#didn't originally post this for a few reasons but then I forgot I drew any of this at all

[morticry]

[PA piercing]

finished: awhile ago. posted: now.

keep reading option available if you want to be stricken by fear for them becoming locked together by their piercings.

T's gotta make sure his work healed well.

[bluegiragi]

I hate to ask this cause it feels stupid but I dont wanna do a bunch of research on whatever the recent cod mw fandom discourse is,

but I saw the reblog of someone accusing you of supporting people who write sexualized pedophilia and that really is personally my only """"moral"""" with nsfw shit, (I'm a patreon subscriber and ig I just wanna know where my money's going) is THAT true?

i used to follow an artist who, 5-6 months ago made racist art featuring gaz and soap in a slave context, which I didn't like, retweet or interact with in any way. they also made under-age art of ghost soap, which I also didn't interact with . people on twitter called me out yesterday, for retweeting (months before this incident) other art they'd made as evidence I stood by/encouraged/was an avid fan of all these tropes. The art I retweeted wasn't either of these previous examples of art, but one where ghost and soap were sleeping in a bed together, as adults, peacefully. I can't emphasise enough that I have not interacted with this artist at all, for over six months. The callout in question has framed me as a close friend of theirs when, in truth, our total timeline of interactions could probably be counted on one hand, and I haven't interacted with her in so long that I genuinely forgot I was still following her.

The crux of all is this is that I did not unfollow + block this artist earlier on when the racist art was posted months ago, and then I retweeted a fic tagged with "non-con" (ghost gets soap off in a context where he can't really properly consent, they're in front of a crowd of strangers and they have to fuck, but both parties are into each other) written by a friend as I wanted to support their writing.

The pedophile claims are because I retweeted a fandom bingo post that defended loli-con without reading all the squares properly, and then immediately un-retweeted it when I properly read it. All in all, the post was on my account for maybe a few minutes.

The zoophile claims are because people say i support someone who wrote zoophilic fic and called people slurs, and I genuinely don't know who they're talking about there.

The anti-asian racism claims come from the original accusers in the callout thread thinking that I made Horangi's eyes in the monster!AU sensitive as a way of making fun of Asian eyes. The real reason is because he's a cat hybrid in that AU and cats are sensitive to light.

I tried addressing all this in a casual way earlier on in a misguided attempt to sort things out more 'civilly', and responded to an ask talking about my "support" for the artist who drew the slave Gaz art by saying the fanart in question was tone deaf and in poor taste. It wasn't enough for some people, so I'm happy to say it clearly- yes, it was racist, and the reason why I didn't want to be more aggressive is because I didn't want to extend all this mess by throwing this artist directly to the wolves - I genuinely believed them at the time when they said that wasn't that their intention, and think they should've deleted the post at the time, but not unfollowing was a decision that I made. I know now upon reflection that it was naive of me, unwarranted and frankly irresponsible to take a stranger at face value and believe they had good intentions, when the act of not deleting the post in question was evidence of a lack in remorse. In the moment, I'd thought back to my own personal experience with a friend of mine who used an asian slur in my company, who later sincerely apologised and legitimately cleaned up his act after I gave him a second chance. It informed my choice to not unfollow at the time, but there's a difference between someone you know irl for months and a stranger on the internet you've interacted with a few times. I shouldn't have coddled them in my response, and I'm sorry for not treating it with the severity it deserved. It was callous, and stupid, and indicative of internal biases that I ever thought it was a light enough offence to "see through", and I deeply deeply apologise. I promise from the bottom of my heart to do better.

That's everything so far. I didn't unfollow an artist when I absolutely should've, which i'll always strongly regret. I also retweeted a properly-tagged fic on my clearly 18+ nsfw account. I've undone both of those actions now. I hope this can be the end of it.

[chaifootsteps]

Hi chai, this is a pretty unrelated to everything you normally talk about on here, but what do you do to remind/comfort yourself about situations where you "didn't do anything wrong" when the situation won't clarify that for you? There was an artist here on tumblr I liked who would take free drawing requests from people on their page. They had a really unique style, and I finally got the guts to make my own request for something from a show they frequently drew fan art for. A few weeks after my request I saw they made the drawing! The art was great, they seemed to have had fun drawing the request, and the post seemed to have a positive reaction from others in the couple days after it had been posted! A couple days after they posted the drawing request, I followed their account since I had forgot to earlier. Three days after they originally posted my requested drawing I go to check out their page and I see that it's gone. Full on "There's nothing here" screen of death. Unfortunately I believe I had been blocked by the user just a day or so after following their account, which would line up with the timeline of their account "disappearing". I believe I was blocked because their account doesn't appear as deactivated or anything when I go back in my likes and see that I still have a few of their posts liked with their account info at the top same as it was before. But I can't think of anything I did wrong that would make someone want to block me for just following their account! I never commented on any posts, I never spread hate or misinformation about them, I don't even use my account for more than just a back up of stuff on this weird website that makes me happy to look at! There is nothing on my account of my own creation that could be considered hateful or upsetting! The only thing I could possibly think of that might be upsetting is if they didn't like the stuff I liked, but I don't know why anyone would even care about that because none of what I like is actually that controversial or some big deal. But I guess that doesn't change the fact that this artist still blocked me for some reason I can't understand and will never know. So what do you do in those situations, chai? How do you come to terms with someone acting out against you when you can't think of anything you did wrong to them? Other then just having interests that they don't share I guess? How do you stay confident in that self-assurance when you'll never actually know "why"?

Sorry for the lateness of this one!

If you really think it's going to eat you up inside not knowing, and you think you can stomach bad news, it might be worth getting a message to them. Sometimes misunderstandings do happen. But it's also very possible that your request put you on their radar, or that someone said something about you, and that they didn't like what they saw and blocked you. Might be for a legitimate reason or a completely dumb one.

I think sometimes, you've just got to figure that people are going to do them and then try not to take it too personally. Or hell, take it personally...figure fuck 'em, that it's their loss. Whatever helps you put it behind you.

[dontforgetyourmedstoday]

So you just steal artwork and don't care? Got it. Either that or my ask asking about sources from your posts on April 8th disappeared. Or I guess you could be off tumblr and not have been here for two weeks.

Hi Anon,

I'm assuming this is you:

If it is, yes, I did see your last ask - but life has been a bit shit lately and frankly, I didn't have the emotional bandwidth to deal with an accusatory email that gave me absolutely no details about what you were upset about so I could investigate. So today, despite it being an incredibly long and shit one that isn't over I'm going to reply.

*Takes a deep breath* From this point forward I'm going to assume that, like me, you are just a real-live human with feelings that get hurt and not someone who just likes to yell at people on the internet. So let me apologise that I have used your artwork without attribution, it was in no way my intention. Please take this apology as someone who was just trying to amuse themselves and perhaps help some other people out by reminding them to take their meds too. I absolutely suck at art-type things so in my mind, no one would think I did them or was claiming the actual 'art' part of them as mine. I realise now this is the internet, you guys don't know me, and so I should have been clearer that nearly all of these are edits. (There are a few waaaaay back I actually drew myself). Looking at the 7th, 8th & 9th of April (allowing for time zones and assuming that's when you saw your artwork). All of them except one have a link at the bottom of the image that links back to where I sourced the original image - I don't know if this is visible on mobile so I'll show it below (the bit circled in red)

So I'm assuming this one is yours:

It seems that one doesn't have the link. I don't know why. I haven't made any new reminders for this blog in ages (again - life) - it seems like most of the ones from early April this year were originally posted back in 2021. I got briefly excited about this blog again a few months ago and loaded up a bunch of old ones so this blog was still functional for the people that find it helpful. Going back I have noticed that others seem to not have credit either. It is possible I made a mistake and forgot to add them. It's also possible that Tumblr has a had a glitch/error/weirdness which means it's disappeared. I also used a bunch of images from the editing app I was using to add the reminder message and I wish I could remember what the site was called because I cannot for the life of me remember. Honestly, who knows. I have deleted the post(s) with that image - if it's not the right one please let me know.

I have always gone out of my way to ensure that anything I use is either free use, or non-commercial under Creative Commons. As an aside, I'm an academic and a person who has artist friends and my partner runs a business where our customers are largely designers and artists, so I do actually do my best to give credit. Am I perfect - no I'm not. Part of the reason I stopped making new posts was because of difficulty giving credit even on images that were non-attribution and finding images where I knew what the attribution requirements were (along with trying to remember everything everyone asked me to tag, and doing the image descriptions etc.) If anyone else finds something of theirs in one of my posts and there isn't credit attached please either dm me or send an ask and let me know which post and how you would like to be credited and I'll add it in. If you want it removed, I'm happy to do that too.

Sorry for the long post, hope it helps to clear things up. Finally, let me take this opportunity to say

"Don't forget your meds today my friends"

[felisuuu]

So I'm back yeah and I'll be posting my art here from now on (TW for the vent, spoiler alert some nasty things happen)

Hiii, have y'all missed me? Some of you probably did but most of you probably forgot who I was by the time I came back so I'll reintroduce myself.

I'm Felis aka Malicious Mischance, that one ex-mandela catalogue artist that always drew alternate Gabriel and pretty cringe stuff along with the mandela catalogue. Since I didn't share much about myself online other than my hyperfixations and interests that's about it and I think that should be enough to know about who I am, well who I was to be exact.

Well why did I come back? I don't have a well thought-out answer but I have a few reasons. First of all I love to share my art, I love when people engage with my account and when I befriend new and awesome people, that also sorta ties with my second reason being that tumblr is the only art friendly social media (that isn't dead like deviant art, artfol, cara and the many other attempts at an art social media). Instagram and even now Twitter(X) do not give a flying fuck about artists and would rather put some elses hard work in ai slop and promote that instead of actual artists, I would use tiktok but I find making videos reaally boooring and the community there is so toxic so I'd rather stay away. I want to post my own original art knowing that I'll atleast have someone enjoy it you know, not just scroll pass it or simply relying on drawing trends and fandom art.

(TW: mention of su1c1d3, su1c1d3 attempt, beating, 1nc3st🤢 feel free to skip it but you will be missing a bit of context about me)

I haven't been feeling or doing well irl and art has always been a way to cope for me especially after experiencing pretty traumatic events in my life. I won't name them all since I don't want to trauma dump on random strangers on the internet so I'll just keep them simple and short. One of the things that happened REALLY RECENTLY was my dad got in a car accident where an old lady jumped in front of his car and she ended up passing away at the spot (yes it was su1c1d3), I witnessed my dad beating my mom multiple times (it's been a thing happening since childhood so I'm pretty numb to it ) but the last time it happened my mom threatened my dad with a knife and almost st@bbed him, my mom beat me up a few times for no reason but I know it's because I look like my dad and she lets out her anger on me, she also forced me to film her trying to h@ng herself and her many other su1c1d3 attempts. I found out one of my cousins has a thing for me and was allegedly trying to get with me also he's sorta a p3do which doesn't make it look any better. I've also attempted to k.m.s twice but I got beaten by my mom because to her "I didn't have it hard enough, I don't have a reason to k1ll my self" and I'm scared of doing it again not because I fear death but I fear that it'll fail again and that I'll get an even worse beating. There is much more that happened but if I write it all down it'll probably be longer than the Bible, sorry for anyone who had to read this but I really needed to vent I've been holding these things in for so long it's just better for me to let them out then keep them in till the point of a meltdown like I did on my Instagram, unfortunately, and then feel ashamed to come back. To whoever made it to here while reading I'm sorry if I made you uncomfortable with the rollercoaster of emotions in this post. I know I said I don't want to trauma dump but I did anyway.

Vent ends here.

A fresh start is what I need this year and I'll try to be consistent with my posting, it's part of my resolutions for this year and I'll also try to draw more because last year it was pretty lack luster and I didn't end up drawing like half the year due to artblock that I got because of school (I'm an architect student so I have to constantly draw and it's draining if I'm being honest)

I hope all of you guys have a great day and a great year since it just started

Bye bye or as I like to say farewell till our next meeting 🧛‍♂️🏃‍♂️

[percreates]

Here's my intro post thingy-

My name is Percival, but I'm cool with Percy or whatever nickname, they/he, 20

Fandoms and things I draw/plan to draw

Random things from my life and little sketches

The Doomsday Heroes (working title) - a NaNoWriMo story I did when I was 13 that I'm entirely reworking to make a comic (I might make a post with some early concept art soon!)

Star Wars (I like the prequels/clone wars era best, but am not opposed to some original trilogy love)

Original Leverage (I only watched a lil redemption and didn't care for it all that much, but og Leverage has been my favorite show for over half my life now, expect ot3 art)

Spider-Man and Spiderverse, I have a spidersona that I'll be posting eventually

X-Files (I've taken a truly unhinged number of reference screenshots)

Star Trek TNG (a hyperfixation I'd like to return to, I'm obsessed with Data and Geordi)

Minecraft (funny/neat moments and adventures of my oc and others on an smp I'm part of)

X-Men (once I've read more of the comics)

Potentially other marvel superheroes (but again, not until I've read more of their comics, it's a Thing with me, but I did love the goofy found family avengers tower fandom stuff before the mcu got so dark and depressing)

MCR

Doctor Who (I'm not caught up on the latest few seasons and it's been a long time since I watched past the 10th doctor cause he and 9 are my faves, but I'm sure I'll draw early new who art sometime)

Jackass (MAYBE.)

Apothecaria (if I get back to it, which would be fun! I kinda forgot it existed until rereading this but I did have some cool ideas planned 👀)

Potentially other fandoms I'm forgetting I'm in, or didn't add to the list, just whatever I'm into lately

Random non-fandom related references, I've drawn a reasonable number of random people on pinterest afsgsgsg

(my references and tips board has 27 nicely organized sections and a total of over 1600 pins, feel free to dm me if you want the link!) (Probably more, I haven't checked in a while tbh)

Pretty much any scene/shot from a movie or show I watch that makes me go "ooh I wanna draw that" and take a screenshot, it's a problem (I got a lovely one earlier though of Eliot Spencer with a bunny)

I'm learning to draw cause I want to start creating comics! I drew a lot in middle school and am finally getting back into it. I was never that good back then, but I'm super happy with the progress I'm making since coming back to it >:D

I think entirely in words rather than pictures (I believe that's called aphantasia?), so until I've got A Lot more experience and have built up a better mental library and muscle memory, most things I draw will be with reference, but I'm slowly getting better at drawing from imagination!!

Tagging system-

#my art (self explanatory, I'll also have #my comics sometime down the line and #my me for self portraits), #perc rambles (anything I post that's not art, I've potentially missed a few of these), #cool art (any art I reblog that's not mine), #comics (as in comics people have made, not like, comics fandom stuff), #spidersona (other people's sonas, I'll be tagging my own separately, probably as #spiderskate but I haven't decided), #tips and tricks, #pose reference, #resources, and if I draw for a fandom I'll tag said fandom. I'll have tags for various ocs I post, currently my only one is #benni enderman.

I think that's everything! Thanks for checking out my blog, enjoy your time here :D