back someone called me a f*g hag for writing an entirely sfw fic and accused me of getting off to gay male sex and i was just sat there like goddamn. none of what you said is even close to the mark. i deleted it (it was anon on ffnet, and thankfully i had my settings configured to let me delete anon comments), but i do have a screenshot saved somewhere, i think, just because it was so absurd.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

ehhhhh? not really?? this is complicated because like, i have written a few fics with smut, but i wouldn't really say i write smut. when i have written it it's almost always been very vague, for a variety of reasons, and in service of the narrative. i'm just not particularly interested in smut, and don't read it, either.

10. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

not to my knowledge, but i would hope that if it were to happen, my readers would let me know. i have a specific line in my ao3 bio that states that if my works are found anywhere but on my ao3, tumblr, or ffnet, then it's stolen and reposted without my permission to cover my bases.

11. Have you ever had a fic translated?

i had someone ask if they could translate a fic of mine years ago, but as far as i'm aware nothing came of it—i was very honoured, though!

12. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

i have! only one traditionally co-written, but it was an interesting experience. i'm not certain i could do it again, just because it requires a lot of coordination and effort.

13. What’s your all-time favorite ship?

pingpangxie/tiesanjiao (romantic)...............they have set up an entire shopping mall in my mind, and i adore them deeply.

14. What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

i don't think i have any wips on ao3 that i really want to complete, but i guess if we consider all my wips, the sun telling the same lies about how beautiful the world is, which is my sunrise sha hai parallel. i've been tinkering with the outline for a bit now, but i have yet to actually start writing it, but i care about it so much and want it to be written so badly, because there's so many fun things in both worldbuilding and canon changes that i've got prepared.

15. What are your writing strengths?

i'm a very descriptive writer! people have told me that my writing is very immersive because of this, and it makes me very happy, because i love describing things. also, not something most people comment on, but i love putting layers of meaning into every writing choice i make—especially lately, my writing is all blue curtains, as it were.

16. What are your writing weaknesses?

i have been known to love a massive paragraph, alas. my record so far is a 500+ word paragraph. i only would say it's a weakness because sometimes it can get hard to remember the point of the paragraph, but i'm skilled enough that i usually do fine.

17. What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

depends; if i speak the language, then maybe, but usually, i write dialogue in english......................but that said, all the dialogue i write for cdramas/cnovels is technically written in chinese in my mind and then translated into english in my writing, which is why sometimes i'll make references to the phrasing that only works when you consider the chinese version of what is said.

18. What was the first fandom you wrote for?

on ao3, warriors! this is probably the first fandom i ever write anything for, actually, but anything i wrote pre-2016 either only exists in hard copy, or has been deleted.

19. What’s a fandom/ship you haven’t written for yet but want to?

i have so many baihe ships i want to write for but i have yet to finish a single goddamn novel so unfortunately i can't actually do that. however i am planning on doing a baihe writing challenge for march since it's my birth month, so hopefully i'll get at least some writing done in that vein (it'll probably be yunze chuan and shuang jing heavy since those are the things i've actually finished, but i'd like to write something for fgep, ruzhui, etc).

20. What’s your favorite fic you’ve written

not a fanfic, but a series: sunrise ‘verse! if i had to choose an individual fic i'd probably struggle a lot, i like so many of them! so i'm putting a series here :) this is my proudest achievement and my favourite world i've come up with. i have so much lore behind this and so many things i want to do with this, and it's a series i've done a lot of experimental things with and plan to do more experimental things in the future, and i think it's really pushed me as a writer.

@mhaccunoval @xueyang @mejomonster @mispronouncing-michaelangelo @vaynglories and anyone else who wants to! (no pressure!!)

[fantasybooktournament]

favorite tags:

#i haven't read spinning silver#but unfortch i am a LOTR hater bc my middle school friends#forced me to watch all the movies at once and they bored me to tears lol#i respect ppl who love lotr and i enjoyed the hobbit but i tried the first book then and was like EHHHHH BORING WHERES THE WOMRB#WOMEN (@smallboyonherbike)

#SPINNING SILVER....!!!#i havent read lotr but i couldnt get through the hobbit. i dnfd at like ninety percent (though to be fair i was 10)#but after i read spinning silver it didnt leave my head for weeks (@endlessgalore)

#we loved you spinning silver#it's not your fault#you deserved so much more#(anyone who likes lotr don't read from here)#than to lose to the guy who describes individual grass blades#polls (@readingbooksinisrael)

#we loved you spinning silver#it's not your fault#you deserved so much more#(anyone who likes lotr don't read from here)#than to lose to the guy who describes individual grass blades#polls (@uncannycerulean)

#GOD THIS HURTS#SPINNING SILVER MY BELOVED#I WANT NOTHING MORE THAN FOR YOU ALL TO UNDERSTAND THIS JEWISH RUMPLESTILTSKIN FAERIE-ROMANCE-ON-THE-SIDE NOVEL IS A BALM TO THE SOUL#In general I can't stop singing Naomi Novik's praises I need more of a fandom to form around her scholomance series too#But that's neither here nor there (@saltedswan)

#spinning silver#don't get me wrong LOTR did a lot for fantasy#but spinning silver is one of the best and tightest written fairy-tale retellings#it's wonderful (@accidentallymelted )

#...... i am going to just pass this one along#bc lotr is foundational and formative and i do love it#but spinning silver is beautiful and compelling#and i love it too#so i shall abstain and share (@eidetictelekinetic)

#Spinning Silver has 4 times the fully developed female characters in one chapter than in all of the LOTR trilogy#And is a masterpiece#So- while I love LOTR- my vote is decidedly cast to Spinning Silver (@sweet-cynic)

[danggerine]

fe3H characters who have strong nonbinary vibes

according to me and my gender vibe check abilites

(i’m gonna be super loose with pronouns here just as a heads up, expect a mix of they/them and canon)

Yuri Leclerc: yeah this should be obvious idk how much i need to explain here. purple grown-out mullet with matching eyeshadow. pointy boots. magic AND swords. their unique ability to make those fucking finger gun animations for the trickster class actually look cool. yuri is so nonbinary i get thrown for a loop whenever someone DOESN’T use they/them in game

Bernadetta von Varley: she/they bernadetta is the hill i will DIE on i stg!!! the hoodie variation of the academy uniform, the purple and gold, the absolute nonbinary audacity of BOTH haircuts? bernie (her nickname is BERNIE for fuck’s sake) has Totally Believably Cis hobbies such as writing original stories that they can easily project onto, embroidering/sewing trinkets to give as presents to her friends, and studying carnivorous plants. they are obsessed with carnivorous plants what more do i need to say

Hapi: hapi to me seems like the enby who wakes up every morning, looks gender in the eyes, and chooses sexy violence. like an any pronoun, any clothing, who gives a shit gender is my bitch kinda vibe. something about her voice just radiates a lack of gender to me, that plus the crop top and astronomy and dark magic. like lowkey all the ashen wolves are nonbinary but hapi and yuri get to be on this list bc they’re easier for me to “explain” why

Leonie Pinelli: look at the pre-ts haircut. i rest my case. ok but also leonie has the peak “pedestalizing and projecting onto a person i look up to who has a presentation i align with” nonbinary experience, and she needs another personality trait besides jeralt. tbh my concept of nonbinary leonie is less based in the actual character and more in that i feel like she COULD be nonbinary if you sprinkled in some more flavor

Jeritza: full honesty i didn’t do most of jeritza’s supports and i couldnt be bothered to look up their full name (Emile von Hrym right??) but regardless, the drama and elegance that jeritza has is so enby. the silky ponytail and the matching mask and cape and the overwhelming air of mystery, like, im pretty sure jeritza gave every other bitch on this list extreme gender envy until he kidnapped flayn and all. and the death knight? absolute goth icon, nothing is more nonbinary than an outfit that covers your entire face and modifies your voice while STILL being all black, spiked and skulled, and sexy as hell

honorouble mentions to: balthus, constance, ingrid, lindhardt, claude, lorenz, and shamir, all of whom i either can see as a possibility but don’t feel strongly enough about to explain, or were supposed to be here but i got tired in the middle of making this post and left it at 5

[ffamranxii]

Hello! Here from Ao3 :) (@bokashi is my side blog)

As mentioned in a comment on your iwaoi story, which ships do you see as legitimately being canon? (a link for the silly geese who haven't read it yet)

For me, I honestly think bokuaka could be canon (we just need the confirmation </3). But for like iwaoi (I get really intense friendship vibes, but like so unabashedly proud and happy to be friends with the other person in canon) or kuroken (maybe like a heather situation, where one of them is in love, but the other isn't; but also, they really teeter on the edge for me) or other ships (I could go on forever), it's a bit more up in the air for me. I indulge and thoroughly enjoy all ship content, but I try to separate the two worlds of fandom and canon too.

I also think it's really easy to enjoy shipping. They're fictional men (thinking manga timeskip here), so it's kind of hard to self-ship (for me), but I want them to be happy in the romance department. Plus, when there are so few women and non-binary people in the show, naturally that shipping is gonna happen between *the bois*. (Although, based on all of the content we get, even with women, I'd still ship them all with their teammates.)

So yeah, I'm really curious about your thoughts on this jumbled mess about shipping and canon vs fanon, etc! Really enjoying your content, thanks for replying to my comments! :)

Hiiiii! Ffamran is a sideblog too, I followed bokashi on my hiatused chibimonkey main.

So tbh, given Japan’s general stance on homosexuality *side eye intensifies* I’d have to say regretfully nobody could be legitimately canon except Tanaka/Kiyoko the token heteroship. HOWEVER, some mangaka (looking at you, CLAMP and Yamaguchi Tsubasa!) dgaf about heteronorms and have written gorgeous and CANON LGBTQ+ characters, so it’s within the realm of possibility that Furudate-sensei intended some of her characters to be gay and maybe her editor or the magazine said “uh, fuck no?” because, I mean, have you READ the manga? Some of it’s pretty fucking gay.

My top 5 ships are the ones I could most likely see being canon: daisuga, iwaoi, kuroken, asanoya, and bokuaka. I’d also add kagehina to that. The evidence is just THERE.

Daichi and Suga are VERY close. They’re always shown together, were introduced together, have been referred to by Furudate-sensei as Karasuno’s parents, Daichi talks Suga up a ton, Suga is very physical with Daichi especially, etc etc. In one panel of the manga, Suga is literally slapping Daichi’s ass. (Under the #ffamran reads manga tag.) Like what? But they’re also the least in your face on this list.

Asanoya is just... a lot of what daisuga is but more obvious. Also introduced as a duo, usually around each other, physical, etc. Noya ONLY sets for Asahi (though once in the anime he set for Tanaka) - that’s HUGE. He learned to do this crazy fucking technique all to better ASAHI. He refuses to play without Asahi. At the very least, Noya is bisexual and has a thing for Asahi. PLUS they travel the GODDAMN WORLD together at the end of the manga.

Iwaoi might as well be official. There’s the whole Iwaizumi milk bread thing (like SERIOUSLY, how much more do you NEED?), the nicknames/name-calling/teasing, the constant touching, the complete trust and connection. Oikawa relies overtly on Iwa, and Iwa is constantly checking on and reassuring him. These two blatantly love each other.

Kuroken is another where at least one of them has a thing for the other. Kuroo is SMITTEN with Kenma. He’s constantly taking care of him, checking on him, monitoring his comfort. When he, Kai, and Yaku are discussing Kenma, Kuroo’s face is just so in LOVE with this fucking boy. Kenma is up in the air - he’s not as expressive as Kuroo, or as emotional. He keeps his feelings firmly inside. But I’d say it’s safe to assume he cares very deeply for Kuroo and loves him, and it’s a 50/50 toss up if it’s romantic love.

Bokuaka. Bro. At first I was gonna say “ehhhhh, it’s probably wishful thinking on our part,” but then I remembered: Akaashi decided to attend Fukurodani SOLELY because he saw Bokuto play. Bokuto honed the fuck in on him the day they met and basically staked his claim. These two embody the love at first sight trope and they are comfortably settled in a serious relationship. Why else does Akaashi know him so well, and vice versa? Akaashi made and MEMORIZED a list of Bokuto’s weaknesses, and knows exactly how to get him out of every slump, and Bokuto is intrinsically aware of when Akaashi’s at his limit, and pushes past his own weaknesses to support him at that time. Out of everyone, these two are the most likely to have started their relationship before the manga.

Kagehina. I watched the first episode (I saw the anime before I read the manga) and I distinctly remember my overall impression was “these two are gonna fuck, aren’t they?” They’re dumb. They’re SO fucking dumb, and I respect Furudate-sensei SO MUCH for making both her protagonists stupid as fuck. These two would be a vicious slow burn. They don’t get together during the manga. They’re too busy competing with each other. Their flirting is competition. They’re SO into each other beyond a normal friendly rivalry but they both think it’s just a friendly rivalry because they’re SO DUMB.

Honorable mention to Tsukiyama, because while these two are easy to write off as just good friends, there are very subtle hints that they may be more than, the biggest being Tsukki’s distaste if anyone but Yamaguchi calling him Tsukki (and Yamaguchi hates when other people say it too) and their “tough love” type of support for each other. They seem to be a very private couple, if they were intended as such.

Also: Yachi. Yachi is CLEARLY a lesbian.

It could also be argued that Ushiten was hinted at being canon, since Tendou clearly loves Ushiwaka. It’s not a ship I like but I very easily see why it’s a popular ship. I think I posted about it before somewhere, but the tl;dr of it is Tendou is ALL OVER Ushiwaka. Supports him 1000% in the face of anyone and everyone, clings to him (not physically, but like... emotionally?) at school, and just everything he does is FOR Ushiwaka. Like, did Ushiwaka even have friends before Tendou started talking to him? And Ushiwaka softens around Tendou, becomes more human and likeable. He doesn’t act that way around anyone else. They might just be the bromance to end all bromances, or one of them has a crush, or maybe they do love each other - their relationship is ambiguous in that regard. But I will add: Ushiwaka did fly all the way to France to see Tendou, and I don’t see anyone else (except Asanoya) making worldwide trips for each other.

[luzarya]

Homunculus

Twst ocs & Yuu

Summary: Yuu finds themselves dragged to a ritual as soon as they were left by Crowley in the beginning. What they find out surprised them, but they take the information with stride.

warnings and tags: slight need mention, blood mention, mention (temporary) character death, happy ending tho

ao3 link: here

word count: 1,313

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Yuu was frazzled, confused, and most of all, scared.

They had only been here in this new world of Twisted Wonderland, for what, an hour? And already, they’ve gotten into too much trouble for their own good.

As of now, they were huddled in the abandoned attic of the Ramshackle dorm. The monster that had harassed them earlier was asleep, snoring away as Yuu was going through this horrid ritual. They were not alone either, oh no, for a fox familiar was there with them. Well, at least, they were told it was a fox familiar, and sure enough, the fox was a fox… earlier. Not now.

Instead of a fox, a person with fox ears and tails, horns as well, replaced the familiar. Yet, they were one and the same.

“Don’t worry Yuu, you’ll remember, soon enough,” the fox, called Mikhail, told them with a pleasant voice. It didn’t ease Yuu’s worries however. Too many things in such a small window of time surely couldn’t be good for a person.

As for what Mikhail was doing… Yuu couldn’t guess, but from what they could see, a life-size doll with no features laid on the wooden floor, underneath it a circle with sigils and the like. There were candles as well, just bright enough to make out what was in the attic itself. They were placed out of the way where the rainwater, so that they wouldn’t go out, although a few of the candles did go out anyways.

Overall: A Very Not Good Experience.

“Hey, Yuu,” Mikhail called over softly, his glowing amber eyes making him appear eerie. Didn’t help that his pupils had slits either.

“Yes?” Yuu squeaked, clutching onto the ceremonial clothing they still adorned. Right after Crowley had left, Mikhail had shifted to his human form and pulled Yuu to the attic. The flaming cat, Grim, gave zero fucks and went to bed.

“May I have some of you blood? I just need you to prick your finger, just a little. Over the doll, please?”

Yuu didn’t reply, but they did scoot over, now closer to the fox shifter. Mikhail handed Yuu a rather large needle. Gulping, Yuu took it, and they hovered over the life size doll. How Mikhail managed to get a clay doll into the attic was beyond them, but they didn’t question it.

Yuu pricked their finger, a small drop of blood splattering onto the face of the doll. A few more drops, then there was a small, tiny pool of blood.

“That’s enough. Now, hold my hand, please?”

Yuu complied, letting Mikhail hold onto their non-pricked hand. Mikhail urged them to close their eyes, so they did. Now that their vision was gone, their sense of hearing was heightened, as Yuu made out some words spilling out from Mikhail, feeling a rather warm sensation overtake them.

Then pain.

Yuu fell into Mikhail’s grasp, as he continued on with his cantation, feeling pain with every inch of their body. They faintly heard themselves howling in pain, as something was making its way out from their stomach and through their throat, and lastly their mouth. It wasn’t vomit, Yuu could tell, but it wasn’t pleasant either. Whatever that had escaped from Yuu had fully emerged out, leaving Yuu to heave loudly against Mikhail.

Just what was that?

Their body was sore, but thankfully no longer in pain. Yuu didn’t even know if they could move a muscle. They remained in Mikhail’s embrace, the cantation still going on. It became louder, as Mikhail was now audibly heard. Yuu could feel the floor tremble beneath them, wondering if it would continue to hold.

At the last few moments, Yuu felt a rather excruciating headache, clutching onto their head as Mikhail’s arms strengthened their hold around them.

Memories came flooding in- all seven overblots, the things that the dorm leaders went through in their childhood, how events had unfolded, and the like. Yet, happy memories came along as well, recalling how Ace and Deuce aided them and hung out with them, such as the small sleepovers they occasionally had and goofing off in class.

Yet…

These events had not happened.

So why-

“Ehhhhh,” a feminine voice groaned loudly besides Yuu. It was all too familiar, but Yuu couldn’t-

No. They remembered. It was Rosamund… And Mikhail was their partner.

Rosamund and Mikhail were their fox familiars.

“You can open your eyes now, Yuu,” Mikhail gently told them. Yuu did as told, the room too dark, the candles having gone out. Yuu glanced over to where the life-size doll was, but instead, they were met with a lookalike. Same black hair and red eyes, yet the figure before them was more feminine than them… and naked.

“So, how’s my original body, Yuu?” The doll, Rosamund, asked.

Right.

They weren’t in their own body.

“It’s fine, but-”

“You died, kid,” Rosamund interrupted, quick to answer the question that Yuu was about to ask.

“I… What now?”

“She’s right,” Mikhail replied, letting go of Yuu. Yuu looked at the two of them, but their memories weren’t returning past a certain point.

“All I remember is Malleus’ overblot,” Yuu said, “we were just finishing it, and from there, it was all black.”

“Yea,” Rosamund stood up, stretching, Yuu looking away, “You died. Well, you fell asleep first, but then you died in your sleep. So,” Rosamund sat back down, giving a toothy grin, “We’re starting all over again. Fun, isn’t it?”

“What happened to my body…?”

“Ah,” Rosamund quieted. They looked away, not wanting to deliver the news.

Mikhail sighed, “It… decayed. We had to quickly save your soul, so we implemented it into Rosamund’s body.”

“Slowly,” Rosamund quietly began, “My original body will adapt to become yours. Slowly, you’ll look like you originally did. Although…” Rosamund summoned fire at her fingertips, relighting one of the nearby candles, “You’ll have magic this time. The mirror didn’t detect it, but you have magic. Granted, it’s locked away.”

“...locked away?”

“Yes,” Mikhail stood up, offering Yuu a hand, “It’s technically Rosamund’s magic, but it will eventually become your own. As for Rosamund, for now, they’ll just adapt to their new body.”

“Wouldn’t it have been easier for me to be in the doll?” Yuu inquired, taking Mikhail’s hand. They were right- it was hard to move, much less walk.

“Your soul can only persist for so long once it leaves your body. Our souls, however, will linger for years on end. Well, yours could, although, only with strong negative emotions or attachments.”

“...oh.”

Mikhail offered a small smile, as he helped Yuu walk to the exit, leaving the mess of the ritual behind. Looking back, he yelled over to Rosamund to clean up the mess.

“Aight, just get Yuu to bed. They’ll need all the energy that they can get,” was Rosamund’s reply.

Mikhail aided Yuu in getting down from the attic, now on the second floor of the building. He was kind enough to show Yuu to the dorm head’s room, coincidentally where Grim was asleep.

With the help of magic, Mikhail managed to tidy up the room, drastically changing the items to be repaired and be of use. This included the pitiful bed, Grim only grunting upon the movement.

“There isn’t any other suitable bed around, so please, push Grim a little and make room for yourself.”

Yuu nodded, and complied to the fox shifter’s commands.

Just as they were going to say good night, Yuu no longer saw Mikhail, instead, saw two foxes in front of them, one red, the other black.

Yuu smiled, and said;

“Good night, Mikhail, Rosamund. Let’s be sure to not die…. this… time…zzz.”

The events of the day caught up with Yuu, the foxes watching as Yuu fell asleep. The foxes moved around, and got themselves comfortable.

For a long adventure laid ahead of them.

[virareve]

30 Questions

Rules: Answer 30 questions and tag 5 blogs you are contractually obligated to know better.

Thanks for the tag @tiredandtoothless !

Name/nickname: Vira

Gender: Female

Star sign: Leo (I don’t know much else except something about me being primarily in the tenth house???)

Height: 5′4.5″ (that half inch really counts)

Birthday: July 29

Time: Approximately 3:30pm

Favorite bands: (in no particular order...) Aerosmith, Fleetwood Mac, Rising Appalachia

Favorite solo artists: (in no particular order...) Zedd, Taylor Swift, Ariana Grande, Anuel AA, Chance the Rapper, Kanye West, Darius Rucker, David Bisbal, Maren Morris, Marshmello, Norah Jones, Ruel, Shakira, Yola

Song stuck in my head: La Bikina written by Rueben Fuentes. While not quite exact, this song reminds me a lot of Brienne in post-show and encapsulates a lot of the feelings I’d imagine she would have after GOT canon. I love this song very dearly and have listened to it with the written lyrics and without the written lyrics. It’s a haunted and beautiful song.

Last movie: That I finished? Princess Switch 2: Switched Again. It’s maybe the third Christmas romance movie I’ve seen in my life but I really loved this one. It’s a good bad funny unlike the first which was just boring lol. Why have two Vanessa Hudgens when you can have three? 

Last show: Avatar: The Last Airbender. I’ve been slowly rewatching it since it came onto Netflix in 2019. 

When did I create this blog: 2012 ( I had to check because I couldn’t remember lol.)

What do I post: Anything that interests me. Usually things I find funny or fandom stuff I would want to see again (i.e. artwork or meta).

Last thing googled: News on my aunt’s uncle who was taken by the government in our family’s home country recently. 

Other blogs: I only have this one but I’m thinking of making a sideblog just so I can keep organize all the patterns and inspo I get for Animal Crossing.

Do I get asks: Occasionally but sometimes they’re also just the randomest things that I think someone wants to just send me from anon  and not really meant to be answered. XD

Why I chose my url: I’m not exactly bi- or multilingual now but I was raised among many spoken languages. Vira was a name given to me by a friend, it is a play on my name in one of their languages. Reve is from a language I spoke as a child and no longer remember. 

Following: 81

Followers: 103

Average hours of sleep: It varies wildly but I’d say three to four days out of the week I get 8

Lucky number: I’ve never ascribed to any. 

Instruments: I used to have a rudimentary understanding of piano, violin, and harp

What am I wearing: Turtleneck, flare jeans, and heeled black mules

Dream job: trauma surgery but a physical health issue from the last few years  means I might need to rethink that if I go back, another dream job I want to run simultaneously (whether or not I return to medicine) is growing the company i work for

Dream trip: Going backpacking for a year or two through Europe and Asia and visiting some of the places the last few generations from my family came from before ending up in the US

Favorite food: Ramen, fresh churros, California burrito, mashed potato tacos, Pho, Kimbap, or Dolsot Bibimbap

Nationality: American (the second gen remix)

Favorite song: Hotel California by The Eagles

Last book read: The Pursuit of Mary Bennet by Pamela Mingle. (The story was was ehhhhh. It was first person and read a bit like a YA novel. Sometimes I felt the author imposing her beliefs a bit strongly. The MC also felt like she took a new character and decided to call her Mary Bennet. It was so-so, enjoyable but I wouldn’t recommend spending money on. If you find yourself intrigued by the idea of a Mary Bennet Spin-off, The Unexpected Miss Bennet by Patrice Sarath was a bit more true to the way I imagine the book character and more character-centric. One thing I do appreciate these novels for is painting the Bennet sisters’ relationship is a less harsh light.)

Top three fictional universes I’d like to live in: 1)  Pokemon (I want to be ten and go on adventures and get protected by plot XD) 2) Crazy Rich Asians (I just want to be friends with Go Peik Lin and Astrid Leong) 3) A:TLA post-hundred years war and without the existence of LOK (that’s too dark to retire in lol)

Tagging @twelvemonkeyswere @ladym-rules @writergirl2011 @treadcareful @hillaryschu

[dgcatanisiri]

So, I just want to speak from my personal, individual experience and viewpoint on the Dean/Cas THING.

When I look at queer representation, there is always this part of me that brings up the idea “when I started trying to come to terms with my sexuality, would this character being queer have helped me?” Meaning would seeing this character go through experiences on screen and undergoing growth and development have been able to tell that insecure and scared teenager that he’s not wrong or broken or anything like that for feeling the way he does.

It’s probably a good chunk of why I do seek out queer male portrayals first and foremost. Y’know, looking for those heroes now that I didn’t have then, no matter that I’m now years past that point when I need that to ground myself - I think that no matter how old you get, you’re always going to need heroes to look up to (and it’s why we get so defensive when people bring up how these heroes are problematic, because we’re still looking up to them).

And it’s why I’m always a little ‘...ehhhhh...’ about queer characters who are getting The Queer Narrative™, the stories that depend on them being queer, because the identity that I’ve grown into is not JUST my queerness - not just being gay, not just being ace, I have been through things that have impacted me and had nothing to do with my sexuality or orientation. So when I think about how that would have impacted that younger version of myself, I see him thinking “is this all there is to being this way? Because that’s not how I see myself, so, does that mean that I’m not? Or that I’m doing it wrong?”

See also, littered throughout my “another angry queer rant” tag, various comments about feeling isolated even among what representation I get - this is why, for example, I come away frustrated with a character like Dorian Pavus, whose gayness is the primary focus of his character questline, so making it The One Thing the game wants you to walk away remembering. 

So. Dean Winchester and Castiel.

These characters have always resonated for me. You know, characters both who are almost defined by the fact that they have this deep-seated feeling that they are broken in some way. It’s constantly referenced by characters that Cas “had a crack in the chassis from the assembly line” with his affection for humanity and Dean in particular - there’s a pretty obvious metaphor for homosexuality in that. Meanwhile Dean... Okay, digging into the parallels, situational and emotional, gets a little too personal to dive into for me, but suffice to say, when I started watching Supernatural, all the way back in season two, I clicked with Dean from moment one. 

So that lays the groundwork for the situation we’re in now.

And look, while I was still picking up DVDs and even the tie-in novels, I stopped watching live somewhere in early season nine. I recognized the baiting as bait and was just tired - I’d watch it later, on my time and on my terms, able to skip past the stale repetition of “I’m gonna do a thing that I say is for your good and keep it secret” style plotlines that had driven much of the series to that point. I was on record years ago as saying that I wouldn’t be happy with canon Destiel unless it had at least about half a season’s worth of growth or development - it wouldn’t have felt like they were risking anything in taking that chance, you know? 

But I was actually kinda interested in the stuff that I saw coming through for season fifteen. Storyline seemed interesting, and... I legitimately wasn’t getting my hopes up for Destiel AT. ALL. Like, we all knew Supernatural would Supernatural, it was all just bait, don’t get suckered.

And then... Cas admitted he loved Dean. And look, my reaction to that was a baseline of “conflicted,” for the reasons I pointed out above - decade of baiting, way too late to actually explore this, and of course the obvious element of bury your gays. But at a minimum, given this show’s constant revolving door of death, I wasn’t concerned about that. And... I wanted that win. I wanted to be able to walk away from this show saying that they’d managed to turn a decade of baiting into the foundation of a queer love story, even with all the flaws.

Because Supernatural, being a fifteen year old series, carries the baggage of its time. To say that this show built on toxic masculinity turned from that into a softer, better, more respectful story... It doesn’t undo the harm, but it shows an understanding of the harm inflicted and a willingness and desire to undo it.

But then the finale. And the editing. And cutting. And the discovery that there was a version of the script where this was all explicit. And that the network is the likeliest reason we DON’T have that changed story, that understanding and desire to fix it.

So we find out that the script was making efforts. And that the network, in a blatant and shameless effort to appeal to a particular crowd, the crowd they WANTED to be watching, and, by extension, who they want to follow from Supernatural to Walker, cut out Dean admitting that he loved Cas, and maybe even all the way to imposing the idea that the only way to even have that is by both characters only getting together in heaven, and then denying even that.

Like I realize there’s still an element to conspiracy theory in all of this, but based on the evidence we have, I don’t feel like it’s a stretch to go in that direction, which just says how bad this situation is - the situation that is the network imposing this on the writers, and in the name of defending their homophobic audience from facing even the possibility of this particular perceived bastion of masculinity be anything not straight.

That the network would only allow these characters to be queer literally over their dead bodies, and even then, they wouldn’t even let that be textual. 

That is the network saying that there MUST be this strict lineation between the stories for straight characters and gay characters, and we’re looking specifically at male characters here. Like, the Arrowverse shows might get a little more room to maneuver here because there’s at least been some advancement in the comics and they can’t wholly cut that out (and Greg Berlanti being gay himself - if one of the guys at the helm is pushing this, they can actually exert a little more pressure). But are these queer men in the position of having the show centered on them, like the narratives were for Dean Winchester on Supernatural? 

So if they are going to allow more nuanced portrayals of queer men exist, they want them strictly as side characters. Characters who, at least in their idea of the show, can be removed without an issue.

THAT, ultimately, is the driving thing for me. That the network says not just “you can only have THESE stories, you can only be supporting the narratives of the straight characters,” but even “don’t you DARE think that you can take center stage like this.” That for daring to try to let these characters express it, the network demanded that they DIE. And that they couldn’t even be reunited in their afterlife. 

It’s not just the characters deserving better (which, we really could go in on the fact that Dean spent the better part of the series in a state of suicidal ideation, of believing that he was better off dead but somehow kept surviving, and how gross it is to give this character that chance to live only to kill him off, but I’ve already gone on for like a page now). It’s the silencing of the queer narrative, of the queer characters, this striking down from these suits saying that for daring to want to be in the center of a narrative that lets them be queer without centering on their queerness as their only personality trait, these characters must die without even getting to acknowledge it.

That’s the part that gets to me. The part that says that the network would sooner pursue homophobic money and viewers by killing and silencing queerness than accept that this nonconventional story that resonated for queer viewers, that actively survived as long as it did BECAUSE of queer viewers (because there’s no way that, without the multitude of Destiel fans, Supernatural would have made it to season fifteen)... That it could be queer.

It’s not even that we’ve come so far and gotten nowhere. It’s that they KNOW this show depended on this audience, but they refuse to accept that and refuse to offer even this little sliver of thanks, because it would impact the viewership that they REALLY want.