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Sketch Dump #5
bunch of choo-choos. mentally ill for them frfr
(Concept sketch of Emily [left] and James [right] of an early concept of a story)
(Screenshot redraw of a scene from Hunt the Truck - Season 22)
(Sketch of Jacqueline)
(Scene from "Bittersweet," an EoSR story published on Ao3)
(Rough pen sketch of Meade)
#my art#my sketches#muxse ttte oc: jacqueline#muxse ttte oc: meade#ttte edward#ttte james#ttte emily#the rewritten railway au#the lovely rewritten railway au#screenshot redraw#jacqueline is baby <3#i love her sm /biased#edward's smokebox + boiler are sitting a little higher than they should#edward dafuq did you do? (as if I got nothing to do with it :D)#smokebox door trim >>>>>>>#introducing one of my pen sketches that i did in class when i should really be paying attention#do i still do it? si :3#took the chance to start scanning stuff#ttte#ttte au#ttte oc#cerenemuxse
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Funniest thing about the stranger things love triangles for me is still the way the writers used almost the same plot beats twice, with siblings on both sides, with similar thematic resonance, and half the fans have still not caught up on where they're going. You are allowed to think it's not going to end up with canon Byler. But the amount of fans (people who are actually invested in watching and understanding the show you know) who won't even admit that they could be setting up a love triangle is still so strange to me. Genuinely, what more do you need to at least consider the possibility ?
#byler#my thoughts#stranger things#byler & jancy parallels#both pair of siblings are just doing the same shit with a 3 years difference and it's so funny to me#hope Mike will follow his sis soon though : Will is dying out there#to be fair some st fans are super invested in ST and yet seem to have undertood very little so it's not that surprising#side eye to st reddit and some of their popular takes#but it's still very strange how much they seem to think about the show and yet will willfully ignore so much of it#not just about Byler but about general themes and what is happening in the plot#although I will admit : some Bylers are also watching a very different show from me and it is also weird and funny when they do it#consequences of the show being all over the place in S3&4 I suppose
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i've mentioned here and there that i made a relationships/dynamic spreadsheet. i have finally put it to use. look on my Works, ye mighty, and despair.
-extra note: i am not omniscient and i cannot watch every stream. i may have missed a sibling declaration or two.
-extra extra note: i currently speak only english and used google translate for the rest. if theres a translation error I'd love to know- i wont be able to go back and fix these, but im always so curious about how accurate google translate can be
extra extra note pt 2: do. do other languages use guardian as in "legal guardian" as in "not a family member but still Primary Caregiver of child" because i am suddenly aware those translations might not be correct. on the other hand tho if google translate decided that the parents are guarding warriors of the eggs im not going to argue
#qsmp#i should have added a ??? line for fit and philza tbh#look at just how beloved forever is <3#his dynamics have dynamics#he and richarlyson are also part of The Issue when compiling a fucking. whatever the hell this si#maybe a chart not a graph it is currently 4 am and im gonna schedule this#anyway i did legitimately consider making one of those classic family tree charts and just sticking richas in the centre so he wouldnt caus#too many lines to overlap but i think this worked out fine#absolutely delighted i thought of the columns it saved my ass#this server is Three Months Old#look at them founding those families#philever stans i see you and im sorry#if i included a heartbreak line then this would have been completely incomprehensible#fun fact to translate the silly 'king what are you doing' i made google translate#'chad what are you doing' instead so there would still be the grammar of a proper noun#but i wouldnt trick it into thinking king is an honourary title#i might not know the grammar of any non-english language but Oh Boy i know there are Traps#or maybe english's traps have just made me paranoid#either way#also. richas was added to bad's family art wall and bad baghs and forever have called each other family enough that#i made the executive decision to just adopt richarlyson out to the other two#richas called bad basically his mom tonight i can do what i want#and baghera gets to be part of that line because. honestly i wasnt thinking about him being Extra Canon Nephew#and i refuse to change it for reasons above re: it is 4 am; they are family#tho the thought of bad having three children separately attributed to him is hilarious.... maybe if i ever remake this ill do that#also note: i do know that foolish and bad had a kid called jimmy However i do not know what a jimmy is#so#scheduled post
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animnapu't siyam 😏
#LMAO#quick update since I said I would try and do them to keep myself accountable!!!#I can now KINDAAA introduce myself in Filipino :-)#Kumusta! Ako po si Izel :-] <3#today I learned my numbers :-]#I am still in the process of fully grasping thank you/please/etc.#I also lost about 4 pounds going on my daily walks!#my goal isn’t really to lose weight but I still feel kinda proud about it :-]#Spanish going well also! learned some words I’ve never heard before mostly cause it’s the fancy way to say things but hey! more to my vocab#anyways!!!#will get back to commissions now yahoo!!#nuggyy txt#really hoping I can keep building good habits! I want to live a happy life etc etc etc
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You know that time in the comics when the Doctor is so depressed, he shuts off the lights, turns on an interrogation spotlight, locks himself in the console room, and argues with a bunch of judgmental shadow-figures resembling his past incarnations?
And all the TARDIS' lights go out and her interior becomes a maze to keep his companions out of the console room, all from her psychic connection with the Doctor (“moodbleed”)?
And his companions are left wandering in circles for two days as the air goes “stale,” not knowing where he is but thinking the worst, while he hallucinates in a dark room?
...because I'm thinking again about the times this definitely happened when he was with the Ponds.
#when they find him- Rory (one good nurse™) asks neutral questions to check on his emotional state while respecting his space#Amy knows when he's locked himself alone long enough to call River (fortunately Amy talks to her daughter often)#River can calm the tardis and go directly to the Doctor. she sits with him and nods when he rants. she tells him hes loved.#eleventh doctor#11th doctor#doctor who#words by seaweed#(eleventh) doctor is neurodivergent tag#honestly same. I don't want anyone looking at me when im in that way because eyes are very uncomfortable lasers slicing my thoughts#so river doesn't look at him. she looks away and lets him look at her so he knows she's not looking at him. she also does active listening#the shadow-figures in this comic are beyond psychosis coded#emphasis: it isnt presented like some conference of past selves here (which the doctor can't just do anyway- see Power of the Doctor).#and the shadow figures dont have personalities anyway. the way theyre drawn is VERY psychosis coded (as is 11 this whole Si Spurrier run)#this is from Eleventh Doctor Year 2 Issue 3 (set between A Christmas Carol and The Impossible Astronaut) if anyone's wondering#note that he put on his comfort fez I love him#alice obiefune#poor Alice got drove up the wall from wandering in the dark for two days… I think Amy and Rory get to get used to it if they're together#eventually they work out a plan to calm the tardis enough to show them the comfy spot in the bunkbeds to wait and give him space#he joins them in their bunkbed for platonic snuggles. all in the same bunk. Rory doesnt mind. they make sure the doctor knows hes loved <3#I think- having been percieved as psychotic growing up- Amy would be conscious about making sure the doctor knows she still adores him#I really want this fic to exist
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Hira's year in medical review:
Me, August 2023: *experiencing extreme fatigue, fainting spells, mood swings, sudden and drastic increase of suicidal thoughts, and intense hair loss*
P.A: let's do blood work
Me: ok!
Bloodwork: *normal except for prolactin*
Doctor: sometimes that's a fluke so let's retest
Me: ok
Bloodwork: *exactly the same*
Doctor: your values are higher than normal range, but not high enough to be in range for a pituitary gland tumor.
(P.A: go see an endocrinologist and get an MRI, that might be indicative of a pituitary gland tumor.) <- bless this person and only this person in particular
Endocrinologist, seen earliest available which was January 2024: *wants to retest blood work instead of ordering an MRI*
Me: ... ok
Bloodwork: *the same*
Me: can we please do an MRI now?
Endocrinologist: Well. Your values are above the normal limit, but it's highly unlikely that's it's a pituitary gland tumor because they are not high enough for that. Let's retest blood work in four months.
Me: ...................... ok
Bloodwork, May 2024: *THE SAME*
Endocrinologist: hmm, I recommend an MRI
Me: *gesturing angrily*
MRI, June 2024: 🎉 pituitary gland tumor 🎉
Doctor, when I went in for something else: I doubt your endocrinologist will want to treat that, we typically don't treat adenomas that small
Endocrinologist, who took 3 weeks to review my results: I recommend just monitoring. It's highly unlikely that this is causing your symptoms, it's too small for that.
Me, July 2024:
#like im sorry but 'highly unlikely' =/= 'impossible'#sure it might be rare but like thats not a reason not to check it out???#idk wtf is with this resistance to treat it#like SO WHAT if in the majority of people a microadenoma of that size doesnt cause symptoms?? all individuals are different#like y'all didnt even think i had one because it was atypical presentation so maybe that's the case with my symptoms too#what would it hurt to do meds for it?#if i do meds to shrink it and my symptoms resolve; great!#if i do meds and my symptoms dont resolve? thats also great! it means we've ruled one thing out#and can continue exploring why THE FUCK my body is acting the way it is#why wouldn't you want to rule things out if you can?????#the healthcare in this country is so fucking broken#its been almost a year since i went in for my symptoms and still no resolution#ive lost about 2/3 of my hair at this point. ill probably have to chop it off if it keeps going like this#not even gonna talk about the fatigue#nor gonna talk about my sis's current experience where an untreated infection (not for lack of her trying to get it treated!)#is potentially now developing into something more serious. like kidney stuff. 🙃#(and they apparently have no record of the labs she submitted 🙃🙃 so she's gotta go do it all over again otherwise they wont give her meds)#it's okay. its just nausea to the point she hasn't really eaten in days and constant pain and dizziness. difficulty standing#but its fine right lmao#ughhh#dont mind me im just frustrated beyond everything and need to yell into my little corner of the void#withoutwords
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Funny how my mom was surprised I read 5 manga volumes in one sitting when she has read whole books in a day or two, and I'm talking thick ass books. Aside from the fact that everybody in our family reads awfully fast and has a tendency to binge books
#my art#spheal is still thinking in space#do you know how many times we've gifted her a book and she has read it in like a day?#a lot#ah the discrepancy between number of books and volumes is bc they are releasing 3 volumes in one now in spain#i com que sé que tinc seguidors de països catalans per si no us en heu enterat planeta està publicant el manga de twst#de moment hi ha els dos primers volums i el tercer ve al setembre
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artfight card and team-sonas for me and my sibling @luna-the-shooting-star! 💖❤️
#myart#artfight#team vampires#lil sis#I hope to attack a lot but I just lost my grandpa so idk how I'll be doing <3 I'm still so excited tho!#probably gonna make my team sona a character bc I'm so happy with her lol#team vampire
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i think Simon is the kinda guy who doesnt cuss much. so like when he Does cuss it gets everyone's attention
#or at least if he's cussing most of the time he's doing it in asl so anyone who doesnt know it/isnt paying attention wont notice#he doesnt cuss Out Loud that often#anyway a lil bit of Gutsfics Lore: i was raised. somewhat mormon? mormon enough to not like saying Bad Words while we were still members#anyway when i was in like 4th grade i think we Really started to pull away from the church bc my dad being gay. thats not the important par#but like since i was realising that parts of the church were bs (bc a bunch of people just suddenly flipped on us bc of my dad)#i thought hey maybe the church is Wrong about a lot of things. maybe i WONT go to Hell if i say ass instead of butt#so like one day at lunch we were talking about something idr what but i think i called it like “shit” or something#not even one of the worst cuss words. but EVERYONE at the the table went quiet for a few seconds b4 being like#“HOLY FUCK THE JESUS GIRL SAID SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”#it was awesome :]#i meaaaaan. technically that wasnt the first time i cussed bc i once jokingly said that something was “from hell”#& defended that by saying i was using it the way its used in the bible#the mormon friend i said it to Did get mad at me though#anyway there is ABSOLUTELY a moment where the first time Si drops a Fuck Bomb everyone stops and goes “wtffffffff”#it happens during Ace arc he tells Asher to Shut The Fuck Up when he resigns from the comittee <3
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"malicious master of my destiny,
what is it that you want from me,
what is it that you seek?"
for.spoken si reveal! 🫶 AND i drew him, crazy!
lore- jupiter "jupe" arenshaw is a regular guy on earth until he encounters the newest tanta of athia, frey! unfortunately, he experiences some difficulties and finds himself dragged to this world, bound to the strange golden entity calling itself "vambrace" (definitely not cuff) - or "'brace" for short. in order to find his way back home to earth, he must work together with 'brace to find frey, who has apparently left to seek out the mysterious, long-thought dead rheddig...
okay now fun tibits-
jupe uses he/they and calls cuff/sus.urrus either vambrace, vam, brace, or later on 'rus or sussy (when hes really teasing)!
the song is the descent by polaris, that and annihilation by i_o are #1 songs abt them <3
he has some more items from earth than frey arrives with! including: a backpack with a blanket, teddy, some snacks, a compass and a notebook! they were on their way to a sleepover okay, some of it is just random junk i actually carry ahhsdjnskdmd
they're actually designed with the game in mind! so he has a fair few abilities, some of which overlap with freys but most are unique to him! its partly to do with that whole "bonded to sussy" thing that isnt supposed to work with non-tantas. also some of the items give him specific boosts (compass allows u to forage, blanket allows u to gain a buff after each rest and notebook is where all archive entries appear, as if he'd written them down!)
i kind of picture him like a dlc or small spinoff game post fs1 but before a fs2? ill make a separate post abt their abilities tho, dont want this to get too long :3
ref image for the pose (my sc from the game LMAO):
divider by: @.kgymz ! <3
taglist (ask/dm me n i can add/remove folks!!):
@keyblade-ships @selfshipper @sirius-to-pup @lostmanuscript @deadlock @sosawl @bannering
#jupiter.speaks#👤.jupe#j.art#> OKAY. THINK IM DONE AEUWGEHEH#> theres still a bunch of lore i wanna add like i have a bunch written for his um. like powers n moves tho i do wanna consult the game agai#> cuz some of them r direct comparisons/similarities to the main game + dlc so i wanna check names#> there is a lore reason btw it is connected 🫶 i think hes my most canon compliant si yet what the hell....mad#.oktorb#> theres a few details i wanted to add too - like necklaces/accessories but i cba sbbsjsjd ill do a like lil details post someday#> anyway insanely chuffed abt him ty <3
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back to the issue of not feeling able to talk freely with anyone in my family :'))))) woohoo.
#they were like. the only people i DID feel comfortable talking fully freely with.#so getting ready to send smth to my sister and then realizing i can't/don't want to deal with her reaction to it#sucks!!!#gods#like i can talk about some things with some of them and other things with others but like#fuck dude#even something as simple as 'yeah our sister is still using my car' is smth i can't send#bc i KNOW that the sister i was talking to would have an annoying reaction to it#'cant believe youd let her use your car /i/ wouldve told her to get an uber or a rental' etc etc#(which is what she actually said when i first told her i was letting our sis use my car for work which is why i KNOW she'd say it)#like yeah bro sorry i acknowledge that our sister is already struggling! and that having to share a car with her for 3 weeks#while definitely inconvenient for me and not smth i ENJOY DOING#is something i am still /willing/ to do so that she doesnt. you know. run out of money or smth.#plus 'get an uber' babygirl she literally needs a car to do her job she can't just 'GET AN UBER' you asshole!!!!!!#anyway.#sigh.#sorry that just hit me hard and im very frustrated over many things so#the realization was icing on the cake#shh ac#seriously shut up
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i keep seeing art/images of just. "here's the ii cast! (just showing bot and fuckin. baxter and mephone)" and it hurts my soul
is bot really the only contestant who survived
#im still in si much denial#cant be the case if theres a whole act 3 like wwhatt rhe fuck will they do then. right. righ#is it just gknna be like30 minutes of mephone suffering I CANT#inanimate insanity#ii 17 spoilers#ii bot#not tagging the rest causs lazy#bot tag is for myself#bat's random postz
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Nah facebook just showed me a video of me at 14 doing that thing emo youtubers did at the time where they would hold up notecards talking abt their life. And as cringe as it is I also can’t believe I was thinking that way at that age in a conservative environment where no one was talking abt lgbt or disability issues in the way people do today like.
Some disability related highlights:
Bisexuality:
Also here’s what I looked like lmfao
I cannot stress enough I had drawn rage face memes in sharpie on this shirt and I believe I was also wearing a hunger games pin here
#like. regarding the bisexuality stuff in particular ik it’s more common for kids to understand themselves n talk like this now#but this was Not a thing back then where I lived#and w the disability stuff I wasn’t diagnosed as dyspraxic nor had I heard of it but I had the more vague diagnosis among others#and like. these are things I’m Still trying to teach myself but to think that I had that mindset at 14 is insane#i don’t agree anymore w the parts abt disability being a positive thing for me but I didn’t understand what all was up w me yet#she was cringe but it comes free w being 14#she also had the freaking weight of the world on her shoulders and shrugged it off to put in the work for me#I do not remember doing this in the slightest lmao but like. ok sis thank u <3#mine#🍒
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i love when ur sims actually interact in the way you planned for them to in your hc :))
so i made eden an older sister who lives in san sequoia & who is the exact opposite of her. i wanted them to have a contentious relationship for the family drama. and immediately:
eden h8ted her ass right off the bat we love to see it. she is truly messy <3
anyways this is cloe, eden’s sister who got married and has a toddler and she’s a teacher or smthing, idk i’m still working on her and her fam
#rare sims win#lmfao#i used mc command to add their sister relationship#but no cheats or anything to make their relationship bad lmao eden just did that#she is so mean lolll#didn't warrant an actual post post#im also gonna make her estranged shitty parents#for funsies#after i finish big sis#she's still v basic i need a ~vibe~ for her#extras#eden#also v scared that eden has to have 3 kids#she did not do well with the toddler
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drawing for a scene in the TME light novel (specifically, Paris helping out Lyla!!).
I drew this scene immediately after I read it because oh my god of all the things I was expecting from Paris's first introduction, him lending a (unneeded) helping hand to Lyla was NOT what i thought his first introduction would be like
#ik the anatomy for Tyrone is kind of fucked up but drawing this exact pose like what I saw in my mind is hard TwT#TME LN#the mighty extra#Lyla de Belliana#Tyrone de Belliana#Paris Valerian#i had to reread this scene like 3 times but hoo boi do i ADORE the way Paris appears in the background#i have a feeling im going to adore the light novel version of him lmao#so far he reads as being a trickster and i LOVE tricksters#not that he isn't technically a trickster in the manhwa canon but based on the tiny context in the LN he's mischievous af#i haven't read past this part yet but im wondering if Paris helped Lyla because of Fian#or if he helped Lyla because of Helene#because i can see him helping out Lyla due to knowing she's important to Helene#and there's a possibility he's already met Helene and is allied with her#or he's acting on behalf of Fian#which makes less sense in the context of the light novel than in the manhwa bc there's literally no suggestion Paris would know that Lyla i#Fian's “fairy” and therefore he has no reason to help her#so im putting my bet on him helping out Lyla either due to a promise with Helene or because he wants to get on Helene's good side#(and ngl i kind of hope for the latter)#(tho this scene alone made my brain go “okay but what if Paris adopted Lyla as his little sis in law”#because#you know#he resembles IRL!Lyla a lot and i think it's easy to mistake them as siblings if you put em side by side#which would be funny if that's intentional but i do not think so)#also on a non-Paris related note Tyrone gets an interaction with Helene in the light novel and i actually enjoyed it#the manhwa ignores the fact these two are fully blood-related but seeing Tyrone be scolded by Helene really gave them the feel of being sib#and i like how there's a little more depth to him in the LN than in the manhwa#like how he's trying to study the laws and being a political diplomat#i still like him the least of the named Belliana siblings but he's a little less one-note here and im enjoying that lmao
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add this to the list of things that annoy me about Lana*
#queen in space#*i guess it's more how bioware *utilizes* lana than the character herself?#there are some things about her that annoy me#(not enough to outright dislike/hate her like liara and some others#just enough to stick her in the ambivalent camp with koth ''valkorion fanboy'' vortena)#but that they use her as the easy way out of ''why can't i X?'' or ''why would i do Y?'' situations with a handwavy ''lana said so''#like this is a good example#a perfect example really#rather than have lana turn away a (back-up) sis contact who's on slightly less shaky standing than theron#(who LEFT the sis during your carbonite nap)#which feels like an ooc move for your canonically pragmatic advisor#lean into the fact jonas mentions being on denon while the trooper's running sor#we know things got REAL messy there during arcann's reign#use that (i have plans for the conjunction of those two facts in a longfic :3)#he got tied up there in some sense#OR he was on a deep cover op since he clearly still feels the sis is where he can do the most good#given he stayed throug hall of saresh's fuckery#(and not wanting to lose his job puts limits on how much he#helps with tracking down the deadeyes on jorgan's questline so there's precedent for him putting high priority on his job)#idk i just think there are many better explanations for jonas not joining than ''lana wouldn't let him get in touch with you''??????#and there's other spots where they use lana as the handwave ''bc i said so'' character bc they wanna streamline the story#i understand wanting to streamline the story there's way too many variables to let us do *everything*#(I say as someone who desperately wished elara mentioned aleksei in that bonus 1-on-1 the trooper gets with her#TELL ME HOW YOUR BROTHER IS DOING)#but they put like 85=90% of the explanation for why/how they do that on lana#and just hope she's enough a loyal badass people don't question it#she basically has plot armor at this point since they put in the option to let theron die in nc :|#she's drifting dangerously close to ''bioware assigned bestie'' territory#and it has me very 'eh' about a character i would normally like a lot more#(i do wanna be clear about that.
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